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    1. Losing the van 3/27/24

      by , 03-29-2024 at 06:41 PM (Book of Cursed Dreams)
      Color code
      Non-lucid
      semi-lucid
      lucid

      *There was a lot of dream story I can't remember before this point*


      My mom was driving her van as she answered her ringing phone. It was from a lady at a school, they were talking for a bit when the lady realized that my mom was driving while talking.
      "You shouldn't be talking on the phone while driving!" The lady hung the phone up.

      *Some stuff happened after this and somehow, I ended up driving the van, trying to bring it back to my parents' home*

      I began to approach a drawbridge; it was only wide enough for one vehicle at a time. There were three semi trucks driving down it, as soon as one exited I drove onto the bridge despite the fact that it was too narrow. Alarms stared to sound and I stopped to put the van in park. The bridge deck started to lift up allowing a boat to pass under. As the bridge deck lowered I could see that the two semi trucks were still coming, I pulled off onto a pocket to allow them to pass me.

      After parking the van on the pocket I could now see there was no way to drive the van over to the other side of the bridge. Now walking down the bridge I was met with a fence that I couldn't get over. I noticed a trap door and I thought I could probably pick the lock to get inside of it.

      "Hold on my friend I got the key" I heard from behind, looking up I see that it's Cruz.
      *he works for the general contractor at the job I'm currently at.*
      "It's okay I can pick the lock" I reassure him. He ignores me and tries to hand me the key put drops it into a container of glue. "All the more reason for me to pick the lock" I think to myself. Undeterred he picks the key up and opens the trap door anyway.

      I climb down the trap door and somehow end up in my parents backyard walking up to the home with two other people. "Oh no, I left the van behind" I remember.

      "Well this is just a dream so I can just imagine driving the car to bring it back here" I think to myself now closing my eyes. Everything is now dark with some swirling noise in the background. Unfortunately, no matter how hard I'm trying to imagine it I can't seem to see it, I can't even feel that thought to make any sense. It's as if my will is being suppressed by the expectations of the dreams logic. I open my eyes and see that I'm still walking with the two men up to the house.

      We were right outside the house now, the two men set up a latter to climb up to the roof. They pull one of the shingles back to reveal that there was no tar sealing them in. "We're going to have to take down all of the shingles and reseal everything", After they said that I could now see my dad, he had an embarrassment look on his face, as if he should have known about this.

      Note: This was the second time that I could remember where my dream self knew I was in a dream but I wasn't fully lucid.

      Updated 03-29-2024 at 06:46 PM by 100743 (wrong date)

      Categories
      non-lucid , memorable , dream fragment , side notes
    2. Sunflower (LD)

      by , 03-29-2024 at 02:20 PM (Oneirin's Dreamworld)
      I'm aware as I'm on the couch in Syrano. I stand up and begin to walk, yet the dream feels a bit hazy. I go to fly, yet feel a heavy gravitational pull. I make my way around the couch an float upward a bit, heading down the hall. I feel the dream is destabilizing, so I drop down and begin to rub the ground in circles with my hands and legs. I maintain for a moment, hoping that the dream will simply continue, then feel that a new scene is about to form. I soon find myself in a large grassy yard in the daytime. There's a brown fence in the distance and the area looks somewhat similar to the yard behind Meadow main house. I float toward the fence, happy to be lucid. I fly upward, curve to the right and see a brick structure in the distance, slightly to the left of the Dark Woods. I fly in its direction and see there's a space between two structures. I fly through and enter a large outdoor area, between several large brick structures in what appears to be a slightly urban area with some type of mini resort to the right. As I do so, the song Sunflower begins playing and I feel a sense of energy and happiness just exploring the lucid environment. I begin thinking about practicing some dream control. I see a balcony on a building to the right that appears to have palm trees and a lounge area. I decide to fly down toward it, then quickly phase through the wall and enter a large room that appears to be a classroom. I land and quickly do a transformation to a mouse, then revert to humanoid form. I begin thinking about the dream control I've been doing and how many points each element would be, adding them up. Many young students, who area about five years old, are working on various projects at their desks. I figure I'll practice some basic summoning and eat something. I look on the teacher's desk for a chocolate bar, yet don't see any. I decide to go for invisibility. I snap my fingers, go invisible, and walk in front of the teacher to see if she'll notice me. Her eyes look right past me as I approach her. She then appears as if she may be looking at me, so I ask her directly:
      "Where do you keep your chocolate?"
      She then points at some documents on her desk and explains that they should be around them. I look underneath several white documents, yet don't find any. I look in the first drawer and fully expect to find a bar underneath a few white papers and envelopes. I quickly find a bar in a plastic bag. I take it out, walk forward a bit, and take a bite. It tastes great! I make my way to the far end of the room and exit the area. I make my way into a neighboring room and a notice that one of the young students with dark skin follows me into the room. I snap, go invisible, and he walk past me. After a moment, the boy passes by me and the dream begins to feel as though it's fading. I maintain awareness and soon pop up in a building and make my way outside. I see some large structure to my right that appear to be a mix of construction equipment and play equipment as well as a large silver building in front of me. I decide to practice some mass telekinesis. I go to raise the equipment and two massive pieces easily lift up from the ground. I turn from the area, fly toward the silver building, and phase inside. I'm in a central hallway with light gray walls and quickly make my way into a shop area to the left with several women working. There's a tall woman with blonde hair to the right as well as two shorter women with brunette hair to the left. I decide to find out Norzz's full name. I ask the tall lady, yet she doesn't have a solid answer. I then ask one of the other women.
      "What's Norzz's full name?"
      Lady: "Norzz'jyagerie"
      She explains that the name has components of the name Elijah and another name in it. I begin looking around for something to eat, yet don't discover anything. I wonder if there's anything else in here that I'd want to do, yet don't find anything. I walk further down in the room and look at the face of one of the women. It soon transforms into a narrow, golden nozzle. I ignore it and begin to head into the next area which has gray walls with an open area in the ceiling just ahead. I transform into crow form, feeling various aspects of my body and work on tucking my back legs in. I flap my wings and pass through the opening in the ceiling. I soar into an outdoor area, reverting to humanoid form. I wake up.
      Categories
      lucid
    3. Sunny ranch

      by , 03-28-2024 at 05:51 PM (Lucid-Wannabe's Dream Journal)
      I haven't been focusing on dreaming as much recently from being pretty busy. I also have some work projects starting next week so I feel like I'll be drifting out of this phase of my attempts to re-connect with lucid dreaming, but I'm still going to try to maintain my practices as best I can anyways.

      I woke up in the middle of the night with a lot of dreams in mind, but I didn't want to write them down since I haven't been able to get back to sleep as well after doing so recently - so I skipped those ones.


      Sunny ranch

      I'm at a ranch and it's very sunny and bright out. There are a lot of people I know here, but I'm mainly with James, Tami and Elisabeth. The wife and husband of this ranch were showing us around, they bring us into a barn - I can't recall what was in there but I feel like it was empty. As we were leaving it they pointed out a very low electric fence to make sure we stepped over it.

      Then the husband and wife were shooting a music video around a truck. There was a camera man and music playing. On the ground were rolls of cash that members of the production would pick up and toss above the camera to have flutter down on the husband and wife. I looked at one of these rolls of cash and noticed it wasn't prop money but real USD cash. I picked it up, took off the band which was keeping it together and tossed it above the singing couple.

      I'm walking away from the shoot and notice Tami and Elisabeth on a tall fence in the distance waving at me. I meet up with them and James finds us as well. We go into the main house building and there's a large party going on here. Akiko comes in and says something to me but it's so loud I can't hear her. James nodded at whatever she said, I asked "What did she say?" he leaned over and spoke but the party was so loud I also couldn't catch what he said as well.
      Categories
      non-lucid
    4. Night of Wednesday 3/27/24

      by , 03-28-2024 at 04:35 PM (Dreamlog)
      Arrested:
      It's daytime.
      I'm driving with my girlfriend's Mom in the passenger seat through a roundabout.
      Traffic is slow. A policeman on a motorcycle signals to pull me over.
      ...
      I've been arrested. I'm at the police station in an interrogation room.
      The woman interrogating me is talking down to me, but I know I've done nothing wrong.
      Categories
      non-lucid
    5. My first dream journal: Robbing a old man with sage advice.

      by , 03-28-2024 at 05:49 AM
      This is my first time posting my dream journal to any website so I am trying first by writing a lucid dream I had yesterday.

      The dream itself came in two parts a weird headset thing and me robbing an old man.


      The first part:

      In my dream, I was with some of my friends from school. I had a weird headset on that was mostly white but with too white strings attached to it that had a bulb thing that glows blue. For some reason, we were being quarantined because of an infection. We weren't alone though and there were lots of tiny groups around us with similar headsets. All of us were on a huge flat yellow circular platform and a yellow locked door across the platform from us. Somehow the platform had collapsed and the quartine had failed.

      That dream was very blurry and hard to remember and I think something else was happening before this like a showcase of the headsets but I could just be grasping air.

      This next dream is a bit less foggy and vague but the feeling of incompleteness is still there. But there are some really vivid bits in it.

      I was trying to rob a man for some rare beans. The "beans" themselves looked more like hairy bulbs. And I have a feeling that another old man had given me a few of these beans but I needed more, also this old man will be called Jeff. I think the dream lore is that Jeff died for some reason (that I can't remember) and that's why I had arrived at his house instead of asking him for more beans. I woke up with a tool kit at his place and I pulled out a giant heavy metal multitool for stealing things and some nail clippers. I went up some yellow stairs and I found a man. Without hesitation, I lug them in the head with my giant tool thing. The room he was in had a carpet on the floor and had lots of shelves full of boxes. There was also a lady in the corner of the room. There are also two more staircases. One going upstairs and one to the basement. I head down to the basement and find some white panels after banging on them a bit I decide to go upstairs. Same concept as the room before except there is an old man in the corner instead. The shelves were full of beans I looked through them and eventually found a box that looked similar to the packaging Jeff gave me mostly white with pictures of regular beans. I grab it and check inside. They were the wrong beans. I found another similar box and this time it was correct. I grab the entire box full of beans and I take them away.


      I hide the box (somewhere kind of fuzzy for a sec)and I come back inside and I go upstairs This time he notices me and he asks me if I would like a sample of what he was making. I agree and he gives me a weird diamond-shaped scoop to taste some of the golden goop he was making. It was really sweet and tasted great. He then explains to me that he is trying to recreate a family recipe, this goop should have actually tasted better. I then get a very vivid shot. I can even explain it's like going from 360 p to 4k in quality. I get a different angle from my body of the guy using a weird vertical metal Daimond grated tube thing bubbling as a cover of Daimond carrying the goop away and him pouring oil onto the bubbling goop. I then renter my body and we started chatting.

      We are at a table and the lady downstairs has come up. I told the old guy I knew his father by accident and his brown skin physically turned pale. I am very confused and realize I had misspoken and said I'm sorry I meant I know your brother Jeff.
      His skin was still pale he said, "You mean my little brother".
      I say "No your older one".
      He responds "I am the eldest son in my family"
      The dream implies that Jeff was lying to everyone that he is the oldest brother to be more important (but I am not sure because I don't feel too betrayed in the dream). Then I get a vivid image of two cards being swapped in a deck top card and the bottom card. and another of two cities being swapped on a map. He gives me some advice about not stealing not directed at me but I still feel guilty for robbing him and he gives some more sage advice. Something along the lines of "the little are eaten by the big and the big are eaten by the bigger." My vision fills up with a black void and a couple small white creatures being eaten up by pink big creatures that are then eaten by giant blue creatures.


      The End.


      The environment was very yellow and reminded me of the middle east.

      I am sorry if this was hard to read or if there were many errors in my writing.

      Also I have a question is it more important to have detail? Or is it better to remember sumaries because my journal has gotten more dreams per night about 1 to 3 but they are becoming less descriptive

      Updated 03-28-2024 at 05:57 AM by 100778

      Categories
      non-lucid
    6. Night of Monday 3/25/24

      by , 03-28-2024 at 12:40 AM (Dreamlog)
      La Bamba:
      A boy and a girl are fighting in a hallway.
      The boy is looking for his sword, the girl has it. It is a double blade, with velcro holding it together.
      ...
      The girl doesn't give the sword back to the boy.
      It is night-time, with a blue-green feel to the scene.
      The classroom is a portable pod, similar to the ones from my elementary school, but closer to the ground.
      I'm in the scene now and notice the sword outside the classroom door.
      ...
      I've returned to the classroom, and know that I am late.
      It is a band room, with the regular odd variety of sounds coming from people warming up (or messing around).
      I hear a violin, and notice how out of tune it is. I reason that, if I were to learn that instrument, I would suck at it for a time too.
      M from the clarinets in high-school marching band starts to dance and play a "La Bamba" type tune in front of the group.
      The teacher highlights him, and then the class joins in.
    7. Night of Sunday 3/24/23

      by , 03-28-2024 at 12:35 AM (Dreamlog)
      Zuko:
      There is a Fire Nation City from Avatar the Last Airbender.
      Azula is chasing Zuko in some kind of battle or showdown.
      ...
      Zuko is part of a ceremony at a big outdoor theater.
      He is renouncing the Sun, and getting painted to symbolize his new loyalty.
      Tags: avatar, chase
      Categories
      Uncategorized
    8. Night of Saturday 3/23/24

      by , 03-28-2024 at 12:32 AM (Dreamlog)
      Fragment:
      I'm laying in bed, and I think there might be a home invader.
      I can hear noises coming from the kitchen.

      Fragment:
      There is a hot-tub car outside that has a mechanism to drain the water and then transition to driving mode.

      Fragment:
      My girlfriend's sister and her friends are over at our house eating snacks.
      They are very loud, so I go over to talk to them.


      Drastic:
      I'm at the edge of a city with towering buildings.
      The buildings abruptly end and transition to dirt.
      The drastic change reminds me of the border of Thousand Needles and Feralas from World of Warcraft.
      The whole scene has a grey-ish tone to it.
      There is a cloaked woman on the other side of a large gate.
      I know that she is bad, the antagonist.
      I go to reason with her, and she convinces me to let her in.
      Her power decreases as I become more confident, and the threat dissolves.


      Fragment:
      I'm at a rooftop party with J from the Tots.
      There are two small dogs on a landing above looking down at us.
    9. Night of Friday 3/22/24

      by , 03-28-2024 at 12:24 AM (Dreamlog)
      Fragment:
      I'm with Androids 17 and 18 from Dragonball Z, and a coworker.

      King's Training:
      I'm in a warehouse-type area on a metal stairwell going up.
      There is a line of kids, classmates, lined up for try-outs.
      An intercom announces that the King's Tournament will begin soon.
      I remember that the King's Tournament is for basketball.
      A group of 3 kids in front of us recognize me and the person I am with.
      They seem impressed that we have King's Training.
      There is a sense of belonging in the group. Something similar to how I felt in marching band from high-school.
      In this situation I was the senior, inspiring the younger ones.
      The person in front of me in line is up. He messes up his free-throws and become very frustrated.
    10. Yay.

      by , 03-27-2024 at 12:52 AM (MoSh's DJ: The Best Dream Journal in The Universe.)
      This will be a shorter entry. Had trouble sleeping lately due to shitty sleeping arrangements where I live. Apperently I was right. I had to call on Raven again to help with Jamie. She fought of some guy who looked like freddy kreuger. That seems in line with what I remember about someone wearing a large hat.

      I had a couple non lucids that I can't remember.

      Demons

      Fell asleep talking to the Jamie voice... instead of the usual Jamie in a black space where the conversation continues. There's a big fat Demon pertending to be Jamie. I wake up and fall asleep again, this time it's a skinny demon, saying the things that apparently Jamie is saying. Well, great. And yes I have prayed obsessively about these voices. and of course "Jesus," responds as a voice in my head. That's always trustworthy! But according to Him, We may be hearing one another's thoughts. Be careful to speak to it however, other things may be listening... and also might respond. In either case I'll try my best not to respond overly emotionally to it, or take it "too," seriously. I like how, when I pray for Jamie, I occasionally hear a, "Thank you." from her, as if she somehow hears me. That's always re assuring (No sarcasm).

      School

      Me and Jamie are both attending a high-school together. A class or school has ended and I'm in a hallway by a bunch of lockers and a bunch of students are in my view. I notice Jamie talking to a blond girl pretty sternly. Jamie leaves the girl and walks through the crowd. she then takes my hand and we walk away. Before I turn, I notice the blond girl is giving me and Jamie some really evil side-eye. I guess I'm back with my girlfriend... or dream girlfriend. (please send help.)

      Last night: Had a really long non lucid. No jamie. Can't remember what the dream was about. A bunch of people in a large warehouse or something, and I was also doing drywall work. Bleh, not really worth remembering anyway.
    11. 24-03-26 Torching Psychopath, Small Restaurant

      by , 03-26-2024 at 03:44 PM
      I was being chased around by a psychopath trying to kill me. I think he had a knife. This happened in what I think was a big cafeteria? At some point I found a flamethrower. But every time I tried using it, he dodged backwards impossibly quickly, making me miss. I realized he was an NPC and this was scripted. You weren't supposed to be able to hurt him, you were supposed to flee. But I realized his behavior could be exploited. I drove him into a corner with my bursts of fire. He had nowhere to run to, he couldn't go left or right. Now I think he wore glasses and wore a suit, like the guy from Falling Down. I could see the despair and confusion in his eyes. I'd beat him. I tried pulling the trigger but it didn't work. What a cliche. I looked to make sure I was gripping the right bits (there was this inflated bag-thing you were supposed to compress, THEN pull the trigger - weird), then tried again. Flaming hot inferno poured out of the flamethrower and scorched the bad guy.

      I was in another country, looking for a job to supplement my income. I stumbled upon a small street restaurant that served good food. They were very nice and they agreed to hire me. There was a moment I was confused as to when I was actually supposed to be in the restaurant, as there was no one around (no customers). Apparently, dream logic is that when there's no customers around, you can just go home until someone shows up...?
    12. Comp Warm-Up

      by , 03-26-2024 at 03:31 PM (Lucid Time!)
      The dream began where I was in an OTD hospital. I think I was recovering from something though I felt fine and could more around. I was being kept in this barren stertile room near the back of the hospital. It seems to be just a big square room that sort of juts out the back of the building with windows on three sides. There are vinyl tiles and incandescent lights. The room looks to be a storage space for old hospital beds and random equipment that is out of date, but it is mostly empty.

      I go stand by the window. I see a large machine next to me. A big light gray metal box. It surrounded by a tall chain link fence. It is making a lot of noise, rumbling and then whining like a jet engines. There are exaust pipes on it shooting out streams of fire and electrical transformer equipment with electricity arcs coming between the various components. I get the sense that whatever machine this is (my first instinct is to say it was a generator for the hospital) was being pushed way past its intended load. I notice that it seems to sort of stop and start, not like the machine is failing but like somebody keeps switching it on and off.


      ...

      I am with a small skeleton crew on a stolen Scirocco class cruiser. Our mission is to steal another such ship of the same class, though we only have maybe half a dozen people crewing our ship. Our ship is also painted jet black compared to the other one which has its orange markings. We have a lot of insider information on the MCRN including these fake ID chips/cards we can use to access their ships and technology. We pull up near to the ship, which is just floating there in deep space, and send fake voice communications about needing to dock to transfer prisoners. The other ship buys this at first.

      I get into a boarding pod and when we get up close they launch me over. But as I'm flying over the boarding pod is shot but I jump out. I'm outside in the complete vacuum of space but I am at least semi lucid so I just sort of float over to the airlock of the ship we want to board. I get there and swipe the ID card on the card reader. It accepts it but tells me I must type in a four digit pin on a little keypad. Our plan didn't account for this extra layer of security. I type 1-2-3-4 on the pad just to see if it will work and it doesn't.

      The enemy ship realizes what we are trying to do and rockets away, probably pulling several g's. Our ship flips over and does the same. Boosters on, I fly after the both of them. I start gaining on them but my flight seems to be stuck in a lower gear. Then both ships make an abrupt turn bout 150 degrees. Turning around but not quite coming right back at me. I flip over and blast back the other way. They are flying alongside each other, exchanging missiles and PDC fire with each other but mostly not doing any damage to one another. I fly up to the enemy ship and grab on near the engine section, climbing into a gap between the armor and the drive cone.

      I squeeze through a couple of claustrophobic spaces between machinery and stuff until I find an important looking power coupling. Its basically a big circular plug maybe about 15 centimeters across. Pulling it takes all of my strength, especially since I can't get a good grip on it with the thing I want to remove being a big slippery metal cylinder but I get it done and the ship stops running.


      ...

      I am in my current neighborhood at somewhere along my jogging route. It is nighttime. I am fully lucid now though my lucidity has gradually been building through the previous scenes. I say out loud to myself something to the effect of.

      "This will be a practice run for the competition. Competitions give the most points for dream control so I just need to do dream control feats as quickly as possible to get points."

      I do stabilization first, rubbing my hands together and touching grass along the side of the sidewalk to crank up the vividness of the dream. I also verbally command for the dream to increase in stability. This gives a small result, though not much.

      I notice that it is dark, twilight/nighttime. I decide to change it to day.

      "Set time to day." I command.

      The sun rises in the south over the course of about fifteen seconds. The sky turns some really beautiful shades of cyan and magenta.

      "Okay now I will fly."

      I lift off on my rocket boosters. I check to confirm the visual is still there since it disappears sometimes. The visual is there. I just sort of fly in a circle above the street and then land at the same spot. The dream scene changes to my childhood neighborhood.

      "Okay now I will summon something."

      I dont even have an idea of what I want to summon. I just reach behind myself and expect to grab hold of something. I bring it back around and get a rusty steel pipe maybe an inch thick and a meter or so long. Its heavy but I can hold it with one hand. I drop it in the street and it makes a loud clank.

      I think I will next use my barrier power but I woke up here.
      Categories
      lucid , non-lucid
    13. Fragments

      by , 03-25-2024 at 05:46 PM (Book of Cursed Dreams)
      Battle
      There was an anime battle between a villain and a hero. The hero was saying something about how much more powerful he got. The hero jumped up into the air then the villain threw a strange disk at him. The hero began blocking with a mop he used for a weapon, he couldn't stop blocking the attack or he would die.

      Who's from England...I need some guy tips-file-ocforhe6z6mvhgwymorwjiyi.jpg

      Unsecured cardboard
      I had stack of cardboard on the top of a car and my brother was telling me it wasnt secure to drive, to prove him wrong i started backing up, the cardboard fell off.


      middle of nowhere starbucks
      My mom wanted to go to a starbucks, living in the middle of nowhere i decided to see where the closest was. I opened google maps and found that there was one within walking distance from her home. (I was surprised at how far development was coming along)

      mom making coffee
      Just before waking up i heard my brother making a pot of coffee, in my dream my mom was making coffee and i was questioning why she was making it if i made coffee yesterday.

      Note: most of these dreams had a very long and strange story line. I need to get better at remembering these.
    14. Dream Journal Day 36: Night of Tuesday 05.03.2024

      by , 03-25-2024 at 12:12 AM
      A room in the school with a large oval-shaped wooden table in the centre. Books and folders are around, stacked and leaning inside the filing cabinets which line the walls. I am there, another student (who I recognise) and a teacher. We are in discussion, then we leave to head to assembly, shutting the door behind us.

      She and I enter assembly in the hall. There is a stage at the front of the room with floor-to-ceiling red curtains hanging open at the back. Everyone sits facing the stage on blue mats on the floor, shaped like those foam pool floats (kickboards?) that I learnt to swim with when I was a kid. There are three mats on a thick blue runner which are set aside for us two to sit on. I sit in front of her, but there's not enough space so I end up leaning on her legs a little. I look to my right and see that all the blue mats on the floor around seem minuscule, smaller than my fingernail, like scales.


      As the assembly goes on, I'm relaxing more against her legs when she puts her arms around me from behind. I feel her hair brush my neck. I'm surprised - but it feels really warm, and I take it as affection between friends. Soon she starts lightly kissing my head and neck. I feel my whole face heat up and I'm not sure if this is still just friendly. I can't believe no-one is noticing.

      This actually feels nice, but I don't know how to react, so I pull away from her a little. She loosens her arms and says, "Sorry. I just need this right now." I lean back into her hug again and she kisses my hair some more. After a short while I end up pushing her away with a brief apology. I distinctly remember thinking, 'I better remember this when I wake up...'


      Well.
      Tags: intimacy, kiss, school
      Categories
      non-lucid
    15. not good...

      by , 03-24-2024 at 04:19 PM (MoSh's DJ: The Best Dream Journal in The Universe.)
      First night I just had dreams that Jamie found a girlfriend. I always knew she liked both, not going to judge.I have some borderline traits myself, being unsure of your sexuality is a given. I did find these dreams a little distressing. In these dreams it seems I am watching them from a distance, and not a participant.

      Next night.

      another flash of Jamie being with a girl, but this time I can see them having sex... Honestly I don't know why I dream these things and sometimes loathe the connection. (When she moved in 2011, I first had a dream she was sleeping with some guy but wasn't feeling it. Then I dreamed she was sleeping with a woman, a few days later she switched her orientation status on FB. You gotta realize I'm not trying to spy, these things just come to me and sometimes I wish they wouldn't)

      Captured

      Just a flash of me and Jamie in a western setting. Some big guy in a cowboy hat captured us and we are ties and gagged by a fence. Jamie looks my way in distress.

      Last night

      Looking

      I was in a crowd at night time and noticed Jamie in the crowd looking at me.

      Silence

      I get a job at a newly opened seafood restaurant. I'm in orientation with a group of people. Jamie is in the group, as well as some other pretty girl with crazy braids. Jamie doesn't look at me at all, but keeps lingering by. I'm drinking a soda pop from a glass bottle. The top somehow breaks. I go to the sink area to clean it up. Jamie follows me, or is doing something in the same area. She's really silent, but lingering by. I find the silence really uncomfortable as I try to clean up the glass.

      No way

      I'm walking outside early morning. I'm upset. In my dream memories Jamie had told me that she didn't want to see me anymore because I was too, "Emotionally immature."

      I go by a mcdonald's but it's not open in the plaza. I see my brother wandering into Tim Horton's. and decide to follow him in.

      First of all, I'm just going to assume that something is wrong in the dreams. (She's been attacked by dream demons constantly especially since "The Boyfriend." dream). Second. I admit: I have severe emotional problems, they have gotten a lot better since older. I was mentally and emotionally abused and abandoned by my dad specifically. The effects of that abuse have stuck with me my entire life. I know Jamie had similar problems, that she briefly told me about herself. So, I always saw that as an opportunity to relate to one another and be there for one another. Things DO get easier with age. and I've been doing my best to work on that. I'm scared too, if Jamie were to come into my life again. There is a lot of emotional trauma around one another, and how we handled things in the past to work through. It wouldn't be easy, it might be hard. We are going to make mistakes. But I want to do it, and I want to become better and be better this time.
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