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*i was sick before having this dream

I was lying in bed thinking "i don't want to go to school in the morning" so i got up and went to the bathroom, i look at myselfin the mirror and actually see that in my left eye i have 3 iris's then i go into my moms room, she said it was ok if i didn't go to school in the morning i think that's good and look outside and see it's already daytime, that's when it hits me that i'm in a dream.I have dark blotchs infront of my eyes and realise that my dream not very stable, i start touching things in the dream because i heard that helps, the blotchs reduce slightly, i rub my hands togehter spin around and shout "stablity", the blotchs dissaper, so i think to myself "hmmm, what can i do?" flying was out of the question since my dream was so fragile, then rememberd my lucid goal, to phase through a wall, i put my hand on the wall and press on it, nothing happens, i believe that my hand can go through the wall and then my fingers start going through it but then stop, i decided i would have to try another day, i also wanted to try and teleport using a portal, i walk up to a wall and click my fingers and a shiny grey metallic portal opens up. A little mouse comes out and says " are you comming back to the cave master? The troll wants all our metal ore! i don't understand that and am about to pass through the portal when my dream fades away

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Very productive night and a full LD.
As I have been doing lately, I went to bed reading my old DJs. While reading I discovered a bunch of people in a dream from 1995 that are the same as the group of dream friends I have now! I do not know these people outside the dream world and in fact the last siting was at the enclosure with the short haired girl. I had forgotten this old dream and will be looking for more through the thousands of pages of DJ scribblings.

Dream 1 : Childhood Home
Lucid 100%

I was in my old childhood home's sun-room on a sunny day and the sun was pouring in all golden and radiant. I was amazed at how lucid and clear minded I was. I stepped up to one of the many windows and drew back the yellow lace curtains and was amazed to see this place was my old childhood home! I realized what was happening right away and nudged with my elbow into the person besides me that I thought was my mother (I never looked) "This is a dream! This is not now ours, the Zennusies own it." remarking on the ownership of the house. Then I see the old metal shed in the corner of the yard is gone and there are drag marks across the lawn like someone dragged it out to the garbage in the front yard. To my mom I say "so the shed is gone?" I thought she had moved it. She said nothing and I felt she was confused. I had no time to lose vainly trying to convince dreamers that this is a dream, I had to enjoy! I looked out at the yard and it looked more crappy than I had recalled but yes now I remember it really was this bad. Imagine a grass lawn that had never seen weedkiller or fertilizer in 30 years. "I can see individual blades of grass!" The blade stuck out from its background of dirt, one of many dirt patches. The vividness was every bit on pare with physical reality! I ran to the back door to this sun-room. It was always made fun of for having this crappy door with too many locks but this time I imagined many locks and there they were and I chuckled as I unlocked them all to get out, "click, click, click, click".
I ran out into the yard and remembered someone saying on DV that they ate grass to increase lucidity, this thought discussed me for a slight millisecond till I realized this is not physical grass it's harmless. I found the blade I was looking at from the window, or close enough, and pulled at it but it was tough to pull up! I gave it the thought to pull out and "pop" it pulled out. I chewed on it and it had some grit like dirt on it and oddly didn't taste like grass but something like weak black licorice! I was in heaven (figuratively!)! Walked to where the shed would have been in the corner of the yard with my eyes closed to feel the dream's senses. I recalled Hyu doing this on Terraluna and gaining lucidity. I concentrated on my breathing in and the taste of the licorice grass and even a slight breeze on my face, I could feel everything; hands, feet in shoes, everything! I was near the shed now, seeing with my mind not my vision, but thought I should not see the shed there or else it may interfere with the particular version of the dream I was in and that may lead to loss of stability. So I turned away from the shed's place and walked out of the yard around the garage. "This is crappier than I remember too" I thought. In the road I looked back at all the houses just as they used to be in my youth. The house right next-door was a perpetual dump and here it was right in front of me in all its pathetic glory, I was excited and yelled in my amazement "That's the crap house! Ha!" I looked at the other houses they were all the same, what a great copy of everything!
Time was a wasting, I needed to think of something to do, in a LD, fast! I couldn't think of anything, the physical world seemed too strange and too far off, like an imaginary place you are sure exists but can only barely picture. Then something came to me and although I knew it wasn't what I really wanted, I didn't want to waste time being bored lest I lose dream control. "Give me a portal to another dimension." Nothing happened. I had to direct it. I looked down at the road and flicked my hand down at it saying the same thing and a tiny portal appeared. It looked like a black and blue portal about the size of the palm of a hand! Kind of small but this is a dream, it'll do. I continued what I was saying for clarification about the dimension "one that I'll understand." I didn't want to see weird stuff I couldn't even benefit from or stuff so strange I lose dream control.
I walked over to the little portal and it sucked me in and around in circles. I saw a lot of black and blue swirls. Then I saw a motorcycle just floating in the mix of it all! I was thinking "WTH? Why's that here?"

Then all of a sudden I am in a doorway to a girls room (the walls are pinkish and the white dresser with mirror is in front of the girls) and the girls in there are hurriedly putting on makeup in the mirror like its a race. I notice one of them but I can't imagine how this scene can have her in it and ever be! The girls then all run out of the room in their race but don't seem to notice me to any degree, I'm sure I am invisible, I remember the feeling from other LDs. I get a good look and yes it is Svetlana! She is Russian, born and raised, how is she in this crazy American home with all these kids? In shock I just call her name "Svetlana??" as if to say "is THAT you?" She stopped in her tacks and turned around! but she didn't look at me at all and instead picked up one of 2 hair clips on the floor. (The ugly green carpet btw was pretty dirty.) She then ran off to catch up to her friends. I figured she had heard me but couldn't recognize me. On one level people can hear you but still ignore you in this state, they are having their dreams too and I am not supposed to be in it. I followed her into the living room. She ran left but I stood to the right at the doorway hiding behind the wall so no one that can't see me bumps into me. There are about 4 other people watching TV (1 adult, 3 kids in sweat pants and shirts and white socks) There is a kitchen to my left with warm moist air coming out like there is a big dinner being made in there and I could feel people in there. So there were maybe 9 people in the house. A chubby little boy about 9 years old ran by and I got a good look but never seen him before.
The dream quickly collapsed and I was comfortably thrust back into my sleeping body and darkness. I instinctively knew what time it was and it was earlier than I needed to be up but I could write this out now.

This was a valuable dream so I wrote it down (4 pages) in the dark for 3 pages.

Post script: If this really was a parallel world I was in, then all I could think was that maybe Svetlana was adopted by an American family and this was her life. I'm not sure why I latched onto her, she was a marginal character in my life and only know her a bit and then only for a month.
The length of this recounting refers to the LDs detail not the actual length which was at most 5 minutes!

i had an..interesting dream today. basicly what happened was i drempt i was playing a spider-man videogame, sometimes as spidey, others just viewing. it turned out it was acctully a green goblin video game which was wierd anyways. there was a strange paralysis apon everyone, and some peope were early on in the dream taken and returned, like in the 4400, and this wind came to pick them up and take them somewhere. for some odd reason my friend chris who was originaly taken, dident get taken again, and even stranger was the mention of a kid called ben P. , a kid in my year who i dont really talk to. a girl who apparently liked chris got taken, and chris grabbed hold of her and got taken along. when i got a look at chris finaly, i noticed he was monochrome. somehow this wave of wind turned all the standered bad guy into green goblin crows, and alot of deadpool villins apeared. i ecame green goblin for a bit, but they still atacked me. later on i was deadpool in what seemed to be the game hub, and being deadpool, thought a portal that opened up was a gambling game, so chucked money in it. it was a very interesting dream. and it was cool to be deadpool.

I have only had a few lucid dreams, 5 or 6 max. but this one takes the cake and feel like I learned a lot!

Non-Lucid: I remember meeting up at one of my boyfriend's friend's house. We talked for a bit as my bf skated around a skate park. A group of guys were heckling him for taking up so much time, and I yelled at them telling them he was new and to stop being jerks.My bf's friends had a homeless friend, and sat both of us down telling us we needed to let him live with us. I instantly said no, because we only have a very small 1 bedroom apartment, with one couch that you can hardly even lay on. Meanwhile, the friends had a much larger house with extra rooms and large couches. I couldn't understand why us, and I felt like a jerk because I couldn't help out.
I then went on a boat. The people didn't notice that I had swam to the boat and just got on, which I thought was weird. They were all too busy playing poker. It was a big boat, so there were too many people to notice. I joined in on a poker game by stealing a very large yellow chip and buying in. I begin to play at a table with 3 people, and once I join quickly more people they knew came. Then I heard from someone reading the paper that the government wants someone on this boat so they are turning around in the morning to bring the boat back. I panicked. I couldn't go back (not sure why.) So I jumped off the boat and swam underwater, hoping I could hold my breath long enough so that no one chasing me could find me. It worked, and I swam away.

I was back on land. I saw two cars and one of them by mine, it was night time and the house that my car was in front of was lit with a rather intense blue. I walked up to my car and noticed the beautiful stars in the sky. I was so amazed, I jumped on the back of my trunk to stare at them. The sky was a sort of blue purple, with bright stars all over.

LUCID: It was then I noticed that the stars would completely disappear and come back. Stars. I could never see them like this, so intense and beautiful. Nor do they change...I am in a dream! I became excited at this realization. I told myself Stars are my trigger, as previous dreams with stars came very close to making me lucid before. I instantly wanted to go to the moon. I looked up in the sky and saw the bright moon, it was hard at first because it would turn small sometimes. I decided I would try to fly even though I heard it is difficult to fly to the moon. I began to fly towards it, but very quickly the moon turned into a billboard. I went back to the ground, and decided I would just fly around. I had to keep telling myself "I am in the control" and it worked very well to keep myself thinking. I flew low among some apartment like living spaces. I found it awkward to fly and control it, but I did it and it worked out rather well! I was happy, as previous attempts to fly in past dreams never really worked.
So I am flying around, come across a beautiful fire like thing, with colors of the rainbow merging to white. I flew around it before continuing. I saw in the distance two girls sitting facing the left, both with curly hair. i thought they looked lovely from the side, so I went to talk to them. When I reached them by flight and landed, I noticed they had sorta strange faces, and were actually probably the age of 12-14. They were twins, one with dirty blond hair and the other with a lighter brown. One looked at me weird, almost with fear. I simply asked "Are you real?" then both of them smiled. "Yes, of course!" they said. I was shocked, but I didn't want to make the situation awkward. This was my first dream meeting, and I wanted it to be good, so I gave them high fives! They were very nice after that.
I still wanted to go to the moon. I asked if they knew how, and they said yes. I said lets go and they agreed. There was a car in front of me, and I simply didn't want it there. I powered myself up, and with a fireball like spell I made the car roll over. Somehow I think the spell affected a guy near by, who sorta morphed into a fire-like being screaming. I found it odd. I then tried to think of the best way to get to the moon...by portal! So I attempted to make my own portal. I stood and attempted to focus energy with my hands, but nothing was happening. The dirty blond twin said she could make a portal. She used one hand, and circled outward to the center of an oval, making a light purple portal. I thanked her, and quickly went into the portal. (I also noted the way she made the portal, so I could try it next time)
Instantly I was on the moon. It was surprising actually. There were quite a few people on the moon, all excited the be there and chatting. They all had names over their heads. I bounced on a the surface for a bit, then looked in third person to see all the people there. I then met my family on the surface at a dinner table, all talking about how we made it to the moon. I remember looking at my dad, he looked himself at first, but at one point his left eye got larger than his right, with a gigantic black pupil. It freaked it me, big time, but it quickly returned to normal. About this moment I was woken up by the feeling of a swollen throat bothering me.

My throat usually does get a bit swollen when I sleep, and it was a bit bothersome when I woke up. But that is the end. I am happy.

Scouting

I was in a town going through houses. I had to do something... can't remember what. I was in some house and staring at a wall. Everything went very vivid and I thought of the place that I wanted to go. I summoned a door and one appeared just like in the Harry Potter movie when the room of requirement reveals itself to Neville longbottom.

I went through it and found myself in a house. I wandered through it and grabbed something and started walking out and back towards the way I came. My path was blocked by two people in the house. They spotted me so I went out of the house the other way and saw them following behind me. I went to the side of the house quickly and found a crawl space, I went in there and summoned a door a gain... it took a moment to summon but then I went through and escaped. Then I was in some other town with snow all over.

Saim 1

I'm in a dark place and Saim walks up to me. She grabs my arm and tries to pull me with her somewhere. She keeps saying "We have to go heal, we have to go heal." and I start following her but I wake up.

Saim 2

I'm walking through a hallway at Hogwarts with Raven Knight, Harry, Hermoine, and maybe Nomad. The hallway is dark but is candle lit. As we are walking Saim comes up to us and tells us to wait. She takes a good look at and starts nodding as if amused. She smiles and looks me all over as if sizing me up and as if she is looking for something. She keeps nodding and saying "Yup yup yup," each time she is pleased with something she finds. Then she stands backa bit from the group and says happily, "Okay everyone! Group hug! Let's healing!" and pulls us into a group hug. Harry and hermoine are a bit confused with this, but comply. Raven shrugs and goes into the group hug. Swirling healing energy swarms around us. So much that I can't see the others. Saim goes into the center and pulls on my arm like from the last dream. She says to me, "We need more healing. just you and me?" I'm like "whut?" she starts pulling me through a vortex when I wake up.

non dream - lucid - non lucid

I'm at university. The classes have just ended and I'm leaving the classroom, planning on going home.
I ponder about what to make for dinner as I walk down the hallway.
The hallway ends at some point and you have to go right into the next hallway in order to keep going.
As I look up I see the end of the hallway, the red wall which I see every time I leave the university, but this time, it is very different.
There is a message written on the red wall. It's written in white paint, as if someone had painted it with their fingers onto the wall.
It looks a bit sloppy yet elegant in some way:

"You are one of the chosen"

I immediately become fully lucid.
Someone wrote me this message a few days ago in waking life. I found it mysterious at the time,
but it appearing in my dreams must mean it had a stronger impact on me than I initially thought.
I don't bother to RC or perform any stabilization techniques.
I feel like there is absolutely no need to, but more importantly, I'm rather preoccupied with something else:

I suddenly "remember" how to open a portal to other places.
The memory came very sudden and without context. It's a memory from childhood dreams.
I can clearly remember how to open the portal, like if I had done it 100 times, but I cannot remember one single situation where I actually did open one.
I feel that there is an immense amount of other memories where that one came from, but I'm unable to access them.

I consider the possibility that it could be a false memory. I've started reading WakingNomad's DJ: http://www.dreamviews.com/f107/nomad-chronicles-82576/
Maybe that's where the idea comes from?
No. I'm entirely convinced this is my own memory, and it is real.

I'll create a portal!
I start drawing a circle with my right index and middle finger in front of the red wall.
I begin at the 6 o' clock position and move clockwise.
I know I could do this a whole lot faster, but I want to feel and experience every single detail of it.
I also remember that this is not the way I used to travel, I had a more effective way.
Where do these memories come from? Are they really from childhood dreams? The memories are so real...

As I reach the starting position again the image in front of me distorts slightly, like touching the surface of still water.
Right now the portal is useless, I haven't created the exit point yet.
Before I do that, I decide to verify how well I'm doing. (This is why)
I'm nearly fully healed, my aura is quite smooth again, though I still feel like I'm lacking a lot of energy.

I choose the first thing that comes to my mind as an exit point for the portal. It's a place in Italy, on top of a mountain, it has an amazing view.
I give the portal a slight nudge with my right middle finger. It opens.
It looks like it leads straight into a void. But I remember that's what portals look like.
I feel excited to go through the portal. It feels like there are dangers associated with it, but I also feel that it is safe for me.
I step through...


... I fall out of the portal and it closes behind me. Something just happened but I can't recall it.
I look around. The portal worked, I'm exactly where I wanted to be. The view is amazing, and I really enjoy the fresh breeze of air on top of the mountain.
I feel very good, I just achieved something big, though I don't know what it is.
I make a mental note to investigate my childhood dream memories in the future, though I don't know how. Something is hidden in there, something important.
I remember that I need to look for "her" as well.

Well of course! I can just open a portal to her.
I remember that finding her aura requires a lot of energy, I may not have enough and it feels dangerous toying with it in my current situation.
I should wait until my energy is fully recovered.
But... I don't actually need to find her. I suddenly realize I know where she is!
She's on the planet where she taught me how to walk on water.
I want to open a portal but I suddenly realize the place is too far away, I don't have enough energy, at least not right now.
The planet is in the Andromeda galaxy... it is very far away.

Somehow I feel like all of this is supposed to happen.
Maybe she hasn't shown up recently because she knows I'd remember how to open a portal and find her?
The dream slowly fades away, I make no attempt to stabilize it.

DILD...crap recall
I remember trying to teleport to Walms after throwing several black holes on the wall and stepping through one . When I got to the next location, it was a dark area, and I saw some fast moving light flying by. I remember trying to catch up to it thinking it was him.

Non-lucid Lucid Side notes

I went to bed at 2:00 am and woke up at 7:30 am to attempt a WILD. It didn't work, but I had a very entertaining lucid dream as a result.

I am in a hotel room with three guys my age and some random old lady. One of the guys is really nerdy and is annoying the living daylights out of everybody. This hotel room has bunk beds and I am chilling on one of the top bunks. We want to go outside of the hotel and are all talking about where exactly we want to go. We can't decide on anything, and then from out of the blue, the nerdy guy says, "Polka Town!" and slaps his knees repeatedly. I am beginning to wonder if he has a mental disorder. All the other dream characters somehow think that going to this "Polka town" would be a good idea. So they go over to the window that overlooks an empty green field, and one by one jump out of the window. Our hotel room is on the third floor so I am very shocked, but then I come to the conclusion that this is a dream and I become lucid.

I jump out the window as well and fly with them over the empty field for a bit. We land in some Victorian-style town and everything somehow becomes animated. All the towns people are ambling around and playing accordians. None of them are good at playing, so all of them combined sounds like a jumbled mess. When they see us, they go berserk and start to chase us. They are filled with a rage virus like in 28 Days Later that makes them want to eat brains and play crappy polka. We sprint away from them, and at this point there are about five other normal people with us who are running away from the bloodthirsty polka folks. One guy has a club, so he stops momentarily to get a good swing at a towns person. He clubs this person in the head, but three or four other towns people quickly descend on him. An attractive black lady who is running with us from the towns people also stops running for some reason. Her husband, who has the rage virus, runs towards her and is about to eat her brains. However, he changes his mind suddenly because he recognizes his wife, drops his accordion, becomes normal again, and tells his wife that he missed her. We decide that we've had enough of polka town (no country hospitality whatsoever) and fly up into the air again. We fly back through the window and into our hotel room again.

I remind myself that I am still dreaming. I look at the walls of the hotel room and there are large grey numbers everywhere. Even though we were almost ripped apart by crazy polka folks, everyone is thanking the nerdy guy for his recommendation. I say it actually wasn't too great and he punches me in the arm. The nerdy gives jolly ranchers to everybody, but gives me a yellow flower. He says its a powerful and dangerous drug that I shouldn't try (not sure why he gave it to me then). I pop it in my mouth and eat it up because I'm not afraid of the effects since its a dream. It tastes very bitter and very sour at the same time. A warm sensation rushes through my body, and everything suddenly becomes much brighter. I look out the window and see that there is a big snow storm (which is a hallucination because it was nice and sunny before I ate the drug). I am majorly trippin' and am laughing like a crazy person. I look at the dream characters and see that they have freakin' chimpanzee faces. I say to them, "heh heh heh... You guys have monkey faces... heh heh".

I walk through the door and out into the hallway to explore the dream level a bit. The effects of the drug wear out when I'm halfway down the hallway. I remember my dream goal to enter another world via a door portal. I walk up to a hotel room door, imagine the planet Pandora from Avatar on the other side and open the door. To my disappointment, it is only a bedroom with dark blue walls and lots of lava lamps. I walk inside, go up to the window, look out of it and see a large expanse of jungle. I get excited and leap out of the window. I fly over the jungle and want to land on the ground and have an adventure. I can't enter it however, because the landscape gets all hazy and two-dimensional. I am afraid that I'll wake up so I fly back into the hotel.

I decide that I want to have sex with a hot girl so I start looking for women. I see an open door to a hotel room, so I walk into the room but there's only some fat chick playing a keyboard. I am awkwardly silent for five seconds, say hi to her, and walk away. I walk down another hallway and it leads me into a mall. There are restaurants and clothing stores and such, and I see lots of beautiful women in bikinis walking around in a clothing store on my left. I walk in to the store, approach a tall blonde woman, and ask her if she wants to have sex with me. She is repulsed and tells me to screw off. I see another woman who is tan, brunette and much more beautiful than the one who rejected me. I walk up to her try a different tactic by whooing her. She likes me so she says "bite me". I grab her behind and before we do anything I wake up.

Dream of October 9th, 2010

Well….. I’m making progress. ^_^

Last night I attempted a WILD, but it didn’t work, although later I ended up having a DILD. I can’t quite remember how it happened because I had two dreams last night and in the first one I was lucid.

In the dream I was at a house where a lady was and maybe my sisters. The lady that was there ended up chasing me, but I can’t remember why. To escape her I flew, which caused me to suddenly realize, “Hey, I’m dreaming”. Strangely, I started to feel almost like I was dreaming and awake at the same time, like I could feel light near my eyelids in bed, so I tried to concentrate on the dream and make it stabilize, and I tried to remember my goals. After flying for a ways I either teleported or my flight just brought me to a different area. The area I was in was quite dark, and I think I was in a building. I tried thinking about my goals again.

The first thing that came to my head when I was thinking about goals was making a portal, and going to Hyrule. I had imagined many times in waking life how I would make a portal. I would draw an oval like shape in the air and then the air would shimmer inside the oval and on the other side I would be able to see my destination; it did not go as I had planned. When I went to draw the portal a blue marker materialized in my hand. I used the marker and drew an oval in the air. The air did not shimmer like I had wanted, and when I put my head through the floating oval I found that I was still in the same area, but I was determined to make it work.

I took my head out of the floating drawing of an oval and then I focused my will and tried to rub the area inside the oval as if I were trying to defog a window; it worked. The area I had rubbed started to become a semi-transparent image of a underground tunnel. Rubbing the air was difficult, for I had to focus to keep my hand from just going through the oval, but I managed. Eventually I had a big enough area to go through and there was now a clear opaque image of a scene on the other side. Now I had to figure out how to get through the floating window; I decided that I would break it.

I smashed the floating window and bits of glass, or something of that nature, fell onto the ground. Now it seemed like there was a big hole floating in the air. I jumped into the hole. Once I was through the hole I saw that I had indeed made a portal, for I was now in a completely different area, but unfortunately not in Hyrule. I remember running or flying down the tunnel after that and meeting some enemies but I can’t remember what happened after that, and think it might have been because I had woken up.

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My second dream involved a game. There was this shadowy inky stuff that infected people and somewhat controlled them. I was flying around in the area, which was a valley with a crater lake on one side and a tower on the other. I flew by the tower when the black goop tried to attack me. The goop was trying to control me but I wouldn’t let it. I flew away and saw a group of people who appeared to have been infected by the goop and some other people who weren’t infected. The two groups started fighting each other and I could hear the infected telling them “Join us, give in”, or something of that nature.

After that the dream turned into even more of a game, well, more like a game editor. My sisters were there and they were telling me what to make. I was able to use the characters and set them up in different areas, change their personalities, and basically just change the whole story. My sisters and I ended up deciding on a story about a large black dragon, and soon after I woke up.

For the first time in a while, i'm glad to say i had a lucid, and my recall is getting better.

Lucidity-5
Vividness-7

I'm on my way to class, driving a speedbike. There are mainly trees along the way on both sides of the road. When i get near the school, i realize i'm dreaming. I did a nose RC, and lucidity hit me like a bag of bricks. I still had to drive the bike, but it wasn't to hard to steer. I was mainly looking at the enviorment which it replicated very well. Down to very individual details.
I pull into my school and park. There are some random people walking around. I went up to a janitors closet. I was going to try to make a portal. On the front of the door where it said something else that i can't recall now, i wrote in, "MOON". I hopped in. Everything was starting to feel weird like my mind was creating a new place, and when i steped out it would be the moon.
But then a FA hit me. I thought it was a DEILD. So i laid perfectly still, but still saw threw my eyes at a computer. Then when i focused in i saw that there was a time, then said dang, i messed up the deild.
Dream Skip
Its nighttime at the college. My speedbike is parked at a different location. I go to it to start it up. It starts up fine, but i can't find the lights. So i try putting back on its stand. It doesn't want to go easily.(actually i just remembered, i didn't park it when i was lucid. I jumped off of it. just a note). I eventually force it down and talk to some people who were saying its a nice bike. I get back on it and start riding with no lights up the wrong way. On the way i'm pressing buttons, and one of them is the lights.
I'm happy i found the lights, turn around, and start heading to the exit. Along the way i crash sorta. By sorta, i mean that the side of the road, and my bike went under some redneck guys truck. I keep going to look at it, and going around to look at it. Apparently they never even noticed it. So i ask them for some help. They move their truck and i get my bike back and start riding. It's wet out and i can't see threw my helmet at that point. I wait a while, then i leave once it stopped raining.(also, at the same time, a spaceship was in the air. It was blasting off to go somewhere and a little probe hit it, just thought that was odd)
DreamSkip
I'm at my dad's house playing a GTA4 type game. He tells me to get on a motorcycle. I find one in the game, then in the dream i put on a helmet. We both laugh and i lose my recall from there.

I had another dream, but it was too simple to fully explain i'll give a summary below.

Lucidity-0
Vividness-6

I drove my friends to school. Friend asks me to pay him back. I give him 10 bucks. I tell them i don't go to classes here even though i technically have them.

Didn't post yesterday since I had zero recall, I tried to remember by turning over on my right side, pulling the covers up to get rid of distractions, and focusing on what my dreams had been about but nothing popped into my head. Bleh.

Anyways, tis morning I remembered a fragment from last night, but that's it...

I had the ability to create a portal (like in the game Portal) at my feet and jump through it and emerge in any location I wanted (I could control what locale was on the other side just by thinking it). I did that for a while, jumping through and going from a sterile, Portal-room to a library (I think) to something else to something else.

Then I woke up.

That's all I remember. >.>

Hopefully better recall in the next few days, and also hopefully I get into a better RC habit (I've been slacking... a LOT.. because of school >_<)

NON-DREAM DREAM LUCID FALSE AWAKENING

In general, these last days I have been recalling fewer dreams and totally missing good opportunities when they arise, but we all go through these stupid phases, I guess.


23:20 GMT – Sleep

Can’t really recall a dream, but I woke up with obsessive thoughts about dream control and the serial dreaming RPG tasks, so either I was dreaming something related to that or not at all and felt frustrated on waking up.

3:58 GMT

Random fragments
I’m with a group of kids, brothers and sisters and apparently we are very famous. There’s a huge group of fans stalking us and we just have time to hide in some house. Inside there’s a maid who becomes our friend and keeps our location secret. For some reason we stay there for the night and it is absolutely imperative that nobody find us there.
Then I am on some balcony trying to disentangle something (?)
Then I’m on top of a skyscraper in N.Y. I feel a bit of vertigo.
Then I am with some blond guy and we are making a pact to help each other keep some secret only to ourselves.

4:30 GMT

From a train to a slaughterhouse
I’m on a train station platform and from inside a train a friend calls me, says it is last call for this train and if I’m not getting there immediately I’ll have to go on the next. I don’t know where we’re going, but I hop in. I sit and realise that in the seat in front are my friend R., L. and some other person. They are bragging about their dreams. One of them says she can easily use the train ride to snooze a little and will surely come up with at least 2 lucid dreams. Initially I feel envious, but I shudder this feeling, don't want to give in to envy and just ignore them. I look through the window and I see bulls on some field. Half-lucid I start thinking which animal suffers the worst: the bull that roams free his entire life and is then slowly tortured and bleed to death in a bullfighting arena or a cow that lives an entirely miserable existence of pain in some factory farm but then dies supposedly quicker? My doubt lies now in the effectiveness of stunners that are used to leave the animals unconscious before slaughter. So I find myself in a slaughterhouse holding one of such devices to test it. I thought about trying it on myself, but I felt a bit scared of what I would feel, so I just test it on an apple – not a very clever idea, it just gets some burning marks on it. [chicken!]

A portal
I’m on some house of an old couple and their son. We’re in the middle of an empty room and there’s a portal open in the centre of the room. It just appeared out of nowhere. As it shines and waves in the air, in tones of blue, like water, we wonder what it is and if it’s dangerous to cross it and what it is on the other side. The boy gets behind it and throws something across it in our direction. It was like a piece of garbage. Instead of crossing, it just stays there, suspended in the portal, but it performs a strange mystical dance and then becomes a perfect circle form. Then I don't remember much, but I had no will or courage to actually cross it and think I just left this room and house and continued dreaming outside. [idiot!]

Buddhists and new agers
I'm in this foreign country and my mom came to visit me and I decide to show her around. I’m dressed in orange, top and long skirt and with my purple hat. I tell her lots of monks and Buddhist teachers are also in the city at the moment, for some gathering. We see a group of people waiting for a bus on the other side of the road and I tell her “See over there, it’s Mathieu Ricard with some other Tibetan Buddhist monk”. A bit further we pass by another group of monks, and I tell her “And see, look who’s in the middle of these monks, it’s Tich Nhat Hanh.”
Then we see a large entrance to some place, like a garage, not entirely inviting, but lots of new agers gathered there. They invite us in, they are eating what seems to be lentils and vegetables, so we join them. After the meal they behave a bit childish, like when they start doing this clapping hand game I used to play in camps with other kids.

5:30 GMT

Alone in the city
I am again in this foreign city and I know my mom is visiting, although not with me at the moment. I know it is quite far from home and I wonder how she enjoyed the flight. I feel that flying is becoming quite normal to me and I wonder if I’ll ever be afraid of flying. Then it occurs to me that maybe if I fly to Nepal, I might feel scared because lots of planes fall in that area as their flying companies are not so safe.
While I think about all this I am entering a building, following two other girls who enter a public toilet. It is quite big with large mirrors on the wall over the sinks. The girls are mocking me or something, but I ignore them. I go to the mirror and I spend a lot of time there, looking at something in my face as I continue thinking. Because I’m abstracted, the dream transforms and I am now on top of a hill sitting with a guy and a girl on a few steps and the mirror transformed into a glass wall by my left side. Through it I can see a road down the hill and a city on the other side of the road.
Me and this guy and girl are so packed together (don’t know way, as there’s lots of space around) and the guy is flirting me thinking I’m interested. But I couldn’t care less, I get up and decide to move. I go downhill and cross the street. From there I see than on the side of this little hill, there's a bigger mountain with a forest and old houses in the horizon, outside the city and for a moment I consider going there. But hesitated, and decided to just fly around the city. I am lucid but honestly can’t really tell when it started (think it was gradual, from the moment I moved away from this couple of friends).
For a moment I find myself inside a house with a bunch of other people and I change clothes – now I wear a sexy transparent black shirt. Then I’m outside again and I’m a bit distracted and a car almost hits me. I pause on the sidewalk for a while, just looking to the sky and the buildings around. It’s all so luminous. Then I see lots of jets lifting off and I have this impression there’s a lot of rich business people on this city. The jets lift off, one after another, there’s maybe an airport nearby. But then they start behaving strangely, like they are not flying in a straight line, but a bit randomly and then they transform into giant metal birds, with colourful painted wings.
A Russian guy wakes me up from my mesmerisation and tells me he will drive this car, which is parked right by my side and I’m sitting on the sidewalk, so he’s just warning me to get out the way. He is a bit rude, but he is actually concerned about my safety and I feel he is a nice guy. He is a driver, not the owner of the car.
Then I cross the street on the pedestrian walkway. I didn’t look to see if it was green for pedestrians and a wall of cars comes in my direction from both sides. But I am not afraid. As they approach I think "cars keep coming at me but this is my dream and they can’t hurt me, I’ll be like Moises opening the red sea and crossing safely to the other side". It didn’t quite happen that way. It just happened that the cars would pass in front of me or in my back without ever colliding with me, very elegantly. That was nice, but not awesome, so I stay there and decide the cars will lift in the air and freeze and make a wall of cars. This time I point my hand to them to make it happen, but all it happens is that they started levitating, but not with the desired effect. I think “Oh crap, I really suck at this control thing.”, but it wasn’t that bad - at least it was a very sucessful levitation of cars.
Then for some irrational “reason” when I am in the sidewalk I decide I’m not over with this gimmick yet and I walk a bit further down the road until I find a spot that for "some reason” looks good. There I decide to send a purple light ray – actually more like a laser, hard to explain - to the ground, marking an invisible line where the cars will create this wave or wall of cars, when they reach it. But by this time, the traffic diminished a lot. It’s already dawn and I also realised there’s very few people on the street. A guy coming out from a building – looks like a bank – just saw me sending out “laser beams” and with his eyes wide open he freezes on the sidewalk and moves back inside. I can’t believe he is afraid of me!
I lean on some raised flowerbed outside a building, waiting for some car to pass, but nothing! They totally disappeared. Now I feel pissed. I was sure this time it would work! Then I feel so incredibly lonely, as if I was the only one of my kind in the world - nobody with whom to share my reality and my tricks. Then my cat appears by my side and I hug him, but I don’t feel much better.
[Then I felt totally disappointed that I didn’t remember to do any of the tasks I was supposed to do!]

7:15 GMT – Wake up

NON-DREAM DREAM LUCID FALSE AWAKENING


23:30 GMT – Sleep

Adventure in Southeast Asia
I am in an exotic country, like maybe India and I feel both the weather and the socio-political scene is unstable. I am staying at this colonial style house that was lent by a friend. We both live in the west and she stays away from this house for months in a row. There had been intense rains and since I was coming to here she wanted me to check if everything was ok and not flooded. It was ok, but intense raining started all over, so I could not guarantee it would stay that way.
There’s also a lot of commotion on the streets and I decide to take the van just outside the gate of the property, ready to leave at any time, just in case something goes wrong and things heat up.
I am also being spied on and followed and I already spotted this guy always looking over my shoulder wherever I go.

3:40 GMT

Some other dreamer’s house and memories?
I am lying in bed, with my laptop and I am checking dream journals and replying to some. I found this guy who found out he is dreaming about some house for some time and he suspects it is the house of some other dreamer. I also find out I have dreamt a few times about his own house or more precisely, some surroundings around his house - it's on top of a mountain or hill and there's a road going there with a little tunnek trhought the mountain.
I am going trough this when I hear some noise. I look around and my room isn’t really my room. I am at this big house, I don’t know of whom. I go out of the room and the noise seems to come from the kitchen which is one or 2 doors on the left. The house is rectangular, with a large hallway in the middle, crossing the house from one side to the other.
Everything is absolutely dark but there’s some clarity coming from under the kitchen’s door. I wonder if there’s someone inside, open the door and after all it is also dark. I assume the light was some reflection, maybe from the moonlight.
When I decide to go back to the room, I suddenly watch this scene as if hovering on a different plane/dimension: a guy is coming down the hallway from the room (just as I did), because he heard some noise in the kitchen. But unlike me, he is surprised by a room mate coming out of the kitchen. He says something like “Damn, you scared me. I didn’t know you were back tonight.” But the other guy was in an incredible bad mood and told him something in the line of “sod-off”. Then the scene fades and I continue down the hallway, back to the room.
Then I am falling asleep in the dream, when the room door opens and I jump up with fright. This time it is my boyfriend P. and I also wonder “I thought you were not coming back tonight!” - I thought I was already awake and he was real, because in RL he was actually not sleeping at home this night.Then I really woke up amidst some confusion.

5:00 GMT

Messing up a palace with crumbles
I’m sitting in an armchair of a palace, eating breakfast cereals from the package and wondering what I’m doing there. Maybe it’s from some friend’s grandparents or something. I look around and think “Hmm, maybe I should explore this place a little bit.” Then a maid appears, looks surprised to see me there doing that – not the behaviour you’d expect of someone living in a palace. I feel embarrassed of the mess I made with crumbles on the chair. I say I’m sorry and promise to clean up later, but she refuses, after all that’s her job so she just moves me away to the side and cleans up the mess. Ok, ok. I get it. I pack my cereals and move on. I am decided to explore the palace but all sorts of distractions cross my path. For example, this lady close to the entrance door wants to know if I remember if she paid the entrance or something like that. I don’t know what she’s talking, but I say I don’t remember, so she gives me money to pay... whatever.

Mirror portal
I am in front of the mirror above the sink in my bathroom. I realise I am dreaming and I sink my hand in the mirror. It was even more clear than usual. I decide instead of plunging there to take some liquid mirror with my hand and play with it. I drop it in the sink and try to solidify it there, but I don’t succeed, it stays liquid. Everything is getting dark and I feel I am loosing lucidity so I focus on the mirror that now transforms into a screen. For a moment I feel my face on my bed and realise I'm sleeping belly down, but manage to hold on the faint dream.
There’s only darkness around and this screen in the middle. On the screen there is a lady in uniform asking me where do I want to go. It looks like a flight company commercial or an interactive help post at an airport. I even laugh saying to myself the lady looks a flight attendant from Lufthansa (german company). I really don’t know where to go and while I think, all sorts of images of places but also just flashlights and patterns succeed on the screen at amazing speed but also amazing clarity. Then a map of the world appears and I am asked where I want to go. Stupidly the first idea that occurs to me is Germany (because of the Lufthansa connection) and I am sucked into the screen. But I can’t hold it steady and I wake up in my bed (or so it seems).

False awakening
I open my eyes, I’m in my bedroom, it’s early morning. Some light already coming in. I look around feeling disappointed with the previous lucid experience. And then I realise my bedroom’s door is open. I always close it to sleep, or else the cat will bite my feet all night. I get up to close the door and check if the cat is inside or outside, but I find it all too strange. I mean, not the room, everything looks just like it should, but the door open when I am pretty sure I closed it last time I woke up and went to the toilet... I decide to reality check and I sink my hand on the wall. Great! I am still dreaming!

Entering Nighthawk's dream
Still in my false bedroom I face the mirror on my wardrobe and decide to continue from there. I like using mirrors as portals, so I think again where I want to go in front of the mirror: from frivolous things to really important things I decide for the frivolous, mostly because I am still training so I have to take it easy. So I decide to go visit Nighthwak. I jump in the mirror, dwell in the voidness for a while and find myself in a lab. What went wrong? But then I see him there. He looks younger and I realise it must be one of his memories, from the university. He saw me eventually and he looked interested in exploring my presence in his dream. He signalled for me to wait a little while, but when he returned it wasn’t really him anymore and I sensed I had lost the connection and was just projecting. The lab was now an open air space, so I decided to move on, since this experience was no longer working.

Trying to escape a collapsing dream
I am walking around in this open air space that looks more and more like a park, with ponds, little bridges over canals, suspended gardens. I am thinking about where to go next and decide I must sit and do some meditation to go back on tracks – in terms of focusing on the really important things to do. But this dream here is kind of collapsing – maybe because it wasn’t mine? The bridges started moving and now end up in the middle of nowhere in the air, two gargoyles in stone detach from this stone balcony and attack me. I feel I need to get out really fast or I will wake up. No mirror around so I think about jumping in the water of the pond. But instead of mirror-like it is now murky, I see strange creatures swimming around, crocodile-like. I don’t feel so attracted to jump on it. Now the murky waters are rising and I’m losing ground. I climb to some brick wall and decide to jump from there to the floor and hope for the best.

End of the adventure
It worked. As I fell on the grass, I sank and landed on some other dream. I was somewhere in the Middle East. Also in a garden. All was shining in warm colours, red and orange, really beautiful and in the end of this garden there was this beautiful and amazing mosque, also reddish. I was stunned with the scenario and thinking that I could sit there. That’s when I saw a group of angry men pointing at me, running in my direction. That’s when I realised I had landed over this kind of big stone or wall, which apparently was sacred for them, or the whole garden was and he fact I’m sitting up there it is extremely offensive to them. As they approach me and start bringing me down from where I was, I ask forgiveness but I am still smiling, commenting with them that their mosque is really something special. They think I’m crazy. Then I realize I have to jump again but they just don’t allow me to do that. I have men grabbing my arms, others grabbing my legs, I can’t move. Shit, I have to develop a method to jump without really jumping, just with thought. And I really need to build a place to go just sit, because dreams are crowded with monsters and armies and just plain distractions to get us away from our objectives.

7:00 GMT – Wake up

July 14, 2010

Quest for my dream guide part 3 (DILD)

NON-DREAM DREAM LUCID

I realized I was dreaming in a dream and woke up. I opened my eyes and instead of being in bed in my room I was in a sleeping bag in my back yard. I realized it was a false awakening so I did a noes RC just to check. I immediately rubbed the grass and then my left knee which works to stabilize the dream nearly perfectly every time for me. I got up and walked toward the back door but my hands and feet were numb. I looked at what I was wearing and I was wearing a red shirt and my favorite gray sleeping pants. My arms were numb because I had been trying WILD and they were numb in real life. I usually can move completely fine in my lucids. I got back up and went into the house. My dad was there talking to me but I ignored him. I knew exactly where I needed to go. Through that mirror. I walked up to it and put my finger up to it. After a little bit it started to melt through. I told my dad good bye and forced my head through. I did it to fast though. I lost consciousness of my legs and then the rest of my body. All I could see on the other side was the same gray space but instead of a DC I saw random giant floating computer keys. I faded very quickly and woke up.

I decided after this to take a break from looking for my dream guide. I want to start training some of my dream powers and I need to get the advanced ToTM done sone.

This was the most important dream.

I was in a small room. It had white portal-like walls. I wasn't lucid but I played around with some portals there. On was down to my right on the wall and the other one behind me a bit higher. I had like different objects I threw through the portal near the ground. Then I found a glitch sort of. If I acted as if I was going to throw the thing through the portal but stopped the last second a copy would come out of the other portal. I could basically create replicates.

I also had a 1 second lucid dream. I had the same dream twice and as I noticed that I became lucid and woke up. Tried to DEILD but didn't work.

I've been having a dry spell the for a while now. My recall seems to work pretty good though.