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That's right. 4 separate dreams! I drank half a cup of natural apple juice before I went to bed (Not sure if this had any effect on my dream recall or not). Anyway, I'll try to go in the order I remember them.

My first dream had to do with some kind of family gathering at the Clevenger residence (The family I am going to move in with once I graduate). I don't remember much about this one, besides the fact that there was a spider chilling on a fence and I was messing with it. The spider looked something like a mix between a predator and a skulltula (and almost as big). I remember doing something to subdue it, but I don't remember what. I know I didn't touch it; that thing was scary as fuck.

The next dream I remember took place in school, as usual. There was a party in my classroom. Possibly having to do with being the end of the school year. Not sure. The classroom was packed, so I decided to go in the lunch line to get some food. My friend, Diorra stopped me and teased me about going in the line to see Vanessa (ex). I didn't understand why she'd even bring her name up to me, as we haven't dated in a year and a half and haven't talked in months. When I got to the lunch line, I saw her about 5 people in front of me, and I just went back to the classroom.

I'm not sure if this is the same dream or if it continued where the last one left off or what, but I'll count it as a 3rd dream... The bell rang and I began heading to English class (I took English last semester). The teacher said my group's assignment was to fill up a bottle with shampoo from some really old theater/stage that was all the way out in like Virginia. Why my teacher wants us to go to Virginia is beyond me, but we did it. I forget who drove. We arrived at the stage in about 15 minutes time (Virginia is a 3 hour drive minimum). It was dark, but the stage was lit, and we got whatever amounts of shampoo we needed for our bottle. Before getting back in the car, I saw some steps leading down a hill into some trees. I followed them 'til I saw a large house with the lights on. For some reason, it just popped in my head that this was Abby (some girl in my AP Environmental Science class) and that I should leave, so I got back in the car and I think the dream ended.

The last dream I remember is a dream I've had for awhile. It has to do with the video game "DOOM". I used to play this game a lot as a kid, and last night I dreamt I was on the Nightmare difficulty setting (basically the hardest thing you've ever seen. 10x harder than your Call of Duty Veteran or Halo Legendary) but died as soon as I took damage from anything. If you've ever payed on the Nightmare difficulty, you could imagine how annoying this really is.

I'm somewhat surprised I didn't DILD in my dreams last night, as I performed at least 20 RCs the day before. I also attempted MILD, using the mantra "I will be aware that I am dreaming".

I attempted to WILD and got the closest I have ever been. My entire body was numb (I don't think it was paralyzed yet) and I could feel my hearing slowly fading out the noise from upstairs and could hear a faint whirring. I could also see flashing lights as my eyes moved quickly back and forth inside my head. I like most everything about where I am sleeping now, except that my girlfriend's parents' room is directly above mine. There is a lot of noise coming from upstairs, especially when I try to take a nap. I felt the numbness begin to wear off and rolled over and slept normally.

I dreamt some kids from my school were on Dream Views and were explaining to me some tips on having my first LD. One person I specifically remember was Mark. This is very interesting, because he talks to me and shows me a lot of things in my math class. For a 3 hour nap, it is relatively disappointing to only remember one dream, and so vaguely. I took a 50 mg half-tablet of B6 before I took a nap. I think I'm going to do the B6 once a week from now on, after reading about side effects and such.

This the first dream I decided to record, a weird one indeed.;)

I was in school near to water fountain, after I drank water I saw one of my friends had pistol. He offered to give it to me and I gladly accepted. I went to bathroom and hid the gun in my clothes and went out. Somehow I knew that two people that I didn't know are coming to school. I was walking to the front gate.

I don't know what caused this but I suddenly felt hate against those two people and wanted to kill them! So I became trigger happy, took out the gun and shoot a student in head and another one in leg.:D Stranglely, there was no blood at all and more strangely, no one screamed! Then I ran to front gate to meet those people. I saw one of them get out of car.

I went back in school and when that guy was halfway in, I pulled out my gun and emptied the clip on him. But somehow he didn't catch even a single bullet and ran out of school, got in the car and drove away! I suddenly realises what I've done!!! I felt terrible fear and depression!!! I knew that I fucked up my whole life and when the cops get here I'll be in jail.

I decided to commit suicide but my gun was empty. So I thought maybe I could jump down from rooftop. I went out of school and searched for a building which I can get on top of. I found and old one. This part of dream was a bit disorted and stupid because I couldn't run fast enought and jump to grab the edge.:lol: One moment I was on street the other moment on top of that building.:shock: Until I found out that the height isn't high enough to effectively kill me.

So I decided to jump from school's rooftop. I needed the keys for it. So I went back in and got the keys by threatening the person who had them. School interior wasn't how it was supposed to be.:roll: I went upstairs and noticed other students follow me up. So I threatened to kill them if they don't go back down. Among them, I saw one of my friends that I like. On my way up I saw the headmaster in his room drinking something in one of the glasses that I have in home.:eek:

I unlocked the door and got to rooftop. I wasn't thinking about jumping down, I don't know why. I saw the guy that gave me the pistol beside me and saw the headmaster on the other side of the rooftop saying I should go see him ASAP before the situation gets worse! I told the guy I'm not gonna tell that I've got the gun from him. I lied.:D

Then I was in headmasters room talking to him!:? I told him where I've got the gun from and told him it wouldn't have happened if I didn't.:( I looked at my gun, it looked like as if it was made of paper and cloth.:lol: The headmaster told me that I'm totally fucked!!! So I cried to death and woke up.:panic:

Dream Signs:

1. After I killed a student and injured another one, no one behaved as the should.
2. I couldn't run or jump, teleportation.
3. My guns seemed like as if it was made of cloth and paper. (The most obvious one)
4. Headmaster was drinking in a glass that's mine.

This dream seemed pretty logical and real I'm surprised!

Reallity Checks:

Unfotunately, even after I noticed these strange things I forgot to reallity check. Because of that, I didn't become lucid.

Dream - Lucid

I was at some art show/contest. I remember wondering whether or not I should enter, because I don't paint or draw, but I take decent photographs and I write. I was wondering whether or not it would be ok for me to enter a poem or story. I remember knowing that the show wasn't just for paintings and drawings, but for all forms or art, even written art. I believe I did enter a written piece.

I also remember I had just started a new job at some restaurant, even though my boss was the same as she is in my waking life job. I remember coming into work and putting an apron on. It was my second day on the job, and I remember asking my boss what I needed to do. I rang someone up on the touch screen register, but then I went in the back and did some stuff. I knew that I was supposed to be back there anyway. I had to learn all the stuff back there before I learned register.

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My mom was taking me to Ryan's (I guess for some reason I couldn't drive myself?). It was nighttime, and I had decided to get back together with him. My mom pulled up into Ryan's driveway and I got out of the car. I saw him through a window. He was wearing a forest green apron. I started getting a sinking feeling, the same that I had been getting before we ended things.

I entered the garage, and Ryan was in there with tons of food all lined up on a table. He had been grilling.
"You've been out there grilling in the rain?", I asked.
"Yup.", he said.
The sinking feeling in my stomach only got worse. I knew I couldn't really do this, as ideal as it may seem.

I said something along the lines of
"I can't do this, Ryan."
He just kinda smirked at me and said that I should probably take off, and that he was going somewhere too.
"Where are you going?", I asked.
He looked at me with that sick smirk on his face and said
"Don't even worry about it."
I asked him to please tell me, but he just repeated his previous statement.

I then remember being outside. Someone else was with me, asking if my mom was coming back to pick me up. I told them yes. I remember many people being in the front yard. I saw my mom's car approaching the house from the right.

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I remember being behind some counter. I have no idea where I was, but it looked like a cloudy day outside. I remember seeing lots of girls all dressed up to go to prom. One girl walked up beside me. She looked like a girl I knew back in high school named Emma. She wasn't too dressed up, just wearing a nice top and a skirt. I remember it was my high school's prom night. I saw some marker board outside that had all this stuff written on it about the prom.

I then remember I was doing something behind the counter, when one of my professors walked up next to me. We still haven't met in waking life, but we email back and forth about a class I need to take to graduate. I remember looking at my phone and seeing that she finally had answered all my emails. I remember the first part of one said "(hurry)". I don't remember what else it said though.

I didn't think the professor had seen me, but she turned around. She had a white mug of coffee sitting by some papers. I almost spilled it, and apologized to her. She was nice about it and said that was alright. She then recognized me and asked me how I was. I told her I was alright and asked her the same. She then started talking to me about how I needed to hurry up and get the class approved by my advisor. She was saying that I needed to hurry because my advisor would give me some refund if I had everything approved by a certain time, I can't remember what it was anymore though. I told her thank you, and she left. She approached another lady and they had accidentally switched coffees.

Then, I remember sitting down with my mom. We were eating some pasta dish, but instead of regular noodles, she had used rice noodles, and she had made the sauce with soy instead of dairy. My mom was complaining that it didn't have enough flavor. I agreed with her. We still kept eating.

We ate in silence for awhile, and I started to let my mind wander as I thought about how I needed a new bike. I remember seeing a flash of some bike rack that was attached to the side of a big drainage ditch, right above the hole where the water flowed through. I remember many bikes being on it, I specifically remember a light pink one being on the very far left side. I knew that was where Kacey usually kept her bike.

I then stopped thinking about that and was still eating the pasta. I told my mom
"I forgot I was even eating rice noodles and that there's soy in the sauce!"
My mom said
"Me too!"
The pasta really wasn't that bad after all.

I am sleeping in a room with no windows and directly under my girlfriend's parent's room, so I can hear everything they do (mainly walking around and dropping things). I took a B6 supplement before this nap.

I had a dream I was trying to get another student I.D from my school counselor for some reason. There was a corner of a room I was waiting in with other students where the lights were reminiscent of a rave or something. After I got up to get my I.D, I looked down at it and it wasn't mine. It belonged to a friend of mine named Taylor Sikes. What was odd about it was his I.D had his face with my hair (very short right now, where he normally has longer hair with like blonde highlights) and vice versa. Once we switched and had our respective I.Ds, the lady I handed it to stamped GED on it (I am about to graduate high school and plan to go to Community College, so this is a little odd). When I went back to the room where I was waiting, my seat was taken, and everyone's positions changed. This seemed normal until I started looking for a seat, people started changing positions every time I looked back. I don't remember anything else.

Dream Memory

I am riding my bike with Heather on the pegs. This is my "car", and in my dream it does feel like I'm driving a car. Somehow the pedals are the gas and break, it all works out. It's quite the illusion.

I drive into the parking lot of my local cinema (the scene is very realistic, everything is in place as it is in waking life). Heather talks to me about something on Youtube. I explain how I have dreams where a building will be a major internet site like Youtube, and even recall about a "dream" (I never had this dream, though- false memory) where the cinema in front of us was Youtube, embodied as a building.

I park my bike-car in a space and explain how sometimes I forget which pedal is the break and which is the gas. I then offer that Heather and I go to the south end part of town to see the big tent of wares (I had a dream once where I did visit this place, but it doesn't exist in waking life). We start to pedal away and I forget where it is. I get behind another "car" which is actually just Ken from 30 Rock sitting in the middle of the street. We go around him.

Hot Tea Fragment

I have a cup and pot of boiling water. It's really, really hot, the smoke is rolling out really thick. I pour it into my cup, but by the time the water is inside the cup, it has disappeared into water vapor. I keep trying to fill my cup but it doesn't work. Finally after several tries, I get enough for tea.

I turn around from the kitchen area to see a big circle of people. I sit down next to my friend Chase and set my tea on the ground by my chair. (Memory loss of whatever happens here)

Now I am in a dark auditorium full of everyone from school. I'm with Autumn. This scene lasts a long time as we converse with everyone. (Another memory loss )

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"Between saying and doing, many a pair of shoes is worn out."
Iris Murdoch

Yeah, I been lazy with my DJ's. I have a few written down but not uploaded. Oh well.

I was all ready to walk to the bus stop so I could go to school. Usually my mother drives me to the stop, but this time my dad walked with me.
The sky was a deep, morning pink. The chilly breeze was calming and the dewey grass was very green. The waking world was quite a beautiful thing to see. The geography of my neighborhood was quite different, but the beauty of the world distracted me from noticing.

I walked down to a big round area of road, like a cul-de-sac but with 3 roads coming into it and I saw Mrs. Green [pseudonym], a teacher from when I was in first grade (not my teacher, but one that I knew). She greeted me and I said hello, and I noticed, I didn't have my bag. Or my shoes.

I told my dad I'd be right back and I ran to my house. I moved very quickly. When I arrived, the garage door was open and a golden retriever was inside my garage.

"Hey!" I shouted, "Beat it you dog!" And thus, the dog quickly ran away.

And that's it. What a weird dream it was.

No. Go away. Get out of my house.

Woke up feeling pist..............

It starts off, I'm in a class room and these kids are talking shit about me and harassing me. I couldn't take it anymore so I blew up at them and i started to fight this one guy. As we started fighting the teacher called down to the office for help. I was getting mad at the teacher because I was the good guy not the bad guy. I was only defending myself and all of a sudden the people from the office come and take me away when I'm the good guy. So I'm all upset because i get taken away and the other kid stayed in class. Then I woke up feeling really angry and pist off.

I attempted WILD, but after turning my alarm off, I just jump back into bed and fall asleep. I need to find a way to stop myself from going back to sleep automatically; maybe set two alarms?

I remember one of my dreams involved being in school, in a large, concert-like auditorium. There were chairs seated in rows, and I was trying to get by a Latino couple at the end of one of the rows. The space was really tight, but the girl decided to try to trip me by moving her legs in front of mine and the boy followed suit. they both started laughing, and saying stuff in Spanish I couldn't understand, and no matter how hard I tried to get past them, they kept me there, moving my legs around in a stomping motion to try to get them off of me. Someone apparently saw the commotion, and called either security or an administrator over to us. The administrator thought I was attacking the couple and once they both saw he had come over, they acted like it too. I don't remember my punishment, but for some reason, my group of friends included Varg Vikernes of Burzum. I would think this to be a Dream Sign, being he is a famous person, and I do not know him personally, but I didn't pick up on it; I just accepted that I know Varg and we talked about how much bullshit it was that I got in trouble. I remember later finding the Latino boy's Tumblr (blogging website) and he had a lot to say about the incident.

The second dream I remember had something to do with my dad and I going fishing. I think I remember a jetski, and I remember on the way back, some kid had a 5 string guitar which used to be John Petrucci's (Dream Theater). He had it tuned in some weird ass way that isn't standard for music at all like A#D#F#BE or something. Anyway he handed it to me and i just played open strings and it soudned like a Dream Theater song which was cool I guess.

Nothing was completely out of the ordinary in these dreams, besides Varg being in my group of friends, and I wasn't able to pick up on it.

I remember a few details about a dream I had before this about being roomates in college with my friend(will be doing this in RL in just a few months!) and we checked into our dorm but it was haunted and I kept freaking out as my friend was just sitting there like nothing was wrong. I kept hearing noises, like the door slamming shut and floor creeking and I would curl up in a ball in my bed when my friend and sister would leave me alone. I just remember that it was really really scary!

I was in school and it was about halfway through the day and I really wanted to get out of there, I think because I was just bored and wanted to go home. So I was standing at the back of the hallway where my locker is, holding my books and some loose change, and decided to just sort of.. fall over and faint. I dropped my books, trying not to think about all the people staring at me, and listening to the coins drop on the floor as I fell. I think my passing out was half real and half faked because I blacked out on the ground and woke up a few minutes later. Everyone had gone to their classes, and I found it weird that no one had stopped to watch or help me, except for one of my old teachers, Mr. Belan. He was the only one to come and he came walking down the hall with a wheelchair saying "Sorry it took me so long." 'Wow I don't think anyone cares that I'm laying on the ground barely awake right now..' I thought, slowly opening my eyes and trying to regain focus. He wheeled over to me and I was barely able to stumble up and sit in the chair. I don't know if he told me that someone told my parents or if I just assumed someone told them, but I was really afraid of them coming to the school to pick me up because I felt embarrassed. Mr. Belan wheeled me to my car, but as we went outside the scenery changed and we were in the beautiful mountains of St. Everest. But everything still seemed normal to me so he just kept wheeling me to my car(which seemed like I had been there in a previous dream and left that car there) and when I got there I realized that I had to tell him the truth, that I had faked(sort of) my fainting to get out of school. I slowly fished for socks in my car(no idea why) then turned to him and realized I was dreaming. (It took awhile for me to grasp the fact that this wasn't real and for a second or two I actually tried to wake myself up because I wanted to get out of there, but that failed and I realized this is a dream and I can do what I want) Wanting to get away, I told him "I just want to fly away," then turned to the face of a cliff of one of the mountains we were on to jump off, but instead I turned back to him and told him everything. I wanted to see what would happen, I guess. He got angry at me then started to run away from me down the small mountains. I was easily able to catch up with him though, as I took giant leaps and floated down each mountain. It was quite fun. Anyways, I finally caught up to him and he agreed to have a meeting with me to discuss what just happened. We went to this city and went in this white, old, run down, small building with only one room which contained an old rusty cheap table. As soon as we entered, I saw this strange character. It is hard to describe.. it looked like the cave dweller I had been drawing in real life(don't ask why..). Half human, standing tall, yet a dark green color with long ears down to it's shoulders. For some reason, I recalled seeing it in another dream and becoming good friends with it(though I don't think I ever really dreamt about this thing before as I think about it now) So I went over to greet it and then woke up.

I drew a picture of the creature just for fun

I'm sitting in class across from Milan and we're playing paper football, ignoring a nonsensical and hypocritical rant from Ms. Kaminiarz. I hear her ask Dennis to go write something on the board and whilst he's up there, he tells a joke. Everyone finds it hilarious, I hardly laugh. Some girl starts up a conversation with me about school and I notice Tawnya glancing over with an annoyed look. I get the impression that she think I`m interested in this girl but I'm not. A little while later, I notice someone rubbing/massaging my back. It strikes me as odd and I'm not sure who it is; I have a feeling it's the girl to my right (the DC named Courtney from a few previous dreams) but then I go "it couldn't be, what would she want with me?"I decide that it's probably Courtney (from Caf class) who's sitting behind. I can't remember what happened next but I know I had a false awakening after.

I'm not sure but I think this was my subconscious trying to tell me to stop settling for less.

4/18/11. I have decided to put some dj entries from my laptop on DV, buut I'm not gonna post them all at once because that would drown everyone else's journnals, so I'll put them up gradually.

4/18/11

DREAM 1: I was in Kohlhepp's class taking my final (I FUCKING HATE THIS CLASS WITH A PASSION, and I just took part 1 of my fin als from her. She is my biology teacher, and ranked by most as the hardest teacher at school), and in the end it was apparently the last day. everybody went nuts and started playing shitty rihanna music and ran out of the class like maniacs.

DREAM 2: Me and my dad went to some nice house, william shatner opened the door in a pirate costume. the house was like a variant of the Kumar's (one of my landscaping jobs). my dad started talking about rumble tone (My dad used to be a singer in a band when I was like 10, they got big to the point of playing a 5,000 perswon show), and how his buddies from the resturant were in it. You could tell that william didn't care. At one point, marty (my drumming teacher) ran out in an indian costume, you could tell something was going on inside, like a party.

DREAM 3: I just kept cycling through these girls talking about their favorite buddhism scriptures while at the beach. What didn't occur to me was that there ARE no buddhism scriptures, but it was hard to catch because it was like watching a movie on youtube or something.

I only have vague fragments where I was sitting in the principals office, ratting on some people. The culprits were sittting in front of me, so everything was awkward. They looked sad and scared.

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