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I've practicing at least every other day about an hour - 1.5 hours. They have not been at ideal times - low motivation to get up at 6 a.m or wake up at 3 a.m. which I've let fear of the dark and stillness stop me in a few cases. But i believe practice is practice...

Today I slept like 10 hours haha (i'm pregnant and so so tired lately) I also wanted to shake off a horrible nightmare about losing the baby ugh! Had a nice sexual dream XD that definitely cleared things up and put me in a better mood.

So I relaxed around 11:30 a.m - within 20 minutes i believe I started getting the vibrations. Like always, starts at the fingertips and later feet and legs. I tried several techniques to relax even deeper to get full body vibrations. One that helped vibrate my entire face and head was relaxing my face to the point where it felt like my skin was sliding off my bones (best way i can explain it) and not moving my eyes at all, they fell into position looking downwards. It worked! STILL... nothing on my chest and belly. I've never had vibrations there and don't know how to relax my chest, it feels uneasy and stiff from breathing.

*** I feel lots of poking and jerking all over. It feels like my body is doing it though... disappointing since i practically beg for help from my guides. Would love to know more!

My body was extremely heavy and i felt a distant ache. This went on for a long time. I tried different techniques to get out of the body - rope, clapping my hands, reaching for something, rolling over, going back to the images and looking at upwards towards my third eye... no images at all, i rarely get them.

I felt the hours pass by- I decided to give up by try something different. So i slowly opened and closed my eyes a few times. I said to myself how funny it feels like i can't move but i'm sure i can... and then i tried... and NOTHING! I was glued to the bed with my eyes wide open and fully awake! That went on for two minutes trying to lift my limbs up. I closed my eyes and meditated for a few minutes and my body was still vibrating. I opened my eyes looked around.. hoping to see shadow people like i've read... nothing. I forced my arms up with all the strength i had and slowly pulled my body away. I'd like to mention i wasn't scared and haven't been scared yet while i'm trying to WILD, always in the most relaxed state i can be.

It was now 1:30 .. oops!

So when to give up? I could have gone for a couple more hours i think lol. Would love input on this experience and advice on what i should try next. I'm definitely going to do it at a more appropriate time for starters.

Thanks for reading! You are all I got folks

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I didn't remember anything really. I know I definitely had a couple of dreams but when I woke up they were gone .
17/12/15

Sort of a horror-esque type dream.

I was in the living room with my mom, my brother, and his baby son. We were coming from the store when a girl, I guess his girlfriend shows up as well. After talking afterwards, his son falls off the edge of a porch and seriously hurts himself. We bandage him up and I look for my mom's towel in my brother's car. It was a beautiful day with passing clouds, a bright sun, and seemed mildly cool but was still warm.

I was searching through his car which seemed very messy with a lot of things all over the place. He comes over and ends up helping. We decided to drive around so we end up whipping the car in reverse and spin around almost hitting which looked like my friends naj and isa. We drove up hill and noticed a anime styled girl walking in the middle of the street. Her eyes were black where it should be white and her iris was gold. Her mouth was slightly opened and she seemed to stare blankly at us. We drove by and she was just looking in one direction pass us.

We kept driving and noticing most of the girls had the same eyes and this zombified look on their faces. Caught a girl biting another's head. I remember saying that they seemed controlled by this dead girl. Soon we are out the car walking when a dark skinned girl shows up. She wanted us to come with her. As we were walking down the hill near the school, I caught a glimpse of her eyes shift color to gold in a split second. Me and my brother end up running the opposite way and she resumed chase.

We ran down this hill and afterwards turn left back up the other hill losing her completely. My brother had the idea of crossing over then full sprinting straight toward the house. She soon spots us again and we did just that. Speed running toward our house passing other girls who seem zombified and began chasing us as we picked up speed, almost inhuman at that point.

We were at our house and I was watching TV about these magical primates that had white and gray fur. One had a staff with glowing red auras around them. They seemed very intelligent. Soon afterwards I heard that the girls desired to have sex with us since they were only running on reptilian instinct, however will try to eat people if hungry.

Another horror esque dream showing me and friends playing basketball in a classroom. We were having fun until we noticed something odd. Things that were coming to reality shouldn't be. I saw Alma from the F.E.A.R games coming forth from the TV along with other creatures. We were all running around noticing these entities terrifying other people in the building and attacking them. One creature looked like a tall grotesque, humanoid bag of blood and skin, and another looked like a biomass looking golem.

*Woke up at 7:30, wrote dreams in Awoken Journal, back to sleep*

Short string of 5-6 lucid dreams. Each time it started, I woke up in my bed, plugged my nose, and confirmed it. Walk out of my room for different events to happen. It was almost like my room is a base to restart.

One of which where I went to my front door only to have a girl walk in to make out with me. Afterwards I went to my room to spawn a DC but restarted.

Second time walked from my room to the basement. A door opens another girl in and she follows me to my room and we talked about something. Restarted.

Third same thing, I walked to my front door to see if another DC would spawn but nope. I stabilized and tried walking through a wall to my room and it worked.

The last two I cannot remember, but I think I went outside to levitate reasonably high. Im working on figuring out what causes these lucid strings as im calling them and working to induce them. So far they seem to happen whem im in deep relaxation but tireless at the same time.

I went to sleep one night dreaming. In the dream, I had a huge desire to dream, so I went to check the clock. The clock showed the date, as opposed to the time. I blinked a couple times, only to get different results each time. I decided to go outside of my house, only to realize the door went to a clone of my room each time. I tried falling backwards, I either hit hard ground or phased through the floor and back to my room again. I tried phasing through the window, couple of tries but it worked. It led to a dark land each time. Said to myself "why not turn on the lights?" And it did, only to find my room every time. I could not escape my room, and would like to know why or what this means. This never happened before, but why is it happening now? Please leave a comment below. I also remember it was a dark minecraft world (I know, loads of minecraft antifanboys, thats bad too) and a secretwhite room with a ton of food there. BTDubs, I will start putting dates of the dreams that occured recently soon and the name of dreams for past dreams

The tv weather station started reporting strange news, that there was a 200 ft. lizard stuck in the wall of someone's house, among other things. (IRL the tv was on a weather station with a weather radar map and a robot-sounding voice reporting the weather.) I went into the kitchen and stood in front of the microwave as I ate some ice cream.

Then I very briefly woke up in bed, thinking that if I hear strange news being reported again I will know that I am dreaming because the weather station only reports weather, not news. I fell asleep again.

Then I convinced a bunch of people to go on a road trip to Colorado with me, among them some former classmates and teachers. They weren't friends, but just random people who wanted to go and then I convinced them to definitely go. I usually don't like big groups but I was planning an expedition so I needed a group.

We all drove to the meeting place. Everyone showed up with their kayaks like they were supposed to. Awesome. Then we are all kayaking on the river in a very pretty place. It is like a canyon with gray, jagged rock walls and a lot of evergreen trees.

The next thing I remember we are all sitting in a circle on the grass passing around a lighter and burning a hole in our clothes. The guy beside me burned a hole in his blue t-shirt so that his nipple would poke out. I was wearing an old denim jacket that was too big that my mom bought from a charity sale or something so I didn't care about burning it. I burned a hole in the left sleeve near my wrist. The denim was thick so I had to hold the lighter to it for a while to get a hole and it made my arm really hot. I finally got a little hole but it ripped into a bigger hole but I thought it was cool and I felt really fashionable.

Then we are all near a road surrounded by trees. Everyone got into vehicles but I didn't have a vehicle so I was walking on the road trying to catch up. Then there were tree branches in the road that I had to duck under and there were zombies. I had to kill a zombie that was in my way. I had to hit it three times for it to fall down and then stomp it in the face two times for it to die. Somehow a few people on the expedition died.

I finally found the others. A woman was in her truck on her cell phone telling someone that she was with dangerous people. Then an army tank showed up and people started getting into it.

I'm in an abandonned hospital, it's brightly light by the sun through broken windows, with dust pilled up in the corners and medical furnitures abandonned around. There was some kind of catastrophy, something that turned the majority of humanity into flesh-eating monsters. I'm trying ton round-up survivors. I walk the allyways, following sounds, and find two teenagers girls huddled in a room, crying. I don't have time to confort them and pull them on their feet to get out of the place. I hear crying again, and right outside the door is another girl in a white nighty with her dark hair loose around her face, holding her own arm and swaying on her feet. The arm she's holding is deadly white, with the veins showing up in dark purples and sickly green. She's infected, turning. I slam the door in her face and scream to the girls to come and help me keep the door closed, but they're too scared and stay rooted in place. The other girl is banging on the door, the whole thing rattling on it's frame and hurting my shoulder. The frame start splittering, but before she manages to destroy it I hear her scream and then it's silence. I slowly open the door and there's giant dogs on the other sides, waiting. I pat a head here and scratch a ear there, the pack rounding the girls up and we get out. We're out on the streets, and our little group is joined by the other survivors, keeping close for protection. I'm the pack leader, the huntress.
We're looking for a house to live in. The street is going up, and the houses on each side are painted white with dark blue tilted roof. Both have a tower, and the one on the right have a big wooden gate, the bottom of it quite weathered and rotting. A couple of survivors and me crawl under that gate and find ourselves in front of an other gate, in fare more better shape. The more slender of us manage to crowl under this one too, and I tell her to open it. The dogs sniffle and whine behind the gate, and as soon as they are in the house they scatter to scout it. We take everyone in and close the gates.
I follow the sound of my pack and find them ripping appart an infected; it's a quick affair, and they are careful not to splatter everything. I get the survivor to the upper levels of the house. It's a big duplex rooms, with beds scattered around, and drapes for some makeshift privacity. I'm given a corner place, with two beds, one to sleep, one to "work as a desk". I thanks the woman giving me my place and go back to the pack. I notice that some of the dog are in fact wild boars, but there are as easygoing as the others. I pet them and go back up. There are clothes on my bed, a dress of beige taffeta and black tulles, with a poffy skirt, alongside a pair of sheer, black tights and a pair of being, shimmering thight high. I change, putting the thight hight over the tights. It's warm and comfy, and the dress dances when I move. I'm walking away when a old, petite woman with black hair and a heavily lined face give me high heels made of a transparent material, decorated with small, shining black pearls and porcelains beige flowers. I slip them on... And wake up.

Morning of December 17, 2015. Thursday.



In my dream, I am aware of our family as they are now, though our house seems somewhat different, with typically rotated or mirrored features in relationship to other rooms (not rotated or mirrored as a whole). The back story seems to imply that we had been to some sort of carnival earlier in the afternoon or similar type of event related to television shows or movies. There were a few celebrities there. (The event took place a few blocks south of our house.)

Meanwhile, there is a leak in a small pipe in our bathroom, seemingly from one corner of the room and from the water main - with only clean water (no awful plumbing mishaps as some dreams dictate). At different times, there is more water on the floor than at other times, but it does not seem that problematic or have a potential for a greater degree of flooding throughout other rooms.

I have a black-and-white photograph of Catwoman (though I am not sure of which actress; possibly any one of several, including at least three from the 1960s). It is mostly a head and shoulders shot, mostly facing forward. It seems autographed on the lower right but I do not attempt to check the name for whatever reason (it may read “Catwoman” in part rather than the actress name). It may in fact be a “new” fictional version of Catwoman (with an unknown or unfamiliar actress), since we apparently had met her and a few other characters at the showgrounds about an hour or so before (though I do not directly recall the event even in my dream).

After interacting with my family for a short time in our house, I notice that the photograph has a few drops of water near the right side, about halfway down. Carefully wiping it off with my right shirt sleeve, it leaves blank white circular spots on the photograph in a triangular arrangement over the otherwise black Catwoman outfit. This makes me so angry that I slowly but deliberately tear the photograph in half from the side, soon followed by tearing it up completely, saying that it was ruined. I then say how it was a waste of time going to the showgrounds (which is not all that logical, as a photograph does not have to account for time spent, especially if the day was enjoyable during a family outing). Around this time, I notice more water coming out of the pipe and a few puddles on the floor, but there is never a problematic flooding. (The toilet itself is mirrored in the bathroom from south to north in respect to the otherwise seemingly correct orientation to other rooms.)

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If a cat (when it does not represent an actual pet) sometimes symbolizes curiosity, then what would Catwoman represent? Since Zsuzsanna often dressed up as Catwoman when she was young, the act of tearing up the photograph may relate to my awareness that everyman honestly does not have the capacity to either believe or understand our lifelong unexplainable mystery (and there is no indication that humanity will be more aware or intelligent as such in my lifetime to utilize their own connection to the Source), though could also mean that, as my lifelong “mystery girl” was validated, she is no longer a fictional character on paper but my real soulmate.

Water is the nature of consciousness, sleep, and memory (and ever-flowing “fluid” thought even in sleep), the main metaphorical essence of the dreaming mechanism itself. A leaking pipe may imply the dream state becoming stronger or clearer on some levels (even implying a closeness to Universal Mind) - though when utilizing a negative connotation, could imply problematic memory (as one supposedly has when they get older). However, I tear up the photograph (again, a static image) and so this incarnation of my dream self does not go further into the dream state in a more imaginative or surreal sense as it might have when more clearly focusing on the mystery (in this case, an “exotic” photograph) of the dream state. It stops, in fact, in a familiar environment (and accepts the setting as “real” and present - with only a vague implied back story of the previous showgrounds) where only some energies of deeper levels of the mind are present at some points. Water as memory begins to dissolve (or “whiten”) the static image, which is also a static “memory” at some levels - a balancing or phasing, perhaps - or simply an indication of the dream state itself.

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Thoughts about the failure of product longevity were a previous focus in real life just prior to sleep. For example, my very expensive monitoring headphones that are only about two years old are disintegrating around the headband into what resembles very thin larger ashes. However, more relevant to my dream’s situation, there is also a reflection on how printer ink now vanishes from commercial receipts after a short time, so that now you cannot even keep a receipt as proof of purchase. This seems to at least partly be a vague focus of my dream self at one point.

+ climbing the redwood tree by the M [childhood neighbor] (in between M and L's houses), it's like a ladder, so many branches, I then slide down the tree

+ childhood home, upstairs, planning to fly off of parent's balcony for a nice flight before dinner, hear horrible coughing from downstairs, vault over side of balcony down to deck below, see my dad so cougher is not dad, enter dining room, wife says "SAVE MY MOTHER" I go to kitchen, mother is coughing, I'm looking to see if she can breathe, she can not, I start Heimlich maneuver, I feel the smooth flat skin of her stomach, I push several times, nothing, I climb up on top of her back and bend her over and do it more, a small mucousy thing pops out of her mouth on to the floor, I pat her back and kiss the back of her neck. I see that her breasts are exposed and her right breast has a big bloody rectangular chunk missing from it.

+ war council, I'm communicating with the president about the Kursk A4 missiles, want to know how many there are. Walking somewhere somebody gave me a box of 3 frozen burritos, I'm really happy about this, take it to the microwave to heat them up, and notice huge piles of snacks on the counter.

+ something else? forgotten

early dream forgotten as I tried to go right back to bed

middle:
+ (vague, impression), setting up for DS sex on a bed

later:

+ cultivating/planning lavender and other things fields by churches on the side of the road, hitting away the kids' whiffle balls

+ watching risque anime at work, think life is ruined when two red-coated security guys come to escort me out, but instead they direct me to a room where there's a surprise birthday party for me

+ high school reunion, walk around, small black girl (+ her friend) come up and shout "HEY, I'M LITTLE SHRIMP (?)", I admit I don't recognize anybody other than the short black guy over there who's named Robert Wagonner

+ freaky demon faces transform via blinking from normal to demon faces, one has caught a guy and is poking him with the long curved horns coming out of its head

+ driving on two-lane road, crumbling, our lane falls away, road ends in cliff, drive down, plop get out, think we need a row boat then I'm rowing the boat (oar comes out place it back keep rowing) I also am wearing a backpack of our stuff, get to part and I tell two girls sitting on a chair that I drank something that other time and forgot everything

NON-DREAM
DREAM
LUCID
FALSE AWAKENING
NIGHTMARE
FRAGMENT
(Unconnected dreams indicated by a *. Connected dreams indicated by a •. )

I didn't recall any dreams this morning (still doing CAT), but here is a lucid dream I recorded on the 14th that I never posted here.

I'm in a place that looks like a small grocery store, almost like Molsberry's Market. I remember to do a nose pinch RC, and I can breathe through my pinched nose. I do it again to double check. I realize I am dreaming and I decide to walk around the store, but my sister is there and I feel she is following me. I try to utilize some dream control by saying to myself "I'm alone in this store". When I reach the exit, there is a cashier there, but he doesn't say anything. My sister hands me a shopping cart and leads me to a kind of stunt ramp situated on a road bridge (those elevated highways you sometimes see). Utilizing my dream control again, I float myself up to the ramp. I get butterflies in my stomach but I try to push them down by reminding myself that I'm dreaming. There are some people, mostly guys, doing flips and dangerous stunts on the ramp. One guy lands in the nearby lake/ocean with a broken bike. My cart has turned into a bike and, even though I still know I'm dreaming, do not want to take such a risk.

There is a slight improvement in dream control here (especially the floating part) but you see I have trouble controlling DCs (In childhood I had dreams where the DCs would scare me, either by popping in front of me suddenly, speaking loudly in gibberish, or I would get the eerie feeling I was being watched or followed.)

EDIT (9/17/17):
I was walking down the street with a group of friends that don't actually exist when an alien spaceship crashed right in front of me and turned into a robot. My friends were running and screaming all over the place as the creature was shooting lasers everywhere. I then looked at my hand. Instantly I said out loud "this is a dream, isn't it?" due to the fact that my hand was twice as long as it usually was and appeared to have shorter fingers. I then gained lucidity and decided to roam this world that I would only be in for what felt like a few hours.

fragment #1 : i was at a school, trying to take revenge on a bully.
there was a hole in his pants. i snuck over there. "what are you doing?" he asked.
"nothing, i..uh..." i said. he then shoved my head to the ground. he stared at me angrily for a few
seconds, but then smiled as he said "nice attempt, kid" and let me free "but the next time you try that, you'll be
on the ground crying."

fragment #2 : i am a big fan of amy rose from sonic the hedgehog. remembering that in my dream, I
go to my next-door-neighbor's house. I think of a good reason why she would meet me, and then i concentrated on the door. i opened the door, and out came an old lady. she started to lick my arm.
"and now for the last of the glue..." she said. "done."


so... yeah. that one backfired on me.

EDIT(9/17/17):
Fragment #3: This one is basically a vivid scrap. I remember my friends and I were stuck in a maze of glowing light cubes, attempting to find a clear exit.

I went to bed at 23.30 and woke up several times between I think 07.00 and 08.00. I finally decided to get out of bed at 08.30.
I didn't take any notes in between (lazy & stupid).

Laptop
I've walked towards a shop and I'm now in it. I'm buying a new laptop. I've found one that i want and I take the box with me. I don't handle it carefully enough and it bounces on the floor for a moment, though from a very low height, so it should be fine. I put the box in my black laptopbag and I start walking towards a specific point in the shop. An employee stops me as he sort of believes that I want to steal the laptop. I'm about to go pay for this. I open up my laptop bag and I see the box with the laptop in it, as well as my older, scratched up Asus. I take the box out to ensure that I took the right one. It's a Toshiba or a HP. Huh? I really thought I took the right one, but apparently I didn't. Glad that that employee stopped me, else I would've bought the wrong one, though it comes very cheap (around €14). I put the Toshiba/HP on a table and open it. It's really a hideous looking thing. I don't want to buy this anymore. I've already configured it with my name and everything though. I need to figure out how to get rid of that so that I can return the laptop.

Friend's place
I'm in the house of one of my close friends, though it looks quite different from reality. I'm with several of my close friends. I'm sitting in what seems like a sleeping bag with one of the staff members of my Indonesian uni. We're fooling around a bit. Considering that I have a girlfriend [in this dream I'm still/again together with my first girlfriend] I am taking things entirely too far. We're in the middle of the hallway and it feels like we're sitting on an unused eastern style toilet, which feels dry. My friend's sister or mom opens the door to the actual toilet, which is also eastern style. Yuck. Someone mentions that there is a western style toilet upstairs.

Still in the same place I think. I have a bowl of food and one of my friends keeps trying to take food from me. Damnit man, let me eat in peace. He says that I can't eat this anyway since I'm a vegetarian. I tell him that I'm eating everything but the meat. He starts eating the meat of my plate. I'm starting to get really annoyed now. I let him know that he can have the meat after I'm done.

At some point in the dream I think the staff member is gone and my girlfriend is present. I act very distant towards her.

Saggy shelf
I'm in my student room, though it looks quite different. I'm not sure who I'm with, but that person starts to lean on one of the low shelfs on my wall. Don't do that! Too late. The shelf sags until it pretty much hits the ground. I'm very annoyed by this. I specifically remember thinking that my shoes won't fit underneath the shelf anymore. I try to prop it back up several times, but it's not working.

Superman
There's a guy without superpowers who is taking on Superman. He has a cell build for him, with walls covered in kryptonite paint, though he calls it slightly differently. It's in a tower. Superman is outside, x-raying through the tower to find the guy. He eventually does and he falls right into the trap, bursting into the kryptonite room. His uniform is a bit different from reality. Also, if he wants to use his laser vision he needs to charge it, which is visible from a 'thermometre' filling up on the front of his suit.

FA
I dreamt I got an email from the person I'm supposed to be interviewing in reality tomorrow. That person apologised for not going to be able to make it. I think the reason was that it was the birthday of one of the colleagues and thus everyone would be unavailable. I also recall checking my phone after waking up to see if it was a dream or not, and seeing the message on my lockscreen (so I had an FA).

I just remembered part of a dream. I think it is from last night.

I was in a fancy grocery store carrying a basket around. It was crowded. There were several people pouring out free wine samples out of teapots. Everyone was so happy and drunk because they were getting wine samples from all the stations. There were so many different flavors of wine and I was thinking about buying some.

I Went To Sleep One Night Hoping To Get A Lucid Dream. I Did, And It All Started In Some Strange Dark Realm. I Began To Fall, Only To See Black And Wake Up To A Group Of 5 In Cyan Armor. They All Were Fighting This Other Guy, But I Couldn't Tell Why. Later, I Was In Another Realm Again, This Time Back At My House, But Something Wasn't Right. I Found My Self Playing One Of The Games I Normally Play, But The Health Bar Was Different. I Found Out I Was Dreaming, Went Out, But Stopped For A Moment. I Looked At The Sunset Over The Trees And Thought "What If The Sunset In Waking Life Occured Like This?" And Then, I Started To Slowly Start To Fly And Said To My Self "I Can Fly", And It Worked! I Flew All Around And All Went Well, I Soared All Through The Sky Until I Saw A House And Bumped Into It. That's When I Woke Up And Thought "This Dream Will Never Be Forgotten".

NON-DREAM
DREAM
LUCID
FALSE AWAKENING
NIGHTMARE
FRAGMENT
(Unconnected dreams indicated by a *. Connected dreams indicated by a •. )

First night of CAT, woke up in the night but I said to myself "Perservere!"

I am in the first week so I won't be getting any LDs for a bit, just resetting my circadian clock. I also had a slice of colby jack 30 mins before bed. This dream was recorded around 6:20 AM.

*Lilo and Stitch have traded species, with Stitch being a human and Lilo being an alien. Alien Lilo looks like a cross between the Thing and The Incredible Hulk.