false awakening

Color legend: Non-dream Dream Lucid

Lucid #186: Michael Scott Vs. the Zombies

The cast of The Office is sitting around in a big room that looks like a warehouse with a random bathroom stall stuck in the middle of it. Michael Scott is attempting to give a rousing speech to cheer everyone up but instead just makes everyone feel really uncomfortable.

“Cheer up, gang,” says Michael, flashing a toothy grin. Everyone slinks down in their seats. Stanley looks back disdainfully. “Everyone, you are about to experience one of the best things about my youth… the 1980s.”

The scene changes into a video game where I’m now playing as Michael Scott from a first-person perspective. I see some cash lying on the seat of a toilet. As I gingerly try to pick up the money, I realize that I can’t take it because my cash is already “full” in this game.

There’s an abrupt shift into the front of a restaurant. An unseen female voice narrates: “In this scenario, Michael must act violent and unstable so he can gather information about <something something>...” I see a zombie shuffling around at the base of a short set of nearby stairs. I vault over the rail and kick him in the face mid-leap. This is great fun. I remember my intent to have a lucid dream, so I decide that I can’t get too into this video game or I might forget. And it finally hits me that I’m dreaming right now.

A huge, balding zombie comes shambling toward me and I punch him in the face. I leave the room and move into another hallway, relaxing my mind until the zombies stop coming toward me and instead just pass harmlessly by without paying me much attention.

I reach a bend in the hall, rub my hands together, and move toward a large, open area. Just then, a female zombie puts a hand on my shoulder and groans. I’m relaxed about this and say, “You,” (I point at her), “are a dream character!” She smiles, her face changing until she looks like my high school English teacher. Then she walks away.

The room I’ve entered is a huge atrium with a glass roof, 5 or 6 stories high. Two young women, maybe college age, are seated at a table handing out some kind of literature. I’m mildly curious what they have to say but I see a nighttime street scene just through the door. I’m having huge trouble remembering my goals so I think it’d be better to get outside.

I get outside, start to fly, and then abruptly have a false awakening back in bed. I’m staring at the alarm clock. Oddly, rather than showing the time, it’s counting down from 9. I have no idea what this means. I hear Wife whimpering in her sleep next to me. She says, “If people look into my brain, they’ll steal my ideasssssss…”

The alarm clock hits 1, goes dark for a moment, and then starts at 9 again. I realize that I’m still dreaming, but it’s just a moment before I wake up for real.

Various non-lucid scenes: two immortals discussing faith and religion while rummaging around one's kitchen; the owner of the kitchen and her mother are both christian, and I'm surprised and intrigued since I hadn't found that to be very compatible with physical immortality. Rose and Martha meeting all the past incarnations of the Doctor in the TARDIS. There's some fantastical mystery involving spirits, and I was tasked with demonstrating the rational, physical origins of the events - the drama with the spirits is still considered real, but as a sort of reflection of the physical world, not actually physically present there - however, now that I believe it's all been solved and wrapped up, I'm asked a series of questions that force me to go through and reevaluate all my conclusions, suggesting there may be another answer. IWTV references, thinking about Lestat's life-has-no-more-meaning-what-if-i-could-give-you-a-new-life speech, resulting in a bit of an IWTV-themed power trip. That ended in an unpleasant party, which I left and returned to my IRL home.

In my home, looking out the window I've noticed various construction or roadwork or similar workers out in the street, and one of them's walking up the driveway. I move away from the windows since I need to go put some proper clothes on, but before I can do anything more than that I hear two of them inside the house, just in the next room. I'm aware that when I deliberately moved away from the windows, they'd mistakenly believed there was no one home and came inside. So I step into sight now and ask them wtf. They're surprised to see someone home. They talk briefly to each other. One of them says, "He's not going to forget. How do you want to do this?" After that, the two of them raise tools as if they're weapons - one of them's holding a hammer, the other a mallet - and although I'm aware this is a dream (I'm thinking as if I knew it all along but felt no need to act on that knowledge before now), I have difficulty defeating them or removing them. In that case, I decide to summon up something to remove them for me - I think of a dragon. One doesn't appear, but instead, as a direct result of that thought, I have a feeling that I think of as "a part of me that hasn't been fed," and with a voice much deeper than my own I say "Get the fuck out of my home," after which I see fire. Then I'm looking at the fire from a distance - I'm somewhere outside, and neither the burning cottage I'm looking at nor the scenery has any resemblance to my IRL home, I've completely changed scenes. Despite this, I believe that I've succeeded in removing those two from the house and feel satisfied.

False awakening. I'm in a bed - not one I'm familiar with IRL, though I believed it was in a relative's house - and I reach for my dream journal. I can't find an empty page to write in, and I realize this is an old journal, one I'd already filled up. A few pages have been torn out.

I am in bed (unusual because I sleep on the floor with a foam pad) and feel like I'm about to enter a dream. My whole body starts rocking on its own, a lot of rotation. Buzzing calm sensation in my head. I fall off the bed due to the rocking, climb back in, and have bits of dreams appear to me, I feel them and see them. Dreams within the dream. In the bits of dreams, I know I'm dreaming, having just entered into them, but being so brief, don't do much with it.

Morning of February 12, 2014. Wednesday.

Dream #: 17,222-01. Reading time (optimized): 2 min.



My dream had a precognitive thread as a suspicious frame appeared on the dream journal website. It implied how you could preserve your anonymity by signing your name to a petition. “Preserve your anonymity by signing your name?” I blocked the source site.

---

In my dream, my older sister Marilyn had passed away. I would not call it precognitive as I already had one that revealed a lot of what was going on before I learned of her illness.

In real life, it seems unusual how so many people I had known were having issues (one of my friends seems to appear about twenty years older than me even though we are the same age). Even my jovial best friend Toby had a heart attack, which I learned the same day a brother wrote to me that our sister would not make it another day. On this same day, I also learned that a female classmate around my age (born the same year) had died in 2008.

---

In my dream, my brother-in-law, Bob, is going through the house and working out what to do with everything. He is dismantling a small wooden cradle. I wonder why he does not ask if I want it. Zsuzsanna and I have a baby, but perhaps I should not say anything out of respect. Sister Marilyn never had children but did do a lot of babysitting. I get the impression that he is dismantling their crib because there is no hope of having children as a couple now. It may be a play on “cradle to grave.”

My brother-in-law talks for about ten minutes. I feel unusual being in the house. My mother is gone, my father had died years previously, my sister is gone (in my dream), and Toby is in trouble. There is a brief appearance by sister Carol who tells me of Marilyn’s death (but she had already died in real life).

He is talking with an unfamiliar girl, telling her he will be using many aliases. (He cannot read or write in real life). I am unsure what his plan is. Perhaps he intends to get loans (a play on “alone?”) with the people at the businesses or banks thinking they are communicating with several individuals. I think this will cause him to get too many different bills for the same thing, though he does not seem to mind that prospect.

He announces “R” names for picking up his mail, and the girl writes them on a notepad. There is already a stack of letters. At least two include a petition regarding privacy, overdue bills, and possibly business models and donation requests. There are no other addresses. He will receive any mail with his aliases (as with “general delivery”).

“Ronald? Or is that too much like McDonald?” I suggest.

There is a short pause. My brother-in-law calmly says, “Yeah…” and leaves via the front door. I feel foolish over the name recommendation and slightly regretful at not giving him additional possible aliases.

---

Color legend: Non-dream Dream Lucid

Lucid #185: Kaleidoscope

It’s morning time and I’m preparing to give my 2-year-old son “R” a shower. This strikes me as strange because R usually takes baths and Wife’s the one who usually bathes him. I dimly recall my intent to have a lucid dream and after thinking for a moment, accept that I’m having one right now.

The layout of the room’s exactly like waking life (so far as I can tell) and there’s a window high on the wall near the shower. I hop up to it, plant my hands on the sill, and phase my head and shoulders through to the outside. It’s morning, just after dawn, and the sky glows reddish-orange.

As I’m preparing to fly off, R says, “Daddy, I want to go with you but I don’t know how to do that.” (I take this to mean that he doesn’t know how to phase.)

“That’s okay, buddy,” I respond. “This is a dream.”

For some reason I have a surge of anxiety that the dream won’t stay stable and of course my vision gets a little crazy. I leap the rest of the way through the glass and fly for just a moment before I freeze in mid-air. Seconds later, my vision goes black and I’m in the void.

I rub my hands together for a moment and then decide to change scenes by plummeting downward to the ground that I imagine is still outside. I go rocketing downward but as I hit what would be the ground, there’s a “whomp!” sound and a puff of air as I pass right through. I continue accelerating faster and faster until I crash into…

...my bed. I’m lying on my stomach, my head turned to the left. My eyes are closed and it completely feels like I’m awake, but I’m suspicious, so I try to see through my eyelids. This works and after a few seconds I’m looking out at my bedroom. The center portion of my vision swirls and blends together like a kaleidoscope. I wonder if the effect will change if I open my eyes, but I decide not to mess with anything just now.

I will myself to roll out of my body and transition into an OBE, but I can’t seem to make it happen. The kaleidoscope vision effect continues for a while until the dream eventually fades out.

Well I don't feel I should add the near WILD and DILD to my count Screw it. A lucid is a lucid. Even if I'm not happy with my LDs, I had an CRAZY wonderful morning of dreaming.

Prebed: moderate amount of beer
WBTB: Galantamine 8mg, Choline 400mg, Alpha GPC - 200mg

4:37AM - My Assassination

I am a woman in a red dress and I feel as if I am beautiful and sexy. I need to leave my house but there are people trying to kill me. I have a team of body guards around my house with guns. It's time to leave but we know there is a sniper someplace in the hills. My house is open with lots of glass but there is an exterior wall that I'm going to use as cover. When I go out I catch a glimpse of the sniper. He sees me and I duck behind the wall. A bullet chips off some of the top brick. I run for it from the end of the wall to a tree and bushes. I hear gun fire and dive for cover. Somehow I take a bullet to my lower back on the left side. The pain is horrible! (This is the worst dream pain I have ever felt. Or at least I perceived it that way.) I lie face down in agony and rage. I repeatedly shout, "KILL THE SON OF A BITCH!" As I lie there with my eyes closed, I think, This is how I die. And I accept that. There are some more random thoughts and images as I wake up.

5:52AM - WILD - Vibes

I wake from a dream I do not recall. A failed WILD attempt. I go back into WILD mode and get vibrations. I spend a lot of time floating and turning with strong vibrations but I can't seem to do much with it. I become bored and annoyed so I try something different. I wait in the void and relax my mind focusing on meditative awareness. Soon the vibes stop and I wake up. I try to WILD again but fail.

The Metallic Werewolf War

A non lucid dream forms. My wife and put my son in something like his high chair. I look up and we are in some class room. There is a young woman arguing with some monstrous, metallic, transformer looking, werewolf about the war between there kind. The woman keeps pointing out the atrocities committed against her people and the werewolf keeps countering with, "But it was WAR."

I think about the war and the dream changes. I am in some post apocalyptic area. The buildings are rubble and the sky is black with smoke. I see the woman, who I now realize looks like Maggie from Walking Dead. Glenn is next to her, but his left hand is a cannon made from nano-tech. He is shooting fiery energy at the enemy. I look at who he is shooting at and see that we are on top of what looks like a cobblestone version of a huge dam or fortress wall. There is a horde of the shiny black metallic werewolf creatures battling their way towards us. I wake up.

6:51AM - #277 - DILD - The Wine Bottle

I am getting gas. Someone pulls up in a flatbed pickup with various sticks and stones for sale. My wife wants to buy some for crafts but I tell her no. I tell her just go outside and look for your own for free.

I turn and now I am in a Wal-Mart. I see a bottle of wine on the shelf. The lettering is crystal clear but makes no sense. "ISOP?" Somehow this triggers lucidity. I am glad for it and I turn away trying to remember a goal. The dream that was so vivid and clear is now getting dark and blurry. I fight against it and begin rubbing my hands. I look down an isle but its just a blur of color now. I focus on my hands but its not use. I fall on my face into the void. I try to stay calm and focus on awareness. I tell myself that no matter what happens I will stay aware. I am falling and turning slighty. I wait.

Then I am fooled by a false awakening. I try recalling the dream in the dream (or was I wake?) but fall back to sleep.

Vampire Sisters

Now I am refinishing the hardwood floors of my house. I am nearly done and some vampire woman walk in on my wet floors. I am annoyed but they are fighting. Another vampire woman comes in and tells them to stop. She says something like, "We are not fighting each other, but our greatest enemy." Then she looks alarmed pointing at one of the vampires sisters. "What clearance did you give her?!"

I have a vision of a slice of supreme pizza on the floor. It some how represented the vampire sister in question. There are alien looking arthropod beings long tongues or labrum like a mosquito. They put their labrum into the pizza. I get the feeling like they are some how infecting her mind or possessing her. I wake up.

8:25AM Tidal Wave

I am at a rocky beach with my wife wading into the ocean. I keep reaching into the rocks and pulling out oysters. I easily pry them open and eat them raw. The third one is ridiculously huge and the texture is like the cheese on a pizza. The taste is like canned oysters. I try to get my wife to eat one but she is grossed out and scared of what might be in the water. (She would) I think about that and say I am only scared of sharks. My wife screams and I look. There is a huge tidal wave coming in at a slow motion. The effect makes it see even bigger. We run a fast as we can as the water comes rushing in behind us. Water is at our feet as we get into a random car. I am trying to start it as the water takes us and the car away. I wake up.

Fragments

Horrible acne

I am tilling the garden

Date: 06 Feb

Wbtb: 1/3 latte

I have a number of short lds that I chain through the void. Summary

LD: In my old room, stabilize by touching furniture. Notice that lamps are on. Find a newspaper I try to read with difficulty for a while. The lamps go off, I become blind and then the dream blacks to the void. I stay there for a bit, waiting for the next dream.

LD: In a car, get out of the car, notice my reflection in the windows. Hair is the same, but it gets in my face, I make a ponytail. I want to change the scene, try splitting the space, I feel another place, but nothing visually changes. I get bored, allow myself to fall back. This yields a number of sensations as well as weightlessness. The dream fades to the void. I wait for the next scene.

LD: I find myself in a nice hotel lobby, bright flowers decorate the place. Some guest DCs, a monk at the distance catches my attention, I go to check it out. The monk is gone but a few DCs are paying their respect to a metal statue. I have some mischievous thoughts, but bow down instead. There are two more statues (not in service), metal turtles. The dream fades to black, I stay still for DEILD but it takes a while.

Review in head, feeling tired, I fall asleep.

DILD+: on and off lucidity, FA, in- dream wild and sexy time

DILD: I find myself in this familiar place and start looking at the plants near the windows, try some tk on them, but it doesn't work. I think maybe there's a reason for this. Then I turn to examine the room, everything looks kind of blurry and unstable. My attention is caught by those lamps - three lamps, I try to identify if they come from a memory or just random ones, it's like my vision almost splits in two and there is a fourth lamp, but I try to focus more and they're back to three. I mentally make a note of the bad quality, then go down the stairs. I immediately regret doing so, because I run into the B6 DC and she charges at me. At this moment, I become quite concerned that this might truly be some sort of evil entity just using her form to terrorize me. It's just too active, so lively in the eyes and so aggressive. I have no choice but to face her. I think I say a few words, but her mood remains the same. Then I decide this is a good opportunity to do my breathing and concentrate on that. I do this for a while. In the meantime, she seems to have changed her mind about attacking me and is weeping.

Memory gap, possibly another blackout.

DILD: On the street now and I see this empty space in the horizon and recall I wanted to use something like this to draw a mountain. A bit uncerain if the dream will last long enough, with all the blackouts and instability before. I decide to go ahead with the summoning, yet before I do any motions with my hands I notice that the space isn't quite empty. It looks like in the very distance, as if seeing through the fog is something that looks like a large mountain. As I keep staring at it, it becomes much clearer and closer, till I find myself looking at a solid spot of the mountain covered with grass. The surroundings have changed without me noticing and I am at the foot of this huge mountain. I cover the majority of it with snow until I feel it's enough for the task. Then I examine the slope, which is initially way too steep to enable any upward movements. This worries me but I move to a part of it and feeling very excited summon a pair of ski and ski poles.

I totally can't believe the summon worked as I have nothing to do with this sport. Anyways, I start gliding up the slope, which by then is less steeper. Contrary to my expectations from real life, this is not as hard and actually pretty pleasurable. I glide upwards the slope which goes up and down and it feels as if I am on a roller coaster. Then I reach the top of the mountain and feel adventurous, contemplate on jumping from the top or skiing down. Yet before I can decide what to do, the momentum carries me forward and I continue moving in the air. I notice that I feel no switch in sensations from gliding on the mountain surface to this weird air movement. My mood is great, I gaze to what's ahead and not below me. It is a beautiful view of green plains, with a weird building with one-two statues in the distance and a very large gray palace next to it.

At this time it clicks this could so well be the palace I wanted to summon (while reviewing tasks during wbtb). I'm still skeptic that will be able to make it and complete the entire task but give it a go. Don't remember flying for a long distance, it's like the palace became closer as I started to focus on the steps of the task. I go in what looks like museum palace lobby, there's some thematic furniture, long red carpet or velvet curtains, don't pay too much attention to them. I immediately think dad. That's actually quite easy and there he stands in one of the side corridors. I say a few words to him, to mentally confirm this is going the way it has to be. Then start looking for the beast but there is no one in sight.

The room I'm in is pretty small and there are stairs going down and I go to the lower floor, looking for the beast. I run into an old Chinese man that I try to make look scary but no matter how much effort I put into this, he stays the same. I obviously start making scary faces and roar in an attempt to distort his features into evil ones, but he looks scared as hell and is shivering. I can't believe my DC is afraid of me and where is that beast? A couple of DCs that I don't pay much attention to appear and there it is - a disgusting beast. It looks like one H. Bosch's animals - a mixture of different animals, like a large pink pig and echidna, strange fur and the nose of a mole. It also is spitting something poisonous from its month and hissing. I so much regret not being able to summon my much now friendly looking lion man at this point.

Disgusted, I approach the wild creature, tell him I love him (it) and kiss it near what looks like its mouth. I remain with my eyes closed and wait a bit, but can still feel this thing aggressively making breathing noises and moving around. I know the curse has to be broken but nothing happens, and I can't take the little bugger any more. It's somewhat smaller now - the size of a cat maybe and I throw it away where it gets under some furniture. That thing keeps making the sounds, but looks wounded and in the next moment I see that it gives existence to a DC that comes out from under the furniture. To my amusement, it is a female classmate. Good enough I suppose. The dream soon fades.

1. [Non-Lucid]
I'm trying to leave this house but there's hundreds of steps that I can't get down in my wheelchair.
My dad and a few others get an idea, so they built a canoe the seats on the side so people can sit in them and steer.
My dad picked me up and laid me down in the canoe and then we set off at speed down the steps and into a river at the bottom, I can feel the water spraying me as we navigate the river.

2. [Non-Lucid]
I'm outside with a group of people when all of a sudden in the distance of the dark sky 2 twisters start to form...then they duplicate like from the movie "The day after tomorrow" kinda, so now there's 4 twisters (They looked a little different from what I have seen they actually look like, kinda looked like vanilla ice cream swirling around).
We all rush inside as to take cover, I take these 3 girls to a secure place, I think underground, for some reason I separate 1 of them and take here to like a side office room. the other 2 girls are wondering why I did that, then a huge steel girder came flying through the ceiling, the girls are now freaking out.

-----------------

Fragments:
Some guy chasing me with a knife.
Me trying to get help, panicked in a classroom.
Driving a car trying to find the motorway, I go the wrong way and have to turn around.
A very hilly area with very steep paths.
A yellow pencil with black vertical lines, the lead is sharpened well.

Dream 1 : [COLOR="#008080"]I sit on the couch asking myself what I should do. I wanna jump out the window but the dream is so vivid and I say that I better go like normal people do even though I'll miss the fun. In my house, there are many bats and tall figures. I get scared and I wake up.[/COLOR]

Dream 2 : [COLOR="#008080"]I'm back in my apartment. I do a RC, I stabilize and it's all good for now. I wanna jump out the window but, it's way too vivid again so I say no. I wanna go downstairs but I wake up.[/COLOR]

Dream 3 : [COLOR="#008080"]I try to keep my calm so this one will be a successful one. I do a RC and my ring finger is chopped. I stabilize a lot and get ready to go. I go downstairs and I see a person that looks a lot like Gavin. He has a bag in his hand and he couldn't stop smiling. I greet him and ask him why he's here. He says that he waits for a person. I say : Okay, wanna go outside ? He refuses and says that he is really busy but gives me what looks like a card. I go outside and the first thing I see is mom crying near my grandmother's coffin. She suddenly stands up and goes away.I say that mom would be really happy if my grandmother was alive. I do some kind of spell (I have no idea what I just did) and she wakes up. I then run to the street and I try getting cars to drive over me. The cars looked pretty cool though. I see a taxi and I get in it. I tell the person to go to McDonalds(because I wanted to destroy it <.<) The guy smiles a lot and gives me another card. When I arrive, I'm shocked. There is no McDonalds but a little hut and a really big cross with all kind of images on it. A person tells me that I should go to see the cross and I get really surprised to look at it for some reason. I then go to the hut and there's someone so I ask the person what happened here. She says something about a war and she also says that this place will soon be burned because of someone. The place suddenly bursts into fire and I get something that looked like a stick to put in the middle of the fire(Apparently that would stop the fire) I put the stick in the middle and the fire stops. The leader yells at me and says that I need to be killed and puts some of his slaves to chase me. I run really fast without getting tired. The dream skips to an U.F.O and some pokemons and then I wake up.[/COLOR]

Dream 4 : [COLOR="#008080"]I'm back in my apartment and this time I stabilize . I go downstairs to see my grandmother crying near her own coffin(scary as fuck). She yells at me that she wants to go back, I get really scared and I reverse the spell so she can go back into her coffin. She goes back into it and says goodbye and that she'll miss me and all kind of things. I see a guy running to me. IT'S FUCKING KRIS. He looks amazing, cooler than usual. He says that he's been searching for me a lot.And then, of course, I wake up. [/COLOR]

Three DILDs in one night with a false awakening while attempting to DEILD. In all of the dreams I had near perfect control and everything was amazingly clear. I did not have to give any verbal commands or look at/rub my hands. I also achieved my first LD a little over a week ago, a second a couple days after that, and nothing until last night. All of this after about a month of ADA and self awareness practice.

DILD One (0350):
I am with two girls that I do not recognize in a neighborhood with several parked cars along the streets and surrounded by a mixture of houses and apartments. We are standing outside an apartment complex. There is grass in between the curbs and the sidewalks.

I suddenly become lucid although I have no idea why. I remember that I wanted to feel something in the environment during this period of lucidity because looking at my hands in my two previous LDs have had little success in stabilization. I kneel down and feel the ground. There are two distinct bumps that I feel with my index finger. I am very surprised at how realistic the bumps feel. They have many small bumps on them that I can feel very clearly. The environment is super clear at this point.

I now feel very happy and exclaim to the two female DCs that I am dreaming and as I do I jump on the car right next to me to show them. From there I jump onto a car about 20 or 30 feet down the road. I turn around and look back at them and the apartment. I then jump onto the roof of the apartment which was quite an enormous leap, but it was effortless.

The two girls followed me up and then I decide that I wanted to reach the very top of the apartments because all of a sudden I am not at the top but I do not think to look up to see where the top went. I start to ascend the apartments by doing a combination of jumping and climbing. The two girls follow me every step of the way. Along the way I am acutely aware of how the roofing tiles feel on my hands as I touch them. Very grainy and some moss as well. It felt like my hands were getting dirtier and dirtier. I finally reach the top and look down. I believe I must have woken up right after this.


DILD Two (0500):
I am with with this random hooker who lives on a farm. I suppose she is around my age. I am kind of just hanging out. She has an advertisement for her hourly rate (something like $490 per hour). She gets all kinds of random customers, although I have no interest, I am kind of just observing things (but not actually watching her have sex with anyone).

I tell her that her price is absurd, she agrees but tells me that she still gets customers. I am in her barn/house now. There is another girl in there and a fat older man with a mustache (presumably their dad). I am walking through the room naked and shortly thereafter it dawns on me that I am dreaming although there was nothing that occurred which made me realize it (I don’t think it was because I was naked, but it could have been); I just randomly knew.

I stopped walking and touched this wooden picnic table to feel the texture for stabilization. I then climbed on it because I wanted to get a good look at everything to see how realistic it all looked. I saw random wrapped presents of various colors, balloons, and some wooden beams which ran to the ceiling with Christmas lights hanging around in random places. Colors really started to pop out at me. The Christmas lights really reflected off of the presents in a realistic and beautiful way. The colors I noticed most were reds and greens, with an emphasis on the reds. Everything looked so real, it was astonishing.

I wanted to explore but I knew that this barn/house was not the place that I wanted to do it at. So I started to walk towards the door. I passed the other girl (the non-hooker), stopped and grinned, and told her to take her shirt off. She looked offended so I grabbed her shirt and took it off myself and squeezed a bare tit. They weren’t amazing tits but it was still hilarious and I got a kick out of my sudden splurge into anarchy.

I as I laughed I continued on and reached the door out of the barn/house. It was nearly pitch black outside. I could see dim stars in the sky. I decided that I would leave the area by flying away. I jumped up in the air but a part of me for some reason knew that it wouldn’t work, and therefore I could not fly. Disappointed, I decided that I would walk back into the barn and figure it out from there since I could see better in there.

I go back over to the door to the barn/house, open it and walk through, and suddenly I am back outside where I just came from. I realized the dream world was starting to collapse because things were starting to get pretty blurry. Knowing I was about to lose the dream, I attempted to DEILD and I immediately laid down and closed my eyes.


DEILD One (ALMOST!):
A few seconds after closing my eyes from my previous dream I feel myself become aware in my real body. I can feel my hands closed together across my stomach. Hoping to induce sleep paralysis, I did not move a muscle or open my eyes. Almost immediately, I felt tingling all over my body and knew that my body was undergoing sleep paralysis.

I waited until the tingling stopped. For a few moments I was expecting to be in another dream world automatically but then I remembered that I have to open my eyes first. It was weird though because it felt like I was still in my real body. I open my eyes and I am in an exact replica of my room. Such an exact copy in fact that I don’t even bother to reality check because I am convinced that I am awake (except for a light being on at the computer desk; doh!).

My hands are still crossed on my stomach and I look around. My wife, who is sleeping next to me in real life as well, tells me that what I had just attempted (the DEILD) was a dangerous method and that I should be careful (but how could she have known; stupid me!). Since I believe that I had woken up I close my eyes and go back to sleep.

A few minutes later I wake up for real and the room is naturally very dark and I then realize that I was made a fool of by my own mind; HOW FRUSTRATING!!!!!!!!!!

DILD Three (0710)
I am on top of this building looking down at these men who are telling me how much they are going to kill me. Suddenly I am right next to them and they keep going on about it. I tell them that since I am dreaming, they can’t possibly hurt me. Now suddenly I am about 100 yards away from them with my AR-15. I adjust the stock and look down the holographic sight and start shooting at them.

Shooting seems very realistic, much different from video games. I barely miss one of them my first couple of shots. Then one dashes out and tries to close the distance between us and I continuously shoot at him. I hit him several times until he drops. Another one of them is behind me so I turn around and shoot him several times until he dies. He seemed to be in agony as he fell. I believe that I was only semi-lucid for this part of the dream because I know if I was fully lucid, I wouldn’t have bothered with the firefight at all and just would have went exploring.

After the firefight I became fully aware, possibly because of what I said to the DC earlier. I remembered a trick I wanted to try in order to get to somewhere really fast. I jumped up to this really high ledge effortlessly and looked at this blue latticed wall about 2 inches thick. My goal was to draw a door on the wall and open it, Beetlejuice style.

I think to myself that I need chalk, so I reach my hands into my pockets and feel around. I find a really small piece of white chalk. It’s not as big as I wanted but I conclude that it will suffice. I then begin to draw a door on the wall with the chalk, skipping over the gaps due to the lattice pattern. Once I finish the borders of the door, I draw a big circle on the left for the knob and begin to fill it in.

Once it’s finished, I put my hand up to the handle, look away (so my expectations of what should look real don’t screw up this experiment), turn my hand as if I’m turning the knob and pull out. As I pull out the door comes out perfectly. It was shaped exactly how I drew it. I was incredibly excited that it worked. But since I could already see through the wall because of the lattice, it did not go anywhere.

I then really wanted to find a wall that was solid in order to open up a portal to another place. I turn my head to my right, and suddenly I’m staring at the back of my parents house. I go up to the door, look through the window on the door. Inside I see their two cats. The gray one (Holly) was looking at me. I decided to go in, so I pushed my face on the glass and willed myself to phase through the door. It was a weird feeling, and I felt some resistance, but it worked. The cat looked frightened but didn’t run.

Inside, I looked around. I hear my parents talking in the kitchen. Several of their small lights are on. For the most part everything looks just like it really does. Then my mom notices me and is surprised to see me. The dream ends soon after.

Something interesting. Okay, so two people are talking for a little bit. The “owner” (became a god of the nearby town or something I don’t really know) of this giant white palace I can only describe as a square coliseum with no bottom says she needs to go shopping. After she leaves, the other guy, who is joined by two other people now, breaks some breakable terrain that kind of looks like the stone blocks from ssb Brawl. I am going to start to call this guy Patrick of P for the sake of having a name. I don’t remember much of one partner he had, but the other one wore all black. And had a concealing hood that made him/her (I am going to go with her) look like a black blob. She complains that we are going up against bottomless drops and she doesn’t want to go back. Not like I have any idea of how she left hell the first time, but whatever. P wears a really badly made shirt.

At about 9:30 last night I read a mad lib from the internet I filled out, and whenever they asked for a body part, I submitted either cracked anus or red bull wings (like at the end of those commercials. I could always remember this YouTube video; search sse abridged and the first video it is really funny you should watch it. Anyways “[while flying with wings] Oh, no I am going to, oh wait, I had a Red Bull this morning"). The point is Patrick had both qualities, [dont ask me how I knew about the cracked anus part] and despite having just sprouted wings literally, the shirt wasn’t even remotely there; no tear was created. Oh, and that shirt was so unevenly made it went half the way up his ribcage on one side, and went down halfway on his thigh or just his waist I don't remember. Oh, and he wore really generic black sweatpants shorts. As Patrick used this ridiculous machine to slowly float down, (red bull is inconsistent; don’t chance it if you find yourself sprouting wings from Red Bull in your dreams, or do, It’s not my call but it fits this story I guess), he proclaimed that “All want to get back at [the owner] now. This means everything will go my way.” Indeed it did, until that same owner came back. I am thinking "he's messed this up"

“That’s it, you come by, give me your usual talk, and then this happens.”

“Yeah, I’ve guessed I’ve really fucked myself now”

“Listen, I know we are of the same, we both are adventuring, wanting to venture wherever possible to feel all cozy inside, so I’ll pretend this never happened on three conditions; you walk slowly and take loud steps [so he stops trying to break in places, I don’t’ know but I don’t think she says the other two things or I forgot them.]” After climbing out Patrick did actually walk slowly in his nearly-knee-high boots and even comments on how everybody is so worked up about organizing workflow these days even when walking home, they still try to get there as fast as possible, and not even make an attempt to buy groceries or whatever or just enjoy nature on the way. I now take control, and the red bull wears off, I think. Now I help the townsfolk have some fun with my magic tiny dome shooting clawshot. Wth happened here. Cut to a failing family business claiming this week they will run out of spare cash.

I was thinking about this story all day (or so I think) and on the bus home, to which everybody is surprised at me even though I am not doing anything. I think “I can’t wait to write this story” *wakes up*. “wow” Also one other dream I was in school but everybody always takes caution around me. It was because the school was getting paranoid and they noticed I am really good at playing Payday. Third game I dont own that shows up dammit

Legenda
Non-Lucid
Comment


These are non lucid dream

1° dream: I'm at acquapark.. there' is My friend father and i ask him "is too deep the water?" he said to me "no go and have fun this pool has different water flush & even hi-fi stereo" i watch with perplexity first but the environment carry away my attention and when i jump in the water i began to float in the water. e the different spectacular waterflush go in my eyes... i was in proximity of realizing to be in the dream cause of the double consciousness.. eye dream-phisical dream... but then...TaDa.. false awakening in the next dream...

2°dream: i'm in my bedroom at grandma's home liying in bed. i'm going (for no known reason) to do split.. at the begin i was inable but few second later the leg split completely and i feel a freedom in the body.. & then i difficult wake up cause of the inability ofopening eyes.... Mmmhhh probably i have to adjust my mental predisposition to do DEILD.....

Yeah for me that's enough i am trying to do ADA these days and i can definitely says that work very well cause i have did this 1yrs ago and have plenty of dreams & lucid.

So before this one I had another non lucid dream that I got up and took notes on around 4. Went back to bed, had this and woke up 3 minutes before my alarm at 5.

It started as me watching a gun fight out side, there was green grass around and it was a little hilly. Somehow it morphed into me in a gun fight and the background was now a convenience store. I had a hand gun and was taking people out left and right. I wound up getting an uzi from one of them and took some more out. Again I had a hand gun and there was a guy with a plastic badge hanging from his pocket with glasses. He was suspicious so I took him out. It didn't seem like my bullets were doing much to him but they took him down regardless. I got a box of ammunition off of him and was going to reload my gun. I ejected the clip and looked at it. It was a strange clip that went from small to big and back to small to big again. I wasn't sure how to get the bigger bullets past the smaller opening. I realized that if I put the clip back in my gun and pulled it out again that I could will it to the size of the bullet that I had in the box. I had to find out what size the bullet was in the box so I looked at the box to read the size. As I was focusing on the letters on the box (which were very out of focus), instantly I was in a bed reading a tag on a pillow I believe. This was a sort of false awakening but I already knew it was a dream at this point. I did a RC (hand check) here and realized it was a dream. LUCID: It was very dark in the room and trying to stabilize on my hand was pretty hard. I felt kind of stable in the dream. I got up out of bed after some fighting with the darn covers. To the right was a small window and I contemplated going out that but decided to explore the house to see what house I was in. I went toward the door and opened it. I looked at my hand again to try to get more stable but it was still really dark. There was a hallway to my right and a banister in front of me. I tried to go right but was frozen in place, I couldn't move. After a little stress I woke up. This has happened to me before while I was flying in the dark I couldn't control where I was going. I think that I wasn't stable enough. I totally spaced out on using vocal commands and tactile stabilization techniques. Pretty sucky for my first lucid in about 10 days.

I was with S and H. We were at a theme park and were going to ride some roller coaster. Supposedly it was a roller coaster that H had designed. Because... my high school friend can design a roller coaster I guess.
Anyways, the thing is, I don't really like roller coasters, not because I am scared of them, but because I tend to get sick on them. and usually after just one ride, I am a crabby, headache ridden motion sick wreck or a person. But S and H talked me into it and we get on the coaster.
Anyways we are the only ones riding, S and H are together in the front car, and I am in the second car. The roller coaster starts pulling us uphill and I notice that the roller coaster goes up quite a ways into the air, at least a few hundred feet. It has a red and orange metal track. But other than that doesn't have any design features that are that spectacular. I start to have second thoughts when I notice that I cannot even see the top because it is obscured by some fog. (The dream was overcast.-ish.)
We peak the hill and drop off. But I get none of the uncomfortable feelings that I usually associate with roller coasters, but instead a thrilling free fall followed by an exhilarating turn. (The way a roller coaster should feel.)
I then thought about how I should try to "absorb" the experience and replicate it in a lucid dream. Little did I realize that I was already in a dream, so having that sort of thinking was actually somewhat funny.
I decided to simulate flying in a lucid dream. I tried to imagine what this location would look like without the roller coaster and I put my hands out in front of me in the form of fists, trying to pretend that I was flying like Superman. But, because I was already in a dream, the roller coaster track faded from existence, along with the other cars and my friends. The only thing that didn't fade was the second roller coaster car. Also, the fog cleared and it became sunny out.
I was flying, but I was still strapped in. I was the one keeping the car aloft. And sure, the thing was practically weightless. But I still felt cumbersome. So I broke the latch that was keeping me strapped into my seat, and dropped the coaster car into a nearby lake.
Then the man who built the coaster/ran the theme park came over and started complaining to me. I was just floating there over the lake. He said that he wanted the coaster car recovered from the lake. So I kindly hovered down into the water, and lifted the car up with one arm. I deposited the car on the shore of the lake and the man thanked me.
Something was up, I had to reality check. Even though I was pretty much full lucid. So I decided to land. Next to [where the coaster was] was an open parkland area with some trees. I landed and did a nose pinch RC for a really long time, like ten seconds. It failed, but I was still thoroughly convinced that I was dreaming.
Now I'm going to skip what happened in the dream after this because a.) it's personal. b.) some could find it offensive. c.) it's BORING AS HECK!
So I had a false awakening in my own bedroom. Lost lucidity and woke up not long after that.

Just had a double dream.

Was laying in bed half asleep, then heard my parents in the other room, figured I was in the process of waking up. My dog Rambo wanted out so I got up and went to the door and opened it so he could get out then laid back down in bed. I looked at my desk and laptop from my perch in bed and saw that there was some sort of game being played on the screen. A shooter. And it was playing itself. So I slid back out of bed over to the desk (at the foot of my bed), grabbed the mouse and started taking over for the game. It was a first person shooter, and had pretty decent graphics if you ask me. Stylized, digitized, almost anime. I clicked and fired my gun at the person on screen twice. Then suddenly the screen panned, as if it was a camera mounted on the shoulder of the avatar of the player. The face of the avatar turned from the side of the screen, looked directly at me, and said "I am Glenn Hill Inovar, Conviction Expert." I woke up right after seeing that! Now I am still laying in bed, the room is identical to the previous scene, except the laptop on the desk is closed. I forgot that I only dreamed I let the dog out (he is tiny a teacup yorkie and inside the sleeping bag with me). Since I forgot I didn't actually let him out, I roll over slightly and then "YEARRRRP!" He barks in a high pitch tone. Oops I squashed him, but not hard, he is fine.

Then my dad comes in my room and gives me a cross necklace and I am very happy! Thanks Dad!


Elevator ride for the morning.