lucid

So what happened was I was around where my parents live and it almost looked like around sun set. I was confused on how I got there because I live so far away from them now, but I walked in and noticed a huge tree in the center of the living room. The tree had a gash on the base that probably covered about half of it. I didn't think much of it for some reason but I continued to the upstairs (which my parents house in reality does not have) and it was very dark up there. I walked around as if I knew where everything was and how to get to where lighting was but then I noticed something on a balcony. There was an old woman standing there with her mouth sewn shut and begging me to open it. So, I opened it with a pair of scissors that was conveniently located on the ground beside her. I cut off her stitches and she told me to beware of the tree in the basement. So i was starting to freak out a little at this point and then out of no where a shadowy hand reaches out of the darkness and grabbed the woman by her face and dragged her into the house. I ran after her but I could not find her. So I ran down stairs to look at the tree (for some stupid reason) but I felt like I couldn't control my body. I grabbed a sword and started cutting at the tree, making the gash that was already in it even larger. The next thing I knew I was out on the road and was terrified. I kept saying to myself that I needed to be in the light or it would get me. I still don't know what I meant by "It". Then all the street lights went out and the next thing that happened was that I was on a show, it was either the Dr. Phil show or Dr. Oz. and there were so many lights on me that I felt blinded. there was no chance a shadow was even within 10 feet of me that's how scared I was. Then ( of course) the lights went out and I started to scream. the lights came back on and I was missing an arm. The pain felt so real that I just wanted to die. I woke up after that and my arm was really hurting, it went away after about a half hour but I didn't fall back asleep that night.

After almost a whole night's sleep, I woke up from quite a long dream that I recalled almost every moment of. So I quickly grabbed my dream journal as I know I would begin to quickly forget.

After about 10 mins of writing I thought I might as well try to sleep some more even though I felt wide awake, all the more likely to be lucid right?

And what happened!? I attained lucidity for the first intentional time. Now I'm not overly excited as it was a very low awareness level, but I did 3 reality checks, holding my breath, finger through hand, and flicking light switches, the light switches being the only one to confirm I was sleeping.

Now I know my awareness level was very low because I was unable to have any dream control, and was still fearful of the man banging at my home's front door, and on top of all that, had the first false awakening I can recall, obviously meaning I lost all lucidity.

But I'm still excited!!! All downhill from here right?

My lazy ass took too long to wake up and reach for my dream journal that I decided I couldn't even remember enough to try and write out the dream's story line, but I did mark the date of my first intentional fleeting lucid dream.

Thanks for your help DV!!

PART LUCID LUCID NIGHTMARE FALSE AWAKENING
NOTE: Please read to the end, it gets alot more exciting when the nightmares come. If you have a short attention span just skip to the big red nighmare at the bottom.
This is my third lucid since joining dream views. I wasnt the most lucid Ive had but it was by far the most vivid.
I started off walking through a quiet part of a small town with a very warm climate. The whole dream had a pleasant, warm orange tone.Suddenly I realised I was dreaming. As the thought echoed through my mind a huge wave of vividity swept through intensifying everything around me. I didnt need to do a reality because I was sure it was a dream. All of my muscles and senses felt like I was really using them. Most importantly I felt like I was seeing through my eyes and not just my head. It was extremely vivid.I walked around in the town I created and in my excitement pulled a big smile at a nearby dream character. She was young and wearing a red jumper. She looked slightly confused but just smiled back at me.
I began to explain lucidity to her when suddenly some friends of mine appeared out of no-where. Sadly I hadnt thought about lucid goals for a while in waking life, so I just began to impress my friends with some lucid flying. They were slightly impressed but not as much as they would be in real life.
We then began to walk very quickly and ended up in a huge shopping center (mall). There were hundreds of people all moving around briskly so we carried on through the crowds and then we were in a school. (I had two more dreams about this school later on, but they are incredibly boring so I am not going to write them down)
I was about to think about my lucid goals when a teacher asked me to help him carry some tables. I lost lucidity slightly and gladly agreed to help him. I set the table down in the classroom he had specified and regained full lucidity! "Hmmm now, what was it I wanted to do? Ah yes, I wanted to get to the lucid crossroads" I thought. So I closed my eyes and when I opened them I was in a very dark nightmarish room just like the one I was in previously. It scared me so I closed my eyes again and opened them in my room.
I was convinced this was realitly. Just to be sure I did the nose plug reality check about eight times and it worked EVERY SINGLE TIME. I still didnt realise it was a dream. What a numskull. So I grabbed my dream journal and decided to write down my lucid. I began when for some reason my journal turned into a ping pong ball. "It's normal to write down dreams on ping pong balls" I thought. I repeatedly felt like I was asleep with my eyes open, which should have told me this was a false awakening but it didnt.
Next came some very odd visions. I wouldnt call them dreams because they had nothing to do with me. Be prepared, this may give you nightmares. I saw images of fat people waking up into the most horrible sleep paralysises I had ever seen. They were shaking violently and frothing at the mouth. They then appeared to become possessed. They let out horrible noises and their eyes went completely white before growing huge. They were experiencing a lot of pain and were shaking very much.

I then woke up for real.What was this? Was something trying to tell me something like you really do get possessed when experiencing SP? Also, I read that you can only dream about yourself. These people had nothing to do with me. Damn! I cant have a lucid without weird false awakenings!

Catching up after a few days without Internet.

Guests, Cookies
Method DILD (false awakening)
Lucidity C
Vividness B
Control B
0623: Start with a false awakening and I become lucid very quickly. I'm in my own room. It's dark and still. I am a bit frightened. I get out of bed and fall toward the far wall as it gravity is going sideways. Up against the wall, I think to leave this room and go to a more pleasant scene. I visualize walking out the door to be joined by my friends having fun. Gravity now seems to be normal. I turn to the door and see light through the crack. This makes me hopeful. I walk confidently through the door.

On the other side is my living room, just like my real apartment. But it's light and pleasant here. Two young kids are running around the room having fun. I don't recognize them but I am friendly toward them. "Hi, I'm so glad you guys are here!" I walk up to one of the boys and stoop down. "Hey have you seen my girlfriend? Why don't you go look for her in the hallway. The kid runs out the front door. I look around the room and notice the strange wallpaper. It's bright yellow background with brightly colored patterns. Maybe plaid. I walk toward the front door and peek outside. I see the kid with two other people. One is S from work. The other is a short middle-aged woman that looks a bit like my mother but is unfamiliar.

I am pleasantly surprised to see S, considering I spent a long lucid dream a few months ago trying and failing to summon her. She looks a bit strange, like she just woke up. Her hair is messy and her face is rough without makeup. But it's definitely her. I kiss her a few times, gentle pecks on the lips. I welcome everyone in. I notice the kids still running around. I walk to the TV. "Hey, I'll turn on the XBox for you guys." I bend over and turn on the the game system, but it's actually a PS3. I think for a moment that I'm silly to make that mistake. I start to correct myself but then think, whatever, and let it go.

I turn back toward S and walk to the kitchen. There, I see a plate of freshly baked chocolate chip cookies. "Oh my God, my favorite!" I say. I take one and take a bit. It's so soft and gooey and sticky and delicious. I turn to S and smile. She says that the old woman made them. I thank her. I beckon S to come closer so she can try one. But the dream fades.

Another False Awakening
Method DILD (false awakening)
Lucidity C
Vividness D
Control D
0727: Playing soccer. I throw-in the ball from near our own goal. My team's defense sucks and the other team quickly steals the ball and scores. I get mad and attack the goalie. I knock him down. I turn to the rest of the players and they all shocked and staring, afraid of me.

False awakening and I become lucid. My room is dark. I sit up but can't move my legs. I look around and fixate on the door. I remember the previous dream and how I got out by using the door. Then I look at my hands and rub them together. I alternate between looking at the door and my hands. I'm trying to inching along the bed but I don't seem to be getting any closer.

I think to summon someone to walk through the door. I look at the door and become distracted by what looks like a mirror hanging on the door. It's about the size of a sheet of paper and it's hanging just about a foot off the ground. In front of the door, there seems to be a video camera on a short tripod. Also just about a foot off the ground. The camera is pointed toward the mirror and there's a dim spot light shining. I think, what the heck is that?. Dream fades from my confusion.

Football Fragment
1016: I'm a football player in the middle of a game. I'm playing tailback. The quarterback hands the ball off to me and I run left and dive over the line to the goal. It's very vivid and exciting.

fragment
1048: Something about using a computer to erase memories of dreams. But you can't erase dreams with you are dreaming of while you are accessing the memory of the dream, so you have to be thinking of something else.

Jet Fighter
Method DILD (absurdity)
Lucidity C
Vividness C
Control D
In my car. It's morning and I am driving to work. I am waiting to make a left turn onto 3rd street toward the freeway ramp. I am looking at the stopped cars on the opposite side of the intersection. Suddenly, I see a military jet fighter flying toward me. It dips down toward the cars on the other side of the intersection. It dips so low that it flies under a curved street lamp. Then it pulls up sharply and to the left and continues out of sight. I think that's pretty strange. It's not unusual to see military helicopters flying low around Los Angeles, but I've never see a jet flying like that. I realize it's too weird and I must be dreaming. I nose plug to confirm. Immediately have a false awakening in my own bed. I'm still lucid for a moment but very startled and shortly wake up for real.

Catching up from a few days away without Internet.

"F*** you, but nice sweater!"
0855: Hugh takes a job at my company. He has something to do with the reactor. There is a meeting in the office and the CEO is talking to Hugh. Then my desk is moved to the left turn lane of a street intersection. Now I walk to the reactor. Something about Iranians and a school. Now the buildings seems like a college campus with an impressive library overlooking a grassy area with trees. Group of people waiting for a large gathering. They are practice their speeches that they will give before the crowd. They are all young adults, like college students. I sit down ... map. ... I say "fuck you, but nice sweater!" He falls on is chair. I find a colleague I know and we laugh.

Ugly Glasses, Soccer
1014: Playing soccer with a mix of coworkers and high school classmates. One guy shows off his new glasses. I see they are way too thick and unattractive. I think at first to be polite, but I realize it's better that I tell him the truth that his glasses look ridiculous. The soccer game is on a grassy area in front of a building that looks like a old church or library. There are trees and water fountains in the middle of the play area so people have to run around. They are tripping on the roots of the trees. Our team scores. Then I get the ball alone with a long way to dribble toward the goal.

short WBTB+MILD

Tequila and Stuff
Method DILD
Lucidity D
Vividness C
Control D
1103: I don't recall how I became lucid. Nor did I stop to think of my plan. I mostly just observed this lucid dream. I'm outdoors at night. I am in a grassy area near a building. There's also sidewalk around the building. Reminds me of a spot on my old college campus. The area is lit by street lamps and lights around the building. There are a few people around and I am chasing them, like we are playing tag. I intuitively think that two of them are twin girls and they are both my wives. I grow tired of running and spot chasing them.

Now, the buildings near me seem to be restaurants and bars. There are impressive full length windows and outdoor patios. I walk up to the entrance of one building and it's a bar. There is a line of people waiting to get in. I pull a bill out of my pocket and smoothly hand it to the bouncer as I walk past the line and straight in. It's crowded with people inside with low lighting. I walk around the bar hurriedly, looking for anyone I recognize, but I don't find anyone. I come around to the bar and squeeze in to get the attention of the bartender. The bar is really high but with a glass case. It reminds me of the case in a Starbucks or a donut shop. Anyway, I order two shots of tequila (strange, I'd never order that IWL). I shoot one immediately. I take the other glass and walk away from the bar. I walk toward the front door. I shoot the second glass and toss it away. I step outside, back on to the sidewalk and start looking at the people around. I see people coming out of the restaurant next door. I hear music play as I start to approach a girl. She is wearing pink knee-high socks that catch my attention. Dream fades.

I had 2 dreams last night but ill leave the first one out, it was a little... inappropriate is the word. So the dream was of me and my cousin joining the marines or army, never found out in the dream. We were in a World War 2 base and it was in the World War 2 time. It was dark out and raining, I was able to see through the windows on the side of the bunk ( it was weirder, because the place was all wood and everyone was wearing camos). So my cousin was told to tell a story of his past and how he almost committed suicide, which in life is not true, but in the dream he said it. After that the leader said that I was in charge of guard duty this night (with my cousin) and I was to use a method with the people sleeping called talk and mock. When someone talked they were mocked. SO my cousin then left to tell the story and then I stayed in the bunker. I then went lucid for a second, and then reloaded the gun in my grasp which was a Thompson. After that I went to the room were my cousin said his story and all i heard was " I was at (forgot number) base and then thats how it ended". Everyone went to bed and then it ended. Pretty sick dream first time lucid when i tried!!

I had 2 dreams last night but ill leave the first one out, it was a little... inappropriate is the word. So the dream was of me and my cousin joining the marines or army, never found out in the dream. We were in a World War 2 base and it was in the World War 2 time. It was dark out and raining, I was able to see through the windows on the side of the bunk ( it was weirder, because the place was all wood and everyone was wearing camos). So my cousin was told to tell a story of his past and how he almost committed suicide, which in life is not true, but in the dream he said it. After that the leader said that I was in charge of guard duty this night (with my cousin) and I was to use a method with the people sleeping called talk and mock. When someone talked they were mocked. SO my cousin then left to tell the story and then I stayed in the bunker. I then went lucid for a second, and then reloaded the gun in my grasp which was a Thompson. After that I went to the room were my cousin said his story and all i heard was " I was at (forgot number) base and then thats how it ended". Everyone went to bed and then it ended. Pretty sick dream first time lucid when i tried!!

Note: My plans for today are much the same as on the previous days, and my new light / sound machine is working out great. So with Hogwarts plans in mind, I fell asleep and slipped into a WILD…

I am in bed, but it is not my waking life bed, it is my bed at Hogwarts, in the Slytherin dorms. This time it doesn't seem so odd to me, since I am lucid, so I get up and I am acting like everything is completely normal. The other girls in my dorm room are dragging themselves around the room, it seems they are no more morning people than I am, though Andie looks pretty much awake and happy. In fact, she greets me with a bit too cheerful an attitude, and gets a grunt in return, she says maybe we'll all feel better after some breakfast. So we dress, then we head down in the common room where everyone is hanging out and talking until it is time to go to the great hall to eat. Andie is smiling at me in a strange way, I give her a questioning look back. She had been over near the window, but now she comes back over to me and sits down next to me on the couch, she still has an odd smile on her face. I ask her what's going on in her head, and she says she has seen I have found a boyfriend. My first thought is MoSh, so I tell her he already has a girlfriend, in fact, they're… going to be married. I almost say they're married, but I don't know how old people normally get married there, so I didn't say that. She says not MoSh, silly, and points over at Draco, who is looking at me at the time, but he looks away quickly. I tell her that's Draco Malfoy, she says 'duh' to my statement, and then says any fool can see he likes me… She said she had heard in Potions how I had told him that name calling is immature… and the fact that he not only didn't get mad about that, but he was actually doing as I had asked, must mean he really likes me. She said I'd be crazy to let that one get away, he's kinda cute… and he's a Malfoy, so I know what that means. My first thought is to say that means he is an asshole, but I don't say that, and before I can say anything, we are heading down to breakfast.

It is breakfast time, and I want to see if I can find out where I can find Lucius, because I still need to check Lucius' mind for any information on the spell that was used on Asuka. To do this, I take a seat next to Draco, who gives me a strange look. I see Crabb and Goyle are on his other side, Crabb starts saying, "Draco has a girlfriend, Draco has a girlfriend…" over and over until Draco asks if there isn't a tray full of muffins Crabb should be raiding right now. Draco is pointing at a tray full of assorted muffins a bit farther down the table, Crabb goes over and starts eating them, Goyle says, "Save some for me!" and goes over there as well. I look back to Draco and I see he is actually looking a bit red, though that doesn't last long before he is talking about the tournament again, which he seems obsessed about lately. I am listening to what he is saying in a half-assed manner, and checking his mind for where I can find Lucius Malfoy. It looks like Lucius is most likely at Malfoy Manor, which is a huge mansion in Wiltshire, England. When he is not out on business or doing something else, he is there with his wife, and his son when school is not in session. It seems like an awfully big place for three people, the type of place that the people living there need maps to find their way even after living there for years. Well, I decide I had better go to scan Lucius' mind to see about the spell on Asuka, and from what Draco is thinking, Lucius is home most evenings unless he and Narcissa are going out together. So it would be best to wait until evening.

Classes the rest of the day are uneventful, Snape seems to be giving MoSh and Asuka the evil eye for some strange reason, or maybe it's just because they're from Gryffindor. We pass Snape in the halls a couple times, and he is giving them the evil eye there, too. The only person getting more of the evil eye than MoSh and Asuka is Harry Potter. After dinner, I tell Draco I have to go out for a while, but I will be back later, he wants to know where I am going, but I am not sure what to answer… I am not sure why I mentioned that to Draco in the first place… I tell him I don't have time to explain now, but I will tell him when I get back, I figure that way I have some time to think about it. He says ok, he'll cover for me if I'm not back by dorm check… cool. I thank him, then I head out of the great hall and into a hidden corner of the women's bathroom, the one where Moaning Myrtle hangs out, and I teleport before I even see any sign of Myrtle.

I am now standing outside Malfoy Manor, right in plain sight, and I know I am not supposed to be there, so what is Lucius going to think if he finds me there? Better safe than sorry, so I transform into a swallow and fly up towards the mansion as the light is fading from the western sky. The place is huge, and I have no idea where to start looking for Lucius, so I scan the place for any sign of people inside, I figure there aren't going to be hoards of people there, so Lucius should be easy to find. Sure enough, Lucius and another person, no doubt Narcissa, are in the dining room, most likely having a dinner of their own. I fly in through an open window, staying near the ceiling where I won't be noticed, and the two Malfoys don't look up to see me. They seem to be thoroughly absorbed in a conversation they are having between the two of them. I am thinking maybe a bird wasn't the best choice of disguises, as having a swallow flying around Malfoy Manor might be almost as weird as having a student from Hogwarts showing up randomly there… well, maybe nowhere near as weird, but still far from normal. Now I am perched on a book case behind Lucius, sitting at the end of a large dining table, Narcissa is sitting on the side of the table right beside him, they are whispering. I try to listen in on what they are saying, but Lucius suddenly holds up one hand to silence Narcissa, now they are both silent. Narcissa wants to know what the problem is, Lucius says they are not alone. Oh, shit… this could be a problem…

Narcissa looks up and spots me… I should have transformed to something smaller when I had been thinking of it, damn it… but she doesn't look upset, she looks very pleased. She points me out to Lucius, then says there is a swallow in the house, Lucius asks why that would be in here, Narcissa says I must have gotten in on accident… but swallows are symbols of good luck. She gets up and comes closer to the bookcase, moving slowly as if trying to avoid scaring me, and she holds out her finger towards me, calling me to come down so she can show me the way out, talking in a very soothing voice. I don't sense a threat, so I fly down and actually land on her finger, which very pleasantly surprises her. She says to Lucius, in a hushed voice, that this must foretell some very good luck, indeed, since the bird has actually approached her. Lucius is looking at me strangely, I chirp, he tells Narcissa to put me outside before I shit all over everything. I scan his mind telepathically, and I get what I need, he isn't guarding his thoughts since the only person around is Narcissa. He is the one who cast the memory charm on Asuka, he did it on direct orders from Voldemort, unfortunately Voldemort hadn't bothered explaining himself very well. So Lucius knows Voldemort wanted Asuka's memory wiped, but he does not know why, since the one Voldemort is usually after is Harry potter. As if Narcissa is afraid I might fly off to somewhere else in the house, Narcissa places her other hand gently over me to keep me from flying, then carries me to the window I snuck in through where she tosses me up into the air so I can fly away safely.

I am heading back to Hogwarts, flying as a swallow now, even though I am not entirely sure where Hogwarts is relative to Wiltshire… I am not in a hurry to get back, Draco will still have questions, and I don't have answers. It turns out I never have to deal with that, at least not now, because I wake up.

Note: I had lots of dreams last night, so many that my memories of them have gotten a bit fragmented and hard to separate out. So here are the fragments I remember. My plans included more Harry Potter dreams with both MoSh and Tigress, the wizard tournament with MoSh, Tigress was looking for something that happens beyond the scope of the books. I was able to get into my WILD, my memories are just a bit fragmented…

Search for Lucius
I am at Hogwarts, and I am looking to find out what Lucius might know about the spell that was placed on Asuka that made her lose her memory. I don't really know where to find Lucius, but I remember Draco saying Lucius is on the governing board of Hogwarts, so does that mean he is at Hogwarts? I hope that maybe he is. I am wandering around in the halls, I really don't know where to start looking. I spot Draco in the halls, and I follow Draco for a short time until he notices I am behind him. He stops and turns around, he asks why I am following him. He says maybe I had been looking to find him, well I have now. He says that Snape told him the contestants in the tournament need to make a plan on how to handle the first challenge. He says that generally, at least at the beginning, the contestants from each house would most likely help each other out so their house contestants can both make it. He says we should decide what we're going to do, to make sure the great Harry Potter comes out of the competition looking like the loser he is.

Training to Win
I am on the top of the hill near Hogwarts, it is the same place I was at when we all summoned patronuses. Vegeta is there, as are the other contestants in the tournament, though I don't see Tigress. I wonder if she is sure going to continue this series, I start thinking things may have diverged when Cho Chang shows up, and I remember she is from Ravenclaw, so maybe the divergence has already happened. Vegeta pairs everyone up, switching the pairs around, so everyone will have a chance to train with different partners. In addition to tournament contestants, there are also quite a few other students there who are just interested in what Vegeta has to teach them. I notice Neville Longbottom sitting off to the side, watching everyone training from a distance. Vegeta tries to get him to join in, but instead he turns around and runs away. Vegeta watches him go and then returns to our training.

Inside Information
I am in a small room with Draco, we are sitting at a table discussing ways to proceed through the challenge that will soon be happening. I am really not sure what preparation is possible, since we don't know any of the specifics of what obstacles might be in the way. On the table is an assortment of snacks and a map of the area the challenge will take place in. The course has been laid out for us, so everyone will know where to go, but that is it, no other details are included. There are several possible paths to take through the course, so not everyone will take the same path or meet the same challenges. So now Draco starts placing different things on the map of the course, he places small animated figurines that represent obstacles we will encounter, or maybe just obstacles we might encounter. I think this is strange since I had thought the specific obstacles were secret. I ask Draco about that, and he says his dad knows people… so in other words this is cheating? I comment that if anyone finds out, he will be disqualified, or maybe we would both be disqualified, which would eliminate any chance of Slytherin having the tournament winner. He says no one will find out, unless I am planning on telling someone… I tell him I'm not planning on telling anyone, but that doesn't mean no one will figure it out… well, he already has the information now, so we spend the time figuring out what the best path through the challenge course is.

Congradulations! It's Twins!
I am in my bedroom at home, but there is one main difference, and that is the fact there is a cradle there. It is a single unit, but there is a separator in the middle of it and it is larger than the normal cradle, it is specifically made for two babies at once. On top of that, there is a baby in each side of the cradle, one is a boy, one is a girl, and I know for a fact they are twins… and they are mine! I have no children IWL, so this should be a giveaway that it is a dream, but I do not do a reality check. I have to go to class now, and I know I have to take my babies with me, as there is nowhere else to leave them for the day. I get everything ready to go, then I walk out without them, heading off to school. I get to class before I realize I completely forgot about the babies, I hadn't even checked on them before leaving the house, wow… I am a shitty mother… I am heading to the library at the school, suddenly ITT has a really nice library, and my mother meets me there with the babies. I take the babies, one in each arm, they are sleeping peacefully in my arms, I hope they stay that way. When I get inside the library, they tell us we'll have to move to a new building while the library is being remodeled, so I have to try to pick up both my stuff and the babies to go next door. Tigress meets me there, and she takes one of the babies, and we go next door. There is a large pillow next to the table we set up on, so we lie both babies on the pillow where they play quietly, looking up at us and smiling. I am thinking both of the babies were born on Christmas day, and the strangest thing is I don't remember even having sex, so was I raped? Was it some kind of immaculate conception? Abducted by aliens? My babies don't look like aliens…

07.12.2010

WILDing to Snooker (WILD)

NON-DREAM DREAM LUCID

I got in from class and flopped down on the sofa, still wearing shoes and a coat. Somebody else was watching snooker, and after a while I lay back and closed my eyes. After that it gets a bit hard to tell what was real and what wasn't.

I felt a light sensation in the middle-front of my head, which I can only describe as "a bit like falling". Kind of a tingle. It came in tiny, split-second bursts, and went away immidiately after I noticed it. It startled me slightly each time it happened- having the effect of making me a tiny bit more alert for a few seconds. I felt like I needed to let it happen uninterrupted to fall properly asleep. I was very careful the next time it happened, and it went on for a couple of seconds, bringing sleep paralysis with it. It felt like my whole body suddenly lost any muscle tension, and my head drooped forward- even though I was sure it was completely supported already.

I had a visualisation then of the crane outside. I looked at it intently, trying to keep focused on what I was doing. I could hear the sound of snooker on TV still, it never seemed to have gotten blocked out. But then it got a whole lot louder. I suspected this was purely my mind playing tricks, as I doubted whoever was watching it has maxxed out the volume while I was sleeping there. It got louder, and combined with a high-pitched whine. My jaw then seemed to clench of its own accord. But it felt like the teeth of my lower jaw were in front of my top front teeth. It was a bit uncomfortable, and I wondered if I could fix it without ruining the WILD. Turns out not. They weren't even stuck in that position anyway.



It struck me then that I had actually been pretty far away from awake. The difference I felt when waking up was like resurfacing after being underwater. During the transition to sleep I thought I had been basically aware and connected to the outside world thoughout, but it certainly didn't feel that way now!

had an amazing series of lucids last night. it started back at my old school. i was generally causing mischief and when i realised i wasnt being punished i knew it was a dream. it was good fun so rather than fly or anything i just thought id have a laugh by messing around. i was back in my old form room and just singing songs. mostly about how crap the school was and how education is a load of shit designed to train people into being good obedient little slaves. i even did the old thing we used to do where you make a really long tone without moving your mouth so no one knows who is doing it. its great to be childish sometimes. anyway theis went a bit more dreamy and the characters changed a little.biggy smalls was sat in the corner and i think for some reason this sparked the next part.

in order to pacify me from being such a disruption, the teacher came across and gave me a joint. around this point something really amazing happened. i became fully aware of my body lying in bed. normally this would destabalise, yet the dream was as solid as ever. the teacher kind of morphed into this black guy with an afro and i started ruffling his hair, messing around and telling him it was a dream as a reminder to me. it felt amazing and he laughed as it stabilised the dream. i knew that i was lying in bed, yet still locked into this real dream. if i opened my eyes i would be back awake instantly i felt, but i thought i would be able to go back this time. i opened them and awoke completely, but then concentrated on getting back. i wouldnt class it as a proper wild because there was stilla gap in consciousness. i still had the spliff id been given so started to smoke that. this was the weirdest thing ever because i was 100% awake and aware of my body in bed, yet smoking a spliff in a dream that felt 100% real, taste smell, smoke everything...

after that i drifted back awake briefly, then decided to go back to another dream. i was still with schoolmates, but this time i was driving a rally car. it was a dream where it switches between 1st and 3rd person view, unfortunately normally as the car started to go round big corners. as soon as i hit the corners it would switch to me sat there with a computer controller trying to swing it round but without any kind of good view of the car. i got out of the car and started kicking a football around. someone kicked it away so i went to get it and thumped it back hard. it smacked someone on the ass and knocked them over so i apologised. we walked towards this building and it all felt like a school pe lesson. we got into our swimming stuff and dived into the pool. for some reason we had too much kit on our upper bodies, so i couldnt breaststroke properly, which put me off.

later i realised i was back at my old work again (tes). this was a pretty good lucid reminder but i must concentrate on it because its the worst feeling ever to waste such a vivd dream there. i met an old unrelated friend and we chatted about what we are up to over christmas. probably because he supports the same team and is from the same town as the team i watched last night. cant remember much more for now

NON-DREAM DREAM LUCID FALSE AWAKENING PRECOG SHARED


0:40 GMT

Lunatic girlfriend and her lunatic brother
Trying not to be spotted by some lady I know. I run and turn left on a corner of a street, but she spotted me at the very last minute and follows me. I then jump to top of the building and hover from roof to roof, trying to escape her, but she also has the ability to fly and keeps following me.
Then dream transforms and we’re inside her house. She is now a girl in her 30’s and I’m her boyfriend. I’m running from her because she is totally mad and wants to kill me. I go from room to room, in this very long endless house, but exit door is still far. She is about to catch me, when I enter a room where her very old aunt sleeps in bed and I hide from her by lying down on the bed too, covered with the blankets. But she finds me and gets me out of it. She has a huge scissor in her hands and she wants to stab me. She is mad, crying, accusing me of abandoning her. I have no chance, so I use reverse psychology and tell her I’m running because she is looking mad with the scissor on her hands, but that I really love her and want to stay with her. She drops the scissor and says “Really?”. “Yes, in fact I love you so much we should marry!” And she becomes quite another person, a beautiful sweet lady and I honestly feel love for her. I convince myself if I don’t do anything wrong, she won’t explode and it might work. But when we’re hugging, she wakes up from this trance, grabs the scissor again and recalls “Wait... You started running away from me before I started chasing you! Were you trying to leave the house? You bastard!” Oh no! I have to run again for my life. When I reach the kitchen, there’s a window opened through which I escape to outside. Her brother is just arriving and seeing this scene. He is a big muscled guy and he is just as nuts as she is. She screams at him, telling him I’m abandoning her and he threatens me saying he is going to find me wherever and kill me.
I decide to go stay with my mother. She works for some important politician, so I go meet her at her work place, like the parliament or something similar - it’s a palace. When I arrive there, there was an horrible accident (was it?) – she slipped on top of a stone staircase, she bumped with her head on a stone fountain and tumbled down the stairs. She was a mass of blood and broken bones. She was still alive and mumbled some words. I have a vision of the lunatic brother of my lunatic girlfriend grinning and saying he is going to make my life a living hell.

“Corrida” and sexy girl
I’m with my mom caught in the middle of some "bulls running" event (corrida) at night. There are 4 enclosures – one with bulls and three others connected, with people. They are waiting for the bulls to be loose to run along with them and bully them. [I grew up watching these things in the nearest town, where it is tradition, but I always hated it and today I’m totally against these kind of animal abuse. People act moronic on these events and call themselves brave for beating and driving a poor animal crazy.]
They are about to lose the bulls on our enclosure and so they ask people there if they are ready. I say no, to please wait, because we’re there by mistake. But they think we’ve chicken out and try to convince us to stay. I say that I stay if they let my mom go out. They give us some seconds and I try to rush my mom out, but we have to climb the fence and she’s not very energetic, but one bull is getting closer to us. He is not enraged, he is walking slowly, but he clearly will hit us with a blow from his head if we don’t move fast. I have to do some acrobatics to escape on time. Outside the fence we meet my BF. We pass in front of some bleachers full of spectators and everybody is very excited about something. We look up and we see a very hot girl in tiny outfit cheering for something. Both people on the bleachers and people on the ground are drooling at her. She has nice boobs and she is pretty, I admit it. She makes me fell ugly. Even some Hollywood star that is around – I think might have been Angelina Jolie, but can’t recall for sure – is looking jealous at that girl. I then smile – we women are never happy to find a woman that is hotter than us J

2:45 GMT

Evil twin cat and evil bird
At home with my cat. Some cat apparently looking just like him comes in and my cat attacks him. I try to split them up and then I see this other cat is like his evil twin. Just like him, but with one big eye, with no eyelids, ocular globe is transparent and the pupil is red. He also has a deformed leg covered in greyish crusts. He looks ugly and evil. But then the cat just leaves the room looking so sad and lonely that I feel extreme compassion for him. I realise maybe he is not evil, just ugly as hell, so I grab my cat and let the other come in again. But the poor cat does indeed emit some bad vibes. But it’s not his fault, it’s like this role was imposed on him, but he just wants to be loved. Anyway, he is not used to have normal relationship with people and other cats, so he is always causing trouble and freaking me out by sneaking behind me with the “evil” eye. He gives me the creeps. I try to find out where does he come from and find a box at my door, where he came from. The box is very small, but when I pick him up to put him inside it, he gets shrunk to the size of a trinket and becomes inanimate. So I decide to keep him locked there. Unfortunately, when I opened the box, some small bird statuette, which was also inside, gained life and escaped. It’s such a tiny bird and I don’t worry, but when I’m outside in the street, talking to someone, the crazy bird starts attacking us and follows us everywhere.

4:45 GMT

Stopping tsunamis
I’m with some girl friends doing something on some terrace with a view to the ocean. They say something about how nice the place is and I joke saying “Let’s hope there’s no tsunamis hitting!”. When I say this, a giant wave forms and is heading to land. They freak out but I feel this is a dream and I get lucid. I tell them not to worry, because I will work my magic. I stop the water by pointing the palm of my hand towards it, like Neo did with the bullets. More waves form, bigger and scarier, but I get to stop them all. Then I don’t recall very well, but I think more things were thrown at us, because I remember blowing up a few things in the air with my thought, to protect us. Then some kids playing on the beach come to me, I’m their new hero and they ask me all sort of questions like how did I do it, if they can learn to do the same. Then they ask if I can make appear things and I say yes, although not all the time. I ask if they want me to make appear something and some funny kid asks for a pool of mud and mango.”I’m sorry, what? Mud and mango? What for?”, ”I don’t know, can you make it?”, “Why not, let’s try.” So I concentrate on creating a pool of mud and mango. This amuses me a lot. It works and the kids jump all happy on this pool with a green-yellowish goo in it. They seem to be having fun and I decide to go inside it too. It feels nice and I think “Well, it must be good for the skin!”, so I spread this greeny mud on my arms. I think about doing something else more productive with my lucid, but I sense it is weak and as soon as I try something not so “dream-like” I will probably wake up, so I just enjoy the lucid mud bath until I woke up.

6:00 GMT

Waking Nomad posts
Just a brief recall of navigating on the web and finding a website where Waking Nomad was posting regularly and I wondered why he is not posting on DV for some time now if he does post somewhere else. [Not that it would be my business to know... lol]

Interrogated by a “doctor”
At my grandma’s house, with my mom and some lady doctor around the kitchen table. The doctor is telling me the results of my lab tests indicate I have had recently a viral infection. I tell her those are not news, because since the last 3 years all my tests have shown the same. For sure it is no viral infection or else it is a chronic one. She is surprised to know that and then she asks all sort of questions: if I feel sleepy during the day, if I have a really busy schedule, if my work is stressful, but then she starts asking things about my work, the NGOs I work for and I wonder where she is going with that and why is that relevant for my diagnosis. I get up, considering this conversation is over, but my mom, who now reveals not to be my real mom, but some older lady I’ve never seen before, is telling how we are poor and she gets food from the food bank everyday to keep me going but she fears I’m not having the right nutrition. I am now feeling this is definitely not my life because I know who I am in RL. Don’t have time to become lucid though, because I wake up.

8:00 GMT

Note: My main plan right now is to get consistent with my ability to WILD using my new light /sound machine, which I need to find the settings that work best for me. MoSh wants to continue with more Harry Potter dreams, so that is kind of a plan, so that will be my main goal for my WILD… to meet up with MoSh in a Harry Potter dream. I put on my new light / sound machine and slipped into a WILD… Yay for WILDs!

I am at Hogwarts, I am in the halls, though I am not sure where I need to be going right now. I start walking down the hall, trying to figure out where I need to go, when a woman comes up behind me. I recognize her, it's Andie from my dorm room, my other two roommates are there with her. I look at them and try to remember what their names are, there is a woman with short red hair named Shanara, and there is another woman with long blonde hair named Marie. I am not really sure where I remember their names from, but I am certain of those names. Andie asks what I am doing, she says we had better get to potions quickly before Snape gets mad. Marie says Andie is too worried, Snape never gets mad at Slytherin students. She says we could wander in there half way through class and Snape would just ignore us. Andie says Snape won't overlook something like that for anyone, not even the students from his own house. Whether Snape would let that much tardiness go or not, we hurry to get to the classroom, which is in the dungeons. I sit next to Tigress, who is sitting in a row behind MoSh and Asuka. Harry, Ron, and Hermione sit down behind Tigress and me, Draco sits down to my left (Tigress is on my right). Ron leans forward and whispers something to Tigress, I don't hear exactly what he says, but it is clear Tigress is not pleased by it. She says, much more loudly than Ron, "How about you shut the fuck up and mind your own business?" Hermione is next to Ron, she gives him a disapproving look, but says nothing. Harry isn't paying any attention at all, though he is giving dirty looks to the back of Draco's head. Draco turns around and smirks at Harry, saying he hopes Harry stays in the tournament long enough so that Draco can show everyone what a fraud the great Harry Potter really is. Harry responds with a very unimaginative, "Shut up, Malfoy." It looks like he might say more, but Hermione elbows him in the ribs as Snape walks to the front of the room, apparently to keep Harry from getting himself in trouble.

Snape's lesson goes smoothly apart from Goyle screwing up his potion by adding too much of one ingredient and too little of another, which resulted in a blast of colored smoke from his cauldron that colored his face and hair a hot neon pink. Snape makes fun of Goyle a bit, but says the color will wear off in time. Goyle wants to know how much time, Snape responds it should be long enough for Goyle to figure out the importance of following directions properly. Goyle looks over at Draco as if blaming Draco for not being there to help him with the potion. At the end of the class, everyone leaves, and now it is time for lunch. Draco asks me about preparing for the tournament, I tell him maybe Vegeta will be available after we eat lunch. Draco doesn't seem to care about eating lunch, he says he just wants to make sure he is able to crush Harry Potter like a gnat in the tournament… not just beat him, but completely humiliate him. I roll my eyes at that, but I don't say anything since it seems at least Draco is trying to keep his hatred of Harry confined to the tournament. I tell Draco he won't get very far in training if he is malnourished. We head into the great hall, where there is an informal gathering for lunch, by which I mean people are coming and going as they choose, sitting wherever they want instead of at specific tables… Draco goes and grabs a sandwich, proceeding to wolf it down in record time, but I linger a bit longer to eat my lunch before we leave the great hall.

On the way out of the castle to look for Vegeta, I spot a familiar and much hated face, it is Delores Umbridge. But Professor Lupin is the Defense Against the Dark Arts teacher, so what is that bitch doing at Hogwarts? I wouldn't have been able to miss her if I had been trying, as she is wearing a bright pink dress that looks a bit like Goyle's face after his potion accident, and one of the ugliest hats I have ever seen, the hat is white with a bunch of pink feathers in it that make Umbridge look like she has a dead flamingo on her head. WTF? I voice my 'WTF' a bit too loud, and Draco seems to think I don't know who Umbridge is, so he fills me in on that. He says that woman is Delores Umbridge, she is one of the tournament judges. He says he doesn't know who in the ministry she has dirt on, but even his father had been unable to persuade them to remove her from the judges' panel. I ask why Lucius wants to get her off the judge's panel, Draco said the woman makes his father sick, with all of her sickly sweet behaviors that are so clearly put on that someone who is both blind and deaf could spot her as a fraud. Draco says that the only thing she and his father agree on is that mudbloods have no place in a school of magic. I shoot Draco a dirty look, but I don't say anything since he isn't actually calling a specific person a nasty name, and I figure if I start contesting every single annoying thing Draco does, he'll just end up getting pissed at me and that could screw up my attempts to get him to behave at all and also my chances of healing him.

Umbridge disappears around a corner, I wonder where she is going, but I figure it doesn't really matter at this time since I have other things going on and I don't really have time to play with Umbridge right now. Draco and I go out onto the grounds to where I have seen Vegeta before, and we find him there now, he is there with MoSh, Hermione, and Cedric, while Ron and Harry are watching, though they don't seem to be speaking to each other, each one is making a clear and deliberate effort not to look at the other. Vegeta smirks in our direction, about as close to a smile as I usually see on him, and says we have two more to add to the class. Ron says if Draco and I are coming, he is leaving, he can't stand the stench. Vegeta glares at him, which results in Ron turning so pale that his freckles look like holes in his sheet-white skin… Vegeta tells Ron that he is obviously too weak to join the martial arts class after all. Ron gets annoyed at that and says he is not weak, but Vegeta says Ron can't even control his tongue. "One must first learn civility before learning the martial arts," Vegeta says, it sounds like he is quoting something from somewhere, "and one must first know good ethics before developing powerful skills. You would do well to remember those words." Ron points at Draco, "But he's always saying Hermione is a mudblood and insulting me and Harry and…" Vegeta interrupts him, saying it doesn't matter what Draco says or does, that is no excuse for Ron losing control. He says anything Draco does will be dealt with, but this time it was Ron, not Draco, who had opened his big mouth. Draco is about to crack up laughing next to me, without even looking in our direction, Vegeta says, "Malfoy! Do you find something about this amusing?" Draco stops laughing instantly and says no, nothing is amusing, since it is clear Vegeta is not pleased by Draco's laughter. Vegeta says then Draco should stop laughing and get ready to take training seriously. Draco looks over at me and asks how it can be that a muggle is putting off such a powerful energy presence… I tell Draco that magic isn't everything, Vegeta has his own type of power, and it is definitely awesome.

Everyone that will be training is now gathered around Vegeta, Harry, Hermione, MoSh… it looks like everyone is there except Tigress, I'm not certain if she is absent on purpose or not. Ron is still lingering off to the side, Vegeta says his class is not limited to tournament participants, so if Ron is ready to man up and behave in an adult manner, he can stay with the class. Ron hesitates, but then he scoffs at the class and walks away towards the castle, making another remark about filthy Slytherins. I can see Vegeta really made an impact on him… NOT! Now the training starts, it isn't a particularly long training session, I think it was just a chance for some of the students to meet up with Vegeta and see the kinds of things they can learn from him. Everyone there is clearly impressed, though Draco tries not to show it, acting like the things Vegeta is doing aren't anything that he hasn't seen before. Vegeta ignores that attitude issue and continues with his lesson. Since the first challenge is to have no magic used, Vegeta is sticking to the physical techniques of martial arts, saying the techniques he is showing here are from the Anything Goes School of Martial Arts. We get to the point where Vegeta has some of the students try some of the simple techniques out, I see more people have gathered around as time goes by, either drawn by the activity or maybe they had planned on coming after they finished eating lunch. After we are done with Vegeta, it is time for classes to start again, so we head off for Transfiguration class. The rest of the classes during the day pass uneventfully, so much so that I have very few memories from them.

Real life Dream Lucid Nightmare Dream sign
For me to remember, dreams are #067300, and lucid dreams are the color below blue, #4169e1. Nightmares are dark red, #8b0000, and dream signs are the light purple, which is up one and left one from blue, #483d8b.

Sweet! I stopped a nightmare with a lucid dream! Harry Potter seems to be a recurring theme these last two nights.

Harry Potter Nightmare

I was Harry Potter. I was being moved to my house from somewhere else because Voldemort was growing stronger and it was more dangerous. I was with the Order of the Phoenix.

We took off, and immediately Death Eaters fired spells at us that turned limbs into fruit. None of us got hit but Hagrid, in the face. Because of his half-giant genes, he didn't die because of his head being a pineapple or something, he just had a sliver of skin turn green from between his nose and eye down to his chest. He grew more sinister.

We lost them and landed at Hagrid's shack. There was me, Lupin, and Hagrid. There was a Death Eater tied up. We were interrogating him. After a few moments Hagrid began approaching the Death Eater intending to eat him. This was began his fruity affliction messing with his head. He kept making excuses to eat him. ("Just one bite!", "No, I'm not getting closer, you're just seeing things!", "Just let me eat him!")

Lupin knew it wasn't safe so he gave me three purses with important items inside them and apparated me to my house. I was alone. I smelled the air and sighed of relief. "Home sweet home," I said to myself.

I looked inside one of the purses and hid the other two, just incase. I saw an iPod Touch. I took it out, zipped the purse, and then hid it. I looked through the apps on it, and saw an app called Remus1422. I opened it and saw a bunch of cryptic messages in letters and numbers. This had to be the secret way the Order would communicate with me. I couldn't figure them out.

I heard a soft noise from outside. Oh no. What if Voldemort knows I'm here? I hurried to the garage, closed the door, and locked it. I prayed that the sound was a false alarm and not Voldemort, because I was totally alone. I waited. Suddenly I heard a noise. I turned towards the closed garage door and Voldemort, laughing, was sliding through the bottom with use of magic. Already half of his head was into the garage. I panicked.

What do I do?! Wait a minute... I'm dreaming! I got excited, and felt a rush inside me. I pointed at Voldemort's head, now inside the garage up to his neck, and yelled "Die!", and his head promptly fell off. I was so happy with myself that I opened my eyes in real life on accident and the dream faded to reality. I was awake, at 2:52 AM.

I am happy with myself. I stopped my nightmare! Although I woke up anyway, I wasn't afraid. I would have not been able to get back to sleep for hours, or maybe even all night, if I hadn't turned lucid and prevented the nightmare.