lucid

Plans: The only plan I had made for today was to meet up with MoSh in a Hogwarts dream, though I really want to increase my lucidity and get my recall back to its normal rate. I really wish I knew why I have been having so many problems with that lately…

Sleep In
It is time for me to go to bed, I have no idea that I am actually already in bed and dreaming. I am getting ready to lie down in bed when my mother comes into the room and asks me when I am going to be up the next morning. I tell her I'll probably be up at the usual time, of course. My mother says she wants to get going sooner than that. I don't remember where we are planning on going, but I am thinking it is somewhere really fun, and I definitely don't want to miss getting to do it. I tell my mother maybe I could get up a bit earlier than normal… My mother points at the clock and says it's only 11:30 at night, so if I sleep until my normal time, I'd be getting 12 hours of sleep! She says I really don't need to get 12 hours of sleep, do I? I agree that 12 hours is probably overdoing it, I tell her I'll get up around 10 instead, so it will only be around 10 hours of sleep. She seems to think this is still quite unreasonable, but she sighs with exasperation. She says if I can manage to get out of bed a bit sooner, please do, she really doesn't want to wait that late and might just end up leaving without me. This idea makes me a bit nervous, so I decide to set my alarm for 8:00 in the morning and settle for the usual 8 hours of sleep that is the recommended amount. I fall asleep in bed without even considering doing a RC at any point.

Rock the House
I am going to a concert that takes place in a small club. There aren't that many people there to see the band, and I figure that is because the band rather sucks. There are overly aggressive bouncers guarding the stage, maybe they are afraid someone will attack the band members for sucking so bad. One guy tries to get to the stage, though it looks like he is happy and wants to meet one of the band members rather than like he is hostile. Apparently someone likes the music. One of the bouncers grabs him, punches him hard in the gut, then drags him outside as he is gasping for breath. The bouncer throws him to the ground and shuts the door before returning to his post. Wow… so violent… everyone else sits down in the seats to keep from having the bouncers attack. I really don't like this. On a hunch I do a RC and find out I'm dreaming. I fly from my seat and phase through the ceiling of the club, out into the open blue sky.

Ok, so now that I'm lucid, I need to decide what to do. I don't remember my goals… damn… but I do remember that in some of my lucids my dream control hasn't been as strong as it should be. So I fly over the city and start practicing my dream skills. I discover that anything I can focus on and visualize I can create. Of course I can, I am inside my own inner world… it is entirely under my control… I do things such as alter the forms of a couple buildings, I bring a statue to life. It is the statue of a horse that is about 50 feet tall, the horse gallops away, freaking out all of the DCs in its path. I instinctively can tell that all of the people around there are DCs rather than real people. I fly over a park and spawn a huge and beautiful tree with large golden fruits growing on it, I pick one and eat it… it tastes like chocolate. Yay! Chocolate flavored fruit! A DC is beside the tree and staring at me with his jaw on the ground, it is an older man, I fly down over him and tell him if he's going to have his mouth hanging open, put something yummy in it! I break off a piece of the fruit and stick it in the man's mouth where he doesn't even seem to notice it. I decide to go back to the concert to see if I can make it more interesting. I head back, and I find that for some reason there is now an iron grid around the club… where did that come from? No matter. I focus a circle of heat to soften the iron, then I rip out the circle of iron to create an entrance. Wow, that was easy! Inside, the same band is still sucking, most of the crowd have left. I use a puppet kind of control on the band members, my DCs, and I summon a guitar and join in. Now we rock! We play a song I don't think I have ever heard. But there's no one there to see it. I summon some more DCs to be the audience. For some reason the DCs that appear are dressed as if for a wedding. Weird… but no matter. I continue using the band DCs to accompany me as I play guitar and sing. It is fun.


The Perfect Storm
I am in a castle like the one in Harry Potter, I am in Hogwarts. There are people around me, everyone seems to be rather huddled together, though I'm not sure why. They have everyone crammed into the great hall, all of the people from all of the houses, and this is creating more than a few arguments amongst the less friendly students. Mostly everyone is keeping to themselves, however, and the talk is mostly about a storm. I listen to some of them, then I go over to a window and look outside… and there sure is a storm out there, it looks like a serious blizzard. The wind is howling outside and looks like it must be blowing at hurricane force. I look beside me and I see MoSh is there. I ask what is going on out there, he says it's a major storm. No shit, Sherlock… I say it seems strange, where did it come from? MoSh says no one is sure, it is the worst storm Hogwarts has ever seen, and it came out of nowhere. The temperatures in most of the castle have plummeted to sub zero levels, there is no way the fires and such can keep things warm at all. The great hall has been placed under an enchantment to keep it warm, which is why everyone is here. Wow… that is one serious storm. I wonder if the storm is definitely natural.

I wander around the room more, I see Crabb and Goyle near another window, staring out, apparently fixated on something out there. That gets my curiosity up so I go over to them and ask what they are looking at. Crabb said nothing, they are looking for Draco. I ask why they are looking out there for Draco, shouldn't he be in the great hall with everyone else? Goyle hesitates, Crabb says they're not supposed to tell, Draco said it's a secret. I say I won't tell anyone, so go ahead and share it with me… I'm sure Draco wouldn't mind if I know. Finally Goyle says Draco went outside about an hour ago, before the storm got so bad, and he hasn't come back. Crabb said Draco had been going out to get something to do with the tournament task, but students aren't supposed to go into the forest… and he hasn't come back. Wow… Draco is out in the storm? I decide I have to go out to get him. Goyle says I promised not to tell… I ask how they can keep that secret when Draco could die out there? I add not to worry, I don't need to tell anyone… I'll go get Draco myself.

I go to leave the room, but McGonagall stops me and says no one is to leave the room. I had thought that might be an issue. I go to the other side of the room and find a secret passage behind a suit of armor, the passage leads outside eventually. And it is freezing out, though it doesn't feel as bad as MoSh had indicated. Then again, I am used to the cold pretty well. I wrap myself in some cloaks I find near the exit and head for the forbidden forest. There is no point in calling Draco, the wind is much too loud. The sleet and snow is like needles against my face, not comfortable at all, but definitely bearable. Once I get to the forest I find there is a bit of shelter, I look around, not sure where to find Draco. Somehow my instinct guides me, and after I have traveled a short distance, I find Draco huddled under a particularly large tree. He has his robes pulled tight around him, but those do no good… they are soaked from the sleet. I have seen movies and read books about arctic survival… wearing wet clothes is worse than none at all in the cold… and I have enough cloaks around me to share… So I start getting Draco out of the wet robes, he seems too out of it to respond much… I wrap my cloaks around both of us, keeping him close to share some body heat as we head back to the castle and into the passage I left through.

McGonagall meets us just a short way in, she says if I thought she didn't know about this passage, I was sorely mistaken… how dare I go outside and risk my… she sees Draco with me… good lord, what happened here? Where did you find him? I answer with the first thing I can think of, I say he was outside looking for herbs and hadn't gotten inside before the storm started. True, but I didn't mention the forbidden forest. McGonagall looks at Draco, mostly naked and shivering under my cloaks, she asks if he didn't hear the storm warning, or if he didn't take it seriously… he should really have listened… but save that for later. She asks for me to help her get him to the hospital wing. We get Draco to the hospital wing, where another spell has been cast for warmth, and put him into a bed to be cared for by Madam Palmphrey. Outside the hospital wing McGonagall says that my going out in the storm alone was very foolish, why hadn't I told someone, told a teacher that Draco was outside? But it was also very brave… she doesn't know whether to punish me for leaving the castle in this storm or reward me for bringing Draco back safely… so she will do neither. She says to get back to the great hall through the hidden passage and no one will know I had left, or at least they wouldn't hear it from her. I head back to the great hall.

NON-DREAM DREAM LUCID FALSE AWAKENING

22:30

Bus trip
I’m involved in politics. There’s a vote for me to have some vacation. I go on a bus trip and the driver is a black guy. He looks tired and I fear he might fall asleep while driving, although the trip is relatively short – about 40 mins – so I decide to trust his driving.

Amityville-like haunted house
With some other people on an apartment we believe to be haunted. We see a kind of specter of a scary man walking around on some security footage and it creeps us out. He makes lights flash and even burst the lamps. He seems to be able to control whoever he wants to control and lead people to their suicide. First victim is a girl we find hanged in a room, second victim a guy we find all broken for having fell down the stairs. Even the cat gets possessed. Someone decides to strike back by calling him and facing him, but then I see my mom and my BF and I take them with me to the kitchen and we close the door behind us. We are pretty scared because after a while we feel the spirit presence among us. I feel it physically as if he is touching me and it causes all kinds of horrifying feelings and visions. At some point I suspect I’m dreaming, so I open the terrace door for some fresh air and look around, I do a RC, confirm the dream and decide to lift off. On one hand I feel relieved it’s just a dream, but on the other hand I feel guilty for leaving them there, as maybe this is a shared dream and they are left alone in the nightmare.

Castles and meditation
Viewed from above, the apartment complex now looks like a doll house castle, very cute. From up in the sky I see another castle, much bigger, on top of a hill. It is as if it has no walls, so I see people inside it, as if they are on shelves. There are also many people floating around this castle, just hanging and I feel all these strange characters are indeed other dreamers. I float in the air, cross my legs to meditate, but I almost wake up. When back in the dream I am now inside some place and I sit facing a wall, not to distract myself. I try to visualize Buddhas and really feel their presence, but after some time I start seeing all sorts of lights and shapes on the wall, like light projections. I look back and see some girls with a overhead projector, preparing it to play some movie. I leave this place and find some very very quiet corner on an underground level of this building. Between the elevators and the exit to a parking, there’s a really zen corner with a waterfall on a glass wall, water falling on a pebble base and a garden behind the wall. I sit there, soothed by the sounds of the water and I manage to do a successful short meditation for a while. I feel the presence of Guru Rinpoche, but then I almost wake up. I hang on and dream becomes stronger, but not enough, so I must move to keep it going. I decide to finish the RPG task I left undone last time.

Eating the fruit and becoming a dragon (RPG task)
I enter one of the elevators and imagine it taking me to the same supplier market in Denn, where I was last time. The elevator drops me at a very busy cargo entrance area. I get out of the way of men carrying heavy loads to outside where merchants stands are selling produce to the villagers.
I immediately see the strange fruit I’m supposed to eat on a fruit stand. I choose a small one and eat it. I keep walking around waiting to see if anything happens (it’s supposed to give me some new magical power) but nothing happens. I then find a stand where people gather around, very agitated and I go check what’s up. It’s more of those fruits, but here they look bigger and better and are being served already cut and clean for free to the villagers. Two girls approach me and ask me what is it about. By the way they are so “defined” and “lucid” I realize they are dreamers. I tell them there’s a task on DV to come here and eat this fruit, which is supposed to give us new powers. They enjoy that, they say they also wanna give it a try and then we all grab some fruits to eat.
Once we are served, we gather on the left side of this stand where they meet a third girl friend and they ask me more about DV. I first ask for their names and tell them mine. One girl says she is called what I perceived as“Lollena”and the other what I perceive as “Sino”(as in Portuguese for “bell”; the equivalent sound in English would be“xenu”). The third girl to my left looks blocked, as if she couldn’t remember her name, so I continue to explain what is DV and give them the url. Then the third girl finally says something. She tells me that she (or they?) is user of some other dream website and she tells me the name of it. First it sounded like Dreampaws, which I know exists, but I asked her to repeat and it wasn’t that, although it was something similar, like maybe Dreampush (which I found later on waking up, that also exists). I’m not sure though, because it became fuzzy on waking up.
Then we walk around the town and they ask me about the super-power. I say I don’t know what it is and I also haven’t felt anything different yet. We try telekinesis, morphing, etc, and it all goes very well, but I say I already had all these powers before, so it can’t be it.
Then we hear people scream and we see a big pinkish tornado coming right to the centre of the town. We combine efforts and we try to break the tornado apart. I see to my right another guy who is also trying to do it, so we are at least 5 people doing it. Soon the tornado fades away and is but a large pink cloud in the sky. People are cheering us and I lose the girls in the middle of the crowd. When I meet them again later (only the two girls with names) at the entrance of a tavern down a street, they had just been approached by some bullies and one of them sobs while the other comforts her. She admits to her friend that she owes money to those guys and don’t know what to do. I pass by them and remind them we’re just in a dream, but they seem to have lost lucidity for good, so I keep going. It’s when I start feeling the effect of the fruit!
I feel my body changing, my neck elongating, I walk in four limbs and then I spread my “arms” and I feel like I have wings. I flap them and slowly elevate in the air. I am still fundamentally human shaped, but I think I am becoming a dragon! It is hard to deal with this new body and I wobble a little bit in the air. At some point I lose balance all together and fall down on the floor. I think I come back to my human form.
On the floor, I am facing the end of the street, which is the end of the town and I see a huge looming creature crawling in my direction. It’s another dragon.
I immediately remember the talk I had with my dad during the day. He had asked me if I fear dragons when I meet them in my dreams and I had said no, in general they are friendly. But this one has a really dark energy and I immediately felt really scared. I run back to the town, looking for a place to take cover and hide. He steps up, trying to catch me and I only have time to duck under a wagon to my left and I see the dragon passing right by my side. He circulates the wagon and hits it repeatedly. I know it’s a matter of time until he turns it over. For some reason I am really scared and convinced I can’t beat this dragon. So when he is about to grab me with his claws, I decide to wake up.

5:00

Puppies
Some guy is buying his kid a puppy. The kid opens up with me and says he didn’t receive love from his father so he is doing this as a compensation. I get involved and I tell the guy about Puppy Mills and that he shouldn’t support it by buying a puppy. Instead should go adopt a puppy from a shelter. I also say I hope this puppy won’t end up on a shelter later on if he gets tired of him. I take them to a shelter and the kid goes wild when he spots a little lion on some cage in the corner. He goes get it and hugs and kisses the lion. The animals are looked after by black androids.

6:00

08.12.2010

Lucid #9 Evil G. (DILD)

NON-DREAM DREAM LUCID

I told E. yesterday that we should try and have a shared dream. Today she told me she saw me playing the cello and there were many teens around. This is what i saw, i doubt if it was a shared though...

- I am at a school. We are having a lesson outside the class, in the garden of the school. A new teacher is there and we all seem to like him. He starts moving around trying to see if anyone of us is wearing earphones. Some teens grin... At some point i just stand up and leave. I find myself driving around, trying to park somewhere near the school. I don't remember what made me do this, but i pinched my nose and took a deep breath. I was staring at the floor. I see the pavement distorted like and interlaced video. It was excactly like my last lucid. I keep breathing. I turn around and I see G. The scene seems to be near a church (that's near G.'s house). I look at him and shout "Go away!", he comes closer. "Go away you are messing my dream up!". I keep breathing with my nose pinched. I shout "GO AWAY!!! Dream stabilize NOW!". I see the road in the distance vibrating really slow and then finally coming to rest. I turn around and see G. being really close now. "Go away!". He takes an ironic face and says: "What's wrong?? Is the dream unstable? huh?". And exactly at that point my cellphone rang. It was a missed call from my brother. Damn...

01.12.2010

Lucid #8 Interlaced, Dream of shared dreaming (DILD)

NON-DREAM DREAM LUCID

- I am with D. and we are talking about a dream we saw. I don't remember what it was about, but we concluded it was a shared dream! I was so excited! Then i told her sth i don't recall and she clouded.
"You are no supposed to say such things to a friend!" with tears in her eyes.
"Come on silly, i was kidding... Don't cry"

- I am lied down in a garage and i am sleepy. I have just woken up (FA) from some noise. I see some friends holding big paper bags and boxes. I shout at them "HEY!" with a sleepy voice. They come over me and start hitting me with the bags. Grr... I don't recall how, but we end up around my car. Alex comes to me and tells me that there is a friend of his, who is very experienced on cars and i should let him drive it. I didn't want to, although i said it was ok. I felt my weakness of saying "NO". However he didn't want to drive it any way. He does some weird mods on the lights and the sound system. I saw him pulling a cable and the a bunch of adaptors and a mix of cables came out...

- I am at Alex's house. The first floor doesn't seem like the real one at all. It is like i am in a big library or sth. I go to the basement and look for alex or someone familiar. The house was full of adults and elderly people. I go outside and reach the road. There is S. following me. He's taller and more fit. It felt like he was around for a long time, although i don't remember him in the house... I look for my car. The cars are parked in the middle of the road. This seems weird. I look around, but i don't see my car anywhere. I try to remember where i parked it. I try to visualize the time that i reached this place by car. I try again and again. I stop and look around in confussion... S. looks at me: "What's wrong???"... "I can't remember how i got here!" BOUM I pinch my nose and take a deep breath. My vision "breaks" like an interlaced video for a while. I walk in a weird dizzy way (usual for me). The dream is not stable. I 'm afraid i 'm gonna lose it again... -.- I look at my hands. They are not distorted, but seem transparent... Things aren't getting any better. I think about spinning before it's too late. I close my eyes and start spinning. I feel it fading away. I open my eyes. Shit! I am awake.

My dream started off with me on the bus going home heading back from the high school. (Which is a little weird because I rarely took the bus and I'm also in college now...) And since I haven't been back home for a while, things changed. The bus rout is now completely different and now we even used the small blue hippie buses I guess. I rode the bus, got off the bus and had about a 15 minute walk then to my house. On the way, this REALLY old time southern girl stopped to talk to me. "Hey! Would you like a sip of this wine?" I was like, "Sure." I went over, tried the wine and thought it was AMAZING! Which is weird because in reality, I do NOT like drinking. I then told her I'd see her later and stuff. I then got on another bus and I guess it took me back to the high school. I went around and maybe wanted to say "Hi" to my old teachers that I really liked. But then, I saw the wine girl again and she was screaming at me "HEY NILE! If you ever want to smoke some grass, call me!" I thought that was quite weird, so I kept on walking away and just decided to walk back home (which is a LONG walk). When walking away from the school, 2 guys that I never necessarily liked at school came up to me - but I never expected them to try to beat me up! They said "Hey, last time all we did was throw a snowball at you, this time we're gonna' beat the shit out of you." WHICH WAS THE CRAZY PART! THEY REFERENCED ANOTHER DREAM I HAD!!! (And I've never been in a fight, so I'd probably be the wussiest fighter ever. Which I was.) I caught them off guard, kneed one in the nuts, kicked the other in the balls. One was down forever, the other was still up, trying to knock me down. I then had to punch him in the balls. Which I did. And me punching him in the balls, turned out to be me just punching the wall next to me... in real life. I woke up after punching my wall. It hurt. Quite a bit, actually.

My Notes
Non-lucid
Lucid
Awake

The first dream began outside my friend's old house. I'm at the bottom of the hill, when I find an old and very rusty watch. It had a small key with it that went into the back. I bring it home and try to unlock it. It doesn't unlock, so I jam a screwdriver into the back.
I'm at school, outside my lockers again. The watch looks different. It now is shiny, and it glows. I show everyone how it has strange little mechanicals under the glass. I drop the key somewhere and can't find it. I look up to find my teacher, Mr T, passing it to me with a grin on his face.
I'm in a new building I've never been in before, still with the watch. It now has a large wide-screen on it which has a red button on it to the left. I press it to see what it does. Two people pop up on the screen, kissing. I then realise it's a porno button. "That's odd," I think, and do the nose-plug RC. For a moment, everything is in third person and I'm watching myself do the RC. The first few times my hands slip, but then I get it right, and I become lucid. Although I was lucid, it was a very low level of lucidity.
I turn around and see a window the size of the wall. The sky is completely blue, and there's a great big beach-city below me. I'm at least 100 floors up. I turn back around and see two people. One dares me to jump off. I say I'll parachute down. I think the dream ended either then and there, or a few moments later just as I jumped.

Second dream (this was one of those dreams that made no sense whatsoever): I'm in my bedroom. In my cupboard I have lots of board games in a black vertical board game rack. I really loved owning them all. A black tower, the same height and diameter as my board game stack, appears in the middle of my room. I'm concerned that it's going to replace my board games.

Third dream:I'm in my bed, but I'm in the top bunk instead of the bottom. I become lucid straight away. The first thing I notice is how dark it is (darkness is much more scary in dreams I think). I close my eyes and expect it to be day when I open them. This doesn't work. I try a second time and notice the the wall to my right has a very feint glow, but still there was no real light, so I decide to just leave it there.
I run out of my room, reminding myself to stay lucid. I run into the front room. My older brother is sitting in the main chair. I manage to say "Hi," before the dream ends.

Fourth dream: I'm on a computer, sitting next to some guy I don't know. I show him someone's youtube account. I notice that page has 31 dislikes. I didn't know you could even dislike a channel. I find out that I had accidentally gone into my channel. I notice he writes down my username. Embarrassed about him going on my channel, I contemplate deleting it.

Fifth dream (only a fragment): I see nothing but a page of a book. I know that my eyes are closed. I try to read it, but it eventually gets harder and harder to read. As I read it out loud, I notice that I'm barely paying attention to what I'm reading and won't remember it.
This may not have been a dream, but me seeing HI in a daze, just after waking up. It was most likely a dream though.

Sixth dream(also a fragment): I'm at the Year 9 Centre at my school. Some girl walks past with dark green hair. A person tells me how green is now an official hair colour now. What she meant by that was: people can now be born with green hair and have it in there genes. Even though it's different, I like the new colour.

Seventh dream:I'm in third person, watching two young Asian girls walk around an abandoned dock. The eldest one walks inside the building, which had walls that appeared to be made of a bright wood, and finds a switched-on laptop. She goes further down and discovers two more switched-on laptops. For some reason this gives her the impression that the owners of the laptops must be in danger, and she panics. They both climb the roof and start yelling and waving to a boat in the distance.

Eighth and final dream: I'm inside... somewhere. Two people are standing next to a narrow tunnel that goes up on a 45ish degree angle. One of them keeps throwing little stones up it. He says it's to distract someone who wants to steal an important orange stone. I remember thinking to myself how, in this strange and big world, police would never know how to deal with this, and these guys are right to deal with the situation themselves.
I climb the narrow tunnel. At the top is a dark blue ocean at night. There's a lone wooden boat with only one man on it. He looks a little bit like a demon. I get on board and wrestle him into a headlock. One of the guys instructed I drown him. For a moment, he turns into a purple book. He's now in his true form: a young looking man with blond hair, and light-brown body hair. He looks just like one of those half animal half human anime drawings you see all over the internet. I finally get him in a headlock and put my hand over his mouth. I see by the look on his face, he's no longer an evil person, just scared looking. As I have him in the headlock, I can feel all over my body his warmth. It was equivalent to leaning against your partner, only dream-amplified. Straight away I feel connected to him, then I feel sorry for him, as I now have to drown him.
I pull himself and I overboard. I watch him closely. I can't let him go till I know he's lost conscientiousness. I begin to struggle to hold my breath. I try to distract myself from the need to breath, and then I wake up.

Eight dreams... New personal record?

I was lieing on my side on my mattress that was on the floor in the living room that I was staying in at the time. I finally felt the wave and I became to excited it and it
stopped for a little bit. Then I went back into the whole swing of things and then I felt the wave again this time I decided that I will finally go with it. This time the vibrations came
and I managed to keep myself calm anyways as soon as that started I decided to roll out of my body so I did that. And once out of my body I got up off the floor it was daylight outside.

So I looked at my hands and I could see that my fingers looked like little stubs and they were sort of glowing. Then I just did a Nose Pinch because that is better for me
So after that I decided to try and change genders I focused really hard but it didn't work. I really need to work on my control anyways straight after that I woke up.
It was quite short because it was a School morning and I was worried that I would oversleep and miss my way to School. If I didn't worry I would be having a longer
experience oh well next time.

28.08.2010

Fisrt Lucid Dream (DILD)

NON-DREAM DREAM LUCID

I have no log for this dream, because it was so long ago.

The dream starts in a green, grassy park, sourrounded by giant mountains and tall trees all around me. I was with Walker, Hannah, and Izzie and we were all hanging out. I became lucid all of the sudden and it wasn't intense, but it was sudden. The reaosn i became lucid was because someone mentioned flying, and i snapped to attention. When i started looking around, being so detail oriented already, i knew i had to examine something, so i immediately crouched down to the ground and picked a blade of grass. I looked it over and i was smiling with joy as i took in the vivid detail and i was ecstatic with happiness. I was still not lucid enough to realize that my friends were dream characters, soi was talking to them. I told them that this was a dream and that they needed to stay calm. As i kept trying to tell them to stay calm, they ran away, causing me to be ever so slightly frustrated with them, causing me to disregard my own advice. And as soon as that happened, the dream was over.

Before bed I took a vitamin b supplement, as well as some vitamin b-6.

Dream Avatar Technique

I am walking from my car to the university in Cleveland where I take classes. I am following a girl who is talking on her cell phone. Even though I am following her, I can see her face. I look at this for a while, as she is nice looking and since she is turned away from me she won't be able to see me. I wonder how this can be, since I can see her face. I then realize it is because she is walking while turned a little to the side, moving forward with her head turned so as to see me.

False awakening (?) I continue walking, and thinking about the dream I had "last night". Then I realize that I haven't done an reality check yet today. I question whether or not I am dreaming, and find that I am dreaming. When I realize this, the dream begins to fade, and I either drift into waking state and then WILD back to the dream, or hang on even though things black out a bit. It isn't so much a matter of stabilizing the dream now, it is just that the dream is more like a daydream, or I am only half asleep. I remember something I read somewhere about trying to identify with your body in the dream. I attempt to do so.

I am still walking to class. I reach the building, and find myself outside the building and walking next to some large stone pillars. The girl is still with me.

"Transport yourself to your dream body", she says. I know that she means another DC, which represents myself. I also know that this DC is Monk (the detective. I have dreamed a couple of times now that I am Monk. It is kind of a dreamsign.)

"How am I supposed to find him? There are so many people, and he could be anywhere." I say.

"It's your dream," says the girl. "Put him where you want him to be."

I imagine Monk around the next pillar. Sure enough, when I reach the pillar, he is standing there. He is around the corner of the building, standing still in the street as though he is examining something. I approach him, and study him for a moment. In doing so, I assume a Monk-like attitude. Then I turn around and walk backwards so that I am standing in the exact same spot as him, facing the same direction. This is not hard to do, as Monk and I are one and the same anyway, just in two different places. Then I will myself to take his place.

Suddenly, everything becomes vivid. It is amazingly vivid, as I have often seen people describe their LD's. I look up at the sky, and see how vibrant and real the color is. Everything around me seems so real, and there is none of that "tunnel vision" that I often get in lucid dreams. Along with this comes a sense of exhilliration.

"Wow!" I shout with amazemet, "This is really vivid!" A guy walking by me in a suit and carrying a briefcase looks over at me, a little startled and amused. "Sorry," I say.

It is so vivid that I begin to wonder if I am really dreaming. I know that I am, but it all seems so realistic. I do a "finger through hand" and "nose pinch" reality check. Niether of them work, as RC's don't seem to work anymore in my dreams. Still, I know that I am dreaming, even though there is a tiny doubt in the back of my mind (small enough of a doubt for me to still consider this to be lucid).

Intoxicated with the exhilliration that seems to have come with the vividness of the dream, I race up a set of stairs on my right. There are lots of people around, but I don't care. I run about about 3 or 4 flights of stairs, and pause at the top.

"Paging Dr. S____," I hear a voice saying over a PA system. I begin to get confused now, thinking that I am supposed to be a doctor but at the same time thinking it is a dream. I know in order to perform surgery I need my backpack, which I left down on the street. "Even if I am dreaming" I think, "I don't want to take the chance of not responding to this page". I turn to go back down the steps, and open my eyes to find myself in bed.

At this point I look at the clock and realize it is past 9:00 am, and I had an engagement this morning. I feel like I could have returned to the dream, but I had to get up. I did a few RC's, but I was awake.

19.11.2010

Lucid #7 Driving, almost sex :p (DILD)

NON-DREAM DREAM LUCID

Lucid again!!! I went to sleep at 00:00, must have fallen asleep around 1:40, woke up at 7:00.

- I drive Kifisias avenue in the left lane. There is a bus on my right. Some pedestrians jump in front of me. I almost hit a woman. And then something i think is awesome happened! As i wait till the pedestrians go off the road, all the windows or glasses of the car get blured A LOT due to temperature difference. I turn the air blower on. When the clear up i find myself in the right lane, behind a stopped (actually parked) car. I cope for some time to change lane and when i succeed i get stopped by the traffic lights. Duh! I look around. I now don't know where i am. I think i must have turned wrong while the windows where blurred. The green light comes on. I go to the other side of the road... on foot... I stop and look aroun. "Where the hell am i? How did i end up here?". A thought flashed into my head: "When in a dream, you can't really remember how you ended up where you are". At that point i really just didn't believe this could be a dream. When i get lucid i usually have the feelling of the dream already and it builds up till i become completelly lucid by doing a reality check. But this time i had no idea! I pinch my nose, but there was no clear result. I look at my hand. Same as yesterday (lucid #6).I become lucid. I continue the RCs. As i move my right index finger towards my left palm, my palm bruises and it feels really difficult to get it any closer. Like a repeling magnet. I pinch my right arm. Really little pain. I start thinking about what to do. In the place i am, there is a cliff just in front of me. I think of jumping down there and start flying. At that point people started showing up. I remembered i had set my alarm clock, so i think of trying something quick. I see a family sitting around a table. I reach for the daughter (pretty girl). "Do you wanna have sex?" hahaha. I sit down in front of her legs, i hold her hand (nice nails) and stroke her calf. She gives me an interesting look. She turns to her mother: "Should i take him?" (at that point it sounded more like she meant "like a pet", i found it really funny though). Her mother looks at me and says "yee, take him". We get up, i smile and then... (that's all i remember)Well at least she wasn't negative. xD

PS: The last 2 lucids (#6-7) didn't fade out in the usual (for me) way. I usually feel my head disappearing accompanied with a bit of dizzyness and then i wake up. Those two were like a memory loss. Like normal dreams. I couldn't feel the dream fading away. Anyway. That's all.

its was a WBTB and i knew i was dreaming before the dream started. i was looking at some pipes that had a control box above them. i flipped some switches to fix something and i was explaining something to a girl i know in reality. i got bored with that so i tried to change who the girl was. i told her to change into another girl i knew in reality. she did change, but into the wrong person. she changed to my mom. i got a little frustrated so i walked down some steps(away from her) to find other people to try and control. my mom followed me. i thought i'd try to change her again. i told her to change into the other girl. she tried but ended up becoming disfigured. it was like she was duplicating but stopped before separating. she had disgusting figure. her head was expanded in the back, and there were several veins. i was a little freaked and still aggravated so i walked away, and she didnt follow me. i walked towards a group of people and tried to vocally tell them to do something(cant remember) they didnt listen and my older brother came up behind me and grabbed my hands and put them behind me. i knew i was in control so i told myself that when i will try to break out of his hold i will be stronger than him. but as i tried to pull away, he was still stronger. he let go on his own, laughing, and walked away. i walked the other direction. after walking away i noticed that my senses were getting extremely dull. everything felt like it was made out of rock. even the people in my dreams.

notes:
didnt focus on my senses[VERY IMPORTANT]
i was very aware i was dreaming but forgot the important steps to keeping control

18.11.2010

Lucid #6 meadow, Walking on Water (DILD)

NON-DREAM DREAM LUCID

I fell asleep at 2:00, woke up 8:50 and fell back to sleep.

- I am at a meadow and see two dinosaur-like creatures running around. They looked like those fake dragons they make in china for some festivals i think. I know that one of them is a close friend of mine. I can feel it. Then i think "well John can't really be a dragon. It can't be real". I pinch my nose and take a deep breath. I am lucid. I keep breathing with my nose closed for a while. Then i look at my left-hand fingers. As i twist my hand my fingers change, but they are not too distorted. One of those two creatures (not John) walkes next to me. It has 4 or 6 legs long, thin and tall body and pretty awesome white and red fur. It is a pretty massive and big creature. As it passes by me I reach for its fur. Awesome! I stand there and look at the meadow. I try to engage all my senses. I hear some music that sounded really familiar. It was like a "heaven" choir... Anyway. I lose my balance there (like in the lucid with the car) and i think i might lose it. Luckily i do not. There is a road nearby. I go there. I start thinking random goals. Three came to mind: 1) talk to a DC, 2) Give a present to a DC, 3) Walk on liquid water. There are two guys walking on the road. They are like tourists. I say "Excuse me, do you know where Alex is?" (not sure why i asked that, or what i meant?). He answered me sth but i am pretty sure it didn't make any sense or i didn't nderstand it. I don't remember. Me: "Ok i 'll give you a present. Have you ever seen a man walking on liquid water?". I walk to the other side of the road. There are some stairs that lead to the sea. I reach the end of the jetty. I put my feet in the water and i slowly try to stand on them. It feels like there is jelly forming just beneath my feet. I stand up and sink down to my knees. I make two steps and i sink all the way down. I swim and push upwards and manage to get out of the water up to my waist. My friend M. appears and says: "That's not possible! How do you do that?", "You are right M. This is not possible. There is only one way you can do sth like this". She looks at me, like she did understand what i meant. "In your imagination?", "Yes! In a dream! This is a dream M.!". I kinda hoped she was the real one and not a DC. I pinch her nose and say "breath!". I think that she couldn't do it. "Actually i don't think you are the real one. With all this talking you should be lucid till now.". I leave. I think she is following me. I try to think some more goals. I feel like i am bored. I think about giving a flower to a lady that was passing by cause my last "present" wasn't actually a present. That's the last thing i remember. After a while, i woke up. I look at the clock. It's 9:25.

I went to bed saying out loud "I will Lucid Dream, and I will remember my dreams when I wake up." It kinda worked.

I was kinda chilling around at a supermarket, where I did a reality check, holding my nose. It worked, and I immediately started clapping really hard to lock myself into the dream. I walked around, and tried to change up some really small things, like colors of balloons, but it didn't really work. Then I made my girlfriend appear. I hugged her, and then I lost lucidity. We proceeded to hang out the rest of the dream, but I forgot I was dreaming.

1. I'm in an apartment that I don't recognize. I know that for some reason I have to get all the way across town very soon. I have a large beer that I am trying to finish as quickly as possible. There are large bowls of ramen noodles. Someone makes a toast and they say that it is for "the most boring man in the world".

2. I'm going to class. I don't recognize the setting of the classroom. I sit down at a desk away from most of the people in the room, because I do not know anyone. We have to watch a video, but from where I am sitting, I can not see at all. Some of the dream characters notice this and beckon me over. I grab my bag and I sit at a table full of DCs. The instructor hands out some papers. I look up and notice that the instructor is my old boss. This confuses me for a minute. "But I was fired... Wasn't I?" I ask. He doesn't seem to know what I am talking about.
I look down at the papers that he has handed out. The heading of the text starts moving in a psychedelic way. This should have been a dream sign, but instead I think that I am having an acid flashback or something. I hear someone laugh, and I look up to see a girl about my own age with dark skin, dark hair, and grey eyes. She is smiling and laughing at me. "I know that look." She says and winks.
We talk for a while, and when I look back on it now, it seems like she was trying to hint to me that I was dreaming. She tells me that her name is Zenia or something similar. I also talked with a few other DCs but none of them are quite as memorable.
I go outside for a cigarette, even though I have quit in real life. I run into a friend of mine, and we wander for a bit and end up in some strange mall. I realize that we will probably get in trouble for smoking in the mall so I suggest that we head back the way we came. We pass by the class again and Zenia and her group of friends are still hanging out outside. I go over and say goodbye to them, then I run back to my friend and continue on our walk.
We turn down one street and come across a family of wild pigs, inexplicably living in the town. The babies are very cute. When they see us, they run out into the street, and my friend and I desperately try to save them from being hit by passing cars. I grab one and it struggles to get away from me, and even tries to bite me. I run and put it down on the other side of a nearby fence. As I am running around to try and save the others, I realize how absurd the whole situation is. I think that I must be dreaming. As soon as I have this revelation, the dream starts to fade. I get down on my knees and feel the ground. At first it feels like concrete, and I breathe a sigh of relief. Then it starts to feel soft like the sheets on my bed. I start to worry that I am waking up. Suddenly it feels like I am standing on my bed in the dark, holding the headboard for support. I can't figure out if this is really happening or not, or if this is part of the dream.

It was part of the dream, as I got rid of my headboard several weeks ago. Another lucid though! Even though I'm still having trouble making them last, the fact that they seem to be becoming more frequent is encouraging.

I had an LD last night and all I remember was walking from a room in my house and it leading into a room at my girlfriend's house and it caused me to do a reality check. Of course I realized I was dreaming but that is about all I remember other than running outside to fly away and explore the dream world then trying to create a portal to somewhere else. The rest of the LD is a fog.