lucid

I'm beginning to think either I have a knack for pulling off DEILDs post LD, or I'm good at doing it within' my dreams. Either way, I'm not complaining, any way to lengthen an LD is okay with me.

Anywho, rather strange how easily I can believe that I am NOT dreaming sometimes when I do RC's in dreams. I suspect my subconscious or an unusually successful MILD came into play getting me lucid this morning, as the dream character next to me mentioned twice that I was dreaming. Actually, this lucid was the first time that the nose plug test worked as it should have in real life, at least at first, though in total, it took me 4 RCs (1 working nose, 2 failing nose, and one finger count.) to get me all lucid.

The dream itself was fairly unremarkable as far as lucids go, as I exhibited VERY little control over it. I tried many a time to change the dream scape to one of my choosing, and no amount of whirling seemed to change anything. It did, however, calm me down a bit.

At the time, however, my outside environment was... Less than tranquil. TV going, lawnmower outside blaring away, it's a surprise none of these elements bled into my dream.

Oh, of all the things I tried to do in my most recent lucid, I totally forgot to summon my sub again! Blargh! I could kick myself for forgetting that.

The only remarkable thing I tried was willing a doorway to rise from the ground. Sadly did not work. I did exhibit anchoring finally within' my dream, and really got to feel the tactile realism within' the dream for the first time I can recall. (Well, at least more prominent this time than others.)

Like I said, the dreams themselves were quite mundane. First was simply at my house, furniture was re-arranged, my sister and a good friend of mine was there, my dog makes his second appearance since I've started my dream journal. It didn't last long before I slipped into almost awakedness. This was when I DEILD back in, again, failing to get the dreamscape I envisioned.

Second was some manner of forest, I spent a good amount of time trying to get someplace else (Some place more familiar in which to experiment.) but several whirl attempts and the aforementioned door summoning all proved useless. I eventually gave up and just explored a bit. At one point I was slipping into the void (A black spot in the center of my vision.), but managed to stave it off with hands stare and a spin. (Done correctly for a change.)

After that, a bear attacked me and bit my thumb. I basically hug it into docility and asked it what it represented. It responded with, and I kid you not, "Heck if I know, I'm just a bear!" in a very dopey voice.

Anyway, while mundane as far as my LDs go, it DOES mark the first one that has taken place outdoors for a decent amount of time. But a lot of missed opportunities. =( I guess I need to read up more on dream control.

October 18, 2010

Took G/C (1 pill) around 6am + 3 melissa pills (the lemon balm/l-theanine combo). Back to bed with a MILD mantra (this is a dream/nose pinch visual). Unfortunately, I didn't take a lot of notes between these dreams, so I really only remember the lucid bits.

I also forgot to meditate on any goals, so my LD's came out pretty randomly.

Trying to find my DG's (MILD)
I realized I was dreaming and walked away from whatever was happening. I remember running out the door and noticing I was naked, but I didn't care. I asked the dream, "Please take me to where Danny and Sterling are!" and flew. I remember seeing all black, but then a white light swirled around. Then everything went white. I wondered if I accidentally killed myself. I stopped to let everything stabilize, but then someone "woke" me up.

Back in bed, I was in SP. It cleared, and Roger was standing over me. He told me I needed to come hear this. I was about to find something fantastic, this had better be good :sad1: I followed him out into a room and saw a person with anime eyes. One eye was blue and one was red.

There was a girl at a table. She asked me if I wanted some juice, but I told her I would have some wine. This surprised her, but she got it for me. She addressed the room, saying she had information on finding Danny and Sterling. I woke up.

Walking down a street (DILD)
I was crossing a street on a winter day, walking my dog (the one that passed away, IRL). I got the inkling that it may be a dream, and I was about to shrug it off when I stopped myself. I actually didn't think about my dog, but I thought, "Well, if it's a dream, let's jump up and sit on this tree branch." I jumped up and reached the tree branch, feeling pretty satisfied with myself.

Fireballs (DILD)
Once I became lucid, I wasn't entirely sure what to do. I remembered a previous dream where I was trying to throw fireballs, but I couldn't create them. So, it's decided. I'm going to make some fireballs. I held out my hand, and pretended I could feel heat across my palm. It took a bit, but soon enough I saw a lovely little ball of fire form off my hand. A perfect sphere hovering just above it. I giggled happily and tossed it. I set something on fire, but I can't quite remember what. Some shrubbery, perhaps.

I realized though, that I'm going to need to conjure fireballs a lot faster than that, if I'm going to use them in battles. So I practiced conjuring and tossing fireballs. Unfortunately, I have extremely bad aim :sad1: I happened to be standing in a food court and I kept tossing them at people and hitting walls and such. But, they were conjuring a bit faster, so yayyyy!

Sailor Moon (Possibly a WILD, with a very short transition)
I was chatting with my former neighbour (a clairvoyant) about the first lucid dream that I had tonight, about being "woke up" in sleep paralysis. I realized how different I am now than when she knew me. Back then, I didn't get lucid very often, and I wasn't aware of the spiritual implications this could have. It saddened me, too, that it's hard to talk about with people in my waking life. And that the real person doesn't know I get lucid a few times a month, now.

However, in the front yard, there came a man, shrouded in black. He started up an attack, which I went to fend off. I decided to use my new fireballs. I threw a few, but my aim really, really sucks :sob: I decided to just hold my arm out where I wanted the ball to go, but then nothing would come out. Okay... what about psi-balls? Nothing. I sighed in defeat (of the lack of abilities, not of the fight). I shouted out the transformation phrase for Sailor Moon and transformed. I whipped out the moon stick, and the man freaked. I used the Moon Healing Escalation on him, and took care of him.

I noticed a cat... Luna! She turned into an older woman (guessing about mid-50's in age). I became really saddened though. She might be a real dreamer, but I won't know her in waking life. I may never know her. But in the dream, we are allies. I left without speaking to her. She tried to stop me, but I ignored her.

Later, at "home," she came bounding through the door, in cat form again. My mum asked me to get rid of her (not in a bad way, but we're all allergic to cats in the house). I told Luna as much, but then noticed she had some wounds. I cleaned her, then brought her to mum. I said I can't abandon an injured animal, so she'll stay in my room. Mum said it was fine.

I brought Luna to my room, and tucked her under the blankets. I asked her if she could breathe, and she nodded.

I cant remember what i was dreaming about before, had something to do with a lake, but anyway I was holding this cannonball in my hands and I realised i was dreaming. i was only slightly aware of it though and this thought just came through my head and i decided to wake up. i was suddenly in my bed in my room and it was nearly pitch black. I saw loads of images in only half a second, silhouettes of people, I can only remember the last one clearly, it was an eye. I raised my arm without wanting to and my hand had a yellow glow. my blankets wriggled around me and the speed of my breathing changed. I slowly began to feel my closed eyelids, I opened them and I was in my bed. I couldnt get back to sleep for the next 2 hours as i was totally freaked out.

This has happened to me before, i notice the beginnings of a nightmare and i realise I am in bed and blocked by SP, I try to move and i break out of it with a horrible rushing sound. This time it was more interesting and also a lot scarier.

Lucidity: 6/10
Vividness: 8/10
Length: 10 Min.

I was in class and I was writing something down. Then I got up and tried to push up on the corner of the desk making it tip over. Instead, another top part of a table came out. So I looked at it for a minute and thought "wow, that's weird. I wonder if I could do it again." So I did it again. Then a little chime that was on a violin came on. I started screwing with the desks while I was saying "this is a dream, you can do anything!" So I did that for a while, turned around and saw Alisha. I thought "let's try sex again." So I did. I got into a conversation with her. I imagined her naked (in a tight body) and tried not to look. I told her to sit on my lap. So she did. I could feel her vagina. So we talked for a couple more minutes and then she got up, walked about 5 feet away, and stood there. I asked her to come here but she wouldn't. So I said "never mind" while running in the opposite direction. I was in a small grassy field with a wall of vines next to it. I ran through while dogs ran past me. They quickly turned around and tried to get me. I was on a beach and saw a bunch of buildings. So I jumped in the air and flew. The camera showed the dogs all pissed off, hitting the water. So back to me and flying. I was flying trying to make the dream more stable by being more aware. I concentrated on everything. Making it more detailed. Through out the land it was mostly trees. The buildings that I saw were grey with a bunch of bushes on them. So I was in the center of this city still flying and almost fell. I said to my self "you gotta make it more interesting" and I flew faster. So fast that when I flew near the ground I almost hit it. But instead of hitting the ground, I went past all the 2D towers next to me. So I flew up and to the right, back to the city. I got the hang of flying then. I saw a bunch of ladders and a corner of the deserted building. There were little black-red things on it. So I landed next to one and squished it with my hand. Feeling powerful, I walked down this narrow walkway until I found this one part of the building that had like 6 or 7 batteries for the little black-red things and some how I destroyed them with my mind. Then I heard someone say "mission accomplished" and I slowly woke up. I obviously tried to DEILD but failed.

I planned to not record my dreams this night. I just wanted to get a solid night's rest. So no recall in the first half (the usual reason). And for the first couple dreams I didn't write anything down. By the last two, I realized the dreams were worth writing down so I did so.

"Do Nothing"
Lucidity: C
Vividness: C
Control: C
~0800: No written notes, so this is spotty from memory. I don't recall how I became lucid. The first thing I recall is doing a nose plug RC. I'm sitting at a campfire circle. It's dusk. It seems like I'm in the giant doorway of an abandoned factory or airplane hanger. A few other DCs are around the fire. They look like migrant workers. The scene made me think of movies like The Motorcycle Diaries and Mi Mejor Enemigo. I remember my plan: "Do nothing", practice reality checks, focus on all 5 senses.. For taste, I lick a rock on the ground and it tastes like dirt! I vaguely recall that I did things for the other senses. I think I had double vision and that frustrated me. I try to talk to the DCs but I don't recall they said anything.

fragment
~0915: C. No written notes, so this is from memory. First thing I recall is a false awakening. I sense there was more before but no detail. I'm in my own room. I get out of bed and look at the time: 1:30pm. Crap, it is really that late? I get up, take off my Zeo headband and dock it in the bedside unit. It gives me a sleep score of 42. Really? I thought I slept better than that. Wake up for real. It's only about 9. My Zeo score for the night ended up at a more respectable 83.

Unfocused Lucid
Lucidity: C
Vividness: C
Control: D
1100: Just a few notes so this is mostly from memory. I'm in a classroom. It's a art or shop class so all the students are standing at work tables. In the dream, I seem to be distracted or sleepy. The teacher is a woman and there are one or two girls sharing my table. The first thing I recall is the teacher scolding me for not paying attention. So I become aware of what we are supposed to be doing. We have a piece of paper with a drawing on it. On top, we have a piece of tracing paper and we are supposed to trace the drawing under it. The drawing is an architectural sketch of a colonial era boat, I think. So I start tracing but there is a time limit. The teacher is nearby, watching me. She thinks I won't finish in time. The other girl at my table is done and she is also watching me. I feel nervous but I act confident. I think we do two tracings like this. The next task is to trim a large piece of meat. It's really thin, more like a the hide than the flesh. The tracing paper has become butcher paper. I move to a larger table and spread this gross sheet of meat over the paper.

Skip. Now I'm outside in what seems to be a school campus but it's unfamiliar. I'm walking up a grassy hill. There are many other students around. It's bright daylight. I see a girl who I recognize as a high school classmate, Beth. I'm not sure but I think this must be what made me lucid. Her hair is weird, kinda like dreadlocks but also kinda like bananas. Anyway, her face is recognizable. Lucidity and control are low at this point. I don't RC or stabilize. I just march up to her, say hello, and demand a blow job. She starts doing it but soon turns into a weird creature and I stop.

I walk away and I'm starting to get my wits about me. But lucidity, vividness, and control are still pretty low. I try to think of my tasks. The only one I can remember is flying barrel roll. I hesitate because my recent flying has not been good. But I can't think of anything else to do so I jump and spin. It works! I'm able to hover horizontally a few feet off the ground and a spin multiple times. (Wikipedia tells me that this is actually an aileron roll, not a barrel roll) I fly around spinning for about 30 seconds. Maybe I popped out to third-person a bit. My lucidity was fading away.

Skip. Now I'm in a building. The school gym or theater maybe? Maybe I lost lucidity for a while and then regained it here. A troupe of clowns is performing a circus-style act. I am in a corner back stage, near the exit. I see a door but I want to try walking through the wall. I try a few times but fail. I try to convince myself that I can do it. I know this is a dream and that I can walk through the wall. But no luck. Dream ends. In retrospect, this attempt at control was too forced.

Dream Within Dream
1130 C. This was a combination of false awakening and false memory that made it feel like a dream within a dream. I sense that I am out of town for work (this is the false memory). I'm staying in a hotel and I'm sleeping and dreaming. In the dream, I am in a WWII-esque battle among the ruins of a bombed city. I'm with my childhood friend Collin. I only have a tiny pistol in this big fight. I see an enemy across the way and fire a few careful shots. The gun is very inaccurate but I manage to hit him in the head. Everyone is happy and celebrates me as the hero.

I have a false awakening in a hotel room. In the dream, I think that the war scene was a lucid dream and I remember the two real previous lucids. So I congratulate myself for 3 lucids in the night.

Skip. Now I'm back in my apartment. Combining the war dream, the false awakening in the hotel, and the false memory of traveling for work, this all creates the dream within the dream phenomenon. So anyway, I'm home in my apartment but it looks totally different. I sense that, as I returned from traveling, my roommate has just left. I see that he has left a bunch of books and devices about lucid dreaming. He is just starting to pratice having lucid dreams. I go in the bathroom and see that the faucet has been left on just a drip. But over several days, the drip has flooded the room with an inch of water.

Method: WILD
Recall: average
Lucid Ability:4
Vividness: Average
Dream Length:short

I get out of my bed, and head to the living room. I immediately think about plan B, but interestingly enough two versions of my mother is in the living room. Scratch that, lets get out of here. As a matter of fact, lets look for Walms. I jumped up on the roof and yelled "I'm coming for you". Charged up a black hole portal, and threw it on the ground, but something wasn't happening right. It looked like cooking oil when it hit the ground. I stood on it anyway, and nothing happened.

Note: When I fell asleep tonight I had only one plan, and that was to do some healing on MoSh since he seemed to have some negative energy the previous day. So I fell asleep with the goal of going to find MoSh in my mind, and then I slipped into a WILD.

When I entered my WILD I was already in MoSh's inner world, in the usual place in front of MoSh's house. I looked around there for a few minutes, I thought MoSh might be inside the house and in need of healing. So I started walking towards the house but I met up with a woman before I got there, I recognized the woman as Kaomea. I asked her where MoSh was, she said he was in the healing glen with the stone golem, so we would go there to heal him. I said that sounded fine with me, was Asuka coming? Kaomea said Asuka was with her right now, so let's go. I opened a portal to the healing glen, and both of us went through it. On the other side I saw MoSh lying in a bed of grass, the Crystal Golem was right there with him, and I saw Basara emerging from a portal right as Kaomea and I arrived.

In the healing glen I went over to take a closer look at MoSh, who sat up as I went over to him. He said he felt fine, he had needed healing before, but now he was ok. Kaomea told him to lie back down and let the healers do their jobs. She pushed him back down on his back, where he just lied there and looked up at her. I went to check closer, scanning his energy as I went over there, and I saw there was some dark energy still in his system, and in fact, there was a concentrated area of the dark energy right over his chest. It was underneath his shirt, so to find it I would have to remove that shirt… Kaomea gave me a strange look as I started removing MoSh's shirt. Kaomea asked if undressing was my true goal, I said of course not, then she accused me of saying MoSh was unattractive… it seemed the best thing to do was to keep my mouth shut since neither of those are true.

When I got his shirt off, there was something underneath that made all weird comments stop, it was a rather disgusting thing on MoSh's chest. MoSh did a double take as he saw that it was there, apparently he hadn't been able to feel it in spite of its size. It was a beetle about the size of a baseball. It had six long legs, each of those legs was actually digging into MoSh's chest… I reached to get the thing off, but after just touching it just gently, MoSh said that hurt! So I didn't try to take it off like that. Kaomea asked what the thing was doing there, I said it looked like it was both feeding MoSh negative energy and feeding off of that negative energy, it was multiplying the stuff. Ok, I had to get the thing off, but it was an insect… so maybe I could control the thing like I control other bugs in dreams. So I told the thing to get off of MoSh. It started to move, which apparently caused MoSh some extreme pain, so I told it to stop that, and it did. I reworded my command, and told it to get off of MoSh, but be as careful as possible, cause as little discomfort to MoSh as possible… and it obeyed. It retracted each of its legs one by one, MoSh didn't even twitch. The bug was finally off and it came over to me to wait for further orders, so I told it to go aside and wait… there must be something to do with such a bug…

So now there was just one more thing to do, heal whatever damage the thing had already managed to do to MoSh. This is where we all did healing spells, Kaomea was using an energy healing spell of some kind, though I didn't really focus on that too much since I was doing my own healing spell in the form of Touch My Heart. Basara was also playing a song on his guitar, and everything merged together to fill the glen with golden healing energy. That energy was very relaxing. The wound left by the bug in MoSh's chest closed up and soon was healed, then we continued the healing spell until everything faded from my view and I woke.

10/19/10

I had a dream that I was back in my old high school.. I was getting lunch and it was odd how I was standing there looking at the food being served and my surroundings. I guess I had lots of odd experiences in that particular high school and I haven't had any high school dreams in a long long time ( from what I can recall..)..
There was this old woman behind the food bar and she was pointing otu the different foods and I was so determined to just grab a salad but couldn't find any.
I walk out of the school and see all the students lined up outside I figured they too were either trying to get back in or were waiting for lunch.
I look across the street and see where I use to live as a child and this strange feeling overwhelms me.. I felt so vulnerable and just didn't want to be there.
Instead of me walking home I walk to the corner of the block and head up to see if I would see the store I use to go to called the "milky way" ..all of a sudden it starts to get dark and next to the store was an Italian restaurant.. what is odd is from my real memories there never was an Italian restaurant by the store " milky way"..
So I walk in and there is this tall Italian man smiling holding the door open for me and I look down and see this dog at the end of the leash.. small white dog and he tells me " Here you go bring her back tomorrow.." I replied "okay I will".. I feel good walking with this dog and it is night out..
I start walking to the direction of home where I use to live as a child.. but this dog makes me feel relaxed and so much better.. weird but I didn't feel alone.
I get home and the dog is stays with me.. my dad and mom are there I still feel weird because my parents are currently divorced and have been for a long time.. there is much bad blood between them in real life.. so in my dream seeing them two together was weird.. but than again it was a dream lol.
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Suddenly my dream switches and I am back at the restaurant to get the dog again to go home.. this time the Italian man had a different dog.. looked like a small lassie type dog and it's tail was between it's legs. The guy told me the other dog ( that I had took home ) was in his house and he had that one and wondered if I could take him.. I feel this lump in my throat.. feels like I am going to cry. I told him I would love to but the dog is too small and younger dogs tend to be more active and my neighbors would not be happy about it.. There is another woman standing holding a pile of folders in her arms and she is smiling down at this little dog.
I am standing there with a book bag and the Italian man starts checking the dog's lower body.. he says " He doesn't seem good at all something is wrong.. " I told him " looks like he ate something he shouldn't have.. young dogs tend to eat whatever is in their path.." The man nodded and told me he will take him back home.. I apologized greatly and start to head up the block back home.. feeling sad wishing the other dog was there with me..

Weird dream

September 19th 2010

Switch - Good and Evil

Awake Non-Lucid Semi-Lucid

I realise, there's a switch on my right hand. It isn't actually there, but I can feel it with my fingers. It slides, obviously analogue. I wonder what it does?

There are trees around me, along with what looks like shops. I slide the switch over to the left. Everything brightens, lines are smoother, people smile at me. I slide it to the right. My vision smudges, lines darken, the smiles drop off of their faces as quickly as they came. I set it back to normal.

I realise I have a job to do, but I can't remember what. There's a wall to my right, too high to climb. I run up it instead, and peer over. The drop below is much further than what I ran. If I fall, I die. But there are ledges, suspended over the space. Large, muscular men guard them. How can I get past?

I slowly turn the switch to the right, but not all the way. Everything darkens again. As soon as I jump down to the first ledge, one of the men grabs me, snarling, and throws me off. I don't die, I don't even hit the ground. In fact, I'm exactly where I was before, crouching over the edge of the wall. I flick the switch to the left. The men let me jump from ledge to ledge, although some look like they're thinking off throwing me off. I feel like i'm in a videogame.

When I get to the floor, I don't take very much in. There's a sofa that I walk to, and see my friend sitting there. I become slightly lucid, and flick the switch all the way to the left. My friend grabs a sheet of paper and draw a light sketch of wings on it. What does she mean? I fly onto the wall again, and face the forest. I flick the switch all the way to the right.

Instantly, I wish I hadn't. Every outline is dark and smudged, the world turns grey, there are shadows everywhere. It's as if I've entered a nightmare. The beautiful forest goes up in flames. People are marching out of it, screaming at me, holding weapons. I forget the switch and run.

Stalker

For some reason there's a shop under my school. I walk down the dark, damp passageway leading up to it, I really hope it isn't some scary cellar. But luckily, when I get there, it's not. There are clothes everywhere. I remember I needed to buy boots for the winter, and head to the shoe section. After getting rather bored, and getting sick of looking at leather, I quickly go into a changing room to change.

When I get out, I'm wearing a silky pink, strapless dress that goes down to above the knee. I wear dark pink heels to match. For some reason, I can't walk very well in them (which is odd because I can walk fine in heels. Practice makes perfect, right!?) . I budge past the people blocking my way and head out a door opposite the one I came through. I'm in a theatre!

The seats are slanted as they go up so everyone can see. But at a very steep angle. I'm so high up that if I get out of my seat wrong, imma die. I literally need to curve my legs under me to hop onto the floor from my seat. Somehow, whiles i'm puzzling over this, the show ends.

[Dream skip - A few minutes] I'm back in my normal clothes (jeans and t-shirt) and i'm walking home. Ethan calls me from behind. Shit. This guy pretty much stalks me (I'm being serious guys, LOL ) . I don't say anything. Goddammit, why am I still wearing these heels? I can't get away from him fast enough. He gets pissed off pretty fast and pulls out a bow and a sheath of arrows. Because he's so hardcore...

I notice he's got a "friend" up ahead who's done the same thing. Now they're trying to shoot me. I kick off the stupid heels and run for it. Somehow I'm faster than usual, but there's still a chance I get hit. Luckily, I don't.

Transformation

Note: This one really creeped me out. I woke up with a really awful feeling because it was a late REM stage so it was vivid too. Basically, I watched a really sweet girl turn into this evil blood-thirsty monster. Like nothing you've ever seen before. Go watch the recent Starwars Sith thingy and you'll understand.

For some reason, I think my room is a pirate ship. And it's the room in my old house, which I haven't been in for three years. I'm in my "ship" when a innocent looking, blonde girl comes in. She's smaller than me, with deep blue eyes and shoulder length hair, with a full fringe. She looks unhappy for some reason. She tells me that she needs to save her mother. That her mum's been taken and she needs to get her back. Her name is Kate. I tell Kate to come back tomorrow, and we'll go get her mother.

[Dream skip - The next day] I'm in the ship, when Kate swings in (literally, on a piece of rope hanging from the hall outside. Don't ask me why ). She's got black eyeliner on, and has gelled her fringe back. She's enthusiastic, which is good. We get going.

To move the "ship" we sway from side to side. I watch the ship from third person but can still feel my body. We go down my street and onto the road. Kate shouts at me a couple of times because apparently I'm steering wrong.

[Dream skip - Unknown] We're close to where Kate's mother is. She's slowly changing. Her hair is now long, and dark auburn in colour. Her eyes are turning a brownish shade. Shadows are lining her eyes. We don't speak. I don't trust her.

We're walking along a meadow, in the middle of a forest. Suddenly, Kate turns to me. She screams that I've led her to the wrong place. That I'm trying to kill her. Her body keels over, and she starts retching. I think she's going to be sick. Her chest puffs up, and suddenly, hair is coming out her throat. It's still attatched to something inside her. She grabs a knife from her belt and hacks at it furiously. When she's finished, she grins at me, evily. I have the feeling she might try to kill me in the most brutal way possible. Her hair is now shorter, and spikey. Her eyes are red.

Something rustles in the bushes. She does a backflip and stabs something. She drags him out of the bushes and laughs as she stabs him again and again. I stare in horror. What has happened to her? She's out of control.

[Dream skip - Unknown] I'm sitting, alone, in my ship/room. I can't get over what a monster Kate is. I still see her red eyes and sharpened teeth. Blood splashed over her, with a mad glint in her eye. I seek knowledge to how this happened. Instantly, a voice in my head tells me to look to the Corners, the Shadows. I do. I look at the shadow and corners of my ship, and hear a voice.

The voice tells me she is a lost soul. That she always has been, I just didn't see it at first. In my mind, he replays our first meeting. I stand, watching myself and Kate talk. Now I notice the way she stands. Close, uptight, analyzing everything I say. Calculating. But from my first glance, she was just someone who needed help.

Then as she swings into the ship. I thought she was enthusiastic, now I know all she wanted was blood. She was after everything and anything out there. She probably lied about her mother. She was always the murdering psychopath, I just hadn't seen it. It was all a disguise. I watch as she slowly reveals her true form. I watch her eyes slightly darken everyday, the shadows around them grow more prominant, her teeth sharpen to points.

Finally, the Shadow leaves me to dwell on these thoughts.

I look up, and her eyes are set on my. Blood is dripping from her finger tips. I know her secrets, now I have to die.

Method: DILD
Recall: below average
Lucid Ability:not tested
Vividness: Average
Dream Length:Average

I'm on IRC and I have a couple of tabs of porn on, and I keep tabbing back and fourth. I sense to people behind me, and I'm right. Don't remember who they were, but I felt weird about it. They didn't notice, so I guess I was quick enough. I right clicked them and closed them down while IRC was still up. I remember talking to Lostsoul, but I don't remember was it was about.

(scene change)

I'm driving my car down a familiar road near my house, and there are three girls in the car. All of them are yapping about something, and I don't remember how I got here. Now here's the tricky part. Maintaining the wheel, RCing and staying totally clam as I realize that i'm dreaming.

Nose pinch was successful, and I decided to drive right off the road. We went through some tree and other impossible stuff, and stopped a an area that had all this sand and small lakes around it (because the controls of the car started getting stupid). I immediately headed to the back seat. There was a black girl, a blonde, and a brunette, and I decided to ask them some questions. I don't remember most of the questions I asked them, but I do recall asking the blonde girl her favorite band. "Fink 182", she replied. "Thats not even their name, and they suck, get out of the car" I told her. She got out, but she headed to the front seat.

The brunette girl immediately unzipped my pants and started stroking me. The black girl turned around and watched us. She was practically drooling. I asked her, "what's up"? She said she was getting off to watching her play with me. I told her I told her I was getting off to her watching us while the other girl played with my cock. I pulled her in and started kissing while rubbing on the other girls tits. The brunette had already taken everything off by the time I turned back around. She told me she wanted me inside her.

I rotated around, and pulled her waist towards the edge of the seat and parted her lips and slid in. I got about half way in, and it was a dead end. I slid out and back in, and the same thing happened. "I guess I wont get to show her my long stroke" I thought to myself. I continued fucking her until everything faded.

Sorry but I cant delete this.. LOL.

Dream Lucid

I went out to eat with my family at some restaurant. On the way there I was extremely thirsty and 3 cups of water did not full fill me. After we ate, we got back in the car to drive home. I was still drinking water. My mom was driving and made a turn opposite of our house. Then I woke up into my dream bed. I saw two of the same posters on the ceiling and remembered a post on here about putting a picture on the ceiling telling you do either do a RC or that you are dreaming. There's a triangle with a face drawn on it, just lines to make a smile and eyes. I thought that was kind of weird, so I looked away but still saw it in my peripheral and when I looked back it was moving, so I pinched my nose and could still breathe. I got out of my bed and looked at my hands. They were morphing, the palms would get bigger and my finger turned into tiny little stubs and back. Flipping them over and moving them would morph them back to normal. I tried to give out a few commands but my throat was still dry. I drank some water and gave out the commands. I wanted to go outside so I decided to walk through my wall, I've only walked through something once and it was slow, so was this time. Halfway through I decided to just open the window and jump through it (I still thought I shouldn't make noise and wake somebody hahaha). The sky was gloomy and I tried to bring down lightening with my hands. I couldn't do it, but then I noticed that fireballs, or meteors were in the sky. I tried controlling those, and wherever I swung my arm, they would come. I tried to do a Kamehameha, I saw the energy ball, but not at my hands and decided to hold that off until I had better control. I then looked my hands for more stability and wanted to summon a DC. I thought that she would appear at my front door, and I could see her shadow from outside. I used the hopping technique to get to the door and opened it, there she was! along with a tan SUV in front. She immediately ran in and started to grab at my parts. I dream hopped with her to my room and got too excited and woke up.

I was then with some friends at a flat concrete place which had stairs leading down to sea level with more stairs going up which led to a school in the dream. I showed another friend a video of one of my friends skating. Then some kids from the school came up to me and asked how I think I did on the science test in some teacher's class. I told them I don't go to their school. He continued to talk to me and said he hoped he did good. Going down, I see lots of other people riding their bikes. One of them waves goodbye to me as he leaves, and I see another friend and we chat for a bit. Then there's a large group of people sitting on the ground and I join them. My bottom retainer felt like it broke so I picked out the pieces, but I could still feel a retainer in my mouth. I then realized I was dreaming, and did a nose pinch to check. I looked up at the sky and flew off, only to wake up.

I was in a hotel room with some family members younger than me. My aunt who lives across the states was here to visit and we had to go down to help her with the bags. Two of us go down one flight of stairs and I hit the elevator button. It opens and I see my younger cousin in there, it closes and she goes up. When the elevator goes up, the DC that was with me jump down the elevator shaft. I thought he was a goner. When the elevator came back down to me, he appeared from the stairs which we just came down. We get in and I tried the trick to just get it to go without any other stops. It works and we are in the lobby. I go outside to see all the other members of my family. My mom was telling about the psychologist referral I had just recently got. (I just wanna chat with a psychologist, while my mom thinks I have some mental problems) She goes on to tell the family that I have some mental problems and asks me to tell them about my problems. My uncle looks at me and just says Hi to, I respond back and he says I'm fine. My mom and I get into a little argument and I get frustrated and say that I'm just not going to talk to anybody. My brother then comes over and sits down with me and says, "Well you're not going to talk to anybody? Well this is a dream." Still being frustrated I go to prove him wrong and pinch my nose. Realizing I was dreaming, I tried to fly away from the scene but he was holding onto my, so I dream spun and he said I was good, but he still had a hold of me. I then hopped to the nearby wall and he went with me, so I just tried to fly away.[color="blue"= I then woke up in my dream bed and pinched my nose, I was able to breathe, but I didn't believe it, so I used two hands to block it completely and then I could still breathe. For some reason I still didn't believe it, so I went to write down my dreams and I saw I had text messages, I read them and they were a bit off, I looked at the time and it was off by about 5 hours, I just thought my phone was being weird, I even looked at the time twice, and thought nothing of it, then I finally woke up.

I normally don't post my dreams, but I feel like this one is worth it so enjoy.

19.10.2010

Trapped in a Dream (DILD)

NON-DREAM DREAM LUCID

I'm driving down Gay toward Shane's house and I suddenly realize I'm going the wrong way, so I pull into a driveway to turn around. When I pull into the driveway I get out of the car and start walking for some reason. I'm walking up Gay and its nighttime so I'm trying to steer clear of the road. Suddenly I have a brief moment of lucidity and I think "Why am I walking? Am I looking for my car?" So I start running up Gay scanning the edge of the road for anywhere I could've left my car when I'm again hit with a flash of lucidity "This is ridiculous, how could I end up in a situation like this," I think, "I must be dreaming." It's the only conclusion I can come up with although I still think its very unlikely. So I slap myself in the face a couple of times and "wake up" lying on my bed in my dorm room. I feel extremely tired and I can't open my eyes or move much at all. I think "I'm going to be late for Tech and Civ if I can't get up soon," but I still can't budge and am too tired to really care. Someone comes into the dorm and they come up to my door and open it. I hear a man's voice and two girls but I still can't open my eyes. They see me sleeping and a girl says "Oh, I'm sorry." and a man (apparently one of roomates) says "Sorry bro." I think I manage to mutter "it's fine" as they close the door. I can hear the TV on in the background and I think to myself "Ok, its really time to get up now." So I visualize myself getting out of bed and putting on my clothes but I still can't move. I start to panic a little bit and think that I'm deffinately going to be late for Tech and Civ. I'm still too tired to really care though and thought of just skipping it was crossing my mind. Suddenly I'm jolted awake for real and I'm laying on the bed in my dorm. I test my limbs and they move just fine. I look at the clock and see that only about ten minutes have passed since I fell asleep "that can't be right" I think. And it hits me that I must still be dreaming. I crawl out of bed and I'm not nearly as tired as I was in the dream and its a great relief. I check the door and see that it is still locked so no one must've come in. I flick the lights on and off to see if they work and they do so I realize I actually am awake. I start writing it all down then I check the clock and realize that I'm late for Tech and Civ.

10/19: I'm not sure why I'm thinking about something I dreamed about in 2001 and 2007, but like dreams I've had of James Lafferty before in 2007, it's left me cautious or unable to get a grasp on life the next day.

The last thing I remember before getting this dream the first time around in fall 2000 or spring 2001 was hearing this song being sung in a Jamaican accent at the end of a Steven Seagal film from 1990, Marked for Death. Then in this dream I see this country road with this fake board game on the floor that's based on the film Scream. I suddenly hear a young man screaming and wonder if it's someone in the van or is it the electronic game board. I wake up the next day (a Sunday), wondering who that was making that screaming sound.

The same dream happened around six years later after having an epic fail of a day in college (someone crying because someone wanted to do something and she wanted to do something else the day before, getting handed a loss in a game in class and the other team went nuts because my team lost, getting an unexpected friend request and group invitation on Facebook all in that order), my mind when I went to bed on February 15, 2007 wanted to make my bad day even worse. This time the screaming sound was different and sounded like the loudest scream heard in the Cruis'n games (the '90s arcade game series - USA, World and Exotica) from a male/female driver in traffic or a stalled computer-controlled opponent when you crash into them that sounds like a child (and the car you hit suddenly flips over or goes flying halfway across the screen if you went too fast). The dream made no sense a few scenes later and acted like the dream as explained above, except this time everything quieted down and I was in the passenger seat of what looked like a GMT800 (GMC Yukon), going for a ride down the country road again, and this time the driver resembled a young man in his 20s. I wake up at 5:30 am the next day, and all I could think of was someone I knew in high school and unable to get a leg up on life, and the next day in the computer lab, I go to Wikipedia and manage to put a name on the dream character, resembling Devon Sawa from films such as Casper and Final Destination (the first one). Maybe it was trying to tell me to get away from stressful situations?

I should post here more, but I don't. Eh.

Two nights ago I was in an instance in World of Warcraft. I *was* my character, which was pretty cool. There was some incessant doom about to take place; I think it was the seventh book of Harry Potter, because teachers were running around all over the place. In my dream, the seventh book hadn't come out yet, so I was excited to be part of it.

As we're running away from the doom, there's this long bridge with holes and cracks in it. I'm freaking out, but Bryon keeps pulling me along. When we get to the end, Bryon pulls us off (either that or he jumps and I follow him). I was freaking out, cause I knew we were gonna die - but we didn't. I looked around, and we were back on top of the bridge. Bryon said, "Because it's a DREAM!" We started walking back across the bridge, calmly this time. I started to realize it WAS a dream, and I tried to take in all I could. The colors were stony and looked like Northrend in WoW, but they were so vibrant and lifelike. I decided I didn't want the bridge to shake anymore and I didn't even realize it fixed itself.

When we got to the gates of the instance we had just left, I tried to read the words on the doors. I couldn't, of course, but I tried to "put the letters in order," and my brain told me they said, "Mana Tombs." I was like, that's not right, but whatever. So we went into the instance. It looked a lot like a dream I had recently where I saw an ex at the RenFest. McGonagall was standing on a step preaching about something; she had our quest. We got our quest, which was to retrieve something from a boss. I thought I knew the best way to do it. I play a rogue, and I was sneaking around trying to get by mobs, but Bryon plays a pally and wasn't so lucky. We had to fight some people until we came upon some old ladies to challenged us to an orgasm contest! XDD; We decided to do it, but in the middle of that, I woke up.