lucid

NON-DREAM DREAM LUCID FALSE AWAKENING PRECOG

During a 10h flight.

14:30 GMT+2

Stuck on false awakenings
I wake up because the airplane is landing. After crossing the dark night in just a few hours, it’s daylight again. I feel incredibly thirsty and groggy. The airplane windows are huge and I can see a wide panorama while we’re landing. I find that strange and I do a RC. I find I’m still asleep but I don’t manage to wake up or to change dream or anything. It just keeps going and I feel stuck.
Finally I wake up. I see daylight again but the windows are still wide. I do RC again and find out I’m still asleep. Thirst persists as well as discomfort grows but once again I cannot get out or wake up. I decide to let it flow and see where it leads. The airplane is landing on a small road with fences, gardens and houses on both sides. It keeps going until it stops by the side of a building that looks like a bus or train station. Everybody gets out of the airplane and I’m the last one. When I pass by the cockpit the pilot and co-pilot are already outside to and so I lean to check the instrument panel and so on. The co-pilot says to the pilot that I’m taking a peak at the cockpit and warns him they left the key on the ignition, so the pilot comes to me and asks me if I’m not planning to steal the plane. He is half joking and half serious. I respond “of course not, how could I fly this even if I wanted to?”. Then we leave to the nearest village, me, pilot, co-pilot and another girl who was left behind. The co-pilot says that everything is so compact around here that sometimes to go from one street to the other you have to cross through someone’s backyard. He tells me he has started a biodynamic garden just close from there but people keeping running over his vegetables and ruin everything. I find that all bizarre but the fact is to cross to some nearby cafés, we have to cross a sports field. We pass under some Japanese banners hanging over a door and enter a café. I remember I’m so thirsty and I see a bottle of water on some couple’s table, but I have my sigg bottle and go instead to the toilet to fill it in the tap. The pilots moved on, so I am just with this girl. I notice she is Japanese. Then as I drink the water I remember again I am just dreaming and what I really need is real water.
I wake up. Exactly as previous times, but this time it is night. It doesn’t matter, I can still recognize I am still dreaming. I do RC again and confirm. I am starting to feel desperate. I can’t go out of this loop. I think about people I know, people I love, family members. I call for them. They establish a link to the awaken world and I finally wake up.

7:20 GMT+9 - wake up

The airplane is not yet landing but flight attendants are about to serve breakfast. It is day light outside and windows are normal. I see my sigg bottle of water and kill my thirst. Soon I was landing in Japan.

NON-DREAM DREAM LUCID FALSE AWAKENING PRECOG

23:30 GMT – Sleep

Fragments: Björk in a colourful dress. Stuff about my travel to Japan.

2:00 GMT

Decorating a bar
On a terrace or penthouse, helping my mom decorating it. We decide where to put two bookshelves and at last minute she decides changing their place to maximize the space. This place is cozy but doesn’t look like a home to live in, more like a bar with glass walls around and view over the city. There are sofas in the middle and a bar desk on the left side. After we finish decorating it, the building starts shaking (recurrent dream) but this time I manage to stabilize it just by wishing it to stop.

Watching and being on other people's skin
Then I am an observer of a couple’s story. She is coming to this bar, she is a beautiful blond med student, coming for first time to this city for some event. She is married to an older guy who loves her very much but also has a secret affair with an older woman. This girl is not happy with her relationship but she thinks her husband is so devoted she can’t possibly hurt him. Then she meets a young doctor at this bar and they instantly connect and speak all night. She ends up in his apartment and they sleep together. She feels no guilt but her husband then calls to know where she is, because she was supposed to have taken the night train. She lied that she lost last train and had to sleep at train station. He is sick worried and promises to go get her immediately by car. She runs to train station and wonders how she’s gonna tell him the truth.
Then I’m back on this bar, this time I am under the skin of a guy and another guy comes to me and asks me if I’m such and such person. I say yes and ask why. He says a friend told him great things about me and my last book published. I go humble and say it wasn’t that great and actually feel embarrassed.

Ivy League University
Then I’m myself and I’m outside. It’s early morning and I’m in front of what looks like some Ivy League University. I stand still for a while in front of its gates and hear some music coming from behind me, from what seems a parking meter. It is some hymn and it feels so enjoyable I listen to the end. Then I finally cross the street and enter the gates. I have some bags there and need to go get them to leave. I fly my way there and nobody cares except 3 or 4 guys who seem surprised and point at me. I land close to them and walk from there on. Some other guy and girl are walking around collecting signatures and donations for some health related NGO. I say I’m not interested right now and they don’t insist.

Sandy beach
Then the lawn becomes a sandy beach and I see kids playing. I spot a really cute baby alone in the sand and I pick him up, to find out it’s just a really believable doll. Then two girls come up and ask me to play with them. They have more of these dolls, girls and boys version.
I become lucid and decide I must remember this sequence of dreams since I had already woke up before and was too tired to write notes. So I believe I woke up and I start writing on my DJ, then I go back to sleep. Only later I really wake up frustrated that it was a FA and then had hard time recalling the dreams.

5:20 GMT

The attack of the Jennies
I go semi-lucid and decide to fly. I try to do that trick Neo does on Matrix, of kneeling down to lift off with high speed, but I only manage to jump a few meters high. I do some acrobatics in the air for fun or to impress someone. Then I decide climbing an old tree behind me that seems to impress some ladies on the ground. I see the clouds above me and I see a green pasture on top of a hill and I see a fence around a herd of cows. Then I put my hand on some tree branch and there’s a tarantula which gives me the creeps and I lose my semi-lucidity.
When I go back to the ground I actually feel sorry for the spider – it looked really old and I think it missed a leg.
It was becoming dark and I walk towards these ladies that look alike. All dressed in black, long straight hair and luminescent stripes on their outfits. Then I see them touching a guy and a girl which transform into copies of these ladies, with same exact look. When I realise they are up to no good, I hide behind a car and prepare to run but they spread like a virus and suddenly they are by my side. Just have time to fly away. Then no matter where I go they have taken over. I call them Jennies. In the morning I finally reach some property where some event is taking place and people still look normal. I think they are worth saving but how can I alert them and what can they do to defend themselves? I find my friend John Blacksmith and ask for his help. Because he is good at speeches, I tell him to interrupt the people talking and warning them, but when he gets the mic he doesn’t go straight to it. Through the window I can see Jennies coming. I push him and grab the mic and just say we’ve been invaded by some kind of aliens who take control over us just by touching us – most people think it’s a joke, but some lady asks me why do I assume they came to harm us. I say I don’t know if that’s the case, but whatever they are doing is not with our consent and therefore not acceptable. Anyway, soon they hear screams and realise it’s serious and start running in all directions. I escape through a sliding glass door behind me and fly to the roof. Soon they are everywhere and I don’t know what to do.

7:30 GMT – wake up

Lucidity-6
Vividness-6

I'm in a M.A.S.H. camp. If you don't know what that is, its from a show i watched called mash. It was a korean war field clinic. Anyway, i'm looking down at my gun. I pull the slider on the side. I shoot a couple of bullets for fun.
F.A.
I realize i'm dreaming out of nothing. I find a woman. skipping the details. Afterwords i start just walking around enjoying the dream. I try to remember some dream goals, but all i can remember is going to the moon. I try to remember the task of the month, but realize i wouldn't have the title for very long anyway. I head ouside. Outside is the coolest thing, and i'll try to describe it my best. Its pretty dark out. I walked onto a porch with screened in windows. In the distance are flying little white dots that are circling around. I walk onto the ground now. The air feels cold and rejuvenating. I always love feeling senses in dreams. I look up looking for the moon, and am going to try to fly their. I look around and realize that i can't see a moon. The stars look amazing, and comets are flying around in space. I look another direction and see what looks like another galaxy. It was purple,blue,and black. It was just plain beautiful. Then unfortunately...
F.A.
My brother woke me up in the M.A.S.H. tent. I get angry at him and throw a stapler i think at him. He gets angry and says he didn't do anything wrong. I tell him he woke me up and i'm really tired. My mom is their also and tells my brother that i'm right, and it was wrong to wake me up.

That was my dreams. I had more F.A. in this one but i just can't remember all of them. Most of the dreams were slightly earlier than when i actually got out of bed. So instead of forgetting them i made my own way to remember dreams. I put a keyword in my head that relates to the dream so i would remember it. For my first it was "zombie". For the second it was M.A.S.H.

Lucid dream! Task of the month!

I am sitting at the kitchen table doing physics homework. I see my dog barking, and it is chasing a mouse. "Oh not again," I think to myself. The mouse heads for the door as if it knew what it should do, and crawled underneath it. I stand up trying to find something to throw at it while thinking that I used a tennis ball last time (in the dream it was a regular occurrence to see mice). I look underneath the table and there are two tennis balls. I pick them up, and look for the mouse. It crawled by the wall, and I throw the first one and hit its tail. I grab the second ball and throw it at the mouse as it heads towards the table. I hit it dead on, and it flipped over. I picked it up between my index finger and thumb, and the mouse regained consciousness, except it had somehow shrunk down to about an inch long. It started squeaking and bit my thumb, but it didn't hurt. I got distracted by the dog knocking over its water bowl, and the mouse had managed to squeeze out of my fingers. It hit the ground and ran behind the refrigerator, reappearing on the other side as a bigger mouse. I said, "That's it," and grabbed a dish towel near me. I started chasing it while smacking it with the towel, wondering why I hadn't used a towel in the first place. I made contact with the mouse the first time, and it flew at the door as I made contact with it. It started crawling up the door, and I thought to myself, "Mice can walk up walls!?" So I ran to the door and gave the mouse a good solid whack, and it fell to the floor. Then my dead cat ran into the kitchen and grabbed it. Seconds later, I looked down at the floor and there are two dead mice that are bleeding with teeth marks in them. I thought, "There was only one mouse, I must be dreaming!" Surely, I did a reality check and I was dreaming. I want to go outside, and the nearest way out is a window. I think "Should I shatter it?" but change my mind and decide to pass through it unharmed. When I made contact with the glass, it seemed to split open fluidly, and seemed to suck me through to the outside world. It was either dawn or dusk, and the sky was a dark purple color. I do some stabilization techniques, while thinking, "What will they do, I already have as much detail as real life?" I rub my hands and nothing happens, I'm already fully conscious and stabilizing seems pointless. I remember some people said to shout things. I couldn't remember what to shout and it came out as, "Clarity! Dream Clarity!" it doesn't seem to make anything change. I want some light, so I try to move the sun up. I close my eyes and imagine it coming up over the horizon. I point a little below the earth, and exhale while moving my finger slowly up. The sun moved along with my finger and lit up the world. Then I wake up, and I look to my window and see outside. I know this isn't a dream, since I have such accurate results on the weather. I sigh, and do a reality check just because. "Oh my goodness, I'm dreaming!" I shout as the reality check fails. Then the dream shifted around me and I'm in an office building. There are three people here: a young blond man, an old woman wearing a pink knitted sweater, and her husband who was constantly griping and needed a shave. I somehow knew that one time the young man got fed up with the old people and blew up the building, and this is a second chance for me to change what happened in the past. From here the dream goes on for quite a while, and many things happen that I do not remember clearly. I get a little wrapped up in the storyline, and I lose lucidity. Suddenly, at some point along this, I remember "Oh I gotta refocus on things, this is a dream." and I start thinking of what to do. "Task of the Month!" I remind myself. I get excited, and feel quite proud of myself that I remembered it. I sit down at one of the office desks, and turn on the computer. The screen is blank, so I keep typing random things. The desktop appeared, and I clicked Mozilla Firefox. I go to the top and type in "Drea" trying to get to dreamviews, and it shows up in the history and I click on it. I see the forums page of dreamviews, and click on chat. I automatically enter the chatroom, and I say, "Hello?" No response for quite a while. I figure that it's not working, so I reach into my pocket and pull out my cellphone. I unlock it, and go to text messages. A blank conversation is already open with someone I cannot remember, but it didn't matter. I typed, "Is there something you want me to know?" and pressed send. I didn't get a reply for a while, then they suddenly replied, "Yes, you can do it all." I smile, and then the dream starts to reattach itself to the storyline. A man pulls up with a truck full of gas, and I know it's going to explode. The man gets out and throws himself against the window, committing suicide. Then the truck somehow catches on fire, but no one notices. The old woman calls her husband, and she just keeps saying to the phone, "I love you, Fred. I love you, Fred." And he shouts back into the phone, "Oh, shut up, Donna!" I think this is horrible, since they're about to die and they hate each other. I walk away down a hallway, and the dream loses focus and I wake up.

NON-DREAM DREAM LUCID

Good morning! Got a pretty good night's sleep. Got my second lucid dream for this weekend! It was very vivid and clear, but I blew it haha.

10.00: Cagefight
I'm standing next to a boxing ring. "If there's any time to just don't give a fuck and do my best, it's now" I tell myself and I greet with the guy I'm fighting. He's a bit smaller than me and I know I can take him. I had just tried punching something to see if my wrist could take it, it hadn't hurt too much but I decided to just use my legs and elbows just to be sure. We would fight in tag-teams. But suddenly the guy I was going to fight went down.

I end up having to fight a huge guy. We greet in the middle of the ring and he looks at my crotch. "Oh shit that's right, I don't have a cup" I tell him. "Haha that's alright dude, we can just take it easy" he tells me and I agree. I position myself under one of the lights and flex my muscles, showing all my veins. The crowd goes wild. We start off by stretching and I can tell he's pretty stiff. The gong sound and we start. I just jump around and do random spinning kicks, increasing the intensity and speed every second. Soon we're fighting for real.

The dream changes and suddenly we have to go get something out in the ocean. We race through the water and try to grab a sword. I grab it and throw it in the water, the guy I'm fighting goes after it and I return to the arena. Just as he's about to return the gong sound again. "And the winner is Matteh! His opponent went over the time limit of sixty seconds, being outside the ring!"

10.00: Finnish Swears
I'm at a table with four other guys. "Satana perkele homo apina" I say and one guy gets all upset. "What the hell does that mean?!" he yells at me. I laugh and look at the monkey from family guy sitting at the end of the table. "Haha it's pretty ironic really". My friend's dad Benge, tells me a joke. It's a blow job joke, but I don't get it at all. He's talking way too fast and I try to understand but I don't. Something about vinegar. One guy at the table starts laughing.

10.00: Fragment
It was 3 AM and I was going up at 5 AM. I tell another guy. "I'll only get two hours of sleep haha!"

Mantra work: "I lucid dream" and "Jag ska klardrömma"

11.00: Eventful workday MILD
I'm standing in line at work. A new guy I haven't seen before is having a grand speech about how we have to stop slacking off. "A new team of construction workers have arrived from Hollywood" he tells us. Then goes on about how important it is to do your best, because the bosses are always watching! Three crane baskets drop down from the sky and starts swinging dangerously close. We stand our ground and a few seconds later they touch our heads, like the ones controlling the baskets are playing with us.

A basket screws around extra much with me and I fall out of line and everyone laughs. I look at the building I was standing infront of and I can see six people with remotes in the windows. Suddenly a dog comes rushing towards me and jumps for my throat. I put up my arm with my sweater on and it grabs the arm. "Help?! Anyone? Whose dog is this?!" I yell and walk towards the door where the dog came from. All construction workers are gone.

I enter the door and start looking for the owner while screaming. A pitbull comes up to me and I fear he'll start biting me aswell. A few other small dogs enter and they start biting me in the feet. I enter a room and I find the owner. She grabs all the dogs but a small one keeps biting my foot. I realise I'm dreaming and I imagine them stop biting me. They do and I stretch out my hand to sweep them out of the room with telekinesis. The girl leaves at incredible speed and I don't have time to do anything. The smallest dog (which is like 5 cm tall) keeps trying to get up on the couch. I sweep him under it instead and walk away.

I walk through the appartment I'm in and out on the balcony. "Okay first I should stabilize the dream" I say and I look at my hand. It's incredibly vivid and clear. Almost like my hand is when I'm awake. I start counting fingers and I can see a very small one branching off of my index finger. Seven fingers. I'm amazed by the vividness and I decide to try to go to the desert. I spot a second balcony door. "There will be an entrance to the desert behind that door" I think and open it. The appartment again.

"Damn... When I turn around, the balcony will be overlooking the desert" I tell myself and turn around. I just see the same courtyard. In my desperation of wanting to go to the desert, I decide to do something idiotic. I jump the rail and close my eyes. I can feel the wind blowing past me and it's very loud. "I will land in the desert, I will land in the desert!" I tell myself but I start feeling my body instead. I try to DEILD but I have no idea how to do that really...

Amount of sleep: 9½ hours

Food before bed: 35cl applejuice, 3 sandwiches, 1 x 100 mg B6, 2 x Omega-3

That's it! This was a very productive weekend, and I think it's because I started slacking for a week with the realitychecks, then took it up this week. A break can do wonders! I'm going to look into DEILD a bit more and really try it out next time. I have no problems falling asleep, only problem is that I get a bit too excited when I look forward to what will come, and therefore I can't really fall asleep.

Keep on dreaming, HARE BRA!

About a week ago I had a weird (and short) lucid dream.

In real life: I was camping and sleeping under a blue tarp.

In the dream: I realised I was dreaming (I can't remember how). Through my left eye I could see the outside of a small building, but through my right eye I could only see blue. At first this didn't bother me and I decided to do a reality check to confirm I was dreaming. With my right eye I looked at my nose and I was very surprised to find that I could still see it. I moved my head and the image in my left eye changed but my right eye stayed the same. The dream was unstable and I desperately tried to stabilise it, but the fact that my eyes saw different images didn't help.

Shortly after that I awoke and found myself staring at the blue tarp which was above my head. I realised that in my dream I must have had my right eye open the whole time.

My latest lucid dream was at night. I found it quite interesting because it was the first dream I can ever recall that was in a night time setting. I remember there were street lights that were cylinder shape and they almost seemed detached from the poles. I remember being fascinated by how beautiful they were. The way I confirmed that I was in a dream was by counting my fingers. I counted 8 fingers on my right hand and then started counting my left hand as if that was normal but I stopped myself and thought wait a minute 8 fingers, I'm dreaming. When I first heard this technique I was worried about using it because I thought it would kind of freak me out but I actually found quite humorous. Of course the first thing I did was start flying but this part seems cloudy and I seem to remember that I could leave the area I was in for some strange reason.

I also saw a small truck driving and I flag it down because I wanted to talk to the driver but when he rolled down his window to ask me what I wanted I kind of freak out and got scared so I told I thought he was someone else. After that I thought to myself that I need to be careful or I'll turn my dream characters against me. I obviously got this from watching Inception.

I felt myself starting to wake up which had been my biggest problem in Lucid dreams in the past, I would get excited and feel like I was literally sucked up into the sky and out of the dream. This time I use the spin technique to stay in the dream and it work really well. The spin itself wasn't at all what I thought it would be though. I thought it would be like spinning in circles on the ground like you do in waking life but instead when I closed my eyes and started to spin it was one of the most amazing moments I have ever experienced. The spinning motion was more like spinning in water but a much more free feeling, almost like being in outer space and there was these amazing colors like a laser show dancing all around me. During the spin I kept reminding myself that I was dreaming because I read you can come out lucidity from doing this. What's funny is when I did stop I was mad because I thought I had woke up. I was in the exact same surroundings but still thought I had woke up. So I again counted my finger and there were 6 fingers on my right hand this time. Unfortunately I did wake up after this. But even though it was short it was the most control I have had in a lucid dream so far and it was the longest I have been able to stay lucid in so far. Progress is a good thing.

23.10.2010

Familiar Places (DEILD)

NON-DREAM DREAM LUCID







It's 1:30PM. I make a mental note of it before I start my session.

WILD: Misfire

★★★☆☆

A WILD puts me back in my house, though I'm far from home. Outside, several people are partaking in odd sporting activities. A young girl, for instance, is trying to playful blast her older brother with a Kamehameha. Attempting to intercept her translucent beam with my own, fiery and blue, I screw up and partially fry her head. Everybody goes back inside as things suddenly get very dark. . .

DEILD: Creeper Teacher

★★★☆☆

After waking, a DEILD tosses me into my room, and I'm confronted with an overbearing teacher at the foot of my bed, telling me what I can and can't do. Turns out she's a demon that wants to drag me to hell. I show her what's what, making use of my Katana and Super Strength, tying her in literal knots. After lugging her downstairs, in an effort to take her into the hot infernos, I wake.

DEILD: Threads

★★★☆☆

Another DEILD and I'm by my front door. I just lie there, surprised by my fortune, but something disrupts my zen moment as me and my dog, who was nuzzling me, get violently dragged across the floor. For some reason, there's a network of criss crossing strings scattered about my house, leading out the front door, where anyone can pull them. I cut the threads at their source, making note of the birthday decorations around my house's glass outer-door. It's still dark outside, so I venture into my court, touching our flag as I do. Without warning, a dark red, tricked-out car tries to run me over, but I jump on the roof and hitch a ride.

Bored with the scene, still on the car, I start up a long range teleport and am soon thrust into a CoH club-like setting wherein I'm standing on a table, just like in the game. Reorienting myself, I discover this is a pumpkin smashing event a friend of mine is running. Not that interested, I leave, exiting into a dorm hallway. From there, I find Raven's room (because she obviously lives in this dorm), but it's occupied by a group of people playing Madden or some other football game, and I get escorted out by a half naked Aunt.

Making my way through the building, looking for a good design on a wall or pillar to facilitate a portal, I come across my family who is on a tour of the area. Deciding to join them, we quickly end up in a place where a bunch of old Sci-Fi memorabilia is being showcased. William Shatner is there, too, and so is a “Time Machine” I could probably use to port out of there. I convince him to give us a test run of the contraption, but things go horribly, horribly wrong and Shatner is soon sprawled on the ground with several limbs missing. . .

DEILD: Second Life

★☆☆☆☆

Shatner is still here, along with C3PO, both limbless, comforting each other before their inevitable demise, as a group of “fans” looks on in awe. Reluctantly taking matters into my own hands, I heal them both with green energy, from said hands. Shatner is so overjoyed by my act of kindness that he takes me on a romp through the resort to a table where hundreds of sweets and pastries are laid out for my consumption. I spend the rest of the dream shoving as many delightful snacks into my mouth as I can muster.

DEILD: Sharks? I'll Pass, Thanks

★★★☆☆

The next one takes me into the back of some kinda Pizza Hut style restaurant. I break the large glass windows lining the walls to get outside, and quickly run into a blue haired girl that interests me. She's trying to avoid me, but I keep up with her using various travel powers. Noticing my abilities, as we walk along a busy boardwalk, she strikes up a conversation which is rudely interrupted by two heavy-set brothers. They have a bone to pick with me.

I try not to fight them, I really do, but when they start to pick me up, in order to throw me into the shark infested water, I protest, utterly decimating them with my fists and feet. The final blows, which send them spiraling into the air, I follow with a large energy blast to make sure they won't bother us again. They don't, but neither do I get much time to chat with the girl. . .

DEILD: Pocket Sized Adventures

★★☆☆☆

Pizza Hut again. Grabbing some grease laden pizza on my way out, I realize I'm in the same environment as last time. Maybe that girl is still hanging around. Exploring the green, partially industrialized, area, I eventually come across a different girl, much younger than the first, who wonders why I don't have a Pokemon adventure with my lucids. Letting her know I think it's an excellent idea, I toss out a Squirtle, my very first Pokemon.

I contemplate doing everything from Squirtle's perspective, as I switch between his and mine, but decide against it. One of the girl's friends comes over and shows us her Fearow, which she uses to fly us all to a town hidden amongst the trees, of which I can't recall the name. Not that it matters; I wake up before we can land.

Rubbing my temples, I look at the clock: 2:58PM.

I need food. . .

Probably my shortest non-being-awakened LD... In fact I know it.

I was walking around some girls house I knew in like... Kindergarten to 4th grade. She's showing me around, I see her mother, and mention that i had never been to her house before (Which is true.). She leads me up to an open air deck, the moon is full and frikkin' HUGE. We both take a seat, she's a crossed from me sitting on a couch looking thing with the moon in the sky directly to the right of her (My left.). I get the idea to do an RC, so I do (Nose breathe, as usual.) and it fails. I say to myself 'Figures' but I don't stabilize or anchor... Buh.

Anyway, I don't get excited or anything, but I do ask her: "T, have you ever done anything you truly regret?" (The dream before this one, I was saying goodbye to all my high school buddies and teachers, something I never really did for the most part in real-life. Likely why I asked that particular question.). She looks to her left (My right) in the distance and I lose lucidity.

So, a short one yes, but I think there's something to be said about becoming lucid two nights in a row... Even if the second time was only for about 30 seconds.

Awake, Non-lucid, Lucid, [Commentary made while awake]

Last night, my WBTB went on for nearly fifteen minutes, due to my trying (and failing) to figure out what it was that had gone thump and woken me up. I think it helped me attain lucidity. I should do WBTBs that last that long more often.

I'm bicycling along a sidewalk that winds through grass along the side of a street. Every so often, the sidewalk rises up and becomes a little bridge that allows water to go under it. It goes up-and-down and side-to-side so much that it's a little difficult to bicycle on.

I'm in a building with a group of my Literacy AmeriCorps friends. We're in an open, interior space that runs through several stories of the multi-story building, and has lots of staircases and landings in it. My LAC friends are standing around on the staircases and landings. We're talking about the party that's going on in a room upstairs. One of my friends says that, in order to get in, you have to bribe the guy watching the door in a “touchy-feely” way, e.g., by touching him in a sexual way. I absolutely refuse to do this. At some point during this conversation, I realize, “This is a dream. I can't really be talking to these people.” [I haven't seen any of them in reality since the program ended; we don't even live in the same state anymore.] Then, a bunch of unidentified guys come up a flight of stairs from deeper in the building and start trying to molest me and the other girls with their hands. As they begin to surround me like a flood, I realize this is turning into a nightmare, and try to leave the scene by closing my eyes and turning around. Once again, it does absolutely nothing. The guys start getting their hands on me, and achieve their goal of discovering where my erogenous zones are. I'm scared and shocked and I wish it would end, so it does. I wake up, and go back to sleep shortly afterward.

I'm in a room where I and three of my LAC friends, one other girl and two guys, have been staying. I find a guitar in the closet. A tall guy I don't recognize is also in the room. One of us asks, “Who in this room plays guitar?” and the other answers with “Lisa C.” and one or two other names. [I can't remember now who said what, or what the other two names were.]

I'm in a giant, room-sized aquarium. It's rectangular and about twelve feet from floor to ceiling, and all but the top three feet are filled with fresh water. One wall of the rectangular room is covered with small, enclosed plastic boxes, each containing a different kind of fish. You can open up the doors on the front of each box to let the fish out into the larger aquarium. I'm swimming in the water and can apparently breathe under it. I'm playing with the fish that are out in the larger aquarium, trying to get them to act out some scenario, but it isn't working out too well because there's this one carnivorous fish with big, pointy teeth that keeps eating most of the smaller fish. Eventually, it even starts eating another fish that's bigger than itself. I swim up to the very top row of little boxes, one of which contains a Blue Tang. I think about letting it out, but decide not to because I'm not sure if this one is a freshwater fish or not, and because I don't have very many of that kind. At this point, I discover that I suddenly can't breathe as easily under the water, and I realize that it's because the top three feet of the room are now filled with water, too. [Yes, I realize that doesn't make much sense. No, I didn't realize this during the dream, nor did I realize I was dreaming.] I go to the end of the room and start trying to get the door open so I can breathe the air outside the room. It has a wheel on it that you turn to open the door. While I'm still trying to open the door, before I can either drown or get it open, I wake up. [Dude. That was pretty cool. I wanna go back and play in the aquarium room again sometime.]

NON-DREAM DREAM LUCID SEMI-LUCID

Good morning! Had a few beers and drinks last night and fell asleep around 3 AM. Had a lucid dream this morning, but it wasn't even half as exciting as I expected my next one to be. The entire dream was a bit vague and kept changing constantly. It's still something! I'm happy I got one, but I didn't have time to get to the desert...

11.00: Jetskiing like never before
I'm on a jetski at my grandma's vacation cabin. I go back and forth in the lake and it's really fun. I go up to the dock and my dad is there. Suddenly I'm outside my dad's house and the jetski is shrinking in size very fast. I jump on and race down the street in the puddles. "Get back our puppy, he has run away" my mom tells me and I look for him. I see a black puppy at the end of the road and I go to get it. Suddenly all kinds of puppies come around the corner and they wanna play. I look at the collar of the black one and I don't recognise the name.

12.30: Fishing
I'm on a fishing boat, going upriver in the jungle. My brother, his friend and his girlfriend is there with me and we're all fishing. My brother gets fish all the time and to get them off the hook, he just swings the fishing line in an arc. "Cut it out!" I yell at him, but he doesn't listen.

12.30: Slow telekinesis DILD
I'm reading some kind of history book. There's a city with a big dock, on a lush jungle island on one page. I see a few stone faces with text to them up in the mountains. The previous chieftains of this place apparently. "During the war of 1800, the entire place go overrun by people who wanted to buy stuff and it lost its touch" I read. Suddenly I'm standing on the dock itself, looking out over the water.

"There were spies everywhere" I say to myself and I look for them. A very modern, red and black boat is docked and I stare at it suspiciously. There are wooden ramps on the boat, and on the nearby boats aswell. Suddenly a group of guys on bikes and quadbikes appear and they start jumping from boat to boat. I watch as they jump on land, wearing swat suits and heavy machine guns. They stop while going through an open container and open fire on the ground before them. The sand gets shot away and a small piece of the island starts floating out to sea.

I change dreamcharacter

I'm Magneto inside our local shopping mall. I've just done something bad but I'm not sure what. Anyways I have to get away real fast so I imagine having rollerblades on my feet. I turn semi-lucid and realise I can change the dream to my wish. I skate through the empty mall and exit the building. I'm back at the dock and I can see the piece of island floating out in the water with the container on it. I jump and starts flying towards it. The winds are really strong so it's pretty hard.

I land next to the container and suddenly it's not out in the sea, it's on a parkinglot. I see a van a few meters away and I put my hand out, and drag it towards me with telekinesis. The tires screech as it stops just next to me. It starts moving away again and I have to repeat the move, only this time I "tied" it to the container. "Damn these winds are strong" I think for myself. I know someone's chasing me so I start loading the car with a few seats from the container, my brother Morgan is there. Monica shows up and she tells me she's going to stop me.

I put my hand out and make her fly away, but there's like a seconds delay. She runs towards me again and I do the same thing. There's still a delay. I make a strangling move and she pretends to be strangled (we did this last night while drunk. The pretend that telekinesis works, not real strangling) I turn 100% lucid and realise it's all in my head. I make her fly away further this time. She still comes back. This time I throw her so far away in the sky that I can't see her. She's happy all the time and I don't feel angry or anything, it was more like a game. The dream fades.

Amount of sleep: 9 hours

Food before bed: Beer, 3 x 50 mg B6. 2 x Omega-3 pills.

That's it! I wish I would have stabilized the dream as soon as I turned lucid... I will try to remember to do that next time I get lucid, but I'm not sure it would have helped. The dream had been pretty long and I think I woke up to Monica mixing her oboy with a spoon.

Keep on dreaming, HARE BRA!

I was in my inner world, in the area that has been set aside for the child, Dela, who I brought back from a place where everyone was convinced she was some kind of demon. When I found her, she was playing some rather nasty games with a couple of my DC's that had been placed there to keep her company. There was a male DC there, he was screaming and scratching at his own skin, and I could see something moving under there… just then he managed to scratch all the way through the skin on his arm, and in addition to blood coming out, a bunch of bugs came out, an assortment of bugs including beetles, centipedes, maggots, flies… a bunch of them… came out of the wound, his entire body was filled with the things… He was screaming in terror as more of them came out of his mouth, muffling his screams… There was also a woman there, she had a sharp knife and she was very slowly and deliberately peeling off her own skin. She wasn't screaming or making a single sound, but she had a rather realistic look of terror and pain on her face, especially for a DC. I had to double check the two just to be sure they were really just DC's, the small amount of energy they had was consistent with my own DC's. I dispelled the DC's and told Dela to stop doing that. Her response was that she was bored, and she didn't know any other way these dummies could keep her entertained. She added that it's not like they're really alive or anything…

Well, I couldn't deny that, but what I was hoping to do was help her get control of her dark energy so she wouldn't have the need to go around doing such things, at least not randomly. She would at least reserve the nastiness for those who deserve it. She said that since I had come, perhaps I would find some way to entertain her for a while… after all, aren't mothers supposed to entertain their daughters? There she went calling me her mother again… even though I wasn't really. It was almost like she read those thoughts, because she added that of course I was her mother… I had adopted her, hadn't I? Sure, I wasn't around much, but even that was more than her real parents had done, they had been too scared to be around her, they thought shutting her in the basement would keep them safe… but they had eventually learned. So how about me? She asked if I was too scared to fulfill my motherly duties, to spend a bit of quality time with her daughter? She said she also didn't like being kept in this place full of dummies, she wanted to be moved somewhere else right away. She said being around only these drones could make a girl downright antisocial… I thought she seemed antisocial enough. I told her there were some things I was going to try to teach her, but she immediately laughed at that idea and said there was nothing she could possibly learn from me… cocky brat… I asked if she really wanted to leave this place full of drones and be around real people again, she said of course. I said that as long as she cooperated with her lessons, she could do that. She gave me a dirty look for a bit, then a contemplating look, then apparently decided to play along.

So since I wasn't feeling drained right then, I took her out into an open area of the containment area and focused on setting up a flow of dark energy between us, the idea was basically the same as when Walms had given me the first amount of his stable dark energy since the only dark energy that had ever been inside me had been unstable. So we ended up making a game out of it, a form of tag actually. The goal of the game was to peg the opponent with a ball of dark energy while avoiding getting pegged by absorbing the opponent's energy ball before it reached you. It seemed a good way to get her to expend some of her unstable dark energy at me while allowing her to absorb some stable dark energy. It became quite an interesting game, actually, playing it throughout the containment area Dela had been living in, efficiently exchanging dark energy. I would send her a stable energy ball, she would absorb it and then send an unstable one back, which I would absorb and stabilize. The plan had been to make sure she was able to absorb most of my energy balls, but she was able to do most of it on her own, she was already quite good at sensing when there was energy approaching her. This actually made for a quite fun game.

When the game was ending, it was clear that Dela was expecting me to take her somewhere there would be real people instead of just the drone DC's. I told her she was not to attack any of the real people outside of this containment area, since they weren't simple DC's. She said of course she wouldn't attack anyone, as long as they were nice to her. I wondered what qualifications she had for counting them as nice… did she expect people to do everything she told them to do? She would find an unpleasant surprise if that was what she was thinking… since most of the people in my inner world… actually all of the ones who stay on permanent basis… are familiar with dark energy and able to handle it. I opened a portal and took her to Vegeta's house, I figured he could even help her with controlling her energy. Serena was outside with the twins, Gene and Amanda, and Vegeta was demonstrating something to the twins. I went over to them and asked if Vegeta and Serena would mind keeping an eye on one more, Serena got a big smile on her face. She asked who the pretty girl there with me was. She scoffed at the compliment, I told Serena it was Dela, and Dela would need a place to stay while she was learning control over her dark energy. Vegeta looked at her and said she would learn it fast enough here. Dela gave me a dirty look and said I wouldn't get away with just dumping her off on someone else. I told her I wasn't dumping her off, but since this is my dream self and I would have to wake up, I wouldn't be able to stay with her all the time. She looked a bit perplexed at that comment, I told her Vegeta and Serena could explain… I was about to wake up. And then I did wake.

I'm beginning to think either I have a knack for pulling off DEILDs post LD, or I'm good at doing it within' my dreams. Either way, I'm not complaining, any way to lengthen an LD is okay with me.

Anywho, rather strange how easily I can believe that I am NOT dreaming sometimes when I do RC's in dreams. I suspect my subconscious or an unusually successful MILD came into play getting me lucid this morning, as the dream character next to me mentioned twice that I was dreaming. Actually, this lucid was the first time that the nose plug test worked as it should have in real life, at least at first, though in total, it took me 4 RCs (1 working nose, 2 failing nose, and one finger count.) to get me all lucid.

The dream itself was fairly unremarkable as far as lucids go, as I exhibited VERY little control over it. I tried many a time to change the dream scape to one of my choosing, and no amount of whirling seemed to change anything. It did, however, calm me down a bit.

At the time, however, my outside environment was... Less than tranquil. TV going, lawnmower outside blaring away, it's a surprise none of these elements bled into my dream.

Oh, of all the things I tried to do in my most recent lucid, I totally forgot to summon my sub again! Blargh! I could kick myself for forgetting that.

The only remarkable thing I tried was willing a doorway to rise from the ground. Sadly did not work. I did exhibit anchoring finally within' my dream, and really got to feel the tactile realism within' the dream for the first time I can recall. (Well, at least more prominent this time than others.)

Like I said, the dreams themselves were quite mundane. First was simply at my house, furniture was re-arranged, my sister and a good friend of mine was there, my dog makes his second appearance since I've started my dream journal. It didn't last long before I slipped into almost awakedness. This was when I DEILD back in, again, failing to get the dreamscape I envisioned.

Second was some manner of forest, I spent a good amount of time trying to get someplace else (Some place more familiar in which to experiment.) but several whirl attempts and the aforementioned door summoning all proved useless. I eventually gave up and just explored a bit. At one point I was slipping into the void (A black spot in the center of my vision.), but managed to stave it off with hands stare and a spin. (Done correctly for a change.)

After that, a bear attacked me and bit my thumb. I basically hug it into docility and asked it what it represented. It responded with, and I kid you not, "Heck if I know, I'm just a bear!" in a very dopey voice.

Anyway, while mundane as far as my LDs go, it DOES mark the first one that has taken place outdoors for a decent amount of time. But a lot of missed opportunities. =( I guess I need to read up more on dream control.

October 18, 2010

Took G/C (1 pill) around 6am + 3 melissa pills (the lemon balm/l-theanine combo). Back to bed with a MILD mantra (this is a dream/nose pinch visual). Unfortunately, I didn't take a lot of notes between these dreams, so I really only remember the lucid bits.

I also forgot to meditate on any goals, so my LD's came out pretty randomly.

Trying to find my DG's (MILD)
I realized I was dreaming and walked away from whatever was happening. I remember running out the door and noticing I was naked, but I didn't care. I asked the dream, "Please take me to where Danny and Sterling are!" and flew. I remember seeing all black, but then a white light swirled around. Then everything went white. I wondered if I accidentally killed myself. I stopped to let everything stabilize, but then someone "woke" me up.

Back in bed, I was in SP. It cleared, and Roger was standing over me. He told me I needed to come hear this. I was about to find something fantastic, this had better be good :sad1: I followed him out into a room and saw a person with anime eyes. One eye was blue and one was red.

There was a girl at a table. She asked me if I wanted some juice, but I told her I would have some wine. This surprised her, but she got it for me. She addressed the room, saying she had information on finding Danny and Sterling. I woke up.

Walking down a street (DILD)
I was crossing a street on a winter day, walking my dog (the one that passed away, IRL). I got the inkling that it may be a dream, and I was about to shrug it off when I stopped myself. I actually didn't think about my dog, but I thought, "Well, if it's a dream, let's jump up and sit on this tree branch." I jumped up and reached the tree branch, feeling pretty satisfied with myself.

Fireballs (DILD)
Once I became lucid, I wasn't entirely sure what to do. I remembered a previous dream where I was trying to throw fireballs, but I couldn't create them. So, it's decided. I'm going to make some fireballs. I held out my hand, and pretended I could feel heat across my palm. It took a bit, but soon enough I saw a lovely little ball of fire form off my hand. A perfect sphere hovering just above it. I giggled happily and tossed it. I set something on fire, but I can't quite remember what. Some shrubbery, perhaps.

I realized though, that I'm going to need to conjure fireballs a lot faster than that, if I'm going to use them in battles. So I practiced conjuring and tossing fireballs. Unfortunately, I have extremely bad aim :sad1: I happened to be standing in a food court and I kept tossing them at people and hitting walls and such. But, they were conjuring a bit faster, so yayyyy!

Sailor Moon (Possibly a WILD, with a very short transition)
I was chatting with my former neighbour (a clairvoyant) about the first lucid dream that I had tonight, about being "woke up" in sleep paralysis. I realized how different I am now than when she knew me. Back then, I didn't get lucid very often, and I wasn't aware of the spiritual implications this could have. It saddened me, too, that it's hard to talk about with people in my waking life. And that the real person doesn't know I get lucid a few times a month, now.

However, in the front yard, there came a man, shrouded in black. He started up an attack, which I went to fend off. I decided to use my new fireballs. I threw a few, but my aim really, really sucks :sob: I decided to just hold my arm out where I wanted the ball to go, but then nothing would come out. Okay... what about psi-balls? Nothing. I sighed in defeat (of the lack of abilities, not of the fight). I shouted out the transformation phrase for Sailor Moon and transformed. I whipped out the moon stick, and the man freaked. I used the Moon Healing Escalation on him, and took care of him.

I noticed a cat... Luna! She turned into an older woman (guessing about mid-50's in age). I became really saddened though. She might be a real dreamer, but I won't know her in waking life. I may never know her. But in the dream, we are allies. I left without speaking to her. She tried to stop me, but I ignored her.

Later, at "home," she came bounding through the door, in cat form again. My mum asked me to get rid of her (not in a bad way, but we're all allergic to cats in the house). I told Luna as much, but then noticed she had some wounds. I cleaned her, then brought her to mum. I said I can't abandon an injured animal, so she'll stay in my room. Mum said it was fine.

I brought Luna to my room, and tucked her under the blankets. I asked her if she could breathe, and she nodded.

I cant remember what i was dreaming about before, had something to do with a lake, but anyway I was holding this cannonball in my hands and I realised i was dreaming. i was only slightly aware of it though and this thought just came through my head and i decided to wake up. i was suddenly in my bed in my room and it was nearly pitch black. I saw loads of images in only half a second, silhouettes of people, I can only remember the last one clearly, it was an eye. I raised my arm without wanting to and my hand had a yellow glow. my blankets wriggled around me and the speed of my breathing changed. I slowly began to feel my closed eyelids, I opened them and I was in my bed. I couldnt get back to sleep for the next 2 hours as i was totally freaked out.

This has happened to me before, i notice the beginnings of a nightmare and i realise I am in bed and blocked by SP, I try to move and i break out of it with a horrible rushing sound. This time it was more interesting and also a lot scarier.