lucid

1st Dream (Vivid): I was witnessing three girls get off with various machines or devices. The dream ended abruptly and I woke up.

2nd Dream (Vivid): After falling back to sleep, the dream I had seemed to continue from where the first left off, at least, that's how it felt:
When I turned around and saw the White House (at least, it was the capitol building, but in my dream I knew it as the White House) I stepped closer to see a patrol of soviet troops moving in on the building. On in particular was climbing a ladder with a sign which had three identical Radiation signs in a horizontal row on it. I'd guess the dimensions were 14 inches by 5 feet.
He hung the sign over the front door and stepped away.
The rest of the soviet troops lined up in the formation of a firing squad about 50 feet away from the building itself. Then the commander (Colonel by the way his uniform was) came over to where I was.
He said we were to be nuked for our lack of co-operation.
Then he rejoined the squad and they fired the nuke. Everything went black as it blasted and when the sight returned everything was covered in dust.
Then the Colonel came over my way as he looked through the rubble (which is what he seemed to be doing, if there WAS rubble, which there wasn't. Just dust.) He said something about capitalism and how 'they' had not left, they had only been waiting for 'us' to change. I remember feeling outraged as capitalism was under attack (apparently I was a supporter of capitalism in the dream, even though I'm not in real life?).
Then they placed an identical Radiation sign on the ground and marked it with some sort of symbol under each of the radiation emblems.
Then it ended.

3rd Dream (Vivid/Lucid): I was at home (my real home) and was in the kitchen after just coming up stairs. My Mom and two brothers were there although my youngest brother was perhaps in the study on the computer. The whole scene was so real and normal, AND everything looked real that I didn't suspect a thing until, for whatever reason, I did. I said "Wait a minute... is this a dream?"
My mom turned around and laughed slightly "No... "
My brother asked me why or something and I was more and more adamant: "No but this HAS to be a dream... let me check my clock..."
"Ok." my Mom laughed.
But as I looked at the clock I noticed it was staying the same after 2 times looking. then, when I checked the third time, it was the same time but now the numbers were in military time (like a 24 hour clock) I thought "that can't be real" and looked again, sure enough the time changed. So I immediately ended up somewhere else once realizing it was a dream, and as it started to fade, I rubbed my hands together to keep it real and everything became so clear and realistic. I felt along my arms to increase my mind's involvement in the dream and everything seemed to be stable.
So I don't remember much about the dream but it was long. I remember the next location I was at was some kind of penthouse suite on a dock with it's own boat, and a water-plane had just landed with some associates of mine who came into the house. But they were randomly generated DC's so I decided to try summoning and I did it by saying "no, you're supposed to be..." and then looking away and looking back and they always were whoever I wanted them to be. Except once when it didn't work, and then I just tried again by re-phrasing it and it worked.
I remember we went on some kind of mission and had some kind of business to work on but it all happened progressively like a linear time-line of thought-processes when it came to what we had to do. Like a checklist. And then we ended up in some tunnel underground.

4th dream (Vivid/May Have Continued From Above-Mentioned LD): Me and my cousin were in a store looking at big-screen TVs and we found one that had a really good warranty. It was a 58 inch plasma (the same one I have in real life). Anyhow I bought the TV because it's warranty covered everything, including damage cause by the owner. So we watched the tv for a while, then I picked it up and slammed it down, breaking the bottom-left corner which broke the frame out of place but did not break the screen. Afterward I was extremely worried that the warranty wouldn't cover it, even though it did (somehow i just thought it would be changed or there would be an exception made or something). Then I woke up and realized my tv was still safe and sound.

10/8/10

Dream was real brief or I just couldn't remember much of it.. but I kept changing my clothes .. they would fit me but next thing I know they became baggy and I ended up changing them again. Cute outfits too but they kept appearing big on me.


That's all for now.

Awake, Non-lucid, Lucid, [Commentary and notes written while awake]

Last night, while going to sleep and attempting to MILD, I stopped to pray. I had stopped to pray the previous night, too, and had had no dreams that I could remember, so I almost didn't want to do it again, but I told myself, Post hoc, ergo propter hoc much? You know that doesn't make sense. Just go ahead and do it. So I did. [I'm only writing this part down because it relates to the first dream I had last night.]

[Dream #1] On the corner of the street my house is on [a corner that doesn't exist in real life – the real corner is just a 90-degree turn in the road, but in the dream, it's a four-way intersection], in the front yard of the corner house, there is a big, tall tree with bright yellow leaves like the leaves on a maidenhair tree. There are also some gourds with faces hand-carved on them hanging from the tree. The house belongs to an old woman, who did the carving. I am reading a newspaper article about this house, in a newspaper called The Syntax. According to the article, a few days ago, a strong wind picked up and blew all the leaves off the tree. Immediately thereafter, people in the neighborhood started having various strokes of both good and bad fortune, and they all claimed that it was because of the wind blowing the leaves off the tree. This sparked a neighborhood-wide controversy: were the good things really caused by the tree, or the bad things, or none of them? Someone who was interviewed for the newspaper article argued for the “none of them” position by quoting the Bible verse about how no one can tell where the wind comes from or where it is going. [John 3:8, for the record.]

[Dream #2] I'm walking through an indoor hallway to get to some kind of high school sporting event that is being held in a high school gymnasium. One of the teams is called the Blue Meanies; they have two mascot outfits, a male and female Norse warrior. The other team has someone in a mascot outfit, too. [I don't remember now what it looked like, or what their team name was.] Each team has also brought just a handful of cheerleaders to the game.

[Dream #3] I'm playing PackRat. [Again.] There are two different limited-release collections pretty much right at the same time, and they've re-released a whole bunch of retired cards for the recipes in the retired collections. The images on one of the limited-release sets are of pipes or cables, and they extend across multiple different cards. They're making it even easier than they did with the jigsaw-puzzle set, I think. [The jigsaw-puzzle set exists in reality; this limited-release set does not.] I find that my pack has been erased and refilled with 5 cards from the other limited-release set, the one with normal art [in Doug J.'s signature style], one of which is the top card.

[Dream #4 – seemed to segue directly from the above, but how, I couldn't say] I'm outside somewhere, apparently in the yard or garden of some manor house or something, and it's nighttime. I see a fireworks show starting up a short distance away; the horizon is low and flat, so I can see it with no obstructions at all. My mom is there, and I tell her that if she turns around, she can see the fireworks show.

Woke up at 2:32 A.M. Took some notes on my dreams so far on a notepad, then went back to sleep, attempting to MILD again. It worked!

[Dream #5] I'm in the house I grew up in again. [Although this is a known dream sign for me, I don't remember specifically thinking, “hey, if I'm here, then I must be dreaming.” Nonetheless,] I'm lucid enough to decide to walk around from room to room of my own volition. When I get to the bathroom, I try to walk through the back wall of the white tile shower, which would take me out into the patio. [Yes, the real house is laid out that way.] It doesn't work; I only get part way into it, not through it. I don't feel anything. I continue walking through the house, and one of my parents sees me. [That's all I remember, unfortunately.]

[Dream #6] My family and I are on vacation in Key Largo. [Apart from having tropical beaches, it's absolutely nothing at all like the real Key Largo, which I've been to once.] It consists of a couple of islands connected by a bridge. On the first one, there is a high, tower-like hill. We climb the stairs to the top and look out at the ocean and the other island, which is where the town and the boat launch area are. I exclaim, “Guess what I forgot! Sunblock!” Then we go down the hill and over into town.

The town, or at least the downtown, consists of one big continuous building with corridors lined with shops and restaurants running through it. The entrances to the corridors are numbered and are rounded, making them look more like tunnels. We go down corridor #8 and pass a lot of shops. It's obvious how small and rivalry-filled, yet close-knit, the community here is by what's written on the signs people have in front of their shops: one of them says that their food is better than the food at another shop (even specifically naming the other one!), and another contains a proposal of marriage. Eventually, the tunnel ends in a rounded food court, like in a mall. My parents and I go over to a coffee shop/bakery toward the far side of the chamber and a little to the right. There are breads and pastries displayed all over the back wall and in long glass cases.

[Very abruptly, the scene changes and] My mom and I are driving in her car back toward the main highway that runs through the Florida Keys. (The two islands mentioned above that make up Key Largo stick out from it at a right angle.) I see the high-rise buildings of Key West [the what now?!] in the distance. The sun is either rising or setting, and the way its light is hitting them is making them glow with amazingly brilliant neon colors. [Some of which would be impossible in real life. It's surreal, but really beautiful.] I tell my mom to look at the light on the high-rises, and she does. In order to get a better view of it from further back, she turns the car so the front windshield is facing the high-rises, then starts backing it up, across the sandy beach and into the ocean. Somewhere around here, I shift to viewing the scene from a third-person perspective, up above the car. The car keeps going across the water for a pretty good distance before it sinks into the ocean and we die. Then I think to myself, “Only not really, because this is a dream.” Then the scene rewinds [on its own, not because of anything I did, thought, or willed]. The car drives forward, back over the surface of the water, with me still watching from my third-person perspective.

On our way back toward the town (I'm back to first-person perspective now), I look back and can see where the main highway is by the telephone poles and elevated bridges on the horizon. When we reach the town, I can see that there's a small railroad that goes all the way around the outside of the building, and every shop has a back door that opens onto the railroad track. This is how they load and unload things. Of course, I think; there's no room for cars or trucks on the island. [Then what are we doing driving our car there?] We re-enter the coffee shop/bakery from before, through the back door, and now we order food: cinnamon rolls out of one of those canisters you get from the refrigerated section at the grocery store. The shop attendant opens the canister behind the counter, and the vertical stack of cinnamon rolls expands, the frosting running down the sides. I say aloud, “Do want!” We proceed along the outside of the glass cases to where the coffee machines are. The signs on the coffee machines show that they contain a milder and a bolder version of Dunkin' Donuts coffee. I start getting myself some coffee, and then the dream ends.

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Some meta-commentary on the lucid dreaming journey:

One of the things I'm really liking about this experiment with dream journaling and lucid dreaming is that it's finally broken me of the bad habit of staying up past 11:00 every night that I developed when I started college. I was still doing it up until a week or two ago. I always used to want to stay in bed until well after sunrise, but the sunlight always woke me up, so I got a sleep mask and got into the habit of reaching over and putting it on as soon as the sunlight started to wake me up, then continuing to sleep, or trying to. I've been in this habit for at least a year, and I'm finding that it's so deeply ingrained that I'm still doing it, even though I'm now going to bed earlier and getting up at or before sunrise. I would be annoyed by this if I hadn't realized that it's useful – I have a natural, biological WBTB alarm set.

Last night, I read this thread and decided to adopt the mantra “I lucid dream” for MILD purposes. I decided to put that sentence in the same mental categories with such sentences as “I play the clarinet,” “I speak Spanish,” and “I write novels:” the categories of “ongoing, recurring action” and “learned skill.”

My previous lucid experience back on the night of October 1 left me euphoric for the entirety of the next day, but this one just left me disappointed. While I was recalling my dreams after waking up, I thought: What did I just say about lucid dreaming being a learned skill? That was only my third time. What was it like the third time I played the clarinet? I know the answer to that one: I only played one, two, or three different notes, because that was all I knew how to play. It took lots of practice and learning before I could play all the notes. I hope, and intend, to master lucid dreaming skills via the same process.

Note: I know I have been away from posting dreams for a long time, and that is because I haven't been remembering any dreams. I have been having an extended drought in the area of dream recall and lucid dreams, but for last night I actually have something to post! What I remember is a lot of fragments, but part of it was even lucid, so I will post it all here. I finally remembered dreams again! Yay! My first point was to meet Tigress in the tower on the moon, so when I surprised myself by entering into a WILD, that was my first goal.

I was lying in my bed with my light / sound machine on, focusing on letting my body fall asleep while my mind remained conscious. Almost without even realizing what had happened, I slipped into a WILD. I was still thinking about my first goal, thinking I was still awake and had to use the bathroom. I got up and realized my door was closed, which is not normal, I leave it open so my cat, Midna, can sleep with me. I opened the door and found myself looking out of my bedroom into the sickbay of the tower on the moon. I did only a brief double take before realizing I was definitely dreaming, I was already in the WILD.

So now that I was in the WILD, I entered the sick bay and looked around. Janet and Tigress were in the room, Tigress was lying face down on one of the beds, and Janet was scanning her with a strange device. I remembered telling Tigress I was going to try a healing massage on her back, and Janet was also going to take a look. I went over to the bed and was going to wait for Janet to be done examining Tigress…

Some other stuff happened there which I think involved me completing the healing massage, but the next fragment I remember clearly included Tigress, Link, Janet, and me on the beach, I was looking out over the ocean with the adult form of Link by my side, it was an entirely beautiful scene. Tigress said the merpeople were in this ocean, and then she headed out into the waves. I followed her and Janet, then finally dove into the water and transformed into a mermaid at the same time. The four of us swam down into the ocean, at first the water felt kind of cold, but I soon adapted to it and found it felt very nice. We swam down, I watched the colorful fish around us, and we were soon greeted by a merman who indicated we should follow him. We went deeper into the ocean, it was getting darker as we went deeper, but then we came to an area which was illuminated by glowing plants and mosses. It was a really cool effect. The merman we were with said we had been expected, I wondered who had told them to expect us, but I figured it didn't really matter, it was probably Q. We were swimming towards what looked like an underwater stadium where this fragment of memory ends…

There must be some more stuff I forgot, because the next piece I remember I was in the stadium, swimming out in the middle of it with a bunch of merpeople. I felt I knew what was going on, everyone had on a different color belt indicating which of the two teams they were on, there was blue and yellow. I looked and noted I had a blue belt on. The other merpeople with blue belts were chasing after the merpeople with yellow belts, and they were all chasing after a ball of some kind that was drifting through the water. One of the yellow team hit the ball with his tail, sending it towards a goal, but a goalie for the blue team sent it right back out again to one of my teammates. With a blue team merman on each side of her, the blue team mermaid batted the ball with her tail and guided it towards the other goal. One of the yellow team managed to swim in and got his tail on the ball, sending out off to the side… in my direction. No one had been paying much attention to me, I had the idea I was just in this game because they were trying to be nice and let me play a bit, so I would just have to show them that I could contribute to the team, too. I went after the ball and hit it with my tail, hitting it away from a couple of approaching yellow team players, then I followed it and hit it back in almost the opposite direction as hard as I could, catching the yellow goalie by surprise and scoring a goal. I could hear the merpeople in the stands cheering, I thought they would mostly be surprised, and I was glad I had been able to at least score a goal… and that's the last clear memory I have from that part…

The next clear memory I have is when I was swimming along in an interesting place with Tigress, Janet, and Link. I didn't notice for sure if Tigress and Janet were merpeople, but I still was, as was Link. We were swimming through water that felt strangely warm, and very relaxing. There were colorful luminous flowers all over the ocean floor that gave off a rainbow of colored light that was very beautiful. We passed the rainbow flowers and entered into what looked like ruins of some ancient temple. The ruins continued, and I realized it was much more than a temple, it looked like the ruins of a lost city. I saw Janet and Tigress swimming very close together, and I felt Link was right beside me. I remember swimming through a particularly interesting series of pillars that looked like ruins from ancient Greece or Rome, I was wishing I could take photos from the dream plane into my waking life, I would really like to remember that. Since I couldn't pull out a camera, I continued looking around, trying to take in every detail of the place, I was thinking maybe I could create a digital picture of it in Photoshop or even a 3D rendering of it. This is the last part of the dream I remember, though I think it continued for a bit longer.

The dream begins with me on the side of SR-312. My mom comes to pick me up, and asks me if I have a ride to the convention I want to go to. I tell her I'll get a ride from Jason (My brother). She tells me that he's gone. I knw what she means by it, but it's very hard for me to accept at first. Then she tells me he committed suicide and I try fighting the sadness from hearing this. I almost break down, but she looks so stoic and I don't want to lose control in front of her when it must be even harder for her. My friend Joey is in Gainsville with Nick. I am a bit annoyed at this, because Nick pisses me off. She drives me to Steak & Shake where I am going to apply. They're doing open interviews and there is a dog nearby who's shadow is acting strange. Next, I am in a house watching a clip of a movie with Edward James Almos in it, getting stabbed and falling over a railing. This reminds me of Battlestar Galactica and then I see Admiral Adama boxing Starbuck and letting her win, so he can resign. He feels he failed his crew, and I think of my brother and wish I had seen a sign. I start crying and then wake up, still crying a while until realizing that it was a dream. I was so certain it actually happened, and upon figuring out that I had just woken from a dream, a large rush of relief acme over me.

Upon falling back to sleep, I am in a dream where I am with a girl I want to be with (In the dream, I've never met her in waking life) and another friend, Jack. We stop at this little souvenir shop where I see a row of kids embroidering some of the dreamcatcher like hanging charms. The girl and I are walking together, debating which ones we'd like in our house (I guess we had a thing, but weren't actually together). She said she wants one of the hanging charms, and I tell her I think their terrible looking, except for the ones that didn't look like child pictures. There were some that looked like Native American designs that I quite fancied, which she then told me were the ones that she meant. We picked one out and she took it to the counter. Then I'm messing around with Jack, and as a practical joke, he rubs a small amount of dog shit on me. I tell him that's fucked up and he laughs. I go to teh bathroom to clean it off and then I wake.

October 5, 2010

Synopsis: In the first dream I get a huge headache over money! Later, I'm at a movie theatre and become lucid. I try to fill my dream world with flowers, but a DC has other plans

I Can't Buy It!
My sister has conned me into buying school supplies for a friend. I don't mind at first when I think I'm just going to help her buy one item. But then my sister starts adding more items to the list, PROMISING my friend that I'll deliver! I get pissed and tell sis "I never made these promises, and I don't have the money to buy even half the stuff!". But sis doesn't listen, and adds perks to the list, including that I buy her lunch, and a cd for dad.

My head is reeling with math! The debit card and the merchandise don't add up! I woke up frustrated and upset that I felt too poor to buy anything.

Let the Flowers Grow
Me and my sisters are watching a movie. As if I'm still annoyed from the last dream, I sit farther away from the sister trying to empty my bank account. We got bored of the movie and leave before its even over.

Some how, just standing up and walking out of the theatre room made me lucid. I follow my sisters to the concession stand with a big smile on my face. I'm just having way too much fun admiring the carpet and the walls. I ask them

"What do you wanna do next?"

"Eh, nothing, lets go home"

Booo.....that sounds boring . I ditch my sisters by flying straight out of the wall! My dream had changed into a magical landscape, with curvy rolling hills and a castle. I proclaimed myself the queen of this world.

I looked at a pretty landscape in front of me, but it wasn't colorful enough. I know! I'll add flowers! I command the dream to add flowers. But nothing happens. I guess I have to do this the harder way.

I go up to a weird pipe like structure near me. It has little holes punched in. Perfect! I imagine little seedlings rising out from the holes, blossoming into beautiful flowers. It takes some concentration, but deep vermillion leefy plants rise up. They weren't flowers, but they were beautiful.

The moment I stopped giving them my attention, they would wither.

Oh well. I continued to try to make my landscape blossom. Most of the DCs were nice to me. Some of them even started attending to my flowers to keep them alive. Now my flowers are bright blues, rich purples, growing in odd places, even from vertical walls.

But one DC was a real jerk! He would follow me where ever I went and chop my flowers into little pieces

I try to fly away from him, so he can't find my newest flowers. But he was found me and my new seedlings. Finally I got fed up, I grabbed his axe and try to slice him to bits, like he did to my flowers! The axe cuts through him in three directions!

DC passerbys looked shocked and horrified!

But the axe goes right through him, as if he's air. He looks at me sad, as if he's insulted, actually insulted that I would try to hurt him! I try yelling at him instead "Stop following me around! Leave my flowers alone!"

"Okay, I'll stop following you" but then he seems to explain that that's what he does, that that's what he is. He is that which will chop down my blooms.

He stopped following me around, but remained and indestructible presence in my dream world. I lost interest in growing my flowers, I didn't want to see anymore chopped up.

As my dream starts to fade away, I notice mole-people working hard round and about the castle. I felt bad for them, so I call out to them at the last few stable moments of the dream that they could stop working! They hear my voice, but can't see me, and the dream becomes black.

I wake up. I turn over, and that's when I notice shadows. There were shadows on the ground, silhouettes. The shadows made it look like there were people on my bed. I get really creeped out and quickly end the FA.

BTW, not sure if this relates or not. But today (10-7-10) I visited my garden in horticulture class. I just recently planted new seedlings. Every single one of them died, I have no idea why. Its really weird. They were planted in three different spots. Three different species. All dead

October 3, 2010

Synopsis: Too many hamsters. Later, I climb a mountain and fly. Brief lucidity.

Note: I was talking to my friend a couple of days ago about how she moved out, so she can give me advice. She basically told me she just packed her bags and left, with no security of a job!

Climb the Mountain
Like magic we have two more hamsters. This is bad! Our first two hamsters are already miserable no matter how much play time we give them (they just want freedom, lots of it!). Two more hamsters? The cage is cramped now. What are we gonna do?

Me and my sister explore some retail store. Maybe its a pet store? We exit the back door and see a giant mountain up ahead. (In the real world it wouldn't giant, dream abstraction). Excited, I race my sister to the top. She takes her time and seems to whine about all the rocks and rubble. I reach the peek and I can see the whole valley and the pet store below.

I tell my sister "I've written a new book! It's called A Leap of Faith!" I don't even know why I said that.

I jump! Jumping off the mountain peek made me lucid. I soar over the whole city, which looks like a shining quilt from way up here. I haven't been this high up in a long time! It felt real nice. I think about growing wings to try a different flying method.

That just teleported me to a strange room. I start to have this weird conversation with a dream character about which wings are better to fly with. He insists on using smaller, humming bird like wings. I think that's no fun. I want larger hawk like wings! I woke up after that.

I was out in my street at daytime, with random people. I'm not sure what we were doing, but it involved some huge guy who looked weird. I was with my school friends.

Suddenly the scene changed to night time, which I hate in dreams because it's dark. I went towards my street light and I became lucid. I instantly woke myself up because I didn't want to stay there any longer.

The end

Type: Lucid, fragmented, experimental.
Lucidity: [3/10]
Vividness: [2/10]



Well first of all let me say that having another lucid dream is a very reassuring thing to me, and also motivating - shows that my efforts, readings from all of you in the forums and books, are all having some sort of productive, positive effect! I tried for a year before I had my first LD, and was worried it was just random/by chance, but that occured on the 20th of September, so this was only a little more than two weeks apart. My LD goal was to have two lucid dreams by October 31st, and I've already accomplished that so early int he month. Woot.

Anyways, the dreams-

First dream of the night I'm at a house party with people my age or just a little bit younger. Lots of fun, I'm drinking vodka but I really do not like vodka much , so I ask somebody if I can trade for their whiskey but am rejected so I go mix it with something and drink it anways [should've been a DS since I stopped drinking]. Lots of girls , really good time, pretty average sized house a little big, white walls and completely dark outside windows. Suddenly we learn that the cops are coming, and there are underage people there so we clean up remarkably fast and efficiently and there is only food and soda out. The cops pull up and are standing outside the door but don't knock for some reason, so I open the door and ask "How may I help you, officer?" and he responds by asking me why I just opened the door [which was pretty funny]. I"m worried since I don't want to be arresting purchasing for minors but they wind up arresting two other guys for completely unrelated reasons to the party and leave without trouble. I remember one of the guys having a bright orange bandana, plain, that just struck me as odd, possibly another DS.

I have another dream after that with the same cast of DC riding bikes or hanging otu near a lake outside, talking to girls, very summer ish, everything green nice big sky . [it's autumn now, no green to be seen]

So I don't recall precisly how I became lucid or the dream leading up to it but this is what I remember of the first one

I'm walking along a cobblestone path, woods on either side of me, and I decide to RC for a reason I cannot recall. I do the looking at hands technique, and then the pinch-ing nose technique and it passes and I verify that I am dreaming. Last time I got over excited and frantically repeated to myself "I'm dreaming, I'm dreaming!" and lost control after about 15 seconds, so this time I was determined to remain calm and gently remind myself, which worked perfectly. I look at the ground, trying to focus my vision and repeat "stabilize" four times, without much effect, at least compared to the effect I expected it to have. Perhaps I just didn't repeat it emphatically enough, will try again in future. I felt a huge sensation of energy and heat flow through my body when I became lucid, and it was very pleasurable. The next part is a bit hazy, I'm kind of jumping around a house, through corridors, checking out rooms, wondering if I'm actually dreaming and keep RCing, worried that I'll hurt myself by flying or something. Almost walk in on my mom in the bathroom but she yells at me [weird but silly], I can't really think of what I want to do, not incredible lucidity or vividness, so I think "oh what the hell, I'll have sex" [since men can always think of that in any situation], so I enter a bathroom, big and plain with shower and big jacuzzi bathtub, ready for sex, and a gay guy is standing in there, and when I walk in he pulls down his pants and bends over, but thankfully his body is kind of plasticy and not incredibly realistic. At first I'm like "meh, it's just a dream, just want to test realness" but don't because.. well.. I'd rather have sex with a gorgeous woman! So I tell him that I want to have sex with the most beautiful woman, somebody I don't know, and he says fine and leaves the room, so I imagine the sexiest woman I can think of and she walks in the room. I must've put too much attention on the woman because when she came in I was viewing it in 3rd person, lucidity wavering but I've never experienced that so I didn't think to stabilize. So she kind of turned plastic-ish and kind of became a doll and the dream faded away

So I woke up from the dream, was about to record it in my DJ but first did a RC just for the hell of itand the nose pinch RC did to for me AGAIN! Awesome, glad I've been practicing that one in RL. False awaking FTW. So I'm lucid in my room, and decide to leave, walk out and I'm in a house different from where my room is, long hallway with windows, so I open the window and think about summoning a bow or sword to act out some Zelda situations [since my alarm is Zelda game boy tunes], but decide I don't really want to do that and fly out of the window to the ground, woods on both sides, dark sky like just after sunset, and a lake infront of me. As I was flying I tried to change the dream scene so I started to spin with my arms out and thought about going to a strip club to try the sex thing again, and closed my eyes, but amazing enough even though my eyes were closed, I guess my "dream eye"[?] wasn't closed with enough resolution and I could still see the scene around me, and the technique failed. So I'm on the ground and remember my intention/ goal to morph into an aquatic creature. So first I attempt running on water, and go across a small section of the lake, and it works, though I'm submerged up past my knees rather than on top, and my legs are burning from running/pedalling so fast. But still cool. So I'm on the other side, and a car drives into the water from around the bend, like on a highway completely natural, and I see the huge headlights under the water, and decide to dive in to get in the car and see what that's like, then try to morph, but at this time my ALARM goes off and I wake up

So yeah, those are my lucids! Not incredibly vivid, but I'm very excited about them anyways. The first one probably lasted five to ten minutes, and the second one only about three minutes due to the alarm.

Notes- In the lucid, my dream body felt SOOO natural it was great! I felt light, and fully in control, I had to keep questioning whether flying was safe since it felt so very real. "can I really do this, will I hurt myself?" The spinning dream scene change technique didn't work, but I can understand how it would, and will try again will definite success the next lucid dream I have. Also, I remember at some point during the first LD a fragment I forgot, I was going to have an orgasm but stopped the sex/activity or whatever was happening, since I remember that most people wake up and I wanted to test other things first. I will remember to try the whole way through[lol] another time to see what the circumstances are for myself, since LaBerge claims it doesn't happen with all people and I don't think it will for me since the lucidity at that point remained very vivid.

I found it difficult to create a new dream scene, and kept getting distracted by thinking "what do I want to do?" I opted against earth bending and sex for the majority of the lucid time because I didn't want to begin a fight unintentionally and turn it into a nightmare, didn't want sex because I didn't want to wake myself up, and didn't try to sit and close my eyes to dream- meditate for the same reason.

I think this was a result of a compulsion/urgency to control the LD because of a fear/ desire not to lose it and forget it, even though in the LD I experienced no loss of control, completely vividness, aside from when I was trying to control it and change things! Though I probably didn't lose my lucidity because I was so single minded on not losing it, but that was also most likely the cause of the bland lack of occurances in the dream. I probably blocked off other potential story lines and experiences because of it, resulting in lots of open spaces and corridors and a lack of other DC's, mostly dark and greyish lighting and color tones.

I need to
A Catagorize more Dream Signs and re evaluate my dream goals, based off of interactions with dream characters for more variety, and also hold off on the sexual and potentially violent/advanced stuff until I'm more comfortable, lots of stuff left to test.

B Read about dream scene changing tactics and focus on visualizing myself stabilizing the dream via techniques like focusing on each individual sense, etc. Will try the "stabilize" thing more since it doesn't take much effort, didn't really lose anything by doing it.

Anyway, thanks for reading, I would really appreciate any advice. What you focus on for incredibly basic aspects of LD DC interaction goals, and simple environment testing things? Trying to control flight more carefully? Trying to start conversation with DC as a way to get a dream cookie? Experiment with time? Change the color of my shirt?

Thanks a ton in advance!

So as usual, I can't remember the beginning of my dream. I first remember I wanted to "absorb energy" (I have absolutely no idea) and I thought there might be some under a trap door I found. I go in but I start falling, a big bookcase or something broke my fall but I lost my balance and fell the rest of the way to the hard floor. The bookcase started toppling and I rolled over in the nick of time to avoid it. After that I had an odd feeling of deja vu, as if I was supposed to get hit by that bookcase but it played out differently.
Next thing I know, there's a boy I perceive to be my son, and he seems upset. He walks into a TV, and try as I might, I couldn't get him out. As I tried to punch the TV screen it wasn't breaking and it just jiggled around a bit as I pulled my arm out. Here, I became semi-lucid as I realized that the TV should be shattering.
I ran outside to fly around (I don't know how I got out.) If I'd been fully lucid I'd have simply looked at my surroundings since I'm new at this. The clouds were very pixelated and low-res. I woke up right after this out of excitement. Ugh, my lucids are so short.

I had a fantastic sleep last night. I managed to get to sleep at about 10-11pm. I don't know what it was. I didn't go on my laptop last night, but then again I added an extra pillow and covered up my alarm clock... Whatever it was, I woke up feeling great For some reason, instead of skipping forward in time, they skipped backwards last night. A little wierd... But fun too I also experienced pain for the first time, though it was more like the memory than the actual thing, easy enough to handle. The feeling of hopelessness was what woke me up...

Fire Ring Of Satan

Awake Non-Lucid

I'm in my school's music composition room. The walls are lined with computers, with a large space in the middle. I'm sitting on a computer chair, chatting, when my piano teacher comes in. She sees me and breaks into a smile.

"I know it's lunchtime but I thought you wouldn't mind coming for a lesson."

Ummm... This isn't my lesson day, and to be honest, I haven't done any practice. I quickly pull some green business management sheets from my bag. "I'm sorry, I've got so much homework to do! I'm really busy." I gush. She comes closer and inspects the sheets, as if they're fake... Pffft.... She looks grim and disappointed. Well, I'm saving my own ass. And is it just me, or is she [I]tiny[I]?

As she leaves, I sigh in relief and to grin to my friends surrounding me. I tell them I need to go get something and then head out. I take the lift down to F floor using the lift key I "forgot" to give back to the medical. I open up the door to a classroom to find them watching a movie. Inside is dark, but the TV is flashing, with a man smiling on the front. He doesn't move. I ask for Sam and she quickly comes out. We talk a giggle for a minute about useless crap and then she goes back inside. I turn to find my piano teacher standing, arms crossed behind me.

"...I... Needed help with my homework..."

She leaves again, scowling, obviously knowing I lied. Oops... Oh well, lift or stairs? Oh, the possibilities... -_-

I take the stairs this time. I stroll into the compostion room to find large white boxes being stacked in the middle of the room by my friend Max. They're full of crisps. I grab a packet and lounge back on a wheeled chair. There are fresh posters around the room. I start thinking of the composition room as a common room. Hockey team meeting posters telling me where and when, healthy food ones on the other side, blah blah blah... Then I see one announcing that a "Shadow" will be inspecting the common room. Shit.

I quickly gather up food cartons and other shit that was left lying around by my messy buddies. Max catches on and helps me, but we're too late. The Shadow floats in. It's black, shadows cast everywhere. (I realised when I woke up it pretty much looks like a Dementor (or whatever) out of Harry Potter!). It searches the place and then looks at me.

I seem to disconnect from my body, it's as if my soul has left it. I watch myself, unafraid. The Shadow casts a circle of fire around my body. I watch my body scream, I see it trying to protect itself, get throught the hot flames somehow. I watch it burn through my skin and watch the pain spread across my face. I'm hopeless, there's no way my body can survive. Even if it did, it would never be the same. Damaged, forever.

Then I'm back in it, but there is no fire. I've gone back in time by a few minutes. I know exactly what's going to happen... Then it does. Fire, everywhere. Someone, Max? Shouts. Something about a Fire of Satan. Heat and dull, almost non-existent agony washes over me. It's more like a memory of what the pain should be like than the real thing. No one helps me as I burn.

Through His Eyes

Awake Non-Lucid Semi-Lucid

I'm in rollerskates, smooth, fast ones. I glide over pavement, totally at ease, remembering happy races as a kid in the summer sunshine. I'm outside Asda Wal-Mart with Rochelle. I want to buy a new PS3 game. As we near the tall, white and green building, I spot my friend Callum. Perfect! He can help me choose.

I skate up to him and prod him gently in the back. I tell him that he has to help me choose a PS3 game after he gets what he needs. I notice he has two friends with him, the guys smile and the blond one skates off to the gaming aisle. I grin and speed off after him, leaving Callum, his friend, and Rochelle behind at blinding speed. I almost crash into a line of pizza. Instead of games, we find chocolate brownies. Just as good!

He tells me he put them there. They're in size order, from mini ones to huge, leg sized ones. He slowly takes a few mini ones. He tells me because he's from the "other" side of town, he has to take small ones or people will think he's stealing. I grab a medium sized one and head to the self-service machine. Once I've paid, I go to grab my change. A girl takes it first. I glare at her and ask her, as calmly as possible, to give me my money back. She smiles slyly and calls her dad.

Two small, middle-aged business men attack me. What?! Is it too much to ask to peacefully buy some chocolate brownies?! I throw the dark haired one off me and throw the other one out the glass window. I skate out the window, but decide to head to the other side, where he won't look, I think...

[Dream skip - A few minutes] I burst into a house after I hear a scream of agony. Time slows. Skylar (I realise this is who Callum's blond friend is) is hunched over, blood pouring from a wound to his stomach. Two people grip his arms, I recognise them as police officers. But they're not helping him, they're keeping him still. I yell and can't force time to get back to its usual state, I'm stuck in this slow motion.

Things fly backwards so fast, it sparks my lucidity, though I fail to remember I have control. I'm viewing the world from Skylar's eyes, unable to do anything. He's frightened, running as fast as he can down a flight of stairs. When he gets to the bottom, he finds police officers, they grab his arms and pull him into a white, dull room. A door bursts open, the grey-haired business man holding a shot gun shoots him in the stomach. The man leaves. Then, me, rushing in slow motion through the door, dark hair messy around my face, sea-blue eyes wide in shock. He feels calmer at the sight of me, like he stands a chance. I cry out, but he falls to his knees. My image stops and fades to darkness, he is content.

I went to sleep again this morning all stressed out, don't stop reading halfway through because it gets crazier and crazier, and this is what happened(note that this is my first WILD):

I woke up from my bed to find myself in sleep paralysis. I tried to move my arm up and it kinda moved. I tried to open my eyes all the way but my right eye could not open! I tried to bring my arm over and force my other eyelid open. It didn't work. I couldn't see my hand. I fell asleep and awoke at the same time. I saw another bed to the right of mine and I thought "how did it get there?" I walked over and flopped onto it. I instantly thought. "wait. if they did this i would have woke up. And why would they do this in the first place." so I tried to get up so i can do cool stuff. I tried to use all my effort to get up off of that bed. It started fading I rubbed my hands together and said "INCREASE CLARITY!" it didn't work. I woke up again. I rolled onto my side and tried with all my STRENGTH to get up! I could barely use my hands and i thought "If i try to stand up i don't think i could walk." I put myself up on my legs and my legs had no life at all in them. I fell backwards thinking was going to fall back onto the bed. I only fell into oblivion. I awoke again and somehow got to the door. I opened it and saw my brother standing there. Taller than the door and laughing. I awoke again. I saw a face next to mine for a second. it layed nexted to me and put a meaty hand/claw thing on my stomach.I could not move. I thought "OH SHIT JUST STAY CALM STAAAY CAAALM." I then woke up for what i think is real this time....

somehow, I knew I was dreaming.
then I started to check time. on my mobile it was full of something like
@#$%()*
*#&^$))@
@&#$*$)

then I was sure, I was dreaming.
then I looked around, I was inside a building.
then I thought how about change it red color?
I read others post said I can change the color, right?
but I fell back to sleep again...???


my conclusion:
Why should I change the environment?
I think lucid is enough.

I am in my dream world. There four of my classmates sitting nearby me. I don't remember what we did. We went somewhere. The next thing I remember is being in the backyard of a house. There are some others. We decide to try shared dreaming. When we do this, the dream turns into a 'lucid shared dream', basically a dream within a dream, although I didn't fall asleep at any point of the dream. There are some bad guys shared dreaming also who have organized an assault against us (I actually don't know who 'us' was). They have jet packs so that they can fly fast. Next to me is a building. It has a hole in its wall in the second floor. I fly there. The bad guys are there. There are about a dozen of them. Their leader spots me. I shapeshift into a bird and fly off the house, but their leader flies faster than me due to the jet packs. I fly as fast as I can towards the neighbour's backyard. I stop quickly and change direction. I shapeshift back into human and continue flying around for a while. The dream continued after that, but I can't remember it precisely. I only have a vague memory.

Last night I completed my first Lucid Dream Goal. I wanted to remember something from my waking memory, and I did! A few years ago I memorized the first sentence of the Declaration of Independence (don't ask). I tried to remember it in my Lucid dream and did it perfectly. I also looked at the sky, which I wanted to do in my dreams. It wasn't much different from the real sky though. After that I became afraid that I would wake up, and I had a false awakening. It was so realistic, and I forgot to do a reality check. I went back to bed in my dream, and it ended.