lucid

July 21, 2014

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Nature Park

I was checking out at a convenience store or something, and the cashier was super friendly. She suggested a nature park for me to visit; it was about half an hour down the road from the store. I had nothing much to do, so I decided to visit. It was all on a mountain, and there were various themed paths up to the top. I passed a path that looked like it had been carved out of a rock-face. But it was closed for some reason; I assumed there was construction or something going on. I think it could have also been an avalanche. I went up the other way, and at the top was a courtyard and amphitheater-type-thing. There was also a beautiful view of the Big City.





Nature Park Again

(I woke up right after that dream, and checked the time; I still had a couple hours before my alarm would go off, so I smiled and fell back asleep while thinking about the dream I'd just had; When I fell asleep, I was abck in the nature park, but not lucid)

I was in front of the blocked off portion of the nature park again. But now it was opened again, and I took that way. I climbed up the switchbacks carved into the rock, admiring intricate patterns carved into the walls. At the top of the cliff, I could see the amphitheater not far away, and headed for it, but there was an animal in the way. I forgot what it was, because the dream didn't last much longer. Now that I think about it, I may have been half-lucid. But I'm not really sure.





Spirit of the Forest

I was with Zukin again, and we were walking around a national park. We found a path into a forest, which led to a scenic lookout of a famous tree. It was apparently the oldest free in the state (or country? I don't know. Maybe it was the last surviving tree of its species? Either way, it was a special tree), and as we walked, the path forked in four different directions. We looked for signs, and only found one that said "to Lookout" pointing all the way to the right. But we wanted to know where these other paths went, so we searched a little more for other signs. Eventually, we found a sign hidden underneath a bush and vines that said "to Caves."

That sounded fun. We took that path (it was the one furthest to the left) and after five minutes of walking, the path forked again, this time in five directions. There were no signs here, at least not at first. We figured there had to be a sign somewhere, so we looked hard again, and sure enough, there was another sign hidden under overgrown bushes and whatnot. We wondered how long it had been since anyone was on this path. Whereas the first main path to the lookout was well defined, this one was hard to see for the most part. We followed the path leading to "caves" and again came to a fork, this time with three choices. This time the sign was nowhere to be found, even after searching. We had to guess.

We took the path in the middle of the three, and after about half an hour, we came out of the forest and into an open area with scattered small trees in a field to our left, and a cliff to our right. There was a wall (about hip-high) with vines overgrown all over it. Across a canyon we could see the people at the lookout. We ducked behind the wall, just in case we weren't really supposed to be here. The path continued along the wall, and at the end, we could see the famous tree. We crawled behind the wall until we reached the tree; but before we got there, the path sloped down steeply while the wall continued at the same height. We were able to stand again as we descended, and then the path wrapped around the trunk of the tree and went underground, into the root system and winding around them. It was all rather magical.

But then we heard a rumbling, and I looked up. Dirt was falling from the ground above our heads, and we made our way out of the cave system below the tree. We hadn't gotten very far, so it was easy to get out. Once we were out, the rumbling stopped for a moment, but when I took another step away from the tree, it started again, and Zukin and I started running back up the path, away from the tree. It kept rumbling, louder and louder, and when we got around the winding path to the hill along the wall, we found that it was now almost perfectly vertical. There was no way to climb it...! But there was a vine.

"Climb up the vine!" Zukin called to me. She was already grabbing it and making her way up. I was a little scared, but I climbed nonetheless. We inched our way up the vine as the rumbling grew louder. We were behind the wall, so I wasn't worried about people seeing us now that they could probably hear the rumbling. When we reached the top, we sat against the wall along the cliff, looking to our right at the tree as it tipped away from us, and then the ground shook a little as the roots came out of the ground, destroying that series of tunnels we'd been in moments before.

"Oh SHIT..." I said. Now everyone would be looking over here, and we needed to get the fuck out of this place. We made our way along the wall, and about half-way to the forest, we met Harry Potter. He ran up to us and told us to run, because people were coming. He'd seen it all and wanted to help us escape. We ran behind him for a while, but then, around the corner where the wall turned, there was a Demonic Druid-type thing. It lunged after us, spitting toxic goo from it's eyes and mouth. Some of it hit Harry Potter, and he stumbled. Vines came out of the ground and wrapped around his legs and arms, pulling him all the way down to the ground.

"Harry!" I called, starting to run after him.

"Wait!" He yelled, and I stopped. Zukin ran up to me. "I can see it all now..." Harry continued. "They need a new guardian... that tree... it was the Forest's guardian, but now it's dead. It wasn't you, don't worry. It was just its time to go, and you happened to be there. They need a new guardian... I'll do it. I love this forest, so I'll be the new guardian. Soon a new tree will grow where I lay right now... It was be beautiful..." He had a warm smile on his face and his eyes were glossing over. We knew he was seeing something we never could. We nodded and bowed our heads, and the Demonic Druid thing stepped aside to let us pass.

We ran to the main trail and joined the crowd leaving.

Two years later, I was with Zukin in a bookstore, and we saw a new book about the "Tree Death and Harry Potter Disappearance" mystery. I chuckled a little and bought the book, and one for Zukin. We would have fun later reading all the conspiracy theories about the events of that day. I didn't know it then, but one of my classmates, T, was sitting in a corner of the bookstore, watching us. She was suspicious.

The next day, I was listening to Zukin playing the piano when T came up to me and started asking questions. I evaded them, and left to go on a walk. T and her partner (I think they were private investigators or something, hired to find Harry Potter) followed me, and when I went down the path to the lookout, they confronted me again.

"So you were there that day?" She said to me.

"I don't know what you're talking about."

"You know what happened to Harry, don't you?"

I shrugged. She came over to me and got all close and in my space. I used my forearm to shove her gently away. "If you really want to know what happened that day, why not just try exploring a bit? That's what I did that day."

I left, and they stood there. Now I was viewing the dream third person. I watched as T and her partner went down the same paths Zukin and I had gone down two years before. They came out of the forest and into the field with the wall and cliff to the right, and saw Harry Potter. His eyes were still in the same glossed-over position as they had been when Zukin and I left, but now they followed T and her partner as they approached. The vines which had pulled him down that day had grown thicker and woodier than they had been. They had fused together for the most part. All that was visible of Harry was his face and some of his left shoulder. He was pale blue.

T started to run toward Harry, but vines came up and grabbed her foot. She looked to her partner for help, but he also had vines crawling up his leg. Suddenly, he started to move forward, speaking in a strange language. When T didn't respond, he spoke again, in English. "Leave now. Do not ever come back."

T struggled to get free, but she couldn't. The Demonic Druid from before materialized from the ground, and spat goo at both T and her partner. Her partner was unaffected because he was under control, but T's skin started to burn, and she screamed.

The Druid looked at her partner, tilted its head, and raised its hand. The man was released from the control, and he looked around. "Hey, it's Harry!" He called, smiling bright. "T, look, it's Harry!" He looked around, saw T, but didn't see anything else, because he was shot in the face with toxic goo. He screamed and slowly fell to the ground as well, and then all was silent. The Druid sank back into the ground.





Sex On The Beach

(I woke up to my alarm at 6:30, but had a migraine :( After emailing my professors and the people I usually drive to school, I got back in bed and tried to fall back asleep before the pain got too bad)

I had a false awakening on a beach. I was on a beach towel, in my swimsuit. I sat up, looked around. The sky was blue, and the sand was warm underneath my towel. Behind me, grass-covered dunes rose along the shore. There wasn't a single person in sight, and I smiled, laying back down.

Spoiler for NSFW:

Then I heard the sound of footsteps, and looked up. A man was walking along the beach toward me. I don't really remember everything that led up to what happened next, but suddenly he was leaning over me and kissing my neck. He kissed all the way down my stomach, taking off my bikini top as he passed it. Then he was kissing my lips and his trunks were coming off. I slid out of my bikini bottom, too. He was strong; he lifted me up off the towel and sat up so he was kneeling, and he guided me down on top of his throbbing manhood. (like this, just he was on his knees instead of sitting on his butt)

It was... intense. Neither of us said a single thing through it all. He kissed (more like licked) like all over my body. He bit me playfully a few times, too. When we were done, he laid me back down on the beach towel and stood up, walking to the water and standing with his feet in the water for a while.

He looked back at me and grinned, said something in a singsong voice (I can't remember what it was; I was still a little dazed from the experience), and I realized: He was the Face, and that meant I must be dreaming. I looked down at my hands; two thumbs on my right hand. I was dreaming. I stared at the Face for a while, wondering what to ask him. I was oddly unshy about what had just happened, and neither was he. But I didn't expect he would be shy about something like that, considering he'd pretended to be about to rape me in another dream.

(I drew the Face, btw... this is about what he looks like, anime-fied: The Face ... Ignore my wonky hand-drawing skillz)

"You going to tell me your name yet?" I asked.

"Not this time, either~" He said, and looked back out over the water.

"So why are you here?" I stood up and walked to the water.

"Just came to see you." He said, smirking over at me.

"So sex but no answers for me?" I was a little annoyed. Not that I was complaining...

"I never said I wouldn't answer any of your questions. Ask away."

"Who are you?"

He grinned as if he had known I would ask that first. "I am what you make of me."

I rolled my eyes. "Why are you so unlike any of the other characters in my dreams?"

He looked me right in the eyes this time. "Why do you think?" Was all he would say, and then I felt the dream destabilizing. I reaching out to touch his arm to stabilize myself, but he backed away, grinning as he vanished with the rest of the dream, and I woke up.

Washingmachine
Lucid #5

NON-DREAM DREAM LUCID

I am in a washing room with my friend. We talk with his dad and brother using a radio. We try to dream. I fall asleep in my dream and get lucid. Were still inside the room but I am scared and wake myself up by jumping through the ground.

7/19/14
On a trip. At mall. Sears. Make my way past miscellaneous stores; overall path is a D shape with the curve being the mall and the straight line is the parking lot and my way back to point A from point B. Big movie theater with areas to sit and a huge ramp-like area to watch from with people laying and/or sleeping on it. Sealed door exit from the theater. But a guy comes in through sealed door. I can go out then and I do. This looks like way back to my car. Somewhere in here I'm thinking that I haven't gotten a hotel yet. I can use my phone to search for hotel deals. Walking in parking lot I see my wife's cousin N with his nice convertible. This has to be a dream to run into you here out of town! Yup! I do some of my I know I'm a lucid challenges basically bragging but it's great for confidence...I say to him, hey can I have sex with ( his wife's name). "It would be like" and I make the motions as if his wife is laid out on the hood of his convertible. I say you could have sex with (insert my wife's name). This was somehow much more fun than it sounds and just acting it out around the hood of his car felt a lot like doing it. I think: Down to goals! I think I want to do the planet one next. I considered doing it with the elevator one but no
elevator around right now so just decide to fly up into space - way up and it gets dark I can't see anything but I stay calm fly up some more and then decide that I will just freefall until I hit a planet. (Note: It is my dream, I can make that work no matter how improbable IWL, LOL! In the dream I only thought that I can make this work. I didn't even go there with thinking about it being improbable IWL.) I simulate to myself a soft landing and I get it...I basically just find myself on solid ground as if I floated there like a feather. I can see through kind of a window or space into this other room or void (this is probably the dream reforming the environment after the void and free fall) and there are green rocks that have a lot of straight lines kind of like blocks thrown together creating odd shaped rocks, not unlike crystal formations. I cross through and there is big huge rocky formation that looks like it has teeth. I studied for a moment so that I can remember it later. The teeth are jagged kind of like sharks teeth. But the rest of it is not really shaped like creature really more like a big rock. I look around the room or space and there is another set of different shaped items that I come back to later but two of the items are shaped kind of like elongated travel chests. I could
see something move off in the corner of the room the distance but when I look over there there's nothing. I walked over that way and I say "I come in peace" while holding up my right hand while kind of laughing to myself . I am creating my own cheesy 50's Alien movie here I think to myself. He comes back out. It is very difficult to describe what he looks like but he is a short creature maybe 2 feet tall . As for something you would find on the earth, he is most like an octopus perhaps but the base that he walks around on is a little more rectangular shaped than circular like an octopus. He has a bit of a goofy friendly face and is kind of a grayish bluish color. I try a line from one of my previous lucid dreams and I say "bring me one of your hottest alien women." A doll looking thing comes down from above on a rope. It becomes more and more lifelike, and more human woman like as this plays out. The rope is around her and slipping up and down her body pulling up her white nightgown and revealing her naked body. It is strangely erotic. I will
leave out the rest of the sexual stuff with her but I may share by PM if requested. This space looks a lot like a big house. I decide to go back to look and kind of draw out all of the items on a sketch pad that I summon to help me remember this dreamscape, to really lock it into my memory. I go back over by the elongated chests but the chests are no longer there but I study the rest of the items but I drop the idea of drawing them. There are two clear glass bowls with a clear liquid in them. One has round multicolor items in it that look like fruits. The other one has some loaf shaped items sticking up out of it. It looks like it was set out for a party. I go off to my left and sure enough it's kind of liked a little party with my son there and some other people. Either I am back on earth now or they came up to visit! I then see my son's friend C and I think about how everyone talks about how promiscuous she has become. Not sure if she is still in college IWL. I think of another test / brag to my lucidity. I told my son I'm going to get it on with his friend C. I start to mount her and I see her luscious lips and switch gears and stick it in her mouth. She does a very nice job. Wow!!
After a bit of that the dreams fades back to bed but I remember that I to always have to check to see if it's a real awakening...but alas it is this time. I was reminded yesterday to put more of myself in the self awareness work. I also switched up my SSILD somatic cycle a little and did some self awareness work during WBTB which I shortened. I also woke up closer to 5.5 hours after bed for WBTB whereas the last few nights were around 4.5 and I seemed too tired to make it work right. Woke from dream around 7 something. 175

Late Late dream 10 a.m. Young guy is broadcasting himself in his bedroom on justin.tv for a long time. At this point it is on the news...his girlfriend got shot through the bedroom window while he was broadcasting and I said what are the chances of that...that can't be...that's impossible. Then a playback of all the stuff that happened before the shooting. His run in with some other teenagers at school, they call him something weak and they have some kind flipping competition to see who could do standing flips. The scene where his girlfriend was shot had him holding her in bed rolling around and it just did not look natural like he was acting, but it did not make me lucid either...none of this thinking that all this was impossible. The dream explained it away. Oh well, had my awesome LD already.

7/21/14 FA: hearing the alarm turn off warning stop without key punch sounds made me realize I am dreaming. I never really understood people feeling sleepy in a lucid dream until this time. I felt like dozing off within my lucid, so I did. 176

071814 a guy is telling me about all these cool artifacts he found...I'm seeing them visually like I'm in video game. Golden breastplate, etc. Thai government is looking for him (movie at bedtime=character is in Thailand before heading to Cambodia).

7/17 crater in ocean. Where I was when 17, recurring dream. Go back for son. Hydrofoil boat. Coach M has game at 6pm. L on sons grades, report card. "Lucid" is written out on grades in one place but instead of a clue that I am dreaming, I worry that wife will see. Coach M talks about how he lost his father. I relay this to my son. Looking for school office helps with college apps. It is after 5pm but she's still there (5am? Wake 545am). Lady sits funny almost showing up skirt. A skills test is done: measure the area of two adjacent tables....easy. Life lessons you need I guess.

I had lost lucidity and got off the bed from Father room to go in to the living room as I did I hear someone opening the front door, I decided to go in the rest room to stay hidden. I hear the door open and the person walking upstairs that's when I turn on the restroom lights and look at my hands. One of my fingers were missing that's when I became lucid and thought I am still in a dream? I decided I wanted to something crazy so that this time I'll wake up once and for all. I left the rest room and open the unlock front door as I step outside it was very gray and clouded still. I check my hands and continue to still see that my middle finger was missing so I knew no doubt how real this feels it was a dream. I saw a woman with a blue football cap get out of her car walking and got her keys to open the door to her apartment. I follow her and enter inside quickly she turns around as her kids look at me with boredom. I told everyone to remain calm as I pull out a large rope from my back that I am guessing has always been there and place it in my hands. I tie up their mother as she panics the son and daughter don't seem to care and continue to play video games seems like they were competing. I lift the mother up and drop her in another room where I lock the door leaving her trap inside unless one of the kids come up to help her. I sat down on a bed and thought this was not much fun but I still manage to pull it off I began laughing and checking the place out. Before I could join the son and daughter playing the video game I woke up before I could react to it. Lucidity Time 3 minutes.

I appear in a car and it was very fancy that's when I knew it was limo. I became shock that my DEILD work for me I was already lucid that's when I look out of the limo windows and saw the very colorful green trees and grass. I found them to be so beautiful I wanted a better look I jump out the moving limo rolling on the ground, The driver in the limo stops his car and believes he hit something so gets out of the limo to see what it was. As he gets out he seems shock that I am getting up I started walking inside the forest as the sky changes quickly from a blue sunny sky to a magical dark purple sky with tons of visible stars there was shooting stars and other kinds that created very nice lights. It look too great , the grass and the trees were blowing as I saw another DC enjoying the site and running through the trees. I lay down in the grass looking up to the sky and feeling the wind blow calmly. I then realize the dream ended as another appear but through the transition I lost lucidity.Lucidity Time 2 mins

After the other dream ends I wake up in Father room and my head was feeling very static , I got up and tried to turn on the lights but it didn't work I tried again but the same thing happen. I look at my hands and realize I was dreaming again, I had very good control this time I made a small white light appear now instead of the usual orange light. I began saying I'm dreaming again and felt very excited and shouted yes, my voice sounded as if it were digital. I started jumping all around in Father room I then try to phase through the wall again but it did not work as I wasn't focusing again. I then left Father room in to the living room and could tell the outside through the windows were gray and clouded. I told myself to remain calm and to focus on maintaining control over lucidity, I saw the back door and unlock it to go outside. I walk down in till I see a man who look frustrated with a knife in his hands approaching me I began to back up and that's when I realize the situation that was happening, I notice him arguing with another guy and claiming that the guy stole his truck. The guy in the truck drove off quickly almost running the man with the knife over as he shouts for the guy to come back. That's when he and his one of his partners who were hidden ran up a snowy cliff trying to catch up to the truck driver. I decided to walk on the front road thinking there's a lot of DC's here, that is when I was approach by a woman in a pink dress. She ask me how was I dream character? In my mind I was surprise she called me a DC but then I realize I am inside my mind right now. I said I am fine and add on that I was really liking this lucid dream, she smirk and ask me What am I? I began to feel different instead of feeling excited that I was lucid dreaming I felt much more determine , I could see the place changing into a college campus as we walk on the road. I told her I am who I am, after that I felt very relax and we both laugh as we see a lot of people panic and running about being late for school. She told me as we finish walking all of the front road that the two standing forward from us were her friends as they waited for us to arrive. We finally made it to where I notice one huge guy in a t shirt and 1 girl in a white dress. The girl seem happy to see her friend as they begin their conversation the dream begins break down and turning gray, they were all frozen as I could see the dream starting to fade. I rub both of my hands to try to prolong it but it was doing no good as it continue to fade. That's when I realize and knew I wouldn't let it end like this , I close my eyes I could feel the dream ending once it was all gone I only felt my actual body in waking life for one second and then I was back in another dream. Lucidity Time 5 minutes.

Color legend: Non-dream Dream Lucid

Lucid #221: The Singing Robot

I’m taking an unusually long time to fall asleep after WBTB and I sense a shift which makes me wonder whether the dream has begun. I will myself to roll out of bed and I find myself floating in the air about 3 feet above and to the left of where I normally sleep.

The sun shouldn’t be up yet but a trickle of daylight’s coming in through the shutters. I roll a couple of times, a little out of control. When I try to fly I wind up just heading straight downward, soon faceplanting in the floor. The scene goes dark and I hold on for DEILD. After a while I give up,I incorrectly thinking I’ve failed and have a false awakening, feeling disappointed that the dream was “so short”.

I log onto DV and see that Dreamer has left a series of comments on one of my DJ entries. Rather than text, these comments are a series of giant images that are larger than my screen, so I have to scroll around to see the entire picture. The first is one of Dreamer standing with one foot on a balcony railing, looking back at the “camera” and grinning. She’s holding her other foot over her head almost straight up in the air like some kind of crazy ballet move.

The next few pictures show different angles of a similar scene from a Japanese manga and I see that she’s just creating some favorite piece of a manga she likes. I think that this looks dangerous but I chuckle at her cleverness.

Soon the dream ends and I hold on for DEILD. I feel another shift and I once again roll out of bed into the air. This time I’m able to fly again but my dream body feels slight and insubstantial. It’s daytime, just as before, and I phase out through the shutters. The dream’s feeling really thin, and I try to rub my hands together but I can’t even manage that simple act. The dream soon falls into the void.

“I’m having a lucid dream,” I say, but my voice comes out very gargled and robotic. I don’t want to lose the dream, so I try singing. It works, but every word comes out in this strange, metallic robot voice:

This is a dreeeeeeam,
This is a dreeeeeeeeeeeam…
<pause> Dream dream dreeeeeeam…

The audio holds together for longer than I expect, but eventually I lose even this and wake up.

Dream started in the living room where my Mother explain to me that Father and her would be in my Brothers play. My Mother and Father showed me the camera in the house and inside the garage however when I was in the garage I couldn't find any. I then went out in the living room and realize my Father was dying when he left America, I tried to hurry to prevent it however I was too late, I look at my brother who could've prevented it but instead he allow it. I grab a plant seed that's suppose to represent my Father now , I ask Mother for a bag to bury him in. She drops one bag down from upstairs as I catch it and went back in to Fathers room. As I seat there thinking what am I going to do, the door opens with Mother asking for me as I approach the door I see my Brother seems angry and was claiming I took his pink pencil so he couldn't draw and that he couldn't find it. I didn't know what he was talking about but then I look down and saw a pink pencil and realize this must be what he was looking for. I gave him his pink pencil but he was still mad and assume I took it so he tries to attack as I dodge his first hook, then he tackles me so I ended up kicking him in the face but very fast he grabs me with his arm and lifts me up and starts choking me. I was shock how incredibly strong he was and that's when I started thinking no way this can't be real , no one is this strong as if it were arms of steel. That's when I became lucid and realize I was dreaming I kick my brother which knock him back and I continue to remain up in the air , my Brother spiral in to nothing and my Mother disappear as well. I then tried to go through the walls but kept getting push back as I chose not to focus. That's when the lights went off and soon I couldn't see anything. I lost lucidity when another dream began to start. Lucidity Time 58 Seconds.

During a WBTB I found myself thinking "What can I find to prove that I am dreaming" and before I knew it I was. I found myself in a large palace type room with gold walls and waterfalls. I floated over to a waterfall and realized that the water was still and not flowing. Thinking about it for a while I remembered that I had a plan for my first lucid that lasted more than a couple seconds and I had attempted to go for it. I thought up a large portal in the middle of the room to take me back to my home and it looked like a rippling blue electric field that I had walked in. After going into it and arriving at what was supposed to be my home I had lost a lot of clarity. My vision was about as clear as my wake imagination where details just didn't exist. I soon lost control of the dream and remember nothing more.

After months of trying it feels pretty good to have something last longer than a couple seconds. I'll be there soon.

From the TOTM-thread:

Soo - I had a lucid elevator dream!
If I was as serious as fogelbise - I shouldn't bring it on to be counted, because the elevator brought me in the void and I woke up from that.
But I found one this time and I rode it - so I guess it counts.

It was quite convenient to get lucid in the hall of a hotel - it worked again by noticing that I wore almost nothing, definitively not enough for this rather posh place. The TOTM came to my mind and I just needed to turn around to stand in front of an elevator with mirrored doors, which distracted me a bit. I found I can play with the reflection of me as if I could curve the mirrors - like these varieté ones, where you get fat or slim or twisted. But only the reflection changed - the doors stayed straight. That was nice. I still didn't try to blur the surface of things in the dream and paint into them and such things. I had a dress then without putting it on at some point. Yeah - so I press a button - the doors open, I go in and already I feel visuals fading but I get a button pressed and the elevator goes down - and yeah - not sure if a door actually opened or not, but I end up in the void and wake up.
I really need to work on stability, esp. optics and duration - my motivation is seriously hampered by lack of quality...

Rather funny - in a later dream somebody turns up stark naked and I say to a friend - look at this guy, he is naked in public, he must be a dreamer!
I even thought about telling him so he can lucid dream, but then something else happened - shame!


By the way - there were several instances where I became lucid by seeing our old house, which doesn't stand any more, but I dreamt of it a lot.
But now I don't any more - seems my dreaming self found out for good - maybe one day I will always be clothed appropriately not to notice that?
Tricky bastard of an un-con...

This was completed for Dreamer's DV Challenge!

Finding Fris
I am trying to lead meditation for my mom and sister. My mom criticizes me for laying out the cushions incorrectly. I have already had to interrupt my own meditation to help them, so I am not pleased. My sister is taking a very long time to get here! I finally say f*** this and get into my car and drive off.

I am driving through my hometown, and suddenly appear in the city where I live. I am driving through a college campus. I know I need to get to work soon, but realize I did not tell my wife where I was going. I reach for the phone to call her, but realize I have my old phone from college, and that I will not be able to contact her on this. I also realize I've brought my cat along by mistake, and that when I open the car door she will probably get out, and not be able to defend herself. I am starting to get stressed out by current events!

I find myself now walking in a mall that also happens to be a college campus, and it occurs to me that I might be dreaming. I do a nose pinch and can breathe. Lucid. I pause for a moment to just breathe and look around. Everything becomes strikingly vivid. I try to remember my tasks. At first, nothing comes, but then . . . Find Fris! I set off. I am very happy to have remembered the goal! I try to call Fris on my old phone, but this does not work. The phone only has one large green button in the center, and when I press this, I hear a voice come out, but for whatever reason (can't remember now) I am not satisfied with what I hear. I think I toss the phone away.

I begin running around calling out, "Where's Fris? Where's Fris?" A DC stops me and says he's found him. He points to a storefront ad for cigarettes. The add has a silhouette of a cartoon character on the front. I tell the DC that this is not good enough and continue my search. Different DCs stop me, either with rumors or reports, or just false information. As I am making my way down the thoroughfare, I notice an extremely beautiful DC -- maybe the most beautiful woman I've ever seen -- walking past me. I almost lost the objective and run after her, but then wrench my eyes away and continue on. Other male DCs were looking at her as well!

A friend from WL finally stops me as I am ascending some stairs and points me in another direction. "I just saw Fris over there, but watch out, because there is a crowd." I'm like, "Wtf, a crowd?" I run over to this spot and have to shove some DCs out of the way to get to the inner circle. Fris is sitting on a brick bench. He is a rapper, and all of the people are his fans. I ask him if he is really Fris, and he says, "Yeah, yeah." I wonder if I have to do anything else to meet the task. I ask Fris for his autograph (I mean, he is a famous rapper, right?). Fris agrees and is signing my paper when he sees my ring. He asks me if I am a mason. I say yes, I am. We talk about Freemasonry! Fris has all of these interesting skull rings on. He then asks me if he can hold my ring. I say certainly. He tries to work the ring off of my finger, but he is going so slowly. "Just pull it off," I say, "You're being too gentle." He finally gets it off and is examining it. By this time the crowd has dispersed (they walk away as we are talking). He takes out a lock-smithing tool kit and begins fiddling with my ring. I realize that he is trying to resize the ring to his own finger! I get kind of pissed about this, but then remember I am dreaming and that he can't do anything to my ring. I just shrug and watch. He is very meticulous. I then contemplate whether or not I've removed my ring in WL, and seem to feel my WL hand holding my ring. At this point the dream destabilizes and I wake up.

#339 - DILD - 6:53AM

This was another one of those LDs where I somehow believe a false reality. I guess lucidity was low here.

I am playing a side scrolling video game where I am playing as The Roadrunner in a sonic game. Then, it morphs into Mario. Grey stone blocks fall down and I have to hit them to get a bunch of strange power ups. I get several 1UPs and "health" until one turns him into a fish and another turns him into a majestic Owl on a floating throne surrounded my magical light.

I have a false awakening and find out that my younger daughter had the same dream with just a few variations. This my not be a shared dream but this is something I want to document. I begin writing her dream and mine on some xeroxed flyer with a black sharpie. The writing looks rough but at least I got it down. I take the paper to put it up someplace leaving the kids behind.

I come to hallway in the apartment. I think of this as my parents place. I haven't seen this part of the apartment before. I thought I saw my dad in go in here and now I wish to speak to him. I wonder down to the end and enter a small room with a dining table in it. The walls are painted a dark brown and the small light bulb in the center of the ceiling isn't doing much for it. I call out for my dad but he's not here. It seem really quite and secluded in this room save for the window unit. I think that I should try doing the podcast in here rather than the basement. It's becoming increasing difficult to see and I decide we should repaint.

I step into the hallway again thinking how dream like that room was. This triggers lucidity. I have a moment of slight instability but it clears up.Curious, I step back in there and find the walls are now white. The room is bright and I can see well. My dad is there. Thinking that this place really exists, I say, "See dad. This is what a couple coats of paint could do for the place, especially if you plan to sell it. Wait can that happen? Yeah sure. Why not?
My mom appears, "Why stop there?"
I reply, "Yeah. Why not. I could repaint the hallway too. It's just that dark brown is so bad that is just suck your soul." I wonder if there is irony here say this in a dream as I walk out.

I make my way into a living room with an open kitchen. Everything looks super nice and new. See this place could be awesome if we just fix it up. I see a patio door that leads to a back deck. There is a stone tile path beyond. Yeah I like that. We'll buy some stone title later. Suddenly, I see many different types of stone all over the yard on palettes. My parents are staining there engaged in conversation. I ignore this as dream glitch and walk around some.

I am holding a board. I drop it in confusion. I tiredly ask my mom, "Mom am I awake or am I dreaming?"
She smiles, "Of course you're awake."
I am laying in the grass now feeling really tired. I can't move like sleep paralysis. I lazily say, "Oh. Can you just touch my face?" I hope that a touch will break this spell I'm under but she never does it or says anything. I realize what the feeling of SP really means."No. I'm not awake am I. No I'm not." I wake up.

#338 - DEILD - 5:47AM

Another failed WILD. I DEILD from some dream I can't recall.

I feel myself subtly transition from wake to dream to wake. I know the feeling and worry my excitement is ruining my DEILD. My heart is racing but I manage to calm myself while I focus on my body awareness. After a few seconds I am back in. I don't hesitate and get up rather quickly.

I move to the front door and see how vividly a light from the other room is. I feel some physical sensation like my eyes are really opening. I worry that I am about to wake up. I almost close my eye but say "Screw it" and open them fully. This made the dream seem more clear and vivid than my normal AP style dreams. Feeling happy, I step out into the night. I shout out something, "WELL. HERE WE ARE AGAIN." The feel and sound of my voice is like waking life and I am pleased with the high amount of lucidity and vividness in this dream

In my yard I look up and see a uniform blanket of tiny dim stars. Some lettering starts to overlay the sky. I look away not wanting to get sucked into some crazy randomness but when I do the ground tilts and wavers causing some momentary destabilization. I quickly correct this my focusing my vision on one point of grass.

It's too dark for my liking and I try various voice commands to get some light but give up after a while. Instead, I decide to try out my new found ice powers. I do the same as the last LD but this time I only see a fain orb that quickly vanishes. I try again to the same effect. Now I change techniques that I thought of in waking life. I do some over exaggerated hand motions and shout some random fake Japanese words to build up emotions and energy. I release a blue orb the looks much better. Suddenly, I notice there is some traffic down the street. The cars seem to be entering some sort of energy field that I had inadvertently created. The field is creating a electrical light spectrum causing the cars to catch fire and explode.

As I walk over to check it out, a huge fireball erupts and permanently creates some daylight. I wonder if I can cause another explosion by thinking about it but nothing happens. I begin to hear shouts and screams as people panic in the streets. I step into the street in front of a strange but fancy looking blue Chrysler. They slow and come to a stop just before me. I decide some TK would be fun and I lit the car high into the air and then fling it into a brick building. The explosion could have been better. I let out a powerful yell and begin to do some more damage but the dream suddenly crashes.

I am startled to find myself at work. I feel like I was in a deep daydream and something has startled me. I realize I have been chewing on a plastic probe and I have bits of hard plastic in my mouth and throat. I start to choke as I wake up.

#337 - DEILD chain - 4:41AM

My goal in this dream was to find some Alchemy symbols and use them as a confidence trick to boost my magical abilities, much like Full Metal Alchemist. I wanted to find rather than create the symbols to practice for project I have coming up next month. This is what I recall..


I'm in and out of small dreamlets but I am too focused on the AP sensations to get a hold of any dream scene. I have several confusing mini LDs but don't quite recall them because I am just going with the flow of the dream. Some of them are slightly disturbing.

The dream is more solid now but I am in a confused state. I had a goal in mind. What was it? I am on a street. I see a man sleeping on a park bench. I think I recall the goal now. Kill twice. I kick the man's head off and watch it sail into the night. I turn and see his ghost. I rip its head off and it deflates like a balloon and vanishes. Wait. What am I doing? This can't be right at all.

DEILD

I recall the correct goal now. Alchemy. I find myself in a hedge maze at night. There are many blue, glowing alchemy symbols on the ground all around me. I am still trying to get my bearings as I am trashing around. I settle myself and focus. I take a closer look at the nearest symbol but it is rotating and changing quickly. I find this disorienting. There is a cartoony blond kid near my that I assume to be Edward Elric. He's leading me around waiting for me to do what I came to do. I go ahead and put my hands on the symbol and focus energy. My hands turn red and feel warm and tingly. I release with my hands out to shoot lightning like some Sith Lord but there are several dream glitches that ruins the effect.

DEILD

I am now in a stone room like a castle keep. Everything looks very much like something straight out of Elder Scrolls. There is a Nord mage woman before me with fist up and circling. I focus energy in my hands like before and throw with my right. A pale blue orb of energy hits the woman. It looks like ice magic from the game. I hear the sounds of if. The ice slows her down and half paralyzes her so I do it again and again. I suddenly remember a non lucid dream where I was doing this. Maybe ice is my thing. She seems affected but she is still coming. I take a chance and try a Superman move by inhaling deep and blowing out. A large amount of blue energy flows out and strikes the woman turning her into a rectangular block of ice. I laugh hysterically like a madman, glad that I am finally able to do this and a little surprise how I froze the woman. I wake up.

I am hired for a temporary janitor position at the college where I was a janitor for a year in the past. Hired onto my old crew, only a couple people have stuck around, the rest are really brand new to janitor work. One new guy is showing me the ropes, even though I know more than he does. Not being one to over-talk people, I am unable to let them know that I actually know what I'm doing, and have spent more time cleaning this exact building than all of them have combined....

We all get ready to head off to our particular areas, and I show one of the guys where I usually park my bicycle so he has a safe place for his as well. I remember my friend who got his bike stolen during his work shift, and have since found a better spot to park it. I have him follow me up the elevator in A wing. I get off on the wrong floor, and have to get on another elevator. This time, people are getting off, and some other people want to get on and go down instead of up, so I get back out and board the elevator across the room instead. Reaching the top floor, we cross a big bridge to C Wing, and I realize it would've been easier to just enter C Wing from outside instead of our approach. Too late now though.

There is a secret elevator that only maintenance workers and janitors have access to with our special keys that takes you to a remote mechanical room in the center of the building - perfectly safe place to lock a bike! I forgot to grab my set of keys, so instead, I go to a balcony that is rather exposed and uncomfortable for potential thieves to do their work. There is an elevator that leads down the the balcony. I wait for it, as my co-worker takes the stairs and then a ramp down to the balcony. I get on the elevator, this one is just a platform, open sides, like a lift in a factory or something, and ride it down 6 ft to the balcony where I lock my bike.

I think I'll need my set of janitor-keys, so I start to walk back toward the supervisor's office. Suddenly she is right in front of me, and hands me my set of keys! She also gives me a paper with a list of what tasks I have to do for that day. It's impossibly long, but I'm feeling confident. Some of the other janitors on my crew are nearby, and ask what I have to do on my sheet. I start to unfold it again, but before I can get a good look at it, an 18 Wheeler Grocery delivery driver turns the corner, panicked because he's lost. He looks really beaten up, lots of black and blues on his face, and some cuts and scrapes all over. A black eye too! I point the way back to his truck, and then suggest that he probably does MMA fighting like the other guy I know, and I wouldn't mess with those guys. It sounds fun, but I've never done it.

I start to float around through the air, and fly down a hallway at walking speed, back to the top of C-Wing near where my bike is parked. There is a party up on top, lots of loud music and people drinking unknown beverages. Police are there too, but don't seem to care about the loud music or anything. I turn down a few drinks, and avoid the police just out of habit. They are super offended that I am not drinking with them. I realize that my facebook profile makes it look like I drink, so I adjust my details from my phone, giving their drinking party a personal rating of 2/5 for me. I think that's a bit harsh, so I change it to 3/5. Somehow, they get notified that I rated them 3/5 and get even more upset at me. I try to explain why I did that, and don't do drugs. They just storm off, not hearing a word I say.

I walk toward my bicycle to make sure it is locked, and instead of finding my bicycle, I find an operating room, white walls, white floor, white ceiling, and a patient with some serious tubing coming out of his arm from his heart. He is a clone, about to be killed to have his organs harvested because the person he was cloned from needed an organ transplant. Also, someone needs his blood urgently. He looks like he's already dead, just on artificial breathing, with machines pumping blood around to keep the organs fresh for the next few minutes. I feel like I'm a clone too, waiting to be harvested for the person I'm cloned from. Well, "nothing to lose then". I pull one of the tubes out of him, and blood starts squirting out of it. For some reason, I have to really get a lot of blood. I don't know how I know this. So I pull the next tube, and more blood comes out. The surgeons start shouting at me as I pull the whole apparatus out of the guy's arm and a deluge of blood rushes out like a fire hose. Kinda gross... Before he loses all his blood, he is re-cloned. This clone of the clone sees me doing this, and gets really pissed off, and throws random surgical equipment at me in a rage. One of the other people I'm with is spontaneously cloned as well, and both of them start to chase me. Since I'm a clone, I know this isn't real, which means I have telekinesis.

I run away from them, not really concerned about any of this because it's not real. I use my telekinesis to pull debris and sharp objects into their path as I run down a metal bridge connecting two tall buildings as I pass through this void type area, surrounded by darkness except for the bridge, myself, and my pursuers. Some more people appear on the other side of the bridge and they surround me. Just as Neo would do in the Matrix, I use telekinesis to stop space and time around me, rendering everyone harmless and ridiculously slow. As I do this, the clone of the guy I was bloodletting comes to understand me, and there is peace between us. Immediately, there is also peace between the others who were attacking me as well, and it seems all conflicts have been resolved.