lucid

03-03-2014
The majority of this dream will not be written down, because having it in writing will probably have me admitted. I was in some type of war between two groups. The first one starting with a hibari kyouya character and me switching weapons and fighting. there was a little girl on their team who fused sweets together to create a boomerang that would hit people with lightning element, who was getting hit with her own boomerang as I managed to hit her with a lightning element attack during the fight. I was posed as one of her team mates that was lightning type. Her actual team mate phased through one of the walls to help her, only to realise it was actually me in disguise setting him up(bunshin). However he knew it was a clone and had sent out four of his clones to ambush me! At some point during the battle i became lucid. I tried to fly to go fight him but my dogs kept flying behind me and I kept having to tell them no! And hitting them on the nose. Then it was dark outside, I had lost lucidity and most of this part is censored and forgotten. Then I was in the house and became lucid again. I phased through the window and tried to fly away but I could hear my fathers voice tell me its no use. This time I had enough. I flew/phased back into the house with much effort( such effort, very time, wow) and looked everywhere for my family. None of them were inside except for my father who was in the bath. I screamed at him to come and fight me. I did a nose RC and looked in the mirror RC. The mirror one made me feel weak and weird so I went back into the bathroom. My father had knives in the bath with him so I took one out and told him to fight me. Then he came out in a towel, we both had knives but he wasn't invested in the fight. Then I pinned him down and with a lot of effort slit his throat. I was even able to tell the dream just how the blood should spurt out( I got really messy here, maybe I should leave it as an unrealistic slow drip). Then I did another nose RC and a light switch RC and then I left the room. I flew out of the house but then I woke up. Yes this dream is fucked up. Yes its not even the worst part of it. Basically I just need to realise that there is no room for fear, and my actions won't affect the real world. I can do what I want without fear of consequence.

So there i was.. Walking out of my flat, down to my street hanging around the walls..
Sky became red!
I knew it!
Just one of my stupid dreams..
So... I sat there, waiting for something interesting to happen!
And holy shit! Out of a fucking portal.. There came a red grim reaper!
His face was invisible it was just red.
He told me
We must go, come on it's dangerous!
And i said like..
Chill out motherfucker it's just a dream!
He said:
How dare you! How could you say it's just a dream!
Well.. Look at the sky! Is it fucking normal.. Would it happen in real life?
Yes.. In fact, this is real life!
And i looked at him

Whatever just let me get out of this bull crap please
He said:
As you wish!
And so he made my eyes wide open and i woke up.
I was laughing so hard!
Such an idiot..


But the dream was very short so i didn't write much.. But stay tuned xD

So there i was.. Walking out of my flat, down to my street hanging around the walls..
Sky became red!
I knew it!
Just one of my stupid dreams..
So... I sat there, waiting for something interesting to happen!
And holy shit! Out of a fucking portal.. There came a red grim reaper!
His face was invisible it was just red.
He told me
We must go, come on it's dangerous!
And i said like..
Chill out motherfucker it's just a dream!
He said:
How dare you! How could you say it's just a dream!
Well.. Look at the sky! Is it fucking normal.. Would it happen in real life?
Yes.. In fact, this is real life!
And i looked at him

Whatever just let me get out of this bull crap please
He said:
As you wish!
And so he made my eyes wide open and i woke up.
I was laughing so hard!
Such an idiot..


But the dream was very short so i didn't write much.. But stay tuned xD

I am in front of my actual school, on the floor. It's so cold and there's too much wind. The scene is similar to Silent Hill, but there're no ashes falling. I see a friend of mine in the window, walking. Another friend is on the roof of the school, then she jumps. I don't understand anything and expect her to die, but she just arrives to the floor and continues walking towards me.

How did you do that? - I ask her. My other friend appears in this moment. I ask them both to stay because I feel strange and I'm scared. ''Wait...could this all be a dream?'' - I think and do a reality check by counting fingers, but it doesn't work. No, I'm pretty sure that I am dreaming, so I do a second reality check by pinching my nose. I can breathe and get lucid.

I tell them that this is a dream and they get angry at me. They start punching me and I call my subconscious. A big blue brick wall appears flying towards us. ''Why the hell is a wall flying'' - I think. Suddenly I find myself in my old house. I start calling my subconscious again, but nothing happens. When I'm about to give up I start calling the dream representative, but he doesn't either appear. ''I'm dreaming, and I know that I am dreaming, but this all seems less 'real' after waking up'' - I think while going to the first floor. I stare at the window of the living room and see my neighbours.I go upstairs again and find myself in another place again. ''I have to try LSD here.'' - I think and imagine how papers of LSD appear in my pocket. I take them all but nothing appears until I reach the top, when I start to see colors and 3D images.

When I open the door that's in front of me I am in a restaurant. A big modern restaurant, which also seems quite expensive. There's a couple having dinner, a guy and a gorgeous blonde woman. ''Haha you guys look so happy, do you want to learn how to fly?'' - I tell them, but they don't hear me, so I grab her with her chair and throw her to the street (it looks like we a are at a 30th floor). Noooo! - He screams, bu t instantly he continues eating. I continue walking and see a friend of mine having dinner too, but he's alone. ''Hey, what are you doing here?'' - I ask him, taking a sit. Nothing, having dinner with a friend of mine who's in the bathroom. - He answers to me. I give him a hug and wake up.

3/11/14

WBTB 7:30am, Awake 8:30am

WILD

Swimming in bedroom, can breath out of nose (RC). However, I realize that I'm having a WILD, instead of the MILD I was aiming for and am afraid of the paralysis and other things I might experience during a WILD, so I jerk myself awake.

non-lucid

Seeing video game (graal) bar, go behind counter and transported to volcano island level (like in the real game). Expecting the baddies that throw rocks to come but they don't appear. Like a vivid stream of thought.

non-lucid

I see myself in my large bedroom mirror. Extremely realistic. The figure in the mirror looks exactly like me, but I don't feel like it's me because it's acting on its own. It is staring intensely at me and starts to pull her face off, but I wake up before it does.

non-lucid

Listening to a church sermon at my home church. I remember the sermon being really good, but I shortly forgot it when I woke up.

I jerk myself awake out of paralysis with each dream out of fear of sleep paralysis. I was too excited during MILD to lose consciousness while transitioning into a dream state.

WILD. I was at home. wait a bit to stabilise the dream. I wanted to make a teleport, but decided to do something to earn points before, and went to the street through the wall. My gates were broken and there wasn't my car in the yard. I thought - how ordinary for the dream and went back to the house through the wall again. Then i was making teleports to the winter forest, but each time i found myself in the house or in my yard. When i opened a door i saw something big like a monster and i wanted to awake, but instead of this found myself in my house again, but without monster. So in some attermpts i awoke.

3/10/14

Awake at 7:20 am

Brushed teeth, went to the bathroom, hugged husband goodbye.

A little afraid to fall back to sleep and have a FA. I remind myself I need the sleep and this is the way I can achieve my lucid dream.

I visualize my dream plan and pray to God I have a lucid dream and fly. It didn't take long for me to fall asleep.

8:05 am MILD

I had a dream that I had a FA, but was scared and "woke up" but really it was another FA.

I went out my living room door, reminding myself that I'm going to try to fly. Some sort of cart in the hallway. Then I go outside to a playground/baseball field. I attempt flying many times with little success, so I use the things around to push myself up. Then finally, I'm dog paddling and swimming high in the air! I land and remind myself I need to stabilize the dream. So I rub my hands together. Then flew over to a dream character. There were three male dream characters. This one in particular looked like a past high school classmate of mine with brown hair and kind of a jock. I remembered the task of the month and asked him, "What's my middle name?" He replied, "Windy," took my hands and flew with me in the sky. (I got the task of the month wrong! Ha. I'm supposed to ask what his middle name is!)

At one point I travel down the sidewalks. With each step I float a little down the sidewalk. There are skaters on the sidewalk, one a young girl. I wonder if people who fly in dreams have the same stigma as people who skate in waking life.

I go back to my apartment, remembering that I need to wake up. I struggle to. At one point, my grandma enters the dream. I tell her I need to wake up. I go back to my bed and reach for my dream journal to try to write my dream down, but it doesn't work, I just barely write scribbles. Somehow, I'm hoping that in waking life I'm also writing things down, it never occurs to me in my FA that what I do in the FA is not affecting the waking world. It's 1 pm in my dream, I need to get up. Then, I reach over for hand lotion on my side table (though, in real life, this hand lotion is out in the living room), squirt some on my fingers and rub it on my tongue to try to wake myself up. It works, I'm repulsed by the taste and wake up.

Dramatic and passionate music sung by a man throughout the dream. A lot of "ooh, ooh, ooh" vocals.

Finished writing my dream down at 8:18 am.

1. [Lucid]
//I'm laying on a bed, the girl that was in my previous dream was on her knees to my left, I thought to myself lets fly, but then realize that well theirs a girl in here right next to me so I said to her "hey, wanna have sex?" she seemed ok with this//...I wake up.

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Fragments:
1. Me tap dancing like a pro in a dance studio, all the other people where dancing to other stuff.
2. A girl that is so beautiful that when you look at other girls they look disgusting.
3. In an elevator when this guy places a wind up device onto the wall, he then winds the device which in turn makes the elevator go up or down.
4. Watching this video that is meant to be a nightmare, it shows the girl I love falling in love with someone else, this didn't feel good at all.
5. Playing around with the panel on my PC tower then randomly a bald black guy sits up from under a white blanket and grabs my leg.

23:30 - two beers and go to bed. Can't sleep, because it's too warm in the room. I think I asleep at 00:15.

5:30 - wake up, record two fragments and one dream a go find my Alpha - GPC box. I take one pill 300mg. I go for breakfast, eat pork wrap, a piece of cake and two glasses of milk. I read advenced lucid dreaming and he recommend to take 1200mg alphaGPC dose.

6:30 - taking another three pills alpha - gpc and just lay on the bed.

7:30 - I'm sleepy and without energy, I sit up and try to do mild for 10 minutes. It's not focused mild and my vizualization is not good but at least something. Then I asleep.

8:30
LD Exploring the hole
I'm on the pond with my father. I see some guy bakes a lots of pastries. I go near to his cottage. He's washing his hands. I steal some bread rolls. Try to eat it. It tastes good. Me and my father see fishermans near by. We go there and I ask if they have a permission. No, they answer. We're fishing here for an year. I'm pissed that they are stealing my fish. One creepy guy is laghting at me and ask what should he do with the fresh catched fish? This can't be true!!! I tell to myself. I decide to do RC with my phone. First attempt the clock doesn't change but when I try it few times, it changes 20 minutes up. Oh great, I'm dreaming. I fly above the pond. I try to land on the water surface and I believe tak it's is kinda frozen, so I could water-walking. It works. I go to the meadow. I see to girls pass by, but I do not pay attention to them. I wanna try teleport to the wonderland! My plan is to summon big wardrobe like from narnia and use it like a teleportation device. Firstly I do stabilization technique - I rub against a tree. Then I try to summon wardrobe behind my back. When I turn around, I see it. It's wooden and it doesn't look like a wardrobe, but it has doors. I enter in. On the wall across the small room, there is a hole in the wall. I try to crawl in, but then it became to be too close for my body. I turn my head away and try to change it. I hear the sound of changing the hole. It wider now. It suddenly goes down to to earth. It's dirty, but it's not mud. I see a little light down there. I decided to slide down. When I'm sliding, I ask my self if I feel fear of small places and that immediately wakes me up. I try to deild but without any success.

10:00 - wake up and a few non lucid dreams recalled

3.16.14

Before 4am

DILD
I become lucid in front of my house in RD. I quickly look at my left hand and middle finger is longer and pinky is all croocked. Yeeey! I start flying just a bit higher then the houses are. In direction of the town. I go up and down a few time. Have good control of the flight. As I turn the corner towards the old store, I decide to land and walk instead. Nice controlled descent. Now I'm walking on a sidewalk on a warm sunny day, same as it was at the beginning of the ld. I like walking, but want to be able to walk a bit faster. So I look back at my feet and I see I'm barefooted in shorts. I summon springs on my feet. They are like a flat black metal sheet. It's magnetic and kinetic, and it's enough to touch the suface for it to launch you 2-3 feet into the air. Now I hop like a kangaroo.

It's been quite a while, since I've updated here, so there we go.

Date: 13 Feb

Pre bed: 3 mel

Wbtb: 1/3 latte

I have a non-ld at my grandma's, then another one at an unidentified place that resembles our old place, where I'm trying to ld while family members are walking around.

Mini-LD: I have a short ld that feels like a dream from scratch where I suddenly find myself in this dream scene. I examine myself in the mirror. Memory gap.

LD:Now I am at our old place and remember to do breathing exercises. This goes on for a while until the dream collapses.

LD: I'm on the street now facing this mexican looking DC, he seems quite lively and says something that's in line with what I was thinking/saying. This leads me to initially believe that he's a smart DC. I start a conversation with him, asking him about stuff of interest.

As I talk to the DC, I start noticing that the background kind of flickers (the light in the entire scene), it gradually becomes thicker with this additional layer of light. In the meantime, it seems there is nothing to be learned from this DC as he keeps on coming up with random words.

I start paying less attention to him, continue expressing my thoughts and desires. I pay more attention to what's going on, don't analyze the situation, just witness and feel this energy. The dream layer of energy and light becomes brighter and more dense, it's like I can feel the entire field of dense energy that is over everything and there's a slight hue towards the very light blue to it. It's somewhat pleasant but I totally get the feel and worry that the dream might be coming to an end, while this is happening.

I then recall my restaurant task and look around. The street is rather deserted, just warehouses and no restaurant nearby. The energy effect gradually diminishes as I concentrate on my task. I get the feeling that it might be difficult to change things in this dream, it seems realistically stable when I look at the warehouses, but then get an idea to think about McD. I think about finding a McD around and sure enough, I see the familiar M (or something close to it) over one of the places at the warehouse.

It's closed though, I can see that it's empty and the lights are off. But no problem, I instinctively cover the place with my hand and think about it being open and working/full of people. I move my hand away and it is! I head in its direction, happy about the summon. There are large pictures of burgers all over. But wait, do I really want to eat McD in a dream? I continue inside the store, which feels like some part of mall now. There's this undetermined place that kind of looks like a supermarket section or a convenience store, whatever, it is adjusting to my thoughts/expectations as I come closer.

In the end as I reach the shelves, wondering what to pick up to eat, it becomes a sushi place. I examine the food, wondering what my subcon will come up with, trying not to influence it too much. There's delicious looking sushi with red caviar and also another box that I can't recall in detail. I grab those two and head towards the cashier. Here, I want to play around some more.

There are two female DCs working there and a number of DCs queueing to pay. I go to the counter and expect to be immediately served. They direct their attention towards me and take the boxes, giving me a slight look of discontent. I feel like I don't have any money with me, but instead of summoning them, I decide it will be more fun to pretend that I am paying and everything is fine. This is exactly what what I do - after the old Chinese lady tells me the price, I make a movement to hand her some invisible banknotes which she takes and gives me back a receipt and semi-existing sort of change (a coin or so). She also hurts me a bit with her finger nail and gives me a somewhat angry look (as if she knows what I'm doing). I take the stuff and get ready to leave but the dream fades and I find myself in bed. I briefly wait to resume, but it doesn't immediately happen, and possibly better for journaling.

Hey, I won't say many details about this dream because I was going to write the entry a few days ago when it happened but a bunch came up and I came back today and it didn't auto save anything, so I'm not gonna write a detailed DJ, especially because I have several others I'd like to type up tonight that were much more interesting, but ironically not lucid.

Anyway, I dreamt I bought some soup at a Chinese restaurant and I had no money, so I ran off with it. I became lucid in the process and threw the soup aside. I then spawned in an orange Dodge Charger and get in it to drive. That's about all I remember.

Don't worry, much more interesting dream journals to come in the next hour or so.

Background: This was my very first lucid dream, pretty old dream around 2011-2012. well here's the story: I watched inception and I really became intrigued by dreams and what they are. I joked around about controlling dreams to my friends and family. I had this thought when I was a child but it got thrown out as a stupid thought by myself. Well I then searched up "dream control" on the internet. I got lucid dreaming as a suggestion. I didn't believe it at first. It felt like a far-fetched idea, but I was open minded to it. I learned a little about LD, but not too much. I thought I was "trying at the moment but I barely did anything". I didn't write down my dreams down. Even my first LD, I never wrote it down, but you never forget the first. I tried a little for a couple of weeks and nothing. I waited and kept trying for a month two then three months. I gave up around the fourth month. As I was laying down watching spongebob I fell asleep during the break.

Dream:I don't remember what made me lucid but I became lucid inside of a room. The dream was stable though. I thought about what I wanted to do for a long time which was naturally to fly. I never thought about limitation. I broke through the roof tops. I thought about flying fast like in the movies where they see the stars passing by them. I immediately escaped Earth's atmosphere. I passed the sun then the stars. I kept going. It became pitch dark. I said uhh uhh I am going all the way. I kept flying for some time in the VOID. I broke through the floor and ended up in my sister's room. I lost lucidity here. I walked around house for some reason in the dream. I woke up and realized that was only ten min of sleeping. I became excited because now I believe.

1/6/2014

LD #55 - Desperate for a BJ

Weird night sleep. I woke up at 3am and didn’t fall back to sleep until around 4 am. In my dream I am on some kind of college campus. There are building all around, it is winter and it is night. I realize I’m dreaming.

Spoiler for Sexual Content:

I start looking for a woman to give me a BJ. I find one woman sitting on a couch in one of the building. I walk over, lay down on the couch in front of her and gently pull her head down. She starts and it feels very good, but then I have a false awakening back outside on the campus. I still know I’m dreaming and go looking for another woman. I find one laying in her bad, in her dorm room. I get into bed with her and gently pull her head down. I have another false awakening. I go to another building. I find an older woman sitting in a chair. I stand in front of her and gently pull her head to me. She starts and it is feeling good.

My alarm goes off.

1/16/2013

LD # 54 HUGE Penis

So I woke up and used the bathroom at about 3:30am. I went back to bed worried I wouldn’t be able to fall back to sleep. Suddenly I find myself back in the bathroom and I’m naked.

Spoiler for Sexual Content:

I walk by the large mirror over the sink and to my pleasant surprise I have a huge erection. I actually say “Well Hello!!” out loud. It had to be over a foot long and as thick as my wrist. I look down at my huge penis and lean down to look at it. It is so big it reaches my face easily. I realize that this isn’t reality and without a RC I am lucid. I then do what, I believe, most men would do…I begin to perform phallacio on myself. As I’m doing this I glance at myself in the mirror and notice I have about 3 days worth of stubble on my face. I continue to perform on myself, and it feels very good, desperately trying to bring myself to orgasm..but I can’t seem to get there quick enough.

I then wake up.