non-lucid

I don't feel very aware in my dreams, which bugs me because instead of encountering something weird and going "Oh, maybe this is a dream," I just accept it. Guess I should practice my reality checks. Probably something like "what if this right now is a dream?" and then giving everything a good hard look would help. And also being like "wait maybe this is a dream" and doing a reality check every time something weird happens.

ANYWAY.

Dream: "It's Not the Actual Her"
Dreamed that various relatives had gathered for whatever reason, which was fine by me except that one of them was my recently dead Granny. She seemed to be acting pretty normal, so it wasn't as if the doll-looking thing that served as her corpse in the viewing had been cruelly reanimated. It really was like she'd somehow come back to life. And I was like, what, this is impossible (because I do have SOME dream awareness, I guess). I said as much to my sister, who scoffed and said that of course it wasn't the actual Granny. And then something like, "It's like if they made another one of you. It wouldn't be the actual you." So then I was thinking, what, like a clone? They grew a clone of Granny in that little time and now it's here? They could make a clone of me? And I was just, like, confused. But I didn't think it was a dream. FOOLISH ME

Then there was a bit about Granny being casually psychic her whole life and not wanting the ability to go to waste, so sometimes she'd inform us of stuff she knew. Like, okay, to describe it more fully, I was in some building, and when I looked out one of the windows I saw a younger Granny driving her car and boasting of her never-wrong ability to just know things, viewed from the perspective of the front seat. So I was like yo, cool, if she's 100% psychic then maybe I'm like, 25% psychic?

Then I was in the 1319 house and saw these two black cats outside in the rain, so I let one in (the other was still away from the door for some reason) and got a towel to dry it off with. And it was very well-mannered about this, snuggling into the towel to make things easier, and I was like yo this cat's pretty smart. But again, even though I got this mental ping like "that's weird" it didn't translate into a reality check. I needa practice these things IWL aaaaa.

Eventually I let the other cat in and toweled him off as well, and it was pretty vivid. So that was cool. Tryna dry off these cats. Man, they were really soaked.

I woke up and I was like ehhh I could use more dreams, maybe I could WILD? And then I just fell back asleep like normal so whoops.

Dream: Chillin' with the Bae
Then I dreamed the bae and I actually lived within walking distance of each other, which I then got totally confused with waking life. I was like, dude, we live so close to each other, how come we don't hang out like this all the time? So I was a little confused. Also I was going to college, and although we didn't really go to the same college we'd walk to class together. It was super nice tho. Bein' able to hang out with him.

Ugh I am too lazy to remember much more, but there was some part where I think the bae and I went to some kinda welcoming seminar to welcome me back to college, and it was pretty hella boring. Oh right, and then I met Mang0 the melee player which was rad. He was super chill.

I was in the woods behind a house where I used to live. A creature came out and told me to make my way to the red building. It was dark and I couldn't see and I had to make my way through the woods to the red building even though I didn't want to. I told the creature I didn't know how to get there. I couldn't see anything. Everything was black but I was instructed by the creature to continue moving. I had to push branches out of the way the whole time as my body seemed to be moving by a force out of my control.

I eventually made my way to a red tent. I was instructed by the creature to reach inside. I reached inside and found a key. Then I went underground, down some cement stairs, and through some underground tunnels until I was in an underground room under a hospital. In the small room with white walls there were some of my family members, both alive and dead ones, and some other people. The dead ones looked alive and as normal as the alive ones. The family and other people just hung out and talked and decided to meet again. I told my mom about the tunnel and we would go there and bring other members of the family down and show them how the people were still alive (although they were actually still dead and couldn't leave the white room) and they would be happy to see each other again. We planned to have a little party together and we were going to bring some food even though I think the dead people couldn't eat but some alive people were coming too.

A man in his twenties walks into a shed near my grandpa's trailer. In the shed, sitting on a couch, is a dead man with his head decapitated, sitting next to his body. He is one of the dead people who is still alive; he can move his head and body and think. He is evil. The first man has come to the dead man wanting to make some kind of bargain with the dead man. But after hearing the dead man's side of the bargain, the other man doesn't like it because he has to chop off his arm and give part of his soul or something and he tries to leave but the dead man is mad and invokes some kind of supernatural powers and the other man can't get out of the shed.

Then there are men are outside of my grandpa's trailer with guns. One of them is the man that tried to make the bargain with the dead man and the other is a man that was already in the shed with the dead man when the other man arrived. I am inside, along with a man and my grandpa. The man notices the men with guns and tries to figure out what to do. My grandpa is somewhere else and doesn't notice the men outside with guns. Then the door and part of the walls are made of glass and my grandpa is in front of it. My cat Kitty is outside the door scratching and trying to get in but I can't let her in. The men with the guns see my grandpa and are about to break in and shoot but then they become distracted.

In the front yard, the man who made the bargain with the dead man was attacked by the supernatural powers of the dead man (who was still in the shed). One of his arms was ripped off at the elbow and a leg ripped off at the knee. As if on an invisible, giant fishing pole, a black hoodie with white letters on it floated through the air and was presented by the dead man to him. The man was on the ground. He got an erection that broke through his jeans and started masturbating. People with colored animal masks showed up and started singing a happy song in the yard.

I recently had a dream where I was going blind, and everything went very watery. I asked for help but was being ignored. I later went with my family to go to a hotel. I ran into someone who supposedly was my friend, but he seemed very mad at me. I for some reason kept complimenting him and trying to make him feel good, but he kept finding reasons to get mad at me. as we we're walking, we ran into a police officer who had a quick conversation with us, but as we we're walking away, he stopped and told my "friend" very fearfully "what the f**k is in your hand?" I became very nervous and backed away, expecting him to open his hand holding a knife, but it was just a red pen cap, though the police officer looked shocked and seemed like it was a lot worse than a knife. right at that point I became blind again, but lost control. I looked up, and saw an extremely bright white light break through the ceiling, that had a bunch of random shapes and colors in it. As I was looking into the light, I lost touch with everything, almost as it was like I shouldn't have been looking into the light, but I was. I somehow knew that this light was "god". as I was looking into it, I felt like the light was looking at me in the eyes. everything started shaking, and the more I embraced it, the more everything shaked violently. I woke up left with a horrible feeling, which made me feel very bad for the rest of the day.

Bed @ 2245 - took a B multivitamin
Woke @ 0245

Transcription problems
I'm watching events, hearing a narrator describe them, and transcribing them. There's no 'me', yet I can feel the keyboard under my fingers. At first, I'm keeping up with the narrator completely. Now I'm having a lot of trouble keeping up. I'm only able to type a word here and there; it's taking me multiple seconds to type out each word. The narrator says "Saudi Arabia" and it takes me ages to figure out how to spell it. I start just typing random words he says, not even trying to capture complete sentences or key words - I'm just trying to get something, anything. Now I'm seeing lots of school buses driving around. My perspective is high enough that I can see their roofs and the words written there. I start 'cheating' by copying the words I can see so I don't have to process what I'm hearing. Each bus has words written in various different spots, each one in a different orientation. Finally, I tell one of the kids to pause the video; I just can't do this any more.


Missing hymnals
I'm in the sanctuary at church looking at the hymnals. I've realized that some rows only have a couple of them, and that's just not enough. I'm kind of confused that there seems to be a Psalter at every seat - I thought I remembered that we had enough hymnals for every seat but only enough Psalters for every other seat. Oh well, clearly I remembered incorrectly. I consider having my kids look around the church for the missing hymnals and then put them on rows that need them, or perhaps even redistribute them from rows that have enough, but then I figure that there must be someone tasked with doing something like that during the week - since every Sunday things are laid out well - and I don't want to do something that would mess them up even further. Now I see Alex one row over holding a hymnal.

Fragment: I'm in a fairly dark room. My mother-in-law has lined up half-gallon Mason jars along the counter. They're all filled with something syrupy.

BTB @ 0300
Woke @ 0600 (alarm)

Fragments:
I'm driving with my youngest daughter is in the passenger seat. We cross a small intersection in a city. It's dark.

I do a nose-pinch RC. A little air passes through, and I assume I didn't pinch right. I adjust my grip and try again, and I'm satisfied that I'm awake.

Early in the night (forgot to record the time) I'm pretty sure I succeeded at LD.. though the images in my dream weren't as clear and precise as I hoped for. How it started isn't very clear to me, but I was aware that I was in control, whether I was actually aware I was dreaming I'm not sure because I didn't actually RC. The first thing I thought of to create was a world that was a video game where I had to collect jewels... then when that was boring, could've been a couple seconds I thought of creating a scene where I was a kid playing in a room full of toys. After that I summoned a skunk (something I had decided I was going to do before hand because they have been a very prominent theme in my life lately). I meant to ask the skunk what it was teaching me... but I feel like I asked it something else entirely because it was showing my these furry, two dimensional tag things that were possibly shaped like animal heads... I think it was like a pick an animal to donate money to each month type of thing.. I thought of completing the other thing I wanted to do, which was summon my boyfriend into my dream, but it didn't work immediately and I woke up very soon after, like I ran out of dream.

The dream right before I woke up was the same sort of vibe, I'm pretty sure I was in control, but not aware that I was dreaming, which is disappointing because it was abut my ex boyfriend (who is supposed to be one of my dream queues). This is like the fourth night in a row I have dreamt of him... like I must summon him into my dreams all the time... some cycle I must be completing. I came out of this dream a couple of times and willed myself to fall back into it. I had no desire to change the scene though... except when I tried to convince my ex's brother that Aaron and I should be together; he would not change his stance on that.. toward the end a woman told me that she was learning so much being in the house with all of us (in the midst of all the drama). She pointed out some plants that were in the room, they looked like they were in pots, but I could see the roots clinging to the dirt. The roots looked moldy. Later in WL I made the association of over watering them...

I've decided to commit to dividing my dreams into sleep cycles since I can now remember my nREM dreams. I didn't really understand how people could recall so many dreams before, but now it makes sense. I think there was ~6 dreams last night that I could remember, I know there was another but I couldn't recall it since I didn't write anything down about it.

Sleep cycle 1
Dream 1 - Flat (03:34)
I woke up to my 2am alarm but I just let it ring for ages and fell asleep again without turning it off. After writing this into my DJ I decided to kick it for the rest of the night. I let myself rest a bit since I've been feeling sleepy during the day because of my night time drea journaling.
I'm in a block of university flats standing on the driveway, it's quite nice here. My friend Giles is renting one of the apartments and I end up moving next door. It seems to be night time when I do and I seem to get pretty ecstatic about moving here. I'm happy and I end up running back and forth moving things into my room. I think I might be prepping for a gaming binge. I look up and see through the window my mate Giles, he's looking at me with this funny look that makes me laugh a bit. I end up shutting the curtains and hunkering down for the game/TV spree.

Dream experience: 2 (pretty happy but not too vivid)
Dream awareness: 0 (No real awareness)

Sleep cycle (?)
Dream 1 - (?)
This dream was pretty damn sexually explicit soo I won't write any details. Pretty much just me and a girl having some fun, I remember a lot of it but I won't write it up ^_^.

Dream experience: 5 (for obvious reasons, and vivid)
Dream awareness: 1 (I had a moment where I realized that things seemed a little off, but I was too caught up in it to care)

Dream 2 - Dragons
This dream was so vivid.. Everything had a certain crispness to the detail. I was in a large glacial-eroded valley which looked very barren and was filled with craggy rocks on the flood plain. I think there was a river flowing through the middle of it though the area I was in was quite huge and I was a ways off from this stream. On either side of the valley were towering mountains, and behind me (kind of like the entrance to the valley) there was a large structure where everyone was hiding. We were hiding because... There was a powerful dragon around. This dragon was really ferocious looking, it had these craggy looking demonic spikes all over its body and a long neck which made me think it resembled a chinese dragon from the neck onwards. Previously we had managed to all run inside and escape, I believed that the dragon had gone now. I was standing outside, the weather was overcast but it looked so cool. *RROOOARRR* Oh shit... It's back? I look up left towards the mountain peak in the distance, but a different dragon swoops into view. Oh, wow... This really is not good. This dragon is a different colour and slightly different in size and shape, but it still has that insane, crisp, sharp detail to it. Its wings have a certain blue hue to the underside which seem to resonate a sort of magical power. The beast turns its gaze onto the valley, I start running hoping to make it back inside. There's a bunch of other creatures in the valley so I hope that the dragon won't spot me, it's already leapt into the air and started flying down lower. I get the feeling that it will spot me as it gets closer.. I'm too far from the safety zone, the dragon has spotted me and it's swooping up behind me gliding really fast. I stop and get as close to the ground as possible.

Darkness.

I open my eyes, I must have been knocked unconscious, what happened to me? I'm on a narrow path with two steep cliffs on either side of me, they're somewhat flattened. In front of me is a human shaped figure, but I know who it is. It's the dragon in human form. I have to follow him, he walks down the narrow path in majestic looking robes while I follow behind him.

Dream experience: 7 (really vivid, cool plot and generally just a cool theme)
Dream awareness: 2 (felt naturally aware, but not of the dream itself)

Dream 3 - DC talk
I think I woke up and fell back asleep, and this dream was a sort of 'continuation' with some massive differences. But the idea that I woke up in a strange place kind of remained and my mind told me that the dragon delivered me to this place.
I seemed to be in a huge casino building, and the higher the floor you were on the higher your supposed level of power. I think I see a small little cat, poor thing probably hasn't been fed enough, its ears are huge too. I walk forward and I know that I'm on a really high level but I shouldn't be here. I look at a card I'm holding and it says level 0 part 6. Geeze that's weak >_<. I decide it's best that I don't act suspicious, better play it cool for now. I walk around in the level I'm in,

There's beautiful women everywhere.. Hmm I should go talk to one, but they all seem so busy :/. I start getting the inkling of the fact that I'm dreaming, and as I'm walking I turn and see a man standing behind a bench, maybe he's a barman or something. He's a bit old and dressed rather impeccably. I realize I'm dreaming, I mean... Of course I'm dreaming? I just seems so obvious all of a sudden. I don't even need to RC since I feel like the dream is really stable too.
"Hey can you show me something" I say to the man, I seem to convey to him that I'm not from this level and I got here by accident. The realization of me dreaming kind of happened simultaneously to the thought of saying this, and I had another thought that I actually wanted to ask another question instead. Damn. Too late :/ I wanted to ask him to let me meet someone. I had the intention that I would talk to a different DC but in proper length and ask them lots of questions for my dream goal.
The man says a few things and I interact with him a bit, then I get ushered to the elevator by another man and they send me down level 0 part 6. Guh, I shouldn't have done that. I walk out into the new floor, looking around me I see that the women are pretty average. I really shouldn't have left that floor >_<. There's a bunch of people playing casinos, gambling is such a waste :/. I decide that there must be at least some pretty women to talk to. (For some reason I get the feeling the a pretty woman is the DC that will be able to answer my questions ). I wake up really abruptly, like I kind of just realized I was in my bed.

Dream experience: 4 (semi-vivid and lucid, glad I got to talk to a DC but overall pretty meh)
Dream awareness: 3-6 (at the same time I felt like I was highly lucid, I also felt like there wasn't a lot I could do about being lucid. I should have done a RC)

Sleep cycle 5 - (>07:00)
Dream 1 - Red car
I remember walking with my dad, we're talking about stuff but I can't remember what. We walk through a car park and it's a sunny day. We make it to his car, but it doesn't look like his car. It's a red hyundai rather than white, hmm that's strange.

Dream experience: 1 (we were just talking and walking to his car. meh)
Dream awareness: 2 (might have become lucid had I RC when I realized he had a different car)

Dream 2 - Car park
I seem to be in the car park of the casino building I was in earlier in the night. I'm with my dad and we're heading to get the car (like a prequel story to the last dream or something). On the way we're near the exit of the car park area (our car was in a different car park) and we see a couple of girls that are advertising the casino place. There's a crowd around them and there's an overseer who's making sure they're doing their job. That's screwed up, they're in such skimpy outfits, they must be freezing. They huddle together and shiver as if to emphasize this thought. Me and my dad step up and try to help them out, we're like protesters or something.

Dream experience: 4 (seemed pretty emotional and vivid)
Dream awareness: 1 (not very high awareness)

Dream: ???
Whatever occurred in my dreams last night was so abstract and unmemorable that it translated to a big foggy mess this morning, so I have almost nothing to contribute to my dream journal at this time. However, I do remember some fragments.

Something about me making things for some girl.
My sister getting freaked out by a spider and pointing it out to me, and me getting really close to it and recognizing what kind it was (for the record, the type was a sort of small, spiny spider that had a tendency to tuck its legs in very close to its body and hold very still, which are some attributes that real spiders have but not necessarily combined like that).

Better luck next time, me.

I arrived at the mechanic in a big rig truck with a trailer on it. (My car was also parked next to the truck for some reason). On my cell phone I called the mechanic office from the truck. The woman answered the phone asking what I need help with. I began to try to tell her but I hesitated, stuttered, and faltered (I was thinking that the penis of the truck needed to be cleaned as I imagined a metal penis sticking out of the truck but I knew that wasn't the technical terminology for it so I was embarrassed and didn't know what to say); then the woman said something like "Hold on a minute." She had a call on the other line from someone who was staying in a hotel room above the mechanic office (because it was a hotel/mechanic combination). Then I could hear the conversation on the other line. The man on the other line said something like "She's razin the kids!" (Then I could see what was going on as if I were there) The office woman looked concerned as she ran up the stairs and opened the hotel room door. I didn't know what was going on so I guessed someone was up there cutting kids with a razor blade.

I thought about just leaving but I didn't know how to get the truck back out of the parking space. I called my boyfriend to ask him what needed to be fixed on the truck. As I was making the call my boyfriend arrived. There were men directing a small line of cars to where to park since the truck was taking up so much space. My boyfriend got out of the car and I walked over to him and said "What did you say needed to be fixed on the truck?" He said the (something) joint needed to be fixed. (I can't remember exactly what he said).

I began to wonder why I was the one driving the truck, why my boyfriend wanted me to bring the truck to this little mechanic instead of having the truck company come out and do the repairs. Then everything was starting to not make much sense because neither me nor my boyfriend drive a big rig truck. I should have realized I was dreaming but I just woke up.

In the dream before that one I was at a job interview applying for some kind of public heath job. The employer gave me a folder with a lot of papers in it about the job, which made me feel confident that I might get the job. Then he told me that a lot of women have went insane doing this job. That was discouraging but I decided to try to act like I didn't care and tried to act like I knew what I was talking about and that I could handle it because I really needed the job.

The next thing I know I am sitting uncomfortably close to the employer on a couch as he is trying to bring up job training videos on his tablet. Then I notice his daughter is on the other side of him with her head on his shoulder and it is all just weird.

For the next dream I can only recall pieces. I am at my parent's house (I think) on my laptop trying to do something and the computer keeps getting stuck on a scam search engine page. So I just close the laptop and open up my other laptop and it gets stuck on a scam search engine page too so I close it and stack the laptops on top of each other because I don't want anyone to see the scam search engine pages.

Then I am sitting in a small stadium type of place with my nieces and some of their little kid friends. One girl asks me if I knew this certain guy from high school and I was embarrassed because I didn't want people to hear and I just said that I am too young to know him from high school because he is way older than me.

I was in a room. I was going to meet some PK friends outside.

I went to the bathroom. I needed to take a dump. The stall is small and there were already some trash in the toilet but I had no choice. I worried that I might not have some toilet paper too. Somehow, I got some. When I was done, I left but not sure how to flush it along with the trash. I went out the stall to fix some stuff in my backpack when a maintenance guy, or more like a part-time student-worker, passed by and complained who left the toilet unflushed. I owned up to it although at first I had second thoughts. The guy wasn't mad, and I felt he was actually grateful that I owned up rather than deny it.

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Notes:

- I kept thinking about owning up a problem at work. I was the bottleneck. This thought came up for days, a week even.
- I had a nice feeling when I woke up.

Had a really miserable sleep. Went to bed around midnight again, woke up around 5 I would guess to go to the toilet. Spend 2 hours mostly awake, before getting some real sleep. At one point I nearly WILDED, but I either woke up again or didn't become lucid. I remember a distinct feeling though.

Fragments
» I know I had a dream early on in the night, but I can't recall what happened.

» I'm with my girlfriend in the living room in my mom's house. My girlfriend is doing her best to make me happy

» I'm in my room in my student home. The door is open and I close it. The door opens again. I blame it on someone opening it and I'm annoyed by it. This time the door opens to the other side though, as if the hinges are on the left instead of on the right. I consider this strange and tell myself that I should probably RC, but I think I don't do it.

I'm pretty sure there was another dream, but I forgot what it was.

I have been having a lot of nightmares, in particular, of people chasing me. One night, I had a dream where these people were chasing me and my friends and were killing them (and eating their insides). Later in my dream, the killers began being nice to my friends, and my friends insisted on us hanging out with them. However, I of course was worried because I thought they would start killing again. We ended up going to a festival where we were on a ferris wheel. That is when I saw my EX (who really hurt me and I still care about though in real life) at the festival walking. He has a scab on his head. I then pretty much woke up.

Another night I was just being chased by a person who was trying to kill me.

Lastly, last night it was the devil chasing me (I am not a religious person, kind of spiritual but not religious). He would come up at night when I was sleeping (in my dreams of course). The more comforters I had over my mattress the harder it was for him. Also, I remember in my dreaming thinking about a real life experience. (Real life time: I went to the gas station where a man asked to pray for me, and he began to pray and then told me to say Lord Jesus, I politely said I do not wish to). So in my dream, I remembered that waking life experience and I was saying in my dream "I should have said it when I saw the man at the gas station and would say Lord Jesus!" in my dreams, in hopes I would be saved and the devil would stop chasing me.

Any interpreters/interpretations about the dreams I have been having lately?

Sleep cycle 1 - Classical music (02:02)
-A classical music performance, I haven't heard one for years (supposedly) and now in this large hall I could. The song part of the dream I don't recall as it was 'fastforwarded' through by the dream. I'm in the corridor afterwards talking with some people about it, did I play? I feel like I had some involvement somehow. Then I think I remember leaving in a car (as a passenger) on the motorway. I was still thinking heavily about the music event though.

Dream experience: 2 (quite early in the night)
Dream awareness: 0

This dream probably occurred after I started watching a new anime about classical music >_<

Sleep cycle 2 - Rigid cooking (04:38)
This dream was influenced by the classical anime and a romcom anime I had been watching.

-I had taught a couple girls how to cook and they had a very free-style attitude to cooking. My own style was rigid, by-the-book (or recipe) and I struggled to make a dish that was truly my own inspiration (not true IRL I think). We're in an after school cooking club and the teacher has told us to cook something, but I have to cook it for the 2 girls. I'm supposed to be really good at cooking but I have a weird mix of emotions, like I'm actually bad at it?.. The room is lit by the dying light of the setting sun, geeze someone turn the light on :/. As I'm cooking the teacher says there isn't the usual 'flare' in cooking that she sees when watching the 2 girls cook.. 'tsk' I know, I'm going by-the-book. I give the food a taste, why isn't the ginger flavour strong enough? The girls make it better, I know they would just add more ginger but my rigid style compels me not to. In the end I think I manage to break the barrier and go more free-style, adding flavours as I see them necessary.

Dream experience: 3 (meh, it wasn't that good or vivid)
Dream awareness: 0 (I wasn't particularly aware in any sense)

Dream fragment - there's a coast with the ocean, something about a house?

-I'm by a fence on the grass, there's a couple people on the other side who I'm talking to. In front of me is also a cute old cat, it looks so gentle. We get interrupted by an evil person who is standing like 20-30m away on a nearby road. I can't remember too clearly why we knew he was evil. He ended up sending his ginger cat to attack our cat, I intervene though and end up killing the ginger cat. I think I also accidentally hurt our cat... I look at that cute old cat and it's quite vivid. He's a fluffy tabby cat with a funny looking face. He's slumped down with his head bend back slightly too far.. Poor thing, I think I may have uppercut him or something. He looks at me with kind eyes and a nice smile, seeming to forgive me and thank me for trying to protect him. I feel guilty about killing the other cat though, I need to get rid of the body anyways... I run up the road in search for a bin to dispose of it into. O_O.

Dream experience: 4 (emotional about cats apparently)
Dream awareness: 1 (rising awareness from the cat I hurt)

Sleep cycle 3 - Escape (06:00)
-Earlier in this story it seems like I was trying to help someone escape and had made several preparations to help. I made a potion with the help of a witch, which would turn the consumer into a bat so they could fly away. The place we're at is like a TV set for producing a show, and I think one of the directors plays a prank on someone. The prank is that he shoots a spear at someone which impales them, I'm not sure how it was meant to be funny because the person died via being impaled by that spear -_-. They director starts acting to reduce the impact this has on everyone, I follow in spectator mode as he walks down a hallway and into a room and tells the ?? family that they should delete their contract with the show to protect their reputation.
Now I'm in a breakfast dining hall, there's a bunch of food on plates and some people milling around. They're hungry and have just woken up and the room is only getting more and more crowded. I can see the person I'm trying to free, I think it's a girl (or a guy with long hair). I think I might be Linley Baruch (the main character from the book I'm reading) and I can hear people whispering about the person I'm trying to free. Apparently it's her fault.. We have to escape now or the police will take her away before we get the chance to escape, so we have to improvise. I give the potion to him (she is now a he for some reason) and he starts to ascend, floating into the air. There's mist around him and he begins to fade while emitting a beautiful kind of glow. Everyone looks up and sees him floating, and they think he has been chosen by god or some bs, which helps as an excuse to cover our escape. I am spectating now, I see Linley (who I was) crouch down out of sight into a meditative position in order to chant the words to a flying spell (he seems to be level 7 or 8 as a magus about now). The camera is panning upwards following the ascent of the glowing guy who is fading more and more. I kind of feel like I'm watching anime. Linley finishes his spell and shoots up, flying back into the LOS and floating next to the glowing guy who slowly finishes his transformation by turning into a small bat which is almost invisible because he's nearly completely see-through. I know that the audience won't be able to see him but I can. I'm closer now, maybe I'm Linley again? We start our escape, there's 2 routes we can take, one which is a long route through the tunnels (to the left) but we go to the right which leads straight to the exit. Wow, that was easy. If we had taken the left route it would have taken us 5 minutes to reach the same exit, that would have been dumb. We fly outside and shoot off to the North and I see Linley and the bat disappear into the distance. Another group of about 4 follows after, flying in the same direction. It was their friends, one of them I remember was a badass looking cat warrior dude. A second group flies out a moment later with several in the party (also friends apparently). 3 of them look kind of cartoonish like something from a manga, 1 is a cat, another is a smaller cat, and 1 is a ghost. They all fly off into the same direction as Linley.

Dream experience: 4 (pretty cool)
Dream awareness: 1 (changing perspectives was a pain and didn't help awareness)

Sleep cycle 4 - Epic (07:46)
-I remember now that earlier I was a wanted man, and that me and some friends had washed up on foreign shores on a sunny day. There was more to this dream but I can only remember from a certain point. Me and some friends (I don't recognize them) had just ran out of the bushes into a township (modern but somehow quite old looking) and we were talking. Previously we had been keeping it down in front of a house because we thought there was a saint level beast under it (saint is a high level of power in the book I'm reading). Luckily it was only a bear that jumped out so I'm a little relieved, I think it chased us a little but the commotion caused too much noise and an actual saint level beast popped up from the bushes of a nearby house. "Oh shit!" was everyone's reaction, even the bear. The bear was the first to die since it was a loudest, having its head decapitated immediately. Me and my friends were sprinting away, I jump into a side room area which is pretty small and me and a woman tuck away in the corner. She comes onto me a bit "uhh no thanks" (she's old and pretty overweight..) and I tell her that now is really not the time. We peek out the window and see everyone running around. I think the woman I was with is now a massive muscly dude and I see the bear sprinting towards us. It must have seen the big guy and wants to fight him first. The saint creature (it kind of looks like a bear with a more horrific, rounder furry head without bear ears) jumps into the room and dives over the muscly guy which really confuses me. Why not kill him? Oh... He's after ME. I dive out of the room and into the street, this isn't good. The saint beast (once an animal reaches saint level they can talk) says to me that I have the white dragon blood in me and is trying to kill me to learn about it. Argh god damn it.. we jump around and everything is in slowmo, he hasn't killed me yet though? Is he not saint level? I wonder about this, it can talk but it doesn't have the power of someone who should be saint level it seems. I somehow get the attention of my friends (about 3 of them) and one of them is Matt. I remember earlier we had gone into one of his minecraft tunnels to escape, and we see the entrance not far away. The problem is that we've already used it and can't use it again. We run there anyway, Matt has a secret surprise it seems. The saint level beast isn't even in sight, how the hell did we lose it? It should be close though. Matt pulls a lever, the ground drops beneath us suddenly. Whoa. Good ol' Matt, this is awesome. we plummet down to the depth onto separate rail paths. I can't properly describe what happened next, but it was genius. I was shooting forward so fast on this rail line, then I shot up on a jump and leapt onto a dingy boat that was propelled across the ground. There were draugr around (from Skyrim) but the boat shot past, "HAH!" they can't get me, it's so exciting. There's all these crazy innovative tricks that Matt has put into the track, the last carriage transition is when my boat stops at the edge and I had to jump off a cliff. At the bottom was another dingy boat in some water but it was quite small and there were lots of draugr in the water. I jump off and when I land on the small dingy it propels forward, it's not big enough and my feet are hanging over the edge. The draugr all start charging at me and I try kicking in the water to speed my self up. Hands start wrapping around my legs, they've reached me and are pulling at me.. I kick a couple of them off and use my hands to pull the last few off of me. I jump on to a wooden beam that stands out of the water, maybe this is what I'm supposed to do? Like an obstacle course, I jumped from one wooden beam to the next avoiding all the zombies. Ahead of me were people, this was the entrance into a movie? I leap onto the edge that a few people are gathered on. My friend Lajja sees me but she's soaking wet, I don't ask why because I feel like it has something to do with the draugr water behind me. She leads me out and down a hallway, she has incredibly short shorts on for some reason, I purposely pretend not to notice as I know I'm in another predicament (I get the feeling that I may be discovered by the lawful pursuers). "You have no idea what kind of crazy adventure I've just had!" I say excitedly, I'm still mindblown by that ride. Down this hallway is a huge line of people but the hall it self is quite narrow (only space for two people side by side). We walk down the hall for a bit but something catches my eye on the bookshelf which is also apparently in the hallway. It's like it's now also a library, so many books! I see 2 specific books which detail an adventure about a group that wash up on a foreign shore.. Is that, me? I get the feeling the book details my adventure, but it only just happened? I think that it's a magic book. Lajja sees I'm not following her and comes back to get me before we continue on.

Dream experience: 10 (I can't imagine any other dream that I've had which is better than this one, maybe some on par so it's 10/10)
Dream awareness: 2 (not quite lucid but glad I'm it wasn't)

Everything I dreamt about literally combined so much from my day yesterday, it's pretty awesome.

7/12/15
1: I was at a large building, sort of like a cross between a hotel and a town hall. I went up a flight of stairs and opened a door on my right. Inside the room was 3 girls and a guy. To of the girls and the guy were busy, so other said "I guess it is my turn with you", pulled me aside and we got it on.

- A fragment about me and my mum standing outside a tent in the countryside.

- A fragment about talking about soccer with some people at school.

2: A dream about me playing some weird cross between basketball and snakes and ladders at school. We were split up into two teams, where we competed both in snakes and ladders and basketball, however the basketball itself was just like a scrunched up bit of paper. The game was very close for the majority of the time, however I shot a surprise 3 pointer to win the game. Everyone was cheering, and afterwoods at home I made my own snakes and ladders board so I could practice more.

No lucidity but my dreams had some nice detail to them. Maybe I underestimate how vivid they already are?

Dream: AAAHHHH DREAMSIGNS
So my dreams weren't entirely interesting except for stuff like this:

My boyfriend and I were riding around on the Metro and he told me about how he'd once been sent to some kinda adolescent jail for stealing a handgun with a little bayonet on it (Borderlands 2!). There, they put him in cryosleep for a few months. In the dream I'd just learned about prison cryosleep, so I knew it involved the person being layered in some strange fluffy white substance by a big machine, sorta like a giant 3D printer, and then idk they cryoslept. So then I was seeing this happening to my boyfriend and I was like... bummer. But it really seems like something that would happen to him, I mean not the part where he stole something but the part where as usual bad things are happening to him so points to my dream for being realistic.

Then there was some Metro riding and at one point for whatever reason we got separated and then we reunited and it was great because reuniting with him is the best #longdistancerelationship.

Then I rode trains with my sister and it was pretty chill, except that I didn't really have a working Metro card so I kept having to try to dive through when my sister would swipe HER card and it worked out pretty well. Like, sometimes the Metro peeps would notice and sometimes they wouldn't, but either way they let me get away with it. But what sucked was that "doing things I shouldn't be doing" is a dreamsign for me, like, I should've been thinking "maybe it doesn't matter, is this a dream?" And like, I gotta practice having that reaction to things. In real life. I gotta be like, well, normally I wouldn't be able to steal this car and go for a joyride, but... is this a dream? And then do a reality check. Oh man I love that idea it's so stupid.

Then a Metro lady approached me while I was looking at the Metro map and talked all about what working at Metro was like and p much offered me a job on the spot because she liked me so much and THANKS BRAIN BUT WE'RE NOT WORRYING ABOUT THE JOBHUNT RIGHT NOW SO SHUT UP.

And then outside my sister and I met up with my mom and I found a baby squirrel on the ground and just snatched it right up like YUP I'LL BE TAKING THIS. Then it tried to bite me and I waited to see whether that would hurt but it turned out the baby squirrel had no teeth! Its dumb gummy face just slid right off my finger and I was like "This baby squirrel has no teeth!" 'cause I was so excited about being able to hold this thing without getting covered in bites. Grabbing up small harmless animals is another dreamsign so I need to remember to start doing reality checks when I'm snatching baby animals away from their homes and stuff. Ugh, so much work.

12.7.15

Slept through night, since I was off. Going to work tonight.

I'm at work, sitting somewhere on some boxes, having lunch, holding a bottle of beer in my hand. I realize it and trying to figure out why I don't do this more often. Then I realize I'm at work : P So I rush to hide it and I put it on a shopping cart full of crap.

I go upstairs and there are cubicles like on The West Wing. Lots of glass walls and doors. There is a former classmate there and we decide to do it. He goes to get ready to he bathroom while I start locking doors and closing shutters. One door is toally off the hinge so can't close it and there is lots of foot traffic. I know it's proly not gonna happen.