non-lucid

I was in a subterranean area that resembled a water ride from an amusement park, then I was outside and as though I were playing Minecraft I went into someone's "One-block-column" tower that they had been building and I mined some blocks above and then put some blocks below me several times while other "Players" (Note that in Minecraft there is a fan-made modification to the game that turns the player models into Ponies like from MLP: FIM) were below me (Not in the very next space as I still had something to stand on) and the other people were doing the same thing until I got to a certain point where it looked as though I lit a beacon that said "I am the Milkman. My milk is delicious." to a lot of people in the area and someone thought he wasn't going to some nearer because he didn't want to come closer to that craziness; it was like a beacon and it reminds me of a particular reply on Youtube that I made to someone who said something very stupid in a MLP: FIM video.

23:59 pre-bedtime visualizations intentions
12:12 bedtime

03:13 no recall

several small position change wakings, was on stomach at a few points

04:44 recall, WBTB drink cup of milk eat small piece of bread

+ driving car on streets going through confusing traffic lights, cities on the river, drive to store, packets of BBQ sauce, fireworks at house

In a car driving on streets in traffic. Several times approach traffic lights, and the lights turn off. Does a turned off light mean you can go or you have to stop? Second time this happens I see traffic going? I decide to go, turning left street bends to the left, choosing which lane to go into, 2nd from left?

Thinking about/telling about cities along the river, how one city is between other cities along the river.

I drive to a store and pull up and stop, get out go in I'm delivering a bunch of packets of BBQ sauce. I pull the packets out of my pocket and one bursts and stains the lower right portion of my shirt, I head to the bathroom to wash up (I taste the sauce?). A girl is talking about how she wants to construct the drink cooling apparatus, a medium sized machine that they will fill with cooling stuff including a bunch of tomatoes which will keep things cold? I don't think the tomatoes will work.

I arrive at a house on suburban street I've brought stuff for a party including packs of fireworks (like sparkler sticks) in bags, standing on street next to driveway of party house, a friend takes one and sets it off: he spins around in a circle several times and sets off the firework while spinning, and the firework maintains the spin and corkscrews up into the sky and explodes, I think it's interesting how it maintained the spin. Another friend takes one and sets it off, it doesn't go high, it forms a short word that floats around a circle from the party house driveway to the house across the street and almost hits the garage door of the other house. Friend disappointed in this but I say no it was really cool. Another friend grabs a firework and sets it off, I say "OK, do I have to go hide these in the house?" (it's not time for them yet). I then discover packets of BBQ sauce in my pants will, I've forgotten to deliver them I'll have to return, somebody (wife?) asks if I really have to.


04:53 BTB

Long long long back to sleep. 1.5-2 hours easily probably. Did "relaxing SSILD" for a while, including long cycles. Takes a while for my mind to settle down but eventually start to get the drowsy feeling. Almost got up but felt the beginnings of sleepiness so stayed with it. What worked at last was total letting go on every exhale both physical and mental. Fair bit of almost dream-like (people) HI.

09:24

+ (f) bed mother pee, friend DD

+ nuns(?) are fixing poop plumbing something's clogged

They (women, nuns?) want to try opening up the poop plumbing to see if it's fixed, I really don't want to do that since I do not see a shutoff valve and the pipes are all disconnected still so if I turn it on a bunch of poop is going to come out. They're pouring water into one of the intermediate holes and it's flowing out from the hole right next to it, I think that means it's still clogged somewhere

+ DO woman walking outside drunk guys bothering her, giant comes to defend her pushes them away; talking to man & woman man funny head/nose, talking about literature?; leaving room and return a table is in front of the door

I'm flying DO about 20 feet up over the scene looking down, several obviously drunk guys are following and bothering a woman, then there's a male giant there who bats them away from her.

Talking to some guy and a girl, his head has a ridge along the center top like a Klingon, I say something about this and he presses the ridge down and it vanishes but his nose simultaneously grows very large: it must be either one or the other. Discussing something about literature I say something (forgot).

I leave a room, do something, then return, I see that upon my return a fairly large table has been placed in front of the door, I think this is a good way to keep people from entering. I'm inside the door looking out and notice there is a little path in between the door and the wall.

+ our group walking to convenience stood want microwave burrito people have cake, friend EMW runs store, wait for refund, EMW piano keyboard behind counter, plays riff from concert piece

Our group is heading to the convenience store for snacks, walking in twilight coming around a path bending to the right, others are already returning, they're carrying plates of cake, 1-2 thin rectangular small slices of cake lying sideways on a dinner plate. I think I want something more substantial like a microwave burrito. Approaching store I see someone slicing cake and handing it to someone. Enter the store, this is my friend from boy scouts EMW's store (false memory)! He's sitting behind the counter to the left. He told me (false memory) that the first time in his store he would get me stuff for free! I keep waiting for him to offer to give me free things but he never does. I think it's because I'm here with a group. Our total is around $5. I see he's sitting at a piano keyboard as part of the counter, and recall (false memory) he's a great pianist, and ask him to play a section from his recent competition piece, and he quickly plays a fast run with a strong chord at the end and I think it sounds great.

+ class discussion friends driveway blueberry plant CS question, RB wife can't solve, I give speech about learning new things

Standing in a driveway unknown location outdoors daylight, a bunch of people are there it's a class of some sort. I'm standing on the edge of the driveway at the street on the right-side facing the house. Boy scout friend RB is there in front of me. The subject of discussion are the computer science properties of a potted blueberry plant. RB's wife (to RB's right) seems confused and doesn't know the answer, I know it has to do with constants. RB says "hey that's her, not me" he doesn't want to be blamed for her not knowing. I take the potted plant in my hands and look at it, it is lovely with green leaves and purple flowers? There are about 20 little shoots of the plant growing out of the pot. I feel sorry for RB's wife and show the plant to her and say "at least you can appreciate the beautify of the plant" trying to make her feel better. Then I make a long speech about how "those of us who have been working in CS and reading for 5, 10, 20, 40 years know all of these examples instinctively without having to think. If I were to take up a subject new to me, like particle physics, I wouldn't know the axioms of the subject, the compound and the …(can't think of word for fundamentals) atomic principles of the subject, they would be new to me". The teacher nods his head and says "good job, <my name>"

I was walking on the street. Or waiting for a bus. Or someone is waiting for a bus at night. It was dark. The waiting shed. Bruno is waiting for the bus or a car. A car light shone on him as a couple of foreigner show concern about him being there alone.

I was watching some sort of zombie movie. There was a bus careening down the street without the driver. The zombie somehow became much more muscled and was clinging on the back of the bus. The guy inside has super strength despite being of a smaller frame than the steroid zombie. He punched through the "door" at the back of the bus, ripping apart the oversized arms of the zombie in the process.

I was in a mall. I was a guard? I was carrying some stuff from outside (not within my view as I can only see inside the mall) helping some people. I saw a toddler walk inside and was concerned that she's alone. I "heard" the "word" that meant "being with" and "a couple" (two people, not romantically. I think). I saw her stop near a small set of wide stairs (just two steps up). She walked toward the right (looking from "outside" the mall).

I was in Rob's place. I was talking to with Rob about something, and he said a word or some words that are inappropriate around kids. Sarah was there as well. Forgot what we were talking about. Rob was sitting down, Sarah was standing up. The kids were moving about.

The dream started at a small town similar to the Team Fortress 2 map "2fort". A male character did some (four) good deeds there and thought of going to a bigger place to do more good deeds, and he went on a path. At some point I saw some cartoon-like character who looked like a plump, olive-green skinned and more expensively dressed guy who had some companion that may have been a dog and who was in a room with books underground.

The man who did good deeds went past a scarecrow character (Note: I saw the scarecrow much later. More on that in a bit.) and the next part I recall the most of is seeing a very wide plane of green land with a factory on it. Someone was wondering what was inside the tall factory, and I later saw inside it: Somehow, the factory was being sabotaged. I saw one case of sabotage and then later, I saw another: Inside a room some equipment was damaged and somehow either the machines were used for honey or they were damaged by bees; I saw some (but few) bees flying around in the room once the people inside the room (I think) tried to use the machines.

Later I saw someone going back towards the place where the town mentioned earlier was located. He got close to a scarecrow.

Later, I saw a witch touch a character who was walking out the door with her mouth and then I saw another character touch the witch and promptly turn into the same plump olive-green skinned character I mentioned earlier, only he wasn't himself. The same character then said he was reading ridiculous books and this part is a bit sketchy: I'm not sure if he was just talking about one book or more than one but he said something like "like about Polygamy?" and I consciously didn't even know the definition of that word when I had this dream, to my recollection.

I posthumously figured that the witch was turning the employees under her witchcraft to sabotage the factory's machines, though I didn't really directly see it.

I feel like my recall improved slightly here but it was still pretty vague. Hopefully it should improve some more before the Sensei's competition begins. I'm really looking forward to the competition as it should hopefully help me become more excited and motivated to have my second LD and hopefully complete some basic tasks. I also have gotten a new, more comfortable matress to replace my old one which was roughly 30 years old. That should help me sleep more comfortably at night so I'm able WBTB more efficiently. Apart from that, nothing else has really been happening so onto the dream!

Non-Lucid
Questioning
Lucid

I'm in the car with my mother, she's driving me to school and we're chatting about something which I can't recall. We arrive and I get out of the car and make my way towards the gate. I'm suddenly in a bus and I sit down next a spare seat and just look at some people talking. I'm then put in an extremaly healthy, green looking field with a cream gravel path curving around ahead. I vaguely remember looking out over the field and seeing some mountains in the distance, it was beautiful. I start walking with M and we are talking about plans for some sort of event that was going to happen. After a small amount of time I realise a small group of about 5 of us have been sepearted from the rest of the class. We all follow the track for a while and we come to an edge. We all sit a couple meters away from it without looking over the edge. M tells me to jump and see whats behind it. I agree with him for no apparent reason. I run towards the edge and jump, to my surprise it's a campsite and the rest of the class is there. I land with a roll and sit down on one of the folding chairs that they have set up. I'm given a container with some stuff in it and I'm told to set up. If find M walking into the camp and ask him where to sit, he tells me theres only one to choose and I see that's the one I was sitting at earlier. The dream fades here.

There have been a couple of beautiful landscapes that I've encountered, not sure why but it's a welcome occurence. Once again, just aiming to improve recall and vividness of my dreams before I become lucid. I'm just happy to dream, I find it really fun regardless if it's lucid or not.

- Have my second LD.
- Have a conversation with a DC.
- Fly.

Someone I was traveling with has been possessed and physically transformed by the thing possessing them. I'd left them alone in the motel room where I thought they'd be safe while me and the other person we're traveling with, a young woman, were out.

I can see a woman I think of as Morgana watching us through the mirror - she's very beautiful, but thin to the point of starved, hunching over, tangled hair, filthy. The girl I'm traveling with immediately assumes the possession is Morgana's work. I'm not surprised she thinks that - from the little she's seen of Morgana, it would make sense for her to think we're enemies. But I can see what caused this, and it's not Morgana. One of the markings I put in place around the room to keep the kid safe has been destroyed. It must have happened when the girl fell earlier. This is my fault - I'd tried to protect her by keeping her ignorant of the details. If I'd explained things to her, she would have known the significance of that marking. Morgana's never been my enemy, not really; she's here to help - but I don't want her variety of help.

I'm arguing with Morgana over which one of us is going to handle this. Her voice is harsh, raw - partially from the situation and the tone she's using, but I also have the impression she just doesn't use her voice very often. She's just pointed out - correctly - that if the creature comes into direct contact with me, the corrupting effect I'd have on it would likely just make things worse. I'm saying, "I don't know what I'll do to it, but you don't know what it'll do to you." She takes corruption into herself, sealing it away and making it safe for everyone except herself. That's why she's communicating through the mirror instead of here in the flesh - she arranged to have herself sealed away a long time ago. She's been altered so much already, I don't want to see her do this again.

In response, she says, "I know I betrayed you. I'll prove to you I'm useful. Prove to me-"

I'm in a pub talking to a dude about the same age as me. At one point he says to me "he's gonna get assaulted" referring to the older guy sitting beside him, who doesn't hear. I'm like "umm.. Ok..." - I don't know why he's threatening to assault the older guy. Then the young dude, who I notice has tanned skin, walks away. I start talking to the older dude - I notice he has an English accent. We talk for a while and I start getting fed up listening to him... Then the young dude appears behind him and elbows the old dude in the back of the head!

My friends and I decide now would probably be a good time to leave the pub... I walk past the young guy on the way out and fist-pump him to pretend I don't have a problem with what he just did (as I don't want to be assaulted as well...)

Then I'm rollerskating away from the pub and it's a sunny day.

At some point during this dream, after the assult, maybe even after the rollerskating, the young dude got ridiculed for being an asshole.

[This dream brings to light a problem I feel I have which could be turned into a virtuous quality: when such matters as what happened in the pub happen in real life, I don't tend to say anything about it or proactively respond to prevent harm to anyone. This is clearly a subconcious act of self-preservation, but it makes me feel there are times where I should speak up...]

Me, my parents, and one of my friends where in a car driving to ABR(a cross-country ski place). The road was snowy had really steep hills. One of the hills was so steep that our civic could barely get up it without slipping backwards down. When we reached the top, the car lost control and we went off the side. We were a lot higher up than I thought, the drop was abut the height of the tallest building on earth. My parents somehow separated from us during the fall and landed safely, but me and my friend kept falling. I was so scared that I closed my eyes. When I opened them, I was standing in a winter wonderland outside of a small house. That's when I met Jesus. He had a kind face and looked just like you think he'd look except his hair was a bit lighter and shorter. Unfortunately, I don't remember what he said to me(and I don't think it was that important), but he was really nice. I figured out that the place we were in wasn't Heaven, but a type of limbo that we would stay with Jesus in for awhile before making our way to Heaven. I wondered if he was going to tell us stories of his adventures on earth, or what we would do with all this time. I did not want to be there. I had other things to do on earth. Me and my friend sat by the stream, and cried, and cried.. until my tears filled up and the stream became a river, and soon big waves came.. My friend was unharmed by the waves, but they washed over me and carried me away. To where, I do not remember.

First dream

I saw myself from the top down view. It was in the grassland plains, some trees could be spotted in the distance. I was hatily entering a tank with some soldiers. We tried to escape from the onslaught, but they shot us down. Next I saw it again, this time however we escaped, smashing some trees down on the way. We tried to drive through the mountain road, but an avalanche stopped us. When it came down on us, I saw everything from my perspective again. I couldn't move, and felt the weight of snow lying on me. I had troubles with breathing. Then I think to myself I should secure the road from avalanches next time!, stand up and throw the snow away as if it was quilt.

Second dream

I was sitting in my room, testing my laptop after installing new OS. Everything went fine, but after a while I've got a blue screen error. The laptop has restarted, and I saw that I've lost most of my files.

Dream 1: Searching for the song
I'm in a shop inside a mall. I'm looking for something, I think it is a song, among several albums of an artist.

Dream 2: Annoyances and opportunities
I'm in my house, near the island coast. Something happened and I'm angry with a guy. He has betrayed me or something like that. That guy is now in the kitchen of my house with my mother. They are cleaning I think. My sister and another person are packing things and putting them in their car. I'm supposed to leave with them when they'll finish. I'm busy playing or reading something.
It's time to leave and I go to the kitchen to say goodbye. The guy I'm angry at looks at me and says that he might have a job offer for me as a consultant, and asks me if I want the job. I don't know what to say, I feel anger towards him, but this is an opportunity that might come handy in the future so I tell him, without being grateful, to call me several months later. He asks me how many months and I tell him like 1 or 2 months later. Then both of them start to laugh as making fun of me, and I sense it is because I'm angry at him and I just showed interest in his opportunity. I leave the house humiliated.
When I go out, it seems that I took to long to say goodbye and my sister and the other person already left. I'm walking up the sidewalk trying to call them on the phone. No answer.

Note: This is the second dream my mother appears as some sort of evil DC who humiliates me in front of others. I feel the need to say that, even though I consider her being kind of "special" towards other people (like wanting everything to look perfect), she has never showed me up or anything! She loves me and I love her.

I'm with my mother in some kind of town's square. There's some kind of town's party going on those days, although there is nobody in the square at the moment. It seems to be the morning after a party. There are several stands throughout the square, with different colours (red, blue, ...) We want to do something with them (I think we want to move them), but we don't agree to how to do it.

Two stand owners arrive to the square and my mum asks them something obvious disguised in the form of a question that would settle our argument (something like "Isn't it true that we have to move them in a way that they occupy the least possible space"?). They answer a "logical" Yes and my mother leaves. I get angry and I realize the trick she's used, so I start to argue saying that she can't ask something which answer is "Yes" and leave like she is right in the previous argument. I wake up.

I'm entering a shop that belongs to a Chinese old man, to spend the night. He has invited me to take out a tooth that's moving (a canine, I think) and to spend the night there. When I'm entering, the tooth drops out by itself. When looking at it, I can see it in the floor, a bit brown-greyish, it seems rotten or something like that.

1.15.14

Last night bed at 11pm

Just before bed, I was talking with Ophelia, how far I live from the ocean. I said about an hour, but I have not seen it in years I love the ocean.

DR:
I'm at the shoreline and the huge blue ocean is infront of me. It's a surprise and I'm so happy. The water is rather dark, but very pretty blue. I start running into the water, while laughing with joy, yelling how happy I am. I put my hands in a water as I'm running and I yell how great the air smells like, salty, like ocean. The waves are a bit choppy, but I'm still only less than knee deep. So happy. : D

WBTB long up time (tried short but didn't make it back to sleep) but eventually BTS (back-to-sleep), pretty weird dreams all night

01:00 pre bedtime

04:22 no recall

06:00

early:

+ searching for suitcase (green with red stripe), find it, prepare to repack it

I'm walking around rooms looking for my suitcase, it's the "green one with the red stripe around it", I see many suitcases that I have in WL but they're not the one, I eventually find it and wheel it around, it's pretty heavy, I may have to re-pack it?

+ guy takes a second sip from the girl's soup spoon: this is the secret of winning women's hearts

A guy is taking a sip of soup from a girl's soup spoon, then quickly takes a *second* sip of it, I think that extra unexpected sip is the secret to a woman's heart: it shows spontaneity.

+ climb up onto a giant elephant-like beast with bags of hundreds of acorns/pine-cones, observe the story about the creature that eats then poops out fish for the natives to eat

Outdoors daylight, large strange beast like an elephant, huge bags of acorns/tiny pinecones has been prepared. Up on top of the beast there is a narrated story, of how some native people's never used to be able to catch fish, there is the example on the right where no fish are caught, and the left where fish are caught. A narrator says "they would never catch fish until they discovered (the secret)", which is that there is a strange creature that very easily catches little fish and processes them through its body and "poops" out small fish/larvae that is stunned that can be easily captured. I watch in fascination as this creature does this several times.

+ my wife wants to go into business with some partners, she says "$4 million is not enough, we should raise $20 million," I'm skeptical that any VC will give that much for a simple furniture store venture.

+(f) sex

Unfortunately this vague, I do recall a naked girl and some abstract intercourse (things don't fit? Typical for non-lucid sex) but the memory is really sketchy.

07:00 ? get up for WBTB?
07:26 back to bed

08:00 ? can't sleep get up

08:30 ? back to bed

11:18

later:

+ in a strange place I hear my parents voices, they're turning home I'm really happy and run to meet them

+ tired/exhausted girls work long shifts

One girl I see in a back room lying exhausted on a cot in between work periods. Another girl is sitting down on a chair nearby, I think I see some nipples poking out from her tight sweater

+ retreat to the downstairs bathroom of childhood home for "private time" but now there's a window leading back into the house, eliminating privacy, this confuses me

I'm very curious about this window, it didn't use to be there, I see that it looks back into the hallway by the stairs to the basement. How odd. This window ruins the privacy of the bathroom.

+ bunch of families are going on vacation from the core home, guy hits me on the head hard with a pipe by accident, come up into a room that is really a front for a covert military force (they're observing from across the street); driving crazy in the street have to make a 3-point turn, driving up a road paved with pizza boxes, rifling through boxes looking for leftovers

The (3?) families who live/are visiting in the core home are heading out for vacation. The vacations are all close by. One of the guys is going nearby, I see "it's what, only an hour away?" He says yes. I say "it's great that we can visit these places which are only a few hours away." I'm on an outdoors stairway, the other guy is swinging around pipes and it ends up hitting my head really hard by accident. I'm stunned, and contain my temper instead of getting really mad, I just stand there still for a while.

In a room, coming up some stairs, it's sort of an outdoors area that I thought used to be a store, but it was empty, and I see across the street there are guys inside a building with weapons, they're guarding this area? There's a leader woman there.

I'm driving in a car, vehicles are driving fast and I'm trying to pull a U-turn, I don't make it I have to make a 3-point turn, vehicles are coming fast, but they don't hit me. I'm then driving up a street that is lined with pizza boxes. I think "did we really eat all that pizza on the weekend? How much did that cost?". I reach into some boxes looking for some leftovers.

With my friend's car, I drive around town. He needs it back soon, so I get on a motorcycle and start going really fast. It's awesome. I'm mostly looking for a pawn shop so I can get a guitar for cheap, but don't see any. I end up riding the whole night and as the sun comes up, I find my mom at the University welcome center. She's trying to get me to live on campus a year before I start taking classes. I explain that housing is way cheaper off campus, and ride up the hill through lots of tents as she follows me. Apparently there is a big cult that has set up camp at the university, and they're kind of threatening. All dressed in the Sam white clothing, and full of pride, they all stare at me blankly as I ride along their camp. I pass them quickly but reach a dead end. Not for me. I dive and slide under a barbed wire fence to freedom! I see a road in the distance and make my way back to the relative safety of society.

Riding that dirt bike really stood out as a main part. Throwing it around, taking really sharp turns, power sliding all over, just an amazingly fun time.