non-lucid

Blue= Non-Lucid
Red= Lucid
Orange= TOTM
Green= Real life side note



So the dream started out at my buddy gavin's house. I was in his house and i went in his basement. But his basement was way different than his usual one. His house layout was also weird. So i went in his basement where he had a nice TV and then I realized i should get out of his house since he wasn't home. So i went upstairs and saw 2 ipod nanos on the the floor. I had to find out which one was mine. So i looked at the first one and the music wasnt the type i had so i looked at the background and it wasn't mine. So i picked up the second and it was mine. So then i had now somehow got to this rich neighborhood and i was up on this hill. There was a really weird house that i was looking at. It had like really skinny supports and then had an upper floor. So somehow it made me depressed. Then to cheer myself up i started telling myself a fake story about me with a British accent. So this cheered me up enough to drive in a car similar to the one in gmod down to the house and i got in one of the supports and it was an elevator that took me up to the upper floor and i thought that was really cool and it cheered me up more. So then i went down the elevator and drove up back to my hill. Then i heard my friend cole getting out of his car. (Side note: Cole in RL lives in a nice house so that's why he lived here) So i heard his mom saying he had to do his HW. Then he went on a longboard down the street and i went after him laying down on my board thing. ( Oh b4 this I had tried to find a longboard and i found a weird one and took one of his ) So i held the two longboards and layed down on my back and i heard him saying,"I wish i kned how fast i was going". Then i followed him and the got off and went into this little place that had some trees. So i went up to him and was like, "I found your longboard". He was like, "Oh that needs to go back but you can use that other weird one". Then after that i looked around at some weird bikes that had double suspension. Then the dream faded.

FRAGMENT: It's my birthday and I get some kind of weird psp and pokemon games

FRAGMENT: Griswalds in my dream (fishing), the wife gets hit with a hook (see blood spray when hit), I go to help her, fishing lines get crossed, somehow a hook and string went through my lip, string gets pulled and ripped through my lip

Dream:
I am standing across from Achilles talking to him, after talking I pick up a mask to put on, grab my sword, then see he didn't pick up his shield and ask him why he didn't. He didn't answer my question, but I saw he was getting tired of waiting for the fight. I decide no to use my shield either. The fight starts, I go to knock his sword out of his hand. Achilles dodges my strike, then counters stabbing me in the stomach. I feel pain from the stab, but his stab gets stopped by my armor. I grab his sword hand and twist his arm back, I then slit his throat. He some how survives the cut, and turns into Achilles cousin.

Dream:
I get birthday gifts: Harry Potter 1 (some special edition), and two other books, weird stuff in a bathroom, Russ wants to borrow money for cigarrettes and I remember that he didn't pay me back $20 from last week, drop my B6 while talking to Russ and grab it quick to hide

Dream:
Stefon and I both have ice cream, something to do with a weird car with a mouth and spikes, kid and 2 women negotiating for it, kid offers 3k, mom mad she wants to offer 2k and their car, their car gets destroyed by a renegade bulldozer ball

Dream:
See from girls eyes, but can't feel anything, she is being tortured or something to see if she would be a good sex slave? (weird)

It started with me and my brother. We were walking in the airport because we wanted to board a plane. We then went to buy some deodorant but I told him that in HK they had little choice. When we went through security his deodorant got chucked away. Also we were in a shop and there were a lot of people and suddenly I got wax in my mouth. I had to spit out twice because it was so annoying.

After a while S, my best friend, was there. We got three different coupons for volunteer work. I told my brother to go ahead first. Then S and my were stuck in Enschede where there were red HK cabs. We couldn't get into one because we had to go to the station which is not that far away. I was very annoyed so I decided to go to my foster parents and ask if they could bring us. J, was at home and I asked her whether she could bring us. She was hesitant but said yes eventually and I paid for her gas. We went to the roundabout near groenlo and I saw S driving my mum's car. I was like why are you driving you dont even have a license yet. She was like yea but i drive pretty good right? and someone i didn't know next to her said yes and then I was driving again and suddenly ended up in Enschede. We ran up the stairs and were just in time. I saw a girl with coupons and wanted to switch one with her so that I could be with my brother in the same group. There were three coupons one red one yellow and last one I can't remember. The red one was for installing computers in third world countries, the yellow one was for going with a parent to plant food or something. I got a vision of a father with a little boy planting things.

I wanted to sign up and saw someone who used to swim as well. I asked her what she had in her hand and it was a certificate of some sort. I didn't bring it but i said I remember i send it once to my teacher so suddenly my laptop appeared and went to my school email. Though it took a lot of attempts for me to get the typing right (as in my name + password) and then I couldn't find it so I got panicked. I plead whether i could still join without that certificate but I woke up before getting an answer.

Yay, I thought I had forgotten the dream by the time I got off work, then it all just rushed back in after an hour and a half being home. =D

I was living with my mother again and we had some family over, aunts and cousins. I realized that I had to work and got ready. I forgot my ipod the first time and went and got it. When I came back out it had started raining, but it was incredibly windy too. I had troubles getting into my car and was trying not to blow away. My mom had been watching me from the door. I remember falling and sliding under the car at one point. I got in the car finally and realized I forgot my wallet. So I got back out to go get it and my mom met me at the door, and she was angry about something. She was yelling at me and I told her that we'd talk later because I was going to be late for work, but then she told me that I had to quit and kept yelling. I stayed home and was thinking about what I was going to say to my boss, thinking at least I could blame it on my mother, then I realized that I was 20 and didn't have to put up with this. I wandered around the house for a moment with my family and then I realized that I could move out. I didn't know where I was going to go but I thought I could find a better place than with my mom. I even thought about moving in with T, but thought about how I'd have to live with him and his parents. I decided I'd figure it out later. I started getting all my stuff and gathering it up, then searching for boxes. I left my stuff in one place for a moment to find a box and when I returned my cousin had put it all back, as if to say I couldn't leave. Last thing I remember was crying hard, laying on my bed.

Oldies but goodies.

I remember a few specific dreams back from when I was a child all the way up until before I started keeping a journal. I feel like they should be recorded to facilitate dream growth. Here's some of the more interesting ones.

When I was a kid I had a dream in which I was in a motorcycle race in a pixelated world. It looked like Road Rash if anyones ever played the game. I remember getting off, wandering around the course, and suddenly being in a commercial. There were these people who wanted me to select which item I wanted to buy and they were advertising them to me. One was called the "Shower Brick Wall" and I watched a video of myself opening the closet in the bathroom, taking out a giant brick wall, and putting it in front of the shower curtain before taking a shower.

One more recent one involved me somehow transforming into this giant donkey-kong like monster thing. I was trying to get away from the police or something and I was on the top floor of some apartment building. I remember jumping between these big colorful buildings, going in through windows and zip-lining or jumping into the next window in an effort to get away. It was kind of awesome. Then I was back in my house as a human again and it was the end of the world or something. I was looking through these secret documents in some effort to stop it. Last part of this dream, I was in some giant futuristic space ship. I'm in prison for something and have to walk onto some platform I believe is a teleporter. It launches me out into space at hyperspeed and I die, then like a video game, I respawn somewhere else in the ship.

I also had a dream recently where I was on the ocean city boardwalk. We were going between casinos and we saw a shop with TV's in it. I realized I was with some mafia-like group. We were all in suits and had tommy-guns. We started taking TV's and loading them into our car. Then, once we were driving away, the world seemed to turn into Mario Kart. The track we were on seemed like a combination of rainbow road and some snowy place with snowmen and igloos. My perspective wasn't in the car though. I was just kinda floating around the track and observing it.

Another one I had a long time ago started in the sunroom of our house. I look out the back window into the field behind our house and all hell is breaking loose. There are tornadoes and volcanoes and the ground is shaking in the field. I run into the living room and see my whole family just sitting around oblivious. I yell at them and tell them we have to get to the basement. Nobody pays attention. I go to the basement door and urge them to follow me. My grandpa walks by with a dumb smile on his face and says, "Okay, just a minute, we're waiting on the cappucino!" Silly dream characters...

this is a dream I had about 3 days ago and am just now remembering. I was Ezio Auditore from assassin's creed. I was chasing 2 guys. They were both black with short black hair, and were wearing black leather spy clothes. I chased them through part of the city and eventually cornered them in a church. They ran up some church stairs and turned a corner. I then ran up the stairs and turned the corner to see that they had been killed by some woman.(white, with short black hair, about down to her cheeks or jaws)I assumed that meant I won the game. Then the two guys came back to life and I had a choice to either go into assassin's creed zombie mode or end the game I decided to end it and work on the zombies part tomorrow because I had already done enough on that game today. Then when I ended the game I ended the dream.

I was at my old school, and apparently is was the last day. There was some WC3 creeping in there, and I was with some others, but in the game, and we were gathering some units to go and raid the upstairs classroom.

The view turned to normal, and me and a horde of classmates went upstairs. We entered the class, which seemed to be Mr. SP's class. I walked into the room. To begin our raid, we were going to go through all the people's bags. But for some reason, only one other person entered the room with me. We crept over to a bag for each of us, and started unzipping the pockets. I was wondering how this was going to go over; without the mass of students, there was no hiding. Surely I shouldn't be going through people's bags? The people that were already in the room just silently stared at me, and I self consciously and slowly unzipped the bag.

AM was there, and the bag appeared to be hers. In it was a massive box of those Welsh's Fruitsations gummies. I opened it and inside was a massive brown paper bag of gummies, but they were not fruitsation gummies, rather just random sour ones. I munched on a watermelon one.

Then as I looked around, a bunch of my classmates were sitting on the floor and just hanging about. I saw JO in one corner. MA was in another corner, and I think I said something to him and sat close to him. I then checked my phone for texts, and then saw KR and DO and KE at the other side of the room. I ran over to them and sat with them.

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I was at the back of some house, looked kind of like KE's house, but with a large backyard. It was winter and nighttime, and I was decked out in winter coats and whatnot. I think they were bright red. The backyard had somehow turned into a skating rink, and MA and some others were playing hockey. MA kept looking at me it seemed.

Eventually, MA seemed to have transformed into some other random guy. He was a young adult it seemed, had brown hair and brown eyes. I was on top of a deck that was attached to the house of which the backyard belonged; the deck was wood. It seemed that it was maybe dawn now for there was slight light and the sky was a dim light blue now. It was snowing too. The guy was talking to me. He was telling me some story about how they had been skiing or something once and how he had to catch up. Below the deck there were 3 horses; one was a young black colt, one chestnut (though slightly more deeper and duller brown than a usual chestnut), and another I can't remember clearly. I joked that he should have just hopped onto the horse and ridden to them. He laughed and told me that he would have, but apparently the horse was lame. I started telling him something about the ranch, but he seemed uninterested.

At some point in the dream he was showing off how he could make my bladder jump out of my body. And he did. Next thing I knew I felt this hollowness in my lower stomach, and it was like I was throwing up something... and there lay a pink bladder on the floor. Just dandy.

This led me to eventually skiing across the icy streets with a pair of skis, but it was physically more like rollerblading since I could get over hills and whatnot. But, having my poor sense of balance, I fell many a time.

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I was at school again, but it seemed to still be my old school. RA was with 3 other teachers in Mrs. MA's room. Apparently they were teaching her how to sing or something. She was trying to sing, and they were telling her that she needed to use more power behind her voice. I randomly started singing Gloomy Sunday. The teachers told her that she had to sing more like me with the power in my voice.

This somehow brought me to a grad trip with KA. We were getting on a school bus and we were wearing our grad dresses again. I was constantly singing Gloomy Sunday. KA scolded me and told me to stop since it was getting annoying.

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I was at the field across from my house it seemed, except that the field was much bigger. It was also full of large tall stalks, as if it was growing with barley. It seemed to be summer, maybe the evening, as a light golden glow was spilt across the field. There was a man and his son there. They had about 8-10 dogs with them. They were saying something about being careful with the dogs.

The next thing I knew I had somehow stolen the dogs. I went to my house, which was much like a house from TS2. I hastily built some parts of the house so that I could secure it. I had locked the dogs in a room. I locked the door by pulling some weird mechanism. I then locked myself in another room with an easel and some other stuff and started painting. Meanwhile, I could hear the man shouting at me to let his dogs free.

After a while I decided for some reason that I should let them go. I went out and opened the door with the dogs in it. For some reason I thought he wouldn't do anything, but he ended up letting his dogs ravage the house.

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I was in science class. The desks were put into pairs and threes for some reason. I apparently now sat in the middle with KA on my left and DA on my right. I asked her about the new science project and who was in her group. She said sullenly that she had PE and KO. I decided that they must've not picked the groups themselves then, and I felt bad for her. I told her that my group was RA and KA.

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I was in an apartment building. My mother was sorting mail. The walls and hallways were all a brown-beige color. My mother asked me and someone else to help her sort the mail, but we couldn't do it properly for some reason.

I ended up in the room adjacent to that one. V and AN were there. I had on a sweater, but it zipped in a way at the hood so that you could zip in other layers in between. Apparently I had stolen WI's coat again and was making him look for it. I unzipped it and took a layer out for some reason. V and AN saw and laughed, and I told them not to tell WI.

At this point some sort of WC3 and WoW and D2 influence came in, and I was in the DoE with AN it seemed. There were some items on the floor, like in WC3, and I tried to get a bunch of them. At the same time, it was they same behind the character view of WoW. AN was trying to bother me, and the last thing I remember was kicking him in the chest to give him a piece of my mind.

Haven't been visiting this place a lot due to exams, anyways here's the list I have.
Non-lucid, lucid, extra comment

1st of April:
Couldn't Remember anything D:

2nd of April:
Can't read my handwriting

3rd of April:
Playing some American Football, being taunted by a PC. And someone sucked really badly.

4th of April:
Dream set in a destroyed urban environment (probably due to the abundance of Crysis 2 I've been playing). Some kind of weird Martial Law seems to be in effect.

Time seems to be divided in a whole new way. Some base unit of +/- 16 mins - environmental mapping time (which allows people to map out all interesting object and areas). It seemed so convincing that when I woke up, I didn't know what time system we were using.

NapTime:
I did something, but I can't recall what that was.

5th of April:
1) In new york, feel like Bruce Willis. I came back to look for a job and started off looking on Manhattan island. There I run into some crazy idiot that is obsessed with some doomsday type article. When I try and help someone else clean up a paper mess, this idiot becomes hysterical.

2) Driving in some car commercial. Car gets stuck in some water pit, have to cut myself out. Drive another car, an Aston Martin, come to the same waterhole and turn around. The car has warned me not to go in there through one of its brand new safety features.

18th of April: Pregancy WTF
Found myself lying on a bed in what looked like my room. A girl is lying beside me on the bed. She tells me she is pregnant with my child (My dream left out the good stuff...) and wants to tell her dad, something in me didn't approve of this idea.

I apologize for any incoherency and randomness throughout this entry.

I was at my grandma's house and I was showing off my new iPhone to my family (I don't even own an iPhone). I gave it to my sister and she handed it to my cousin, he handed it to someone else and it got passed around the family. By the time everyone had seen it and they gave it back to me, the iPhone was covered in ugly white paint. It was completely ruined. I went crazy, asked them what had happened to it - they all denied putting the paint on there and told me that it had always been painted white.

I got angry and they all turned on me, telling me to calm down and get a grip. They then carried on with a new conversation as though nothing had happened at all. I just had to sit there and keep my mouth shut even though I was really angry.

Then I got up and went outside for a walk, but when I walked through the front door, I wasn't outside my grandma's house, I was outside my aunts house. Completely different layout; my aunt lives on a suburban estate. I end up in my aunt's estate in many of my dreams - maybe because I spent a lot of time there as a child.

In the dreams it has a very specific layout which doesn't fully match the real layout of the estate. For example there is a road that loops around the whole estate in my dreams which doesnt exist in real life.

In my dream last night, after leaving the house with my ruined iPhone, I walked the road that loops the estate and ended up at my old primary school. That's all I remember.

I woke up feeling very distressed.

Not great recall on this one. I'm noticing that the things I remember are pretty detailed but I only recall short lengths of my dreams.

So I was outside my high school and it seemed like mid spring. Some of the vegetation was green and some was still brown. I think I was throwing something straight up in the air for the heck of it when I came across a grungy lookin guy. Well, he sort of came across me...Anyway, I felt like I could trust this guy so we hopped in my Jeep (which I wrecked so I don't drive anymore) and I drove us down the street a little ways. We stopped and had a little conversation. I could sort of just tell that he was my future self. I don't think he ever actually said it. He warned me about the 15th of April in some future year. Also, it turns out that I become a transvestite in the future . Now the odd thing about what he was telling me was that this stuff hadn't happened to him yet either. I don't remember how the dream ended.

Dream - Lucid

I was in the car at night. I was riding with Rachel, who was driving. Apparently, we were going to get married. I wanted to marry her AND Ryan. We found someone who would do it, but instead of Ryan, Rachel's friend Christina was there. Weird. I remember being in front of the person marrying us.

I didn't have a wedding band, but an engagement ring. The ring was super cheap. The band was gold and it had a small diamond set in it, though I don't think it was a real diamond. I remember it being a little too big as well, and it kept sliding around on my finger. It also kept bending; it was extremely malleable.

I remember also skipping data analysis, even though I'm out of absenses in that class. I did approach Rachel in a classroom, and asked her if we could at least have a wedding ceremony. She seemed bothered by my asking, and pretty much told me she couldn't afford it. I knew that I had rushed into things by marrying her; I felt like I should have been more patient. I didn't want to even be with her, I wanted to be with Ryan. I was dissappointed in myself for rushing.

I remember then, at some point, asking Rachel if she believed in coincidence. She told me yes, and started to explain why. I told her I didn't, and that I thought everything happened for a reason. She countered me by saying that only some things happen for a reason. I didn't understand a lot of what she was saying.

Then, I remember being outside in a huge pool of very clear water. I remember flashing my ring at a guy who had asked me out. The ring now didn't have a stone, but had a black oval in its place.

I then remember going underwater, and seeing a group of guys standing under there. It was like there was a small town under the water that had been flooded (I have been playing too much Zelda in waking life, haha). I swam to the bottom, and let my breath out so I would sink and be able to stand on the bottom. I talked to the guys. I then went up for air.

When I got to the top, my old friend Josh was there. I was talking to him about how upset I was about the whole marriage situation, and he said, after some talking,
"I won't be home from 2-8, but why don't you come over at 8 to keep me company?"
I knew what he meant by that...I would be cheating. I saw the seductive look in his eye. As he was leaving, I nodded and said yes, I would be there. I didn't feel super bad about it, but I did feel a little bad.

Then, I remember being in a huge, open stone field that was surrounded by some small buildings and trees. I thought I was under the water again, but upon further examination, I figured out I wasn't. I was talking to a lesbian, and I was telling her about the situation. I then concluded as I was talking
"You can't marry more than one person. I'm not even gay!" Big duh moment.
I then remember pulling out the marriage certificate. It looked very unofficial, and looked like a photo copy. It had Rachel's, Christina's, and my signatures on it. I ripped it up.

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I was in some apartment/school. It was kind of like dorm rooms. People were stealing all of these things out of the rooms, things that were "bad", or something. I went into someone's room and took a poster off the door. I remember hearing the crumbling of paper as I took it with me. I went outside to put it in a car, but felt so bad about stealing, that I went back into the room and laid the poster down on the bed.

Then, I remember walking in a hallway that looked like a middle or high school lobby. I was with someone else, a guy, and we were walking towards the front door to leave. We were stopped by an old acquaintance of mine, Sean. He told us to stop, and then said that we had to go through a certain door because it had The Lord's Prayer posted on it. I said to whoever I was with as we passed Sean
"I've known The Lord's Prayer since I was little..." I didn't think it was neccessary for us to stop and read it.
We approached the door, and saw the prayer posted on it. I don't remember if we used that door or not.

Then, I remember watching a war. An ex, Jake, was fighting in it. He had a hand-held cannon that he was using to fight with. I was watching him fight while sitting at a table. He was in a field. I remember watching him use the cannon, and every time he would, some of his hair would fall out.

After awhile, he approached me, and said
"Every time I use this, some of my hair falls out!" He pointed to his head.
I remember he was wearing a brown hoodie with the hood up.

Then, Jake told me the war had been a stalemate. I then asked him
"How can you tell who wins and who loses?"
He replied, very smartass-like
"Well, the team who celebrates is the winner...and..."
I cut him off and said
"I know that. But how do you know who wins and who loses?"
He started to answer, but I woke up.

I think this one is particularly awesome for some reason, except for the fact that it just seems like hilariously shitty fan-fiction. I wish I could remember it more clearly, but this is the clearest dream I can recall so far.

I start out in this sort of shanty town/tent camp where I am an assistant to the Pirate King Deadpool. Really, he's just referred to as the pirate king, because he doesn't actually have any ships. His business partner and ally (and rumored lover?) Cammy White, the Merc Queen pays him a visit, and leaves shortly after with her small troop of guards.

Sitting on a barrel, Deadpool mentions to me that he needs to repay that favor. He stands and announces to his army his intent to kill and present one thousand enemy troops, the Blue Arrows with some special conditions - that their hands and insignias go unharmed, and that ten of them are captured alive.

And so we come to a beach - the sky is dreary, and the water at a very low tide. There are dunes where the water ends at high tide, and no birds though I'm not sure why this is notable. The battle starts. I don't actually remember much about the battle itself, aside from some random office worker (a somewhat Dilbert like character) going through a rather cartoony sequence of trying to capture the ten men who were to be left alive and them escaping repeatedly. Third time's the charm though, and he gets them. One of the men captured is a midget, and Deadpool mentions we'll release him later. He then threatens one of the men who accidentally maimed one of the corpses' hands.

Back at camp, Cammy is waiting for Deadpool, and he mentions what he's done. I woke up shortly after this.

Altogether the clearest dream I've had so far. Let's hope it goes uphill from here.

NON-DREAM DREAM LUCID

The only background info you need to know for this, is that my schools lunch prices are extremely reasonable in real life. Also, this dream was extremely detailed

I was walking and talking to my friend Eli on the way to lunch. It was hard and raining out. He was wear a black shirt with blank pants, like he almost always does. He asked me if the geometry quiz would be hard- and I realized that i never even studied for it. I made a mental note to myself to study for it during lunch.

As we got to lunch, it wasn't really the crowded. He sat down at the table we usually sit at and I went for the lunch line. I didn't really know what to buy, all of the food looked different, so I just grabbed some pieces of meat they had and a piece of bread. As I started to walk towards where you pay, I checked my pocket like I always do in real life. I had $5 and my ID.

The lady looked at my food, and kept looking for a few seconds. She said that the total was $25. I was astounded and just looked at her. I said "Are you sure??", she just smiled and said "Yes". I told her I only had $5 and asked if I could put it back. She just said that once the food has been moved, you cant put it back. She said that they would have to start a loan for me to pay it off.

I looked over at Eli sitting on the other side of the room and just wished that I could sit there and didn't have to go through this crap with the lunchlaides. The lunchladies just started to talk with the other lunchlaides about the situation with me. I honestly didn't think it was that big of a deal, but they were going crazy over it.

I didnt have an alarm set, it was early than when I usually wake up, and I woke up pretty fast. Maybe I was trying to go lucid but forgot that part?

Good morning, everybody.

Dream #1

I was in the hallway of my apartment buidling. I was at the other end of the hallway from my apartment. There were two black boys, one kind of tall, both probably in their early to mid teens. One of the boys saw me and wanted to do something disrespectful to me, so he spit in the hallway, near the top of the stairwell going down.

I was now in my doorway, yelling at a few adults, who were also all black. I asked why people needed to keep doing this kind of stuff, not only to me, but to the whole apartment.

Somehow a really big, thuggish-looking adult possibly dressed in a red hooded sweatshirt, black bubble vest, backwards cap, and slightly tinted eyeglasses began to beat me up. He pounded and pounded on me until I was lying on the floor. Something may have been really wrong with my left shoulder, as if the man had almost torn it off.

But I may possibly still have stood up after this to run after one or two of the adults who were now walking away, down the hallway. I told them that I wasn't going to stop complaining just because of what they'd done to me.

Dream #2

I was out on some lawn which may have been surrounded by some kind of small building, like a wide villa. It was a kind of pale, slightly overcast day.

I had possibly done something bad, and now some woman possibly wanted to get me in trouble for it. The woman may have been a few years older than I, with a kind of thin, rough-looking face, pale blue eyes, and very short, red hair.

The woman was really taunting me. I finally felt so threatened that I grabbed the woman by her ankles, swung her around, and threw her up in the air. She went pretty high, then she landed. She seemed injured. But now I just wanted to kill her. So I lifted her back up, spun her around, and slammed her back down to the ground. I did this a few times, until the woman had been smashed so much that she was finally dead.

During the last few throws, I saw that there were two men watching me from a porch. On the woman's last fall, her body bounced up onto the porch, then actually tumbled down into a smallish, plastic cooler that was full of ice and sodas. I slammed the lid down on the cooler.

The guys were still staring at me. One was younger. The other was very old. They both looked kind of grizzled and wore worn old clothes and cowboy hats.

I thought I'd impress them somehow, so I opened up the cooler and pulled out a Dr. Pepper. I sat it on the porch and made some weird comment about how the woman's body had become a Dr. Pepper and how it would taste so great to drink because of that.

The men "told" me that I had killed the woman because I didn't want her to tell on me and get me in trouble, but that now the police knew the woman had been killed, and I'd be getting in even more trouble. I should probably get out of here before the police came around.

I agreed. I started taking body parts out of the cooler. But the body parts, mostly just a bunch of shapeless chunks of meat, were all inside of white paper bags from Wendy's. I sat the bags up on the porch. I asked the men if they would hide the body parts for me, so that the police wouldn't find them.

I was now leaving. The two men were sitting in a room back from the porch. The room was dim. The two men sat side by side, with their backs to the wall opposite the doorway. As I walked away, on the lawn, I asked the men if we would still be able to cook the woman's body parts and eat them like a hamburger. The men said that we would be able to do it.

"In fact," the older man said, "You've already eaten a hamburger made out of humans."

I thought back and realized, with surprise, that the man was right. There was a man just a while back. His body had been turned into a hamburger, and I had been fed his meat without even knowing it! I had been tricked into cannibalism!

I was now in some bathroom that looked like an outhouse or a bathroom that you might see at a camp in the woods. I was in a stall. I kept coughing and pulling meat out of my mouth. The meat was yellowish and looked kind of like fish or curried chicken. It had the texture of fish. I had apparently not yet swallowed any of this meat. I hadn't even chewed it very much.

I think I vaguely recalled two dreams tonight. I'm fully aware that I dreamed 3-4 dreams in total tonight, but I only recall one vividly, and one extremely vaguely. Worth to note that I was slightly drunk when I went to bed, and I was really tired as it was quite late. I also began practicing awareness training during the day.

All I remember of the first dream is that I was making some kind of potato dish with slices of apple in it. That's literally all I remember.

The second dream is a lot more vivid. I dreamed about my stepdad and my step-granddad.

Kjell (step-granddad) was apparently entering some kind of competition, and needed to borrow my calculator and my glasses. He was extremely nervous, and wasn't really acting like he usually does. I recall standing in a hallway and looking at him and knowing that he was nervous. My stepdad was there aswell, and was driving with him to this event. Shortly after they left though, they came back. The event had apparently been cancelled, and kjell seemed extremely relieved about it. When they came he acted just like he normally does again. I noticed that they were back because I heard something by my balcony door (I'm in my own apartment now, suddenly), and I look out to see my stepdad drawing something on it from the outside. I looked at it, but it appeared to be just scribbles to me. He was drawing with a lead pencil. After he had finished drawing that, he started drawing something on my clothing, but quickly realized it didn't work too well and stopped.

Then he asked if he could borrow my hammer, which I let him have. He apparently needed it to build something with an unidentified dream character. I sat there and talked to them for a while and watched them as they were building the device while playing around with the hammer when they weren't using it. Apparently the head of the hammer was twistable, and it was very rusty.

That's all I remember. I'm aware that I had more dreams tonight, but I can't recall anything about them.