non-lucid

8/25/14* Increase recall due to RRC?!! Also better about staying still in bed going over dreams during awakenings. Also stomach issues. LD again. Little day practice. Mostly some RRC and couple of extended RC's.

Determining if I am in the Serengeti by the sound (possibly due to much chirping IWL, window open). Some argument between others directing me to about where the Serengeti begins and visual of cloud shaped outline designating the borders of it. It seemed more like a forest in the dream.

Using self diagnostic tools before going to doctor may be useful. I pull over on the way to hospital to check? Look up? (maybe not really...but maybe for me who doesn't like to go in unless I think serious or doctor can help me. I wake with strongish stomach pains...bloating? Read about supplement?)

Adventure two boys. Me and #son ? Bundle of cash #money #treasure . Looking for place to bury it. Where did we come from? (RRC) Doesn't matter...son wants to get a map to mark spot to bury. Only matters where buried. Going all around, like childhood runaway adventure fantasies. This is great! Wife joins us later? She's shopping at garage sale. I'm waiting for her and kids playing in front of me. Protective dad comes. I say "hurry honey" so he knows I'm not just watching his kids, I'm waiting for someone. Now he's friendly. Go in his house with 3 guys inside, one from Apple software skinny curly hair comes up to me. Do you like smart games? Yeah...Hard sell for kids though. "Do you know X from Apple?", I ask. "He works with cell phones." 3 guys all overly friendly... gay?

"Kyle Orton" is boss but I do not connect his name with the football player. job stacking stuff, falls, shirt untucks, he thinks I'd be good for lead academy...also CPA II position...he explains...ah like a buyer.

#coins in quarter machine. 3 $5 bills..one fake...maybe all? Junk and coins and #money below in cabinet of machine. Machine gives tokens darn. Day residue. +++

Someone is babysitting. black boy sleeping in closet bottomless. Not big. Someone pulls him out. He farts like crazy and laughs.

Mild #earthquake or dream?

Heading to #league game in WC. We have 20 minutes to get there. Rest of team goes in bus..I'll meet them there got to get something first. #lostMyWay in circular streets with artery down middle. See mall on GPS map, can park there and ask for directions. Lady says go out through there and if you get lost you can call the #police ? On way out on left there is an Asian club like they maybe have overseas (but here!?) with sexy hostesses or escorts?...I just know i'm dreaming! There are two #sexy women at entrance seated.

Spoiler for XXX Content - Open minded adults only:

I tear off the left one's clothes passionately. TK off my own clothes. I stick it in her mouth. She gives me excellent oral! Then we go to intercourse. I mentally direct the 2nd woman to lick her colleague and my cock at same time during intercourse with her colleague. It feels fantastic! Then I have an FA of wife doing oral...she says "I want your big cock inside of my pussy!"

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Complex narratives but poor recall all night. Just one fragment has enough clarity and interest to preserve in writing:

NLD: There was a big bed of ice cubes spread out over the floor, about fifteen by twenty feet wide and up to a foot thick. It was there to chill something that may have been on a small round platform in the center of it, but I don't remember what. I was more interested in the ice.

The ice cubes were all different sizes. I lay down on them on my back at one point and found this extremely comfortable: they weren't as cold as one would expect ice to be, but refreshingly cool. In fact, I wasn't sure they were proper ice, because most of them weren't melting. Only the smallest ones, spheres of ice about two inches in diameter still in their plastic molds (just like the ones I use for gin and tonics, I recalled) showed a slickness of water inside the plastic. I decided I'd better take care not use any of these ice cubes in drinks, however, in case the water was contaminated with chemicals.

The largest ice cubes also intrigued me. They were rectangular blocks around nine inches high and deep by about fifteen inches long. There was a slight asymmetry to their form, a matte textured surface of striations, and they weren't melting at all. I noticed that the blocks of this size appeared very similar to one another and knelt down to investigate more closely. After comparing two in detail, I determined that yes, they were clearly products of the same mold, however the molding process had resulted in very slight irregularities: one sculpted corner was complete in the first block but slightly truncated in the next as though the mold had not been filled completely the second time.

I find it amazing that I can muster such a close comparative appraisal of aspects of the dream environment, demonstrating that my critical thinking was not completely impaired, and yet completely fail to muster even a sliver of the kind of critical apprehension necessary to recognize that I am dreaming.

Dream - Lucid

I woke up in the middle of the night last night to pee. I got back in bed, laid on my back, and decided to try to LD. I immediately started to fall asleep, and saw many moving pictures before my eyes. They were kind of like movie screens, but shrunken down, surrounded by black. I saw a couple of different scenes with those, though I can't remember exactly what those scenes were. I knew I needed to keep waiting for the dream to fully form, or I'd just wake up. I think I head music as well.

Finally, I was fully immersed in the dream. I was in the bonus room at my parents' house. It appeared that I had been asleep on the couch. At this point, I would say I was semi-lucid, because I couldn't remember if this is really where I fell asleep or not, but I knew I was dreaming nonetheless. Cherie' was in there too, sleeping on the floor. The light was on.

I got up and flew into the air. I wanted to try to phase through a wall, but for some reason, the wall was absolutely solid. Instead, I landed on the floor right on my butt. It made a loud thumping noise, as you would expect it to. This woke up Cherie', and she was just staring at me with wide eyes. Now I was really confused. Had she heard me?
"Can you see me?" I asked.
She must have said yes, but I can't remember. I then knew I was somehow acting out my lucid dream. Weird. I decided to fly to see how that would play out, since I was apparently acting everything out.
"Watch this!" I said.
I flew into the air. I went down the hallway and to the stairs. I was moving my arms as if I was swimming through the air. My mom and maybe someone else were going down the stairs as I was doing this. I wondered how I was doing this IWL since I was flying in my dream.

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I was at work at the bakery with one other person, a girl, though I can't remember exactly who it was. There were many racks of unbaked round bread that needed to go in the oven. I did not know what temp or for how long everything needed to bake, and I knew the girl I was working with needed my help. I asked her if she wanted me to help her bake, and she said yes. I really wanted to help her out, but she was so much more experienced than me. I tried anyway. I put one in, but wasn't sure about anything else. I said something about this to the girl. We both then went to grab a giant stuffed animal to put out on the floor since we had sold the others? She grabbed a giant stuffed zebra, though it didn't look like a zebra, it looked more like a bear, kind of, and told me to do the same. I kinda knew how to do this part, but I let her show me anyway. We filled the holes on the sales floor with the zebras.

We were then back behind the counter. I noticed that all the racks of bread were gone now. I guess she put them away in the cooler or something.

~

I was working in the coffee shop again, but I also had my bakery job. I kept thinking about having two jobs, and how both places thought I had open availability. I thought about how I needed to make a schedule for them both so the jobs wouldn't overlap and I wouldn't have to call out of one of them. I thought about how I had done that at the coffee shop. I was actually surprised I was still working there; I had never really left, I guess. It was a weird feeling, hard to explain.

I saw a schedule on the wall in a back office. I saw there was another girl named Krista who worked there. It said "Krista G." on the sheet. I "remembered" one of my friends that still worked there after I had left telling me about that. I saw my name on there as well. It said something like "Krista B. Black" or something weird like that. I then thought about how the shop was under new ownership, and it would never be the same as when I worked there before.

~

I was at Subway with my mom, ordering a sandwich. I had to go in later to start work there again. I saw that behind the counter, many employees were on computers. I assumed it was for training. I "remembered" having to do that when I worked at Subway before, and thought about how I'd have to do that that night at work. Then, I'd have to clean and close down the store. Again, I thought about having 2 jobs, though I couldn't remember if my second job was the coffee shop or if it was the bakery.

I watched the employees make my mom's sandwich. She ordered first. I was then ordering mine, but they were putting all the meat and toppings in small paper cups instead of on my bread. I felt as if the employees were annoyed and were rushing me so they could do their training on the computer. After I listed off all the toppings I wanted, I was handed my bread and the cups of toppings. The meat was a bunch of ground beef sitting in grease in the cup. There were minimal toppings in the cup as well, though I saw lots of banana peppers. I got an employee's attention, and asked if they could put the toppings on my sandwich. I also asked for more pickles. I felt like I was imposing on their time by doing this.

I then was sitting at a table with my mom and Misty, a girl I worked with at the coffee shop. My mom had gotten up to do something, and I was telling Misty about a dream that I had about closing at Subway and the back being all dark and creepy (did have this dream a couple years ago for real). She then started to ask me if it had anything to do with my relationship with "Him" (Him meaning God). She then started to talk about the birth of her twins and quoting a Bible verse from "Dominicus" something or other. She was getting all religious on me. I just listened to her talk. My mom came back.

~

I was with Kristen, a girl that I worked with at Kohl's. We were getting ready to go to a party. She poured me this HUGE glass of booze. It was a mixture of hot pink glittery Hypnotiq and some other kind of reddish liquor. I took a sip and it tasted very sweet and fruity, not like alcohol at all. I kept taking drinks of it, doubting that I could finish it all since it was so much. I watched her as she downed a regular-sized wine glass of red wine. Blech. I guess she must be a seasoned drinker. I then noticed that my own huge glass was almost empty. I took the last drink of it.

We were then parked in a parking lot. It was dusk. There was a building in front of us, a bar or restaurant. I ran up the stairs and on the porch to get behind the building to where the outdoor party was being held. I climbed over things on the porch. There were people sitting at a table there. I climbed on the table, then realized it was a table and quickly got off the table, thinking the men sitting there were probably expecting some kind of table dance.

I then was off the porch and behind the building in a field. There were cars parked and some of my friends were there. One of them, Rachel I think, asked me if I had driven, and I said yes. She asked me if I should have driven, and I said no, probably not, but I did. I could feel the alcohol at this point. I wandered off towards some other people.

I was with a few people, probably family members, in a kind of dark room. I was sitting on the floor in front of a magic tunnel slide, I could see a lot of flashing images coming from it. Apparently, it was a tunnel of dreams. I decided to throw myself into it and as I was going through it I saw a ton of images, like an endless sequence of pictures from dreams passing before my eyes at full speed, but I didn't get to stay in any of those dreams.

This was the last REM cycle before waking up and it was hard for me to tell which of those images were from this weird dream and which were fragments previous to this one.

25/08/2014

2300-0730

1.

0230-0400

I remember animals. Many animals. When something that I forgot about happened to them, they became sprites you could go over and pick up, like Minecraft sprites. I specifically remember this happening to some elephants.

2.

0400-0530

I remember being in the boonies with my dad and brother. We were in a trailer in the woods. It sort of looked like the same area where the dream with the birds kicking me out of their house was. My dad, brother, and I went hunting into some woods. We went on our ATVs. We stayed in the forest until it was dark. Dad said we should get back, and my brother and I got on our ATVs and got back to the trailer. During the trip, we saw some spooky fog around the area. After a while, and dad didn't come back, someone came and told us our dad was dead. I burst into tears, thinking it was all my fault, and that I shouldn't have gone without him. This was somewhat of a nightmarish dream.

3.

0530-0730

I remember a nuclear explosion. That is it with this one.

I had 2 choline, some purple grape juice, some blueberries & strawberries...Oh! and I binned the partridge's carcase. I'm glad that's all gone...I didn't like it a bit...

Only one dream last night but it was long and vivid and that's reassuring. I awoke a few times but couldn't catch a dream....although there was no sense of departing REM (I'm now getting an increasing amount of the eye effects and slight body tremors I had so clearly before I temporarily quit LD'ing.)

7.30
Long and pretty vivid dream set in a power station (DS) I was appropriately suited and booted and I was tasked with showing a young woman around the station (Why? who cares...I'm not complaining) She was with a party of women and we left her mother and the others and started ascending.

Like most dreams it was ridiculously inaccurate . It involved a vertical climb through a maze of pipework and machinery and I was showing off, climbing with alacrity and shinning through narrow gaps in pipework. On the way down through another section I almost collided with a welder and apoligised.

When I reached the bottom I looked up and saw the young woman climbing back down the "up" section (she'd clearly given up trying the near impossible) Then I lost sight of her and I was looking around trying to find her (mega DS) Eventually I gave up looking and crossed a road to join up with the group of women.

I edged through the crowd and located her mother and asked her where her daughter was "Her? She's gone home" she replied ...and I don't blame her!

Having quit before and lost all dreaming ability I started from scratch again 19 days ago. I've logged 22 dreams of varying quality...9 of those in the last 4 days (41%) I'm waking at night without need of the alarm clock and my sensitivity to the onset of REM cycles is returning fast

I'm working on recall and ADA and I'm feeling optimistic. Whether, once we've LD'd we always carry a residual ability I'm not sure but things are moving much quicker than last time.

I MUST work on "bringing the mind home" to relax. I'm losing too much time trying to get back to sleep.

August 24, 2014

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I had a dream on Friday night and remembered it, but didn't write it down when I woke up in the night. I'd forgotten it by the time I woke up again for reals. There might have been something about Zukin (would make sense, we were cuddling after all) and the woods.



On Saturday, Zukin and I got up to some supernatural shenanigans and then she showed me something really thought provoking but creepy right before bed (And Salad Fingers.... nightmare fuel) so I had trouble falling asleep. When I did finally sleep, the only dream I remember having was this:

Find the Hick

All the dream was, was scenes flashing around. First, there was a corn field, and a man in jean overalls and a crooked straw hat (The Hick) was standing between the stalks, just staring at me. Then The Hick was in a grassy field, staring at me from behind a large tree. Then The Hick was on a dirt road in the middle of nowhere, still staring at me. There were other scenes, and they all had The Hick, just standing there, still and silent, staring at me. They were all dark, too. It must have been night time with a full moon because I could see him pretty clearly; but he was always too far away for me to see his features...

this wasn't an actual dream but ltterally there was a 6.0 earthquake that woke me up. the fan was shaking i was quite startled. i texted natalie after cause i had to tell someone about the earth quake. she already knew cause she felt it to.

Dream - 7.00AM

I'm at a super market and I'm heading towards the exit with a trolly full of items. There's 2 automatic sliding doors, and I think about going through them for some reason and then come back in. After contemplating what I should do, I see a women near me with a trolly (she was a larger women, maybe in her early 30's late 20). She tells me shes afraid to go outside and would like to know if I am willing to escort her out. I tell her ''not a problem. I can do that''.

We're now on bikes together, just sitting on on the road. I get off my bike and look down towards my back wheel and see that there's an issue with it. There's a long bolt which needs to be connected. I attempt to fix it without a problem. We begin chatting about things and she brings up that she would like to have drinks with me one time. Soon after we begin looking at our phones.

I have a False Awakening, which I fail to recognize. I wake up and I'm feeling horny. I'm in my bed when I hear my Brother yelling out to me something about glad wrap. I look above my door and I see 3 types of wraps. A roll of Glad wrap, Nonstick paper and Aluminium foil. I think of what to say to my Brother when he comes into the room, and I come up with a scenario if he was to ask for some Glad wrap. I was going to say look to the heavens, and hopefully he would see the Glad wrap above the door.

Side Notes:

I listening to some Stephen LaBerge mp3 files, expecting it to be the stuff I used to listen too, but it wasn't it (produced a FA, so I guess that's a plus). I downloaded the one I used to listen to today, so hopefully it puts me in a more of a lucid dreaming mind set before bed.

I'm not using my alarms anymore due to not being able to sleep too well upon awakening. A swap back to my harder mattress has helped with sleeping. I recalled quite a few dreams last night upon awakening through out the night, but would zone out half way through and lose what I had recalled.

*The earliest part of the dream I remember, I think that I am either #lookingFor whoever I'm with or I have #lostMyWay. I come across a group of people including 1 guy with long curly hair and he seems to be coming after me #chasing for some reason and my first response is to just take off #flying. Ah, I'm definitely dreaming! I think what if he flies after me and sure enough the dream complies. I turn around and he is flying up behind me and I throw a right cross in a downward motion and slam him to the ground never to be heard from again. I fly a bit and then I turn to the left and find myself in some kind of busy underground #highway. This is very cool, there are so many things going on in here! There are big rig trucks and double-decker buses and so many DC's that I am just fascinated. Some of the DC's look at me amazed that there is someone flying above them and others don't seem to notice or care or look at me nonchalantly. I fly over one of the
double decker buses and there are people on the top open air part of the bus and I'm looking at all the people and half way looking for some sexy women but this is quite a bit of fun just flying over so I continue. A lot of the people look like tourists. Oh and it is very #windy I remember as I'm flying amazed at all the wind that my dreaming mind is creating! I am mostly flying Superman style but also hovering, floating and some swim like moves to make slight changes to the left and right when hovering over the double decker bus checking it out. I also seem to be blown around by the wind a bit. By the way, I later surmise that all of this wind was likely brought about due to being at quite a windy place yesterday IWL. Anyway as I am being pushed around by the wind a little bit I think that I should check behind me every once in a while to make sure that I'm not about to get hit by a by one of the big rig trucks. On the last of these occasions I look behind
me and the whole underground highway is quickly emptying out! Some of the vehicles exiting straight ahead some of them exiting to different exits on the right and left of this huge underground room. I decide to follow one of the vehicles that went through an exit on the right but I am the last one out and the door is closed but I smash through. The next room is like a huge long sound stage and I continue to fly towards the end of it and as I approach, the walls part a little bit as I go into another similar but differently colored sound stage. I continued through several more of these and they seemed a bit ominous but I don't seem to be scared at all knowing that this is just my dream and I can handle whatever comes up. Then I start getting directions from the dream in the form of arrows suggesting that I should go over to the right instead of the main opening straight ahead to the middle. There's a couple of openings that angle off to the right with
flapping doors and the dream suggests that I take a hard right and take one of these exits but I instead take the one between that one and the one that's straight ahead basically up and to the right a little bit. As I enter into the next room it looks much larger than the already huge rooms I was in before and I think even though there doesn't seem to be a lot going on in this room perhaps I should land and examine things more closely. As I'm thinking this I fade back to bed. I lay still for a while recalling details of the dream and the other dreams before it not feeling like rolling over and writing it down at this point.

Other dreams included being at a #waterPark that seems familiar, perhaps even familiar from another dream. I don't remember becoming lucid though. Another dream to do with the Los Angeles Dodgers moving and becoming the Dodge City #Dodgers #baseball. I also had a meaningful one involving my #highSchoolBestFriend meeting up with him for #dinner and as I look around the table I only see his kids. In the dream he has three sons but not so in waking life. Upon recollection, his wife seems to be substituted for my cousins wife, the boisterous blonde though there are some similarities between them. As I am wondering aloud where he is, he makes a grand entrance grabbing three huge oversized shots of liquor and bringing them to the table I give him a huge hug and he, my wife and a third person take the shots. I decide not to because I am driving but later noticed that I am finishing this bottle of some kind of #alcohol and I wonder how I could be so mindless. I
think that this dream was created by subconsciously uncovering some high school memories while (in waking life) looking at my wife's cousin's son's sports trophies yesterday. #dayResidue It involved the same sport that me and my best friend enjoyed together and of tournaments we participated in together just like the ones that some of these trophies are for. I don't remember specifically thinking of those memories yesterday but I strongly feel that they were somehow uncovered subconsciously and brought up during the dream. It has been quite a while since I have dreamed about my old best friend who I haven't seen in person for decades. I also had a fairly strong #emotional dream involving sitting across from #GirlFriday at #dinner and the eye contact we made while she was talking about moving a good ways off to a different city. It involved me with a sad feeling and sad look on my face and her looking at me for my reaction as if she wanted to know how I
truly felt about her.

8/24/14

Last night bed around 10pm - 4:45am

No recall, only feeling of good dreams.

After work unintended nap. I layed down on my traveling sofa to try an remote view. Fell asleep. Had a long and detailed dream. (After waking up, little later I recalled saying in a dream: "wow this lucid is kinda long")

I'm walking down a street with 2 other people. Suddenly there is only 2 of us. We wonder where we lost the 3rd one. I offer to go and look by remote viewing. I project my awareness out of my body and I feel a zooming sensation towards the last known location of the person. I feel a "transition" sensation in my head. I come to the location, see the person, and then I'm thinking how in the heck am I gonna get back to my body and tell the other person what I saw.

Next thing I know I'm back and I'm telling my friend that the person is just behind the corner, coming towards us.

In a dream, I have superpowers. I'm changing things just by thinking it. Large peace of paper hanging from a ceiling changed to a map, then map of something. Someone wanted a ruler, so I reached for it and mede it come to my hand by telekinesis, then I made it stretch towards the person asking for it so he can reach.

I wanted to make it snow. So I started gathering dark clouds, when I woke up. Btw, all this was happening in my mom's kitchen.

I was thinking yesterday and today about visiting my home in previous incarnation. Then at work, I read Astral travel for beginners and one cahpter was about "mind travels", which is remote viewing. Then as I layed down on my sofa, I tried to remote view.

Another dream from August 23 rd.

I was driving down a freeway, going a little faster than the speed limit. There were cops all around, and so I was trying to slow down. But the car wouldn't slow down. I had the brake pushed, but nothing happened. Fortunately, no cop cars stopped me. One of the cop cars was was dragging a car door behind it from a rope.

I got off the freeway, and pulled into a sea world or watermark type place. A friend of mine, J, was there. I saw her, and tried to avoid her to avoid awkwardness (long story IRL), but she saw me. I went to go give her a hg or something, bust she maneuvered away slightly to avoid it. She started to introduce a guy she was there with, but he had just walked off. But there was another guy that J knew who was there ( though she didn't know he was there at first). He came up and said hi to both of us. END

Short NLD from August 23rd.

I'm the instructor or an advanced student at a school where people are trying to learn to draw. There's a student who is drawing on a backboard, drawing a horse's tail. And I'm helping him by smudging the colors of the chalk on the tail.

That's it. It's odd, because is can't draw at all. I'm horrible. The last person who should be teaching drawing.

Not sure what my deal is lately! Recall has been low, and dream awareness has been low as well. Woke up around 5:00 AM, didn't remember any dreams. Also couldn't find my sleep mask. Walked all over the house, looking in the office, living room, and even kitchen and dining room. Wtf. I test my state, as I am really hoping I'm dreaming. Nope, just me and no sleep mask. I go back to bed, perform MILD (using seven affirmations instead of my normal 21), wrap a shirt around my head, and fall asleep.

I am in a living room with my grandfather and uncle. A baby is here, and the baby is insulting my grandfather. He keeps laughing (not at all in character for him). The baby then apologizes. Something suddenly seems off to me.

"That's weird that the baby apologized," I say to my grandfather and uncle. They just stare at me.

"Isn't that weird?" I ask. Can't remember what happened after that, but almost certain I state tested.

I am in my mother's house with my sister and one of her friends from childhood. We are all kids again. For some reason, I think that I am dreaming. Instead of nose pinching, like I normally do, I decide to phase my hand through the wall as a test. It fails (the wall remains solid) but my hand becomes transparent. I now decide to nose pinch. I can breathe, but think that maybe there is a second nose, or a part of my nose that hasn't been pinched yet. I double pinch my nose with my other hand. I'm dreaming!

I go up to my sister's friend and invite her to go flying. She agrees (I think) and we set off. I try to phase through the glass door but can't. I just open it and head out onto the back patio. I try to fly but cannot. I decide to walk up into the sky, using invisible stairs. I am heading up, step by step, when I suddenly fall back to the ground. I continue to try to fly (even reverting to swimming motions) but keep failing (in part because I am afraid I will fall into the pool). The dream finally (mercifully) ends.

I haven't been very lucid in my lucids lately. I think part of this has to do with returning to work--I'm often wrapped up in material thoughts as opposed to dream thoughts. Looking forward to finding that happy medium: the one where I'm not thinking about work at all, and thinking entirely about dreaming!

That being said "gentle MILD," as I have been calling it, seems to be doing alright as an induction method. I wonder though if it is also partially responsible for my drop in dream awareness?

I should have wrote my dreams earlier because I forgot most of what happened now.Oh well...-w-

First Dream(NonLucid/Lucid)
I was on dreamviews looking at things people posted when a guy started talking about something weird. I don't even remember what it was but I know it gave me a what the heck feeling.

Second dream(NonLucid/Lucid)
I was at a school looking for the exit and stumbled upon strange students.
I asked one who is my dream guide and he made a serious face and asked why would I want to know that.

Third Dream
I don't remember.