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I'm a young boy walking into a room which contains a sort of glass bubble, small, like a snowglobe or a paperweight, and through the glass I can see a girl the same age on the other side, who I think of as 'the princess,' a nickname. I'm aware the glass represents a barrier between worlds that we can't cross anymore, we can only meet here in between. The glass bubble now appears to be larger than me, and I walk up to it with my arms held out in front of me, as if I'm holding something like a tray - I'm thinking about bringing the princess something, though visually my hands are empty. I pass through the glass. Inside, it seems to be a little round room, and the princess is sitting at a desk; she sees me and gets up and says "Rell!", which seems to be my name; she sounds happily surprised.

non-dream dream semi-lucid lucid false awakening

(...) I meet a girl who is struggling with cancer. She is a concerned that she is getting too thin no matter what she eats. I try to help her recover her self-esteem. Somehow I feel she is redirecting her anger and frustration with being sick, to how she looks. I tell her it's normal to loose weight due to the treatments and the consequent lack of appetite. I tell her about my friend who died of cancer and the things she went through. Not so cheerful, I know, but then I offer to help her with her diet to see if she can get back to the weight where she feels comfortable. She actually gets a bit too fat, but still her frustration continues. One day, I'm taking her to my beach house to relax, but people are being evacuated from the beach because the ocean is a bit rough and also there is a giant shark close to the shore. She decides is the perfect opportunitty to put an end to her life by jumping from my balcony to the ocean. The waves reach the balcony and we risk being dragged by the next wave coming, the shark is just below, but I decide going after her and bringing her in. She calms down and apparently all goes well from then on.
This beach house is amazing, like a glass cube, but not so much privacy unless I keep the curtains close. But on the next day after the storm, I enjoy the radiant sun with all my curtains open and forget about it. Decide to do some workout fully naked. Bad mistake. After a while I realize there's some 2 or 3 guys watching me from a nearby location and having the time of their lives. I feel so embarassed, I grab the first piece of clothing I see around and run away. It is my pijama and when I notice, I'm on the elevator to the outside. Not a well thought decision. I find myself in the middle of a crowd in my pijama.
Then I wake up, but I feel I am lingering between sleep and awakefulness and attempt to WILD. I have the strangest experience, because I start seeing people, I realize, I'm back in the dream, but I am also moving my body on the bed but unlike other times in which this is enough to stop the dreaming, this time I could continue consciously dreaming with my eyes closed, while I was fully awake and moving my body. This has started to happen since I was able to have what it feels like REM during sitting meditation. Somehow it's like I turned on the ability to REM and dream while awake. Or maybe it's called hallucination

Date: 1 Aug

Total sleep time: 7 1/2 hrs

Natural wake: 2x, impression of vivid dreams with fleeting memory after both wakes

Dream quality: very vivid, realistic and generally stable, lasted a while

Recall: I had to rush out of bed as was late, spent a few mins motionless after wake but the dream memory began erasing, reviewed dream during shower and wrote down 4 hrs later

Tech: snooze by-product. After the normal alarm I pressed the snooze button which was set for 15 more mins.

DILD+: The beginning of this dream is almost impossible to recall as were my very first actions while lucid. I think it was one of those from scratch dilds, where I suddenly appear in a scene.

The location is a non-existent room with an open view to the street of our first home. I look around and say something to the DCs in this strange room. There are a number of them, at least two are classmates. I have no idea what I said there, or what else I noticed in the first part of the ld.

Then I think that I'd better start doing some tasks as I worry that I will either lose lucidity or destabilize the dream by not engaging thoroughly. Haven't thought about tasks for a while, but look at my hand where I have mentally recorded my tasks irl. I recall 4-5 tasks. Any that involve leaving the room are out of the question, as I have the certainty that this lead to me losing control over the situation in this particular dream. So I decide to stay in the room and see what I can do here.

My personal "ask a DC" task comes to mind and I go over to the DC girl that looks like my classmate and ask her how to ld more often. She says a few words that don't make any sense. I repeat the last word she said, asking for a confirmation. While she is in front of me, she continues talking, but now I hear her voice coming from somewhere to my right. I find this kind of strange. Also, the DC of my dad, who only looks like him but has an aggressive nasty feel to him, is there. He behaves daringly, coming closer to me and then grabs me. For a moment I feel helpless as this DC is very strong. I struggle for a while, then recall a similar situation where I escaped a DC by thinking that he can't hold me because I have no hands/body. This works again so he lets go and I back away.

Hearing the girl's voice coming from a different location helps me remember I also wanted to do alternative voice experiments. I say a sentence, but I only hear my own voice. I gather more power and shout out. This time my voice sounds different and there is a pleasant resonance, a bit like echo, but not exactly.

I move on to the next task "transformation" and get ready do it, although I feel that my dream control powers in this dream are very weak. I notice that I am wearing my winter coat plus a hood and feel very warm. I just want to take those winter clothes off before I proceed with the transformation. I start unbuttoning the coat but then remember that none of my naked TOTM attempts were successful. I feel this will take too much time to execute and might destabilize the dream as well. I think about ripping my winter coat, but I just can't find the courage to do it. I go over to another classmate (male) and delegate the task to him.

My classmate does a very good job undressing me, the layers of top clothes just disappear in front of my eyes. Then I get carried away, sit on top of him and start kissing him, forgetting about anything else. A few moments later, I notice that I am sitting in the darkness, I guess kissing with my eyes closed?, but I still feel his body and the room. I begin wondering what exactly am I kissing, are these his lips or his tongue. Very confusing. I can see now, weirdly, his ears catch my attention and I zoom into some strange things there. I tell him that he will need to clean his ears later on.

I have no more sexy interest and think about the dream and that it was pretty stable and long. I am running out of tasks, and regret that I have no idea what this month's TOTM is. I decide that I will try to reach out for this information and my tablet magically appears in front of me. The browser as well as the virtual keyboard open and I want to type dreamviews.com.

The initial letters are fine, but towards the end, the keyboard letters are on the wrong places and reverse. I try to ignore the problem, tapping on where I know the letters should be. I type something close to dreamviews.cm and the page starts loading but the address changes to something like google, and the page that loads is google as well. Just instead of the google logo, it's something with less letters and reverse again. Disappointed I leave the tablet aside and look around.

I think at this point the dream ends, but instead of me going through the void, the dream skips forward to the next scene.

This leaves me a bit confused, as I expect to have a non-ld FA or wake up, so I passively start thinking about this. I remain disoriented in the room as the surroundings change and then gain back my clarity to realize that the dream continued in this strange manner. I am now in a very large furniture store, where me and my bf are the only "clients". It's a very calm atmosphere, crystal clear and extremely realistic. I wonder what to do in this room and see an empty champagne glass that I take with the intention of breaking. I am somewhat reluctant to do it, as it feels bad to be vandalizing this nice quiet real-life like shop. I playfully throw it high in the air, but instread of falling on the floor and breaking, it lands comfortably in my hand. I find this very cool and I do it again...

At this point the snooze alarm wakes me up!

So In my dream, I’m sitting in a room with a doctor. The doctor kind of looked like the character who played the father in Fallout 3, and the room was like an interrogation room; white walls, a metal table with metal chairs, and a big one way glass window. I was really there to be psychologically evaluated (Coincidentally I talked about being psychologically evaluated with my parents in real life a few days prior to the dream.) While in this room the doctor told me that we were almost done with testing, and that I had one more left to do (I don’t remember the previous tests.) I told the doctor that I was ready. The doctor then bent downward to grab something; I was presented with a glass of water. “Tell me, is this glass of water half empty of half full?” The doctor asked.

I leaned down to get a closer look at the glass of water to see if it really was half empty or half full, but it was completely in half. The glass the water was in was straight and didn’t have slanted sides like most cups do. I contemplated with myself to decide whether or not it is half empty of half full. I look up back at the doctor and think about what the doctor might be thinking. Then I thought to myself “Why is this glass of water even here? Why do they even give this test anyways? If I pick half full I’m an optimist, if I pick half empty I’m a pessimist. Why the fuck should this matter anyway?” During this I kept a straight face in front of the doctor so that I could keep him guessing.

“I bet you want me to pick half empty don’t you, because I look like I’m pessimistic. But if I choose half full you’ll think I’m doing it to prove you wrong. You know what, Fuck this glass of water!” After thinking to myself I made my decision. “You know what; can I drink this glass of water?” I asked the doctor “By all means go ahead.” The doctor replied. I smiled, picked up the glass of water, and prepared to drink. But before I could feel the first cold drop on my lips I stopped midway. I thought about drinking this glass of water and what it might mean for the results of the test. “What would it yield?” I thought. I put the glass of water back down, I leaned back on my seat, took a deep breath, looked at the glass of water, then back at the doctor.

I looked the doctor square in the eyes and said, “I’m sorry for what I’m going to do.” I took my left hand, raised it in the air and swiped the glass off of the table. It hit the wall and shattered into pieces leaving a watery mess on said wall and floor. I looked at the doctor’s face and saw that he kept a mostly straight face, but I felt the shock the doctor felt. “Screw that glass of water, I choose neither half empty nor half full.” I told him “Very well Edward, I’ll evaluate your results and be back with you shortly.” The doctor said (Edward is my real name), and then he got up and walked out of the room. I leaned forward on the table, rested, and held my hands in front of me and thought about what I’ve done. “What is this doctor thinking now?” I said.

After a few minutes of waiting I heard footsteps in front of the door. I was excited about what the results might be, but before the door opened I heard a radio like sound, kind of a like a walkie-talkie. As the door opened the doctor entered the room, but he wasn’t alone. Along with him were two armed security guards, and they didn’t look friendly. I slumped back on my chair and held my head down looking up at the doctor and these guards, analyzing them. The doctor told me that I have become a great hazard and I am not permitted to leave, and that I had to be taken away to a facility. Those guards were my escorts.

Inside it felt like I was heating up, like I was burning inside. Gradually whatever the doctor was saying to me started to fade away, to a point where all I could hear were my breathes and heartbeat. My breathing started to get faster as the doctor was talking, he then motioned to the guards to take me. As they were approaching me my heart raced, my breathing quickened, and all I heard were a ringing, my heart, and my breaths. Then out of nowhere a loud whisper came upon me, “BREAK!” My brain clicked and I then felt a rush. I immediately sprang up; the guard on my right grabbed my shoulder. I grabbed his left wrist with my right hand, swooped under him, punched his side with my left hand, grabbed his wrist with my left, and pushed his left elbow forward, breaking it. The other guard, tried to charge at me, pulling out his gun. I back kicked him with my left leg. He staggered backwards and hit the wall behind him. He raised the gun in hand ready to shoot me. Simultaneously I picked up the metal table in front of him. The guard shot the gun at me, the bullet hit the table. I kicked the table as hard as I could and knocked out the second guard.

My eyes were wide open; my head was pulsating, and took a deep breath. I looked at the doctor with a 1000 yard stare, and slowly approached. He smiled reached in his pocket and pulled out a device with a red button on it. He pushed the button, which turn on the alarm to the building. “The secrets you want you can’t have, you’ll have to take them!” The doctor yelled, and then bolted out of the room. I chased after him until I was outside of the room. It was large hallway with many doors, and I was at the center. The doctor ran down the left side of the hallway and turned the corner. I was about to chase him, that was until right after he turned a large group of security guards appeared and headed right towards me. The sound of everything started to fade away again until I heard my breath and heartbeat again. I approached them as they were approaching me, then I awakened.

The fact that I was able to get all this detail from a dream has gotten me all flabbergasted. But this dream really hit me and I tried to remember as much of it as possible, and wrote down whatever I could as soon as I woke up. Please I need to know what this means!

I was at a swim meet. It was in an open, airy room. I think that there were glass walls, or a glass roof. I wasn't swimming as fast as I could, because everyone in front of me was swimming slowly.

I think that I might have been in a twisted version of the Bubble. There must have been 8-10 lanes there, long-course. I was slacking off, then I decided to go all out. I swam at would normally be considered a sprint for almost an entire 200 meters, and I felt this great feeling of pride, and I could tell that everyone was watching me. I had the feeling that people were there from school, and they were amazed that I could swim that fast. I watched myself in third person. I was happy that my practicing was finally paying off, to the point that I could swim a 200 sprint without running out of breath.

[Sunday, September 9th, 2012] [5am]
I'm at my Mom's house. Memory skips to... Brent and someone else, maybe Nathan, we look at a paper being held by someone and see a WANTED face and are shocked. We find a "Christmas" ornament object laying on a piece of blanket/tissuepaper on the ground by the printer and take it outside. It's outside and we're planning on breaking it. That's when we hear Casey SCREAM at us- in a hissy fit. We go back inside and Mum is taking Casey's side and starts yelling at Brent. It's unfair and I can see that Mum is obviously wrong so I run at her and exclaim, "YOU KNOW WHAT?" She shoves me when I get to close against my rib and there's a sharp pain that lasts for only a moment. I use that to my advantage and try to make her feel guilty, "OW MY RIBS. You just punched me in my RIBS." But before I know it, I think to drop out of this, "fight" and wonder if Brent and the other person can just work this out... but I know that Mum will end up winning and get it "her" way, without me. I wake up.

(I have more dreams, but I wake up with a jolt because of my Gramma waking me up. Godammit. No one understands... maybe I should tell them about it?)

(I spend the rest of my day with B & C on my hands. It's a lucid day. I'm positive I'll lucid dream tonight.)

Last Nights Dream

I am at a mans house and I'm here to clean for him. He takes me into a room now and it's really weird in here. There are like swirly lights around and they are all different colours. The floor is made out of glass and there I water underneath it. The walls are also made of glass and they are also full of water.
I feel like I can't really breathe in here so I open a door in the glass wall and walk through it. I now see a man and a woman in a tank but there's no water in it, the man is dead and the woman is lying on top of him half dead. I get some bread and shove it down her throat to kill her, it actually felt quite good when I done this!
I now walk out into the garden, I see a bed and lie down on it. My stomache now feels really tight and painful, it feels like I have a belt pulled very tightly around it but there is no belt. I'm saying to people "I can't breathe, it's so tight, god what is it?" a man says "sit down there and see how that feels" so I sit down on the chair but get straight back up saying "ohh god it's soo painful, it's so tight, what's wrong with me!!" I'm holding my stomache and can't stand up straight.

This dream is a weird one.

I start off departing a flying saucer with a group of aliens. One of them is my father I think. All the aliens are white and sort of egg shaped, but still have facial features and limbs. We go to some area that's invisible to humans. There's a glass wall where we can see humans walking by. This area looks like a giant living room, and there's a bunch of random furniture that's all facing the same direction. Some aliens are hiding behind this furniture. Humans continue to walk by, and a slightly chubby little boy looks right at me, and he sees me some how. He starts freaking out, and I don't remember what we do with him.

Then my memory fast forwards me to the living room in my house. I'm with an alien that I think is my father. There are humans coming into the house, and we hide inside a cupboard that doesn't exist in waking life. The last thing I remember is trying really hard to squeeze in there, and feeling proud of myself and very safe once I do. My alarm went off and I didn't get a chance to finish the dream.

Key:
{Curly brace & blue} .... Relevent waking life details before entry, if appropriate

Black .... Dream body/narative text

(Standard braces & dark green, bold) .... Dream notes, lucidity, time. method etc

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{This one is from last night.... 04 June 2012}

(Non-Lucid... Fragment only)

I’m inside the 'airside' departures at a large international airport, airside, like Amsterdam Schipol..
There is a huge area of glass window.. Its just slightly light outside... I think its really early morning
I'm looking out across the tarmac, and runway, thats all 'lit up' seeing planes taxi-ing, taking off and landing

Key:
{Curly brace & blue} .... Relevent waking life details before entry, if appropriate

Black .... Dream body/narative text

(Standard braces & dark green, bold) .... Dream notes, lucidity, time. method etc

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{This one is from last night.... (31 may 2012)
Waking life I've had some worries over a close friend for quite a while...
We normally share quite a lot, but I can tell there is something going on, that he's not sharing at the moment
I'd like him to open up on what ever is going on, because I'm worried about him}

(Non-Lucid)

I’m walking around a large glass topped 'observation deck' on top of a tall tower.
It has a glass floor as well, so I can see the city down below.
There are tables and chairs in the observation deck,

Theres a set of ornate (presumably lift) doors in a solid bit in the middle of the observation deck.. (the tower)
... My mate walks through the doors, and comes towards me purposefully..
... We give each other a big embracing hug
(I woudn't do that in waking life, even for a close friend...)
... He tells me "everything's going to be alright, and he needs to sort a few things out by himself"
... We go and take a seat at one of the tables, which I didn't notice before had a felt lined backgammon board in the table top
... We start playing backgammon (Don't know how to play waking life.. so must have made up the rules in my dream)
... While playing, we talk for a while about random/meaningless and irelevent/mundane stuff
..... Part way through the 'random' conversation he tells me how spending time together with a mate is what he needs right now
... We carry on chatting any playing

I was in a mall, and there was a pop'n music arcade game. I went up to it and saw that the buttons were spaced all weird I did a reality check and became lucid. I jumped through a pane of glass (the wall was made of glass and you could see the center of the mall through it) to confirm any doubt I may have had. It works and I'm on the other side. Impressed with that, I walked through the mall and remember that I wanted to do the dream challenge cedward proposed, and sought out the first chamber. There was a group of DCs behind a desk, and I ask one if she knew where the chamber was. She told me she didn't. I said "are you sure?" but she didn't answer me back. I asked a lady outside of the desk, and she got really nasty. She asked "is your 1337 self a dragon or something," whatever that means. I should've looked harder for the chamber, but I gave up and instead tried shapeshifting into a dragon (the lady had reminded me that I wanted to do this). I leaped up and tried to grow wings but it didn't work and I woke up.

I am in a house with my Hubby, it's our house but it's a bit different only the dining room is the same. I go into the dining room and push all the chairs back under the table and tidy up. I walk into the kitchen to get a cloth to wipe the table, I walk back to the dining room and when I reach the doorway I nearly have a heart attack because the table has been pushed up against the unit and the chairs from that side have been placed into the Center of the room. I can now feel the bad ghost that always haunts my dreams and I scream "ohhh my god, it's here again!!!!!" I think to myself "this is like the film poltergeist" I shout my hubby to come and have a look and he does. I now run upstairs and feel the ghost thing next to me...it's the most god-awfull feeling in the world!!! It now suddenly goes all dark. I look about the dark room and see candles placed about in there, I pick one up to help me see but now it's changed into a crappy little torch, the light from it is very dull. I make my way back to the dining room...I'm scared because I can feel the really nasty presence so I quickly walk past the dining room so it can't get me. My eldest daughter L comes over and says "weird" I say "why" she says "it went dark as soon as you felt the ghost again". I am now standing at the bottom of the stairs, I'm talking to J, my husbands sister, she has short hair and looks very different, we are waiting for someone to come and get rid of the ghost. There is a glass door to my left and someone suddenly bangs on it. I can see a mans figure through the glass, J shouts "hang on" then he bangs the glass harder but this time he's banging on it with his hammer, I now think "SHIT!!" then J shouts to him "fuckin hang on I said!!!" then he comes in and it's Russell Howard, I then wake up.

I'm in a mall
I enter the mall and go to a Jewellery
store.

I dont like what i see on the first Jewellery
store, so i leave the store and go to another Jewellery
store.

On this second one, there´s another costumer beside me customer.

I look at the owner, who is behind the counter.

He´s around thirty years old, has black hair and a brown cream shirt.

He complimented me and asked me if he can help in anything.

I tell him I'm interested in seeing the papier maché package of a ring, and that i want to know the price of a thick silver silver necklace.

He and the client have a strange behaviour during the time I'm talking, they look like they´re not understanding very well what I´m saying.

Comment: It seems that during the time I speak, the owner and the client freeze...I think i was close to lucidity, as during the time they were frozen, I realized that there was something wrong, something unreal in all that...

The owner and the customer return to normal and the owner tells me he thinks he can help.

The owner begins to show me different jewelry.

The counters are made of dark brown wood,they look a bit old; the counters have glass, both on the shelves and on each side of the counters.

Herein appears the owner of the first Jewellery store where I entered before.

It´s S.

She shows up and starts looking for anything on display in this Jewellery store.


She says, "Okay, I'll have to sell here."

From what I understand, it seems that S will sell some of her merchandise in this jewlery, but she will keep the profits.
The owner of this Jewellery store does not seem to matter.

I look to S, and I notice that she has a very prominent forehead ....
I look better and notice two tops in her head, like two misshapen and large blisters.

I go to another store that has clothing and surf articles.

I enter the store and i see a blue bodyboard on the wall.
Behind the counter of this store is S A.

Me and the owner of the second jewelry are eating something at a bakery in the shopping.

During the breakfast he says that he would eat S's pussy if I could.
I turn to him and tell him I know S from elementry,throughout high school.

He is embarrassed for saying what he said to me.

I'm in a nightclub. I walk closer to the front desk of the DJ.
On top of it see a Propellerheads, it´s the decksanddrumsandrockandroll album.
The album is under a average-sized dj headphones.
I recognize the cd because of the cover, which has flames of fire, like in an explosion, and the silhouette of two men.
I think I have a glass of something in my hand, most of the disco lights are green, although there are purple ones too.

Another centre parcs dream, was quite traumatic, again one of those stressful slowmotion fights I have. WBTB 4.5 hours: 5.15am

Vividness: 8
Recall: 6
Overall: 5

Non-Lucid Lucid Comment
I am at my sixth form common room, everything looks normal, nothing particularly odd, I walk over to the other side of the room and these two girls grab me, sort of feeling me up.
Fade.
I am at a telephone by the side of the road, completely naked except my boxers, I think it's raining but I can't be sure, I look down and there is a woman near my knees, I hear a door open behind me and they both run in, inviting me in.
Fade.
I am at a lodge in centre parcs, my parents have gone out and I have been left with my siblings, outside I hear a rabble of teenagers. I go out to see whats going on.
After a short conversation the thugish brute like boy tells me he wants to party in my house, he is accompanied by two odd looking girls and another, slightly shorter guy.
I don't want my brother and sister hanging around with that sort, I tell them no, but they aren't having any of it, and they push their way in.
The largest teen walks behind my kitchen, helping himself to my food, I get really angry. A voice inside my head says no (it could be my brother or sister) but it's too late, I go slow mo and pick up a large glass and chuck it with all my might at his head. It hits him right between the eyes but barely recoils. He goes down to pick it up and lauches it my way.