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Kind of a weird post, to start of my dream journal but whatever, here we go..

Brightness turns into a shape, it's a zoo.

Due to personal reasons I havent been to a zoo in a long time, altough the last time was quite fun.

After i realize that I'm in a exotic part of the zoo, the one with the tropical animals such as snakes and iguanas, I notice my pet Juancho in a terrarium. So I run towards him and try to alwardly poke around the glas. I try to shout "that's my lizard!" but it seems that nobody can hear me.

The dream progresses and the next thing is me walking down some stairs. As I walk down the stairs I notice there is a big party going on around me and the people are dancing and having fun. I try to find my friends but some guys jump me, I must have pissed them off somehow. One guy beats me and grips my nuts and squeezes them.. UGH.. I wake up in a hospital and get a poorly made Apology note.


As i wake up i remember i forgot to feed my pet lizard Juancho and give him 2 fat crickets.

I dreamed that I got these pets for our kids: a miniature King Kong (real one), a couple kittens and a lizard. The King Kong was hugging the kittens not gently enough. My husband wanted to know why this choice of pets, and I explained that I thought they would keep things lively.

I at least know why the kittens. We went to a dinner party last night, and the hostess was telling us about a cat she was watching for friends who used to menace a fish in a bowl (the fish was also those friends). When they came back for their pets, they said they had in the meantime adopted three kittens.

Lizards and Snakes

There were a bunch of baby chamelions. Then a snake came and had one in it's mouth.
A narrator started explaining how all the lizards were being eaten, and then there
were many snakes and they were all eating a lizard until there were none left.

Then the narrator started explaining how the lizards are vulnerable when they are out
of their homes, and he started explaining about their homes. He explained that the lizards
lived in a little hole, and I'm seeing everything that is being explained.

The lizards would chew a little home from wood and have their babies in the home. Then
the babies need to chew their own home, and in that time, they are vulnerabl. In this case,
Snakes had eaten every lizard that was running around, but there was a whole where some lizards
had been spared. They came out and there was a whole batch of lizards that survived.

Then one of the snakes was making his home. It was an Eastern King snake, and it made its "home"
by crawling "hard" into the ground, but again, the snake crawled in a piece of wood. The snake
carved out an indentation in the wood as though it were crawling through sawdust.

The snake was crawling around me. I wanted it to crawl around me, so I stayed very still
so it wouldn't go away or bite me. It started crawling around me and I thoguht it was awesome.
He was about 3 feet long and very pretty. Then I noticed that a bit towards its head, the snake's
body was torn. It looked like the nylon from old pool chairs. I felt bad for the snake, but it
also signaled trouble. Then the snake looked at itself pretending it was going to bite itself.
This was just a ploy to not draw attention to the fact that it was going to bite me, which it did.
It didn't hurt, but it was annoying.



Attorney and the Monster

This was such a cool dream. I was watching Perry Mason. His table was in the middle of a huge, empty
room, and surrounded by a little wall all around him about knee or waist high. This scene later repeated
with the wall a bit higher. Anyway, that was the opening scene. Moving forward, a man is choking a
woman on the ground. He doesn't kill her; he merely scares her. She's fine, but she can't get up.

The man runs away, she looks over and now I see where she is looking. There is a rock wall like a cave
wall or something. There are jagged rocks. Right against the wall and kind of blending in, is a rock monster.
He is made of a line of flat rocks standing on edge getting bigger and bigger as they go to his head.
It is kind of like a snake, except made of increasingly larger, flat rocks. Its head is like a triangular
rock, but the corners are way rounded. His expression is painted on with lines drawn in either pink or black,
strange, but I can't really remember which. The eyes were just lines, as with the mouth, but the expression
was eerie. He looked evil. The eyes were drawn like lines going up, over, and back down, so like a frowning face.
the mouth was just a line also, but painted on this rock face, and that rock body, all on the ground, it was
humble and miserable...and wanted to get the girl that had been choked.


The Dog and Flying

I had a dog that was in a cage I think, on a train. It got off the train. I held it by a leash, and someone
told me to just try to get him back up on the train.

I then saw a lady come down from a second story in an apartment, and then come out through a closet. I figured
I could go up if she had gone up and come back down. I went in the closet and saw an opening in the ceiling. It
would be awkward getting up through that opening, but I believed I could do it, so I jumped up to fly through,
which I was successful at. I ended up in an up-stairs area. I knocked over a telephone because I was still flying,
though I was heavy and not very skilled.

I had something like a balloon or something that I put under me. It helped keep me afloat. Now I knock over a
large, multi-line phone. It falls downstairs. I say, "Watch out!" but it hits right next to a woman who never
even tried to move. She looked up. I said, "It wasn't my fault!" It wasn't, though it felt as though it were almost
my fault.

I dip down again as I'm not good at flying, and went back up as I worked on my belief.

The End

A challenge. I was with some people. Two of us were pulled out by some kind of master. His clothing reminds me of Middle East, although he doesn't have a beard and all. He looks quite young, probably early 20s.

We're somewhere near a beach, with tall grasses. He pointed out the gigantic crab claws waving above the tall grasses. We're supposed to fight them. I got scared. I said something like, "You've got to be kidding me!" Then another set of claws appeared.

The master started clicking his fingers to call the giant crabs. I said wait, but started running back at the same time, and clicking my own fingers. I saw a lot of other claws appear. One giant crab finally went out of the grasses, which I assumed was their home. I went after my other companion and snapped its claws against him. Then it went after me. It's red and huge. I waved my arms to drive it away, and it went back to the other guy.

Finally, I used magic to send some sort of water wave against it. I don't know what logic I used, but I guess the crab was weak against it, because it drove it away. Then I started shooting water attacks against the rest of the giant crabs, until they became small (or went so far away as to look small).

Then I sensed a bigger danger. We hid inside and behind rock houses (yes, rock, not stone). We saw a HUGE lizard pass by.

Someone asked the master to stop the lizard, but he said no. It's still part of our training. That's why he timed it today. I think I somehow also knew the lizard would be coming today, which made me hesitant to use my powers earlier.

Somehow, I ended up outside with two others. The lizard was right ahead of us. I thought of summoning a wall, but decided to summon a tower around us. Then we flew up to the top. I saw the lizard down below. I shot it with a lightning spell, and it died.

Then I was in a town or village. A guy (the master?) was pouring soup into a plastic container, but it was so hot it melted it. We had to use an extra one. Had thoughts about salvation, and how our good works would not be enough. Got depressed at the thought. Snow?

My hometown. There was some sort of race. I wanted to join. I went home to get proper clothing. There's a sort of train there. My clothing were in a rectangular box. There were two of them. One contains files and books.

I'm In Ronan, a town fifteen miles away. The Smoke Shack has somehow turned into a Pet store. I'm Looking through the glass cages at the pets. The Lizards and snakes on one side of the island cases I'm looking at, Mammals on the other. All the birds are up high and sleeping. None of the cases have a top. I lean down and look at a line of lizards when I notice this. One of the lizards at the right end catch my eye cause he is jumping up and down trying to get out. I walk to that end noticing a red and white snake in one of the cages I pass. I reach the end of the cages and study the jumper. He is no longer leaping but staring at me studying back. I then Notice the Lizard in the cage next to him. He is blue and black with silver spikes that look more like blades coming out of him everywhere. I then Call myles over and tell him to check it out. He says it reminds him of something and I agree saying it reminds me of a pokemon. I go back to studying the jumper and realise he is like a bearded dragon only different type of spikes. almost like his neighbour he has blades. the Clerk is nowhere to be seen so I try to pick him up when I drop him in the cage below his. I also notice a white and black one that kind of looks like the Ying Yang symbol on its head. I look down to see the Jumper eating whatever was in the cage I dropped it in. I quickly scoop him up and put him back into his cage and grab the black and white one. I ask myles to help look for where he goes and he quickly points out the spot with two other identical lizards so I dump him in there only to see him walk through a hole in the back wall of his cage. I give Myles a puzzled look and then turn to my right, right when the clerk comes walking up. I ask to get the Jumper and hope he doesn't notice the missing lizard. where is he? the clerk asks kind of making me worry then he goes on to say he must be in his shell. It has a shell I say and the clerk is like no not a real one its a decoration that comes with it. ok i say and ask for a box to put it in but the clerk just hands me the shell/wood decoration with the lizard inside and says he'll be fine. Myles and I walk outside and hop on our bikes. we start going down the highway back to polson. The Lizard keeps jumping off my hand and I have to grab it. About half way between ronan and pablo I am distracted by blowing heat on the lizard when myles says look out and I look up to see a glass or plastic see through tunnel thing on the road. Inside the tunnel but facing the other way are slanted wooden spikes covered in blood. the front of my bike goes in the tunnel and if the spikes were facing me I would have been impaled. the lizard then jumps in the tunnel thing and I have to grab it. Myles and I start going around the tunnel on the left side. As were riding next to it the lizard jumps out of my hand and squeezes his way under the tunnel thing. I immediately jump off my bike and lift the tunnel to grab the lizard. once i have him i drop the tunnel and get back on my bike. he jumps from my hands again and runs to the left side of the road. as I go to pick him up i kneel and grab right when i turn my head to the right and see a car coming at me.

03.15.2012

Laundromat & Coin Machine, Girl in a Pure White Dress, Tutor, Lizard (Non-lucid)

NON-DREAM DREAM LUCID

Dream 1: Laundromat & Coin Machine

I'm inside some random laundromat, and I'm waiting for a vacant washing machine to put my clothes in. After waiting for a few minutes, I see one machine is almost done, and the person next to it, I'm assuming it's their clothes.

What made me assume it was almost done was hearing it do a Final Rinse, and everything sounded light, so once it stopped, I immediately opened it and then moved back quickly. The person was looking at me in a "okaaaaaaay?" face.

It was as if I was trying to portray to them that I was pissed that they're taking so bloody long to realize their clothes are finished, but it ended with me just holding it back when I quickly moved back; it was sort of a non-violent aggressive attempt that ended with a few seconds of feeling ashamed.

Since it would take some time for this person to take OUT their clothes, I decided that I should going ahead and convert the cash in my hand into quarters for the machines. I walk through this aisle of machines, ignoring all the people's facial structures, and I go towards the coin machine in the aisle right of me.

From here, I'm not sure the order of what happened, but I'll just mention what I think went on at first.

I try to put some cash (paper money) inside the machine, and it ends up printing out this paper of useless information that I can't remember. I'm wondering what the hell is this crap is, and so in response to this random printing, I chew on the paper and form it into a ball.

Then when it's finally formed into a ball, I get a pair of scissors, I don't know where they came from, but they appear in my hand. I believe it was purple with some white inside the holes to put your finger in, which would make sense since I have a purple one in my apartment. (I guess it was easier for my mind to use that association for it to manifest a scissors without me knowing of it).

It felt kind of funny trying to cut up the balled up paper saturated with my spit and everything, but I don't blame myself for doing it, it was my fear of certain information that could've been about me that I wanted to cut up into pieces, since I have a slight fear with receipts or papers that go to the trash, but could contain information about my debit card or something like that.

I continue cutting up the balled up and wet paper, and I really try to cut this thing into small little pieces, then after a while, I just give up and throw the rest of it in the trash that is conveniently placed next to the coin machine.

I put in $5 in the machine, and I have a cup in my hand that resembles the same small and transparent rice measuring cup that I use for storing the coins in waking lief. (don't worry I clean the cup when I'm going to make rice in real life )

I hear the machine jingling and moving stuff inside a little, and the coins come out through the small semi-circular dome that's upside down to contain the coins. I get the coins with my left hand, and then I realize I have the rice measuring cup in my hand, and I put them in there.

Then I put another $5 in the machine, but it doesn't accept it, and it comes back out. I look at the money, and I didn't really pay attention too much in this non-lucid, but the face on the dollar was Benjamin Franklin instead of Andrew Jackson.

I was so irritated by the machine not accepting this cash that I didn't bother to check that I'm really trying to put $100 or a $5 bill with the wrong face on it. I also realized that the paper money came out with the face facing towards me.

So I decide to flip it around to where the face is a away from me, and the machine finally accepts it. I don't know if I got the coins out of the machine, but I think I shift my attention towards a random DC that has their top region naked.

The person looked like they came out of an Anime or something, then they turn around to me, and I see that it's Tobi from Naruto Shippuden. I don't know what I'm asking of him, but the conversation was pretty quick, maybe just me trying to know something and moving on with my path in this dream.

Dream 2: Girl in a Pure White Dress

I'm in an environment that feels like it's near my apartment complex. It's daytime, and the weather seems calm, the clouds seem just fine, perfect weather in fact. I don't know what I'm riding, it feels like I'm riding a car, but at the same time I feel like I'm riding my bicycle since it's my primary mode of transportation to get somewhere in College Station.

I come up to the end of the road that I'm on, I look left and right for any incoming cars, and I have to move a little bit more since there were a few cars left and right that were blocking even my peripheral vision and direct vision as well.

I move up, and I look on left side again, without looking at the right side again, and I continue to move forward to where I go into this somewhat run down area. I try to find somewhere to park the bicycle I'm on. (I know it's my bicycle now because I remember I'm not really steering any kind of wheels)

The reason why it takes a while for me to find a place to park because in my mind, I feel lik I'm driving a car, but I know I'm riding a bicycle, so I should've looked for bicycle racks to lock my bike near to.

I try to pay attention to these empty parking spaces, because some look like they're reserved only for the people who live around this area, and I didn't want to get the bicycle towed (LOL bicycle being towed...LOL).

I go a little bit further and see there's some spot that says "Medium-sized Vehicles," and these vehicles really were medium sized, in fact, if I were to get close to them, they would only reach up to near the top level of my crotch region.

I go to this area, and I get ready to lock my bike. I get the key out, and then I realize where the heck is the actual locking mechanism for the key to lock the bike.

I search my backpack, and I move around my hand like I'm picking a random piece of paper in a magician's hat or something instead of actually using my eyes to see what's inside. I feel the bicycle lock (it's one of those with a small locking container with thick wires covered in black and flexible plastic material to wrap around the wheel of your bike) and lock my bicycle.

Paying attention to my peripheral vision, I see three random guys sitting down near where I am, and they're just chilling. They're talking about something, and I'm looking over at one dude for a while for some odd reason, but then I noticed he had a Zune HD in his hand.

I was going to get into a conversation about how he has a Zune HD, and mention that I have one as well. In fact, I was just about to engage in this predictable conversation with this DC, but immediately, a girl in a pure white dress comes in out of nowhere.

She obviously needs help, and she's asking me where some place is, I believe she asked where is room 208 located at.

Because she came in at a time where I was just developing a thought process, I told her in a rushed voice, "Don't worry, I'll show you where it is."

She pauses, and I can feel her shy and surprised state of mind, because it seemed she was asking the guys instead of me. I was going to start my conversation with the guy with the Zune HD, but I stopped and decided to walk along with this female in this elegant white dress.

My image of her dress wasn't too vivid, but I know it was a white dress, and everything else was vivid to me. I continue walking with her, and I asked her again if it was Room 206 or 208.

Then I realized she was talking about my Political Science Class 206, but she said she's looking for 208 since she already took 206. After that, I showed her to the room 208, and it just so happens that this is the room that I'm going to apparently.

As we're walking down the steps to find our seats in the somewhat large lecture room, I could feel her trying to develop something to say to me as a means to thank me for helping her.

So she started out by putting her hand in front of me to shake. I believe she said her name was Rosie (I didn't ask for her to spell it out unfortunately), and she's really happy for me helping her.

I responded by shaking her hand and telling her, "I'm Brandon, it's nice to meet you." I thought she was going to go further to the front seats with me, seeing as it's probably her first time in this room.

But a friend calls her by the name of "Angie," and she hears her and goes near her. I was going to go further to the front row, but I decided to try and sit one seat below her row by sitting at seat at the edge of the row.

There was a person one seat to the right of where I was going to sit, so I asked him if anyone is going to sit here.

He says "Yes," and I swore he was irritated by me asking, but I won't bother remembering his demeanor, I just know he was wearing a black shirt. (Now that I think about it, it was funny have the guy in the black dress shirt, and the girl I helped in the pure white dress just a few feet from each other....it was like seeing light and dark).

So because he said "Yes," instead of me feeling awkward from this, I decided to move up to where Rosie/Angie was sitting by, and I asked if anyone was sitting next to her.

Then her friend, that looked somewhat familiar, but I couldn't get a good facial pattern from her said something about me being left-handed, and that I should sit in between the two of them since the seats next to them where for right handed people. I didn't mind this at all, and was surprised she mentioned this about me.

I can't remember much after that other than sitting between Rosie/Angie to my right and her cheerful friend to the left of me.

Dream 3: Tutor

I am inside a review session for something, because when I see a student up front, I immediately assume it's just for review on an exam. They were talking about something, and I'm just in that passive mode of just taking information in without actually synthesizing it into tangible information like I usually do during lecture classes.

Then I realize I should move to another room because another tutor is having a review session for something else. And the person in the room tutoring was a girl that looked like Erica.

This Erica look a like was wearing a sweater with black tights that covered basically her thighs and part of her knees, and I'm not really paying attention to the things she's saying. After a while, I decided to leave, and I head for a few double doors, only to find that we can't go through because of some maintenance going on.

I decided to go to the far left double doors, same thing, I can't go there because of the same issue. I see someone who looks like a security guard, so I decided to tap his arm a little bit, and then I found some people walking up from some other set of double door, so I told the guy "Never mind," and proceeded to go downstairs.

Dream 4: Lizard

I'm outside, and I'm sitting near some bench with other students, and the teacher or whoever was in charge of some event that I'm not too keen of remembering well.

We were doing a bunch of random things, and I swore I saw a lizard come out of a guy's pocket, but that's all I remember.

I remember swimming....wrestling with this thick juicy black girl...but I left. I was running around school. It seemed like my old elementary in a way, but things about it were different. I was jumping and sliding across things like I was grinding with my skates on. I got to an area where there was some musical/play thing going on, and I was back stage. There were a few piano players taking turns running off stage and tagging out to play different songs on two different pianos. I listened for a while, and continued on. I came to an area where I was outside, and there were offices that had no roofs, and they were below ground level.

I didn't know where I was, but I had that "I have to be somewhere" feeling. When I headed back inside, a huge lizard fell out of the ceiling. It was about the size of a cooler, and it was wrapped up in moss. The lizard started charging me, and of course I'm already thinking about how to kill it. It gets close and snaps at me, and I dodged it. It snapped at me again, and then I stepped on it's head. I pulled a pair of bandage scissors from my pocket and tried to cut it's head off, but it slipped away. It started gnawing away at my boot, and I managed to slice it on it's side, exposing some white meat. I could feel the draft of wind knowing the next bite was probably going to teeth to flesh, and when it struck, I woke up.

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Dream - Lucid

I was at my wedding...I was going to marry Ryan. It was outside in a green field. There were tons of chairs set up. We had never had a rehearsal dinner, so I was kind of worried about how things would go, but I hoped it would work out fine. I thought about being up at the alter, saying my vows. The wedding was to be at noon.

Then, I remember seeing a soccer field that kind of looked like a volleyball court behind where we were supposed to have the ceremony. I remember seeing Kim, a girl I work with, playing soccer with a group of people. My boss told her she wouldn't get credit for something because she wasn't going to be at my wedding. She said she knew. I wasn't really too concerned about it. The only thing was, I thought the game may interfere with the ceremony. Someone kicked a soccerball and it went out of bounds towards me. I took it and threw it back to them.

People started to fill up the empty seats that were set up. I was laying on my stomach to the right of the alter. I was wearing a strapless wedding dress. I noticed that my bridesmaids were all late; I didn't see any of them. The seats were full now...there were tons of people on both sides.

Then, a director by the alter started to direct the organ. The Wedding March started to play. I thought it was just a rehearsal of the music, so I just stayed where I was and watched. But then, I saw Ryan and his groomsmen walking to the alter. I thought about how it was said to be bad luck for the groom to see the bride in her wedding dress before the wedding. I also thought that Ryan must be confused, because this is just a rehearsal...right?

I remember seeing the director quietly counting the beats off to himself as he directed. He then looked at me as if to say "We're waiting for you, get up here!". I started to mouth to him whether or not I needed to be up there or not. Ryan and his groomsmen were standing at the alter. I then remember seeing 3 of my bridesmaids in long, black dresses covered in sequens standing at the alter. They had HUGE tags that the bridesmaids hadn't taken off of them yet. I guessed they were going to return them. I remember Rachel being one of the bridesmaids, and then a girl I barely know in waking life that I went to high school with, Lindsey, being one. I can't remember who the 3rd one was. They still weren't all there though. Upon closer examination of the bridesmaids' dresses, I noticed that they had some crazy, huge headpiece attatched to them. Wtf?

~

I was in a house. I was laying down to go to sleep. My bed was in the kitchen. I remember hearing music play. A woman was cleaning the kitchen, which was only lit by the light above the stove. She laid down next to me and tried to cuddle me. She whispered something in my ear. I said "no" to whatever it is that she said.

Then, I remember seeing Nick. He told me it was a shame that I was getting married, since so many guys liked me.

I then remember being by the kitchen sink. A lizard was swimming in a large glass of dirty water, which was sitting in the sink. The lizard was Kacey's, and I was watching him for her. I dumped out the dirty water in the glass, and filled in with clean water from the tap. The lizard then proceeded to use the bathroom, dirtying the water again. The glass was warm. Gross.

I was then going to fill the sink up with water and let him swim in there, but decided I first needed to put Belle, my cat, away first so she didn't eat him. I asked someone if the "Spanish room" was being used. I then saw my old high school Spanish teacher, Mrs. K. She said no, the room wasn't being used. I thought this was odd for a second, but didn't look too far into it.

I took Belle into the "Spanish room", which was located in the back of the house. It was a beautiful, old-timey-looking bedroom. I remember seeing big, billowy off-white curtains. It was very cute. I put Belle down in the room.

non dream - lucid - non lucid

I occasionally have dreams where I feel I am in the future.
For some reason in these dreams, I'm usually in LA California, even though I've never been to the US in waking life.
There is no actual indication that I am indeed in LA though, I just know I am.
This dream was extremely vivid, I haven't had such a vivid dream since I started being busy with school.


I wake up in my king size bed in my house in LA.
It has white pillows and white sheets and it feels very smooth.
The sun is shining through the extremely big window in front the bed.
The room is very bright.
I feel refreshed and get up. I'm only wearing boxers.
I go to the window and take a look.
The view is absolutely amazing, my house is on top of a hill, I can see all the way to the ocean from here.
I go into the bathroom and freshen up.
The bathroom is very big, and very modern and colorful.
I see myself in the mirror, I look good, I look happy. (and slightly older than I do now)

I leave my bedroom and go check on my pets.
I have quite a few parrots in a very big outdoor cage.
The door of a room leads directly into the cage, I go inside.
The cage basically consist of a whole room with a grid instead of a wall on one side.
There is sand on the ground and a lot of different plants for the parrots to sit on.
I can feel a fresh breeze coming in through the grid, it feels good.
I play with the parrots a bit and go downstairs.

Here I enter another room which I have transformed into a habitat for my lizards.
I own about a dozen bearded dragons, and they are happy to have such a big room all for themselves.
I don't stay in the room for too long, the heat and the bright lights needed for the dragons makes me dizzy quickly.

I walk inside the kitchen / living room to grab a drink.
The room is extremely big. This house is a true mansion.
I feel like I really belong here, I absolutely love this house.
I grab a drink of orange juice and exit the room to go outside.
I am now in front of the pool drinking the juice.
The pool is quite natural looking, it looks a bit like a spring feeding into a pond.

There are a few beach chairs in front of the pool, and a bar where I keep a lot of drinks.
I often have guests over, and the bar is a huge success.
I decide to just lie down on a chair and chill for a bit.
As I approach the chair I see a girl already lying there.
She's my girlfriend, we live together.
She has long orange/red hair, green eyes and a few freckles around her nose, wearing a white bikini with a red flower drawn on it.
She's so lovely... so beautiful. I am so happy that she's my girlfriend. I am going to marry this women one day... I love her so much.
She makes me a sign to join her on the chair and turns her back to me.
I join her and hold her in my arms.

Her hair is my face, it smells very nice... a bit like lavender.

"Good morning sweetheart, how are you?"
"Great! How are you?"
"I feel absolutely amazing, like life is too good to be real."
"Like a dream?"
"Yes, like..."

I'll be damned. I am dreaming!
I feel sad at first, I wish this was real, but then I realize how amazingly vivid this dream is.
I look at my "girlfriend", realizing I don't even know her name.
I can see the pores on her skin.
I can feel the heat of her body and of the sun.
I can hear the small waterfall in the pool.
I can smell her, even still taste the remainders of orange juice in my mouth.

Wow, this feels so real!
But what does this mean? Why do I dream about a future in California so often.

"Are you... real?"

I immediately realize that this was a stupid question.

"Of course I am, Hyu."

I think about trying to unsummon her, to see if she's real, but it feels wrong and I decide not to.

"Is this my future?"
"..."
"You're not going to tell me, are you?"
"It might be your future, it might not be."
"How so?"
"Everything is possible, after all destiny is governed by chaos."
"Even the slightest change will change the course of history, no-one can look into the future, we can only look into the past."

Well... she isn't a normal DC alright...

"So all future is uncertain because of the chaos theory?"
"Yes, but even though it is, time is relative."
"Future present and past, they're all the same."

I don't understand what she means.

"But how can the past depend on the future?"
"If this is the future, then by seeing this you will inevitable change your past and destroy this future by doing so."
"That is why you cannot see into the future. That is why destiny is chaos."

How true... I'm impressed that I can think this clearly even though I'm dreaming.
It must be because the dream is so vivid.

"Who are you...?"
"A girlfriend... a wife?"
"..."
"I am what can be, and as such, I am chaos."
"You are quite mysterious aren't you?"

She turns towards me and looks me in the eyes.

"Just the way you like it."

Her eyes immediately remind me of Yuya's.
They are different but they also have that infinite detail.
I don't think that this women is Yuya, but they have something in common, I can feel it.

"Tell me your name."
"That I cannot, because my name is a secret."
"Why?"
"Because it changes everything."
"It does?"
"Everything does, every bit of information, regardless of how benign it may seem changes your whole of reality."
"Why am I allowed to talk to you at all then?"

She smiles.

"Of course talking to me changes everything."
"Every dream changes everything, everything you experience will change you for all eternity."
"Then why can I not know your name?"
"I told you, it's a secret."
"But why?"
"Because I am keeping it one."
"Your curiosity is truly endless Hyu. And that's how it should be, that is how it needs to be."
"I love you Hyu."

Saying that she loves me overwhelms me with emotions.
I am not sure what to say, but I do love this women.
The feeling is so strong that it is only barely bearable.
She closes her eyes.

"Now kiss me."

I close my eyes and kiss her.
The feeling of love is so very strong that I don't even realize that the dream is slipping away.
I just want to hold her, for all eternity.

Then I understand that I've woken up and open my eyes.
I can still feel the heat of her body.
Oh how I wish she was with me, here in my bed.
But I don't feel sad that she's gone, I still experience this feeling of loving someone.
I know that it will probably last until the end of the day.

Blue=Lucid Red=Non-lucid Black=Awake

Dream log day 3:

So yeah, apparently melatonin and vitamin b6 aren't necessarily a great combo for achieving lucidity, or sleep. Once again, I only slept for about 2 hours last night, but this is mostly because I think I have a sleeping disorder, I'm getting checked about it soon.

Anyways, my dreams were actually quite boring last night and didn't last to long, I never left my apartment in my dream! I can't remember exactly where it started and the whole thing is kind of in fragments but I'll put them in what I think is a chronological order (I wont be doing any dream topography since the whole dream occurred in my apartment),

I'm in my room, and my computer that I usually have on my table is mounted on the door of my closet (which faces me). I seem to be able to access the computer telepathically since I never seem to use a mouse or keyboard.

I'm looking through iTunes for some reason (I have a mac) and I find a section where it shows me all of my videos in my youtube subscription box(which I find a bit odd at first but take at face value).

When I try to access a video I find myself outside of my room where the dining table and second computer are.

The same interface that I was on on the computer in my room is on the computer outside too. I start a video (made by sxephil) and she first thing I see is Phillip de Franco saying:

"Hey look a hot chick(a picture of a hot chick appears on screen)"

He goes on about the hot chick for a while and then moves on to the "science" segment. I can't remember exactly what he said, only that science had once again confirmed something that people already knew (like for instance, "Blow jobs may lead to sex!"). At the end of the video Phil goes to bed and faps to the picture of the girl in the beginning of the video, while so in the background you can hear on the radio:

"In other news, scientists are saying that cancer indeed still a "thing"."

I find this fragment funny because this is what my subconscious sees as every single sxephil video ever made.

Afterward I go to the kitchen, on my way there I look into the living room (where we keep the tv) and see that the same interface on the two computers is there too. But once again, I didn't seem to be phased by it.

In the kitchen for some strange reason I wanted to strain a glass of milk before I drank it, but the second glass I poured the milk into through the stainer had holes in it, so the milk just spilled all over the place.

I quickly cleaned it up with a paper towel. After that I decided to strain a glass of juice for me instead (it had pulp in it) and I just drank it down.

I went back to the computer outside and looked at another one of phials videos, this one being a bit odd. When the video starts it takes up my whole vision as if I'm there and I become "immersed" in the story.

At the beginning phil accidentally kill his roommate by throwing a dodge ball at his face (just roll with it) and instead of saying what really happened in the 911 call he instead claims that he died of a heart attack (just roll with it).

"Okay." She says.

And then just hangs up the phone. Afterwards she says to the camera,

"Yeah, I'm gonna call the police."

Afterwards instead of sending the police over she meets up with Phil in a city. When they first meet Phill doesn't seem to pleased.

"I know you're a mole for the police," He says. "and that's not cool."

"I know that your a liar!" She hisses back at him.

For a while the exchange the word bullshit pretty angrily.

"Oh yeah?" She yells. "Well you're not even human!"

Suddenly, sxephil is a lizard and there both standing in the dessert. What. The. Fuck.

"Did that really just happen?" I think to myself. Suddenly I'm de-immersed from the story and find myself back in my room, even though when the video started I was at the computer in the dining area. No only that, now my computer is back on the table and not on the closet door, and now I'm using the keyboard and mouse again (which by the way is really hard to use in a dream).

My dad walks in and I immediately minimize the window with DV and youtube on it(I was supposed to be doing work on my essay),

"What window is that?" He asks me, even though I minimized it before he walked in.

My DC (yes I'll be using this term now) dad acts much more like my real dad in this dream. Instead of being understanding, interested, and supportive of me and my new found agenda he strikes it down with an iron fist.

I quickly reopen and close the window I minimized and erase my history of DV and youtube.

My DC dad may just be a figment of my imagination but he's not an idiot. He immediately realizes what I did and tells me he's going to cut off my internet.

Shortly after my alarm clock goes off and I wake up. I wake up at exactly 5:30 a.m., 1st of February.

Well once again this was a complete failure, lucidity wise and overall dream wise, but then again I first tried obtaining lucidity 2 days ago, I don't expect instant results. I almost lost my dream recall too. I'll be trying a different reality check this time, one I do every time I walk through a door, the "Still being able to breathe while you pinch your nose" one, and really begin to question my reality and weather I'm dreaming or not.

Edit: I think I woke up with a bloody nose today. When I woke up there was definitely something coming out of my nose but at the time I thought it was just mucus. Later in the day, I found what looked like blood encrusted on my finger nail. I wonder if that means anything. Anyway, no more melatonin+b6 for me anymore.

Well wish me luck.

P.s. There are probably spelling errors in this cause I wrote it at six in the morning, but whatever.

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Morning of February 9, 1977. Wednesday.



Dream Series: The Experience of Prescience, the Inexplicable Dream State Phenomenon. Part 4

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This dream’s main setting is an unusual variation of my Cubitis home. The shed is not present in the northern part of the backyard and one area near where the front of it would otherwise be is the side of a trailer that is oriented north to south, where two of my older brothers, Dennis and Jim, supposedly live (though they are living in Wisconsin at the time in reality, not Florida). The location of the main focus or dream’s climax is the exact same spot in the north side yard where my “mystery girl” revealed herself for the final time in this particular setting in a later dream (and also above where the body of Christ was literally buried in a childhood dream - eventually indicating I was the “son of the universe” in this cycle of existence), with the exact appearance (and unlikely accent) in every way, as my wife-to-be, Zsuzsanna, before we ever met in reality or even viably knew that we were real to each other.

An unknown beautiful dark-haired green-eyed girl (with the usual mixed Hungarian and Australian accent) features in my dream, thoug again, she has the same appearance as my lifelong “mystery girl” (dream girl of otherworldly beauty). She carries a sword which sometimes has a blue sheen and she wears some sort of unusual bikini-like outfit composed of teal-colored reptilian scales. Where I have a large scar on my left wrist, she has only a small scar on her left wrist. (In reality, Zsuzsanna has a smaller scar like a section of mine on her left wrist in the exact same spot where it matches mine. We got them in the same way; by falling onto a broken glass mug shard.)

At one point, I enter the trailer (its door otherwise in the same area the shed door would have been, though it is elevated). Jim and Dennis are not there, yet I have no doubt about the “reality” of this dream. I become impatient and angry at not finding my “mystery girl” after she is not present for a time, so angry that I tip over the shelves containing my brothers’ cassettes and records and such. I then make all the chairs fly about with telekinesis for a time as well as my literal “turning the tables” act, where I will a table to spin about and change its original orientation.

However, my “mystery girl” appears again in the next-to-last segment of this dream. She tells me that it is not my time to be with her yet and says she must “return to the Source”. I am not sure what it is all about. She is to be my bride, so I become impatient and reach out to her. She tells me that I will meet her in seventeen years in Australia. She seems to shrink, become younger and younger, and over time, becomes a gecko and scurries off southward. (In real life, I met Zsuzsanna in Australia exactly seventeen years after this dream, on February 9, 1994.)

I walk quickly south (covering more ground than would be possible in reality), thinking I might see her again, and, as is often the case, there is shallow water in many areas, but curiously, some swimming pools are mostly somehow empty while parts of the ground are lightly flooded (a variation of the very common water lowering waking symbolism, signifying the cessation of the dream state).

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