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I'm sitting in a chair in my new office. 2 other people are sitting there as well. One is someone I know, the other one, female, is an employee who worked there for a while. She tells me that in my chair used to sit one of the smartest people of the planet. I ask her "he must have told you the secret of life, why we are here, or what is this place?" She giggled and said yes. I went on asking, if this is for real, as in real life, or something else. She said "yeah, something else, we are in Limbo. I understood that as we are "neither here, nor there. We are in between."

Next thing I know, I'm entering a large, industrial elevator. Some people I know change their minds and get off, but I stay. We are going up, to 7. floor. I'm thinking in my mind "level up, go up". Thinking that I'm on a journey higher up spiritually. I hear a voice saying to all of us, that there maybe things up there we will not understand, but it's ok, just go with it. I get off the elevator, and everybody there has big muscles and they are flexing them. In a middle there is a fighting rink, people are chanting "ka-ra-te".

Somewhere during this time, I thought I understood the message and tried to "level up spiritually". I was thinking "go up, level up" and I started to feel strong head vibrations and a buzz of the transition. But then I felt the strong need to know where is my bed and where is the door to my place and that took me out of the transition. : (

Nothing much, just remember myself being in a hotel's bathroom, what's interesting that I have never been in that hotel in real life, and yesterday too I had a dream about place where I have never been including some long and thin snake into which I was assured my sister had transformed and I tried to bring her back by squeezing the snake!

Anyway, it is now quite clear to me that PLACE is the best category for me to look forward as a dream sign for MILD technique.

My dad was mad at me because I didn't tell my mom to pick me up at the correct place. She drove to pick me up but it was a dead end so she had to turn around. My dad and I got into a fight. He unleashed a mac miller song about junkie zombies on me and i was grabbed by a blue zombie. But i clenched my body and the zombie poofed into dust.

Worked event in a theater. Natalie asked me to put my phone on silent. I was sitting down in the theater. She wanted to talk. I was worried it was about me laying down on the job earlier.

In the brush with strangers who communed at the same place each night to discuss there problems.

3-4nld.I was so despondent. So dejected, so discouraged, disheartened, despaired. I thought I didn't get any lucidity 2 days in a row. Well turns out it was only 1 day. But still I felt like giving up. I know I'm getting better, but I wish it was easier and simpler.

Why can't it be more straightforward. If I needed to do tree pose for an hr straight everyday for lucidity I will do that. If I had to do a thousand jumping jacks then well ill do that too. But what am I suppose to do? I just want it to be easy! I just want it to be easy...

But I do know the mistakes I made last night. I browsed on the phone too much. I was browsing for a reusable notepad to write down DJ in also himalayan pink salt. Although I meditated quite a bit, I was also exhausted and I probably didn't have the mental clarity in the dream.

I don't know! I wish I could more easily gauge my progress. I just want to know that my efforts are not in vain. I just want to know that I'm doing it right.

I just wish my dream will light the path for me... Yeah I know, lay still, I'm getting there but. I just want to know what to do, what to focus on...

Do I do grc all day? If that will work I can do that.

Do I focus on MILD and shadow work throughout that? I can do that.

Do I visualize or incubate the dream I want? I can do that.

But i just want to know... What to focus on...

Someone or something guide me... I'm crying for help.

Light the way, show me a sign
Dry my tears face my fears
Left or right ill make it alright
As long as I got the goal in sight

The despair in my heart dances wickedly
Yet I will conquer it definitely
Left but only clarity
Practice always sincerely


Just when... Right when I was about to give up...

Magic happened because I kept going.

Make me better than ever before.

Yay! Now super-omnilucidity!


Always super-omnilucid dreamer


Dreams:

Dream about a dragon and something FA into another dream.

Wake

Dream about a crime scene investigated by the police. I'm being unfairly accused, speak up get on with my way. I find the culprit on the top floor of the building. Looks like the tall square library. He's staying in this building and is like a hotel. He had some weapons and drugs laying around. I grab a missile launcher and launch it at him. And I leave the building.

I'm waking by the river or lake, as I walk away from the building. There is a zombie, kind of an immortal thing thats just hard to kill. I had some drugs from the building and therew it. the zombie just entertained itself endlessly with it. I get away and something about the mafia happens.

Wake

I dream that I'm at a kind gaming tournament. The rooms are like a bowling ball alley without the bowling stuff. I find myself taking care of baby moon. People are targeting the baby and I am running away with the baby. I must keep him alive!

Wake


Always easily omnilucid

I saw a photo in a temple, it was put there by my uncle apparently, it was strange it looked as if he was treating the whole thing as his own, I didn't like it but couldn't say a word as it's none of my business. I took it to see and forgetting where exactly I took it from had a bad time remembering and putting it back. I went on and wrote on the ceiling my handmark, to let people know that I contributed to the place somehow, but then it looked as if I was dishonoring the place so I tried to remove the sign, but wasn't very successful.

Notes:
Whole thing was about being confused what's going on and what I am doing about it.

I am driving after my cousins car on an empty road, suddenly I am reeling away, I don't know why but the car now is on the roadside and I see some road posts but didn't notice in time to do something so I went over them and then... nothing I was continuing to drive, after a while we arrived at a weird car wash so I looked at tires and everything was whole and perfect, I wondered at it, but somehow it wasn't for me enough to ask if I am dreaming! ((

I am eating something with meats and suddenly I get the idea that strings of it look like worms, and ... one of such start to move on front on me, on the table, I am scared to death because I am still eating a portion so I start taking it out from my mouth and those too start to move and a moment after I am looking at rain worms.

Notes:
It's heavily raining out there, maybe that gave me association. Also worms is one of my biggest fears in life.

pretty fun dreams. Likely many trace memories of long ago. Some recent. Caused likely by ngf. 4-5 days or afternoon? Rem rebound perhaps. Did good shadow work. Time to level up.



Dream
Making snowman

Wake

At a computer lab. I'm playing wc3 tournament or something. There are the big Chinese pros and my hot keys stop working. Call the guys over to fix.


D lu
Zombies in subways fighting them off. Meet a nice little girl she might be important part of subconscious feel close to her. I am lucid. I embrace her. There is a guy he approaches us. Get a little excited, worried about waking.

The little girl might be part of me.

FA
Wake into FA. In subway waiting or on train. I'm a mess, false dream memory that I fell asleep here. Guy across tells me I got something on my face. Wipes.

I meet some cool guy we hang around for an afternoon. We meet young king of a desert country. We hangout and I try to make him some sausages. He loves it but I think it can get better. Tells him to come back again nex time ill make better sausage.

Fear of waking put me in FA. Just relax.

Wake

I'm a character from a game, d2. I had modded items and they were bugged after patch.
Something about scary plants that grew in desert, had to fight against them.

Could be homeland of the king from last Dream. Memory of games long ago.

Wake
I am traveling with my mom in car. It's downtown and the traffic is bad. I think about using a portal and how that would be much faster.

Maybe just memories of how bad traffic is in downtown areas.

Wake.
Back to plot about desert plants i guess. I find a shrine, meet a light goddess(or spirit) of sorts. Who is granting me blessings.

I go around to defeat orcs and other corrupted creatures.

I discover a dungeon or hidden entrance. It is a shrine of a dark goddess. I suppose Sister of the other one. She gives me dark power. Realizes I have the other blessing and is ok with working together despite differences.

I go to the light goddess and she is furious. Crimson with anger that I'm working with the dark. Dark one was nicer.

Wake

Light and dark. Yin and yang. I wanted to learn about yin Yang fusion so could be incubated.

Perhaps feelings about people who preach goodness without the actions



Notes:

Relax. I guess I didn't wake. But

Try to be more aware just as awake. FA was too realistic visually though.

Shadow work was super today. Expecting super results.

Grc

Trying meditating sitting on bed.

Always do shadow work.



Always omnilucid!

Following another dream, in which I was actively searching for my room in a weird housing building, I found myself passing customs at airport, or maybe it was just a general check, anyway, there was some officers, one of whom had found my hat that I didn't care about and lost somewhere earlier. He looked as if he found an evidence of my guilt against the country or something, when I made it clear how preposterous his allegations were, he went on to get some pages out of my personal journals (maybe he has intercepted the images or found torn out pages) and presenting them to me showing the words and phrases I have removed, as if to say, "I know you are at something nasty!", at that point I lost all tact and fear and started to yell at him that it's none of his business and I am free to do whatever I want in my notebook.

Notes:
It's a strange dream for me, because otherwise I am a timid person and more than often see dreams in which I am running from someone, feeling fear and worry (as I do IRL), so I woke up from that dream quite good, not feeling happy, but it had some sense of reassurance.

Before that dream, I was wondering along some streets, which I have never seen IRL, as well as those places in dream above. I saw a few cars without front tires, I rationalized that thieves probably have stolen them because they are usually in a better condition than rear tires (I have no idea about whether that is actually true or not).

The interesting thing about dreams, about which is written in ETWLD of Stephen LaBerge, is the absence of critical faculty, how easy do we rationalize absolutely stupid things! Then I thought remembering his dream sign categories that in my case it's clearly the Place that is different more than anything else. I am always dreaming about places which I have never seen in real life though in drems they seem to be mega familiar so I never question their reality. I have to concentrate on "Where I am" more to attain lucidity with some better results.

15/04/2019 - Non lucid - Choline

I was in the old west and using an old fashioned camera to take picutes through a window half way up an wooden stair way.
The stairs had two turns leading to the top floor, the wood was stained pine wood or a dark colour. I took several pictures over what felt like a ten minute period of the street from above via the window, one set of stairs up on a short walk way.

The photos came out quickly like a polaroid and where there were horses in the pictures they had cars or different types mixed in with them much like a computer glitch when you see a character sitting halfway in a chair or standing halfway through a wall.

For some reason this depressed me a great deal (it broke the magic?) and I left the building. The dream merged into dreamless sleep.

Last night was the first vivid dream that I have had in a long time. It starts with me at a grocery store with some kind of device that lets the user swap faces with any living being they can find.
I used it to swap my face with a cat, with the supervision of the inventor of the device. After this happened, I went to the house of J (who is now trans and goes by E, but it would be awkward if I made it seem like this was the same E as in Let Your Imagination Run Wild.)
were I came out as transgender to everyone except her parents. We were doing some kind of odd puzzle with the bisexual and transgender pride flags, but we had to hide it when J's mom came in. After that, I was in the jungle and came across a cartoony-looking British guy who spoke with an unintelligible Jamaican accent.
We entered his airship and he told us about how he landed on the moon once, which automatically switched me into a flashback from his point of view. He was flying high above the clouds and navigating his way to the moon, while all the while the people he was with were talking about how globalist Marxism couldn't possibly work in practice.
He had an extremely hard time landing on the moon once he got to it due to the fact that everything that landed on it immediately shot into space. He landed the ship on the moon (which was impossibly small, by the way), and once his feet left the shuttle, it shot into space. He tried grabbing it, but to no avail. He found two flags, both with years written on the cantons.
One of them (the one he picked up) was what appeared to be an anarcho-communist soviet flag with an extremely long year number of (something like) 5120598908802. The dream ended with him placing it in a crater and looking into the sky.

14.07.2010

Journey to the White Rabbit Pt.2 (DEILD)

NON-DREAM DREAM LUCID

I was in the middle of a small dream about something I cannot recall and notice as my feet start lifting away from the earth I was firmly planted on that I am dreaming. Lucid, I hid the ground and darkness engulfs me. I try to shout "Clarity Now!" but I feel that I'm still too connected to my real body and saying it any louder will wake me up. The small whisper seems to have worked but as I start thinking about waking up starts getting me nervous about losing lucidity.


All of a sudden I see a dream forming in front of me, my brother appears laying in his bed. It forms with the air rushing past my ears and I step into it without hesitation for some reason. I remember for ending up in another bed adjacent to my brother's and immediately leap out and wake him up. I then remember to stabilize the dream and I look at my hands noticing at least two extra smaller fingers on my left hand. I laugh and rub my hands together. I then set out on my first task to find the white rabbit. I remove a black curtain that is acting as a door and start saying "White rabbit, white rabbit where are you white rabbit", through the looking glass indeed.

I waltz downstairs and as I turn the corner there is a small rabbit staring at me, this little brown guy was not the white rabbit I was looking for however. I felt that this was a trick and started to ask the rabbit for the code. The rabbit reaches for something with a paw so I bend down and into my extended hand it lays down a torn piece of paper.

I quickly try to read the paper but realize it's in some language I cannot understand with bizzare symbols I have seen in no form of communication before. One word stands out and as I look at it I see it shape bending into the rabbits request, "FOLLOW". Unsatisfied I ask the rabbit again for the code and he simply spits out the other half of the paper charred to a crisp.

As quick as lightning the rabbit lunges at my arm and starts trying to pry my flesh from bone with his vicious little teeth.Still being lucid I attempt to make the evil rabbit simply disappear as I've done before. I grab it by the nape of his neck and shout "You are not real disappear!", nothing. I try and try again but each time I become more hopeless.

The last time this happened what did I do? What was different? I thought to myself. A distant memory hits me about needing to visualize it disappearing somehow through some action. Excited my gaze shifts like a lunatic around the room to find something to achieve this task with. The window pane in the door catches my eye and ,as I raise the rabbit to the heavens, I envision his disappearing as I force him through the window. My arm gains speed and my wounded hand whips this fury fiend's neck. Thud. No shattered glass. I start panicking and wailing the rabbit into the window.

Realizing that for some reason I've manifested rabbit proof glass to sabotage myself I open the door and launch the rabbit onto the front step. Why didn't I do that sooner? Why did I choose the violent option? I was here to talk with a dream character not scare, maim, or kill one. Realizing I am failing my goal for this lucid dream and disgusted in myself I watch as the poor thing scurries under a bare bush my blows have obviously wounded the tiny creature badly.

With just his head exposed I no longer see a vicious monster but a small innocent rabbit. As he crawls carefully out from the bush I can see a massive open wound. Before even getting the chance to feel like a bigger jackass his fur moves in waves towards it engulfing and healing the wound. Amazing! ...Wait, I'm in a dream still don't lose it now man. I manage to convince myself of my situation as I watch the rabbit hop into one of my shoes on the step. When did I leave that there? Wait. Is he trying to hide from me or ambush me as soon as I step outside? I murmured as I returned to thinking about the small demon it was just a few moments earlier.

I quickly open the door and turn the shoe over and out he plops on the step. Phew! He didn't attack, we both probably thought, I backed away and left the door open as an invitation to enter. An apology for my hasty reaction, I thought. He looked me up and down then hop after small cautious hop, it wound it's way back to the side of the note I had dropped. I see what looks like a smile appearing on his cute face. "Finally!", I rambunctiously shouted, "would you be so kind as to help me find the code?".

My realief does not last however as the once cute grin expands further and further. I froze in fear, I couldn't believe what I saw. In the place of what used to be adorable (but painful) buck rabbit teeth stood a giant army of razor sharp stained teeth between a set of snarling lips that had extended to fit their new tenants. He can't harm me, I'm in a dream, I'm in a dream dammit! Somehow despite the horror in front of my I start to relax a small bit and as if he noticed my fortunate transition his fur turned black.

I sat still engaged in a small staring competition with the beast for a while, not out of fear any longer, but the apprehension that if I moved it would chase.What felt like an eternity passed and still, nothing. Screw this I have to get something done in this lucid dream I can't waste this opportunity I've worked hard to get.

Starting to feel like I'm losing lucidity I remember what someone wrote in a guide and I shift my focus around to try and maintain the dream. As I break eye contact with the beast I hear a snarl come from it's jowls. I hastily made my dash out the door but before I could slam it shut he wormed his way out beside me on the step. Without so much as a thought I grabbed the little cute bushy tail, the only thing cute left at that point, and flung him back inside. Success! Two little fiery red eyes peered back at me from the other side of the door.

After all this a sane person might have stopped the hunt for the white rabbit, I however have no claim to sanity and even more so I was upset to have this lucid dream wasted by my foolishness. Whipping around I try run down the street hollering yet again "White Rabbit are you out there?! I need to speak with you Mr.White rabbit." Thinking that if I put more emphasis on the colour of the rabbit I'd be less likely to have a run in with another beast like before.


Pat, pat, pat. I hear someone but as I look towards the source of the footsteps I see nothing. Pat, pat, pat, pat. Inching in closer and closer and at a increasingly hurried rate but still I see nothing. My ear rings as I hear just one footstep with an thunderous boom that sounds like it originated from inside my ear canal. I wake up.

About eight/eleven month ago - Low Lucid level -

Laying on a carpark floor, the ground was slighlty moist but not cold, wearing a thin cream coloured, yellowing night gown which was also damp and sticking to my skin. I wasn't cold. I roll my head over to my left and see a building made of light bricks with a white door. The door had a knob handle (also white) and a small slot window on the top half a bit to high for eye level. Next to the door was a off White sign with light grey lettering.

NO
PARKING

I chuckled reading it, aware that the first thing I ever read (to my knowledge) in a dream was something like that. Nodded off into another non-lucid dream.

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Had 3 nightmares no Ld. Few hypnogigic that almost were dream or Ld but missed

Notes:
Ate too much at wbtb, may have affected dreaming.

Maybe from trying to learn new skill, not giving 100% to practice. Weather was bad, couldn't go outside.

Maybe affected by slight change in mantra. Will do both versions.

Need to do more shadow work, I felt very small doubt last night that grew today.

Grc, shadow work, mild, visualization.

I felt very frustrated. Decided to persist though since it always bounce back with the best results.

Keep going!

Be Always omnilucid!


Dreams days long, no time to expand.

D1
Dream apartment, wild animal cat racoon that jumped at me dodged and it fell of balcony.

May be fears regarding animals.

D2.
Friend Mike seaweed mask coconut bits. Refund at store. Heading home up the hill with group. Went too far up. Going back down the hill girl feels bad send her in teleporter. Keep heading down get separated with some friends I'm with Mike.

Find group of ppl random foods tools for survival. Girl takes my supply. I go after it's maze. We form groups for survival.

In the end get ancient survivors revive them.

Could be incubated coco bits from earlier in the day.

Survival perhaps related to fears of how people are against each other.

D3
Playing a game goblin and ghoul style. Final boss. Went to backroom. Thougjt I failed. FA my mother wakes tells me I was groaning in bed. Something about oldest cousin doing good.

Likely bad memory about the time I got abused because I fell asleep at someone else's house.

I was in the passenger seat of a car. A man was driving. Then, he lost control of the car and drove into a river. He told me to brace. I immediately started opening the door, even before the car hit the water, because I knew opening a car door underwater is very hard. I waded to the shore. I looked out at the horizon, and it was beautiful. A gorgeous orange sunset. I knew this was the US, and I wanted to capture this moment before I'd have to go home. I took out my phone and started to take a picture. But then, on that same horizon, I saw what the sunset really was. A massive mushroom cloud rose into the sky. I was like "oh, no" and ran away. I ran through a small town, and yelled at everyone to take cover as a nuke had hit a nearby city. No one believed me, and I was laughed at. Then, I began realizing this wasn't real. I could feel it, like a haze of some sorts. Hard to explain. I told the people that I knew, and they admitted it was all just a dream. A kind of prank. I laughed along with them at this "you got me" moment.