lucid

It was a really dark early morning. It was during a winter, there were snowdrifts on the roadsides and there was some ice on the road. I left my house, but I wasn't wearing any jacket - I only had a gray shirt, black trousers and black shoes. I went towards my old school, there was something important I had to do. I had troubles with walking and breathing, I scrambled towards the school. On the way I saw some people going there too, I thought "Last year in technical, and now I have to get back to previous one for a year!". I finally reached the school and immediately saw some people I know that shouldn't be there.

This made me realize that it's a dream. I left the building for a while and saw my car standing at the parking lot. I went to it and inside I found some paper sheet with strange calculations written on it. The handwriting was identical to mine. I got back to school and looked around. I thought about meeting with someone, but that wasn't enough to summon her. Instead I chosen to talk with someone else - a tall blonde haired woman wearing a white dress. I said that I have something to deliver to her and we went outside. As we were going to car, she got scared of me and ran away to school. I tried to chase her but I slipped on the ice. I got up and went back to the building, in search of that woman. I searched on the hallway, in toilets and then I found her on the corridor. I told her that I don't have time for such fooling around and I have to deliver that package. We got to my car, I showed her the paper sheet, folding it before so she wouldn't see calculations. I told her to sign it with an x and go Roth me towards warehouses. As we moved on, I noticed someone following us. I thought about removing that dude from my dream, but somehow he was resistant to my powers. However, he wasn't resistant to telekinesis. I gestured and thrown him far far away. Then we entered the warehouses. Instead of giving her that package, I persuaded her to make it out with me. I didn't knew that it was a military warehouse, and as we were doing it, soldiers appeared and surrounded us. Then a loading screen with warehouse appeared. I found myself in some corridor going to warehouse. Instead of entering I went through doorway that was behind me. A map appeared, there was some sunny valley. I chosen it and got teleported to some dark grove. I summoned that woman. She was a bit different, as she had brown hair this time. I saw myself from third . She was scared of me and the grove and started running away. I chased her, throwing fat monsters with long horns away using telekinesis. I got her and after a while oh talking we made it out again. I have lost lucidity.

I found myself in my house with younger sister and that woman. We took out rc cars and drove around my room.

09.09.2016
08:00 AM

Hanging Out With Juliana 2 (DILD)

My bedroom is the bathroom of a fair grounds??? I am try to sleep but I see people waling around outside. I get out of bed and look in the mirror. I notice that I have nipple piercings. WTF? I put on a shirt and do a nose plug rc and become lucid. I summon Juliana. She has long red hair again and I tell her I like this look best on her. She is wearing a red button up shirt with short sleeves, a black tie, skirt, and coat with a short cape attached to the shoulders. We go outside and I forget that I was going to ask for my next magic lesson. I mention the fact that I have never seen her cat form and ask her to transform. She says there are to many people around and she has something to show me first. We run for about 30 seconds to the other side of the fair where there are food places. She says to get this one thing on the menu. I see that it is $30 and don't want to spend that money. I had lost a lot of lucidity I guess. Dream money doesn't matter! I ask her to use a spell to make the workers not charge me so much. She pulls out a wand and waves it around and says it worked. I go over and order it. I momentarily loose stability while they make my food. It is a hot dog with pulled pork and nacho cheese and other things on it. It also comes with fries and a large cupcake. It is friken amazing! I start to wake up again and can't find Juliana so I stick my hand back. She takes hold of it right away and points to some other food I should try. I remember what my actual goal was as I wake up.

I kept having dreams all night but I didn't record them all because I really needed some sleep. I woke up when Meesha came in to be fed & closed the door so she wouldn't interrupt my sleep. Sorry Meesha Cat, but mommy needs to sleep!

I dreamed that I was w/ my family most of the night. Not my children, husband, grandchildren, but my core family from when I was young that extended to my grandparents and such. We were in various places. I even found myself lucid but felt a strange pull to not change the dream. I felt like I was supposed to pay attention & learn. We were all in this gorgeous palace. The steps were like a block wide with giant pillars. The details were spectacular! I was really enjoying the details. My family was yet again trying to get me to interact w/ Crazy Daisy, my mom's mom. I was trying to calmly tell them that I do forgive her but I just don't choose to have such a compulsively toxic person in my life. There were a lot of tea settings & bells. Crazy Daisy collects bells & I came across a bunch of them in a store I frequent just a week ago. We went down into a theater in the palace. I went first & walked along the rows of red velvet chairs. When I got to the end off to the side of the stage I was discussing where we should put our stuff before we go back behind the stage. I was told to just put them near one of the folding velvet movie like chairs. I looked out over the auditorium & couldn't figure out what we were all going to do. I went up to the curtain & pulled it back & woke up.

So I got a lucid but stayed true to myself & just bathed in the realness of it all. The great detail & such. I think we don't do enough of that & it's the foundation of lucid dreaming. Reminding yourself how real the dreamscape is in & of itself. My pull to find meaning was very strong. I don't know if my grandmother will pass soon or what. I also don't know why suddenly she is in a bunch of my dreams. It's odd. Usually dreams like that for me mean death, I'm going to talk to them soon, or I'm going to see them soon. Yes, that is a real gift I have. I also can ask where things are out loud & then find them. My husband loves that particular gift. I text him during the day opposed to saying it out loud some times because it works best when I ask him in particular for some reason. He also thinks I could find the winning lottery numbers somehow, lol. But I don't think it works that way. I have been talking out loud lately to my grand parents that have passed in hopes that they here me & give me a sign. Maybe it was that. I do forgive my grandmother, that is very real. I just don't like the feeling that I have about my family thinking I should talk to her. When they themselves acknowledge that she is a compulsive liar & fake. My parents & my brother are atheists & me & my sisters are not so we have an interesting dynamic. And when I say they are atheists, I mean they try to push that down people's throats on social media & are just as bad as people who do the same w/ religion. Good people yet pushy w/ this subject for some reason. I love them but they would never understand how spiritual I've become & would only mock it like they mock my cousin, who faithfully every day on Facebook is giving her thanks to God for everything. She also used to have an abusive ex like I did so I get it but yet she's still on the extreme side but always positive which is better than being a negative atheist. That's not to bash anyone but to say I don't like people being pushy in a negative way. At least my cousin doesn't push it on anyone. My sisters on the other hand have been in my thoughts. I have been struggling w/ telling them about some of the changes in my life such as lucid dreaming & other things that have been happening spiritually to me for like, forever, lol..... That's probably what this dream was really about. I talk to my family every day via a group text which is continuous. This is due to my parents new found traveling now that they have retired via their RV. They are currently in Canada.

Non-Lucid-Green
Lucid-Red
Side Notes-Purple
Astral Projection/AP-Brown/OOB

September 8, 2016: I am unloading pre-cut as well as uncut stone pavers from the side door of a huge delivery truck. I repeatedly and tediously carry them down a lane bordered on my left by a brick retaining wall which stands about nipple high. After walking about 60 - 75 feet, I rest the arm-load of pavers on the wall before trying (with great effort) to reach down over the wall to hand them off to a young black man who is standing in a ditch on the other side of the wall. He needs to stretch up as hard as he can to take the "hand-off" of the paving stones. I repeat this action about three or four times, walking back and forth to the truck each time for a new load when it dawns on me to float-fly in each direction to speed things up. I come to this "labor and time saving decision" right after handing off the forth load, so my hands/arms are empty. As I float-fly back to the truck it hits me. FUCK ME!!! I'm flying! I must be dreaming! WOW, two nights in a row!!!

I immediately abandon the notion of flying back to the truck and fly instead on the far side of the retaining wall and follow the ditch to see where all the stone is being put - principally out of curiosity and because I have no other plan for this lucid dream - having been caught by surprise. I come upon a house that looks like a cross between the White House and your average colonial home. Very upscale and nice. I enter (in the normal way) through the front door and wander around. Most rooms are entirely empty of furniture and initially encounter no dream characters whatsoever. In fact, the house gives the impression that it is an unoccupied new construction. I'm just about ready to leave to find something fun or interesting to do and discover I'm a bit confused as to how to find the door out (or any door for that matter) when I enter a room with two college age women sitting cross legged on a wooden floor - no rug or chair.

I say hello and they actually introduce themselves to me by name! They are pretty and smart, and my first thought is that they could be sorority sister pledges and maybe this home is going to be a sorority house - or perhaps I'm on a college campus. Both girls are fully and fashionably clothed, and far too smart and aloof to try and coax to do anything sexual...besides, one I could handle, but two?? Wouldn't know where to start, and they just aren't "that kind" of girl. So, I ask them to please indicate a way out or to please escort me out of the house. Neither gets up, but they each start to talk over the other giving me directions. I thank them, but the conflicting and confusing instructions fail to get me to an exterior door. I start to feel trapped and frustrated - and I wake.

I begin looking out to the right window of my bedroom at the neighbor's house. The entire side is an intense, shining blue stained glass, resembling church in many ways. I do a double take, and something feels very strange and familiar about this state. I realize I'm dreaming and begin stand up and walk toward the window. I jump out, but my visuals go white. I stay in this white void area for several minutes, rubbing my hands and reminding myself I'm in a dream. I try intently to wait until the next dream scene starts. After several minutes, I wake up.

Since my last journal entry I have had very bad recall and been very busy with the start of school on top of that so I took a little break to figure out my new schedule. This morning I woke up and realized it was a good time to get started again and did MILD.

09.08.2016
12:00 PM

Hanging Out With Juliana (MILD)

I am Supermans side kick or something. We are fighting Lex Luthor I think. There is an old lady crossing the street and Superman says to help her while he fights. I go and fly her across the street to her hotel and help her find her room. I get a sense that this is a dream and wonder if I will become full lucid. I finish walking her down the hall just to make sure I feel I finished that dream plot and do a nose plug. I think specifically about how I shouldn't fly out to superman and continue the fighting. I fly out the window and fly around Hollywood. I land and find myself in front of a 5 story building. I remember my goal is to just have a nice talk with Juliana so I stick my hand back. I feel her grab mine but it takes some focus to make it feel vivid. I say hi twice and then she responds. I look back and this time she has a buzz cut! It looks pretty good actually. She and I start walking and talking into the building and I say, "Wait. Every time I see you we start walking somewhere urgently. We don't have to go anywhere today let's just hang out and talk." "Okay, but lets go right inside here and sit down." She says.

We go in and it's a hospital. We go in one of the rooms and sit on the bed. There is another patient in the bed next to us but they don't mind. I find on a table two giant delicious chocolate chip cookies and we each take one. It is really good! I say to her, "Could you show me more of your magic. Like something flashy and cool like the fireworks from last time." She says, "Sure!" and snaps her fingers and there is a bright blue flash surrounding her hand. "Cool!" I say. "How about something even more creative! What else can you do?" She says, "Okay. Look at that trash can." She points at it and a spark flys from her finger and into it. Two eyes and a mouth emerge from the front of the trash can and it starts talking in jiberish! "Cool! What happens if you make it inanimate again? Let me try." I have finished my cookie and stick out my finger to give it a try. The garbage can looks scared and pretends to be normal but I can tell it is just faking. "Here." Juliana says and sends another spark that makes it go back to normal. I start to destabilize and wake up or have an FA, I don't know, but I DEILD.

I am in the loby of a hotel and skateboard out the door. Strange, I don't know how to skateboard well. I skateboard and follow someone on a bike. We fall into a pool and people try to help us out and I destabilize again.

I am in a residential neighborhood and very unstable still. I walk up to a car and feel it. There are flowers growing out of the engine. I am stabilized now and decide to summon Juliana again. This time she has a brown pixie cut. It is much easier to summon her this time. We go for a walk and talk. "Do you know Androx?" She starts to think. "He is a talking cat, or a witch or something." She says she thinks she knows who I'm talking about and that it isn't supprising he found me. I say he sent me to fight evil witches and she starts laughing. "What? Are you an evil witch?" "No it's not that I just don't think there is such a clear line between good witches and evil witches. It just dosn't work that way in my opinion." "So you arn't a good witch?" She shrugs. "Well I guess you are a neutral witch then and I am okay with that.", I say. We pass by some people who are playing music loud. It is like metal mixed with drum and bass. As we walk away Juliana uses magic to make it louder. At the drop we can't help but start dancing to it. We can't really tell if we should be head banging or dancing like its electronic. haha I eventually wake up and decided to write this down before I forget it.

I keep falling asleep though and eventually have a dream that I am Purple Man's pawn like in Jessica Jones.

08.09.2016

(DEILD)

NON-DREAM DREAM LUCID
I caught myself waking up from a dream. I laid still without intending to and then I realized I could try DEILD. I continued to hold still and SP/HHs set in. It was just a light buzz and small vibrations. I tried to stand up but I couldn't.

I imagined laying in my dream bed and then got up. I fell a short distance from my bed while getting up as if my bed was taller. I walked through my door but everything was dark. I reminded myself to link the dream with DEILD in case I woke up. I wondered if my alarm would wake me up soon, and it made me too aware of my waking body. The dream started destabilizing but I held on by putting my hands on the roof. I then realized I was in the staircase of my old house, a spiral staircase. I tried to stabilize by rubbing my hands but the dream crashed. I held still and felt SP again.

I then started hearing one of my profs lecturing.
I assumed I had fallen asleep and had a LD in the middle of the lecture. I raised my head and sure enough I was in the middle of a lecture, and didn't bother doing a reality check.

This was a pretty good night. Despite waking up in the early morning and having trouble falling asleep after the WBTB, I eventually did and had some dreams. I'm a bit confused about the two first dreams as they happen in the same place and I don't recall the order of events, but I know I became lucid after one of those fragments. I also suspect that I dreamed about my grandmother's apartment because I visualized myself getting lucid in there during my WBTB (I had two, one in which I didn't become lucid, perphaps because the wbtb was too short and another one in the early morning which is when I had these dreams).

Birthday Party:

In this fragment, I was in my grandmother's appartment and some guests arrived. I think they were supposed to be my brother's friends, tough I've never seen them before. After that there was a birthday party (I think my brother's) and it was pretty grand. They showed a video on a huge TV of a bunch of people that were there on the party with slow, emotional music. Then it started showing people that were outside the appartment. The first one was a couple (one of my friends and some girl I don't know) having a romantic time on the roof at night, smiling at the camera. At this time I was kinda confused, asking myself if my grandparents set up cameras everywhere on the building. It showed even people that were outside the building, on the streets! At this time I started thinking it was a bit creepy and perhaps illegal and was hoping they hadn't filmed me when I was in the bedroom wearing only shorts (before I got ready for the party). Something else might have happened, but I can't remember much aside from small fuzzy details about this fragment.

Incendiary Mouse:

I am unsure if this is the same dream, it might have happened after or before the above one. I was again in my grandma's apartment, but this time theere weren't any guests, just the usual people. I was in the living room, I remember my uncle being there doing something and maybe my grandma. I made my way to the kitchen, which is connected to the living room and when I got there I saw a mouse and began to freak out, thinking if I should kill it or call someone. I decided to run back and tell my uncle about it, but the mouse ran past me into the living room. It then ran outside the appartment (there's a door that goes out of the living room into a tiny space usually used for storing stuff, there is a grate there that leads outside the appartment and into a hall which is usually closed). My uncle followed it and tried to stomp it. While he was trying to kill it, I closed the door to make sure it didn't get back in.

Not sure exactly what happened here, I think I went into another room and when I came back into the living room my uncle was holding a cat and then put it down. I guessed he was going to try to use the cat to hunt the mouse, and eventually the mouse appeared and the cat caught it and killed it. Instead of blood, some transparent liquid with a very slight red color to it dripped from it and started forming a pool. The cat walked on the liquid and started spreading it everywhere, making a mess (meanwhile I was kinda freaking out because I found the scene disgusting). For some reason... the cat's pawns started catching on fire and I started freaking out even more. I figured this liquid could heat up things and start fires. Small fires appeared in other places where the liquid touched, but they didn't last long. I remember there was a child crying (no idea who that child was) because she got some of that liquid in her face. While trying to help her, she got some on me and my skin started to burn. I told her to go to the bathroom wash her face. Again, the details are a bit fuzzy but this is the last I remember of this dream.

Mirror Teleportation (Lucid)

Eventually after the events of one of those dreams (at least I think this lucid is connected to one of them), I found myself wandering to my grandfather's bedroom and thinking about something that confused me. I don't remember exactly what it was, just that it was kinda bothering me. After thinking for a bit and mumbling to myself, I remember thinking "... the only explanation to that would be... oh, of course.". As I realized I was dreaming, I smiled while I tought about how my RCs during the day and MILD during the WBTBs helped me carry my awareness into the dream. I felt pretty smart at that time too for realizing I was dreaming.

I tought about what to do, saw a big mirror and tought "Ah, why not?". By the way, I have always struggled with entering mirrors in dreams. I have tried a few times and failed. However, this time I was feeling pretty confident for some reason and just did it. At first, there was resistance, but I kinda felt it giving away and eventually went through it. The best way I can describe the feeling is like this: try to imagine yourself pushing your finger into some plastic wrap. Eventually your finger will tear it apart, but in this case I went through the mirror without tearing it, as if I was entering some liquid with a high density. When I got through, I found myself in a mirrored version of the same room, except with some furniture missing. I quickly realised I went through the mirror without a destination in mind, so I tried coming up with something. The first thing I tought about, for some reason, was meeting a cartoon character called Star. With that in mind, I went through the same mirror I came in through and ended in some kind of office.

I was walking around, looking for Star and asking people about her. Apparently she had a pretty important position in the office, like a boss or something (which is pretty off-character for her) and people were trying to get a hold of her. Eventually I met her, altough I don't remember anything that we talked about. I remember some witch chasing us through a hall (which looked like the school I went to) and I was trying to find her wand, by sticking my hand inside bags (not opening them up, just straight-up phasing my hand inside then, apparently that's a good way to conjure stuff up) but none of the wands that I found were right. We managed to escape eventually and I remembered another goal that I had, which was to visit a place I created in waking life and I told Star I had to go because I had some stuff to do. I woke up when I entered a mirror.

I tried my best not to move and to calm down as I woke up (I don't think this was an FA, but it might have been). I felt some weird sensations similar to numbness and eventually found myself in my dream again, this time in a huge shopping mall. The first thing that came to me was... looking for porn. I wasn't particularly horny, I think I was just curious to see what I would find. I began looking around for the porn section (kinda like some rental stores have adult sections) and started asking some employees. The first one was a woman who grabbed my hand and yelled "Teleport!", teleporting me to someone else (I don't know how to describe the feeling of being teleported... but the way she teleported was kinda like the "instant transmission" from Dragon Ball) who could help me find it. The other employee grabbed me by my hand and started leading me around, altough to be honest he didn't seem so sure about where it was. I yelled "Teleport!" and he teleported just like that woman. After walking around for a bit I realized that I was wasting time looking at porn while I could be going to the place I created. I entered a small shop which had some mirrors and entered one of them. The place I wanted to go was a big, sorta japanese-oriented house that almost looked like a big japanese shrine, which a big frontyard, so as I entered the mirror I tought about the frontyard's grass.

As I went through the mirror I found myself at a huge, grassy frontyard and became excited, until I realized I was in front of some manor/mansion at night (in retrospect, it looked a lot like the white house, maybe a bit bigger). I turned back and saw two people on a table (I think they Barney and Ted from "How I Met Your Mother") talking about something. I ignored them and welp up some stairs leading to a big glass door which ressembles the one at the entrance of the building where my grandparents live. I went into the glass door as I did with the mirrors (I guess anything with a reflection will do) and ended up in another backyard, altough this one looked unkept and was behind an old wooden house I could see in the distance. I tought "Alright, I'll try one more time..." and went back into the mirror, maybe going to one more place which I can't remember and eventually the dream faded away. I tried getting back into the dream but I felt that I was too awake to go back.

This was a pretty cool night and I feel like I'm getting more and more lucid dreams! The MILD method has really been helping a lot when I do it right, altough I think I should start doing longer WBTB's because these days, whenever I go back to bad during a WBTB, I'm still really sleepy, like at the point where I can barely keep my eyes open. However, I have no idea how to keep myself occupied during the WBTB and fear that I won't be able to sleep if I stay up too long (which in turn will result in me laying in bed, tossing around until morning trying to sleep, which I REALLY don't want). Guess I'll start measuring how much time I stay up and trying to increment it a little by little. I also learned how to use mirrors and another way to summon objects, which is pretty cool.

Last night bed 12 am - 6:33 am
2x300 Alpha GPS 6:33 am
2.4 Galantamine (pure) 7:37 am
Sofa 7:37 am

So my cat decides to groom himself for 20 min while sitting on my legs. He left, I went potty at 8:15. Was still not sleepy enough. Tried to sleep on my right, couldn't fall asleep. Then straight, where I was starting to get some visuals like faces and a small movie of a tiny dog.

About 45 min long lucid with a few breaks when I realized I am still dreaming and felt the back of my head tingle

Turned to left side and I finally got into a LD. Not sure how it started. This will be in no particular order.

I'm in a darkish hallway, all tiles, like a hospital. I remember the TV TOTM and I start to look for one. There is many monitors, but more like computers. They show data and stats. I look at many of them. So no TOTM : (

I walk through many building and rooms, looking for a way to get out, and for doors to find somethink interesting behind them.

Then I am outside a lot, walking through streets, looking at houses and picking a right one to go inside and explore.

I normally don't like to be inside, but I remembered that and I made an effort to look into doors despite of that to get over my fear.

I'm sitting outside, at night. Snow is all around us and nearby is a partially frozen ocean with lots of iceflow and icebergs. We all look up at the skies and they are beautiful. I ask out loud, how come there is so many stars, lot more than normally.Then I realize those are not stars, but frozen Canadian landscape with lots of snow and lakes as seen from the airplane. At that moment I realize I'm dreaming, look at my hands and fingers are all stubby. I smile and walk away.

I walk into a small room in a small village house. It's all made from snow. I look back to get out, but there is no more door. All snow. Everytime I look, the room is smaller. I figure i teleport from there by turning. I do that, get a bit dizzy and I stumble. I think I should close my eyes. When i open them, I am still there, only room is smaller. Now there are 2 small holes in the snow wall and I punch it bigger and get out.

I'm in a large road tunnel. I look through a round hole in the wall and see entity approaching. Looks like flowing black smoke. I yell at 2 kids with 2 dogs to hurry up to me to safety so we can close the door. I can tell the kids are too slow, and girl realizes it too. So she throws a yellow tennis ball towards me, her dog runs to it and he almost gets to safety, but ball bounces back and dog follows it. Girl gets sad and disappointed and I have no choice but to shut the door after i yell at them some more to hurry up, they can make it.

I'm on a street in my old town and I realize I forgot about that street all together. It gives me bad vibes so I get away.

Still in some large tunnels or corridors, I see a DC and I rejoice. I wanted to talk to one so bad. It's a guy but when i get closer it changes into a man. Tall blonde hair. I start a convo.

Same underground and then houses outside - lots of sex.

I remembered my lucid goal to look at my body. I look at my hands, my arms, and it's like waking life. Same shapes, colors, hair, freckles. My vision is getting dark and yell out wait, I wanted to see rest of my body. I lift my same blue shirt just as I practiced before bed and I see my stomach and bottoms of my boobs, same as when I practiced. I quickly drop my undies before it all goes dark.

I felt funny. This was definitely a dream. I was in a huge empty room with white walls and plain grey pillars. There was a ledge, and on top I noticed a woman. "It's M," I thought, attempting to make her appear. And it actually worked, it was her. She climbed down from the ladder. Her hair was long and wavy, a shade of reddish brown. She was wearing a white top and light blue pants. Desperately, I asked her, "WHAT DOES THE DREAM MEAN?!?" She replied with, "Re-birth." I said, "WHAT DOES THAT MEAN??" and she replied with something I don't remember, but I didn't understand her answer at all. I looked down and noticed she was pregnant. She said one more thing that I don't remember and then I lost the dream. I then had sleep paralysis. I tried to move but couldn't, but remained calm because I knew what this was. So I just kind of laid there until I was able to wake myself up.

Notes: Well, Okay. This is the closest I've come in years, so I suppose that's progress. But what does "re-birth" mean? And was that really M? She was pregnant so that doesn't really make sense.
I want to try again in my next lucid, but this time go to the actual place of the dream, my old home, on my driveway.

I was in my aunt's house and this lady was super angry with me because she thought I did something(like disrespect her dead husband or something). As more time went by, she started getting furious. She started taking my things, my phone, my clothes, and putting them in the room where she was. She was turning evil, and it was freaking me the fuck out. So I ran out of there, down the street. I saw a sketchy looking guy and said, "PLEASE, CAN I BORROW YOUR PHONE? I NEED TO CALL 911 RIGHT NOW" and he gave me a weird look, said "sure" and thew his phone at me. It was a Samsung and I had no idea how to use it(things are difficult in dreams, okay?) I realized that he had stolen the phone and was trying to get rid of it, so I didn't touch it. I kept running until I saw a man, Hurley from Lost, in a convenience store. I said, "CAN I BORROW YOUR PHONE??" and at first he said no, so I said, "PLEASE, I NEED TO CALL 911. YOU CAN EVEN DIAL IT FOR ME" So he dials 911 but lets me press "call" and at first I hear static, then a woman's voice. "HELLO?" I say, my voice shaking and scared. She says something like, "It's okay. I understand what you are going through. You'll be okay through this." Like what? I didn't even tell her my problem! So anyhow, I told her but then woke up.

Bed around 10 after listening to Dream Yoga audio for 20mins and fall asleep with mantra's like - ' Tonight I lucid dream' and similar

Woke up around 12.30 with first dream and then stayed awake for ages - did my best to keep mind focusing regularly on dream stuff...finally fell asleep

Wake around 4.50am sit up and listen to Daniel Love's Wbtb audio for my Wbtb.
Lay down with the audio finishing probably around 5.10am

Get lucid with dild some time between 5.30 and 7am - I am pretty sure I get lucid while walking down the road .... I am remembering things and looking at where I am thinking
' is this for real?...Could I be dreaming?' ...it felt very much like real life but I dare to test the surroundings by pushing my hand through wall a wall I am walking next to - it softly and gently pushes it's way through the wall like putty - great " I am dreaming!'
I carry on within the dream frame and speak to one the the DC's about this being a dream- I look around and see I am at a large depo/bus stop,lots of folk waiting for different buses. Remembering the task I move close to a middle age lady - I tell her I am about to come into her body and see what it feels like and she could switch to mine...she is a bit defensive and not up for it initially- I carry on and move into her body. I can sense her agitation as I feel how it feels in her shoes. After the initial awkwardness she relaxes and seems to move out or relax enough for me to get comfortable in there

I am sure I am in her body but struck with how comfortable it is ...it's still me ...I am not sure if she went into my body or not as I look around for my body I can't see it. I get on the bus when it comes and soon move on with my lucid

Does that mean the task is done or not?

Ok I am sitting lucid on the train and remember the ' grow a tail ' task. I tell the gentleman next to me that I am about to grow a tail for the totm. He is intruiged and watches my back side in anticipation

. I put my hand there and feel around - I am aware I havnt manifested anything like this before in a lucid so it's gonna be good - I am excited! I keep my hand just above my butt on my lower back feeling for movement ...Yes! I feel movement from within

- soon a little stub of a tail grows out! I start to laugh and show the man - he is as surprised as me and we both watch as it keeps growing until it's about half a meter long...it's thin and grissely but it's deffinatelly a tail - I am delighted.

I stay on the train for a while - I am laying down on a seat and pushing first my hand, then my feet into the wall - pushing gently in and out sometimes pulling the structure of the wall out and playing with with it reminding myself this is a dream - my dream - test myself see the surroundings and test them - I do this by walking into and through walls etc as I mentioned.

I am sure I awoke a few times and Dield back in gently - there was more but I dont remember all - just know it was awesome to be aware in my dreams again!

LUCID DREAM #21

September 7, 2016: I am test flying (indoors) a small (~30cm) yellow and black radio-controlled model jet. After tossing it into the air and flying it in the tight constraints of the room, it goes to ground gently out of sight between a couch and the adjacent wall. It was difficult to see behind the couch to perform the retrieval, so I float-fly above the couch to see where it has landed. WAIT!? I'm FLYING! I'm dreaming! WooHoo!

Never once gave a thought to any of the TOTM's. I immediately start flying around the room which looks like a cross between our current living room and basement. As I fly I’m looking for an exit to the house. I fly down a short hall to the foyer of our front door and find a screen door that leads to the outside, which is day-lit and looks like a pleasant fall day. I try to pass directly through the screen. I "KNOW" I can - this is just a dream screen...but NOPE…I bang into it as if it were real. The sensation of my shoulder hitting the screen (with more than a little conviction and therefore “force”) is utterly real. Having failed to phase through the screen I open the door latch with ease, not willing to waste lucid time or effort on such a mundane and possibly fruitless task as phasing through a screen door.

Outside, I spot A. (perfectly rendered as she exists today) and (later) her best friend A. S. - less accurately depicted but still recognizable. Our daughter A. is standing on the walk leading to the front door of our current home.

I fly above our A. at about 50 feet altitude and look down at her, optimally positioning myself in front of her at about a forty-five degree angle. I call and wave frantically to her multiple times to see if she can hear or see me. At first, she couldn't, but I persisted. Eventually I gradually became apparent to her, but she expresses little in the way of shock or surprise. I tell her "Look at me! I'm dreaming and I can do ANYTHING I want!” Evidently she was not impressed.

I think she was on the walk waiting for her friend (also named A.) who soon joins her while all this is going on. I though seriously about flying up to her friend A. and attempting to get in some sexy time, but what with her being my daughter's friend and with my daughter right there on-scene, it for sure was NOT going to happen and my heart wasn’t really into it, anyway. Thwarted by the circumstances (and with other people waking up and making noise) I awoke. Wake time: 5:35am.

Dream
I woke up during the night, rolled over and checked my phone, 4:50. My alarm goes off at 6.. I wasn't sure if I'd get a full sleep cycle in but rolled over and headed back to sleep... I was kind of horny though, images started forming and I was just imagining things - then all of sudden I noticed the slightest sensation as if I could feel something. I decided that I'd turn this into a lucid, and promptly did. I WILDed into my room and reality check, sweet it worked . It's quite dark here though.. Darkness in my lucids tends to mean a weak or unstable lucid, so I attempt to stabilize. Me and my dream buddy Emnition have a challenge atm to see who can make a lucid last 5 minutes and I was really keen to try. I do something similar to the method I used in my last lucid, teleporting to a more stable place. I decide to make the 'portal' and reach out to pull apart the fabric of reality (imagine trying to pull apart elevator doors). The darkness splits, a tear cracking through the space in front of me to reveal a bright light shining through. I leap into the light and appear back in my room, it's light but it rapidly fades to darkness, then I wake up.

First Lucid

I was in a school auditorium filled with kids. I than left because I got bored of the event taking place.I was now in a temple like area that reminded me of Ocarina of time and became lucid. I had the sword in my hand and put it in the stone that takes you back in time. This was kind of unsettling because I remembered that there was zombies that appeared out at night. Only...I forgot it was when you were older that the zombies come out and I think it's at night. Anyways I left the temple hearing some zombie noises. I decided to change the scene to the neighborhood I use to live at when I was a little girl. I floated up a bit looking at the sky and house thinking how it was a good copy of the original.

After looking for a bit though the scene changed and I was now looking at a site that looked like dream views. There I saw a lot of writing and a picture of Elainey's avatar and my avatar.A voice of a guy than came up making me think of Nebulus. As he was talking the writing grew bigger and he said he was writing to show how he was grateful for the kindness the people at dream views shown to him. Oh and a picture of my literature teacher popped up as well which was kind of funny. However,the scene changed and I was now in my room with an invisible figure. I thought it was Eye and wondered how long I could stay in the dream without doing much. It lasted for what seemed like a few minutes than I woke up.

Second Lucid

I don't recall where it started but I was in my room when I became lucid.I called Eye and he came but than I got the feeling to call Dawn. I called for him than went to the room he use to appear in a lot. He was there laying down on a bed than got up when he looked at me.After that I went with him to my room but than Eye ended up doing something annoying. I can't remember what it was though. I decided to focus on Dawn after Eye did the annoying thing and looked at Dawn thinking about his appearance. He than picked me up and I was now above his shoulder. I pointed out how tall he was than after a few seconds he put me down.He wasn't very talkative in this dream.

I didn't see Eye around anymore so I decided to look upstairs for him.I lost my lucidity after seeing different birds inside my parakeet's cage. A little boy mentioned how they put them in there because they got lose. Worried I tried to take the bigger birds out and put them in the bigger cage that was now next to them. I only managed to put one inside before I woke up.

Awoke. Did 30-40 minutes of Zazen. Used theta 6.5 Binaural beats during first 20 minutes.

Supplements used.

Amino Acid. D-phenylalanine

Vitamin B Complex

Siberian Ginseng

Laid down on bed. Listened to "astral projection" Binaural beat" for ten minutes while doing exit methods. Then I took off headphones.

Methods Used. Rope method. Steam method, where one imagines oneself floating out of the body and hanging above it in the air. Visualising Body filling with light. A variant of the Lesser right of the Pentagram for 'protection'.

After 20-30 minutes I suddenly become aware of peculiar sensations, first tactile, then auditory hallucinations.

Convinced I am in the transitional state I attempt to float above and roll out of my body. The process worked, I end up crawling along the ground, slowly my visual sense comes into focus, dark images become distinct forms with colour and clear outlines.

I am in my apartment, given the sensation of leaving the body, I decide to look around to see if the 'dream' apartment mirrored the physical word, after a few moments of looking around I see that things are very different, most notably A dedicated chess/checkers table in the corner, also the main coffee table is much smaller, and has a wood colour top quite unlike the black one residing in the physical apartment. I make my way outside through a glass door. The city is almost unrecognisable, the sea is much closer to the apartment than in real life, the city looks dingy, old, and decrepit, instead of houses, the structures are more akin to barns and are located haphazardly along the flat land and hill, with seemingly no community planning, I can see the paint is peeling, the weather is grey but it is not night. I think to myself that perhaps this is how the town is going to look after some extinction level event. I walk to the shore line, my body becomes heavy, my sight is wavering, I take a moment to enjoy the scenery before falling to the ground. As I think about it, this may be how the town looked along time ago and not in some down cast future time.

I am in my room again, I seem to be in my bed. Not sure if I am awake or not, I do more exit techniques, when I feel my body morphing and floating upward I know it is time to get up and walk. Again I am in my apartment, I move into the bathroom, I look around and see my things are all out of order, my toothbrush is in the wrong place among other things. I jump out the window. It is sunny, things look much closer to how they should be. I pick up a piece a trash off the ground and throw it into someones window to test my accuracy. There is not one person to be seen. Again the sea is much closer than normal, I move toward it but soon fall into blackness.

Again I wake in my bed, not sure if I am awake or not I again do the exit methods until it is clear I am still dreaming. In the black state before images started to form I was treated to some very nice music, it was the type of music I enjoyed, alt rock, but the song and band was unknown. Again I leave out the living room. Again the sea is much closer than usual, not only this but the porch was overlooking a large precipice, water was crashing into the rocks below, the foam went back into the sea. The sense of its aesthetic beauty of the scene uplifted me, its complexity, its scope, pleasurable feelings radiated through my mind. "Now this is art!" I said to myself, I watched it until the dream faded again.

Another False wakening. Memory lapse. I find myself in a small restaurant not knowing exactly how I got there. There are people eating, I watch their conversation, one lady is my 5th grade teacher, the other lady I did not know. Feeling hungry I grab and eat a slice of pizza, slightly worried in doing this I may chew on my physical tongue, I still ate it, the taste was subtle, the temperature was moderate, it was enjoyable. I have a short conversation with the owner, offering more food I think. Again there is a sea, The restaurant is located on a isolated road along a mountain side with a forest of high trees on one side of the road and the water on the other. I see two people as I walk along the road, I say to one person "I do not know if you are real, but I am happy to have someone to share this scenery with", I do not recall him saying anything but he did smile as I recall. The dream becomes dark, my body becomes heavy. I fade into darkness.

After another false awakening. I walk along the road, it is sunny, there are many very nice green plants everywhere, the houses all seem quite normal. I ask for my 'guardian angel' out of curiosity to see if anyone would show up, no one showed up. I see and enter a large luxurious mansion located by the sea, I look around for a while, wishing I owned such a beautiful house.

A Lapse in memory occurs. I am walking through a field, there is green grass, the sky is bright and blue. There are two girls walking toward me, they get on a swing set. I say "Hello I need help, I keep blacking out". They looked at me vary curiously. I explain "I am a human, I am dreaming, I am having trouble keeping my dream stable". They ask cautiously "are you a LVB", they explained that this meant a 'lower vibrational body'. I was a kind a anomaly to them, a strange being, they knew I was a traveller in this world and not a resident, and judged me a bit for that. I had the strong intuition of individuality from them, the idea of doing something awkward like touching them without asking seemed unthinkable, they were too 'human', too 'conscious' seeming, I spoke with the utmost respect to them, I offered my hand and again asked for assistance, one girl lightly touched the top of my hand. The dream starts to fade, I go down to the ground and grab at weeds and grass seeking to stimulate tactile sensation, the grass was very green, there were also clovers.

Bits and pieces which have no orientation in context, the memories around them are seemingly gone for now.

It is dark I am spinning.

I am in bed, my body is vibrating.

I am at the dinner again. I pass by the kitchen where they are playing music.

I am in bed there are voices talking around me.

When I awoke I was exited, yet mentally tired. Even some 8 hours later I still feel completely mentally out of it, very strange.