lucid

I had my first lucid dream last night! Woo hoo! I was sitting in this cafe when it dawned on me that it wss a dream. I then made the dream more clear by stomping my foot on the ground, and used all the methods I know to stabilize a dream. Then, I went outside, where I spent a few minutes trying to fly. I finally started to levitate, and then I flew out over a city. After flying for a few minutes, I woke up. It was really fun though! I'm so glad I was able to do it.

non-dream dream semi-lucid lucid false awakening

I fell asleep slowly, keeping my awareness, and the plunge was so subtle, that I wasn't sure when I was already asleep or not and both worlds overlapped for a while. I was clearly already visioning a dream world, but every time I moved my hands to do a RC, I was still moving my "real" hands and not the dream hands. It took me a while to finalize the transition. And when I did, I still wasn't sure in what level of reality I was, because I got up from my dream bed and went to a balcony and clearly the world outside was a very large city and not my hometown, but it was so realistic in all its details and sensations, that I chickened at the thought of flying away from the balcony. I decided to do one more RC just to be on the safe side and not kill myself.
When I was absolutely sure, then I flew away over a 10-lane highway and for fun, landed on top of a big truck and surfed it.
I had no clear goal with the dream, so I let the story unfold.
My stunts attract some attention and I gather a group of misfits and adventurers who follow me as their leader. We become a rebel group on this futuristic mad max style world. Some day I meet a guy I don't fully trust, but he is a bad-ass with some skills and I spend some time with him, to see if he fits in our group. We hijack trucks with materials we can use, but we never hurt anybody. But he attacks a truck with a family and kills the parents of a kid and almost shoots the kid. Needless to say, I kick his ass and make sure he never hurts anyone again. Then I adopt the scared kid and take him to our base. We live in a semi-underground tunnel complex on the outskirts of the suburbs. I love this kid very much and make sure he grows up nicely and in a peaceful environment.
I guess he brings me into maternal mode, because I do much less adventures outside and have become more home-based. I even have a date with a guy and a friend helps me pick up a dress to go out that evening. I leave the kid with a lady who is not human. Her head is hairless and instead is covered in a thick brownish skin with round protuberances of different sizes. But she is the most trustworthy person around, very calm and serene.
This guy I'm going out with, he's like the Hulk, big and green. The babysitter suggest I should wear a green outfit to match, but I disagree, he might think I'm mocking him.

Date: 4/4/14 (Thu)
Total sleep: 6.5 Hours
Daytime Techniques: RCs, Visualization, Text Search
Lucid Techniques: Mantras, Meditative Visualization
Recall Techniques: Meditative Visualization Mantras
Fell Asleep: 10:00 pm
Dream 1 Title: Aimless wandering
Dream 1: I am walking up a low grassy hill with my wife. We are walking to the mall together. I am wearing a long black trench coat. **Jump** I am at the mall and I am in the kitchen area of a restaurant. Lisa from work is there. She asks me if I need help with anything and I say no. There are stainless steel cabinets and counters all around me. They are covered of boxes, cans, bottles and kitchen utensils. There is a large gray plastic trash bin, with wheels, right in front of me. I look in. There are a few boxes, and beneath them are a bunch of cookies. I see some cookie that are cupped, and in the depression is yellow filling. I know they are lemon and really want to eat some. I reach in to take some, but realize they are in the trash and that would be disgusting. I walk out thought a set of swinging doors and find myself in a local mall. I walk to my left, not paying too much attention to anything. There are people all around. I notice a pretty woman pushing a baby carriage and stop to look at the baby. She gives me a dirty look. I feel embarrassed. I quickly turn away and walk into the store to my right. Then I realize this isn’t a store but a daycare center. I know I shouldn’t be in there because you have to sign in before entering for security reasons. I quickly leave. **Jump** I am sitting in the sand of a beach, but I can’t see, hear or smell the ocean. It feels like I’m on a movie set. But, the sand feels nice. It is warm and very dry. Then I notice a bundle of sticks sticking out of the sand to my right. They are sticks which would be used for beef and chicken skewers at a Chinese restaurant. Then I see pieces of meat clinging to the sticks. I am disgusted. I look around and there are many more around me, sticking out of the sand. I realize I am sitting in the middle of a garbage dump. I jump to my feet and begin to walk away. The dream fades and I awake.
Dream 2 Title: Sleeping in a warehouse (**Lucid**)
Dream 2: I am in some kind of small warehouse. The floors and walls are cement. There are tables and chairs set up. There is a small stage. There are miscellaneous items (boxes, bins, boards, etc) that you may find in a warehouse pushed up against the walls. My wife and daughter are there. We find seats at a large round table (seats about 8 people) as more people start to come into the room. Everyone starts to take their seats. A woman comes in and goes up to the mic on the small stage. I realize she is a comedian. She walks out into the audience and is talking but I can’t make out what she is saying. She walks to our table and put’s her hand on my daughter’s shoulder. She gets up from her seat and walks with the woman. I assume she is going to go up on stage as part of the act, but instead the woman escorts her to another table. I’m confused by this. I realize I am sitting on a couch and I lay down on my side because I’m feeling tired. I see my wife get up, walk over to the table where my daughter is now sitting and sit next to her. Things start to fade out as I feel I am falling asleep. I open my eyes and the show is over. I am still lying down with a coat covering me. I look over my right shoulder and see Maggie (a woman I used to work with over 10 yrs ago). I say hi to her. She says Hi back but is looking at me funny because I am sleeping during a show. I sit up and look for my wife and daughter, but I realize I am now shirtless and only wearing athletic shorts. I see my wife and daughter about 20 feet away, they have their backs to me. I notice my daughter has much more hair than in RL, it is up in a ponytail and hangs to the back of her legs. Someone behind me playfully wraps his or her arms around my neck. I don’t know who it is. I move toward my wife and daughter and the person continues to hang on. My wife turns and smiles. The person lets go and I turn around. It is a young man who I don’t recognize (in the dream or RL). He is about my daughter’s age, with short red curly hair and lots of freckles on his face. Behind him a see a large metal sliding door which I know leads out of the building. Something is feeling strange about this situation. I walk to the door. Suddenly I have a shirt on. I know I was shirtless seconds ago, and I know something isn’t right. Then I remember I was awake in my bed just a little while ago, and having a lot of trouble falling back to sleep. I am lucid without doing a reality check. Everything around me, colors and details, become more vivid. I am surprisingly calm. (I completely forgot to stabilize) I grab the handle of the door and slid it open. There is an alley before me with a one story brick building to the left and a wooden stockade fence to the right. I walk out into the ally. About 20 feet down the alley is a maroon dumpster and standing hear it is a woman. She is taller than me (probably 6 ‘6”) with dark black wavy hair that falls below her shoulders. She is wearing a puffy white long sleeve shirt, a long black skirt, and tall black boots. She reminds me of a gypsy. I walk towards her. She turns and smiles at me. I smile back. I say, “I’m dreaming!” She continues to look at me but her face morphs. Her cheek bones and jaw become more pronounce and the shadow of beard stubble appears. She is now a man dressed like a woman. I ignore this change knowing this is just a dream. I decide to jump over the six foot fence to my right. As I jump I remember my goal, and drop back to the ground. I know I want to fly into space and view the earth from orbit. I look up at the sky, which is brilliantly blue with no clouds. I turn back to the man/woman and say “Do you want to see something amazing?” He/she nods. I look back to the sky and it has changed. It is a swirling mass of deep purple and blue with millions of stars and galaxies. I pause for a moment to stare at this amazing sight. Then I squat down a bit and give a tremendous leap…but my real life legs respond and jerk which immediately wakes me up.
Awake:: 4:00 am then dozed back off around 5 am and awoke at 5:15 am
Vividness: (scale of 1-15, 10 is waking life vividness) D1 = 6; D2 = before lucid 8, after lucid 13
Awareness: (1-10; or lucid) D1 = 4; D2 before lucid 8 then Lucid
Length: (how long it felt like! Because that matters) D1 = 20 min; D2 10 min
Emotions: Disappointment, Fear, Embarrassment; Disgust; Happiness
Dream Signs: In strange places (restaurant kitchen, day care center, warehouse, beach, etc), person from my past, daughter with long hair, some kid I don’t know hugging me from behind)
Notes: I woke up after Dream 1 just before 4 am. I have pain in my neck. I lay there recalling my dream for a few minutes. I make mental tags. But then I realize I’m probably not going to be able to fall back to sleep. I then jot my tags down on my notebook and lay there thinking about my dream and trying to remember previous dreams from earlier that night. I glance at the clock at 4:32 am. I start meditating (breathing, clearing my mind) in the hope of falling back to sleep. I glace at the clock at 4:53 am. Then I ended up in Dream 2, but it was a very light sleep right on the verge of waking up. In the dream I completely forgot to stabilize. I’m sure that would have helped.

Night of April 4, 2014. Friday.



This is one of the only times in recent years I have deliberately tried to focus on a person I did not know at all (other than as an assumed bizarre and relentlessly narcissistic persona), though I have (not by intent) dreamt of the YouTube hillbilly conspiracy theorist a few times (one dream being precognitive of his finding a much younger wife).

In my dream, there is only one main scene of a man riding backwards on a horse. He goes about in circles seeming very delighted and pleased. There seems no threat of injury. This is close to being a “glowing dream” but does not reach that visual quality (that is, a dream where everything seems to glow from within, sort of like a photographic negative but with correct color). He leans forward over the back of the horse, his upper body eventually being nearly horizontal to the horse. His head, with the side of it touching the horse’s back (as if seemingly attempting to hear something - but probably only incidental in appearance as such) is mostly over the croup and his hands open and about the horse’s hips for the most part. He continues to seem delighted as the horse gallops about but he never sees me at any point. He seems very proud and fulfilled over how “well” he is doing in a sort of absentminded, yet totally certain way.

He is dressed informally and has flushed cheeks with a reddish nose and even a reddish chin, with a sort of odd pale complexion as if out of the sun for a long time or appearing to have a continuous “alcohol complexion”. He grins in euphoria. It is almost as if he views the horse as his own body. Even though he is riding backwards, it seems to be how things have “always been” for him, almost as if he is not aware that a horse has a head.

Eventually, he has a very large bed-sheet (or possibly a picnic blanket), wearing it over himself sort of like an implied cape, leaning down closer to the back even more as if the horse were like a bed, with the tail being the head of the bed. Eventually, he covers himself completely (somehow able to hold onto part of it) as the sheet moves up and about almost like distorted wings of an airplane. I stand puzzled and wondering if he will see me, but no. At one point, the sheet waves like a flag. I continue to watch, feeling a sense of hilarity as well as a sincere pity.

This dream opened into a very nice room, that resembled a very nice suite in a hotel room. The decorations and the scenery outside the window made it seem as if I was in India, and I was with a very attractive girl who was my girlfriend. We were fooling around in the room and something bad happened, resulting in the death of the girl. Apparently I accidentally did something to cause her death, and I pled guilty. However, instead of facing the law, I was taken in by an old man who ran a monastery/convent/church place. He showed me around quickly and we bonded rather well as he showed me where I would live, what my duties would be, etc. I met another girl in the monastery and we flirted a bit, the old man chastising me and saying "Isn't this what got you into trouble in the first place?" We stayed friends but didn't really do much else. The old man and I eventually ended up in his office and he began coughing. I was concerned for his health, but he told me that it wasn't important and that this would probably be the last time I saw him. Suddenly, there was a time skip and I heard my own voice narrating what had happened in that time. I said that "I only saw him one more time before his death 17 years later."

Suddenly, I was in what seemed to be a high school gym with a violin in my hands, apparently leading a rehearsal for some show featuring music from Homestuck played by our orchestra while actors on a stage danced while playing. I can't play violin in real life, but I know enough to know how the instrument works, so I was still consciously playing it even though I didn't really know what I was doing. At some point during this practice, I became at least partially lucid rather accidentally. I remember getting up and starting to walk away, but nothing particularly fun came to mind, so I just sat back down and picked up the violin, since it seemed cool anyway. I think it was only partial lucidity because surely if I had been fully lucid I would've come up with SOMETHING else to do, and I do remember a certain vagueness that still pervaded the dream. When I sat back down, I was worried at first that I wouldn't be able to play the violin, but then I remember it was a dream and I could basically just play random notes and it would sound however I wanted it to sound, so I did, and it was a pretty sweet arrangement. I eventually picked up a trumpet someone had left laying around and was about to try playing it when someone distracted me and asked for help cleaning the gym. I lost the brief lucidity at some point and helped to vacuum a small carpeted lounge area in one corner of the gym. When the janitors I was helping finished the room, I got a text from my friend David. I don't actually remember getting the text or what it said, but it was written in my notes.

Now when I left, I found myself in an urban area and met my mom. She told me I was going to be sent to jail for 6 months anyway. I was rather solemn and accepting of it, and I remember getting ready and preparing myself for the days to come. I knew it was a pretty nice jail with many luxuries, but I would still be confined to one room nearly the entire time. I recall thinking that it wasn't really going to be that bad since the cell was basically the same size as my college dorm room and I was just going to be chilling in there for 6 months. I found a refrigerator outside which apparently had some food leftover from an event my mom held. It had a couple popsicles and some cheese-filled sausages that looked pretty good. I grabbed them and went into my house, which had appeared in front of me somehow, even though the fridge should've been nowhere near there. I found hot dog buns next to the microwave and put a few of the sausages in there, then prepared a plate. However, my mom asked me to help her find her new job at some Subway store. She would be driving and I would be the navigator. It wasn't supposed to take that long, and I was really only using a MapQuest app. I was having some technical issues, which also seems to happen in my dreams relatively often. We somehow drove across the Atlantic Ocean and all of Africa and Asia, ending up in southeast China in a few minutes. I then realized that I told MapQuest to take us to the wrong Subway, and the one my mom was supposed to work at was in Brazil. I struggled to plot a new course that wouldn't take more than 19 hours to drive there (which seemed to be about the minimum time I could find in the suggested routes). I was also worried about missing my court date or whatever, which would have resulted in more jail time. We discussed the possibility of just staying on the run in other countries, when eventually, the dream started to fade and I woke up.

#302 - DEILD - 5:55AM

I intend to have a natural WBTB but I wake a bit late around 5AM. The dream I was having was about my company's wifi was recording everyone's Google searches. I found out the IT dept was actually going through all the records and I become worried that I should have been more careful what I research. I was certain that I always make sure I stay logged out of Google for this very reason as I wake.

It's too late for an actual WBTB so I use the restroom and do mantra's while focusing on my body, hoping for the best outcome.

I find myself sitting in some sort of outdoor amphitheater with my wife and her sister. We seem to be watching a movie on a big screen that looks like some lame chick flick. I become bored and remember there is a bar in the back. I wonder if they serve Absinthe. I remember I had been researching it (True) and really want to try a shot. I tell my wife I'll be right back.

The scene skips to an indoor and dimly lit bar with lots of neon lights. I walk to the bartender and see some random bottles that might be Absinthe but I can't read it. Then I clearly see a bottle marked, "LUCID". It's a real brand of Absinthe so I don't think too much other than, "Yes. They have it." Although, I am a bit bummed that it is this brand since I had read so much negative remarks about it online.



I ask the bartender to pour me a shot. There was some conversation that I can't recall. Then, a young, good looking black man comes from the back that I take to be the owner. He has a white tall-boy can in one hand and says something like, "If you just want to a taste then try this." I explain to him that from what I read, American Absinthe doesn't contain any Thujone. It's like a coffee drinker trying to enjoy decafe. (BTW I have no idea if this is actually the case, but I have read that as well as other conflicting articles.) I was hoping for some imported stuff, but I decide to take a sip. I force myself to get past the fact that I am drinking after a complete stranger. Worse still it seems to be the off of it. Gross. The liquid is ice cold and tastes exactly like mugwort tea with a hint of wormwood. I lie to the man and tell him, "It's good", as I walk away. I stop after a few steps and already feel pleasantly intoxicated. I see some mild hallucinations and then all my senses, especially my vision, becomes super sharp and Hi-Def. I marvel at this for a second and then remember that I need to get back to my wife.

I am in the amphitheater again but everyone has left. My pocket buzzes and I read a text from my wife. "WE ARE IN THE HIGH TOWER" I'm not sure what that means but I remember there's a round ziggurat in the parking lot. I rush over there as fast as I can. I just get a glimpse of something that resembles a small Tower Of Babel when I either half wake or have a false awakening.



I am self aware but not really trying to LD at this point. I recall the dream I just had and realize the word "Lucid" and the thoughts of Thujone should have made me think of LD and RC.

I get a vivid flash of some dream scene, become excited, then renter darkness. I realize that I am basically dreaming now and the vibrations start. I wait a moment strengthening the vibes and telling myself to stay aware. I feel my heart pounding and force myself to calm down. After a moment I exit.

I am standing in the kitchen/dinning room of the old house in Luling. I move down the hallway to the front door but my vision blacks out again. I recall the living room in my mind and the lights come back on. I look around with eyes wide open to see better. I decide to stay inside but I can't seem to recall any goals. I head back to the kitchen and notice a large red toned mural on the wall in the hallway. I don't focus on it (I wish I had) but feel the edge of it. I wasn't sure if it was canvas or actually painted on the wall.

I move to the kitchen and recall all the crazy "demon" stories about this old church parsonage. It always frightened the hell out of me ask a kid so I decide to call them out. When I try to speak my voice is caught in my throat and I assume I was trying to talk in my sleep. I pause, make a humming noise, then in a loud and commanding voice, "IF THERE EVER WERE ANY DEMONS HERE. THEN COME FORTH AND SHOW YOURSELF." Once I had spoken the words I feel mildly afraid, yet confident. Still, I think I should find a weapon. I turn and pull an extra large butcher knife from a wooden knife block on the counter. I think this isn't big enough and it becomes a Samurai sword with a handle matching Michonne's sword in TWD. I look around disappointed that there are no demons to attack. Not even zombies. I hack and swing in the air imagining invisible foe's but none materialize. It's at this point that I wake up minutes before the alarm clock.

I appeared to be in my back garden[SP], this was somewhat unusual given this was a garden from my old house (37 Whitefriars Road)[ST], the garden was strange, there was no house present -- a little shack perhaps, the grass overgrown in the distance and fields vastly stretched out[SF].

In front of me stood a large apparatus, it seemed as though I was viewing it from a green coated deck-chair, it was hard to identify, it's shape matched that of a TV but it had features of a Sound-station, it towered over me - a giant rectangular obelisk[OF]. It was apparent that it was in poor condition the fabric - torn, dislodged and ripped. On the left side, the fabric had a patchwork hole, above it the silk had been unwoven causing a mesh screen to waver in and out like a curtain. In the center of the object, a CRT screen or mid-sized woofer reverberated [OF]. After that things were fuzzy, my thoughts were to fix or clean this object from it's poor condition, I had assumed purchasing it second-hand, in this regard it was likely a refurbish attempt. This was notable because early that day in real-life I had done something similar to a dirtied sink basin, restoring it to a clean condition. [S]

The next segment of the dream was extremely hazy, I think I was trying to clean the object, but it also involved cleaning the floor around the object for whatever reason[EA]. I was doing this by going over to a brick covered square block, the interior of which was filled with water, this block seemed to tucked away in a cavern by a lake. The dream objects continued switching in and out[OF], I remember there being a cave near this pebbled alcove, it was sealed by slotted rectangular bolder, for some reason the front of these broke off, or I hit it -- I can't remember. One of the layers shattered, crumbling in a distinctly odd fashion[OA]. I could see the other layered boulders in the cave, this was all strange obviously because this wasn't normal, more like a physics destruction system from a dated video game[OF] (Geo-mod -- Red Faction); This is probably how I justified it at the time as well. This section of the dream went on for a while, I remember being very panicky at this point. I was filling or transferring the water from this brick pit, over to the speaker but it was spilling everywhere[EA], I had the distinct idea of making a mess in two locations despite the brick pit initially being a well of sorts, the bricks were oddly arranged I was picking them up and a cement like-paste was wrapping them. The water was beginning to pool over the brick pit, sticking to the messy paste. Everything was incredibly messy, all I could think about was mess, mess - mess. I was panicking and extremely anxious. [E] [S]

After that there was a transition, the speaker appeared to have gone, and I was just in the garden normally. I could see what looked like black laborers in the distant hilly field above the shacked house[ST]. There was something odd about their appearance, my mind told me these were slavers, working on a plantation [ST][SF]. I saw my dad in the window of the shack [CP], he called over to me, something about eating food, or having food or perhaps just my food was ready. Something about tea as well, which suggested that he probably wanted one, I felt incredibly annoyed at this conversation for some reason [E]. I also saw Zakia outside [CP]. [S]

Then something more bizarre happened, I'd teleported slightly further back in the field, to a diagonal position overlooking a field Northeast. Above a plane soared, but it was all so odd, the plane was flying far too low [OA], there was nothing else in the sky, and the landscape was far too simply contoured and outlined, just solid color no fidelity [SF]. A Frisbee was thrown at this point, it seemed to emanate from my body [OA], I don't recall physically throwing it, but it instantaneously hit the plane, it hadn't even flown in the correct trajectory to hit the plane, nor had it flown high enough to do so. All that happened though was the plane exploded, not in a fireball but seemingly it just snapped and smoke expelled from the fuselage [OF] (at this point I felt shameful, stupid, clumsy, guilty, inept [E]), but rather than crash-land it seemed to almost frame skip, then crash-land, entirely non-audible as well [OA], and before I'd known it there were already policeman and others cordoning off the scene, all within the span of a second. [P] [S]

I was somewhat lucid at this point, I'd flown over to the plane wreckage, which now was on a road, in the middle of a street. The chief of police funnily enough resembled David Cameron [CP], he gawked up at me and I flew overhead, I felt somewhat rebellious, a cocksure lawbreaker [ER]. The chief was incredibly angry, flew up and begun to fly with me down the street [CA]. He chased after me and the scene seemed to squash into a small ventilation perspective of the street [P], with the Chief flying in a superman posture directly towards me. The scenery was all grey-scale and outlined now, and I was dodging billboards. I remember being pommeled by the Chief, he was much stronger, beating me into a pulp. I managed quickly to squeeze into a nearby doorway as he fluttered around outside, it took an incredibly amount of force to squeeze in (similar to that of pulling oneself out of a dream). I managed to pull myself inside looking out through a blackened corridor, a small black screen on what was a rainy grey street under a blurry visage. [P] [S]

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uh man it's like 9:42 PM let's see
I wrote some out earlier but then had to restart google chrome gggg but I can still remember some...

Dream - Can't Get Out
So in this one let's seee first of all my bro and I were chilling in this big old movie theater complex, and we befriended this one kid in a wheelchair and borrowed something from him, like maybe a handheld game thing. And then later we realized we needed to give it back to him, but by that time he was chilling by the concession stand next to the stairs, and we were on the second floor directly overhead (also next to the stairs), and for WHATEVER reason we decided to try to lower it through a hole in the floor to him, rather than just going down the stairs. Think there was also an elevator by them stairs. But nah. Too convenient I guess. Too easy.

So we tried to lower it to him using a jumprope but I'm pretty sure that didn't work. Like, maybe there wasn't even a hole in the floor to begin with. Crazy stuff.

Next bit was me alone in the theater complex still, in some back area that was super well decorated. Looked like the living space for some rich retired guy; open spaces, fireplace with a mantel, gold stuff and nice furniture all around, and like, random stuff displayed on stands like it was a museum or art exhibit or somethin'.

I think I was looking for something. The mood was sort of heading towards horror-ish, though I'm not sure how. And then the rich retired guy walked in behind me. He was pretty friendly, really. Quite welcoming. I guess we were sort of buddies or on the same side or whatever.

So then I hopped in an elevator and started heading down to the basement, but had a brief moment of lucidity when I realized that this was a dream and that I really did NOT want to go down to the basement. There was going to be something terrible down there. That's how basements are, in horror games, and this dream had at some point become a nightmare. By now I was huddled in the corner of the elevator, facing the door, fighting my fear.

I started trying to figure out how to wake up. I tried to feel my IWL body, asleep in my bed, but there was absolutely no sign of it. I couldn't perceive it even slightly. It really was just me in the dream, as far as my mind was concerned. I think I abandoned the attempt to feel my body and instead tried to just "wake up", but that didn't work either and soon the lucidity died.

The elevator reached the basement and the doors opened to reveal darkness, and a menacing basement sort of atmosphere; but where I was expecting some monster to appear, the confident retired man walked up, in a white suit that defied the darkness around him. He stepped into the elevator, and we headed back upstairs.

I don't remember what happened next. I think we ended up back in the main part of the theater, and I might have woken up soon after.

Fragment: Me walking along, hugging myself, then realizing that the people around me can see my body language.

I had a long, miserable WBTB. I woke up at 5am and probably didn't get back to sleep until well after 8am. But I made the effort to keep my awareness, and incubate some TOTM possibilities. I decided during this time, that upon gaining lucidity, I would find a DC, and stick my leg out as he walked by, tripping him. That's about as basic as that one gets, but I thought it would be an easy one after such a long dry spell.

Anyway, I slipped into a coma like sleep finally, and had some nonlucids that I've already forgotten. At one point, I was having a nonlucid where I was holding a cat, and petting him, and he was purring, and all sweet. But every so often, I guess I was petting him wrong, and he'd go ape shit biting my hand. This cycled a few times when I realized that it was indeed happening in cycles, and I could kinda feel vibrations associated with the biting, like when I WILD or DEILD. I realized I was dreaming (YEAH!) and thought right away about finding a DC to trip. I was already in some house, but it was unfamiliar. My left eye wasn't working right, but I ignored it. I walked into the next room and saw a really beautiful African American woman. Great body, beautiful face and hair.. made me think right away of black Barbie. She was standing in a corner of what looked like a small, cluttered family room. I said "Come 'ere.." to her, with the idea that when she walked up to me, I'd stick out my leg and trip her. But she just shook her head and said "no." Stupid DCs... when will they learn that you're not supposed to tell us dreamers no. There was a long couch next to her and I willed her to flop down on it, and she did, landing on the couch on her stomach.

Spoiler for NSFW:

I got on top of her and nailed her. I won't get into the nitty gritties here, but I will say that I'm shocked that I was able to finish without waking up, because it was pretty damn exciting. My eyesight was terrible, so I just went with feel alone. I remember making an effort to kiss and caress the skin on her back a lot, which I think helped me stay grounded. Toward the end, I was really moving and moaning, and I was super scared that real me was moving and making noises in the bed and how embarrassing that would have been!

Anyway, when I was done, I was thrilled to still be in the dream and lucid (THRILLED TO BE ALIIIIVE!!!!!!), so I made a move for an area of the room that had a window overlooking a grocery store. The window was like a portal with a preview haha, I love it. I phased through the window and entered the store from a second story height. My eye started working a lot better, and the store was really really vivid and colorful and clear. I love grocery stores in LDs, because they really are very colorful places with lots of neat stuff: colorful flowers, fruits and veggies; beautiful packages and cans of food, meat and fish and big displays with loud signs... basically a candy store for me, in dreams as well as real life. Anyway, before I could think up another task attempt, I woke up.

Best part about all this, is that I told Danny about it when I woke up, and he actually got turned on by it haha! There's only one guy in the world so freaky as to love a freak of nature such as me and I'm lucky I found him <3 Seriously, the amount of random crap he entertains me telling him, all this DV nonsense, podcasts that make no sense to him... must be all the good grub

Color legend: Non-dream Dream Lucid

Lucid #197: The King

It's modern times, and I’m the king of a small nation. I’m sharing a smallish hotel suite with several royal guests. A few of the royal guests in the adjoining room are very upset with me about something and I’m pacing the room, dreading that I have to talk the issue over with them.

I inspect one of the hotel desks and see two narrow drawers. Somehow I realize that the drawer on the left contains a picture of the girl that my son E (who I think is a prince) is engaged to. I open the drawer and see that the future princess is a cute girl in her late teens with long brown hair. I think for a moment how odd this pairing is since my son is only 4 years old. I struggle with this for a moment, thinking I’ve forgotten my son’s age, until I realize that I’m dreaming.

I walk into an adjacent room where I think my kids are sleeping. There’s a crib here but instead of a child, the crib contains my friend R (who appeared in a few of my early lucids way back when). R is squatting in the crib, not doing much of anything, so I grab him under the armpits and hoist him out of the crib. I tell him that I’m having a lucid dream and that I hope he’s having one too (or maybe that I just hope he’s having a lot of them recently.)

He walks back to the main part of the hotel room with me, briefly exploring the kitchen area, before we turn toward a large picture window overlooking a lake. I invite him to come fly out over the lake with me, but he seems hesitant and apprehensive. He remarks that he doesn’t think he’s got the skills to pull this off.

I say some reassuring words, and when I turn back to the big picture window, the scene has changed from a lake to a large office filled with cubicles. There’s a woman with long, dark hair and glasses working quietly at a desk, and when she looks up to see us seems completely astonished.

The change is a surprise to me, so I decide to head out the other way from the hotel room. I don’t press the issue with R and let him just hang out in the hotel room. The hotel room exit takes me into a library with a high ceiling. I take advantage of the ceiling space by flying around. I help myself navigate around the room by pointing where I want to go, and it works great!

After a moment I remember that I need to pursue my goals, so I land and make an attempt at the Jack and the Beanstalk Task of the Year. I produce a seed from behind the back and then plunge my hands into the industrial carpet of the library floor. I find that I can dig it up easily and all these little chunks of foam pop out of the hole I leave behind. I use them to cover the seed back up and start thinking about how I should water it to help it grow.

As I’m thinking my way through this, the scene goes dark and I feel myself lying in bed. I’m super hopeful that it’s just a false awakening, and I even hit the nose pinch. Too bad -- I’m awake!

Color legend: Non-dream Dream Lucid

Lucid #196: Wonderful Distractions

I’m lying on my side anticipating a lucid dream. I sense the transition into a dream, but my dream body is lying on its side in the same position as my waking life body. I approach this in an OBE style and will myself to roll out of bed onto the floor. I ooze off of the edge of the bed and drift gently to the floor.

My vision is dark at this point, so I spend a moment chilling out and digging my hands into the carpet to build up my physical sensations of the scene. After everything feels right, I stand up and look out over the bed. Wife has completely buried herself under the comforter. I throw the covers back and she sits up, blinking in the daylight which streams in through the window.

I’m struck by the clarity of the scene. There’s a slight haze at the edges of my vision, but even though there’s a dreaminess to everything I see, it all looks incredibly realistic. She gets out of bed and I follow her toward our walk-in closet while I try to remember my goals.

The structure of our closet looks the same as waking life except for the fact that it’s grown much larger. There are two attractive women standing there, an Asian woman and a shorter lady with brown hair, just sort of hanging around and talking to each other. Hanging around three cute DCs makes me forget all other goals and (somewhat complex) sexytime commences.

After a few moments Wife says, “We forgot to close the bedroom door!” as if she’s afraid that the kids will barge in. I reluctantly leave the closet to go check on this, but find that the door’s already shut tight.

“Everything’s fine,” I say, and when I turn back to the closet, the other two women have vanished. I’m also surprised to see that it’s night outside now. I look out through the window and see that there’s a tow truck out front hauling off a cute little car that’s shaped like a phone booth. “Hey check this out!” I tell Wife.

“That’s a shame,” she says. We watch as the tow truck drives off.

When I turn back toward the bed, I see a freckled woman in her early 20s laying on our bed. She’s wearing shorts and flopped on her stomach, reading some kind of pamphlet. I’m too far gone to think of goals at this point, so this leads to some additional sexytime with Wife and this newest DC.

Afterward, I get up from the bed and feel the scene darkening. I look at my hands and I can see the light fading from the dream fast. I dig my hands into the carpet, but before long I have a false awakening where I hear my father-in-law shout, “3 AM faaaaail!” I'm confused for a moment and then “remember” that a bunch of us are staying at some vacation house and needed to wake up at 3 AM for some reason.

I walk out of the room, feeling sleepy, and see my cousin SU. “Hey, did you hear? JP Morgan is going under.” I’m astonished to hear this.

My brother-in-law Muppet says, “This pisses me off so much.”

“That we’ll wind up bailing out a huge bank?” I ask.

“No,” Muppet says, and launches into a long, disjointed speech about finance. After a while I realize that this person isn’t even Muppet anymore but some guy I don’t recognize. I wonder how I got so confused and eventually pull myself away from the conversation shortly before the dream ends.

Today's LDing ( induced by galantamine + choline with scrambled eggs, mild)
a lot of beer
2:00 go to sleep
4:45 wake up
5:30 galatamine + choline, scrambled eggs and juice
6:00 go to sleep
7:45
LD Easter eggs
I'm in a house where two gangs go after each other. I hide and I see creatures like from fairy tales. A rubber flying prying mantis find me! I'm afraid that she reveals my position so I jump on it and I rip her rubber head off. I examine it's rubber green body and I become lucid. There is a girl hidden with me. I ask her for easter egg. She give me ordinary chicken egg. I break it and there is just an inside of an egg. I need more eggs. I see old refrigerator, open it and expect to find eggs in there. There is packege of eggs but it's full of tomatoes. I close it and try to summon eggs on more time. Open it and find 5 chicken eggs. I take them and try to change it color to be more easter. I hide it behind my back and expect to change its color. It does every time. I tell the girl that I wanna find a surprise inside the egg. ''Throw it to the ground'' she replies. I do it and I see toys like from kinder surprise. First is puzzle toy and the other three are the same - small yard with plastic giraffe....

LD DEILD Flight into space
... I'm in the mountain village. I decide to fly into space. I already tried it few times but I never managed to leave the atmosphere. I jump and fly toward the sky. Every time I clench all my muscles and kick with my legs I enormously speed up. I do it few times until I see huge green mountains in front of me. I fly really fast toward the mountains so there is no comming back. I tell my self that I will pass through. I'm not afraid of smashing my face so speed up more. I fly throught it easily and now I'm in the clouds. After like 5 minutes I turn my head back and I expect to see the globe. Suddenly I see earth. It's so tremendous huge over the all view. I speed up and now I'm in the ink black space. I see all the planets of our solar system, sun and moon. All are the same size. There is completely silence and suddenly calm and conquering music starts to play. I decide to meditate there. I'm not a great meditator but in this lucid dream and in space with this soft music it was unforhetabble wholesome feeling. I open my eyes and I see strange boards with anciend markings floating around. I decide to wake up and record my lucid dream.

I am walking towards home, coming from nowhere. I realize I am walking across the wrong street, so I undo my steps and choose the right one, after waiting for a car to get out of my way.

I am in front of my house and I hear my mom's voice calling me. I look for her with no result, thinking how weird it is to hear her voice being that far from her. I realize I am probably dreaming, so I do a reality check and confirm it before entering into the house.

What should I do? I think and find myself in front of a big mirror which ends up turning into a computer screen.
I push my right hand on the mirror's surface, trying to break through it. My hand starts to appear in the other side and I do the same with my other hand. Then I push my whole body to the other side, feeling some weird sensations while crossing the glass.

I am in the other side and everything is the same. I feel disappointed but then I realize that if I look in detail everything if formed with tiny fractal patters which seem to move.

I wake up.

This is my first DJ, so i'll start with my most recent LD.

It was two days ago. I fell asleep into a dream that was of a cavern.. or rather a cave turning into a long stoned pathway. It was illuminated by bluish fiery light from both sides, leading down the path as well. While walking down this path, i noticed the walls had crystallized mirrors. Looking into them,, it seemed foggy at first, but then when it started to clear up. I noticed my younger self.. my childhood self. Having fun. Each mirror i looked into was a sequence of a childhood memories i enjoyed. Witnessing this made me realize i was in a dream and yet, i hand no control of the memories that came or the area that i dreamed of.
However i was able to control myself. A Dream induced Lucid Dream (DILD) with some Dream control is what it was looking back on it. With the Control i had, i was able to jump into these crystal mirrors that took me to the areas of my memories. Seeing my younger friends & parents, but unable to communicate with them. Although my younger self seemed to smile in my direction from time to time, then resumed playing. It was heartwarming if not odd. With my control, i continued to jump into mirrors and various memories of my younger self, almost like teleporting. Until i ran into a different dream area, not of my memories but of some starry night city that looked like a mix of Las Vegas, and New Orleans at mardi gras. And as i look around at the shining lights & stars, the various people laughing and dancing and yet can't see me. I finally noticed my younger self again. Looking back at me with a smile and then says. " The fun doesn't end yet." and with a chorus of music, i wake up, listening to nothing but the whirring of my fan and the cold breeze in my room. I honestly felt great that morning, kind of a warm pleasant feeling. I'm curious to what the dream meant. Maybe it means that if i keep positive and enjoy my life, better things will come? Maybe better things that i never thought would happen? I can only hope.

Well this is my First Dream Journal. I hope it wasn't too odd for folks. XD

If my dreams are always this interesting, i'm certainly going to write more.

Hello

I had some dreams today again. It's the second day i use B6, and i also got a Lucid this night!

First normal dream:

It was somewhere near a river. It looked like a desert but people lived here. There were 2 mans that was the headcharacter in this dream. They didn't believe in God. ( I do) And i did miracles in the dream to show that God exist or whatever, and the first man believed. But the other saw what i did and was sad O.o

Second dream:

There were 2 girls. They searched for another missing girl in some kind of sewer. I did a miracle there aswell and the missing girl appeared. One of the girls got superpowers for some reason..

Third dream:

Was somewhere above the sewer that the girl was in. This was a lab or something similar, and there were people inside that was blocking the main doors from people trying to get in. They tried to hide something and i was there aswell, when the "bad guys" successfully entered it got a nightmare, and i ran. At this moment i got lucid! And the guys disappeared. I was lucid for some seconds, i tried to find the guys lol.