lucid

Metapsychology
I am in some sort of doctor's office. There are multiple patients. Some seem to be suffering from some form of psychosis or schizophrenia, others I am not sure about. There is a doctor there, male and of older age, and he needs my assistance to perform a sort of metapsychological technique to help or cure them of their disease, though he does not explicitly label it as such.

He puts me and the patients into a sort of dream state. In this state, we sort of float about in the room in a sort of OBE. He communicates with me by just talking into the room. The patients are invisible to me and him, so he just gives them instructions. He systematically cures their fears by putting them in such a fearful situation and then making them simply float out and show them that their fears can't hurt them. At one point, I somehow follow a patient exactly in their movements, and we fall into something like a golden vase. This time, the patient can't really do it, so the doctor panics a little but I somehow grab the patient and we float out, and I tell the doctor, who is relieved. Later it is shown that the doctor used something like game discs to activate the fear scenarios, which are on illuminated pedestals. Next up is a deep ocean scenario, which I try to delay because I have thallassophobia.

Disappointing lucid
After shortly waking up, I find myself in a dream. I am at home and wonder what happened in the last few hours. I remember the previous dream and wonder if that could've really happened, so I do a nose plug RC. I was surprised to see that I could breathe through my plugged nose, but, because I forgot to stabilize the dream, as I was thinking of what to do now, the dream collapsed and I woke up.

Created Friday 02 July 2021

Got two WILDs and some scraps today. Pretty good, even if I didn't succeed at any tasks.

Dream 1 - Another Search for the Hero Training Facility - Part 1

The visuals were slightly blurred. WILD transition. I was running through a highway, the road winding through grassy hill lands, a clear sunny sky above. It takes a moment to notice any sounds, and to feel the hard asphalt below. I almost distracted myself by humming music, but I snapped out of that trance just as quickly.

At this time, I think of the superhero tasks. Which, of course, means I needed my costume. I look at my right hand, and begin chanting:

"Through the shadow flame, I become FireFlyMan!"

Despite my enthusiasm, nothing seemed to happen. That was a bit concerning. No matter. I kept moving.

A few minutes later, I climbed a particularly steep incline. That's when I felt a tingling sensation running through my skin. I look at my hand, to find black smoke rising, which soon roiled into dark flames. This conflagration subsided as quickly as it arrived. In it's place, I found I was wearing a black leather touring suit, as well as gloves and an armored chestpiece of similar material. My costume! I even had my helmet, which I noticed upon tapping it on my head.

With that settled, I hurried onward. Two minutes later, I stumble upon a large, grey colored office building, the only structure within miles. Couldn't have been a coincidence. I rush into a side entrance. The interior was built entirely of laminated granite, from its walls, to its furnishings. Potted trees lined its hallways and waiting room.

The lower floors were peculiarly empty. I hurry up a flight of stairs, which ends abruptly at around level four. Several paces ahead of me was a huge reception area. Although empty, there was a speaker system behind the desk. As I approached, a voice spoke out.

"Can I help you?", said a garbled, exasperated female voice.

"Uh, I'm here for the Super Hero League?", I responded uncertainly.

"Take a number and follow the arrow."

A blinking light alerted me to a ticket machine, and printed ticket, nearby. The machine also had an arrow pointing left. About seven meters away at that direction was a large video screen. A walkthrough for some kind of medieval themed real-time strategy game1 was on. Or rather, the game itself was running, as I just noticed arcade-style controls below. For a moment, I mess around with it, and almost get engrossed. I only stop when I notice the dream fading. I wrench myself away, and hurry back to the reception area.

"I want to join the Super Hero League.", I say more urgently. "Can I get there?"

The voice responds hesitantly for a moment. "Um... Sure. Go right ahead."

Suddenly, the speaker's panels splits apart, mechanisms hissing from within. In time, it takes on the form of a wide, circular surface. As I try making sense of this, I'm instantly sucked into it. I find myself descending into a void. Innumerable mauve portals stood around me, spiraling endlessly.

When I came to, I was awake.

Dream 2 - Another Search for the Hero Training Facility - Part 2

The visuals were quite blurred. WILD transition. I found myself in front of an office building during daytime. Said building wasn't unlike the one above. As such, I hurry inside.

In this instance, a number of figures were meandering about. They were each CGI people, and, humorously enough, dressed in medieval clothes and armor.2 I asked around to find where I can try out for the Superhero League. Most folk (all of whom talked via text) pointed me to someone else, who then had me ask yet another person. Not very helpful.

This runaround kept going on for a few minutes. Eventually, I was told to look at the driveway outside. There, I finally met with a non-CGI figure, a short, balding middle aged guy with dark hair and olive skin, dressed in office casual wear. I likewise ask him where I could find the Superhero League. Turning away from me, the man walks towards a fancy red sedan parked nearby. He opens the trunk, then glances back at me.

"This way", he finally responds, and vocally, no less.

I approach for a better look. All of a sudden, I'm vacuumed into the vehicle's trunk. Guess that happened again. I'm sent falling into a black void. The dream collapses shortly afterwards.

Scrap Group 1
FA in an unknown location. I'm assailed by uncomfortable vibrations. There's unrecognizable voices echoing around me.

Walking around a suburban street during daytime. I stumble upon Android 21 from DBFZ. She teases about a time that she turned me into candy and ate me. I didn't find this very funny; indeed, I "recalled" being horrified by the experience.

comment dream lucid

I woke up half an hour before my usual wake-up time and assumed I wouldn't fall back asleep, but after a while, I did and had a long, very shifting dream.

Fragments (not sure about the order and transitions between them):
- I'm packing my things for some big trip with my mom and my brother, packing a big suitcase. I'm almost ready, but they're not, and I'm rushing them because we have no chance to catch the plane. But they ignore me for the most part and I'm nervous and stressed.
- There's a magician, a dangerous man, but he trusts me, probably because I'm willing to work with him and not ask questions. I go out of the building to dump something in the trash for him, probably magical waste. It looks like a pear in a plastic bag, plus some kind of box, but I know better than to check what's in it.
- I'm out with my brother, we're going somewhere. Then we sit on a bench and I empty the mess out of my shoe and show the shoe to him. He says he doesn't want running shoes. I show him how it has a soft sole and offer him the shoe to try on.
Then the magician is there instead, and there's a railing behind us and stairs deep down. Somehow my shoe falls down - either he throws it there or somehow accidentally causes it to fall. I look him in the eye and tell him he should bring it back. He looks at me, surprised that I have the audacity to say that to him, but without a word he gets up and walks down the stairs. I follow a few steps behind him.

Leading to the lucid part
I am traveling in a group on horseback, including family members, the plan is to travel on horseback through several countries and then by train, this is a replacement for the original plan.
Then we walk through pastures and someone tells us there is a dangerous cow, but now there is just an older, very playful, calf and sheep playing together.
We walk along a field track, there are fenced pastures all around, and there is a rhino in one. It's very dangerous. I wonder if they have something like a mini zoo and why they have a rhino if it's so dangerous.
I get to the garden where there are some roses, new varieties that I've been talking to someone about online, and also a small-flowered clematis.
There are more beds and I want to see more, but I'm disappointed, there's not much else, just weird vertical structures for vertical growing and some shade-loving plants. There's a woman I know from a gardening forum and she says it's not finished yet.
Then I'm with some people, half in, half out, as if the garden has turned into a spacious interior. People are supposed to go through some doors, but they don't really want to, probably afraid of the rhino that's still out there somewhere. I walk through the door and someone asks me if I'm the last one through, and I say no.
I get a yellow and black frilly dress and am told it comes with trousers. There is a group of girls around, each in different dresses, but all in black and yellow. I put the dress on and someone helps me pull it over my head, and someone else hands me the black trousers.
Something weird is being done in the group, maybe magical.
The woman near me - I recognize her as my former classmate, H. - is having a nervous breakdown.
She asks, "How can this be happening?" She's hysterical and clutching her head. "Am I dreaming?"
I chuckle and say, "I am, and so are you." I kiss her passionately on the mouth and tell her, "Go and enjoy it."
Like I'm sending her out to enjoy her lucid dream. I say this semi-lucidly, not having the slightest intention of detaching myself from the dream. But as she disappears outside, I feel some responsibility for her and I follow her.
I walk out the door and I'm in a large square. Directly in front of me are steps down to the main area of the square, and then to the right are more gradual steps up, probably along the town walls. H. is already a little ahead of me, he is now with someone, they have started to levitate and have flown across the gap between the steps and are now flying faster, up over the steps, and disappearing in the distance. I call out, "H., wait!" and I envy her such skill in the first LD and I know I won't catch up to her.
I put my hand forward and begin to concentrate on catching her and her companion in an imaginary loop, then pull them back by the force of will.
She stands in front of me, a little confused, but she understands that my abilities are greater than hers. I think to myself that I made a point, but that maybe it wasn't necessary, and let her go.
I tell myself that since I'm so good at telekinesis, I might as well do what she did - try using telekinesis to fly - use it on myself.
I'll give it a try and try to levitate down the stairs.I float a little, but at the same time, I am inevitably falling until I'm back on the ground, a few steps down.
I try again and this time I try to focus on myself/catch myself into the imaginary loop and add the impello spell word, but it doesn't help, the same result as before. Like I can't use telekinesis on myself.

I wake up after this.

Notes:
- Another semi-lucid into lucid type of dream. Sometimes I think I am sort of natural in semi-lucid dreaming, my dream me almost always knows it is a dream to some extent but it's hard to tell unless the dream plot makes it obvious. The breakthrough from semi-lucidity to full lucidity is still hard for me, though. And sometimes, it isn't a breakthrough at all, like it is all a spectrum.

comment lucid dream

The postman woke me up.
Back in bed, I remembered that I wanted to try lucid dreaming subliminal music. After a while, I was quite uncomfortable being on my back, so I found a position on my side that was compatible with headphones. But it still didn't suit me - I'd probably fall asleep, but it bothered me how my entire headspace was taken up by the music, even though I had it on minimum volume.
I checked the time - half an hour had passed.
I tried to fall asleep normally - changed position a few times. There were some visualizations - I imagined moving along a path and subconscious added the scenery around. It was quite nice, the landscapes were detailed, but it wasn't immersive and it wasn't going anywhere.

I was on my left side and very close to falling asleep and felt very light vibrations. I remembered that I wanted to be more aggressive during WILD and get up right after the vibrations. So, without a single thought of my real body, I tried to get up and sit on the edge of the bed.

And it worked. It had a real feel, but it was surprisingly easy, no duvet putting up resistance or anything like that. I did a nose-plug RC and could breathe. But at the same time it was unstable and I couldn't see anything. As I continued to get up, my head got dizzy, and when I tried to open my eyes, I saw my bedroom for a moment, the "dream filter" was on but it was confusing, and it felt like I was opening my real eyes out of the corner of my eye (probably an illusion), so I closed them again. And everything was shaky. I grabbed the curtain and used it for support and to stabilize - it was very fine, almost silky, not like IRL.
I'm standing upright now, but still with my eyes closed. I walk carefully around the bed - I don't want to kill myself on the pile of clothes lying there. But in the dream, there's hardly anything there.
Things are more stable, so I want to open my eyes, but I realize I'm starting to see, and instead of opening my eyes I blink and everything starts to become clearer. It's still confusing though and doesn't feel much like a dream. I leave the bedroom, hoping it will give me more stability and mental clarity.
I go to the cat room. The furniture there is similar to real life, but it's tidier, and my cat is sleeping on the couch at the end of the room. She looks normal. When she sees me, she starts to stretch. I decide not to go any closer because I'm worried I might step on the real cat IRL (forgetting that my real body is in bed).
As I leave, I hear a grunting sound, like something is bothering her, but it's a dream and I decide to ignore it and close the door.
I'm going to the living room. It looks like it should - I guess - I don't look around too much and stay by the door.
I still find it hard to believe that it's a dream, everything is so realistic as if I'm really there and I think how it doesn't compare at all with the visualizations. I do a nose-plug RC and take three breaths just to be sure, and I can breathe without a problem. I feel really weird because I haven't needed in-dream RC in months, but the dream feeling is so subtle that I can't wrap my head around that.
I decide to try Tiktaalik's "focusing on the spine" RC.

Spoiler for Result - don't read if you want to try it too:

Nothing happens. I don't know what to expect, but everything seems normal (within the limits of my dream body - but with my level of lucidity I probably wouldn't notice any subtle dream body - real body difference).

For some reason, I realize I'm naked, but I don't think it's RC related.
I decide to go outside.
I'm still aware that I'm naked, but it's a dream, so what. When I go outside, it's a strange feeling, being naked outside, but I don't see any neighbours. The street looks roughly like my street, but I don't examine the details.
I want to try flying like an airplane (as I've imagined and incubated).
I run down the street and call out in turn "Airspeed alive", "V1", "and rotate" and jump into the air with my arms spread wide.
It doesn't work, I don't climb, I fall flat on the pavement, but I don't feel anything.
I decide to try again, but this time I swap the lines, start with V1, but then correct myself and say them in the correct order and jump into the air again.
I'm on a street corner somewhere and there are 3 guys, they look British and have Peaky Blinders haircuts. As I'm trying to take off, I jump on one of their backs (still naked). He doesn't look unhappy. I say "hey, handsome".
He gets me off his back and takes me in his arms. He opens a door that apparently leads to a pub and puts me on a table. I'm not sure if he wants to hand me over to their care/get rid of me, or if he wants to share me.
I start to feel myself waking up.


Notes:
- I am fairly confident this was a WILD, even though I was just barely aware when I felt the vibrations. I don't think I dreamt that, although it's hard to be 100% sure. Anyway, the continuity of going from being in the bed, trying to sleep, and then standing in my bedroom, lucid dreaming, was a total mindfuck.
- I want to give that "flying like a plane" another try someday, maybe really focusing on the sensation of taking off and imagining it, rather than just saying the words. I have enough real-life flying experience to make it work.
- I don't know why I steered it towards possibly sexual content, even though it wakes me up.

I had this dream last night. I don't remember everything. I was in a building which looked like the inside of my church. Except it wasn't. It was something much more important. I'm not sure what I was doing in the first half of the dream. But the 2nd half I was something like a security guard. In this half of the dream.. I saw some "bad-looking" people walking out with boxes past the "kitchen" . I was a bit suspicious so I followed them out (the outside at least this location also looked like my church) and I'm not sure excatly what the reason was but I was forced to get into a car of some man who looked to be the leader. For some reason once in the car they drived in such a werid way we ended up going up the hill past my house (which was werid) and the park oppistie. But dream ended after the man said something since I had to use bathroom

I don't remember all the dream. But the other night I had this dream where I was in I guess a Giant's castle. I was on a bed and for some reason, I was dressed like the 1992 Belle in the famous ball gown. I was there with someone (a male) who was dressed like the Beast (yes Beast form-but much more furrier). I think the bed told us a story but then after the story "Beast" left. And the magical bed got me ready for bed by covering me up with the giant blankets

06/20: I find myself leaving someone's house in the evening hours. The scene shifts to what appears to be a restroom in one building, which looks as if it were left unattended, as it was completely filthy, where I apparently go by accident, only to find what appears to be a bounty hunter putting someone or something in custody.

As soon as that scene ends, I find myself walking to a movie theater after being told by someone in the first scene that Van Helsing (the 2004 action film starring Hugh Jackman and Kate Beckinsale -- which I actually have on DVD) was being remade with different actors, and it released in theaters. I didn't go in, but I did see a colorful cast of characters hanging outside the premises dressed in an unusual fashion (punk, Goth, emo, etc.), just like what I saw leaving a movie theater 17 years ago in 2004 with a group after seeing the exact same movie in May of that year. The dream also ends there.

I rarely get dreams of movie theaters nowadays, as the last one I had was on May 30th, 15 years ago at the age of 20. In addition, this dream was in the perspective of two people: a colorful teenage girl who went to see the movie, but was distracted, and a mysterious person who went to an unclean restroom by mistake and couldn't unsee what was going on. All I can remember now out of the two characters is the girl. I believe the girl eerily resembled a cross between Vanessa from the Syfy television series (played by Kelly Overton), Claudia from Warehouse 13 (played by Allison Scagliotti), and Paramore frontwoman Hayley Williams in the days between Riot! and Brand New Eyes when her hair was dyed red-orange.

Before waking up, I had noticed flashes of purple and orange as well.

WM86/DFW signing off.

I had this dream. Which had a very weird twist on kidnapping. I was in a mansion's basement it was a white house. I think I was for some reason trying to sneak in (I think I was trying to get inside, because my mom and I were visting the said aunt. But Mom send me back to the house early). But the manison belionged to my Dad's younger full-blood sister. I'm not excatly sure how far I got up.. at the most I got to maybe the servant's area of the basement. No I got to at least the front hall. It doesn't mater where I was.. the point was, when I got there, a person who looked like a maid from like Downton Abbey or Gwyneth from the Unquiet Dead from Season 1 of New Doctor Who. She demanded what I was doing there. I said I was "one of Aunt's nieces" but for some reason she didn't believe me. She likes takes me back down to the basement puts me on a white chair and ties me up. Then in the next scene Mom and (aunt) come home. For some reason someone else comes downstairs and finds me and untiles me after they heard Mom asking where I was. End of dreram

Getting chased lucid
I am with multiple people in a sort of changing room with many lockers. I do the nose plug RC and realize that I am dreaming. Since this dream is a nightmare, I am a bit worried, and try to get out of the situation first. I end up on a high mountain.

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I didn't have motivation to write down this dream for many days, which is why it's not really detailed.

Eyes

I was semi lucid. I was distracted because I was in a wooden floored room with people just standing there. They had blue bandanas hiding their right eye sockets. I had an uncontrollable urge to see what was behind them. I went to an older woman and I was trying to pull the bandana away but she was heavily resisting. When she realized I wasn't giving up she let me and I saw an empty eye socket when I lifted the bandana.

Note: I would not have remembered this dream unless I hadn't been browsing the FYP on tik tok. On it a Woman spoke of a dream where she had a vivid lucid where she kept telling her mother that it was a dream. Her mother covered her face with her hands and when she pulled them away she saw empty eye sockets.

Short Lucid

I was entering my home with someone but I forget who. I was lucid right away for no reason. I said aloud, "I have to find Jamie." I asked Asuka if she could tell me where Jamie was. Asuka was now a black man. I laughed and asked Her why she decided to look like that. Asuka began to gave an answer but the dream ended abruptly.

I was in an open area that had incredibly rich color. I realized that I was dreaming and recalled that it had been a long time since I was lucid. I was very aware of the dream, and it immediately felt far more stable than my usual lucid dreams. The scenery was also far richer than I am used to. I was in a wide open field with bright bold grass on flat green hills, like a digital place. The single tree next to me had very green leaves and red apples, but nothing had texture to it. Everything was more like a surface mesh made of triangles. I was astounded by it and took note of how lucid I was, how stable it was, and how fantastic the perceptual experience was. I was enjoying perusing around this weird digital mesh world for about two minutes until all of a sudden another character showed up. A building appeared, it was a school, and we walked in together right before the dream ended.

comment dream semi-lucid lucid

The dream before the lucid parts wasn’t much coherent, my settings and my companions were very changeable, so I simplified it slightly, I am using the word companions instead of being specific and I am starting from a point from which I remember the dream reasonably well but it was actually longer.

We were inside a building and we wanted to go outside to look for Karin, who was some kind of magical creature, maybe a fairy. She went out and didn't come back for a long time.
I went outside and my companions came with me. There were gardens around us and it was dark, and we walked through the gardens and there were flowers, but Karin was nowhere to be found.
Then we walked on the lawn around the building and there were soldiers walking towards us. They had the division number written on them - 100something. I knew their general and I remembered that I was in the 80th Division. But I didn't want to approach them because they would certainly want to know the details and I didn't remember the details. They walked past us and ignored us.
Then I explained to my companions that it is our presence - that with our presence and attention this world grows stronger and becomes more detailed and real, that it is like the shadows in Amber and we travel through them like the princes of Amber... but I stopped because I understood that they didn't know Amber and my comparison or explanation didn't mean anything to them.
Anyway, we should find Karin quickly and get out of here because more and more things are going to be happening around here. I also told them that it was fascinating how I remembered being in the 80th division, but that I was a little sad that it was actually a false memory.
Then we were at some greenhouse or walled garden and I think we found Karin there and she came with us, or it stopped mattering.
We were back in the building, now there were soldiers and infrastructure. We arranged at the window of a female clerk to hear us in a closed room. I also wanted her to arrange for me to talk to the general in private, as I was still feeling emotional about my membership in the division.
We were in the room with her, me and two companions, there was someone there with her too, sitting across the table from us. I turned off the light and it was morning twilight and I said, "How about we make our own light" to my companions. "Or would that get everyone in this building on their feet?" In the sense that I wanted to make it clear that we were magicians, but again, not to stir up the whole building.
I cast the Lux spell and so did my companions. I remembered that it didn't work in my recent LD (9 May) and now it didn't work either, my palm was empty. But there was something there, or was it just my imagination? I looked closely and there was a small light, the size of a pinhead. I tried to focus on it to make it bigger, but it seemed to be trying to escape my focused gaze. It glowed brighter for a moment, then I lost it for a second, and then it reappeared and was a cluster of little balls. It was still trying to move and escape. I physically grabbed it in my hand, it had a feel like plasticine, and tried to combine all the little balls into one bigger ball.
At that moment I realized "I am lucid" and said it out loud.
I was also immediately intrigued by the transition from semi-lucidity to lucidity. I debated whether to continue the dream story, but I figured I'd had enough of it (it was a good dream!) and it was time to do something else.
So I was deciding where to go and what to do and I was tempted by something to do with water and remembered that my plan for Prague involved water, so Prague it was. Standing in front of the door, I quickly visualized the towers of the city and opened the door.
Behind the door was still the corridor, but it looked different and the building was set up for an event related to my hobby activity (and related to Prague).
I walked down the corridor further, to the left was the exit to the outside, straight ahead the corridor continued. I wanted to go outside, but on the corner between the turn and the continuation of the corridor was a lobby separated from the stairs leading outside by a glass wall, and I saw a table and a couple on it.

Spoiler for sexual:

I thought it was my friend L and he was having sex with some girl, so I went over to join them in a threesome. When I got closer I saw it was two girls, which was ok too, they were very petite, skinny and pretty.
I started touching them, one wasn't happy about it, the other didn't protest, but continued to just lie on the table, without any activity, but still it felt nice to touch.
I stroked her thigh, pulled her closer to me and started kissing her. It felt nice and she almost kissed me back, so I got my tongue more involved, which I don't really like IRL, but it was much better in the dream. Then I put my hand between her legs, she didn't want to spread them all the way, but she didn't resist.
As I started touching her between her legs, I woke up.

Notes
- I really liked the Amber analogy. I've been recently reading a lot about dream control and dreams formation and this is how my brain connected things together. BTW I recently met Corwin of Amber in a non-lucid dream, I would love to meet him lucid one day.
- Going lucid in this dream - the "I am lucid" as "I've always known this is a dream but now I noticed that I know and can do something with it". Like when you do something and then stop and ask yourselves "what am I doing" and remember that you wanted to do something else. Like being there the whole time but stopping being distracted. Very smooth transition into lucidity.
- Regarding the lucid dream sex: I always wake up quickly. I know some people say it is about expectations but it is not - I used to wake up from dream sex before I even knew what lucid dreams are and before reading anything about them online. I wake up simply from physical arousal, sometimes even into an orgasm (not this time). In both lucid and non-lucid dreams, I wake up after a similar time, which isn't realistic to the progress of the sexual intercourse in the dream (20-30 seconds of foreplay, usually). I don't mind, I still like it.

The other night I had this dream it started off I was on a bus. I don't remember where I was going but it looked like part of the town next to me for the program. But for some reason it was like it was coming from Toronto instead. I think I was thinking if the program wasn't open yet I would hit Tim Horton's on the corner for an Ice Drink. But then it kind of goes into this mall. I think I went an esclator and at this point or at the bottom of the escalator someone I haven't seen since March 2020 from the day-program. Anyway for some reason in her hand is a napkin, serviette (ie normally something you wipe your face with after eating messy things) and on it was some very messy (ie the drumsticks were very runny) chicken drumsticks. She offers me some and I think I said no but somehow by this time we were like outside like in one of those areas that were around in either Disney Parks or Universal Parks where there were places for like eatting purposes during Covid. Anyway this friend from the program and I were going through this sort of "Food court patio area" and she could get pass. But when I tried to get pass two girls who looked familiar to me (maybe schoolmates of mine, and they both had blonde hair) had the same chairs out so far back-to back I couldn't get pass and then they didn't seem to hear me until I literally yelled and then they finally pulled back in (the two weren't even talking to each other). And then somehow the next thing I know I was in what looked like the program building but wasn't. And outside of this sort of half door one of the facilitators(In normal times, during the programs I have let's just say a complicated relationship with this particular facilitator). She told me to talkl to them I don't remember what said but all of them were drinking from mugs (and one of them I think had an Hogwarts mug while another had a winnie-the pooh one). Anwya for some reason as the dream ended I for some reason stick my hand in my pocked and bring out a former runny but now sticky chicken drumstick. And then dream ended right there

First entry this year - first proper lucid dream in the last 6 months (well, there also was one last week I may or may not write about later as it was so confusing).

Slept for about 4 hours, woke up and couldn't fall back asleep for a long time. Set some intention to lucid dream during this as I knew it would increase my chances. When I finally got to sleep again, a confusing mess of dreams ensued...One was a false awakening I didn't recognize. I got up feeling extremely groggy with a very limited control over my actions and emotions. I tried to communicate my strange state to the dream characters a.k.a. my family but words were just as hard to use.
At some point I woke up again, now with a far clearer head. Everything seemed normal and I was certain of being awake now, but with the memory of the false awakening that just occured I wanted to make absolutely sure with a reality check. So I pinched my nose and took a breath. Wait a moment, this is not how this should work. This means....I'm dreaming still!
Almost immediately all perceived gravity vanished and I began floating around the house. There were again some family members there but they didn't seem to care about my new form of moving around. Instead they were talking loudly about every-day stuff. I ignored them.
When I got to a window I simply floated through it. But when I wanted to fly higher there again was the ceiling above me and I was back inside. At first I wanted to leave through the roof now but didn't feel quite sure about that so I chose to use the window again. Suddenly I was back outside. The dream environment was certainly somewhat unstable.
Anyway, I didn't have a particular plan for this lucid dream and so I just kept flying (far better than walking in my opinion ;) ) to see where it would take me. I made my way through the well-known neighborhood, once again admiring the detail of my mind's creation, also looking for differences to waking reality. Of course there were some, but while in the dream I was quite oblivious to these.
Then, I got to a forest and reassessed what I wanted to do. I found a path getting narrower in the distance and a thought crossed my mind: If I follow this path to its end I'll meet my embodied subconscious there.
Before I could even set out though, the dream just fell apart and left me wide awake.

non-dream dream semi-lucid lucid FA / AP

Seeing aerial views along a road in the eastern part of Lisbon in the 90s. Seeing the start of the construction of the Expo'98 and other upgrading construction work in some the neighboring areas. I feel nostalgic and amazed and then realize I am not actually seeing this on tv but dreaming and recalling. I am amazed how my mind has stored in detail the images of the roads and landscape as they were before all the changes and modernization. I feel a wish to go back to that time when things were simpler and then tell myself "shut up, it wasn't that good and you'd miss lots of nowadays improvements", but the nostalgia was still strong.