lucid

Operation Homicide is a series of my dreams where I take on the character of Bad-Ass McCoy, and kick ass. Whether it be random villains or Albanian drug lords, Bad-Ass can handle it all. So get your guns ready, cock 'em, and hand 'em over, because I'm about to do all the shooting.

Level of Lucidity: 9
Level of Clarity: 5
Level of Realism: 6
(levels based 0-10, 0-5 being low - good 5-10 being great - extreme)

Method: WILD/WBTB
WBTB Time: 6:25 AM - Stayed awake for 20 minutes - Using smart alarm to subtly start the alarm, then progressively increase the volume.

Operation Homicide Ep. 102: I was laying in bed after my WBTB and trying to keep still and relaxed. I couldn't help but move a couple of times to stay comfortable, and eventually simply rolled onto my side. After laying there for a little while I felt myself slipping into sleep. I was very aware of myself and of the fact I was trying to perform a WBTB WILD. As I was laying there about to fall asleep I heard the most TERRIBLE noise in the world! It was such a loud screeching I thought I was about to break my ear drums. It sounded like my grandmother was being torn apart by a pack of wolves, and I literally had that thought go through my mind. This of course was just my imagination and fear getting the better of me. I remembered reading a thread on DV about hearing this sound that sounded like the fibers of the universe were ripping, and that's EXACTLY what it sounded like. It took everything I had not to throw my hands up to my ears to cover them. Each time I heard it I started yelling. The first few times that I felt these waves of sounds coming I kept yelling and I kept snapping back to reality saying that it's just part of the WILD process, and to stay calm, I'm entering the dream, but they never seemed to end. After about 5x of listening to this hell, I finally hit the big one and it felt like I was falling at a very high rate down a worm hole. I watch "Through The Wormhole With Morgan Freeman" all the time, which is a show about space time and how space and the universe work, and black holes and wormholes, and I literally saw, felt, and thought that the Earth had been swallowed by either a black hole, or a wormhole and was seeing the last seconds of my life.

I quickly thought to myself "Wait! I must be dreaming!" even though I wasn't fully asleep yet... as soon as that happened I snapped awake and sat up in my bed. I heard a knock at the door, and figured my grandma in the next room heard me yelling, I told her to come inside. I kept looking down at my sheets and had the idea to RC just to make sure it's not a false awakening. I tried the finger through hand thing, and the RC failed, my finger wouldn't go through. It was my uncle who walked in my room, not grandmother. He walked over to my dresser and kind of stood there awkwardly. He started talking but I couldn't hear him. I asked him to speak up. I had a bit of a small realization... my uncle usually talks with a loud voice, this is strange. Suddenly he starts shouting as loud as he possibly can and black smoke surrounds him and he is about 7' tall! Scared out of my mind, I remembered reading right before my WBTB that this guy entered a FA and realized it after he did multiple RC's, because the finger through palm method didn't work, but the nose plug technique did. I did the nose plug, and had to try for a few seconds and REALLY focus on what was happening in my nose, which was hard with a 7' demon standing in front of me. Suddenly it hit me! I'M ASLEEP! I remembered something I had read about dream control, and shouted "THIS IS MY DREAM!" He didn't seem affected. I tried shouting it again, no result. I knew not to be afraid of him, but naturally was a little intimidated by the looming dark presence. I closed my eyes and shouted "BE GONE!!" When I opened them he was gone. I stood up and looked around. I suddenly heard my grandma talking, but I realized it's in real life, talking to my grandfather, so I quickly and calmly jumped into my bed, laid down, and prepared for a DEILD. Success! I DEILD'ed and when I opened my eyes I was in a warehouse of sorts.

The warehouse had furniture around it, and had pictures on the walls, and a large garage that opened. It seemed kinda like a hipster lounge and I was just chilling there. There was a large opening in the wall, probably for driving cars to the back of the warehouse, and I walked through it.

The dream gets very fuzzy from here, because I had a couple more dreams after this one. I remember standing in the warehouse and looking around. I thought "Wow.. I'm really thirsty..." and walked over to where a wall was. There was someone else there and he seemed to be my friend, so I just went with the flow. I stood next to the wall and looked at the lower part of the wall about a foot off the ground. In my mind I imagined a small spout coming out of the wall like you'd use to attach a hose. Just as I pictured it sliding out of the wall, a guy walked up behind us with a hose in his hands, and offered it to us. Funny how my mind doesn't work JUST the way I want it, but it still gets the job done.

I thought to myself "What do I want to do...?" Then I remembered a dream series I started a couple of nights ago about a loose canon justifier named Bad-Ass McCoy. So I said "Ok, Bad-Ass, let's kick some ass." I briefly thought of the TOTM to go para-sailing over the ocean, but thought "Eh, fuck it."

The rest of the dream is kind of fuzzy and skips around a lot unfortunately. But after all, this is my FIRST WILD ever! So I'm pleased with the fact I remained lucid for at least a bit.

I remember a few times I could hear someone talking... and then I realized it's my grandmother in the other room talking to my grandfather, who is very hard at hearing, so she was in a sense shouting at him. I remembered what I had read, and stabilized the dream by rubbing my hands together. A couple of times I took a look at my hands to check how many fingers I had. I got a VERY creepy and strange feeling when I looked at my hands that SNAPPED me back into the dream. (I had 6 fingers, and sometimes 5) I vaguely remember that at one point I had a gun, and was just about to go on Homicide Duty... but I felt myself start to wake up so I laid down and waiting with my eyes closed so I could continue in a DEILD.

When I opened my eyes I was in a fancy cabana type place, and had a look around, then lost all lucidity and it turned into a normal dream. (To read more about this "cabana type" dream, check out my dream journal, it will be a separate entry.)

Introductory Note

Today is June 21, so a month ago I started trying to have lucid dreams and so far improved a lot, I am motivated because I recently had 4 lucid dreams (5 with the dream that I describe here today), DV helped me a lot to achieve results and for that i say thank you.

Today i went to bet at 22:30 , so i naturally wake up for the WBTB at 2:50 as usual i right down my dream
, i go to the bathroom and I was really thirsty so i went to the kitchen to have a glass of water then i went to bed to try WILDing.

I do my usual routine , i layed on my back and started counting my breaths as i visualize the numbers for some reason was being really hard for me to focus . That position was getting really uncomfortable so i roll over to my side. At this point i was focussing in my breathing only , a little while later i fell asleep, in my opinion this happened because i was to tired .

Dream

I'm in the back of a big truck, is like a parade truck so i can see the street , the buildings and people watching . I feel the presence of someone on my side but i don't remember who it was ... suddenly a man appears from nowhere in the middle of the street and gets hit by the truck.

I look back and i see the man in the floor full of blood, i jump of the truck but when i do I'm already to far away... i start getting back but I lost myself and without knowing i went to a friends house , i borrow his car so i can go look for the guy who was hit by the truck (i was very motivated on finding him), i start driving and i end up in a gasoline station.

Suddenly i get lucid ,my awareness hits me in the face like a punch, i think about doing a RC but the dream starts fading...I'm very quick , i start rubbing my hands and screaming " DREEEEAM GET VIVID!!!".

It works perfectly , the dream gets really stable so i look around and i see i pretty girl ... i go talk to her but she panics and a lot of people starts attacking me, the dream starts fading again and i wake up.

After this i try to DEILD but i'm to green at it so i failed .

I have to stop going to bed so late. I had a lucid last night and almost forgot it.

Anyway, my recall is a little fuzzy, but I remember at some point performing a breathing RC to start my lucidity. I used voice comands for "clarity" and "stabalize". I'm not sure if clarity worked, but stabalize did. I then grabbed on to something and told myself "this dream won't end until I want it to end." I remember trying to float, and failing. So I then tried to fly. I ran, jumped, flapped my arms once and took off a little, but soon came crashing back to the ground. I then told myself "this is a dream, I can fly just fine". I ran, jumped and took of this time, flapping my arms to rise, then gliding, diving, and pulling up like a falcoln. Thats all I can remember.

Dream fragment 1: I was standing in a bathroom with a group of people. One guy was obese. We were trying to figure out how everyone could fit into the bath tub. My brother got in. Then everyone else jumped in. I didn't want to take a bath with my brother (LOL). So I left to grab towels.

Dream fragment 2: Sitting in a crowded sports arena with a bunch of tall athletes. There was a small dispute about seats. I thought a guy on my row was a jerk.

Semi-lucid/lucid dream: A guy and I were playing some kind of cat and mouse game with a murderous, female automaton. We chased her then she chased us. At one point she had us trapped in a motel room. The windows were too high and narrow to slide through easily. We were sitting ducks.

The anxiety and fear woke me up. I just laid there wondering how the hell I could fix this dream so it wouldn't bother me later. I've been rereading Frank Kepple and Robert Monroe and thought phasing might help me in my dream situation. While I thought of ways to escape the automaton my dream started again.

I was back in the room with my friend. Only this time I wasn't scared. I forget the details of my first attempt at phasing. But the second attempt involved switching to a higher dimension. That way I could walk through the wall and/or see through it. The automaton would be unaware as she would not be able to perceive it/me.

I had my second experience today! My first one was a week ago (June 13), back then I knew nothing about Lucid dreaming but the concept, and I freaked out at the transition part and woke up, I posted it in my DJ too.

Since then I read some classes here, The introduction, the DILD and WILD ones, and I started doing reality checks but still not able to feel really skeptic about being awake when I'm, and I haven't done any reality checks in my non Lucid dreams yet, but I almost remember a dream everyday, which could be because of the subliminal affirmations I use, I added one about remembering dreams.

So thanks to you all for sharing these great classes and experiences, it is hard to find all this knowledge in once place but here .

So I didn't have the courage to try WILD yet and had no luck with DILD, but I think I had a WBTB.
I went to bed around 3 am and woke up (after the Lucid Dream) around 12 pm, when I woke up the first time I had a split of second of awareness before I open my eyes so I decided to keep them closed and try to Lucid dream, I can't remember anything after that till the point I felt the SP and the transition which feels like my soul going out of my body, this time it was more peaceful and vivid and I could stay calm knowing nothing bad will happen.
Then I found myself in a grey empty space, nothing colorful, I could stabilize the dream for a minute or so, I was aware I'm dreaming, I touched the grey floor because I remembered reading something about touching floor or objects to stabilize the dream and I tried to create things but the grey scene disappointed me, I thought what is the point if I create things and they look grey, then the dream started to fade, I tried to resist but I felt like my soul is coming back to my body and I woke up.

It was a short experience but I will list my notes and improvements:

1- The fear is gone of the transition, I was so calm, much calmer than I expected.
2- I can say that the vision of my body moving up and floating is a pattern in my transition but I had only two Lucid dreams so far so I'm not sure yet.
I have a belief (religious one) that souls go out of our bodies when we dream, and come back when we wake up, and that's so close to what I see in the transition, but I don't see a soul, just my body acting like one.
3- My dreams are not vivid yet, it was so vivid in the transition only. I wish there is a way to improve that, The grey wasn't pleasant at all.
4- I could stay in the dream longer than the last time but I still need to work on stabilization, changing scenes and creating things if my dreams are going to start in an empty space every time, I thought I'd start in my room as I read many do but I didn't.

Ok that's all, sorry if I mentioned many details, but that helps me memorizing the dream.

I had just finished innocently flirting with a beautiful girl from my old high school, and I was on my way home to take a shower. Upon arriving to a gorgeous mansion with modern architecture that my dream logic told me was my step moms house, I walked around and explored a bit because I didn't know where the shower was. I was only in a towel at this point, and finally I realized that my step mom was watching me as she dried off on the couch with a towel on as well. After a few super tense and awkward moments, I asked if I could use the shower; to which she replied "Yes, I'm leaving at 3."

I thanked her and went upstairs into what I thought was the bathroom, but it turned out to be the master bedroom. Frustrated that I couldn't find it, I sat down on the bed and took a second to gather my thoughts. I realized that I felt weird, and that this house didn't really seem like one I would live in. I tried passing my fingers through my hands and failed. I was about to sit up when I realized I should try another reality check. I pinched my nose, and I couldn't breath...

But I persisted...

And finally... Fwoosh! Air began to flow in and out of my nose, even though I had it pinched tight. It was the strangest feeling ever, but it was very pleasant; almost like popping a zit or clearing your sinuses... A pleasant release of pressure. Upon gaining lucidity, it became night outside, and it was rather dark inside the house. I wanted very badly to interact with my step mom's DC, to see what she would be like, but something in the back of my mind said she isn't there anymore, and thus she wasn't. Come to think of it though, she had said that she was leaving at three, and now that the sun was down, maybe my subconscious had made her leave, like she said she would.

I popped back into the bedroom to find tons of kids toys and small bits covering the bed. I couldn't remember the TOTM, so I decided to try to fall asleep within a dream, which I hear makes you have much better clarity and control. I began to clean the bed off, but it was super dark, so I went to turn the light switch on. Instead of turning on the lights, however, the sun whizzed back over the horizon and it became day. In hindsight, I wonder if my stepmother would have been back...

I continued to clear the bed until I sadly lost lucidity; but it was a pretty uninteresting scenario so I wasn't too upset.


This lucid dream came on the heels of 3 nights attempting the SSILD technique, and waking up twice during the night to do an SSILD WBTB.

June 19, 2013
Lucid Dream 521: This is a Stick Up!
Series: 108 Stars of Destiny, Episode 12
DILD
Technique: ADA



I'm sitting in a small, two room, log cabin. There are four of us and we all dressed up in "western" attire (cowboy hats, boots, spurs, stirrups, etc). Apparently, we were a gang of outlaws and were about to hijack a money train that was full of gold bars. The men kept arguing amongst themselves about how hte job was going to go down as I slowly became lucid for no apparent reason. Finally, it fully hit me and I became fully lucid. I jumped up from my seat and attempted to speak with an accent fitting for the setting. What actually came out, caught me a bit off guard. My voice was the exact same as the Sheriff of Nottingham's from Disney's animated version of Robin Hood (voiced by Pat Buttrum). I said, "I've heard enough a yer yapp'n. We are just going to go down to the station an yer all going to follow my lead." One of the men began to speak and I jumped in, "And I don't wanna hear any buts about it!!" They nodded silently and followed me out of the cabin. I looked around and noticed we were in a desert town. I walked down the road and saw a train parked at a train station up ahead. There was a large crowd in front of the train. I pulled up my bandana from around my neck to cover my mouth and pulled my gun out of the holster. I looked at the gun for a bit and it looked old, but in very good condition. It was mostly made of wood and had gold plates on it. It was pistol and it had Samuel Colt engraved on one of the plates. I glanced back and noticed the other three guys had done the same as me.

I approached the crowd and noticed there were several present day style cop cars parked around the area. With my gun up I said, "Alright everyone. This is a stick up! Do as I say and you might not get hurt." Suddenly, this tall and very chunky teenager walks up to me and says, "Are you KingYoshi?" I was a bit taken aback, but I nodded and he told me to follow him. I told the other men to watch the crowd at gunpoint as I followed the chunky kid. We walked to the front of the train and he told me, "We have been expecting you." I said, "You have, have you? And who might you be?" He told me he was hired to help us get the money train to my castle. I told him that I want to speak with his boss and he was very cryptic and told me, "You can find him when the Willow Pines." I kind of felt like shooting the kid, but decided not to. I followed him onto the front car of the train. The conductor turned to greet the kid and said, "Hey, Joseph! I just..." The kid then shot the conductor in the head and rolled his body out of the train with his foot. He said, "Just follow the tracks from here and it'll lead to the castle." The kid began to make very strange movements as if he was trying to get comfortable in his own skin/body. I knew he was a "body snatcher" and had taken on another body. I told him thanks and started moving around levers and hitting buttons. He exited back into the previous train car.

There were tons of buttons and levers, so I just started pulling and pushing all of them until the train finally started to run. Instead of having separate connected cars, the train was now all connected by one long hallway down the middle. I walked back into the previous section of the train and it was a fancy dining area. I saw the three other gang members from before and now noticed they were James Woods, Bill Hader, and Seth Rogen. I could also see bouncers/security lined up around the doors and the area. I could tell all the security men were "body snatchers." I reached around in my pocket for a while and found what I was looking for. A blunt. I joined James, Bill, and Seth as I fired up a blunt using pyrokinesis. I asked if Seth had joined Bill and James as a 108 Star of Destiny. He said, "Yeah, I'm the Chuckle Star. Because, I love to make people Chuckle and shit." I chuckled after that one.

I heard the train horn going off, so I went to the front of the train and could the see the castle approaching. It had grown once again and was huge. I was excited to check it out, so I attempted to speed the train up with my mind, Instead, it began to lift off the tracks. I went with it and began raising the train off the ground. Even though I was doing it with my mind, it felt heavy as shit. I managed to lift it fully, but it felt pretty unstable. I strained a bit too much and began to wake myself up. I attempted to hold on, but woke up.


Series Details
Welcome to the epic dream series known as, "The 108 Stars of Destiny." Follow me as I build the most powerful army the dream world has ever seen. Along with the help of 108 key recruits, I take on the dream world and elevate to god-like status! Will anyone stand in my way? Stay tuned for more entries to the series!

108 Stars of Destiny
NEW 18 - Seth Rogen - The Chuckle Star

I found myself in my old elementary school in the back. I recognized the back as my old social work classroom, there was only 1 teacher there and she gave me something to work on. It was a math/writing assignment that i had trouble with. While i was working on said assignment, I got up and looked out the window. Kids were playing on the swings, but there were more swings than there always were. when i finished my assignment I asked if i could go outside. "No" said the teacher in a very demonic voice. I leaned against the wall next to me, closed my eyes, and then opened them again. I found myself in an empty art room with nobody else inside. I looked out my window and saw the kids playing like usual. I then woke up at 3:00 AM to do the WBTB technique. I wrote in my journal next to me the dream and went back to sleep an hour later. I then found myself in the middle of a street that lead to my old apartment building. I flew to the building and saw my old friends playing there. I hovered over one of them and asked where someone was. They didn't know where he was. I then ran to a person with super speed and hit him. I woke up once again, but when i looked at my hands there were 7 fingers, I said "I'm in another dream" then woke up in real life.

Date: 20 June

Pre bed: 200 mg valerian, 100mg B6, podcast

Atmosphere: guest, heat, noises

Total sleep time: 6 hrs

DILD1: I am in our old neighborhood with my mom and a truck driver discussing something. I don't like him. The next moment the three of us are in a public restroom and it looks like he used it just before we did. I get obsessed about not wanting to touch the toiler paper after him, I notice there is something on the paper, plus it is all soaked. My mom comes up with some napkins from her bag that I also don't want to use.

The scene changes and we find ourselves in a movie theater. A fake memory forms that we just watched some movie, went to the restroom, and now mom is sneaking in to watch the next movie for free. One thing that looks unusual is that there is only one single long row of seats, but at the time, I conclude that this is normal. My mom sits while I try to leave the place. I spend some time waiting for her, and in the meantime she is looking for 3D glasses. I notice lots of sunglasses on the floor, that I identify as mine as start putting them in my bag. I head towards the exit, but the door is locked, there is no handle too. I get a fake memory that this is normal during movies. I think I use some form of dream control and the door opens, but behind it is another door which I open the normal way.

I find myself in a long somewhat creepy corridor with strangely colored walls, that reminds of dreams I had. And sure enough, I become lucid. I stare at the walls for a while, wondering if I should go ahead and plunge in them, but based on gut feeling decide against it. I move forward a bit but suddenly I get a sensation that my hair band is falling and my head feels kind of uncomfortable, up to the point where it is so distracting I cannot continue walking? I wonder if I should waste time to try and fix a ponytail but know this is a bad idea to do during an ld, so just remove the hair band and my hair feels fine. (talk about vanity )

I keep walking down the corridor that dynamically changes and become a bit like an inside balcony, and I can see part of the floor below. As I reach the end of the corridor/now balcony and look to my left the light downstairs goes off. Downstairs looks a bit creepy and I say something like "Oh, come on", but then hear some kind of a click sound and the light is on again. Then off again and finally on. What the hell is going on, I think. I turn around and something like a room is beginning to form. There are many DCs here, mostly children and a guy, they all look pretty much the same, very blond with red cheeks. I find this strange and the guy is not quite finished in the face, some of his features are not there so he is not very pleasant to look at. I decide I don't need to concentrate that much on him. I think about some of my goals. The first one that comes to mind is "assign a lucidity DC", so I start shouting at these strange blond DCs something about them and lucidity. Most of them don't pay me any attention, but my voice is so loud, I wonder if I am doing this irl too.

Then I look around, have a moment of aha realization as I remember the naked task. Of course, with so many DCs in the room, it is perfect for the task. So I first try to memorize the place and DCs a bit more (to be able to describe in detail, the way I do it, it is really bad for stability!) In front of me is a strange looking desk and three kids, one of them has silver sparkle decorations on his face. This time I am wearing only underwear with my casual type of bra. Just as I figure an easy way to take it off, the dream abruptly ends and I find myself back in bed.

I am very aware of body and need to go to the restroom. As I get back to bed I struggle with the heat, and am interrupted by the alarm of the guest, who always sets it hours earlier than he needs to wake up and leave. I really don't understand this. Insomnia...and then finally asleep for a bit.

DILD2: The dream begins as I am concentrating on my hands, trying to hold them still as possible, I get this floating feeling, expecting to transition. I then look around and understand that I am already in the dream. It is a small room, I start rubbing my hands vigorously, paying attention to the effect. The dream stabilizes for a while. I remember "the task" and search for DC audience. There are two male DCs on the bed, one on top of the other (doing nothing and with clothes on), and the other is asleep. They look very lifeless and I wonder if I should leave the room - door is just in front of me, but I get the feeling that might throw the dream out of balance and decide to wait. "Let me first get naked, then I'll see about the audience". I check my clothes - jeans (that later turn to shorts), socks, and a T-shirt. I start with the T-shirt but as it covers my eyes, it gets a bit entangled around my head, and I as get it off I lose my sight and end up in the void.

This annoys me but my anger turns into podcast inspired stubbornness and I keep trying to resume with the dream taking my shorts off and one sock while in the void. A moment later the dream picks up from exactly the same place. I expect at this point not to be wearing shorts anymore, but as I look down I have two pairs of shorts one on each leg. It's funny and reminds me of OB and her blankets. I go and sit on the bed which is now on the opposite side of the room, or is it another bed? I contemplate a bit of whether I really need to be sitting to more easily get rid of my shorts and remaining sock, but conclude it feels more comfortable that way. The dream fades and I wake.

The guest finally wakes up too, so that was it for today.

Thursday 6/20/13

Last night bed 11pm - 5:40am WBTB 5:40 - 6:20 Nap 6:20-8:30

DR1 2:40am

DR2 5:30am This is a weird one. Tons of details. It some kind of a feeling, that I can't identify.

I'm watching kids at night. House is huge, one story, lots of rooms. There is one boy and at least one girl. I put them to bed, bud boys bed has sand on it. I know mom won't be happy about me not doing good job. I brush it off. Night is weird. Something happens and girl calls her mom, before she even tells me what's wrong. I feel out of the loop.

I think she called on my phone and now I can't find it. Dad comes home and he decides to go get his wife, who is someplace farther away. Then mom is home and I'm about te leave, since they are home now. Can't find my phone and keys. I look everywhere. Dad pulls out wad of money to pay me for babysitting. he gives me one bill, looks like a 20. I tell him that's enough. He gives me another one, this is a 100. Now the first one looks like a 100 too. There are also some coupons in size of the bills. I think he won it all in casino.

The dream has some kind of a dark undertone. Like it could all turn really bad really fast, if I was to realize that. Untill I'm clueless, I'm safe.

Mom finally finds my phone in a yellow manila envelope. Girl put it there when she called her from the yard. Girl doesn't seem to give a flip about what she caused.

I pull out my two bunches of keys and I'm taking of some small key I got from family. I'm returning them. They are surprised. They are asking if I'm not gonna babysit for them any more. I know I have to be carefull with my answer. They seem nice on the surface, but I know they are bad people. Dad looks like he didn't shave in a while and he is drunk and mom looks also disheveled. I carefully tiptoe around the answer.

Then I ask them where is the exit. I walk through the door, but it leaves into garage. I try another one, that's not it either. i finally get out through some small door. I realize it's not used frequently, because they usually go through the garage. I find myself in a huge yard. Looks like farm. Dirt ground with some worn out grass. There are a few farm animals. A horse, some goat. I come to another door and behind it is another yard. More farm animals. I know I'm still not safe. Try to containg my panic, so they don't know I'm on to them. I finally get out of there somehow.

There were more details to this, like kids rooms, dads valet, how the parents look like. I like this dream because it was detailed, but on the other hand, it was kind of dark for some reason.

Ok, now on the the lucid nap.

WILD
It came on fairly quick. I remembered "oh, so this is what Opheliablue talked about". Not sure what I ment by that, but she was saying IWL that she just feels the dream coming on soon after some motion sensations.

So I got the brightened view and as I saw the dream, I got up. I don't think I ever exited like this before. I either wish myself into the dreamscape, or get up when I see my room. This entry was a mix of those two.

I'm on a long, sandy beach. There are some holes in the ground going a long way under the sand. They are partially filled with tidal water. i see a tiny seashell and I pick it up. I used to have a hermit crab in a green turbo shell just like that. I put him down.

I set my clothes on the ground in some kind of a beach shack. But the water has risen and coming in through the closed doors. I pick up my stuff so it doesn't get even more wet.

The dream goes dark and i decide to get to another one by going through a wall. I can't get to the other side, the wall is too thick. So I decide to grap the other side of the wall and push myself through it. I'm finally out.

I remember getting up from bed at least 2 times.

I walk around a lot, remember thinking what a nice long lucid. I come to the parking lit with all kinds of buses and passenger vans. I decide to go and offer my services. I promised myself not to do this anymore, but I just can't help it. I keep telling myself that I won't wake up this time and it keeps going for a while.

Narcissism and botched summonings ahead. Still, every lucid's fun and this was a good reminder not to be too casual with details in dream control situations!

Color legend: Non-dream Dream Lucid

Lucid #111: Vanity at The Doppelganger Waterpark

I have a false awakening. Faint morning light filters in through the window. I wonder whether it's too bright to get back to sleep. A bedside clock says that it's 5:00 AM. It seems too bright and too late to have a lucid dream. I remember the micro-lucid from earlier in the morning and feel disappointed that I didn't hit a real one. (I really did have a micro-lucid earlier, as well as an earlier false awakening.)

I get up to use the restroom and notice that I'm not in my usual bedroom but rather on the first floor of a building -- a hotel perhaps? I feel like I'm awake, but the bathroom is just... so different. I'm dreaming.

As I leave the bathroom, I hear Wife beginning to stir. She's muttering something but I can't make it out. The morning light makes it seem urgent to get started with my goals, so I phase out through an external wall, my head and shoulders passing through a window. I end up in a fenced, grassy yard with a circular stone table surrounded by simple stone benches.

My strategy for this dream is to forget the meeting location for now and just try to summon NewArtemis directly. I walk toward the yard's open gate, holding my hand behind me as I go. "[NewArtemis], grab onto my hand." No good. I have the sense that I did it all wrong. Stop asking. I sort of try again but my level of intent is poor and nothing happens.

As I exit the yard, I'm distracted from the summon by a mirror hanging on a brick wall to my left. I check my reflection and see that I'm wearing a pair of jeans without a shirt. I vainly check myself out and notice that I'm less in shape than I remember being -- torso a little smoother, face a little puffier. I start worrying that I've let myself slip in waking life and try to remember whether that's true. It suddenly occurs to me that this is probably the most pathetic, narcissistic thing I've ever wasted lucid dream time on in my entire life.

I walk further along the grass until I come to a large, packed pool that's being rocked by gentle waves, almost like it's a half-activated water park wave pool. I notice my friend "SC" playing with a young child (too young to be one of his sons). About twelve feet to his right, I see another SC! The doppelganger smiles and gives me a nod of acknowledgment.

As I continue along the pool, I see my high school friend "LM". And just as with the other friend, not far from her is another doppelganger. Again, the doppelganger looks my way and smiles. The smile seems genuine rather than threatening so even though I find it a little weird, I'm not too troubled by anything that I'm seeing.

The water makes me think of Angel Falls. Okay, new plan: summon Art while on the move and dash to Angel Falls for Task of the Year. My hope is that if I'm very casual about the summon it'll just work. I reach my hand behind me and say, "[NewArtemis], Angel Falls is just up ahead." I feel a hand grasp mine and I look back to confirm that it's Art. But when I do, I see that the hand is sticking straight up out of the water. The geometry of all this strikes me as strange. How is their arm so long that they can still be submerged and grab onto me?

As I'm thinking this, the person floats up out of the water, still gripping my hand. She's a complete stranger -- blonde, early 20s, fair-skinned, slightly heavier build. She's wearing a black one-piece swimsuit. "Who are you?" I ask, and her only reply is to half-smile and turn away. I notice that her teeth have a very mild yellow/brownish stain to them.

"I'm going to change you into [NewArtemis]. Okay?" I'm not trying to ask permission so much as... explain what's about to happen? There's no reply. I look off to the side to make the transformation easier, but the dream ends before I can take this any further.

Dream recall from today's naps.

Dream 1(fragments)

I was chatting with SilentEternity on skype and there was something about school i had to search on google.

Dream 2:

I was watching yogscast playing on some rather simple minecraft map. It was designed for competitive games but they were trying to coop it for some reason, then they used flight cheat to get to the upper area of the map. There was passageway with glowstone, and another hidden passageway in it. Then there were some big spiders with changed, non-squarey, models, yogscast suddenly started overreacting and then...
I suddenly am at home in corridor and dad's here i spontaneously realize that i am dreaming and start going forward, i try imagining sounds of spiders from before, then i actually hear one coming from behind and then i kinda ride on him to the kitchen, where i lose balance and fall off.
I wake up but i still have dreamy feeling so i rub hands, it's very vivid and i think about transformation, i remove window by jumping backwards through it, then i feel wings and fly. There are some DCs and also i briefly notice some huge dude in the red shirt in a chair to the left. I try transformation but i somehow get teleported back a bit instead, i continue flight along the building but then dream fades out.

To cut a long dream short and get to the point that is interesting...

I am in Sydney and have created a new business that has the potential to change the world, the business takes off very quickly and a special dinner event is thrown to talk about the idea.
During this dinner I am joined by 8 other heads in their field, each very impressed with the idea and they share stories with me over drinks. After a few drinks an award is offered to me, an apartment that pulls in $60k a year in rent, its on the harbour in Sydney and L and I can stay there as long as we want.

The logical part of my brain starts to kick in and does the figures, soon I am talking math with the 'teachers' and they again talk about my idea and the important the Sydney Harbour Bridge played in the formation.

As a reward for the idea, they have converted part of the bridge into a very crazy roller coaster ride. This is where it starts to become very interesting. As I look as the bridge I notice about 200 people strapped into the ride, in chairs that you are held up by your shoulders (so to speak) and your feet dangle free.

The amazing thing is when the ride starts to move, and I can not explain this in enough detail to share the complexity of what I saw but in a matter of seconds my dream had created one of the most extreme and logic rides on the bridge that looped back in on it self and almost had people hitting each other as they passed through the loop. The amazing thing was that it worked with such accuracy that I was astonished.

I was aware it was a dream for a split second before I awoke and the only thing I could think of was, "wow, how did I create something this complex in a matter of seconds. Amazing"

This is my first DJ entry so I just want to make a couple of introductory notes regarding it. First, this will be a lucidity only journal (unless an extremeely memorable NLD comes up). Second, this is a no holds barred journal meaning that everything from sex to violence and wicked behavior will be (properly) shared here should they cross my playground, god forbid they do.
Third, you are all welcome here if you want to kill a little time!

Okay so to my first lucid dream since my last comeback to dream training and taking some time to exclusively build up decent recall.

09/06/2013 - DILD

I was at the beach with a group of guys that I know, we were sit down close to the sea just relaxing and chatting, each of us was messing around with some sort of smartphone, waves coming to our legs and then going back as they naturally do. I spotted a small increase in the size of a wave forming and exaggerated it a little bit in my mind thinking it was gonna catch us, it just did and now people's phones were wet and their owners pissed.
The dream skips (or my memory does) and I'm just walking around the beach alone. It now seemed more obviously like the beach of an island with exotic vegetation around and all the pretty sights. I was sort of jumping and leaping in the air and I looked at the view and it was really intense and pretty, I spontaneously became lucid. I got excited, this was my first LD recalled in quite a while but still pretty calm and collected, "good to be back". Like I always do by default (I'm now changing that) I started simply trying to take short flights and big jumps, I took off once and I decided to take a good leap (regardless of my waking life mild fear of heights) and I did but suddenly I was flying close to ground level again, what? I immediately attributed this to my anxiety which has frequently cut my flights short both in height and duration but this time I said "f*** it, I'm gonna go and I'm gonna go high", I did for good this time. I was at the level of the top of a small stone tower (still high by my standards but nowhere near "big city heights") and just as I got there I decided to go on top of it so I put out my hands spiderman style and intended to shout some webs and pull myself there, even though I didn't see any web I got there that way.
While on top of the tower I was feeling a bit like "lion king" in my fairly effortless comeback to my dream world so I decided to shout into the air a big, resounding and powerful "fus ro dah" which would shake the whole dream, it didn't, what it did shook was myself making me slightly afraid of falling down. How ridiculous LOL
So what I did was I crouched like spiderman with the intention of getting my hands stuck to the floor with "my web substance" to ground myself and safely shake the scenario! As I opened my mouth and inhaled for the biggest thunderous shout ever I..... woke up.

More to come xD

Operation Homicide - Ep. 101 Bad-Ass McCoy is a series of my dreams where I take on the character of Bad-Ass McCoy, and kick ass. Whether it be random villains or Albanian drug lords, Bad-Ass can handle it all. So get your guns ready, cock 'em, and hand 'em over, because I'm about to do all the shooting.

Level of Lucidity: 1
Level of Clarity: 4
Level of Realism: 4
(levels based 0-10, 0-5 being low - good 5-10 being great - extreme)


Operation Homicide Ep. 101: There I am. In a fancy, modern style apartment building. I'm standing in a large ground floor room, that seems to be partially a gym, and partially a recreational room. There's quite a few dream characters around me, and I seem very confident in my ability to walk from one side of the room to the other. I walk to the other side of the room, and find a doorway with a staircase behind it. I climb the stairs for about four flights, and then the stairs simply end, with a ladder and a small roof door above it that requires the climber to push it open to continue their ascent.

I pushed it open, and had a look around. It was a standard apartment roof and seemed completely normal, but I did notice that it was a very hard angle to pull myself up and onto the roof from the ladder, so I just stayed on the ladder and looked around. After a few brief moments of looking, I began to lower myself down the ladder and descend to the ground floor. When I got the the ground floor, mostly everything was the same, except for the fact that most of the walls had been replaced with large ceiling to ground windows. Similar to this, but without the window pains:



Suddenly someone walks in and starts an argument with a lady behind one of the park benches conveniently located in the middle of the room. He then turned his head and stared dead at me. I felt something in the back waistband of my pants, and quickly reached back and whipped out a pistol. The man whipped out a pistol too, and began to fire at me. Luckily he was a retard when it comes to aim, and I managed to shoot him square in the chest, I believe killing him.

After that everyone looked semi-relieved. All of a sudden two more men come busting through one of the ceiling to ground windows. They both have guns but for some reason decide to run at me instead of shooting me. I decided not to shoot them and instead turn around and begin running up the stairs. (Dream logic...)

They weren't far behind me, but as I began to run up more and more stairs, I started skipping stairs and climbing 3-4 stairs with each step. I got quite a ways ahead of them, but then I got to the ladder. I climbed up it with ease, but then had trouble pushing the latch open to finish my escape onto the roof. The enemy caught up with me and one of the men grabbed a hold on my foot.

I looked down to the guy and said "Wait a second guys, let me get up here, I don't wanna fall."

The two enemies nodded their heads and said "Okay, good point" and then let my foot go so I could safely open the latch. I then decided it best to perhaps go back downstairs and make an exit instead of jumping off of a roof. The guys understood and followed me down. The guys and I commenced to telling some jokes and laughing on the way down about the guy who I killed. By the time we reached the bottom floor I snapped back to my senses and whipped my pistol around and shot both guys, but neither died.

I ran through the window that they busted when they made their entrance and I was just out of their reach of being able to grab my shirt. I ran around the back of the building and came all the way around to the side opposite of where they busted in. There was a bench outside of the window I was running towards, and everything suddenly moved in extreme slow motion. I ran up to the bench and jumped just enough so that my left leg landed on the seat of the bench. I looked back and thought to myself "Maybe they won't know how to jump and will just trip on the bench." It made zero sense, but after seeing what a derp their friend was, anything was possible. I jumped up and over the bench, and dived through the window, landing in a somersault.



The two guys simply walked around the bench and walked into the building through the giant hole I just made in the glass. I turned to them and without thinking shot both of them.

Everyone in the lounge area seemed very surprised and scared at the fact that I just fired my pistol indoors, and less surprised or scared that I just killed 3 people.

Everyone in the room stopped what they were doing and looked at me, until one guy shouted "Go get-em Bad-Ass McCoy!"

I casually walked out of the building through the front door with my new idenetity, feeling totally, 100%... bad-ass.