lucid

[MILD induced DILD]
dreamsigns
lucid
It was late evening, dark. I was with another person (male) and 2 kids on a shore of a long lake, with small lit-up houses/shops on the right. (In the morning I realized it reminded me of a shoreline of Avalon on Catalina Island in California, where ocean is to your left, there is a walkway with simple guardrail and shops/houses right across the street on the right side).

We were all dressed in pants, t-shirts and windbreakers. We decided to go to an evening outdoor concert. I realized that it's colder than we thought and I had to go to get some more clothes. So I started walking by the handrail towards the houses on the other side of the lake, when I decided to fly there. I hopped up on the guardrail and jumped up and flew quite fast over the lake, with arms spread out, like a Superman.

(Now, I did fly in my dreams quite often, but always with trouble, never been able to fly high, mostly just climb on a tree and flap my arms really hard, or jump in the air couple times while flapping my arms like a madman and take a flight, but only few feet of the ground).

In a middle of the lake I thought to myself "This would be great time to have a dream". Two things happened at the same time. I got a very strong feeling emanating from my abdomen area, something like great joy and I KNEW that Lucid Dream is coming, and my right hand lifted in front of me. It was all distorted, fingers like waves, flat, kinda like geckos toes, and seemed to be more of them than five. This view of my hand freaked me out a little bit.

I asked myself if I'm dreaming and with grin from ear to ear I answered yes. I forgot all about getting clothes and thought about what to do now that I'm lucid. I figured let's fly someplace. (I love flying dreams.) Started flying around but everything was dark. Got kinda disappointed and woke up.

[Went to bed around 12.45am, woke up from a dream at 2.53am.
Before bed, I read for couple hours about LD, practiced nose pinch and finger through palm RC and saying that "Next time I dream, I will RC and realize I'm dreaming".

Didn't really practice the looking at the hand and counting fingers RC, just a few times, much less than other RCs. But when in bed, I did my mantra and looked at my hand and asked myself if I'm dreaming as I was falling asleep for about 15 minutes. And yet, the hand RC showed up and got me lucid.]

Was in a giant building with jazz clubs inside. The walls were covered in red fabric drapes hanging on rod iron polls. Much of the becoming of this dream has been forgotten. I do remember that I was somewhat being fallowed by someone. I kept going from jazz club to jazz club, listening to music, switching seats, and looking back over my shoulder constantly to check to see if someone was getting closer. Finally I reach a coat closet and I hide I am aware that the stalker is getting closer. The light throughout this much of the dream had been very dim but I could still see out of the crack of the doorway. I stood there watching as women dressed like flappers walked by. The man fallowing me stood there for a bit but then he too walked passed me. When I felt the coast was clear I left the bathroom. I was stunned to see the man waiting for me in a large hallway. Someone shouted for me to run. I did here but it seemed very slow motion. I think a bullet flew past me. I open a door of a kindergarten classroom and lock the door behind me. I tell the children to hide in a lockdown style. I wait for a minute and then I realize that the man is suddenly chopping the door down with an axe. I SUDDENLY REALIZE THAT I AM DREAMING but I am not sure how to stop the man. I start telling myself loudly that this all a dream and I can make him stop but he wasn't stopping. I think I got extremely anxious here because everything goes black here. I am in a new dream now. I can remember the one from the before but I am not lucid yet. I was going back to highschool and apparently allen was gonna go with me. I walked into class and saw Blaise and robin. I sat b Blaise and talked for a long while. Then the teacher passed out yearbooks to all of us. I realize that allen had left the classroom several minutes ago and that I didn't feel like signing year books, so I would leave and try to find him. I walk out and find him immediately waiting for me. We decide to get inhis car. We realize that a car is fallowing us. I make allen turn right 4 times and the man fallowing us does the same. We suddenly are nolonger in my a car but now running from the man. I recognize the man as being the one from the previous dream. I then suddenly realize its a dream and that I can just fly away. I didn't need to hop 3 times to catch air this time. I basically busted into the air like a fighter jet. This was by far the fastest I've flowen in a dream. I headed to the top of a massive hill with trees. I was doing loops and moving from side to side with perfect control. I did this for what felt like a long time before I landed at the top. Allen had been slowly trailing me and asked me how I could do that so well in my dreams. I explained that some people are better at some things then others. Other lucid flyers were making their way to the top of this hill in the clearing. I stood there taking in the view before I woke up.

10/1/11

DILD

Recall: poor (it was a few days ago)

Notes: I was sleeping in a hotel

I was driving my car and struggling mightily. I was wasted and could barely control myself, let alone the car. I was nowhere close to staying in a lane. And sure enough, I look back and a cop is pulling me over. I think that there is no way I am going to get out of this. At that moment I realized that it was a dream. Thank God. It started to fade and I was okay with that because I was having a bad time anyway. After a few seconds I realized that I wanted to stay in the dream so I focused on the sensations I felt driving my car. I felt my bed under me and I lost my vision, but I was visualizing and imagining the tactile sensations. I wanted to get back into the same dream so I could go and fight the cop.

After a few moments I was back in the dream with my car stopped. I got out and walked over to the cop car. I wanted to beat the crap out of him. I look in the window and he was a....her. And she was pretty hot. She was short and thin with dark red hair. I went to plan B and started making out with her. Things got hot and heavy for awhile and I think I moved on to involve other girls too.

After awhile I noticed that some cops were after some black guy. I decided to join the hunt. He ran to the front of a large apartment building and flew up. I tried to fly up, but I was too close to the wall and when I got close I lost speed and had to grab a ledge. It ended up being a 40 ft. super jump. I quickly climbed to the top of the building and resumed the chase. He turns and tries to fight me. I decide to instead use my telekinesis to suspend him in the air, helpless. He ran at me and I lifted him up. His momentum caused him to drift in the air towards me. I take a step back and I am holding him still about 3 ft. in the air. He squirms and tries to fight his way out, but it doesn't help. I am bringing him back to the police when I wake up.

The Night of Awareness.
I'm pretty proud! Last night I was very aware in my dreams, and some of them were very vivid. 1 time I was close to become lucid, 1 time I'm not sure about, and 1 time I became lucid! I'm going to tell you about them all 3!
Thanks for reading!

Lucid
Non-Lucid
Thoughts

The Party:

This is the first dream. I'm not sure if it was a non-lucid or a lucid, and I can only remember the end of the dream. I really have no idea, but I'm just going to mark it with blue anyway.

I was talking with some people. It was in a big room, and there wasn't so much light. Somewhere I remember it as a party, but everything was just grey and black. They were drinking something, maybe a beer. I don't drink, and I walked away from them. I often talk to myself, and I said to myself: "The alarm is probably going to wake me up soon, if not it's weird" And then the alarm began to ring, and I woke up. Scary.

Tennis Awareness:

This is the dream, where I almost became lucid. If I haven't woke up, I'm pretty sure that I would had became lucid.

I was standing in a room. Some DCs was playing tennis. The room was warm, and people were sweating. The floor was yellow, like the floor in the P.E room, and there was theese weird football things, and lines on the floor in different colours. One of the DCs, who I've never seen before, came over to me. She had her blonde hair in a horsetail, and was sweating. Suddently, the music turned off, and there wasn't one person who said anything, there was completely silence. She said to me: "Look at the colours. Look at the floor. Look at all the details. This could be a dream. Remember to do it." and then I woke up.

The Sunny Tree:

This is the lucid one. I was lucid in a very short moment, but when I get lucid more often, I have to train to be there for longer time.
This was a kind of a nightmare, because I cried and wasn't so happy, and I think the dream is too personally. So I'm just going to post the end of the dream, the lucid-part. Okay..

...I walked out of the door, and out in the awesome weather. The sun shined on my skin, and I could feel the cold wind. I remembered Puffins SAT technique, and began to look around on the details. The tree was really green, and it was very beautiful. It almost danced in the wind. It was amazing. Suddently, it hitted me, that I didn't knew this place. And how did I get here?
"This could be a dream!" I said to myself. I tried to remember how I get there, but I couldn't. Yes, it was a dream. I was just about to do a RC, just to confirm that it really was....when I woke up.

Non-Dream Dream Lucid

Ok so this was completely by chance this happened. I just exhausted after waking up at 3A.M. for no good reason. SO I wanted to stay awake and yet I fell asleep, and this is what followed.

I woke to myself shaking violently, like vibrations, I quickly knew (thought) I was having a WILD so I went with the flow and I was in my room. I did an RC and it worked, I was tired though. I don't know why, but the dream destabilized and I False Awakened into my room again, I did another RC and it worked, only this time I did more to stabilize it. I rubbed my hands together then got up and went into the kitchen. It was dark and I rubbed down my whole body on the way there, to ground myself more. I went over to the Refridgerator (sorry if I spelled it wrong) and opened it in search of dream food because I wanted another taste of dream food, not just a saliva smoothie. So I searched and it was empty. My mom started to walk into the room and talk to my, I was thinking about asking her if she knew she was in my dream, but I quickly discarded the thought and went outside. It was a bright, sunny day, much different then the darkness in my house. I decided to have some fun so I ran to this one patch of grass around my house, It was fairly large. It had a treeline hugging it to the North, East, and West. With a road the parted it and split into a "T" shape on the other side of the row of trees. I ran down into the grass spot which some army men were standing around, it was downhill from the road. I heard a voice say "Caramel Apples are not only delicous but make you really strong" (The TV was on and my mind was twisting the words) and I look back up at the road once I walk to the army men and their is a group of enemies on the road. I immediatly call for mortar strikes and everything got crazy. Mortars were started raining down from the sky at them. Like giant, bullet-shaped rain drops, but they had a forcefield of sorts, all the mortars were bouncing away a couple of inches from the group. All you could here was the screaming of the mortars flying through the air and the enemies shooting. Two helicopters then came around. One picked up the enemy group and the other headed to the other side of the trees. It was an enemy helicopter that wasn't meant to be there. Me and this girl ran to the other side of the trees, and the helicopter crashed near us. It's deadly spining blades were getting close to cutting me in have, and got the girl in the lip. I was wondering where our helicopter was when it bursted from above the treeline. It landed about 10 meters away from us. We escaped the range of the crashed helicopter. Which was smoking, but eventually was able to fly away. We loaded up into the helicopter. We put our stuff down and the girl was talking about where one of the helicopter blades got her. AND THEN I WAKE UP.

Saturday, October 1st 2011.
First off let me say this is one of the most fucked up dreams I have ever had. The absolute logic of the dream is probably what scared me the most, the fact that even awake I cannot find an explanation is terrifying to me. Ok, now to the dream.

This dream started with me waking up in a house that I knew was my house but had never seen before. I stretched out and yawned, then instinctively went to the bathroom to piss. I remember thinking to myself that it was odd that I knew where the bathroom was when I had never been to the house before. I kind of had this weird time skip thing where I opened the bathroom door and stepped outside into the dark yard of the house. There were wrecked cars and I realized that it was a trailer park.

There were people standing around a bonfire drinking beer and hard alcohol in red cups. There was music playing and I heard it playing but I did not know what it was. Suddenly I heard a cough and jumped a little as I noticed the guy standing right next to me. "It's kind of weird how that works out isn't it?" He said, the guy was my good friend Keith "Yea" I responded continuing the conversation that I could tell had been going on between us for several minutes, I had been talking though unaware of it. I remembered that we were talking about people with mental retardation and mental disabilities. I looked up at the sky and was pleasantly surprised by the number of stars. I turned back to Keith who was gone and instead I was now talking to my friend Tyler. "Yea Jake has Ike, and Keith has you" He said as if he had been talking to me the whole time.

Let me explain this a little bit. Jake is one of my friends who has a brother with down syndrome, Ike. In previous dreams I have dreamed that Keith is my brother. So when Tyler said that Keith had me, He was comparing me to Ike. This was the point in the dream where I started to get scared and freaked out. Back to the dream.

I started to get a head rush and felt really dizzy. I knew that I had to sit down, I rubbed my eyes trying to ignore the buzzing in my head. When I pulled my hands away I was standing in the living room of the house. I sat on the couch behind me. A man came walking down the hall with a fat cigar in his mouth, he was my brother. I had never seen him before but I knew that he was my brother. "Wheres yours?" he said taking a long pull of his cigar. I reached into my pocket and found a pack black and mild cigars. I pulled one out and searched for a lighter that I could not find. "Here" Said another man who was sitting in a chair next to me. This man I also knew was my brother, he held out a lighter for me to light up.

Something seemed incredibly familiar about this moment and I suddenly asked out of nowhere "Has this happened before?". My two brothers exchanged looks. The older of the two, and the one standing, responded "Yea, you keep breaking through and relapsing". At that moment A flood of thoughts overwhelmed my brain and I remembered that this same exact situation had happened before. Another thought that stood out was this knowledge that I had a mental disability that caused me to forget almost everything. I picked up a mini corn dog off a plate on the table and dipped it in some mustard before taking a bite.

A door opened and a woman came in. I had this spike of emotion when I saw her, it was my mother (not my real mother, I'd never seen this woman before). She started to tear up as she walked towards me. This was too much for me to handle and I shouted "Stop! I cant handle this! Give me a second!". She stopped and I saw her lips quivering as she bit them to prevent herself from crying. Everything seemed to freeze except for me at this point. I took some pulls off my cigar and just tried to digest everything that was happening.

I said something that I didn't understand and suddenly my mom came over, hugged me, and cried into my shoulder. "Dont overwhelm him or he'll forget again" My younger brother said "We need to take it slow or it'll be a relapse just like last time." Then I was alone sitting on the edge of my bed in my boxers twiddling my thumbs and staring off into space. I was thinking, about what I have no idea but it was an extremely intense moment even though nothing was happening. If I sleep I'll forget I thought to myself. Suddenly I was fighting with my eyelids trying to stay awake. After a moment I could not resist and I fell back and went to sleep.

Then I woke up.
Why does this dream frighten me so much?
Because it could be true. I could have a mental disability that causes me to forget everything. I could live in that trailer park, in that trailer with 2 brothers and my mom. Everything seemed so real and familiar it was terrifying.

I was living in a house with a couple that was fighting. They had two young boy children. I was rearranging the children rooms in a way that makes me think of the sims. After that I went into the bathroom and arranged my toiletries in drawers designated for me. The walls were of tacky pink tiles and the sink was a matching pink. There was warm sunlight coming in through the bathroom mirror. I walked into the pale yellow kitchen ans noticed my tooth felt loose. I tugged on it with my finger and it slipped out. I shoved it back in and shouted that I needed to see a doctor. I suddenly became aware of how bizzar the whole situation was and I became lucid. I confirmed my suspicion with a nose check. I then utilized my time by exploring the house and my lucidity. I don't remember much of what happens here because my dream after this was so long. I somehow loose my lucidity and next thing I know im in bed with allen. I am on top of him and were wrestling in a playful manor. I am remembering the dream I just had and I have a sneaky suspicion that I am dreaming still. I push my tongue against my tooth and its a little loose. I then see credits rolling on the tv and I see that I can't read them at all, they are in some alien style of writing. I begin to laugh with joy. I bend over and kiss allen on the chest. I think to myself that I don't want to have sex but enjoy the dream buy first id give allen a little smooch. Dream character allen decides to be a dick and tell me that he doesn't want to have sex because it is a waste of being in the astral plane. Then he suggested that I have sex with someone else if I choose to. I tell him to fucking off in a slightly annoyed buy playful way and I roll off of him. I walk back through the kitchen. Some DC's are there but I ignore them and walk outside. I start walking down a paved road with trees with long vines on either side. I begin to swing from the vines like I did when my Gma had trees like this when I was a little girl. It was extremely fun, like something Tarzan would have done. When the trees stopped I was at the edge of a town. Many people had gathered for some type of african music festival. I walked towards the music and saw a very rasta like man playing some african drums. I started to dance to the music and laugh. The man stopped banging the drums for a minute to switch drums but the music sounds continued. I took note on how I was infact the one creating all the music and for some reason I thought that was super cool. I walked over to a vendor selling elephant ears. I was handed one. It was super sugary and tasty. I kept dancing/ walking my way out of the city. The warm day light started to dim and I could see the stars. I was now walking down hill. A commercial plane flew really close past me and I literally shouted out "wow, cool!!!". The plane was really shinny and impressive. I then noticed 3 boys in front if me. They were unlike all the other people I encountered in my dream. They were all really excitedly saying to eachother how they were all lucid. One of them suggested that they try to fly. I took particular note of the fact that none of them had seemed to notice that I was there, strange for most of the DC's in my dreams. I decided to fly too. Usually it takes me 3 jumps before im in the air. I did my 3 jumps but was intersected by a small helicopter flying kinda low. I laughed it off and did it again. This time I was hovering nicely. I continued down the road and came upon an old police station. No one else was around and I got an urge to investigate. I opened the doors. It looked like something out of the 30's. Wake up

Awake, Non-lucid, Lucid, [Commentary made while awake]

I'm in my family's house [it doesn't look anything like any of our real houses]. P. has a terrible secret that she can't stand to tell our parents, so she's making me tell them for her. She actually cries when she tries to talk about it, because she feels so bad about it. Information about the secret is hidden on the computer in a file called “Sisters.nxt,” which is the type of file that contains programming instructions for the toy robots we use at my teaching job.

Our parents come in, and I gather my courage and tell Mom the terrible secret. Everyone is upset, including me.

When I woke up, I was quite stunned that it had just been a dream. It had been incredibly vivid and realistic. I actually made mental notes to call my sister and ask her if she was okay, and to to check my real computer later for a file named “Sisters.nxt.” [There was none, of course.]

I'm in my car [my new-to-me one], on my driveway. It rolls backward down the driveway, even though the parking brake is set. [Anxiety. I am afraid of this happening.] As I turn around to look behind me, I see JM backing a big truck up to our driveway. I smile and wave at him.

I'm back in the same house from earlier, with my parents. My mom's hair has suddenly turned gray, and is short and fluffy. It has two parts that come to a point on the top of her head, which she is feeling with her fingertips to find out how they go. My dad's hair is also turning gray. I realize that I'm back in the unfamiliar house that appeared in my previous dream, and therefore, that I'm dreaming.

I turn away from my parents and walk around the house, observing. The rooms are spacious and empty in the middle. Thoughts about how all this is a dream and not real just won't leave me alone, even though I try to ignore them, for fear that thinking about it too much will cause the dream to fade and me to wake up. I remember that I should try to stabilize and ground myself in the dream by engaging more of my senses, so I go looking for something to eat.

One of the rooms of the house is a kitchen. I open the refrigerator and get out one of those little plastic, single-serving cups of applesauce. I open it up and eat it directly out of the cup, by sticking my tongue into it. It tastes just like applesauce, but the flavor isn't as strong as it would be in reality. I also find that my lips are all tingly and semi-numb, as if I'd had a Novacaine shot that was wearing off. I think, That's happening because these sensations of eating aren't real.

[Dreamskip.] I'm outside, and I remember that I wanted to fly in this dream. I try to take off twice, and both times, I succeed only in jumping about six or eight feet and then falling back down to the ground. The first time, I end up on my butt. After the second time, I think, Wait, don't I usually do this just by thinking about flying? So I do, and it works. I fly around the beautiful scenery of a bunch of ocean harbors and inlets with towns on them. At one point, I fly through some power lines [?] intangibly. [I don't feel any sensation associated with it, though.] As I fly, I go, “Wheeee!”

I'm outside a big church building at night, still flying around.

I'm inside a shop full of shoes and other fashion items. It is owned by Yusuf, who is minding it. I fly through the shop and out the front entrance, into a street.

I'm now outside that same big church building during daylight. I say to myself, “It's daytime now because my real body says so.” I say this because I know it must be light outside by now, and I'm sure my body clock knows that. I decide to just walk across the grass to get to the entrance of the church, but then I use a small burst of my flight powers to get up all six steps in one leap.

There is some big event going on on an outdoor lawn, with tents or shade covers set up. [I don't really remember this part very well.]

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Side notes:

Last night was the one-year anniversary of the night I had my first substantial lucid dream. That fact made me really motivated to have another cool lucid dream, and I succeeded in having one. I was really pleased and proud of myself that I had. I wasn't quite as euphoric about it as I was that first night, but I was pretty happy. I'm really happy with what I've experienced in my dream life this year, but, of course, there's much more I want to do and learn. Here's to many more years of lucid dreams!

Ok, I'm starting this journal to keep track of my dreams. (what a surprise!)
Lately I've been having trouble determining if I am awake or in a dream. So in hopes of being able to better decipher what is real and what is not I'm starting this log.

09/26/2011
Dream One:
"Lucid Juggernaut"

The very first thing I remember is sitting on a couch, during the day, with a few friends. Without warning, a thunderous banging noise came at the front door. Someone apparently had a battering ram and was trying to bust into the house, while we were inside. Immediately, we all scrambled, taking up our guns and preparing for a firefight. However, with the loud banging becoming more intense, some of us were able to see just how many people were out there...and how many guns they had. We were not about to stick around and be slaughtered, so we all bolted out the back door, scrambling through the neighborhood and catching faint glimpses of hundreds of these heavily-armed thugs, raiding all of the houses in the neighborhood. We were being fleshed out, and our territories were being seized by this faction.

Before we were able to make it out of the neighborhood, we were cornered by a patch of these thugs. I don't believe we had our guns anymore, and they ended up robbing us for everything we had in our pockets. We could do nothing but stand there and fume over how we were being humiliated by these goons, and how helpless we were. After cracking a few jokes, they sent us on our way. However, after a few short steps, I finally realized how crazy this situation was. I figured out that I was dreaming, and I couldn't be more ready for revenge.

I turned around, mid-pace, and began walking back toward the thugs, whom had just robbed us. I didn't care how I did it, (or that it really didn't matter, because this was just a dream), but I was about to get our damn stuff back! Lol. They all watched me as I approached, waving my hands back in my direction, and yelling at the armed men to bring it on. Accepting the invitation, they all started firing at me, simultaneously. At first, I began to let the bullets just slam into me, while I continued walking toward them. I had to clentch my fists and brace forward, because they bullets were actually a bit painful, but I tried to just push the sensation out of my mind, while I stalked twoard the men. When it finally became too uncomfortable, I took to catching most of the bullets in my hands, which also stung, but was still effective. However, the men just continued firing, and even with a good level of lucidity, it was beginning to get a little overwhelming. I was still having a good time, though, watching them sh!t bricks when they saw how they couldn't really stop me with all that firepower.

An idea came to mind. Focusing my intention to use a little telekinesis, I brought my hands in front of me, fingers curled toward on another, as if I were palming a basketball. With the men continuing to fire away at me, I drew all of my attention to the empty space between my hands, and 'willed' all of the bullets to be drawn to this void. The bullets immediately ceased hitting me, and I could literally see them being collected, in this empty space between my hands, as if there were a powerful, invisible magnet floating there. (I had gotten the idea from the Mech Suit scene, in the movie District 9, where the Mech used some sort of technology to catch the bullets in mid air, and collect them into one, floating spot.) Then, once I had a good mass of bullet heads collected in this space, the men finally stopped shooting. They stared at the hovering bullets with awe, and were obviously loss for words. Smiling, I quickly flung my hands out in the direction of the gunmen, launching the spent bullets out of the space between my palms, like buckshot from a gun (which is also what the Mech did, with the bullet tips, in the movie). It was just awesome, and I'm surprised it worked, so effortlessly. The first wave of thugs dropped like stones, and more moved in from around the neighborhood. I basically ripped through them all, using their own weapons against them, but eventually losing lucidity. I was able to keep the control for a bit, but the bullets began to take their toll on me, and I could feel myself dying. Still trying to fight through the sensation of having my energy drained from me, I eventually had to succumb. I ended up dying in the street, seeing myself in the third person as a female friend from my group clutched me and cried.

(There was a strange transition here, that might have been a completely different dream, where some girl, that might have been the same one, was going down on me in a public place. I remember being lucid here, for a moment, but still a little embarassed that people were watching us and walking right by us, even though I knew they were DC's.)

The dream then transitioned again (or there is just a lot I am missing), and I was now in some scenario where I believe I was a police offer. I had lost my lucidity again (but, again, I don't feel like it was a separate dream). My female companion from earlier was still with me, and she was acting as my 'partner'. We were in some similar situation to what had happened back in the neighborhood, in that we'd set up some kind of presence in this huge, multi-level office building, but were run out of it by this larger faction. This time it was more of a shadow organization with lots of money, modern security, and lots more firepower than even the thugs from earlier.

Having failed our first confrontation with these new gunmen, I remember us walking back out toward the parking lot, pissed off at having not been able to bring the group down. Once again, just on the verge of retreat, I realized I was dreaming once again. My disappointment instantly turned to mischeivous glee. Without saying another word, I reached into an open trunk and grabbed a handgun and immediately began to storm my way back into the tall office building, and up the stairs, toward where my squad had just been forced out of. I don't remember much of the battle, but it went pretty much like my rampage through the neighborhood, with guys emptying clips into me, and me just refusing to go down. I remember a specific corridor, where I tried shooting my gun, but it was just like a BB gun, and not doing any damage. Annoyed with this, I walked toward the nearest shooter - allowing his bullets to rip into me, on the way - and proceeded to try to pistol whip him and the guy next to him. Unfortunately, I got that 'sluggish' effect, and was not able to get any power behind my swings. The more intense the fighting got, the more I could feel my lucidity slipping in and out. I remained lucid enough to remember that I had died, during the last rampage, and I became anxious about whether or not this would happen to me again, now. I was able to survive this time, though, keeping myself calm instead of allowing the energy-draining sensation to creep back into me. Once I was done having my fun, I walked back down to the rest of my team, completely unharmed, but still riddled with bullet holes and bleeding from every inch of my body.

(There was another transition after this, which might have been a different dream, but I don't really feel like it was. It didn't really tie in with the theme from the previous, though, so I will just label it as a separate fragment, even though I'm admittedly not sure whether it was a seperate fragment, or just a continuation of the dream.)

Dream Fragment Two

I was with JH, and we were leaving my house (which was actually the house where the ex and I used to live, years ago). My mom had just come home (though she didn't actually live in that house with us, in waking life), and I had to break away to speak to her for a moment. All I can remember about talking to her was catching her on the front porch, and seeing that she was wearing a very nice, red dress, and really long hair.

02.10.2011

Flight at the beach (DILD)

NON-DREAM DREAM LUCID

I found myself in one of my meditation/healing groups. The meditation was almost over when I noticed that I have been there for a while. I wondered if I slept through all the meditation as I could not recall what happened. I was also surprised that I could not recall the healing sessions. I knew that usually people comes to me asking if I could give them a healing, but I did not recall giving any, so I started to think that something funny was going on.

I entered into an elevator. The elevator was all gray and it had a pale light. The elavator did not have buttons, but started going down on itself.

I realized that as I was dreaming, I could travel with the elevator. I really missed my dream beaches, so I focused on finding a beach as soon as the doors opened.

After a few moments, the doors opened and I could see a very bright sunny day and a swimming pool. I realized I was at the Melia Alicante hotel swimming pool. I used to go a lot to this hotel when I lived in Spain as a child.







I was surprised that I ended up in that pool and flew a little bit to make sure that the beach was there as requested. I also wanted to check if it was the hotel indeed. It was very sunny and the sky was very blue. There were a lot of people at the swimming pool. I was going to jump in the pool when the lifeguard told me to shower first.

I decided to shower, but then, to fly at high speed and feel the chills. I flew very fast over the beach, feeling my wet dream body drying under the sun. I flew for a while when I saw a big wall. It was around 200 feet tall. A dream character told me it I could jump over it without flying. I did jump over it a few times, some of my jumps were backflips and it was kind of fun.

I was about to attempt to Astral Project when my cat awoke me.

1st. Ended up back in school, GIANT SCHOOL, Tons of hallways, 4 Stories, thousand of Rooms, people from high school and middle school (with teachers)
I was forced to go back to my middle school band class (because right b4 i left that school[pertaining to real life] i turned in a crappy binder and they were forced to throw it away) I had to go back to that class for 2 weeks because of something that happned last year. When i walked inside theyre were six other people. (one who threw a spitball at the teacher[pertaing to real life] ) We had 6 desk in a circle with thousands of toys,games candy, money, prizes and we could take any(weird huh). The band teachers SUPRSINGLY nice and funny. We had fun in that class , then bell rang went to the nest classes but ended it up just walking around (because i found out i was dreaming). Ended up outside the school. woke up in real life.
2nd. fell back to sleep, ended up in that same class we were having fun once again, went to next class, lunch, went outside(did not know i was dreaming) then was with all my friends/ Woke up. Went to my real school, sitting in math class....realized i was still dreaming and had not waken up for real. Once i realized the dream faded woke up....in real life.
3rd. Went back to sleep...sleep paralysis occured, let it pass, ended up going straight to some random dream (cant remember what is was).

NOTE: My eleventh task of the year! One more and I'm done! I'm so excited! I'm way ahead of schedule too!

Lucidity: 4

Vividness: 1

I dreamed that I was just leaving a battle. There had been many explosions, killings, and so on. I was full of mud at this point. I now take off my jacket as I walk towards a house. I drop my jacket and yell. My jacket was infested with all sorts of gross bugs. I rush away, and leave my jacket behind. I now see a kid from my Spanish 2 class who always calls me "Spence." I decide to annoy him by shooting him with dummy rounds. So, I take out my iPod 4, and I go to my iGun Pro app. I choose a cool sniper rifle(every gun I saw I don't even have on that app) from the app. I clicked on it, and it was now in my hands(damn, I wish that app could do that!). I now look through the scope and aim at him. I fire two dummy rounds, of which one misses, and the other hits him in the chest.
"What the hell?" he says. He looks around, and he sees me standing there with the rifle. He gets up, and begins to charge at me. "Spence! You're dead!" Not my brightest idea...
I now begin to run towards the house, and I get inside. I rush upstairs, and I open the gun app again. This time I pull out a gun I actually do have on it in real life. I go downstairs, and I go outside. I see he has an iPod as well. He summons a LAW rocket launcher9another gun not on the app)! Holy shit! I dive, as he fires a REAL rocket at me. I swiftly dodge, and half the house goes up in flames! Damn! I run out an alternate exit, and now I'm suddenly in a dark city. There're many brick buildings, and even a brick street. Many people are outside walking and socializing. This is weird. But now, I suddenly become lucid! Yes! I begin to walk around, until I meet up with this girl...and we hang out for a bit. But I soon remember that I have to do the task of the year! Oh shit! I want to do the Indiana Jones one, but in my dream, I can't remember it! Motherfucker! Then, I recall the one other task I still need to do! The Exorcist task! So, I now leave the girl, and I head down a dark road, until I reach the right house. I enter and I go to the room where the exorcism is happening. I see one priest in here saying a prayer. I grab the thingy that has Holy Water in it. I begin to shake it over the person. There, I did it! Now, the person starts to go insane. It's actually freaking me out. Okay, time to leave. I try to fly through the ceiling, but I can't. I begin to blast away the ceiling with ki, and then I fly away. I'm hundreds of feet above the house now, and I suddenly see the roof be magically restored. Okay, that's just fucking creepy. I fly away, and land back in town. I decide to hang out some more. I then soon awake.

I haven't written in my dream journal in several months but I'm trying now to get back into the habit.

Magazine, Polar Bear
I'm with my sister and I think my mother. We are at a zoo, but the style of the architecture is like a Japanese monastery alongside a quiet brook and a wooden bridge. We are writing an article about the zoo for a magazine. I remember the image of arranging blocks of text and pictures on a white template.

Then we are looking at the polar bear and I admire how it's fur looks when it's all wet. But then the bear sees me and gets angry. He leaps over the railing of his pen and starts chasing me. I turn and run along the brook to the bridge and across. I feel that if I can just get across the bridge and over one more fence that I will be safe.

Then the bear chase scene repeats twice more. The last time, the bridge looks different and I am confused that I am going the wrong way.

I woke up pretty frightened. Just a dream.... Just a dream.... I couldn't get back to sleep. After about an hour of failing I got up and read for a bit. Eventually got back to sleep, not sure when.

Lucid, Can't Move
I start with a false awakening. It's quite dark. I look down toward my feet and see my room looks very different from what it should. I am confused, I try to think where I am and what time it is. I realize I am dreaming but without much clarity. I concentrate on my body for a moment as I prepare to move. I am afraid I am feeling my physical body and if I move I will wake up. I try to push that thought out of my mind and just do it. I try to sit up but instead hover and tumble as if weightless in outer space. My body just drifts through the air; I am paralyzed and can move my limbs or neck.

I drift through the room toward the door. I try to observe the place but it's very dark and unclear. As I float through the door and then the ceiling and walls, the scene seems to change, but always a dark room cluttered with unidentifiable objects. In one room, it seems to be a dark night club and I think I see people but they are all frozen and don't move.

After about a minute of this, I sense that I am not just floating but rather that someone is holding me and guiding me along. I speak weakly "Who?". Then with more confidence in my voice, I say more clearly "Who is holding me?" I try to turn my head to look but can't hardly. I start to be become unnerved and force myself to wake up.

Lucid, Come Fly With Me
I begin again with a false awakening. It is similar to the previous dream: a dark room that seems somewhat like my real bedroom but unfamiliar. This time, I hear my mother's voice from the next room. She's saying something about missing the bathroom. I think, wait, do I live with my mother? I have to think about that one real hard. No, I don't. This is a dream.

I sit up in bed and the dream is quiet unstable. My mother enters the room. I get up and walk towards her but she gets pulled back and disappears in the void. I turn toward the bathroom, I suppose instinctively as something I do when I wake up. I hear another voice. Not my mother. It sounds like a younger girl. I turn back to the door to look at her and I see faintly a pretty girl with brown hair. She's half invisible and the whole dream is still quite unstable. I walk toward and reach for her but she's floating away. It's like she's just an image on my retina that don't get closer as I move. I follow the image of her through several doors and hallways. Her image morphs and fades in and out.

I slow down, I try to focus. I stop walking and just look at my surroundings. Things become clearer and the girl in front of me becomes solid. I grab her hand and say "Hi, you're so beautiful." I lead her through another door and we are outside. It's sunny, though we are in the shadow of the building we just exited. It seems like a garden-style condo complex. I lead the girl toward the sunlight, not sure where I am going. As we pass a doorway, I spot another person peeking out the door. It's another girl, this one blonde and with a bright blue dress. I take her hand and lead both girls out to the edge of the building where there are some trees. I turn back and look at the girls. They are both very pretty. I see now that the first is wearing a red dress under a leather jacket. They have earrings and make up and handbags. They look sharp.

Without really thinking, I climb the tree and use it to get on the roof. I help the girls up as well. I want to fly and I want them to fly with me. They don't seem convinced that they can. I try to explain that they can. I'm not sure exactly what I said.

Then my recall skips. I think maybe I flew away alone and landed elsewhere. I can begin to recall again being in a different part outside of the condos. The sun is vividly bright. Looking down at the white sidewalk makes my eyes strain. I look up and see yet another girl. This one with a bright magenta dress. Looking at it too makes my eyes hurt. I walk closer to her to get a look at her face. Then everything fades away and I wake up.

Yay, recall is back in the house, I'm very happy with these dreams!

Vividness:8
Recall: 7
Overall: 8 Pretty Epic!
Non-Lucid Lucid Comment

Heading down an empty narrow road, it's winding through the night like a snake, I am in a new white car, and my mum is sat next to me. Switching from 3rd person to first person and various angles in between I feel like I have no control, yet the car remains perfectly on the road, taking each corner with grace. The drivers seat is on the left side, which is strange because in England it is normally on the right. I am in dialogue with myself, taking about how I can't drive a car, only a motorbike, and I'm very worried about crashing. For some reason I'm driving the car with my head stuck out of the window, like I shouldn't be watching the road through the windscreen.
The road starts to become inclined, I see a sharp corner ahead, and drive straight through the metal barrier, into the sea below.
Underwater, I turn to my mum, and say half hearted:
"Should we go back to the last checkpoint?"
She disagrees and points out a underwater cavern nearby, it looks kinda creepy, but I shrug it off and we decide to head here.
Appearing in the carven, I observe my surroundings. The room is very tall and old, I can barely make out details of the upper staircase. The floor is most and covered with large broken tiles, but its not hard to remain standing. There is a cornered staircase in front of me, heading up to a room which is brightly lit.
Realising that my mum is here too, I turn around, she looks very nervous and tells me not to look to either side of me because of the skull monster. I'm not too bothered and turn my head, instantly a hooded figure is right close up to my face, a skull appearing from under the hood.



I'm startled not scared, she tells me that we have to go to a ceremony up the stairs, so we decide to go up the stairs, I occasionally turn my head back laughing at the skull!

The room is brightly lit, and reminds me of a church, we head to a seat at the back of the room, I am joined by my brother and sister... and the random skullman.

We are told of a lost diamond, that we perfect in all ways, and the size of a mans fist, I am taken to the front of the room and asked to find it.

Outside, everything is nice and green, lots of plants everywhere, I am dressed in armour, with a large two handed sword which is magnificently polished.
I head into the forest, and look for the diamond. (loosing detail here) I manage to find the diamond, it's huge, I can barely hold it with one hand. I hide it under my cloak.
My brother (who looks nothing like my brother) comes and talks to me, I tell him I found the diamond, swinging the sword in a playful fashion.
I lead him inside to the church like building, but the diamond has gone, I ask my friend Ali where it is, he looks very happy with himself.
He tells me he as the diamond, I ask for it, and he holds out his hand, and there is a tiny version about the size of a pea.
"I shrunk it so people can't find it", but the diamond has lost its beauty and I am disappointed.
Fade.

Dream.
I wake up and stumble over to the bathroom, I remember that it is a dream, but I am not sure, I think it's a dream because I remember falling over and smashing my head (?), and that has caused me to enter a dream. I try multiple RC's but they all fail, I look in the mirror and attempt to change it, nothing, I look down, look up, everything is black behind me in the mirror..."I'm Dreaming!"
Running into my bedroom, I hear someone singing upstairs, I decide to try some vocal commands by saying "Mute", the voice instantly silences. I conjure a mirror on my closet.
And look at myself, I look normal, slightly blurry. I want to have a medieval theme, so I say "armour", close my eyes, and open again, and I am clad in some armour. I want to be more heavily plated so I say "more armour" and I am a living tank!
My dad comes up the stairs and I hold out a hand and blast him away (we had an argument that day, lol).
I fade out into blackness.


*Fragment
I am in a shopping mall, when drinking lucosade, I decide to eat loads of food, and become fat.