memorable

I'm browsing DreamViews on my PC. I think that I am currently doing my WBTB.
There is something important I need to ask ~ Dreamer ~, but I cannot quite remember what it is.
I have the private message site open, trying to remember what it is I wanted to say.
Then, I spot some movement from the corner of my eye.
I could have sworn that ~ Dreamer ~'s Avatar just winked at me.


After some initial confusion, I think that she must have changed her Avatar to an animated gif, which does just that.
I think it is a pretty hilarious idea, because it is going to catch people off guard.
It might get people to RC if they notice...
I try to increase my awareness, given what just happened.
Hmm...
That avatar does look somewhat suspicious.
I poke it with my finger.
The avatar giggles and moves further into the screen a little.

"... Hello?"

The avatar then proceeds to climb outside of the screen and eventually ends up on my desk, still giggling.
It is so cute. But I resist the urge to poke it again.
The avatar points towards my left. I turn around.
~ Dreamer ~ is standing right next to me!
This comes as one hell of a shock. I immediately stand up.
I was in a semi-lucid state, but now, in the blink of an eye, I am fully lucid.

I run my fingers over the palm of my left hand to check my senses.
Everything is crystal clear. I can feel the individual patterns on my skin.
I haven't had a dream this clear in some time...
Oh... right... Dreamer!

"Hi..."

Really? That's all that I can come up with? "Hi"?
Well, I suppose I'm still a bit in shock from her sudden appearance.
She smiles.

"Hi Hyu."

I try to calm down a little. I point at my monitor.
Her voice is very soft, so I decide to reply softly as well.

"That was one hell of a trick."
"Which trick?"

I look at my monitors, and they are all blank now, with a purple haze around the corners.
This has happened many times before. I don't worry about it.
There is no sign of the Avatar.

"You made me realize that I am dreaming."
"Yes."

This is amazing! And the dream is so vivid and clear!

"Hyu, do you remember my dare?"

I wouldn't have remembered that on my own.
Lucid Dares

"I am to confront Faye."
"Yes. It is time to solve this once and for all."
"Yes... it is."

But you're right here in my dream.
I want to talk with you about all sorts of things.

"Go now. Faye awaits you."

She points towards the door leading out of my room. It becomes clear that Faye awaits me behind it.
I suppose ~ Dreamer ~ has a better grasp on priorities than I do. She is right.
The dream is so clear and stable, I need to use it to confront Faye.

"Thank you!"

~ Dreamer ~ winks at me, just like her avatar did, and then slowly fades away. Wow... what an amazing encounter.
I approach the door, but hesitate a moment before opening it.
I assert again that the dream is perfectly stable, and that my head is clear.
Yes, I am. Though I'm not entirely sure what to say yet. But that's okay, I'll figure it out on the fly.
I open the door with confidence, expecting to encounter Faye behind it.


To my surprise, this new room that I've just entered looks like some sort of an interrogation room.
One table, two chairs facing each other, and a big, probably one sided mirror.
Faye sits in one of the chairs waiting for me.
I'm not off to a good start. Not only does Faye look like Kate again, but I really dislike that this is an interrogation room.
I can understand why this happened though. It must have been caused by my determination to get answers from her.
I sit in the other chair and try to smile.

"Hello Faye."

She doesn't answer. She just stares down at her hands which are on the desk.
That's alright. I'll talk for now.
I recall positive memories we shared together. I retell those stories. (Unfortunately I don't remember this part of the conversation well)
But I can't seem to get any reaction out of her.
I gently grab her hands. She finally looks me in the eyes.

"I miss you Faye."
"We had so much fun together. I want to go on adventures with you again."
"..."
"The Faye that you remember is dead."
"..."
"I understand... What do you want?"
"No. You don't understand. And what I want..."

She smiles.

"I will destroy you. I will destroy us both."

She plays with a butterfly knife a little, then shows me the palm of her left hand, and then cuts right across it.
I can feel the cut in my left hand clearly. I look at it, and I have the same wound Faye has. We're both bleeding a little.

"You and I we are the same. We've always been."
"What has changed?"
"There is darkness within you. I am that darkness now."
"Nothing you do can stop me now."

This is not what I wanted to hear. But I suppose deep down, I already knew that things would never return to the way they were.
She also made it quite clear that I cannot remove her by force. What do I do now?
... first of all, I need a change of scenery. This interrogation room is inappropriate, it probably plays right into her hands.
Teraluna it is. I stand up and use the wing technique to teleport to Riven. Faye follows me. We are on a bridge close to Yuya's place.
She's no longer looking like Kate. She's looking the same way she did when we first met. She shows me her knife and says.

"I will never let you be with Yuya again."

I can see Yuya in the distance. She reads my thoughts. I make it clear that now is not a good moment to come over. She understands.
I look at the horizon. The gas giant that we are orbiting is experiencing a huge storm. It is quite beautiful.
This change of scenery was a good idea. I feel refreshed. And I know what I have to do...

"Oh Faye..."
"When I look at you, I remember all the good times we've had together."
"I will cherish those memories. I'll always remember you as the person you were, not as the person you have become."
"Whatever it is you are trying to do. It is not going to work."

I just smile. It is a genuine smile. I truly do cherish those memories.
And what I am about to say is going to hurt. But I know that it is the only way out.

"Faye... you are right. You always are. You and I, we are the same. And there is darkness within me... I do understand that."
"You do not... you have no idea. It will destroy you. I will destroy you."
"I know."
"No."
"You see, I've done a terrible thing."
"..."
"I didn't see what was wrong. I couldn't understand. So I have channelled all that darkness; all what was wrong, into a single dream character."
"You're making this up..."
"I needed for it to have a face. So that I could clearly identify..."
"These lies will not work on me!"
"Faye, I am sorry. I did not do this consciously. But it is all clear to me now."
"You are all that remains of that darkness. I will have to let you go..."
"No... I am your dream guide!"

Her voice has become faint. I can see fear and sadness in her now.
Is this truly the explanation I believe in?

"Faye is no longer here... My dream guide is dead."

I touch her face... one last time. I look deeply into her eyes. I can see nothing within them. You are no longer Faye.
Was it my fault that she ended up like this? Or was it beyond my control? I will never know.
But this is the only choice I have left. I take a step back... and then I let go...

"Goodbye Faye..."

She closes her eyes... and slowly fades into dust. The wind takes her away until nothing is left. Faye is gone.
Have I done the right thing? Was this really the only way?
Yuya approaches and hugs me. I hold her tightly.
I can feel her thoughts, her emotions, how helpless she felt, because this is not something she could help me with.
This was something I needed to solve on my own.

"Did I do the right thing?"

She gently answers:

"What do you think?"
"I think so... but I cannot shake the feeling that I may have taken the only path, rather than the right one."
"When there is only one path, is it not by definition always the right one?"
"Well..."
"Worry not. This was the choice you needed to make."

And suddenly I feel such relief. Like all the weight has been lifted off my shoulders. My dreams are mine again.
Yuya rarely gives me such a straight up answer. Instead she helps me to find my own.
But this time I needed to hear it from her.
I am so happy to be with her again.

We walk through her gardens, knowing that my dream will soon end. That is fine. I am exhausted.
I know that I can now visit Yuya again whenever I desire. That is what is most important.
But Faye is gone. Forever.

6:27 AM: My mom is driving me to school in the city (I never went to a school in the city!). We are running a bit late (. . . skipping some NL details, getting to the good stuff ). Once she drops me off and heads to work, I realize I have forgotten my lunch (a caramel and chocolate protein bar) and my bite guard (in case I want to take a lucid nap!). I turn and run back to the drop-off area, scanning the busy thoroughfare for my mom. Students and people are moving all over the place. I finally see her; she is moving back in my direction carrying my book bag. I think of several things to say, and one seems most appropriate: "You brought my bag." (Please don't try to make sense of this!)

She replies, "At least you said that." She seems grateful. Now that I have my things, I am heading (finally) towards school, when all of these emergency personnel get in my way. Seems there has been some sort of accident. I have to thread around behind them. As I do so, it occurs to me that I have no idea what my school is like on the inside. I know it isn't the first day, and I marvel that I have been on autopilot so much at school! I am excited to see what this new school will be like! I then nose pinch, in order to be certain I am not dreaming.

Ah, I see. I look around and notice a friend from WL. In WL he is a very towering guy, and he looks the same in this dream. I ask him, "So even this isn't real." It's more of a statement than a question.

He looks at me and nods. He then proceeds to say something deep that I have now forgotten. I decide that this DC is legit and ask him some more questions.

"Does the dream world contain stability?" I ask. "Does it contain stable locations?"

He shakes his head. "You create and control dreams."

"What is the most important aspect of dream knowledge?" I ask.

He looks at me as though he is a bit surprised or nonplussed. He then points at me, as though the answer is obvious.

"You mean controlling myself?" I ask.

"I mean controlling your mind," he replies.

We are now somehow in a small, empty diner. I ask him if he can help me control my mind. He nods and extends his hand. I take it and he proceeds to hurl me into the air towards the ceiling. I turn in the air and fall to the ground. My shin bangs one of the diner tables. This actually feels just like I imagine it would in WL--painful. I tell him so. He makes a face (like I am being a whiner) and points to a more open area.

As I am moving, however, it dawns on me that even pain in the dream world isn't real, and as I think this, the feeling evaporates. I realize I can't be harmed. In a moment, I remember Mancon's guide for flying (in particular, let the clouds suck you into the sky). I try this briefly but don't have time to work it properly as my pal has already grabbed me again and tossed me into the air. I now fly into a whirling ceiling fan and smack against the blades. This does not hurt, however.

My friend continues to sling me by my arm into the air. A voice comes over the PA telling me to come to the dean's office, but I realize I do not have to go, as I am dreaming. The theme from Mortal Kombat begins to play.





I am mid air (and mid-fan) when I awake. My heart is pounding and I assume the adrenaline pushed me out of sleep.

Non-lucid, Lucid

.../The further memory I have, I'm in an abandoned farm where its owner is a little nasty guy who didn't take a shower for months, he looks dirty and covered in sweat. His partner gets in place and takes off a sort of leather necklace he's wearing. It's like he hasn't take that thing off for months. I don't like what I see. He goes out where all the vegetation has grown without control. I remember it used to be a beautiful place, I'm sort of disappointed. There are three big dogs out there, when I see a lion hunting down one of them. It takes the dog from the neck and takes it away. I follow the lion until my hand becomes its mouth and now I'm holding the dying dog. I let it on the floor, but it's too late. I put it where the cubs can start to eat it/...

.../Now I'm in a car, with a friend of mine who recently I got to know he loved a Japanese TV series form the early 80's named Sankuokai. He's obsessed with the series and pretends this car is a space ship, although he's driving it backwards. I get concerned we can have an accident because of he's driving too fast. Finally I got to turn the car by changing the position I'm sitting on it. It's better to see things the right way. We get to the end of the road. We get out the car and see some hills in front of us. I remember this city was build upon what was going to be a huge burial ground in ancient times. I tell him, this place is a huge burial ground. Then I turn and see a known cemetery from WL which uses to be in my dreams. I point it and tell him that some disgusting things use to happen in that place when I'm dreaming it. It hits my head all of the sudden, what about if it's actually one of those dreams!? I look at my hand and I confirm it. I tell him laughing, actually it's a god damn dream. He doesn't seem to care. Another pal gets in, and they both start talking. I leave them and go to the cemetery, thinking about my sex drive that uses to screw things up. I walk next to the main gate, when it turns into a window and I see a couple sitting on a table. They don't look interesting, although I think perhaps I should force them to have sex in front of me, I'm sick of my sex drive. I ask them to do it, they don't seem to react. I take their clothes off and put the woman on the man. They start doing something although it's not enough. I'm starting to find the scene more disgusting than exiting. Another woman gets into the room. She looks like she has some sort of skin infection. It's getting worse, but I don't care. I want them to play dirty things in front of me. I lift her skirt, and the spectacle is too disgusting, because she seems to have a serious STI. I give up, I cannot see more of it. I go to the next room. There's a couple of friends from school times, they look better, at least they were the classic lovely picture. I'm not excited at all, I just one to fulfill what I wanted to do at the beginning, so I command them again to have sex in front of me. I help them to take their clothes off, it gets better although I don't feel excited, it's just fun to see that I can control it. I leave them in their game when an ex girlfriend, who appeared somewhere in a previous dream, gets into the scene. She start doing her hotter stuff, but what she says is disturbing me. I try to stop her but she's in ecstasy covered with slobber on a table next to a window. I'm surprised I didn't wake up with all the sex stuff happening around. I'm pleased I didn't wake up trying to control the dream, although I'm disturbed with all the disgusting stuff/...

* Woke up before the alarm clock went off. And couldn't go back to sleep.

1. I was in some kind of house. It was really gloomy and all of the paint on the walls seemed as though it was faded and dull. I was walking around the house with two people in particular, though I do not remember who they were- besides the fact that it was two women.
We walked down an empty, quiet hallway and the women began telling me about how this house was haunted, and how many people had seen ghosts in here before. We came to the end of the hallway and there was a few closet doors. The women, walking carefully behind me, said that they felt scared and that there might be something in the closet. I walked up to the closet door casually. I told the women, "There is no need to be afraid of something that cannot hurt you." I grabbed the door handle and opened it. Inside it was almost pitch black, but I could see a dark black shadow standing about halfway in in this closet. The closet was quite big on the inside. It wasn't wide but it was very long in length. I looked at this figure, whatever it was, and became curious. However, as I turned around to check on the two women I found out that they had disappeared. This is what startled me. I closed the closet door and went downstairs.
The downstairs portion of this house was ALOT more vivid than the upstairs. Everything had a blue tint to it, as though it was almost night time. The next thing I remember was being on the edge of a wall, and it was really high up. I had a small whale like creature in my arms. It had the head of a whale, and its body had the texture of a whale as well, and it had legs. I was trying to get down from this ledge safely without hurting this little guy. I held on to this small whale creature with one hand, and with the other I slowly climbed down. As I did, the whale creature turned into a baby kitten. The kitten held on to my shirt with dear life. As I got off of the ledge, I grabbed onto some sort of brown cabinet with glass windows. I grabbed onto its door knob and jumped to it. Now I was on the side of this cabinet, and only about 2 feet above the ground. I let go of the knob and landed safely on the ground.

2. I was in school, and some old lady(she looked around 70 years old) was teaching the class. I was doing something in the class and it made her mad. Later after the class had ended, and I was just leaving, a cop had showed up and wanted to go into the classroom. The door was already half way open, so we both walked inside. The lights were off and it was getting dark. The officer had told me that he came in to test something, or check on something. He then walked up to the projector in the classroom and tooled around with it, as though he was trying to fix it, or salvage something from it, I was not sure.

3. I was in the mall with my family.(fragment)

4. I was in a restaurant and I noticed drawings on the booth seats.(fragment)

5. I was inside some kind of old, rusty prison. I got the feeling that I was in another country because the guys in charge here were saudi arabian. The guy that had put me in this prison room was also Saudi Arabian. I stood in this big cell, not wondering why I was here, but only how i was going to get out. I tried climbing out through a small pipe, but I couldnt fit inside of it at all. I looked around and noticed this entire room had a rusted texture to it. I looked at these cutted slits in the wall that were supposed to be windows, and could see that it was bright and daylight outside. I walked over to the east side of this room and started trying to escape. I had found something and was starting to tear apart a window, when all of a sudden I heard the prison warden that had put me in here coming to my cell. I stopped doing what I was doing and acted normal and hid my work in progress.

6. It was daytime, and I was riding with my close friends, patrick, dylan, and trey inside of patrick's dad's truck. Patrick's dad was driving, but he looked entirely different, nothing like he does in real life. The inside of this truck was huge, it matched the inside to a huge suburban. It had 3 rows of seats along with the driver and shotgun seat. The truck had a red paint job as well. I was sitting in the very back row with my patrick. I had found a bag of beef jerky on the seat and starting eating it. Patrick took the bag from me and took some beef jerky as well. I took it back again and continued eating. Pretty boring ride. I had no idea where we were going, and at the time I didnt even care to notice that we were just driving for this entire dream. I looked out the truck windows and saw a blue dune buggy just parked outside in the grass, next to what appeared to be a farm.
After that I continued chilling in the back seat, and my friend Trey had moved to the back with us. I moved to the far right position of the row and saw a poster or Ariana Grande. It was a poster of her wearing a pink dress, and in a kind of seducing position. Trey had noticed this as well and told me that he, "wouldn't mind giving her anal." Patrick's dad got mad when he heard this and told patrick to "shut the hell up", even though patrick didn't even say anything. At this point, we all got really quiet for the rest of the ride.

7. I was on a football field with my close friend Dylan and his brother Jordan. We were passing the football around. Whenever I got the ball, I tucked in my side and ran across the field. Dylan ran with me and I told him, "Wouldn't it be nice if the entire stadium was filled and was roaring for us?" He agreed. As I ran with the ball back to where we were originally chilling, I looked at my arms and noticed that my work outs were paying off, my arms were really muscular and I had really nice biceps. Once we made it back to Jordan, I threw the ball to Jordan. He told us that we were about to play a real game.
We started making our way to the 50 yard line and on our way, we came across my old friend from daycare as a kid, Travis Richie. He had gotten a haircut too. I asked, "hey man, its been a long time, whats up?" He said something and then I brought up how the olden days back in day care were good. We got to the 50 yard line and started assigning positions. I wanted to be a Wide Receiver but instead the quarterback wanted me to take his place and be quarterback. Since I hadn't thrown in forever I declined the position. The quarterback really insisted on me taking it, and he really didn't want to be it anyways. He forced me to be quarterback, but I didn't trust my throwing skills yet so I headed to the sideline. As I did, I noticed that more guys had showed up out of no where to play with us, and they were already lined up behind the offensive line as WR's. I decided to stay and play wide receiver anyways, because it was a long walk to the side line. As I faced forward, there was still some arguments going on- all of which were created by the guy who didn't want to be quarterback. I decided to sit out of this conflict until everyone had figured out what was going on. I looked to the side of the field and noticed other guys were doing this as well. I went over where they were and chilled with them.
Once everyone had found out what was what I got back onto the field as a wide receiver. Our new quarterback decided he was going to throw a deep pass. The play started and our QB threw the ball deep. One of our guys had caught it, and I was right next to him guarding him. We almost made a touchdown, but about 15 feet before we reached the end zone, our guy who had the ball tripped and broke something. Me and Dylan had mistaken our teammate who had just fell as his brother Jordan, but Jordan was on the sideline so it wasn't him. We still didn't know who this guy was. Soon, some medic's came over and treated him and told us he wouldn't be able to come back in for the rest of the game.

8. I was in my house, downstairs in the living room. I only had my boxers on and a towel around me. I was about to sit down in our recliner chair when I noticed that it had a picture of Squidward's face from spongebob on it. I looked at it closely and written below his face was a conversation between spongebob and squidward. I remember reading the word "thanks" somewhere in the conversation, but not much else of it. Out of no where I started getting a random erection(WTF). I decided it was time to go back upstairs to my room because I felt uncomfortable, especially since my dad was in the kitchen, and my mom was watching t.v. I looked at the time and it was 1:25 p.m. As I made my way upstairs I noticed that my mom had moved the couch to where it was DIRECTLY in front of the t.v. There was no floor between the couch and the t.v., and my mom was only 6 inches away from the screen. I asked her what she was doing and why she was so close and she said, "Watching t.v. because I dont have my contacts in." I walked upstairs into my room and put my towel down. I also put down a random drink that had gotten in my hands without me noticing. As I put the cup down I noticed that my mirror was gone, but I didn't care. My room was really lit from the sun outside, and I had my bedroom lights off. I remember hearing random music playing as well.
This is were it gets weird, really weird.
I looked down at my junk and freed it from the confinement of my boxers. I noticed that lights were coming out from inside of my junk(wtf). The lights were changing from red to blue to pink and whatever else. This freaked me out alot. I then "remembered" that I had put something in my junk somehow. I tried getting it out by applying pressure to my junk, but it didn't work. Whatever it was was stuck. I thought about how I was going to have to tell my dad, and "what would he think about it", and that I would have to get surgery to get whatever was stuck inside my junk out, and how the surgeons were going to have to rip open my junk, and how it was going to look afterwards. This was a nightmare. Finally I got so terrified that I woke up, and my heart was pounding. Sorry you guys had to read through that, I thought about just leaving it out, but I am really trying to make my recall better. Once again, really sorry and I know that it was really disgusting lol.

Dream
Lucidity

I was at the apartments and the whole area outside the pool was flooded with water. There was a hot, curvy girl that I swam by while I was underwater. She was wearing a bikini and I could see a lot of her nicely-drawn tattoos. I saw another, skinny girl swimming really weirdlike and I said "I wanna swim like that". I got out of the water and went into the apartment where the clock on my phone was going crazy.
I said "This is a dream!" and looked back at my phone. The clock was still going crazy and I thought of things to do. I was with a girl who I think was Laurie and told her I was dreaming and that we should do stuff. I increased lucidity many times by saying to myself what to do. I was at my apartment but when I exited it, the area outside it was enclosed. When I exited the enclosed area, I was outside still in the property. I was going to practice my magic abilities but didn't know which, so I started using telekinesis. At first, I couldn't lift stuff so I tried again and I reminded myself that it will only happen if I believe it will. After I did this, my telekinesis started working. I picked up small stuff and even closed doors. My lucidity began to fade so I said "Increase Lucidity to Lucidity Max!", which increased the vividness of the dream and my lucidity. I rubbed my hands and counted my fingers but counted 5 at first. I asked the girl what sort of magic I should practice and she said to practice on my water magic, so we walked outside towards the pool. I started telling the girl how the whole area around the pool was flooded recently and how good it looked. There were puddles from the flood. I forgot to close the door to the inside of the condos so I turned around and closed it with telekinesis, The keys were in the lock so I tried to get them but some kids opened the door, which made me run up to get the keys while the parents' kids yelled at them. I walked towards the pool, which was populated by people. There was a little area with a table and I tried using telekinesis on stuff. The girl asked me how I knew what I was picking up and I said "I just look at the stuff I want to pick up". I brought my hand closer to my ear and said "When I use telekinesis, I will hear a sound of wind." I used telekinesis again and as son as I grabbed something, a short, faint sound of wind could be heard.
I played around with telekinesis and messed around with people. I suddenly wondered how I would remember all of the dream. My right eye started to close and I said to the girl "Let's go inside and have sex before we wake up" She followed me and I thought I would remember this whole dream. I decided to wake up and after a couple of tries, I woke up.

1. I was on a trail at night. It was really dark, but I could still see everything clearly. I was with my friend's sister Emily, and we were both walking on the trail. As we were walking I looked back and saw a dark figure running in our direction. Immediately I started running. I cut through parts of the trail and jumped across mini islands of grass. Between these small islands(like the ones on freeways) there was water.
As I was running I grabbed my car keys out of my pocket and pressed a button that was supposed to bring my car to me somehow. My car never came, so I continued running and so did emily. I looked back again a few seconds later and saw that the tall dark figure was getting closer to us, and was catching up. I didnt give up though, I kept on running. Soon I made it to an opening in the trail that was right beside the road. I stopped and waited for Emily to catch up. She finally caught up to me and we both waited. I knew we couldnt run faster than this guy chasing us, so I was going to fight him.
Surprisingly, instead of that tall dark figure dude catching up to us, we encountered two hostile dogs. Whoever was chasing after us had disappeared. Now I had to face two dogs and try to survive. All I had to defend myself was a sharp blade of some sort, and it was relatively small. Just then the smaller dog of the two came up to me, but before it could do anything harmful I stabbed it in its side. It fell dead. The other dog of the two; the bigger one, just looked at the dead dog and walked away, he didnt try to kill us. Somehow, in my mind, I got this notion that the dog that I killed wanted to die, like a moment of some type of clarity or something.

2. I was driving with my dad near a forest. We were on the freeway before and had just turned into an empty lot. There were lots of leaves on the edges of it in general. As my dad drove through the lot, I focused on the grass around us. It depressed me(I never get depressed so this is random). I thought of how someday my dad would eventually die and I would have to face this world on my own. It scared me. All these depressing things I kept looking at, and it was only just grass and leaves. I thought of how one day I would have to face these depressing things on my own, by myself. It then occurred to me: I can overcome anything, and I will succeed no matter what. This is the part of me that showed in my dream from real life. A positive mind gives you a positive life.

3. I was in some sort of building and alot of my friends were inside with me. I was just chilling and about to go talk to one of my friends when all of a sudden, I saw a group of my other friends come inside with a girl. They dragged her into a corner and raped her. I saw it all before my eyes. These were all of my old friends from school(not my really close ones though). I couldnt stop what was happening, and I couldnt believe it. I remember trying to, and telling them to not do it, but when I did they tried grabbing me. I defended myself and was about to beat the sh*t out of whoever else laid their hands on me, but they all backed off and returned to the girl. The girl died after she was raped. I knew then, these were not my friends, these were hostile savages.

4. I was outside of a portable next to school. A lady was at the portable door begging for help. I could see that she was drunk, and even as she was begging for help she continued drinking. As she continued crying and begging for help, eventually a priest and another lady of the church came out and did something to her to help her.

5. I was inside of a really nice building, and it had marble flooring and a really decorative interior design. I went to this office area and got on a computer. My mom was with me and followed me too. I got on the computer an immediately as I turned it on, a naked model appeared on the screen and started doing some kind of sensual dance. It didnt seduce me because the model looked like a drag queen. My mom was next to me and saw what was going on and got a little upset and told me to exit off of this webpage "immediately". I clicked the X on the top right corner of the screen to get away from whatever this was, but even as I did, it didnt work. The drag queen model stayed on the screen and continued dancing. I thought it was some kind of virus and there was nothing we could do to stop it.
My mom wasn't liking this too much, but neither was I. As the model continued dancing a woman's voice started speaking out of the computer. Somehow when this woman started talking, I immediately knew who she was and what she looked like. As she was talking, I heard a lot of rolling sounds coming from inside of the desk which the computer was on. I looked down too see what it was, but I couldnt see anything, it was all inside of the desk itself. Just then, the lady talking through the computer told me that there was 100,000 marbles rolling out from inside the desk, and that I would have to wait forever for them all to come out. At this point, marbles started coming out and I contained them within a certain area. My mom had disappeared, and I decided to just leave the computer desk and walk away. As I did I ran into my sister. She was wearing a Halloween costume of the Flash. I told her, "great now you're wearing a costume too." I turned to my side and saw my cousin in a halloween costume as well.

6.I was in my room, and it was dark. I was sitting on my bed on my laptop. I decided to get off of it, and unplug it(because it was charging). When I unplugged it, I went around my bed and put the charger itself into the bottom part of my drawer. After I did this I turned around and noticed that my vision was fading. I was nearly blind. I remembered, "My vision isn't this bad when my glasses are off." As I said that and focused on my room while I looked around, my vision got better and corrected itself. I then went to my closet doors, and two of them were already open. I went to go close my 3rd closet door and did so. After that I went to go close my 2nd closet door, but I noticed it had already closed itself. My immediate conclusion was that a poltergeist was in my room. I become scared. I walked past my 1st closet door(I know, its alot of closet doors) and stood near the side of my bed. A tall wooden shelf, which was painted black was standing between my 1st and 2nd closet door. I looked at it and it started sliding towards me, and as It did I backed up, but it fell forward anyways. I fell to the ground and caught the top of the shelf with my feet, and it didnt hurt me. At this point, things calmed down. I laid on the ground for a while longer. Somewhere in here I picked up a REALLY small replica of a Supra TK Society shoe. It was black and really small and had red accents on it. It had a strap on the side of it that could be undone to take apart the shoe. This was alot different from the original Supra TK Society. The shoe was small enough to fit inside of my hands with room to spare. I put down the shoe eventually and looked up to see my sister standing in front of me, with a platform in front of her, and 6 packs of gum on top of it. She was mixing flavors of the pieces of gum to get a certain flavor. The packs of gum were either pink, blue, green, or yellow in color(Might have missed another color). She would take one piece from two packs of gum and chew them both at the same time to get the exact flavor that she wanted.

7. I was in my room again and looked at myself in the mirror. As I did I noticed that my beard had grown a good 2 inches from the night before. I also noticed that I had a random patch of facial hair to the right of my right cheek. This hair was brown, when really all of my facial hair is black. I then pondered on whether or not I wanted to shave it.

8. I was downstairs in the living room with my dad. It was really dark, and it was also dark outside. The only real light in the room was coming from the 70 inch T.V. I was wearing a batman halloween suit with the cape and everything, but the cape was a little shorter than I liked. As I was standing next to the T.V I saw my shadow projected onto the wall next to it. I started doing really cool fighting moves, and poses. However, when I did I noticed that my shadow didn't follow my movements. It stayed the same, still and motionless. I told my dad and he didn't really seem to care and started pushing me in a joking mood.

Journal Entry Lucid #66-67 Dream,Lucid, thoughts in dream,(Comments)
Background: I Meditated before going to sleep. WBTB. This is the first time I have ever killed a DC, while lucid, and it was brutal.

Lucid Dream # 66, day: 07/29/14, time: 3:30-unknown " The house in middle of nowhere":
The dream started with an investigator that looked like
He started a charity even in the lady's death. He bought all her stuff, before she died. People cheered him because they thought he was noble man. A screen pops-up and it asks to add a new character the girl that died. He looked dismayed by it. He didn't want her to come back to life. He killed her. The game say's new character added. She is transported to a new house. She is wearing 1600 cloth, the corset. I became her. I am using telekinesis to lift the couch and I see a glowing green thing around the object. I started to pay attention to it. It looks like an aura. The object started to move on its own. I see these twin sisters, old I mean really old. I became lucid without any cause.


They tell me to a have a good day, as they smiled and walked away. I looked for a door and left. I see a front porch and the house looks old too. It had wood coming off of it. It had an old wild wild west feel to it. I wanted to go some where but I see only the house and grass that surrounds it. Everywhere I looked was white space literally just empty white space as if the dream hasn't finished forming. Maybe the dream doesn't want me to go somewhere else.I looked back at the house and I see an elevator man, he had the hat and everything to the red top. He shook his head with disapproval. I felt the sensation that I am about to wake up. I went to the floor to interact with the dream. I started to touch the grass and the dirt. I woke up though.

I woke up to write down my lucid and then after some time I went back to sleep.

Lucid Dream # 67, day: 07/29/14, time: unknown-5:02am " First Blood":
I wake up in my room and I see that SN and his brother, YA were in my room playing on the ps3. It was night time so I didn't expect them to be over at my house. They left to get some food or something. I wanted to go back to sleep so I turned off the light. The light switch controlled controlled the ps3. That's strange. I plug the tv and the ps3 back on. I am suspicious now. My father brings another person and tells us to get along. The kid started to threaten us and he wants to play the next game because he is tall. I am angry now. I could beat him up. He couldn't do what he said. The guy from Doctor Who season 2-3 was in my dream. he summoned us all at once. We are in a room. He tells us that everybody has to obey their goddess and this creature with a head on her chest about 2 ft in diameter. She also has a big head where her head should be. She also had an uncanny smile. The color of her skin is green. And that ugly thing had the nerves to put on red lipstick, absolutely disgusting. I see her talking to her granddaughter. She tells her that she could do anything she wants and told her to fly. I see them fly. I then see the Doctor kiss goddess of his. It was repulsive. I asked them to stop kissing.


I realized it was a dream and I am back at what looks like my house, but bigger. I see all these people worshiping one of the goddess' minions. She was told that she could have power over these group of people. I told them to stop worshiping her. They were too scared at first. I started to fly and they trusted me. They got up and came towards me. She started to yell at me. I use TK to lift her up and push her against the wall. I see one kid from church, the one that practices LD was there, he was also using TK. I told him to stop assisting me. He stopped. I tried again and further inspection led me to see that she was just on her tip toe. I was upset that I didn't have control over my power. I strained myself hard and I managed to get her up on the wall. I then lost control again.

I wanted to create water out of my hands. I put my hand out and imagined sweat come out. At first it was just normal amount of sweat and then it started to rush, more and more. It was up to my ankle. The DC were all scared. I told them that I am going to kill them. They became terrified. I told them I am joking around. All the water vanished just like that. I wanted to try and do TK again since it is all that I love. I then tried to lift a table. I put my hand out as a gesture and it started to levitate. I then realized that lifting my hand was just a guidance for my will. It started moving up even though I didn't move my hand. I started experimenting with it, bringing it closer and further.

"HOW DID HE GET THOSE POWERS", screamed a man. He continued, "HOW DO WE KNOW WE COULD TRUST HIM?" He turns to me and demanded, "HOW?" He said with a whimper , "my grandmother told me 'avoid the things you don't know' " . Look at him still wearing orange. He is still a slave. Even though I freed him from the cult, I didn't free him from his mind. I mockingly said, " Your grandma is not a very smart lady". I laughed at the Forest Gump reference, no one else did. We then went to tables. They were filling me in on what is going on. They told me that we are underground tunnel. I started dazing off trying to understand will power. I started to use TK to lift chairs around. I grabbed a ring about 10 inches in diameter. I threw it and I willed it or used TK, but I didn't use hand gesture. For the first time I understood that it was not TK but will. I would throw it and in mid flight I bring it back like a boomerang. I didn't quite master it. A man came in. He sat next to me and he had a metal neck brace that signifies that he once was a slave. It had cool designs. He had all these tattoos. One of a tear drop on his face. He didn't look at me at all. He just sat there. I look down at the table and see this 3 x 4 ash tray except it melts metal. It is red hot. I tried to do the TK thing. I kept dropping it and nearly hitting people. One time it fell and hit a chair and shattered it. I then accidentally dropped it on the guy's foot.

He got mad at me and he grabbed me by the neck. He looked at everyone they looked scared. He said, "I don't care what they think you are but I don't care". He started to put a stronger grip on me. I tried to use TK on him but it wouldn't work. I then looked at the metal burner on the table. If only I could reach it. I stretched my arm. It started to move towards me. I thought, Maybe I have magneto's power control metal.I couldn't reach the man's throat but I now can use magnetism. I put my hand towards his throat and I start clinching my hands into a fist slowly. He grabs his neck. I then without hesitation put my hand in a fist and the metal around his neck just got so small that it was a decapitation. He died instantly. His head didn't fall though. This was the first time I killed. I don't care far too long have I let my DC kick me around. I see a hand on my right hand. It was frozen shut. I said jokingly, "how can I remove this hand?" I looked around everybody looked at me with fear. I said, "It is just human hand". I broke it off like it was just frozen meet. It was easier to break. I threw it into the metal burner. I saw his hand burn away. It happened instantaneously, I saw the skin burn right away and then the flesh with the bone.

Everyone is rushing towards the exit of the tunnel. I wanted to leave. As we were leaving I see that the girl that was cloned by the game was what they used to make the tunnel. They were cloning her and grinding her body into mush.
I do not get the ending.

I'm at university attending a lecture about the basics of OpenGL.
The teacher doesn't really seem into it, and none of my classmates seem interested.
To be honest, neither am I, but for a different reason.
The other students are not interested in graphics programming,
whereas I'm already quite comfortable with both Direct3D and OpenGL.
Why am I attending this class again? Perhaps for some easy credit points?
That doesn't sound like me though.

Once class is over, I hear some people discussing that they wouldn't come back
and choose another course instead. If that many people leave, this course is
going to be cancelled, and I'll have to find another one as well.
I'm mildly annoyed.

Eventually, as the lecture comes to an end, I suddenly realize that I am dreaming.
I'm not sure what gave it away.
I touch everything in close vicinity to assert that the dream is stable.
There is some initial numbness, but eventually my senses appear to be working properly.
I leave the classroom, trying to remember my dream goals...
It's not working, I can't remember anything.

I'll go visit Yuya. It has been a long time since I've seen her because Faye is messing with my dreams.
But then, just as I want to teleport to Riven, I spot a familiar face.

It's Kate! What is going on? Why is she here?
(Not a real image of Kate. Kate is an ex-gf from waking life)

She smiles. And that is all it takes to stir up old emotions, which I left behind long ago.
I'm in love again. Great... I had enough trouble getting over her as it is.
Why does it all have to come back to me now?
I reluctantly decide to ignore her and visit Yuya, as I had planned,
but something goes wrong during my attempt of teleportation...



... I'm in an apartment with Kate. I think that she is my classmate now, and that we're living together.
This is our apartment. Everything is perfect.
I am living with the woman of my dreams, we're both about to graduate,
and we have our future planned out.
It is late in the evening and I go to the bathroom to take a shower.
The water temperature knob isn't cooperating.
I seem to be dealing with something like this:


Kate joins me in the shower and she has no trouble adjusting the temperature properly.
The water is now refreshingly cold, just the way I like it.
Kate moves closer and kisses me passionately. I love her so much.
And she is so beautiful. I stare into her green eyes as we kiss...
Wait... this is not right. Those are clearly Kate's eyes, but... they feel... empty?
Oh no...
Why?
I am emotionally devastated...

This isn't Kate. This is Faye.
It feels as though I've lost Kate again. I am so sad.


Faye is now holding a rose and handing it to me.
I get the feeling that she is trying to apologize?
That does make feel a little better. Will I finally be able to reason with Faye?
I take the rose. I cut one of my fingers on a thorn. Ouch!
A single drop of blood emerges and falls to the ground.

Something is wrong...
I sense something moving through the small cut, into my hand, and then up my arm.
I get vivid flashbacks of the bee birthing blisters. Not again!
I drop the rose. But I'm too late.
Stems covered in thorns grow through my veins and sprout out of my body in various places, causing me to bleed.
More and more blood flows down into the shower. The water slowly turns red.

"Faye. Please make it stop!"
"No."
"..."
"Please! I'm sure whatever the problem is, I can fix it."
"There is no need for this!"
"I don't want the problem to be fixed."

What? Why? I don't understand.
I just barely manage not to freak out. The parasitic plant hardens in my veins making me unable to move.
The pain increases as the plant grows bigger.
Fuck fuck fuck.

"Faye! Talk to me! What is the problem?"

She doesn't reply. She just smiles, satisfied with the current situation.
I can't take it any more. I need to wake up!
I close my eyes, trying to think of my waking body lying in bed.
But I don't wake up...
Instead I begin to see, even though my eyes are closed.

She laughs at me and my inability to do anything.
Then she moves in and kisses me on the lips.
No. I don't want this.
My fear turns into anger.
I scream at the top of my lungs, wanting to push Faye away from me.
The hardened plant finally gives in under the force and breaks in many places within my body.
I push against Faye hard with both of my hands.
She is pushed through the glass shower door, which shatters into pieces.

She is cut in many places by the broken glass. She is bleeding and her blood mixes with mine on the floor.
This is so fucked up. She still looks like Kate. This is not right. I don't want to hurt her.
She again laughs at the current situation. She clearly feels like she has accomplished something.
She is satisfied. Finally, she gets up and leaves the room and I manage to wake myself up.

Well fuck. -_-
This is enough. This needs to change. Now.
I'm going to WBTB, probably do some meditation to focus my thoughts, WILD and tackle the problem with a hopefully clear head.

To mention something a little more positive, I have updated my Dream Journal Description.
I've also found this really cool painting by Sakimichan, which made me think of Yuya:

She obviously doesn't have the long pointy ears, but I thought that this painting just radiates so much energy, just as Yuya does.
There's also been a strong blue/orange theme in my dreams lately. I thought this was a pretty cool find.

Last night, I had a rather disturbing nightmare that turned out interesting and satisfying. When I awoke, i was highly fascinated with the dream revolving around death yet more open-eyed. Leading towards the middle, I remember walking home from a former outlet/mall my mother used to work at. I remember I was with easily recognizable girls and I remember all the sudden running fast on an open road as I was getting chased by an obese,blonde girl. She seemed pissed for some reason and I'm not sure if i was laughing? After escaping this goose chase, I looked behind and I remember her throwing me and I saw my lifeless body, dead of course as I had blood detailing and it was as I was my spirit looking at my dead body. Fast forwarding, I remember being in a dollar general? I was fully aware that I was now a ghost, encountering people in the world of living. I was trying to tell people of my death but it seemed only one man in particular could see me. I've seen him in my dreams before, darker skinned with light eyes I believe .It's as if he knew too who had murdered me. I felt the actual struggle of people not being aware of ghost and it was very aggravating trying to interact. I also remember my name before me as a newspaper headline followed by details of my death. I then remember being a ghost yet people could see me now as I looked alive. I remember walking the halls of my middle school normally AND everyone knew I was dead yet still interacted with me. When I woke up, I took it as a lesson to cherish life more as I won't live forever. It also made me more interested in the paranormal world as i felt their pain last night. I'm not sure if this was a lucid dream or not but i know it will permanently stay in my head for a rather long time.

I pinch my nose and I can breathe. Lucid, ThreeCat comes to my mind right away, and I go immediately to exploration. I'm in a big unfamiliar city and have no idea where to go, so I ask someone where ThreeCat is located. People are pointing in different directions, but one seems more credible than the others, so I turn and walked towards where he pointed. He followed me down the road. I ask if ThreeCat did bring food, but get no answer. I'm going to a new street and see two lions and another cat lying by the roadside, I immediately think that they are not dangerous, and can not hurt me. Still I'm a little scared. There are some people on the sidewalk, and there is a 2.5 meter high black dressed guy with makeup and cat-like eyes. He seems superior, but then he begins to shrink a little, but he is still higher than me. It strikes me that this might be ThreeCat, so I ask. "Yes" I get for answer. I ask if he is sure. "Yes". There are many people around us, and there is a girl next to ThreeCat, most likely his girlfriend. I'm trying to think of some of my goals for lucid dreaming, and can not think of anything. "There is a restaurant there, you can probably get free food there," said ThreeCat. "Thank you!" I shout back, now I can finally taste how food tastes in the dreamstate. Before I do, I want to ask about the black clothes and makeup is something for Halloween, but I drop it. I do not think I asked if he would come with me, because he signaled that he was in a hurry. I go to the restaurant alone. I and ThreeCat parted ways already here, but such a mysterious man would I like to meet later and get to know. I stand outside the restaurant and get the urge to go through the glass door. I'll have some momentum and bang into the glass. It was hard, and I bounce back and land on my ass. All the people around me laugh, and I am a bit embarrassed. I try again, the same thing happens. So I set myself up in front of the door and keep my eyes on an object behind it. I imagine that I go through before I do it. There were suddenly two glasses. I got through the first one, but the other broke as soon as I touched it. One of the waiters were clapping and smiling at me. I go over the glass and say "bam!", and the glass is gone. I go around and sit next to a girl and say to the waiter that I want the best food they have, free of charge. "Nonono", I get for answer. "Nothing free". "Yes", I say, "I'll have it for free. And the food will come right away". The girl next to me orders two burgers that come immediately. She hides one of them on the other side of her, and I get a little confused. I ask if one was to me, and the girl gives it to me immediately. I said I may well get her more food at another restaurant, since I'm dreaming. She just nodded. I see a poster on the wall behind the girl, and cry out "TURN" and the poster turns 180°. I cry out more, and the poster turns almost every time. There are some other people coming in and sit down at our table, and I explain to them that I'm dreaming. One girl who came in pick up her phone and take some pictures of me. I say that she is not going to find the images in WL and she says that she knows. The burger tasted the way, not so much, it was very mushy and tasteless and easily fell apart. I think it was a fish burger. I'm sure I've been lucid for a long time now, and I hope the alarmclock does not ring any time soon. Suddenly I'm outside, and I think of flying, but to take it to the next level. I have always flown only like superman or by swimming through the air, and now I should try to just levitate. I facilitate fast, it was pretty easy. I'm with someone (I do not remember when or how they showed up) who are very impressed and ask about how this is possible. I think that in a dream you will not live like in the physical world, but in a mental one, where only your mind sets the limits. We come into a room which was packed with people. I yell "hey!" and everyone look at me. I am a little nervous, but concentrated, I set myself up in front of the crowd. So I levitate. Everyone are clapping and shouting, and I hover over them, until the end of the room. So I count down from three, and shoot out in tremendous speed back to where I came from with one arm straight in front of me. I ended up in a ventilation pipe and break me further inward, I creep through multiple vents and fans and come quickly to an end. I look out and see that I am a big place, with many people gathered. Someone's coming up the pipe end, an ugly face, and takes hold of me and trying to drag me down. "I dream. I have power", I think to myself. The person's face tells me that he is scared. Then he lets go. Then a new, not-so-ugly face shows up, and take hold of me. I take hold of him back, and squeezing all I have. The person expresses great pain, and I let go.

1. I was in my driveway. There was a pretty big truck there and my grandpa told me to get in it and drive. I got in and he got in the passenger seat. The truck was silver and was the suspension was jacked up alot, so it sat really high. I put the truck in drive and slowly pulled out of the driveway. I had never driven a truck before, so I noticed that it handled alot differently. I turned right or left out of my driveway and started driving. Immediately my grandpa started criticizing my driving(even though Ive never driven a truck before this) and told me what I was doing wrong and what not.
I kept on driving and drove wherever he told me to go. Sometime later, as I was driving down a street in my neighborhood, I started tripping, REALLY hard. Everything was moving like waves and breathing like in a trip and it was really taking an effect on my driving ability. I immediately thought I was "crashing", something I had talked to a friend, PKJacker, the night before. I tried pulling over, and as I was my grandpa stopped me and told me to keep going- so I did.
Later on I somehow got onto the freeway and my dad was now in the passenger seat. We were starting to ascend onto a bridge/overlook on I-4 (no idea what highway that is). As we kept climbing this steep ramp I got really scared because it was really high and I didnt trust myself in this truck. Once the ramp sort of leveled off it split into 2 other bridges. As I neared this split I told my dad to take the wheel, and he did, and we ended up going onto the right bridge. I took the wheel over again and continued driving. We were approaching and tunnel that had a random drop in it where your car would just fall onto another road below it(into traffic, so it was really unsafe). My dad guided me on how to handle this and told me to watch for traffic below and speed up to where I would land on this small platform and fall onto the road below us(I know, really confusing). I made it down safely and continued driving.

OKAY DREAM 1!!:

I was hanging out in the living room, it was a beautiful day - a beam of light was pouring through the window, illuminating all the dust in its path, nice stuff. I looked outside and there was this strange creature sniffing around the window. It was a large, green rabbit with various spring flowers growing out of its back. I thought, DAMN THAT's cool! so I reached through the solid window and gave it a nice pat on the back(still didn't realize it was a dream). A bunch of green dust was now on my hands from petting it. I smelled the green dust and it smelled of grapes, I had a split second thought of eating the grape flavoured rabbit. Then it ran away from the window and shook off all the green dust and flowers. A smaller rabbit and a raccoon jumped off the large, now just brown, rabbit's back. They all came charging towards the door to get inside, pushed it open somehow, then started dancing around me. I felt a little nervous and the raccoon jumped up and clawed at my shoulder then they all ran outside. The cats ran after them and then I woke up.

Lucid 1:

This dream started in the sun room, so I was surrounded by plants and there was light everywhere and a little mist and it was very pretty. I felt like something was in my throat so I coughed and out came this giant worm. It wriggled around on the floor for a couple seconds, gooing all over the place before I thought, either I have a serious parasite problem or this is a dream. So I tried to make the worm fly into the air with my mind powers and it shot upwards a couple feet. Hurray! I casually strolled outside and picked up a flower and ate it, tasted like flower petals. Then I decided to try to fly off into space. I started off flying slowly before I felt as though I was tethered to the ground by an invisible rope. I managed to break free and I went off at super speed, everything turned white. I saw a black hole in front of me and I flew straight into it. I instantly appeared back in my backyard. But I was floating around as though there was no gravity. I flew straight through my house, then the neighbor's house, and I appeared right back in my backyard, so I did it again and again and I was stuck in a loop so I just relaxed and meditated as I kept flying through houses faster and faster. I felt a strange calm and contentment even though the world around me was anything but. After a couple moments of feeling fantastic I woke up, in my backyard, and ran to a table to try to write down some stuff when I thought...I don't usually wake up in my backyard, FALSE AWAKENING!! I still wrote some stuff down to help me remember.

Once I was done writing some notes about the previous dream, I walked into the house while trying to think of something else to do. I remembered the reading DC mind/becoming DC tasks and I decided to try to feel the emotions of my cat. I felt nothing, just a strong desire to eat bugs. So I looked behind me and there was a DC sitting there. I let myself feel what the DC was feeling and it was great sadness, as though an old friend had died. I woke up.

This lucid dream happened two nights ago, and was my major motivation to set up this account so that I could start dream journaling again. Though the emotion of the dream was actually sort of negative, the implications it had for my dream control were enough to make my want to start really working on it again.

I was hanging out with my close friend M who I don't get to see quite as often as I'd like anymore, and we had decided to go check out the house that another old friend of ours, D, grew up in. As far as I know his family still lives there in waking life, but I'm sure he's probably moved out by now. I unfortunately haven't seen this friend in a few years now because we had a falling out after I made some life choices that he disagreed with, but I still think about him and miss hanging out with him as we had known each other since before grade school even.

There wasn't anyone at the house when we got there, and we actually ended up sneaking in somehow. I don't recall exactly which way, but I don't recall there being any sort of struggle to do so. We just walked around to see what all may or may not have changed since the last time either of us had been there, and I figured that if D's parents or brother showed up they might not mind that we were there since it was me, but I was afraid of spooking them unintentionally. We were upstairs as I was thinking this, and as we started walking down the stairs I suddenly noticed that there was someone else in the house too, but it was this old woman waiting at the bottom of the stairs for us. She appeared to remember who I was from many years ago, but I couldn't quite figure out who she was exactly. Despite that, I do remember registering her as possibly being one of D's brother's friends' moms. She didn't seem overly surprised that we were there, nor we of her, and we just kept going about our business after running into her.

M and I ended up going out to their backyard next, which looked pretty different from what I remember. After checking out the pool, we decided to go swimming for a while and just talk about life. I couldn't really tell you too much of what we talked about, as I barely even remember the act of changing into bathing suits or anything other than just already being in the pool, but I do know that out of nowhere a whole bunch of people suddenly showed up. Once again we were not particularly bothered by this, and I remember feeling that there was just suddenly a total pool party going on, and M and I were fine with that. It seemed like a pretty lighthearted atmosphere and everyone appeared to be having fun. I swam up toward the edge of the pool to just kind of hang along the tiles for a while, and M came up to me from the left and the character Gunn from Angel came up to me from the right. For some reason they were both starting to squeeze me together pretty tightly, and just as I was about to say something and try to wiggle my way out from them, a foot met my hand that was resting on the edge. I looked up, and it was my mind's theoretical version of a more college-aged D, looking down at me like he was expecting some sort of explanation.

M and I both get quiet and D just continues to stare at me impatiently. In my mind, this is the first time I've seen him in years, and I say to him that I know we have some things to talk about. I start getting up out of the pool in the meantime, and he begins to reply in a begrudging but friendly way that he knows that whatever I say, he'll have to accept my apology. This actually makes me start to feel better, like things might not be so bad between us after all and maybe we can be friends again, but then there is a sudden blip in my perception of reality and now I am just standing outside by the pool all alone. No D, no M, no partiers. Everything about my environment has suddenly become much more vivid and detailed as well, and the odd idea strikes me that everything that had happened up to that exact moment might have been a dream, but now I was actually awake and had a real chance to talk to D, since I was still in his old backyard.

I ran into his house and went upstairs to his old bedroom to talk to him, and along the way I became aware that all five of my senses were now strongly present. I was excited in the idea of fixing up what he and I have lost, but once I got to his room and checked everywhere, including lifting up the covers of his bed, he was nowhere to be found. As my enthusiasm begins to dwindle, it starts being replaced by logic and I begin to fear the worst. I quickly grab my phone and try to turn it on so that I can try to check what time it is twice, but it won't even turn on in the first place. Losing my sense of hope, I then run to his bathroom which is attached to his bedroom and tried to flip on the light switch multiple times, every attempt to no avail. There's no use trying to fight it anymore.... This is a dream.

For a moment I feared that I had not only fallen for a disappointing lie but ruined a considerably vivid lucid as well, because the darkness of D's bathroom had overtaken all of my vision so that I could see nothing but black. I don't even recall how exactly, but I managed to desperately grab for any stimuli I could possibly find, and just when I thought all was lost, D's bedroom faded back into focus. Things were a little blurry, and for some reason I had the strange idea that taking my glasses might actually make things more vivid, which worked perfectly. I repeated this action one or two more times during the rest of the dream too without ever actually having to put my glasses back on.

I was still feeling really hurt by the loss of what I thought might be a old friendship finally coming back into my life, and I just needed to blow off some steam. Luckily for me, this is very often what I use lucid dreams for anyway, so there couldn't have been a better setting for me to be in while feeling this way. At this point I stopped walking and instead flew out of his house, phasing through the wall as I did so, to get back out into the neighborhood. While flying I went past a tree and actually felt like I scraped myself on one of the branches, which caught me off guard, but I probably brought it upon myself by just happening to glance at the tree as I went by. However, that momentary loss of focus caused the whole area to start being replaced by just a big field of flowers, which was definitely not what I was looking for at the moment. The edge of my vision on my right side still contained house, so I quickly darted off in that direction hoping to find a more developed area, which worked perfectly.

The area I had arrived in contained many houses but was no longer anything like the neighborhood that D lives in. It looked much more like a downtown city area, with a road going down a hill, and houses much like you would see in the San Francisco area, absolutely none of which you will actually find in the area I was in just moments ago. However, any area such as this would work for my purposes. Harnessing my emotions into my dream control as I had done in my last lucid that I can remember, I held out my hands as if to hold something very large and heavy in front of me, started tensing my fingers like I was gripping something in each, and then started raising them up while projecting my feelings out into the city ahead of me. As I did so, the ground under a housing complex began to rumble and rise up into the air, warping the buildings around it as it did so. The mass that I was lifting up became colossal and took on a shape seeming to have arms and legs, but it was not humanoid. Suddenly, a glowing red light and chunks of rock were visible all through the cracks in the ground which was splitting more each second, and then terrifying, monstrous face emerged on the head of the beast. I had summoned an enormous lava monster, just as I had intended.

I could hear people in the area all screaming at the site of this new creation of mine which was the manifestation of the pain that I had felt after the previous events of the dream. To release that tension that I felt, the monster began using its incredible power to start destroying the city all around it. This whole event was incredibly vivid and life-like, and I was quite proud of my apocalyptic pet. I simply let it do its thing and then continued flying down the road, not yet ready to be finished wreaking havoc. The next thing I did was focus all of my negative energy toward an area just above another set of houses just a bit down from where I had been, and this caused a ball of fire to burst into existence. Before it could totally fade away, as it was just a quick thing, I reached my hand out to it as if to hold on to it from a distance, and then pulsed more energy out through my arm and towards, reigniting the burst and making the ball even larger than before. Ready to end my sadness, which like most emotions seemed significantly enhanced my being in the dream state, I continued to push this ball more and more until it reached the strength of an atomic explosion, annihilating everything in the dream reality and waking me up in the process.

Though this was certainly not the happiest of lucid dreams I've ever had, it was definitely an important step up in my quest to obtain better dream control. Hopefully in the future I can continue to expand these abilities using more positive emotions to really achieve some incredible things.

To start off this dream journal I wanted to include this lucid entry because it was the first time I felt like I reached a newer level of dream control I seem to be on now, and it wasn't too long ago that it happened. This came at the very end of the month of May, and is the last vivid lucid I can recall before the one I had two nights ago. I don't recall exactly if there was more dream leading up to this part, but I'm just going to include the significant piece of it that I can remember.

I found myself wandering around a very large house with an impressive artistic design; it felt like the kind of place that someone with a lot of money to waste might pay a skilled architect to build into a natural setting. The main thing that I can remember about it was that it was sort of blocky and there were a lot of beige colors. I was walking through what appeared to be something like the living room, but a huge one, and there were many other people walking around as well. I don't recall who exactly this might have been anymore, but I just know that I saw a celebrity or otherwise someone who I just knew shouldn't be there, and upon that realization I became lucid.

Out of nowhere, several police officers started raiding the house. I wasn't quite sure exactly what they were trying to find, but I did know that I didn't really care to find out. People were starting to run around in a panic as if they had something important to hide, and I knew that I had to do some quick thinking to figure out a way to dispose of the officers if I wanted to actually explore this dream in peace. I didn't find much to work with after a quick glance around the house especially with all of the people everywhere in my way, so I ended up frantically running outside to try to come up with a plan.

When I got out there I saw that we were located in the middle of a forest, though the trees weren't placed together too thickly so you could still see beyond them to a horizon in the distance. It was very picturesque, and added to the feel of how I described the house before. There still wasn't much out there for me to go on though, so I had to make a split-second decision. I felt my desperation welling up inside me, and I decided to focus that emotion as much as I possibly could into my dream control. Acting purely on instinct, I realized that energy into the first thing that I could possibly think of, which began happening simultaneously as it entered my mind: a tidal wave to simply wash the whole situation away.

There was a deep roaring as the massive tsunami started visibly and quickly rising up over the horizon in the distance, and within seconds had reached the point of blocking out the sun in the sky. I hurried back over to the entrance to the house that I had originally come out of because it placed the house directly in the path between the tsunami and myself, and soon after the water came crashing down on to the terrain around me. However, something I noticed as I looked into the house was that all of the people were suddenly gone. Was there even a point to this in the first place? The water was starting to burst into through all of the windows, shattering the glass everywhere, and it was all building up and approaching me quite realistically. As the intense torrential force hurled towards me, my last lucid thought was that this may not have been the best idea to summon.

Once the water hit me, I died instantaneously. However, the dream still continued to progress, just from a third-person perspective. "I" was now seeing a bird's-eye view of what appeared to be an extremely large and extravagant fountain which appeared to be at the base of a cylindrical room in the center of some ancient temple which conveyed a lot of power. There was a very geometric design to the flow of the water which came from the fountain, carrying it in a series of circles from the top of the structure to the circle around it and then outward from the room. My camera angle was spinning just slightly, very slowly to one side. There were also I believe four completely bronze-colored, metallic-looking, and quite muscular male human shapes who were all floating into the air in four corners around the fountain with their arms outstretched to the ceiling.

For the duration of this experience there was an emotion that this fountain is the temple that "I" was observing actually exists in another dimension outside of our own, and is in some way a metaphysical resting place for many different worlds including our own. The water that was flowing out of the fountain was felt to in fact be a divine stream which would inevitably bring the end of each world when its time came, and it was inherently understood that the tsunami which I had summoned was actually the wave that came to end our world. Unknowingly, I had brought upon the end of our existence as we know it, which is possibly why my perspective was switched to this vision to begin with. This was all interpreted conceptually in a matter of a seconds, and once this flash of imagery passed, I awoke.

The significance of this lucid dream for me was that I had never before been able to so effectively and effortlessly summon something as enormous and powerful as that tidal wave which I merely pulled up on a whim. This gave me some new ideas about attempting to alter a dream scenario by channeling my emotions into my abilities, which my most recent lucid (the one after this one) seems to have reinforced fairly well. Since this was the only dream I had like this that came significantly before I created this account, I figured it would be good to record it for future reference.

Started the dream with going into a empty huge warehouse late at night with my wife. There one DC was there who did not like us and chased us out. Our car was parked at the end but was packed between other car and could not be removed, but finally got it out. The next night I went again along with the family to the same empty warehouse but the DC was not there. I keep thinking that hostile DC will return so we need be outside. So we come come and sit on an empty table. It is getting to be 9:30 and the hostile DC is approaching and then I realize I left my youngest son inside alone and I need to go and get him. I enter the empty building then I start think, this is not possible for me to leave my small kid alone in a big empty hostile place and then realize this is a dream.
I go inside and start flying inside the big empty warehouse and then take my kid outside . He wants to come and I tell him this a dream and I am going to fly and complete some task, he also wants to join me. So I take his hand and we start flying over towns and fields with breeze in our face. We end up somewhere in another continent. We walk in the streets of this small town, then I remember I have tasks to perform.
TOTM: The first task I remember is the TOTM and I decide I need an elevator and I see that there are no tall buildings in this town, so decide to go to big city. I tell my son we will walk through the door of the small shop and we open the door we will be in a big city downtown. That does not work, so we walk down the stairs and meet many DCs on the stairs and come out on the street and decide to fly instead. This is going to take long I feel. I see many DCs flying now, looks like that is mode of transportation. I meet SammytheSnake also flying and give him a high five as we cross each other. There is a lot of air traffic as everyone is flying. As I fly I see a swimming pool below and my son wants to play in it. I think this is a big swimming pool in front of a big hotel and a big hotel is there, so we drop down and my son is swimming. I tell him I will come back soon as I need to get an elevator to finish my task and go inside the hotel to find an elevator. I find a twin elevator and it is already going up, but I hit the up button multiple and it comes down. The DCs in the elevator are angry at me. I go to the one on the right and see it has only two floors. I feel this is not enough to accomplish my task and I think this is big hotel and should have another elevator for top floors, so I walk out and find another elevator that says 11-17 executive floors. I see myself only wearing a brief and say what the heck it is a dream and remove it. I enter this elevator full nude, it is huge elevator and people are dining inside it. The elevator seems like a restaurant. There is a chef at the entrance and looks at me being nude and is surprised. I say this is a dream and don't care. The elevator starts up but then start traveling side ways. I think , this always happens in my dream, elevator ends up traveling sideways. It then converts into a metro bus and travels down the street of the town I was there before. I meet few stars and think would be good to meet my favorite stars. The dream seems long now, then I hear my mom calling in the distance it is time to wake. I then decide to do a reality check of DCs watches. It is all digital and makes no sense, each watch showing a different number. Then I get down and walk and decide on my next task.

3-Step Task: I feel I will wake up anytime, but decide to continue with my 3-step task. I remember the first step is to push your hand through a solid object. I put my hands on a concrete column and see I have dream hands. I push through, first it fails but then I push through the concrete. I feel lot of concrete rumbles crush in my palm and then I feel the iron beam in the center and push through it. Then I remove my hand and see a coconut tree. Push my hand through it and feel wood chips in my palm. Then I think it is time for my second task in my three step. I need to attain invulnerability as I look around I see many cars and think if I jump in front of them and be unscathed that should be good. So I jump down from a high bridge like structure onto the front of a black car that is speeding down the road. The car hits me and crumbles and molds around me similar to superman. Then I start walking down again on the high bridge over a huge city below thinking about my third step but cannot remember. But I remember a task about reading a DC's mind. I see a dark female walking towards me. I stop her and try to read her mind. She thinks I am checking her breasts and booty and to squeeze her. I go ahead and do it. I get into caveman mode, but remember I have more tasks to do and this will surely wake me up. So I walk away still trying to remember my third task.
Personal Task: But instead I remember my personal task to drive a sports car. As I am walking I remember I left my son at the pool, but felt this will take time to fly and get him. Then I remember this is a dream and I snap my fingers and my son is in the shop and walks out with his toys. He wants me to show me the toys but I tell him I need to go complete my task. I am unable to teleport myself to a nascar race track, so I start flying, this is taking time. I meet Ninjago cyclone cloud like figures in the air, I ignore them and reach Nascar circuit. I see old nascar car and I tell I need to be part of Nascar. I select track and try to get a car. I get a very small car and big shoes. I squeeze in and have tough time fitting in. I make the car bigger into a full size nascar. There are lot of cars on the race. Then I wake up.