non-lucid

30.01.2012

NON-DREAM DREAM LUCID

I took an afternoon nap, I wanted to just sleep for an hour starting at around 1:40-2 PM, woke up to the alarm that I set for 3 PM I believe, but then I slept again and woke up at around 5PM.

Spoiler for Insight on what I did before sleeping...:

All of these dreams were realistic, and again, I did not check to see if I was dreaming. I even did some weird stuff that would be abnormal to do in reality, but I just went with the flow.

And you know how when you walk around in a dream, and you walk for a decent amount of time, which should allow you to test your surroundings? Like you suddenly stop and question everything, but I didn't do that.

The last dream was just freaking crazy.

I remember the things I did like crazy, the people's expressions, almost all of them were positive towards me, even if I assumed that they were trying to be mean.

And the recall from these dreams, I don't know how I can still remember them, but that's a good thing no? Guess the image association is getting better and better for me now.

The amount of detail may be a bit abnormal to some, but it's thanks to me adding images to my dream journals that has helped me hold large details in a specific image or set of images in my head until I need to type/write them later on.

I think remembering dream senses are also helping me develop longer recall of these dreams.

KAOMEA, thanks for suggesting that I do focus on other dream senses (even though I knew about it for a while now, you just convinced me to go back to it again ).

Dream 1: Walking up to Random Apartment

This is probably just a dream fragment but, I remember walking upstairs somewhere to go to a room. I remember a bowl of crackers with peanut butter in them stacked around some area of this apartment.



I can't remember much for that one.

Dream 2: Leaving Class

The dream starts out from me being in class, and the teacher was giving instructions on how to play this game. Apparently it was suppose to be a simulation on surviving some kind of attack, and we were all given individual statistics on a card lined up with a specific trait (like how much you were likely to survive something or doing something).



It was basically like a role playing game where you could upgrade, but in real life. He was explaining the different parts, and I saw that a number that I remembered the most was "16". The person to the right of me had the number "25."

I was a little concerned because I found that other people had values higher than mine, but I didn't say anything but worry a little bit.

Then the teacher was done explaining and saying that he'll see us all tomorrow. But overall, the day felt like a Friday, so I wanted to tell him that, but I kept quiet.

The whole class was quiet too, and then the teacher caught himself and apologized and then said that he'll see us on Monday. Then as I head out, I see a DC that looks exactly like my Uncle.

He was wearing a striped dress shirt with short sleeves that was blue overall with different shades of blue. It seemed he had his hair trimmed a little bit.

I look at him and he looks at me, and he's smiling at me. I go up to him to shake hands with him and he's like "Hey, man!" with a positive tone. After we talked for a few more seconds, he had to go to the bathroom. He didn't tell me, but he had to leave and I turned back to see where he was going.

I keep going, and the place I'm in has brown brick walls to it, and brown tiled floors too. There was a few bright yellow-ish lighting in the area.

I go further and further from the initial point in the dream and find that my cousins came out of one of those small areas you see in Supermarkets that would have a Starbucks, McDonalds, etc.



I go up to them, and they recognized me. There are 3 of them. I shook hands with two of the guys, and hugged the female. I don't remember what I asked them, but I hanged around with them a little bit before leaving them as well.

Dream 3: Starbucks look-a-like Store


Now I'm outside, and I go to this area that seems to be selling deserts and other sugary things. It seemed to be like a Starbucks-look-a-like, but from what I remember, the place had small shades of red to it.

It was like being in a Circus almost, with the striped and slanted coverings in case it rained. There were several sections of this large place outside. It had sections for deserts and other things.

There were places to sit as well. There were stools with tables, or just tables with chairs to them. I believe the chairs, stools, and tables had different shades of red to them, and even some pink to them as well.



I see a Black female DC who was pretty young, she looked a lot like the girl from "Everybody Hates Chris." For some odd reason, I assumed that she was a relative of mine.



I greeted her I think and she does the same, and I asked her what I wanted from the Menu that I could barely read. I also asked if I could have a Vanilla Milkshake, and she said "Of course! Of course we have that!" with a happy tone.

Then I see a used Vanilla Milkshake on another table, and I see the Starbucks logo on it, and the small details of it like the small linings on the back for the employees to write down what the order was.



It was quarter-filled with Vanilla Milkshake (or Vanilla Bean Frappuccino for you addicts).

Then the same girl gives me a phone that seems to be some new slim version of a Blackberry. It was really slim and thin. It had a rotating scroll that was flat (like a small disk placed on top of the phone that you could move around with your thumb in a circular motion).



At first I thought this was a toy, but apparently the place gives free phones. So I'm playing around with this phone a little, looking at the small features it presented (it was a new phone that was in a small plastic package).

Then the girl was sitting down with me for a little while before going up to tell the others what my order was. She was telling me that I could give her something better. She said she was selling an XBOX for $99.

I took some time to bask in that price, and then to make sure, I asked her "For an XBOX 360?" She says yes, and then I started to think about it.

Then to the right of me, I swore I sensed another DC at another table was trying to listen at our conversation, but I didn't want to look back, I just had the DC with my peripheral vision while talking to the girl.

Then I believe I wanted order more stuff from the Menu, and I said that it won't be a problem since I could afford it. I was looking at my wallet, and it resembled the one I have in waking life. There was some money in it, but I didn't pull it out completely to to see if I had a certain amount of dollars.

Then I told her that for the XBOX 360 price, I said I'll think about it I believe, and she leaves to probably go finalize the order for whatever I ordered.

Then when she's gone, for some odd reason, I'm pissed that she's telling me that she's selling an XBOX 360, I was complaining how that's the price range everyone gives (even though I haven't seen an XBOX 360 that would be in good condition for that much however).

I can't remember anything else from that dream. I probably was just waiting at the table for my food order to come in.

Dream 4: In Class or Seminar and Going To Lunch

Before I start talking about what I experienced in this dream, I just want to mention that I had the opportunity to get lucid because I was walking to lunch long enough to where I'm wondering where I am to do an RC. But this was another vivid dream that I took for reality.

I'm sitting in class, the seats we were sitting in were just fold-able seats without mini desk to rest your hands on. All of the chairs were white, and I was sitting at the front row at the top right corner. The carpet was dark blue with small bits of other colors that didn't dominate the overall color though.

There where white boards on walls almost on every side. (The boards that you can use markers on and wipe with an eraser, and they had the small extension on the bottom to put the markers or erasers on for later use).



A lecturer, who I believe was female was talking about something I didn't remember too much on. She was fairly dark-skinned, but I didn't pay too much to her facial features, I was just listening to her.

After she was done talking, she asked a question on who wants to get an extra +16 points if they wore some pink coat or shirt if they were in Nursing or something (If you remember from the second dream above this one, I had the number "16" on a card, but now a DC is saying the word sixteen this time).

Then I realized I raised my hand for the wrong reasons, I'm not pursuing Nursing nor am I interested in it. But I didn't freaking care, I just raise it until she picks me. The classroom of DCs started to go "Awwwwwwwwwww" in a sad tone.

I then realized that the classroom mostly consisted of females. If I had paid attention to the females around me instead of using peripheral vision, some would've been familiar DCs of people I knew and saw in High School.

Then I wore the Pink Jacket and everyone left class (there wasn't a bell ringing, so I assumed this was College, but it had mixes of High School elements to it).



Everything now is in Third-Person Perspective. I'm seeing the back of myself walking with my upper body slightly slanted, as if I was walking like a caveman for a while, but I think I straightened myself up quickly.

I'm on the top floor of the building that I'm in. I guess my intention was to go to lunch now. So I keep moving forward to get to the double doors (the ones you push the small and horizontal bar to open the door).

Then I go down the stairs a little bit, and I stopped a little bit to look around the place. I hold on to the railing of the stairs, and I look down to see that the stairs were structured like they were going to rotate until you reached the bottom floor.


This meant that there was a gap in between when you started turning (you know how you can see the other set of stairs by glancing from above? It was like that).

(It's hard to see in that picture, but you can see there's a big gap between the swirling stairs where you can look down at the bottom floor)


The gap was big enough for me to jump down to save more time instead of walking all the way down these sets of stairs (but in reality, you wouldn't want to jump that far down because of obvious reasons). I reached the bottom floor in a few seconds, and then I hear two DCs talking to each other as they're going down the stairs.

They were in the Corp Cadet attire that people wore at my University (only if you were in the Corp). One was a black DC who was in my Biochemistry Introductory course my first semester in college.



He was with his friend who had Corp attire as well, I just assume it was his friend, I didn't pay attention because I was busy jumping through the the gap to get to the bottom floor. The guy was trying to sing a song along with his friend, but it felt like they couldn't get the lyrics right.

So they ended up laughing and stopped singing the song. I'm at the bottom floor, and the flooring was white with very tiny spots of black to it. It resembled the area at Mayde Creek High School that was near the cafeteria.

Then I realize I'm wearing a Yellow Jacket now instead of the Pink one that was given to me for free, and I was also wearing a dark Violet shirt. I thought to myself that I was wearing complimentary colors for like a split second and just kept walking.



I go to the Cafeteria of this random environment mixing in several elements of High School and other places. I picked the shortest line. The place was structured to where there were holders attached where you could slide your trays and wait for the Cafeteria people give you what you wanted.



I peeked over at the selections they had, and looked at other lines that were waiting for other food. I saw more appealing food on the other side, but the line was too long for me, so I bared with what was given to me at the line.

As I'm busy sliding my tray, I see green Onions that weren't chopped completely, in fact, it looked as if they just came out of the plastic package and was lined up. By the time I get there, there was like 1-3 sticks of Green Onions.



The food that was served to me, I only remembered it looking like potato and other types of meat, but as I went further in the tray line, the food and place started to get smaller and smaller to where I was just holding a really small and thin bowl of what looked like soup instead of Provisions and other types of food.

As I'm trying to balance this small bowl in my hand, I had to grab several white napkins along the way to the cash register so I wouldn't lose too much of my food. I kept doing this for a while until I finally found a line to place my food on to slide while I wait for my turn to pay.

Then realized that I had to give a school lunch pin (In the schools that I was in, you had a Student ID that would also give you a lunch pin # if you signed up for something that would give you cheaper lunch prices, and you would get the same thing everyone else had to pay a higher price for).

I'm now speculating on what the hell my School lunch pin would be. Then it's my turn to pay, and I get my wallet out instead of entering a pin. The debit card (at least I thought it was a debit card) was Maroon, like the main color of Texas A&M University at College Station.



The cash register accepts it and she starts calling some number, probably to verify something. Then she started to take too long waiting for the call, I got impatient and told her that I can just pay her with cash instead.

I get my wallet out again to get some cash, I believe I was going to give her $10 so that she can give me some change back.

Then as I turn my head back to her to give her the money, she turns around and starts trying to break the debit card into pieces!

I'm telling her to don't do that, and I wave my hands around a bit panicking and telling her to stop. The freaking woman tears it in half.

Then I realize I'm sitting down at some random lunch seat with some random people.

Imagine you're pissed off at the same lady breaking the credit card with just her index finger and thumb, and you're pissed, but you suddenly find yourself transitioned in a section of the cafeteria while still carrying on the emotions of rage. It was like that.

I started screaming and cursing at the woman. I told her that I was almost going to pay her her money for some meal that was shit anyway. The meal was gone, so I was even more pissed off.

I think everyone in the Cafeteria was looking at me because I was so pissed. Then things turned random. It was like everyone was trying to cheer me up.

I see an older female DC that looked like the AP English teacher I had in waking life before being switched to the other AP English teacher (there was an overload of students in her class, so I was just one of the students switched to the other one that had blonde hair).

Anyway, she comes up to me. She's the type of teacher to just look at you as if she has something mean to say to you. I'm afraid to mention her name, but let's just call her Runyon. Runyon gets closer to me and then she starts asking what's wrong.

Then the whole setting feels like I'm in Willy Wonka's positive energy in a Cafeteria. I was still pissed off at the the lady tearing up my debit card. I was sitting next to a girl to the left of me that was another person I knew in waking life.

Let's call her Stephanie (she has a fairly curvy structure and is pretty tall in waking life, but in a good way. She has her body in the places that would make any guy gaze at her....and her lips are big and juicy too...sorry just adding that so I know which Stephanie was with me in the dream since there was another Stephanie in my older DJ that was much skinner with big lips too; both are Hispanic).

Anyway, Runyon tries to cheer me up, and everyone is trying to sing a song that will make me laugh, but I still keep a stoic face trying not to laugh. There were moments where I was almost going to smile, but I suppressed the urge.

Then as I pay attention to the DCs around me at the lunch tables, I see a Blonde that was standing up who wore a fancy black corporate dress (even though DCs were blocking her lower features, I just had a hunch she was wearing a short dress).



She smiles at me, I look at her for a little while, I see that she's wearing lip gloss that just makes her lips really shiny. People started to think I was smiling, but I still had a stoic facade and they were like "awwww" in a sad tone.

Then the whole Cafeteria started to sing another song. Apparently it was "Peddy Punnit" or something like that, not to sure.

I don't remember the lyrics of this random song but the beat went like: (The "BLAH"s are just replacing the actual words that I can't remember).

"BLAH-BLAH-BLAH!" *CLAP CLAP* "BLAH-BLAH-BLAH" *CLAP CLAP*

Eventually I started to give in and smiled and was laughing again. However, I fell down under the table before anyone caught me smiling.

I can't remember anything else, even though that was probably the longest recall I had for a dream for a while now...

I wake up and started to take in a really deep breath and quickly looked over to the right of my alarm clock.

Spoiler for More Insight on what I did when I woke up....:

It was 5PM, and I thought that I wouldn't have enough time to type everything I remembered because I was planning to head for the Biology Tutoring area at 6PM so I know what to study.

But apparently the HECC building ran out of power (my Chemistry Tutor posted on Facebook that it had a power outage).

So I if the building was out of power, that means the Biology SI session was canceled as well. So that gave me extra time to type this dream journal entry.

Don't know why I'm mentioning this...but whatever.

REMEMBERING OTHER DREAM SENSES REALLY IS USEFUL WHEN RECALLING LARGE QUANTITIES CONTAINED in small images or moments.

Especially when you focus on Dream Character's expressions, you can analyze the overall atmosphere of the environments, and extend on the experiences.

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01/30/12

Note: Last night was a bit odd… I remember a lot of fragments of dreams that I'm not sure if they are connected or not, but here they are…

When It Rains
I am in a strange place, it is out in the middle of the wilderness. I don't recognize the place, though I might not since it is hard to see the surroundings through the pouring rain. It is also rather cold out, and I feel the wet rain penetrating through my clothes to my skin, I am feeling quite cold. I look around and I see a small tent not far from me and I realize I am supposed to sleep in there, so I go to the tent to try to dry off in it. I get in the tent and I realize it is no better than being outside. The tent is small and cramped, it doesn't seem to do anything to keep the cold out, and the worst part is the thing leaks so it is raining almost as badly inside as outside. I decide I won't be able to sleep here, so I head out of the tent. I will find an inn where I can rent a bed for a few gold. Hopefully I have enough… if not, I might have to pick someone's pocket to get the money for a dry bed for the night.


To The Movies
I am with my friend Alicia, and we are heading out of Tucson, going south. There is a movie theater down there and we are going to check and see if they will have a specific movie playing or not. We are traveling in a helicopter, the pilot lands in a flat area near a road. I see my car is there, so Alicia and I switch to the car and continue going. The theater is sure out in the middle of nowhere. When we finally get there we go to the box office and ask about the movie we're looking to see. The man in the box office doesn't even wait to hear the title, he says he knows nothing about any movies past this coming Friday… which I know to be tomorrow. He refuses to be of any help at all. Alicia is annoyed that we came all the way out here for nothing. I am also annoyed, but I add that at least we got a free helicopter ride out of it. Alicia agrees reluctantly and adds that it was her first trip in a helicopter.


Nomad and MoSh
I am in a strange place with Nomad and MoSh, and there are a couple other people there with us as well. I don't recognize them. We are in what looks like a small space capsule with seats on both sides of the elongated capsule. The room is about the shape of an elongated sphere, there is no way of telling which is the front or back or if it is even meant to move. I am sitting between Nomad and MoSh. The walls of the room are all padded with the same material that might be found in a padded room of a mental ward. There is a bright white light, but I can't see where it is coming from. Nomad seems excited about something, MoSh seems disinterested. I don't remember what we are doing or where we might be going, but I do get the sensation of motion as the capsule shoots straight up into the air. Nomad voices a loud and excited, "Here we go!" while MoSh just rolls his eyes and groans. I do nothing, still not sure what is going on, but I don't want to appear stupid and admit that.


Blue Spirals of Madness
I am in the living room of our house, I am working on my laptop doing some 3D modeling. The computer is working fine, so that doesn't trigger me to do a reality check. I decide I want to listen to an audio book while I work, so I switch to iTunes to select one. I select a Dean Koontz book to play and start the first track. I go back to my modeling, expecting the book to start, but nothing happens. I switch back to iTunes and I see that the video effects that I am used to seeing on Windows Media Player are playing but there is no sound. I don't really give any thought to the fact that iTunes doesn't have the video effects screen… The screen is showing blue circles expanding and contracting on the screen, it also seems to be stuck. It isn't changing. Damn, I hope I don't have a virus… I change the screen to go to the internet and the monitor goes dark. Shit! It is a virus! I immediately pull the plug on my external hard drives, fearing the data I may have already lost. The blue circles return to the screen, now they are in 3D somehow. They seem to be coming out of the monitor at me. Then I realize they actually are coming out of the monitor… The spirals surround me as I sit in front of my laptop, they are making me a bit dizzy. It feels like I am falling into the computer… falling into the monitor… but instead I fall into bed and wake up.


Stealing Spree
I am in a place I don't recognize, it is an office building of some kind. I remember I am there for an interview. I go to the receptionist and say I am there for my interview. She says she will let the boss know, so I sit down to wait. I ask the receptionist where the restroom is, and she directs me to a door. I go through the door and see it is not a restroom… it's a storage closet. I tell her that and she says it's ok, everyone does their business in there… um… yuck… I go into the room and sure enough it smells like a sewer. I look at the stuff being stored in there. There are many different things tossed into baskets with no organization at all. I look at some of them. There are many computer items there. Small cameras, jump drives, some things I can't identify but they look cool… so I start taking stuff. There is no organization, no way of telling how many of what is in there. I grab a couple jump drives, a couple miniature cameras, and a couple things I can't identify before the receptionist opens the door without knocking and says the boss is ready. I go to the boss' office and see a man sitting across the desk. He looks at me strangely and then announces I stink. Did I use the bathroom before coming here? Yuck! Go home, I won't be working here when I pee in a closet. I leave his office, a bit annoyed, but also excited to see what those computer components I stole are…

So I know I had a long interesting dream but it's now the afternoon and i don't remember what my dream was about. That said there is a particular piece of my dream I do remember.
It was really vague but i was sitting in the back seat of a car leaning on my boyfriend. In my dream i was apparently on the run from some bad guys and was completely exhausted. I was holding my boyfriends hand and i remember thinking that i could go to sleep and be perfectly save because he was there. It was a awesome feeling. He had his arm around me and was looking out the window as if making sure the cars next to us weren't going to randomly start shooting. I remember smiling and finally dosing off.
That is around the time i woke up and sighed cuz i don't have a boyfriend...

This dream was really vague. I actually didn't even remember it until i was walking to class and all of a sudden it kind of came to me..weird, i know.

The dream started with me sitting on some bed, with my friends little sister and one of our friends. My friend(the first girls brother) died, and one of our other friends that was with him also died. I'm not sure why, or what happened. I just remember consoling her about it. And when i stood up and hugged her it was one of those tight hugs...and when i got ready to let go, she didn't. And from experience i know that's when a girl is really upset. For some reason that triggered my lucidity. That's when i really realized how weird the dream was.

She just kept crying on my chest, which made me cry...

Then i woke up..

BiscuitHappyz's Dream

I was in a small car with some other people, driving on a straight highway, lined with pine trees. We were heading towards some hotel-looking buildings at the end of the road.

I'm so sick, I thought, of pine trees. Especially in my dreams. It's really annoying, that for about one and a half decades my subconscious has been constantly analyzing the environment around me and simply concludes; 'Pine trees'. Pine trees take up nearly 90% of vegetation in my dreams, the remaining being grass. It would be nice to see an oak occasionally. [/pine tree rant]

Anyway, as the car approached the buildings at the end of the road, I began to see the BB&T tower of a nearby city poke out between them. I had seen it many times in waking life, and I often noted it as the tallest building in the small city.

http://static.panoramio.com/photos/o...l/16665800.jpg (Notice how there are little to no pine trees in this picture.)

I the dream, however, I was nearly one hundred miles away from that city, and should not have been able to see it. But it had the sense of scale like that from the Citadel in Half-Life 2, and it seemed to be that my brain recognizes it as such a ridiculously huge building that one could constantly see it from any point in the state.



(The Citadel)

Then the car turned sharply right and headed off into a large a amount of pine trees, and thankfully, I woke up as that happened.

No lucids last night, I'm kinda shocked. Because I got the right amount of sleep, no diphenhydramine, and I had one of those moments in the dream where I usually become lucid, but didn't.

I dreamt that me and Margaret (a former boss of mine, who ended up become a big time druggie, in and out of rehab in real life) were both in an unusual new rehab program. I can't remember exactly how it worked, but I remember one of the former clients (who ended up being Kyle, one of my current coworker's husband), gave me a tour of sorts. He led me to a house that I could live in. Actually, he and I would share it. Nice place, pretty neighborhood. Then we walked about a mile down the street to a building, which ended up being the the Whole Foods I used to work at. Then Kyle explained to me that as long as I live in this house, and work just 25 hours a week at this Whole Foods, I could stay in the program. And I would get a stipend and some other benefits. It just all sounded so good, and simple, and comfortable. So when we walked back to the house, we were holding hands. It just didn't really dawn on me yet that Danny is my boyfriend, and that I'm holding hands with Kyle, Gabi's husband. I just remember feeling like we were in love and everything was going to be ok. Then we got in a car and he was talking about going to church next sunday, and I remember not wanting to hurt his feelings by telling him that I'm actually atheist. Then I realized, oh god, this is Kyle! I looked at him and said, "I hate to bring this up now Kyle, but what about Gabi?" He looked disturbed, then gave me a reassuring kiss and said something that I forgot. When we broke the kiss, he looked like Danny. Note: usually when I have one of those realizations in a dream, I become lucid. Crap.

Then it changed to the alien dream. Also non lucid, but kinda cool! I only remember fragments, but the biggest part I remember was these futuristic aliens with amazing technology (but looked exactly like humans) had selected a few of us mere earthlings for some important mission. I forgot the mission, and who the other people were besides me. But I remember we had to go to Paris, France, and there was this vehicle waiting for us that we had to fly. We got a message from the aliens in Paris, and they explained the location of the vehicle using one of those holographic messages like they do in star wars. It showed the Eiffel Tower, and high above it in the clouds, hovered a small craft. It looked nothing more than a shiny platform with some small side wings and a tiny cockpit. Only we could see it, it was cloaked to everyone else. I don't remember how we got on it, I just remember looking straight up into the sky when we got to the tower, and I could see it, twinkling in the sunlight. Then we were on it, and it zoomed us to italy where me met up with our alien contacts. I only saw one, and she looked like a brunette model. I asked her if, given all their technology, they had cured aids or cancer. She said no, unfortunately. That's all I remember. Cool spacecraft, and yay, France and Italy!

30.01.2012

Lab Experiment, Communication Applications Teacher Talking to Me

NON-DREAM DREAM LUCID

Dream 1: Lab Experiment

I was part of a lab experiment. I was working with 2-3 DCs. We had to fill some vial to a certain level with certain chemicals without causing a huge reaction. It seemed that our group tried to finish as quickly as possible before the others did.



Not too sure on the what else we did, but I do know that we made several mistakes before reaching the ideal mix of chemicals.

Dream 2: Comm App Teacher Asking Questions

The Communications Applications teacher I had in High School the first semester as a Senior was asking me a few personal questions.

He started to mention to the class on how I was alone with just a few people (don't want to go into that, it kind of freaked me out because it was a personal lie that I started to accept).

Before he started to get deep though, I was sitting in a chair. I know I was wearing a Hoodie or something of the sort. I was resting on the desk while keeping my face up to the teacher.



Then when he started asking me some more questions, I started to look at him weirdly, got up to rest my upper body to the seat and start responding to what he said.

I can't remember what I told him though. But I do know that I felt myself moving, but I wasn't lucid.

Got another lucid this time! Short, but interesting. I got a little more abstract with my control of it, too. Other than that, a couple other interesting dreams as well. Not a bad night.

#1 - Fucking Hornets

I'm making some kind of video game with a lot of old friends (and a couple current), a guy I haven't seen since high school, and OpheliaBlue. Ophelia and the guy from high school are talking about adding some cinematic to the beginning of the game, so after we discuss how that would fit best they go off to start working on it. My friend O, still my current theory for who my dream guide is, starts talking about how we're going to do the opening credits, and he shows us what he has so far. I don't remember what they were, but I remember that they were pretty funny. But J gets all bitchy about the font size being too small, even though O hadn't actually tried to set it to what it would be in the game, he was just showing us the text. :T Oh yeah, also, we were doing all of this discussion in my bathroom, in front of the mirror lol. Possibly using the mirror as a screen to project things on, now that I think about it...? But anyway, J was standing kind of behind me, so when I turned around to listen to him talk I noticed that there was a gigantic map of the world behind him, one that was clearly not visible in the mirror. As he's talking, he pulls out a much smaller, handheld-sized, map and starts talking about some "red bee therapy" (which I take to mean red hornets) then comes and stands right behind me to try it out and says their are a bunch of the red hornets right behind the map, which he's holding up to my back. Hornets. Now, for those of you who don't know, I hate bugs. They're... soooo nasty. >_< But hornets especially, they're like my least favorite bug there is. So I'm freaked out at this point. I look down at the counter and see a pair of scissors, which I quickly grab, and say "J, get those things away from me right now, I'm not even kidding, I will fucking stab you." He backs off, but one of the hornets gets left behind my back (somehow... ) and I reach back there and feel it. I feel a sting and start running around freaking out, and I grab it and squeeze it to death, something I'd never do in real life but I was desperate , and I threw it down on a table and saw it dead, but then it CAME. BACK. TO LIFE. It's comically large and red with black stripes, and I grab a tissue box and start smashing it but even though it keeps getting nastier it never dies, and it's so gross it makes me feel like I have to puke, and I'm shaking. Then I woke up.

Thank god.

#2 - Fickle Emotions

I'm in high school in an English class that I never actually had, but it's boring so I leave to go find a different class, then pay that teacher $100 (two separate payments of $50) to let me be in her class instead. She shakes my hand and says "A gentlemens' agreement!" (More How I Met Your Mother references from my subconscious. ) But, she turns out to be a hard ass to the point that the other kids in the class are "troubled", like there's a guy not far from me to the right smoking weed in the middle of class, and the girl I sat down next to on my left is single and pregnant (but not visibly). However I learn through the course of the class that she's actually just a really nice girl and pretty cool, and I develop a little bit of a crush on her. I start messing with the teacher to make her laugh, and we end up getting along really well and she's even starting to act like she has a bit of a crush on me too, and it's so obvious that some of the guys in the class are visibly jealous. Somewhere down the line the teacher turns into my old Chinese class teacher and someone says something about him which gets me distracted, after which the girl just never shows up or is even thought about again. Class is over so I get up and walk around the hallways which turn into an enormous and clearly very expensive and high-end mall, and I'm trying to find my locker but it's too hard to navigate, I even pass through a jail cell on the way. I woke up after I found my way out of that lol.

#3 - Third-Person Control

O and I went to a head shop or something, and we saw someone getting arrested in the parking lot, so we quickly got in my car and drove off. While I'm driving, I notice that the accelerator keeps getting stuck, so I'm slamming the breaks to make the car slow down, but eventually it just goes faster and faster and faster until the car pulls up off the ground and we blast into the sky. But I became lucid at this point! I started steering us around the city, as we were in a downtown area with lots of tall buildings so it was fun just zooming around in our rocket car. Before too long I notice that my vision is steadily narrowing down to a very small area and I'm afraid that the dream is going to end if it gets all the way down to a dot, so I consciously switch it to third-person perspective control, which still feels like first-person. (Kind of hard to explain.) It worked for a little bit, though! My full view of the city was restored, and I could see that the car actually had turned into a plane. I start flying off to the side of my vision so that my camera angle moves over and we transition from the city to a mountain range, and the sky starts turning dark blue, so in order to keep the dream changing (rather than ending) I kept up. I had the mountains be just dunes in the background with the sky being underwater, and I transformed the plane into a fish, and I just swam around in the water a little bit, but then I finally woke up. :/ Oh well, it was fun!

So that's it for this entry. I'm definitely happy with the number of lucids I'm getting lately, even if they're brief.

I was going to try this last night, but it didn't work. I don't know if I'm just not compatible with the technique or if my girlfriend calling me in the middle of the night messed it up, so I'll try again tonight.

Anyway, about my dreams... I don't remember them much. I know they were all related to zombies/people trying to kill me/me having to hide. There was something a bit Metro 2033 (here) about them. I remember running a lot, I remember arguing with my girlfriend and a friend of ours, I remember running away from them and hiding in a store. In fact, I feel like I ran throughout all of my dreams last night.

Not exactly a peaceful night for me. Damn. Well, I might take a nap later, so... who knows, I could get lucky and have a lucid dream... or at least remember what I dreamt of.

FA Dream Within A Dream

I dreamed I had awakened from a dream with pictures of that dream. The pictures had me in them, but I was missing my head. I thought it had something to do with forgetting part of my dream.

I tried to remember the dream hoping that my head would appear if I could remember it. One of the pictures had an orange and white harlequin pattern which wasn't there before. I thought maybe I just hadn't noticed the pattern before, but then another picture had the same pattern behind me. I realized that I was dreaming the pattern into the background of the pictures from the dream I had falsely awakened from.

FA Dream Within A Dream

I dreamed I had awakened from a dream with pictures of that dream. The pictures had me in them, but I was missing my head. I thought it had something to do with forgetting part of my dream.

I tried to remember the dream hoping that my head would appear if I could remember it. One of the pictures had an orange and white harlequin pattern which wasn't there before. I thought maybe I just hadn't noticed the pattern before, but then another picture had the same pattern behind me. I realized that I was dreaming the pattern into the background of the pictures from the dream I had falsely awakened from.

Madness guides seem to be a good term for them, even if the word was never mentioned...
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I am in a dark courtyard, there is a fence around the edge. There are 5 stone statues around a central node, arranged like this:
1OO5
.2O4
...3

This song is playing:

Specifically the part where the vocals come in

The statues depict what I described in the dream as demons, I am to choose one. I study their energy and find my attention pulled strongly to #2, and less strongly to #5. I walk up to statue #2.

(Etna)
This is basically what I see, she had a less revealing outfit on than appears in the Disgaea games, and her tongue wasn't sticking out... come to think of it, she was taller... so maybe it was just the succubus?

I glance at #5, a woman with bunny ears... I choose #2, and begin waking up.

I see #2 sitting at a table, with a manly chin, manly stubble, a manly body, eating a manly sandwich before I fully awake. (Lol)

I wake up and ponder what just happened to me, I eventually think of the term Madness Guide... well I can always use another guide, so I'll take it.

Good morning, everybody.

Sorry I haven't been around in a while. My waking life kind of toppled over for a bit. But I think I'm getting back to normal.

Dream #1

I was talking with my psychiatrist. She looked kind of weird, like her eyes were close together and really tiny, but wide open, like she was shocked. Her hair was also very pale, almost dirty blonde.

I was telling my psychiatrist about some experience I'd had, which had seemed to me to be bilocation. I may have remembered something about one version of myself standing near a missile that lay on the ground, while the other version of myself was somewhere else.

My psychiatrist told me that she remembered the events surrounding the date on which I'd had this experience. She said that we had been making good progress in our sessions. She said that on that particular day, she'd touched on something sensitive in my life.

So, my psychiatrist said, it was pretty natural that I'd have some kind of weird experience. It was a reaction, a resistance, against the sensitived issue that my psychiatrist had brought up. I'd probably also felt like my experience was bilocation for a reason -- something to do with the sensitive issue.

Ok so this was a really short dream. I remember telling my dad who was in the living room to watch a music video (I forget the name though). I walked into the kitchen for no particular reason. I walked pass the living room and I ask him if he liked the music video. He said It was good and that i should watch the new video by Drive Shaft (witch is a fake band from the TV show Lost). He then told me to read the words that show up at the beginning because the lead singer thought he was being abducted by aliens. I was walking up to my room when my alarm clock went off so i never got to see the video. This dream made no sense at all.

I haven't remembered my dreams for a couple of nights, I've been kind of tired and probably a bit ill. I didn't think it worth the trouble to report every time I don't remember anything. Tonight I had at least one rather clear dream that I do remember, though. It didn't really take any effort to remember it, so I think effort is not what I'm missing. Maybe it was the cold...

I'm hiking on a hill or a small mountain and there is a castle, or maybe a fort, on top of it. On my side of the castle there is just a wall, but on the far side there is a small tower. I'd like to get a good picture of the castle but there are trees blocking the view. My brother is there and I guess he says to go around to the right side, a bit of the path. he also tells me I need to overcome my ego-defending self. I walk along the right side of the castle repeating as a mantra the part about the ego-defending self, and keep an eye out for a good place to take the picture.

I would like to walk around the castle but when I get to the end of the castle, the wall continues as the wall of a modern apartment building. Clearly the castle has been extended lately. There is a picket fence surrounding the yard of the first floor apartments, and I need to go around. Around the fence, on my path, there are three hog-like creatures, two adults and a piglet. I'm a bit scared but they don't seem very menacing. Then I notice a large cat-like creature, something between a large lynx and a huge cat. I think it might have been hunting the pigs.

It approaches and I kick it. Not very hard, I'm not sure what it wants but I don't want it close. I'm wearing my hiking boots so it probably would hurt to be kicked by them. It's a bit startled, but decides to approach again. I interpret the approach as an attack, again, and kick it again. It runs around me and disappears. I look at the pigs and the look at me.