non-lucid

After my WBTB it took me a little while to get back to sleep.

1. First dream I remember at all I was walking in a neighborhood that I lived in when I was growing up. I missed the street I lived on but realized I was dreaming and woke up pretty much at the same time.

2. I was with my wife, dad and step-mother. My wife was talking to them about my lucid dreaming (she still thinks its weird). She was saying how it was a little strange and we were all standing around this box. The box had a little lizard head poking out of it. My wife is deathly afraid of lizards and could hardly bare to watch. As I was concentrating on the box the lizard head got bigger and bigger. After a little bit the lizard came out of the box but was some kind of large, lizard/caterpillar/mouse hybrid. It had the head of a lizard and at least 6 to 8 legs and walked like a mammal and a kind of mouse tail. It ran up my arm and I experienced dream pain. It didn't hurt just felt like pressure I guess is the best way to describe it. It wrapped itself around my lower arm and my skin kind of absorbed it and it vanished. This made me do a RC and I did a very thorough one since I wanted to be SURE I was dreaming. I sure enough counted 6 or 7 fingers on one hand. LUCID: I though of the foreign language task but then decided to do eyeball task. I turned toward my dad and put my fingers around my right eye ball. He immediately began to back away disturbed at the sight. I really focused on this and in my right eye I could see like white light shooting around blackness, kind of like when you push on your eye a bit in waking life. I was trying to get my fingers in deep enough to reach the back of my eye ball to pull it out. I didn't seem to be getting deep enough to get leverage to pull it out and began to get frustrated. The frustration caused me to wake up.

3. This one was very long and vivid. I was with my daughter and I took her to work. I was going to be gone for several months and I talked to my wife who asked when she would be coming home, I told her I wasn't sure. I didn't even know how I was going to get her home really. I was supposed to make sure some training was going on but I had to find where the classroom was. I was a long way from the class room and took a few wrong turns to get there. I found an elevator and went up in it (of course I never got in one last month at all), when I got to the top I realized I went one or two floors higher than I was supposed to so I took the stairs down. I think my daughter was still with me at this point but not a large factor in the story at this point. I went down flight of stairs and tried to go into a door. Someone was working on the other side of the door and I couldn't go through. I said this was find and went down another set of stairs. I ended up giving up on this and wound up back in my room with my daughter (still at work). I put her down for a nap and went to get some food from the cafeteria. I ran into another guy I used to work with and he had his family with him. It had seemed like I was gone for a long time and I remembered that if my daughter woke up and I wasn't there she would be very upset. I got back to the room quickly and I could hear her crying. I got her from the room and took her out to the living room area where there were a bunch of toys. Somehow the room I was in transitioned to the cab of a truck that I was driving down the road. I was more riding in the truck and not driving, there were a bunch of pillows and toys spread all over (like a living room almost). I saw a policeman coming down the road and I was worried that he would see that her seat-belt wasn't on. I had her sit and we pretended to be buckled in. The cop car passed us and I realized in front of us that there was a sideways car that we were approaching quickly, I sat in the drivers seat and pulled into the dirt median next to us to avoid the sideways car. As I began passing the sideways car I realized it was still moving down the road and I wasn't passing it but staying even. The dirt was hard to drive on and I began to lose control, the sideways car straightened up and I pulled back over to the road. I did a RC and became LUCID: I looked out the car window and thought of jumping out and the traffic and my daughter, I convinced myself again this was a dream and hopped out of the window while the truck was cruising down the road. I landed right on my feet and was facing oncoming traffic. There was a truck coming right at me and as it approached I barely kicked the bumper and it flew backwards onto the car behind it. I was pretty proud I was able to do this with ease. I then thought of the word in another language task and looked for someone. Behind me a bus was pulled over and a girl was coming out of it. She had long dark hair and I ran up to her and asked her to tell me a foreign word, I wasn't sure if this sentence came out clearly (I thought I might have slurred it), but she understood me. I cant remember the exact word but it started with F and had some Rs in it, something like Farrer or Fourier, it sounded very foreign when she said it. As soon as she said it she was walking away and I followed. I repeated the word and she said 'yes', I then ask her what it meant (still following) and lost the dream.

So close!!

Hey I'm getting better at this recall thing! 2 dreams recalled last night, even if they were a little fragmented.

Cigar Gift (ND)

I found myself in some sort of banquet room, sitting at a table with my mom's cousin Mike, his daughter Rachel, one of my past clients Kevin, and a friend of his. Apparently Kevin's friend was loaded, because he gave each of us a a gift bag that had multiple little cigar "gift packs" inside of them. Inside each package there are 3 small cigars that have a wrapper that says "Cohiba," and smell absolutely delicious; like a mixture of vanilla and honey. There is also an exquisite, hand carved, wooden cigar tube, and several plastic tie bags for what I assume would be unfinished cigars. I think its important to note that I am not a cigar smoker, and am absolutely floored to find out that cohiban cigars are actual authentic cubans.

The container is also lined with white silk, and underneath that there seems to be some odd, forgotten items, like cheap tea bags and some small candies. Someone else walks up to the table, I forget who exactly but I have the feeling I know them well, and I invite them to come outside and share a cigar with me. Mike and Rachel get up to come with, and I wake up.


House Sitting (ND)

It seems as if I'm house sitting the neighbor's house two doors down from where my parents live. The house is much larger than I remember, with the entire interior changed. The only thing that seems normal is the outside view. well this would have been a perfect opportunity for a RC... oops I don't remember why I am here, but I hear a strange knock on the front door, which frightens me. I run to one of the windows to look outside and see who it is, and the house is so large that it seems if all the windows are able to face the front door. reality check #2 possibility... oops It takes me so long to get to a window, that by the time I am there, the person is gone. I walk around the house some more and look out the windows that face my parents house. These windows are open, and I can feel a nice, cool breeze coming through. I get a little chilly and look down to realize why I was so nervous to answer the door to begin with. I am completely naked.

Im starting to form a consistent sleep schedule, so my recall should stay consistent as well and it will become easier to lucid.
Anywho, here are my dreams from last night. I will now try to put my dreams in order from those which happened first to those which happened last.

1. I was with my class, and we were walking next to a really large body of water, maybe an ocean? The water was almost a teal color, with green being the more dominant in the mixture. I somehow got into the water and realized,"Wow this is about 15-20 feet deep". I tried swimming back up, but I couldn't. There I was, under almost 20 feet of water, not being able to surface. I got really uneasy, but not enough to know that I was about to die. I stood at the bottom of this body of water, trying to figure out a way to get out.
I was running out of breath, and about to drown. Soon, my body was out of oxygen and I had to breathe. I breathed in ocean water. I could breathe! But I had a lot of difficulty breathing, but none the less it was happening. I became semi-lucid but at this point I still had a little fear in me for some reason. At this point, the dream ended.

2. It was really cold, and me and a couple of friends were hanging outside, next to an almost frozen river. My friends Ryan, Jared, and Brittany were with me, and even a few other friends that I dont remember. We were about to head into this half frozen river, but we were waiting on a group of people ahead of us to cross it first. It was like some kind of course that we were completing.
Once the other group made it across, we started on our way. I remember everyone being in canoes, but we wouldn't be able to use them right because of the fact of how the river was almost frozen. Ice was forming on the surface. I got out of my canoe and got on a platform of rocks that had a level surface. I was the only one in front, everyone else was behind me. I dived into the water and starting swimming. I could feel the ice cold water around my body as I broke through the ice on the surface.
The ice was still thin though, so I could break it pretty easily, almost effortless. I continued swimming but I had alot of trouble(Im not a good swimmer in real life). I remember my friend ryan having broken legs or something and he was right behind me, swimming at the same pace. I gave it my all and kept pushing forward. Eventually I made it to the other side were an opening in some type of cave was. It wasnt a cave, but more like a small building crafted into the side of this mountain/giant rock. I climbed out of the water and grabbed onto some rocks. I then climbed up onto the ledge of this building formation and proceeded inside.
"Wow" I thought, "Im really bad at swimming and Im the first one here. My friend Ryan was close behind me and soon climbed up too, and I helped him get up inside and over the ledge. My god, he had something wrong with his leg and he made it to this room second. We waited on everyone else and while we did, I looked around the place. It looked like something out of Halo (a game). It was all silver/shiny gray on the walls and floor. There were a system of lines on the walls the went around the entire room.
Our friends were approaching the building. Ryan had gotten some type of claw type things, which were blue, that could grab onto stuff. We attached these to the ledge and everyone started climbing up. It was like a grappling hook in a way.

3. I was inside of a big grocery store. I was in the middle section of the store with my family. I "knew" that I had been to this grocery store multiple times so it was nothing unusual. The aisle we were on had snap backs on it, so I decided to take a look because I've been needing a new one for a while now. I saw a gray snap back which was the exact same size as my green snapback, and it had the one up mushroom on it from Mario as well. I also saw an exact replica of my old snapback, it was like a copy.
I picked it up and compared it to my old hat, they were practically the same except for mine was dirty from years of wear and tear. I ended up picking out the grey one and asked my dad if I could get it. He said yes but he'd rather that I got a hat that was a mix of a hat with a beanie(you know, those beanies that have bills). I though about WHY I would need that, considering the fact we live in Texas and its almost never that cold here. I went to go look at these weird beanies and after a thorough inspection of them, I decided to ignore what my dad had told me. I tried one of the beanies on and looked in the mirror- I looked stupid. So I passed on getting a beanie and stayed with my gray hat.
We started walking to the checkout and I think we went through it and bought my hat, but all I remember for sure was walking out and on the way passing some black guy. He told me that he was about to blow up the store. I just continued walking out, because I was leaving anyway. Me and my family got to "our: car, which was a REALLY small white compact sedan. It was SO small I have no idea how I fit inside, or even more- how we ALL fit inside. I got in the drivers seat because my mom told me I was driving.
I put my seatbelt on and put the car in reverse after everyone got in. I then backed out and started driving towards the exit of the parking lot. As I put my foot on the brake, I realized that my foot could barely reach it, and that I had to stretch to get to it. Im not short, and being 5'10 I should've been able to reach it with no problem at all, and even then, this was a compact car so I dont see how this made sense. I then looked around and noticed that all of my mirrors were off and so I couldnt really see much of who was behind me. I remember stopping at a stop sign and that was the end.

4. I was inside of a school library, and I had been here before. It was huge and there were really tall shelves with books in them(Ive always wanted to read a book in a dream just to see what happens). I went over to the middle section of the library were there were some rather short book shelves. My family was with me. I went to grab a book from the top shelf and to my luck, all of the books from the top shelf fell off and onto all of the other books.
Fortunately, the books landed rather nicely and in a pile on top of other books, so it wasn't a complete mess. I didn't worry about it. However, an old man in what looked like his 60's or 70's came by and was furious about what I had done. He didn't work in the library, just a regular old dude. He came over to me and start blabbering off and complaining. I could tell he was really mad. The Librarian came over and told the old guy to calm down, and that it wasn't a big deal.
Soon, he just walked away, but he was still mad. I continued looking at books and my mom was looking at some too. I remember walking around this school, but I forgot alot about that part.

5. I was in someones back yard I think, and it was really swampy. The entire back yard was filled in about 3 inches of water all around. I had my vans on and had been walking around with my sister back there. I was still a little upset about my vans, but it was whatever. As we continued walking around, we encountered two rather large chickens. They were pretty hairy and were about 5 times bigger than the average chicken. They had sharp beaks too(Now that I think about it, they more resembled a giant turkey mixed with a vulture).
They trotted their way towards me, and the bigger one started trying to attack me. I had a big object in my hand, so I used it to separate me and the turkey thing. This went on for about a minute or so, and after this the dream ended I think.

6. I was inside of someones house, and the owner was throwing a party. It was all people my age, everyone was around 16, 17, or 18. Someone had brought in a new drug, one that I had never seen before or heard of. I went inside of the living room and watched an informational video about this drug, which alot of people in the house were on.
As I watched the video, it described the effects of the drug, and what it did to the body. At one point in the video, the narrator said that the drug made whatever poop that you had in your body, swell up inside of your intestines. He also said it made you throw up poop as well- while it was inflated or whatever. This was the definite point where I decided I would pass on this drug and not do it.
After the video ended, I walked around the house, just waiting for too see the effect the drug had on people who had taken it. As I expected, the people who took the drug, started throwing up their own poop. Other people started taking a crap in the middle of the floor, and their poop was bigger than a football(I know, this is really gross, but hey gotta record the dream lol). I remember coming across one dude with red hair, a little chunky. He was throwing up the worst, constantly hurling his own poop out of his body from both his mouth and his a**hole. It was really nasty, and I was really glad that I didn't take the drug.

No LDs yet but I can feel that the things I learn from ETWOLD will without any doubt yield a better insight in lucid dreaming. So far I'm on page 75 and I'm almost done with the WILD-chapter which has shed some light on things I didn't understand.

1. What about me?

I'm in my own room getting out of bed and I see some of my family walking around eating fries and I ask them where mine are. I get told to get my own, quickly I make my way to my sister's bedroom which suddenly is the place where an old man sells fries. He's not in the room when I'm looking around but somehow I find a small box that has fries in it. It's not a lot and I'm almost annoyed by the fact but I eat the little amount anyway.

2. Run!

I'm flying around somewhere in Austria and see a lot of people, a ton of them. They are with millions scattered in large groups throughout the whole region, on, around and at the base of the mountains. And there's a beast hunting them, it's bigfoot. The beast can run extremely fast and devours humans in their entirety, swallowing them like a sausage. Suddenly I'm on the ground and for some reason have the guts to go near it, it doesn't seem to be too smart as I can get quiet close without it even seeing me. But then it suddenly starts chasing me and my visions gets all red and stuff. Then I look down on myself and find out I'm actually a red T-rex...
I'm back viewing everything from the air and see the beast heading up to the higher parts of the mountains where people have gathered. The people aren't very detailed and merely coloured dots from the clothing they wear. Suddenly I descent into a secret military bunker/HQ and I get a weird and at the same time comedic introduction to the team that has to locate and kill the beast. Suddenly it's time to begin the hunt and I see some soldiers getting into pods that will get them to the surface. When one soldiers gets of the pod on some floor of the base and another one wants to, the other one's elevator malfunction and he panicks in an extremely comedic way. He then gets crushed between the elevator and the floor which I don't see but I can hear the sound of flesh and bone being squeezed. I slightly start to question the fact if this is funny or not.

3. Are you joking me?

I have an FA and get out of bed without any DR, make my way down stairs where I find my mother cooking diner. She asks me if I still enjoy the work I put into my (lucid) dreaming and is worried because she thinks I might not be able to stop it. My sister joins the conversation and tells me it's something crazy people do, then they tell me I talked in my sleep. During this conversation I had my plate in my hand and my mother put vegetables and tuna on it, a piece of tuna fell in the vegetables and she put it back on my plate. I suddenly remember a passage of ETWOLD saying that we only sleeptalk/walk in the second phase of our sleep and thus while we're not fully dreaming yet. I tell this to them and also tell them I didn't remember any dreams this night, only darkness. This calmed them and I ate my diner, shortly after I woke up.

At first when I woke up I only remembered the first two dreams but after following ETWOLD's advice of questioning yourself what you dreamed I suddenly remembered the third dream.

You know, I decided to include a plan for next night each entry as this is suggested in the book and I think it will help with setting up my intentions. I will probably keep doing this until I get lucid frequent enough which is atleast 1 LD per night. Another reason why I decided to do this is because when I'm in bed I'm usually still thinking about what my strategy will be which keeps me awake and makes me feel uncertain about my chances.

Plan for next night:

-Auto-suggest waking up after dreams

-Using the 'counting to sleep' technique as described in ETWOLD which is basicly an addition to DEILD

-ARCHIEVE LUCIDITY

5/6 August

I was in what i thought was my living room with 3 people who I don't know
One girl who was very small was holding onto a metal hula hoop, shaped like a steering wheel or a "peace sign" and was being pulled by another girl around the room
The third girl who was quite fat decided she wanted to get pulled along as well
She dived down and grabbed the hoop
The girl pulling it was able to pull it a few meters before she couldn't pull it more because of how heavy the big girl was
The big girl was sad
The little girl climbed inside a suitcase and said we were going to play hide and seek in here
I automatically waited ten seconds then opened the suitcase and looked for her
There was many zip pockets inside the suitcase
After I opened a few a small arm popped out of one and threw a few cards at me
She climbed out of the case
I opened the room door and was upstairs
My living room isn't upstairs, and this room was where my bedroom was
I went down the stairs and sat on the sofa in the real living room
My sister came in to the room with a bottle of water
She sat down on the other sofa
Once she had finished the bottle she throw at me
I said "what the hell" and she said since i used the bottle first, it was my responsibility
I actually did have a bottle in my real world room which i had filled up with water but there was no reason for my sister to have it
I threw it back at her
It went back and forth many times until i got very pissed off at her
I walked over to her with the bottle in hand and said "if you don't Piss off, i will piss in this bottle and force you to drink it"
I woke up immediately after that
It was really out of character for me to make a threat so stupid, especially to my sister
It was however very standard of my sister to try and blame things she was responsible for on other people

Good morning, Dreamviews. Lots of dreams and fragments last night, but in particular:

2:33 AM: I am trying to win my ex-girlfriend back. I know she will be on a tour of this castle (she is thinking of buying it as a home) so I plan to be there as well and also take the tour. I am somehow under the impression that we planned to take this tour together, but when she shows up, she sees me and then looks away, as though she is pretending I am not there. She tells the guide she is here for her tour. I think about staying quiet and just leaving, but then decide to speak up. I tell the tour guide I would also like to take the tour. She seems uncomfortable now.

We head up through the castle, until we finally get to a section with a garden walkway and a well. At this point, my ex's mom puts her hands under my shirt and rests them on my torso. Her hands are cold and I squirm. She tells me it feels like I have been working out. I assure her I haven't been She then comments to my ex that "she might as well hold hands with the guy who is trying to win her back." We hold hands, but I am now conscious of her crying quietly. Very odd dream, Dreamviews! Any ideas?

9:52 AM: I am in my mom's dining room. My wife and one of her friends is here. A kid suddenly shows up. He looks a bit odd but I seemingly mistake him for a former coworker. We begin discussing a dream group. I tell him his brother has already signed up, and that he should as well. We talk a bit about lucid dreaming. He says "A girl I work with does that stuff."

"Have you talked to her about it? I ask.

"Nah, she is too thick," he replies.

I ask him what he means. He then replies in a bunch of mumbo-jumbo, and then salutes me. I find this exceedingly odd, but don't want to be impolite. I ask him how he is enjoying his job. He tells me he has only been there a few weeks.

"Aren't you still working for the zoo?" I ask.

He now looks oddly at me. "Who do you think I am?" All of a sudden, I notice he is not my friend and I nose pinch.I can breathe, but all of a sudden, I go deaf! I am now uncertain of my status--is this a dream? I look at my hand: it is wobbly and weird, but when I look again, it is stable and normal. I show my hand to my wife, as though to say, "Look! What do you see??" She ignores me and continues her conversation. I decide to settle this once and for all. I set off down the hallway to find some text. However, I do so discreetly, so in the case that I am not dreaming, I don't act like a nut in front of everyone. I accidentally bump my wife's shoulder as I pass her and I wake up.

So competition goers, I'm asking you guys: was I lucid? I wrote it down in my paper DJ as a lucid immediately upon waking, but I don't want to take advantage of the system! Let me know what you think!

4/5 august
Normally i don't Eat dinner with my family, i take it up to my room and eat it while watching youtube videos.
I was sitting at a dinner table in a huge room with my family and a homeless man who was sitting at the other side of the table to me
My mum put out the food on the table
When we finished eating our food my mum said "Its time for salad"
I don't eat salad and there would be no reason to eat salad after the meal
The homeless man was shocked that we could eat so much, as he had never eaten so much in his life
I felt very sorry for the homeless man
I woke up

August 6, 2014

My rating 4/5

This dream I was mainly underground in a scary series of tunnel that was haunted by something. First, we would drop down into the tunnels going down an old rusty ladder down a square shaft in the ground. The ground had water covering mainly the middle of it, like a little stream formed, with the dirt closer to the walls that was not submerged. We began walking gown the tunnels, seeing strange things and more tunnels that branch off in different ways. I found an old alligator skeleton in a small dent in the walls, i eventually came across a room with a bunch of shirts in it and most of them had a creepy picture of an eye on them. Then i was instantly at the starting point of the tunnel again, walking through the maze of dirt and puddles, seeing strange mud formations, and finally making it back to the room with the shirts, this time they all had a picture of an eye and the all were facing one specific spot.

+ this dream is not all together in my head but it was a pretty cool setting, wish i could remember more. I was at an old castle at night, with a group of 2 people, and we were trying to defend ourselves from these strange birdlike creatures that were all over the castle grounds. Like being trapped in a haunted house except there are tons of evil live creatures trying to kill us. I remember the last part if it, being outside the main building but still within the outer walls of the castle. Fge castle was tall, had lots of gates, and faded yellow bricks with s little bit of green moss or something growing in the cracks of it. We are making our escape to the main gate but before we get there we see the bird/demon creatures. I take out a handmade arrow with a deer bone tip and we advance. The drop down and begin attacking, and i get one of them with the arrow by stabbing with it in my hand.

+this dream i was going to the movies with my brother, and we get in the theater and take a seat, it is very dark in here. I don't remember the movie but after apparently is was done we got up and left

+ i was in a certain school setting I've been in a few times in my dreams before, and was walking around a room full of people trying to find one of my friends. The room had bright colors on the walls such as red,orange, and green, and the carpet was colorful too. My friend walked over to me and took out his guitar which had a weird shaped head on it, and he started playing it. Then i woke for good.

This time, on the toilet at work. Barely even 2 minutes in, my mind started to drift all over to things I was doing earlier in the day. I was watching a video of some crazy mountain bikers riding down mountain spines and doing back flips off huge jumps on the mountain.

Suddenly, it takes a turn into fiction, and I see the announcer before me speaking into the microphone as he looks at me through the camera. "Unfortunately, he killed his daughter..."

The camera cuts to a mountain biker in mid-air half way through a back flip. He lands it a little rough, but no one seemed hurt. Then he becomes pregnant, and in the next moment, the baby girl is on the handle bars, and then flies off the bike in front of him from the force of the landing and hits the ground.

Mid exclamation, "Holy Shi-" I wake up, still on the john.

Maybe lasted about 10 seconds. Longest duration yet.

Dream - Lucid

I was in a very large room with many people. The walls were a cream color. We were singing in some sort of choir. I was standing towards the front, and turned around to look behind me. There were people ducking and screaming.
"It's a bat!!" I heard someone scream.
I then saw a bat swoop down behind me. I was trying to get away from it myself, when it landed on my hand and bit me. It left three small puncture wounds on my hand. I was panicking a bit, because I knew I needed to go to the hospital.

There was more to this one, but I can't quite recall.

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I was working in a jewelry store. I went to open shop. I got there, and Rachel was there, too. Her parents owned the store (I worked for them at a coffee shop 7 years ago IWL). They were there as well.

The store opened, and a girl I knew in high school, Amanda, came inside. I think she was returning something. I thought about it, and thought I had heard that her fiance' was dead. I didn't say anything to her, but approached her and gave her a hug. She didn't hug back or say anything, but I wasn't offended. I finished hugging her and walked the other direction.

I then remembered that I had forgotten something at home. I asked Rachel's parents if I could run home and get it real quick. They said I could. I left the store.

Then, I saw this scene of a stag in a beautiful forest. He was sitting in a tall grassy area. Sunlight was peeking through the treetops, and everything it touched shimmered. I then saw some glowing thing. I do not know what else to call it but that. It was a round shape and was glowing in faint rainbow colors, but you could mainly see white. There was another one in the back room of the jewelry store too. I think it also acted as a portal. Rachel touched it, and turned into a scarecrow. She could then approach the stag. She stroked his fur, and he let her.

It then got to a point where I did the same thing. At first, I could see myself in third person being the scarecrow and approaching the stag. But then, it was first person, and I was stroking the stag's fur. At first, I was expecting him to run, but he didn't move a muscle. I started to speak with him. He spoke to me in a deep, male voice, talking about scarecrows and how we came to see him (he did not realize that all the scarecrows who had seen him were all different humans). We spoke of other things as well, though I can't remember.

Eventually, I went back to the jewelry store.

Then, I was shopping at a grocery store in the produce section. I was looking for grapefruit so I could eat it with my breakfast for a healthy kick. I saw these small fruits inside these circular holders, kind of like the ones cups are in at fast food restaurants. I went to pull one out, and it was cutting it into a square shape as I pulled it. I saw that it was a type of melon, so I decided I didn't want it. I went to put it back, but it wouldn't go back in now that it was cut; it kept sliding out. I then kept looking, and spotted a bigger white fruit in a similar holder, but I read the sign and saw it was cantaloupe. Ugh, why couldn't I find a grapefruit? Someone, a female I believe, came up to me and asked what I was looking for. I responded
"A melon. No, a cantaloupe. No, a grapefruit."
I think she showed them to me. I can't quite recall.

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I was laying in my room, but it was a part of a much different apartment than the one I'm living in currently; it actually seemed to be a mixture of my apartment and my dad's old practice. It had many rooms all lining the same hallway on either side. In fact, my old roommate, Cherie', still lived there. So did her boyfriend, Jeremiah. I was debating on whether or not I had time to get up and shower.

I then got up, and walked into a bathroom (there were a few bathrooms in this apartment). Jeremiah was in the shower. I got in with him and started washing my hair. We were laughing and having a good time. I think I put my arms around his neck. I noticed that the water was kinda cold. I guess he liked showers the way my husband likes them. I didn't mind the cold much (though I do IWL).

I then had to get out, I guess Cherie' was coming home and was going to shower with him. I had only washed my hair though, and still needed to shower more. I saw my reflection in a mirror of my hair. It was already dry, and looked very wavy and shiny. I figured I could get by with just shampooing my hair and it wouldn't be a big deal. I needed to wash my face, though. I couldn't get to my shower stuff anymore because Cherie' and Jeremiah were showering. So instead, I pretended that I had my bottle of face wash in my hand, and started to pump some on my finger. I felt nothing. I kept trying however; I put it on my face, rubbing it around. I felt it a little, but not much. It felt dry. Probably because it was.

I then walked by another room, which was actually an office. I saw a computer on a desk in there. It had a flowery background. Now that I think about it, it really resembled my dad's old office, though the furniture was switched around. I saw my therapist in there. She smiled and closed the door. I guess she was working. I think the bathroom I normally used was in there. Crap.

I then found myself showering in another bathroom in the apartment. I looked down and I was standing on a couch/lounge chair.



It looked similar to this, only it had two cushions instead of just the one, and had a curtain-type pattern on top of the navy blue.

I watched the water hit the chair.

I then was out of the shower, and approached a mirror in the bathroom. To my surprise, I was looking at the reflection of a young skinny guy with a white tank top on and short, dark dreads. I knew who I/he was in the dream. At this point, I became semi-lucid. I noticed that behind me, stood...me. When I moved in the mirror, the guy me moved, but the other me, the girl me, was moving of her own accord. This part was extremely vivid.

I then turned around and saw Cherie' was there too, but she also was a guy! She looked similar to me. I knew who she was supposed to be as well. I said to her
"I wonder if I have a penis."
I looked down to look. I didn't see a bulge. I did notice I was standing in a white bathtub though. I then pulled open my basketball shorts and saw...my vagina. I even saw my birthmark on my belly that I have IWL. Boo. No penis for me.
Cherie' then checked to see if she had one, and she did. She said, in her voice, I might add,
"I do. It's long enough to impregnante someone!" I saw a glimpse of it. It was hard. Damn, son. She was right.

Then, either I woke up, or lost my semi-lucidity.

~

I slept super well last night, and I know there were more dreams, but I can't remember them all right now. I just kept thinking about how I needed to sleep more. I was dog tired.

I didn't tell about the second hypno-session I did, because I had included recall, and was graced with the worst recall of the comp the following night - but knowing as it usually takes a day or two to seemingly do something - I have to consider it has to do with now having one of the best recalls of the comp. Maybe not many more points - but the dream from which I woke up at last is so clear - I could write 2/3 pages about it, with all sorts of details. So much that I feel like procrastinating on it and hope, I won't for so long as to forget again.

Dream #1: With two women, I know, and we are in preparation for a theatre show, getting into costume and make-up - and there's an obviously gay guy doing the ironing of a dress for me, and leaves the iron on too long and ruins it. He gets told off anyway - but I get a bit hysterical and holler at him - well - then everybody hates me, and I have to fall all over myself to apologize, the others are angry, he not so much. Actually he takes me to the side, and asks if I would like to take part in his pornography project. He gets out a smart-phone and shows me what he has in mind. I did dictate this dream - but I dictated - naa - won't describe this now, not that I don't delete it...
As I thought - I still see it all in my inner eye - two guys, one woman and hopefully red paint. I'll leave the rest up to your dirty imagination.
Ah - but that was it - don't know, how this would have gone on - but it didn't.

Dream #2: I find on the street a very expensive but ugly looking watch and think about if I should just sell it or try to find the owner and maybe get a bit of money for bringing it back. There's a jewellery/watch shop directly on the corner. A friend tells me, I should bring it back, rather, and I do. When we bring it in, it is suddenly something else, something which unfolds and then is a funk receiver or something other secret-service like. They let it disappear instantly and we don't get money for our niceness, are supposed to leave - so the friend of mine steals another three watches. But when we look at them - they neither have special effects, nor do they look valuable. Tough luck...

Dream #3: The old motive of moving into a flat - this time one with four rooms and four people already living there, but nobody seems to mind this, including me. It's set in a certain city, where I used to live for a while, and I can describe the house - something turn of last before last century, one side going out to the right middle of the city, the other side to the river, and there's a garden in front of that side. It's strange - on our level, like a balcony, second story. And in one scene I climb out the window to remove the excess snow there so we can see the river, and get stuck, and somebody has to rescue me from there. Then there is an older woman, maybe in her 50s, a bit on the crazy artist/late onset hippiness side, and she has a dog, which manifests out of a toy, hanging on the wall, and likes me a bit too much, won't leave my side. Also she loves knitted blankets and they are everywhere. There's the young gay guy from the prior dream there as well, with a depressed ex-boyfriend hanging out around him, to his displeasure, and another two woman live there. Most is about getting to know each other, showing each other things, like the toys, one woman creates and sells - nice little plastic figurines, which also form a puzzle for example. I tell them I will plant some datura stramonium on the balcony and they really love the idea! I have lots more little scenes - like me testing the sink, and finding it is not meant as kitchen sink, but some sort of old-style appliance, which nobody knows the original purpose of, and while trying to make coffee, I get to cleaning out the place, and it's not nice - in some sort of sieve I find what looks like rotting worms - I won't go further - but I know, how every cup and thing looked like, smelled etc. The gay guy was later wondering, if I might not be a man after all because he liked me - but nothing much comes of it. I'll stop it here - not patient enough.

Sorry I was gone these past few days, I was on an awful, awful dry spell.

So we have all heard of a false awakening, but what about a false falling asleep?

I was having a dream that my life had reverted to the year 2003, meaning that I was a small child once more. My subdivision looked a little bit different. All of the cars looked extremely square and boxy. (Not to say a lot of older cars look boxy.) But I mean these cars looked ridiculously square.
A false memory rolls in: Apparently this was not the same reality as the one that I had experienced in 2003, but I had simply traveled to a different one, and in this alternate world having the most boxy car was considered prestigious. Our neighbors had a rotating table on their yard with an extremely square car on it. The car looked something like a miniature box and was one large red cube with windshields, windows, wheels and a radiator on the front. They were trying to show off the square-ness of their car.
I get very excited at the thought of having many years of my life back, and forget about the boxy car fad. I begin thinking of things that I want to do differently in this new life. Just as I do, my mom comes outside, picks me up, and takes me inside to go to bed. As we walk inside I notice that the sun is setting. I lay down and notice how sleepy I feel.
Then I think to myself, maybe in this new life I can start lucid dreaming earlier. Lucid dreaming is supposed to be very easy for young children to learn as their dreams are of better quality, and their minds are more awake. I lay still and begin thinking to myself that I will lucid dream tonight.
After a minute I find myself in a 'lucid' dream. (It was kind of funny, because I knew that this was a dream relative to the boxy car reality, but I didn't know that the boxy car reality was in fact a dream.)
The dream is that I am in a city street. There are a bunch of large white cylinders of varying heights made of a metal like material juxtaposed in the street. There are no cars or dream characters anywhere from what I can tell. I begin thinking about what the cylinders might be. Perhaps they contain something. I approach and touch one. It feels cold, it is covered with condensation.
The city breaks away but all of the cylinders remain. I am now floating in reddish-black a void with the white cylinders still scattered about. They begin to drift in random directions. I begin to hear a screeching noise growing louder and louder.
False awakening. Back into my 2003 alternate reality bedroom. It is morning and the sun is shining through the windows. I lose recall for some time after that.
...
I am at my grandparents house with K. My grandparents want me to eat some strange new food, but I tell them I am not hungry.
...
I false awaken into my bedroom, and my heart is racing as if something time-sensitive is going on. I am being shook by someone. Manei is leaning over the side of my bed trying to get me up.
"Wake up, Hurry!"
"I'm awake!, I'm awake!, Stop that!"
"No! Wake up!"
"Oh!"
I look into her eyes for a moment then wake myself up.
...
I am on a beach. There is a terrace made of packed sand at the upper end of the beach with several small drainage creeks running into the sea. I realize that I am still dreaming and wake myself up once more.
...
Wheu! Not dreaming anymore.

NLD:
I'm outside a building I don't actually turn around to see but appears to be a train station. I have my bike with me and I'm planning to cycle home, but feel like I should show my train pass before I go anyway. I hang around in a fenced of area just over the road where a bus is due to arrive to replace a missing train, muttering under my breath about how poorly arranged this train station appears to be (I do this in real life, too!)

When the bus appears, I have to squeeze past to get to the door to show my ticket (thinking back, the location if the door means this bus was left hand drive) The conductor chap is puzzled by my explanation of why I'm showing him my ticket, and I feel like a chump for waiting around when it seems I needn't have bothered.

I go back across the road to get on my bike, noticing that it's just starting to get a bit dark, just enough that I'd rather have my lights on to avoid SMIDSY.

I reach over to get my helmet (hanging on the fence) and when I turn back my bike has been replaced by a large silver car (a Mondeo, I think) This doesn't phase me at all. (I have a memory of going to buy the car but I think this is a retrospective justification or an insert from a different dream) I get into the left hand side of the car and have to reach quite far forward to pull the door shut.

I think I ought to drive super gently because this is a new car and because I don't want to give Emma any excuse to criticise my driving. I briefly think that I should put my bike lights on, but remember that my bike is a car now and has headlights!

I head off on a dirt track, because it's too tight to turn around and take the obvious route home. I try to work out how to get from the dirt track to the main road and see several other cars on a parallel track looking like they know the way but I can't get to their track. I decide that I can just keep going on this track and that eventually it will turn into a residential area and beyond that will be a main road. I have to dodge a couple of mutters coming the other way at high speed. Just as the track gains tarmac, I catch up with a couple of other cars, who then look like they're turning off to the left into a race track. I can't resist joining them out of curiosity. I think this might be a prefect chance to satisfy my need for speed in a low risk environment.

Coming up the drive I have some difficulty with the gears, accidentally ending up in third at very low speed, then struggling with clutch control, feeling like a early as I hold up the car behind, given that I'm trying to drive impeccably.

I get to the track and park my car as out of the way as possible so I can find somebody in charge and find out what the costs are etc. They'd a sign up saying entrance is free, so I have a look over the fence to see what's going on. There are people racing around on skateboards, so I won't be able to drive today and I turn around to leave.

My car seems to have taken on board my desire to park out of the way and had shrunk down and transformed into a motorbike helmet. I briefly pounder the dream physics of getting into the car on is reduced form and turning around when the full sized firm would be overlapping with the building I parked next to. I turn the helmet sound and move it away from the building so that there won't be a conflict when it returns to full size.

I drive off on a tarmac road, following a series of junctions while trying to get a grip on this new car. There are a variety of controls around the steering wheel, one of which spears to be some kind of military device, but I can't work out what. There's a key for it in the driver's door pocket, and even the key has a little lock on it. I have no idea where the key for the key lock is. Also in the door pocket are some audio tapes, the car soars to have a take player, how quaint.

After following the road around a bit, I pull into a supermarket carpark over a huge speed bump. The car skids a coupe of times barely missing boards and other cars. I manage to react to the skids and avoid crashing, but only just. I think how it would be a good idea to find a nice open part of the carpark to practice, but it's a very small carpark. I head out passing an employee of the supermarket on the way out.

I wrestle with the gears again, the clutch send to be reluctant to grip at low speed and I think about what people will think about me buying a car without checking such basics. The dashboard of the car has lots of gizmos, glowing lights that react to my driving, a fuel consumption disk that shows me when in using too much, a radio that appears to be from my old Mondeo and is still tuned into my choice of station.

Fragment:
Discussing the former dream with my dad, then waking up to find I'm running late because I turned my alarm off instead of snoozing!

SammyTheSnake

12:35 a.m.

I was waiting for a jeepney along the street. Not sure where. I felt somehow it's in Bacolod, near the North Terminal area. I was going to the Libertad area. There were a lot of jeeps but none of what I want. The mood seems a bit gloomy, but not cloud or rainy.

Finally, when I found one (that goes through "Sandayan", which I "saw" as near Libertad), a lot of people ran for it, mostly working adult males. A kid tried to ride as well. He asked if someone will let him set on their lap (which is usual for kids so they get free fare, but usually done with parents). I pointed out instead to a small gap in the seats, and the other adults pointed it out as well, but he refused, wanting only to get a free ride.

NOTES:

- I used 26-minute meditation by Sam Harris.
- I used Subliminal 2.0 after as I fall asleep (I didn't notice when it finished as I fell asleep already).
- I went to sleep around 6:30 a.m.

Dream
False Awakening

I was playing counter strike but against aliens in space during an invasion on Earth. I was awping and so were they. Eventually, we planted a C4 near one of the black holes they had. When the bomb exploded, their mothership got destroyed. I then watched endings of Golden Sun. This happened twice and each ending was different. The black hole was close to Earth so it made alternative realities, which is why there were separate endings. I woke up and my alarm was off and I had not service on my phone. I started writing down my dream and the beginning part said Megan was part of the dream. Then I really woke up
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I was with Tim working on the job at an airport.