non-lucid

No LDs yet but I can feel that the things I learn from ETWOLD will without any doubt yield a better insight in lucid dreaming. So far I'm on page 75 and I'm almost done with the WILD-chapter which has shed some light on things I didn't understand.

1. What about me?

I'm in my own room getting out of bed and I see some of my family walking around eating fries and I ask them where mine are. I get told to get my own, quickly I make my way to my sister's bedroom which suddenly is the place where an old man sells fries. He's not in the room when I'm looking around but somehow I find a small box that has fries in it. It's not a lot and I'm almost annoyed by the fact but I eat the little amount anyway.

2. Run!

I'm flying around somewhere in Austria and see a lot of people, a ton of them. They are with millions scattered in large groups throughout the whole region, on, around and at the base of the mountains. And there's a beast hunting them, it's bigfoot. The beast can run extremely fast and devours humans in their entirety, swallowing them like a sausage. Suddenly I'm on the ground and for some reason have the guts to go near it, it doesn't seem to be too smart as I can get quiet close without it even seeing me. But then it suddenly starts chasing me and my visions gets all red and stuff. Then I look down on myself and find out I'm actually a red T-rex...
I'm back viewing everything from the air and see the beast heading up to the higher parts of the mountains where people have gathered. The people aren't very detailed and merely coloured dots from the clothing they wear. Suddenly I descent into a secret military bunker/HQ and I get a weird and at the same time comedic introduction to the team that has to locate and kill the beast. Suddenly it's time to begin the hunt and I see some soldiers getting into pods that will get them to the surface. When one soldiers gets of the pod on some floor of the base and another one wants to, the other one's elevator malfunction and he panicks in an extremely comedic way. He then gets crushed between the elevator and the floor which I don't see but I can hear the sound of flesh and bone being squeezed. I slightly start to question the fact if this is funny or not.

3. Are you joking me?

I have an FA and get out of bed without any DR, make my way down stairs where I find my mother cooking diner. She asks me if I still enjoy the work I put into my (lucid) dreaming and is worried because she thinks I might not be able to stop it. My sister joins the conversation and tells me it's something crazy people do, then they tell me I talked in my sleep. During this conversation I had my plate in my hand and my mother put vegetables and tuna on it, a piece of tuna fell in the vegetables and she put it back on my plate. I suddenly remember a passage of ETWOLD saying that we only sleeptalk/walk in the second phase of our sleep and thus while we're not fully dreaming yet. I tell this to them and also tell them I didn't remember any dreams this night, only darkness. This calmed them and I ate my diner, shortly after I woke up.

At first when I woke up I only remembered the first two dreams but after following ETWOLD's advice of questioning yourself what you dreamed I suddenly remembered the third dream.

You know, I decided to include a plan for next night each entry as this is suggested in the book and I think it will help with setting up my intentions. I will probably keep doing this until I get lucid frequent enough which is atleast 1 LD per night. Another reason why I decided to do this is because when I'm in bed I'm usually still thinking about what my strategy will be which keeps me awake and makes me feel uncertain about my chances.

Plan for next night:

-Auto-suggest waking up after dreams

-Using the 'counting to sleep' technique as described in ETWOLD which is basicly an addition to DEILD

-ARCHIEVE LUCIDITY

5/6 August

I was in what i thought was my living room with 3 people who I don't know
One girl who was very small was holding onto a metal hula hoop, shaped like a steering wheel or a "peace sign" and was being pulled by another girl around the room
The third girl who was quite fat decided she wanted to get pulled along as well
She dived down and grabbed the hoop
The girl pulling it was able to pull it a few meters before she couldn't pull it more because of how heavy the big girl was
The big girl was sad
The little girl climbed inside a suitcase and said we were going to play hide and seek in here
I automatically waited ten seconds then opened the suitcase and looked for her
There was many zip pockets inside the suitcase
After I opened a few a small arm popped out of one and threw a few cards at me
She climbed out of the case
I opened the room door and was upstairs
My living room isn't upstairs, and this room was where my bedroom was
I went down the stairs and sat on the sofa in the real living room
My sister came in to the room with a bottle of water
She sat down on the other sofa
Once she had finished the bottle she throw at me
I said "what the hell" and she said since i used the bottle first, it was my responsibility
I actually did have a bottle in my real world room which i had filled up with water but there was no reason for my sister to have it
I threw it back at her
It went back and forth many times until i got very pissed off at her
I walked over to her with the bottle in hand and said "if you don't Piss off, i will piss in this bottle and force you to drink it"
I woke up immediately after that
It was really out of character for me to make a threat so stupid, especially to my sister
It was however very standard of my sister to try and blame things she was responsible for on other people

Good morning, Dreamviews. Lots of dreams and fragments last night, but in particular:

2:33 AM: I am trying to win my ex-girlfriend back. I know she will be on a tour of this castle (she is thinking of buying it as a home) so I plan to be there as well and also take the tour. I am somehow under the impression that we planned to take this tour together, but when she shows up, she sees me and then looks away, as though she is pretending I am not there. She tells the guide she is here for her tour. I think about staying quiet and just leaving, but then decide to speak up. I tell the tour guide I would also like to take the tour. She seems uncomfortable now.

We head up through the castle, until we finally get to a section with a garden walkway and a well. At this point, my ex's mom puts her hands under my shirt and rests them on my torso. Her hands are cold and I squirm. She tells me it feels like I have been working out. I assure her I haven't been She then comments to my ex that "she might as well hold hands with the guy who is trying to win her back." We hold hands, but I am now conscious of her crying quietly. Very odd dream, Dreamviews! Any ideas?

9:52 AM: I am in my mom's dining room. My wife and one of her friends is here. A kid suddenly shows up. He looks a bit odd but I seemingly mistake him for a former coworker. We begin discussing a dream group. I tell him his brother has already signed up, and that he should as well. We talk a bit about lucid dreaming. He says "A girl I work with does that stuff."

"Have you talked to her about it? I ask.

"Nah, she is too thick," he replies.

I ask him what he means. He then replies in a bunch of mumbo-jumbo, and then salutes me. I find this exceedingly odd, but don't want to be impolite. I ask him how he is enjoying his job. He tells me he has only been there a few weeks.

"Aren't you still working for the zoo?" I ask.

He now looks oddly at me. "Who do you think I am?" All of a sudden, I notice he is not my friend and I nose pinch.I can breathe, but all of a sudden, I go deaf! I am now uncertain of my status--is this a dream? I look at my hand: it is wobbly and weird, but when I look again, it is stable and normal. I show my hand to my wife, as though to say, "Look! What do you see??" She ignores me and continues her conversation. I decide to settle this once and for all. I set off down the hallway to find some text. However, I do so discreetly, so in the case that I am not dreaming, I don't act like a nut in front of everyone. I accidentally bump my wife's shoulder as I pass her and I wake up.

So competition goers, I'm asking you guys: was I lucid? I wrote it down in my paper DJ as a lucid immediately upon waking, but I don't want to take advantage of the system! Let me know what you think!

4/5 august
Normally i don't Eat dinner with my family, i take it up to my room and eat it while watching youtube videos.
I was sitting at a dinner table in a huge room with my family and a homeless man who was sitting at the other side of the table to me
My mum put out the food on the table
When we finished eating our food my mum said "Its time for salad"
I don't eat salad and there would be no reason to eat salad after the meal
The homeless man was shocked that we could eat so much, as he had never eaten so much in his life
I felt very sorry for the homeless man
I woke up

August 6, 2014

My rating 4/5

This dream I was mainly underground in a scary series of tunnel that was haunted by something. First, we would drop down into the tunnels going down an old rusty ladder down a square shaft in the ground. The ground had water covering mainly the middle of it, like a little stream formed, with the dirt closer to the walls that was not submerged. We began walking gown the tunnels, seeing strange things and more tunnels that branch off in different ways. I found an old alligator skeleton in a small dent in the walls, i eventually came across a room with a bunch of shirts in it and most of them had a creepy picture of an eye on them. Then i was instantly at the starting point of the tunnel again, walking through the maze of dirt and puddles, seeing strange mud formations, and finally making it back to the room with the shirts, this time they all had a picture of an eye and the all were facing one specific spot.

+ this dream is not all together in my head but it was a pretty cool setting, wish i could remember more. I was at an old castle at night, with a group of 2 people, and we were trying to defend ourselves from these strange birdlike creatures that were all over the castle grounds. Like being trapped in a haunted house except there are tons of evil live creatures trying to kill us. I remember the last part if it, being outside the main building but still within the outer walls of the castle. Fge castle was tall, had lots of gates, and faded yellow bricks with s little bit of green moss or something growing in the cracks of it. We are making our escape to the main gate but before we get there we see the bird/demon creatures. I take out a handmade arrow with a deer bone tip and we advance. The drop down and begin attacking, and i get one of them with the arrow by stabbing with it in my hand.

+this dream i was going to the movies with my brother, and we get in the theater and take a seat, it is very dark in here. I don't remember the movie but after apparently is was done we got up and left

+ i was in a certain school setting I've been in a few times in my dreams before, and was walking around a room full of people trying to find one of my friends. The room had bright colors on the walls such as red,orange, and green, and the carpet was colorful too. My friend walked over to me and took out his guitar which had a weird shaped head on it, and he started playing it. Then i woke for good.

This time, on the toilet at work. Barely even 2 minutes in, my mind started to drift all over to things I was doing earlier in the day. I was watching a video of some crazy mountain bikers riding down mountain spines and doing back flips off huge jumps on the mountain.

Suddenly, it takes a turn into fiction, and I see the announcer before me speaking into the microphone as he looks at me through the camera. "Unfortunately, he killed his daughter..."

The camera cuts to a mountain biker in mid-air half way through a back flip. He lands it a little rough, but no one seemed hurt. Then he becomes pregnant, and in the next moment, the baby girl is on the handle bars, and then flies off the bike in front of him from the force of the landing and hits the ground.

Mid exclamation, "Holy Shi-" I wake up, still on the john.

Maybe lasted about 10 seconds. Longest duration yet.

Dream - Lucid

I was in a very large room with many people. The walls were a cream color. We were singing in some sort of choir. I was standing towards the front, and turned around to look behind me. There were people ducking and screaming.
"It's a bat!!" I heard someone scream.
I then saw a bat swoop down behind me. I was trying to get away from it myself, when it landed on my hand and bit me. It left three small puncture wounds on my hand. I was panicking a bit, because I knew I needed to go to the hospital.

There was more to this one, but I can't quite recall.

~

I was working in a jewelry store. I went to open shop. I got there, and Rachel was there, too. Her parents owned the store (I worked for them at a coffee shop 7 years ago IWL). They were there as well.

The store opened, and a girl I knew in high school, Amanda, came inside. I think she was returning something. I thought about it, and thought I had heard that her fiance' was dead. I didn't say anything to her, but approached her and gave her a hug. She didn't hug back or say anything, but I wasn't offended. I finished hugging her and walked the other direction.

I then remembered that I had forgotten something at home. I asked Rachel's parents if I could run home and get it real quick. They said I could. I left the store.

Then, I saw this scene of a stag in a beautiful forest. He was sitting in a tall grassy area. Sunlight was peeking through the treetops, and everything it touched shimmered. I then saw some glowing thing. I do not know what else to call it but that. It was a round shape and was glowing in faint rainbow colors, but you could mainly see white. There was another one in the back room of the jewelry store too. I think it also acted as a portal. Rachel touched it, and turned into a scarecrow. She could then approach the stag. She stroked his fur, and he let her.

It then got to a point where I did the same thing. At first, I could see myself in third person being the scarecrow and approaching the stag. But then, it was first person, and I was stroking the stag's fur. At first, I was expecting him to run, but he didn't move a muscle. I started to speak with him. He spoke to me in a deep, male voice, talking about scarecrows and how we came to see him (he did not realize that all the scarecrows who had seen him were all different humans). We spoke of other things as well, though I can't remember.

Eventually, I went back to the jewelry store.

Then, I was shopping at a grocery store in the produce section. I was looking for grapefruit so I could eat it with my breakfast for a healthy kick. I saw these small fruits inside these circular holders, kind of like the ones cups are in at fast food restaurants. I went to pull one out, and it was cutting it into a square shape as I pulled it. I saw that it was a type of melon, so I decided I didn't want it. I went to put it back, but it wouldn't go back in now that it was cut; it kept sliding out. I then kept looking, and spotted a bigger white fruit in a similar holder, but I read the sign and saw it was cantaloupe. Ugh, why couldn't I find a grapefruit? Someone, a female I believe, came up to me and asked what I was looking for. I responded
"A melon. No, a cantaloupe. No, a grapefruit."
I think she showed them to me. I can't quite recall.

~

I was laying in my room, but it was a part of a much different apartment than the one I'm living in currently; it actually seemed to be a mixture of my apartment and my dad's old practice. It had many rooms all lining the same hallway on either side. In fact, my old roommate, Cherie', still lived there. So did her boyfriend, Jeremiah. I was debating on whether or not I had time to get up and shower.

I then got up, and walked into a bathroom (there were a few bathrooms in this apartment). Jeremiah was in the shower. I got in with him and started washing my hair. We were laughing and having a good time. I think I put my arms around his neck. I noticed that the water was kinda cold. I guess he liked showers the way my husband likes them. I didn't mind the cold much (though I do IWL).

I then had to get out, I guess Cherie' was coming home and was going to shower with him. I had only washed my hair though, and still needed to shower more. I saw my reflection in a mirror of my hair. It was already dry, and looked very wavy and shiny. I figured I could get by with just shampooing my hair and it wouldn't be a big deal. I needed to wash my face, though. I couldn't get to my shower stuff anymore because Cherie' and Jeremiah were showering. So instead, I pretended that I had my bottle of face wash in my hand, and started to pump some on my finger. I felt nothing. I kept trying however; I put it on my face, rubbing it around. I felt it a little, but not much. It felt dry. Probably because it was.

I then walked by another room, which was actually an office. I saw a computer on a desk in there. It had a flowery background. Now that I think about it, it really resembled my dad's old office, though the furniture was switched around. I saw my therapist in there. She smiled and closed the door. I guess she was working. I think the bathroom I normally used was in there. Crap.

I then found myself showering in another bathroom in the apartment. I looked down and I was standing on a couch/lounge chair.



It looked similar to this, only it had two cushions instead of just the one, and had a curtain-type pattern on top of the navy blue.

I watched the water hit the chair.

I then was out of the shower, and approached a mirror in the bathroom. To my surprise, I was looking at the reflection of a young skinny guy with a white tank top on and short, dark dreads. I knew who I/he was in the dream. At this point, I became semi-lucid. I noticed that behind me, stood...me. When I moved in the mirror, the guy me moved, but the other me, the girl me, was moving of her own accord. This part was extremely vivid.

I then turned around and saw Cherie' was there too, but she also was a guy! She looked similar to me. I knew who she was supposed to be as well. I said to her
"I wonder if I have a penis."
I looked down to look. I didn't see a bulge. I did notice I was standing in a white bathtub though. I then pulled open my basketball shorts and saw...my vagina. I even saw my birthmark on my belly that I have IWL. Boo. No penis for me.
Cherie' then checked to see if she had one, and she did. She said, in her voice, I might add,
"I do. It's long enough to impregnante someone!" I saw a glimpse of it. It was hard. Damn, son. She was right.

Then, either I woke up, or lost my semi-lucidity.

~

I slept super well last night, and I know there were more dreams, but I can't remember them all right now. I just kept thinking about how I needed to sleep more. I was dog tired.

I didn't tell about the second hypno-session I did, because I had included recall, and was graced with the worst recall of the comp the following night - but knowing as it usually takes a day or two to seemingly do something - I have to consider it has to do with now having one of the best recalls of the comp. Maybe not many more points - but the dream from which I woke up at last is so clear - I could write 2/3 pages about it, with all sorts of details. So much that I feel like procrastinating on it and hope, I won't for so long as to forget again.

Dream #1: With two women, I know, and we are in preparation for a theatre show, getting into costume and make-up - and there's an obviously gay guy doing the ironing of a dress for me, and leaves the iron on too long and ruins it. He gets told off anyway - but I get a bit hysterical and holler at him - well - then everybody hates me, and I have to fall all over myself to apologize, the others are angry, he not so much. Actually he takes me to the side, and asks if I would like to take part in his pornography project. He gets out a smart-phone and shows me what he has in mind. I did dictate this dream - but I dictated - naa - won't describe this now, not that I don't delete it...
As I thought - I still see it all in my inner eye - two guys, one woman and hopefully red paint. I'll leave the rest up to your dirty imagination.
Ah - but that was it - don't know, how this would have gone on - but it didn't.

Dream #2: I find on the street a very expensive but ugly looking watch and think about if I should just sell it or try to find the owner and maybe get a bit of money for bringing it back. There's a jewellery/watch shop directly on the corner. A friend tells me, I should bring it back, rather, and I do. When we bring it in, it is suddenly something else, something which unfolds and then is a funk receiver or something other secret-service like. They let it disappear instantly and we don't get money for our niceness, are supposed to leave - so the friend of mine steals another three watches. But when we look at them - they neither have special effects, nor do they look valuable. Tough luck...

Dream #3: The old motive of moving into a flat - this time one with four rooms and four people already living there, but nobody seems to mind this, including me. It's set in a certain city, where I used to live for a while, and I can describe the house - something turn of last before last century, one side going out to the right middle of the city, the other side to the river, and there's a garden in front of that side. It's strange - on our level, like a balcony, second story. And in one scene I climb out the window to remove the excess snow there so we can see the river, and get stuck, and somebody has to rescue me from there. Then there is an older woman, maybe in her 50s, a bit on the crazy artist/late onset hippiness side, and she has a dog, which manifests out of a toy, hanging on the wall, and likes me a bit too much, won't leave my side. Also she loves knitted blankets and they are everywhere. There's the young gay guy from the prior dream there as well, with a depressed ex-boyfriend hanging out around him, to his displeasure, and another two woman live there. Most is about getting to know each other, showing each other things, like the toys, one woman creates and sells - nice little plastic figurines, which also form a puzzle for example. I tell them I will plant some datura stramonium on the balcony and they really love the idea! I have lots more little scenes - like me testing the sink, and finding it is not meant as kitchen sink, but some sort of old-style appliance, which nobody knows the original purpose of, and while trying to make coffee, I get to cleaning out the place, and it's not nice - in some sort of sieve I find what looks like rotting worms - I won't go further - but I know, how every cup and thing looked like, smelled etc. The gay guy was later wondering, if I might not be a man after all because he liked me - but nothing much comes of it. I'll stop it here - not patient enough.

Sorry I was gone these past few days, I was on an awful, awful dry spell.

So we have all heard of a false awakening, but what about a false falling asleep?

I was having a dream that my life had reverted to the year 2003, meaning that I was a small child once more. My subdivision looked a little bit different. All of the cars looked extremely square and boxy. (Not to say a lot of older cars look boxy.) But I mean these cars looked ridiculously square.
A false memory rolls in: Apparently this was not the same reality as the one that I had experienced in 2003, but I had simply traveled to a different one, and in this alternate world having the most boxy car was considered prestigious. Our neighbors had a rotating table on their yard with an extremely square car on it. The car looked something like a miniature box and was one large red cube with windshields, windows, wheels and a radiator on the front. They were trying to show off the square-ness of their car.
I get very excited at the thought of having many years of my life back, and forget about the boxy car fad. I begin thinking of things that I want to do differently in this new life. Just as I do, my mom comes outside, picks me up, and takes me inside to go to bed. As we walk inside I notice that the sun is setting. I lay down and notice how sleepy I feel.
Then I think to myself, maybe in this new life I can start lucid dreaming earlier. Lucid dreaming is supposed to be very easy for young children to learn as their dreams are of better quality, and their minds are more awake. I lay still and begin thinking to myself that I will lucid dream tonight.
After a minute I find myself in a 'lucid' dream. (It was kind of funny, because I knew that this was a dream relative to the boxy car reality, but I didn't know that the boxy car reality was in fact a dream.)
The dream is that I am in a city street. There are a bunch of large white cylinders of varying heights made of a metal like material juxtaposed in the street. There are no cars or dream characters anywhere from what I can tell. I begin thinking about what the cylinders might be. Perhaps they contain something. I approach and touch one. It feels cold, it is covered with condensation.
The city breaks away but all of the cylinders remain. I am now floating in reddish-black a void with the white cylinders still scattered about. They begin to drift in random directions. I begin to hear a screeching noise growing louder and louder.
False awakening. Back into my 2003 alternate reality bedroom. It is morning and the sun is shining through the windows. I lose recall for some time after that.
...
I am at my grandparents house with K. My grandparents want me to eat some strange new food, but I tell them I am not hungry.
...
I false awaken into my bedroom, and my heart is racing as if something time-sensitive is going on. I am being shook by someone. Manei is leaning over the side of my bed trying to get me up.
"Wake up, Hurry!"
"I'm awake!, I'm awake!, Stop that!"
"No! Wake up!"
"Oh!"
I look into her eyes for a moment then wake myself up.
...
I am on a beach. There is a terrace made of packed sand at the upper end of the beach with several small drainage creeks running into the sea. I realize that I am still dreaming and wake myself up once more.
...
Wheu! Not dreaming anymore.

NLD:
I'm outside a building I don't actually turn around to see but appears to be a train station. I have my bike with me and I'm planning to cycle home, but feel like I should show my train pass before I go anyway. I hang around in a fenced of area just over the road where a bus is due to arrive to replace a missing train, muttering under my breath about how poorly arranged this train station appears to be (I do this in real life, too!)

When the bus appears, I have to squeeze past to get to the door to show my ticket (thinking back, the location if the door means this bus was left hand drive) The conductor chap is puzzled by my explanation of why I'm showing him my ticket, and I feel like a chump for waiting around when it seems I needn't have bothered.

I go back across the road to get on my bike, noticing that it's just starting to get a bit dark, just enough that I'd rather have my lights on to avoid SMIDSY.

I reach over to get my helmet (hanging on the fence) and when I turn back my bike has been replaced by a large silver car (a Mondeo, I think) This doesn't phase me at all. (I have a memory of going to buy the car but I think this is a retrospective justification or an insert from a different dream) I get into the left hand side of the car and have to reach quite far forward to pull the door shut.

I think I ought to drive super gently because this is a new car and because I don't want to give Emma any excuse to criticise my driving. I briefly think that I should put my bike lights on, but remember that my bike is a car now and has headlights!

I head off on a dirt track, because it's too tight to turn around and take the obvious route home. I try to work out how to get from the dirt track to the main road and see several other cars on a parallel track looking like they know the way but I can't get to their track. I decide that I can just keep going on this track and that eventually it will turn into a residential area and beyond that will be a main road. I have to dodge a couple of mutters coming the other way at high speed. Just as the track gains tarmac, I catch up with a couple of other cars, who then look like they're turning off to the left into a race track. I can't resist joining them out of curiosity. I think this might be a prefect chance to satisfy my need for speed in a low risk environment.

Coming up the drive I have some difficulty with the gears, accidentally ending up in third at very low speed, then struggling with clutch control, feeling like a early as I hold up the car behind, given that I'm trying to drive impeccably.

I get to the track and park my car as out of the way as possible so I can find somebody in charge and find out what the costs are etc. They'd a sign up saying entrance is free, so I have a look over the fence to see what's going on. There are people racing around on skateboards, so I won't be able to drive today and I turn around to leave.

My car seems to have taken on board my desire to park out of the way and had shrunk down and transformed into a motorbike helmet. I briefly pounder the dream physics of getting into the car on is reduced form and turning around when the full sized firm would be overlapping with the building I parked next to. I turn the helmet sound and move it away from the building so that there won't be a conflict when it returns to full size.

I drive off on a tarmac road, following a series of junctions while trying to get a grip on this new car. There are a variety of controls around the steering wheel, one of which spears to be some kind of military device, but I can't work out what. There's a key for it in the driver's door pocket, and even the key has a little lock on it. I have no idea where the key for the key lock is. Also in the door pocket are some audio tapes, the car soars to have a take player, how quaint.

After following the road around a bit, I pull into a supermarket carpark over a huge speed bump. The car skids a coupe of times barely missing boards and other cars. I manage to react to the skids and avoid crashing, but only just. I think how it would be a good idea to find a nice open part of the carpark to practice, but it's a very small carpark. I head out passing an employee of the supermarket on the way out.

I wrestle with the gears again, the clutch send to be reluctant to grip at low speed and I think about what people will think about me buying a car without checking such basics. The dashboard of the car has lots of gizmos, glowing lights that react to my driving, a fuel consumption disk that shows me when in using too much, a radio that appears to be from my old Mondeo and is still tuned into my choice of station.

Fragment:
Discussing the former dream with my dad, then waking up to find I'm running late because I turned my alarm off instead of snoozing!

SammyTheSnake

12:35 a.m.

I was waiting for a jeepney along the street. Not sure where. I felt somehow it's in Bacolod, near the North Terminal area. I was going to the Libertad area. There were a lot of jeeps but none of what I want. The mood seems a bit gloomy, but not cloud or rainy.

Finally, when I found one (that goes through "Sandayan", which I "saw" as near Libertad), a lot of people ran for it, mostly working adult males. A kid tried to ride as well. He asked if someone will let him set on their lap (which is usual for kids so they get free fare, but usually done with parents). I pointed out instead to a small gap in the seats, and the other adults pointed it out as well, but he refused, wanting only to get a free ride.

NOTES:

- I used 26-minute meditation by Sam Harris.
- I used Subliminal 2.0 after as I fall asleep (I didn't notice when it finished as I fell asleep already).
- I went to sleep around 6:30 a.m.

Dream
False Awakening

I was playing counter strike but against aliens in space during an invasion on Earth. I was awping and so were they. Eventually, we planted a C4 near one of the black holes they had. When the bomb exploded, their mothership got destroyed. I then watched endings of Golden Sun. This happened twice and each ending was different. The black hole was close to Earth so it made alternative realities, which is why there were separate endings. I woke up and my alarm was off and I had not service on my phone. I started writing down my dream and the beginning part said Megan was part of the dream. Then I really woke up
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I was with Tim working on the job at an airport.

Hey Everyone,
New to Lucid Dreaming and my first step will be recording my dreams as they occur in this journal. I will use the standard formatting for this.

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Mystery Girl (ND)

Mystery girl drove me in her car to her apartment in what seemed like Chicago It seemed like we drove past my Grandma's house though, which is in a different state. We had trouble parking since a crowd in the small lot wouldn't move out of the way. They looked at us multiple times but did nothing, especially one woman who was in our way more than the others. Finally they moved after she beeped and we parked at the closest end of the lot, where the entrance was. Her car was the only car in the lot, and I commented that it was a bad parking lot since it was so small, but she said that it worked fine because she always gets in early enough to park near the entrance. I remember that the small lot had only one row for parking, maybe 10-12 spots, and that the other side, closest to the street, had a triangular space with yellow diagonal hash marks blocking it off.

at this point I forget much of what has happened in the dream, and fast forward to the next part. Now we are back in her apartment, and I had to leave to go somewhere, more than likely a video game store for some odd reason. She asked me to pick up a Super Nintendo game for her and I said I would as long as she gave me a kiss. She did and I left. Unfortunately, I can't remember what she looked like or what type of car she drove.

I will say that my dreams have been concerning me lately, as fairly often they will involve an encounter with a girl that I have never met in some sort of intimate encounter. The reason why I am worried, is that I currently have a girlfriend that I have been with for the past year or so. Things have been a little rough lately, and this has made other unknown women to appear in my dreams. This specific dream was of a girl that I have never seen before, but other dreams usually feature one specific re-occuring girl that I also have not yet met.

1. I was in a McDonalds somewhere in a big city. I stood in line and got ready to order my food. As I got to the front I asked the lady if they had a chocolate dipped ice cream waffle cone, and she say they didnt, with alot of assertion in her voice. I asked if they had smaller ice cream cones, and if they could show me what kind of ice cream they had. They brought out two ice cream desserts that were available from the menu. I looked at them.
Then, I picked the smallest ice cream cone up and ate it, right in front of their face. (The cone was the size of my palm)
"I dont want this ice cream cone, let me try the other one."
I picked up the other ice cream dessert and ate it as well. I then proceeded to ask if they had some other kind of dessert, but at this point the lady taking my order was mad. She told me I was wasting time and eating food that I didn't even want. She said that she was going to put all of that on my bill. Instantly after she told me that, she started adding on the things I ate to the bill. It didn't surprise me at all, and in the end, I dont think I even ordered anything for sure.
I walked away from the counter where I was order and went into a club-like place directly to the left of McDonalds. As I walked in, I noticed that this place had a very nice club atmosphere. There were also red and pink lights flashing around the room. After looking around for a minute, I took a seat in a booth near me. Not even 2 minutes after I had sat down, I noticed a really hot blonde walking towards me. I got a closer look and realized that it was Summer Buck from my highschool. She looked really pretty, and she had an amazing ass- just like she does in school.
As she got right up in front of me, I asked her what was up. She said nothing, but started to do something I really enjoyed. I was already relaxed and laid back in my seat and Summer sat on my lap. I remembered that she had a boyfriend, so I asked, "Summer you have a boyfriend, is this okay?". I think she replied with something along the lines of, "Dont worry about him". The perfect answer. She only sat on my lap for about a minute, and I was already hard. She then got up, and started grinding on me in the seat- but in a sexy way. It was like an exclusive lap dance, but with all the touch you could get. She repeatedly bounced her ass on my crotch, and at this point I was hard.
During the middle of her dance, I thought to myself, "Am I dreaming?" but I got too focused on summer and lost my train of thought. Anyways, she did this lap dance or whatever it was for a minute or so. The dream ended after this because I had gotten really "excited" and woke up.

2. Wow again, I think this is a part of the dream above, but whatever Im adding it downhere.
I was in McDonalds, and my sister had showed up next to me. She ordered what she wanted and waited for her meal. As she did, one of the employees told her that she gets 2 free t.v. sessions(wtf). However, kayla had somehow lost her 2 free sessions, and became really upset about it. 2 small girls, about her age, noticed this and told the manager. The manager gave kayla another free session of t.v. I looked at the 2 small girls that had helped my sister out, and noticed that they looked like little cartoon clay dolls or something. It didn't bother me, and so I continued doing whatever I was doing.
Later during the dream, I took on the point of view of my sister. I became her. It was nighttime and I was hanging out with the two small clay-like girls. I now saw that they were really small, but so was I. As we were walking around in some type of cabin, the girls asked me if I wanted to spend the night. I said, "yea sure" and followed the girls around. The two girls said they went to do something and went around the corner. After a few minutes of their absence, I decided to walk around that same corner and find them. When I walked around the corner, I found no one. I continued walking around this really big cabin, and it was empty. No one else was here it seemed.
Just then those 2 girls came from around a corner behind me and told me it was time to go. I started following them but then realized that I had forgot something. One of the girls told me to hurry up and get it, and the other one followed me as I did. The object that I had forgotten, was some type of orange sleeping bag-at least thats what it resembled- and it was really small. I found it tied up to a net above us, so I untied it and got it down. Again, the other clay girl told us to hurry up, so we started running and caught up with her.

3. I was making my way into a huge recreational type of cabin which was right next to the ocean. I had put on a long orange thick sweater(IDK why) and some black shorts. As I walked in the door, I continued and walked through to the back, where a really big deck was. When I got outside, everyone was sitting in these bleachers, set up like you would see seats in a football stand kind of. I assumed that "class" or whatever they were teaching had already started, so I quickly went over to another stand of bleachers and sat down.
The section I went over too, was almost empty, and fortunately, after a minute or so, my friend Dylan came over and chilled with me. It wasn't too long until the guy that was teaching stopped giving his lecture. After his speech ended, he freed us to let us do whatever we wanted. Me and Dylan got up and walked to the back of this huge deck. His friend Alexis, from school, followed us. We all sat down near the back end of this deck, and chilled.
This is where I almost became lucid again. I started telling Dylan about a dream I had, specifically the one in the club where I was with Summer Buck. I told him all about this dream, but I had to kind of whisper it in his ear so Alexis wouldn't hear it. After I told him about the dream, he gave me the look on his face as though, "Dude that sounds amazing". Then out of no where, some kind of band director had come up to us and asked us if we were studying our instruments and whatnot. Dylan told the director that he already had and continued talking about how he did this and that and whatever else(even though Dylan isn't in band in real life). Dylan managed to make the director go away with this explanation and at that, I decided to see what else was around this resort.
I got up and left Dylan and Alexis and walked over to the front part of the deck. Here, everyone was selling food for a certain amount of tickets. I remembered that I had tickets in my pocket, but I wanted to save them for later. I walked off of the deck and into the cabin where I had come from originally. When I got inside of the cabin, my friend Lamar was holding a bag of pretzels that had written on it, "8 tickets". I assumed it was 8 tickets for a hand full, but I wasn't sure.
"8 tickets dude? That's a lot of tickets for some pretzels.", I said. I can't remember what Lamar told me, but I continued walking to the exit of this cabin. I opened the door and on the other side, there was no longer the outside entrance to where I had came from originally, but now there was a basketball court.
As I was about to walk in, I could hear this conversation behind me:
*somebody lets out a huge fart*
Lamar: Who did that?
Other guy: dude it wasn't me
A.J.(Another friend): It wasn't me
Lamar: No seriously though who farted?
At this point I closed the cabin door behind me and entered onto the basketball court. It was huge, maybe a little bigger than a real court. I walked onto it and waited for the next ball to come flying at me, so I could grab it and start shooting. While I was waiting, I went over to a corner of the court because I saw my friend Ryan. He asked me why I was wearing such thick clothes. I told him I didn't know why, and that I was going to go change out real quick into some lighter stuff. He agreed with me and with that I started leaving to go change out. As I was walking away Ryan asked me, "Hey I have some gel if you wanna gel you hair" I told him I didn't want any and continued on my way.
I started walking across the court, and to my luck, a ball flew to me. I grabbed it and shot it. It missed badly. Something was wrong with my wrist, it felt like I had messed it up or something. It didn't feel right. I grabbed another ball and shot it. Same thing, my wrist hurt and it was like it got really weak all of a sudden. I grabbed another ball, shot again. Still messed up. Out of no where, my friend Devin showed up. He asked me what was wrong and I told him. He told me jokingly, "Dude next time, just stand in front of me, with your arm out and your hand up and Ill throw a ball at it". I laughed and continued on my way.

4. I was a huge, open restroom place. Stalls were everywhere. Each stall was red and had the design of a roller coaster seat. I looked to my left and there was a huge stage. Pretty odd. I decided to go into the stall and do my business. However, the guy behind me distracted me and I ended up talking to him. I followed him to an area where there were alot of rows of big red seats, and they too had the design of a roller coaster seat. We sat down, and some one yelled out and complained about the stage being open. After a few minutes, some guy appeared on the stage and he looked mad. He closed the stage up and the curtains came across to do so.
The guy that was on the stage came over to us and one guy started arguing with him. I stayed in my seat, just watching. Out of the blue, my old instructor from ROTC, Sgt. Twine came in. He told everyone to be quiet and sit down. He talked to the guy that was mad to find out what was going on. Twine told us that we were in trouble. At this point, I stepped up and told Sgt. Twine, "We did nothing, so we deserve no punishment. I think it is wrong how we get punished because of this disrespectful guy." He didn't reply and only looked at me. I relaxed back in my seat, and put my feet up on the seat in front of me.
"Write his name down" said Sgt. Twine to the guy standing next to him. I really didn't care and just continued with what I was doing. The guy in front of me stood up in his seat and started talking to Sgt. Twine. He had on a bright green jacket and it had red spots on it- like somebody had drawn on him. Sgt. Twine noticed this and "took off points" off of his "grade" because of those spots. It was just like an inspection, except the guy in the green jacket was just a regular dude, and he wasn't even in ROTC. Meanwhile, while that whole situation was going on, I found myself randomly blurting out- against Sgt. Twine. I did this twice. Whatever I was thinking at the moment, I would blurt out. It was really awkward and I had no control of it, and I've never done this before, ever.
After a few of those blurts, I did my best to be quiet.

5. I was upstairs, just chilling in my room when I heard my dad downstairs at the front door tell me that my "friends were here" like he usually does. I came walking down the stairs in a groggy way, because I knew that I had to be somewhere soon, in 30 minutes. It was around 3:50 or something and I had to leave to be somewhere at 4:20. This reminder showed up in previous dreams in the night(the ones above) and I even reminded myself in the McDonald's dream, and at that time in the dream it was around 1:25 p.m.(weird).
Anyways, I walked downstairs and as I did I saw my friends Trey, Patrick, and Dylan, all waiting on me. When I got down there next to them Trey told me that he wanted me to watch a video. My friend Dylan backed Trey up and told me how it was "really funny". Trey had the video pulled up on his phone, so he started it. The entire video was a close up of someone mixing together Macaroni and Cheese. I continued watching it and there was a really small guy in the video-the size of my finger- surfing around in the mac and cheese. He had on goggles too.
While I watched the video, my senses started doing things. I started being able to taste the macaroni and cheese. I also started smelling the macaroni and cheese. At one point the bowl of macaroni and cheese became real, and I got a fork and ate some of it, through Trey's phone.

6. I was watching this dream like a movie. A game trailer was being shown to me, and it was for a new game. This game was supposed to be the new "Prototype" (a game) before the main character turned evil. After the trailer ended, I began playing the game, Im assuming it was a demo or something. It was amazing. I was the guy from Prototype, but with an underwater suit on. I was underwater in what looked like a giant sea. I looked around a noticed that there were underwater hills all around. My character had on some type of suit to where it enabled him to swim extremely fast, and it resembled wings that were made out of transparent tubes.
I focused on what I was doing, and I noticed that there was a HUGE angler fish type thing in front of me. It was a crimson red, and it was about the size of a few houses. This is what I was supposed to fight and kill. The fish sprinted towards me, but I dodged it. It continued to do this multiple times, and I dodged it each time. There was also another underwater enemy behind the fish, near a tall rock column, but it just floated there and did nothing. Eventually, I swam to the very front of the fish. I started shooting it in its eyes. I continued doing this until I destroyed the eye. Believe it or not, the eye of that giant fish had alot of health. I had to reload my gun and continue shooting at it again. While I was shooting the fish's eye, he got mad and lunged forward a little bit, trying to bit me. As he did this he made a REALLY loud scary sound and I felt like I was apart of the game.
Once I destroyed the Fish's eye, he died and floated to the ocean floor, which was only a few feet under him. I must say, for a dream video game, it was amazing. Really intense and vivid.

Hitting every other night for my previous 4 lucid nights! The first DILD this night was fairly short and the second DILD even shorter. Still fun!

8/5/14 **1115 5am(wbtb) at bank with D (crayfish guy). Help figure out how much deposit or withdrawal. / train travel time altogether versus? / I see old co-worker R in our employee gym working out. I greet him and ask him how he's doing. I wake up and think that should have made me lucid since he no longer works there. One of several mini awakenings as my wife gets ready for the day. I tell myself to watch out for several dream signs including being at the office again. / I am at the office again but I don't catch it right away. I'm sitting in an office chair and I spin on it and I believe the feeling of the spin makes me suspicious that I'm dreaming (or I already was suspicious or semi-lucid) and I spin some more and it is a lot of fun. I just keep spinning and spinning on the chair. I worried for a moment that I could be at work looking like a fool spinning like that and I decide that I will just float up and erase any doubt that I'm dreaming. I float up and enjoy the feeling and decide I might as well float on out of the building and I float on up through several stories floor by floor (fully phase) seeing different people. Some sexy women and I think about stopping but I just keep going and when I exit the top of the building I wake up. / I am looking at a Dreamviews dream journal posting by StephL and reading that she had two lucid dreams last night the first one was short again and she use the word poo, as in poo on another short one. Her second one was longer and one of the two dreams had something to do with driving or going somewhere when she realized that she was dreaming. I haven't looked at Dreamviews since last night so it would be cool if it was true that she had two, but even better if she had two longer ones. another mini awakening... / I am in some room. my wife is getting ready and I am sitting on the edge of a bed or couch and a small dark gray cat walks up to me down by my feet I reach down and start petting it. Wait a minute. I don't have a cat. I'm dreaming again! The cat is friendly nudging his head towards my hands as I continue petting it(dc interact).I wake. I had some other shorter dreams that I forgot.