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I was watching from as if behind a rider’s eyes as he rode his horse. They jumped over many obstacles that got progressively harder (at one point, fences), and I marveled at it, wondering how the horse didn’t get worn out.

It switched to an omniscient view. Apparently I’m spying on the rider as he’s delivering a package. It’s a really long piece of metalwork, and I wonder how he’s carrying it without any issues, but after watching him, I see that he’s keeping it well in hand, even though it’s almost longer than the horse.

They arrive at a pen, and the horse jumps over the enclosure - I see Spice sleeping on the dirt ground, but the horse jumps over him with ease.

Me and a woman are there waiting, sitting behind some kind of square crate. I look over and see that Spice is a few feet to the left than where he was before.

Notes: I have ‘ride a horse’ on my goal list but hadn’t thought about it much lately. So to have this dream out of nowhere was amazing. Feeling the horse jump over obstacles and running was an amazing feeling. I hope to have another dream like this!

Time Lucid - 30 seconds
Non lucid - grey text
Semi Lucid - red text
Lucid - blue text

I was in my house, but it looked different. I saw a big guy, I think it may have been Brendan McC(BM). He was on choking a guy(Guillotine choke), half the size of him, in length and width.. I had to step in and help this guy out, so I jumped on top of him and started raining elbows to his face. I felt the strikes were not as forced as I wanted them to me, but as I focused on them, I got into the rhythm and was now throwing quick elbows, trying to cut his face up.

I was now in my bed room and I was expecting BM to come in and say something to me. His friend Clint S, came into the room. He said a few things which were nice and he smiled.

I must have become aware in my dream, and did a RC by looking at my hand. I think it was smaller then usual, but wasn't convincing. I tried my nose plug for the first time in a dream and it worked perfectly. I smiled, and kept plugging my nose as It felt really cool to do.

I got up and went down the hallway. My penis got the better of me and I was looking for some females to have sex with. I started thinking about how the lucid would last for a long time (in a way, trying to convince myself). I tried turning a light on, expecting it to turn on but nothing happened.

I started to feel myself waking up. As I woke up, I could have attempted a DEILD but decided to write the dream down, as I've been on a bit of a dry spell for a week. I didn't end up writing anything down and went back to sleep. I was now in the same dream but wasn't lucid. I saw my old cat Lily come from under the bed. She looked a bit different. I patted her head and felt scabs on her head, which were a lot worse then when she had them in reality. I was pretty amazed that she was here with me, because she had ran away from our previous house. We had moved again after that.

Side note.
As the last dream ended, I attempted a DEILD. I think I left it a bit late. I saw imagery in the top left hand corner, which was pretty small. I tried focusing on the dream scene but it faded straight away (mistake, should have passively been aware of it)

Daytime Dream.

I was with Josh D, Trev and his brother Gary.

I'm at blacks land house, outside in my backyard. I remember playing ball with my brothers girlfriends dog (Peppie). Peppie got a little too excited for the ball and bit my hand by accident. I had placed a hand full of tennis balls up on top of the shed roof.
I remember hearing something on radio that was talking about cricket.

A girl came out into the backyard to tell me to come inside for something (I think she was friends with Holly A). I came inside, but it wasn't my house. The girl handed me something (something wrapped in a cloth?). I think it had something in it that she owed me.

I went out the front, which was now Marlz front yard. I walked up to a car which was parked, and it was Holly. She didn't recognise me.
I had thought she mentioned something about blood on my face, and asked if that's what she said. She laughed and said no. I told her that I picked a pimple on my face. Some people walked up to me, and we started chatting. Holly decided that she may as well leave, as I wasn't talking to her, and started to drive off.

I saw Josh D outside. He looked a little different, his hair was a bit shaggy looking.

I got inside and myself, Josh, Trev and Gary were about to head off to sleep, in the lounge room.

We were all stuffing around not long after. I tickled Gary's foot, and he freaked out and jumped on top of Trev. Trev wasn't too happy that he was jumped on.

I was now in a car with, Josh, Trev, Luke B and Gary. Gary was driving. I saw a guy on the side of the road, he was hugging a huge boulder, and they were both covered in tar. He rolled himself into a puddle of liquid which was gold and bubbling, as if it was lava.

I said something witty, and got no response. Luke mentioned that there must be 2 drunk people in the car, to not get what I just said.

I was now holding my hip, and was feeling around for a lump. I thought I may have had a tumour or something. Someone said to me, that my side which had the lump, wasn't functioning right. I looked down and saw that I was in blue shorts. You could see the outline of my penis, as if my pants were sticking to my body. Gary said that I had a massive penis. I think I had an athletic body type also.

Side note:
As I woke up, I saw imagery, as if I could have turned it into a DEILD. The image was a computer screen, which was pretty vivid. I could even see the clock in the bottom right corner. I tried to open my eyes but the image would fade away, so I closed them again and it appeared again. I then thought I would try opening my eyes again, but this time it was gone for good.

Still going, but my period started and it's been rough. Stress/moodiness, tiredness, waking up too early and not being able to focus on recall, etc. :/ Still doing DILD stuff as I can.

Sunday:

1. Walking up to a strange house

2. Some kind of contest where everyone is given something to use. The last person got cement and poured in on top of the other people’s stuff into a ziplock snack bag. She did that so she’d have some advantage.

3. Being chased through a house, I make it to a basement (at grandma’s?) (chased by Annie from SnK?),

Inspiration: Watched a certain episode of SnK with Annie.

Monday:

Something about a girl.

Tuesday:

1. Someone who looked like Cher but that I just ‘knew’ wasn’t was singing a song that I thought was out of her usual genre.

2. People getting kidnapped, including Jenna ‘Brown’ from my childhood. Rane was in disguise as she talked to the Mansons, Jenna’s family.

3. Pouring chicken noodles over the singing scene. There were so many we only filled a few white containers full and left the rest for others,

Inspiration: #3 probably comes from me thinking about chicken & dumplings since they’re so tightly linked in my head.

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Last night I dreamt I was lucid. I was actually flying with another person, who then told me I was lucid. When he landed, he got someone to chainsaw his legs off so that it looked like he was stood in the ground. They asked if I wanted to try and I said yes. As he was about to cut my legs, I lost my nerve and said "how can I be sure I'm lucid.?" They told me to fly up again and that lucidity was the only way I could do this. I was really scared as he went to cut my legs and I was screaming, then as he brought the chainsaw down and made contact, he made a buzzing sound with his mouth and the chainsaw was fake. They all found this extremely funny at my expense.

I had other more recall too, getting trapped under a crane jib in the mud and thinking I was dead, being in the public toilets and finding someones shopping, which I helped myself to. They we're all shoes, loads of them and not good ones either. The best I could find were rigger boots. A young lad taking the piss out of two gays in a cubicle, when i asked him what they were doing, he made the hand to mouth motion that is universal for blow job. We both laughed at them, shouted fags and ran out off.


As a side note, my dream recall has been terrible of late, however for the last few nights I've been watching two short videos just before bed that combine suggestion and subliminal messages and my recall has jumped right up again, including last nights dream of being lucid. So I'm gonna stick with that for a while. If you want a link, drop me a line.

I may have just had my first lucid.

In the dream, I was in a first-person video game. The backstory: I am an old, undead man whose wife is afraid of him and I need to catch her. I could see myself (well, my undead, dream self) in a mirror in a bathroom. The bathroom looked like my grandmother's, but nothing else did. Eventually, something happened and I was in front of the mirror again, but I looked like an Asian man. I said, "Wait, we're Asian now?" and, "Wait, am I dreaming again?" I plugged my nose and could still breathe (though it felt strange), so I knew I was dreaming. I closed my eyes and said, "Clean slate," and the dream world became a blank, white space. I closed my eyes and said my crush's name and she appeared. I immediately started having sex with her, but it felt strange. I felt detached. It didn't feel like I was *ahem* thrusting. In fact, the dream switched to third-person and ended quickly. Unfortunately, I wasn't tired enough to re-enter the dream.

Now, I'm not entirely sure this was a true lucid. I didn't feel truly concious and felt detached, as I said before. Also, the sex part didn't go as I had planned it; I had planned to do a bit of romance and foreplay, as opposed to mindlessly diving into it.

I think I either a.) was dreaming about being lucid or b.) attained lucidity, then lost it. Either way, it's progress!

1. I was in a part of a neighborhood of where I used to live about ten years ago IWL, I’d only been there once or twice. I’m walking away from a house, and suddenly slow down to take in things around me. Things come more into focus. I look down beside the sidewalk and see some yellow(?) and purple tulips growing.

2. About a strange family. In one room, two people are having sex. The one on top kisses the other, who freezes. The one on top thinks it’s because they don’t like it, but it’s actually because they were surprised by it, because the top one apparently had a hangup about kissing? Something about shark teeth??

Someone is outside the door spying through some opening on the door.

Something about a little boy.

3. I find some manga on the bottom of one of mom’s bookshelves and wonder what they’re doing there, since she doesn’t read them. Except that they’re longer, wider and thinner than manga. At least one of them was Sailor Moon, and there were four I think. I take them out and away, after scooping a few other bits up into my arms to leave. There was a yellow card and a white paper?

Notes: Soo I wonder if my practicing awareness is why I slowed down in #1 and focused? :O The shark teeth in #2 could come from Rin in Free!.

Standing behind the van talking to a girl about World of Warcraft. I keep rewinding the scene to fix things. I’m inside the van and realizing the back isn’t latched shut, Mom tells me what to do. I reach back carefully and press the small black latch in (like the ones to hang things on). Mom wasn’t concerned, she was going to leave it open.

Inside someone (Sarah’s?) house, something about a bag of half-cooked popcorn (the popcorn was inlaid into the bag) and another bag, I take it with me but worry about burning it since I don’t know how long it had already cooked for. It looks burnt already.

I ask for a pill and go to the bathroom. I take it, but there’s another pill left on my tongue, it’s half of a pink pill.

I think I’m being kept contained. I think something about Loki (The Avengers).

Notes: Really cool bit when I kept rewinding the scene, I think I remember thinking of it as ‘going back in time’, but in the dream or IWL?

Dream Fragment
David was in hospital with his hands wrapped. I saw a few photos of him. He was being congratulated for staying calm?

Dream Fragment
I was at the basketball stadium outside.

Dream Fragment
I was on a jetty. I think I may have been with someone that was famous.

Dream 1
It was night and I was playing basketball by myself in the middle of a street. A car drove passed and they must have said something to me or they were hanging out the window. I shot the ball and it went over the backboard. I jogged after the ball as it was rolling down the street. I could see the car in the distance, I thought maybe they were thinking I was chasing them. I saw them crash into a ditch, but I ignored them and went after the ball, which rolled into a houses front yard. I couldn't find the ball.

DEILD ATTEMPT
Dream 2
I attempted the DEILD and I must of only just been conscious or struggling to get the scene to become clear, as I could only feel sensations of body contact at some points.

I was at Daryl's house and I remember my ex being there (Marls). She had gone to the toilet and I must have been in her bed. I could hear someone calling my name. Silly me responded ''Yeah....?'', but I said it out loud from my waking body, as I wasn't in the scene completely. I remember her in the bed with me, and I was intending to have Sex. I could feel her pushing my body away as I was taking up too much of the bed. I even took off my pants off at one stage.

(Could have this been because I was blinded by my sleeping mask?)

1. Rane throwing longer than usual and burgundy-colored packets of taco sauce at me. We were in a car? A girl from outside was throwing me some (maybe the right kind? I like Mild orange packets).

2. I’m looking at a collection of coins. There were Supernatural ones with Dean, Sam and Castiel on them. One coin was worth ‘122’. I wondered what guys thought of these coins.

3. False awakening where I go downstairs and see mom on the couch. I’m confused about what time it is and look at the clock, which says something like 10:59. I realize that it’s still nighttime and go back to bed.

4.
~Outside, a woman with short, cropped brown hair is between two arguing men. A third one comes along and pulls her off, and puts her in the trunk of a car. The first guy muses that she was ‘asked, not told’ to leave with him (so maybe it was willingly). I think maybe the kidnapper was her husband? A nearby woman hears her and sneaks in the back. She had shoulder-length wavy brown hair. She talks quietly to someone on a phone(?) about what’s happening, almost in an I’m-a-cop way.

~In a hospital, a woman with dark hair in a ponytail is talking to the lady from the trunk.

~The name ‘Jim’ on a cart and something about two dogs. An African-American nurse lies about knowing him. She had marked on his chart ‘-50’. (I feel like he must have been the kidnapper,)

~A song plays in my head like in a medical show drama. I recall the lyrics ‘you’re not something dying’. It sounded like the band ‘The Fray’. Actually the way the lyrics were sung reminds me of Our Lady Peace’s lyrics from the title ‘I’m Not Made of Steel’,

Notes: Ugh my dreams were so confusing last night, and I know I woke up multiple times. I think I need to focus on getting proper sleep for a bit instead of waking up during the night to type up dreams. Also, I can’t remember if I had an FA before, but wow, that was weird. It wasn’t very vivid though.

1. I walk up to a big light-brown bag and scare the shit out of the people in it. Similar to this in size (but still bigger).

Apparently it’s a vehicle. I had gathered a sack of BL manga to read while in the ‘vehicle’. They were bigger and heavier than normal. I sit them on the floor inside the door. Melly is there and shows me some candy she brought. Twizzlers was one. I brought some too and lay them out. One was really long multicolored Twizzlers (red and green), one was small twist Twizzlers. The multicolored ones were half and half and the red and green blended into each other in the middle where they met, and they were almost translucent.

We’re waiting for a horror movie villain (think Michael Myers). I see in my head like a movie scene the figure standing on the road. He’s walking funny as if injured, and I see a car pass by him as if they’d run into him.

Inspiration: I got a bag of Twizzers a couple of days ago. Horror movie thing probably inspired by Friday 13th.

2. I hold my breath as a vehicle with a bad guy in it passes me by. The lady inside with blond-hair just past her ears smirks at me. I remember her, she’s a woman ‘I’ helped in a hospital when I was a doctor and some crisis was happening. She fell down the stairs and I rushed down to help her while everyone else was just trying to get away. “Look at me.” I urged her, checking to see if she had a head injury. Her hair was longer and in a pony then.

She turned out to be a stalker.

3. In a school (TTU)? Brought Sarah clothes, she was feeling down about something so we didn’t think she’d join in on what was going on (others were wearing them too). But she appears wearing jeans and a purple sweater with writing on it. We’re happy and walk out of the building, me quietly singing a song.

Mom is already getting in the car when we step out, and I burst into song, ‘Reflection’ from Mulan. Sarah stares. As we get in the car, she compliments me and says she gives the performance a four. I say something about how I love to sing when the weather is like that (‘windy’).

“Who is that girl I see
staring straight back at me
when will my reflection
show who I am inside?”

(I sing the last world as I get into the car.)

4. As I was getting up for the day, I saw my mini flashlight by the laptop and remembered something that happened. At some point during the night, I crawled across the bed and over to my desk, scrabbling around on it until I found the flashlight. By then, I realized that I had dreamed that there was a big spider in my bed. By then I already had the flashlight so I checked for ease of mind. x_x

It’s really weird when I react to something in a dream in WL. I think last time this happened, I walked over and got a sweater from somewhere, put it up on my bed with me and went back to sleep, lol. No wait, I think the last time was me coming to to find myself standing up on my bed…

Notes: Woke up half an hour early again. Two songs with dreams, seems like listening to music before bed might be the cause. :3 Also, one of my dream goals I’m trying to remember for if I go lucid is to sing a song (not ‘Reflection’ though!). I can’t do that IWL because we live in an apartment and I have a high voice.

1. I’m at a library flipping through a thick, floppy book. I stop when I see an entry on No.6 (with a chest-up picture of anime!Shion). Apparently it’s some sort of reference book.



There were notes by people written on the back(?) of the book. Two said, in the same handwriting and not far from each other, ‘No.6 season 2’. I show it to the person with me, who is apparently grumpy. I don’t think I ever actually see this person.

‘I miss you nanna.’ Was another of the messages. There were a few similar dedications with a word starting with ‘n’ in it.

We try to find the publish date at the beginning because we’re wondering why No.6 is in the book so soon. It says 2008.

I’m watching an anime I’ve never seen before and am unfamiliar with IWL. I feel and hear a guy behind me telling a girl that I’m watching an anime and he’s going on about it, it’s distracting. (I don’t think it was actually anime though, the style was off.)

I went to turn the TV off but couldn’t find the button. Actually, there was one labeled OFF but the person with me, told me that that wasn’t it. It turned out to be a square black button on the bottom right on an inlaid panel.

~I look up at the TV and think how, since I’m not watching it, I may as well turn it off. But I look back and see a bunch of people, and think that since the TV is so loud, turning it off will make the silence really thick.

2. A woman hanging out with her family, then goes to pick up a boy waiting grumpily in a van. She looks mid-age with shoulder length auburn hair.

Inspiration: I meant to look up up my old lucids from 2008 and thought about it before bed. No.6 actually came out in 2011. Besides seeing No.6 posts on my Tumblr dash often, I listened to the anime opening/ending last night before bed.

Monday, 9/16/13

Last night, around 11:30 - 8am

Drink of water before bed, and every time I got up.

I know I had a 'busy"dream. When you have tons of things to do. But didn't remember it well when I woke up in the morning, and now I remember even less.

‘We’ were being held hostage by some guys. We were lining up Mexican dishes (refried beans being one) on the back of a couch (or was it the porch?).

There was a room in the house with cats and dogs, I thought it surprising that they were getting along.

For some reason I was allowed to go outside. I walked through heavy rain until I reached a waiting group of young people (17-20).

Inspiration: Mom threw away some leftover refried beans yesterday.

Notes: I’m fascinated by the ‘heavy rain’ thing, this is the second time. I wish I could actually feel the water and temperature of it. Maybe it’s something I can work on in a lucid dream. I wonder if I should put ‘food’ as a dream sign since it’s become a common theme in my dreams.

I’m racing Rane around the yard of grandma’s house. I’m going really fast, it’s so fun. At one point I really push myself and feel the strain. On the fourth lap, I see she’s not far behind me so I concentrate really hard on getting to the end mark.

I remember seeing a bunch of vivid green leaves on the trees on the left on one lap.

-Lost a dream due to not realizing I was awake. I got a glimpse but lost it before I could try and coax it out. :/

Inspiration: Rane was over last night until late. Can’t believe I didn’t have ‘running’ as a goal already since I love it so much IWL.

Edit: Just this could have come from Cheetu from Hunter x Hunter since I had just seen an episode with him, and I had added running like him as a goal recently.

Notes: I stayed up an hour late hanging out with my besty since it was her birthday. It’s probably when I’m really tired, but I noticed that sometimes I won’t realize that I’m awake and going through my dream in my head until the memories start fading. Sucks!

I joined the Intro Class yesterday evening, and am going to be working on the DILD technique for a while. :3