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    1. 5 Oct: A place from my childhood and a weird LD experience

      by , 10-05-2022 at 08:09 PM (Lucid-schizo-dreamer)
      non-dream dream semi-lucid lucid FA / AP

      Visiting the secondary location of my old extra curricular activities center. It now seems to be working as a day care for younger children. At first I am waiting at some waiting room and notice the old furniture and apparently abandoned and despised trinkets I remember seeing there as a kid. I start picking some up from the floor and under a table, stuffing them in my pockets since here no one cares to preserve these. It's like tiny china figurines and sculpted wooden pieces. Then I am welcomed inside and I get to see that this place is overcrowded with kids. The kids are sitting on the floor, I almost can't walk around, I see no toys or games, they look bored and neglected. Most are kids of color. There's 3 or 4 carers who seem overwhelmed with the kids and even a bit too agressive towards them, I feel. I am worried about what I see. I then decide I will try to sell the antique trinkets and donate the money back to them. I exit through the front door - seems like I actually entered through the back one - and even find another carer with half a dozen more kids sitting on the floor of the hallway of the building. It's heartbreaking.

      I am waking up from a dream, but become lucid and try hard to hold on. Get stuck in what seems like behind a frosted glass wall. To not lose lucidity, I focus on the texture of the frosted glass, so close to my face and don't try anything else. When I feel the lucidity is more stable, I also try to feel my real body in bed. I think I may have had a lucid false awakening, because I experimented raising my real hand and touch my face with it and I swear I felt it. I even put my fingers in my mouth. At least that's exactly what it felt like, although in the dream state I was basically formless in front of the frosted glass screen. When I really woke up, I was confused if I actually managed to move my hand by commanding it from inside the lucid dream or if I imagined it, but most likely I imagined it in a cross between an LD and a FA.
    2. On holiday with an Elephant

      by , 10-05-2022 at 06:09 PM
      Haven't remembered any dreams the last couple of mornings, but I had a mid-afternoon nap today and had a funny old dream. I kinda stupidly had a Monster energy drink at lunch time, and those things have a weirldy opposite effect on me where they make me want to nap hard. I guess the stimulation from the caffeine keeps me slightly awake when I dream too, so I often remember them. Certainly won't be making a habit of that though!

      I was on holiday somewhere really nice with a very random group of people. Much like my last dream, it was in a fancy villa with tiled floors and lots of natural light. It felt a bit more exotic than Italy this time though. My parents were both there, my sister and her fiance might have been there, but strangely my ex-girlfrined (we only broke up yesterday, sadly) was there as was another couple. Bizarrely, the other couple was my ex-girlfriend's best friend's parents, who I met at a birthday party (awesome people, I would deffo go on holiday with them IRL!).

      All I really remember about the holiday was one scene - everyone was slowly getting ready to go out. Everyone was either freshly showered, showering, or getting ready to shower. I remember rather a lot of nudity, everyone seemed very comfortable around each other. This probably stems from me recently joining a spa/gym where everyone in the shower area is very comfortable with nudity. One of the showers was even right in the middle of the main hallway, which my ex-girlfriends best friend's dad was using. I was wandering around naked with a towel over my shoulder, on my way to the shower too.

      I passed through a dark bedroom where my ex-girlfriend was sleeping in an armchair. I gave her a tap and sung her name, and she hazily woke up and I told her it was time to get ready to go. It felt like we were going out for dinner, but the way I said this suggested we were packing our bags to leave. I walked out of the bedroom into a garden, which felt very African. Exotic plants, red dirt and dry grass, not to mention there was a damn elephant!

      I remember being very comfortable with the elephant - he was the neighbours pet, and in fact he wasn't like an elephant at all. Whilst he did have a trunk and he was large, it was very slim in the middle and weird gill-like features. It actually reminds me of a real animal or sea creature that I have seen before, but I can't quite put a finger on what that is. I walked around the garden to a large house gate which was the neighbours, where I was going for my shower. I never got to the shower though - I just woke up!

      Well, that was everything! It was a pretty neutral dream - I remember some people having bad vibes about the elephant, but I knew it was safe.
      Categories
      non-lucid
    3. October 5 2022 6:57 am

      by , 10-05-2022 at 06:30 AM
      I discover a supermarket across the tracks that has a cafe with interactive entertainment and performances, it becomes my to-go spot.

      My friends and I go there and the cafe has a trampoline-bungee jump performance that requires both performers and crew members behind the open curtains to keep balance and share weight. It looks nice, but apparently everyone behind the scenes gets frustrated and starts audibly yelling at each other, some friends and I get on a unused trampoline to distract the audience.

      My high school friends and I eat at our table after the performance. My friend who is a calm guy walks up to the counter talking to the women working there, I can't understand what he's saying until he gets frustrated and angrily calls the women "fortune tellers" which made me smirk as they wearimg "spiritual"-like outfits. My other friends and I get up knowing we're about to get kicked out. The staff compliments us for how quickly we managed to sign out as guests on the computer by the entrance.
      Now calmed down, my friend told the staff that he was dissapointed that the cafe doesn't offer hosuden, which are appartently the remedy for his allergies as he said his dog could smell it when he walks with him. Meanwhile, I struggle to get my two jackets on.
    4. Dream Watch

      by , 10-05-2022 at 03:20 AM (The Dream Adventures of MadMonkey)
      I haven't been able to dream journal much lately because my dreams take on a strange intangible feel where not much of it really translates well to journal form. Last night my girlfriend and I did a staycation at our favorite hotel and the beds there are magnificent. Weighted blanket and a down pad.

      I got very good sleep and even woke up naturally 10 minutes before the wbtb alarm I set. Nothing much would come from it because I fell back asleep to quickly without trying WILD or MILD.


      10.04.2022
      7:00 AM
      Dream Watch (non-lucid)

      I am in an unfamiliar bedroom. It is dark but I see a nice watch on the nightstand. I pick it up. It has dark leather straps, a dark face, and grey metal case. I check it against the clock on the wall and realize it is two and a half hours slow but it is ticking at the right rate. I pop out the knob and start adjusting it but it's hard to see the dials clearly in the dark.
      Tags: non-lucid, time, watch
      Categories
      non-lucid
    5. Smiley

      by , 10-05-2022 at 03:05 AM (The Dream Adventures of MadMonkey)
      08.142022
      10:00 AM
      Smiley (DILD)

      I am in my childhood home and lucid. I walk out to the backyard and the sun is setting. Juliana steps into view right in front of me and smiles deeply, the sun and the oak tre behind her. She is a 5'2 woman in her 20s with short dark hair and wearing a simple black dress. I feel both her and my happiness and it causes me to wake up.
    6. 4 Oct: Sangha intrigues, Keanu Reeves new show and legal battle in the family

      by , 10-04-2022 at 08:34 PM (Lucid-schizo-dreamer)
      non-dream dream semi-lucid lucid FA / AP

      Attending some teachings, some place up in the mountains with an amphitheatre. Some old students and western lamas are conspiring to betray my teacher. They are exposed and they are sent away. Joakim was not among them, but he concerns me a lot. I know that he is no longer a buddhist, has some new non recommended friends for company, so I suspect he is around only to cause harm. I stay close and keep an eye on him.

      New series on TV with Keanu Reeves. He plays a lawyer with a split personality. He sometimes dresses up to match the personalities, but it is highly disturbing. One of them is a dog and he wears a dog costume and walks on four legs and looks weirdly like a real dog from the uncanny valley. Some other of his personalities are of black guys and he paints himself in black face. The makeup is so perfect that all we see is really a black guy, but we know who's underneath and I am shocked that he is actually doing this on a show in 2022. Then an episode in which he is the dog becomes a real life experience for me and I meet dog Keanu on the street. Although I know there is a person in there, I pretend I don't know and I pet him and talk to him as if he is a lost pet. He never says a word and then he runs across the street away from me and enters a bulding. I go after him. I walk through a long twisted corridor and I see many families gathered in rooms, mourning their loved ones, or just visiting them and realize it is some kind of hospice. Dog Keanu disappears at the end of the corridor and I get lost inside the last room, only to find my mother and my aunt Ludovina laying down in beds. At first I think they are restrained because my mom has an eye mask and for a while it seemed like she had a mouth gag. Turns out she is just taking a nap and she wakes up and moves freely. She explains that my uncle Francisco managed to get some legal document saying they both are insane and needed to be committed so the hospital complied. But she says that the situation is being solved right now and she is just resting before she leaves this place. Then my dad and aunt Lisa arrive and they say they just challenged the decision and are awaiting their release. Then both my uncles come by to confront them and for some reason I have a really big heavy pan on my hands and I threathen to smash it against their f-ing heads if they come any closer. They actually get really scared and go to a corner at the back of the room. Their kids also come, namely João, Sara and André and they are shocked with my behaviour but I also feel that they understand it. I hear my uncles talking in the background with other people, arguing they need the family money because sometimes their kids go hungry. I feel sad for my cousins, but it's their parents fault and not my mother's. I wanna reach out to them, but every one is staying quiet in their places so I decided to do the same as we wait for the legal fight to unravel.
    7. Attempting to sleep better and deeper

      by , 10-04-2022 at 07:11 PM
      I've been waking up in the early AM, unable to shut down my thinking. Tonight. I will try Magnesium, 5-HTP and Melatonin in a stack to induce better sleep. Also, using my self-made Sleep/Dream Cycle session, listening to it all night.
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      Uncategorized
    8. 3 Oct: I get pregnant from the devil

      by , 10-03-2022 at 08:55 PM (Lucid-schizo-dreamer)
      non-dream dream semi-lucid lucid FA / AP

      On a hot air baloon with my boyfriend and another friend (not the same as in RL, I don't really know them). It crashes in the sea and we're rescued by sailors. They treat me ok, until the captain lusts for me and says he wants to possess me. My boyfriend does nothing and says nothing and I start loathing him. His friend also stays quiet, they just want to get out alive. I end up at home somehow with no recollection of all that happened in between.
      At my old bedroom in my mom's house, trying to sleep. But the room is haunted! The furniture is moving to the middle of room, the drawers open by themselves. I go wake up my mom, she doesn't see anything, but she helps me put things in their place. Then she leaves and one of my dolls is possessed and starts making sounds. I gather my courage and confront the spirit and ask what they want. They say they want me. I dare them to appear. They do, they look androginous, sexy, remind me of Desire of the Endless, appearing both male and female. We have a long talk, they want me to sign a paper, I refuse. They say I'll be their sexual slave, wanting or not and they taunt me by describing what they'll do to me. I confess I start to feel a bit horny and decide to twist it and I seduce the demon instead. I expose my breasts and dare them to lick them. They do. I put aside my disgust when I see their long triangular shaped tongue and I get closer and kiss them. I caress their breasts too and then their dick, until I cause an erection and make them cum. I feel like I avoided the worst but then they say I'll be coming to live with them in some place underwater and show me it on a map. I say no. They laugh and say I have no choice as I am carrying their baby. I am confused. Then the captain who had rescued/kidnapped me before appears out of nowhere and they reveal he is an extension or avatar of the demon. They laugh and say they didn't need to impregnate me now because I am impregnated already. I say no way and I run to the bathroom. I know it is possible, I am trying to feel if I can feel it inside me growing. I want to abort, I also know they'll never allow it. I panic.
    9. MeltingCORE's Dream Pyramid / Emily's Horizon

      by , 10-03-2022 at 05:08 PM (MeltingCORE's Dream Pyramid / Emily's Horizon)
      I will collect the dreams I've written recently on Discord to my friends in my first post! I have many more dreams beyond this (hundreds upon hundreds) but I'm just going to keep those archived on my computer. Can't get too silly now trying to upload every single dream I've had written down before this.

      Dream One (9.11.2022)


      I was in a big, random elementary school. A kid was crying because of over-stimulation (autism) and I was showing him toys to calm him down. There was a nice, older nurse and she asked me: "You usually work with special education kids, don't you? I can tell." (Yes, I do - in waking life!)

      Dream Two (9.17.2022)


      I had a dream about AI art overrunning real human artists on Instagram. (This is a big talking point in the waking art world right now.)

      Dream Three (9.18.2022)

      I had a dream about a bad person from my past. Their photo infected my laptop and then their face distorted into this ugly, monstrous thing. They had eyes oozing with pus everywhere and melting flesh from their skull. They hijacked my Discord and typed "I have become the villain the world wants me to be". (In waking life, I'm no longer worried about this person bothering or stalking me anymore.) Then in the second dream, a horse monster appeared and devoured a guy in the background. You could see him through the stomach and he was on his phone, completely unphased. Truly messed up. You got eaten, you're going to die - who cares about social media then!?

      Dream Four (9.21.2022)


      A false awakening. I "woke up" and went to use the bathroom. I noticed all the lights were on at 6:00 AM for some reason. I saw my brother and mom talking in the living room. I was like ??? and turned the light off in the bathroom. All the lights in our apartment turned off. When the lights were off I saw my brother and mom quit moving, like they were statues. When the lights came back on, they were gone. And then I woke for real and it was 2 AM.

      Dream Five (9.28.2022)


      I was flying in the sky, high above Hurricane Ian with lightning powers (that also somehow prevented me from getting cold so high in the atmosphere). Then there was a scene where I was trying to stop the Earth from getting sawed in half by a giant, cyberpunk saw.

      Dream Six (9.30.2022)

      I was with Steppe and Wunda in a random elementary school. I was trying to reset the timeline because we kept getting wrecked by Darkseid who would appear through a portal. (I guess he was mad about two soldiers being taken away!) At one point I was talking to them both on cellphones (we were at different areas of the school). I cautiously told them: "Remember - don't believe the propaganda, we are but mere tools to him". And then the screen turned bright red and shattered. I woke up. (These are all characters in a fan novel I'm writing for the DC Comics' series "New Gods". My book is called "Red Shift".)

      Dream Seven (10.2.2022)

      I was in an elementary school and was working on the "Red Shift" visual novel. I accidentally released the whole thing to the public (despite it not being done). People around the school suddenly started giving me reviews of the game. They were saying things like: "Great premise and locations but it feels unfinished? 8/10". (IT IS. Also, why the high review if it feels unfinished?)

      Updated 10-03-2022 at 05:40 PM by 99520

      Categories
      non-lucid , false awakening , dream fragment
    10. Stabilization attempt

      by , 10-03-2022 at 03:18 PM
      Looks like I'm starting to get some of my old frequency back. I often stop practicing somewhere at this point, either getting bored or lazy or burnt out, or something. My goal this time is to keep practicing past the point where I'm starting to have decent success, and see how far I can go.

      Stabilize (Lucid)

      Lying in bed, I do a nose pinch and can still breathe. I decide that I’m dreaming but it feels as though I’m not quite asleep. I want to get up, but I don’t want to wake myself up in the process. I think about the “opening your dream eyes” technique, and I think I try to apply it. Anyway, I slowly try moving, and it seems like I’m still dreaming. I slowly move my arm to pull myself up out of bed. My arm feels odd and kind of tingly, as though I were sleeping on it funny. I figure that I can work with that, though. I make my way out of bed, and stand up. Things seem real-ish. It is kind of dimly light in the room, like early morning. I push my hair out of my eyes. Then I sit down on the floor and concentrate on stabilizing the dream as I had planned to do before. I repeat “stabilize” over and over a few times. Eventually, however, the dream fades out slowly. I can see a little bit of something still, but think at this point that I’m waking up and what I see is from my eyes opening just a little bit. I open my eyes all the way, but that wakes me up.
      Tags: lucid
      Categories
      Uncategorized
    11. Beach Basement Monsters

      by , 10-03-2022 at 02:17 PM (Lucid Time!)
      The dream begins and I am in a basement. It feels like an odd combination of the basement of my grandparents house and my old childhood home. It is very unfinished, mostly bare wall studs and some utility equipment. I am meandering around and I end up going through a door to find myself in a school gymnasium.

      I become semi-lucid and resolve to find Manei. I find her in the crowd taking a fairly recognizable form. She seems even taller than usual and has a blonde streak in her hair, though the dream is not particularly vivid. I decide that I don't want to have a dream about a school gymnasium, it has too much of a negative schema associated with it. She agrees and we resolve to leave back through the same door I came in through. We go back into the house basement and then through another door on the far side which takes us up a flight of stairs and onto a beach scene.

      This seems like a much better scene to set the dream in. But there are monsters roving on the beach. Two of them are about the size of a small house, maybe thirty feet in height. There are about a dozen more that are about human sized which are running around terrorizing beachgoers and there are a few skeletons being picked clean of meat beneath them. They look like the MUTO monster from 2014 godzilla or the cloverfield monsters. But their mouths look like a Predator or Sangheili in that they have a jaw that spilts open in multiple ways. Manei says we have to deal with them one way or another.

      She pulls out a device, saying its a machine which can summon anything into the dream world and she wants to use it to summon weapons. However the device is built into an old flip phone (where one would have to type a number multiple times rapidly to get a certain letter) and in order to summon something she must text it using a 10-digit pad. This is certainly inconvenient especially with how dream phones and anything with text or numbers can be. She manages to type in 'dagger' and summon a small kunai knife. Then threw it out and killed one of the smaller monsters.

      I then, quoting inception and said "you musn't be afraid to dream a little bigger, darling." and typed in 'railgun'. I don't remember if i was successful or not since I vaguely remember holding a railgun that looked like handheld railgun in the Halo games. But then I decided against using it and it faded away or it turned out I had typed it into the summoning device incorrectly before I was able to fire. Or I forgot to dream of a power cell for it or something.


      Then, I ran out onto the beach. I must have gained more lucidity because I recognized that I didn't need a machine to summon a weapon for me, and summoned my own weapon. It partially failed because when I summoned it, it appeared translucent. But I planted one end of it in the sand forcefully and the sand rippled oddly in a sort of shockwave, drawing a wide circle around me to show power. This was in some convoluted dream-logic way a reference to the anti-sea-bear circle from Spongebob.

      "End your threatening presence in my dream and tell me what you symbolize."

      Ive had mixed results with getting nightmares to stand down. It seems about coin flip odds they just get angry and continue to attack me or the dream just ends up getting worse when I try the diplomatic approach. But I'm happy to say this creature seemed very diplomatic. All but one of the large monsters disappeared, and the one that remained swiftly shrank into a very harmless looking bright blue creature about the size of a large dog. It gave me the vibe of being half-elephant, half pig and it had two small trunks.

      "I symbolize that you feel disconnected from nature."


      I woke up.

      There was another dream wherein I was in what felt like the city of chicago. I was watching two spaceships or large flying vessels do battle out over the water. One looked like the battlestar galactica. The other was a big sort of drab green zeppelin. The drab green zeppelin takes a lot of damage and begins to drop into lake michigan. When it collides with the water it explodes like a giant hydrogen bomb and everyone starts running anticipating a shockwave and nuclear will hit soon. Everyone starts running and looking for places to hide. I can't find a good place to hide that isn't already jammed full of people so I resolve to accept my fate.

      I am standing still watching the shockwave approach over the water, and in the final few moments it gets onto land flattening trees and buildings. Then time freezes with it only a few meters away from me. The grim reaper appears and says something like

      "Uhm wow, you're not even going to try to worm your way out of this one?"

      "No. Life's got me feeling worn out right now and if this is how I'm going to go out, I'm going to face it with dignity and accept it."

      "Dude... seriously, come on. You're no fun at all. Look I'll give you one minute to find a hiding spot."

      I decide to try and survive anyway. I look for a large building, an apartment or condo of some sort and run inside. Then I try to get onto the lowest level. The dream completely drops the 'time is frozen and Im running from a nuclear explosion' plotline as I get yelled at by some woman for being in her apartment. I try to explain the situation about the nuclear blast but she doesn't believe me. I then try to convince her that I am a maintenance man and need to go into the utility room below her condo. She buys that. I go hide in the utility room and lose the dream.
      Categories
      non-lucid , lucid
    12. First detailed dream recollection in a while

      by , 10-03-2022 at 11:44 AM
      Since reviving my account, this is the first proper dream journal entry I have created - I woke up in the morning remembering two relatively detailed dreams, which felt great. I had my laptop on my bedside table and immediately got writing.

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      02/10/22

      Just a little snippet of a dream I forgot to write down from the night before. At some point I dreamt of someone breaking into my flat as it was as if I was stood right in front of the door seeing it get kicked in by a nondescript character. It was scary and I’m pretty sure I woke up instantly, aware that I forgot to lock the door (as I forget to do most nights)

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      03/10/22

      #1

      First long dream remembered in a while! I was on Holiday with Italy lot and Connor. Whole dream felt like we were in Italy. However, there were landscape that felt more like Switzerland or smth, and at the end of the dream I could see a map within Google Maps, showing Sweden in the shape of the U.S. All of its cities did have Swedish-looking names, but they were all organized on the map like a weird grid. We were making our way through the country place by place, but I only recall being in one or two places.

      Connor was there too, and we were spending a lot of time by the pool listening to tunes. This was on the roof and felt a lot like a place I recently stayed at in Meta, near Naples, Italy. The indoor spaces in later parts of the dream also looked like the same villa.

      Connor didn’t look like he was having much fun with my musical recommendations. After a few musical disagreements, Connor starts playing Shpongle and the audio seems to come out of the sky. It was a good opportunity to become lucid as both of us thought the album just felt slightly flat and odd, as if it was unmastered. At some point Connor gets under a duvet by the pool, much like the double mattress im using right now that has no sheets on it. I was splashing about in the pool enjoying the vibes when Beth from the Italy trip came around the corner and said, “You guys ready to go in a minute?”. Triggered by this, I said something kind of obviously not true like “Yup, ready to leave whenever”, despite that I was inside the pool and pretty sure I had just made the conscious decision to dunk my dreadlocks under the water.

      At some point within the same dream, I was in a double bed in a communal bedroom that felt very similar to the Italy villa, pretty sure Connor was in the bed with me. I remember people beginning to wake up and wanting to leave. This information was provided on a TV screen, indicating when each person woke up through numbers and colours. Somewhere near my bed there was a mostly empty packet of classic M&Ms, and I was happy knowing that I left myself a couple, so I went for them. It turned out there was a lot, like two decent handfuls. I ate them anyway and felt slightly disappointed as I only wanted a couple, this was a bit too much.

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      #2

      In another dream, I saw myself being in the middle of a chaotic scene on a metro train in China with a friend, I can’t remember who. There was some sort of zombie-like apocalypse going on, or there may not have been zombies but many people were hunting us for some reason. When the dream started, the person I was with was fighting off attackers, but after they were gone it was more chill. We were in the carriage with other people but they didn’t take much notice of us. My friend had a hoody on and was positioning it so that no one could see his face, so perhaps that’s why everyone was being chill. At each metro stop, he would panic and look through the windows while trying to look neutral, hoping to catch anyone who knew about us before it was too late.

      At some point I just got off the train for some reason, in some quite nice-looking town in the middle of nowhere. The weather was appearing fresh and crisp, like a British spring afternoon. It didn't look like how I would imagine a Chinese town to look like - felt more like Europe again. I was aware of a game that we were playing – it involved a survival/challenge element – if you got off the train at the wrong stop, you had to spend all day there with limited food, money etc. It was something like that, and whilst it sounds awful rn, in the dream it sounded like such a great idea. I also thought about how the language is very confusing and therefore it’s easy to get the stop wrong, making this game a fantastic way to visit places in China that I otherwise never would.

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      Overall, I enjoyed both of these dreams a lot! I've stopped smoking weed in the last couple of days and have been trying to exercise more, and I think this is allowing my mind to be fresher and ready to dream. I'm not going to jump straight into attaining lucidity - I'm going to continue what I'm doing for perhaps a week, by which point a book I ordered on Amazon, "Exploring the World of Lucid Dreams" by Stephen LaBerge, should have arrived. I heard about this book in a lucid dream video yesterday and it sounds great - I've never actually read any books on lucid dreaming, only consuming online content. I think the arrival of this book will be a good opportunity to immerse myself in lucid dreaming, start reality checking again, and set some WBTB alarms. Exciting times!
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      non-lucid
    13. September 2?, 2022

      by , 10-03-2022 at 01:56 AM
      This dream occurred in the last week of my artist residency in Berlin, I don't recall the exact day anymore as I kept procrastinating on writing it down here, but it was a few days before the opening.

      My colleagues and I were put in a psych ward and constantly trying to escape, but every attempt would lead us back into the psych ward. As this was happening the artist who provided us with guidance also appeared in that dream sitting at a table, drawing with crayons;
      "You guys hate this? I love this!" The funny part about that was that he would say something like that in real life as well.

      I haven't thought much of this dream other than it being funny or possibly some "panic dream" about the opening coming closer and us not being finished with the exhibition at the time (It turned out incredible!) until I saw this scene from the Chaos;Head gameplay that I have been watching, and now I'm wondering if the dream of the psych ward wasn't a dream, but rather the reality whereas the entire artist residency was nothing more than a delusion
      (C;H spoiler alert)


      I just looked at the emoticons how y2k :voodo o:: vampire::sunflo wer: :sleepmedit ate2: :dr ink::cook iemonster::par apet::s martie::imsl ow::hi jack::gat or::loc k::se eker:: tardis::nyt acodance::dreamercha ir: dopeness what is Cool Spot doing here nah but fr I'm fine it was just a funny dream and coincidence no worries :U
    14. Another car dream set when Granddad was dying

      by , 10-03-2022 at 12:29 AM
      I had another dream where I was riding between my mom and sister in granddads old reliant that was set when he was dying.

      In this dream, me and my sister were out of school and mom was going to drive us to the mall. Me and my sister were both ready to go and mom told us to go ahead and get in the car.

      My sister grabbed the keys and then I followed her outside where granddads old tan reliant was parked in our driveway. My sister then unlocked the passenger side door and told me to scoot over to the middle since it was her day to choose where to sit. I the sat down on the tan vinyl bench seat and moved over to the middle seat. Once I fastened the tan lap belt around my waist after my sister told me to, she closed the passenger side door and took the keys back in the house to mom.

      Soon she was opening the passenger side door and then sitting down in the passenger seat and then closing the door and fastening her shoulder belt. We then spent a while waiting in the car together until mom was finally locking up the house and then walking to the reliant and opening the driver side door and then sitting down in the driver seat next to me. She then started up the reliant and we drove towards the mall. I felt squished between my mom and sister and we kept passing cars with people I knew in them and it felt like they were all staring at us because I was riding in the middle and my younger shorter sister was by the window.

      We were then driving by the nursing home where grandad was living and then mom was turning into the parking lot and then parking the car in a parking space. As the turned off the car, she told us she needed to stop by and check on granddad because they had called and told her he wasn't feeling well and may have to go to the hospital. She told us to wait in the car and then left us there to go and check on granddad.

      Me and my sister than had to wait in the car and I had to deal with my sister wanting to talk about granddad and me trying to ger her to talk about other things because I didn't want to think about granddad not being around much longer. I woke up from this dream while we were still in the parking lot waiting from mom and having to keep listening to my sister talk about granddad and trying to get me to share my feelings.
    15. Method

      by , 10-02-2022 at 08:05 PM
      I make immersive meditation sessions and record them. Each session is 90-minutes and contains brainwave entrainment ramping from Theta (7 hz) down to Delta (2 hz) then rising back to Theta. I place different lucidity cues during the last Theta part of the session. I listen to this during the night on a Bluetooth sleep mask. The session loops and replays.
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