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In which I attempt to save RR and her family from a cult but end up nearly falling into a pit of excrement...


What I remember most clearly is that RR and her family were living in what appeared to me to be a religious cult compound of some sort. The layout of the compound’s main house was similar to the downstairs floor of my grandmother’s place.

Several families gathered there in the evenings and at mealtimes. The remainder of the day, they were occupied with cult jobs while cult caregivers looked over their children, collectively. No one was allowed to leave the compound without permission, and the segregation of family members made it difficult for anyone to scheme otherwise.

I entered with an open mind. RR is from another culture and religious background, and I’ve always been respectful of our differences. When our mutual friends told me that she and her family had been taken under by a cult, I was skeptical and chalked it up to their xenophobia. But after she declined my invitation to visit, I decided to go check out her new living arrangements. To my shock, I found that my friends were right. RR seemed unwilling to talk to me about it, but I could tell from the look in her eyes that she wished she could escape, but she could not leave her children or her parents.

I arranged a shopping trip to get groceries and figured out a way to get RR’s children to accompany me. I figured that if I could get them away to safety, that RR would have more luck getting herself and parents away. I was feeling like a hero and backing out of the driveway with the kids in the car when suddenly a pixie-cut blonde insisted on joining me. As there was not room for four people, one of RR’s boys had to be left behind. We didn’t make it out of the driveway anyway as I suddenly had the urge to use the restroom.

I ran back into the house, so like my grandmother’s, and went straight away to the restroom where, to my surprise, RR was fixing the toilet. She explained that I had to squat above the toilet for it to function properly. The toilet was in the middle of the room, and it was surrounded by soggy carpet mats. One thin plywood beam led from the door to the toilet, and RR explained that I must walk the beam to the seat and not step on the mats. She exited the room and I did as she suggested. The toilet then turned into a blackened brass stupa sticking up from the ground. I was confused about how to use it. I looked around the bathroom and the whole room seemed dark and worn down. I was confused about where I was, and I had the feeling that there was a secret hidden beneath the soggy carpets. I balanced on the beam and removed the carpets from around the toilet and discovered that the entire floor had been removed. Aside from the stupa and the one plywood beam on which I was perched, the whole room was just a deep, dark pit filled with excrement.

Like the cartoon character who runs off a cliff but doesn’t fall until he realizes there is nothing beneath his feet, I had been able to stay balanced upon the beam without any problem until I realized there was nothing below the carpets. Once I realized my predicament, I slipped. I was able to keep my senses and not plummet into the mess below, and with one hand I caught the edge of the thin wooden plank. As I hung there, I told myself to stay calm. Aside from how disgusting it would be to land in the waste, it was also likely that the fall would result in more than a few broken bones. And then there were the cult members to worry about. What would they think of the fact that I’d pulled up their carpets and revealed their pit? Would they save me or leave me there? These things all went through my mind, but I kept telling myself to stay calm and focus.

Then, swiftly, I hoisted myself back up onto the beam, got both my arms and one leg over the edge, and then pulled myself upright. I briefly considered replacing the carpets so that no one would know what happened, but then decided instead just to get out of the whole compound as quickly as possible.

i am looking at a sims 2 look down/walls down layout plan of a house-ship.

the ship is originally concrete, i think. my dad buys it and i am now in my body (as opposed to the viewer). i am in the ship house.

the white concrete walls are now an organic skin material, mushy and kind of like memory foam.
the house is designed to float, so it sails up, up up. very high up, i am in the ship and can see out of it.

below me are suburbs and trees.

i am back on ground now. some time passes and i am asked to enter the ship again. its not a family ship/house anymore. i am with several other kids my age.

ram dass gives me "be here now" volume 2, the sequel. he tells me not to be afraid and to read the book as the ship floats up.

the ship is more organic now, having completely transformed into something different than a house.

another ship is in front of us. we watch it take off- it jumps into the sky very high and is not seen from where we stand on the ground. i'm really scared.

in the ship i read the book. it might have been called "the negative nature of the universe". this isn't supposed to be a bad thing, though. more like yin yang, the taking over of one thru cycles.

the ship shoots up. my body feels very strange breaking physics like this, i feel like we might have gone faster than anything we as humans have made before could go.

someone says we are going to a certain ocean in the galaxy.

we go there, and then further out. we go out of the galaxy, into deep universe.

the ship is clearly a defense for us. there are things near the ship trying to attack it or something. it seems hostile.

the bottom of the ship shot out some sort of eerie ethereal line of something. it attacked the other things attacking us.



i woke up sometime, at 3:30. i was very awake.

Became lucid somehow and was at my old apartment. I did a bunch of stabilizers as I walked around slowly. I wanted to be outside this time so I walked to the balcony and stepped over the ledge. I remembered some posts I read about dream control and tried to float over the ledge. It didn't work but I did fall down slowly. It was really nice out and I walked around liked at the fall scenery. The dream faded and I restabilized. I eventually went into a fa and I was at some restaurant. I had this really good pasta dish. I saw a girl I used to work with and she said my hair never looked better. There were curtains around my table so I could fully seclude myself from others. One guy made run of me for doing that and people defended me. I told them try try eating with their eyes closed to really taste the food. They worshipped me.*

Was in Vegas with Leo. There were problems with driving home with Kara and Dina so they both left. Leo and I stayed and explored. There were two maslys that we liked and kept seeing. We were both ugly and had chapped lips so we didn't approach. Leo was in his room upstairs so I went to buy Chapstick. I got the best one and put it on. I saw the maslys and went to get Leo. We ended up getting ready for bed around 6 pm on the sidewalk while the sun was still up. I thought about how weird it was and why we were doing this when an alarm woke me up

It has been a long time since I have had a LD. This morning I had several.

I wish I had taken the time to write them down because I can't recall them very well anymore.

I was dreaming about something absurd and unrealistic. I woke up briefly at around 7:30 am and was very frustrated. I remember thinking how bizarre the dream was and how sad it was that I couldn't realize it was a dream while I was dreaming it.

I was dreaming that I was part of a football team. We were a professional team but we were stuck playing at a really small local school field. It was upsetting me that we were there. The dream shifted into something else and I think I was doing road maintenance??? That is when I woke up frustrated.


I then went back to sleep.

I re-entered the dream and then I remember questioning the situation and I believe I did a reality check. I realized I was dreaming.

I was dreaming that I was part of a football team. We were a professional team but we were stuck playing at a really small local school field. It was upsetting me that we were there. The dream shifted into something else and I think I was doing road maintenance??? That is when I woke up frustrated.

I was very lightly sleeping at this point. I remember trying to fly however I couldn't fly very high, I was more hovering over the ground.

I did not have any control over the environment and could not create the world around me. However I was aware I was dreaming and everything was very realistic.

I remember a few different occasions I got overly excited about the fact I was have a LD but for the first time ever I remembered to SPIN!!!!

I started to wake up and felt myself in both my bed and in the dream state. But I kept thinking "SPIN SPIN SPIN SPIN SPIN" and my dream body spun faster and faster and faster.... and eventually I was back dreaming again!!!

Very excited about this as it was not only a first time having this happen but it happened several times during my LD this am.

One time was odd. I remember starting to wake up and things became like static on an old tv. I was between worlds and kept thinking SPIN SPIN SPIN SPIN and when I was back in the dream state... It was all static.

It weirded me out so I woke my body up to make sure I could still wake up... Did so and then fell back asleep.

This was all very low level LD states. It was a very light sleep and the LD and dream states slipped away several times. However the landmark of me remembering to "SPIN" is great.

If I can recall what I was dreaming about I will add to this later. I just recall trying to "Fly" on a few occasions but barely getting any lift and floating around more than anything else.

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I am on a beach, learning how to fly a broomstick. I can only fly for a few seconds before falling.
I walk down to the still blue ocean water. Faded, faraway sounds of soft laughter can be heard, but my focus is on a large scallop shell submerged in the water. I reach out to touch the shell, when I hear an urgent, sharp voice say "Don't touch the shell! It's a sign!"
I touch the shell and all of a sudden the clouds in the sky over cast and move overhead fast, as if in time lapse. The clouds swirl and head towards where the whole ocean is being sucked into a massive, stormy maelstrom. It is magnificent, the water is draining, leaning barren land and the clouds get sucked in.
Reality is collapsing as I am sucked into the maelstrom...



I open my eyes to find myself face to face with a being. We are in a small room, with a round tube-like table in the middle. There are others with me. The man talks, and gives us gifts. I receive tacky pink beads in a box.
I can't tell if this figure is God, or the devil, or something else as he sends us on our way.

I am in a shopping mall, staring in a shop window. I can see my reflection, and people pass by behind me, shopping and going about their everyday lives. Yet I stand, as if in a trance. I look like a girl from my school, Sophie, except with long, rough, spiky hair that is black with red streaks.

I am depressed. At this moment I am aware of my waking life, but I think that I have died and reincarnated as a new person. I feel depressed that my previous life was for nothing, and that everything I have achieved is for naught. I go to my new house with my new family. I don't remember their faces. depression weighs heavily on me as I contemplate my wasted previous life.
End.

I look our the window and there is a bootsale. My mother and little sister tell me to come out, but I am in my pajamas. They tell me to come out anyway.

I am playing hide and seek on a team. We are in a maze, competing against troll-like monsters for P.E. Mad-eye Moody is our teacher. Our form tutor is busy so Mad-Eye took over. He tells us tactics for playing against the monsters in the cave mazes, because we were all being wimps and were only playing in the fields. He tells us to stick in pairs, and dig ditches to catch the monsters in.

I am in some kind of tournament. I am fighting a boy, and can't bring myself to kill him so I force him to surrender by holding a knife to his throat. I win. For the next round, me and the other girls pick boys to fight, to receive corresponding bracelets as prizes.
I don't choose and instead walk around with one of the opposing boys. I insult him, accidentally by calling him a girl, and he does something weird to me, casting a spell or something of the sort.

Next thing, I am in school toilets. I look in the mirror. My hair is in a crown up-do and I have eyes that look like yellow illusion/miracle beads. I pass this off as the result of what the boy had done to me earlier, and I move on.


Me and my sister are outside Tescos, and are sitting by a massive ditch filled with stinging nettles. Someone on the other side of he ditch tries to get my attention, but we are separated by the nettles.
End.

· NON-DREAM · NOTES · DREAM · LUCID ·

I have moved back to my old house in Worcester. Everything is in shades of grey, and the house is mouldy and damp. It is my birthday, yet the atmosphere is crushingly depressing.

I have moved to a new school. The secretary and headteacher are nasty and take advantage of the girls. Everything around me is grey and a little blurry.

Next I am at the beach; grey waves crashing onto grey beaches with grey overcast clouds up ahead and a chill breeze. I am listening to music with some other girls as an escape. We are on the internet as we can only find internet signal on the beach

· NON-DREAM · NOTES · DREAM · LUCID ·
I am in a supermarket, running around and performing stunts. I see Georgia and her mum shopping. The frozen foods are in a pit under floor level. Her mum is very friendly and gives me directions.

· NON-DREAM · NOTES · DREAM · LUCID ·
I am in a communal home, as there are a lot of people walking around. I am going out to visit the fields. I am walking down a large, dirty, damp spiral staircase that reminds me of a dungeon. I am with a slimy green humanoid creature. I reach the end of the staircase where it abruptly stops, and there is a sheer drop below. It is a massive cavern, with scientist labs dotted on columns rising from the depths. I turn and try to go back upstairs. I am scared of falling through the staircase as I climb. Because I am afraid of falling, I really do fall through the floor. I am falling, and panicking as I can't see much around me. I then think that if I'm going to die, I may as well enjoy the ride. I start to enjoy the fall, and all of a sudden my surroundings change and I am falling over a soft, blurry space of grey dotted with flecks of colour. I then stop falling suddenly, and I float as if in limbo. I realise that this is unrealistic, and I realise that I must be dreaming. I panic, then try to fly. Below me there is an expanse of grey with small dull coloured rectangles below me. It looks like cars stuck in traffic.
I wake up.

· NON-DREAM · NOTES · DREAM · LUCID ·

I am in Portugal on holiday. I am playing in an old shack, and we are playing dodgeball. I can't see who is throwing the balls.
I am walking outside, up onto a roof where I glance out over a vast lake and lean on the railings. My friend Aimee comes up to me, holding a fish in her fingers by its tail. We talk about Portugal, a lively conversation. We watch as people swim up a water treadmill catching koi. Aimee says its a Japanese tradition.

I ask my dad if I can try, but he says no because it is our last night on holiday.
I talk with my dad about how the fair and lake was open at night even though the workers went home. In the distance there are twinkling lights, most probably lights of a nearby town.

I an at an airport. Dad mentions something about me and my friend Skye watching a movie about T-rexes. He says that my little sister can't, so she has to go make posters and colouring pages of dogs. She is about to go off with a little posh girl, coated in fur and with voluminous blonde hair. She has an English accent, and looks snooty and rich.
End.

This is the dream that made me interested in dreaming, and lucid dreaming.


I am biking home from school. Someone had broken my Plastic ocarina that I'd brought in, and it is crumbling to pieces like foil.

Whilst biking, I see Ronan Parke, except he doesn't look like Ronan Parke. He has short, brown, weedy hair and I only catch a glimpse of him standing in an archway of a medieval castle-like building with lots of doors and arches. I walk into the building and open a door. All of a sudden there are several over people with me, yet I can't remember their faces. A massive, spiky cartoon lion head bursts out and tries to grab me. The others fight him off whilst I slam the door.



Looks like this, but with a lot more spikes, colours and ferociousness.



I move on to another door, and I am on the sidelines of a film set, even though we were standing around a medieval courtyard. I am watching the filming of Link visiting a fairy house. I get bored, so I grab a security camera and try to break it, or push it away. Some people become annoyed at me because I was blocking the camera.
I am watching a premier Inn advert, with Lenny Henry in it.
End.

This is the dream that made me interested in dreaming, and lucid dreaming.


I am biking home from school. Someone had broken my Plastic ocarina that I'd brought in, and it is crumbling to pieces like foil.

Whilst biking, I see Ronan Parke, except he doesn't look like Ronan Parke. He has short, brown, weedy hair and I only catch a glimpse of him standing in an archway of a medieval castle-like building with lots of doors and arches. I walk into the building and open a door. All of a sudden there are several over people with me, yet I can't remember their faces. A massive, spiky cartoon lion head bursts out and tries to grab me. The others fight him off whilst I slam the door.



Looks like this, but with a lot more spikes, colours and ferociousness.



I move on to another door, and I am on the sidelines of a film set, even though we were standing around a medieval courtyard. I am watching the filming of Link visiting a fairy house. I get bored, so I grab a security camera and try to break it, or push it away. Some people become annoyed at me because I was blocking the camera.
I am watching a premier Inn advert, with Lenny Henry in it.
End.

12/15/11

NON-LUCID

Dream 1:

I believe the initial point of this dream was me walking with my Biochemistry Advisor in Texas A&M (Let’s call her Trina). I think she was asking a few people that she needed a guy who was smart and has some time to start on some kind of assignment.

No one answered, so I after I followed her more and more, I told her that since I’m done with all my finals, I can do the project if she wanted me to. I also added on to say that I would need something to do over the weekends because I basically have a month off from college.

(In waking life, I do have a month off from college). So we go off into a random conversation and I suddenly she disappears. Instead of being in a building, I’m in a house all of a sudden.

I’m wondering where Trina is, and I panicked a little because I thought she was kidnapped or something because when I went inside a random room, I saw her clothes there.




My first impression was that she was assaulted, but I let that feeling pass by and explored a little more of this weird house.

I go downstairs and I see a bunch of random DCs, I couldn’t get a good image of a single DC, but I for some reason when I picked up a pack of tissues, they were enraged and wanted me to put it back where it was. I wasn’t too sure of their emotions, it just looked like they were angry at me.




I put the tissues down, and all of these thoughts were racing in my head, as if I could hear the DCs’ thoughts like something being out of existence (probably the tissues).

(Probably a day residue of me looking over a Teen Titans Wiki site on Robin and his relationships with the other Titans, especially Raven. There was one episode where he literally had to go to “Hell” in order to save a part of Raven’s whole demeanor I believe. If he didn’t, she would cease to exist).

(But then again, that's probably another day residue when I took my Biology Final because I realized I was 10 minutes late for the exam and when I came to the room to take it, I was sweating like a pig. An assistant tried to be nice to be and she handed me a box of tissues for me to grab some to wipe the sweat off).

Anyway, back to the dream. I don’t know the path of this dream anymore. I’m suddenly outside and there’s this dude who has light brown-ish hair, Caucasian most likely, and was holding a penis in his hand! (I'm not going to show a picture of that )

I don’t know what the hell was going on, but somehow he managed to get the penis that’s cut off erect for a long time by squeezing the bottom of it to prevent whatever remaining blood was there (though I don’t think the amount of blood would’ve affected it).

He said we had to wait for his friend to pick us up to go to some restaurant. I said “How long will it take for him to get here?” He replied that it would take him 15 minutes or so (maybe less or maybe more, I don’t know).

So to kill time, I looked down and it seemed that I was in an environment where it already rained. So I was playing with a wet portion of sand and made footprints with the shoes I was wearing.



I got a little bit TOO into it, and I think I glanced over to see two adults that were maybe 20-25 feet away from me smiling I think and they were looking at me.

They were headed for the restaurant we were going to I think, it just felt like they were going there, because they wore some decent clothing that would make one assume they’re going to some fancy restaurant.

The guy I’m with who is still holding the penis lets go of it, and when it falls down, it turns into bits of sausage. It animation of it looked like you’re playing Minecraft, and you break an item or mine something and you see bits of it come off.



Then the next scene is us inside of the restaurant, I don’t think I’m joining anyone at the moment, I’m just by myself and a mature couple look at me with interest, so I go over to them.

I think they were asking me my name, and I suddenly became excited and said it with fairly higher tone of voice. I think some random DCs turned around slightly to tell me to be quiet, so I whispered my name to them again.

They were shocked by me saying my name, and after that I couldn’t remember much.

Dream 2:

The dream scene is me in my Chemistry 111 Lab (I already took this class in waking life) and the environment was different. I could tell I was in my Chem Lab because I saw the TA (teacher’s assistant) that was in charge of this class.

There weren’t any vents that sucked up vapors and gases in this room; it was sort of a combination of my Biology 111 Lab with just long tables with stools to sit on.

I was with my Lab partner that I had in waking life in well, which made me assume I really was in my Chem Lab. We were doing a simple experiment, and it looked oddly familiar to the one we did in Biology 111 Lab.

(In waking life, we used beads and magnetic tips to imitate the process of the stages in Mitosis and Meiosis and all).



What we had to do in the dream was a little bit different. There were these fairly long pieces of beads or rings (most likely it was to represent a DNA strand or something like that) that were stuck together and we had to measure how long a portion of it was by clamping it on some wooden machine to hold it in place and measure it in inches.

The ruler that I was using to measure was light green (which is exactly the color of the ruler I have in waking life to do grid drawings of people with).



I started to measure the length of the series of beads or rings at 9 inches. Then as I go to 10 inches, there were some problems. The long chain of beads/rings’ end was a bit slanted, and the ruler looked a little bit weird, but I didn’t focus too much on it.



I just pretended that I was doing something serious while my partner did another experiment to be more efficient.

(In waking life, there were MORE girls in the class than boys) The girls asked my Lab partner if he could give them the answers to something, I don’t know what it was, but they seemed really desperate to get the answers.

After a while, he sighed, and said that he’ll give the answers to them. At this point, I think I turned around to see what was behind me, since I was focused on a narrow field of vision measuring this random piece of beads/ring chained together.

Behind me were more random DCs whose facial features I couldn’t recall, so I assumed they were more girls. One prominent DC I saw was another Black person in the class (I was the only black guy in the class in waking life). He was wearing glasses, and he was smiling, but I didn’t know who he was smiling at, me or the girls he was sitting with.

I assumed he was smiling at the girls, and he looked like the other black person I had for my Biochemistry Introductory course.

After, that I couldn’t remember anything else, other than my Chemistry TA being surprisingly cynical and mean to the students in the class. (She was a nice TA in waking life who knew what we’re going through because she’s a graduate herself).