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[Monday, August 27th, 2012]
The recall starts at a party inside of a strange building. [**1**] (The Blueprints are in my img/ref folder.) The whole place is dark, walls painted black, but flooded with neon lights and bright stars on the walls that give the party an outer space kind of vibe. Maybe it's this vibe that gave me... THE ABILITY TO FLY. Without being aware of my dreaming, I could levitate and simply flap my arms to push myself high into the air. But I wasn't able to will myself up... I would slowly drift downward if I didn't flap. The building has a pretty high ceiling, but plenty of places to fly and sit up high.

I'm in backroom when I suddenly have the idea to try and perform in front of the party on-stage. I see some other musicians close-by and convince them to play with me. I put on my guitar strap as we make our way to the stage.

Once there... I begin wondering what the other musicians prefer to listen and ask them: "So what kind of music do you listen to? I listen to mostly 98 KUPD and 93.3... rock and alternative." (I asked this same question to a friend in WL named Brandon the day before this... I was trying to figure out what to listen to while driving with him.) I was suddenly aware that they might not know these stations, I remembered we were currently located in Phoenix... but then dismissed my doubt when I realized they had the same stations. I told them I listened to "Deftones, Incubus..." and more that I can't remember. No one really was responding. That's when I glanced down at my guitar strap and realize there's no guitar on it.

Amazed at my stupidity, I fly back to the Backroom and look for my guitar. Nathan hands me my red Fender Squire and I remember thinking, "Ugh... this'll do..." and Alex reminds me that it's all I have- in response to my thought. I head back to the main room, flying again...

My memory fades...

It was a long and detailed lucid but I'm not perfectly sure about the chronology of some things and actually I can't remember it too well.

I know that I was on a plaza of some kind of city in the night, I don't know how I became lucid and what exactly happened there but I tried to fly, while looking into the sky, some weird stuff happened, my vision blured and I lost lucidity. A moment or maybe a minute later I was in front of a building and saw another building kind of hovering above and I associated that with my flying attempts from before, did an RC and became lucid again. I tried to summon a clocktower for some reason and then I ran through the city in high speed before I woke up.

just wanted to get this into my DJ... it's from my bedside notebook. The date was 4.12.12, and it was by far the worst and most vivid dream i've had yet this year. This isn't word-for-word as i wrote it that morning, by the way. It's rewritten here to make more sense. Here goes.

there was more at the beginning, but the first i remember i was in some post-apocalyptic world, standing on top of a very tall building that was an odd combination of skyscraper and medieval castle. I was talking to the leader of the group that lived there- an old man who looked like a wizard, complete with beard, blue robe, and pointy hat- trying to convince him to let me stay there.

he said there was a girl there that was sick and had to be separated from the group, and i could stay if i took her down to the basement. So i went to her tent (they all lived in tents on top of this building), and after an argument with her parents i picked her up and carried her over to this big industrial elevator that went all the way down. She was a teenager with short black hair and i noticed that she weighed next to nothing. I could tell she was indeed very sick.

the basement was very much like the inside of an office building. This part is so ridiculously vivid it's almost like a real memory. The carpet was red and the walls were green. It looked lived in; there was laundry all over the floor and a blanket spread out in the corner. She told me to put her on the blanket, which i did. I tried asking her what was wrong, but she said i really had to leave. I walked back to the elevator, only to find that it was either gone or not where i thought it was. I looked around a little, and started getting really anxious when i couldn't find a way out. The girl started yelling at me to leave, and i knew something bad was about to happen. I kept running down the hallways, looking for a way back up. Then, i saw the girl at the end of a hall... her skin was blue/gray, and her arms were strangely long. One of her eyes was red and the other one was black... the black one oozed some dark inky stuff. She was just standing there looking at me.

and that was it. I woke up in a sweat.

Command & Conquer 2150:
The whole dream centered around me playing several missions of a game which was like a mix of C&C and Earth 2150. I remember playin on several maps and once a long time ago I had a similar dream. Each map (I think there were 3 in that dream) I was playing a different faction with a different color. The first one I played was yellow and GDI-like, the second was blue I think and the third was green and was much like the ED from Earth 2150, their base was located in a dark spot in a wastelend hidden behind walls.

Snake fight:
It was a long dream and the first thing I remember was being in a big cavern. There were pipes running along the ceiling and there was a blue glowing lake covering the ground. I had a fight against 2 huge snakes which apparently where somehow related to Orochimaru (from Naruto). I managed to remove their balance and make them fall into the water which made them dissolve immediately. Then there was a reference that this water had a similar effect on them like empty water on normal lifeforms. After that the dream was pretty hazy but I remember being in something that looks a little like a city in the sky and there was a latias doing something.

Spoiler for Additional Pleasure (Strong Sexual Content):

I remember being on a bed in an unknown room and I had fun with my girlfriend, though at this point it was pretty undetailed. Some minutes later I suddenly had a pussy and my girlfriend used a vibe on me, and when it went in as deep as possible I came really hard, and my member blasted its load several meters through the room against the radiator under the window. So wrong and perverted, even writing this feels weird. Yet it felt at least really good. I honestly wonder what made me dream this.

I was in my secondary home, in the living room, sitting on the big chair my father usually uses. He was sitting on the couch and I was playing and testing around with the TV. I faintly remember some bloody stuff and that I was thinking that this movie isn’t for children. I noticed he was trying to record the movie which was about to start, and all I knew about it was that it was about Coon City.

Coon is an abbreviation to raccoon; I guess my dream wanted to avoid calling that place Raccoon City for obvious reasons (no relation to Resident Evil). The use of raccoon in the name also had a specific reason, all the people had some certain features of raccoons.

Over the next minutes I’ve seen some scenes from the movie, actually everything was in a forest, and there were only very few buildings, the movie was a strange but well working mixture of anime and real. One scene I saw was of one of these buildings which had an unprotected staircase outside of the building. There were a bunch of people walking, most of them “Coons” (that’s what I call the original inhabitants of Coon City) and at least 1 human, the human fell down and pretty much blew up to red pieces. Along with that scene I learned that somehow that place was really dangerous for normal humans and that the Coons generally don’t like them.
In the next scene I was actually present myself, I wasn’t watching the movie anymore, I was part of a real story. I was a (relatively normal) human and I was together with a girl, she was a Coon and she was really cute. I don’t remember how exactly she looked like but I think she had long hair with a color somewhat like lavender, she had a cute face, and probably some raccoon features I don’t remember. In a gentle but demanding voice she whispered something along these lines into my right ear while holding me: “Please stay here, I know it’s dangerous but I want a man I really like to be with me”.
We were standing close to an acclivity and after she told me those words I gave her some kind of positive reply, then I picked her up carrying her on my arms and started sliding down the acclivity. There was a lot of ivy on the ground and there were a few books lying around in one place. After sliding a good 100-150m we were standing up again, in front of us was another part of the forest, it was really dark and I knew it was a dangerous place. Without saying something to each other we went into different directions, planning to meet again. The last thing I remember was that I was trying to shake whatever was watching me out of those dark woods, then unfortunately the door bell woke me up… Yes how I hate this City (B) and this cursed door bell...

First

I'm with my wife, and we are breaking into a building complex. The door is actually not locked, but we are not welcome. We find our way trough a complex of corridors and stairs, ending up to a laboratory room with three people in it. As we enter the alarm goes of. The doors of the laboratory start closing very slowly, and gas starts pouring in. One of the people in the room says something sarcastic to us. They don't seem to be scared of the gas at all.

My wife rummages trough some drawers and finds a paper. The other people don't do anything to stop us, just offer snide comments. We have more than enough time to leave the laboratory before the doors are finished closing. After getting out of the building we start running.

I think if I was dreaming we could just fly away. Or then again, probably I couldn't fly very well, but jump at least. Then it crosses my head, I am dreaming. I'm not exactly sure so I try jumping. I get a lot higher than I should. Then the scene faids, and is replaced by the blackness behind my eyelids.

There is a feeling of vibrations and some imagery, quite clear but not realistic. I think I should try just going with it, waiting for the vibrations to disappear before trying anything. I don't do any formal technique. At some point I drift to sleep.

Second

I'm in my kitchen with my wife. She is throwing balls up to the ceiling. The ceiling is not solid, it makes a splat and the balls get stuck. I want to try to make the ceiling completely liquid, so that the balls would pass trough. But they just keep splatting, and getting stuck. I jump upward, putting my head trough the ceiling, which offers no resistance. I come down again and ask her to try one more time. The ball, again just splats to the ceiling, maybe a bit deeper this time.

I had a pretty undetailed lucid, I know it involved some odd kinds of fighting, and me walking through a strange building. As I was watching at some scene I can't identify I slowly became lucid but the scene destabilized, my awareness level was raised the entire time but I just couldn't get back into a dream properly. But I didn't wake up either, effectively resulting in me drifting around between awake and sleeping, aware and unaware.
After quite a while a new dream started but I wasn't aware any more.

I've been in a van with this strange dude and a few rescued people and the planet was in a bad state of disarray. We were driving around searching for other people to pick up. At some point we were picking up people in a zone which became instable while we were in it, so as soon as we could we hauled our asses outta there. The driver at first said he wouldn't do the same mistake again but then decided to drive like a jack ass, starting with crushing straight into a house, partially up the sloping road, partially abusing the staircase of the house with now slightly less walls.
Suddenly I was kind of outside the car talking with the driver accusing him of being somewhat stupid because the car was flat like sheet of paper after his maneuvers.

C&C inspired fight.
I don't know exactly where the dream started but I was busy issuing orders to my facilities to produce heavy weaponry, one part of the map where I was on most of the time was looking a lot like some sort of huge kitchen. All the units were colored in silver-blue and they were shaped really complex and interesting, I remember running between a few bases always wondering why there are no units, thinking they might've been destroyed already.

Boss sliding:
It was a really long dream. It started with me being in some kind of presentation hall of this strange school but I don't really care and get going out of there together with some classmate. I immediately started to slide, gliding across the floor in slow and smooth movements, but picking up quite some speed. The building is colored in a strange gray, most walls and all floors are tiled. Eventually we come across a very strange and complex bath complex, it had some kind of water seats which were also equipped with plants, it apparently was a girls bath but they were already gone so I took a minute or two to explore it. Then I started sliding again and did it faster than before, damaging a bit of school equipment on my way.

Spoiler for "Defeating" a pushy girl (Strong Sexual Content):

I was in the 1st person perspective, however I wasn't myself but rather was I playing some unknown dude, who went to some school. So as this dude I was walking through some strange outdoor complex and there is this really pushy girl, we stop in some kind of half concealed bathroom around a dozen corners and after a little bit of talk I decide to give in and have sex with her. I sit down without pants and she also gets rid of her bottom clothes, but as she starts to sit down on my lap I cum after only being pushed halfway inside of her and I feel myself awfully vividly filling her up to the brim, apparently strong enough satisfy her without further movement. But rather than just to satisfy it seemed to be so intense she was kind of "defeated" as I saw the dude (now in 3rd person) the next day in school happily claiming that he is responsible that the girl looks so horribly tired.

And again it wasn't directly from awareness, but as I expected I'm getting constantly closer to be able to do that as well.

Everything started with me hearing some music (it was inspired from Eisenfunk), it still was very basic but kept progressing and I saw some simple moving patterns as well. I immediately snapped back into being fully aware but that didn't interrupt anything, I just let the music progress and try to stay still, waiting for stuff to happen. The music became more complex, but the patterns vanished, quite a few seconds later I started to see some greenish patterns, so I focused on what it was and tried to make the picture clearer, with success.

I am lying on the second floor of some kind of open building, the ground is a certain type of greenish roof, a little bit dusty, old and also somewhat bumpy. Since I'm lying on my sidethe ground covers half of my vision, in the other half I see a part of the structure I'm in and a little bit of the sky. I feel that the time has come to move since I'm deep enough within the dream, so I slowly get up. I thought a second about whether I'm dreaming for sure but conclude I don't even need an RC to be sure.

Now that I'm standing I focus a short moment on stabilizing and raising my awareness, than I immediately start summoning the WSS, this time it consists of 6 Pillars, which are however really small (they look a bit like huge Q-tips). They connect to each other creating a ring of light. I seem to be unsatisfied however and constantly try to summon a better one, I use the already existing ones and some strange type of energy but without real success, on my second try the energy I try to send into the sky comes down as something paper-like. Some stuff happened and I know that I made a reality check before I lost lucidity.

I'm getting somewhat pulled into the progress of the dream, it involved eating some potato sticks and apparently me possessing some small dog, using the speaker system of the building I was talking to someone about these things (don't remember it that well). There was also a part involving some kind of skill evaluation with a game, don't know if it was at this part of the dream but since I wasn't lucid then as well I'll just throw it here.

Then someone was speaking to me about the WSS I was trying to improve, and said maybe I should check my eyes, and that he could do it, for some reason I was fine with it but I told him to apply the lucidity visor first, then I woke up however.

Starting with this entry I will make some notes on each lucid dream on how to improve myself and what I could've done better or what I forgot.

Spoiler for Improvement Notes:

Progress throughout the WILD was good - remember
Totally forgot about trying to get into contact with my dream guide - bad
Immediately stabilized and applied the WSS - good
Wasted time with trying to improve the result of the WSS - bad (it's only a ritual to tighten the mental connection to the dream)
Getting distracted by strange occurrences and losing lucidity - very bad
Remembering the lucidity visor - good
Suddenly waking up due to not stabilizing (as well as the "to be removed" schema) - bad
Had only medium control and though to much about what I can do instead of doing it - bad

non-dream dream semi-lucid lucid false awakening

(...) I meet Evangelion at some place and we do some dream stuff together. Soon we feel hots for each other and he grabs me from behind, sliding his hands down my bosom and into my pants. At some point I am naked from my waist down and I have my underwear hanging on an ankle. Someone accuses us of indecent exposure. That's when I notice we are on a bus full of people. LOL But I don't feel embarrassed, because I'm semi-aware that I'm dreaming.
I'm now outside the bus and Evangelion evaporates. The ground is covered in snow and there's guys sliding vertiginously on tobogans and snowboards. I decide to follow them just sliding with my body through the snow. The speed makes me dizzy and I get confused for a while.
I don't know exactly how, but I end up on some room and I feel Riverstone's presence. I have a vague sensation of seeing him entering and exiting through a door on this room. Slowly I force myself to recover awareness and I get fully lucid. There is a mirror on the wall. I remember having read during the day an article about a meditation technique - considered a bit dangerous (I then wondered why) - consisting on staring at your own image reflected on a mirror and I decide to practice it on the dream.
As expected, my face soon starts to disfigure, becomes monstrous and I realize the danger is in becoming so frightened that I can go mad.
I feel the fear growing inside me and, to fight it, I decide to embrace the monsters in me. I stare at the mirror with my eyes wide open until they become so large and red and evil. I scream at the top of my lungs to the mirror and a long viper tongue comes out of my mouth. My hair spreads out in the air and I look horribly demonic. It is hard not to die of fear of myself!
I decide it is enough of this exercise and I recall that Riverston'e was around. Where is he now? The room is empty and I see 3 doors. I decide to go look for him, using a door as a portal. I chose the one closer to me and open it. It is a dark room and it takes me a while to see anything inside it. When I finally see something, it's full of zombies! They are lethargically lying on the floor, or leaning against the walls, but when they see me, they all get up to try to catch me. I try not to panic and simply go back through the same door, calmly. Unfortunately I don't return to the point of departure. I'm now in a post-apocalyptic dream scenario, in an underground complex full of zombies. Shit. I have a slight awareness that it is my fault and I make a mental note to self, not to go about exploring the dream world after unleashing my own demons. I don't feel enough strength to get out of there or make them disappear. I just run and climb stairs and try to find an exit. They are everywhere. Then I figure I can climb walls like Spider-Man (first time I try), which the zombies can't do and that's how I manage to reach the upper level of this building, unharmed. I find a grid leading to the outside at the ground level. There's green grass, blue sky and policemen controlling the entrance to the zombie underground. It all seems like a metaphor for the dark vs. light places of my mind. (...)

I remember being invited to a humongous party/slumber party with a ton of people in an apartment. Like the whole building. Even their parents came.

After everyone got there, the apartments looked like they were all filled up with furniture (the building was empty when we got there). Inside the building on each floor, the apartments were divided, with a wide hallway in between them; like a mall layout only the stores were rooms.

After a while, everyone got settled and people were going from room to room chatting. I remember meeting a boy (I think it was a boy, but he acted like this girl at my school who always wants attention, but he wasn’t “gay”) and he would always get into trouble. He was known for deceiving people and lying to them.

I tried to befriend him, but after a while, he started to sneer at me, and backed away, smirking. I asked him what the problem was. He said he didn’t like me and to go away (or something like that). All sad, I just retreated back into my room.

A few minutes later, he came back and apologized. He said that he didn’t mean it. I just agreed, and we walked around meeting people together for a while.

Morning came, and we had to pack up. It was like renovations; all the plastic needed to be put back on everything, and for some reason we were going to put plastic over the whole building; as I didn’t see windows, only see through plastic.

As we were packing up, I asked the boy if he could help me with something real quick. He came over, took one look, and walked away. “I have no idea who you are!” He yelled.

I just stood there, with a puzzled expression on my face. What just happened?
Oh well, he’s just stupid.

That’s really all I remember.

non-dream dream semi-lucid lucid false awakening

(...) I am at some large empty building with many other people. There is a huge window with view over a large river that seems to flow to underneath the building. The flow increases and it seems that the water will break the window and flood the building, but instead it creates vertical twirls with the seven colours of the rainbow, side by side, in front of this large window.
Then someone says that now we have the power to create anything we want with the rainbow lights we can shoot from our hands.
I make a beautiful dance with my arms and hands and spread a trail of rainbow light behind me in the empty space of this white building. Others are more creative and give rise to dragons, fishes and all sorts of animals, floating in the air like colourful metallic balloons.
Slowly the white building gives place to all sorts of objects and places created with rainbow light.
I meet a guy for whom I feel instant attraction. He is dressed in black and suggests that I join him in a Matrix-like character and together we create a Matrix-like scenario. I try, but all I manage is a cowgirl look, I don't know why. He laughs and decides to become a cowboy and join me instead. We have a minute of fun in a western like scenario, but then I see a wooden bridge to a zen garden and a japanese temple and probably sensing my sudden interest on it, he runs and disappears into it, teasing me to join him there. I decide to follow him, but before I met him again, I try to recreate my character, hoping this time to be successful. I dress myself with an olive green and orange kimono, but for some reason I have trouble in creating an obi to tie it up. While I struggle with it, he reappears in front of me, already wearing a kimono. Very silently, he slightly opens my kimono in a very provocative erotic move, slowly and barely touching my skin and even more slowly he closes it magically with an obi he creates with his rainbow hands. Then we walk in the garden, immersed in that erotic tingling sensation that fills us beyond our bodies.
(...)
My lover is gone. I am now alone in this world of dream-like creations. Some of the creations become out of control. Two giant knights made of black smoke get involved in an epic sword fight, crushing under their feet many of the other colourful creations and nobody seems to be able to stop them. When all hope is lost, my love comes back. He fights with the knights to, but he also can't stop them. Tired, he lays in my arms. I feel his exhaustion and I cry with the sadness of all the worlds.
I wake up sobbing and with tears in my eyes.

non-dream dream semi-lucid lucid false awakening

(...) Some dream with my mom and my dad and at a certain point my mom starts talking about lucid dreams. She said she had read some article which made her feel that maybe she actually has lucid dreams and simply isn't aware of it. I told her it's possible not to remember them on waking up, but that when we are having them, we know for sure. That's when I realized we were dreaming right there. So I told her we were dreaming and it became a shared lucid dream (not confirmed). Then I gave her a briefing about lucid dreams, what things tend to make us loose lucidity, etc. Then we went further, discussing the content of the dream itself. It was clearly my dream, the place was one of my recurrent dream scenarios and I showed her around, explaining the different variations that the scenario sometimes have.
She asked what was that place and I said I honestly don't know. It's some building I don't remember ever having seen in RL, but which became the scenario for some of the most opressive dreams I ever had.
It's a modern building with infinite floors above and under ground level, with crossed stairways in different directions and no doors to the outside. I explained to her how I overcame the opression of these dreams and now, this recurrent dream is no longer a nightmare, but just some scenario I can dispose of, like any other.
(...)

The dream started with me being in some kind of temple-like hallway, it was rather broad and there were a few "rooms" cut out of the wall (some 2-3m above the ground) between some statues. The statues had a greenish color and looked remotely like lions, and there were a bunch of them facing the wrong direction, whenever I would spot one of these they would start to attack me. I don't know how I fought them but whatever I did I never took more than a few seconds per statue, and upon defeating one I would find an item on the socket the statue was standing on. I found 6 Master Balls (Pokemon reference I guess) like that; I had HUD displaying the information to me, as well as a picture for each item. On the socket of the seventh statue I however found a "Master Ball" which was only a normal ball with the name Master. On the eighth socket I found a ball called something like Kushina Ball. Then the dream and my thoughts revolved around a certain item, some kind of sprayer with a blue liquid and then I saw a map telling me the only location to find such a thing outside of a shop, and I think it was close to a bridge.

Then I think I found myself at that location, watching a scene in 3rd person. There were 3 dudes with long hair, two of them looked somewhat normal and had blue hair color, the third was extremely pale and had a lavender hair color (which was due to him being undead), and they were related somehow. The undead one grabbed the heads of the other 2 with his hair (which he could control freely) and pulled them close together saying: "You 2 really should..." with a suggestive voice and the both of them were shocked a bit and blushed wondering what it is he was trying to tell them. He was however pulling a prank on purpose and just a second later he threw them in the water ending his sentence with "...get cleaned!".

A moment later I found myself in 1st person again inside of a burning building which apparently belonged to the undead dude from above, and a moment later I woke up.

After a dry spell for pretty much exactly 2 weeks I finally had a lucid, and a pretty long and awesome one as well.

The dream starts with me standing on some balcony, suddenly I have a very strong strange feeling in my mouth and some of my teeth are lose, a moment later when I was looking into the mirror most of my teeth came crumbling out and I was stressed out wondering what the hell was going on. But I did an RC, I couldn't breathe, or so I thought but I kept checking as hard as I could and in fact I could breathe, so I got lucid and forget and ignored the stuff about my teeth immediately.
I remembered how I was breathing through my pinched nose last time while I was underwater (Icy pit) and I had the strong desire to repeat that, I closed my eyes shortly and something strange filled me, I opened them and thought and said "Water!" with a strange intonation and the whole room immediately started to fill up really fast in front of my eyes. It also was an borderless change to an completely different building since I changed the location itself, still underwater of course I've been swimming around for a while and then decided to go to the surface to try flying out which worked without problems. I've been flying around this building (it seemed to be slightly underground, there were a lot of things floating around, even a bag of whales), and decided to try summoning a Spytfire (Spaceship from the X3 games) but because somehow I didn't do it instinctively and strong enough I only summoned a very basic chassis, I worried about wether I’d recall the shape correctly. I decided to exit the building, the windows which were up top led outside into a city apparently in the middle of spring. Then there’s a small gap, something about a shard of glass and showering on the street removed my lucidity for a moment but I regained it pretty fast (though unfortunately at this point I already forgot about the things I wanted to do outside). I tried advanced flying into the sky (which looked beautiful) but somehow it didn't work properly, I could only get a few meters and started to grab and hold something invisible, as I pulled down the sheets a big puppet like thing revealed itself and I kinda think it was responsible for the fact I couldn't fly (it also had a name, something with John). I just took it apart piece by piece and made some of the DCs around hostile with that. But even though I still couldn't fly properly I was far away from getting myself catched by a few normal DCs, so I went around a bit to find another place to fly but woke up then.

I think the real reason for me being unable to fly at the end of the dream was that the dream wasn’t stable enough anymore, if just I wouldn’t have forgotten to stabilize. Still this dream once again broke my records in terms of detail and length for lucids.