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27.10.2014

Becoming a Spirit (Non-lucid)

NON-DREAM DREAM LUCID

Apparently I died and I was located in the Astral Realm, but it was the lower realm as it was the exact counter part of the physical plane. I felt no fear whatsover, in fact, I felt a lot of peace.

There was some sort of meeting for spirits to learn how to control the Astral Body. I felt like attending because I was having a hard time levitating for some reason and I felt a little stuck, like I wanted to go to a higher place and leave this planet.

Some fragments follow such as:

- From buidling to building.
- Wanting to go to my star home.

I'm laying in bed, trying to fall asleep (or so I think I am), when I hear my co-worker tell me that he just lets go completely. I try this, and feel amazing as my body falls asleep while my mind is awake. I go in and out of a really cool sensation, then feel a strange presence in my room.

I sense a being that is made completely of shadows and fear - the essence of darkness and evil itself. Quite a strong presence, but not a very happy one.

It is either a spirit or a demon, I'm not sure which it is, but there is definitely a presence here, and it doesn't like me being alive apparently. I don't mind that, and try to mind my own business, but this spirit/demon seems to attack me. I am partially crushed psychically, and have trouble breathing.

I start saying a mantra to ground me in the experience of safety, but feel too intense of a presence that is trying to harm me to even remember my mantra. "Alright, then I guess I'll just feel love for everyone since I can't do anything else"

It turns out that works more or less to pacify the demon/spirit thing. I feel like I'm left alone briefly, and allowed to collect myself. But not for long, as I feel like I am having my soul ripped from my body very shortly thereafter. I'm pretty much okay with that, I figure the end has to come sometime, but it is a little surprising. Still not many options for what to do, so I just feel love for everyone again. It seems like when I deeply do this, I am invincible. Not in the sense that my body won't die, but that my mind will not cease. It feels good to love everyone anyway.

I hear it say in a rhaspy clicky kind of voice, "booooooo bohohohohp annnnnnnnd hoooooooooold Z level now" Still not sure if it is a dream or not, I decide to just get up because it doesn't feel like I'm getting much rest facing this challenge right now, and there are things I must be doing.

At the very least, I feel like I can handle these kind of things now. Not that I enjoy it, but that it's not much of an issue.

There was some nightmare about the military who had shot a kid riding a dirtbike. I didn't want to look at the scene. My friend's parents were involved somehow.
...
I am in a classroom, but it feels like I am also in K's house. Everyone is turning in essays but one student just turns in a paper with sharpie written on it that says something like 'I will turn in my essay tomorrow.' Everyone in the class thinks it is funny, even the professor. But he says he is still going to give that student a bad grade.
The professor then rolls down a screen, and says that we are not doing class and simply having a movie day. The movie: some alien invasion movie where giant human body parts fall to earth. The movie is supposed to be really scary and I 'remember' not liking it. But I have to watch it for a grade, it has something to do with what we are learning in class. I might as well at least try to enjoy it. The professor says we can move anywhere in the room, so I decide to sit on the floor in the back of the room.
I sit down, and the opening credits roll. They show the alien invasion that happens through a bunch of severed human body parts. Legs, Arms, Hands, Heads, etc. They are all orbiting in a big vortex above earth. The professor asks some question about how this relates to some kind of art or something.
Then, who I could only assume was Manei entered the dream. After seeing her (my dream guide) for three years, I can sort of sense her energy, so to speak. But her energy felt off. I couldn't pinpoint what. This didn't feel like Manei. Regardless, the dream went partially lucid.
This character said that she too thought the movie was scary and wanted to be with someone. She put her arm around me. Then hugged me.
While this was happening, I started to feel her energy. A lot of warmth and love. I was actually trying to figure it out. Was I dreaming? Who was this? If this wasn't my regular guide it was somebody who felt very similar. Whoever it was, it was a very good feeling. I wished that she would hold onto me for the entire movie. She fell asleep. Then I started to feel sleepy.
We then both fell over onto the floor, and the dream went wonky.
Everything went blue, and I was in a void filled with a blue cloudy energy. I was OOB, of course.
"Hello. I am p4qRo8y5 (something or other, not Manei). I am here to ask you permission to have spiritual intercourse (sex) with you."
A blue and white hologram of certain sexy things appears in front of me during this question. It fades afterwards. I feel no need to describe them, I don't feel like using a spoiler tag today. Just let your imagination run wild.
"What... NO! I don't know who you are!"
She doesn't seem to care that I said 'no'. I don't even know why I said 'no'. I guess I just thought of the last time I had sex with a dream guide and things got very, very weird.
Anyways, this character, probably a guide, starts talking very fast. She is partially speaking in a language of thoughts and ideas, rather than spoken words. I've talked to Manei and some other DCs before. It's supposed to be faster than talking.
This object appears as a hologram in front of me. It was supposed to be some kind of visual aid for what this guide was saying, but it makes no sense to me.

"...Recently there was a spiritual rise in consciousness that caused many people around you to become more aware and awake. You, to some extent, but not the full extent did this as well ..."
The waveforms coming from the side of the shape increase. The circles begin to glow in small clusters.
She carried on about a bunch of other stuff I really couldn't care about. I don't remember anything else of what she said, but she talked for a solid minute at light speed while I looked at the diamond thing.
"... I am aware you are involved in dreaming, perhaps having some troubles with it. The problem is that you try to resolve everything with logic and reasoning, when in reality the secret to dreaming is creativity and happiness, the exact opposite. Don't feel bad for it, it is the way the human mind and society is structured. Now, tell me winch one of these jokes you find funniest."

Two jokes are presented to me as what I can only describe as very poorly animated flash movies. In the first movie, a couple of teenagers are sitting around the table. Then, a large anthropomorphic rooster shows up. But it's like not a typical rooster. It has this large cerraded beak and big buggy eyes. He then says "I've got alottt of math homework!", emphasizing the word 'Alot' in a strange way. The scene cuts back to everyone sitting at the table and they all have rooster heads.

In the second joke a boy is standing by a window. There is a city moving by outside so I can only assume he was in a mobile home. There is an Ipod on a speaker rack, and a girl walks by and turns it on. Rock-Metal instrumentals start playing. The window flies open and a flowerpot flies into the boy's face, then out the window. Some dirt is left on the boys face. "Lisa! What did I tell you about playing metal music in the house?!" The boy has a rooster head when he says this.



I then remember seeing a view, something like a you tube page with a whole bunch of these 'jokes' playing at once. Many of them have the rooster head involved in some way. One of them has this woman with these very ugly, scary looking lips. Oh god, please don't play that one.
"So..."
"Um... Neither of them. Those were not even jokes. Just random visions. ._. "
I get a dream glitch and go backwards very quickly through the scenes in the dream. I am back at the hologram of sexy things. I am then back in the classroom and the movie is still playing. I am then back outside and the military is stopped and looking at a turned over dirtbike.

I wake up.

Upon waking, I would say that the first animation was funnier.

'The problem is that you try to resolve everything with logic and reasoning, when in reality the secret to dreaming is creativity and happiness, the exact opposite.'

This is very quote-able. I should make this my signature.

10.09.2014

Sending love to a Spirit with a spell and wrapping old school TVs (DILD)

NON-DREAM DREAM LUCID

This dream started at a apartment complex and I was aware that I was dreaming. I was outside and it was a pretty sunny day. There were a lot of 3-4 story buildings and several neighbors walking around. As I was checking out something in my cell phone, a girl who had a crush on me was looking at me from her door. I could hear she was telling someone that I was very cute.

I felt it was her Spirit (she passed due cancer recently, she came to me during my meditations as a Spirit in addition in showing up in some of my dreams.) I knew she needed love and light to cross over, so I imagined I was casting a spell on her called "Dark Pulse" from Secret of Mana videogame, but of course, instead of darkness I visualized love instead.

I was able to successfully cast the spell, and I could see small orbs hitting her, however, these instead of being made out of shadows, were made out of pink and red energy. After a while, huge hearts that were very luminous started to spawn around her (making the same noise as in the game.) After this, she vanished.

From here, I appeared in an electronics store, but it appeared to be a store from 50 years ago, so I decided to explore it. Apparently, based on the plot of the dream, I was working there, and there were a few employees asking me where I was. I wanted to explore the store and see what my subconscious had for me, so I just said I was sick and walked around the store.

I was asked to prepare five TVs for shipping for clients. I was amused in how old the TVs looked:







They were wrapped with tapes and only half boxes. I saw a bunch of the floor. The store was very dusty and had a ton of old school electronics.

As I wanted to explore more, one of my cats woke me up.

I hardly recall anything. I was with... er whatever the heck this thing was. I thought it better to draw it rather than try and explain it.

It was a strange creature. It's body looked as hard as stone, but it was still able to move and flex in a bubbly, cartoonish way. It was leading me through what felt like a city, though some of the buildings were floating, and the sky was black. The place was very blurry and everything looked to be a bluish-grey color.
The creature spoke, though it had no mouth. It had a disc where it's head should have been with three 'eyes'. The disc was always rotating slowly clockwise. And the five colored circles going up its body seemed to glow. On a final note, the creature was not very large. Perhaps three or four feet tall.
I woke up not remembering much. My lucidity was not very clear.

I was on a date with some girl. She asked me to order her five foot-long hotdogs with mustard from a nearby hotdog stand.

Been a long while since I've recorded dreams, but doing so most definitely increases my dream recall and lucidity, so it's worth continuining. I'm following after the philisophy of mastermind by saying a mantra/affirmation before sleeping and using the power of intention.
And it seems to have worked lol. I usually don't remember this much detail of my dreams but at the same time I haven't really been trying until recently.

Was at Newcastle turning right at a set of traffic lights in an attempt to get onto the Pacific HWY a few streets down. However, this set of traffic lights when they went green, traffic in the opposing direction was still moving and very quickly too. Something like 130KM/h which is not even a speed we travel at on highways in Australia let alone regular arterial roads like the one I was on. As I turned right after finding a sufficient gap to turn, two cars appeared out of nowhere in lanes 2 and 3 and I stopped in lane 1 before completing my turn just narrowly avoiding hitting them. This set of traffic lights doesn't even exist as far as I am aware. I turned down a few more streets and ended up at a mcDonalds restaurant and parked in there. I can't remember if I got anything to eat there or not but there is a slight gap between the proceeding events.

I am now in another house. A house I'd never been in before. My parents have now arrived here. I don't remember all of the conversation I had with my mum but she said that it is very hard to turn at that intersection as the cars are traveling so quickly. Then the dream got very odd and spooky. There was a presence in the room. I can't remember if I saw anything but I may have seen that presence or at
least a shadow in another room. It was starting to get dark outside and I could sense evil around me in this room.

In the main living area, we are for some reason using candles instead of lights. When I mention the evil in the room to my mum, she says she has some sort of book about it that might help. She gets out a few books but then grabs a very odd looking book. It has a dark cover and I can't remember what the cover said it was but it did have some odd symbol on it and said something along the lines of book of evil spirits or something. I read a bit of it then went back out to the car and the doors locked when I went inside it and I could still sense the spirit but I got out of there somehow and went back into the house.

Eventually it became morning and I could no longer sense the spirit. I went outside via a sliding door and there was a pool there. Suddenly some naked woman was standing next to me and she and I both jumped into the pool together with me for some reason in an old school uniform or something. She wanted me to go wrap her arms around her so I did lol.

Then the dream got even more bizarre. Suddenly this pool extended over a great waterfall/drop and I was on a surfboard and me and some other friends I'd never seem before went over the waterfall and luckily landed without killing ourselves. Now we were at some sort of beach and there were some big waves here. Still on our surfboards and now in the ocean, my friends signalled to go this way to where all the big waves are but I see another wave in the opposite direction and so go that way instead. I go a few meters before accidentally going over a massive wave and being flung into the air and landing on some rocks and hurting myself. I believe my friends were coming over to help but the dream ended at this point anyway.

Was at one of my old houses. Was downstairs in the shower,towel, stairs...will,fill in extra details later.

Ballina, pacific hwy, shopping centre...will fill in extra details later.

I will post an update on this every day. It's been an odd recurring dream and I need some help on what to do with it.
I'll post what happens every night.

Day 1 - Nothing important happened.
Night 1 - I see a girl with long, straight red-ish hair and wears a pink dress with splatters of red. She is just staring at me while in a sitting position. My bed is just on the floor, like a small mattress so If i were to sit on my bed, I would see her in eye level across the room. I didn't really care about it much and I thought it was just a dream. Oddly enough, I usually become lucid in these kind of dreams but I couldn't somehow.

Day 2 - Nothing important happened.
Night 2 - The same as day one, just the girl staring at me at the other side of my room.

Day 3 - Some trouble in my class with my friends.
Night 3 - I didn't see her again today.

Day 4 - Nothing important happened.
Night 4 - I didn't see her anymore, I think it's finally over.

Day 5 - Did a group activity in class, nothing special but noted.
Night 5 - This is where I freaked out. The girl was on her knees this time, just staring at me with blank eyes. We stared at each other for a few seconds then she suddenly moved extremely fast towards me, still on her knees. It's like shes trying to walk just on her knees and it was so fast that after a few seconds she was almost face to face with me, luckily I woke up before anything scary happened. I laughed at myself for being so scared over a dream once I woke up and continued my day.

Day 6 - I told my classmates about it and they keep saying that this happens because I'm not too faithful to God and I'm being haunted by demons, they are some religious nuts aren't they? I don't really think that has anything to do with these recurring dreams though. One of my friends insist that I pray or something, I don't really believe them.
Night 6 - I hate jump scares. This is where my friends' and classmates' words started to scare me. I started becoming paranoid while I'm trying to get some sleep. The lights were closed and I could only see a dim light coming from the window of my room. Every time that I almost fall asleep, I would feel something coming towards me. I felt that if it's coming to me, I couldn't move my body so I would sit on my bed and check the room. I got a flashlight and a metal pipe, which I now think I'm that stupid to bring a pipe to fight some sort of non-existing ghost. I checked the flashlight around the room but I didn't see anything. I held my nose and tried to breathe through but I couldn't, it was a reality check so that means I'm not dreaming. I got back on my bed but felt the same thing again and again and I had to wake up to check the room again and again. Each time I woke myself up, I would do a dream check but still, I'm not dreaming. The final time I did this I just thought to myself that I let myself get to affected by what my classmates said about a ghost haunting me and now I'm just scaring myself and not getting any sleep. I gave up and threw the pipe and the flashlight away. As I laid back on my bed, I turned right and saw Diane face to face lying beside me. I was so scared that I woke up in the morning and I couldn't scream. I looked like an idiot and just laughed at how scared I was.

Day 7 - I told this to more of my friends. Some of them laughed, some just gave stupid religious advice -_-.
Night 7 - I couldn't move in my bed for some reason. Nothing special happened even though I couldn't move though I did hear a faint whisper saying something like "Diane". Because of this, me and my classmates decided to call the girl "Diane".

Day 8 - Something happened today that probably influenced my dream. It was the last subject at school and I thought to myself that I can finally get home and mess around with the computer. I was talking with two of my classmates who I will just call Cole and Will. Cole was a girl in my class who wears glasses, she's sort of cute. Will is one of my friends who constantly cries about how his girlfriend doesn't like him that much, poor guy. Will went to do something for awhile so I was just sitting with Cole, we were talking about an anime called "Hataraku Maou-Sama" and I was holding Will's stuffed Peashooter from Plants VS Zombies, I don't know why I had to tell all the details but oh well, I like to say everything in detail. Everything is going normally right? Well, there is this jerk in my class who I'll call "Nate". He's the type of person who would make fun out of anyone just so he can get some attention. He noticed me talking to Cole and started saying that I'm trying to get her to be my girlfriend. He said it so loud that the whole class could hear. Really, we're already in highschool and everyone's acting like elementary students saying "EEEEE" just to annoy us both. I didn't really care about Nate since I knew he had nothing better to do and is just getting attention but I noticed Cole getting really angry. I really got angry at that time since I hate getting insulted by lots of people and I wanted to kill Nate at that point if Cole ever decides to start ignoring me because of this. Will finally came back to help but started being insulted as "gay" by one of the other classmates for some reason. While going home, me and Will got into a little fight. I accidentally punched him in the ribs and I twisted my right foot. After that I said now it's fair and we went home. At home I just stayed in my room thinking of ways to get revenge on Nate, I stayed in my room the whole day until its nighttime. If you're still reading this, congratulations.
Night 8 - I didn't really care if I was going to see Diane this night. I felt someone holding my hand, It felt like really soft skin like Cole's but it also felt very cold, like dead cold. There came another hand which gave me something, I couldn't move anything else other than my hand so I couldn't really look at the object given to me. It felt like a handle of something, I moved my fingers to check the tip and It was somewhat sharp. I managed to get a glimpse at it and it was a Knife. I woke up once I noticed it was a knife and went to school.

Day 9 - I was just walking towards Nate and I knew he was going to say something to me, most probably a petty overused insult like "**** you" or "you're gay". He was about to say something but he stopped mid-sentence. For some reason, he looked like he was scared and instantly said sorry to me, I told him to not do it again and he agreed but kept saying he's sorry. That wasn't like him at all.
Night 9 - Oddly enough, nothing happened this night. I was kinda expecting Diane to show up or something.

To be continued.

Legend: Dream , Semi-Lucid , Lucid

CSGO Lava temple:
I'm in a match of cs:go and the setting is a lava temple, if i remember correctly, i get wounded pretty badly and i'm the only one left alive. Around the temple is a black rocky area with a grey sky and lava flowing in streams. I walk out of the temple and near a stream.

A Military victory mounted on innocent ground:
I'm at my house, having some kind of party or something. Or maybe i was working, either way, i only had a set time for lunch. In that set time, My dreamself would eat lunch and watch two episodes of dragonballz. I was outside by my pool. It was sunny and nice out. Eventually, our lunch ended and i get pretty mad because i didn't even get time to eat, let alone watch anime. So i stayed behind skipping whatever i had to do just so i could eat and watch anime. At one point, i had to go inside and yell at my brother because he was on my pc, and then i downloaded the episodes on my pc and put them on my laptop.

As i'm outside, i see a girl i like and her family walking inside my house. I walk in behind them to see what's going on. They walk down a hallway and i get cut off as this person walks in front of me. I head back to my room and there i talk to dr.strangelove. He tells me that we're being attacked. Next thing i see is a scene of two mechs that look like their from code geass fighting two big battleships. The battleships are the enemies. They definitely have the upper hand in firepower. And not only that, we are also being attacked by other enemy forces which are surrounding the house.

For some strange reason, the mechs are fighting the floating battleships in a hanger like area that seems to be far away from my house. Our two mechs in the hanger are getting beat pretty badly. Eventually, the two battleships form one, but our mechs unleash their full power and jump onto the battleship. As they do, the mechs turn into a black liquid and absorb the battleship. The mechs then take their original form.
As that goes on, i run down my hallway and use a tank mech to fight off enemy units. It's quickly damaged so i run back into the house.

The scene then switches back to the mechs. Even though we defeated the battleship, our enemy still outnumbered us so we had to surrender. Originally, the enemy was going to kill us all but since we defeated the battleship, the enemy decides to simply enslave us. Next scene, my comrades and i are dropping all of our personal items into crates as we move in lines.

Next thing i know, i'm standing in bleachers ( stands ) which are positioned around a track. It's night. I'm standing in a straight line, with multiple rows of people going up and down the bleachers. As we stand, a drill sergeant is issuing commands. He's going through rolls. We received packages earlier with cassette tapes that when played, tell us what role we will fill in the army, which is our enemies army by the way. Back on topic, i didn't have anything that could play the tape so i couldn't tell the sergeant my role. Since i couldn't tell him, i had to go find a player. I jump down and start looking.

I eventually find a small cave with a poor vampire in it. It sort of looks like shinobu from the -monogatari series. She obviously needs blood, so i cut myself and lie down waiting for her to suck my blood. However, another vampire comes along and takes shinobu. I quickly pop up and look back, it was a female vampire with a yellow shirt.

--At this point, i wake up and log what you've just read. After i fall back asleep, the dream continues.

I find myself with other prisoners who were captured in the attack. We're standing outside my house. It looks like a storm is coming. A man then tells me that i should get a better jacket since it might hail. At this point, we are only allowed to take a certain amount of personal items so i drop some of my stuff and run inside and grab a better coat. As i get out, most people have already been taken and i'm quickly called over to board a giant metallic vehicle. The vehicle is a troop carrier, so i suppose i'm going to go fight.

Since i was called over so quickly, i had to leave some stuff behind. Either way, the vehicle starts moving. In the distance, you can see other vehicles with prisoner soldiers on them as well. We drive through trees and after a while, make it to our destination. The destination is an old torn down house in the middle of a forest. The vehicle gets parked and we are called over to the house. A higher ranking officer inflates the wreckage of the house and somehow rebuilds the frame.

After the frame is rebuilt, he opens some sort of portal near the house. He then sends some people in. The portal seems to lead to a different zone. The zone in which the house is still standing and has yet to be destroyed. As we wait to see results, other vehicles pull up and park nearby. It's been a while and we are pretty sure the people who traveled through the portal into the house are dead. I head in.

I find myself in an old dimly light house. There are various spirits and entities roaming the place. I get an intuition that if i climb the stairs to my left, i can get geass powers. I do this , but a seductive demon like lady stops me and starts seducing me. As she does this, two spirits come over and beat me up, they then drag me to the entrance and drop me along with some manual. I look at the manual and it details various military experiments they did by sending people to die inside this house.

I then get up and try to head back up the stairs again. The lady then kisses me and i kiss back. She drains my energy while doing it, but i can't stop, and eventually, i guess i die. The ending is pretty immediate i know, this might be continued on some other night i hope.

Super Hero movie trap:
I'm outside by some largely populated area. I'm letting these people film me for a commercial. After i do that, i quickly go with the flow of the crowd. Apparently, everyone is going to see some movie. I'm initially with friends but they walk away. I find myself looking at a giant mushroom shaped metal construction, the bottom is hollow. At the bottom, an announcer is describing how the movie works. The people under the outer most edges of the top part of the mushroom will choose from a select group of heroes. Everyone else will take the role of some other faction.

As the movie starts, im on the outer circular edge. So i get selected to be one of many spider mans. I instantly have the costume on. Then a ring starts spinning around the outer edge of the mushroom like structure above us. As the ring reaches above each of our heads, it instantly shoots us up in the air. Normally, the ring is supposed to catch us and act as sort of an elevator allowing us to reach the top of the mushroom structure.

However, the glowing circle hundreds of feet above me sends me flying away from the top part, since i'm flying away, the ring won't catch me and i will fall to my death. However, i thought since i was spider man i should be able to shoot webs and i did that to save my life. I shoot around and soon make my way to the top of an apartment complex that is really high in the sky. As it turns out, a party is going on, half the people ditched the movie and ran off with their super powers and are partying. I join in and have fun.

Legend: Dream , Semi-Lucid , Lucid

An interesting first day of school:
So, by the title, you've probably guessed this is a dream about the first of school. Thankfully, school hasn't starting yet irl, but in my dreams, it apparently has.

So, i'm the hallway dumping stuff into my locker. As i'm doing that , some girl tries to get my attention and i absolutely ignore her. Then another tries to talk to me and i cheerfully reply. I then think about what i've done and immediately apologize to the first girl. I tell her that i'm just really tired from getting up early and well, i was tired. Right now, everyone is supposed to be at some assembly or something, and since i spent so much time at my locker, i'm pretty late.

They was a crowd of people sitting in chairs facing a stage, behind them were tables with like certificates that you had to sign and pick up. Well, i wasn't there so someone else signed my name and i went to pick it up. I then took a seat. I was sitting next to this person i hardly talk to. The kid then starts trolling me and i tell him to stop and he doesn't. So i take my hand and strike him in the neck, as i do that, he gets pissed and tries to like break my wrist. We eventually stop because well, we're in a room full of people and fighting wouldn't be a good idea. Next thing i know, i look over and the kid and someone else are singing dream theater songs.

After that little assembly is over, i start looking for that kid again because since he listened to dream theater, he must be an awesome person ( Yeah, my dream self has some pretty bad logic ). I look around and see someone similar to him but it wasn't him. So since i couldn't find him, i decide to wander the school in search of something interesting. I eventually walk up to a dome shaped wall in the middle of the school, i walk up to the second floor of the dome and enter. A cheerleading competition is currently going on and i stand there and talk to some girls i know.

After that, i get really hungry. So i call my mom up and tell her to bring me some food. I walk outside in front of the school doors. There's some tables out there. Soon, my mom drops off my food in a big black carrying bag ( the sort of bag you put a sports uniform in and carry with a strap over your shoulder). So i get my food out and then i see this other guy sit down beside me. We're slowly making our sandwiches. I see that my meat has expired and is bad but luckily, i put the meat container on top of another container and i hid some meat between the two so that it stays fresh ( wouldn't work irl but it does in dreams apparently!). So i'm then like "YES! HA, Take that! my meat is still good". My dream self thought that sandwich making was some sort of competition.

I get done making my food and i'm about to eat it. This looks so yummy, can't wait to ea- "FUCK", I shout as this guy shows up and makes honey splatter over everything around me, and then it rains for like 5 seconds. Well great, there's goes my darn food

I walk back into the school with my black bag. This security guard like man then sees the bag and questions me about it. I tell him it's for food. After i say that, he changes the subject and tells me he has something very important to show me. So my dream self follows him. He leads me to this room at the edge of the school. The room is dark. There's about 4 dentists there. There have some computers and flashdrivers scattered in various places. In the middle, there's some metal trays with organ looking fleshy things on them.

The dentists tell me that some abnormality i had when i was a kid, has now developed and is threatening my life. One dentist then sits me down on a chair and squeezes me tight. I can't move or speak. As i struggle, i realize that i have been tricked. These people aren't dentists. Also, as this scene happens. I look over and the those organs on the trays are whispering things to me. But it's a sort of spiritual whisper that the other people can't hear. It was directed at me but at the time i couldn't tell what it said.

So since i know i've been tricked. I start to scream. Eventually, three girls run in and the dentists get distracted and as they deal with them. I get up and grab a knife. I then proceed to kill the remaining people in there. I'm not quite sure what happened to the girls though. The dentists might have killed them. After that, i hurry and leave. I get to the school exterior and my parents are there in some golden cruiser. I get in and tell them to take me home. They start driving and when they get to the front entrance, i tell them to stop. I had forgotten my backpack and wanted to go get it. But not only that, i decided i should head back and grab the computers and flashdrives from that room so i can show the world what they were doing.

As i get to that wing of the school. It's somewhat sealed off, other people had died and blood was scattered along some walls. But yet, it had a mystic atmosphere. There were spirit orbs floating around, possibly from the people that died. As i continue to walk. A girl appears in spirit form. I then realize she was the one whispering to me from the organs. It makes me sad to think of the cruel death she might have had. Either way, she sort of floats over to me and grabs my hands. At them moment, i get an extremely pleasing sensation. It totally caught me off guard. The sensation was amazing pleasure that lasted only shortly. The girl then let go and as i stood there shocked. She said something along the lines of "sorry for that, it was inappropriate to touch you like that but i had to" in a cheerful/serious manner. As she slowly disappeared, i nodded in recognition of her leaving and in a way, said goodbye.

I get to the room and grab a laptop and then some flashdrives. I leave and make it most of the way to the road. However, the school grounds then turned into a digital area. An area in which players are transported and they are forced to fight monsters. If they die fighting in this digital area, they die in real life. So as i'm walking, titans attack ( geez, stupid titans >.< ) and people are getting eaten and the people are also fighting the titans. To my luck, a new round starts and i respawn on my farm which happens to be placed at the end of the school.

As i spawn, i get chased by alien monsters, but i lose them as i run up to the barn. The alien monsters eventually run away and then i see these players running towards the school. In front of them, i spy out some eggs that hatch monsters. I know these people will die but i can't help them. They soon get to the school grounds and are killed by the hatched monsters. I'm then about to leave but i luckily see the giant jaguars hiding in the barn in front of me. so i walk around and in get in a tractor.

Now, once i'm in the tractor and i start it up, Princess Cornelia and Euphemia suddenly appear inside it too. ( characters from code geass). Originally, i was just going to expose this evidence. But since i have these two here with me. I might as well play the role of zero and go for world domination. So i drive the tractor and smash through anything in my way as i make it to the road. I then get on a highway. I start driving. But then, in front of me, a mobile fortress appears and i don't have time to stop before i crash into it.

Once i crash, the tractors falls onto the road below and lands perfect luckily. As i get surrounded by enemy troops. I get out, and then Xingke appears ( also from code geass). he asks me why i'm doing this and i show him the flashdrives and tell him that i must expose these people for what they've done. It's incredibly stupid but i feel as if it wasn't my true reason. As i'm about to get captured, i get another feeling. A feeling that this will go on and it doesn't end here, these people won't stop me, i will go on and take over the world. Then the dream ended. I hope this continues one day, i really would like to experience the ending.

Crow and I find ourselves in some sort of temple.
It seems like the room we're in was entirely carved out of some kind of bright stone.
Even though everything looks very clean, it has a neglected feel to it.
Nobody has stepped foot here for a very long time.
Some plants appear to have made the rather futile attempt of growing on the walls.
They were doomed from the beginning though. There is no soil here, no himidity...
Makes you wonder how they got here in the first place.

"Nobody home."



I walk around a little to get a better feel for the place we've found ourselves in.
It seems like this is a single room without any doors or windows.
It is huge though. The ceiling must be at least 20 meters high.
The walls and the floor are engraved with all sorts of things, reaching from long forgotten animals to oddly shaped symbols that I don't recognize.
Even though everything is made from the same material, there's a lot of variation to the place.
It's kind of beautiful in it's own way.

"No way in, no way out, what is this place? Who would build something like this, this place makes no sense."
"What's the purpose of a room without an entrance?"

I think I get it. Sort of. A little bit.

"I don't think this is a room Crow."
"A truly fantastic obvservation Hyu. Your sense of deduction never fails to amaze me."
"So tell me friend. This... ROOM here, you know... if it is not a room, than what is it?"
"... It's... like a doorway."
"A doorway... Listen Hyu, you're not making any sense."
"You said it yourself, there is no purpose to a room without an entrance."
"So naturally, if the room has no entrance it must be a doorway? Whaaaat?"

"Well, there's a little more to it than that."
"Look, we're pretty much at the exact location that you found, right? But it still feels like we're off somehow."
"Yet there is no way to get any closer..."
"Not because there is something preventing us from physically getting closer, but because there is no point in space closer to the location than where we stand."
"But clearly, we're still at some distance."

"Whaaaaaat? That is a clear contradiction."
"It's... shifted."
"Shifted?"
"I don't know what to call it. We're in the correct location, but not quite in the right... dimension?"
"Right... what?"
"There's more to this realm than what is physical. Your spirit for example, it interacts with the physical world, but it is not located in it."
"Oh. Yeah. That kind of makes sense actually."
"How do you go to another dimension?"

Yeah... about that...
Oh hold on a second. I have done this before haven't I?
To go to a non-physical place you have to leave behind the physical.

"Crow, can you mind my body?"
"Mind the... Hyu what the fuck?"
"What? Phoenix abilities and stuff."
"But why would you voluntarily leave your own body? Isn't that dangerous???"
"Hmm..."
"HMM??? YOU DON'T KNOW???"
"Oh calm down, It probably isn't. I've done it before."
"Probably he says..."

I sit down in the middle of the room and concentrate on my own aura.
I then begin to gently separate it from my body and let it drift towards the location Crow found.
And just like that, I find myself in the same room, except... well... it's kind of different.
Everything is much brighter and desaturated. I also feel an odd out of place sensation.
I also have no body, and more importantly, I'm not alone.



There's another person sitting right in front of me.
I say person, but it's kind of difficult to tell.
It's more like a body of light in the shape of a human but genderless being.
Whoever he or she (I'll go with she because of the feminine hair) is, she has her eyes closed, like she's meditating.
I feel like I'm intruding. It seems kind of rude just to enter this place without asking for permission first.
Then again, I wouldn't have known how to do that. I should at least say something though.
But what do I say? I'm not even sure what I'm here for exactly...

"Hi!"

Smooth Hyu. Very smooth.
She looks at me, revealing eyes of pure light.
She answers with a soothing yet assertive voice.

"Here you are."
"Erm... yes?"

Awkward... now what? Oh well, might as well just say it.

"I... I'm not entire sure why I came here."
"You are here because twelve men are after your life, and you are uncertain as to how to deal with that situation."

12 men. The templars. She knows.
I get the feeling that I am yet again dealing with someone who knows more about my life than I do.
But I suppose this is a good thing. If she knows about my situation she might be able to help me.
Suddenly there is hope again...
but... I don't feel it?
Shouldn't I be excited? Shouldn't I feel hopeful right now?
All I feel is eerieness. Everything feels off.
I have no time to deal with those feelings though.
There are more important things at hand.

"I need help."

She takes some time to reply. I can see that she has a difficult time processing the things I say and formulating her thoughts into words.

"Yes. You have come here for help. Your path has stopped in this very location..."
"... There is a decision you have to make."

Usually I'd ask a thousand questions right now. But today is different.
I just go with the flow, not minding that I do not understand.

"I will offer you an item. An item of great importance..."
"You will take it. And then your path will inevitably lead to death."
"Death?"
"Yes."

She doesn't seem concerned about this at all.

"But... you said I had to make a decision."
"Yes. You will take the item."

For some reason I jump to a conclusion expaining why she expresses herself the way she does.
It seems perfectly obvious to me.

"You... you aren't experiencing time the way I do."
"Yes, I see what can be. I see the paths connecting the present to the future."
"But time is always in motion. There are so many possibilities. And every action taken, every decision made has the capability to reorganize the web that is time."
"Yet you already know which decision I will make. You already know that I will take an item from you."
"Yes. Some paths are more likely than others."
"The men that are after you. That is why they hunt you..."

I had a feeling the templars weren't after me purely because I was a dragon. What does that even mean? Being a dragon.

"There are special points in time. Fixed points in time. Points that will always occur."
"So many paths lead to them that some of them will inevitably cross at this very point."
"The men after you must have seen that your path intersects a point that is of great importance to them."
"While it is impossible to foresee the future, one can remove all paths that are not beneficial to oneself, thus increasing the chance of a favorable outcome."

So that is why they are after me. It makes sense. They are going to do something of great importance.
And they have seen that my timeline crosses that event, so they are killing me ahead of time, ensuring that I cannot influence the event.
You cannot forsee the future. But you can influence it in your favor.
But this doesn't matter right now. Nothing matters besides them. I have to deal with them as soon as possible.
I have a few days at most. Maybe only a few hours.

The being summons a small orb of light in her hand and makes a gesture suggesting that I should take it.

"So this is the item that I will take. A decision that will lead me to death."
"Yes. As promised."
"But... will I win?"
"All I can tell you is that it will influence your path greatly."
"And... as promised?"
"You do not remember."

I've heard that a few times too often. "You do not remember". But this time it doesn't matter.
This time I don't care about all the unanswered questions.
She is right. My decision is already made, even if I do not know why.
My right hand is already grabbing towards the orb.
I only hold onto it for a brief moment before it is absorbed by myself.

"Thank you."

I say... in a rather faint voice.
Everything is clear now. At least everything of importance. There is no need for further questions.

I know what this orb is... and I know why I am going to die...

I dreamed that outside my room which is on the first floor, everything was dark, and you had a strong feeling of something watching you, almost like ghosts creeping around the hallway with malicious intents. There were people with me, but I don't remember who, and I don't remember our conversations. I walk down the stairs and come to the floor below. The feeling of being watched is stronger and grows more toward the feeling of being chased. The air gets more dense, the light in this hallway is slightly more of a red tone instead of the nightly dark blue tone. I start seeing corpses and carcasses, bloody rib-cages ripped open with the limbs torn off, lying around. A guy I'm with says we shouldn't go deeper. We go deeper anyways, down the next flight of stairs. As we go deeper, the place becomes more horrifying. More violent carcasses, red hellish lighting, and you can almost see and feel the malicious spirits move around in the air, gazing at us. We start hearing the screams of people getting murdered. Bones and carcasses still lay scattered around, like some messy slaughterhouse dealing with humans, except the place looked more and more like a cavern and was too dark to see far. A guy I'm with says: "We should stop here. If we go any further, the ones with four eyes will appear, and any further than that, they will tear our limbs off." I'm curious what those four-eyed things would be, so I want to keep going, before I come to the sudden realization that the corpses, carcasses and bodyparts weren't just brought here for decoration; something might do that to us. "Alright let's get out of here." I say, and we rush up the staircases, panicking more and more until we get back into my room and close the door.

I dreamed that me and some friends had some kind of drunk party adventure. To put it simply there were a lot of challenges that each and every one of us would have to complete, with some help of the others.

The only one I remember was to be suspended above a river in the middle of a forest where you would be able to meet a river spirit! I remember it because while hanging there my "friends" got bored and left me there. I got to meet the spirit though, it was cool. It looked like a shape made of the water that was rising up from the river. It looked a lot like this, except it did not have a face:



I don't remember how I got away from there, but somehow I managed to free myself. I have some vague memory that the river spirit played a part in helping me get away from there.

When I returned home, which was some kind of building complex that we were all living in temporarily, I was really angry and bitter. I tried to show the others just how angry I was at them but they thought it had just been a good joke and did not take it seriously. I remember I was slamming my fist in the wall out of pure frustration, but they didn't even care about that.

The funny thing is that when I woke up I was still feeeling just as angry, even though I knew it was but a dream.

So last night I went to be quite late for a college night (11:30ish) and woke up at 7:15ish, and whenever I do this I seem to have pretty crappy recall

On the plus side, it's been a lovely summers day today here in England! I've been sticking to my one fag a day, which is proving much nicer. I hated being addicted to smoking! I'm aware many people probably would say that if I'm having 1 fag a day then what is the point in not fully giving up, but I disagree personally! To me it's like a coffee :-)

I started my second year of college today, which was pretty good! I have a new, amazing philosophy teacher who has proved very helpful already, and I'm doing an extended project qualification on Buddhism which will be fun too!

Last night, my friend showed me a wonderful video on spirits and chakra, and it's changed my life. Generally, I'm a very happy guy at the moment - it feels strange being this happy after so long of being down!

Tonight, I'm going to set my alarm for 5 hours after I go to bed, as that's proved pretty successful for consistent lucids recently!

Much love to you all, stay happy and love everything!

Calum xx

I saw a dream that I died.I became the spirit and went to a house.There was a girl and I possessed her body.To wake up,I realized that the body was none other than my own body.And the house where I went to after being the spirit was my own house.I couldn't understand what it meant.To read more visit
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I was chilling in my house at night, the lights were off but I could still see. I had a friends with me. (random guy I've never seen before) and we went out on the deck because it was a really pretty night out, warm but not hot, gentle breeze blowing. So we were out there for like an hour, and we go back inside and these thieves have cleaned out my house. I mean they took flashlights, T.V.s guns, But they forgot one rifle. My friend is like "Man let's call the cops." But I didn't listen. I grabbed the rifle and some ammo and trail the guys back to where they live in my car, my friend decided to come along. I caught them getting out of the car and it was a family! In two cars. 2 babies, like 4 guys, a woman, and 2 more guys in the house and another 2 women. So I get out of the car and they're all laughing and stuff. I come up behind the woman and point a gun at her head and tell them to get my stuff. The guy draws a gun on me and the rest of them come out of the house, at this time I don't know where my friend went. All of a sudden everyone except me and my friend vanishes and we take my stuff back and leave. Really weird.

Second dream I was in my house again, and I felt like something was watching me or with me. So I said what I usually say when I feel bad spirits "I encourage the good to defend me, and the evil are not welcome here!" I heard like this growl... It was the creepiest thing ever. It was like a dog but as low as a bass guitar. I begin to feel light headed. So I say again "BEGONE EVIL SPI-" Before I can finish it I hear a scream and at the same time I hear the scream I feint. When I wake, my sister, dad, and step-mom are at the door so I let them in and told them what happened. They are DC's so they didn't care much. Wasn't a nightmare but it was creepy.