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04.11.2012

Finding Spirit? Alyzarin on Webcam? (Non-lucid)

NON-DREAM DREAM LUCID

Dream 1: Finding Spirit?

Thinking back on the dream, I find that the person that looked like Spirit from DV, she was wearing a pink dress shirt, just like the dream I had with Auron being a detective, and he was wearing a pink dress shirt as well with some dark pants.

I'm running up some stairs with a kid, and it seems we're running away from a monster, or some type of human being. I ask the kid why he's moving up and down the stair so much, and I think he told me how he's basically running on the food he ate as energy.

The child was bald, and I think he was wearing horrible clothing, probably only wearing a long brown cloth wrapped around his body. I can't keep up with him, so I assume that he escaped.

I see a lady in a pink dress shirt, and black pants come out. It took me a while to understand what's going on, and I asked her,

"Wait, you're the monster?????"

I forgot what she told me, but I go down the stairs to get near to her, and then I started to fear her more and more because of what the kid said of running from some monster.

Then when I get a good look at her, she looks familiar, but I can't put my finger on who exactly.....

Spirit? The DV member that is.....

Then I had a dream shift where I think I was floating around these inter-dimension light turquoise blocks. Everything started to spin, and it gets even faster.

It was like being in a pocket dimension....

Then I wake up..........it's around 5 something AM, and I decided to just categorize the dream as "Vampire" for some odd reason before going back to sleep.

I wasn't really too keen on doing a WBTB, because I was worried that I might sleep past the 7AM alarm I had set up.

Wouldn't want to be late for my Biology exam starting at 10:20AM, and I have to eat a big breakfast, since I have to do a lab that apparently takes the whole 2 hours to finish, but we'll see about that....

Edit:

Dream 2: Alyzarin on Webcam?

I saw alyzarin on webcam, at least, that's what the person on the webcam was presuming to be. She had light brown hair with some shine to it, and was wearing a white shirt with pink sleeves.

im in my drive way talking about something, possibly about getting a pet.
i see a transparent and floating jelly fish. it was definitely supernatural like a ghost or spirit.
another apparition formed from the air and floated around with the jelly fish.
it kept morphing into weird and usually spherical creatures.
i got my cellphone out to take a picture.
the creature would become more and less transparent as i focused my camera.
my parents we still inside the house and asking me what i saw. i told them and said the creatures were teaching me about something very important. kind of like the meaning of life or something.

Haunted House

Other dreams I had of this Haunted House later: Haunted House

I was with one or two friends in a house. I don't know what was going on. Somehow the house was haunted. I left the house and drove away.

A friend was watching us leave as though from the computer. Perhaps I dreamed that part because I was on video conference last night.

I went through the city that this friend lived in, and that I recognized as "The Springs" and then remembered more clearly as "Altamont Springs," an actual place in Florida. I was seeing this in 3rd person perspective.

Then I started going through the down town area. It was like a five-way intersection. There was a festive atmosphere as though it was a tight-knit community.

Dream Skip

I'm back at the haunted house. I'm with my friend--I think it is MJ. We are going back to get something out of a room that we had locked up.

We had to go into a room, then go up a couple steps to open a small door in the back of that room and unlock a sliding lock.

Neither of us wanted to be the first one to go because it was scary. We were running to get this done as though the sooner we could do what we were doing, the better chance we had that the haunting would not have started, but I was afraid, so I slowed down so MJ could run ahead of me. He slowed down too.

Some how, he ended up going first. I had locked the place down, so he should be the one to open it back up.

We got in the building, and I heard my FC T.M. over an intercom saying that we needed to hurry and put in the alarm code or we would hear the most unpleasant sound we'd ever heard. He said they knew how to make the experience very unpleasant.

I put my fingers in my ears, then I started worrying about a smell that would be horrible and dangerous. It would be part of the haunting.

One of us opened the door to the room we were trying to get into. There was a small refrigerator and something in front of it blocking access. Dream logic made me have to go to the back of the room to open a door and unlock that sliding lock to get what we came back for.

I didn't want to go in there because the evil spirit was in this room. I explained how to unlock it, and I got closer to doing it myself, but I never did, nor do I think he actually did it.

Now we were back to the refrigerator. There as a six-pack of ginger-beer. We had to get them out of the frige and leave quickly.

I was afraid of a green fog that was going to fill the room. It was going to be like an evil gas preceding the spirit that was going to come get us.

My friend finally got the door to the frige opened. He was having trouble getting the sodas. Should he get the whole six pack which would be kind of awkward? Just throw them to me one by one I told him.

He started to, but now we were ready to leave. We ran out and went around a culdesac in the neighborhood. There was a guy with a camera threatening to take pictures of us for doing something illegal. I was afraid, but there was nothing I could do.

We went around the culdesac and he started taking pictures, but as we left, it wasn't such a big deal.

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Lion

A lion trainer let me get near a lioness. We were walking up a flight of stairs and it came up to me. I didn't really feel it, but it rubbed up against me and went all around me. At one point it got on my back.

At that point, I felt extremely vulnerable, as though it could turn not so happy to be near me and kill me. It got down and stayed very close to me.

The night before, I'd been chatting with a DV member about cats and how much we love them rubbing up against us.

I was working somewhere (perhaps a cafe in a shopping center), and I felt troubled due to an evil spiritual presence around me.
This presence has accompanied me for a long time (for most of my life).

I went desperate because I knew that that presence continuously undermined various aspects of my life, i began to cry.
Suddenly, in the cafe A appeared, and told me: "Under the influence of this spirit you are compelled to do things that ordinarily you wouldn´t do. "
I do not know why, but when she told me this it came to my head the image of Corey Taylor from Slipknot, and I asked A if it was him. She confirmed with a nod, or said yes and then said:
"- But he's far away."
Then rested both hands on my chest (or gave me her hands?) And she prayed ... I immediately felt good, and free from the pernicious influence of that spirit.

It was unbelievable this morning when I realized I had successfully had my first Lucid Dream. I was ecstatic! I remember getting out of bed and just going 'YES!' Great moment indeed So How I got into the lucid dream was quite peculiar. I remember going to a house of some sort but not much of any details. I'm talking to a very spiritual person with my brother and he tells me he's going to help me lucid dream, right from inside that dream(but I didn't know THAT was a dream, it was confusing but I didn't check anything etc) so my brother and I lay down and next thing I know I'm in my very first lucid dream. I've known I was getting close lately because my dreams have been becoming more and more vivid and I was extremely excited when it finally happened in the dream, but not too excited, I knew I'd wake myself up if I got too excited. It was curiously stable. The reason I call this an odd induction is because whenever I think of going lucid I think reality checks, noticing weird details, etc. But this time I went directly from inside another dream to lucidity. So anyway in my lucid dream I was in a very nice, old looking circular room filled with people and furniture but really I didn't pay any attention to the details of the room, I wanted to do something great. I started remember a book I'd read on lucid dreaming, where people made familiar items appear in their hand, so I thought "I can do that" and thought really hard about this medium sized ball I'd gotten a long time ago and just recently found, and I pictured it in my pocket, I imagined details, weight, and next thing I knew I felt a bulge in my pocket and taking it out I found it to be my green ball! I experimented with the ball, making it appear and disappear at will. Eventually I decided to make the ball appear while I'm looking at it so I make 2 from my pocket and stare at my hand imagining a third and sure enough a third ball appeared in my hand! At this point I'm excited, almost too much so, because I think I woke up afterwards happy as ever. No flying, but not a bad first lucid dream.

Now, I also put dream share in the title because when I woke up, my twin brother told me how in his dream he was talking with me and a spiritual character that eventually put him into a lucid dream! A dream share, if you ask me. But he forgot what happened after that so there's no way to confirm it... so that's it, my first lucid dream.

Dream 1

My Niece had to roll the dice, she got the most points, she is now the best person to help me take care of the baby Sparrows that I am looking after ((and in RL I am)) I am panicking about anyone else touching them but I am ok with my Niece.

Dream 2

My Daughter has got the dead bird out of the bucket, I shout at her for touching it, I take it off her and throw it to the floor. The bird then smacks it's beak together and begins to breathe, I go back to the bird and pick it up by the foot, it still has rigamortis. The bird shakes and comes alive properly and flies onto me. I am shouting to my Mom and Dad " look, look, the bird is alive, it's amazing, do you believ it" Mom says "ohh yeah" I say "can you really see it?" Mom says "no". I can see the Bird agin now, it is sitting on a fence panel and it's see through like a ghost. I say "Dad can you see the bird, i'm holding it in my hand" he says "no I can't" I then say "I'ts a ghost then and I can see it's spirit" I'm really happy and just watch it fly around happily, the bird sqwarks and fly's around , it looks beautifull. ((A big bird was found dead on my garden the day I found the 2 baby sparrows))

This was a weird dream. We were in my house, which was laid out almost exactly the same on the inside, however outside was different (although, still similar). Rather than being the corner house, we were in the middle of the block. Also, rather than being on our street we were on a different street, directly in front of the elementary school a few blocks away.

The dream (really, a nightmare) featured an evil spirit that took the form of a white moth. It was quite insistent we not live in the house, and did everything it could to get us out. At one point we left the house, and a giant tree (while large trees are common in my neighborhood and we have one in our yard, this one was excessively so) got shaken so hard a large branch fell almost hitting us, crushing the chain wire fence before rolling into the road. I’m rather sketchy on all the details, but this is the best I am able to remember them.
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Finally aquired the image of my dream form. It took a long time but now that i know exactly what i look like when using dream control, lucidity isnt even a bother. Ive been noticing a change in thought and behavior as well as body language when i take control over my dream and have been trying to sculpt a 2d penciled concept of this form for a while now. It seems like i've been this form the entire time and havent realised it. When in dream control form my thought pattern becomes more emotional and bipolar. To gain max speed on land i would notice i would have to claw at the ground on all fours. My theors is that the user posseses an alternate form based upon what one sees of themself directly from their subconciouse. When dreaming we utilize this form from time to time and ive noticed the transformation take place every time i gain control of a dream or have it become lucid. Upon further experiment i have noticed a remarkable ease of dream control and lucidity, a substantial rise in power so to speak. Perhaps if my theory is correct others could more easily utilize the dream world.

I had a very long, detailed dream about a metaphor, which clearly helped me describe the relationship between body and mind. There was a song to listen to, which helped me understand it even better. I also have a fragment of some kind of conversation with one of my gay friends. I think he was hitting on me?

When I woke up, the song I had stuck in my head was I Feel Free - Foo Fighters cover. I wish I could remember what happened in more detail, I woke up with a feeling that this dream was important. Hopefully there's more of a memory embedded in my subconscious.

I am a spirit and invisible to some people, though I can voluntarily be visible in front of certain people. I can pass through floors and walls, yet I can reach out and move small objects and interact with the people who can see me.

I'm not dead, and I am still human, but for some reason nonphysical existance is normal for me and my friends and co-workers accept that. I am working at an investigation office of some kind. Because of my non physical form I work as spy and information gathering. The building I work in is a three storey Edwardian style house and I can float around safely inside without bothering the many people who work there.

My division manager is an young Asian man who's name starts with a T (but I forget the actual name now) and he sends me out in my invisible form to spy on gangsters and corrupt corporations working around the city. I always work at night because sun light hurts me or paralyzes me or something.

The dream becomes blurry and I cannot remember a bit, but something happens and a big bad corporation with corrupt political ties obtains some kind of technology that not only detects my nonphysical presence, but can harm me if I come to close to security sensitive areas in their head office.

Another of the bad guy's technologies is a machine that allows users to mimic my nonphysical form and float around, but unlike me, they are always visible in a semi-transparent state and cannot interact with physical objects. The people they test the machine on die afterwards. My boss, T is kidnapped and forced to used the machine. He dies before we can save him.

I cannot remember the end of this dream.

non dream - lucid - non lucid

After the last rather special dream, I decided to WBTB and attempt a WILD the next night.
I really wanted to see Yuya again, I kept thinking about her when I went to bed.

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The WBTB alarm goes off and I try to WILD thinking about Yuya.
Unfortunately I fall asleep...

... I'm walking... just walking... aimlessly.
There is no path, there is no ground, I'm just walking.
I get a sudden burst of awareness and my vision sharpens.
Clouds turn into objects and I can see that I am on Teraluna.
I have a hard time focusing on my surroundings, I zone in and out a few times until I manage
to stabilize the dream.

I'm talking to Yuya. She know's im stressed in waking life, so she made me special tea that will help me relax.
When I drink it, it "tastes relaxing".
I talk to Yuya about my last dream, about hovering through a galaxy full of pulsating stars...

"I want to show you something... come here..."

She sits on the ground and makes me a sign to sit in front of her.
As I sit down I feel very light headed, but also very relaxed, probably because of the tea.
Yuya takes a meditative pose and I mimic it.
I'm sitting right in front of her, facing her.
We both close our eyes and start linking our thoughts.

"Let go of your thoughts... let go of everything... I will guide you..."

Her thoughts become mine and my thoughts become hers.
Our consciousness start merging together.
With Yuya's help, I manage to free my mind of all thoughts and let go of all the muscles in my body.
My dream body is slowly falling into a state of perfect calm, like it is turning itself off.

I can feel Yuya's body touching mine, but I know we're sitting apart from each other.
Yet it feels like we are embracing each other.
After some time I realize that it is our minds that are embracing, not our bodies.
I feel my body completely turning off, it is slowly letting go of my "spirit" (I call it spirit, I don't know what else to call it... my mind? my consciousness? my soul?)
As my body turns off I completely loose perception not only of my surroundings but also of my emotions...

... I can see again, but it feels different from seeing. I am now a small cloud of pulsating energy, and so is Yuya.
I decide to call this form "spirit".
Yuya is very pure and blue, there are fine crystalline strings emitting from her center.
I am green and orange a complex, complicated, "worried" but gentle mix of colors.
My strings move around more nervously than her's.
Our spirits are touching, and we start moving into a direction.

I start seeing an infinite amount of other spirits, forming a spiral galaxy of energy.
I see many kinds of spirits. The spirit of a small bush of grass, the spirit of a tree, the spirit of a bird, and the spirits of many other beings.
They are all beautiful in their own way.
I understand that what I am seeing is the essence of life, it is what drives us, it is why we live...
We keep floating along some sort of path, our spirits are linked, we decide directions as one.

After some time our spirits detach, and I feel my dream body forming around me again.
I open my eyes and I am sitting on a huge green leaf. I am very small, and the plant the leaf belongs to is very big, it can easily carry my weight.
Yuya appears next to me, smiling like she always does.
I don't ask her any questions because there are none to ask.
What I saw is beyond my level of understanding, yet because our consciousness was merged, I caught a glimpse of it.

I am still in an extremely relaxed state and I don't feel like talking or doing anything at all for that matter.
We just sit on this leaf, enjoying the feeling of not thinking at all...


Notes:
I am not a spiritual person, but I do believe that we all have some sort of spirit or soul, depending on what you want to call it.
It doesn't make sense to me that our consciousness consists of only a neural network.
I'm not sure where those extremely relaxing dreams are coming from.
Maybe I'm longing for this relaxed state because I am stressed in waking life?

This was early in the first sleep cycle. The dream didn't start instantly, that I'm aware of, but about 20-30 minutes later.

It was night time. I was living in my backyard neighbors house. In my mind, both of these houses were home. (They are very similar to each other in real life.) Everything was epic looking. Larger than life. The house was roughly double sized and decadent like no expense was spared making it. A bright moonlight night was outside my windows. I got a loving phone call from my girlfriend who needed a ride. I felt fantastic. I was wondering which house to take my GF too.

I went out the front door, but it exited onto my backyard patio. Standing there in near pitch blackness were my two lost best friends, in the old version of backyard (it was redesigned a few years ago). They were laughing and talking together, both harshly and intoxicated.

I don't recall exactly what was said (it may have been abstract) but it was very rude. I remember them physically surrounding me on both sides. Slapping me on the back. I felt offended and overwhelmed. They acted like crude, spiteful, burnout versions of themselves.

Just then, the backdoor opened. Out came an arm with a rather long thin, gray telephone receiver. I heard a voice say from inside the house: "Telephone for you!"

I thought, "Which of my old friends will be rude to me next?" I became very distressed and cornered feeling. --Then I woke up.

Waking Hallucination (?): When I opened my eyes. I was laying on my back. Above me, slightly off to the left and down a couple of feet was a large dark spot on my ceiling. I kept blinking hard. I'm sure I was awake. I looked around the room, all else looked normal.

The black spot was about a 2-foot radius. I started to focus on it carefully and could see that the edges of it were swirling. As if it was a flat-ish mist disc, or a rotating projection. It was slowly drifting away from over my bed, to the left corner near the foot.

I was watching it closely. The mist started to thin a little, and as it did: two faintly glowing eyes appeared in the middle, blankly looking back at me. They were about 10-inches apart, beady, and slightly smaller than dimes. After several seconds more, the "thing" gradually faded.

To my awareness, I've never experienced visual hallucinations upon waking up before. I was not paralyzed or having a false awakening. At no point was I afraid. I wasn't sure what I was looking at exactly. I felt more relieved to have left the dream, than afraid of the cloud. I got out of bed. I didn't go back to sleep for hours.

Fell asleep a little after 2AM and woke up at 2:38AM. Generally speaking, this is a weird time for vivid dreaming. I usually don't recall dreams in the first 3-REM stages. When I do, it typically ends a 90-minute cycle. However, I've noted a few nightmares in the first REM cycle after viewing shocking material.

Note: I have an unpublished dream journal of strong, bewildering nightmares that took place heavily in 2007, lingered into 2008. In June 2009, I had one terrible nightmare. Some of the recent trickster elements in my dreams reminded me of those days.

Most epic of dreams: An ancient, quite large, violin, forged by ancient gods (angels, spirits, celestial beings) had fallen from the skies into a lake near a huge castle(much like the one in ocarina of time),the long part that you use to play it was lost.
I actually started the dream with the violin,but played it as a guitar, and when I played it no matter how poorly my fingers moved the music it made sounded outrageously amazing. There was also a button on the back that when pushed caused the violin to play itself.
Soon after showing off to my friends, i flashed back to the recollection of how i got this most badtastical of instruments, i swam to the bottom of a deep lake and the water felt amazing, at the very bottom i found the huge violin and buried slightly in the sand was a small piece of silver which just emanated power, i took both and as i swam to shore in the distance i saw a blue whale swimming in the water, all in all it was an amazing dream.

NON-DREAM DREAM LUCID FALSE AWAKENING

22:30

Bus trip
I’m involved in politics. There’s a vote for me to have some vacation. I go on a bus trip and the driver is a black guy. He looks tired and I fear he might fall asleep while driving, although the trip is relatively short – about 40 mins – so I decide to trust his driving.

Amityville-like haunted house
With some other people on an apartment we believe to be haunted. We see a kind of specter of a scary man walking around on some security footage and it creeps us out. He makes lights flash and even burst the lamps. He seems to be able to control whoever he wants to control and lead people to their suicide. First victim is a girl we find hanged in a room, second victim a guy we find all broken for having fell down the stairs. Even the cat gets possessed. Someone decides to strike back by calling him and facing him, but then I see my mom and my BF and I take them with me to the kitchen and we close the door behind us. We are pretty scared because after a while we feel the spirit presence among us. I feel it physically as if he is touching me and it causes all kinds of horrifying feelings and visions. At some point I suspect I’m dreaming, so I open the terrace door for some fresh air and look around, I do a RC, confirm the dream and decide to lift off. On one hand I feel relieved it’s just a dream, but on the other hand I feel guilty for leaving them there, as maybe this is a shared dream and they are left alone in the nightmare.

Castles and meditation
Viewed from above, the apartment complex now looks like a doll house castle, very cute. From up in the sky I see another castle, much bigger, on top of a hill. It is as if it has no walls, so I see people inside it, as if they are on shelves. There are also many people floating around this castle, just hanging and I feel all these strange characters are indeed other dreamers. I float in the air, cross my legs to meditate, but I almost wake up. When back in the dream I am now inside some place and I sit facing a wall, not to distract myself. I try to visualize Buddhas and really feel their presence, but after some time I start seeing all sorts of lights and shapes on the wall, like light projections. I look back and see some girls with a overhead projector, preparing it to play some movie. I leave this place and find some very very quiet corner on an underground level of this building. Between the elevators and the exit to a parking, there’s a really zen corner with a waterfall on a glass wall, water falling on a pebble base and a garden behind the wall. I sit there, soothed by the sounds of the water and I manage to do a successful short meditation for a while. I feel the presence of Guru Rinpoche, but then I almost wake up. I hang on and dream becomes stronger, but not enough, so I must move to keep it going. I decide to finish the RPG task I left undone last time.

Eating the fruit and becoming a dragon (RPG task)
I enter one of the elevators and imagine it taking me to the same supplier market in Denn, where I was last time. The elevator drops me at a very busy cargo entrance area. I get out of the way of men carrying heavy loads to outside where merchants stands are selling produce to the villagers.
I immediately see the strange fruit I’m supposed to eat on a fruit stand. I choose a small one and eat it. I keep walking around waiting to see if anything happens (it’s supposed to give me some new magical power) but nothing happens. I then find a stand where people gather around, very agitated and I go check what’s up. It’s more of those fruits, but here they look bigger and better and are being served already cut and clean for free to the villagers. Two girls approach me and ask me what is it about. By the way they are so “defined” and “lucid” I realize they are dreamers. I tell them there’s a task on DV to come here and eat this fruit, which is supposed to give us new powers. They enjoy that, they say they also wanna give it a try and then we all grab some fruits to eat.
Once we are served, we gather on the left side of this stand where they meet a third girl friend and they ask me more about DV. I first ask for their names and tell them mine. One girl says she is called what I perceived as“Lollena”and the other what I perceive as “Sino”(as in Portuguese for “bell”; the equivalent sound in English would be“xenu”). The third girl to my left looks blocked, as if she couldn’t remember her name, so I continue to explain what is DV and give them the url. Then the third girl finally says something. She tells me that she (or they?) is user of some other dream website and she tells me the name of it. First it sounded like Dreampaws, which I know exists, but I asked her to repeat and it wasn’t that, although it was something similar, like maybe Dreampush (which I found later on waking up, that also exists). I’m not sure though, because it became fuzzy on waking up.
Then we walk around the town and they ask me about the super-power. I say I don’t know what it is and I also haven’t felt anything different yet. We try telekinesis, morphing, etc, and it all goes very well, but I say I already had all these powers before, so it can’t be it.
Then we hear people scream and we see a big pinkish tornado coming right to the centre of the town. We combine efforts and we try to break the tornado apart. I see to my right another guy who is also trying to do it, so we are at least 5 people doing it. Soon the tornado fades away and is but a large pink cloud in the sky. People are cheering us and I lose the girls in the middle of the crowd. When I meet them again later (only the two girls with names) at the entrance of a tavern down a street, they had just been approached by some bullies and one of them sobs while the other comforts her. She admits to her friend that she owes money to those guys and don’t know what to do. I pass by them and remind them we’re just in a dream, but they seem to have lost lucidity for good, so I keep going. It’s when I start feeling the effect of the fruit!
I feel my body changing, my neck elongating, I walk in four limbs and then I spread my “arms” and I feel like I have wings. I flap them and slowly elevate in the air. I am still fundamentally human shaped, but I think I am becoming a dragon! It is hard to deal with this new body and I wobble a little bit in the air. At some point I lose balance all together and fall down on the floor. I think I come back to my human form.
On the floor, I am facing the end of the street, which is the end of the town and I see a huge looming creature crawling in my direction. It’s another dragon.
I immediately remember the talk I had with my dad during the day. He had asked me if I fear dragons when I meet them in my dreams and I had said no, in general they are friendly. But this one has a really dark energy and I immediately felt really scared. I run back to the town, looking for a place to take cover and hide. He steps up, trying to catch me and I only have time to duck under a wagon to my left and I see the dragon passing right by my side. He circulates the wagon and hits it repeatedly. I know it’s a matter of time until he turns it over. For some reason I am really scared and convinced I can’t beat this dragon. So when he is about to grab me with his claws, I decide to wake up.

5:00

Puppies
Some guy is buying his kid a puppy. The kid opens up with me and says he didn’t receive love from his father so he is doing this as a compensation. I get involved and I tell the guy about Puppy Mills and that he shouldn’t support it by buying a puppy. Instead should go adopt a puppy from a shelter. I also say I hope this puppy won’t end up on a shelter later on if he gets tired of him. I take them to a shelter and the kid goes wild when he spots a little lion on some cage in the corner. He goes get it and hugs and kisses the lion. The animals are looked after by black androids.

6:00