non-lucid

Lately, I haven't been hanging out at my friend Mitch's apartment because I'm a rather shy person and they haven't been specifically inviting me, even though I have an perpetual invitation to their place.
Last night I went out with them and hung out with them and he was wondering why I haven't been over there in forever.

I dreamed that I did go over there, but of course everything was different. I think I remember going from outside into it, and it wasn't like an apartment, it was like a real house, and there were steps to go up to get in the front door. I'm pretty sure JC was there and Laura might have been too.
We went inside, the layout was pretty much completely different. The kitchen was too the left from the door and the fridge and stuff were further in the same direction and the hallway was to the right from there.
We were sitting at the kitchen table that was in front of the fridge, and eventually I had had 4 beers.
I had to go to the bathroom, which happens a lot when I drink soda or beer, and has happened IRL at their apartment.
I went in there, and it was very strange, there were two showers that were like public showers, with shower curtains that wrap around three sides. I remember there being something strange about the urinal(?), but I don't remember what it was.
I think someone came in there at some point, but this is about where I can't remember anything from the dream.

Not really sure what any of this means.

Haha I just can't stop laughing when I remember that dream from yesterday. It was a bit weird xD

Hours of sleep: 7h
Vividness: 3/5
Recall: 2/5 --> There are surely more dreams but I can't remember them.

I'm standing in a great hall. I'm singing very loud and with full motivation. There are a lot of people around me. They are listening to what I'm saying.I'm surprised how good I sing this song. But I don't think about for a second (my friends say that I've really got no talent xD) and keep on singing. I'm very happy and end my song.
The people give me applause, but I just see it but don't hear it. I know that after me comes someone other to sing a further song. I look to my right and see that a woman in a beautiful white dress is looking for something in a suitcase. She is really nervous and drops things out of the suitcase.
I look to my left. There is a man in a suit. There also is a priest. They are talking to eachother:
DC: I hope everything is fine.
Priest: She's nervous, that's all.
DC: I hope so... I hope that she doesn't make the same thing as her bridesmaid.
(Apparently I'm on a wedding.)
Priest: What did she do?
DC: She ran away while the ceremony.
Priest: What???? And you allowed here to be her bridesmaid? That scandalous!!!

Now something really, I mean really odd happens.

I see that in this hall or church (whatever) is a lake. There are swans. One of them listens to that conversation. As reaction of that bullshit-talk he simply starts vomiting at the DC, at the priest; than the swan swims to all the other swans and vomit at them. Finally it commits suicide by simply drowning itself in the lake.

Now seriously. WTF? My subconscious is really weird lately.

Real life Dream Lucid Dream Sign
For me to remember, dreams are 067300, lucid dreams are the color below blue, #4169e1, and dream signs are the light purple, which is up one and left one from blue, #483d8b.

First or second dream...
After I had it, I woke up. (Sigh, didn't remember to RC.) I told myself what happened in it over and over because I didn't want to go and type it, and look at me now, completely forgotten it...

Don't hurt the mermaid dream!
This dream was the most vivid I've had yet. I could clearly see all the textures on everything, the shining sun on the slime of the water creatures, my hand wasn't even blurry.
My family is buying a little beach condo. Other people are also buying this beach condo, though no one (including me) notice that this doesn't make sense. Somehow it'll just work, and the other family will be like our neighbors. The beach condo we're buying isn't even a beach condo– it's a bunch of porches of varying height connected by stairs with only a few walls, and no ceilings. By the way, the wood of the porch seemed very dark and old. It was a rich dark brown. Our family looked around, and looked at the beach, and we're all thinking and saying, "Wow!". Suddenly people in viking armor jumped out, but we weren't alarmed; the whole thing was a skit to show the heritage of the place. They had brown tall upside-down cpu-shaped helmets on and green armor that had a bump every three inches or so. They chased us around and we laughed.

Later, I walked down to the beach and saw all sorts of critters, large and small. Looking back, this whole place I was at looked like an alien world. There were crabs of many colors and other beach creatures scattered along the coast. The coast a had a very, very shallow slope– 50 feet in and only a foot deep. I sat down and looked around. There was a river to the right. Among other creatures, there was a mermaid. The mermaid was the only thing in the whole I couldn't see very well. I could see her lower fish-like part, but the rest was blurry. I got up. I noticed a weird sensation in my hand. A crab was on my hand! I could see it all clearly– the crab was green and flat, many times wider than it was thick. It was squeezing on to my hand with all of it's legs, not just holding on with one claw. I pulled him of and looked around.

There was a guy, pointing a wooden crossbow on a wooden mount (the wood was the same as the beach house) at the sea. He had olive skin and black straight hair down to an inch below his ears. I asked him what he was doing and he replied that he was hunting mermaids. I asked him to stop but he wouldn't. We kept fighting until I said, "Wait a second... That's not a mermaid," pointing at the creature he was aiming at. "That's one of those things." It was a giant, 4 and a half foot tall fat slithering thing which was about 10 feet long. It was like color 3850 in this color chart (it's in the first column, a third of the way down) with black triangular spots every few feet. It was slimy like a slug and had little stubs for limbs. It had a very big mouth and beady black eyes. It could have easily eaten a person if it wanted to. Anyway, what the crossbow was pointing at was 2 of them, about 70 feet away. The mermaid hunter left the crossbow and stood just a little bit away from where the sand met water.

He started singing the learning tape of the Barbershop song "Bicycle Built for Two" in a weird mix of tenor and lead. I listened, and noted this. He had the same weird computer-y voice as the learning tape. Suddenly he started singing lower notes, which surprised me. I had a sudden thought in my head that something was wrong. The notes grew lower and dissonant and I realized nothing in this world made sense, and I wasn't sure why. I collapsed to the ground, and woke up in fear.

That was very weird. It wasn't meant to be a nightmare but I panicked when I realized something was wrong. The thing was it wasn't as scary as a real nightmare, as if my fear wasn't amplified by the dream.

Anyway, I'm glad I actually realized something was off in a dream, even if I didn't figure out it was because I was dreaming.

PS: Gosh, I spent over an hour writing this! If I remember multiple dreams each night this will take forever!

10-19-10, non-lucid, multiple dreams

My sister Emily, My foreign exchange student Liang and I somehow all got chosen to sell tickets and this sort of weird... aquarium. This was the type of place that parents lovved to take their kids to as a fun weekend thing. We all had to sell the tickets outside of the building and once the tickets were bought the customers were allowed inside. We didn't have any cashregisters or phanny packs to put the money in so we had to use our own money to give change to the customers. Their was a huge line and all of us were very busy. One very rude lady started distracting me and trying to have a conversation. In my peripheral vision I noticed a man and his son sneaking into the aquarium! Immediately I knew this woman was the mans wife and they were trying to sneak into the building for free. After persistent begging and trying to sneak in they finally gave up. ( if this was real life I would have easily let them in! ) At the end of the day Emily gave up 200 dollars in change and I only gave up 40 somehow.

The next thing I know Liang and I are in my car in my old church parking lot. Except...he is driving? I'm very scared because in China I know he isn't old enough to drive and I'm sure he has no experience. After maybe five minutes of driving we ended up passing my dad who is just exiting a coffee shop. Somehow my dad doesn't see us and I somehow regain control of my car. After that the song Surfing USA came on the radio and as we driving we passed a bunch of beach boy scenery. As we parked and started to walk into My house Liangs cell phone went off in the car! I rushed back to the car like it was some sort of huge emergency and answered it. His parents were speaking chinese to me and I had no idea what was happening. Finally after plenty of gibberish and confusing I heard " talk to you tomorrow" and then they hung up.
As the phone call ended so did my dream.

Fable

I walked into my basement to find a bunch of black men playing poker and smoking cigars. I decided to ignore them and walk to my room. As i'm passing them one of them says, "Quit wasting your life!" I don't know why but this really got to me. I went back and confronted this man. After a very good conversation I figured out he was 25 years old and we both loved video games. Eventually he apologized for telling me I was wasting my life which was my main goal. I started to talk him about how my life was like the video game fable. He didn't understand so I took the little piece of paper in the video game case that explains the controls out. But instead of being that piece of paper it was a deceivingly big map. I rolled it open and it probably ended up about being 2 or 3 feet in length. It had very intricate detail about the fable world and how complex it was. How every area has it owns science to it. Some how the whole entire world had something in common. It also had a hidden design that brought the map together. After showing him this map we parted ways and I could tell that me and this 25 year old black man would be friends for life.

I was in shanes attic which he doesn’t even have which looked suprisingly like my attic. There was memories of my attic that I figured if I cleaned up my attic alitle bit it could look as nice as shanes which had a couch a wii and a tv. Later my friend cody came over for a party. I decided to go in my boxers and a shirt. Dina picked me and cody up in a car full of girls and we drove down my street and she took me on a route I never seen throught housese I never seren. All the streets were all fuked up and I didn’t remember any of them. When I got to the house it was small on the outside but huge on the inside with a large backward jacoozie and pool.Also I had no pants on just boxers I jumped over the jacaoozie like the guy did infront of me and we walked into his secondary house. I met a girl in there who invited me upstairs to take a test tube shot nd I said okay but then some fatgirl said she would come to cause if marvin came along hed nd saw me alon e with his gf hed be pissed I said okay nd went up. I took a sip of the shot she said it was kushed flavor but it tasted like cherry kush frozen frosty.

SPECIAL EDITION

Most of you probably didn't notice the removal of one of my five star entries recently. I took it down because I was using it as a base for a school project. Today, I present the result of that project in Dream Journal Format. Enjoy.

10.08.2010

The Way The World Ends: Special Edition (Non-lucid)

★★★★★

NON-DREAM DREAM LUCID

Thoughts, silently drifting atop an ocean of blackness, play in my mind. Flashing images, darting under supple waves of nothing, form together to create new and exciting visions. Drifting slowly toward sleep, the onset of a dream is upon me. The shift into the dream-state is sudden, yet subtle. . . .

Everyone gets a test. Crap, I whisper inwardly. The answers were just on the board, but my recall is hazy, murky. I struggle, fighting through my memories like one would against a powerful current, but—realization strikes me abruptly. With great haste, I record my revelation.

“Soul: The agent that binds humanity together.”
“Biology: The genetic force that drives humans apart. Often incites violent conflicts.”

I ponder, deeply, the implications of these definitions, likening soul to an archaic ideal and biology—difference, technology—to humankind’s present outlook. In today’s world, with its holographic displays and galaxy-wide communication, hardly anyone believes in the existence of a soul. Clearly, technology has ascended to fill our need to connect with one another, making souls obsolete. And yet, something is missing, something one can’t get from behind a dim glowing screen. Without this crucial piece, our physiological differences rise to the surface, and we begin to look upon those unlike ourselves with disdain and contempt. Even the best of us fall prey to this reality.

The proof is here in this classroom full of geniuses. Each of us, raised in a world of cold circuitry and wire, place ourselves above this guest-lecturer who had the nerve to test us. More than that, none of us, save myself, are afraid to show it. One student in particular vocalizes the intellectual disparity between the professor and her students using several colorful metaphors, and I can’t help agreeing with him.

Without warning, the dream changes. Our test is over, and my class is headed back to Earth, yet no one celebrates our return. A sea of nuclear warheads is descending upon us, dropping through the same atmosphere we are. This is it: the end of everything. My peers look at me; their dark, motionless eyes stare blankly. All hope has left them.

I extend a shield of energy around those close to me as the nukes hit ground. Fallout descends upon us, drowning the air in a blood-red hue, buffeting my shield, heating it beyond the realms of human survival. The world outside my bubble is dead, and there’s nothing I can do about it. I think I failed the test.

10/19/10

I had a dream that I was back in my old high school.. I was getting lunch and it was odd how I was standing there looking at the food being served and my surroundings. I guess I had lots of odd experiences in that particular high school and I haven't had any high school dreams in a long long time ( from what I can recall..)..
There was this old woman behind the food bar and she was pointing otu the different foods and I was so determined to just grab a salad but couldn't find any.
I walk out of the school and see all the students lined up outside I figured they too were either trying to get back in or were waiting for lunch.
I look across the street and see where I use to live as a child and this strange feeling overwhelms me.. I felt so vulnerable and just didn't want to be there.
Instead of me walking home I walk to the corner of the block and head up to see if I would see the store I use to go to called the "milky way" ..all of a sudden it starts to get dark and next to the store was an Italian restaurant.. what is odd is from my real memories there never was an Italian restaurant by the store " milky way"..
So I walk in and there is this tall Italian man smiling holding the door open for me and I look down and see this dog at the end of the leash.. small white dog and he tells me " Here you go bring her back tomorrow.." I replied "okay I will".. I feel good walking with this dog and it is night out..
I start walking to the direction of home where I use to live as a child.. but this dog makes me feel relaxed and so much better.. weird but I didn't feel alone.
I get home and the dog is stays with me.. my dad and mom are there I still feel weird because my parents are currently divorced and have been for a long time.. there is much bad blood between them in real life.. so in my dream seeing them two together was weird.. but than again it was a dream lol.
..
Suddenly my dream switches and I am back at the restaurant to get the dog again to go home.. this time the Italian man had a different dog.. looked like a small lassie type dog and it's tail was between it's legs. The guy told me the other dog ( that I had took home ) was in his house and he had that one and wondered if I could take him.. I feel this lump in my throat.. feels like I am going to cry. I told him I would love to but the dog is too small and younger dogs tend to be more active and my neighbors would not be happy about it.. There is another woman standing holding a pile of folders in her arms and she is smiling down at this little dog.
I am standing there with a book bag and the Italian man starts checking the dog's lower body.. he says " He doesn't seem good at all something is wrong.. " I told him " looks like he ate something he shouldn't have.. young dogs tend to eat whatever is in their path.." The man nodded and told me he will take him back home.. I apologized greatly and start to head up the block back home.. feeling sad wishing the other dog was there with me..

Weird dream

September 19th 2010

Switch - Good and Evil

Awake Non-Lucid Semi-Lucid

I realise, there's a switch on my right hand. It isn't actually there, but I can feel it with my fingers. It slides, obviously analogue. I wonder what it does?

There are trees around me, along with what looks like shops. I slide the switch over to the left. Everything brightens, lines are smoother, people smile at me. I slide it to the right. My vision smudges, lines darken, the smiles drop off of their faces as quickly as they came. I set it back to normal.

I realise I have a job to do, but I can't remember what. There's a wall to my right, too high to climb. I run up it instead, and peer over. The drop below is much further than what I ran. If I fall, I die. But there are ledges, suspended over the space. Large, muscular men guard them. How can I get past?

I slowly turn the switch to the right, but not all the way. Everything darkens again. As soon as I jump down to the first ledge, one of the men grabs me, snarling, and throws me off. I don't die, I don't even hit the ground. In fact, I'm exactly where I was before, crouching over the edge of the wall. I flick the switch to the left. The men let me jump from ledge to ledge, although some look like they're thinking off throwing me off. I feel like i'm in a videogame.

When I get to the floor, I don't take very much in. There's a sofa that I walk to, and see my friend sitting there. I become slightly lucid, and flick the switch all the way to the left. My friend grabs a sheet of paper and draw a light sketch of wings on it. What does she mean? I fly onto the wall again, and face the forest. I flick the switch all the way to the right.

Instantly, I wish I hadn't. Every outline is dark and smudged, the world turns grey, there are shadows everywhere. It's as if I've entered a nightmare. The beautiful forest goes up in flames. People are marching out of it, screaming at me, holding weapons. I forget the switch and run.

Stalker

For some reason there's a shop under my school. I walk down the dark, damp passageway leading up to it, I really hope it isn't some scary cellar. But luckily, when I get there, it's not. There are clothes everywhere. I remember I needed to buy boots for the winter, and head to the shoe section. After getting rather bored, and getting sick of looking at leather, I quickly go into a changing room to change.

When I get out, I'm wearing a silky pink, strapless dress that goes down to above the knee. I wear dark pink heels to match. For some reason, I can't walk very well in them (which is odd because I can walk fine in heels. Practice makes perfect, right!?) . I budge past the people blocking my way and head out a door opposite the one I came through. I'm in a theatre!

The seats are slanted as they go up so everyone can see. But at a very steep angle. I'm so high up that if I get out of my seat wrong, imma die. I literally need to curve my legs under me to hop onto the floor from my seat. Somehow, whiles i'm puzzling over this, the show ends.

[Dream skip - A few minutes] I'm back in my normal clothes (jeans and t-shirt) and i'm walking home. Ethan calls me from behind. Shit. This guy pretty much stalks me (I'm being serious guys, LOL ) . I don't say anything. Goddammit, why am I still wearing these heels? I can't get away from him fast enough. He gets pissed off pretty fast and pulls out a bow and a sheath of arrows. Because he's so hardcore...

I notice he's got a "friend" up ahead who's done the same thing. Now they're trying to shoot me. I kick off the stupid heels and run for it. Somehow I'm faster than usual, but there's still a chance I get hit. Luckily, I don't.

Transformation

Note: This one really creeped me out. I woke up with a really awful feeling because it was a late REM stage so it was vivid too. Basically, I watched a really sweet girl turn into this evil blood-thirsty monster. Like nothing you've ever seen before. Go watch the recent Starwars Sith thingy and you'll understand.

For some reason, I think my room is a pirate ship. And it's the room in my old house, which I haven't been in for three years. I'm in my "ship" when a innocent looking, blonde girl comes in. She's smaller than me, with deep blue eyes and shoulder length hair, with a full fringe. She looks unhappy for some reason. She tells me that she needs to save her mother. That her mum's been taken and she needs to get her back. Her name is Kate. I tell Kate to come back tomorrow, and we'll go get her mother.

[Dream skip - The next day] I'm in the ship, when Kate swings in (literally, on a piece of rope hanging from the hall outside. Don't ask me why ). She's got black eyeliner on, and has gelled her fringe back. She's enthusiastic, which is good. We get going.

To move the "ship" we sway from side to side. I watch the ship from third person but can still feel my body. We go down my street and onto the road. Kate shouts at me a couple of times because apparently I'm steering wrong.

[Dream skip - Unknown] We're close to where Kate's mother is. She's slowly changing. Her hair is now long, and dark auburn in colour. Her eyes are turning a brownish shade. Shadows are lining her eyes. We don't speak. I don't trust her.

We're walking along a meadow, in the middle of a forest. Suddenly, Kate turns to me. She screams that I've led her to the wrong place. That I'm trying to kill her. Her body keels over, and she starts retching. I think she's going to be sick. Her chest puffs up, and suddenly, hair is coming out her throat. It's still attatched to something inside her. She grabs a knife from her belt and hacks at it furiously. When she's finished, she grins at me, evily. I have the feeling she might try to kill me in the most brutal way possible. Her hair is now shorter, and spikey. Her eyes are red.

Something rustles in the bushes. She does a backflip and stabs something. She drags him out of the bushes and laughs as she stabs him again and again. I stare in horror. What has happened to her? She's out of control.

[Dream skip - Unknown] I'm sitting, alone, in my ship/room. I can't get over what a monster Kate is. I still see her red eyes and sharpened teeth. Blood splashed over her, with a mad glint in her eye. I seek knowledge to how this happened. Instantly, a voice in my head tells me to look to the Corners, the Shadows. I do. I look at the shadow and corners of my ship, and hear a voice.

The voice tells me she is a lost soul. That she always has been, I just didn't see it at first. In my mind, he replays our first meeting. I stand, watching myself and Kate talk. Now I notice the way she stands. Close, uptight, analyzing everything I say. Calculating. But from my first glance, she was just someone who needed help.

Then as she swings into the ship. I thought she was enthusiastic, now I know all she wanted was blood. She was after everything and anything out there. She probably lied about her mother. She was always the murdering psychopath, I just hadn't seen it. It was all a disguise. I watch as she slowly reveals her true form. I watch her eyes slightly darken everyday, the shadows around them grow more prominant, her teeth sharpen to points.

Finally, the Shadow leaves me to dwell on these thoughts.

I look up, and her eyes are set on my. Blood is dripping from her finger tips. I know her secrets, now I have to die.

I was at class or something, in a very plain white-grey area or room. Someone, I think CA, was offering me some seaweed snacks. She had a load of it in a plastic grey container. I thought they might be gross but shrugged and took one anyways. I could feel the spices on it as I pulled it out. I didn't get to eat it before the dream faded.

Dream Lucid

I went out to eat with my family at some restaurant. On the way there I was extremely thirsty and 3 cups of water did not full fill me. After we ate, we got back in the car to drive home. I was still drinking water. My mom was driving and made a turn opposite of our house. Then I woke up into my dream bed. I saw two of the same posters on the ceiling and remembered a post on here about putting a picture on the ceiling telling you do either do a RC or that you are dreaming. There's a triangle with a face drawn on it, just lines to make a smile and eyes. I thought that was kind of weird, so I looked away but still saw it in my peripheral and when I looked back it was moving, so I pinched my nose and could still breathe. I got out of my bed and looked at my hands. They were morphing, the palms would get bigger and my finger turned into tiny little stubs and back. Flipping them over and moving them would morph them back to normal. I tried to give out a few commands but my throat was still dry. I drank some water and gave out the commands. I wanted to go outside so I decided to walk through my wall, I've only walked through something once and it was slow, so was this time. Halfway through I decided to just open the window and jump through it (I still thought I shouldn't make noise and wake somebody hahaha). The sky was gloomy and I tried to bring down lightening with my hands. I couldn't do it, but then I noticed that fireballs, or meteors were in the sky. I tried controlling those, and wherever I swung my arm, they would come. I tried to do a Kamehameha, I saw the energy ball, but not at my hands and decided to hold that off until I had better control. I then looked my hands for more stability and wanted to summon a DC. I thought that she would appear at my front door, and I could see her shadow from outside. I used the hopping technique to get to the door and opened it, there she was! along with a tan SUV in front. She immediately ran in and started to grab at my parts. I dream hopped with her to my room and got too excited and woke up.

I was then with some friends at a flat concrete place which had stairs leading down to sea level with more stairs going up which led to a school in the dream. I showed another friend a video of one of my friends skating. Then some kids from the school came up to me and asked how I think I did on the science test in some teacher's class. I told them I don't go to their school. He continued to talk to me and said he hoped he did good. Going down, I see lots of other people riding their bikes. One of them waves goodbye to me as he leaves, and I see another friend and we chat for a bit. Then there's a large group of people sitting on the ground and I join them. My bottom retainer felt like it broke so I picked out the pieces, but I could still feel a retainer in my mouth. I then realized I was dreaming, and did a nose pinch to check. I looked up at the sky and flew off, only to wake up.

I was in a hotel room with some family members younger than me. My aunt who lives across the states was here to visit and we had to go down to help her with the bags. Two of us go down one flight of stairs and I hit the elevator button. It opens and I see my younger cousin in there, it closes and she goes up. When the elevator goes up, the DC that was with me jump down the elevator shaft. I thought he was a goner. When the elevator came back down to me, he appeared from the stairs which we just came down. We get in and I tried the trick to just get it to go without any other stops. It works and we are in the lobby. I go outside to see all the other members of my family. My mom was telling about the psychologist referral I had just recently got. (I just wanna chat with a psychologist, while my mom thinks I have some mental problems) She goes on to tell the family that I have some mental problems and asks me to tell them about my problems. My uncle looks at me and just says Hi to, I respond back and he says I'm fine. My mom and I get into a little argument and I get frustrated and say that I'm just not going to talk to anybody. My brother then comes over and sits down with me and says, "Well you're not going to talk to anybody? Well this is a dream." Still being frustrated I go to prove him wrong and pinch my nose. Realizing I was dreaming, I tried to fly away from the scene but he was holding onto my, so I dream spun and he said I was good, but he still had a hold of me. I then hopped to the nearby wall and he went with me, so I just tried to fly away.[color="blue"= I then woke up in my dream bed and pinched my nose, I was able to breathe, but I didn't believe it, so I used two hands to block it completely and then I could still breathe. For some reason I still didn't believe it, so I went to write down my dreams and I saw I had text messages, I read them and they were a bit off, I looked at the time and it was off by about 5 hours, I just thought my phone was being weird, I even looked at the time twice, and thought nothing of it, then I finally woke up.

I normally don't post my dreams, but I feel like this one is worth it so enjoy.

19.10.2010

Trapped in a Dream (DILD)

NON-DREAM DREAM LUCID

I'm driving down Gay toward Shane's house and I suddenly realize I'm going the wrong way, so I pull into a driveway to turn around. When I pull into the driveway I get out of the car and start walking for some reason. I'm walking up Gay and its nighttime so I'm trying to steer clear of the road. Suddenly I have a brief moment of lucidity and I think "Why am I walking? Am I looking for my car?" So I start running up Gay scanning the edge of the road for anywhere I could've left my car when I'm again hit with a flash of lucidity "This is ridiculous, how could I end up in a situation like this," I think, "I must be dreaming." It's the only conclusion I can come up with although I still think its very unlikely. So I slap myself in the face a couple of times and "wake up" lying on my bed in my dorm room. I feel extremely tired and I can't open my eyes or move much at all. I think "I'm going to be late for Tech and Civ if I can't get up soon," but I still can't budge and am too tired to really care. Someone comes into the dorm and they come up to my door and open it. I hear a man's voice and two girls but I still can't open my eyes. They see me sleeping and a girl says "Oh, I'm sorry." and a man (apparently one of roomates) says "Sorry bro." I think I manage to mutter "it's fine" as they close the door. I can hear the TV on in the background and I think to myself "Ok, its really time to get up now." So I visualize myself getting out of bed and putting on my clothes but I still can't move. I start to panic a little bit and think that I'm deffinately going to be late for Tech and Civ. I'm still too tired to really care though and thought of just skipping it was crossing my mind. Suddenly I'm jolted awake for real and I'm laying on the bed in my dorm. I test my limbs and they move just fine. I look at the clock and see that only about ten minutes have passed since I fell asleep "that can't be right" I think. And it hits me that I must still be dreaming. I crawl out of bed and I'm not nearly as tired as I was in the dream and its a great relief. I check the door and see that it is still locked so no one must've come in. I flick the lights on and off to see if they work and they do so I realize I actually am awake. I start writing it all down then I check the clock and realize that I'm late for Tech and Civ.

10/19/10
Dr. B from college is with me. He is acting weird. At one point he is sitting behind me, and he keeps touching my waist and leg. I find it weird but don't try to stop him. My (real life) husband is with me, I think. Dr. B gives me a little packet of rolled-up notebook scraps, tied with twist-ties. He leaves. I open one of these scraps. It says something about love on it. I say to my husband, "He's in love with me." Husband says, "I know." We sort of shrug with a 'that's weird' sort of attitude. Later Dr. B is talking about a paper-writing competition that I should enter. I say I wouldn't know what to write about. He says I just need to build off this other paper I wrote about religion and culture.
I say that I've started composing a song (on the piano) for the competition to go with my submission. (The song is actually Mariage D'amour by Clayderman, which I learned to play a few weeks ago.) There are two pianos here. My mother is playing the full-size one. The other's keyboard is very short, maybe only 1 1/2 octaves. I wonder to myself if I will have enough room. I try it and determine I need the full-size piano. I ask my mom if I can play the song. She says yes. I sit down and start playing. I struggle. I don't quite remember the notes. Eventually I can play a little of the song. (I am playing without sheet music.) Dr. B is there now. I am hoping to impress him but he doesn't pay much attention to my playing. He is walking around me with cups and champagne (?) saying, "[She] has not yet agreed to marry me."

At one point I am saying to him that I'm not sure I've ever written a truly good paper. He responds with not-quite-reassurance.. something about how when he gets a whole class-full of papers something in them must be good.

There's another scene where I am with some women (friends?), describing my encounter with a blonde woman. This person was a religious fanatic. I was talking to her as research for my paper. This woman said something like "I hate all niggers and jews." And I asked her, "This is because of your religion?" And she says yes. I am acting out this exchange for my women friends and acting really obnoxious when I am playing the bigot woman. Dr. B says that I asked the right questions.

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Commentary:
I don't recall ever before having a dream in which I play piano. That's really interesting. (I've played piano since I was 7 years old.)

The Dr. B love stuff might just be day residue because I was reading about King Henry IV on Wikipedia last night, and he was a huge philanderer and had a zillion mistresses.

Interesting that my mom made an appearance too, and that she was playing piano. (She does play piano in real life.) All I saw was the back of her head, though. She had brown hair, not quite shoulder length. She has gray in her hair now, though, which was not in the dream.

I remember being in class, and having to write an essay and read it. The teacher randomly selected people to read theirs after a few minutes, and I was going to read most of mine, and make up the rest on the fly.

Some chick had trouble reading for some reason, and had to grab some random thing to read. I wanted to read so bad, but it never happened.

[BACKGROUND="#41739C"]*Dream 1 :: My LAN Party*[/BACKGROUND]

I am in my living room on the computer in the corner. The dining table which is usually against the wall is in the middle of the room with computers on it. (I think there are three.)

The computers are all being used but I don't recognize any of the people on the computers at this point. I just realize that I had finished playing a LAN game of Red Alert 2 with these

people. Then I recognize one of the people on the PCs as Niklas. He laughs (Discussing an amusing part of the game we had just played with someone), then I say "Hey, Niklas?". He

replies "Yeah?" and I say "Go on MSN." (Lol, WTF?)

I alt-tab from thegame to see the "Niklas has just signed in" alert at the bottom left hand side of my screen. I click on it to open his chat window and type "Hey."

I notice that my font is totally different from its' usual, and is black colored, which is unusual.

He replies "Hey." in the exact same font and color. I write "Want to talk?", then in my dream he actually speaks aloud "Yeah", but writes a few lines in MSN. Now his font has changed

again, and is orange. I didn't have time to read what he wrote, but I got the sense that it was evasive. I woke up as I tried to understand what he wrote.

[BACKGROUND="#41739C"]*Dream 2 :: My Beautiful Mind*[/BACKGROUND]

(This page is upside down in my journal, lol.)

I am speaking to a robot with an android like appearance, it tells me I nead to do some tests. I can't remember specifically what these tests were, other than they involved a large

circular platform and I flew a space ship. The last test involved two people (One male, one female) with fairly common sounding names. Jane and James, or something. Anyways, they

were sitting on the big circular platform in front of a large circular glass sliding wall... thing. I had to move the screen in such a way so that they could see themselves. However, then I

got an alert that the facility was under attack and I needed to go repair the robot I was talking to earlier, which I ignored.

I got back in my space ship and flew around a bit, then arrived back at the platform. The two people from my test got in. Then I flew to a little house in a forest type area and landed

it. Then I get a message at the top left that says I have successfully rescued the people. Then I get out, and all of a sudden I'm in third person looking at myself, but it isn't actually

me, it looks like a young Morgan Freeman, and I have two swords. (What the hell?)

I make my way towards the house and open the door. Then I am attacked by 5 or so people who I don't know. I defeat them with some ease, and notice a Twi'Lek from star wars

behind me. She talks with a guy in the house (Presumably the bad guy who attacked the robot facility thing). I can't recall anything they said, other than it was cryptic and at the end

the twi'lek said "I would have told you earlier, but there was fighting." Then she goes away, and all of a sudden there's a guy behind me, but I know he is friendly. He says "You're

going to let him get away with this?" I ignore him and walk away from the house to follow the Twi'Lek, but my "friend" says "You're just going to walk away and let him off?" and I say

"No.", pull out my swords and walk into the house. Now I'm in 1st person again. His house looks like one of those crazy alien conspiracy theorists' bedrooms. There's two computers

with creme CRT monitors. One is off but one has white text on a navy background. There's an external hard drive on the desk, and alot of floppy disks. There's a pack of CDs, the one

on the top says "EasyXP Install". I wonder if EasyXP is the same as Windows XP. Then I look at his screen, most of the text is small, white rectangles. I presume this is because it is

Encrypted (But it's probably because my brain didn't have time to write what it said.) I could only read a small amount of the text at the top, and I didn't really take it in, but I recall

words that sounded technical, stuff to do with the encryption technique. Then all of a sudden, the guy appears out of where I came in. He's wearing a white shirt with suspenders and

round glasses. I remember recognizing him from a movie, but I can't remember which. He doesn't seem surprised that I'm sneaking around in his ... place. Instead, he offers me and

my friend (Who has followed me in) a drink. We politely refuse, and I decide to snoop around his computer, looking for anything suspicious. I decide to check the Audit Logs, however I

cannot, and I get an error. I see an "unknown" drive partition, which confuses me and I confront the guy about it. He says something like "ah, that is because the drive 'hails from a

different frequency'", and I explain that isn't how hard drives work. Then he offers me another drink, this time I say Okay, and he asks what I would like, and I said orange juice, which

is odd, because I don't really like orange juice all that much in real life. I make a mental note not to drink the orange juice as it will probably be poisoned. He moves off into the

kitchen and returns with snacks, they are like little fruit pie things. I eat them, and they're actually quite tasty. Anyways, I turn my attention back to the computer, and think to myself

"He has a virus", for some strange reason. I am about to say this to him, but instead I decide to open a text file. I then try to discover a code by writing the capital letters as if they

were a word. I get through about 4 or 5 letters and they make the beginnings of a word, but I can't remember what it is, and at some point, I realize that I am dreaming for some

reason, however, I begin to lose dream stability, and by the team I've realized what has happened, it's too late and I'm awake. Which is annoying. D:


Later, I realize the guy from my dream looks like the guy from A Beautiful Mind, but with glasses. :/

Real life Dream Lucid Dream Sign
For me to remember, dreams are 067300, lucid dreams are the color below blue, #4169e1, and dream signs are the light purple, which is up one and left one from blue, #483d8b.

Mechanical bottle dream
Something about this mechanical bottle that automatically opens and closes.

Family and the ring dream
Fragments. I remember staying in this awful hotel, which no one else recognized was awful. I couldn't even see to the bottom of the three foot pool, it was so dirty, yet my whole family, including my cousins and aunt, played in it. I made excuses not to, of course. I remember going to places. Sometimes it was stormy, but it was always dark. I had some important ring I couldn't lose for some event. ...And I lost it in the pool.