non-lucid

D1 - With my daughter on holiday she is little in the dream (always lol) my sister is here also. Me and Poppy decide to go and enjoy the last days of our holiday at the beach, away from all the hussel and bussel. I see it in my minds eye as fairly deserted and sandy.
We are walking through a town when we are stopped by newspaper stall guy, with a thick moustache and greasy black hair. He and his colleage try and sell us some smokes.
They are selling slithers of chocolate in a silver wrapping, apparently you can smoke it
I realise I really need to pee and so does Poppy, so we go look for somewhere.
There is a cubicle and I go in after Poppy, but when I go in the door falls open. Outside the door are a load of school girls, I recognise one of them as someone I know, but she is a teenage girl (How sweet, such big eyes, hahahaaa) she says really loudly looking first at me then her friends, "Oh there is the super cute boy!!!". I feel super happy.
The cubicle is then completely falling apart at other side now, I have a pee quickly and get out lol.

D2 - At my mum's apartment (she doesn't have one in real life, that I know of lol)
She is not there. I am looking for something while i'm staying away from home. I need to be really stealthy as there are secuirty red laser thingys.
There is a large wooden coffee table and things are everywhere on the table and floor, like someone has already been searching for something. But I think nothing of it.
I search through everything, and decide to find her tarot cards as I feel I need them.
There are two sets, one is really vivid and multicoloured. I find one card it is a picture of a giant wave, it is abstract so a bit hard to tell but i really like it. It has a lovely bright acrylic blue but also white and red.
It is beautful and evocative filling me with vibrant emotions

[comment]
Elainey keeps saying I have a lot of water in my dreams, so I named it water as both dreams have some in,
Sync This morning Siren sent me this link:

Preface:
I did some different type of awareness exercises yesterday. No mantras, just awareness. Being, and breathing. Interesting...as I was able to recall one really long dream, instead of a bunch of different ones like usual. I think I like this.

DR 1

So I am in a HUGE, really nice house. I am supposed to be house sitting in my friends' absence. Some not so good friends of mine have convinced me that I should have a house party. Not just any party- but a huge party- (In my mind, its a huge party, like the one form the movie "Project X"). I am weary, but my girl entourage goes about making plans in the background. The place slowly starts filling up but I am not into it. I'm looking a t a bookshelf of encyclopedias, which I haven't seen in ages. I'm kind of taken by them. One of my guy friends is carrying on a conversation with me but I'm only half listening. He's holding a collection of about 8 bandannas, all different colors. I halfway wonder what he's going to do with those, but he keeps talking about some girl he is interested in. I'm not really listening because I am too busy looking for the encyclopedia that would have Belly dance in it. Its missing. So I skip that and look for Dance. As I'm looking for it, the guy kind of tells me that he's not going to pursue the girl anymore..and out of a kind of disappointment, gives me a pink bandanna. I'm like, ok - did i miss something? He is my friend, but I feel that I know he goes through that kind of stuff all the time so I am not concerned with how he feels about some random girl.

Meanwhile, people are partying all over the place- drinking alcohol, dancing and getting wild. I'm totally not feeling it, but I'm also not caring. Just letting people do whatever, and... walking around like I have all the money in the world, so I care less what is being destroyed. Then I come to one of the master bedrooms, and its COMPLETELY trashed. The level of trash finally upsets me and I start telling my entourage that people need to start getting the f*ck out of here. Its all done so politely and is hilarious to me in my mind. When most of the people are gone and the bedroom is empty, there are shoes- loads of shoes everywhere. The bed mattresses have been derailed and they are on the floor. I remember telling the girls that they will have to clean those and then replace them because I need a place to sleep tonight.

There is so much trash everywhere that I can hardly walk. Loads of trash and shoes, all kinds of sizes everywhere. I find a trash bag and I start to try to collect all of the shoes when I see these two guys and a girl taking pictures. That's when I get rude and tell them they have to leave now. I'm really pissed because I am so angry at the amount of shoes people just left here. I am walking behind them and showing them out. The go outside and I notice a painting on one of the walls beside the kitchen back door. Its periwinkle blue with a dainty flower. Someone has spilled some kind of concoction on it so I think I should fix it. I magically get a paintbrush and paint, and start to paint. I fix the periwinkle color so perfectly- it goes on well and I don't need to retouch the flower. I am happy with it- the content feeling I got from last night's dream is back.


Side Note:

For the past two nights I have been content doing things...crafty projects and such in my dreams. Yesterday it was the Christmas tree decorating and today its painting. I am getting this content feeling, like I have a flow of energy while doing something. This seems really nice. I also get this feeling when doing these kinds of things in real life.

Okay I blame exams week and the release of KSP 1.1 for all this.

Night 9:

-Fragment. I FA'd and I had pooped in the bed.

-Something to do with going to the library. I remember they had this big rack of these little tiny books about the size of 3x5 cards and only a few pages long. Each one of them had a blue cover and yellow text that read "stories of lucid dreaming". I opened up a few of them. I don't remember what they were about.

I ended up checking out one of these 'stories of lucid dreaming books'. I took it home. The story was written by a little kid and when I read it it talked about how he dreamed that lego star wars battle droids were attacking him. I got bored with the story pretty quickly, and decided to make tea and play KSP, but when I opened the cupboard, millions of lego star wars battle droids poured out.

The dream ended with me trying to get all of them out of a coffee mug so I could make my tea.

Frag: +.5
Dream +1

Night 10:

Nothing

Night 11:

I tried a WeeBTB. (I think it was actually a double WeeBTB Didn't work though.)

WBTB: +2

Night 12:

I tried another WeeBTB. Didn't get me a lucid tho.

Fragment: I do remember dreaming something to do with staying at/living at a hotel. Someone was saying it was best to have a room on the lower floors and on the interior with no windows, because it meant I was safe from natural disasters.

WBTB: +2
Frag +.5

I was walking through the liquor store with my boyfriend when two guys from my Hinduism class I took the last semester I was in college walked by. They started talking to my boyfriend. I didn't know they knew each other. That was unexpected. While they talked I walked through looking at the liquor. I didn't see any that I wanted so I quickly walked out. My boyfriend and the guys thought I had heard them say something offensive so they sent me an email e-card with caricatures of the three of them talking as consolation.

I am with my wife and we drive to a house I do not know. When we are in that house began to prepare for a boat trip, we have to do many things and prepare lots of luggage. It is also in the house my cousin (who died long ago), and he is dedicated to sabotage all the preparations. It is assumed that we were going to take the car on the boat and there were more cars, but my cousin does something that prevents cars can get into the boat. In the end, because of my cousin, we can not make the trip and we have to stay at home. Then we start to do a job for someone in that house and when we finished, we sat at a table with my cousin and more people to chat. I realize that my cousin runs nasty looks at my wife (his eyes strikes me) and I get angry, I discuss with my cousin and scolding him for doing that. At the end I get it apart and we leave them alone.

Fragment:

I have done a great snack that has a very appetizing appearance. People who are me want to eat it, but I try to prevent this from happening.

This morning I remembered two fragments:

1. We have to read a book in English class, it is one of the great "classics" that everyone has to read, but I don't remember the title. The teacher and all the other students are sitting at one big square table. I'm the only one that's free to walk around. I sit down on the floor in a corner and try to figure out on which page they are. The teacher is reading out loud. When I go through the pages of the book I see that the first part of it is normal text, the second part is in cartoon form. I think "That's a nice way to make this boring stuff more enjoyable for young people".

2. There's an assignment that we have to work on. I wonder if I really have to, and what would happen if I didn't. The teacher tells me that it's not an obligation but it would be good if I did show my willingness to work.

I'm in an electronics shop. I've brought my Macbook Pro in because there is an issue with it. The thing I'm focusing on right now is that one of the rubber feet has fallen off (really happened). The employee I'm talking to is an older white man with grey hair. He presents me with a DIY fix which involves cutting out a makeshift rubber foot out of some different material, which is grey. I can get the perfect shape by placing the fallen off rubber foot on it and cutting around it. I end up with a hole in the material though and cause the material is a bit stretchy it doesn't really work. I wonder if the guy is going to charge me for this. He starts asking me how old my laptop is. I immediately recognise that this is a sales talk. I tell him and he comes up with packages of cables I could buy. My laptop will be obsolete soon and then I will have a hard time finding spare parts, so best to buy them now. I tell him I've already replaced a cable recently, so I'm good. While I'm placing my laptop back inside my bag, he walks over to his colleague. They're a bit in the distance, but I can clearly hear and see the frustration of the guy over my refusal to buy anything off him. I consider telling him to be more professional.


I know I've also dreamt something about my girlfriend, but I can't remember what.

It was cloudy, grim afternoon. Storm clouds were high up in the sky. I was at a graveyard with my mother, we took some tools to clean graves of family. I looked around and saw a huge ball of dirt, grass and other plants. It was growing up and slowly rolling around the graveyard. It's speed was increasing all the time, and when we were halfway to grandpa's grave, it rolled with really high speed, leaving only a dirt path behind. Mother was quite surprised how fast it rolled. It turned towards us and we had to jump out of it's way.

I had a bunch of dreams last night. The most I have remembered in a while. I think it really helps that I told myself the night before that I needed to remember them so I could write them in my Dream Journal. None of them were particularly long or vivid. But I'm glad I remembered what I did.

Dream 1:

I was in my old childhood neighborhood. I saw a nearby house (one East of the school) had burned down. Then as I watched I saw a big truck some barreling down the street and smash in to the house next to it. It was quite shocking I hoped the people inside were okay since the truck took about a third of the house down.

Later I am in the house next to the two that had been destroyed. I am with a former roommate Bonna and a few freinds. I told them I had a really bad feeling about staying in this house. I was sure that this house was next to be destroyed. I finally convinced them to evacuate. It was then like a treehouse because we were climbing down a ladder. I'm pretty sure that I noticed a fire in the house as soon as were were down.

[This was inspired because I had looked up my old neighborhood on Google maps before bed.]

Dream 2:

I was walking down the street in a neighborhood near the church I went to growing up in LA. I suddenly realized that I could fly. I don't think I was lucid, yet some of my actions were similar to things I do while lucid. I flew slowly straight up in the air. I started to have trouble getting very high. I knew my trick for flying was to not push myself higher, but to make the scenery move around me. So I focused on the scenery getting lower and lower around me, and I saw that I was getting quite high. But then I found myself under some power lines. I've heard that this is a problem for some lucid dreamers, but I've only had this happen once before. I realized that I was very close to the energized lines. I could hear a buzz and feel my hair start to stand up on my head and arms.

[This was also inspired because I had looked up my old neighborhood on Google maps before bed.]

Dream 3:

I don't remember how this dream started but I found myself in a large room. I had no pants on. I think I was doing laundry. But then these guys started coming into the room to play video games. I think Kasey, Daniel, and David were there. I tried to get my pants on quickly before they noticed. I should have gotten lucid on this one.

Dream 4:

I was in a Japanese store buying what was called "noodles" but it looked more like a crumbly cake. The Japanese man who ran the store asked if I were traveling. I said, No, I was local.

Dream 5:

I went in this large kitchen. I was barefooted. I noticed something on the ground right in front of the fridge. As I looked closer I saw that someone had stepped on a tarantula. Its body had been squished, but it was still alive and trying to walk and pull it's mangled body with it. it was a horrible sight. There was a huge amount of white paste-like guts coming out the back of the spider. I wanted to kill it and put it out of its misery, but I had no shoes on and couldn't step on it. But I didn't know if I could have anyway.

[This was inspired by an incident that happened earlier that day where I found a big black widow and tried to kill it with a shovel. I only hit it's body the first time and had to give it a second whack. Hate when that happens.]

Dream 6:

I was trying to sleep. I realized that my bed was in a crowded mall or airport. I was in a smaller room that was just off the main area, but the head of my bed was right were the opening of the room connected. It gave me a weird feeling to have all these strangers walking within a few feet of my head. I thought of trying to move my bed further into the room so I wouldn't be as close. But then I started hearing what I thought was hypnagogic audio hallucinations. I could hear a man's voice clearly talking in my head. I remembered the times that I had been able to write down some of those weird things that were said in hallucinations in the past. I wanted to start writing down what I was hearing. I carefully found a pencil and paper without waking myself up completely. I started to write down what the man was still saying in my head. I no longer remember what was being said.

Dream 7:

I was starting a hike with friends. I realized that I wasn't as prepared as I thought. I didn't have on my hiking boots. I had on sandals with a pair of socks. I tried to remember where we were hiking. This could work if we were hiking through water.

Dream 8:

I was sitting with my family. My dad (who passed away many years ago) was there talking to the family. I remember feeling happy about this, but at the time I didn't realize why.

D1 - I was writing a letter in an agreed code to the love of my life. I was communicating in the way we had agreed in a language only we understood. I was working away when somebody started nosing asking me what I was doing. Then there was someone else sending a letter, too her, a normal letter. I got annoyed that they were sending her things and started to question whether I was right or not.

D2 - Some dark dream about large enemies in a dark inky watery world. A struggle for survival, repeated over and over.

D3- At work I am feeling the emotions carried over from the previous two dreams, I am distraught, feeling too many emotions, saddness, anger and hopelessness all overcoming me. A boy is goading me and even though I know I will lose my job I chase after him, meaning to hurt him, I gets some steel prongs and catch up with him on a stairwell. We struggle and I hit him, bubbling over with anger. I hit him again aiming to kill him though at the same time not wanting too. He just looks at me strangely not retaliating.
A teacher is coming and I know they will put me in prison.
I know then that I am dreaming and change the prongs into broken peices of a plastic spade, harmless. They can harm no one any more.

[comment]
I realise the boy of course is me, when I was younger
who I blame for the mess I am in now
although he obviously intended no harm

The dark world is the world I have been living in I think.
just fighting for survival.
I walk out of that dream into a calm place on a seashore, I sit feeling the calm and peace wash over me.

I think I know the first dream too but it is a bit to personal and near the bone right now.

I had a dream that I was going to watch Peter Pan the musical and they needed a Tinkerbell so someone dragged me out of the audience and asked if I would do it. I didn't have a chance to agree before I was thrown into a costume and told to react like her (she didn't have any lines). So the whole play I'm just kinda jumping around like a maniac hoping my wig won't fall off. Weird.

Preface:

I have been completely pre-occupied with flooding in my area. It rained for about 3 days straight- Sunday, Monday and Tuesday. Most of the areas here are flooded. All of the school districts were shut down, many homes and businesses had no power. My office was closed, so I have been working from home all week. Yesterday we lost power for a short time, but other than that things have been okay on my end. I have been very exhausted and unable to sleep. Last night I was finally able to sleep at a decent time. I didn't recall much, but this is a lot for me as I have not been able to recall anything in days.

DR 1
I dreamt I was in my cubicle, seated at a chair. I was trying to go to sleep, but I kept being interrupted by random things going on at work.
There was a lady in the cubicle in front of me. I knew her; she used to work with me last year. She was dressed up very nicely and had on bright red lipstick.

DR 2
I was a third party, and I was watching a lady. She kept lying to people about things. She had a apparently lied to this guy about something serious...killing someone? Her friend went to a hotel room and covered it up for her. He even made it look like someone had blown the elevator doors open. At the end of the dream, she is sitting at a picnic table with her friend, and she is telling another lie to someone else. It looked like that was going to go on forever.

DR 3
I was making a miniature Christmas tree to match the big one that was already set up. I did this while sitting right next to a huge 7 foot tree. I was making mine a personalized version, because it had photographs on it. There were a lot of icicles everywhere. I was happy doing this, very content.

DR 4
I received a phone call from a man with a thick Southern accent. I didn't like what he was saying- he insulted me. I told him I didn't want to talk to him anymore. I received a second phone call. This was from a lady. She started saying that she knew the guy I just talked to. So, I told her he was creepy and to be careful- I said a bunch of things warning her about him. All of a sudden the guy was on the phone saying "haha it was me all along- I changed my voice". I freaked out and told him to leave me alone and stop calling my phone. I was very mad and upset.

Nothing last night.

Woke up this morning at 7 remembering:

I'm in a "school/university situation". The different buildings are in a hilly landscape near sea, it must be summer because the grass is dry and yellow. We are staying in a bungalow with a group of students. One of the walls is almost entirely made of glass, with big sliding doors. It's very windy outside, more than windy, it's a storm. I say to my boyfriend (I'm younger in my dream, he's now my husband) that I'm afraid that the parasol and the sign are going to be blown away. He says "don't worry, it's not that bad". But I see the sign disappeared already and now the giant parasol is going up in the air. I see animals are loose outside, white and brown ones and I ask my boyfriend if they are our calves. He says "No, they're from down there" and he points his finger to show me.
In the same dream I'm in one of the school/university buildings. I have to get back to the classroom but (of course, I think that happens all the time) I can't seem to find my way back. I walk with a girl I know, when she enters a classroom I want to follow her, but don't recognize the faces of the other students. Not the right place. I continue looking, on different floors, until I finally it. I'm too late, most of the others have already left. I can see that the teacher (my secondary school's maths teacher) has handed out a large book and two big sheets about economy. I wonder how I can get them as well, but I can't even find my bag and my computer. I ask my boyfriend if he knows where they are. He's impatient, wants to leave, to go out, have fun and get drunk. I'm upset, because I'm tired of looking for the classroom and my stuff and instead of comforting me, he only wants to go out and drink. He shows me where to find my things anyway. They're hidden behind a big desk chair.

After writing this I still felt sleepy so I tried a WBTB. I slept again, quite long, woke up with a headache and no dream.

Lots and lots of little fragments this morning, going from my memory before I can write them down.

1) I was going to be killed by lethal injection. I had asked another doctor to do it. I was in a room waiting for it to happen, all sorts of strange thoughts were going through my head - I was imagining what I would be thinking at the moment it took effect, and what he would put on my death certificate. A lot more happened in this dream (or was it part of another dream?). I was in a deserted public school building, I looked into a room and saw that it was an old dormitory and felt sorry for the children that must have lived there.

2) I parked a vehicle in an underground garage, got out and walked up some steps to ground level. I had to meet someone.

20/4/16
Dream 1: I was catching the bus home when the stop before the one I would get off at a woman and her young kid got off. As they went off I told them that they could use these coupons to get free drinks from the bus driver. The tried that however the bus driver said the coupons actually meant that if they bought one drink they would get another for free. The two people didn't want to buy one, so they hopped off anyway. I felt a bit guilty about this, and tried to get off at my stop however the bus didn't stop at my stop. I got off afterwards and caught the bus back the other direction to get to my stop, however it happened again and I had to catch a bus 4 times to get off at my stop. Once I finally got off then I met an old friend.

Dream 2: I was playing Minecraft on a server. A few people were showing off their different medieval builds, however after I had seen a few of them I realised they weren't that good and some of my builds were better than theirs, so I invited them to come look at a town I had made.

Dream 3: There was music playing, I think metal but I'm not sure, however I was competing against my brother in some sort of game.

Dream 4: I was either on a train or sitting around somewhere on a bench with a few other people around my age. They were discussing different universities and the benefits and disadvantages of different ones. I told them about the different specialisations of the different uni's and what marks they would need to get in and stuff.

Dream 5: I was in a lecture rom and the professor was a stuttering old German guy, kind of like Dr. Strangelove. People were laughing at how he spoke until he got a bit angry. Someone asked whether he was a defector from WW2 Germany and he said he was, that he had escaped in 1943 to try and lead a better life.