non-lucid

03/03/2015
Another Outlast dream


This dream was lengthy but i can only recall the last bit of it. I was in a very large building that looked like a mansion but was set up most likely as an asylum. Where i started i had one of the crazy people chasing me already. One of them was an actual character from outlast named Chris Walker. For those wanting a description he is a very big rather muscular ex-military police patient at an asylum(Mount Massive Asylum). He wears chains wrapped around his ankles, wrists and waists. He has military boots, camo pants and no shirt. His face has been self mutilated to where his nose is basically non existent, his lips are gone and can see his teeth showing, and he tore up the skin on his forehead, claiming it helps him see with the 3rd eye. The patients of the asylum, as they are from the actual story, are forced into dream therapy and have lucid dreaming tasks as tests for them, as well exposed to a series of images on a loop for hours that makes them very violent. He has a lot of blood around the chained areas that are not his own. So you get the idea.

Walker is only trying to kill me, nothing else. I started the recall in a open, empty room with nothing to hide in so i decided to make a run to cover. The building interior had only natural light and a lot of open ceilings and walls to let light in. The walls were a tan color. It was late afternoon and the sun would be down soon. When i decided to find a new hiding spot i could hear Walker talking to himself about finding me. I ran down a short wide hallway into a room with a few lockers here and there and nothing much else in the room. It was a dead end! there was no other rooms to go in, just a small balcony. I ran to the small balcony with a single locker in the center of it and decided to hide there. I could see before entering the locker we were in a jungle area, lots of lush green plants surrounded the building. Walker enters the room and i watch him through slits on the locker. He walks past every locker in the room except Sure enough Walker didn't check any other locker except the one i was hiding In! He opened it and grabbed me out of the locker, stared at me face to face as he held me a few inches off the ground, and threw me a few feet across the room and proceeded to walk over to me. I had to run quick or he would get me and that would be it for me. But that is when the dream faded. Throughout the dream i never really felt much or any fear.

With mother and younger sister we were taking our stuff, and get inside a bus. It was sunny afternoon. We were driving through a city. On the way I saw a strange bus, that was moving on the road sideways to how it should drive. I saw some persons through a window. Chubby, brunette man with glasses wearing, grey sports clothes and young woman with brown hair, wearing black jacket. I don't know why, but they received my biggest attention. We drove to the hotel. We took our luggage, and gave it to the service. I then went to the toilet, and entered a cabin. It had two doors, and a huge mirror. I couldn't see my reflexion in it. I thought And it would be best if they won't disturb me. I hear someone going inside the room. I went out to the corridor, and saw that everyone was bashing the door to living room. I don't even asked why, but I came to my younger sister and asked where my stuff was placed. Next I go to my room.

Despite heavy effort in MILD and earlier bedtimes, I have had a very foul last couple of days.

I've decided to start tracking my bedtime with each DJ entry to see what bedtimes seem to work the best for lucid dreaming.

Sun-Mon: Bedtime 9:40

I remember some dream about replacing superman, in every sense of the word. I had all of his powers, all of his responsibilities, etc.

I remember I had to wear his costume. It wasn't as tight fitting as it was to him, since I'm smaller and not totally buff. The costume looked more like the one from the old Superman movies with the more vibrant colors and less texture.

I think I ended up tripping over the cape at one point.

I got tricked into going into this hotel room/apartment where there was Kryptonite or something that made me lose my powers. But the Kryptonite was somehow dissolved in to the air, and I had to try and hold my breath. There was this bad guy in there who was a big black floating orb with one eye who was attacking me.

I lost consciousness in the dream.

Mon-Tues: Bedtime: 10:50

I had a couple of dreamlets last night, but they were really messed up. I don't feel comfortable sharing them. Skip.

There was something that I was comfortable sharing. Something to do with Attack on Titan. I remembered it when I woke up, but have since forgotten what it was about.

Interpretations: The Superman probably means something about having big shoes to fill or being poisoned by something. I don't make any immediate connections to things in my waking life though.

If my recall were to shape up, I'd have more to work with.

I was on an adventure. I was traveling on a canoe over icy waters. I was being chased by... something. I entered a cave ahead, and there were two allies. One was an old man and the other was girl. From afar, I heard the wolves howling. I also saw the outline of their handler, a guy with a beard and coat (like a hunter).

I have to leave the area so that they'll chase me instead of my allies inside the cave. I swung a rope out of the cave and up (coz fuck gravity and physics) and over the cliff outside. I started to climb up and one of the two greywolves (specific) jumped up and bit/clawed me. I felt the pain on my butt (IRL, upper body to neck hurt like hell, but not butt and below) as it did.

I was able to climb over the cliff. I was above and I tried to save/filter what little water I have left/found. I was debating with myself what was best: using the saucer or using another saucer. Somehow, I felt like I was just wasting the water.

It felt like I did this adventure before in the same dream and it was just reset, and I somehow knew I should fly down into a cave (a different one?) to complete the quest. I flew down and entered a cave, and inside it was being... bulldozed? There were huge mobile machines that were turning dirt over along with huge, round, rusty coins with a hole (square?) in the center. A huge old man (huge in a cartoonish way with cartoonish proportion) wearing a... lab coat? Anyway, he went out from the inner part of the cave and waved and closed the entrance like a mouth, so whatever was outside wouldn't be able to get in.

I was led (forcefully?) into the inside part, supposedly like a prisoner/captive. I arrived inside and saw some allies making themselves at home although the looked like a military area with its similar beds and similar lockers. My female ally was dark-skinned and tall, with her ponytail braided. She looked like a Latina Lara Croft. There was also a guy, light-skinned, jock-like. I couldn't remember much of him.

I was in a mall, grocery store or mall. Red color theme, like National Bookstore. I was buying some stuff. I saw Ivan with a girl outside, and I was expecting to meet him by the entrance, but they weren't there. I thought of SM (mall) and passing by that area. (deja vu about another dream)

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Notes:

- Fell asleep at around 5:30 p.m.
- Woke up almost 8 p.m., no alarm
- Upper-body-to-neck pain, none from the hip below, from parkour training
- Was watching Cosmos (Neil DeGrasse Tyson)

I have GOT to stop going to bed late. This time around 2am (11pm is my target, rarely make it). Going to bed late almost always results in terrible dreaming…. this is the achilles heel of my practice.

rescued from the horrors of a no-recall night (is there anything worse?) in late morning:

+(f) ex-GF SB's having problems with her thesis math

+(f) walking backwards, firing an automatic machine gun over the shoulder

+ observing a knife-throwing robot practicing/learning; plan for the attack with friends, I sneak up on the munitions store in full fatigues in between cars, fight with enemy, asked to help on other side of building

I'm in a garage-like room. A small robot is practicing knife throwing against a target from a short distance away. It is hitting the target reliably. Then it switches up throwing styles to a simple jab forwards (no spin of the knife), misses a few times, then stats hitting reliably. Then it tries underhanded throwing and is quite poor, mostly missing. I think that this small robot holding a large sharp knife is very dangerous and I don't want to walk close to it for fear of it slicing my calves deeply.

Standing outside talking with team, I suggest taking the munitions room, but they're concerned about leading the enemies to it and losing control of it.

I'm making my way to the munitions room, I'm in full military gear, I'm crouching down and quickly moving between aisles of parked cars. One car is full of people looking at me. I move past the cars and onto a sidewalk with a low wall, in back of me I see an enemy, I try crouching down low behind the wall and he walks past but he then seems me and we fight.

I initially fire a pistol but the rounds are very loose and I have to catch them in my hands to prevent them from falling out of the pistol to the ground. I fire (at his temple at point blank range?) but he's not hurt. Switching to a knife I swipe him solidly across the throat but he has only a small scratch there, again, and similar result, barely a scratch when he should be bleeding out. I think that if I plunge the tip of the blade into his jugular that surely will do it but I'm getting really squeamish at this point and don't want to do it. Someone says use a bow?

(See a hairdresser's salon next to me?) I'm standing near the munitions room. There's some man making a twisting gesture (like an "indian burn") with a pipe in his hands, he wants me to come to the other side of the building and help him. I'm suspicious that it's a trap.

I move farther away to an exit, I need to put on shoes, there are only small sneakers here that are full of sand, I empty out the sand. Some kids come up behind me?

+ young people (is my son cheating on his GF?) screwing in next room, they're my son's friends visiting, chat a bit downstairs with them.

FA: I awake in bed in my childhood home bedroom to the sound of someone grunting/screaming in the next room. I'm concerned, I get up and go out to the hallway and open the door of my sister's bedroom. On the far wall are I see a young woman sitting on top of somebody (presumably a young man) on a chair with a blanket draped around them, I can only see her shoulders and head. I think for a minute she's my niece. Then I think the boy may be my son and he's cheating on his GF because I don't know the girl.

I go down the stairs and the young man who just got laid has a huge ear-to-ear grin on his face and is making fist-pumping victory gestures. I see the girl clearly now and I do not know her, I think she's from my son's class at University. Sitting around in a group in the living room talking with the girls, talking about things. (The subject changes to my penis? I assure the girls that yes, it works quite well…?)

+ fishing [rare!], almost topple of out boat as I get in, feel and see large fish in water, then see HUGE (15-20 foot) catfish lazily swimming on top of the water

(I almost never have dreams of being in or around water despite swimming regularly in waking life). (I've also barely ever gone fishing in my life so this is weird).

I'm shoving off from the shore with my face to the shore in a small row boat. I'm trying to sit down without capsizing, as I sit down the boat lists dangerously far to the right (starboard!) and I fear I'll topple into the water for a second, but the boat rights itself and I get settled and start rowing. The boat is quite small and the water is very green and opaque. Did I bring the tackle box? After rowing a short while I feel something touch my left hand in the water, and I look down and now the water is very clear and transparent, and I see that a large (trout?) has just swum by me, it has an odd, disfigured tail like a stump of bamboo, I think of going after it to catch it and follow it. Then I see a *huge* catfish (15-20 feet long) floating calmly on top of the water. Would would I do if I hooked it, could I call for help to catch it? Would I be able to eat it? As I approach it senses me and it swims away.

I was at my mum's friend's house. Her daughter had the same age as me. It was night, and we were watching TV. I told her that I wanted to become lucid tonight, and the better way was to have a nightmare. She disagree with me and said that nightmare doesn't make you lucid. Now she was a bit of confuse. So I took her white laptop which was on the table, and search some website to show that nightmare can make you have LD. .....

I'm eating a nice meal with my spiritual guide and a couple other people at our table. We're content, and enjoying what is before us when suddenly we look over and see the Dalai Lama at the very next table with some of the high ranking Tibetan leadership around him. The Dalai Lama makes a scary face at me, and then they take our picture with me looking all scared. I'm a little embarrassed, and regain my composure. But they didn't want a nice picture. The Dalai Lama laughs and turns back to his table. For some reason, I don't think he likes me. My spiritual guide looks at me and I know that it doesn't matter if anyone likes me or not, no matter who they are.

After messing around with magnets, and having a mixed drink, I'm driving down the street with my step brother. There's no one on the road, and we're cruising along at around 40 mph. We both spot something coming right at us up ahead in the road. It's moving fast. I slow down in case it hits us. Bigger than our car, it is a massive wolf. The head of which is a good 5 ft long, and really really big. He bares his fangs at us, and turns his head as he runs past us along the road in the opposite lane.

Feeling very vulnerable, even in the car, the road gets too snowy to drive on, so I have to get out and walk if I want to make it home. It also gets really steep. Apparently, I'm crossing the continental divide over the Rocky Mountains to get to some town in Colorado. But man is this steep, and with snow up to my chest, it's really hard to push through it. I see a few more of these beastly wolves all around me, just off the side of the road, watching me slowly make my way up the road. I get the feeling that they are guiding me, and probably won't eat me. Just probably though, so I keep my eyes on them. Luckily, I have a towel with me, so I use it to lay on, pushing the snow down to make it easier to wade through.

Since this might take me a while, I put on my hat and mittens that were in my pockets this whole time. The wolves watch me to do. I nearly lose sight of the road with so much snow, but see a massive wolf laying down in the snow ahead of me, so I walk toward it. Or to my death, but it's not like I can out run them anyway. To my left I see a few snow mobiles and four wheelers abandoned in the snow, just lightly dusted with fresh snowfall, but still with the keys in the ignition. Several of them are still running.

I think about stealing one, but decide against it. I bet whoever owns them would be pissed to come back and find it gone. So I walk past them. The road disappears, and I am looking over a 300 ft cliff. But in actuality, I'm just standing on some snow that is packed into the branches of a huge tree with snowmobiles stuck in it. Before I get the chance to even think about how this situation might have happened, unusual as it is, I feel the snow start to give way. I run toward the tree and grab onto the trunk as the snow and machines fall to the ground far below. I hear the tree start to crack apart too, so I grab a falling branch and swing down on it to the midway point of the tree. I feel incredibly lucky to have survived that, and now bear hug the trunk to slow my decent as I slide straight down the icy tree.

Landing hard in the snow, the tree starts to tip over toward me. WTF! I run super fast and dodge it while also noticing some people on the opposite side. I decide to see if they need any help, but I'm going really fast the opposite direction, so I drag my feet stopping like a hockey player, just with a 40 ft slide. Just in time though. As I stop, I notice a fence around the whole area where the tree fell, on the outside of which are a lot of those massive wolves. Just a whole lot more menacing and vicious looking than before. Growling, barking, and drooling, they give me the deathliest stares I've ever gotten from an animal. I bet if I had crossed that fence I would've been killed. Luckily there is a small town here that has some sort of magical wolf boundary or truce. Seems like a small town from Alaska.

Me and my buddy Erich were at his "house" (his house looked like nothing of his house in real life) his house consisted of a small living room, one bedroom, a kitchen and a big garage. The front door led to the living room which had only a tv and couch. The living room led to the kitchen and the living room was right next to the bedroom. Adjacent to the 2 doorways was the back door which led to an open field with a forest outline and a lake/beach. I remember me and my friend out on the beach/lake and me swimming. He told be about how his mom has slept with a lot of guys and how his dad hates it. Shortly after walking back in his mom took me out side to the lake/beach that i just came from and told me a story about how there is some sort of storm going on in the lake and that it will fight back against the storm and some other random lore about lake creatures needing assistance against the storm. This could of been a great dream about the lore of the lake but instead she lead me back inside and i hung out with my friend again. Erich was watching tv on the couch but i was close to the front door and i could hear his mom in the bedroom moaning so i some how saw through the wall and watched her (some super power i guess?) I then proceeded to get up and go into her room and we were having sex. Shortly after we finished the dad came home and I hurried to find my pants but i couldnt so i stood by the back door with out any pants or underwear just acting all cool like it was the norm. They didnt know intill i walked out the garage door with a pair of shorts and i was then chased around some small rural town. After awhile i got ontop of this guys house and the dad followed up the house, so i jumped off the roof and he looked at me and said "HEY, I SWEAR TO-" before tumbling down a chimney. I walked to the house next door and the guy walked outside wondering what the hell is going on. I said "Some adult is trying to assault me, could you get me a ride home?" He replied with a yes but kept talking to the mom that had followed her raging husband. I told him that we needed to go now so he finally stopped talking and we headed into his garage. When i walk to the back of the garage, the dad breaks through the corner of the roof (the garage was made out of really bad shanty like metal) and started yelling at me. The mom finally told me to just straight up talk to him so i faced my fear and went up to him. He started a swing and then stopped then started laughing. We shook hands then i proceed to say "Dude look im sorry, but you and i both know, your wife is amazing." in which he smiled and we all walked down a dirt road to the end of the dream.

1 Mar Lucid
I don’t really remember what I was doing before I went lucid but I remember being very busy and realizing that I should do an RC. I looked at my fingers and had more than I should. I was in a mall of some place inside and I immediately thought of the task to go into a house and see what was going on. I went out of the place I was in and tried to picture houses near. In an immediate left there was just more mall and then I took another left and saw the houses across the street. I was pretty excited and noticed the wind was blowing and it was very dark outside. I was hurrying across the street. There were news papers in the street and the houses looked like they were new, I thought maybe no one lived there and they were empty, I woke before I got to the houses.

2 Mar Lucid
I took valerian and melatonin along with my regular 5htp and ginko last night and had a couple of lucids about 2 hours before my alarm went off. The first one I really don’t remember too much detail about except for that I was in some houses doing something of importance and did an RC and became lucid. I started looking for a different house but woke up pretty quick. When I woke from this I think I DEILDed and was in a house with some girls and went lucid almost right away, I pulled the pants off of a girl that was in a house I was in and then thought of tasks before I got too off topic. I left the house I was in and looked for another house. It was night and in my mind it was really late like everyone should be sleeping late. I found a little neighborhood with some smaller houses very close to where I was, I was reminding myself to remain calm. I went into the first one I could get to and as I was entering I was trying to think of something weird that the people inside might be doing. Along with that there was a worry that no one would be in the house. I went into the first bedroom to find no one, then the second bedroom to find no one, at this point I was a little erratic and panicky, in the last bedroom I was really focusing on there being someone in bed. I entered the last room and there were people in the bed. I went up to the beds and it was a small figure, a kid and the kids was made of like a grey and black marble. I am not sure if the kids were real or slept through me doing this but I picked them both up and they remained in their sleeping poses, I even made some weird shrill noise when I picked them up to try to startle them awake.

-I was inside my house living room and it was dark. Colorful rings were set up all around and a evil, small female cartoon came to cause mischief. I tried to defeat her but ended up hitting my parakeets out of anger instead.

-I was at a beach singing a song for someone but stopped for some reason. Than i left and ended up at a park i think. As i was walking i began to notice that i felt taller and i was also naked. I began to question how i got naked as i looked for clothes.I bumped into a group of people who were supposedly my friends and asked a guy if he could please do the thing for me. I was going to construct a world with my mind for a game. The guy said no at first which disappointed me.

I made a sad face than started splitting the floor stairs/tiles with my mind by myself. Than the guy sighed and said fine. That he would help me build a porn game. (Weird...I don't watch or like anything that has to deal with porn.)I was happy about him helping me and than the dream shifted and i was at a McDonald restaurant wondering if i should really buy McDonald or go to burger king.As I was looking around i heard a lady on the phone tell another person to "please hold" and something about transferring the call.

Than...i noticed two girls next to me trying to sneak out of their job early.One of the girls mentioned how she really wanted to quit.After that the dream shifted again and now the girl was talking about how she wanted to go to the same college as her boyfriend.It started to turn out like one of those old Disney shows.

Eye

I appeared on a bed next to my mom. She asked me if i could get her some iced tea. I went to get it but the iced tea did not want to come out of the container. So i tried the water next but that didn't even work. I went back to tell my mom but warped to the bed quickly somehow.I was happy that i was able to realize i was in a dream now and began to call eye into the dream. My mom annoyed me as she tried to stretch her arm over me so i pushed her back than began to call eye again. I felt Eye appear and saw something that seemed to be him.

I heard a faint growling sound and felt that it was him being mischievous. I began to call for him again and than he made himself known. Although he looked like someone i don't recognize." Are you going to look like this from now on?" I asked. He didn't respond. I looked around than noticed we were inside a space ship now.Below me was a clear flooring where you could view outer space.I than decided to ask Eye a interesting question."What do you think God's purpose for you is?"(I was asking him in a way to see if the dream could tell me the purpose of dreaming) He disappeared after i asked him that though.

Disappointed, I turned to look for him.Than noticed a blond boy in the room with me now.A green arrow began to appear on the ground and point at the blond boy. The boy tried to get away from it but it just followed him. "Found you!" I said trying to grab him but than i began to slowly lose lucidity.Two little girls appeared and tried to catch the blond boy for me but i woke up before we could.

NA

Black: Non-dream
Blue: Non-lucid
Red: Lucid

Dream
So I absolutely refuse to right this up in detail here, instead I've just put it into my dream journal book. I'll right up subnotes here instead

-Bath (from my home)
-2 girls (a blonde and Lisa Ann)
-sexy time
-Conversed quite a lot with them
-Lisa had to leave for a few days at the end

Note: Only recalled this 1 dream, probably related to having such a bad sleep the night before. Also did a WBTB and looked at my hands for 5 minutes, then did a SSILD before going to sleep... Was extremely hard to focus on the SSILD yet again, and there was no success in lucidity (although the dream above was vivid and felt like I was there and I remember the details quite well).

I recall only a short moment. It was sunny afternoon. I was in school. It was on break, just before the polish lesson. I was asking a girl if she brought a paper that our teacher requested. She told me that she forgot. I asked her about a scenario for a movie, and she told me that she has forgotten about it too. I felt a little disappointed, but I wasn't surprised by this, as if I knew that it would happen.

March 1, 2015

I was in some area looking for a jeep to ride. I ended up in a place (reminiscent of Bacolod) where jeepneys/cars were stacked one over the other, like a junkyard. It's like it was used for blocking something out. It was hard to get a jeep. There was a line for one. Something about monopoly on jeepneys. It was daytime.

Nighttime. I was in some area with trees and buildings (reminiscent of USLS Bacolod at night near the football field and behind the library). I was looking for something. I was about to go up a set of stairs when I saw a girl with a ball of light. I think it was my sister. Some ideas about light causing fire and that the two are separate but related powers.

Bridge, Batman, T-rex.

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Notes:

- I was so busy when I had this dream that I wasn't able to write it down immediately, just some keywords.

(Mar. 3, 2014)

- I just realized that the sphere shape and the yellow color represents the element air (in different cultures) and fire, well, fire. I used to focus on a blue circle/sphere as a representation of air (J. Mumford) although yellow is the more well-known color for air.
- Just realized this after dreaming of water and earth in another dream.