I am needing to bring my recall back up, so I used a voice recorder to help me remember my dreams last night. In some parts I know it is a dream, but do not have that moment when I would seize true lucidity, even though I had intended to. So many missed chances! -I am in a night club and go into the bathroom but the light does not work. I find the urinal but am concerned this is sort of a seedy place and I need to be careful (thought- just a dream don't worry: did not pull full consciousness, missed chance). I go outside and it is night time. I do not see my car where I think it should be. I see a blue Challenger (mine is red) and people are near it. A couple members of Motley Crew are over there, I some how know (missed chance). I do find my car but it is not parked in a marked stall; it is in the middle of a lane (missed chance). I notice I feel very drunk! I stop and evaluate my perceptions. I do not feel normal at all! (missed chance) I wonder that I do not remember drinking and why did I get trashed if I have to drive? (missed chance). Suddenly cut away view of many cocktails on a tray and it represents earlier in the night (missed chance). I consider sleeping in my car, but do not want to be arrested. maybe i could pull it around to the back of the building. cut away and view of back side of building (missed chance). No I should not get in the car at all because I am barely functioning and having trouble focusing (missed again). I wonder if there is a restaurant i could go eat in and wait to sober up? I get out my phone but nothing makes sense and the internet is all screwy (missed). Oh hey, there is a restaurant right there and I can see a waitress through the window (was not there a moment ago= missed). Find out it is not a walk in place but a drive through (was not a moment ago= miss). Oh hey, a Mexican walk up place next door (suddenly? miss). I can not figure out the big overhead menu, I seem so messed up I can not read (miss). Maybe it is in Spanish since I am in Nampa a town 16 miles from my home of Boise (why am I at a bar in another town? miss). Maybe I could drive home drunk? It is a straight shot down the freeway. Cut away to view of route home (miss). In bed with red head I would never be in bed with (miss) and I am eating a giant cucumber (miss) but she wants me to put it away. I say I am going to eat it real quick and crawl to hang over side of bed. I peel it with my teeth and it is all drippy. Some how this morphs into me chewing on a very hair thick rat tail like thing. Thought- don't mess up my dream, imagine it is say her arm, seems more like a tail but pretend and move close to the girl, yes an arm, there it is (failed to pull full awareness so I could go on a lucid adventure-miss). Now we are walking through airport doors. We have been in Denmark (why across the world with no back story?(miss) For some reason we had needed to get married to avoid legal troubles but not wanted it annulled. -out drinking with my sister and the bar is on other side of overpass. We will need to run along the freeway under the overpass (really?-miss)When it comes my turn to go I get down and see I will be with in inches of cars if they come, and I can see headlights. Better hurry. I run but the sheet I am all wrapped up in might trip me (sheet?-miss) I get through and there is a fenced off area blocking my way back up. I worry a police might see me so I crowd into a corner and put the sheet over me like camouflage. I can tell a wild cat is rushing me and jumps onto the sheet all angry making growling noises. I make grunting noise to scare him and flip the sheet at him. I actually wake up physically making snorting noises. -Golf scene I need to chip onto the green out of rough, wife is near by but others are too. We have to wait our turn. As my turn is coming I am lost try to find my club. I have been holding a clownishly large driver, then I find one but the head is off the shaft. I want any chipper at this point but find a head like a meat tenderizing mallet (miss). During this time others have moved ahead of me. One person on their swing through out a weird giant hot wheels track ahead of them and then threw their ball that way.(final miss) On the bright side a couple lucid moments in there and not bad recall
non-dream dream semi-lucid lucid FA / AP I have a neighboring farm and I go knock on my neighbor's door to ask if he wants to sell me some chickens or chicks as I want to start my own chicken coop. But he says he won't sell any of his chickens. Gives me the number of the guy whom he buys from. His wife doesn't know what's going on when she arrives and looks jealous, thinks maybe he gave me his phone number. So I am amused and decide to stay around and talk to them more. Meet another girl who is staying there in a caravan or something, and she has a fish in an aquarium she wants to show me. I go into her place and at first it looks like an aquarium itself, then as we talk and she shows me her strange things, it turns into a very modern house, interactive. The walls and floor are interactive screens and our physical position is interpreted as a mouse click when there are options. Good for exercise but a really stupid concept, because some options are across the room or even near the ceiling. On the airport to embark and I meet 3 dudes who are clearly morons and just came from some riots like those at the US capitol. They think I am one of them so they are bragging about their deeds and future plans to attack other places. I am recording everything in my cellphone. At some parade or demo with environmentalists I know. I get a bit lost, get into side alleys. I get scared when I see in the dark what seems like a wild animal coming at me, but as it approaches, I see it is some little girl with beautiful curly hair. She looks frightened and exhausted and I embrace her and give her some solace. She says she comes from the mountains and bad men attacked her village. Bad men from Exxon or Shell, the ones we are demonstrating against. She says they had to flee. I ask for her mom and she says with bitterness that her mom run away in another direction and didn't care for her, so she run down the mountain to the town. I ask for uncles, brothers, grandparents. She cries saying there is no one else. I am heartbroken and I just wanna take her home with me. But I also think on the back of my mind that this child could be faking for some reason, so I am cautious.
Date: 02/02/2021 Bedtime: 3.30am Awakening: 6.50am Return to bed: 7.10am Awakening: Recall: reversed *Ozzy Osbourne is a lone hero seeking to exact revenge upon the forces of evil that, through witchcraft and black magic, have victimised people with rape, torture and murder. The demonic dark shadow is on the prowl and its crimes are literally sketchy—ranging from cartoon images to fully-fledged film-like scenes. A song that appears to be sung by David Bowie plays as Ozzy hunts the demon. I wake up a few minutes before 7am to use the loo. *Three people around a table summon a dark demon as tall as a tree constantly whispering the unspeakable. This demon possesses through their feet if they are dirty and touch the floor, cursing them forever. I am one of the three, but I remove my feet from the floor at the last minute as I watch the other two get devoured by supernatural evil. I run away. Date: 03/02/2021 Bedtime: 3.40am Awakening: 8am Return to bed: 8.05am Awakening: 10.30am Recall: sequential *An armed terrorist is plotting to blow up a church run by unpleasant people. I know about this when I befriend him. Eventually, the dream plot turns into the set of a film where we are playing our roles. Drunk Barry is now the armed terrorist ad-libbing off-script which upsets the other actors. He is also shooting characters when he's not supposed to and for some reason the director cannot cut. He shoots me which means I have to pretend to be injured. Then he tries to do it again to kill but I grab the gun as he wields it and make him miss. He gives up on me and sets his attention on other victims playing their roles. Channing Tatum is the next target. *In London which resembles a Dickensian era and streets have French names. I work for a company in an office job with geeky colleagues who resemble the comedians from the Triggernometry podcast. One of them is trying to impress a female co-worker by getting naked and walking past her workspace. We are all laughing at him because she is clearly not interested. We go to a pub and I see a man that looks like porn star Ron Jeremy, wearing an unbuttoned shirt revealing a hairy chest, ordering a beer. Date: 04/02/2021 Bedtime: 1.15am Awakening: 2.30am Return to bed: 2.35am Awakening: 5.30am Return to bed: Awakening: Recall: sequential *Hitmen are after me and try to kill me. I'm a great fighter and manage to murder them and disguise myself in order to evade authorities. I am tracked down to a public swimming pool with a massive slide which I end up using during a fight. Massive muscular men come after me and I continue to fight them. A colossal Mexican man who works as a chef is defeated and I make fun of him afterwards. Suddenly, Zanguief from Street Fighter—who happens to be the strongest man in the world—challenges me. *I'm walking through a desert and I start filming a fast-moving UFO darting across the sky towards the horizon. Suddenly, I notice a peculiar saucer-shaped drone apparently observing me and subsequently bumps into my camera. Looming over the horizon, I notice a huge mothership. I feel like the world has been invaded by aliens and hordes of frightened people are running away from the spaceship. But I notice that they are running from military men on the ground who begin to capture some of them and enslave them—as though they are forming a dictatorship on the go. They come after me, too, and they get pretty close. They look like cartoons that escaped from an arcade game. The situation feels nightmarish and I wake up.
4th February 2021 Fragment: I'm with JC, we're walking together through an alternate version of my town. I remember asking him about his family's cafe or something, I ask if it was located near his house (I visualise it a bit) and I'm generally asking him questions about things I'm sure we've talked about in waking life, when we knew each other. Initially we had been at some kind of school or public building, leaving. We walk through the areas of town, which are much more open than usual, but the buildings seem proportionately expanded as well. We're headed somewhere specific, towards where my home is, but I forget the exact destination. I feel we're walking from the physically lowest part of town. It's day time but I think I remember a sunset at some point. Fragment: (Complicated dream, vague recall.) Something about being in some starships and some kind of ancient device on a planet. A wild grain field of sorts, that's where the device is located. I and four others come to it, and it requires five people in total to activate. It forms a sort of pentagon if it were viewed from above. It's comprised of five adjoining capsules of sorts. We get in them and they are like lifts, taking us down. We are then inside some starship of an ancient design, resembling ancient Mayan stylistically. It's a rectangular stepped pyramid with powerful thrusters, effectively. I remember it breaks through the crust and the thrusters smoke a lot, seemingly struggling a bit too. Fragment (FA): I'm in bed with H or something. It looks like my parents' old room but with a layout more like our bedroom. There's a unit with a seven-segment display across the room, it says 20:16? Eight PM, either way. I tell H that we'd stayed in bed far too long. H seems surprised but doesn't do much to get up? We're both naked, I think. I then remember being in our office room and thinking it's amazing that it was still day time at 20:16, more specifically at this time of year, but I do not question reality. (Recall mixed here.) On the computer, playing BL. Trying to find my way through some portals, with H, so we can get to KH. I end up on a dead-end player-owned location. It looks like a nice location, but I feel annoyed for wasting my time. Notes: - The false awakening was unusual. For one thing, I rarely have false awakenings at all. The dream presented some very obvious dream signs that I did not pick up on at all and I still managed to find myself in amazement. - Recall was overall poor because of having to get up to answer the door somewhat abruptly and then I returned to bed wanting to get up soon, but didn't, falling asleep again.
I had the car dream set at granddads house again last night for the second night in a row. Like the dream I had the night before, it was really physically and emotionally uncomfortable. In the dream last night, mom was also really snippy and controlling. When mom told me to go ahead and get in granddads car and buckle to the front middle seat, as soon as I tried to argue about sitting in the middle and getting in the car before she was ready to go she snapped at me and told me that I could either get in the car and buckle in the middle of the front seat or I would be grounded. When mom finally got in the car and was trying to get it started after my sister and I had to wait for her for what felt like forever, she kept getting in my face and telling me that I needed to calm down. I never even said anything to her before she started telling me to calm down. When she discovered I stepped in dog poop, she screamed at me about not watching where I was stepping and not checking my shoe when I noticed the car stunk. She told me to give her my shoe so she could clean it and for me to stay buckled in my seat. After the battery went dead after she got back in, as I was asking if I could get out she snapped at me again and told me that me and my sister needed to stay in the car. I woke-up from the dream while she was looking for a jump start. Not sure why she was so snippy and controlling in this dream, but it made me fell even more uncomfortable.
I had another car dream last night set at granddads house. This is the first time I have had once since last week, and was the longest I have been without any since the dream started a few weeks ago. The dream last night followed the same pattern as the others I have had recently. The main change I noticed in last nights dreams from the earlier ones was that it was much more uncomfortable riding in the middle than in any of the other ones and it was really bothering me and getting me on edge that my mom and sister were both pressed-up against me and seemed to be repeatedly invading my space while I was stuck between them. While my sister and I were in the car waiting on mom to come out and get in, I could always feel her body pressed up against my right side. She repeatedly would put her head on my shoulder and her face right my mine. When I kept trying to get her to stop talking about granddad and how he was near death, she wrapped her arm around me so I couldn't ignore her and kept getting right in my face. When mom finally got in the car, I had her body pressed-up against my left side and my sister pressed-up against my right and I felt really squished. While she was trying to get the car started, both she and my sister kept invading my space telling me I needed to calm down, which just made me feel more trapped and on edge while I was stuck between them. When mom discovered I had dog poop on my shoe, I first had to deal with her getting in my face and getting after me for stepping in it and not noticing it while my sister was in my other ear talking about how gross it was and how bad it smelled. I had to keep dealing with her invading my space and whining about how bad it stunk while we waited in the car for mom to clean my shoe. When mom got back in the car, and I though she had finally been able to get the car started she leaned in front of me to adjust the mirrors while my sister invaded my space to change the radio to her favorite FM station and then started singing along to the song playing. I felt really uncomfortable having both of them in my personal space. I woke up for them dream right after mom discovered the car had cut off when nothing happened when the put it in gear and pressed down on the accelerator. My sister was leaning into my space while mom was turning the key and nothing was happening. I think this was definitely the most uncomfortable I have felt riding in the middle in any of the dreams I have ever had and really felt that I had no personal space and was squished between my mom and sister.
Long fun adventure. I guess. Woke up part way through and thought I should grab the voice recorder, but decided "no, this stuff is so vivid, I will remember it." Damn it. This is all I got to keep. Playing in the canal on Rose Hill with DC mom and John. The bottom is all soft and spongy. DC of Dom dog is getting tired and swims to me. She needs help staying above water. Blurry stuff. We are at the mall. Ex from 15 years ago is coming up to us. She has a black eye. God I don't want her in my dream. She probably hit herself in the face and is going to make people think I did it. What is the theme I am sensing. We had a kid. No suppress that. Not going to have that stupid theme in my dream. Blurry stuff. Lots of adventure. Well hell! While I love a good long lucid adventure, if I do not build my recall back up it seems like a night out drinking where you half black out. Fun at the time, but you do not get to keep the memories.
#549 - DILD - 10:30PM The beginning is unclear but I am in an area like some sort of odd indoor playground. There are huge cubes stacked up and I am trying to get a tote down to the floor. I am having a hard time so I decide to fly down. I reach out and concentrate and summon some white angle wings. I toss them on my back and feel them as I flap down. It's more of a swimming motion than flying. When I land I realize what I had just done and become lucid. I turn around and see a pretty woman sitting in that distance smiling at me. I return her smile and decide to impress her by doing various acrobatic tricks. I float up onto another large cube and do a back flip then a hand stand but I let myself fall flat on my back for fun and for the feel of it. I stand up and look at her. She is still watching but not reacting. I wanted her to join me. I decide to get close to her. She feels familiar. I get the sudden urge try to kiss her but something odd happens. The dream morphs and I am face first into some sort of clear plastic cylinder. I say yeah, "That's not the same (ass kissing)". I toss the thing aside and lean in again but this time I am face first into some sort of dish will pelleted pet food. I look up at her feeling confused. She laughs and says, "I need got to let you go." That phrase hit me deeply. Now realize something meaningful might be happening here. I say yeah, "Me too." At that moment I feel a shift in my mind pulling me to waking consciousness. It wasn't until after I woke up who the woman was in my dream. If anyone could actually visit me in a shared dream it would be her. This is the second time this has happened that I can recall but, it's been many years since. The first time was a real nightmare right after I broke up her and boy was she pissed. I don't know if she really visits me like this. Of has this kind of dream power over me but it sure feels like it's possible. Hopefully she really did let me go this time. She scares me.
I wanted to become a hero. Went into a phone booth and came out costumed Spider Man with eight large spider legs coming out of my torso.
Jamie In my inner world house. Jamie is Asuka. Or they are merged. Asuka use to merge with other dreamers long ago. I can see the jamie part not looking at me but Asuka is. In the background Asuka has one of her homemade CD's on. She use to record singing CDs. I am singing along with the song playing and I walk by Asuka who's merged with Jamie. I can see Jamie's eyes being vacant like i'm not there. But Asuka is smiling. Harry potter. Been a long time since I've had an HP dream. Years... I am in the basement of hogwarts. A bunch of Bad wizards has the entire basement on lockdown. I'm with some girl in a cafeteria hiding. There is a snake man with the kind of looks of voldermort. But he's one of the good students. He's taken a potion that makes him look like one of the bad guys. I follow him up and down hallways trying not to be seen by the bad wizards. There's bulletins on the wall, there are pictures on them that move. It's one thing to see that on the movies, it's another to see it right in front of you. It's like the pictures are really really alive. We use magic to transform into small creatures, and we have small brooms and fly out of a window to the top of a circular tower. We fly in through a window and Mrs. mcgonagall is there and she is a bit startled to see us. Pretty sure that actress died recently... RIP. Wake up after that.
I'm in the kitchen with mom and my sister. There are two benches next to the table. Me and my sister lie in one each and hold our hands. We are talking about going to another place and that we have a mission. The atmosphere is mysterious as we close our eyes and wait for something to happen. We are teleported into an old store with a very big shop keeper. He offers us a lot of things for free and we take a lot of tools such as shovels and pickaxes. I take two lanterns and am about to walk out. Another man comes to us and warns me about the lantern and that an evil spirit is held within. I inspect the lantern and see a broken window and feel that there is a spirit in it. The shop keeper is raging and running against me. We fight for some time. I'm in a quiz competition with school. Tove is the best and I am worthless. There are some questions about things I have never heard about before. There is some kind of ship on an ocean too.
I enter a dream and walk in a house. I know it's a dream and acknowledge that I am really lucid and fly off. I see Elina and greet her. I keep on flying and see a big coupole house. I fly to the roof and look in through the glass, there is some kind of party where people are dressed up. I think about how to come in and think about how I can just open a hole through the roof. I try to point my finger on the roof and imagine how a hole is created but it does not work. I punch the roof but it has no effect. I try to stick my fingers into the roof and succeed. It's the same feeling when I walk through a wall, you have to constantly push in order to slowly come through. When all my fingers are through I separate them and a hole is created. It's very wide but not tall enough for me to enter. I make it taller by stretching it out with my hands. I fly down and talk with some people. A girl is complaining about her dress but I tell her that it's fine. I slowly fade out of the dream, trying hard to stay. Notes: This is the first time I re-entered a dream. I do not remember when I re-entered but I woke up and just went back to the same dream after some seconds.
31st January 2021 Fragment: I am in the kitchen. It's a day like it has been lately, kind of cloudy, a sort of desaturated natural light. Out of the kitchen's window it's not like how it should be, it's more like there's a driveway and there's a big van parked there but still it doesn't block much of the view or light somehow. There's a similar van parked over at next door's too. I open the cupboard where we keep the glasses? I grab and take out one of the blue ones, put my upper lips over the edge and sort of feel it melt a bit; the glass still feels rigid like glass but as I start biting into the top rim, it's a soft chew and there's something pleasurable about it. I get erotic thoughts somewhat unrelated to the glass itself but related to the sensations and M/M themes. Fragment: I'm with someone, perhaps T? We're riding on the back of a winged creature, flying high in a somewhat mountainous area. There's an MMO feel to things but it feels distinctly real too. I see us in third-person for the most part. Using a long gun-cannon thing, I am shooting at a somewhat generic 50ft reptilian below past some ridges and canyons; he is otherwise engaged in combat with other humans down there, in a semi-flat area. The shots I fire are highly explosive and I aim for vulnerable parts of the head, trying to "break" them, like if this was the game Monster Hunter. As I was about to break a part of the rear of the head, someone else does and I don't get credit it for it, and become annoyed. This happens once more on another part of the creature's head. I then aim for the eye instead and get credit this time, but at this point there's little left of the head apart from the lower jaw. He still lives somehow and is still in combat with the humans. (gap) I'm going through a mine-shaft like tunnel on the side of a ravine, parts of it are enclosed by rock, others are open to the outside. I am trying to go to a place that will let me head down, to an area like where the creature was. Fragment: Something about WoW. I'm in a large city and I have some kind of Honour points I can spend. The place reminds me of a mix of Dalaran, Exodar and Shattrath and it is flying in the sky as Dalaran would be. I come to a central hall of sorts, there are energy bridges and energy surfaces that I can walk on. I approach an NPC and see what PvP equipment I could buy with what little honour I have. Fragment: Something about being in Brazil or some other South American country. There's a distinct feel of advanced technology throughout the dream. High-tech structures and such like, though I don't remember seeing much of it. I am or was at some sort of resort or house away from everything, in a hilly and mountainous area overlooking a large river. I remember little of my own presence in the dream. The dream plot focuses on a serpentine creature, it is red and its scales are small relative to its size. It has been dormant for untold years and it wants to ruin all of the technology that has been brought about. The dream implies that it's not the first time this has happened and that it's part of a recurring cycle. The creature's size is comparable to the mountains in the area. I remember it could communicate telepathically or something. Notes: - The order is not chronological, the first fragment was the last I had this morning. - One of my right hand fingers is particularly sore because of an injury and I was unable to write any initial notes for any of these fragments because of it, bits of recall just remained and came back as I wrote. - The fragment in the kitchen is reminiscent of how I come to certain creative ideas sometimes, often through some physical sensations. - The day in the kitchen was remarkably like what it was like when I actually went in the kitchen for the first time today, though I think it looked less messy in the dream, more normal. - The red end-bringing serpent and the cycle seem to be a somewhat obvious but less literal Ourobouran reference.
Usually my dreams about Edynn involve either us becoming friends again or her forcefully and angrily rejecting me. This one wasn't quite as black and white and definitely took on a different character. I was in my old neighborhood where she lives. It started out pretty negative considering she was ridiculing me and doing the same negative stuff she always does in those types of dreams and holiday was there too doing the same, as she was in the previous dream where something similar happened. The difference here is that unlike in the previous dream I didn't react by furiously and uncontrollably attempting to slash Edynn's face off with my fingernails. I had a mental breakdown of a much more depressive nature in this one. A little bit after they both left and I was barely out of the most intense part of the breakdown, I noticed that the scenery surrounding my neighborhood and the end of the street became something completely different than what it actually is in real life. I saw a huge expanse of sprawling hills in a very majestic, fantasy-esque landscape. Upon me noticing this, Edynn came back and her tone went from that of a furious, neglectful former friend to almost maternal. She then proceeded to teach me how to ride a bike, which I don't fully understand as a literal interpretation but my brain immediately connected the dots to the possible meaning of this dream version of her assisting me in letting go or leaving the nest, for lack of a better term.
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Me and Todd were screwing around flying up to the top of walls and running along the top. It was night and the area was sort of like an abandoned warehouse. I decide this should be some sort of underground adventure like Dungeons and Dragons. We find a stair well and go down. It shortly has a gate made of wire mesh and a strong lock. Todd examines the lock and I can see a close up of it despite not being by the lock. he suggests I just use dream powers and say rip it off the wall or phase us through it. I decide that would not be as fun as figuring out what to do. He says he has an idea. We go outside and he takes me around a corner and there is a gas station. He takes me inside and tells the owner he wants to buy one of those lock picking tools you see on TV. We get that and go back outside but never make it back to the gate. i get distracted by some people and end up flying around and land dramatically on a stretch of dirt road by a impoverished area of housing. All of this is definitely happening at night. that is a consistent theme through out.
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