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Multiple false awakenings and paralysis made for one hell of a night. Enjoy the terror I just went through to make it easier, since everything runs together, I bold the spots where I have a false awakening and my commentary when I'm awake will be in italics

I don't really remember the dream leading up to this point, but I remember getting ready for bed. My boyfriend's already asleep on his side, and I've got an unknown person (I knew him in the dream, but I dont know who it was now) sitting on my side, leaving just enough room for me to lay between them and my boyfriend.

Instead of getting in on the side, I decide that it makes sense to crawl into bed from the bottom. I'm halfway up the bed, and I see a small shadowed figure flicker in front of me. I remember saying, "Oh hell no, that's it for me. I'm done," and I wake myself up. I reflect on what a weird dream that was, sitting up in the dark in bed to gather my thoughts. The end unsettled me, so I was trying to calm down.

I'm just beginning to lay down when I feel the bed shift from behind me (my back is to the side of the bed, I'm facing my boyfriend). I immediately think cat just as a hand grabs my upper shoulder. I let out a squeak of alarm and jolt awake. And of course, I've got some sleep paralysis going. I rarely ever experience this, so it's making me panic. I'm trying not to. I'm struggling to keep my eyes open, and I want to move to keep myself awake, but I can't. I try to call out to my boyfriend but I can't talk.

I get this slow, cold dread that trickles through me because I'm realizing there's a good chance I'm not actually awake again. I have no way to confirm if I am or not. I want to force myself to stay away but I just can't. I feel the bed moving again, like someone crawling from the end of the bed up to me, and I throw myself into panic overdrive.

I jerk awake and though this time I'm sure I'm awake, I still can't move. I can barely keep myself awake but at this pint I know if I fall asleep I'm right back where I left off and I don't want that. I slowly, slowly come out of the paralysis and I roll over. I get up and check the light in the bathroom (my reality check is to make sure lights stay on when I turn them on. It's always my tip off, more to let me know if I'm in a false awakening over lucidity). It works, thank god. I'm exhausted but terrified to sleep.

I finally make my way back to the room. I lay down, and toss and turn for a good ten or fifteen minutes. I shut my eyes and try to drift off a few times but keep rolling over. I lay on my stomach and hide my face in my pillow and really do my best to sleep.

Again, I roll over. Damnit, I thought I was asleep, and I'm still just lying here. I've had it. I don't feel very good, and I'm going crazy just laying here. I untangle myself from my blankets, and pet my cat for a few moments, since he's lying on the end of my bed. As I put my feet over the edge to stand up I turn on my bedside light. It flickers and turns off and I have half a second to panic and think "oh no, oh my god I'm asleep" when hands grab my ankle and I scream, jolting myself awake and also waking my boyfriend.

He's not mad, he understands I'm terrified at this point. He motions me to come over, and I do. I scramble back and lay down, my back to him. He wraps his arms over me and hugs me tight, reassuringly. The man from my first dream is back, but again I know him, and to me it makes sense that he's there (still no idea who he was). He sees I'm terrified and he lays down, facing me, and hugs me too.

I shut my eyes and try to fall back asleep. The bed trembles like someone's running over the mattress. My eyes snap open and with no warning about 3 or four hands and arms wrap around me. One around my neck, one around my waist, one around my lower legs, and one like, goes up the leg of my shorts and comes out the waistband, and at once they all haul me back to my side of the bed, telling me something along the lines of "you aren't waking up again".

I wake up into paralysis again but the terror is so great I manage to whimper out half my boyfriend's name before it completely takes over. He doesn't wake up (jerk) and I'm stuck laying right where I was when the demons were dragging me. I am terrified, I have no idea if I'm awake or not and no way to tell. I'm trying desperately to keep myself awake and I can't. I want to keep myself awake until the paralysis wears off so I can check the lights, but I keep dozing. At this point I'm not sure if I've already fallen back asleep or if this was just me being paranoid and scared, but I remember dozing and then jerking my eyes open again when I felt my bed begin to shift, like someone was crawling on it. I thought I was awake, because my mind was like, "no this isn't happening. Things like this only happen in your dreams", but now I don't know if I was actually awake or not.

Finally the paralysis wears off, and I'm scrambling up. It's morning and light's coming in from the window. My boyfriend is gone, in his place are my mom and my uncle, and WWE diva Alicia Fox (who is apparently my best friend, even though she's not even one of the diva's I actually like...). I tell my mom, "It's happening again. The false awakenings are getting worse" and she and my uncle share a look.

"The demon's are trying to take you," my mom explains. "If you hadn't woken up when you did, they would have dragged your soul from your body and you wouldn't have been able to wake up."

"What do they want from me?" I ask, following the three of them to the living room. My uncle turns to look at me.

"We don't know. But you'e not falling back asleep. We're sending Andrew (my older cousin) instead. He'll ask them what they want."

This strikes me as really stupid and dangerous, and I shake my head.

"No. I need to be the one to go." Mom and my uncle try to argue with me and I don't let them. "They obviously want me, and they want me alive. If they wanted me dead they would have killed me. And if we send Andrew instead of me, they'll kill him. Let me go."

As we're having an argument over who's going, Alicia goes and hooks herself up to this machine that induces dreaming. Straps with little sensors on them go around her waist, wrists, and ankles, and a cap goes on her head. She's standing in my room (now with no beds, just this contraption) hooked to this thing, and her dream is broadcast on TV monitors.

She confronts the demons. They need me for something (no idea what) and Alicia wants to go in my place. They tell her she isn't good enough and she gives this huge, long speech about how she can handle whatever they throw at her, etc. At one point she rips off the sensor around her waist (that was apparently holding her in place) and throws it down in defiance. This turns into a promo for her for wrestling. There's a crowd of fans watching her, and as she stands up to them the crowd starts chanting "Lisa! Lisa! Lisa!"

Apparently that's for her, and her parents (standing with me watching her) cry with happiness that the crowd loves her. The wrestling show ends and the crowd leaves. I'm walking to my car (because now it's at an arena, not my apartment) and I see two divas I actually do care about. They're playing basketball and their ball gets away from them. I get excited because now I get to hand it to them and meet them, but when I turn, they're already walking away and someone else takes the ball.

The divas meet my eye, and I give them a sad smile. This morphs into me going on a picnic with a whole car full of WWE Divas and the last memory I have is taking off my watch and laughing with two of them as I slowly wake up.

As I said sleep paralysis is really uncommon for me. I can count on one hand the number of times I've experienced it. I dont know if it counts having that paralysis in a false awakening but it was really weird now that I think back on it.

EDIT: As I've been thinking over the dream throughout the day, I remember a few pieces I've left out. We're having really bad wind here right now (category 2 hurricane force winds) and I remember I was really worried about my bird feeder. One of my false awakenings had me waking up and going out to the balcony to check on it. It was broken, and I remember trying to get the broken piece from under our patio furniture when someone/something made me rush back inside and leave it for morning.

I remember at one point as well explaining to my mom, uncle, and Alicia that I knew this was a dream that we were in right now because the lights wouldn't stay on. Alicia asked why that mattered and I gave a lengthy explanation about reality checks and how this was mine, how it worked, and then said, "it isn't gonna work this time though because one, I need some more sleep, and two, we're in the middle of something."

I woke up in my room. It was completely dark all around. I left it and thought that this may be a dream. I made a nose plug RC and it succeeded. I was lucid. I thought "Lights on" and light turned on in most of rooms, however some of them remained dark. I recalled a ToTM basic task about igniting a house. I went to my kitchen and flied into a window, phasing outisde through the glass. It was early morning, still dark. I flied towards neighbor's house, trying to set it on fire mid-air with a gesture, but it didn't worked. I landed on the road and started rubbing my hands while focusing on some potted flowers. They instantly set ablaze. With more rubbing and focusing I set some trees around the house on fire and watched as it spread on the house. Then I moved along the road, trying to fly again but for some reason I couldn't do it. I recalled an advanced task with car lifting. There was another house with a garage. I phased through fence and it's walls and found an old Fiat 126p car. I lifted it up and phased back to the road. Then I placed it one the road and entered it, turned the engine on and drove. I drove along a completely ruined road with huge holes in it. I lost lucidity. I drove to my school, entered a classroom and sat by a table. Again I thought that this might be a dream and made the RC. I became lucid again. Teacher - a redhead woman in late forties asked me "What makes you think this might be unreal?" I didn't responded, instead I tried to phase out through the wall. I doubted that I might be able to do that and failed, then lost lucidity again. I found myself back in my home village. There was some big ceremony coming. I was wearing a black suit. I left my old school and moved to a bus stop. There was a huge bus, my friend went out of it and I greeted him.

This was one of the most amazingly vivid LDs I've ever had and all thanks to my awesome boyfriend. I went to bed at 10pm, he joined me at 3am. That woke me up, but I was too sleepy to actually get up and do WBTB, so I just rolled over and immediately started dozing off. That's when he whispered to my ear: "Go lucid". And man did that work like a charm. The moment he said it I slid into the most vivid LD ever. I was walking down some hallway and everything got hyper realistic. I was so excited I could barely keep calm.

I enter a room and there's a girl named Lucy who's apparently my dream world friend. I'm telling her that I'm lucid and trying to stay calm. I remember that I should stabilize the dream - stand still, breathe slowly. It works.

I try to levitate a bit and that also works nicely, the room is not that large so I can only jump into the air and then softly float around or land on my feet again. I've never felt this AWAKE in my life.

I want to try to create something in that dream world but for the love of me I can't come up with anything I should do. Still too excited. I ask Lucy and she says "Well why don't you float up to the ceiling and create a little landscape on this floor here." (By the way my bf pointed out her name to me this morning when I woke up - Lucy/Lucid. Coincidence? )

I try to float up but my body seems to be too heavy and I'm still kind of sinking back to the floor. Out of the blue Lucy faints, it's like her consciousness gets knocked out. I come to her and try to wake her up, but there's just her lifeless body lying on the floor. At this point it feels like I'm losing the lucidity.

I walk around the house and find what I consider to be her actual real life body sleeping in bed. I don't want to wake her up so I go to my room, find my bed and sit in it. Then I remember that the one thing I always wanted to do in a LD was to meditate.

I sit in a lotus position and close my eyes. Immediately I'm sucked into this vast black void, it physically feels like I sunk hundreds of meters deep into my mind. There's nothing but blackness but also this amazing clarity. I have thoughts but they don't matter, everything is just so ... clear.

There's a lot of energy, like everything resonates with it, it's the matter of my mind and it's myself and it feels so awesome. I don't know how long I linger there, but then I wake up into a non lucid dream. I feel like there's an intruder in the house.

I get up and go check the hallway. Noone. At this point it's just a regular dream. I walk over to Lucy's bedroom and wake her up to tell her about my LD. She seems excited about it but her dad won't let me speak and keeps talking about his comic books.....?

And then I wake up.

This was the best LD ever since the first one I had 10 years ago

I remembered 1 dream:

I was at one of the largest corn mazes I have seen and it was sunset. I was chasing after these familiar people, but I couldn't catch them. I didn't know who they were, and every once in a while, they would look back and laugh at me. I tripped on a stick, and fell face-first into the dirt. Then I had a false awakening, and I was in my bedroom. One second later, I fell asleep in that dream, and right after that I woke up.

I am at my job's dock and it looks quite disorted from how it is suppose to look in waking life. I see some people I know talking on the top deck and notice someone trying to wake me up from the bed I was lying down on. Which is wierd...considering I am at work currently. He telling me to get up cause he wants to know who I like more and if this so and so is true about him. I get up and look at him and see what he and the other were argueing about. I decided I'm not interested and leap off the bed to go to no where land. But before I do this I notice a car that is very out of place and I could've sworn I seen it move on it's own.

I sharpen my sight by clenching my eyes real tight to see if there was a driver in there. There was no driver. So I got my hanbds on to the front of this car and notice that it felt extremely light. Light weighted enough that I could move it with my bare hands. I push the car back in to it's right parking spot and didn't think much of it. Soon after I see this woman with redish brown hair darts over to where I am at with a face that looks to be in a hurry. I walk pass her and tell her I got your car back in to the right position. She looks at me and says yeah and I decided to ocntinue walking up to the deck. I sepnd some time up there with the guys before heading back down to get some rest back in the odd bed that is still there. Which I didn't seem to mind sleeping on, outside with everyone watching me.

As I fell asleep in the dream, the scene to where it was my brother and I in this tight nit hallway with those old fashion lights that told you it could go out at anytime. My brother and I were running from this girl with a weird object in here hand. But he and I both assume that if we were hit by that thing or caught by her, it was all over. So we kept running through this maze like hallway hoping to find an end in sight somewhere. But soon we kept finding dead ends and we could hear her shoes racing through the solid concrete floor. That's when I pulled out a hero move and told my brother to go on as I fend her off myself. For some reason my brother didn't say, "no I can't do this without you". He had no problem ditching me and ran off in to the dark to where he'll be eaten hopefully. He's a cool person but his dream self is not. I am eventually greeted by her presence as she tries to attack me.

I dodge and made a left hopeing she didn't hear my breathing. She turns and comes toward my direction as I held my back closely to the front door. I could hear here steps coming closer intill I was face to face with this person. I raise my hand up as it was at this time I became lucid. I wanted to shake her hand and we did. I continue to explore the area as it look like an abandon prison station. I would then have a false awakening but soon made myself really wake up.

Awake after about seven hours of sleep.

Meditate for 26 minutes.

Do energy body work, i.e. Inner alchemy, chakra activation.

Conditions: In room. Laying on back on slight incline. Lights on.

Methods use: imagine floating above body, walk around courtyard, swaying above body, sphere coming out of head and seeing self from above; energy body stimulation, autosuggestion, and so forth .

After about fifteen minutes of going through the several methods described I allow myself to fall asleep while maintaining a moderate level of concentration and awareness.

After a estimated three minutes I suddenly become fully conscious in my bed, seeing that I can see through my closed eye lids and there is a strange feeling of 'energy' in my body I quickly conclude I am in the dream state.

It takes a few moments to be able to rise from the dream bed, I visualise and Will my subtle body to coagulate and solidify, I then attempt to role on to the floor, after several tries I am successful.

I walk slowly out of my room into the hallway allowing my vision to crystallise into a steady state, when I walk into the living room I notice that the coffee table is no longer there, but this does not surprise me a great deal.

I walk outside through one of the many living room windows, I am on a second story. The ocean is again extremely close, only some thirty feet from the door. To my great surprise however there was perhaps one of the most magnificent landscapes I have ever seen in this word or that one. The first thing that drew my attention on the other side of the water was a towering and jagged mountain covered with snow, it reminded my of pictures of mount Everest. The next aspect of the scene was also remarkable, behind and to the right of the mountain was a purple and blue sun set, (or sunrise) there were a great variety of shades of the colours, coupled with multi textured streams and clumps of white clouds.

After enjoying the view I decide I would like to interact with some people, to my left down the shore about one quarter of a mile I see a small building, it looked at first like a store or small home. I lift only five feet off the ground and fly quickly toward it, stopping was a little tricky, my momentum wanted to carry me a bit farther. I walk in, it is a bar, there are maybe ten people standing around drinking, some by the bar, others chatting next to the several pool tables.

Break in memory. I am in the dream bed again. First I hear a stand up comedian talking, it was Joe from the show 'impractical jokers', it went on for a little while but i only recall one line accurately. He says "Why are there so many gays now days?" and then says "One thing:finger paint". Needless to say I found this a very odd stand up routine. Next there was the voice of a man who lectures on the evidence of alien structures on the moon and other things similar to that I had heard recently, this went on for some time.

Break in memory. I am again in my dream bed. There is a extra TV in front of the bed, I watch it few a moment and ascertain it is a dream re make of the classic movie 'the exorcist', that did not worry me, but I looked away not wanting to freak myself out.

I am walking through the hall next to my room again. A old old friend walks by and quickly reaches over and pinches my back causing a mildly unpleasant sensation. I attempt to talk to him but he ends up walking through the wall next to the bathroom, it did not occur to me to follow him.

I was in bed for something like one or two hours, I cannot help but feeling that a large portion of the lucid dream was forgotten sadly.

Another fragment, sorry! I remember the false awakening but nothing about the first part.

I was at work and trying to troubleshoot. My phone was on and I couldn't stop my damn Pandora (I was listening to it while falling asleep) and the customer was getting mad because they couldn't hear me over my phone. I finally got it off and I don't really know how or what happened after that.

False Awakening: I was in my bed lying on my side, how I'd fallen asleep. I knew there was someone/something in the ground but I couldn't look and see. I figured sensing this is what had woken me up and I was panicking. I was already awake; how was I going to handle someone attacking me?!

Sherlock was trying to jump down but his claw was stuck on my shirt. He was getting vicious and aggressive with me. I finally wrestled him free but he wouldn't jump down because there was someone/something there. I was trying to shove him off because he was hurting me and scaring me. Something about my friend Devin's Facebook? I had this like... moment where I was begging that this wasn't real because I was so scared, and I squeezed my eyes shut. I forced them open and woke myself up.

I remember myself saying phrases to this other person about how some dreamworlds are big in this angle but small in the next. Me and this other alledge dreamer were checking out my workplace and noticing DC's go about their day. I begin saying looks like your dreamworld is peaceful and calming as I continue to observe the huge forest that has over take about 25% of the entire building. The other suppose dreamer wanted to check out the forest area, so she and I both went along there and as we did , this other DC starte following in the same direction. She then skip us and I saw another guy. He was in a mini jeep and was waving toward the direction I am in.

I then had a FA, and found myself staring at my hand while outside laying down on the streets. The sky was stormy night with no thunder or rain. It look like it would shoot down thunder but the clouds would just keep it. I got up fast and started running down the road, I could feel myself zipping through the wind. I got pass the huge double bar gates and then that's when I heard someone call my name. I decided I must've been in danger and started running even faster as the person continue to chase after me. He and I were going so fast that I couldn't even see where I was running anymore.

I then decided before I smash right in to something, I should jump, so I did and I went very high in to the sky and left him. However while going back down I try to grab on to one of the buildings windows to stop my fall but gravity had the best of me. I kept falling down in till I hit rock bottom. I could feel myself lying on the ground and the same guy who had been chasing me saying something while I was down. I wake up,

Awoke. Did 30-40 minutes of Zazen. Used theta 6.5 Binaural beats during first 20 minutes.

Supplements used.

Amino Acid. D-phenylalanine

Vitamin B Complex

Siberian Ginseng

Laid down on bed. Listened to "astral projection" Binaural beat" for ten minutes while doing exit methods. Then I took off headphones.

Methods Used. Rope method. Steam method, where one imagines oneself floating out of the body and hanging above it in the air. Visualising Body filling with light. A variant of the Lesser right of the Pentagram for 'protection'.

After 20-30 minutes I suddenly become aware of peculiar sensations, first tactile, then auditory hallucinations.

Convinced I am in the transitional state I attempt to float above and roll out of my body. The process worked, I end up crawling along the ground, slowly my visual sense comes into focus, dark images become distinct forms with colour and clear outlines.

I am in my apartment, given the sensation of leaving the body, I decide to look around to see if the 'dream' apartment mirrored the physical word, after a few moments of looking around I see that things are very different, most notably A dedicated chess/checkers table in the corner, also the main coffee table is much smaller, and has a wood colour top quite unlike the black one residing in the physical apartment. I make my way outside through a glass door. The city is almost unrecognisable, the sea is much closer to the apartment than in real life, the city looks dingy, old, and decrepit, instead of houses, the structures are more akin to barns and are located haphazardly along the flat land and hill, with seemingly no community planning, I can see the paint is peeling, the weather is grey but it is not night. I think to myself that perhaps this is how the town is going to look after some extinction level event. I walk to the shore line, my body becomes heavy, my sight is wavering, I take a moment to enjoy the scenery before falling to the ground. As I think about it, this may be how the town looked along time ago and not in some down cast future time.

I am in my room again, I seem to be in my bed. Not sure if I am awake or not, I do more exit techniques, when I feel my body morphing and floating upward I know it is time to get up and walk. Again I am in my apartment, I move into the bathroom, I look around and see my things are all out of order, my toothbrush is in the wrong place among other things. I jump out the window. It is sunny, things look much closer to how they should be. I pick up a piece a trash off the ground and throw it into someones window to test my accuracy. There is not one person to be seen. Again the sea is much closer than normal, I move toward it but soon fall into blackness.

Again I wake in my bed, not sure if I am awake or not I again do the exit methods until it is clear I am still dreaming. In the black state before images started to form I was treated to some very nice music, it was the type of music I enjoyed, alt rock, but the song and band was unknown. Again I leave out the living room. Again the sea is much closer than usual, not only this but the porch was overlooking a large precipice, water was crashing into the rocks below, the foam went back into the sea. The sense of its aesthetic beauty of the scene uplifted me, its complexity, its scope, pleasurable feelings radiated through my mind. "Now this is art!" I said to myself, I watched it until the dream faded again.

Another False wakening. Memory lapse. I find myself in a small restaurant not knowing exactly how I got there. There are people eating, I watch their conversation, one lady is my 5th grade teacher, the other lady I did not know. Feeling hungry I grab and eat a slice of pizza, slightly worried in doing this I may chew on my physical tongue, I still ate it, the taste was subtle, the temperature was moderate, it was enjoyable. I have a short conversation with the owner, offering more food I think. Again there is a sea, The restaurant is located on a isolated road along a mountain side with a forest of high trees on one side of the road and the water on the other. I see two people as I walk along the road, I say to one person "I do not know if you are real, but I am happy to have someone to share this scenery with", I do not recall him saying anything but he did smile as I recall. The dream becomes dark, my body becomes heavy. I fade into darkness.

After another false awakening. I walk along the road, it is sunny, there are many very nice green plants everywhere, the houses all seem quite normal. I ask for my 'guardian angel' out of curiosity to see if anyone would show up, no one showed up. I see and enter a large luxurious mansion located by the sea, I look around for a while, wishing I owned such a beautiful house.

A Lapse in memory occurs. I am walking through a field, there is green grass, the sky is bright and blue. There are two girls walking toward me, they get on a swing set. I say "Hello I need help, I keep blacking out". They looked at me vary curiously. I explain "I am a human, I am dreaming, I am having trouble keeping my dream stable". They ask cautiously "are you a LVB", they explained that this meant a 'lower vibrational body'. I was a kind a anomaly to them, a strange being, they knew I was a traveller in this world and not a resident, and judged me a bit for that. I had the strong intuition of individuality from them, the idea of doing something awkward like touching them without asking seemed unthinkable, they were too 'human', too 'conscious' seeming, I spoke with the utmost respect to them, I offered my hand and again asked for assistance, one girl lightly touched the top of my hand. The dream starts to fade, I go down to the ground and grab at weeds and grass seeking to stimulate tactile sensation, the grass was very green, there were also clovers.

Bits and pieces which have no orientation in context, the memories around them are seemingly gone for now.

It is dark I am spinning.

I am in bed, my body is vibrating.

I am at the dinner again. I pass by the kitchen where they are playing music.

I am in bed there are voices talking around me.

When I awoke I was exited, yet mentally tired. Even some 8 hours later I still feel completely mentally out of it, very strange.

#493 – DILD – 9:08AM

There is some preliminary dream about my wife looking very Asian. I am taken aback by this, but quickly have a false memory that this is how she is supposed to be. I have warm feelings of love and communicate this to her as I normally do in waking life.

Now it's a false awakening and I decide to just go ahead and sleep on the floor... or did I wake up there? I have the thought that the uncomfortable sleep should help me induce a lucid dream since I have been failing all morning. As I try to have a WILD, my wife starts talking and asking questions about what I am doing. Typical dream wife! I don't get too annoyed, but I do my best to ignore her. As I watch her groping hand over the edge the bed looking to make contact with me, I mumble something about trying to have a lucid dream.

Suddenly, I am overly worried about waking up on time for work. I know I must have set the alarm for 5am but I need to make sure. I get up and try to check the alarm clock on the dresser, but none of the buttons are working and the digits are distorted. There is a VCR next to the alarm clock that I take for granted, but the time is all zeros. Frustrated, I leave the bedroom looking for my cell phone, but quickly notice it's in my right pocket. I pull it out and hit the side button. The screen dimly lights up for just a second and then fades out. Then I finally get it! What if I am already in a dream? I do a quick half-assed nose plug and agree that this is indeed a lucid dream. At that point, the dream becomes dark and I nearly wake up, but I quickly stabilize by crawling and peering into the darkness – my usual bag of tricks. The dream quickly stabilizes and I stand back up.

I look around the dream environment and notice that I am in the first house I ever purchased back when I first started lucid dreaming. There is no irony here, just time distortion. Forgetting that, I become over-whelmed with euphoria that I am lucid dreaming and shout, “OH LUCID DREAMING! HOW I'VE MISSED YOU!” Then at a normal tone, “I did it. I really did it.” I notice a large, old-looking, child's book on the floor. I try to read it. I name off some random words that appear out of the alphabet soup swimming on the pages. I decide this random garbage isn't worth my time and throw the book away.

I decide to leave the house but find the back door is missing. I find this mildly curious, but I don't let it deter me as I swiftly move to the front. I pause at the other exit and think about the daylight and the grass I just saw outside the large pained window in the living room. I use expectation to enter that world and not the dark abyss that sometimes grips me when I transition areas. My efforts pan out, but I do notice the somber, overcast sky. The grass is looking really dry with a lot of brown patches.

I recall my dream goal to talk to an animal; I had a really funny dream about a talking rooster the night before and wanted to repeat some of that experience. This time a large white husky type dog comes running to me. He's so excited to see me. He dashes around me letting me pet him a little then runs circles around me. After a moment of play, I mentally tell him to talk and he quickly reminds me of the dog from the movie Up “OH my master. I am so happy to see you.” Something about this is disappointing and I decide to mimic the chicken from my other dream hoping to recapture the humor there. I say, “Cockadoodledoo maaannn.” Yes the chicken from my dream sounded like an old burned out hippie. The reply I get is total unexpected and that's what I love about my dreams. I hear an echoing answer from across the street, but it's no chicken that I can tell. How do chickens sound when they talk? Not like this, I suppose. Certainly not like the dream that had me laughing all day. No, the voice sounds like a little boy and I am curious to find it's owner. We play a quick game of Marco Polo, stoner rooster edition, and I am taken across a large yard to a barbed-wire fence. Because of the nature of dreams, I know this could turn into a tangled mess so I quickly decide to phase right through the wire. There is some fight, but I mange just fine. I sense the boy is calling to me from this old farm house that's now in my sights, but just before I reach it, the dream switches to black and I wake up. Damn the luck!

I read AndresLDs entry during my WBTB and was super happy he ended his dryspell and was able to fight me in a Pokemon battle!!! This gave me encouragement so I did some quick SSILD and tried WILD.

08.13.2016
09:00 AM

FireFlyMan (SSILD WILD)

It doesn't take long and I am feeling mild vibrations and getting flashes of potential dream scenes. I think what the heck, I'm probably fully dreaming now, I might as well just get out of bed. I am in my hometown for the weekend so of course that is where I am in the dream. I do so and do a nose plug and confirm I am dreaming. It doesn't feel as vivid as I would like but I don't think it will be a problem because my visuals are pretty good. I stick my hands back and realize I don't have space to summon anyone in my room so I go into the family room.

I see a man there with dark hair and eyes. I guess FireFlyMan is already here! "Hi FireFlyMan. You said you have a beard. Let's fix that.", I say. I stick my hand out and imagine his beard growing. "I don't wan't a beard." He says but I manage to grow an inch long beard anyways. "It is suppose to be a bit longer.", I say but he says,"This length is fine." so i leave him be. "Take my hand so it is easier for me to imagine DreamCafe11's hand." I say and he grabs my left hand. I wake up and feel like it's a good opportunity for DEILD but for some reason it takes a very long time to get any visuals and I lay there half awake, half asleep for about a half hour.


I journaled the dream and realized I had about half an hour before I had to get up. I thought I might be able to squeeze in one more WILD. I set my alarm forward an extra 10 minutes just so I could wake up more naturally.

08.13.2016
010:35 AM

DreamCafe11 (WILD)

I am laying in bed and I hear a knock on the door. My mom says it is 10:30 and I have to get up. I am semi lucid and get out of bed and walk into the family room. Some random family members are there and realize I am starting a dream. I walk back into my room thinking I want to have a false awakening. I realize this is sily and my girlfriend comes into the room. I realize I miss her even though it's only been a few days and this was probably incubated my reading AndresLD's dream about seeing his girlfriend. I hug and kiss her a lot and tell her it is a dream. I let her know I have some goals to do this time but next time I see her she can join me on my adventure.

We go into the family room and I stick my hand back to summon DreamCafe11. I feel a smallish hand take mine and I say,"Hello DreamCafe or should I call you Song." I get no response so I look over. She is a girl with brown hair, about 5'2". She isn't in her Song form this time I guess. "Are you DreamCafe?", I ask. She shakes her head yes and smiles. I hug her and introduce her and my girlfriend. While I know I don't have much time, I feel like I don't have to worry about waking up. "Do you know where the bomb is?" I ask. She says that she doesn't. I was sort of relying on her knowing where it was. That's okay we can figure it out.

We go out front of my house and see two DCs walking by. "Do you know about the bomb threat?", we ask. They say they don't. This is a suburb so there's not much likely hood of a terrorist attack here. We should go to the mall. I see an expensive looking silver sports car in my drive way. "I know exactly where to go! Hop in!", I say. "Is this your car?", DreamCafe11 asks. "I guess it is now." I back out fast and shift into drive. I get up to 55mph in no time and already have to make a turn. I skid into the sidewalk and nearly take out someones fence and mailbox. Haha, oops. It is a very accurate representation of my neighborhood. I am on a strait away so I floor it and we go really fast. I wake up though and really wan't to get more out of the dream. I can still feel my left hand and that is it. I will my other hand onto the wheel and push my imaginary foot into the pedal. My visuals come back and the dream is vivid again! I hope that DreamCafe11 didn't notice! haha

I drive another two blocks to the strip mall by my house. We park next to the big fountain area at the center. As we walk up I realize we are both still in our normal forms. I tell her to transform into Song and she says she hasn't figured out how yet. I say,"It's easy, you just have to watch Sailor Moon!" I stick my hand up in the air and shout,"Tatsumonki, transform!" I spin in place with my arms out and imagine the sleeves of a cloak appearing. I have a black coat now with long coattails. I still have my dark grey shorts on and some black shoes. I feel that my hair is longer and curlier now and ask DreamCafe if it is green. She says it is so I must have transformed!



Note, I was still 5'10" as Tatsumonki. I would have been the same height as DreamCafe if that changed so I need to update the drawing.

We walk up to a crowd of DCs by the fountain and I say,"This is the Dream Hero League! Have any of you seen a bomb or suspicious activity?" The DCs just shrug. DreamCafe and I ask around but know one knows what we are talking about. "You there! What are you hiding under your shirt!" I use telekinesis to lift up his shirt and he is just fat. I search a mans backpack too but there's nothing but books. "What are we going to do DreamCafe?" I ask. She says, "Well, I think as long as the dream characters are safe it is better if we can't find anything." I think she is probably right but I fly around to keep searching.

I see a man with a very large padded black bag and ask him what is in it. He looks worried and runs away. That is incriminating enough for me so I use telekinesis to bring him back to where DreamCafe is. I accidentally bump his head and he seems unconscious. Oops. I place him and the bag down and see someone making out with an attractive guy. This is awkward. They look up and it's my girlfriend! "Hey!" I get angry for a second but then remember this is a dream and then I'm totally fine with it. After all, I make out with DCs all the time. It's only fair!

DreamCafe11 walks up and I say I found the bomb. "Use your wind powers to make a vacuum around the bag." She starts spinning the air around the bag but then stops. "I still don't fully understand how to do that." She says. I feel that I am starting to wake up and I am satisfied with the dream. Sure, we didn't defuse the bomb or even confirm there was one but we got to meet each other and had a good time Besides, I woke up right on time without needing the alarm!

to bed at ~22:30 - first awakening 3:45 SSILD and tactile senses, problems falling asleep because of sounds and thoughts...

wake up at 5:15 with this:
FA: i stand up leave my room and go into the kitchen, i see a pot with some noodle soup in it that starts getting moldy. i turn around and see a chair with some towls on it that are wet and the whole ground is wet. i am pissed and leave the kitchen again and enter the bathroom. here i fill up my glass of water drink some and go into the corridor [the whole apartment has a different layout]. just before i enter my room i see my roommate at the door of my other roommate and wants to silently enter. i drank a lot of water and for whatever reason i ehm.. puke him a waterfountain in his neck. i find it a little funny but i am also uncertain if this might not be a dream. i lift my hand and see and show him this is a dream. at the beginning i cant say anything because i feel still water in my throat i move backwards and show him that the lightswitch doesnt work. then i run backwards and phase thru the wall. while falling i wake up. [after waking i noticed that the dream wasnt that stable, everything was dark and with not too much detail...]

i am pissed because of the bad sleep quality and the poor lucid. this time i put earplugs in and try again with a little less effort to faster fall asleep. i wake up at 6:30 with this:
[dont remember the non lucid part] i move down a street and realize i am dreaming, look at my hand to confirm. i want to summon sivason behind my back, feel a hand and turn around. "ah you look different, you are sivason?" he nods but says "only my upper part looks different ... bla... my name is so and so" "wait so you are not sivason?" "hmm" i instantly put my hand behind my back again and summon again sivason. i ask him and he nods. the first guy wants to keep on talking but i softly push him and point him to go. he leaves. i turn to sivason and tell him: "i know now how you do it and i have to channel my energy in my hand. i want to try it do you have any further advice?" "ah i think you get it its not that easy to explain its like this" he puts both hands together and they look veiny and strong. but no fire appears and i focus on my arm i feel some energy run down and as i look at my hands i already see some flames inbetween. cool! i throw it at a tree and it starts burning. i shortly try again but its not working instantly but i am satisfied. the fire disappears from the tree and i want to uproot it with TK. it starts shaking a little and i concentrate on the fact that there is no weight or problem and its easy. i hear some cracking and pulling sounds and the three fly up. i throw it on the ground and i want to make it disappear in front of my eyes but it doesnt work and i feel it not that important to try longer. i turn to sivason and say "hey you are an pharmacist right? i want to put my personality into a pill and make it a DC swallow it. can you help me? what do you need? some hair or something?" " oh thats easy i have done this often, you can give me anything, a 50cent coin for example" "a 50 cent coin?!" a DC that sits around on a bench says " ah you will have a problem because you need very clean water and you use normal water" while we talk sivason changes into a woman and i get a BJ. while this happens i pocketsummon a candy with eucalyptus taste. there are two candy in one foil. i take one and offer the other to the girl noticing that she is busy. i enjoy it for a minute and then she moves away. i walk behind her and she approaches a bus and wants to enter. i hold her and tell her "we can go there soon but first i want to do the TOTM. we have to fly and find a plane and look inside or enter. like we wish" we start flying hand in hand and the sky gets really bright like when you look into the sun and then somewhere else. i feel like the dream destabilize and i start to fly straight down to accelerate to the ground but before i reach it i wake up.

i note the dream and just try to fall asleep with mantra and looking at the back of my eyes.
i have a dream and then again a FA that i catch:
i wake up and feel that a tooth of mine is loose. 'oh no not again' i carefully touch it and i feel that it fall out. i carefully put it out of my mouth and its a small corner one. i put it next to my clock and lay back and try to fall asleep. i move my tong and notice there is more and i pull out tooth after tooth and i feel the sound of loose tooth moving against firm tooth... i see this is a dream and plug my nose. now i have my sleepmask on and try to put it off but every time i take it of there a a new one underneath. i repeat this atleast 5 times and then i start so see in very bad quality and wake up.

after sleepingquality last night was bad and i was tired and anemic the whole day i got to bed at 11:30 fall asleep on my side and woke up 6:30 in same position... no awakenings no recall except of last dream. think positiv, did a WBTB and induced a DILD via SSILD. Later catched a FA that lead to another short uneventful DILD.

recalled 1 dream and 2 fragments

i am outside and want to lock up my backpack. it feels like our library at the university but at the same time it is outdoor and i am at a parking lot. a lot of the lockers are damaged, all in the same way. i move away from them do some steps notice the parking lot but see then that a undamaged locker is free. i go there put my stuff in and i know that my phone is in my left pocket and my wallet in my right pullover pocket. i close the door and hear my phone ringing from inside of my backpack... i wondering and check again. no my phone is in my pocket.. so i ignore the ringing and try to lock the door but somehow there is no lock but just a cord. i tighten up the cord and think "nah will do it everyone is doing it like this". i move away and tell someone that we can order rechargeable batteries online? i go to my GF, she is shopping something? i tell her too, that we can order rechargeable batteries online because they are better. she says nah. we start kissing and move now thru a building we pass a room and i pull her inside, there are two beds inside. i somehow like the room and how the bed is made. we climb over the first and i want to start sexytime with her. she says that xy will be inside later but not now.
i take of my shoes but randomly get lucid and tell her that we need to postpone this because this is probably not a good idea anyway and i have some tasks to do. i put on my shoes again stand up and leave the room. i put my hand behind my back and say "hey Fryingman take my hand" nothing happens. i move on a different place and repeat it. its not working. i get tensed and move away, i loose visuals but still feel my body inside the dream. two drawn eyes appear inside this blackness and they move there where i look too. i play around with it for some seconds but then decide i want the dream back and engage my body and rub my hands. i get back the visuals and standing outside. i again try the behind my back summon but without success. i form a funnel with my hands and shout out hey FryingMan! and one guy in a group of 3 guys shouts back here! i approach them happy and ask him: "you are fryingman?" "yepp" i jump up and hug him (damn his summoning costs me a lot of emotions xD) he is pretty big like nearly 2m? and looks big but not in fat way but trained, maybe around 40? he or the guy next to him has a black leather jacket. we walk together and i start some smalltalk like how are you. one of the guys starts talking and talking and after some time i say "hey sorry man, dont want to interrupt you but i have something going here: fryingman you know sensei pretty good yes? can you tell me a secret about him?" he answers: "oh i dont know him so good but i know him a little yes" the other guy comments something about sensei but before FM answers i wake up...

i feel like waking up. my one ear is tickling a little and i notice that one of my earplugs has fallen out [i put on some earplugs and a sleepingmask after the WBTB] i stand up and notice that my door is not completely closed and i hear my roommate outside. thats probably the reason why i woke up i think. there is somehow a light reflection or something that suddenly makes it pretty bright for a second. i wonder and try to redo the angle to see where that came from but i dont find it and just close the door. i approach my window and for some reason i feel like doing a RC. i do a nosepinch. nearly no air comes thru. i use now both hands (not the fingers) and pinch my nose as hard as possible. and again a faint of air passes my nose. i cant believe it and look at my hand. its bigger and blurred but nevertheless i count each and everyone of my fingers and there are six of them. i am perplexed but seems to be dreaming. i climb on the window board but before jumping out i look around in my room. looks like always but on my couch are two pillows missing.... hm okay and i jump/fall out and land flat on the street. for a second i think damn what if this wasnt a dream? i could die like this... but i feel no pain and so i shake of this thought and stand up fast. i put my hand behind my back and ask for FM again. but now cars are driving on the street and bypass me. i feel like this is a bad place to summon someone. i jump over a car and start to levitate in the air. one car draws my attention and i decide to steal this car. i fly behind it but it is to fast and i am too slow. i put my hands next to my hip and accelerate like ironman. now without a problem i get to the car. there are 3 guys sitting inside. the first one i just pull out and throw away. i land on the car and now pull out the driver and quickly jump on his seat to stop the car before it crashes. the third guy was sitting crosswise to the driverseat and just disappeared after i stopped the car. a silent voice in my head tells me to not waste the lucid and do something meaningful but i think to myself to drive just a little around and then do some tasks. i accelerate and its an awesome car. the street is pretty full and here and there i ram a car by accident. the visuals turn into GTA. i try to find the traffic ramp to drive faster but again i notice how senseless this is and thinking about how to get out of the car. my vision gets black and this time there is nothing i dont feel my body i dont see anything in the blackness. i lay still and hope for the best but suddenly someone (my brother?) tug around my sleeping mask and blow some air into my ear [FA].... i put of the mask and wake up for good...

Tonight i slept not too good because of some worries i have. i tried to suppress as good as possible and deal with it today but nevertheless negative thoughts came up now and then... my recall is totally fragmented and the lucid i induced was tensed. i felt like having not my potential dreamcontrol/powers and felt rushed somehow....

7 fragments + 1 lucid

i lay on my back, tense my bodyparts and then relax them i shortly go thru my goals but i cant concentrate and my head feels restless. i doing some deep breaths and start with SSILD cycles. i notice how slowly my head calms down and i get in the right mood. i sometimes do a little imaginary tactile movements to see if it feels like a WILD but nope. my body is deeply relaxed but i feel to aware for a wild so i turn on my side and do look at my closed eyelids.
laying around on my back, the TV is on i suddenly think "wait what if i already am dreaming?" i do a nosepinch and am lucid [i have no TV in my room, i nearly dont watch TV at all]. i stand up and i am naked. i try to will the TV out because the babble of the TV bothers me but i cant just will it off. i try to imagine having a remote in my hand but it wont work. i try a short behind my back summon but i am too restless for this. i decide to ignore the TV (there is no picture just the voice). i remember my tasks and try to summon FryingMan but again not calm enough... i go to my desk and see a candle. i hold it upside down and do a hand gesture with my right hand like it is as lighter and my thumb is the flame. i see no flame but i ignore that and hold it under the candle. at the beginning nothing happens but i turn it around and look. the candle is brighter in the middle and some moments later a flame appears, at the beginning very transparent and week but then materializes to a normal flame. at least something i think. i think about leaving my room because outside summoning of people might be easier. i look down and still naked i feel the cold skin. thinking about to change something about it but it would be a waste of time. i phase thru my window and slowly fly/float down. Some meters away there is a couple looking strangely at me. i am a little confused because of the fact that i might not be dreaming? or the fact i have no cloths on? probably the last one because its obviously a dream and i floating down... i land on the ground (in my actual street that is in front of my house) i look at the main-floor of the building and see a shop with a window front with a shelf behind it where one can see folder. i do a hand gesture and some of the folder fall down to the ground. i fly up again and decide to phase thru the window/wall to the child/sleeping-room of my direct neighbors underneath. i stand in the room and look around. i pick up a phone and push the button for redial. i hear the sound of dialing and then a female voice telling me "this phone is not connected" or something. i go to the floor and the woman who lives here [i picked up my book about Dream Yoga by andrew holecek there yesterday ] stands now there. first moment she seems to get scared and wants to scream but i promptly calm her down with some words and kneel down because for whatever reason i want to see her feet. her husband (looking different than IWL) accompanies us and i greet him too. i ask her what shoe size she has and she repeatedly answers something like each other in relation? because they seem to be different size. i stand up and also pick up the "phone" that now is a shoe [schema: feet --> shoe?!]. i decide to leave again and go into the kitchen and jump thru a table with some plants, with a flytrap among them and out thru the window and wall again. i float outside and notice i still have the shoe in my hand. i see the woman walks into the kitchen too and says something about that shoe. i phase my hand inside and reach her the shoe. she thanks and i let myself fall down, accelerating to the ground. i smash with all four on the ground but feel no harm. i stand up and find myself in a different street. way smaller and no people around... thats bad because i think again to summon FM. i go behind a corner and look there i hold my hand behind my back and call for him but again no success... i jump on a wall and look down to maybe find a more busy street. i feel unsettled and wake up before i can do something against it.

My Dream starts off with me and my friend (we'll say his name is Al) at my neighborhood community center. All of a sudden, Al saw a turtle (or tortoise, not completely sure), and proceeded to skateboard after it. The scene shifts.

I am at my house when another friend (we'll call her Ann) comes over. We simply hang out for what feelt like the entire day. I start to realize something's wrong.

"Come on," Ann said, pulling on my arm.

"Hold on, let me check something." I responded.

I try to push my fingers through my hand, with no success. So I pull out my phone. It reads 8:00. I turn it off and on again. 8:04. I try again. 7:00. I try yet again to make sure. A Korean sentence is displayed.

"I'm dreaming!" I shouted. Before I get to do anything cool, I have a false awakening into a cartoon world

I woke up pretty quickly, feeling disappointed in myself.

What I found really interesting about this dream was the sheer scale of the time dilation I experienced in my dream. I lived through a full day in there within a one or two hour nap. Also, it was my first lucid dream since I joined DV, which I think is cool. I'm kinda upset that my lucid dream was so abruptly ended right as I gained lucidity. Also mad that I was unable to regain lucidity in such a surreal, cartoony dream, right after a pretty realistic dream world. But that's also really interesting to me.

<awkward conclusion sentence>, SpaceGod.