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Just one, short dream from last night.

I was back at school and there was a big party planned for later. I had just woken up and found some beers in the dresser when my friend walked in and started telling me about this girl that was going to be there.

We walked outside and into my backyard. I saw some more of my friends and there was a big party going on at my neighbors house.

A did a line of dream coke and that was apparently the last of it. A friend got made and start pushing me and calling me a 'dick'. I slammed him up against the fence. Another friend grabbed me and calmed me down. End.

Hours of sleep: 6h
Vividness: 2/5
Recall: 4/5

It's dark outsides and I'm standing on a bus-station. I know that the bus is late. Next to me is a friend. She looks bored and stares in the sky. I'm not in a mood to get involved in a conversation, so i keep looking to my right and look at the driving cars. Suddenly I hear a voice through a microphone. It sounds like those lines which are repeated at train stations. It says:
- To all passenger, please look at your right, because the bus 7.3 finally comes a few minutes late. We apology for any inconvenience, but it was impossible for the bus to come in time, because it was involved in a terrible accident. Thank you for your attention!
I'm confused and look to my right. A bus drives at the street. It has no top, it still burns a bit. the driver isn't hurt and drives happily on the road. I think that this might be a dream. I'm really confused, because all this doesn't makes sense at all. I realize that this is so impossible and I'm convinced that this is a dream. BUT for some reason I loose lucidity and I walk away from the station.
I meet my brother. Next to him is a weird guy. We walk to our old childhood house. We enter it and go to the 2nd floor, where our apartement used to be. It's still there, but it's really dark inside. We enter. I run towards my old room. I know that I've forgot something. I search in the dark and find finally, what I'm looking for.... It's a box with cornflakes I go downstairs and open the door.
Suddenly I'm in my old school. It's biology class. Our teacher is angry. We asks who has not forgot his box with the cornflakes. I answer and show him the box. He gets more angry, because it's not the right brand. He shouts at me and he makes now a surprise test. I look t the floor for a second and than look in front of me. The surroundings have changed again and i'm in the cafeteria of my university. I see tons of people.

I awake.
Note: WTF?!

Jeeze a loo, ANOTHER LD?! Not that I'm complaining, but man alive if they aren't downright frequent at this point! Actually, this marks the longest LD I've had in a long time, though it was split up into two dreamscapes. Once again, Elly (My sub) maintains her crafty nature... Assuming it's not just me looking for her in places she wasn't.

Anyway, this actually may be the longest I've traveled in a dream in a long time. I left my house, thinking of asking my grandmother for a ride, but instead deciding to walk. Our front gate is broken (It's our current house.) and lying on the sidewalk, I notice my cat is home and let him in through the front door (I've done that, in actuality, one time in my life.). i pass the mailman and comment how he won't have to worry about that gate for awhile, jokingly. Most people have trouble opening that particular gate.

So I'm walking to collage, actually, it's the same school as I dreamnt about not too long ago in a Non-LD. Except it's not for Super Humans and Other worldly beings. I pass a school as I'm walking, and given how frikkin' often I dream about school, I'm not content just going to the school I'm supposed to, I have to stop at a random school on the way that vaguely looks like my old highschool. @_@

So I end up at a class taught by my second grade teacher Mrs. R. Though the students look to be about 5th or 6th graders. Anyway, the teacher is having a heck of a time with them, as they are absolutely enamored with chapter 1 of something... I think a book, and so much so that they're reluctant to continue. I'm mainly just observing at this point. Though I see some kid bully another kid, I follow him into the bathroom (Which is oddly attached directly to the classroom.) and basically threaten him if he tries to ever bully that kid again. Double standard? Yeah. @_@

Anyway, Mrs. R reminisces about a class trip me and my friend P went on (Which never happened IRL). Something about my friend P jumping off a boat after being dared or something.

Some more things about that Chapter 1 hoopla. Then I realize the time, that I'm late as all hell for my collage class! I have a trapper keeper which the above bully gets for me, but accidentally (Ha, 'Accidental' sure.) spills the papers all over. I pick up the stuff, joking with him about the accidental part and head off towards the exit. The class is sad to see me go. I breifly think about asking Mrs. R for a recommendation in regards to the collage? something like that.

Anyway, I get to the exit of that school and see my first girlfriend S and her boyfriend (Though, oddly enough, S doesn't look anything like herself and neither does her boyfriend.). I say "Ms. S.R. (Her full name.) I presume?" she turns her head and gives me the cold shoulder. I'm a bit sad by this and just exit, saying "I'm sorry, more than you'll ever know.". So I'm walking on the sidewalk along the school, there are students (About high school age, maybe collage.) all over outside. I check my watch (Of which I don't have one IRL.) and see it's 7:15.

As I'm walking, i get it in my head to do a reality check. So my MILDing must really be paying off. I do, it fails, and I'm lucid. At this time, i notice S.R. is there smiling. (Probably Elly, whom I, once again, forget to summon. Blargh!) First thing I do is drop down to the grass on the boulevard and feel it, and even smell it. It's all quite realistic. Soon after, things get extremely blurry, so I stare at my hand, and say to myself "I want to stay in this dream a bit longer.". It doesn't save the dream, so I fall backwards to try and salvage staying asleep.

I fall for what seems like a good 6 to 10 seconds. Eventually I find myself at a different street. I notice a power pole most prominently at first, then I'm looking down the street. I preform another reality check (Yay me for remembering.) and it fails, and thus I'm still lucid. There's a large white car in the street, people all around, at the end of the street it gets very Minecraftian, with a hole and Minecraft dirt at the end of the street.

Anyway, i try and experiment and find a lady amongst the crowd and kiss her. She doesn't seem to enjoy it much, but she lets me kiss her about 3 times on the lips. I kiss another lady, even tasting the lipstick on her lips (She wasn't wearing lipstick...), the crowd kinda gets angry at me, so I don't peruse it much. This was mainly a test on expectations.

So, I find myself in an airport or mall type setting. No jump cut or anything, the scene just changed without me noticing. There are two restroom doors labeled very oddly, I only remember one as... Rantata? Or somewhere along the lines, I remember thinking it was Spanish or something. Somewhere in the mall/airport, I did at least a few RCs just to keep lucidity. Mainly nose breathes, but I did change it up with a finger count (5, if you're curious, but my hand itself looked odd, so it still kept me lucid.). Anyway, I enter what seemed to be the womens bathroom, though there were other men within'. I only took a look around, everything seemed normal (Besides this being a unisex public bathroom.). Well, there was one oddity, an apparent bathroom attendant in a white animal suit (Think mascot-esque.) whose sole purpose was to open the door to the bathroom.

I check out the other bathroom, after being cautious of the drains in front of the toilets. (I honestly don't know why.) In the 2nd bathroom, Mr. Guy-in-white-animal-suit is there, and I help a lady out by pointing out a map to the mall/airport that is on the wall. Anyway, the place seemed to change focus from a bathroom to some kinda... Automated dispensery or something. I notice someone, in a VERY awesome way, quickly using their foot to press a button and just barely eak out using a booth before person. It was a rather portly looking african-american girl, so I walk up to her and comment on the awesome move she pulled. (In retrospect, she looked like an older version of someone I knew in grade school.) She's apparently getting bullets from whatever dispenser thing she's using. I comment how it should be like a serve-yourself soda fountain and the bullets are dispensed in a cup as well. She gets a mild chuckle outta that. I think I really wanted to jump her bones or something, she mentioned using Zyrtex to 'keep it up'. 6o.o;; I agree, saying it shouldn't be too hard to get some.

Anyway, she packs up her bullets in a box (There looks to be well over 100 in the box... Possibly 200. I think they're just 9mm.) and I follow her out. We walk near a very familiar looking metal railing. A few steps later, in front of what seems to be bleachers? She turns around and throws her arms out to her sides. I wake up.


Sheesh, I guess that's to be expected in subconsciouses... But Elly really does like toying with me! >:C

I don't know if it's me going to bed earlier or what, but my recall has been uber high. Still want to get it a little better - I don't want just long and many dreams, I want to remember more details.

NON-DREAM DREAM LUCID

10.27.2010

Two Sides (Non-lucid)

Anime-style. There's a girl who has two sides. In teal-haired mode she can summon her minions. A boy (brown hair) is friends with the light pink-haired side of her.

The teal half wants the boy's soul or something and sends her minions after him. At one point he's hiding in a closet clutching the door shut as hard as possible.

- At one point he(?) is in a dark place like a chamber, blindly searching for pink girl. His hand touched a little lock on a grate on the floor.

Mmm, Donuts (Non-lucid)

I was in class. I stacked some books on my desk and put them under the chair. They were heavy and it hurt my hands, but I made sure not to show anything. An angel walked around the room and stopped at me. She came up close, clutched my fists in hers and said a special message to me - general uplifting things, and she healed my hands. It did seem to make the pain almost disappear.

Dad was at the front of the class ahead of me (I think I was on the second row to the right, three or four desks down). I believe some kids were talking about roleplaying games, and dad started talking about Nascar and the gestures to indicate driving. I followed him out of the room and glomped him. I told about him about the angel.

He ended up dragging me to the doctor's office in the school(?). We were sitting on a window-seat type area, me kind of hidden behind him. The doctor came in and dad made a joke about me, something about being dead that was supposed to mean that I was invisible. He asked if it was okay for me to be there. The doctor asked him to strip down, and he did, down to his gray boxers which he owns in real life.

Suddenly there's a kitchen area in front of us and people are making donuts in a big deep friar. She sees me eying them and gives me a tiny piece, saying that she 'can share her donuts'. As she gives me a bigger piece, dad leans over to the side and snags his own. The donuts are like glazed ones, but with chocolate on top.

- Jacob was sitting beside me in class.
- My hands began hurting again soon.
- When Dad was talking about Nascar, I turned to Jacob and said 'that's my dad', but he didn't seem impressed.

A typical scene: a school+hotel (not dorms), but strangely vivid for something so mundane. I was kicked out of one room as I was about to take a shower. Apparently I had stayed too long. On leaving, I forgot my key, which looked more like a car key than one for a door. At this point the building became a school.
There were 4 floors accessible by at least 3 elevators. Joined by some past acquaintances, we entered elevator #3 and headed for the 3rd floor. As we ascended, the elevator swayed. It came to a stop so that half of the exit could be seen. I jumped across and the others followed with some help. We called management to tell them about the error. Later, a repairman spoke to me and told me that due to some mechanical wear, had we not alerted him, the elevator would have shut its doors and fell, trapping whomever was inside. I remember noticing that the repairman was surprisingly intelligent -- not for his occupation, but for a human being in general. As I listened to him, I felt he knew something important that I did not, but should.
There was more but it has already faded - a sinus infection broke my sleep into small unsatisfying sessions with dreams less memorable.

NON-DREAM DREAM LUCID FALSE AWAKENING PRECOG

23:00 GMT+9 – sleep

Dreams recalled fade before I take notes...

04:00 GMT+9

Math test
I dream that my colleague Silva is not happy with something I did, which put in risk financing to some project. Then she also tells me I have math test in a week and I know I haven’t been to a single class but I’m confident I can learn all I need until then.

Raptors attack after a quake
On a town on a mountain, passing by a school. Small shakes sign an incoming bigger quake. All kids leave school immediately. I also run to an open space. Roads open up cracks, everything cracks up. I save two kids, a girl and a boy of different ages. Town goes without power or communication means. After a few days, cars are still running and people are trying to get back to normal, despite being isolated from the rest of the world. I think they might be precipitating, as they should be acting in accordance to the current situation and not going back to work in offices.
The quake had side-effects. It opened a time-space breach and dinosaurs appear in the mountain. Soon the town is being preyed on by velociraptors. That’s when people decide to organize themselves to face the new situations. Separated by sudden attacks and need to take cover, people form groups and hide in buildings. I’m in an isolated house with a group of people who were all in the vicinity when the raptors first attacked. We established a perimeter and we tend after some vegetable garden outside. But one day, small vicious raptor-like creatures invade the perimeter and we’re no longer safe. I’m armed with a stick and knife (all I could find around) and I enter the house going through a nerve-wrecking scene like in the movie Alien. Some creatures are inside already and I move silently trying not to be surprised by one. Only have on shot to stick my knife into them. I see movement behind a curtain and I attack with the knife. I uncover to find my cat dead. I cry, but I feel the situation is critical and I can’t possibly lose focus, so I forgive myself, considering the extreme situation I’m in.

07:00 GMT+9 – wake up

Hello. Man my subconscious is really though
Hours of sleep: 6.5
Vividness: 2/5
Recall:2/5

I'm standing in front of my old school. I enter it with someone (a friend). She says that we could use this chance to see our ex-biology-teacher.
I don't want to see him. I know that he's against to the fact that I'm studying education. I try to avoid the cafeteria, because I know he's there. I start arguing with her, try to find some excuse to not go there. She gets angry and says:
"You cannot run away your hole life! You are too afraid to see him face to face, that he says that you are making a mistake by choosing education and not chemistry or biology. And you know that he might be right. You know that you have got potential to became a good researcher. And you will never know if he's right! Screw you!"

... Well ... No comment

Changed my colors. Also, only one page left in my dream journal! Then I move onto a new one. This one is starting to look beat up anyway, from being in my bed. Plus the cats trampling all over it. I've had it since June 2008. I hope that the next one will go faster - because it has longer entries in it, not just a bunch of fragments!

NON-DREAM DREAM LUCID

10.25.2010

Darkness (Non-lucid)

I think it was completely dark. A creature made of dark substance was attacking me over and over again, and it couldn't be killed.

Bugs? (Non-lucid)

Star Trek like world. A guy wearing a Trek uniform took out something from it that was covered with black dots. He looked to the doorway were a woman was standing, giving her a questioning look as he held it up.

A Book Lover's Habit (Non-lucid)

We either went to a bookshop or walked through one. As we were leaving, I got distracted by looking at book titles and then the two people in the room. I said something to them and started to leave, and again, and the last time I started to leave I really got distracted. I think we talked about a previous transaction I had with them, and then we talked about these two forms, green and red, and something about one or both of them being my consultant.

I started to fill out the green form hurriedly, and my writing was messy. I accidentally signed my name (looking really bold, like I'd embellished it) in Japanese, as ケイトリン, and the woman pointed it out to me. I said it was an accident and wrote my real first name under it.

She said it was okay, and then started talking in Spanish about how someone she knew said some phrase sometimes. She repeated the phrase twice, and it was short. Might have had 'que' in it.

I knew mom was going to be mad, because she was outside in the car waiting. I took the red form with me to fill out later.

I got in the car and yep, mom was mad. I'm pretty sure there was someone else in there too. I was apologizing, and as I gestured, a half-eaten green sucker I had in my hand flew off the stick and landed somewhere in her direction. That actually eased the tension and we laughed a bit.

- Earlier: 'Bike', paint, my sister

- Might have taken place in this dream: masturbation in my mom's bathroom.

Fragments (Non-lucid)

~ My sister told me that she liked 'BL/yaoi'. She explained that gay relationships were more complex and interesting than the relationships you normally see in shows (which is actually my reason). I believe this took place in her living room, and her boyfriend was in the room.

- Mom, mad, my friend, pix?

~ I believe I(?) was in this room full of people. There was this game where you have to kiss someone or you're killed. Me and a boy shared a (bad) kiss. Then we had sex. Most explicit sex dream I've had in a while, and I think most detailed.

Bladder Desperation (Non-lucid)

Deja vu dream, as if I'd gone through the ordeals in it before.

Takes place in a school-like place.

I have to use the bathroom, but every one I come to has too many people around, and it's mixed. At one point I start to go in one but a guy comes in!

I pass a food court and a girl calls out to me, saying something like 'you're sitting with us, right?'. I look and the people at the table don't particularly seem familiar. I get the feeling she doesn't want someone else to take the seat. I pass on.

I see a girl, possibly with short dirty-blonde hair (I think she works there) and ask her if she knows of a private bathroom I could use. She takes me with her and we go to the staff area, where the counter is. We squeeze past them (I think the manager guy is there) as the girl explains that I really have to go. The guy and a few others tease me, saying something about bladder desperation and how it can be hot.

- Somewhere around here, I look at my finger and it has salt on it. I lick it off, and the guy says I should eat it with ice cream (I think this was inspired by me wanting to try french fries with ice cream in real life).

He (and a few others?) end up coming along with us, leading me through some very weird obstacles, one being having to wait for just the right moment for these yellow bed foam pads to swing away before you dived onto this other slippery, squeezing material and dug your way through. It was extremely hard and I didn't think I was ever going to claw my way out.

When we finally get there, it's a small space with netted areas off to the side. People are sitting at a table on one side, and on the other there's a guy playing with a kid on some more foam I believe.

I'm pretty worried, because the whole reason I couldn't go before is because I have a shy bladder, but there's people here too, and in a closed space.

I think they realize I can't go there when they see the people. One guy suggests that there's a place outside I could go - think he had before. I think I considered that I'd need toilet paper then.

- Earlier?: I'm singing on a show (with Lizzie McGuire?). We're sitting in a classroom.
- There was a girl sitting beside me and I mistook her for someone I knew who looked just like her, only she had one eye (I watched a Futurama episode night about Leela). I believe it's the two-eyed girl who tells me I sing well, even though I thought I wasn't singing my best because we weren't actual recording. We sung more than once.

Note: The whole reason for this dream was because I went to bed having to go, and every time I woke up after that I ignored it. Just before this dream my bladder was definitely started to get annoyed with me, but once more I ignored it. It was actually really interesting to see the dream that resulted from it.

Real life Dream Lucid Dream sign
For me to remember, dreams are 067300, lucid dreams are the color below blue, #4169e1, and dream signs are the light purple, which is up one and left one from blue, #483d8b.

Went to bed late; it was about one or so.

Funnest card game ever dream
This dream probably came from the fact that my little brother was playing Pokémon for an hour before I went to bed.

This whole dream made me feel like I was having a lot of fun. I mean more than I've ever had in my whole life... Maybe more than what is physically possible in real life. My family was taking a vacation to Japan. Everything was awesome! The buildings were modern and cool, and everyone was too. There was a building that was the headquarters for some really popular Japanese card game. It wasn't like one using the deck that has 2-10 and a jack, queen, king, and ace; it was a game like Pokémon or Yu-Gi-Oh! that had many, many different kinds of cards. My brother and I and I thought we might visit it to see what it was all about. We asked my parents if we could go inside, and they said yes. We got cards and the game was the most awesome thing ever! We played it the whole vacation and were sad to leave when we had to. As we left I woke up at 3:06 in the morning.

I was convinced the game still existed for a while. I wanted to know its name and I was like "I'm going to look up Japanese card games and find this in the morning!" over and over. Slowly it dawned on me that it didn't exist and I was filled with sad longing. When I woke up this morning I searched anyway, just in case...

Sigh...

Fragments of school
The only moment I remember in this dream was me at school talking to my IT teacher about lucid dreaming. I said, "I'm still trying."

I feel so stupid. I didn't do a reality check.

WTF
The only thing I remember was pressing a button over and over to make all these random cartoon-y warriors on some grey rocky shore come out of a set of stone doors and attack these cartoon attackers in the ocean with giant earthworms.

I know for sure there are many parts I missed of these dreams; I can just feel it.

I still want to play that card game again so bad... It simply gave me a feeling of utter joy and awesomeness. When I lucid dream that's my first goal, even before flying. This is all the more reason for me to lucid dream.

0820: Amusement part. Christmas for Hugh's younger brothers. Video game theme. I am announcer of the ride as they go down.

1115: Tom Cruise ... in ... Suggest it is a ...

1400: In math class. Learning about Heydinger Bollinger fields. French teacher watches. I feel like I am not following.

Hello:
last night was a bit weird. I dreamed about my old school, but it had a new style.

Hours of sleep: 6.3h
Vividness: 3/5
Recall: 3/5

In front of me there is a huge shopping mall. It looks like a mall, but it isn't one. Let me explain: The buuilding was huge and quadratic, like a mall, but in front of it was a little wall with bushes, a bus stop and a lot of students are in front of it. Some of them are 14, but the majority are 18/19.
I walk to a guy with glasses and start a conversation:
-Why are we waiting here outsides?
- Hug...
- What?
- The door is closed.
- Did you try open it?
- Nope
- How can you be sure that's closed?
I get no answer and I walk alone to the door and *surprise* it's opened. I don't pay attention and I simply keep walking.

I don't know what happened exactly next, but it turns out that it's my old school. I'm in a class, but I'm really tired. My eyelids shutt down several times. I don't know if I'm a student or if I'm here for my practical training as teacher. I stand up and get out of the classroom.
I go to the cafeteria. It looks a bit weird and not the way as I have it in memory (I spent nearly my half life there and know every little corner of it). I sit somewhere down and start eating a meal composed with beans and bacon. Suddenly I see that in front of me is a friend. He starts speaking:
- You look really exhausted today. Have you got a girlfriend or just more work?
I don't answer him, because I know he's jocking.
- Well, do you know what happened during the class? There were some chicks who made fun of you, because you nearly fell asleep.

He imitates the situation by closing his eyes and let sink down his head, lifted it immediately and open his eyes. He repeats it.

- That's what they did all the time! But I just told them to STFU and stop making fun of you. I'm glad to help.
- Wow, you did that really for me? Your a real bro!
- Yes you know my motto: Bros before Ho's

We start laughing. A few girls show up. They ask me what I'm eating. I tell them and ask them if they want to taste. One of them takes a fork out of her handbag (that's what I call organisation ) and tastes it. She doesn't like it and they walk away.

I'm suddenly in the big auditorium of my old school. A lot of students are there. A play is performed. It's about a guy who always falls asleep while sitting on a chair. I know that it's an allusion on my behaviour in class and to show my protest I cough as loud and as artificial as possible. everyone looks at me.

That's it. I hope I soon get a lucid

I planned to not record my dreams this night. I just wanted to get a solid night's rest. So no recall in the first half (the usual reason). And for the first couple dreams I didn't write anything down. By the last two, I realized the dreams were worth writing down so I did so.

"Do Nothing"
Lucidity: C
Vividness: C
Control: C
~0800: No written notes, so this is spotty from memory. I don't recall how I became lucid. The first thing I recall is doing a nose plug RC. I'm sitting at a campfire circle. It's dusk. It seems like I'm in the giant doorway of an abandoned factory or airplane hanger. A few other DCs are around the fire. They look like migrant workers. The scene made me think of movies like The Motorcycle Diaries and Mi Mejor Enemigo. I remember my plan: "Do nothing", practice reality checks, focus on all 5 senses.. For taste, I lick a rock on the ground and it tastes like dirt! I vaguely recall that I did things for the other senses. I think I had double vision and that frustrated me. I try to talk to the DCs but I don't recall they said anything.

fragment
~0915: C. No written notes, so this is from memory. First thing I recall is a false awakening. I sense there was more before but no detail. I'm in my own room. I get out of bed and look at the time: 1:30pm. Crap, it is really that late? I get up, take off my Zeo headband and dock it in the bedside unit. It gives me a sleep score of 42. Really? I thought I slept better than that. Wake up for real. It's only about 9. My Zeo score for the night ended up at a more respectable 83.

Unfocused Lucid
Lucidity: C
Vividness: C
Control: D
1100: Just a few notes so this is mostly from memory. I'm in a classroom. It's a art or shop class so all the students are standing at work tables. In the dream, I seem to be distracted or sleepy. The teacher is a woman and there are one or two girls sharing my table. The first thing I recall is the teacher scolding me for not paying attention. So I become aware of what we are supposed to be doing. We have a piece of paper with a drawing on it. On top, we have a piece of tracing paper and we are supposed to trace the drawing under it. The drawing is an architectural sketch of a colonial era boat, I think. So I start tracing but there is a time limit. The teacher is nearby, watching me. She thinks I won't finish in time. The other girl at my table is done and she is also watching me. I feel nervous but I act confident. I think we do two tracings like this. The next task is to trim a large piece of meat. It's really thin, more like a the hide than the flesh. The tracing paper has become butcher paper. I move to a larger table and spread this gross sheet of meat over the paper.

Skip. Now I'm outside in what seems to be a school campus but it's unfamiliar. I'm walking up a grassy hill. There are many other students around. It's bright daylight. I see a girl who I recognize as a high school classmate, Beth. I'm not sure but I think this must be what made me lucid. Her hair is weird, kinda like dreadlocks but also kinda like bananas. Anyway, her face is recognizable. Lucidity and control are low at this point. I don't RC or stabilize. I just march up to her, say hello, and demand a blow job. She starts doing it but soon turns into a weird creature and I stop.

I walk away and I'm starting to get my wits about me. But lucidity, vividness, and control are still pretty low. I try to think of my tasks. The only one I can remember is flying barrel roll. I hesitate because my recent flying has not been good. But I can't think of anything else to do so I jump and spin. It works! I'm able to hover horizontally a few feet off the ground and a spin multiple times. (Wikipedia tells me that this is actually an aileron roll, not a barrel roll) I fly around spinning for about 30 seconds. Maybe I popped out to third-person a bit. My lucidity was fading away.

Skip. Now I'm in a building. The school gym or theater maybe? Maybe I lost lucidity for a while and then regained it here. A troupe of clowns is performing a circus-style act. I am in a corner back stage, near the exit. I see a door but I want to try walking through the wall. I try a few times but fail. I try to convince myself that I can do it. I know this is a dream and that I can walk through the wall. But no luck. Dream ends. In retrospect, this attempt at control was too forced.

Dream Within Dream
1130 C. This was a combination of false awakening and false memory that made it feel like a dream within a dream. I sense that I am out of town for work (this is the false memory). I'm staying in a hotel and I'm sleeping and dreaming. In the dream, I am in a WWII-esque battle among the ruins of a bombed city. I'm with my childhood friend Collin. I only have a tiny pistol in this big fight. I see an enemy across the way and fire a few careful shots. The gun is very inaccurate but I manage to hit him in the head. Everyone is happy and celebrates me as the hero.

I have a false awakening in a hotel room. In the dream, I think that the war scene was a lucid dream and I remember the two real previous lucids. So I congratulate myself for 3 lucids in the night.

Skip. Now I'm back in my apartment. Combining the war dream, the false awakening in the hotel, and the false memory of traveling for work, this all creates the dream within the dream phenomenon. So anyway, I'm home in my apartment but it looks totally different. I sense that, as I returned from traveling, my roommate has just left. I see that he has left a bunch of books and devices about lucid dreaming. He is just starting to pratice having lucid dreams. I go in the bathroom and see that the faucet has been left on just a drip. But over several days, the drip has flooded the room with an inch of water.

I Thought I put in a good effort this night, but no lucids.

Spooky
0328: C. Typically weird first cycle dream. Trying to become an actor? Playing DDR-like game with the arrow keys of a keyboard with my left hand. Images of playing cards. The game is hard and I can't keep up. As I miss the notes, the screen gets distorted and starts playing really spooky wailing noises. I feel frightened, like I've offended some evil spirits. Just a dream... Just a dream...

Fighting the Soviets
0652: C. Small troop in the army. It's me, childhood friend Ashwin, a random third guy, and our commander is my apartment building manager. There's a military stand-off with the Soviet Union. Something about railroads. We sneak into Russia on mini-trains. We are wearing USC hats instead of helmets and that seems to fool the Soviet army guards. We fight and win two small skirmishes. A woman thief has been stalking us. She can turn invisible. She steals all the coins out of Ashwin's pocket. I see her and ask to stay and help us. She is familiar but I can't place her. Long black hair and tan. We settle down in an abandoned train station to sleep.

WBTB+MILD 10 minutes

Random School Scenes
0800: C. Not sure of the order of events here. It was probably the reverse of my notes. Going to junior high during the summer. My PE coach is Gordon Ramsey. I'm in third person. Looking at myself I'm wearing blue jeans and a white polo shirt, the same as Gordon. I look really buff. Then in math class. A friend, Chris, is sitting behind me and gets called out of class to the office. He asks me to watch his backpack. When class ends, I leave the backpack with the teacher. But I forget the teacher's name and am embarrassed. Then in a giant bathroom with many trough urinals like a sports stadium. Most of the boys in the bathroom are much younger than me.

WBTB+MILD 60 minutes, read DV, B-Complex vitamin, water and piece of bread

Ice Cream and Being Locked Out
1000: C. This might have been two or three dreams connected with hallucinations or short waking day dreams. At a strip mall looking for something to eat. Pass through a Weinersnitzel. Find an ice cream stand. Get a medium cup of strawberry (residue from a few days ago).

Now at home. I live with Lance? I'm in my room and hungry again. I leave to get some ice cream across the street. Forgot my keys and locked out. Find an open gate in the parking lot which leads to a bunch of maintenance access tunnels and ladders. I follow these and they lead to a trap door in the floor of Lance's room. He is watching TV. I apologize for intruding and explain what happened.

Now I am back outside, maybe the next morning. I sense I am well dressed. I lay down on a mattress that is lying at the curb of the street. The street is dirty and the area is a bit sketchy. I am near an intersection. A man walks out into the intersection to block traffic and starts taunting a guy in a van. Another man in a pizza delivery car gets out of his car and yells at the guy in the street to move out of the way. The guy apologizes and says the man in the van he is taunting is his friend. The pizza man returns to his car but he has locked himself out. He pushes his car out of the way.

Still laying in the street on a mattress, I notice the building next to me is one of those payday loans places. A few really hot women step out of it and walk near me. One steps over me in a skirt. It seems like they are trying to get my attention.

Thief with Powers
1127: C. I'm in a sketchy part of a city. I climb along rooftops and I can slip through water drains and air vents. I use these powers to sneak into a donut shop and steal all the money from the cash register. For a while, I continue to stake out this shop. I am watching for the reaction of the people and waiting for another opportunity to steal more.

Strange series of dreams earlier this week.

Gonna try to just directly record what I recorded in my DJ rather than interpret. See how that goes.

Flying in a circle in a room full of colors, heard a voice recite
"Flying in our dreams,
it is lucky we do not
have many doubts."

1) H, J and M, dream where my parents were trying to hook me up with a person I live with, but it was very strange/ kind of scarring feeling since I would never think of doing something like that. They set up a tape recorder and fabricated evidence of me confessing love, I tell her about this and clarify that I do like her but do not want to marry her.

2) Scene where a famliy, big extended family, all playing music together around a big piano, many instruments. I sit to join them and am welcomed because they can tell I am not having the best dreams tonight [lol] A little kid does something or keeps insisting on doing something different that makes the father angry and kind of ruins the good vibe

3a) I'm in a park, and have to pee so I go near some trees off a road, cemetary/public area feeling, and realize I am next some military school. Felt open and vast, big roads, maybe an elementary school like near where I grew up.

b) Near the school at a sidewalk and see some kids that look like deadbeats, and try to advertize explain the concept of WWOOFing/ working for education, trying to get the lazy kids to do their party in society/ do their best but not convincing them.

c) Walking along with friends past school and kids are outside, all ethnicities and races, sunny day green grass blue skies. So I feel that i want to play with them and start kicking around a soccer ball that suddensly was in the scene, which is very fun. This turns into a full fledged soccer game, with one net and many adults. I'm determined to have a good mood and break out of my funk, and while most of the game I feel like I'm not doing well, near the end I do my best and wind up scoring a goal at the last second and am victorious.


4)Breakfast at my childhood friend Joe's house, though the house doesn't look like his at all, more of a cabin. Drinking win with breakfast, and I take some sips bu tnot much. Joe leaves/ gest up and tries to get me to leave with him and says something I cannot understand. Then his Grandpa, who looks like Danny Devito comes upstairs decked out in hunting gear, saying tha's what the guys of their family do to get good spirits.

Funny thing is that all the dreams near the same school were divided by the rest of the other dreams, never in sequence, though they all took place near the same area. I woke up from the soccer dream, which was the last of the night, feeling great after just having scored and goal and won the game.

I find it interesting/funny that a common theme/ action of many of my dream characters was to make me feel better/ get out of the irritable mood that I was in during all of my dreams. I like that, and now that I look back must have been because I have been concentrating on not letting simple stupid things get me angry and dwelling on the things that do get me frusterated. Power of mind and meditation.

This dream actually took place the night before my previous entry.

It feels like it's been forever since my last lucid, but it's only been five days! Crazy, after not having been able to have a lucid for a full year. I've got to keep myself relaxed I think, and not pressure myself too much on progress, try to just stimulate my imagination and have fun with it all. I have a tendency to to bury my mind too much into one task and stress myself out about it, which results in -bad dreams, bad attitude, avoidance of the tast, and most importantly, no lucids! So that last two days I've kind of taken a break from dream research and just done casual RCs and not trying to do MILDS, just focused on getting a good night sleep and relaxing before bed, which did well since I recalled like.. six dreams last night? Which is more than usual. Don't want to burn out.

Anyway. Much love to all. I've been reading C. Jung's Memories, Dreams and Reflections and it's a FABULOUS book regarding one man's experience of his dream and inner conscious, and how dedicated he was to examining his own experiences and the ethical and moral responsibility he felt toward discovering his own true nature, for the sake of his patients and the benifit of humanity. A superb and inspiring book to any dreamers.. or just anybody.

phase1: (possible semi-lucid)I was at a pool flying about 15 or 20 feet above, stephanie meyer (who is apparently a life guard) and matt cortese are talking to eachother in the pool. I kept pouring buckets of dilluted/dirty water on her while flying in a lounging position as if i were just floating on air. The pool was amidst a forest that surronded circularly then there were Highways past the forest range. there was more to this dream but i forgot.

phase 2:Then I was in a school (which i've never been to) and i was conversing with a guy then over came four girls 2 were allison e and kate l (from highschool) the girls talked to the other dude but shrugged my prescence off. after they walked away kate l stood there as if she felt sorry that i was ignored.

phase 3: Then i'm in the same school but its a different phase. Erin Mcloraine needed me to text something and she asked me to text the number 25 so at first i stumble upon the blackberry-esque phone keys then i type 25 and it was underlined then the dream faded.