I woke up last night, and couldn't move. It must have been a SP. After some minuttes, I decided to go back to sleep. Without writing my dreams down in my dream journal. Then I woke up this morning, and could only remember one little dream. Or, I remembered many details, so the dream became long enought, but it's still not good enough. Let's hope my recall is better tomorrow. I'm going to write a dream I had yesterday, it must be 29/9-11 (or 9/29-11, the first one is Danish). A voice from the sky I found myself in a big building. Me and my class was making a play, and mine was about a dead man. I was standing front of a tombstone, and walked down the stairs to tell my friends about the play. When I came up, I saw the man. He was 100% alive, and smiled and if you asked someone, he has never been dead. I looked really confused at him, because I couldn't understand it! And he looked confused on me, because I looked at him. Suddently, I head a loud woman-voice from the sky. She said.. This is just a dream. It's a lucid dream. You can control everything. "Is it a dream?!", I thought, and then I woke up. ( )
Today I had two semi-lucid dreams that were different from any dreams Ive had before. In the first dream I turned on the kitchen facet and the water pressure was low. I thought "I hope this is a dream" and I thought it probably was. I tried to increase the water by will. I imagined a strong flow but this seemed less real than the dream. As soon as I quit imagining the water pressure immediately returned to being low. In the second dream I put some CDs in a bag and left them on the street for some reason. When I came back I found they had been stepped on and some were broken. I was like "Damn! I hope this is a dream" and I thought it probably was a dream. But I wasnt sure though. Too bad I didnt bother to do some reality checks. These dreams were after I had gone back to bed after briefly being up. They occurred late in the afternoon.
The dream starts with me inside a small house, I walk outside and look around noticing a couple of buildings and a small ramp. The landscape is a dull grey that looks like it could go on forever. Three figures emerge from one of the buildings. The first figue is hunched and has that creepy look about him, while the other two (upon talking to them) seem to be of the stupid sidekick types that obey the first figure. The hunched figure appears to be a friendly man, he tells me I must help him escape. I am slightly confused as to why he would ask such a thing (when he looks like he is free already in the vast expanse of my mind). However I accept to help the man thinking there would be no harm in doing so. After performing a number of tasks, I grow a suspicion for the man thinking why I need to do so many actions that are supposedly ment to help him escape. He talks in a expectant and exited manner the more I do, much like the way a villan plots his next evil scheme. When he leads me to the top of one of the buildings, the man holds out a key, dangling it over the side of the building looking at me curiously. He says how thankful he is of me doing these things for him and that this will be the last thing needed to help him escape. But then he starts to re-think the final task saying how I am incapable of doing something drastic, like catching this key. For some reason I feel compelled to say that I can (possibly out of stubborn pride). The man smirks and drops the key off the side of the building. While reaching out towards the key I slip off the edge but manage to grab it in time, landing on top of a car at the base of the building unharmed. The man shouts from the bulding top "I knew it was too much of a challenge!". I reply "I did it!", he looks confused for a moment before saying "I knew you could!" and reaching me at the bottom of the building near the car. I look to my side and notice an object much like a plate of metal with a keyhole carved into it. I ask the man what it is but his only reply is "Nothing to worry about, now " he stops when he notices me closing my eyes before continuing "No! Don't wake up! Come back!!". I wake up from my dream. During this dream I was semi-lucid, meaning I was aware I was dreaming but felt a strange need to follow the dream plot.
I only remember a fragment, like my previous Lucid Dream (Why do I only forget Lucid Dreams?? ) Keep in mind I haven't watched or read Harry Potter books in a looooonggg time and I'm not really that into it. But from how the non-lucid part went (me walking with a wand), it transformed to me performing Harry Potter spells, because I knew what to expect from different spells and would give me better control over my dream Lucidity: 1 2 3 4 5 6 7 8 9 10 I remember walking around with a wand. I did not have full lucidity, as my brain was not completely in-sync with my normal waking life brain (I wasn't thinking the same) :L <> :S. I was walking with lots of people I disliked, when I realised I was dreaming, and, the evil selfish person I am, decided to torture them > Yes, I had a really narrow mind during the dream! haha! :L One by one, I killed them all while they begged me to stop -.- I'm so evil. When I reached the last person (before I woke up), the killing curse didn't work, so I decided to use the Torture one. When it shot through the wand, however, I woke up. Yay for wasting a Lucid Dream :L -.-
June 1, 2011 This was a particularly cool non-lucid/semi-lucid dream I had a while back. Parts where non-lucid while other parts were semi-lucid. The dream started at a time in the past when I was new to dream control, in the dream. I mean, as part of the dream time line. I think I was walking around in some field somewhere, when a small, 8 petaled flower fluttered down from the sky. It looked similiar to a sunflower, with a dark speckled center, and orangey yellow petals. A werewolf spawned from it and woke me up in the dream. I was still dreaming, and the dream story skipped to another time, where I started to sleep again. I was being taught dream control by a sort of mentor. It was a she. She was teaching me how to spawn these flowers, and influence what came out of them. At first, I was afraid it would be another werewolf, but my mentor told me to expect a bunny, and when I did one hopped out of the flower I summoned. After I realized how easy it was, I went home to practice summoning. This section was semi-lucid, because I realized I could do anything I wanted, but I didn't want to do anything I wouldn't do in the real world, if anyone could see me. I could easily call a flower down and influence what came out of it. After summoning some random stuff, I decided to summon a furry to have sex with. I called down a flower, but when I summoned the furry, it came out as a hardened plush toy. At this point, my mom started to come out, and I felt a need to hide the thing. I tried to summon a tote box, but It came out as a cardboard box that had been warped from water. Using telekinesis I put the box over the plushy, and my alarm went off. When I woke up, I said "that was an awesome dream."
I dreamt I was with the Soprano's family waiting in a lounge room. There was an unpleasant woman who spoke to me in irritation about another cast member when I explained to her that hating someone is not a pleasant pursuit and will do nothing to the person you hate but will hurt you by creating hate within yourself. I made a marvellous argument and lay down and even repeated a point to myself and laughed about it. She later had to share a car with Tony's wife Carmella who later related to me how much the lady had changed which was due to my enlightened chat. Later I was having significant trouble cooking rice and each batch was spoilt. I realised at some point that it was a dream and I had an uncontrolled side dream about hanging out with people and having to hold a knife in fear of them attacking me, which they did. Then later I realised that since it was a dream that I didn't have to put up with all the fear and uncomfortableness and began floating about and checking light switches. I tried to imagine myself in a location that I once camped in but my dream faded. I then woke up hoping it was a false awakening but sadly it wasn't and the lamp was turning on and off as it should.
I had a total of 4 dreams last night 1. Non-Lucid [For some reason I was given some shirts as presents and went on dreamviews, It was very brief. 2. Semi-lucid I was at a college that ive never been to before, it had very large trees and buildings. I remember being bored so I went to the library. For some reason there ws a video games and anime section in the library where you could buy books. I spent some time in there paroozing various japanese dbz games and anime boxes without making any decisions (I tend to do this in rl sometimes) After that I considered taking some rp books from a table where two people sat. I then woke up took care of buisness and went back to sleep. 3. Semi-Lucid This next dream I was a different person who was older and gruff. I was in a large building with many people, a community center. Everyone was freaking out, I looked outside and noticed something was wrong with the people- they seemed like lifeless shells: zombies! Everyone was making a run for it out of the building, I grabbed a shotgun out of nowhere and loaded it up. I asked a woman if she could drive and she said yes. We made a run for her truck (there were several others with us but she is the only one I remember) I gunned down several zombies as she put the keys in the ignition. We drove for awhile and I told her to stop at this warehouse. I bust down the door and look around- Its a large place foor food and gun storage. The owner comes out and I recognize him, he is a man in his 30's wearing a black suit and comed back hair. We have an argument of some kind, I end up knocking him out and taking plenty of supplies. After leaving I suggest that we go to australia where no zombies are and the dream ends. 4. Semi-Lucid By far the most bizzare of dreams I have had so are. I was a soldier in the military, the commander was giving a speech to try to supress and brainwash the soldiers into being good, following orders, I wasnt very thrilled about it. He was assigning positins for a mission and my knowledge was called into question. I proceeded to list off this officers file in its entirety, he was freaked out and sent me away somewhere else. I was then in regular clothes, I went into an underground cavern in seach of something, some sort of knowledge. I spoke with several beings who could shift their form at will. There was another man with me with similar goals. The conversation wasnt going very well, the being in front of me seemed angry and wanted to test us. The being transformed into this large disgusting thing that I can only describe as an abomination. I and the other man faced this creature, and I said something very important to it- the creature was very impressed and allowed us to go further into his sanctum, the dream ended there. I think the last dream had some significance, but during the entire dream I felt as if I was in control, it was quite awesome. Next time im going to write my journal immediately after the dreams so I can get in more detail.
1st Dream Saturday 10/05/2008 My dream wasn't that clear and I was semi-lucid. I don't remember too much but It started off with an old lady, my best friend and I. It was a dark night, the stars were out and a cresent moon was all that lit the scene. We were all in a speed boat. A black man was our driver and he was taking us somewhere but we didn't know where because he never spoke. I was standing in the boat looking down at the water and the reflection of the moon. We passed several other speed boats with couples looking deeply into each others eyes passionatly, in one boat there was a fat woman with short blonde hair with a rather handsome looking tall man. With only looking at the couple I could tell the woman was deep in love with this man but the man was only playing mind games with her, he didn't love her atall. The speed boat we were on was going very fast and bobbed up and down vigerously while other boats just drifted along. While going past all the other boats the couples cut eye contact with eachother and turned to face us with an unfathomable expression. I felt uncomfortable holding eye-contact with these strangers so I looked away to the floor of the boat and that was when I noticed 2 other people were in the boat, I looked up and it was my best friend (Shanna) and an old woman that I didn't recognize. After this the dream skipped to the three of us being in an old, grand castle made of stone. It looked like a prison because there was other men behind bars aggresive and filthy shouting through the small window through the door at us. We were all in one room together and my best friend and the old lady looked like they knew what was happening. I stood there and none of us spoke or barely looked at eachother. There was silence for a short period of time and then there was loud banging on the very thick, sturdy wooden door and the noise bellowed around the room and the door began breaking out of its hinges. It alarmed me and the others and my natural instinct told me to escape. I looked for a window and there was a hole in the large stone that made up the castle walls. I brushed my hand against my waist and realized I was wearing one of the guards belts. The belt was made of thick, strong lether and had pointy hard bits that stuck out the sides (this is hard to explain) I headed for the hole in the wall and looked down, I was about 50ft from the ground but I thought I would use the belt to climb down. I climbed out the window and jammed the pointy parts of the belt inbetween the rock so it wouldnt budge, I continued this so I could eventually climb down to see if this idea would sucseed so we could escape. When climbing down I passed several windows and more men behind the bars shouting and put their arms out and violently to try and grab me. I remember one of them looked like Rasputin. I finally climbed down till I was only about 14/15ft from the ground and a guard ran out from the front enterance of the castle. He had a belt too but it had sharp metal spikes on the end of it. The man then started to try and kill me by waving the belt below me attempting for it to try and hit me. I got scared and climbed up again to collect Shanna and the old woman. We climbed down together, somehow. Before we got to the end they held on to me and we floated/flew away, we flew over many beautiful scenerys; mostly forests and fields. The further we went the more out of focus all the scenery became and it distorted and fuzzed into something that looked like a websearch on google earth (but scrolled in to a certain extent so the image is pixelated). We eventually landed as it felt like I couldn't fly any longer carrying the others weight. Once we landed I automaticaly thought we were on the coast of Florida. When I had my feet on the ground I saw the old woman and Shanna walk off with their backs turned against me and I felt the ground as slippy (apparently the pixels didn't give enough grip) and I slid off the edge and into the sea. 2nd Dream I don't remember anything but I was half concious (in my dream) and I could feel someone taking my body apart. When I woke up in the morning I couldn't move.
Non-Lucid Semi-Lucid This dream was a really cool one. I nearly got lucid but I woke up even though I started stabilizing my dream by looking at my hands. I don’t remember the entire dream but the setting was a rather gloomy town. Everything was a really dark shade of purple. It looked like the city of Derse from Homestuck. I vaguely remember walking around there and talking to Sollux (also from Homestuck). What I do remember is meeting Aradia (Homestuck again) on a plain. She greeted me quite cheerfully and took me for a walk. While walking through the narrow streets we discussed about the role of the Space and Time players and the problem of Jack Noir. Then we suddenly weren’t in the city anymore. As if we’d stepped through an invisible curtain we were now in a vast, open area. There was nothing there, just dark purple emptiness. I asked Aradia how we should get past here and told her I had already tried before but failed. But she just smiled at me, jumped and landed about one meter further, causing ripples to flow through the surface, as if she was standing on an invisible rock beneath a tiny amount of also invisible water. Now that I knew what I was looking for I managed to find other invisible stepping stones and took a different route. After some jumping around we got to a large platform in the middle of the emptiness. There were also some other trolls and humans there (Sollux, Nepeta, Dave and Jade). Suddenly I realized I was dreaming and did the nose reality check and started looking at my hands to stabilize the dream immediately afterwards. It was to no avail, though, as I woke up. It’s a shame I was deprived of a lucid dream yet again but at the same time I’m glad I remembered such a cool dream.
Non-Lucid, Semi-Lucid The dream I had last night was really weird and it almost resulted in a LD! The only reason it didn't was because the situation at the moment I realised I was dreaming was very threatening, so I forgot to do a RC and stabilize my dream. When the dream started, I was staning in my backyard on a sunny day. Then, my mom called me to get something (I don't recall what it was) from our shed. So I went into the shed and started looking around, but when I looked under the couch I noticed our Hippogriff (from Harry Potter) was gone. I hurried out of the shed and told my two youngest little brothers (I've got three) our Hippogriff was gone. They said they would try and find him and left the backyard, only to return moments later with a half-eaten head of a bull and a young but apparently unharmed (besides being dead) deer. This startled me and I told them to put it back where they got it as the smell might attract the now loose Hippogriff, which might be dangerous. Then my mom came outside to see what all the commotion was about (my little brothers had already left). So I told her about the Hippogriff. It seemed to scare her a lot that our Hippogriff had escaped, while I wasn't that worried at all. I told her to calm down; the Ministry (as in the Ministry of Magic) would capture the Hippogriff and erase our memories. I was just toying with the idea of blinking when they'd cast the amnesia spell to negate it when several hooded people appeared out of thin air. There where about seven of them. They were all pretty short, about a head shorter than I am (I am around 1.8 metres tall). I couldn't see the faces of six of them, as they had black cloaks with hoods over their heads, concealing their faces. The one in the front, the seventh, did have his face uncovered. It was Voldemort and the other six were Death Eaters. Voldemort didn't say a word but walked straight past us with his Death Eaters until he was standing next to our house and then he turned around. I was really scared and my mom was making squeaky sounds, as if she tried screaming but couldn't. I was afraid Voldemort could attack at any moment and was about to run away when I realised that I shouldn't be afraid in a dream. Now I realised I was dreaming and I didn't have to be afraid anymore so I charged at Voldemort without doing a RC or stabilizing the dream first. The running was rather sluggish, but it didn't matter since Voldemort didn't move at all. I crossed the final bit of distance between us and punched him in the face with my right fist. When I made contact Voldemort simply disappeared and the death eaters around started running away, still not talking and not even trying to fight back. I figured I'd better use some more agressive methods so I summoned a Rasengan (from Naruto) in my right hand and smashed the closest Death Eater in his side with it. The effect wasn't what I expected; lighting came off on impact as if I'd used a Chidori instead and the Death Eater didn't appear to be very harmed besides staggering a little bit. I turned around and saw Voldemort again, now facing me instead of running away like his Death Eaters. I ran at him again, this time not sluggish and tried punching him again, but he dodged me and tried punching me himself, only just missing me. Then I summoned another Rasengan to my right hand and hit Voldemort straight in the face with it, which caused him and to disappear along with his Death Eaters. I then walked inside to go to the toilet and as I was entering the bathroom I had a False Awakening. I was really excited so I got out of bed and ran downstairs where my mom was already having breakfast. I told her what had happened and then the dream ended. I didn't wake up for the rest of the night (nor did I recall any other dreams). When my alarm went off I sat up in my bed and tried to recall any dreams when this one came back to me and I wrote it in my DJ. I'm really excited about my nearly successful DILD and I hope I'll have my first full DILD soon!
I'm going to colour code this slightly differently than normal just to make it all a bit clearer. Waking Life (Top Level) Semi-Lucid Dream (Middle Level) Lucid Dream (Bottom Level) I am walking down a stone spiral staircase with my old media teacher. I know that I am dreaming and don't need to reality check as the environment is one of the clearest I've experienced. The excitement that I may have a vivid, lucid dream for the first time in a while ends this fragment of the dream. I am in a grand lecture theatre/exam hall. It is all on one level and the walls look a lot like the Great Hall in Harry Potter. There are red drapes and the seats have red cushions on them. I am sitting next to T_ S_ and realise that she is extremely beautiful. I lean in to her and realise I am lucid. "Breath on me," I say "And poke me". She asks why and I tell her it's just extremely important that she does so - I use the sensations to ground myself within the dream and everything becomes extremely vivid. I ask her to kiss me and she does so, it was amazing - better than any kiss I've ever had in real life. Despite the fact we're in the somewhat busy lecture hall we start to make love. I wake up in what I think is my bed, making love to a brunette girl. She seems shocked I'm doing this and I quickly explain that I was having a lucid dream and that the actions must have carried over to waking life. I am still semi-aware that I'm dreaming as you can see in the rest of this dream extract. We are back in the building with the stone steps and the girl takes me to her class, it seems to have a similar atmosphere to the dream in the lecture hall. I watch from the back for a while and then, when class is over, we head back up the stone steps and emerge at the top of a hill in the desert. Her friend has joined us and we turn to close the large wooden door. As we do so a zombie comes running up the hallway, we just about manage to lock it out. I have the sudden urge to help and a presence (dream guide?) tells me that I can. I need to find a particular seed and feed it to the zombie people to return them to a human state. Whilst being told this the zombie breaks through the door and bites the brunette girl's friend. She quickly becomes a zombie and I fight her off, trying to protect the brunette. I can't hold them off for long forever before she gets a small scratch. I vividly remember seeing her right eye developing a white sheen and before long she is one of them. At this point I fly off the hill and over the desert, searching for the seed. When I find it I see that it looks like the head of a venus fly trap but purple, with pink spines sticking out of it. I quickly return with three of these and feed them to the three zombies. Two of them become the seeds themselves and start chatting (I blindly accept this) and when I give the third one to the brunette she recovers as quickly as she changed. The next thing I know I have taken the two girls back to their dorms and am saying goodbye as I plan to leave for another adventure - the advanced task of the month. I try to teleport there but the dream ends. Definitely dipped in and out of lucidity in the last part of the dream there but it was definitely one of the best LD's I've ever had! It has also occurred to me that the voice I heard that told me to get the seeds may be my dream guide. I felt a sort of presence (as I have read about countless times) when I was being told this information. I really hope I find a dream guide, not for the advice, but so that I have a companion on my adventures to share the fun with.
The beginning of this dream is only a vague impression of being with a group of lighthearted people. I was inside a two story house with a carpeted spiral stairway. I saw this one shady looking guy creep down stairs to what I knew was my bedroom. I heard a laugh track (like a sitcom). Suddenly, I felt worried he was about to steal my wallet. So I quickly headed downstairs. My room was undisturbed, I walked over to my nightstand and grabbed my wallet and keys. I turned to walk away. I noticed myself in a full length mirror mounted on the wall. I was wearing an outfit I didn't recognize. I had on a blue-gray shirt turned upside down. The fit was comfortable but in the reflection, my arms were out of the bottom end of the shirt. The short sleeves and collar were wrapped around my waist, unstressed and comfortable looking. I became embarrassed and took off my shirt, and put it back on the right way. I exited the house out the front door and crossed over a white wooden porch. It was broad daylight. Before me was a rather large amusement park looking expanse. It had walls with outcroppings and lots and building scattered between wide open grassy areas, and walled sections. (The layout is hazy - and changing.) I walked around the area and I recall interacting with a few people (this was hazy). I made my way over to a lively baseball diamond. A serious league style game was underway. (Not a huge fan of baseball but I watch now and then.) I decided to see how the game was going. A pitch was just then thrown and hit foul at my feet. I ignored it while the first basemen picked it up. A second pitch was hit foul at my feet, this time I picked it up and tossed it to the third basemen (for some reason), upsetting everyone and knocking him down flat and motionless. I zoomed over to check on him and this cartoon-like man zoomed over at the same time, beating me to the unconscious player. He jumped on top of him in a flash, and sparkles of yellow energy emitted into the air, video game style. This startled me. Something about this fast moving prankster was alarming. I sped off the field to do something different. When I was several field lengths away, the wild DC yelled out: "Catch this!" I spun around in time to see him launch the baseball at me in an arch from a great distance. As it came, it grew to the size of a football. I dodged. It crashed into a person standing nearby - utterly mowing them down with rotating white cutters. It was a pretty nasty looking way to die. I wanted to leave this chaotic character alone. I exerted great speed to loose him. (Something that works 99% of my dreams lately.) He gave chase and had no problem keeping up. (The visuals/recall get vivid at this point.) I weaved through a magical looking hallway with multiple portals in it. One had a golden force field that I easily slipped through. I thought I lost him for sure, turned around, and there he was emerging from a similar circular portal. Huge grin, about 15-ft away. I decided to walk away at this point. Running super fast zig-zags wasn't helping. I started to feel trapped. I asked him to show me the way out of this land. Now the DC looked a lot like the Madhatter. He gloated at my surrender and announced illustriously something close to the effect of: "I will gladly show the way out! But first, there is something else I would much rather show you." After the deadly baseball incident, I wasn't feeling curious. I said "No." Turned and kept walking slowly down a bizarre fun house like hallway. He said: "All right, all right. Right this way then." He turned off the main hall and opened white double doors to a suspiciously dark area... I said, "This isn't really the way out is it?" He looked at me sly and said, "You are right, but I really must show you one last thing before you go!" I said "No!" and hurriedly walked straight some more. -Then I woke up
Updated 03-14-2011 at 09:29 PM by 32174
A Sizable Strawberry My mom’s driving her car. I’m in the middle of the backseat, Holden’s next to me and his little sister Sarah who is incredibly fat in my dream is on my right. Holden and I discuss selling strawberry chips, just like potato chips but sliced and fried strawberries instead. I see why we were discussing this: up ahead, there’s a giant strawberry! Not the size of a house or a mansion or even a plane, it’s the size of an airport! My dad is in the front seat now. Instead of parking our car in the big sea-side parking lot (the strawberry is right next to the sea), we just drive up it. This scares me quite a bit because once we get the car on the strawberry, we are almost completely vertical. I ask if we could flip over and my dad reassures me that’s impossible. I close my eyes until the car stops on top of it. We all get out and are given little green baskets to put our pickings in. I don’t see how this is going to work until I look down at the surface of the strawberry: it’s covered in little yellow tags. Each one is attached to the flowering part of a seed, which can be pulled and a perfect cube of strawberry comes out. I start pulling a few and walk over to where my dad is. He’s on a little lake on the strawberry. It’s not too big, maybe 12 x 12 feet and full of murky strawberry-sea-water and long stems. He’s pulling huge cubes from around the edges of it and I help him out, pulling them and putting them in his basket. Walking on it isn’t difficult, it’s plushy and kind of fun if I don’t look down: we are quite a ways up. I walk around and see that everyone is going into a little observatory room on the top most point of the strawberry. Inside, everyone’s standing kind of far back from the main window. Kayla, my ex-boyfriends new girlfriend, is by the window really close. My mom, my dad and Holden and I walk towards the window too to see. Suddenly, the floor beneath the window lets go like a trap door and we tumble out of it. I don’t remember falling, only hitting the water. My leg is somehow attached to something big so when I start sinking, I feel like I’ll die here (though I didn’t feel exactly hopeless or bad: I just knew I could, possibly, die). My dad comes swimming at me and unhooks my leg. Kayla is still under somewhere, so my mom looks for her. When she comes up from the depths, she kind of nudges me back down and I hit my leg on a really weird smooth rock section. It happens twice but we finally make it back to the shore. My dream repeats. Everything is the same until we are in the observatory. I change the dream so all of us are kind of next to the window but not that close, so when the trap door drops, only Kayla goes down. My mom saves her. It wasn’t malicious of me, I just didn’t want to be scared again and I had no control over Kayla.
Updated 02-26-2011 at 02:41 PM by 42137
I'm asked out by someone who's exactly my type and I'm ecstatic about it. He kisses me and says he can't wait. When the day arrives, he shows up at the dinner place with his girlfriend, who has surprised him by dropping into town. They keep smiling dreamily at each other and can't seem to unwind their arms off each other. I know his locker is next to mine, so I'll either have to suck it up and be just friends with him and wait out the relationship, if it ends, or I'll have to give in to my feelings of jealousy and anger. The latter prove too powerful and I walk away from the situation, venting to my friend Carol from high school. I notice a lot of people staring at me, particularly men with headsets (workers on a film crew) - it's the film production department of a university. I've suddenly become the shrill, unreasonable woman who yells, to anyone within earshot, "I really thought he liked me. He kissed me and everything. And then he shows up with his girlfriend??" So Carol is continuing to try to be sympathetic, but I'm looking like comic relief and I know it. We go into a classroom where a well-dressed woman is sitting at a piano. I walk up and ask if I can practice singing a jazz number I know. I feel I need to do this just to feel better. She just stares, so in order to reassure her I pull the sheet music from my bag. It's at this point that she tosses me one of those icy uppercrust smiles and says, "I'm sorry. Our soloist is performing and I do have to get ready." (She'd just been sitting at the piano before I'd tried to do anything.) I say to Carol, who is seated, and for all in the room to hear, "Now, you see how that just took me down a few notches socially?" Carol and the others pretend I'm crazy. I reassure Carol, "Don't worry. This is a dream, so these people aren't actually real." Carol sinks further into her chair. "I'll prove it," I continue. "Watch this." Then I address the room: "Freeze!" Everyone freezes in their spot, including Carol. I bend forward and address Carol, "Unfreeze." She does. But others are slowly starting to unfreeze as I speak. I continue, "When the pianist refused to play my piece, especially since she did it in front of the entire room, don't you see how I was left standing foolishly and holding the bag? No one wants to acknowledge it and I don't know why, but that's the way it is. She does it because she can." I have to go back to my locker at that point and there's a produce aisle right near it. Dream date and his girlfriend are there, ogling. I see a note scrawled in the dust by Dream Date: "Sorry, didn't mean to hurt you. " It only makes me angrier because I know that means he knows I liked him and this means he'll never be interested in me in any case. Anyway, the last scene I remember in the dream is of me walking quickly with my head down, trying to stay ahead of the Dream Couple, bounding across stairways so I can just get to my locker before they do and get the heck out of there. Risperidone ran out three nights ago, so I guess the nightmares are back....
Last night's dream was... Weird. I know that's a silly thing to say about a dream, since they're all weird in their own right, but I find something about this dream unsettling. The dream was processed over the course of an hour from 6:30 to 7:30. I remember playing a pokemon game. It was like a cross between Mystery Dungeon and one of the regular games... For some reason there were conflicts about it, but I can't remember over what specifically. At some point, the antagonist came to play. There was no name for him. He was a hulking creature that wore a ski mask and overalls, but the rest of his body was pretty much black as the night sky. Then I met up with my significant other. Or maybe he had been with me all along. We argue about pokemon a lot so the conflict could've been there... But then we reached a place that looked like a combination of Walmart and an abandoned house I had explored the night prior (in real life).... And the antagonist was hanging out of the entrance to the attic... Which really wasn't attached to the building. Standing at the registers of this place were two strange little people. I believe both were female and part bear, yet so short. They wore miners caps and overalls much like the generic looming figure. Here's where it gets strange. I claim to recognize them from a paranormal magazine or video of some sort, where they had claimed they could enter anyone's dream from any place in the world. In a way, I realized I was dreaming... But didn't at the same time. In the dream, I was aware that it was a dream, yet I wasn't conscious of the fact. Anyways, my significant other immediately interrupts and says something to the effect that should such a thing be fact it would falsify the existence of humanity or some such nonsense. It sounded like something he would say. When he finally shuts up, the two start explaining that they're in my dream for a reason. To help me conquer the antagonist in the background who scares the shit out of me. Eventually it leads us up to the attic. At first, we see nothing... But then roaches start coming out of every crevice. Collapsing on the floor, I take hold of my boyfriend and hold him tightly. The bugs start to whirl around us in a twister-like manner, while a few of them hit us across the face. I remember feeling his warmth... Which is strange since I slept alone. The two yell at me, tell me that this is it. I needed to survive this and then everything would be okay. I screamed... And my scream turned into my alarm. At that point, I woke up... Feeling cheated.
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