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Running a checksum in a database that represents some aspect of life does not produce same result as expected, but someone points out that maybe expectations were wrong.

Another fragment: got a new iPad, won it somehow. My mother in law was in this dream too. I think maybe she won it, and gave it to me. Oh, and I remembered telling my boys that this new iPad does not have all the games yet on it, except for a few which grandma downloaded.

The 3 LDs I had this morning were bizarrely interesting. I changed my G dosing a bit with some unexpected results. Nothing went the way I expected and I think my lucidity levels probably wavered a bit here and there. This first dream was not quite as vivid as I had hoped to start with but as the dream went on it became more and more clear.

#220 - DEILD - 2:56AM

I wake up from some non lucid dream that I cannot remember and go into DEILD mode. I find myself in a type of void very quickly. I am glad for that because this time I want to form the TARDIS from the inside out. I reach out and feel railing with one hand. It's pretty solid right away. I follow the hexagon shape around the center console several times. The speed gets faster and fast and I start to feel a little like I am just spinning. I slow down and decide to try and feel the console. It's there but its fuzzy. I continue feeling with both hands until something big happens.

There is a klaxon alarm and a screen comes into view like some radar. I see one yellow dot leaving and two red dots coming my way. There is a computer voice saying, "WARNING. PROXIMITY ALARM." The first thing that comes into mind is that the Daleks have found me already. I am startled but also amused that I am in the TARDIS. I take a quick look around and see it looks very much like it should though a little like a video game (Playstation Home). I look up and notice the rings on the ceiling. I still have a strong instinct to run and that moment I hear the TARDIS engines make that unique sound. I know I must be moving on someplace else and become very curious where I'll end up.

I look back at the doors and just get a gimps of The Doctor leaving and I quickly follow him out. There is a brief confusion of light and color and then I realize I am in my house facing the door to the bedroom. I walk in and see there is no bed but two weeping angles coming at me from the bathroom and frozen on sight. I stop and stare at them being careful not to blink. I notice they look like they should in the face but they don't have the wings and are wearing actual clothes. For a moment I wonder if they are just vampires but decide they are not because they are following the rules.



Then I sense another person who is not The Doctor. Without looking I tell him to keep an eye on one of the angles. I glance over to see if he is listening and freak out that I stopped looking. When I look back one of the angles are gone! I assume it went around the other side and will come up behind us. I tell the other person to turn around and he catches the angel just before it gets us. I decide we have to dispose of these before something bad happens. (I wonder why I was so scared. It would have been cool to let it get me!)

Then, for whatever reason, my lucidity drops a bit and we both grow bird beaks and attack the angles. The feeling of it is odd and realistic but I don't let that deter me. I get mine in the throat and take it down then tear into it's stomach like a zombie. I am surprised that it is full of shelled sunflower seeds then the entire body becomes a mound of it. We both begin to eat until there is nothing left. My throat becomes very dry and I feel like I will choke if I don't get a drink of water. This thought brings my lucid level up a bit and I stop what I am doing. I force myself to ignore the feeling in my throat.

I say, "I was supposed to find NyxxC" I look over at the other DC for the first time and see that he is a Skyrim looking Orc. He smiles at me and starts to giggle. I get the feeling that he has become horny and realize that we are all too now alone. I also come to the realization that I am a woman. I realize that I must be the female companion of The Doctor. This dream has gone all wrong. I was supposed to be The Doctor and NyxxC the companion. I rudely say to the big dumb Orc, "Not going to happen. Forget it." The way I say that reminds me of Amy Pond. I ignore that thought and I walk out for the room looking for NyxxC.

I go out onto the front porch and see my ex wife sitting there. I think lucidity dropped completely here. We talk a bit and I cannot remember the conversation. She says something like "Her Baby." I know that she calls a name... Gloria. I feel like that not only am I a female but I am a female O At some point and for whatever reason, I call the Orc outside. His name is Balrog.

Then I remember my lucidity. I walk away from my ex a bit and look up at the night sky. The stars look about like the do every morning in waking life when I go to work. I turn to my ex and ask her, "Where is The Doctor?"
She seems confused, "Who?"
I repeat annoyed now, "The Doctor!"
She replies, "Doctor Who?"
At that moment I hear the TARDIS engines. When I look, the TARDIS is vanishing from the other side of my front porch. That SOB left me I decide now is a good time to wake up.

I was in a hotel lobby of sorts. The walls were shiny, black face brick. Like onyx. There were also chandeliers (gold) hanging from the ceiling. There was also a reception with a few faceless individuals standing around it going about their business. (I didn't actually take the time to pay attention to these people) I looked on the floor near my foot and there was a board. It was shaped like a ripstick except without the wheels. I stood on top of it and it began to move slightly. I wanted to move forward but had no idea how. It was then that I realised that I was dreaming.
I 'willed' the board to move forward by imagining what that would feel like. The shift in gravity, the adjustments to my balance and the subtle breeze that accompanies a fast acceleration. I sped about around the corridors of the lobby until I hopped off and changed my surroundings. I made the walls join with the floors to form a ramp so that I could carve along the walls and down again. The last thing I remember doing was forming a deep tunnel, like pit and free falling with the board into it.

I was in a school or building, 2nd or 3rd floor. It was a sunny day. We noticed that the nearby river is starting to rise. I ran like hell immediately, but others didn't seem to understand that it's about to flood. I told everyone to run as well, but I think I was the only one to leave. Everyone else didn't know better.

The water suddenly retreated, and next came the heavy rain. The sunny sky suddenly turned gray. I was running along a path that looked like a dried-up river. Then in front of me, I saw water rolling in like a wave from the sea. I was in a playground by then. I thought it's too low. There's a set of cube blocks forming a pyramid near a building. I climbed up. I found there are two people (kids? teens?) up there, holding each other to keep warm. I held tightly to them to keep warm as well. They didn't seem to mind.

8.30.2013

I was back to school. I was in my hometown. I was preparing for exams. Printed something, my schedule. Quick bathroom bath and dump. I took a car or vehicle to school. I checked my schedule while on the way.

I arrived, and mom caught up to me to give me my schedule. I asked my seatmate to hold my schedule while I get the schedule from mom (I know, it's confusing). I went back and found that my seatmate thought it was my exam paper and proceeded to pass it forward (even though we haven't started yet). His other seatmate was about to pass it along when I picked it up from his hands.

'Woke up.' I heard the radio say that it's already 8 a.m. I panicked. I thought I was gonna be late for my exam. I thought, wait, is it the second day of our three-day exams? I checked the clock and to be sure, it's almost 8 a.m.! Then I thought about the exam 'yesterday.' I can't remember finishing taking it or even taking the two other exams that day. Did I just go home and forgot about the rest of the exams? I don't know.

1) I go in the bathroom to change (at grandma’s house?), but Rane is in there changing too. When I put on the clothes, something isn’t right. They’re choking me but I can’t get them off. Rane starts helping me but is taking too long and I’m starting to panic, I start getting lightheaded and reach back to pull some Velcro apart, and the clothes fall off.

We get in a bit of a fight, something about not trusting. I say something sarcastically to her. ‘So I should just…and trust…”

2) We’re preparing to move. There’s a truck outside. Dad is cooking something. I step down on a step where food is (spaghetti sauce?), but no one says anything about me getting the food dirty.

I ask mom if I can get my jacket, but she says I won’t need it?, but I want it.

Inside, the cats were put into rooms to keep them out of the way. Jazzy loves all over me when I go in. One cat gets out at one point and I put them back in a room. I feel sorry for them.

I remember one door was open a crack, I figure two cats must be sharing a room then if no one is using one - hopefully it’s Smoke and Jazzy since they might get along better than Spice and Jazzy.

I also remember trying to turn the lights on but they wouldn’t come on, the rooms were dark. I figured mom must have turned the breaker off. I wonder if the cats are scared of the darkness.

3) We’re heading somewhere in a vehicle but I’m not happy and want to go back. I say something about how I will, and mom makes fun of me. ‘Oh, you will?’. There’s a white screen projecting in the back, and symbols pop up telling where we need to go. One is a Y symbol.

4) Like 5 people getting into a pose for something.

Possible inspiration: A lot of these dreams had shades of dissatisfaction in them! Maybe that’s why I was in such a bad mood today. :/ And they were connected. I wonder if I've been falling back asleep and waking back up with this gathering of fragments. 2#: Had spaghetti the other day. Think one of the piece of clothes in #1 was a skirt I was thinking about wearing yesterday.

Rane was showing me how to change just the backgrounds of art from some manga. I found a pretty blue and white patterned background, but when she applied it to the picture it only filled it with white except for the chest down of one character and half the head down of another character beside them.

At grandma’s house, mom wants me to stay but I don’t want to. And she wants me to play an MMORPG where the character options are all weird monsters - the one I choose is a floating eyeball with long eyelashes. You choose different worlds. Melly tells me what ones she was told to stick to. I find the game boring and want to go with mom.

-Sneaking around our house because I’m not supposed to be there, I hurry and turn off the kitchen light when I hear dad coming and I go to my room (which is actually just the next room over in the dream). Maybe that’s when the computer part happens?

Note: It should have been me showing Rane how to use that program, since I’m the tech savvy one!

8.29.2013

3 ... political groups or beliefs. Town. heroes.

Really bloody battle in a school. There is a group of students making a difference. There was one guy whose eyes were gouged. I saw a building ruined. Dystopian mood. The students were looking at the aftermath of the bloody battle. A hero was hiding below the building. They heard him sing?

Hospital. Engineering building?

Dream 1(fragments):

I was in some game, in some garden area, it was huge. I was giving commands to some creatures and had wings, we were searching for something. It was confusing since place had alot of small pits and corners to check and there was some area that was like forest of vertical tubes. Also there were some enemies that we had to deal with, including some red energy cloud things.

Dream 2(fragments):

There was some event where various celebrities were getting together, but secretly there was a factory hidden that was turning them into something after going through some brutal process.

Dream 3(fragments):

I was going through some set of corridors and rooms and then found some cooking 'side quest' and decided to do it.

I was really surprised by this dream so early in the night. I had only been a sleep 3 hours and had quite a bit to drink before.

#219 - DILD - 12:29AM

This is a little foggy in places but the first thing I remember is some image of a normal woman sort of melting into a pool on the floor and transforming into something hideous. My friend Jana shows up and I somehow understand that this is her nightmare. I tell her that the next time she sees this she just know that she is dreaming and take control of it. I say, "Look of this is just in your mind. It's probably stress or unresolved childhood issues." I look out side through a glass and there are larger than life bills stacked up. I point, "See?"


I realize something at this point and feeling surprised and a little unsure by this I stop and stare at her. Her appearance comes into sharp view. I say something like, "This is a dream isn't it?" She nods then I for some reason feel like we are sharing a dream. I say, "Are you lucid?" Again she nods. I become extremely excited and jump up and down grinning. She looks at me like I am an idiot and tells me something like, "Calm down." I realize that I could wake myself up so I do just that.
She then, takes my hand and pulls me out of the area that we are in. I realize this is a mall and we must have been in some store.

There is a little gap in memory here but we basically wonder around as she leads me on. There was something about CanisLucidus. We make our way into a small hallway. The floor is tiled and there is a potted tree in the corner.

I see the creepy lady at the end of the hallway coming our way. She looks a bit like Martha Steward and I know that she will turn into the monster at any moment. I tell Jana to just run past while I take care of her. I know that I can control the situation and I run toward her. I jump and somehow land on her back. I press my hands on both sides of her head and concentrate. I tell her that she will not change. Jana runs past and I jump of the woman. I tell Jana that she has to believe that she will go away. I look and the woman continues walking on like nothing happened. I say, "See? It's no problem."

Almost forgot a lucid dream last night; I'm a lil' disappointed because I only thought about teleporting and it was kinda small, but I guess it's still pretty cool.

Lucidity: 7/10
Control: 7/10
Vivacity: 8/10

I'm in a sky scraper at night time, lucid. A bay windows let appear the roofs of the other buildings around me. I feel like teleporting. I don't want that one kind of teleporting that you use to get to a completely new place, I only want to do it some meters away (like in my last lucid before this one) because I want to be able to use it in a fight. I brusquely contract all my muscles at the same time and instantly teleport in front of the bay window. I observe the scenery for a little bit and decide to continue on with teleportation. I punch the window (which is kinda useless but whatever) and break it. The's a chimney sticking out of a roof, and I contract my muscles again. It doesn't work this time, so instead I just visualize myself on the chimney and that gets me there.
Yeah but that's kinda lame
I want to try it again and teleport back to the building, with a 360 spin (teleporting at 180). I wanna get to the chimney though. I jump, make a 180 turn and teleport where I wanted to be, with another 180 before I land.
That's cool, but the spin threw my balance off, and I fall off the roof. As I fall down (I'm at around 15 floors high) I notice a bald guy (The Youtuber "Edbassmaster") and he looks at me in a pretty creepy way. I concentrate on the ground and teleport safely on it, one hand on the ground. The weird guy comes at me and starts a conversation, making me loose my lucidity.
(...)

(This is from August 29.)

I hadn't graduated high school, so one day I decided to go back. I moved into a big building that had identical dorms for all the high school students; it was very industrial looking. On the first day of school, I was really hyped up. I knew I would do better this time around and not fail, because my social anxiety wasn't as bad as it was back then. My first class was history class, and everyone seemed nice. The teacher was, I think, the librarian from the elementary school I went to at Fort Monroe. She handed out our first assignments, which involved talking to ten people in the class and listing them on the page as having certain characteristics, like "What person seemed most like a leader?" or "Who would be the best with finances?" I was completely mortified. Even though my social anxiety was better, it wasn't good enough for me to go around talking to everyone in the class. I sat there at my desk looking at the paper, it was covered in drawings of Yinepu and I pondered on that and wondered what it meant. I looked around and saw that the other students had gotten into big groups, some were laying around on the floor talking about the assignment and some had their desks in circles. I didn't know what to do, but a few people came up to me, probably sensing my dilemma, and told me to put their names down under certain categories. After I realized no one else was going to come by, I pretended to sleep at my desk and just decided to accept my F. After a while I started eating some candy, and the teacher walked up to me and said no candy was allowed in the class, so I stuffed the whole thing in my mouth and pretended like I didn't have any. Unfortunately she already saw it so I knew I would be in trouble later. When I got back to my dorm, I fell down on the couch relieved it was over, but then the doorbell rang. It was a classmate, and he said he'd found my debit and my credit card on a bench at the mall. I thanked him, but I was suspicious because he looked guilty, so I checked and my accounts were missing some money. I knew he had bought stuff at Reebok with it but couldn't prove it right away, so I thought about how I could get the security footage from the mall and show it to the police. Later on, I got online and noticed on my dad's Facebook profile he said he was going back to high school, which was weird because he has a college degree already. Apparently he'd moved in below me, so I looked out the window and, sure enough, there was his white truck in the parking lot. I decided to avoid him so I wouldn't have to talk to him.

I was outside in a big yard. I think it was an old farm, because there was a big fence that stretched on for a few miles and an old three-story wooden building that looked like it was about to collapse. There was a cobra that was chasing me, and it really wanted to bite me even though I didn't do anything to it. I climbed up on the fence, which was tall enough to be out of reach of its strike, and ran along the top of the fence to get away, but it still followed me. Then I jumped off the fence and ran into the big wooden building to get away from it, but the building was creepy inside and full of grey aliens! I had a laser gun so I shot at them all video game-style as I ran through the building and up the levels. I think I was actually in a video game at this point because I could see my ammo and health bars. Each story had more aliens on it and was harder to get through, but I had to move fast to keep ahead of the cobra that was still chasing me.

There were a lot of people in a big crowd, on either a red team or a blue team. I was on the blue team but everyone insisted I was on the red team and wouldn't believe me, so they made me wear a red hat with demon horns on the top.

A woman who used to work with some kind of 'private security company' - which in this case appears to be a euphemism for something not entirely legal - who left that job a while ago and is now a manager at a hotel, currently talking with an old friend, a woman still working at that 'security company,' about how much faster emergency services respond when there's gunfire reported.

Vague fragments involving combat, next scene I remember clearly the combat's over and that hotel manager's picking up her dog, Max, from the dog daycare service - but both dog and daycare service had been involved in that combat scene and the woman running the daycare now refuses to allow Max to come back there again. The hotel manager protests, saying that "We're doing really well," and the daycare woman hesitates over that 'we', highlighting the parallel between dog and owner here, then stresses 'he' - he, Max (and by extension his owner), may seem like he's doing well on the surface, but he has these undercurrents, things that are always going to come back to the surface eventually, and because of that she can't have him around. The friend from the 'security company' is there throughout this scene, petting Max and not saying anything.

(Woke up. Back to sleep.)

Fragment: "Covered in ashes, the boy king Yuuma."

(Woke up. Back to sleep.)

Fragment: A party at my IRL home, some people have passed out, someone suggests putting on a Terminator movie and asks whether I've seen them. I point out that the last thing I need is to see those movies again after dreaming about them for a month straight. (That's actually true, except IRL it was 2 months.)

A man, a professor, is having an affair. He'd planned to meet his mistress today and finally leave his wife - but at the last minute he's realized this was all a terrible mistake, and he's confessed everything to his wife, Julia, who already knew. (Despite the name, the wife here is not the same as my recurring DC Julia.) She insists on meeting the mistress, and he agrees, taking her to the place where he and the mistress had planned to meet for lunch.

As they park across the street, the mistress is just leaving the building, and he points her out to Julia. At first Julia doesn't believe him. She'd expected some silly college student, the midlife crisis cliche. The woman across the street is beautiful as a movie star, long blond hair and dressed smartly and conservatively in all black, poised and polished, everything about her indicates power. Julia suspects her husband just pointed out a pretty woman in the crowd to throw her off from meeting the real mistress, it's so unbelievable that her husband could be with this woman - but he's gotten out of the car and ducked into the woman's taxi, talking to her. He points back to his wife, and the mistress, confused, looks right through her, saying, "Where?" She saw Julia and immediately dismissed her as someone this man would be with. (Julia is thinking of herself as a plain middle-aged housewife in comparison to the mistress, but in actuality she's quite stunning herself. Short curly red hair, wrapped in a white fur coat and gold jewelry.)

The professor goes back to his car and the scene switches to follow the mistress as she arrives at her destination and gets out of the taxi. The professor stops her in the parking lot - he followed her taxi. He says to her, "Maybe I slept with the body of the garden, but the meat of it hardly tasted." He means by this that throughout their affair he never really got to know anything about her beyond the surface, and that he'd like to. Nonetheless, he's going back to his wife. He doesn't like the way he's dressed, in the nice suit and white scarf he'd put on to meet his mistress, as if to keep up with her pace; he feels quite ridiculous. Rain is beading on the top of their umbrellas, but it's red, and I, disembodied observer, wonder whether that's the rain itself or a trick of the light, a reflection of something I can't see.

So I found myself walking the stairs of my basement, I already knew I was lucid.

I kept walking down the stairs, but I had a great fear and it just felt scary and was extremely dark, but there was a spotlight in the middle of my basement by a wall, I feared what was behind that wall and I just kept walking to it, and suddenly an attractive women jumped out and I was so frightened that I fell down in slow motion and the dream ended right there.

(This is from August 28.)

I was walking through a big room that was full of Egyptian jars that held old scrolls. The jars were all shaped like scrolls and had heads of the gods as lids like the canopic jars. The room was semi-outdoors and had a roof open to the sky. Afiel and I walked through the room and marveled over the different scrolls. I remember the first thing I said when I saw the room was "Look at all these scrolls!" We walked through a door to another open-air room. This one had stone paths and lots of plants so it was more like a greenhouse. However, there were also scrolls all around the room here, but the scrolls were all unrolled so we could see what was on them, and there were also old books opened up and scattered among the greenery. As Afiel looked around, I stopped in front of an old biblical scroll, I think it was excerpts from the Book of Enoch. I remember seeing a verse on the scroll that mentioned angels somehow, and I felt really sad and ran my fingers over the verse. I can't remember what the verse said though.

I had an embarrassing tape of myself that was worth a lot of money, so I destroyed it because I didn't want it stolen. Later on, I found out that my grandma had made a copy of it and was going to sell it. She was staying in a big hotel in town, and found out that I knew about the tape, so I was racing against her to reach her hotel room, and the tape, before she did. I jumped into an elevator and went up. Her room was on the 35th floor so I had to get there. For some reason the elevator wouldn't go that high, so I had to get off on an earlier floor and onto a different elevator. The other one was a little weird, I walked onto it and the floor was covered in gym equipment. Mostly barbells that were taken apart so the weights were scattered on the floor and the bars themselves were rolling around everywhere. The floor was also ridged so the bars would fall into the ridges and get stuck there. The elevator stopped and a man with a big brown dog got on. The dog was super vicious and growled at me, so I grabbed a barbell bar and waved it at the dog all menacingly and he whimpered and avoided me. I finally reached the 35th floor and ran to grandma's room, only to find that she was already there when I opened the door. Then I blacked out for some reason, I think there was some kind of accident, but when I woke up I was sitting on the bed with a surgeon who was operating on my brain. My face was unhinged like a door or a robot face, and the surgeon was working on my brain from the big hole where my face usually goes. I was all annoyed and telling the surgeon what to do, but all he did was take my brain out and then reattach it inside my skull by tying a single felt thread to it and then tying the thread to the top inside of my scalp. I remember it stinging as he threaded the needle through my scalp. As I'm walking around after the "surgery", I can feel my brain swinging around in my skull, hitting the sides and such, and I get super annoyed by it. I went back to the surgeon and complained about it, hoping he'd reattach my brain to my spinal cord instead, but he just took another felt string and attached it to my scalp with two strings instead of one for "added stability". I was annoyed by that too, but I didn't say anything because I didn't want to be rude.