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Awake, Non-lucid, Lucid, [Commentary made while awake]

[This post contains dreams from last night and from Sunday night.]

Night of February 13-14

I'm out and about somewhere in town [Pat and Oscar's? It kind of looked like it]. Along the way, I sing a song: “I Run For Life” by Melissa Etheridge. [In the dream, I sang the lyrics correctly but in the wrong order, moving the first two lines of the last verse to the beginning of the first verse, and yet, I didn't take note of this as being strange.]

I'm at my kitchen table, eating breakfast. My mom is standing in the kitchen. We're carrying on a perfectly normal conversation about whether or not we're going out for coffee this morning. At first it seems like we are, but then my mom suggests that we could have premade bottled coffee here at home instead, so we do. It's cinnamon-flavored, and she prepares it by putting creamer into it.

When I woke up for real, I was slightly surprised to discover that the above paragraph had just been a dream, and that I hadn't actually gotten up yet.

Night of February 15-16

[Dream #1] I'm in a somewhat dark, upstairs room somewhere, with either my mom or my sister. [I can't remember now; the dream quality was low, but I did know that I was dreaming.] We've found a baby doll with long, red hair that sings Christmas carols. I sing along with whatever song it's playing as I walk across the room.

[Dream #2] I'm driving in my car on a freeway where everyone is driving much faster than I usually like to drive. Feeling like I have no choice, I match their pace. I want to get off the freeway soon, and as soon as I see an opening, I take advantage of it and move over into the lanes to my right, so that I can get to the offramp.

[Dreamskip.] I've now gotten off the freeway and parked in a parking structure. Somewhere around here, I realize that I'm dreaming. I walk over to the elevator to take it down to the ground floor. Two other girls are also approaching it, and they get into the elevator with me. One of them starts talking with me, and I introduce myself by name and shake hands with her.

When we're in the elevator, I get a good look at her. She has long, black hair, worn in two braids, and is pretty. I recognize her as my friend Tashi from my freshman year of college. “Tashi?” I say.

“No,” she says, shaking her head.

“Don't you remember me from college?”

“No. I know you, though.”

“So you do remember me, but not from the same place that I remember you from.”

She indicates that this is correct. I notice that the two girls are duplicates of each other. Then I woke up.

NON-DREAM DREAM LUCID

Good morning! I haven't been this excited in many months. I had one of the coolest dreams ever last night, and not only did I meet my upcoming companion for the first time, I managed to WILD. Although I'm not sure what it's called when you do it whilst in a dream. The MILD techniques and B6 from last night really paid off! The mantra before bed was: "I am dreaming"

21.30: Sleep

01.15: Here boy! MILD/WILD
I'm with Monica and my friend G. We're at some kind of convention and there's a stand infront of us. A few Polish people are running some kind of game. "You come play?" they ask us and I take a look at what it's about. There's a children's drawing on the ground, with different numbers on it. All arranged in a weird order, upside down and large and small sizes to confuse you. Apparently the game is to figure out the added numbers. Monica is just about to answer when I spot a light blue "-2" in a darker blue area.

"Wait! Don't answer!" I yell out. "Oh, looks like he's the one in control in the relationship" someone says and the crow that has gathered around the game laughs. I smile. "The answer is 3" I say and they say that it is indeed correct! "You can choose this electric razor, it's great and very powerful" one of the Polish guys says. He shows me a bunch of razors, all the same but in different colours. "How much is it worth?" I ask. "Around 2000 kr" he replies and drops it on my newly bought computer. I look for a scratch but there is none. "Or you can have this laptop". "Laptop!" G exclaims as soon as he hears the word. "Will be great as a server". He shows us a nice looking laptop and G starts talking about what we can do with it. I get tired all of a sudden, and lie down in a bed to get some sleep. A cat appears out of nowhere and I let him lie ontop of me and starts purring instantly.

I get the brilliant idea of trying to WILD. The SP effects wash over me in seconds. I can feel my arms writhe and twist in spasms. I ignore the feeling and focus on the images I begin to see. A floor in a kitchen. I'm looking through the cupboard for tupperware and other stuff. I find a deck of cards and I start to shuffle them right away. The dream starts to stabilize and form around me more and more for every shuffle. I get up and look around me. Looks like I'm in our old appartment, from ten years ago. I walk around the place and end up in the kitchen again. I rub my hands and the dream feels stable. I feel like trying to read a text, and see what it means when I wake up. I can't see any labels anywhere, not even on one of the tupperware boxes.

I drop the box and head out the door. I go down a few flight of stairs going in a spiral, I've got a shovel in my hand all of a sudden and when I reach the bottom, I rub my hands together to make sure the dream stabilizes. I get out on the yard, and it's stormy outside. It's raining and the wind is really strong. On my way down the stairs I thought up what I wanted to do; to summon my companion. I put two fingers in my mouth and whistle as hard as I can. "Ozzy! Igor! Come here!" I yell and look to my right. A dog comes running at me, but it's not the right dog. It's brown and too small for a rottweiler. He dashes past me, and when I turn around to see where he went, a black dog is there. "Here boy!" I say and clap my hands on my thighs excitedly. The black dog comes right to me and I hug him. "Are you Ozzy or Igor?" I ask him. He seems to be only a pup, and he's got no tail. (Both has tails) I realise it must be Ozzy and I pet him for a while.



I remember his favorite game and I tease him and close his mouth with my hands. He starts to growl and tries to bite me playfully. I laugh as it has been years since last time. I lose focus and look up at the sky. It's pitch black with loads of brightly shining stars. I spot Orion and his belt, and also a cluster of stars that looked like a rectangle. Suddenly my friend Eric, Monica and my sister Madeleine shows up. I greet them and remember my other dreamtasks. To "graduate" in telekinesis and flying. Ozzy had run off to a few other dogs nearby. "Ozzy! Come here boy!" I yell and he's at my side in an instant. I look up at the sky and spot the moon. "We will fly to the moon" I say and ignore the questions everyone ask me. "Don't worry, I will help you out" I say and make them all three (Ozzy had run off again) start to levitate with telekinesis.

Eric apparently learned how to fly on his own and soon I only had to focus on Monica and Madeleine. I start to fly myself, but the focus of lifting two people with telekinesis and flying myself is a bit more than I can manage. Just before the rooftops, six or seven meters up, I can't lift them higher. Glancing at the moon, I can see it has become more than twice as big, and orange. To try to get higher up, I grab electric cables going across the sky. I swing back and forth to gain momentum.



And I lose lucidity. I keep on swinging, gaining more momentum by each swing. The scenery changes to a bridge going over the local canal. Soon I have to duck to not hit the beams overhead. I pick up alot of speed and all of a sudden I can't duck anymore. I smack headfirst into one of the beams and is thrown hundres of meters away into the water. I crash with enormous force. I get up and start to text message my friends, telling them I'm on my way back.

05.10: Fragments
*Eric's computer has to run programs through the game "Monkey Island".

*I'm on a boat with my friends.

05.10: Wake up

Amount of sleep: 7½ hours

Supplements: 2 x Omega-3, 200 mg B6

That's it! Amazing dream. This is like I said, my first encounter with my upcoming companion. My mom's dead dog, Ozzy. May he rest in peace, but forever guard me in my dreams! Anyone know if the induction technique was a legit WILD? D-WILD?.

Keep on dreaming, HARE BRA!

non dream - lucid - non lucid

I've averaged about 4-5 hours of sleep over the past 4 days and I felt quite sleep-deprived when I went to bed last night.
Knowing that I could sleep for as long as I want this night, I fell into bed, closed my eyes and was asleep immediately.
I woke up after about 8 hours, decided that it was not enough, turned around and fell back asleep.

I open my eyes. I want to turn towards my clock to see how late it is, but somehow the task proves to be difficult.
I can't really turn my body, am I in SP?
No. It feels different. I feel weightless, and I can see even though it's pitch black in my room.
The colors are a bit weird. I try to levitate upwards because I feel that I can.
I slowly start levitating and turning in the air.
I see myself lying in bed which gives me a bit of a shock.

This hasn't happened before. I've seen myself in mirrors, but I've never actually seen myself face to face in a dream.
My room seems to look identical to the waking life counterpart, down to the smallest detail.
I try to stabilize the dream, but my usual methods fail.
Most of my senses aren't working. I can't hear, I can't smell, and as I try to touch my desk, my hand just moves straight through, I can't feel either.
I notice that I can feel the presence of the people sleeping in the same house though
I find all of this quite weird, I haven't experienced a dream like this before, and I'm not sure what to do.
I look at my hands and notice that the reason I can't touch things is because I don't have a 'real dream body'.
I'm more like a ghost, my hands are slightly transparent.

As I get better control, I levitate outside of my apartment by floating through the wall.
I want to leave because the sight of my own body freaks me out a bit.
It's still dark outside.
I try to summon the wings on my left arm to teleport, but I can't.
The thought that I might be floating around the real world crosses my mind, but I feel like I can't think about it properly.

For some reason the thought to visit an ex-girlfriend crosses my mind.
I immediately know it's a shitty idea, but then I locate her aura, or more like a feeling in which direction she is, and just start floating towards her.
She's in Sweden, but even though I'm not really moving that fast, I'm crossing the ocean within seconds.

We first met when she was on vacation somewhere close to where I live. We met in a rather weird way, but got along quite well and decided to hang out.
We fell for each other quite quickly and hung out nonstop for 2 weeks until she had to go home.
Both of us knew that a long-distance relationship wouldn't work so we called it quits.
It's only then I realized how badly I actually fell for her, it took me quite some time to get over her.

I'm approaching her house. I've obviously never been here, but I know this is her place.
I approach the window of her room. I just want to see how she's doing, I want to know that she's happy.
I float through the window. She has a really nice room.
She has 3 different e-guitars, quite a few rock band posters on the walls, a king size bed, a really big desk with 3 monitors on it.
There's quite a few books, and a lot of clothes on the floor.

She's sitting at her desk, she's studying. She hasn't changed much, she looks exactly like I remember her.
She turns around and looks at me. This freaks me out a bit, somehow I was under the assumption that she couldn't.
It looks like she's thinking about something. She turns back towards the desk, she didn't see me after all.
Did she feel my presence?
I consider the possibility that I'm really here, in which case what I'm doing would be very creepy.
I decide to go back home... for some reason I'm immediately in my bedroom again.

I want to have a proper lucid dream, but I feel like I can't in this state.
I try to move back into my body...

Well... this was weird.

NON-DREAM DREAM LUCID FALSE AWAKENING
3:00

Dinosaurs
I'm with my mom, my dad and other people. Do not remember the beginning, but we're crossing a strong water current. We see people who are already in the middle of the stream and we think it is better to go back or we’ll be dragged. The problem seems to be that the city is under attack by dinosaurs. We hide in a building and everyone panics when a tyrannosaur and several raptors enter the place. The first raptors are so small that we manage to squash them with our feet, but then bigger ones follow and we get in real trouble. We manage to escape: I remember defending myself with a stick and closing some doors behind us, to buy some time.
Once again we are facing the river, trapped on the margin, when a giant green hand emerges somewhere from the heights and takes me and my mother to the other side. I beg to bring my father along but I’m told that’s not going to happen. I imagine him fighting for his life and I feel an immense pain, but there’s nothing I can do.

Atlantis
Later I’m on some kind of classroom where I recognize some friends and classmates and also my BF. I'm on the 3rd row from the front. The teacher is a tall elegant lady of around 50 years old and is showing some maps with the evolution of the Earth crust and the shapes of the continents. She says that our present continents are moving to join in one large continent that is Atlantis. Some guys behind me laugh and tease her. She ignores them and continues to show the schematic. They say she's crazy and I turn back, upset and ask them if they did not learn in school about the movements of tectonic plates and that before the continents had today’s shape they had been together in one big continent. I tell them to put aside the mystical stories about Atlantis, if that’s what’s bugging them and to focus on the fact that the continents are coming together and that Atlantis is a good name as any other. But the teacher comes to me and says no, the mystic stuff also matters. She says the name Atlantis was not chosen by accident, but because "The Atlantis" will really come to life once more. She says she’ll explain that afterwards. I make a comment like "Oh man, I just wanted to help! They are not accepting anything that you say, so I was trying to make them at least understand the science behind it. She smiled gratefully, but at the same time shocked with the way I talked to her, so she scolds me to set an example. The guys behind me laugh at me really hard. They ask me to borrow a pencil and then they use it to remove ear wax and then return it to me. Like little kids. Disgusted, I throw it back at them.

Back door seduction
I'm on a tram or bus with Zilla, Licas and Gonçalo (a boy I knew from school who wasn’t exactly fond of me). For some reason the driver stopped in the middle of an intersection and went away. We only notice it when we almost get hit by another bus and a passenger in a seat ahead gets up in panic and runs to the back.
We exit the bus/tram and walk down a ramp on the right. When we are near a viaduct and a back entrance to a building and we pass by a small pond where I see a large butterfly, 40 cms wide, apparently drowned. I touch it and I realize it is still alive and I place it on dry ground. After drying off, the butterfly takes off and stops at a tree trunk ahead. We chat while we admire the butterfly and Gonçalo starts flirting with me. I play along and pretend we are lovers. I grab his ass, which feels very bony and I tell him he is extremely skinny. He replies that I could also have bigger boobs. We all laugh. The girls enter the building, but he grabs my arm and we stay behind. It seems like he actually enjoyed the play and wants to do it for real. He leans against the door almost violently and wants to have sex with me. I kinda share the mood, but we are interrupted by three ladies who wanted to enter the building and look shocked by the sight of us. We entered the building in a hurry so they don’t have time to identify us and shortly after we are in a balcony with two couches and although my mood is gone he is still thinking about it as he tries the couches.

5:00

"In one year the world will enter into the darkness"
I’m on a bus that seems to be leaving a village I know. At the last crossroad near the exit of the town, I see a man in a wheelchair who seems to have fainted. I am in shock and I look around to see if someone comes to help him but nobody comes. I go to the front of the bus to ask the driver to stop, but he also collapses at that moment. I just have time to grab the wheel and push the breaks. Zilla is also on the bus. We go outside and we see another person who just fell off a bike. We take her bike and ride it. Just a bit further ahead, from the opposite direction, comes a truck in zigzags and runs over a pedestrian who was on the sidewalk. Still in shock and confused, we pass beneath a tunnel and emerge in a city where we see heaps of people lying on the ground or just hanging around disoriented. We don’t know what is happening, but we fear being hit by the same “disease”. We enter a building and we meet other friends on a loft to discuss what might be happening when we feel something in the air and a great commotion on the street again. I go to the balcony, the sky is golden and warm and I am fully hit by a kind of energy wave that makes the air vibrate. I feel a heavy weight and a pressure in my head and I stagger, stunned. A powerful and deep voice seems to come from the sky directly to my head. I can’t recall word by word, but the voice delivered a message which was more or less like: "The time is coming. Within a year the world will enter into the darkness. Only those who remain as strong as a rock will not be taken."
I become lucid with this energy wave on my head. When the wave is over and the message ends, I ask the others what they understood of the message. Zilla asks “what message?”. Nobody else heard the voice and they also don’t seem to believe me. They are probably just DCs.

Fight with ninjas at Buddhist temple
I go back to the balcony and down an emergency metal ladder. At the rear of this building there is a hill and looking up I see what looks like a giant stone Buddha at the top. I see a stone staircase and I go up, because I really need a calm place where to meditate on this revelation I just had. Reaching the temple’s entrance I do prostrations to the Buddha and burn some incense. I hear someone crying behind me, I turn around and I see Zilla, who followed me. But she passes by me hiding her face, not wanting me to see her suffering. I then get inside the temple. I do not see anyone around. I follow a corridor and I find two large doors open to my left, revealing an inner room not normally accessible to the public. It has beautiful Buddha statues at all four corners. Then a sort of ninja appears and says that I shouldn’t be there. He attacks me and we fight. Then two more guys come to help him. I continue to anticipate their moves but I start feeling tired and they manage to dominate me. I kick one of the guys in the crotch, but they seem trained to withstand pain, so it doesn’t affect him. So I got the brilliant idea to caress him instead of hurting him. I touch his private parts gently and the guy gets really disoriented. Unfortunately that gives them the wrong idea and they decide to drag me to a room where they plan to rape me. One of them gets undressed really fast while the other two hold me down. I ponder whether or not I should play along, but I look at them a bit disgusted and decide not and to follow my first plan, which was to use sex as distraction. As soon as they let their guard down a little bit I fly through the window.

7:30

Alien witch
I am with a horrible itching in my right hand. I see some skin lifted and bugs moving underneath the skin, like fleas. I squeeze them out in disgust. But there is also a kind of gelatinous creature that does not want to leave. It slips deeper into the skin, but after much struggle I manage to pull it outside. It is a kind of viscous red bag that seems to grow every second. I throw it to the ground and smash it, but this only frees the some kind of embryo from within the viscous bag. It continues to grow an becomes a monstrous fish, which struggles on the ground in distress. My aunt Lisa appears beside me and seems disgusted with the creature. Grabs it by the tail and throws it to the ground again, but I feel compassion for the beast. I say to Lisa that it is dying and there’s no point in hurting it even more. I cuddle it but the image of it choking is unbearable so I run to get a bowl of water and put it inside. Lisa says I'm crazy, that I should let this thing die, but I can’t. I put it in water. Shortly after, it is breathing on its own. Then it becomes a kind of monstrous and disgusting cat furless cat. Now it is choking in the water, but even before I reach to help, he jumps out and after a few gulps of air, it flees to another room. I don’t know what to do, so I wait. We hear really strange noises from the other room and then a sort of witch alien creature appears at the door. It definitely isn’t a friendly creature, but because I have saved her life, she is thankful and wants to be my friend. She comes to me and I feel the urge to get out of the dream.

8:00

February 16, 2011
Normal Dream: My Friend...the Anti-Christ?
Series: The End of Days, Episode 1
around 11:00am

Category - WTF/Action


It was World War 3 and I had just entered our safe house. I can't remember what had just happened, but I was shocked and felt weird. I walked up to my friend cliff and slammed him against the wall and said, "WTF was that! Who are you!?!" He smiled and knocked me back to the ground without doing anything. He smiled as I tried to recover and said in a sarcastic tone, "Me? I'm your friend..." There was an uneasy pause and he spoke again, "Just your friend...the Anti-Christ!" I could see fire burning in his eyes. I felt some very odd mixed feelings. I just found out my best friend through my life was the anti-christ and christianity had been confirmed all at once. My mind started racing and I pushed the thoughts out and said, "No, no. That is impossible." Then then lifted his hand and slammed me onto a table without touching me. A blanket wrapped so tightly around me that I couldn't move. He then shot a stream of fire from his eyes and lit the blanket on fire. I was too shocked by the whole situation to do anything. I noticed that they flames weren't burning me at all. I let out a fake howl of pain and acted dead.

Once cliff turned his back, I wiggled my arms until a small space formed. I squeezed my arms in tight and then slammed them outward, throwing off the burning blanket and jumping to my feet. Cliff looked at me and said, "So, how did you like the pain?" I smiled and said, "I couldn't feel a thing." Cliff muttered, "God must be watching over you after all." I then began asking him questions about things that I no longer remember. I looked around the safe house and there were tons of people I knew in there, friends and family. Cliff was trying to get me to join him. I laughed and said, "You told all of these people before me? All that time we spent and you never told me?" I'm sorry, but you haven't chosen a path that I cannot follow. Several people, Jess and Diddy, tried to convince me that the world would be ours. We could have it all. Diddy said, "You could own the Dallas Cowboys. You could be the next Jerry Jones!" I thought about how cool that would be for a moment and then shook my head. I replied, "And destroy the world in the process? Then burn in hell for eternity once I'm dead....Sorry, thats not going to happen. I will not be a slave to anyone...anti-christ or not." I looked at Cliff and said, "Honestly, all those years of friendship." I looked around at all my other friends in the room as well. "All those years...what do I mean to you?" Cliff looked at me with a carefree expression shrugged his shoulders and proceed to mimic stomping a bug." I felt emotion slowly building within. A tear rolled down my face and I looked around and said, "I loved all you guys. So many good memories, gone!" Cliff said, "Then join us." I replied, "I'm leaving. If you have to kill me then do it." Cliff shrugged and said, "If thats what you want. We thought it may come to this."

Cliff then pulled out a butter knife. I reached in my pocket and also pulled out a butter knife. We began an epic butter knife duel. I was running along walls and performing jump stab moves and all kinds of crazy maneuvers. Cliff was also skilled with his butter knife, but it was easy to tell that my butter knife skills were superior. Suddenly, other people in the room jumped in against me. I was fighting in a 30-on-1 butter knife battle. Only a few fought at once though. The others sat in the background and waited their turn (until I knocked somebody down, or through a window, etc.). They stood around us with menacing looks and jabbed their butter knives into the air while growling. Like an old karate movie. I awoke during this epic battle.

It took a few moments for me to comprehend what the f*** all that was. My heart was pumping as I performed a RC (confirmed I was awake), looked in the mirror and said, "What the f***?"

Series Details
In the dream series, "The End of Days," the world is coming to a close. With the hype surrounding 2012, many of these doomsday dreams have been popping up. See the events of the apocalypse unfold with more entries to the series.

I was in bed lieing on my right side and immediatley could feel the numbness, tingly, heavy feeling. The vibrations immediatley followed so I decided to see if I can try and move them
(because I seemed to be able to control them) but I couldn't this time. So I just waited it out and did the roll out I was already on the floor so I tried to float up to my ceiling but I couldn't.
I just opened up my eyes and I did a nose pinch and I could breathe so I got out of my room and I knew that my body was asleep in bed.

I went to where my hallway is and flew and it was better this time so I did a little bit of flying. Then I went outside to try and control things but to no avail I need to learn a bit more control. So I went up my driveway and there were like a thousand cars wizzing by my street. (My street is fairly quiet with the occasional car coming by) so I decided to see if I could control this traffic but I couldn't they were all going like speed bullets.

Then my physical eyes were open and immediatley I was getting the numb, heavy feeling but had to postpone it because I had to go to work experience.

About a week into my journal keeping and reality checks I've had my first lucid dream.

It happened during a 15 minute nap between classes today. Was sleeping in my dorm room and I had a dream about sitting on the other side of my room and talking to my roommates. They leave the room and suddenly I realize (with no apparant cause) that I'm actually in a dream. I say to myself the phrase I learned reading here recently, "I am lucid, the world is vivid" and crack my knuckles (my reality check) just to make sure.

Since it's my first real lucid dream in a LONG time, I simply walk around my dorm room and observe the dream world. It seems much more like I'm floating than actually walking. I go into the next room and play with the door behind me via telekinesis. Works like a charm. I keep walking and when I look into the bathroom I begin to lose lucidity. I try spinning and turn the bathroom into a totally different room with brick walls. I explore around there a little bit and decide to look at my hands and feet. They do definitely look distorted. I walk back to where the dream started. I hear my roommates talking in the background and begin to wake up. I try to hang onto the dream but accidentally move my leg and become fully awake.

Very proud of myself, going to try and have some more fun with it next time.

So I've been on a little bit of a dry spell with LD's. Haven't had one in several months.. But last night I decided to set my alarm for 6am and take a vitamin B tablet and go back to bed to see what happened. I had 2 LD's before 7am. They were awesome!

They kind of blended together, as they were back to back with a false awakening in between. The first one I was laying with my ex girlfriend in a tent, and realized, why is it that I'm sleeping with you? I became lucid and somehow got to my dorm building at college fully lucid. I was really excited and sprinted around to try and find someone to talk to. After about 20 seconds or so I found a group of people I recognized and struck up conversation. They were talkative until I brought up the subject of dreaming and the fact they were in my dream. They ignored what I was saying so I tried to prove it to them. I saw a group of girls and told them to get naked and sure enough they did, and my DC's were still quiet.

*False awakening*

Then I was back in the same dorm, and looked for this girl I was seeing in the past and found her. We started kissing and i made the mistake of shutting my dream eyes. When I opened them again I lost my lucidity and was shocked that the blonde hair blue eyed girl was now black, but I wasn't in control anymore so I didn't think anything of it. It didn't strike me as odd that she had a tail either..

It was GREAT to finally break my dry spell, it's been too long. In the meantime, I'm going to keep doing the 6am and vitamin B routine. Dream on.

1st successful WILD: I'm laying in bed and I keep looking at my phone to see what time it is (I was doing this all night... couldn't stay asleep). Then I look and see the time keeps changing.. then my phone sticks to my hand like a magnet and ..LUCID! I'm spinning my phone around my hand. I want to sit up but I can't... I kind of feel like I'm falling off the bed. I see both my arms in front of me but not clearly... my arms were behind my head the whole time though.

...

I'm in an attic with a kid from work, JRO, and he's kind of wrestling with me a little. He starts walking on a part of the floor where the wood isn't lined up right and I'm afraid he's going to fall through the slats. He leaves and I'm outside by a fence, same house. There's a bull in a pen and these two guys ask me to open a gate so they can let the bull out. I realize another kid from work SS is running around. I start to freak out because I don't want the bull to go after him. The bull charges out and I say "Can someone please help?!" then the bull starts coming after me. Someone tells me to get inside and the bull is right behind me... I get inside but just behind a screen door. Then I see the bull chasing SS.

...

I'm in a house, and there are tons of people there. It's really clear that some people I see represent other people, but look nothing like them. It's 4am (when I contemplated getting up because I couldn't stay asleep) and everyone is sitting around a table eating breakfast. I see M there and don't understand why he didn't tell me about it. A couple people come in drunk, they've been out all night, but I think most people just woke up. At some point everyone goes outside and there's a house on fire. I look down the line of houses and see they're all catching on fire. The crack in the sidewalk has like.. a thread of fire running through it. I run down to the house I was in, even though I knew there was nothing I owned in the house and that everyone was already outside. I run up the stairs inside the house and I'm crying and out of breath.

...

There is a hill I'm walking up in some woody place... A guy asks me if it's a good fishing spot to catch small fish, or if it's legal to catch small fish there.. something like that, and I tell him yes. I'm laying on a sort of cliff looking up at the sky. I sit up to take a sip of water from a glass and there's a spider on it.

...

I'm sitting at a bar during the day talking to the bartender. I think he's kind of hitting on me. Somehow I end up in a bed and I realize I'm at his house and that I need to get the hell out.. I have my phone charger and it's all wrapped around some other wire.

...

I walk into a room and see some guys I know, specifically RL and EL. They're looking at books on drawing and I want to see what it is. I sit down and one of them shows me the book, can't remember what it was they were learning to draw, but someone says "It takes like 10 seconds." Someone calls me from the door I came in and I have to leave. The guys are leaving too. EL hugs me as I leave.. random.

...

I'm in my car driving and M is in the passenger seat and he's crying. Then he says "Do you hear that noise?" and I say, "It's a box in the back filled with papers. It's sliding back and forth."

...

I'm on a rolly chair in my basement and I say "I'm going to go lucid". I don't. But I do crawl on the ground around this nonexistent part of the wall by the bathroom.

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Someone (definitely a woman) says she doesn't want to be married to me anymore. She says "You're too religious!" and I say "Wow that shows how much you know about me." She says "Well then that's another reason!" weeeirrd.

14.02.2011

Night drive, day scape. (DILD)

NON-DREAM DREAM LUCID

I wad driving in the freeway. My wife was next to me and we were talking about some psychic exercises I was doing. My wife recalled some psychic attack I did to someone in waking several months ago. My wife told me, "I love your dark energy." I do not know where the heck this comes from... I am a good guy and a spirit of light! I guess my darker ego showed up in the dream. I found funny what my wife told me.

It was very hard for me to drive. I could not drive straight in my lane and I would change lanes without wanting to. I also could not keep a constant speed while driving. My vision was very blurry and I felt extremely tired. We arrived to some sort of mall and I saw everything super blurry. I felt it was not normal for me to be so tired, having a big time driving and such a low vision. I checked my hands. My index finger was very thin and long. I knew I was dreaming, but I needed more proof. I asked my wife to please check her hand. She also had six fingers. I decided to take a flight to make my dream stable, however, my lucidity was not great. I followed the plot of the dream and lost lucidity.

We entered the mall and my wife was mad at me for some present I gave her or something I do not recall well. She suddenly told me, "Yeah right, go get one of those 75% discount sunglasses like you always do." Funny, I have never bought my wife sunglasses in waking, I wonder why I dreamed that. I told her I was not going to buy any sunglasses this time.

I wanted to leave the mall, however, it had no windows, no doors and the roof was made out of steel. All I wanted to do was to leave. I saw some sort of reception and saw an exit behind reception. I could see the sun coming from the outside. I turned lucid again, it was night a while ago, it was impossible to be day so fast. I walked towards the reception and said, "12th floor, please." The receptionist told me, "There is a private party there and you have no ID." I told her I just wanted to go through the door to be able to exit the mall, I did not plan to take the elevators. She informed me, "We are going to need an attorney to witness you are indeed just exiting the mall." I replied, "Oh, come on... This is a dream, I will wake up eventually!" I had no dream control on this particular dream. I saw some guys approaching the door. They were granted access. I got next to them and ran outside.

A guy asked me how much did I charged for a Tarot reading. I told him I was dreaming in that moment. The guy was surprised. Before I decided to take a flight, I lost imagery of the dream.

I had a FA in my room. I had a ton of e-mails from Amity, however, when I tried to read one, it would not open. I also started to write down the dream in my pillow and read some scripts about meditation when I woke up for real.

My Notes
Non-lucid
Lucid
Awake

Tonight, I decided to try to WILD with the help of a free lucid dreaming Iso tone I got from iso-tones.com. I would listen to if after I woke from my alarm.

My first dream, and in fact all my dreams this night, were very long & vivid. The first dream wasn't very pleasant. I was standing outside my bedroom with my older brother. We were looking inside my bedroom. There were six spiders on the inside of my window. Six spiders. In the real world, I'm quite scared of spiders, but it's x10 worse if the spider is in my room. I express my disbelief to my brother.
The scene changes; I'm in my backyard with my younger brother. My bed is also out there. Since it's a dream, the extension has yet to be built. It's night-time, and we're spraying the bed with my insect & bug killer. i don't miss a spot.
I'm back in my room. I notice, in the cupboard, there is an old dirty hole. I franticly spray in there. I think to myself, it must be where they get it. I don't see any more spiders. I feel that since they're all gone, and that the holes have all been sprayed, no more should be in my room again. This gives me some peace of mind.

I'm back outside again. There is a big old-looking tree. It has a tarp, I think a green one, going over it. On the top of the tree (it's slightly taller than me) is a disturbing sight. It's a mouse, completely engulfed in spider webs. The tree is covered in spider webs, that look similar to beeswax. My little brother, who is now with me, doesn't realise what it is. I have to explain it's a mouse.

My alarm wakes me up. I remember to use the iso, combined with WILD. I listen to the entire 30 minute MP3. I'm still nowhere near entering SP, and my hair is beginning to itch, so I decide to just go for WBTB instead. I remind myself to become lucid, and to remember my goals and to stabilise the dream. This pays off.

I would rate the following lucid dream as a layer three, minor.

Spoiler for Layer Three:

Layer Three (Minor):
You'll realise you're dreaming and fully understand the implications of what dreaming really is. The dream will be stable and vivid. However, you'll not have full control over your actions and at points it may feel like you're watching a film. You understand that the dream characters are merely a facet of your imagination, although they still believe that they're real.

When you become lucid, you understand the full implications, but you're not in total control. Because you're watching it unfold without any real influence over it, you become so immersed in the dream you lose lucidity. Later on you regain lucidity and remember how earlier on in the dream you were also lucid.

I'm on a stretch of road, in a small town. I don't really how I become lucid; I think I was lucid from the beginning. I excitedly rub my hands to stabilise the dream. I yell "This is a dream" many times. As I do this I notice some buildings in the distance increasing in detail. I want to finally complete some of my dream goals. I consider finding my DG, but I realise that may take some time, so I just try to find my dream name instead. A friend of mine named Harry.B is in a black car near me. I get in the car as he starts to drive. I ask him my dream name. He think for a few moments. He says "Hansen Francis." I can tell by the look on his face, and the fact that a friend of mine is called Hansen, that he just made this up. I decide to disregard this. Whilst in the car I have to yell "This is a dream" a few more times.
By now, my lucidity is fading. I'm still lucid, just much less aware. I'm at school outside my lockers, and I'm still trying to find out my dream name. I ask a kid named Luke. He gives me a very intellectual speech on how one does not just find his dream name, he must earn it. I'm surprised at how much sense he's making. I remember for a few moments being in the canteen, but this doesn't last long.
Now I'm outside again. There is a big factory to my right. Nobody is near me. I decide to try and fly. Since my logic was still not working very well, this was very extremely easy. I just jumped up, and off I went. I was thinking to myself how badly I didn't want to forget this when I awoke. Then I woke up.

Only when I woke up, did I realise how un-lucid the end of that dream had become. I happily wrote the the dreams down.

I went back to sleep for a short while. I had a third very vivid but short dream. I was in my maths class, which was very dark and gloomy. Sitting next to me on my left was my school crush. I hear someone to my right on the other side of the room talking to her. I'm slightly embarrassed, and incredibly sick. I have a very runny nose and headache. I keep coughing and sneezing. I look to my left again to see that an old lady had sat between me and my crush.

I'm ticking the "task of the month" DJ category because I believe "find your dream name" was a previous one. I'm going to try my luck with the Iso tones again tonight. Hopefully I can use it to aid WILD.

I dreamed at first I was at my old elementary school it was and wasn't the same school (It doesn't existed anymore in RLF). My class (made up of my previous classmates from elementary school) went into the "Classroom" but there were too many people and not enough desks. So I got stuck sitting in a chair with no desk. We all had to turn our seats to watch a show on the TV that hanged from the ceiling.

I disliked that so I left and went into washroom (yes the stalls had doors but I didn't use one!!) and when I exited out of there the school turned into something like my church yet wasn't my church at the same time.

I was in the basement (technically we call it the basement but it has a nursery, gym and youth room besides a youth minister's office) and the church's basement looked normal except for shoes outside of the gym and in the middle of the gym I saw this group of people a cult I believe but not everyone who was there was in the cult off to the side was a young brunette woman who was playing with a 2-5year old child (there were kid toys everywhere stuff I seen as a child). The next thing I saw was person (I assume he was a person-he technically had no head I just assume it was hiding underneath the shirt).

One of the members of the cult looked like another ex-class mate of mine and for some reason she had to a floor-low bow. I don't remember what they talked about but I wrote whatever they did talk about into a notebook. I hastily put the notebook away when I sense someone coming up on me (I was hidden in a corner outside the room) and the person pushed me onto a slide which was hidden in the wall I was standing next too. The end of the slide ended up in the gym itself and the "headless" person wheeled around and saw me and said "The guards only use that slide when there's an eavesdropper." "What did you hear?" he/she asked me. I refused to answer. and she/he also insisted I bow (but I think I said "No matter how hard the wind howls the mountain will not bow") "I will deal with you latter and had the "guards" take me to a hidden room. I woke up just after this.

So I finally had my first lucid dream... I think. It's sort of the same situation as my false awakening, as I'm unsure if it actually happend the way it's supposed to happen.

I was running down the street, away from my friend, travelling south. We were just playing a game, but I as outrunning her. I made it al the way to the end of a very long street and decided to go back. But I didn't want her to see that I was making my way back so I decided I would run East, then North, the West and go in a big square to get back. The idea was to get back before she does so that I can surprise her.

I turned east and ran until the next block, then turned north. I found myself in a forest. The sign said 'Elephant Forest'.
I was wondering why it was called Elephant Forest when I saw a wall of trees in front of me. It looked like the forest just stopped and gave way to air not too far ahead. There was a sort of doorway of trees that looked out of place ahead of me. They were all lined up too close together to be accidental.
I walked between them and into the doorway they made. I stopped suddenly, realising that after the doorway was a huge drop. I was standing on the top of a masive cliff and down below I could see the forest continued.
I had an amazing view of the whole landscape and to the horizon. In the forset below, there were two different kinds of trees. Trees with dark green leaves and trees with light green leaves. Most of the trees were dark, but the ones that were light were places perfectly to make the shape of an elephant.

I backed away from the edge and turned around. It was becoming dark and I was tired from running. I decided I was probably going to fall asleep.

This is when I entered the second dream.
I woke up in the back of a car. There were two DCs in front and one to my left. I recognised the one ot my left, but can no longer recal who they were. For whatever reason, I decided to try my reality check and was able to push my left index finger through my right palm. It felt very strange to be doing that. I turned to the person I knew and asked, 'Is my friend chasing me still?'
'Yes' He replied.
'Is this a dream?'
'Yes'.

(What I did not realise at the time was that I was in two dreams. I thought the forest was reality).

I sat in the back of the car and wondered what I should do now that I'm lucid for the first time. A voice came from behind me. A small, high-pitched voice, right at the back of my head. I turned around and found a small panel of the car seat to be removed. Inside looked like a mini version of an aeroplanes cockpit, maybe ust a little more futuristic. The voice I heard would have come from a person small enough to fit in the mini compartment, but there was no one inside. This distraction made me lose lucidity and I felt like I was watching myself, trapped behind glass, unable to control anything.
The person next to me held both my hands. He held up my right palm and pushed my left index finger through it. Once again, I realised it was a dream and became lucid, thanks to this DC.

I was not lucid for very long before I woke up on the forest floor. I was convinced that was reality since I was just lucid in a dream (I never thought my first lucid dream would be inside another dream). I woke up as soon as I stood up.

Last night was a blur. Never had more than one or two false awakenings at a time, but I had three.

Awake Non-lucid Semi-Lucid Lucid

I'm sitting on my old computer. I'm on some sort of girly chat website. The screen is lit up in pink and white. Some of the girls have left mean comments.

I wake up. I keep my eyes closed, hoping for a DEILD. But what's that buzzing noise? No, it's not a buzzing noise, it's a kind of beat. That's not normal. I open my eyes. My bed is in the wrong place in my room, and my computer's on. I RC several times, now knowing i'm dreaming.

Everything's blurry. The left side of my vision is upside down. What the fuck? I can't move very much. This isn't good at all. I manage to sit up, and try to shake the heaviness off.

I wake up again. Again, I keep my eyes closed. But there it is again, that beat. I sit up, my computer's on. What? Ok, I'm confused. I RC, breathing through my pinched nose. I stick my finger through my palm, to be really sure.

I jump through my wall, and down stairs. My dad's next to the stairs, which is unusual. In my false awakenings, my dad is no where to be seen. He asks where I'm going. I ignore him and walk through the door, not bothering to open it. Once outside, the sun shining, I jump on top of my neighbors house. I run and jump to the next one. The houses are not in their usual pattern, but who cares.

I decide to see if I can summon Asher. I scream his name, looking around for him. In the field below, I see a dark clothed figure with black hair walking towards me. I grin, falling from the roof, and run up to him.

He turns. This is not Asher. He's pretty cute though. I get closer. "Kiss me?" I smile, winking.

Several moments later, my dad interrupts us. He grabs my arm, leading me away. I shout at him, but am curious to where he is taking me. I remind myself not to get too carried away by the dream, and to stay lucid.

He opens up a sportscar door. When I get it, he turns to me and says "Listen young lady, that is unacceptable, kissing random boys!"

I snigger. "This is my world, I could burn you to the ground and then go have sex with that boy if i wanted to."

I wake up. I'm paranoid about false awakenings now. Once up, I find once again that my computer is on. This time is plays music. I RC, making sure, and then leap through my window. This doesn't take me to my garden, but to a railway track in the middle of a yellow field.

I jump up, my town surrounds the field. As I fly, I make myself lighter, so it feels more floaty. Why not try something new? What about... Wings?I create wings, expanding several feet out of my back. Looking at them, I see that they're a light grey. I flap, but find it quite difficult to adjust too. Maybe I'll do this another time, and let them disappear.

I want to jump off something. Freefall. Isn't that one of my goals? Yes, it is! I look around. Nothing is high enough.

I was about to create a skyscraper, but woke up (for real this time).

Went to bed and put on the Binaural Beats I had downloaded using headphones. It took me a while to get to sleep

I woke within a dream, in my bed with the Binaural still playing. I took the headphones out but the tone was still there. I could not hear much and therefore assumed that sleeping with the tone had made it stick in my ears/mind and I was effectively deaf and could just hear this tone.

There were 2 TVs on the floor, to the right of my bed. I got down to floor level, they were cctv screens on multi shot mode, with various screens showing different cameras. Some of the images were... my parents garden looking from the bush to the garage, works yard area and a hotel lobby with a woman wearing only a pair of knickers and long hair looking troubled. I tried to find an image of the flat and may or may not have found one. I remember I turned the volume down on both TVs as it was too loud, I also remember losing the channels the cctv images were on, I believe the channels went from 0-64.

When I turned around I noticed my bedroom door was wide open and I was naked looking at these TVs. I went out to the lounge to see Sam, Marek, Tom B, Anthony and Egon Spengler. I tried to say hi to Anthony but he was busy so I didnt. I asked to see Sam in private to tell her what was going on and we went to her bedroom.

Although I didnt invite Egon, he entered the room. Marek also entered the room and had fungus, like small mushrooms all over his chin. I remembered in the dream that they were no where near as bad as they were before (this 'before' does not exist) but it could be because marek was actually Marek/Ben R. Marek asked if I wanted to go for a beer some time, I probably said yes. He leaves the room. I then told them what I had done and how the tone was still in my head and I couldnt get rid of it. Egon was talking science to me, I dont think I understood it. Sam said "should you not go and see your specialist about this" I dont know if I replied. I was sitting on Sams bed at this time. Sam was then across the other side of a motorway with no cars on it. There were Blues and Greens within the space. I tried to turn this down (unsure of meaning) so I reached for the Sky remote to my left and attempted to turn it down, the buttons were greasy

At this point I awake in real life to find the Binaural Beats still playing.