lucid

Hi everyone,

I have been wondering for some time now if many people could simply chose to dream something in the afternoon and when they go to bed actual dream it. If you can do this how specific of a dream can you chose to have and how much time did it take you to learn how to do this. can you do this whenever you desire or just on random nights. Thank you for your response!

I've just become lucid, not sure how, and I'm walking into a restaurant. Sadly, this does not remind me of the 5-star restaurant totm. For some reason I think that the totm is to perform a card trick on some DCs (guess I was remembering the magic show one from last month..). I walk through the front of the place, heading towards the back, and I see my friend J sitting alone at a round table. I am determined to stay lucid, so when she says hi I return it quickly and keep walking right on past. She has distracted me before. I reach the back of the room and there are many more DCs. The hum of conversation fills the air. 3 or 4 people are sitting around another round table laughing and playing cards. A very large deck of neat-looking cards are spread haphazardly in the middle of the table. I approach and stand to the right of the dealer, a red-headed character I'm not sure is male or female. He/she explains to the player across the table that the next card he/she deals will be an "anti-cabbage" or "no cabbage" card and that he should not worry. I decide that I'm gonna replace it with a cabbage card! Muahahahaaa.. So, the dealer shuffles a big chunk of the deck (most of it is still lying all over the table), holds it forward and prepares to hand the top card to the player. I hold up my two fingers in front of me as if I'm holding a card. I see nothing, but kind of feel something and have confidence that it will work. I quickly slide my invisible cabbage card under the dealer's fingers and watch as the player receives and looks at the card. His face registers shock and a bit of anger at the "lying" dealer. I laugh and run off. The front of the restaurant has become a grocery store and I'm navigating through the shelves. My lucidity and recall takes a downward turn and all I remember is someone is chasing me and I'm running away with a strange mix of excitement and fear.

#445 - DILD - ???

OK I'll keep this entry super short and summarized because it was a total flop are far are lucid dreams go.

I have a strange bathroom experience with the toilets flushing by themselves and the usual public restroom oddness I bounce from this to having repeated false awakenings over and over and eventually do a nose plug. I have a type of in-dream-WILD and get out of bed. The dream is extremely unstable and I do my best to stabilize. I eventually find myself admiring some super detailed but, very plastic, wood veneer before giving up on the dream totally thinking that I ran out of REM cycle. Of course, I go on to having some other super vivid and detailed non lucid dream soon after.

Lucids two nights in a row! Nice. This one started out as a regular nightmare rather than through sleep paralysis. I was watching The Lion King with my brother like we did when we were kids, and I was sitting there playing the original Pokemon on my old Game Boy. Then suddenly dad came running into the room all psychotic, laughing with a gun in his hand, and we freaked out and ran away. He chased us and caught my brother, and I heard horrible gunfire and so I ran down the hall and locked myself in a room. He was banging at the door and I was so scared and kept trying to push through the window glass, but then I noticed my hands on the glass. My fingers were all funny and I immediately recognized it as a dream and went lucid. I turned around from the window and the room was pure white, and the banging had stopped. So I left the room and found myself in another house I couldn't get out of, but this time it was all white and there was sunlight everywhere. ...but I was still locked in. In one of the rooms was a grey alien, which was a little weird, but when I walked up to it and poked it, it disappeared. Now back in the hall, I just told myself "You know, I can never find that guy when I search, so I'm just going to sit here and wait on him." So once again I was sitting on the ground in the hallway, surrounded by white and sunlight, calling out to Seru all pitiful-sounding. I heard a noise at the end of the hall, and leaned over to look, and there he was standing there looking at me and smiling. Yay, it worked! I went over to him and asked him if he could break me free from the house again, and he said yes. He flew up through the ceiling and I flew up after him, but this time I didn't just hit the ceiling instead I went right through it. Then we were up in the air and I was looking in awe at all the landscapes surrounding me. In front of us was this massive flower garden, fields and fields of all different species, it looked so rainbow-speckled, and it was so vivid I just couldn't believe it. I wanted to go down there immediately, but then he told me to look at the rest. So I looked to the right and there was a vast ocean and a beach that stretched forever, and far in the distance in front of us, past the flower fields, was a giant wall. Like the Great Wall only much higher. We landed on top of a tall fence overlooking the flowers, and out of all the different flowers, rare ones and such, this one common blue-purple pansy stood out, and I really wanted to keep it because it was so vivid but I also didn't want to ruin the field at all. I was curious about the wall so I asked him what was beyond it. He said there were mountains as far as the eye could see. Well... the call of the unknown lured me in and I wanted to go over the wall. He took off into the sky and I flew after him, towards it, buuuuttt... then my husband's alarm clock woke me up! Haha, well that's okay. I got a sweet vivid lucid dream, a dream guide, and fun places to visit next time.

June 28, 2015

I did SSILD before this dream which may have made it a little bit more vivid, but I don't think that was the reason I got lucid. It might've raised my awareness to figure out I was dreaming, but I don't think that mattered because I was basically told I was dreaming by the dream. I had like an hour of insomnia after doing SSILD for some reason (usually I fall right asleep with SSILD) but I still got the lucid!

I am inside a video game that I'm playing with some friends. Apparently we are playing Boom Beach and we are all working together to take down a bunch of bases. I was using a mix of Bazooka girls and the big machine gunners (I had tried using those IWL when I used to play and they never really worked out that great).

"Wow, I never knew that these troops were so good!", I said to a dude next to me as I was directing my troops.

I saw from above 3d images of our troops just flooding into different tiny bases. I had the thought that if I wasn't working with other people I wouldn't have near as many troops so I probably wouldn't do good at all. I made my way to the back of the room where a tiny analog clock was. There was a giant digital orange wall and on it there was a video chat up with 4 blue digital boxes and people's faces in the (I can't find a picture of it but I remember it from some video games that I've played). One person who didn't look real (maybe anime?) said something about how dreams and this video game connected. something like, "It's a good thing that we are all dreaming so we can play this game together." Immediately I searched my mind for what that means.

"I can't be in a dream." I thought.

However, I was getting suspicious enough now that I did a nose RC and could breath, but when I did it a second time to make sure my air got blocked halfway. I then decided I better check my hands and on my left I had nine fingers and I'm not sure how many were on my right hand. I stayed calm and actually remembered to stabilize! I rubbed my hands together and felt the friction. Then I brought it up to my face and looked at it. It seemed to be the most vivid I have seen them in any dream so far, and they also had a slight glow to them it seemed because they were a little bright. I touched the wall and could feel the little bumps in it. I proceed into my parent's room as I was right next to it and I wanted to go outside. I was about to open the window when I stopped. I probably got this idea from a podcast I listened to from Sensei the day before on teleportation. I wanted to go to the beach so I imagined I was actually at a resort and the beach was right outside. Immediately the color coming through the window curtain changed from normal light to a light blue. I realized I succeeded because light blue was the color of the ocean (Going to the beach was not a dream goal currently. It used to be when I first started, but it's not high on my to-do list now. I think I decided to go because in my MILD I imagined I was at a beach and I flew from there). I then open up the window and step out onto the roof of my house. I take in my surrounding and I see a tall lifeguard tower with an attractive female lifeguard on top of it looking out. She has her back turned to me and she was bent over, so I didn't really take in many other things around me I keep looking at her and notice her skin changes from tan to black and then back to tan. At this time I also feel the dream destabilizing so I yell,

"Stabilize!" and then, "Clear!"

I feel the dream become stable again which gives me some relief as I do not want this dream to end prematurely. I then have an urge to have *cough* with the lifeguard. It's a high enough level LD that I realize that this would be mad for my lucidity and I try to fight it. My fight is to weak though, so I look for an escape. I look towards the beach and it is now just a narrow sandy driveway with a square tiny pond at the end that looked a little deeper than a puddle. I rationalize that since the beach looks so boring now I might as well spend some time with the lifeguard. She started walking over to me and unbuttons her top. Underneath I see a green and purple poke-a-dot bikini. Her face changes and I see now she is actually Kim Kardashian. I don't want to do it out here though so I look for another place. Inside the lifeguard tower there is a bed so I want to go there. She just keeps on coming to me though and t seems she just wants to get it done out here. I give in because now I feel the dream is about to fall apart so I don't have much time left. I need to do it as fast as possible. She gets over to me and I grab her to bring her down next to me and as she gets right next to me I wake up.

After waking I wished I would've went into the pond to see what was down there. My dream might've created an entire underground world that I could've explored and the dream would've probably lasted longer. I need to learn to control my urges better in dreams, but I'm assuming that will come when I'm getting more lucids and experience. I didn't remember to fly in this dream or else I could have jumped off the roof to get away from the girl too. This was a very fun and vivid dream and it seemed like it lasted a good length of time...so I'm OK with the result!

Also, I notice that LD's #18 and 19 aren't posted in this DJ. I looked back in my workbook and I got those right around the time that I took my long break, and I don't think I ever wrote them down and if I did I wouldn't know where to look. I do remember a tiny fragment of one but it's not worth it to type out I don't think. I do wish I would have recorded them, so that kinda sucks.

June 25, 2015

I was standing in my house right next to the front door. My mom was in front of me talking. I don't remember what she was talking about but I was really tired and just wanted to go to sleep. Then all of a sudden for no apparent reason I becamelucid. This was another low level LD so of course I forget to stabilize but I remember my goal of flying. Immediately I run upstairs into my room. It is dark in there and I don't even bother trying to turn a light on. I jump up trying to fly but I just fall back down to the ground again. I try two more times or so and then I wake up.

My goal before for flying was just to fly. But then I heard somewhere that it's better to have specific goals in mind so then you know exactly what you want to do. So I changed my goal from flying to flying to the moon. Originally I wanted to fly to Mars but then decided since that is way farther away then the moon it might be harder to do, and as of right now I'm struggling enough with the flying part so I need the rest to be easy.
I've got to figure this flying thing out...I've gone 21 LD's with only a bunch of failed flying attempts and pretty much nothing else.

Morning of June 30, 2015. Tuesday.



I am lucid but not in full control, apparently. I am appreciative of a swamp setting that is not threatening in any way at first, reminding me of my early childhood. A voice echoes “the bog oak necklace!” in a somewhat exaggeratedly dramatic way as if my arrival signifies the beginning of some sort of incongruous “This is Your Life” and “Candid Camera” composite. Not being impressed by an unfamiliar feminine voice (at least this particular seemingly disembodied one), I move onward; half-walking, half-hovering (feet partly dragging).

“The bog oak necklace!” the voice repeats. (There are strange “loud” silences between when the phrase is spoken.) After a time, I realize that the voice had not actually ever been there (even though it had - typical dream logic).

“The bog oak necklace!” says the voice again. It seems someone or something is following me. I am not frightened, just greatly annoyed at this “intrusion” into my own dream setting. I want to get rid of this female so that I can…interact with a female (uh…okay…that makes no sense, but very typical of faux dream “logic”).

“The bog oak necklace!” says the voice yet again, with some sort of strange essence by which it seems it will repeat forever and ever in a sort of implied cycle, at least in this environmental setting - until the end of time. This thought irritates me even more but there is nowhere to complain; no booth, no box to put a note in (which I “rationally” expect to find in the middle of an isolated cypress swamp).

I discover an old radio’s speaker just out of full reach, nested in the limb of a tree. Aha! Now we are getting somewhere. Once I am able to get this speaker out and disconnected, I can get on with my dream and take control.

The wires pull out, but the same phrase repeats from elsewhere. I notice that I am now carrying a microphone, which seems connected to the same wiring that the radio speaker was (though I vaguely recall that you can use a speaker as a microphone when input as such - which I had done in the past to get different effects in tonality and such in dub), but am not sure how far I can get before needing to let go of it.

“The bog oak necklace!” the voice repeats again.

“Stuff your bog oak necklace!” I shout, completely forgetting about lucidity and dream manipulation.

+ invited unattractive, under appreciated girl out for dinner, walk through mall, she bothers a class

+ star trek, must climb up wall to save the day, up above us is a pharmacy

+ poking around in aquarium, lion fish, leeches on floating coaster, drop them on ground, feel bad, scoop them back up, imagine they're all remote controlled over the Internet and compose a letter of apology for being such an aquarium noob, walk down hallway for food, see donut, see girl with face frozen in scream with eyes wide open

+ caterers set up the table, pick up and carry it away by lifting the tablecloth, they ask me to at least get the hors d'oeuvres

BTS

Motorcycles galore:

+ riding motorcycle out of my childhood home (gixxer 1000?) up S ave, it has a very odd (backwards, squeeze-to-activate) clutch control

+ at the honda dealer's, they have a motorcycle servicing area, the motorcycle tech leaves and the boss says something to him, I wonder when the Nighthawk CB250 will get modern features like disc brakes.

+ see popular LD forum girl [false memory], see she's online on her computer on DV, a young man is asking her advice, he's "dancing" with her, she's in a bikini top which is lifted up to expose her fabulous breasts but they dance away and I can't get another look because there's a shopping bag in the way

+ best friend MR is giving me poster-sized, framed photograph samples to choose from, they are of moving people like Harry Potter pictures video loops, one of my cousin KRD, one of her daughter CD, one of an unknown young black man, white frame, against large multi-story white house, I say "I really like the composition of this one" (all the white)

+ (LD #124) young people at table including very cute girl wants to know if she can give 6 people a ride on her motorcycle, I talk to her, think about a motorcycle trip arond where I live, in traffic, encounter old woman checking out from hospital, dark roads, roadblock because of hijacking, right tunnel opened,duck under low cement roof, push past slow moving guy on narrow slope, emerge into bright sunny lobby/atrium with group of young blonde girls at elevator, look at watch, it's wrong, get lucid, full stabilization ritual, start giving DC girl a massage as further stabilization, wife makes noise in waking world and I wake instantly (grrr!)

+(f) dark subway, attendant guides me to door #14, you must step on train and off again to get there

+(f) beer garden at the cashier window, what kind should we buy (starts with 'k'?)

(f) (vague) in a store with people?

+(f) take a naked girl into my arms

Take new galantamine 4mg (relentless improvement)

BTS (long, several hours)

+ (LD #125) girls, wife comment, go off with one searching for private room, pool complex, diving section, lifeguard chair up ladder, driving in traffic in super tall vehicle (several stories), 3 referees in striped black and white shirts, pull onto street outside childhood home, girls in way, garage full, hit another car when parking, strange large embossed letters on driveway, nose pinch get lucid, grab girl, some fun

+ I drew NSFW drawing, hurry home so no one finds it, bathroom no door only curtains, buying beer, second real bathroom, red toilet seat walls, super foot massage system in shower, go out again for beer, "where's the American beer?" can't read the labels on any of the large almost keg sized containers, "recognize" neighborhood

+ girl with skin condition/rash, narrator talking about condition, see close up of female parts

+ talking about what we hate about TV, I try to say I hate how people on shows are so stupid, can't talk at first, get the words out, people agree including the ones on the TV.

June 29, 2015

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I took the Dream Leaf supplement tonight as well.

Librarian
My classmate was working at the library at the school we both did our internship at, but it was like my old high school, with more ramps and stairs and shit. She was walking around the school, and I saw her. I decided to walk with her, and she was commenting on how her job let her use these ramps on all the stairs. She was pushing around a huge barrel of books and whatnot. The kids all loved her and I got to see some of them. They were second graders now, so some of them were in another class.



The Paint
I was taking a class with mom. It was a huge hippie experience: we paired up and greeted an (inanimate) object in the room, then wrote a Socratic poem for the room we were in (I can't remember the name of the room... But it had a name). Then we sat in a circle and the leader was all dramatic and we got huge paintbrushes and canvases with different colored base paintings. I had orange of course. We all just shared pots and squirt bottles of different colors and had a huge hippie paint fest. I finished early and asked if I could leave, and walked home. I accidentally left my backback on the trail though, on a castle-wall thing. I had to go back and mom saw my painting; she was very impressed.



Librarian
I was with my brothers, in the driveway, turning animals into different animals. We turned a robin into a bald eagle and for some reason it targeted me so I tried to get inside the house without looking like I was running, in case that would make it hunt me faster... It almost got me as I ran the last stretch to the door. I waited inside and was so paranoid because it was still trying to get me for a few minutes. It flew at the windows and tried to get in through the door when anyone went in or out.




(Took Red Pill)




Harry Potter's Paintbrush
I was at an apartment with Anna, Michele, Michelle, Michelle, Mindi, and some other classmates. We were heading out to class, stopping to get food first. But I almost forgot my keys and had to go back. When I caught up to them, a kid was asking for money. I said I wouldn't give her money but I would buy her some food. So we stopped in a store and I let her pick out some food, but she swiped my card. I had a scuffle with her and eventually got it back from her, then she turned into golem... During our scuffle I saw in the back room Harry Potter tied to a chair... I was too busy to do anything about it. I bought at twizzler on my way out of the store and the cashier said she was on my side and thought it was really nice that I was going to buy food for that girl. As I left, Lucious Malfoy was also leaving, and I accused him of raping HP.

As soon as I left the shop, I turned into Harry. All the lights on the street turned off now and death eaters were all over the place. People were falling left and right so I fell to the ground to make it look like I was one of them and three women were near me. One tried to take a necklace in my hand (it was good, with either a crown or a chicken pendant), I shook my head, clenched the necklace tighter, and offered a paintbrush instead. She seemed very pleased with this and one of the others gave me a different paintbrush in exchange.

I spent days on the streets. At some point I was sitting with a young death eater who was saying that he knew their side would lose. I was like "you always have to have faith in your side. That's what makes it strong," but I was having so much trouble speaking, like my throat was all crackly or I was out of breath all the time. But then I found out that I was near the border of deatheater-land all I had to do was cross this street I was on, and they wouldn't be able to get me back. So I pretty much just ran for it and I was fine. On the other side everyone was dressed in flowers and veils and flowing light dresses... It was almost as weird as the other side. Very hippie, very full of life, almost a little cultish. I walked to a secret school I was a part of and some vines opened up to let me in. They were magical and would close around anyone who didn't belong at the school. There was a girl behind me and she climbed up a vine to get in, but the vines closed around me, trapping me, and I saw the girl fall... I shouted and the vines recognized me and let me in. Next thing I knew, I was in a large room with 6 bunks. Hermione and Ron were there. Two of the bunks had colorful alphabet letters and one was a half-bunk that was blue and white. Three other people came in, but I didn't know them. Hermione and Ron told them the story, then the dream faded.



Drinking Battle!
I was walking through an art museum, and saw Van Gogh's Starry Night. I'd been planning on jumping into this painting, so I'm glad I saw it and got lucid after a quick RC. I pretty much ran at the wall, expecting to get sucked into the painting, and jumped in. Everything was in the texture of the painting, with lines and multi-colored. I looked up and there were swirls moving around through the stars and moon. It was beautiful. There was also a giant dildo in the sky, though. Remembering the second task on my planned sequence, I rustled around in my pockets, expecting that what I pulled out would be an odd seed. I found one shaped like those candies the soot sprites were eating in Spirited Away. It was larger though, and had spots that started pink but were changing to blues and greens, all neon-ish. I dug a small hole and planted it, and willed it to grow. The result was petty interesting. It grew a gay strip club.

Woot woot!!

I knew the next thing I wanted to do was clone myself, so I looked into the window of the club at my reflection, and imagined there were two of me. I remembered how this had worked in Zukin's dream. My reflection kept morphing and did eventually show two of me... I looked next to me and there I was.

I went with myself into the strip club, expecting to find the main men for my next task: Hercules and Dionysus. It was very distracting in there but I had recited the order of things to do so many times before I fell asleep (STD but with C in it for clone lol) that I only stopped to watch the strippers for a little while, clone by my side. I tried seeing through both of our eyes, but we were seeing the same things so I don't think that worked... I tried to get her to come with me to find the God of Wine and his competitor, but she wanted to stay with the strippers. I left her there, and shortly after, in the back of the club, I saw two shirtless men (maybe they were workers there on their break). I asked if they were Dionysus and Hercules, and they said they were. I challenged them to a drinking battle, and Dionysus was like "Sweetie, I'm the God of Wine. Bring it on." He scooted over for me to sit in the booth with them.

The first drink had no effect on any of us. The second had none on me but a teeny bit of effect on them. After the third I felt a little silly (placebo?) but they were looking wasted all of the sudden. We all stayed that way for another ten drinks until after the 14th they were both so drunk they started making out and forgot about our battle. I assumed I needed to drink one more to win, so I did. Then I watched them make out, and may or may not have joined them soon after when things got a little heavier. I lost any sort of lucidity I had left, though.

I woke up into a lucid dream from sleep paralysis, and as I was laying there I saw a blue sky overhead. It morphed into different types of sky, like cloudy, rainy, night, day, etc. I tried getting up, but found myself anchored to my body, and no matter how hard I tried, I couldn't pull myself out of it. It felt like a rubber band, I'd pull forward and get snapped back. I finally closed my eyes and imagined myself bursting forth upwards, and even though I didn't exactly "burst forth", I still stood up. I looked down at my hands, and a few of my fingers were missing. I investigated my surroundings, because it looked like I was in a different house than usual. There were all kinds of strange things. Rooms that were creepy and worn down, staircases with picture frames on them that whizzed by at high speeds, and other stuff. There were so many doors to open! I kept exploring because I thought maybe the house represented something. As I moved along, I made it a little secondary priority to find Seru, because I've been wanting to make him my dream guide, figuring he could help me achieve my solar kamehameha quicker. I looked behind many doors and called out to him, but nothing. I opened one door and went into the room, and it was a pretty scary place. It looked like something out of Silent Hill. It was completely empty with stains all over the wall, and there was a single tiny window with metal bars over it. As soon as I realized I was a bit scared, I knew that meant something freaky would show up. First I attempted to leave through the window, but I couldn't phase through, nor could I punch out the wall. I heard something coming, so I flew up into the corner of the ceiling and stood still. A weird humanoid thing that shambled along came in, and it had a huge lumpy black thing in place of its head. It was a bit... terrifying. As I floated there by the ceiling where it couldn't get me, I thought "You know, this is a long ass lucid dream, and I'm not going to waste it hiding from scary shit. I'm looking for Seru and I'm exploring this house that may or may not represent my subconscious, so FUCK THIS GUY." and I immediately landed on the floor, marched up to the creepy thing, and said "FUCK YOU BITCH. Now you will tell me where Seru is or so help me I will kick your ass so hard!" ...it stopped shambling and turned toward a direction, so I left it and went off that way. Soon I came across an old guy lazing around on an armchair, so I asked him the same thing. He was absolutely no help whatsoever. Figured. I continued on, trying to control things, trying to summon things, but nothing worked. Nothing's worked at ALL lately. So I just gave up. I slid to the floor and just cried and cried, thinking what the fuck is the point of lucid dreams if I'm always trapped in some house every single time? I felt so friggin hopeless. While I was down there crying, suddenly someone came up from behind and wrapped their arms around me, and I was all "Great, now more scary shit's come to mess with me." But nope, I turned around and it was Seru, yay! Immediate tears-b-gone! He flew me through the house at super speeds and I tried to take in all the things around me, and then we both flew straight through the house and out into the open blue sky. I felt so happy to finally break free of the lucid dream houses. I know the whole being locked in the house thing symbolizes something, maybe one day I'll figure out what it is. But anyway, I totally got laid. Like, up in the sky. HELL TO THE YES. We... um, kinda went at it for a while, and I was thinking I'd wake up before I got awesome dream-orgasms. But I didn't! Then I asked him if he'd be my dream guide, and he gave me this little knowing smile, so... maybe? He seems to be able to break me free from the houses, so that would be nice. Plus possible solar kamehameha tutoring? I guess I'll find out in my next lucid.

I dreamt I just moved to a new place, but I couldn't get into the house, so I had to sleep in the pod. I climbed up on top of all of the boxes and laid down at the top, so close that my nose touched the ceiling if I shifted. I remember seeing a creepy spider web only inches away from me with multiple spiders on it, and it kinda freaked me out but if I didn't bother it then they wouldn't mess with me. In the morning, my cousin Janessa opened up the pod and saw me up at the top, and told me to get the hell out and called me stupid for sleeping there instead of elsewhere. I was annoyed she was bugging me, but tried to inch my way out, but I couldn't see my path and wound up getting my head stuck, so she had to push me out the way I came in.

I had a bunch of 'dream bits' as I started waking up in the morning. There was a group of people I was a part of, and we stole a bunch of gold, enough to fill up the entire trunk of a car. We were all excited and everyone left, leaving a girl and guy to watch over it. They kissed and took all the gold and fled. Then later I was at some restaurant to meet someone, it was some kind of shady deal. When I got there, the waiter at the front was embarrassed and said some other man who was at the table I'd reserved hadn't left yet. I realized it was probably who I was meeting, so I said it was okay and went over to sit down in the booth across from him. He was kind of shady looking with a business suit, and we waited for the other guy. The other guy came, and he was super handsome with blonde hair and a chiseled face, and was also wearing a suit. I don't know what we discussed. At some point, someone died. I think it was one of the people from the trunk gold.

June 25, 2015

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Tonight I took a dream supplement called Dream Leaf. It involves two pills; a blue one before bed, and a red one after about four hours of sleep. Even before the red pill, I was having uh more vivid dreams than unusually do, and I remembered many more of them:



Spoil Sport
Zukin really wanted to go do something with me but I had already taken my red pill and was like sooo ready to sleep and I ignored her texts.



Neat Fridge
I was at home, My little brother was there, and we had a whole slew of things in the fridge all neatly organized, like egg salad sandwiches. I spent prettying the entire dream exploring this new high-tech fridge and then ate a sandwich.



False Red Pill
I took my red pill with a bottle of water Ginger (Zukin's man) brought in and hung on a hook on my wall.



Crazy Car
I was In a grocery parking lot and the van suddenly started going in its own and I was trying to stop it, though I have no idea how I would do that. It kept hitting people and cars and I panicked and called my dad, who was in the store, hoping he could help. I somehow realized (or at least had an inkling) I was dreaming but woke up.




(Took red pill)




I Got Them Moves Like Jagged
I was at my old elementary school, at some sort of information night, and saw a lot of my old teachers. My 6th grade math teacher, Mr. M, gave me an envelope with names on it, and I was like "omg interview!!" A and M (two classmates of mine) were now with me and we were leaving.

I was standing there and suddenly realized I was dreaming (didn't even have to do an RC), and got really sad because that meant I didn't just get an interview at my old school. I told A that I was dreaming and she said, "well I'm not dreaming so how are you dreaming?"

We got in the car and I decided to drive. The school was definitely my elementary school, but in the spot where my old middle school is so I drove down a couple roads until I got to my house back home. I knew I was dreaming so every time I saw a person or car in the road, I decided to run them over to see what would happen. Fireworks is what happened. Every time i hit something, the car went right through then and sparks and fireworks shot out of the spot. It was so cool.

I knew that when I got home there would be a mirror to look into (wanted to stare into it for the TOTM). I got out of car and entered my home... There was a mirror on the floor and M (a different classmate) was sitting in front of it. I watched her reflection; I could see her in the corner of my vision as well. She was arguing with herself, and the reflection was getting very angry, her hair was growing out and she was growing fangs. Then M disappeared but her phone was there. I told her reflection to calm down or she would be stuck in the mirror. She did calm down and returned to normal and then she was back to being out here.

I wanted to find the Pegasus next. All of a sudden Sensei and Ophelia were there. There was almost one of those cartoonish POPs and smoke as they appeared. Sensei pointed to a white board and told me I had to pick a spot to find the Pegasus. I thought I would find him in the clouds and Sensei and Ophelia both said that was a good idea. Sensei also said I would get to pick what happened when I met Zeus, and I was thinking, "of course I do, it's my dream." Then Ophelia talked about Bernie from TBBT winning awards for lucid dreams. I was amazed that Bernie was into LDing. I sat on a bed and let myself drift off into a sleep, I was aware of myself rolling off the bed and landing in someone's leg/foot (I think it was A [a housemate], he was also on the bed beginning to LD).

I was in the clouds next, just floating. I still knew I was dreaming. I looked around for the Pegasus, expecting him to be there. In the meantime, it was so beautiful. I was in a sort of tunnel of clouds. I heard neigh behind me and turned to see the beautifullest white horse with gleaming golden wings. I told it we needed to find Zeus and take his bolt, and it let me on its back and we zoomed off. After a few minutes, I spotted a cloud that had a part that stuck up, and looked like a castle of sorts. I assumed this was Zeus's home, Mt. Olympus. We landed on a pillar, and suddenly it was stone as the clouds dispersed dramatically. We were on a huge mountain that had stuck up into the clouds. (Way cool!!) Someone saw us, but didn't seem at all surprised or alarmed. So I told him we were here because we had an appointment with Zeus. The man nodded and led me through a door Pegasus couldn't fit through, so it waited for me out there. A lot of people were inside. But there was one person on a throne at the back. He looked very Zeus-y. I walked through the crowd and shouted at Zeus, "Give me your bolt. I don't want to have to take it by force." He refused, but said I could have it if I won a dance-off with him.

He started. He looked like a floppy fish, though. Like I couldn't tell what he was trying to do. At some point his arms detached and flew a few meters to either side, then swapped and reattached on the opposite sides. I rolled my eyes when he passed the dance to me, and just sorta let myself dance, expecting that it would be fantastic. Funny thing is I danced like I usually dance (which isn't all that great), but when I stopped, the crowd went wild and Zeus fell back in his chair, defeated. He handed me the bolt, yelled that he wanted a rematch next week, as I left and found Pegasus. I wanted to go find The Face next but the dream started to destabilize and I just flew through the clouds until I woke up.



I'd Like to Have Sex With You Too
I was at auditions / interviews for jobs at my hometown, and there were also lessons of some sort. This is a week long thing and I got to know one of the guys pretty well, he seemed to also like me (I think this was the subC version of a guy I recently met haha). There were like five performance days as well, where we performed a play in the grass, but under a sort of awning with arches. During the last few days I met A (a really close high school friend), she was working at the concession counter haha. That same day I met a girl with one very blue eye, and one very green eye. She knew me already but I couldn't remember meeting her. She did seem familiar though. She gave me a free rice crispy treat covered in chocolate.

During the performance on the last day I wasn't a part of it so I was sitting along the wall at the back of the "stage" and writing in my note book and before I realized what I was writing it was something like "have sex again -> want to do it with me?" It was about the guy I had met. I got embarrassed and covered it up but I think he saw it and he came up to me after the performance and basically said "I'd like to have sex with you, too" so we snuck off to a closet.



Cool Outfit
I was in my game, I think an older Pokemon game. I was in the middle of a mini game with the guy I met at the last dream I think. It was a series of puzzles involving candles that I had to light. But after the first level cleared, I couldn't use the light candle spell anymore (why there were spells in Pokemon I do not know). The huge fire beacon thing in the center was calling to me and I clicked A at it. I was in a selection panel where I could pick a brand new, really cool outfit for my character. The one I really loved was a little like Elsa but all red/orange and flamy. I picked it and my character was pulled into the flame, and I was worried at first that it was a trap, but she got spit back out after a few moments. I picked her up physically and untied her from the smoldering ropes that bound her (dunno WHY they were binding her...) and woke up after noticing my character looked like a young child now, and would have to grow up before the outfit would be epic.

I was talking to some guy from Denmark about Interior Design. I was telling him that my sister did that and he seemed unimpressed and talked about how difficult the industry was. He left to lead some kind of presentation. Suddenly I was in a huge room that was filled with maybe 100 people that were all sitting in chairs, watching some DC at the front of the room give a speech. I noticed I was holding a crayon in my hand and I jokingly held it up in front of my eyes and pretended that I could control the presentation screen with my mind. Suddenly the screen started to act weird and I really could control it with my mind. For a minute I thought that I was super awesome, but then I realized that it was really just a dream.

I decided to play puppet master with some dream characters while I tried to remember some tasks. I stood up, raised my hand, and made 5-6 female DC's stand up and take off their clothes. I noticed that they were all Quite hairy. I remembered that I wanted to do the taste the rainbow task, but then I got worried about waking up and immediately woke up before I could go look for a rainbow.

I became lucid while driving some lady dream character around. She had brown hair and pale skin. She also looked extremely innocent and sweet and she actually kind of reminded me of Dorothy from The Wizard of Oz. I decided to take her on an adventure!

I made the car take off from the ground and fly through the air. We were soaring over a beautiful landscape that had snowy fields and trees scattered below us. The air was cool and fresh.

I made the car do giant loops in the air for fun and then I made it dive down to the ground so that we were flying barely above the surface of the earth. The Dorothy DC reached out of the car and let her hand run through a field of snowy flowers that we were flying past. She was in awe, mouth gaping open wide. I landed near a farmhouse that I guess was supposed to be her home.

I then told the Dorothy DC that everything she experienced was a dream, entirely created by her. I tried to convince her that I had actually driven her down a road and everything was quite normal. She was amazed.
I explained to her that we are constantly creating our realities and that we can make even the most mundane of journeys seem fantastic and magical by altering our perception of it. I said that we are the creators of our dreams and that we can make them so beautiful, that we only have to be more aware of what it is that we are creating.

There was more to the dream but I can't really remember it that well, I just remember some creepy pig guy was in her house and I had to protect her from him.

I am in a house with a couple of female friends I don't recognize from waking, and I'm semi-lucid. We're all standing in the kitchen which reminds me a bit of my grandmother's old house. Suddenly we begin to move towards the back room and I realize we're in a little train on a track. The train approaches the door, which opens automatically. On the other side is the outside world which drops far far down to the ground below. The metal tracks are suspended over it. Another track is merging with ours from the left and beyond that the tracks just end. It looks like it was built that way, but I "remember" that it wasn't that way before and this makes me nervous. The train is going too fast and I call to my friends to try and slow it down. I use the weight of my body to try to help. We slow down a little, but as we hit the bumper at the end of the rails, the train starts pitching forward, doing a front flip.

Somehow I get out of this situation and back into the house, feeling more lucid. I think my grandma is standing in the kitchen now. I try to leave the house and the doors keep closing on me. The front door is sliding slowly closed like elevator doors as I approach, but I manage to stick my hand in at the last second and stop it. I float out and up, fleeing this madhouse of falling trains. I feel like the situation is pursuing me, so I angle more up, hoping to get into open skies, but instead of seeing sky, I see flat blue light covering most of my vision. It feels good though, so I plunge myself into it, letting it surround me. I no longer feel my body. I just let go of everything, including awareness unfortunately, and let myself BE in the light. Not sure if this ended when another dream began or ended on awakening.

This light experience was had by Robert Waggoner as well, in a somewhat different way. I think I'll try seeking it out again sometime!