lucid

I was in Pittsburgh and I don't live there anymore, so I knew I was in a dream. I was playing a video game and taking a test to see if I have any mental health problems, and my brother Peter was there, and I realized I was dreaming. I found my mom and dad they were together (in real life they're divorced), and I was scared for my health because i was asleep and knew I was dreaming, and they wrote something down on a piece of paper and told me to take a cab to a hospital. Suddenly I was outside, and I remembered to ask myself, Am I still dreaming? Yes was the answer. So I decided to practice my back flip. In real life I land kind of on my knees when I do it without a spotter, and on my feet bent legs but my hands reach out and touch the ground when I do it with a spotter. At first I couldnt do it, but then I managed to do a back flip, and I landed on my feet and then fell back down to the ground and hit my head, and I tried to sit up and stand up but I couldn't, all I could do was lift my head up off the ground. But I knew it was just a dream and I woke up soon after that, but still it left me afraid that doing a back tuck in real life would leave me paralyzed for life. I know in heaven Jesus would heal me and that this dream was just a warning to be careful and to only do it on a big soft mat or into a foam pit and with a spotter.

I was in my room. Or at least a room. I was half-kneeling on the floor, as if I just dropped down from somewhere. I knew I was dreaming. I decided to go through the window, but it stopped me. I punched through it and the window panes broke down, but behind it, there's concrete and bricks. I can't escape.

NOTES:

I didn't feel desparate, just frustrated that I can't get anywhere in the dream, despite knowing that I'm dreaming.

I'm trying to fix a rather infuriating bug in a game prototype I'm working on.
Every time I run it through the debugger I get completely different results.
Even the code seems to change occasionally.

Eventually I realize that this is a dream sign and I try to increase my awareness.
A skype window pops up with a message from ~ Dreamer ~.
It says:

"I'm waiting..."

Oooooh. Did we want to meet on the beach tonight? Is ~ Dreamer ~ on the beach waiting for me?
I decide to go to bed immediately in order to attempt a WILD.
Surprisingly, I transition almost immediately, and find myself of the beach.

I remember to take a moment to stabilize the dream by going through all of my senses.
Wait... did I just attempt to WILD, even though I already knew that I was dreaming???
Well then... I'm off to a good start.

Anyways, I do feel that I am more focused now, so I begin my search for ~ Dreamer ~.
I start thinking about whether it is even possible for another dreamer to come to my beach.
It is a very private place after all, a place where I always feel safe.
But I decide that this shouldn't cause any problems.
After all I'm comfortable with the idea of her being here.

Unfortunately I can't find her, but I do see that there is another DC by the ocean.
Perhaps she has seen ~ Dreamer ~? I walk over to her in order to ask her.
As I get closer I notice that the DC has an interesting hair color.
It is bleached white with slightly lavender highlights.
Just as I arrive she jokingly says:

"You're late!"

What? Oh! Suddenly it becomes very obvious that she is in fact ~ Dreamer ~, not just a random DC that happens to be on the beach.
For some reason I assumed that she would have purple hair, so I didn't recognize her earlier.
I wonder why that is though. Usually I don't have any problems to recognize people in dreams, even if their appearance has changed.
She turns towards me, and I immediately notice her eyes.



Wow! Her eyes are so beautiful. I can almost feel the energy radiating from them.
She has had purple eyes in my dreams before, but they were never quite as vibrant as they are now.

"Hi?"

Oops, I realize that I haven't said anything yet. Instead I'm just staring at her eyes.
I feel a little awkward and somewhat anxious. I don't know what to say.
But then I remember reading that ~ Dreamer ~ has overcome such situations by getting naked.
I do like the general approach, but I'm not quite comfortable enough to just get naked.
Instead I decide to get reaaally close to her face and look right into her eyes.

"Have you seen your eyes? They are soooo purple."
"They are?"

She looks around for a moment and then uses her dream powers to pull some water out of the ocean,
and shapes it into a thin water mirror. It is still mostly transparent,
but the reflection is good enough to clearly see how vibrant her eyes are.

"Ooooh, I like it!"

"Hey Hyu. Tell me a trick?"
"A trick?"
"Yes! Like, a trick to improve lucidity!"
"Hmmm. Well, basically just engage all of your senses?"
"Yes, yes, I know that! Tell me an actual trick!"
"Oooh, I know! Take off your shoes!"

After a small pause she frowns a little.

"Why.... do you want to see my feet?"

Why did I say it like that?

"No... it's..."
"When you're barefoot, you are constantly engaging your sense of touch."
"You always feel the texture of the ground... like the softness of the sand."
"Basically it's similar to constantly touching everything you encounter with your hands."
"Ooooh, I see! Hahaha, that does make more sense than you revealing that you have a foot fetish or something. "
"Did I make you a little uncomfortable there?"
"It's fine... I'm just a little nervous."
"Don't worry, I experience that in my dreams as well."
"Yes, and then you get naked to..."
"... no, I mean... I'm not suggesting that you..."

We both have to laugh about the situation.
And then suddenly the laughter turns into a ring tone? What?

Aaand I wake up, because the alarm on my phone went off.
I'm annoyed because the dream was quite stable, I bet it could have lasted quite a bit longer if the alarm didn't go off.
But I remember the dream quite vividly, which is nice, and I journal it immediately.

I seriously wonder what is up with my brain sometimes.

Some long and very dull dream about some activity night going on at my dorm room. Most of it already slipped through my memory anyway. Skip.

Spoiler for Proceed at your own risk:

I was back at my old high school, having the classic 'class that I forgot dream'. I was at the school after hours though, so everybody had left and I was walking down the halls alone.
I come across one of the school janitors on my way out. But he doesn't look like one of the school janitors. He's a black man, probably about 60. Very small and skinny with a thin beard and big round eyes. And he's wearing these formal British clothes with a scarf and what not, all in this obnoxious brownish-orange color.
He starts asking me questions, but some of them seem a little off. He then takes me to show me his greatest secret. He walks me over to the old trophy case and opens a secret door to a back room that I didn't know existed.
This was the weird part. He has a huge secret room, right next to where the principals office was. And the entire wall of the room, every inch of it is covered in framed photographs of erect penises. All of the photos had been taken from the same angle. The man gestures to the center of the wall where there is a photograph of a huge penis. He says it is his and that he has the biggest one out of anyone he as photographed.
He was literally the winner of a dick measuring contest.
There is also a duplicate of the trophy case along each side wall of the room. Both trophy cases were filled with adult penis toys.
The man keeps giving me this really creepy look where he smiles and his eyes seem to bug out of his head. His teeth look fake. I woke up. It was the middle of the night.

I can recall in being what felt like my cousin's sub. I was walking down the street. I had become partially lucid.
...
My recall is more than a little patchy but I can recall at one point, I went inside of a house. The first room had a bunch of doors in it. There is also a bed and a dresser. A small piece of wallpaper peeled off from between two doors, entirely by itself.
The wallpaper then folded itself into a diaper. Parts of stretched out to become small legs and part of it ripped to become a mouth. Oh yeah, and because it was a diaper, it was full with crap that came out of nowhere. It had basically become this little monster thing that I wound up fighting.
The diaper had some connection to the house. Like the family that lived there had a baby and they made diapers out of wallpaper or something.
So we ended up having the worlds longest fight. I held the upper hand being... well a human and not a diaper. I can't recall the fight play-by-play but there was a part where I was whacking it with a big stick that I found under a bed that was in the room. There was a part where the diaper climbed onto the ceiling and tried to jump down on top of me.
There was even a part where I used firebending and the 'Fus roh dah' shout from Skyrim to blast it into a corner.
Eventually for whatever reason, the diaper monster became a squirrel. At this point I stopped fighting it and turned to walk back outside, only to find that the door that had led me into this random room led back out into my bedroom.
I looked outside. The weather was cold and grey. A rumble of thunder was heard in the distance. For whatever reason I decided I wanted to try flying. I opened the window, forced out the screen. I then did a last-minute stabilization by rubbing my hands together, and saying 'I'm dreaming!'
I then jumped out the window, and fell like a rock into the bush below my window.
Then I suddenly thought "What if this is real life, and I just jumped out of the window in real life?!" I did a nose pinch. I could breathe.
"Wait..." I said to myself. I forget what indicates being in a dream. Being able to breathe or not being able to breathe? Because I can most defiantly breathe." I then remember, being able to breathe means you are dreaming.
For a few moments I managed to anchor myself on the cold wind that was blowing in the dream. I start to become very lucid when I lose the dream.

FA in my college dorm room. I have peed in the bed. I get up and start changing out of my clothes.

FA in my home bedroom. I have peed in the bed here as well. I do a reality check and become lucid momentarily lucid before FAing once more.

FA. Something to do with the Simpsons of all things. Bart is buying these special schoolbooks that come with cereal. Supposedly these were supposed to help improve his grades because if you read the books while eating the cereal, you remember them better. Bart his happy because the cereal is dinosaur shapes.

I wake up into WL. Reality check and fortunately, I have not wet the bed.

I dont remember how I became lucid in these first 2 dreams, but here they are:

1. I was in my driveway and my dad had just backed in in a small gray car. I had been talking to two other guys next to me. Suddenly I noticed that my dad was wearing an army A class uniform and it occurred to me, "Hey! dads not in the military any more, I'm dreaming!!". I was really excited yet shocked because this was the first time I had become lucid while spending the night at a friends house. This excitement woke me up, but I was still glad of my accomplishment.

2. I remember becoming lucid again while I was still sleeping over at my friends house. This dream was before the one above^^^.

3. I remember being in some kind of mall with my friends. Suddenly I became lucid. I walked over into a doctors office in the mall and sat down with my friends, just to see what they were doing. My friend Patrick was sitting next to me and some how we got onto the topic of BJ's and out of the blue Patrick said he would give me one(WTF, none of us are gay at all).
He said he wasn't going to give me a BJ out in the open, so he moved over to a seat in the corner of the waiting room. This room was rather dark, and there weren't many lights on. I decided to leave Patrick in this situation and went over into another room in the doctors office. In this other room, there was a fine girl. She had a nice tan and all black hair. I went up to her and asked her if she wanted to "bang". She was down for it. We walked over into the same waiting room that I had just came from and sat down in a seat, in another corner opposite of where patrick was sitting.
I knew that we were about to "bang" in public, but I didn't really care because this was a dream. The girl sat down to the right of me and took off her tight leggings and panties. I got out the "part of myself" and waited for her. I then told her to get on top of me and ride me(lol sorry if this is a little explicit, not what I was going for. just going for good recall). She said that she wanted me to finger her first, and I was okay with that. As I looked over to start fingering her, I saw a ball sack in her crotch area. She didn't have a penis, it was just a ball sack. She started playing around with it.
I came to my senses and realized that this girl wasn't the girl for me. I left the office immediately. Soon after, I remember phasing through some walls and curtains and other stuff inside of the doctor's office. After I got out of the office, and I realized I was still in the mall, I started strolling around. I remembered one of my dream goals, to find a specific girl DC, one that I was in love with. I looked around for her, but she was no where. I noticed that the mall was rather crowded. I walked down a hallway that had an arch/tunnel over it and walked through it. On the other side I decided to just continue looking for this girl.
Out of no where, a fine blonde girl passes by me. I walk up to her see that she is holding two onions in a black bag right in front of her breasts. "May I touch your buns?", I ask her. I then proceed to grab the onions. She laughs and I get closer to her. She is completely down for this. I softly grasp her breasts(lol this sounds so bad) and then she puts her left hand in my pants and under my boxers and grabs my penis. My animal instincts kick in again.
Suddenly, everyone in the mall looks up to the glass ceiling and starts screaming. Clueless, I look up to figure out what is going on. I see a massive meteor flying towards the mall. It has a glowing orange aurora around it. I know that I can stop this, but then I remember how real the dream was and that I could get hurt(Lol, went coward mode for the first time in forever). To avoid getting hurt or dying, I fly into the air and hover. My flying skills seem to be lagging and I keep falling.
Eventually I get my flying skill down and continue flying upwards, watching the meteor. Suddenly I see it crash into the earth. At this point, I am way up into the atmosphere, almost into space. The meteor destroys half the Earth. All that is left of the Earth now is 2 continents. One is small, the other is really big. The rest of the Earth, what seemed like 85-90 % was all ocean now. I think about going down to the surface to see what was going on down there, but then I hear a voice speak. "50 billion Biomes destroyed" a voice says. I remember the voice saying much more, but thats all I remembered.
After this I decided to wake up. Earlier in the dream, I forgot to mention, I played some music that could be heard any where in the dream world. It was like I was listening to my iPod even though I didn't have it. It was amazing, the soundtrack was the exact same as it was in waking life.

*The 3rd dream was about 1-2 hours long, I need to work on my recall. I have now also fixed my problem where my LD's were always really short. Now I can stay in each LD usually hours at a time. I plan on doing alot more stuff now.

(Hypnagogic Hallucination): So I slightly woke up into the state between asleep and awake sometime in the dark early morning, and heard my mom and half sister talking, then I started to hear my dad talking (my dad whom I haven't spoken to or seen in years and would like to keep it that way, so you can imagine how bizarre it would be to hear him talking in my house to my mom and half sister all chill like everything's cool) to my mom and half sister. This made me super confused, and the first thing my sister and I would do in such a situation would be confide in each other but I was way to drowsy to even get up so without even doubting that I had the ability I started to telepathically communicate to my sister who was sleeping in her room next to mine, I communicated to her a thought, but if I were to put it into words It was something like 'Do you hear this?' and she instantly communicated back to me into my knowing that 'something is wrong here'. (Then I instantly fell into sleep)

So later in the morning when I woke up fully I realized more fully what I did earlier, and waited for my sister to wake up to ask her if she experienced me communicating to her last night. When she woke up, she wanted to tell me about her dream she had, so I let her and I was gonna tell her about the telepathic thing after. She told me that she was having a nice dream until suddenly it was shot into a dream where we were in our old childhood bedroom sitting indian style across from each other. We both looked up at the same time, making perfect eye contact and we knew that something was wrong and that the door had to be locked. She jumped up and locked the door immediately. After it was locked we both heard our dad storming around and we made eye contact again because we knew he was coming and we knew locking the door was the right thing to do.

So my paranoid hypnagogic hallucination made me communicate telepathically to my sis while she herself was dreaming, which threw her into a nightmare on the topic I was communicating to her about I'm thinking....

I was dreaming about death. There was a room full of identical mirrors, I looked in one and i was suddenly awake. In the corner of my room was a green/transparent baby sat upright, it looked at me and then it's head spun 360 and it turned into a small doll sized girl with a blur. It gazed at me. I was sweating and I got out of bed and the girls face turned evil and goblin like. Its head spun around as i got face to face with it. I turned the light on and it vanished. Then my room made some odd click noises that it doesn't often do. needless to say i practically pooped myself.

First Lucid
This is the first ever lucid dream that I remember having, I was about 15 or 16 years old and didn't know anything about lucid dreaming.

I was walking around my grandma's house and something felt weird to me... I wondered what it was and then it came to my mind, "is this a dream?" Then I realized the absurdity of my question and instantly replied, "well of course not, I am controlling what I'm doing...". I thought, "wow I must be really high or something then..."

Then I looked myself in the living room's mirror and realized it was indeed a dream, "this is a dream!" and then out of nowhere my face turned into the face of a cat and I woke up instantly startled.

First False Awakenings
I remember I got tons of this while I was at school all the way to high school. A lot of time when I was supposed to wake up, I stayed in bed for a few more minutes because I am lazy... Then finally I wake up to put on my uniform and all that... then later realizing that I haven't woken up at all. I got a lot of this and I was always fascinated by this phenomenon.

21.09.2014

The morphing toilet by the dark mirror takes me to call Sensei instead of finding the blue world after failing to Astral project. (WILD)

NON-DREAM DREAM LUCID ASTRAL SEPARATION ASTRAL

After a brief visit to bathroom at 2am I decided to Astral Project. I relaxed my entire physical body in bed. My mind was already relaxed enough that I could focus well on this task. Within what felt a couple minutes, I started hearing a buzzing within my eyes. I focused on the buzzing in order to make it grow and become more intense. It got to a point that it was decently loud and I experienced vibrations around my entire body. I recalled that a couple of nights ago I was using the same technique (it is a new technique I am working on) and it kind of blew me off due an overcharge of energy (you may want to read here as a reference)

Overcharging my body for Astral Projection and failing - Dream Journals - Lucid Dreaming - Dream Views

So I decided not to be -energy greedy- as just start the separation process out.

As I focused in my Astral body lifting from my physical body, I could feel the vibrations very intense, but for some reason, I was not completely able to come out. I decided to ask for assistance (you may do this if you struggle to leave your body) and I felt there was an entity around me (I asked who this one and it was one of my Spirit Guides.) I asked her to pull my Astral Body out. I felt here working on my feet and literally like she was pulling my feet, even that it felt physical at some degree, I know it was my Astral Body being pulled. I was able to separate and I found myself floating over my physical body. I had with my dad a conversation about my previous event and he told me that the same would happen to him and that once he projected out, he would charge his physical body with energy for it to feed further the Astral body) As I attempted this, I focused way too much on my physical body and I did return to my physical body.

I was back in my body, but still in the WILD stage, so I figured I would once again, pull myself down after charging a bit more extra energy. During the process, my mind lost focus and I found myself thinking about a couple Dares I wanted to complete.

I found myself floating above what appeared to be downtown. It was day so I realized that I was not Astral Traveling anymore but I did fall asleep during the process, which I was still happy since I was lucid. Not what I was looking for, but no complains neither!

I decided to land as the dream was very stable. I recalled I wanted to work on some dares, since the thread is almost dead. So I entered a building and I wanted to look for a bathroom in order to do "Find a mirror and talk with your reflection." Once I got inside of the building, it appeared like a hardware store and there was almost right by the entrance a toilet and next to it, a sync with a mirror. So I got myself in front of the mirror and said, "Hi, whats up?" It looked like me, but like if on the other side of the mirror there was no light, or like if light did not reflect at all, because it was the same looking as me but it was really dark (in colors, not that it was evil, just like a person looks like in the darkness.) I did not hear any reply, so I attempted again and visualized being answered. This time, I could hear a faint voice coming from the mirror that it said "Mario Party" (what the heck???) and I did not feel like staring more into the mirror and wake up, since it replied to me, I figured it was valid.

I also recalled the Advanced task of the Month. Even though I already completed it within the first week (my super-lousy lame patronus

Expecto Patronum at Downtown - Dream Journals - Lucid Dreaming - Dream Views

) I wanted to complete also the toilet one as I told to Ophelia, and well... I had a (not so beautiful and dirty toilet) right next to me. An awesome gift from my subconscious. It was not extremely gross, just dirty and old looking:







I just step over it after opening the lid and I hoped it would not break, as I recalled someone trying to do this and getting the toilet broken in the process, thus failing the task. Luckily it did not break. I visualized getting pulled inside the toilet. I could feel my feet shrinking and getting wet and I started to be pulled in, until most of my body was inside the toilet, only my upper chest and head were out. I knew I needed to enter it entirely to pass, so I pulled myself further in, but I was stuck. I tried hard to get in, but I was not successful, I realized the toilet turned into a Urinal:







It was sparking clean but I was completely stuck. I tried to flush a few times but the water would come out from it around me. I was thinking what was going on with all the dream toilets for everybody. I jumped out of it and it morphed back into the same old dirty toilet. Since I was in a hardware store I looked for something to help me. I realized that if I could find one of those shrinking mushrooms from Mario it would help a ton:







I was able to find some, but they looked like real mushrooms with leaves. I grabbed a bunch of them and step over the toilet right now (and I believe it got bigger) I ate the mushrooms and I shrunk immediately, falling inside the toilet. It flushed itself and I travelled through the pipes at a very hight speed. There were some religious figurines that they were cut in half (I bet I know where this comes from, Ophelia lol) and some other stuff, but the water was not gross at all.

I then appeared at some place else, right back in down town. I was happy I did the toilet thing, even though I already had the Advanced ToTM wings.

I then focused on Dreamers lucid dare and started to look for the blue dreamworld. I entered another building, pretending it would take me there, but I had no success. It took me to an almost empty office, with just a desk and a pc:







But it was much bigger than this. I started to open different doors and going through different rooms. Apparently, I was not inspired enough and did not think to open a portal as I gave up on it and told me I would do it other night.

I instead tried to recall more dares to do, as I want to complete all of them. I recalled an easy one, Call Sensei on the phone. I pulled out my cell phone and pushed the call button (dialing is so overrated and unnecessary, lol.) I could hear a voice that said, "Sensei is here..." I said, hello, what's up and I Sensei said something like, "Habla espanol? Alo alo? Mexico?" and suddenly my phone turned off. Well, I did call Sensei, so I guess it is valid, despite the weird call, lol. I then tried something interesting, and I tried to connect with my subconscious through my phone in order to come here and check out more dares as I could not recall any. I was able to get to the dreamviews page, but it looked like an app and I could only see our logo.







A little afte that, I managed to get to the thread "Task of the month for September. And I saw some of Box77's posts. I tried hard to look for more dares (never realized that I was in a different thread, my lucidty was falling fast) but I was unsuccessful. I realized I was staring way too much at my phone until I entirely lost lucidity and something related to apples was going on, but I woke up almost immediately right after that.

21.09.2014

Crazy work and traveling through a futuristic freeway. (DILD)

NON-DREAM DREAM LUCID

I had a false awakening and I went into the computer. I checked my work for the day and got very stress, because I had an order worth $850 where I needed to do six tarot readings (one hour each) as well as about 50 questions for that client's Akashic Records and he paid extra for a 24h rush delivery. I also had like an additional 200 orders to do that day and felt very overwelmed.

I had another FA where I did share with my wife about this nightmare and she said like wow. I went into the computer and had like 50 orders, which felt like a lot, but still doable. (I have high work ethics and I do not like to make people wait when they order a reading, so I try to clear all my queue every day, except Sundays that I take off unless someone pays for rush.) From here, I left the house and I wore no pants and no boxers. I got inside a house and there was a lady that appeared to be very attracted to me and wanted to have sex with me, she got turn on with me not wearing pants. She asked me about lucid dream and I told her:

"Well, I know it is not normal for me to wear no pants..." She exalted interrupting me, "Well, I like that!! She got closer to me and took her panties off.' I continued, "But normally, when you do find oddities, you must do a RC and check your hands to make sure you are not sleeping." (So much for my subconscious on this one.) She appeared to not care much and started kissing me. I did not wanted to have sex with her, and I needed to go to the bathroom. She told me where the bathroom was and it was like smaller than an airplane washroom but it had also a shower, but the toilet was like inside the shower:







It also functioned in a weird way, as I pressed a button and it turned the heat on and then the shower by itself turned on also. I could hear in a horny voice the lady callng me.

I lost focus on the dream and then appeared with my wife in the middle of the street. I realized I was dreaming because I recalled that I was in some lady's house. I took all my clothes off (which it was very hard) because I felt like flying nude. My wife demanded me an explanation, but I ignored her as I knew she was just a DC.

I once recalled again to do the Blue world dare from Dreamer and tried to look for a portal this time. I found some gentleman that was going to take a kid through "an especial place" to take him to watch some football game. I thought that would be an excellent portal for me to find, so I followed them. We got inside a restaurant, and this what I believe that it was one of my former jobs, as it was familiar. We went through a few doors downstairs until we got by a weird door. It seems that we were going to travel to New York. We got into a weird shaped van and we were in a freeway, but it looked very futuristic. I hopped for this to take me to the blue world. The guy was saying that this was a especial road and I could see on one of the green signs, "Continue driving, if you pull over, you die." He explained that it was like those old videogames you needed to keep moving in order to not die.

The kid started to playing some videogames and I lost lucidity and a little after, woke up.

Waking
Non-Lucid
Lucid

Yet another LD that happened earlier. Just so I don't have to type this out every time ALL OF MY DJ ENTRIES FROM NOW UNTIL WHEN I SAY THEY ARE UP TO DATE ARE PAST EXPERIENCES.

I was at my middle school and my school ball team had finished practice. We were all sitting on the bleachers and talking. My coach told me and a few others that we needed to fill in for the school's flag football team. (IWL we didn't have a flag football team) I wasn't looking forward to having to play with a bunch of girls. A lot of spectators were in the stands. Two of my friends were having a dunk contest. One of them jumped and landed on the rim and fell down. Someone said, "That had to hurt."

I jumped and tried to touch the rim but barely got a few inches off the ground. Everyone laughed at me. I laughed too but I also felt bad. I tried to cross some of my teammates over, but the ball kept on flying away from me. Then the bell rang and we headed off to class. One of my teammates was mad and I jokingly told another kid to watch out for him.

When I got to my locker, I couldn't open it and couldn't get any papers organized. I wasn't functioning properly and was worried my teacher would be mad at me for being late. A kid in a wheelchair came to help me, then I forgot something at home so I went back there. On the clock at school, it had indicated there were five minutes left until class.

In my room, I turned off the light and I heard a narrator's voice, like he was reading a book about me. Then I am tying my shoes and keep messing up. My brother walks in and says something. There is a friend with him. I ask, "So is this a dream?" My brother just ignores me. I thought back to all the times I wasn't functioning properly, and I realized it indeed was a dream. I didn't need to do any RC's. I remembered to slow down and stabilize. I walked outside and touched the truck in my driveway. Then I moved to the back of the truck and read some words on it, they came into focus. After that, I rubbed my hands together and shouted, "Clarity now!" It was dark before but I wanted it to be light and the second I thought that it was dawn. I walked down the street and noticed the neighbor kids riding bikes. I tried floating, which didn't work. Then I imagined the ground shot jets of air up and...it worked! I imagined my feet shot air instead, thinking it would be easier, but that didn't work either. After floating a few times, I got bored and tried to bound down the street jumping really far. I failed at that too. I thought drinking a magic potion might help so I searched my pockets, nothing was there except two quarters.

Something chased me and I tried leaping away, but it was faster and ran in front of me, blocking any escape. The thing was like a dog except it was red and on fire. It's face looked...evil. I imagined I had a sword and I charged. That failed because my sword didn't appear, so I ran right past it. I picked up a stick and started attacking with that. The battle then took place in a 2d video game on the computer. I kept accidentally opening new windows and messing up. I ended up losing. I was then downstairs in my living room and my parents were talking to my brother about me.

This was another one of my lucids that I had back at the beginning of my journey. I'm just trying to catch my Dream Views DJ up to date
Waking
non-lucid
Lucid
I was taken prisoner to a large garage type prison camp. I had stolen the key off the guard right when I was taken inside. The doors were like large orange garage doors, and some were like P.E. lockers. I would use the key to escape with my friends, but there was no time to free any of the other prisoners. This repeated a couple of times. On the last time, I was spider man. In the cell, the warden brought out a crane and used it on us to show us it's power. It was supposed to keep us inside. I used my Spidey powers and crawled on top of it to the other side. Then I walked over to the secretary and try to silence him so we can esape. All of a sudden, very randomly, I am lucid. I try to shoot a web at his mouth...nothing happens. So I say "web" and it shoots. I hit him in the eyes first, then the mouth. In the dream, I tell myself that if I practice that, I'll be able to say it non-verbally soon.

Outside I try shooting a web at a tree to swing on it. (I am trying to get to Hyrule Castle I think) I imagine the web oming out of my hand and attaching to the tree. The dream fades black. I know I'm awake, but I'm still trying to hold onto the dream. I end up losing the struggle and my eyes open. (I think the dream faded because I focused too hard on shooting the web)

I've spent the past few scenes in this huge house, and I'm currently walking through a door that I expect to take me back to a place I'd been in earlier in the dream - there's a character I'd intended to meet up with again. Instead, I find myself in a room I think of as resembling a sanatorium - there are long rows of beds on each side of the room, with a few curtains here and there for privacy. On each bed there's a woman in a hospital gown, writhing like she's in a bad demon possession horror flick.

I go lucid and try to remember if there are any lucid tasks I'd wanted to perform of the ask-a-DC variety - no, there aren't any. But I believe dialogue is the only lucid trick I can do right now. So I ask something of the various women and get short, boring answers - I don't remember what I asked or what those boring answers were. The last one I asked gave me a longer answer involving a reference to an earthworm - I noted her response as nonsensical but phrased poetically, which I thought of as a step up from the straightforward and boring responses from the others. I'm now mentally comparing them less to demon possession horror flicks and more to Greek spirits - Furies or such.

Towards the end of the row of hospital beds, there's a woman who's much older than the others. She objects to me - calls my behavior intrusive. She takes my hand in hers, saying this will help her see me - representing that this should be a two-way conversation, rather than just me one-sidedly questioning them. Closing her eyes for a moment, she asks what's blocking me. My first instinct is that she's referring to meditation, mysticism, that sort of thing. But since she didn't say so specifically, I go with a safe response: I talk about general life concerns. She cuts me off and clarifies that she was indeed asking about meditation and mysticism and such. I, sounding annoyed, say I was getting to that - which is a lie.

But we continued talking about general life concerns anyway - specifically career things. Everything we said on the subject sounded sensible (even after I woke up), and she pointed out a good solution that I disliked - I thought it sounded like more effort than it was worth. She quite reasonably laughed at me for that - for wanting a perfect solution to just come along without any effort.

Dream - Lucid

I was in some video game when I became lucid. The lucidity lasted for a bit, but all I can remember from it was asking a Nicholas Cage,
"Tell me who you really are!"
He looked at me with a straight face, and responded with something like
"You don't want to know."
We talked some more, but I started to feel like I was talking out loud in my sleep.

I then woke up in another dream, laying on a pull-out couch. I asked whoever else was there, I think it was my brother, if I had been talking in my sleep. He said he didn't hear anything.

~

I was at work in the bakery, but, as usual, it looked nothing like the bakery does IWL. We were by a checkout counter. Someone asked me if I would mix the dough. I told them no, I wouldn't, it was too scary. The reason I said that it was scary was because when someone went to mix the dough, they had to go to a different part of the store. They had to travel through dark, creepy, cave/maze-like areas with enemies that would shoot you. You had to be armed and shoot them before they killed you. It was kind of like Doom/Goldeneye 64. The area where you mixed was also threatened by enemies. I told them that last time I did it, I was sitting down, trying not to fall asleep with my shotgun because enemies kept coming. I "remembered" this happening. I didn't want to go through that again. I preferred the safety of the bakery. There was a guy there who had been doing it every day. He held his own pretty well and was much more of an expert on it than me.

My manager then tried to toss me some frozen dough to take to the mixer. I don't remember what I did or said.

I then was really close to an enemy, an archer who slightly resembled King Graham from the Kings Quest games. His back was turned to me. I was trying to sneak up on him and throw him in the lava. I was being quiet, until I made a small noise. He heard it and turned around. We fought a little, but I don't remember much about it.

I then was going through the dark area for some reason. I had the guy in front of me who went all the time. I was shooting at enemies with a laser. I then started to get shot at, and my laser stopped working, so I turned around and ran the other way to get out of the enemy's sight. I looked down at my laser, and it was a Wiimote. When I'd fire it with the A button, the light on the Wiimote would turn red, signaling to me that I was too far away from a Wii for it to work. As I was turning a corner, a bullet grazed me, and it really hurt! That too was part of the reason I didn't like doing the dough; it hurt when you got hit, though if you died, you'd respawn.

I then saw this open part of the maze to the dough. It was very dark there. There were people there with different colored lights all down the middle of the room to direct us where to go. They also had to defend themselves from the enemies. I saw a top view of this room, and then I was at the beginning of the room. I didn't go to far into the room. I also saw, at some point, a view of a room from some stairs.

I then was at the checkout again. Someone came and asked if they had different dough runners, and they said yes. I then saw a shelf with bowls of dough on it for each day of the week, each with a different name on it. I really hoped my name wasn't up there. I looked, and didn't see it. I was, for some reason, a little disappointed, even though I didn't really want to do it.

~

I was at what was supposed to be my house, but it looked nothing like it. I kept thinking about the weed I had from a while ago that was in the top drawer of this white three drawer organizer I have. I kept thinking about when I was going to smoke it. I was then in my room, which looked like the room of my first apartment. I opened the drawer, and the bag was in there with some weed in it. I "remembered" when I bought it. I had recently smoked, maybe a few weeks prior, so my sobriety was already blown. I didn't want to smoke it inside though because it would smell like weed, and my roommates might not appreciate it. I then thought about how this woman who was living there, an older woman, liked weed, and wondered if I should ask her to smoke with me. She was there currently, the only other one home but me. I didn't ask her.

I then briefly woke up, still half in the dream world, thinking that I didn't really have any leftover weed. As I eased back into the dream world, I thought that of course I did. I went and checked again, and there it was.

Then, there was this tall, young black man in our kitchen. He had a Jamaican accent. He was yelling at us about something that we did wrong. It had something to do with work. He was mostly getting mad at two of my roommates who weren't there currently. He was yelling more and more, when finally, I had had enough and chimed in.
"Shut up! Shut the fuck up!"
I continued to yell at him, saying other things, throwing around a lot of profanities. He kept yelling also. There was one point where I was standing on a chair in front of him. I grabbed his face in my hands, which somehow corresponded to a TV screen, like this was being recorded or something, and told him that the roommates (who were an FFX character, Lulu, and someone I knew it college) were my friends, and he needed to leave them alone. The chair almost fell backwards at one point. I figured I'd probably get in trouble for this, but I didn't care; this guy was insulting people I loved. I also kept thinking that now since I was so mad I was definitely gonna smoke that weed that day.

The guy turned around and left, and I was now in the kitchen with Adam, the guy from college who was apparently my roommate, and one of the people the Jamaican man was yelling about. He was doing something by the stove. He was wearing a glittery brown plaid hat. I told him what happened. I then told him I loved his hat.
"It's so..." I started to say, when he interrupted and said
"Gay?" (IWL he is gay)
"You just wear it well!" I said.
"Thank you," he said.

~

It's interesting how after not smoking for almost two years I am still having these dreams about smoking. I guess it was such a huge influence in my life for so long, and well, it's an addiction that I've been battling for 5 years now. I guess the dreams just come with the territory.

Color legend: Non-dream Dream Lucid

Lucid #238: Patronus Interruptus

I'm standing in a busy hotel lobby thinking about how I need a mini-USB cable to charge my phone. I reach down and dig one out of my backpack but realize that I’ve actually just stolen it from this other guy crouched nearby. “Sorry about that, dude!” I say, clapping him on the back. He turns to me and smiles politely. He’s an Indian guy and I recognize him as a random guy from the shopping area where I met Wife for lunch earlier in the week. I realize that I’m dreaming.

I’m excited to be lucid and the overreaction starts pulling me out of the dream and into the void. I rub my hands together, determined not to lose the dream. My hands feel stiff and oddly angled and I start tumbling forward over and over. I keep at it, though, saying something like, “I am having this lucid dream!”

After a bit of a fight, the scene resolves itself into a room on the second story house with two windows. I move toward the first window, attempting to phase, but the window feels stiff and resistant. I move to the other window and attempt it again, once again having trouble. This irritates me and makes me stubborn, so I head right for the wall this time instead, saying out loud that “There’s nothing there, you know.” I cut cleanly through the wall this time and float down to the front yard.

I remember my intent to summon Dreamer and say, “[Dreamer], yeah, you’re just… you’re right over there!” and gesture at the front entrance of the house. Dreamer steps out from the shadow of the front entrance. She looks like herself apart from her hair being pink rather than purple. She’s wearing a purple jumper that looks like fleece.

We approach one another and I realize that something seems off about her personality. She seems not to have much personality at all yet but I feel relaxed about this and that if we keep talking she’ll get set right. I give her a peck on the bridge of her nose and she reacts with surprise, smiles, and runs off down the street. I jog along behind her, and start telling her about her appearance in a previous non-lucid from that night. “Hey, in this last dream, you’d written a book!”

Dreamer stops. The area we’re in looks abandoned and urban. Now she has a huge smile on her face and seems like herself. “Tell me about this book!”

“Oh, I almost forgot!” I say, and give her a hug. It’s nice and I remember how she used thoughts of our friendship to produce her patronus. I also remember her words of “encouragement” a few nights ago for my own patronus attempt:

“I wonder if your patronus will be a giant turd!”

Chuckling a little, I extend my left hand out while continuing the hug with my right arm. Dreamer and I are both watching my outstretched fingers with anticipation but when I try to shout, “Expecto patronum!” I do a choking gurgle instead. I get antsy and lose the dream.