lucid

03/31/13

Night of Healing
I am in my room, I am surrounded by Templars. I don't want to deal with Templars right now. I have healing to do. I get out of bed, trying to ignore the energy attacks coming off of them. I open a portal to the moon. I go through the portal to find the healing springs. Nomad is already there. He is making out with Winter. I find it a bit awkward to interrupt. I don't wait for long before they notice me there. I tell them I am there to heal. We all go into the healing springs. The water is warm and comforting. I focus healing energy through both of them. Energy flowing through Nomad's foot and all through Winter's body. After the healing is done for now Winter seems to be in a deep sleep. I ask Nomad about his friend. He says yes, his friend. Needs help with depression. I tell Nomad I'll be glad to do what I can. I tell him he'll have to open the portal to get us there. Nomad opens a portal, and we both go through it. On the other side we are in a very barren place. There is one person in the place, all by himself, surrounded by a cloud of darkness. I see one of his eyes is obstructed by scar tissue. I think maybe that needs healing, too. I focus on the song Full Moonlight from the Devil Hunter Yohko soundtrack. Positive energy forms and flows around Nomad's friend, sweeping some of the shadow away. I focus healing energy on the eye. Nomad is also playing music. The area is filled with healing energy. Soon the song is over, but the healing energy remains. There are forms around the borders of the healing energy field. I approach them. Are they figments of a nightmare? No... they're Templars... What are they doing here? They're attacking me with those energy pulses. I hear voices talking all around me, I can't make out what they are saying. It gets louder and louder, drowning out all other sounds. I think Nomad is trying to talk to me. The attacks are getting stronger, but I am about to wake up. The scene fades to black and I wake up. I have the phrase, "May the father of understanding guide us," repeating over and over in my mind. I am waking slowly as that phrase repeats in my mind. This is a phrase said when someone is initiated into the Templars... why am I thinking it now? Someone is trying to turn me into a Templar? I am thinking that it will not work when I notice the sound has changed some. I now hear my cat meowing loudly. "May the father of understanding MEOW!" I am awakened by my cat meowing to get out of my room.

3/31/13

I'm standing in a ditch/ravine with a friend, Tony. There's somebody else there too. A plane is swooping down and I realize that I'm dreaming. I show off by acting like a wizard. I wave my hands towards Tony and he flys up, I gently put him on the plane as it swoops by. I wave him off the plane again and move him to the other side, I then plop him in a pile of mud and he's not happy about it.

#156 - DEILD Chain - 5:31AM

I am living with my wife in one of the houses I lived in as a child in Smithville, TX. My Aunt Paula shows up at the door with my nephew Samuel. I am totally drunk and working on the furnace. I try to hide the fact that I feel dizzy and hope that I am not slurring my speech to much. I try to avoid eye contact with her and try to stay busy with the screwdriver in my hand.

She walks out of the room I am in and for some reason I follow. I notice my parents old cabinet TV right were it always was in that house and a potted Christmas tree on top. The tree catches my eye and I pause finding it odd and out of place.

I wake briefly and go for DEILD.


I never really exit the void so I start rubbing my hands vigorously. For some reason I can feel my hand are really numb. I wonder if it is my sleeping position that is doing it or if it is a dream sensation. I remember that I felt this before. I decide to ignore it because moving might ruin the dream. The more I rub my hands the less numb they feel. After a few seconds the dream plops me in my dinning room. I am shocked that I didn't have to exit my body and I can see clearly. I stare at the hardwood floor not remember what to do. I float up to the ceiling. I feel that I could control it if I wanted to and I go down a little. I think no lets see where it takes me. I purposely phase through the ceiling backwards and I create an opening more than phase. I see the floor get smaller and smaller and soon I feel the bed on my back and darkness surrounds me again.

I DEILD the same way. There is still some numbness and I shake my hands a little and that seems to help. I go back to hand rubbing.

This time I am plopped at the back door. Again I am pleased that I don't have to OBE exit and open the back door. I pause when I feel some weirdness on my right side of my face. It's like something is pressing on my face and I am only able to see out of my left eye. For some reason I feel scared. I say out loud, "Oh no you don't goddammit". And the feeling goes away.

I bound over the deck without a thought and am in my backyard. I look up and see a beautiful night sky. There are many stars, a few small clouds, I can even see a contrail. I look around some more and see a tiny full moon.

I want to do the Rome task now but the only way I can think to teleport is to feel the sand like I talked about with CL. I realize that I didn't really think this part through before hand. I get down on my knees and feel the ground. It's just grass and leaves. I think no its sand. Still grass and leaves. I try to brush the grass and leaves aside but the grass is rooted. I feel stubborn on this though, I really should give up and try something else. So, I punch down into the earth several times pulling up fists full of sand. But now I become distracted how easy it was the conjure sand and how real it all feels. Even the ground beneath me is unbelievably realistic. I soon wake up.

Again I DEILD. I roll to my back and it takes a little more time and effort this time.

I find myself laying in bed again. This time I feel more in control. Imagine a sliders wormhole above me and it appears. I allow it to suck me up but don't get to see the colorful transition. I am just plopped back in bed. I feel confused but tell myself this has to be an alternate reality.

I sit up and see my wife and some other person standing at the foot of my bed in togas. I am so totally surprised at this that I say, "Toga party!" and laugh. I get up and realize that my bed was in a large cubbyhole of sorts in a huge stone structure. I see a red velvet curtain with gold yellow trimming acting as a partition. It's tied back with a rope made of the same golden yellow material. I walk into the rest of the building and notice its dimly lit. I am excited and think how this has to be it. I realize the L-Dopa is making all of this so easy and I feel confident. I step to the right into the arena. I see the floor is white sand and the sun is so bright that the glare off the sand blinds me a little. I literally have to wait for my eyes to adjust.

As I am standing there I remember the picture I was looking at during my WBTB.
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I pretend I have a gladius and shield and stand ready. I hear the crowd cheering and laugh a little because it sounds like the cheering crowd from Pro Wrestling on the NES.

NES Pro Wrestling - YouTube

I try to see the crowd but its like they are shadowed and in darkness. I can't see anything beyond the brightly lit arena. Now I just think of the tiger and sure enough it appears. I ready myself but as I do it does from being a normal tiger to a tiger with an impossible number of teeth to the point that its face is all teeth. While, I am shocked an distracted the tiger lunges and bites my head. All I can see is its tongue and uvula as it munches on my head. It doesn't hurt or seem to do any damage. I almost give up thinking I lost but no I've come this far. I force push him way. The tiger goes soaring straight in front of me and stirs up a dust cloud. I use my Darth Vader grip and pick him up about 30 feet. I think about just ripping him in half while he is in the air and sort of see it in my minds eye. Instead, I slam him down hard creating another dust cloud. I can't see him for the dust but I don't waist anytime.

I hulk jump into the air with my gladius drawn and come down on him like Link does in the Legend of Zelda.



I stab his midsection and quickly jump off and cleanly slice his head off. I raise it up it in air for the crown. I hear another Pro-Wrestling-cheer as I stand there. At this point I lose focus and wake up.

I go ahead and try to DEILD one more time.

I find myself standing in the arena again but there are no people this time. I notice my hands are on fire and I spend some time playing with it. Again I think it must be the L-Dopa. I create a jet of wizard fire like Rand from The Wheel of Time. I do various hand motions turning the fire off and on again. I focus on remembering the feeling and technique for next time when I am not so full of L-Dopa. I soon wake up.
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There was a lot of detail in these dreams but all of them moved quickly and seemed super short. Although I enjoyed the control, I think I prefer extended play. I had high insomnia and dreamed little until later in the morning. I felt there was a huge REM rebound but was too tired to recall much or get lucid again.

terrible recall tonight

1. i am working on a group project with unfamiliar people. we are in the auditorium of my elementary school. we are on laptops and we are running a program with a neon green and red on black colour scheme. there is some anxiety associated with this dream.

2. i am waiting for the bus in the snow with an unfamiliar girl. the atmosphere is very bleak.

3. i cannot remember anything about this dream except that i became lucid at one point! i simply realized that the circumstances of the situation were unrealistic and deduced that it was a dream. sadly my lucidity faded very quickly -- before i could do anything of interest.

4. false awakening. i am in bed in my room: very tired and disoriented. windows 7 error messages pop up and disappear constantly, obstructing my vision. i wonder if i am dreaming but decide that i am not. i am afraid that i am going insane.

#155 - 4:32AM - DILD/DEILD

I am at work with the M3 bunch. This dream version of work is a repeat thus familiar to me. We all go to break and I hang out with John, Brandon, Hobie, and Frank. After chatting it up with them I start to go back to work but Hobie tells me we are supposed to have a meeting. I sit back down next to Hobie.

As I am sitting there I realize that I am just wearing underwear. I really want at least a shirt on. I look down and I am wearing one of my blue shirts. I feel better and hope that the fact that my boxer briefs at least look a little like shorts. I try to think back were and when I took my pants off. It feels hot here but I can't believe I would just work in my underwear. I tell myself that I want to change my behavior and never do this again. I look over at Hobie and see that he is wearing jean shorts. I want to copy him and I look down again and see that my underwear have changed to jean shorts as well. I feel so relieved that I don't even think much about it.

I notice everyone is watching at TV mounted on a wall so I pay attention. It is some guy going on about cancer and soon I am there next to him. He brings out an emaciated woman who looks mostly skin and bones and talks about her having cancer. She looks familiar to me but I don't bother (Now that I think about it she looks like an ex girlfriend who was having medical issues. I wonder how shes doing now?) Soon she turns into a discolored corpse and the wheelchair takes her way. The speaker emphazies how she died and how horrible death is.

I wonder off while he is still going on about this. As I am examining a video game/ride system with a two person spacecraft. I say to myself, "Death is not the end." I get in the space ship and it closes around me. I want to play with it but think I better now just yet. I say "maybe in the next dream." Then the significance of those two statements seems to fit together. I think how reincarnation always makes me think of lucid dreaming. I become lucid.

Unfortunately, I wake in shitty SP. The vibrations are really strong and I can't move. It takes a lot of effort to touch the floor and transition out of bed. But even then I don't feel as if I am in my house. I just feel like I am running in the void. I try to imagine some scene and a dim image of something I can't remember materializes but breaks apart like glass. All the while I can see light through my eyelids and, for a second, I wonder if the bedroom light is actually on.

After some time I feel like my hands are really in the air so do a nose plug. Yep not real. I hold my hand there for a second and notice how odd my nose feels. Then it's like I can feel my physical body and my dream body at the same time. I move my hand and think I better just focus on my dream body.

I decide to try opening my eyes hoping maybe I am fulling in a dream now. I see the bedroom as it should be and I no longer feel like I am running but moving my legs in bed. I see dark shadows above me but think it looks like my hands. I pick up the pace a little and notice how real it feels but how I don't even see my legs moving. It looks like my hands are just pawing the air in the darkness. I laugh a little on the inside and close my eyes.

I try to transition again. This time I have to peel the blanket of me like its glued to my skin. Then I try moving my legs over the side of the bed but this time my actual physical leg moves and SP is over.

I do a nose plug to be sure and DJ the experience.

Sunday 3/31/13
Bed 12:30 am

WBTB 6:12am - 8:30am

Cup of tea from peppermint tea and mint with green tea for iced tea.

woke up from 20 min long WILD at 10:10am

Regular DR 1- 2:30am - I'm walking down a hospital hallway, all happy, because if I can turn in a resume with lucid dreaming on it, I can work there helping people by teaching them LDing. (IWL, before bed, thinking if LD/OBE would help patients by trying to heal themselves/aura)

Regular DR 2 - 6:12am - I'm in a camp, packing, looking through every shelf and cabinet, not to leave anything behind.
- Then I'm walking through empty hall with a small girl. Someone is after us. I'm about to exit, when girl decides to pout and goes into one room. I feel they are about to get us and yell at her to follow me right now. Too late. Young woman is grabbing her.

I'm comming towards the camp in a car someone else is driving. At the fork in the road, we go to the right, but realize camp is to the left. To the right is something else.

I'm comming to the fork in the road again, I'm driving. I take the wrong right turn again but realize it and make a u-turn. At the camp, trying to blend in so bad guys don't recognize me. In cafeteria, cutting in line with a gun. Getting some steak pieces, masched and roasted potatoes for a kid.

Bad guy follows me on the street where I ran away. I yell at people to call the cops, but they can't hear me. Finally someone does and a female cop in light shirt shows up. I rpotect her from one guy, but another one shots her.

WBTB - while watching TV to get sleepy, I felt my legs getting relaxed pretty quickly. I knew it's gonna be a good one.
Mantra - when I see my room, I get up; when I see something, I touch it.

Listened to W. Buhlman's youtube interview on KOST 101 after dark (or something like that)

I started out on my back and turned to left side when vibrations were already happening. It didn't stop them. I moved my attention from vibrations in one knee to another, and they seemed to be stronger in the knee I had my attention on.

WILD - I suddenly realize I can see my room and I think to myself, that I don't need to wait any longer for a clue this will do. So I just get up and walk away.

I notice I'm only wearing socks. I'm hovering and gliding just few inches above ground. I know I have the desire to walk and to feel the ground so my LD is more stable, so I touch down and walk. I notice, that walking feels very realistic.

I recognize the house as mine and I'm happy. (it's not mine IWL) I walk through few doors in direction i know I should be going. I fly out and as the building stays behind me, a view to georgeous valley opens up. It's vibrant with green grass and houses. The beauty of it literally takes my breath away and I gasp for air. (Thank you, I have not had this feeling in a while and I really love it)

Now I'm talking to 2 teenagers on the patio of hotel or restaurant, same valley. I ask them if they lucid dream. Guy has a thick accent and there is a lots of noise, so I don't hear his questions or answers. But I do hear when he asks if you can go to restroom in LD. I tell him you can, but it's not satisfactory activity. It feels real, but you don't get satisfaction as if you empty your bladder IWL.

I'm in a cafeteria of a school. As I walk by a little boy, I notice a tasty aroma. I look back and he is eating some kind of a rice crispy bar. From writing on a box I assume it's something ethnic for the Easter holiday. I want to know where I coud buy some. Teacher takes the cookies out of the box and gives me the box. I'm pleased that there are some dark and light crumbs left, and I eat them. They taste good.

I'm asking this teacher and a few other people, if they know we are in a dream. I say, well, I'm lucid, and you are dreaming.

I'm outside. I remember the zooming trick I read about a few days ago. I look up and try to zoom myself to the moon. I raise my arms up and move them to zoom myself. (same way you zoom in and out from pictures on iphone - spreading or bringing closer your fingers/arms) But it's not working. I notice an island in the skies, something like in avatar, but this one is long and flat, full of greens. I think I'm getting closer to it.

I'm in a room with 2 guys and I'm seducing them, but I don't want it to look like it.

Ok, this was my single longest LD. Pretty good control and kept awareness by saying mantra before and during LD "I'm aware". Was able to make a decision to walk instead of fly, and got to talk to DCs again. Happy as can be.

A Night Full of Dreams

I was with an old friend G. We were debating which way to go to get somewhere. I at least went a certain way which led me to a concert hall. I had to go through the hall and exit the other side to continue.

I was going down by stepping over the seats. At the bottom, the MC said that this was a reverse concert (or something) so that if your name started with a certain letter, one composer would be playing, and if your name started with another letter, another composer would play. Then, when they were finished, the composers would switch and play for the other group of people.

#54 - The Management Company / Bone Child

I was with my father and possibly my brother. We were in a store, but it was very dark, and there was some type of show going on at one side of the store.

I was by the show and said to my brother I think, "Let's go." Then a drug dealer said, "OK. What do you want? I have a lot of stuff, but I may not have what you want."

I think I told him that I wasn't talking to him and I don't want anything. Then I found my dad and relayed the story of how this guy just assumed I was talking to him and tried to sell me drugs.

I saw a fringed leather jacket on a rack, then on a guy wearing that jacket. Then I saw it on another rack with a fur-lined hood. It looked worse every time I saw it.

It was some time around here I started to leave with my dad, and then outside, 3 guys came up to us. We were sitting and they were standing up. The stood too close to us. I waited a minute, but they were standing with their junk in my face, so I pushed one away at the leg and told him he was too close to me. The three guys took offense, and they said they new they were standing close, but they said we had done something.

Now my brother was around. We were in a different place, but the guys were around me and standing close. I signaled to him to be ready for these guys and we started to fight them...kind of. It may have been a mental thing, like I dealt with them mentally in my dream, just working out what we needed to do, but never had to do it.

It was about now that these people were employees of the store. They were wearing blue shirts with white lettering that said, "The Management Company." I was appalled that the store would hire these thugs. I then became lucid, but I didn't have the control over the dreamscape that I usually do.

I asked one girl her name because I wanted to hold her accountable. There hadn't been a girl until now. She told me her name was Bone Child. I tried to make sense of that and realized she gave me her cult name. "The Management Company" wouldn't know her by that name. That pissed me off.

FA

I wake up in bed and start writing "The Management Company / Bone Child" on a sticky note so I don't forget my dream. I don't want to log it though, so I just write down enough to remember the dream.

I look again and realize that the writing is gone. I write it again, but realize I'm dreaming, so it isn't going to stay anyway. Since I can't make the lettering stick, I try to verbalize the dream title (as though that would help anything. I just had the need to own the title so I would remember the dream.

I said, "The Management Company / Bone Child" in a demonic voice. I didn't mean for it to sound that way, but I was having a hard time getting it out as I was actually dreaming. Then my wife got upset because of how I said it.

At this point, I either woke up and started to SSILD cycle or I started to cycle from within an FA to go back to bed. I started with the eyes and immediately started to buzz. I came out of it and cycled again and started buzzing again. The visuals were typical--heightened awareness of bright spots.

I relaxed and had

#55 - Lucid Instructor

I was with my brother. I told him we were in a dream. He said, "Hey, yeah!" I told him to count his fingers and he counted six.

I didn't really conjure it, but I wanted a Ferrari and it was there. We got in and I was trying to drive, but it wouldn't go faster than 2 miles per hour or something stupid like that. That sucked.

Driving down a small street, I saw police at a house. I was going to check it out with my brother, but decided to drive on. We stopped at another house. We walked up to it. I held his hand and said, "OK, phase through." I walked through and pulled him through. There were two old couples in the house. I introduced myself to an old man as though we were invited, but it didn't work. They asked if we were going to take their house (meaning all their stuff.) I told them "No."

I told my brother to phase through the ceiling now. I wanted to get out of that place. It was beat. Now we were in another building. It was like a museum or something. I said, OK, now run on the walls. He didn't really want to, but he followed me and we ran on these curved walls. Then I said, now fly! Just jump and fly! I started to fly. I guess my brother followed.

Then I decided, OK, it's time to show him girls.

I woke up, or had an FA

I cycled again and slipped back into the dream

#56 - Girls

Where I saw a girl from high school. She was a false memory. She really stood out from the other girls she was with. She had red hair and make-up (which I usually don't like), and large breasts.

I called her name, she came over, and I laid her down and started kissing her. Then I was somewhere else and found a brunette. Odd looking, but I thought she was attractive. I took her though she wasn't interested. I pulled up her shirt, felt her breast, and woke up.

This night was awesome. Cycling from within a dream was a sure way to lucid. Kick ass!

Yay for another decent length lucid dream, and once again it's WILD from a dream.

Only thing i can recall from non-lucid part is that i was at home and i was WILDing.
I wake up and take off headphones, confirming that i am dreaming, i get up and the dream becomes very unstable, i start rubbing hands and dream becomes more stable, but still not fully stable, i go to balcony, on the way i imagine time of day changing and it rapidly changes to night then back to the day, i start touching the door frame and concentrating on that, dream fully stabilizes. I jump and and glide in the air, i start feeling wings but for some reason i have trouble moving vertically, which prevents me from flying through the doorway. I drop back to the floor and jump again, i feel wings again and this time flight works properly. I fly through the balcony doorway, but instead of balcony there are some other rooms, i quickly navigate through them and find true balcony doorway. I fly outside.
I fly straight and then slightly to the right, i am flying even faster than previous time. Near trees i attempt to increase that speed even more, but end up zooming my view in instead somehow. Surprised, shortly i restore view back to normal and continue flying beyond trees. I reach different area, finally it's non-city dreamscape! There are hills, various trees and river. There are also bridges connected by cobble roads and DCs are roaming around. I decide to try to do transformation into a dragon again using method that worked before, with visualizing and shouting 'Dragon Form!', but once again i can only manage to transform hands, black scales appear on left hand and green on right hand, as well as claws, and fade out shortly. I do a couple more attempts while flying along the river, on the third attempt i have a bit more success, i get red scales on left hand and black on right hand, and this time they look more detailed, have more vivid feel and last longer. I fly around some more and eventually i get distracted by some DCs and transformation disappears as well. I can't recall much for a while other that we went to assault some enemy DCs.
Eventually we get into some sort of treehouse where enemy commander resided, the team beaten him up but all the fight destabilized the treehouse and it was barely balancing. After some balancing attempts it ends up completely upside down and everyone falls onto the ceiling. There are wasps. Lots of wasps. Hundreds of wasps. They sting me and somehow get into my mouth while i was trying to get up, i feel a bit of pain but not much. I suddenly remember what i was doing and fly out of the house, which falls. There are hills around and a few trees, and there are wasps absolutely everywhere, a whole swarm of them. I fly around while spitting out the wasps that got into my mouth, then i concentrate energy and imagine healing and pain goes away. I also try to breath fire at wasps, without transformation, but that fails too, though i think i ended up scaring them off and they shortly go away.
I fly back to the river area, looking around for something interesting, but after a while, suddenly, dream instantly changes the palette and instantly destabilizes, i rub hands but dream destabilizes again, time stops for a bit and it screws up my flight, so i end up falling to the ground.
On the ground i look around, there's female DC right near me, looking at me. I ask her 'You again?' even though i didn't meet her before, but in dream i was pretty sure i did( ). Shortly dream fades out.
I wake up and get distracted, because everyone is watching movies in my room for whatever reason. Shortly i wake up properly with some heavy hypnopompic hallucinations that someone is still watching movies in my room, which lasts for a few seconds, making me do a bunch of RCs.

So here' s a really cool lucid dream; I find it interesting as it is the first time I try to summon a monster .


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Lucidity : 8/10
Control : 8/10
Vivacity : 6/10



No idea of how I became lucid or what happened before, but I do become lucid without any reality check that I can remember. I am in a cave, its walls look like they are made of ice, it is pretty spacious with some rocks here and there. I didn't have a lot of time to look around because I noticed someone standing on a big, icy rock full of icicles : it' s Tobi, from Naruto. This guy' s got a mask and a long, black coat with red clouds on it.

I take a step back and remember what I told myself this whole week "I' ll summon a monster" .
I was supposed to summon a monster that I drew (it' s a buffalo - like giant monster, with some kind of ape' s arms and a powerful tail with a mass at its end) but I could not remember his name (I have trouble with it even in real life).
I need the monster' s name to summon him in order to get exactly what I want, so after a second I screamed :
" Summoning justsu, Kyuubi ! " and put my hand on the ground ( lol I am really a big fan of Naruto ).

I see writings appearing on the ground, it forms a circle with 3 lines crossing it. I'd say it has a diameter of around one meter.
Problem : I feel the dream fading away, becoming little by little a simple thought; I press hard on the ground so that I can finish summon Kyuubi and at the same time stabilize the dream.
It won' t be enough.

I wake up. I sit down on my bed and turn the light on. After a second I decide to try and DEILD anyways.

I get back in the dream, I am apparently done summoning Kyuubi. In fact, I summoned him and exchanged our minds . I am Kyubi, a giant daemon fox with nine powerful tails.
I remember running to the ennemy ... but unfortunately I forgot what happened next ...

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I am now in the same cave, but with another ennemy ( I don' t know who that was ).
I try some telekinesis and it works pretty well, and for some reason Tobi decides to help me with this ( apparently my previous attack was not that effective ). I get the guy to fall back and smash a wall, but when Tobi and I unite our powers, the guy flies away on my left.

I don' t remember anything else, I probably lost my lucidity.

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I continued on with some other dreams I don' t remember, that' s probably why I forgot part of this LD.

I was in the park with my friends, just messing around for about 10 minutes . When the night fell i was going home and then i realized i am dreaming. I immediately grabbed street lamp to focus on touch and stabilized dream. Then i took green lantern ring from my pocket and started messing around with people...after about 5 minutes my alarm woke me up...

I'm trying to keep my dream journal together but little time to do meditation and got other things on my mind. Nevertheless keeping the detail in when I can and ensuring my phone is available and charged for me to write stuff down.

Most interesting non-lucids were yesterday when I had a weird one where I am teaching kids in a strange building. At one point I remember weird things happening like spaghetti spontaneously moving from my plate to a plastic bag. I'm at the top of stairs running after a lady that helped me in teaching.
Next one I'm discussing the film Chinatown with a friend and we've missed an art house film showing - I could have spotted I was dreaming if I had noticed how difficult it was for me to recall details of the film, but it didn't.

Anyway - had lucid on Wed where I'm walking through my home town and I'm 16 again. I'm reenacting my teen years as I wanted to live them. I kept stability without trying but as fears my Mum would realise I was lucid dreaming kicked in I gradually lost stability.
Next lucid was today when I had a dream of snogging some girl, who then starts to choke me, next thing I'm snogging Nicholas Hoult after which I wake up. I am a little bi, so enjoyed that too.

Considering I have a heavy project I'm working on and not doing lucid practices all the time it's quite encouraging, hopefully I can get back to controlling dreams as I feel like what I'm doing is random stuff from a disoriented mind rather than like being in charge. Only thing lucid I'm doing is reality checks, where I try and think of doing a different one each time in the hope these checks become natural and more about thinking than automatic mindlessness. The crux is going to be getting back to full lucid practice without overdoing it - e.g. a girl in my meetup group once said that the worst thing she ever did was thinking too much about lucidity when joining the group, as it reduced her lucidity and she didn't become lucid until she relaxed again. Her lucidity is overall better since joining the meetup group, but initially there was a drop.

I was standing in the middle of the road looking down a side road. I was at the junction of a T. All the roads were really wide. It was dusk, and there was nothing else around.

At first I was intrigued by my location. Then I started getting concerned because I didn't know where I was. I then began to question how I got there and immediately realized I was lucid. I started singing "Country Road" by John Denver because it looked like a country road.

I thought about a conversation I had with Canis Lucidius about singing in dreams and sounding really good. I sounded terrible in this dream, but I kept singing because it felt so good.

I started flying, and thought how I should be trying a dream goal.

Dream Skip

I'm at a white ranch style home with black shutters and door and such. It is a fancy home for such a simple style house. I fly up to the house and see a man coming out of the door. I contemplate whether I should phase through the wall or take the opportunity to go through the open door. I didn't really want to deal with a DC, but there he was. He was an ugly older gentleman with a huge chin. He was a typical brain-dead DC, so he didn't notice me flying right in front of him.

I phased through the wall and was then inside. I decided to try to enter my childhood nightmare. I had seen a chimney from the outside, so I looked for the fire place. I thought I could teleport to the demon circle of ashes from the fireplace.

I was unable to go through the fireplace. I couldn't phase. I turned around to see the house from inside the fireplace and saw the man's wife. She saw me too. I got a face on as though I was the demon. The lady saw me and started having a heart-attack. She was carrying wood in (I guess to bring to the fire-place. I didn't even think about the connection 'till just now.)

When she saw me in the fire place with an evil look on my face, she leaned over terrified and dropped some of the wood.

I knew I was dreaming, but I didn't purposefully look evil. I think it was a byproduct of trying to enter my childhood nightmare, finding myself in the fireplace, and not wanting to deal with a DC. Still, I'd rather not be the demon. I just wanted to recreate the nightmare. Hmmmmm.

I flew out of the fireplace and around the floor, under the dining table and such. I saw the man go outside, and now I decided to surprise him. I decided to phase through the roof and meet him outside to make him wonder how I got out there.

I think I ended up at a street near my house and soon woke up.

I used SSILD for the first time in a while.
I also took care of business yesterday.
Mowed my friends yard and had a few cold beers.

03/28/13

Back to the Night
I am with some other people in a barren place, there is no sign of life anywhere near us. I look around and see who is with me. It looks like a quest group from DDO. I am dressed like a paladin in black armor with a large sword, Nomad is decked out in black armor and has a big axe… There are other people there, too, I see someone who is a humanoid fox. I think it must be Pablo. I see him as his long fluffy tail disappears down into a cave entrance. Others are following. I follow the group, not noticing everyone who is with us. I do catch a glimpse of Spike dressed in leather armor, black leather armor, he is looking HOT!

We all descend into the darkness, into the caves. The caves are like an endless labyrinth of passages. I hear the screams of people being tortured echoing through the passages, screams of pain I wish I could block out of my mind. We explore through the halls and find an area that looks like a prison of some kind. There are cages with people locked up inside, the people aren't all human. In fact I don't think any of them are purely human. I see some centaurs in a cage much too small for them to hardly move,

a tank of foul looking water with merpeople in it, some bird cages with fairies locked inside them. There is a guard pacing down the hallway between the cages, periodically stopping to mock or taunt the prisoners and laugh. The guard looks partly like a demon and partly like a Templar… a Templar bastard… my first thought is to want to get rid of him, but before I do something stupid I see another guard there. If I'd attacked the first one the second one would have sounded an alarm and alerted every Templar in the place. Instead I see the humanoid fox sneak right up behind the Templar guard and snag the keys right off of him without being noticed. Pablo brings the keys back and we start unlocking cages as the guards pass, letting prisoners quietly out. I open a portal to the healing glen, the prisoners go through to safety. This is going smoothly until we reach an area with some giants chained to the walls. The giants aren't content to be silently released. As Nomad unlocks one of them he pulls free and tries to step on one of the demon Templars. An alarm goes off and a fight ensues. The demon Templars are coming from all directions. I am focused on the fight now, using my sword to cut down Templars near me and using Battery by Metallica to call down bolts of lightning on those farther back. We fight to hold off the Templars just long enough to allow the prisoners to be evacuated to the healing glen. Once all the prisoners we have found are free we follow them through the portal, closing it immediately behind us so the Templars can't follow. I look around the healing glen but then I wake.
 
Halls of Healing
I am at the balancing pools on the moon with Nomad. He is relaxing in the water, cleansing some disgusting stuff off of him. I focus healing energy into his foot, focusing on making the healing proceed quickly. I think the problem I have with dream healing is sometimes I quit before the healing is done… so I won't do that this time, keep healing it until it is completely gone. Nomad wants to go somewhere else, says something about Templars wanting to destroy us, have us end up dead, in prison, or in a loony bin… I tell him they can't touch us here in the dream state. He says he hates them for what they've done. I tell him to try not to, I let my hate go too far and I sent people to the Dark Realm, a place no one should ever see. It is poison that will kill us just as surely as direct Templar attacks. He says it is time to go back to the Temple of Angels to be healed. I tell him we could probably both use healing. I open a portal focused on getting to where he wanted to go. On the other side of the portal we are in a temple in the clouds.

There are angels there, they have healing potions. There is someone else there with us, a man who looks to be part bat… a form of batman? He looks familiar, and Nomad clearly knows him, refers to him as Koomo. I try to remember who Koomo is, my mind isn't entirely clear about it, though I am sure we have seen him in dreams before. Koomo is thanking us for helping free his people from some demon wraith. He says he has gifts… for me? I don't feel I have done anything to deserve gifts, but it feels like a bad idea to refuse… he gives me a golden amulet with a dark crystal in it, says it will help keep the dark and light energies balanced. When I touch it, it forms into large raven wings on my back. He also hands me a bracelet, golden with a dark crystal, that transforms into a snake with jet black eyes. He hands me a golden tiara that also has black crystals in it, I feel a bit disoriented when I put it on, he says that is normal, he says something about sonar…

what the tiara has given me is the eagle vision off of the Assassin's Creed games, I can see the auras of people around me, all of them in the area are glowing blue, indicating allies. I find I can will my vision back to normal. I thank Koomo for the gifts, but he says he has one more… but I have to fight him for it. He tells me to fight him. He throws an attack at me, which I dodge before taking to the sky. He is fighting me with a spear. I figure it is a good chance to try out what he just gave me. He attacks with the spear and I use the snake whip to pull it away from him. He dives to the ground, disappearing into a vast labyrinth that seems to radiate darkness. Maybe this is just a test to see if I can use what he gave me… so I activate eagle vision, and I can see him in the dark maze. His aura is now a swirl of blue and gold, indicating he is a target, but still an ally… which seems appropriate to the situation. So I dive into the maze and there is a fight between Zoomo and me, which he finally concedes I have won. I help him up. The spear he has been fighting with turns into a glowing ball of energy, which he says will form into anything I need at the time… armor, weapons… the golden energy flows around and fuses with my Witchblade, the Witchblade bracelet glowing with a golden light. Zoomo says something to Nomad, and I hear him saying something about his planet needing healing. I tell him I would be glad to help with that if I can. He says any healing would be helpful after the damage the demon wraith did during its rule. I make it a plan to do what I can there. We enter a chamber that is very relaxing, that must be one of the healing chambers… I am surrounded by some kind of comfort I can't really describe, and I fall asleep in the dream.
 
World Concert
I am flying in my Fire Valkyrie over a place I don't recognize. I look down and see there are cities down below, I still am not sure where I am, but I have a feeling as to what I need to be doing here. This place has too much negative energy, unstable negative energy, and I am here to help with that. So I broadcast a song out over the cities and mountains, broadcasting it so everyone can hear it. Transmitting through every receiver within range, which is every receiver in the world. I am broadcasting the song Touch My Heart. I follow that song with Liberate by Disturbed, and another anime song, Full Moonlight. The planet wide concert doesn't really take very long, but I can see the positive energy flowing over the surface down below as the healing songs have their intended effect. As the last song finishes I head back out into space, flying out through a solar system I don't recognize before I finally wake up.

I see Raven kneeling by the koi pond in the Biodome on the moon. She is looking at the fish with WinterFae. They stand up when they hear me approach. WinterFae is led away by Selene after my two lovers kiss me. "Winter needs to rest and dream within dreams," Selene says. I nod.
"Let's do dream healing on your foot, Nomad," Raven smiles at me. I give her a big hug.
"Thank you for this, and for helping me to remember my dreams, and dream sharing and teaching me how to teleport, and summon weapons and make portals and for being a good friend and saving my ass so many times in nightmares." Raven just chuckles in response.
"Raven, I think it's time for us to return to the Temple of the Angels."
"Let's do it," she says.
I raise my hands and ask my Guardian Angel, the archangel Michael, to aid us in our journey. He appears from everywhere and nowhere, suddenly a supernova searing the back of my skull with holy flame, and then a simple man in a robe made of woven light, with a sword of pure astral/dream fire and eyes like hot ice.
A ripping sound from behind us: we turn and see a tear in the fabric of timespace. Koomo, my Dark Spirit Guide, King of The Planet of the Bat-People, the Man-Bat with skin black as coal, climbs through the hole and then expands his great leathery wings, alighting on the ground in front of me. "Koomo? Good to see you! But, why are you here?"
"You think my two best childhood friends get together, and leave me out of an Adventure?"
At the word 'adventure', I suddenly have flashbacks of thousands of adventures I had with Michael and Koomo in Dreamworld and the Astral Plane. Memories surged to the forefront of my brain of me talking and playing with them in Wakeworld.
Koomo and Michael gave each other a strange greeting, grabbing two arms of the other person, and bowing, almost as if about to do some strange wrestling. Then, Koomo bowed to Raven and said to her, "Thank you for helping to defeat the WraithLord which secretly ruled my planet, and aiding me in my journey to the Throne as rightful King of Mon-Wa You have my gratitude. I have not been able to repay you or thank you as I have been so consumed with restoring peace to my planet. Also, my servants were crafting these five gifts for you to aid you in your journey, and to have cool fucking dreams, I give these to you, designed by King Koomo, and crafted by the best smiths of my planet, of gold and secret black stone from deepest mines."
He gives Raven three gifts, a belt, a necklace and a tiara, each one golden with a beautiful pure black stone. "First, try this necklace, every gift is functional," says Koomo.
Raven presses the stone on the hanging from her neck, apparently, it's a button. Quickgold, flowing like mercury over Raven's torso, golden straps grow, and out of her back, wings of the same yellow liquid metal. "Take flight!" says Koomo.
Raven takes to the air, and laughs, "You don't have to tell me twice." Raven loops and spins, and flutters like a moth.
"The wings increase maneuverability."
Raven laughs and lands. "This pendant has a passive ability," says Koomo as he turns away and half-closes his eyes generating a small fiery orb of dark violet energy, " to REPEL DARK ENERGY." Koomo blasts the orb at Raven, and the black stone absorbs the attack, then spins and shoots the energy back toward Koomo like a thousand shards of broken glass, who blocks the counter-attack with his wings.
Koomo gives her the bracelet. She puts it on and then presses the stone. The belt flows into her hand and becomes a whipsnake, a living whip with a venomous bite. The golden snake has beautiful deep black eyes, and is captivating, yet terrifying as looking into the uncaring vacant eyes of a psychopath. Raven whips it, and it hisses and roars like a crocodile. Raven smiles mirthlessly.
Koomo gives her the tiara. She puts it on her head, and loses balance for a second. "This tiara increases lucidity, and will increase your psychic skills in Wakeworld. What you are feeling is disorentation due to your different bodies becoming more aware of each other. You're fine."
"Also, now you have sonar." Music comes out of Raven, a Metallica song with lyrics that sound something like, 'seeking darkness, seeking light, i see in all things, and the blackest night."
Koomo dreamscapes a maze like area for Raven to practice. The sounds are terrifying, cute, and weird coming from Raven. Raven and Koomo bow. "I have one last gift," Koomo says as he takes to the air, "and in the tradition of my savage people, you must fight me for it."
"Fly, blackbird, Fly!" he taunts. Raven looks annoyed. "FLY!" he roars, as he summons a golden spear and throws it at her. She dodges the attack, and throws the spear back. Raven summons a double-bladed quarterstaff, and they fight in the air. Koomo charges his staff with dark energy, and screams at Raven. She yawns in response. She wields her whipsnake, and whips it at Koomo's spear. The whip wraps around the spear, and Raven yanks it into her hand. Koomo disappears into the maze. The maze goes dark, so dark the darkness shines out of the maze like light. I hear Raven making funny bat sounds and playing that rock song about seeking all, and see in the light and night. Koomo flies out of the cave, and Raven tackles him, and Koomo falls to the ground. She stands with her foot on his chest and his own spear at his neck.
"You win," he says, grabbing the spear, which Raven uses to help him stand. "And the gift is in your hand." Raven looks at the spear, which melts on to the ground, and then grows up on to her feet as boots.
"Um... Spear-boots?"
"Yes! that, and more. Any object or shape you desire, an object of pure liquid Quickgold. I recommend it for weapons, armor, and lockpicks."
Raven puts her palm out, facing upward, and the quickgold flows into it, a ball about the size of a baseball. The quickgold giggles and coos.
"This quickgold is semi-sentient, similar to Nomad's symbiote, but quickgold repels dark energy instead of absorbing it like Nomad's alien. The quickgold also helps balance light and dark energy of the wearer."
Raven pets the little giggling yellow sphere, and says, "I'll call you Goldie, funny little happy ball." Goldie starts laughing uproariously, and forms a mouth. The laughter emanating from the quickgold is so ridiculous, we all start laughing hysterically.
After the laughter dies, Koomo greets me by head butting me. "Nomad Nocturne, and Raven Knight, I bestow upon you the title: Champions of Mon-Wa! All Bat-People who bless you may they be blessed a thousand times in return, and all Bat-People who curse you, a thousand curses return!"
"My friends, I sojourn with you to the Temple of the Angels, for my planet is sick and dying after just 300 years rule of the WraithLord. I seek aid and wisdom to heal my planet's heart."
Selene appears in our midst. "We must heal the heart of the Moon."
I wake up with a jolt. I am in my bed in BanYanLand on the Moon. Selene is sleeping next to me. I am confused. I look out the window, and see the full moon in it. I am more confused. A raven flies across the moon and lands in the window, then looks at me. I hear a voice whisper, "Heal the heart of the Raven, heal the heart of the Moon." I feel something like a tiny moonstone angel-heart flutter inside my human heart. I fall back to sleep.
I am standing back right where I was a second ago, slightly dizzy. Selene catches me. "Nomad?"
"I'm alright."
I look at Raven. She smiles at me benignly. "You're really important to me," I tell her earnestly. A tear rolls down her cheek. She hugs me.
"You're really important to me, too, Nomad," she whispers.
Michael opens a beautiful portal rippling with iridescent fractals. He creates a rainbow a large disc which we step on to: Koomo, Selene, Raven, and I. The four of us join hands, and we fly into the portal. The wormhole is perfect and clean, in total balance in harmony of all the flora and fauna. We land on something like a round stage or landing pad ringed about with marble pillars. Metatron greets us, his face shining like the sun.
When he speaks, his voices sounds like a thousand waterfalls. "Welcome, weary Travellers. I know well of your journey. Thank you, Brother Michael for ushering these mighty Dream Warriors to our sacred Temple, Selene, Goddess of the Moon, may you receive what you need to heal the heart of the Moon. Raven Knight, the Moon Queen, may your healing skills ascend to match your limitless compassion. Koomo, King of Planet Mon-Wa, may you receive the wisdom and knowledge to heal your dying planet. Nomad Nocturne, Lord of Night, God of Nothing, may you receive the deep soul healing you desire to transfer to others.
Metatron leads us to warm saltwater pools with air and water the same temperature as the skin. We float in them and fall asleep as if they were beds for what seems like days. We awake in different rooms in what feels like beautiful tropical bread-and-breakfast hotels, or medieval inns. Metatron invites us to eat with him and others at a great table in a beautiful edible garden. "So many Peoples of Myth have been transported here from the Dark Realms as you rescued them. They are healing in various areas in our Temple. I seen you are concerned, and they are doing well.

Dream recall from nap ~20 hours ago that i had written in keywords but didn't had time to write it there earlier, also i feel like dream was fairly long, 24 hours of dreamtime maybe, even though i didn't had much detailed recall.

I was in the subway, moving to some different place. Then i was at home, testing some things in fraxy, there were some new bosses and interestingly it was 3D and had completely different gameplay. I experimented with some things, but later i figured that i had some control over things, but instead of thinking that i am dreaming i was thinking that i was in some alternate world that was in my mind(close enough ).
I was doing various things, there was some weird city built out of various materials and some stuff was on fire, i was getting ladder to go through, also there was a dog that was getting drunk.
I was back at home and was playing around with ability to create various characters, i created a bunch and then was watching some videos with them, some humanoid dog was one of the characters and one of the videos was something hockey related.
After a while something made me think that i was dreaming, but i didn't had much awareness nor memories of waking life so i was worried about it ending, and then i heard voice of all characters, which sounded evil: 'we don't want you to leave'.
Dream faded and scene changed into some other place and i lost lucidity, i was hiding from two doctors who were running around with scissors and wanted to cut off my dick( ).
Then i woke up back at home, but before i could do reality check, objects around suddenly started vanishing and then i woke up properly.