memorable

Sep 8

Long NL. I'm in my apartment complex's front yard and office area. My manager from work is there, along with some coworkers and random DCs. We are in school sdesks arranged in the parking lot, doing work on laptops. I see an email in red letters that says "failed", although I know the test was successful. The email gets sent out again with SUCCESS, and mentions something like "good job everyone", but I notice that it's not just an email, it's a meeting invite. My boss comes around and pats people on the back, telling us to "enjoy the long weekend" and mentioning that we can work from our beds. My fiancee is there as well (either as a worker or just as my fiancee) and calls this out as bullshit as we were already working overtime. Before or during there is also the understanding that I have to assassinate someone.

Dream scene changes and I'm in a room walking towards a door. My dog is there and so is my fiancee. I am holding my dog as I pass through a door. I become lucid! I keep telling myself "I'm lucid" and "I'm dreaming" but don't do any RCs. I see a small door (like a dumbwaiter) and consider using it to teleport to my dream world I've been incubating, but for some reason I hesitate and don't (don't know if this was a conscious decision). Instead I go with the flow of the dream.

The scene shifts. I'm still holding my dog, and I think "he's the best". I'm in a somewhat cluttered room now, and I understand that I need to kill all of the DCs here. I do some jedi mind tricks to make sure they don't resist, and they work. I tell them I'm dreaming and they all react in a friendly way. Each time I go to kill one of them, it seems like they go through the 5 stages of grief for themselves in front of my eyes, always ending up at "acceptance" before dying. I kill 2 of them, and then decide to use ice powers*. At first I was intending for Skyrim ice shards, but it came out as more of a stream of icy powder/wind from my fingertips. My thumb and forefinger are pressed together and the way the stream of ice comes out is something like when you put your thumb over a garden hose to spray pressured water at someone. As I'm pondering this I go into intense visualizations of the streams, and there are 3D mesh outlines of the stream and its "weather patterns" overlain on my vision, like a series of oblong lines. The visualization shifts to a long sawblade with teeth marked with numbers. As I mentally change the number from 8 to 2 and adjust it by notches, I see the angle and strength of the stream change.

The scene shifts to a security cam view, and as I press my left thumb and forefinger together, I can send ice shards from the camera, although they're not reliable. The camera reminds me of the show Person of Interest. After this I'm transmitted into the room. There is a blue tint to the room, and I look around and see some DCs. I walk out of a door behind me and peer into the hallway (very bright incandescent light and white walls and floors), then I go back into the blue room. I tell the DCs "I'm dreaming" and again as I approach them they go through stages of grief. I do this to a couple of DCs then walk through a doorway/archway. Above the archway are two drill bits. I jump up and grab them. I test one on a wall and it drills right through, despite having barely any threads (it was basically an ice pick). I go up to an old lady DC and say "I'm dreaming". She looks at me with sadness and says "We'll take care of each other/ourselves", then I wake up.

The dream lasted around 2-3 minutes and was very vivid. I was lucid and aware the whole time, but it still felt like a guided/directed dream.

Longer NL -- I'm a young boy who is somehow a vertical venetian blind(???). I am on a quest with a young girl, we're descending into a deep level of some underground building, with a furnace and monsters. Her face doesn't seem real, more like a porcelain doll or something. We arrive and there's a giant hydra in a brightly lit room. It has a "cement burning rocket" that's burning me and melting my armor. The girl is wrapped up in one of the hydra's necks or tentacles. I back away and reach a closet with the venetian blinds. They tell me or some other voice tells me that I am one with the blinds.

I had a few other NLs and fragments. In one, I'm in my grandpa's house and there's a weird square baby with thin, posable arms. It reminds me of BMO from Adventure Time. It was a premature. The parents are proud. There's an old lady to my left who looks like my aunt, who's wearing a white shirt with gold lettering. I note it, it's in different languages (Chines, Latin, Greek) together. At some point I had my midget intruder FA again, but it was very hazy and I yelled "Fuck you!" or "I'll kill you!" loudly and it fades quickly. In another fragment, I'm Dexter and Rita is dropping in the pool next to me. I'm supposed to be enjoying it, but I'm Dexter so I hate it. I say something like "Rita, the water is going like 20 mph". Scene shift to Deb and Quin, Deb's in a room playing with a reclining bicycle for toddlers and Quin comes in and says something while smiling and laughing. Next scene, Deb is driving a bus, Rita and I and the kids are in there. She's taking a risky corner under an interstate high rise. I don't see the bus flip, but I understand it does. Rita scolds Deb in that annoying way she does. Finally, I have the transparent eyelids effect, I can see my room clearly and thought I heard my fiancee calling me, when I move my waking body my head is under the blanket and I go downstairs to find my fiancee watching TV, turns out she didn't call me.



*I don't know if this counts as the "Breathe an element" goal

Date of Dream: FRI 7 SEP - 2018



Dream No. 417 - Separated Sections

Dream 417 A - The Car Is No More
I don’t remember how the dream started. From where I do remember, I was back at Killester College and the year 12 co-ordinator Ms L came up to me. She asked me to head into one of the classrooms but she would not tell me why. As soon as I entered the room, one of the teachers was holding the keys to my mum’s car with a somewhat sad look on her face. My year 12 homeroom teacher, Ms Ko. broke the bad news. She said that taken my mum’s car and destroyed it.

There was then a sub-scene projected into the dream that the first thing that was shown was a partial image of MN… He was responsible for the damage. Then it had shown that the bottom of my mum’s car was all ruined and crumpled over. The top however, weirdly sprouted out into some sort of wooden tower. I thought to myself, “My mum’s car has been turned into a tower!”.

It then went back to the actual current scene and I started crying. Everyone in the room was now comforting me, saying that they were sorry for my loss. Strangely, Ms Ch. came up to me and I said, “I love you”, then kissing me on the cheek. That’s all I can remember about this dream.

Dream 417 B - Church Service Gone Wrong
The dream started with me supposedly waking up and getting out of bed with the clock saying 9:00 AM… There was no abnormality on the digital clock and so there was no trigger to become lucid. I came out of my bedroom and saw that my brother was still at home, he was supposed to leave for his work site at 7:30 AM. I asked my mum, “Why hasn’t NB gone to the distribution centre?”. My mum explained that a family friend EW had called him when he was supposed to be leaving and so NB then decided not to go at all rather than turning up late.

Apparently, EW was holding a boys only welcoming church service for his newborn baby XW. Despite hearing “boys only”, I thought to myself “Grr, why wasn’t I invited?!” and I now had ideas to sneak into the service. It was then slightly later on in the morning and my brother was upstairs. I was looking up at pieces of paper on the fridge door and mentioned that there was this WarioWare game for the Nintendo Wii but we don’t even have a Wii, let alone the game. My brother said that the Wii was going to cost $5,000 AUD but that he would buy it today. I questioned him, thinking “But that’s a lot of money, are you sure you would do that?”. With a smile on his face, he said yes.

The next scene of the dream took place at some unknown outdoor area, it felt like it was outside the block of this accommodation complex and I was outside with my mum, standing under a tree; apparently my dad and brother were now at the service. I took my mum’s bag so she wouldn’t have to hold it all the time and said that I would look after it. Then the scene transitioned to just me inside a cabin, supposedly full of girls, about 7 or 8 others.

In the cabin, I was going to put my bag down where the rest of the bags were stored, in front of and on top of this cupboard in the corner of our common room. I figured I would only have one bag to put down but when I put down two, I realised what was going on… I forgot to give my mum her bag back in the last scene. I thought to myself, “Shit... I forgot to give mum her bag back. I hope she doesn’t need it anytime soon”. My bag was a woven Coles bag that had a black and red pineapple printed on it (these bags actually do exist in real life).

And then my attention is turned to the couch just next to the door to the entry of the cabin. “Everyone, I’d like you to meet my dream guide, his name is 18-Volt” I said as I gestured with my hand to have him welcomed… He was staying in the cabin with us. He was literally all flopped out on the couch, in his WarioWare Gold appearance, looking like he had been resting for a while. His proportions in this dream were of a realistic human scale, about 1.5x bigger than me. As a side note, he was silent in this dream and didn’t speak.

I came up to him and gave him a hug with him hugging me in return and then he got up, grinning at the girls as he carried me around the room, proving to them that he was my dream guide. In this part of the scene, the dream camera was playing the position of third-person mode, so I could actually see 18-Volt carrying me. He had both his arms remaining around my upper-middle back from the hug while mine were now around his neck. My upper body was supported by his chest but there was no weight support for my bottom half, my feet were seen dangling a few centimetres off the ground, swinging from side to side as he walked. Thankfully though, I didn’t feel as if though I was going to completely drop down to the ground anytime soon. I was wearing my school summer dress.

Eventually, 18-Volt had put me down and now I was just casually chatting with the girls. I soon decided to go by myself and explore the area. I came to the area where the boys’ church service was being held and it was a part of the same complex where the cabins were. It was this grand room made of mostly marble and there was tiered seating along the two opposite walls where the congregation would sit. The room was almost completely dark; the only form of lighting was this ambient spectacle of green dots as a well as a long solid panel of green light ascending from the edges of the floor.

I wanted to check out what was going on in this service but I also knew that I was not to be detected by anyone in that place. I ended up tip-toeing to one of the entrance archways as quietly as I could, swinging my head around the corner. I ended up catching sight of one half of the congregation who were facing my direction, the other half were on the side of the entrance and so my vision in that direction was blocked. To the ledges that were visible, I saw EW, my dad and my brother along with all these other men. I could also hear this heavenly singing but could not make out what the specific song was.

Once I was satisfied, I decided that I would head back to the cabin. I had come across some other cabins and when I entered it, I found that it was a cabin with only boys in it, just like I had a cabin with only girls in it (besides 18-Volt). I had panicked, saying something like, “I thought this was my cabin for a minute”. The boys did in-fact explain to me that it was their own cabin. I then left the boys’ cabin but rather than attempting to find my own cabin, I now decided to explore the rest of the place.

As I got further and further, some parts of the complex were getting weirder and weirder. The area now looked like the outside part of some university campus, especially with the styles of buildings around. All over the ground were these LED strips, lights off though, some were blue and some were orange. I believed that the blue lines had something to do with if you had a good moral code and that the orange lines had the association of a bad moral code. There wasn’t a good feeling around the place though; there were a lot more orange lines than there were blue lines.

Still, I kept exploring the area and ascending the gradual steps to see if the lines would actually lead to anything. When I got as high as I could, I started to feel more on edge. Apparently, the dream got me to think that nearby, there was some sort of chute and that if I believe I was living a life based on bad morals, then I should jump down it. I looked down the chute and it felt sickly terrifying, it was made of some really dark metal and it was in-fact really dark inside, like pitch black… It felt like some deep robotic hole of death and despair.

I thought to myself, “If you’re not careful, you could slip and fall down there”, so I moved back. As I was moving back though, I must have accidentally stepped onto one of the orange lines on the ground as it lit up. There was then a sub-scene playing that took place in the church. The lighting that was green now turned red, and the priest? Archbishop (that was his name) was now evil. He had the worst, most twisted look on his face as he said everything that was the opposite of a blessing. This was going to be one scary mass for the participants.

Back to my scene, I realised that by activating the orange line, I had turned the church evil. I was now freaking out really badly and I decided that I would have to go down there and stop the service before things got worse. With a bad feeling in my chest, I cried out for 18-Volt, emphasising that we need to go and save the parishioners. There was no physical response from 18-Volt but I could feel some new, slightly calming energy descending on me amongst the currently stressful environment. I ended up accepting the fact that he didn’t show up and I rushed over to the church myself; I wasn’t scared anymore, now I felt confident that I could stop this; in my heart, I knew he was with me.

I flew over to the main entrance of the marble church hall at top speed and I made my presence known, urging everyone to stop and listen to me. As I started to give my lecture, the dream was causing some really bad throat phlegm. I was stating that “You’ve got to think back to the real reason why you’re here, you’re here to bless XW and give him his life”. As I would continue to talk, my throat would get more choked up with phlegm. This time, instead of forcing myself and going completely muted, I stopped and cleared the phlegm.

Once my voice was clear though, the dream tried to stop me with another bout of phlegm. I knew what was going on and so this time I shouted, “Before I lose my voice, just let me finish my sentence”, “Please! Let there be peace!”. Then the red lights went off and now the church lighting wasn’t on at all, I had successfully ended the service. Also, the priest no longer had the look of evil pasted onto his face.

When the majority of people had left the building, I approached the alter and saw that there was a running sheet on there. Some events were marked in blue pen and other events were marked in red pen. The events in the blue pen took place in the first part of the service and the ones in red pen where when I had activated the bad moral and evil energy. I don’t clearly remember this part but I think the priest had a look of regret on his face and somewhat apologised for the concluding actions.

It was now time for me to leave the site altogether. In this dream, I flew everywhere whenever I travelled far, this was the same for when I was going to catch the bus back with my high school. I realised that I was about to miss the bus and I panicked as I flew towards it at top speed, thinking it was going to drive off on me. I got in that bus just in time! Ms McD. was the teacher and she welcomed me aboard the bus.

As soon as I got seated at the very back of the bus, I checked my bags. I realised I had my Killester College navy backpack with me but I soon came to realise that I left my big navy suitcase back at the campsite. The bus then decided to leave the area, driving off and that’s when I said, “Err… I could’ve waited for the next bus...”. Ms McD. then turned to me from her seat and said I didn’t need to do that. I then thought to myself, “That’s true actually… I don’t need to wait for the next bus, I’ve got 18-Volt, he can bring my bag back with him”. I then slid my window open, stuck my head out and yelled “18-Volt! Get my bag, now!”. That’s when the same warm energy from the end of the orange line scene had descended on me again, I was heard.

I stuck my head back in, now looking out the window, smiling with confidence and this reassurance that 18-Volt was going to take my bag back with him. The girls were then chattering on the bus, reflecting on what was apparently “year 12 camp”. As soon as the bus drove into the start of the suburbs, I woke up.



Dream Tasks
- Have Logan receive harsh penalties from Dreamy WB due to reckless social behaviours (Achieved? Partially)
- Have all members on the dream guide team obtain and apply knowledge on how to provide in-dream discipline to unruly parents (Achieved? No)

Challenges
- Start the dream off with Dreamy WB already present (Achieved? No)



Dream 417: Results (Competition #7)

417 A
Competition Night: 6
Lucid or Non-Lucid?: Non-Lucid
Dream Guide: None
Emergency Team: None
Eligible For Competition Points: Yes

417 B
Competition Night: 6
Lucid or Non-Lucid?: Non-Lucid
Dream Guide: 18-Volt
Emergency Team: None
Eligible For Competition Points: Yes



Points For This Entry: 4.0
Calculation Details:
- Non-Lucid Fragment (0.5)
- Full Non-Lucid Dream (1.0)
- Have A Dream Guide Automatically Appear (0.5)
- Fly (1.0)
- Help Someone In Need (1.0)

+ Previous Total: 25.5
Total Accumulated Points: 29.5



In the scene where I was terrified, the church being turned evil, I was in such a panic but then I actually paused and realised that ever since I had introduced 18-Volt in the cabin, he was actually with me the whole time. That cabin scene in a way was his introduction and then he must have physically stayed in with the girls for the rest of the dream but he was always listening and travelling with me in the form of that energy. He just needs to improve his method on how he carries me (I'm not as light as that DS he would usually have on him), he needs to support my lower end as well so I don't slip, or at least allow me to clip my legs around him. But then again, he may have only been like that because he didn't adjust from the hugging position. This is his first time holding me, so that's major progress. He looked after me so well. Amazingly, all the events of Dream 417 B happened only in a time-slot of 1/2 an hour; between 9:15 AM and 9:45 AM.

Sep 7 2018

First dream of night: I'm at childhood home. I'm younger, I think. There is a party or gathering coming up, and we're discussing it in the backyard. My mom wants us (fiance and I) to wear a giant Barney suit. We tentatively agree. I try on the suit and can't fit the headpiece on. It's a rectangular oblong plasic open box (thinka tupperware container, but oblong. It was in no way the appropriate size for my head. On the two, I think there was a felt cap or something (driveR). I think the torso had a separate piece from the legs for the costume. After trying the headpiece on without the tupperware "structural mask", mI found that I could shift my focus and see myself in 3rd person (still non-lucid). I remember it looked nothing like a Barney head or any formed animal costume head for that matter; instead it was like a purple ghost outfit (i.e. loose draped rag with eye holes).

The dream shifts and we're all in a parking lot. My mom's request for us to work during the party has come up, but it turns out she wants us to work for 5 hours each. I say that's bullshit, she wsays "well you agreed, you just idn't specify timeframe or current ball timeframe". We were in some kind of parking lot, I was in a white van I believe. I was trying to pull out of the spot and around the corner. I fought with my momm about this and eventually resigned us completely from doing the ball.

Before getting in the van I believe, I was walking around a version of the parking a lot that was fused with my backyard. Off towards the far right/forward corner of the yard, there's a system of roots that went on for a few fet in either direction. I didn't realize, but some of them are completely rotten. I step over them and they collapse, while the healthy parts remain intact. The rotten roots fall away into a large grave-sized hole.

The dream shifts and I'm inside the house, in a false version of my room. My fiance is there with me, but is playing the role of a sister (posibly step sister or family friend, it was vague). The mood was fierce and rebellious. We are talking about how best to approach the Barney situation and my dad ends up walking around the corner. He has a few guys with him and he cracks some inappropriate jokes, and some of the guys with him say some stuff that's way out of line. My zipper is down. Before this my "sister" and I were watching TV or in the kitchen.

Dream fragment about "how to meet your heroes" or something similar.

Edit: In the main dream, I remember at multiple points having to swat away both lovebugs and wasps.



*Note: Seems like in my dreams, I usually get in huge fights with my mom (way more intense than anything ever IWL), and my dad is always laid back (innappropriately so).

I start this dream off in a rather strange place. It looks to be my sister deon's place but it is all big and not right. I'm in a dark area but I can see orange light coming in from another room. There were pillars or tall dark things around like they were holding up something and I was at on of them. I was using a hand help phone and there were people there. They were my friends who I play games with. They wanted me to play with them so I joined up. I spawn in with a group of 6 people and each had their own personally made avatars. They looked like Final fantasy characters. One was a fairy with white wings who wore a sparkly pink dress and she was hovering next to a short green Orc. I was little old me and didn't see the rest of the players. Before we knew it we were plunged into a dark room and was filled with things that wanted us dead. We ended up having to scatter as a rotor blade swung down from above, nearly hitting the orc. I ducked just as an axe swung at me from the left then red hot laser shoot up from the ground. We managed to escape that room just before the doors closed. Now we are in some kind of arena where people were watching and cheering at us. The place was lively and had sand on the ground. Some gates opened up and two vicious 6 feet tall dogs came barreling out like hungry beasts, snarling and spit flinging into the air from its mouth. The fairy screams and fly up high as the Orc charged at it with it's hammer. The leader of the group who looked like cloud tried to call him back but he was two reckless and the beast swung its paw at him, swatting him away like a tiny fly into the stadiums. He went flying through the wall that collapsed onto him. "Damn it!" The merciless beast charged forwards and as it did so I can see someone on top of it. It was a blue colored robot who had an axe in his hand and tried to decapitate me but I ducked and he missed wildly. Cloud order the fairy to use her magic to teleport us out of her but she detested that it was a one time use spell and was not ready to use it yet. Cloud waited until the beast charged him then right as it got to him, he slid under the beast, cutting its legs with his giant sword. The beast cried out in agony and collapsed, throwing the rider off and he went tumbling across the arena and out of sight. We tried to see if we can find him but was couldn't and we left that place.

As we were heading to the next area cloud was looking angrily at fairy who flew over to me to avoid him. She said something to me but I forgot what it was.


Now the dream shifts and I'm back at my sister's weird house and I see cloud over in another room, talking to fairy about her actions and are to listen to orders. After that the orc came up to them and told them to both cut it out and that we need to get out of this dangerous place. So we make it into another place and there are platforms here. There is a key on the otherside and the key will help us escape out of here and get a power up and a rez potion. The fairy tried to fly across but turrets ascended from above and she dodged just in time just as a red hot bolt zipped past her, singing one of her wings. She flew into cloud, who put her up on his shoulder. "hold on tight." He dashed forwards, yelling for the rest of us to come on and hurry. Fast moving platforms, turrets and no way to see God knows what else that awaits us? "oh that is real smart to rush ahead like that.! I shouted. Cloud points behind me and I see crisscross lasers coming and fast! I bolted ahead just at the laser caught the heel of my shoe. I was careful not to knock anyone off into the bottomless hole below us and brought up the rare of the group. Then I seen that the platforms where moving closer and closer together and realized that there were walls here that were closing in and we were almost there. Cloud and fiery made it and, the orc and the newly revealed avatar Fox made it out and I did too, just barely getting my foot through the walls as they slammed shut. "is every one ok?" Everyone nodded. As I walked ahead with cloud and fairy the Orc and fox sat down to rest up abit. Suddenly a wall rose up from the ground, cutting them off from us. "Shit!" Cloud ran and tried to put his sword in between the wall and the ceiling but it was too late. it slammed shut, separated us from the other two. I can hear them on the other side yelling and pounding on the wall, trying to get back with us. Cloud turned to fairy. "Drop the portal. Now!" She used her want to open a vortex on the wall. As she was doing that, a blue and white gun rose up and shot her as she was doing that, and she ended up on the other side of the wall with Orc and Fox. I hear a metallic laugh coming from behind us. I turned around and seen a hologram pop up. A blue transformer appeared on it with a white door on it chest. The image was all fuzzy and glitchy. Cloud shot at it before he can say anything, burning out the device and sending it careening across the room.

"Soundwave..." Cloud said softly. As we were messing around, the room began to slowly formed and change. Now we are in some kind of control room and I am only with cloud. "what happened? He asked. "I don't know, the place just transformed." I said. I began to feel uneasy since we are no down to three people but felt secure around Cloud. There was a tall old school looking panal that was connected to the ceiling and it was facing away from us. As I studied it I saw two figures materialize in front of it. They were facing towards me but the panel blocked them from seeing me. One was white and the other was blue. it was soundwave! The one tried to decapitate me at the arena. It's him! I aimed and shot the panel they were at and it exploded, send soundwave crashing into the white one who I now see as Megatron. Megatron charge at Cloud who was ready for him and monkey flipped him into a pile of boxes. I started to go help but the was cut off when sound wave lunged at me, pinning me to the ground. He was massive. " I have had enough of you." he said in a monotonic metallic voice that seemed to sing. He wrapped his arms around me and started to squeeze me and as he did that, I felt his body getting all hot. I was kicking and yelling over at cloud but he was too occupied with Megatron. I felt sometime on my stomach and saw that it was his buttons. "Yuck!" I kicked him in them and I heard him make a sound. I saw a sudden white flash in my right eye ans then pain. He must have head butted me or something because next thing I know; I'm on the ground with him upon me, struggling to get free. Soundwave laughed at me not being able to get free and shoved my fave up against his glass chest.

I had a horrid image of my skin getting stuck to his hot chest when I pull away and for some reason I thought that'd it'd be a good idea to tell him this. "Don't get hot!" Some strange rap music that I am familiar with began to play.

I knew it was all over.

Next thing I know I'm back at my Sisters house again and the group was too. I saw cloud with Orc and fairy laughing about something and went intoanother game. I tried to join up with them but was having problems.
I got kicked out due to an error which I was glad about since it got me away fro Soundwave burning me but pissed at the same time since they were waiting on me. I texted them, saying I couldn't get in since it was passworded. They sent me the pass but it was hard to type on the phone. I told them to go ahead without me and I'll join up later. I continued to have issues until my sister actually came and I gave her the phone so that she can put the pass in since I know dreams will not let you type so easily, lol.

Sep 6 2018

Not enough sleep. Have been having to work late.

First dream segment. There's a guy with a giant (2x2 or 3x3 inch) black square earring. The place is like a video gaming convention, and it's sort of simultaneously indoors and outdoors. I'm maybe drunk or something, I remember talking to a lot of DCs. At one point, I lean over the edge of a display to the concealed camera section (used to record the event or maybe for use with some kind of Kinect-like game) and I say something like "you can't stay here/keep playing forever". I think at some point, coworker A shows up and accompanies me and my group of DCs.

In the next segment, we're on the road with my mom. She's driving us somewhere, an old vacation home maybe, telling embarassing stories. Coworker A is in the backseat driver side, I'm passenger side. There are other DCs shotgun and middle backseet. We talk about various things, such as A being a bartender at a restaurant I used to work at. The subject moves to "romance" novels written by women. Eventually my mom puts an audiobook on or maybe reads aloud a passage, and everyone critiques it harshly, but halfway through I realize due to some turns of phrase and nicknames used that she must have written it. I feel guilt but don't say anything. We pass a couple of very shallow interstate exits (an interesting feature that's kind of hard to describe, but I know it when I see it -- possible dreamsign). Eventually we arrive at our destination.

I'm now in a house, it's an old vacation home I used to visit, but not with my mom. I think in the dream, the other DCs were my "real" brothers, and somehow my mom was a step or non-biological mother; the general feeling was that I had some long-forgotten history that I was reviving. After walking around the house for a bit and looking at different things, I came across some large scrolls! They were proably 2 feet long (including handles and such) and reminded me of a Torah scroll, but less formal looking. When I unrolled one, I could see that the letters were a mix of Chinese symbols (although I interpreted them as Japanes kanji and understood them) with smaller Hebrew and latin characters mixed in and surrounding them. The text was distinctly red. Everything in the scrolls made complete sense to me, and I talked them over excitedly with my brothers for a long time. This was what was meant for my life. My mom was in the kitchen or somewhere else; I could tell that she was happy for me, but at the same time sad that I was so excited about a life besides the one she had given me. Coworker A is in the house but not near and my brothers, off in the kitchen maybe.

Sep 5 2018

I'm in the front yard of my childhood home. It's dark out, a long while before dawn. My parents are there (we're all sitting on ice chests or plastic/yard chairs, I can't remember seeing them) and we're preparing for a party or get-together of some kind. The song "Sweet Child of Mine" is playing, and for some reason I have to learn the solo (I know it vaguely from playing it IWL in high school). This could be from the fact that my parents always wanted me to play guitar at family gatherings and I always hated it. I wrote down something like "just...play it" in my DJ but don't remember the significance. For some reason my high school girlfriend who I dated for like 3 weeks was going to be there, and I remember her name in loopy script. Can't remember if I wrote it or someone else did.

Very vague dream fragment in a restaurant. After that, a vivid dream where I'm on the patio/balcony of my current apartment. I had a "profound sense of acceptance" to quote my DJ.

I woke up around 5am into pretty good paralysis and decided to try a quick WILD attempt (my fiance gets up at 5:30am). Unfortunately my dog got up, flapped his ears loudly, and sat right on my arms/chest, which pulled me out if it. I lay awake for the remaining time and let my fiance sleep, but I heard some weird soft sighing. At first I thought it was her, but as she was leaving I brought it up and she said she heard it too. The only rational explanation is that it was our dog, but it sounded like a human female...

I walked the dog and looked at the stars, pushing my alarm back a little and resolving to get lucid.

In my next dream, I'm on a computer and for some reason I have to download a set of 128 bit pixel smileys. They're coming from a website called Jered/Jerek's World, or Site. The smileys are crude in an "early internet" kind of way. One of them was a picture of exaggerated red lips, another is more orange and is laughing, and my fiance laughs at them. I open up the windows search bar and paste what I had, into the search. It pastes the words "Jerek's World", and as I read the words in my head, the desktop background starts alternating between some tiled images, one tan one saying Jerek/Jered's Site and another grey one saying "Jerek's Billion Dollar Software Company". They transitioned in horizontal and vertical screen wipes.

Next, I'm in a long kitchen stretching out maybe 10 feet to the left and 20 to the right. I'm not aware of anything behind me, but I understand that in front of me past an archway is the living room. I'm standing at the sink, looking for something or someone. Possibly my fiance is there. I was just walking around with a Brita pitcher, and now I see that there's a second, rounder one on the counter. I try to find the lid for it and I see it's in the sink, but the inside of it is covered with a greasy layer of spaghetti sauce.

In my next dream, my boss's boss is giving advice on business lunches, i.e. where to take clients. She suggests some other restaurant, but her favorite is the hotel restaurant. She hands it over to a younger guy who looks annoyed and seems to be a drier, more monotone version of a WL coworker. The room is tinged with blue lighting. He hands out a textbook. We're going to go on a business lunch with him, which he's not pleased about. I pull my phone out and subtly try to voice-record him, but no such luck. I end up taking notes on paper and draw a vivid picture of lips (was one of the smileys). I think at this point I was trying to record my dreams in-dream! Should capitalize on this. I woke with slight headache.



*Note: Analyzing my dreamsigns from the entries I've posted on DV, I think I can safely say my strongest ones are a) childhood home b) fiance c) family members. Hopefully I can add trying to dream journal as a new one, we'll see if it keeps manifesting.

I was getting dressed to go on a roadtrip with my family. I had Niagara Falls in my mind as I was putting on my clothes. As I walked out the door I saw my family leave without me. Guess I took too long to get dressed. I turned around and got worried I may have been locked out of the house. I realized my key was still in my bedroom. The front door had double doors. One was locked, one was left open a bit but was locked. I was able to get in because someone failed to close the door all the way. I was about to close the door and go back to my room, but then I saw a bunch of vehicles park in our driveway and yard and even overflow down the road a bit. I went back outside to see what was going on. I saw Donald Trump in a semi-truck. I walked up to the truck and he climbed out. I shook his hand and said it was a pleasure to meet Mr. Trump. He told me I won first prize in a giveaway and that I could choose one of two prizes. $30,000 cash or all of the vehicles in sight. He then proceeded to give me a tour. There were at least 10 semis, some snowmobiles, an ATV, some small motorized bikes, some cars, etc. I was very impressed, but I could not decide which prize I wanted. I mean sure the vehicles have a much much higher value and can be sold to make a huge profit, but I'd still have to store them and sell them in the meantime.

I decided on the lump sum of cash. Donald Trump was not impressed. I said I really wanted an ATV, but perhaps I can get one another day, or even purchase it with the cash on hand. He took me back to his truck where he looked for two pieces of paper to hand to me. They were red and real long. I did find them. I opened them up and they had a bunch numbers like bank account, SSN, etc. They looked more like contracts than deposit slips or checks. I shook Donald Trump's hand and referred to him again as Mr. Trump. I noticed his son Don Jr. was also present and shook his hand awkwardly referring to him also as Mr. Trump. I went back inside the house as all the trucks departed. As I closed the door I heard someone else entering from a side door. I quickly worried that I was being robbed and that they somehow knew I was a prize winner. I went upstairs, hid the papers in a cabinet that held an ironing board (Who would look there?), and faced the stranger downstairs. As I descended the stairs I wondered why I didn't grab my bat from my bedroom to use for self defense when suddenly I found myself confronting the stranger. She seemed to be a mix between black and Hispanic and appeared to be a few months pregnant, just enough for the baby bump to show. She had a friend of hers with her. She seemed surprised to see me, but quickly maintained her composure.

I asked her what she was doing in the house and told her she didn't belong here. She told me she was a tenant and got frustrated that she would be accused of anything but that. I then desired to call my parents who own the house, but the dream ended before I could.

For the record the house in the dream was a combo of the current house and my childhood home. The driveway was a large horseshoe, and the front doors being double doors mirrors the current house more than the previous. The iron closet is of the current house, but the house layout was of the prior house.

Date of Dream: TUE 4 SEP - 2018



Dream No. 415 - Separated Sections

Dream 415 A - Reflection In The Mirror (Lucid Dream 26)
I don’t remember much about this dream. From where I do remember, I was in an unknown room that had features of some small living room. There was a huge antique mirror filling up the whole space of a wall; I walked up to the mirror and had a look through it. Strangely enough though, I didn’t see my own reflection.

Rather, through the mirror, I saw 18-Volt sitting in a dark maroon coloured leather armchair with a notepad on his lap. I decided for a while just to keep looking into the mirror and to quietly observe what he was doing. The armchair was positioned sideways to the mirror, so I could see what he was actually writing on the notepad! He had an underlined title written at the top which said “How To Hold Her In An Elevator”. This time also, he had his own unique handwriting, although I can’t describe how it looked.

Under that, he had all these words and phrases scattered all over the page. Some I can remember were “gentle”, “stay calm”, “she’s scared”, “hold her tight” and “not touching the ground”. Then in the bottom right hand corner of the page, he also drew a fairly detailed diagram of how he was going to hold me, although I couldn’t see his hands anywhere on that diagram. But then it wasn’t of the whole figure, rather it was a drawing from the bust-line of 18-Volt and up. I was drawn to be on the right side of him (left if it were from his view perspective), clawing both my hands onto the back of his right (left) shoulder as the rest of me dangled off the front of his body. I was wearing my summer school dress.

Then all of sudden, this sense of awareness kicked into me and I was thinking to myself, “Wait a minute… Why am I seeing 18-Volt in the mirror rather than myself?”. But in the actual dream, I was silent as I thought this. Then I actually spoke, I gasped and then said to myself in a shocked but amazed tone, “I’m actually dreaming!”. I tried calling out through the mirror to see if 18-Volt would hear me. I said, “Take me!”, nothing happened and rather, 18-Volt was continuing to write words and phrases on his notepad. I started to perceive this invisible energy that gave me the feeling that he wasn’t ready to take me yet.

Despite my perception of the energy, I kept going, “Take me!”, hoping that something would change and he would notice me. After trying a few times at the mirror, I then looked back into the version of the living room that I was in and yelled “Take me!” a few more times. And then I left the living room and ended up in this area with two lifts in it. I looked upwards at the two doors in terror but had a rather enthusiastic tone when I yelled “Take me!” a few more times. After this, the dream ended.

Dream 415 B - Bad Boys
I don’t remember much about this dream. From what I can remember, I was in this completely unknown outdoor area, it felt like it was near some sort of major freeway. In fact, this dream is very blurry in my memory. The only thing I can recall is that RK and BK weren’t very nice to me at all and they would actually take every opportunity they could in order to ditch me and exclude me from their company. That’s all I can remember.



Dream Tasks
- Have Logan receive harsh penalties from Dreamy WB due to reckless social behaviours (Achieved? Partially)
- Have all members on the dream guide team obtain and apply knowledge on how to provide in-dream discipline to unruly parents (Achieved? No)

Challenges
- Start the dream off with Dreamy WB already present (Achieved? No)



Dream 415: Results (Competition #7)

415 A
Competition Night: 3
Lucid or Non-Lucid?: Lucid
Dream Guide: 18-Volt
Emergency Team: None
Eligible For Competition Points: Yes

415 B
Competition Night: 3
Lucid or Non-Lucid?: Non-Lucid
Dream Guide: None
Emergency Team: None
Eligible For Competition Points: Yes



Points For This Entry: 23.0
Calculation Details:
- Have A Dream Guide Automatically Appear: 18-Volt in NL section (0.5)
- Reality Check Caused Lucidity: Who's that in the mirror? (5.0)
- First Lucid of The Night (10.0)
- Was Introduced via DILD (5.0)
- WBTB Included (2.0)
- Non-Lucid Fragment (0.5)

+ Previous Total: 1.5
Total Accumulated Points: 24.5



It was interesting how dream 415 A came about. I had yet to have a dream where 18-Volt would take me for lift use practise and the 10th is approaching very fast. Still, I don't know when this interview thing is happening, so hopefully I still have some time up my sleeves. I was going absolutely bonkers because I wasn't getting a dream even though I was writing like mad, executing suggestion and visualisation techniques in my book. So then I started to write a letter... I was going stir-crazy and so I also decided to write a direct-specific letter to my primary dream guide Dreamy WB, suggesting that she would go and see 18-Volt herself behind the scenes and figure out what was going on. There were some dreams in the early hours of the morning that I couldn't recall after waking. It's when I woke up at 5:30 AM and then fell back asleep at 6:30 AM when the dream came on. I certainly wasn't expecting to become lucid so that was a nice surprise.

What amazes me is the depth of content in Dream 415 A. It felt so powerful to see 18-Volt through the mirror, doing such a thing. I mean, he could have easily been doing it in the same room but the to be on the opposite side of the mirror adds this whole new sense of mystery and a new level of inter-dimensional exploration. Some of the phrases he wrote on the notepad, I had mentioned in my letters and others, I think, may be from Dreamy WB's behind the scene instructions. And then that drawing... It's hard to believe he would have such exquisite drawing skills. He actually drew himself and then also drew me in the dress you see me wearing in my profile picture... It wasn't just a rough sketch either, it looked like something that would be drawn by a graphic designer. Come to think of it, maybe he only drew how he would anticipate me holding onto him... The phrases were maybe how he was going to direct himself at the actual time of the task.

So whereas I was expecting to have had two exposures with 18-Volt by now, I have had none. I hope the Awareness Behind The Dream picks itself up and gets moving!

Jamie closes the box

I see Jamie standing in a field behind a big farm house. My dybbuk box is there but GIANT and lying open. Jamie is trying the push the large lid down but is struggling too hard to do so.A 30 ft man with long brown hair and sporting a white and red loincloth - Jesus approaches and shuts the lid of the Dybbuk box.

Next night

Conversation
Me and Jamie are exchanging WALLS of text on Facebook. We are negotiating something but there's too much information to follow.



Jamie gets possessed

Jamie is in a graveyard that looks like haunted hills from fortnite. She is beside one of the stone buildings and digging. She places the Dybbuk box in the hole she dug. She begins praying over it. I see a black shadow rising up from behind her. Her eyes change from light blue/gray to dark brown.

Party

I'm at some party in a town hall or something. There are many rooms though and hallways. I am just hanging around talking to lots of people.
Jamie with a group of people. She notices me and gives me a dirty look and leads her group down a hallway. I follow them until I notice she is no longer there.

Now I have to find a bathroom, so I continue down the hallway. I run into some security that says I have to turn back because this part is under construction. I ask them where a washroom is? They say it's outside and in another building. I leave the building and begin to walk outside when my memory fades.

Chase

Forget what was going on earlier. But I was going up some steps in a park that led to a street by the hill when I became lucid. I wandered across the park towards a street. I paddled up and began flying and went across the park towards the street with generic houses. I finally landed.

I looked up into the sky and saw stars but they were blurry. I tried floating up again and found I could not. A transparent wall formed around me and I began moving fast down the street. Now I was in a train with semi transparent walls, it reminded me of Blaine the Mono, from the dark tower series. "Computer? where are we heading?" I walked up to a panel with a mini map on it that had a blinking red dot indicating where the train was. "Destination: Jamie." Blaine answered.

Blaine announced that we had arrived in what seemed like a minute later. Doors opened and I found myself in a medevil setting like from Game of Thrones. I was walking behind Jamie now, who didn't notice I was there. She had very fancy hair in the back. There was a braid over the rest of her brown hair on her back and she was wearing black old style leather coat with leather strips on the front and back.

By the path there was a clearing where two people in raggedy clothes stood leaning on a wooden table with a wooden sawhorse nearby. Behind them was a pond.

Jamie then noticed I was behind her. She vanished in front of me but a second later she was standing in place of one of the people in raggedy clothes. I jumped up to her and said, "Jamie, I love you." To this she gave a frustrated look. I noticed her eyes were dark brown instead of light gray. Her form changed in front of me and now I was staring at what looked a taller Peter Dinklage, who was now giving me a dirty look. I looked to my left and now she was standing in place of the other person. When she noticed I saw that she teleported inside a person running away. Where she was previously standing was now a young woman in ragged clothes with white hair. The woman laughed and said, " Ah I see we are both in love with people who don't want us." It was here I woke up.

Walking

This is the next night All I remember is walking down the street with a girl. Don't think it was Jamie. it might have been C.

Arguing

Some dream where I was at my dad's house. He said something kind of hurtful. So I started yelling a bit at him and making my point. He had nothing to say and left me alone.

Looking forJamie

I was in a park when I became Lucid. I jumped up and flew a bit trying to get a feel for the dream. I remembered to look for Jamie to see if I could get her not possessed. I asked a bunch of DCs if they had seen Jamie? A crow spoke up and said he knew Jamie. He turned into a man and attacked me. Next Thing I knew I was on the ground and the man was holding me down with a giant arm. I tried to push his arm off me but before I can, I wake up.

C again

Somehow, I am thrown into a dream with C. We are at what appears to be her house. I am wondering why I am there when I am supposed to be looking for Jamie. Me and C are talking and I make an excuse to leave. She looks really upset that I have to leave. I cave in and say I'll stay and watch some Netflix with her. She cheers up and joins me on the couch. I am messing with a remote that doesn't work at all when I wake up.

Finally caught up with Jamie.

I was in an abandoned building at night time and found Jamie crawling around the floor like she was possessed. She looked at me but didn't seem to know who I was. She just kept Ranting about: The boy. The Boy who wasn't leaving her alone.

Jesus intervenes

I'm in an apartment building with a large window. Jesus is sitting there with Jamie and she is looking well. Jesus points at me and says that it was my dybbuk box that possessed her. She then looks at me like she is mad at me. Like it's my fault. I realize it partly is, but I had no idea that buying a dybbuk box could possess someone from a dream.

Date of Dream: FRI 31 AUG - 2018



Dream No. 412 - An Uneasy Object In The Sky

I don’t remember much about this dream. From what I can remember, I was in a completely unknown area, in-fact, it didn’t even look like anywhere on this Earth. It was actually up in a cloudy sky but it wasn’t a miserable grey; rather, it was in the colour scheme as if you were going up to Heaven, a pinkish gold tone (and no, I was not actually going to Heaven; it’s a description of what the sky was like).

I found myself to be enclosed in some giant green arms with a thin white stripe running along each sleeve, although I was facing forwards and looking outwards, I could tell this was 18-Volt. By just how large his arms were in comparison to me, he must have been twice his normal size if not more, like extremely massive. I had my back reclined and relaxing on his chest which felt like a giant soft cushion, although I could still easily move my head around and my arms were readily available so I could deal with what the dream was going to do.

A cross between strangely coloured objects and tessellations were appearing as a hologram in front of me. They would appear in a specific sequence which I was okay with at first because the sequence always repeated itself in the same order. This happened as I pointed in all directions, actually reciting and barking unconscious orders at the dream to keep these tessellations going in a specific way. At some stage during the tessellation sequence, the dream camera decided to zoom out and show 18-Volt from a side angle, so this confirmed that it was really him; it was also at an angle that the tiny me could be seen locked securely into him. 18-Volt didn’t move at all, he was static for the whole dream. After this, the camera mode went back to my vision.

It’s when an unusual, yellow tessellation appeared that my OCD started to kick in. Despite how cosy and at ease I felt by 18-Volt’s embrace, I just couldn’t stand the sight of that unusual yellow tessellation and so I started flailing my arms about in every single direction known to mankind. In fact, I was getting into more and more of a panic as the dream went on and now my whole body was on a rampage, physically stating my displeasure at the disorderly sight. Still, no matter how much I was fluttering about, 18-Volt didn’t react at all.

Eventually though, the tessellation went back to being a normal blue colour and pattern and then it didn’t even phase me anymore. I sunk back down into 18-Volt and the tessellations disappeared altogether. I now just leaned back in 18-Volt's arms, contemplating on life and after a few seconds, I woke up.



Dream Tasks
- Have Logan receive harsh penalties from Dreamy WB due to reckless social behaviours (Achieved? Partially)
- Have all members on the dream guide team obtain and apply knowledge on how to provide in-dream discipline to unruly parents (Achieved? No)

Challenges
- Start the dream off with Dreamy WB already present (Achieved? No)



Dream 412: Results (Competition #6)
Competition Night: 30
Lucid or Non-Lucid?: Non-Lucid
Dream Guide: 18-Volt (On Trial)
Emergency Team: None
Eligible For Competition Points: Yes



Points For This Entry: 1.0
Calculation Details:
- Full Non-Lucid Dream (1.0)

+ Previous Total: 142.5
Total Accumulated Points: 143.5

09-02-2918 -- Massively cool Doctor Who dream, at least in my mind as I woke up. Earlier bits stumbling around in a house, half asleep, barely able to walk because of a bad foot (from real life today), then I find myself in a sort of a cross between a space ship and a planet. The place is mostly metal, and a slightly odd mix of seeming both medevil and futuristic. The TARDIS is parked in a sort of a junction of blocked off corridors, and is within a slightly shimmering, but almost invisible bubble of some sort of force, so it looks like just the walls of the corridor, but if you walk up to them, you can pass right through them.

I am Andred, the place guard, played by Peter Davison, and the Doctor in this story is the 12th Doctor, Capaldi. I'm not traveling with the Doctor, I am simply on the planet he has landed on. He and his companions (who are never quite seen) are running through corridors trying to figure out what is going on, but I have seen this before, long ago, so I am kind of starting to remember things. Eventually the section of wall that is phased out, allowing passage, is starting to look like some sort of dark iron mask, and as things are becoming more intense, the only thing that is missing, are the glowing red eyes, but I know they are coming.

As I said, things are getting more intense, and one of the Doctor's companions has gone missing. He is trying to find them, and is half-listening at the iron mask, when the bad guy makes some sort of comments about the might of the Sycorax or some such thing, and the Doctor is commenting about how something isn't right here, and I know what it is. At this point of time, the Sycorax should be barely starting their evolution, and incredibly slow and stupid, without enough knowledge or interest to kidnap one of the Doctor's companions ... except that (remember, I've seen this episode before) because of traveling in the TARDIS for a while, they are all soaked in chroniton particles, and having one of them around will jump-start the species' evolution. I know that in a few minutes the Doctor will realize this, and will take the TARDIS back in time to rescue the companion before they manage to get a hold of her, and thereby keep them too stupid to think of kidnapping her in the first place.

But first he has to run around for a bit, and find the clues he needs, to tell him this, and in the meantime, I am just kind of wandering around with him. At one point, he finds a silent sort of weird guy he is trying to communicate with, who seems to look kind of like Chip (Cassandra's servant), but Chip pushes his way head-first through a small hole in the floor. The Doctor begins to follow him, and I'm looking at the small hole and thinking of my large size (mine, not Davison's) and am thinking 'there's no way.' But then I notice that the carpet is rather flexible in the area, and realize the hole is a lot bigger than it appears, but the carpet hides most of it, and I go head-first through, as well.

Dropping to the next level, the Doctor has already run off, and I find myself in a large set of rooms divided by walls here and there, but no doors, a sort of open floor plan. But around the edges of the area there are a lot of confusing, unmarked doors, leading to small corridors with more doors, and a fair amount of people running through them, and nobody is paying any attention to me at all. There is a sort of storage area, with boxes and crates on the ground, and people wandering through the 'aisles' picking out supplies and parts and tools, and there's a sort of lounge area with a bunch of chairs. I duck through one of the doors and through a couple of the small corridors and more doors, but things just keep opening out on even more corridors and rooms, so I head back to where I started, just to find everybody is gone.

So I keep looking around, and more people are arriving again, and in the lounge area, there is an odd sort of display called something like the Eye of Boh, where you sit in a seat and look through a sort of telescope, and your mind is being focused across the universe, to where you are staring into the eye of the provinence of Boh, and are kind of hypnotized. And the passage through the area sort of passes right through the viewing area, so people try to dodge around to avoid being caught in the line of sight, for fear of what might happen. And I see somebody that looks kind of familiar, and find myself asking 'Is that Emma Watson?' and I remember, 'Oh yeah, she did have a guest role in this episode, didn't she.'

She is somewhat young, probably 15 or 16, and looks a little bit different than usual, but still pretty recognizable, and she has taken a seat in the lounge area with a bunch of other fairly young people, and more are gathering all the time. I stumble, and fall back against a wall, and am hoping as I fall that it is a real wall, and I'm not going to knock down part of the set. It is real, and I don't collapse the set, but in the fall, I spot a camera man filming in a dark corridor, and am thinking to myself that the low lighting helps, and that the less observant viewers won't manage to see him in that scene, but the sharper ones will. (ie I am the camera, so his filming there will be caught on film.)

I make it back to my feet, and return to the lounge area, which is getting more and more crowded, and as the crowds grow, balloons are starting to pop -into- existence above them. They make almost no noise, and a barely audible over the industrial sounds of the area. It's also getting darker and darker, so there is less chance of people noticing them appearing, either. The balloons are all black and white, and oddly shaped, somewhat like a Mickey Mouse balloon, except they don't look at all cute, but rather creepy, and as the crowds grow ever larger, and more and more balloons appear, they start drifting down onto the people, where they cause great pain, and cause the people to start screaming and disappearing. I dive out of the way, and am dodging through the corridors again. This time other people are starting to notice me, and beginning to call out for me, and I'm starting to run from them. I find myself back in the shopping/storage area, but this time it is really crowded, and I am having to push my way through the crowds, and am hoping the Doctor hurries up and figures it out, so he can go back in time, and I can take the companions' place, since I am of this time and world, and don't have any chroniton particles to fuel their evolution. I'm ready to sacrifice myself for the team.

Sep 3 2018

Woke 3:35. In a fight with parents and grandpa about cooking or setting up something (possibly speed-reading). Daylight outside, long tables (possibly crawfish boil).

Woke 5:05. Long fragment in a stadium, receiving some sort of business presentation from coworker. After it's over, I'm picking up my laptop bag and I stand out of the way for a coworker and an unnamed DC, who say that they have a "merge request in the morning". The presenter (another coworker) is kicking us out.

Awoke directly from FA nightmare. My dog barked and I could tell instantly that it was serious, not just him barking at another dog. The door to the bedroom is thrown open and the midget from Twin Peaks season 3 entered with a small gun. He approached the bed, not looking directly at me or anyone, just at the wall behind us. He said something vague and I tried to lean up in bed asking something to the extent of "What do you want?". As I tried to move, and in some sense solve the problem, my vision blurred and the dream started to fade. He was wearing a blue shirt with the pattern of "I (heart) N Y" but the letters were "? (eye symbol) T Y" in white. The room's layout was completely realistic and accurate unlike other false awakenings. I woke up and said "holy shit" aloud. Very scary experience, but very vivid -- would have been invaluable if I could have gotten lucid and converted it.

Before that, I was in my childhood home, on the phone with my manager about something that needed to get done. The screen was black with red nubmbers and dial-screen graphics, and an orbiting globe outline. The call got dropped. I was worrying about this with my parents but they seemed to think it would all work out (it was nighttime). My sister was in my room on my computer, looking for the first book in a series my fiance is currently reading. I suggested that she can just read my fiance's copy rather than buy it herself. I end up also giving her a japanese manga volume and another poorly translated japanese book, I remember the engrish being hilarious in-dream. After this, I went to the kitchen (all of the lights were out). I was trying to write down my dreams in ink on the wood floors. In the back of my mind I knew this was a terrible idea and that my dad would be furious, but in the moment I wasn't worried about it. There were some drops of water on the floor and it was smearing the ink, so I started wiping it up, making the smearing even worse. I was also worried about cockroaches.

After the ink, I found myself in a distinct dream scene. I was on the ground looking up at the side of a cliff maybe 4 or 5 stories high. There was a good bit of dirt caked on and I thought to myself how nice it would look if I could get the dirt off. I grabbed a wedge-shaped piece of reddish slate and scraped as much dirt as I could off and stepped back, and noticed how nice the geometric patterns were. I remember the thought-phrase "cliff face". When I looked again, one of the rock formations sort of looked like a nose, and the one below looked like a mouth! When I started examining the rest of the cliff, the whole thing was taken up by face structures (abstract and Easter Islandish). The ground went from being solid dirt and rock, to having some cracks in which curved red boards were shoved and prying the cracks apart. In the cracks were green cylindrical vegetables (I thought of okra or fat asparagus stalks). As I moved forward towards the cliff, I noticed a mesh oyster bag of sea urchins, which were moving around each other in the bag, sort of like you expect spike balls to in a metroidvania or platformer. This was a really vivid and overall nice and creative dream that's simple but feels profoundly peaceful, the kind of nonlucid you generally want to have. So of course this scene transitioned directly to the nightmare FA.

I woke again at 8:59. My fiance was in trouble. We were in some sort of college sign-up, car buying, or other related scenario. There were DCs everywhere, and specifically several DCs with deep blue eyes and short hair meant her harm in an insidious way (they were outwardly friendly). I became more and more adversarial over the course of the dream, eventually hitting them and throwing things at them. We moved from the student union/indoor car lot into a side hallway which transitions to a long house with lots of corridors and small rooms arranged in pretty much a straight-shot, but almost labyrinthine at the same time. I was thinking somehow they were hypnotizing her, and she was getting more and more bruises on her arms and abdomen. Eventually I get in exaggerated physical fights with them and I somehow manage to get 2-4 of them to defect to my side as allies and stow her away under a sliding hole in the kitchen (sort of a drain hole in the floor, like you see in restaurant kitchens). She escaped succesfully.

I'm unknowingly in an FA but think I'm fully awake. I am having the "transparent eyelids" effect, and I'm looking around my bedroom at the closet door, but it's the wooden closet door from my childhood home. I'm etching a human face in it with my mind.

After this, I'm in my childhood home and members of my family as well as random DCs are dressed in "starship troopers armor" -- white and blue, and white and red. It was a long and in-depth dream, but I don't remember much of it. I finally escaped the fray and sat back on my bed, but then my father entered my room with his gun held high, and I remember thinking "oh good, you'll just be my bodyguard". When I thought this (non-lucidly), he changed his course of action from running forward to attack me to climbing in bed next to me with his rifle held out (think Fullmetal Jacket "This is my rifle"). I got up from bed* and started walking towards the hallway. Almost instantly I became lucid! I didn't say "I'm dreaming!" or do any RCs or stabilization unfortunately. I walked down the hallway towards the bathroom, and it was daylight outside, maybe early morning. I walked into the bathroom and looked at the mirror, seeing a girl in a dress instead of myself. In this moment, I started to think of the "bad guys" in the starship troopers armor and then banished the thought from my mind, knowing that if I thought of them I would encounter or summon them. So instead I took advantage of the situation -- although I was seeing the girl in the mirror, I felt my dream body as my own physical body. So I turned away from the mirror and decided that I would become the girl in the mirror. I turned back around and I was!

Spoiler for nudity:

My body had changed competely and I was naked. Naturally, I touched my arms and chest to test sensation (it was dull, sort of semi-numb as my dream body sensation usually is). I did a little twirl and

inspected my face further in the mirror -- my face was sort of ugly and homely**, and as mirrors in dreams usually do, my face shifted quite a bit. I leaned in further to inspect myself and kissed the mirror (it was cold). I then leaned back out and decided to try my "Clear sight. Clear sound. Clear touch. Grounded. Calm, confident. I can stay here as long as I want." stabilization phrase. However, as soon as touched my thumb and forefinger, I accidentally said "Clear mind" first! It rejected me from the dream instantly. As I began to feel my waking body, I realized my thumb and forefinger were touching here too; maybe this triggered the waking?

I laid awake for quite a while after that, as I had already slept more than usual for the night, and for the whole weekend basically. I was also still excited about the lucid and hoping to drop back into it. Eventually I went back to sleep and had some more non lucids. In the first, I was with my fiance in a rest area/cabin in the woods. In the next, I felt as though I dropped into the dream as a visualization from waking, but it's possible I was only visualizing from an FA. I was imagining tall waves, and how my body bobbed up and down in them. It felt incredibly nice and peaceful. I was at a beach, and my sister was standing on a board of some kind zipping up a life jacket. I think my fiance was bobbing up and down in the water too. When I looked at the shore, I couldn't quite see the sand but I could see tall buildings above the waves, which I identified to be my apartment buildings from WL. A distinct black shape was swimming towards me, and I thought it might be a shoe or a fish (I thought it could be a dangerous fish but dismissed the thought instantly). After another waking, I had a final dream of being in a wood panneled shop with an old woman who was offering the shop to me (inheritance?). Her wares were laid out on a long wooden table, which after looking away and looking back turned out to be a giant Knorr pasta packet. I believe this all happened in 3rd person.



*I think getting out of beds in nonlucids is a lucidity/awareness trigger -- will have to investigate how to encourage this).
**This is actually the second time I've transformed my body into a woman's in a mirror while lucid, but for some reason I always turn into butterfaces. Also not sure why I keep doing this. Why, lucid mind, why?

I woke up in the back of an SUV. I noticed there was another girl beside me, and I had no clue how either of us got there. I looked outside and noticed that it was early pre-dawn, the sun wasn't quite up yet but it was light enough to see and it was quite foggy. I could see the buildings of a big city very close, and wondered how in the world I got so far from home and in the position I was now in. I asked myself if I could see those building so clearly from my home town, and logically realized that no, I could not. Then I see that one of the buildings is actually upside down, it's hanging from the sky instead of rising up from the ground. I'm dreaming!

I open the SUV and disregard the other woman, she's just a dream character, and not in any danger. Looking around I am in the middle of a very busy city street, but not a big city with big buildings, a small city with only one and two story buildings. I decide that because I am finally lucid for the first time in months, I need to go find K. I start walking down the street to my right. I notice the people I am walking past all look like monsters, there's a girl with medusa hair, a ghost, and some zombies. I am not afraid though. I stand as straight as I can and picture myself in a fantasy game style tattered leather dress with a dagger by my side and light leather armor. I figure if everyone else looks like monsters I might as well look like a hero for my dream. A guy who looks like a young slender man waves at me and I politely say hello but keep walking towards what looks like a cinema.

Everyone else walking the direction I am is going in there, but I can hear screams coming from inside as I get closer. I know there is something scary in there, something so scary it is scaring even the monsters around me. I stop and consider if I should go in or not. If I encounter something scary, K might come save like he used to do for my nightmare. Then again, it's been a very long time since he's had to save me from a nightmare. He may not show up and I may scare myself awake. I decide not to risk cutting the lucid dream short and turn back towards the SUV.

I see a glass jar candle on a ledge and take the lid off from it. I start walking again, this time throwing the lid in the air and catching it so I can focus on something and not get caught up in the dream events surrounding me. After several tosses though, I realize I threw it too far forwards and I'm not going to catch it. My first instinct is to lunge forwards so I can catch it, but I stop myself because I feel like I can feel my body sleeping, and if make such a big exaggerated movement I think I might lunge out of my bed and wake myself up.

The lid hits the ground and rolls to the left,striking the bottom of a bar counter. My lucidity is slipping here because I don't realize it's odd for a bar to be outside instead of in a building. I start walking towards the bar with the intent to ask the bartender if she has seen K. She is really busy though, and I am recognize that there are at least 3 people shouting their orders at her or trying to get her attention and it's very unlikely she'll have time to talk to me.

I turn back to the street and keep walking. I pass the SUV, now walking towards the big city buildings, and see another less busy bar. This one has stairs behind it and a bridge that connects the bar to another building. The stairs are butted up against the bar and there are railings not walls, so I go half way up the stairs and wait for the bartender to walk towards the back of the bar. When he grabs some bottles from under the stairs I call out to him and ask, "Hey man, I'm looking for someone. Can you help me?" his response is very half assed and he's not really paying any attention to me, "Aren't we all? I'm busy." Undeterred I continue, "His name is K. Do you know him?" at the name, the bar tender's head shoots up and he looks at me startled. "What business do you have with K? Are you a younger woman? You're not very pretty." I'm annoyed, I'm not going to argue because I wouldn't consider myself attractive either. "No, I'm not pretty and I'm probably middle aged, but I need to find K. Do you know where he is?" The bar tender shakes his head, "It's none of my business." and starts to turn around. "Wait, I'll pay you!" I tell myself there's a pocket in the dress I am wearing with cash in it and so there is. I hold out first a $5 and a $10 and the bartender scoffs. I imagine the ten becoming a $20, and then the five becoming a $50. The bartender takes the money and tells me to look in the building across the bridge,in the dark hallway, the first door on my right. I thank him and go up the stairs and across the bridge.

I see a dark hallways to the left, not even inside the building yet, and think this must be it. A guy is walking out of the door on the right as I approach the hall. He has blood around his mouth and covering his arms up to the elbows and is wiping his mouth on his shirt. He jumps when he see's me, and takes a step backwards, "Who are you?" "I'm looking for K. is he in there?" "What do you want with him?" "My name is B, I've been looking for him." He opens the door, but doesn't let his guard down, watching me the entire time instead of actually turning his head in the direction of inside the room. "Yo K, there's some girl out here looking for you."

And I wake up for real this time -_-

Between 27-31 08 2018

It was a dream on a country house, it’s night, I want to drive a motorcycle, I wear the helmet and take my niece with me, she’s wearing my wife’s nightclothes. I sit and start driving across a country road. It starts raining and it’s hard to see in the dark. Driving becomes a hard task since the motorcycle behaves weird. Sometimes I feel like it’s a bicycle. We get to a shore, the landscape is awesome! It’s already day and I can see some weird animals in the water. I realize the feeling, I know it’s a dream. I tell my niece it’s a dream. I don’t care much about her after that. I get to sort of ruins, there are some old doors when I remember one of my lucid goals was to get into a corridor with doors on the sides to explore old memories. I get into the last door to find that corridor. It’s there and I get into the first door on the left, must be my oldest memory I think. I find a small room. There’s only a two floor bed with wet towels on it. There’s no more place to walk around, the room is the size of the bed. I see a stuffed animal hanging on the wall, it look like a fox in detective clothing or something like that. I see a second one . I wonder if I saw it as I was a little kid. I try to see more things in this room. I see some stickers which I remember but cannot tell where do I know them or if they are recent stuff. I try to pay attention on the fox until I start losing sensibility
I woke up then...

Between July-August 2018

1st one I was driving a car towards my grandparents town. I’m sitting next to a woman talking something about lucidity when I ask my self if it’s not a dream already, I realize the feeling! I jump out of the car and start walking to a purple building close to the road. I see a blue colored butterfly while walking there, I want to explore some but I start to lose sensibility of my legs dream fade out until I wake up.

2nd one was a couple of days after, it was after an anxious dream where I have to find sort of Bus station in the old city where I used to live. I’m walking on a street next to a river. The street is at a higher level, around 20 m high. I can see the river shore from above. I’m afraid to fall down when all of the sudden came the idea if it’s a dream! i realize the feeling, I decide to jump down. Nice fall. When I reach the ground, I notice I’ve changed my shape to a sort of mixture between a Gorilla and a Yeti. I see I have white hairs. I run four legged for a while, it’s nice to feel it again I was running that way until I woke up