nightmare

Hacked

I dreamed my Google account was hacked and I couldn't get into it. Then it turned into my OS that was hacked and I had messages from the Russians basically taunting me. Fuckers.

DreamLucidAwake

Once again I didn't daydream about anything in particular. I just wanted to become lucid. That may have influenced the last dream. It's also possible that I may have had spiders on my mind at one point.

Tunnel of Spiders

I'm really not sure how to describe this dreamscape. I guess it was sort of like a Colorado dessert with all of the giant rocks and crap. I was walking around the lower area of a mountain with Claire. We were walking along a set of railroad tracks for some time just talking about something. It was probably something important that I really wanted to know. Somewhere in this I either became lucid because of the conversation or because I remembered Claire is a dream guide.

The tracks led towards a tunnel that was blocked by some really tough spider webs. There was a small cave to our left with a huge brown spider standing in it. Not really huge, but it was like bigger than my foot. It just sat there watching our every move.

Claire pointed her sword at it and said, "Go kill it."
"What? Why?" I asked.
"Those webs won't disappear unless it dies." She said.
"Why do I have to do it though?" I asked her.
"Because you're dragonborn!" She yelled.
"There is no way I'm dealing with anymore dream spiders!" I shouted.

As I said this the spider from the cave behind me started running towards me. My danger sense alerted me and I started running from it. I kept running in circles as it kept trying to bite my ass. Claire nearly killed me a few times while trying to slash it with her sword. Eventually the spider did jump on me. I grabbed it and threw it on the ground before it could bite me. Claire then stabbed it with her sword repeatedly until the spider stopped twitching. I crawled onto the ground and curled into a ball.

"I hate spiders, I hate spiders, I hate spiders..." I kept repeating.
"Don't be such a baby." Claire said.
"It tried to eat me!" I screamed.
"Get off the ground already. We have a job to do." She ordered me.

As I got up, I heard a rumbling sound. I looked down the tracks and saw a train coming. The train slowed down until it stopped in front of the tunnel. Chris stuck his head out the window and waved to us. Apparently he was driving the train.

"All aboard!" Chris yelled to us.
"What's with the train?" I asked him.
"You want to make it through the tunnel alive don't you?" He asked me.

Claire climbed the ladder onto the top of the train and I followed her. Once I reached the top, the train blew its whistle and started moving again. As It moved towards the tunnel I saw hundreds and hundreds of those giant brown spiders along the tunnel ways.

"Oh F***..." I said staring at all of them.
"Don't worry, we'll be fine." Claire said trying to build my confidence.
"Nope, I'm out of here." I said walking back towards the caboose.

Claire grabbed my hand and pulled me back. She then forced me into a battle stance as the train went into the tunnel. Claire started charging her lightning magic in her one hand to create a light source. I could now see thousands of spiders swarming around the tunnel. A few of them tried jumping at Claire, but she slashed them with her sword. A few of them jumped at me and I just slapped them away. My heart was racing and I couldn't really think clearly out of fear. 10 or more of them soon surrounded me in my confusion. Claire then jumped between me and them and started defending me. Each time one tried to jump at me she would rush in and slash it with her sword.

"Calm down, I won't let anything bad happen to you." Claire told me.
"Okay." I said.

Seeing her slash spiders to pieces and saying that to me calmed me down some. I could still only punch and slap spiders though. I wasn't thinking about using any of my powers. Claire did a really awesome move with her lightning. She threw a ball of lightning at some spiders and it exploded into bunch of lightning bolts that killed many spiders.I looked at Claire and saw that she was getting exhausted. An extra big one snuck behind her an jumped at her. She turned around and tried to slash it, but she was too late. It held her down and started clawing at her (these spiders had claws).

This really angered me and I gave myself dragon hands. I gripped the spider's stomach with my claws and lifted it off of Claire. I ripped the spider's stomach open and threw it off of the train. Claires blood seemed to have attracted hundreds of other spiders who were previously docile. I tried to get Claire back up, but she could barely move. As the spiders moved closer I realized it was up to me to protect her this time.

I stood above Claire and created a shield of fire around us. It burned every spider that touched it, but they were starting to overpower it. I was really starting to struggle to keep the shield up. Claire then started to wake up a little.

"Release your fury..." She said.
"What?" I asked confused.
"Do it." She said before passing out again.

I really started to get angrier at this point and sort of understood what she meant. My whole body started glowing with a purple energy and my fire shield grew more poweful. I slowly let this power build up inside me. When it was full, I let out a powerful draconic roar and shot the flames out in both directions. I felt much more calm and relaxed after releasing my fury. Unfortunately this was a really long tunnel and there was another wave of spiders coming. I looked down at Claire to see how she was doing. She was more awake now and she took a drink of what looked like a healing potion. Her cuts started to heal and she sat up. She wasn't capable of standing anymore though, so I still had to fight alone.

I suddenly remembered Neji from Naruto using the 16 triagrams 128 palm thing on over a hundred spiders. I decided to mimic this with my fire element. I charged fire magic into my hands and got into the stance. All of the spiders started swarming in towards me. I rappidly hit all of them with my fire hands while circling around Claire. My main goal until we got out of the tunnel was to protect her. A bunch of them then jumped at me from all angles. I spun around and created a wave of fire in all directions to kill them. After all of this the train finally exited the tunnel. After getting a good distance away from the tunnel, Chris stopped the train.

I carried Claire on my back and climbed down the ladder. I walked to the front of the train to see what all of this trouble was worth. In the distance from the mountain I could see a bunch of floating islands. They were hidden in the clouds and had a bunch of dragons flying around them. I got too excited after this and woke up.

Flying Over Stormreach

A pretty short lucid dream (because I forgot most of it). I had just grown dragon wings and was flying above the ocean. I was flying towards Stormreach's harbor off in the distance. I flew over the city and was amazed by it. Some general guy then started yelling at me something about having to go one a mission with a bunch of other soldiers. I just ignored him and went looking for some friends to quest with instead. I flew over a gate and landed in a street. I saw a horse carriage running full speed down the street at some guy who wasn't paying attention. For some reason I recognized this guy as Colton/Coolb3rt. I jumped in and grabbed Colton. I used my shadow magic to turn both of us into shadows so that we would phase through the carriage. I know a lot more happened in this dream, but I just can't seem to remember.

A Lucid Contract

I was in a school like place called the "Lucid Academy". I most likely became lucid due to the name of the place. For the most part it looked like a normal highschool, but you would see kids practicing magic, summoning things, and flying all over the place. I was walking down the hall and talking to Chris about something before we bumped into some girl. She looked completely confused about everything that was happening.

"Where am I? What's happening here?" She asked.
"You're dreaming." I told her.
"I am?"
"This is the Lucid Academy." Chris told her.
"I don't want to lucid dream!" She yelled.
"What? Why wouldn't you want to lucid dream?" Chris asked.
"Because it's scary!" She said.
"Okay, let's get this straight. In a lucid dream you can do ANYTHING you want!" I said.
"Yeah, it's really fun." Chris said.

Chris then summoned a large piece of paper. He mentioned something about signing a "lucid contract" and training the girl. Oddly he wasn't going to sign it, but wanted me and the girl to sign it. He handed me the blank paper and a marker to sign. I handed it back to Chris and he examined it as if he was checking to see if it was legitimate. I watched the girl write her name on it. It was hard for me to read, but I think it was either Carly or Molly written on it. She handed it back to Chris and he examined it again.

"Alright, it's official! You will make her become lucid every night from now on." Chris said.
"Wait what?" I asked confused.
"Oh you didn't know?" Chris asked me.
There was a long pause before I asked the girl, "So are you lucid yet?"

She just sat there motionless wiith a blank expressionless stare. I waved my hand in front of her face to try to get her attention. With no response I could only assume she woke up or something.

"I don't do that everytime I wake up do I?" I asked Chris.

He laughed, but didn't give me a clear response. I spent the last minute of the dream trying to get the girl's attention.

End

Still nothing special to tell about my recall, and I still haven't had the first lucid dream of 2012. I'm going to crank up the effort by having more consistent tries on WILDs. Meanwhile, the last dream from 2009 to enter in this journal.

Fear of Bodybuilders
Date: December 27th, 2009
Lucid: No

I was walking in what I thought was Helsinki, but it looked more like my hometown to be honest. Towards me there were these two guys walking, who looked like bodybuilders. I could have just gone by either side of them, but no, given that I was walking right in the middle of the sidewalk, I was stubborn and wouldn't budge - I was going to walk right between them.

You obviously already know that it isn't gonna end well. The right-sided guy, who had a moustache, had a wide, evil grin on his face as he grabbed me. I was fearing for my life, but the rational side of my mind also knew, that there would be no reason to kill me.

They pushed me around a bit before seemingly letting me go. But no, you don't think I would just walk away? No, I fuckin' flipped my finger at them! The guys were enraged and that seemed all the good enough reason for them to kill me. So I started running for my life, trusting that I can at least that well against those guys.

There was some kind of construction site next to me. The bodybuilders didn't waste time on chasing me, instead they just went there, picked up some tools and shit and started throwing it at me. Some were near misses, but I did get away unharmed.

Later I was in home and still terrified. I was afraid that the bodybuilders could somehow follow me there.

2/15/2012
While doing the laundry, I find out the machine came with complementary detergent. I press the button to dispense it. I get one large and three small jugs of detergent.

A girl I haven't seem since elementary school whose name I like is in my English class.

My mom is sleep-talking something about being suicidal. It's kind of disturbing, but it's still just sleep talk. She sticks me with the dog for my vacation. It's a large white poodle that looks neglected (my mom hasn't actually got a dog).

I arrive at the hotel room with the dog and my bag. I just booked my flight for tomorrow after getting here, but there's something else I need to do. For some reason I need headphones, but the only ones I can find are broken. I'm sure I packed working headphones. I make a mess while I'm looking, pulling everything out of my bag, but I don't find them. All of my stuff is so unorganized. It really bothers me. I go out to see if I can find some new headphones to buy, but I don't find anything.

When I get back, my things have been moved and I find two other people in my room: a man and his mostly grown daughter. We talk about random things while I try to put my belongings in order. I tell them I am going to Hawaii and that I have a couple of friends that go to college there. They say "no way!" I try to tell them the name of the university my friends go to, but I can't remember it.

It occurs to me I forgot about the dog, and I don't see him anywhere. I find him in the bathroom. Apparently the hotel staff put him there while I was gone. The other two people in my room have a dog, too. My books got put on the shelves, which are collapsing, and my books are all mixed in with the hotel's books. Several stacks of books fall onto the floor. It really, really bugs me to see books in that condition, but I have too many things to deal with right now to fix it. There is so much extra stuff in this room that I can barely move. There is a set of coins on the table that I didn't put there. The hotel staff left a barrette and a bunch of other crap here (I can't tell if it's complementary, or they charge you if you take it- regardless, I don't want any of this junk). I'm trying to ditch the unnecessary Hawaiian shirts I packed and get my bag ready for the flight tomorrow. I haven't even gone through it and made sure I didn't leave a knife or something in there by accident, which I am always afraid of doing anytime I have to deal with airport security.

I wake up. Blah, what a nightmare, having so much to do and not enough time and everything got messier the more I tried to organize things. I have enough of that sort of stress with going to college. I could do without in my dreams

I fall back asleep.

I'm playing Minecraft. There's a skeleton glitching through the wall (in a corner). I was on the other side of that wall earlier. I try to kill the glitchy skeleton, but I destroy the wall instead. I quickly finish off the skeleton and try to rebuild the wall. I don't have enough stone or cobbles. I frantically look through what I do have, to see if I can find something to finish patching the wall with. I almost use coal ore blocks, but then I decide to use planks instead.

My memory of this part is so fuzzy now, but I know I was lucid. I realized I was dreaming, somehow. There was a guy in a red plaid shirt. I almost forgot it was a dream, walking past some wood tables and chairs, but I reminded myself that it is a dream. At the end, there is a girl with special powers. Everyone is, or wants to, hold her captive because they are afraid of her.

I think I woke up, but it may have been a false awakening. It feels like I'm in SP now. I'm lying on my back, unable to move. My body rotates (or, depending which way you look at things, the room rotates), and my legs end up going through the wall nest to my bed. My body keeps moving, and I end up going all the way through the wall.

I'm in a car. It's very vivid. I take a minute to admire the details: the feel of the seatbelt, the soft interior lining. Kiki (from Sluggy Freelance) is here. I get out of the car. It's parked in a parking lot with construction materials, on a bit of land mostly surrounded by a lake. I tell Kiki to come with me. She jumps out of the car and scrambles up my shoulder. Everything goes fuzzy.

I feel like I'm in SP again. There is a slight but uncomfortable pressure on my midsection.

Now I'm on a sort of rollercoaster. It's a track twisting all around a pole, over this shallow elongated pool of cheesy muckiness. I don't see a rollercoaster car that I am in, but I am going along the rollercoaster. It's like I'm pulling myself along the tracks. My point of view ought to be rotating as I'm going along this twisting track, but it doesn't. I get to the end of the twisty part of the track. Now it goes straight, but I've somehow ended up on the underside of the track. This isn't right.

After the weird track thing, I walk across a bridge. I'm walking down a corridor and see a kid with short platinum blond hair that has a bit that sticks up. He reminds me of Harry Potter. I turn left, walking in his direction. There's a door here, different from all the other doors along the corridor (this place feels like a dormitory). The one odd door looks like it could be sealed from the outside, like a vault. I open the door and look inside. A girl with long black hair is in there. They fear her because she is a summoner. She's my daughter? My alarm goes off.

I'm in an apartment quite high up. I look out of the window and I see a planet go past, it's in the sky and I panick. I go outside and there are loads of people looking up into the sky and they are just watching, I stand still for a moment and watch too. I see more planets come into our atmosphere, they come one at a time about every 5 minutes. All the planets look different, we all realise something is quite wrong about this and then the last planet comes. They now all circle earths atmosphere and we can see them all. I hear a man shout "the 12 moons have now come to a stand" I now think "ohh shit" and I now begin to run...I wonder where I can hide so I don't die but I can't think of anywhere!!!

Cay's Dreams

Dream 1
The lower end of my county, the more "rural" of the two, was now filled with lavish mansions. My cousin, a teacher and his wife, a bank teller had somehow moved into one of these. They only had enough furniture to fill the front few rooms. I slipped out at one point to explore a dilapidated turn-of-the-century hotel which exists nearby in real life. I ended up accidentally causing a cave-in somehow.

Dream 2 was a nightmare and rather personal.

Dream 3 gets +5 awesome points for cohesiveness and clarity, but I didn't get lucid.

It started with a limousine depositing myself, my two sisters and Azra outside of what seemed like a hotel, with black glass and a gilded awning. It was nasty out, and a flash of lightning and sudden downpour hurried us inside. The lobby was warm and well-lit, with a bubbling fountain and a black marble-topped desk from behind which a pretty young receptionist called out this greeting: "Reo! So glad to see you back!" Reo is a name a lot of dream characters have taken to calling me. I didn't recognize it, though, and I definitely hadn't been here before, so I was quite perplexed as I was ushered to a podium bearing a sign-in sheet and instructed to sigh for "Reo, party of four". An elevator door opened to the right of the podium and we filed in next to a bearded young operator in a stiff beige uniform. "Going up," he murmered in a thick accent as he pulled the lever.
The doors opened on a damp concrete hallway with a few flickering lights, one of which illuminated a metallic door at the end. A girl stood up out of a folding chair to guide us further. She wore a tight charcoal-colored jumpsuit with red accents. She had a round face, soft features and lots of curly flaxen hair. Her name was Crystal. Soon, we were all outfitted in similar jumpsuits and given what seemed to be Star Trek TOS phasers in black.
Behind the door we met the sixth member of our party, an android with a long, segmented tail and catlike face which spoke in an annoying series of "nya" sounds that Crystal could somehow understand.
It turned out to be a similar concept as my "Sacred Games" dream, where each stage is either a combat situation or a puzzle. The Sacred Games was fantasy-oriented, and this was futuristic, but that was about the only difference. We'd only gone through two stages, one a confrontation with those creepy soldier bots from Portal ("...Are you still there?") and the other a maze within which was a key to the exit, when I woke up.

Dream One: Dreamed of playing Mario Kart Wii with my little boy again. This time I was playing as Rosalina, the princess we had just unlocked yesterday through Super Mario Sunshine. There's a pattern here, my first dream of the night is usually about whatever I did before bed, lol.

Dream Two: The dream starts off with me sitting at home, knowing I was supposed to meet a friend so our kids could play. Problem is, this friend and I have been on the outs so I am really nervous, and want to cancel. Thankfully, there's no drama in dreams, at least not for me. My friend, Chas, shows up before i can call and cancel on her. I start to say the kids aren't feeling well, and she says that's ok, she left her daughter with a babysitter and just wants to hang out. She tells me to leave the kids with my husband, and We're going to go to a concert. I'm really uneasy about it, but I agree just because I feel guilty for being the one who stopped talking to her. I climb in her car and do a double take because the truth is my friend doesn't drive in waking life! But I don't over analyze it in my dream, so I don't realize once again that I am dreaming. We drive to a big building that I can only guess was a mall, the details are fuzzy because I had this dream about 4 hours before I woke up for the morning! We go inside, and there's a large lobby area with lots of young adults and teens, some looking as young as 14/15is and others looking as old as 27/28ish. They're all lounging around on the floor on giant pillows and in bean bag chairs. There are also blankets and things lying around, like they had been camping out there for a while, maybe even over night. We see an empty couch and start to go sit on it, but then my friend gets a text from some guy asking her to bring him his guitar strap. She texts him back saying she has the strap in her purse and she's already at the concert location, so he could find her when he got there, she'd probably be in the baby department. Then, instead of sitting down, she asks if I'd mind going to the baby department to look around with her. I agree, and say that'd be fun. We head to the baby department, but are only there for a moment before she gets another text. She says she needs to go meet the guy she's supposed to give the guitar strap to, and pulls the strap out. I note that it's black and red plaid. I Start to follow her, and we go down a set of stairs into another lobby, this time there are only two guys lounging in the lobby. I feel something hit my foot as I step down the stairs. I bend over to pick it up, and it's a copy of the newest Blue Exorcist Manga. I ask the guys lounging in the lobby if this is their copy or if it fell out of my bag, and one of the guys reaches in his oversized pocket and pulls out a copy of the same Manga. He says, "I got mine right here, so it must be yours. Good choice!" Then he makes a silly clicking sound and winks at me. I roll my eyes, but then notice Chas has left without me and I'm alone. I decide to back track to the first lobby and wait for her there because I think that's where the concert is supposed to be. I get there, and she's already waiting on me. She says she can't stay for the concert after all, but she'll take me home. We get back into her car, and once again I think, wait, she can't drive! That's when I woke up.

Dream Three: The third dream starts out in the toy store with my husband and kids. We're looking at bikes. I decide that since the kids are being good riding in the buggy, and Bikes are really more of my husbands interest, I'll go look at something else. I start walking towards the girly toys, when I overhear loud talking. I stop in an aisle and pick up a toy pretending to read the box and listen to the conversation. One woman is talking to another woman. The first woman says, "There's nothing physically wrong with this kid. We should let him go, he'll probably find his parents on his own." The second woman says, "He's got to be sick, look at his eyes! If we just let him wander off to find his parents he'll get the other kids in the store sick." the first woman says, "If he's sick, we're at risk of catching it by being near him. He's probably just one of those mentally challenged kids escaped from his teacher. I'm sure she's right around the corner and He'll stop thrashing about if we let him go and stop scaring him by keeping him trapped." The second woman sighs, and then agrees to just let the kid wander around the store on his own. I hear a clinking sound like a cage opening, then the women scream and start running. Scared by the scream, my first thought is to get my family out of the store because something bad is about to happen. I start walking quickly, almost running towards the bike section, but then out of no where this kid looking like a zombie steps out. I gasp because his eyes look white and cloudy, and he's even reaching out in front of him like a zombie would, moaning. I think oh crap, that one lady was right, this kid is sick, he's got the zombie virus! I start to run, and the zombie kid follows me, also running. I think to myself I didn't think zombies could run, but maybe because kids are so full of energy zombie kids can. Then I think that if I keep going this way the zombie will not only get me, but also my husband and kids. i stop running, and turn to leave the store. The zombie grabs me, but it doesn't try to bite me or anything, instead it just grabs my legs like my kids do when they're scared. I wonder to myself if this kid really is a zombie, because he's not trying to eat me, and his skin looks too normal to be a zombie. Then I have this sudden memory of a man named Luke who is a lycanthrope (yes, my dreams create memories, lol) and I decide that if anyone would know what this kid is and how to help him, Luke would. I reach down and pick the kid up, and he's incredibly light. I carry him out of the store, and turn left. I remember walking across the parking lot, but I know I must have walked farther because the scenery changed so fast. I'm standing in front of these two small cottage looking buildings, but they're probably each the size of a storage building. They have green siding and white lattice work. I walk up to the glass door that's broken into many different squares, but my hands are full carrying this kid, so I can't open the door. Instead I balance on one foot and kick the bottom of the door lightly. A tall tan guy with long dark hair and black clothes opens the door and steps aside. At this point I don't pay much attention to him because there's a desk in the center of the room, and sitting at that desk doing paper work of some kind is Luke. Luke is a short looking guy with thick, shaggy, dirty blond hair that covers his ears and keeps falling in his face. He looks up at me, and sort of shakes his head to get the hair away from his eyes and I see he has on a pair of reddish brown glasses as well. He says "Hello. What've you brought in today?" and I hand the kid over to him. I start to tell him what happened, but before I can finish the first syllable, the kid turns into a big fluffy white cat with matted fur. Luke grabs the cat by the scruff of the neck and moves it around a bit trying to get a good look at it, then he sets it on the desk, and proceeds to pet it while explaining to me, "This poor fellow has an unstable case of Lycanthropy. It can be fatal if contracted, but I think he's going to be ok. If he were to die, it would have been the first time he turned." I nod, but then the cat startles, and jumps off the desk and runs out the door I had forgotten to close. Worried that it would spread the unstable lycanthropy disease I chase after it out the door. I catch up to it, and pick it up, but it bites me and I drop it cursing in pain. It runs again. I make it to the street, and can't see it anywhere. I start crying, afraid that I'd fucked up royally. The dark haired man walks up behind me and puts a hand on my shoulder. Suddenly I remember his name is John. "It's ok, don't cry." he starts, "Luke wouldn't have wanted you to know, but that strain of lycanthropy is no longer contagious. It will only effect and possibly kill the first 1000 people in contact with it before the strain becomes so diluted that it can be destroyed by the bodies immune system." I look up at him through teary eyes and ask, "How many people have been in contact with it?" He moves the hand on my shoulder behind my back and pulls me into a side hug, "Luke estimates around 1,600. The last 600 people haven't even gotten sick or tired, there's nothing to worry about. You will be fine, and so will anyone else who comes in contact with it." I wipe my tears, relieved. Then I realize that if Luke and John knew so much about it, they had probably been aware of it before I even encountered it at the store. Before I can call them out on letting it hurt people without stopping it before the first thousand people caught it, I wake up.

Couple of crap days again. Let's delve into a nightmare classic. One of the last dreams of 2009 I'm gonna write here.

Vicious Attack
Date: December 6th, 2009
Lucid: No

I was in the edge of our fields, and there was also my brother and his girlfriend. Some airplane flew over as and it's engine sounded weird. Dad came at the edge of the field, next to the forest wall towards us.

Nearby, there was a relatively big barn. Under the barn's roof there was a space, from which you could see inside the barn. In that space there were couple of guys.

You could hear from the heights, how the plane turned steeply. Someone shouted "Woo!" from the plane. My dad kept walking closer, but the guys in the barn were shouting at him for come to there.

Dad noticed that they were calling him, but he didn't react to it, rather walking to us. The plane landed on our field. It was odd that it could land there so effortlessly so near us. The plane was white, and through it went blue stripes. It was very wide and the rudder was weird.

Out from the plane came an old, disgusting looking old bald guy and three of (presumably) his sons. Oldest of them were around 20, the two others a bit younger. All of them were at least slightly fat. My brother was doing his boxing defense poses in front of our dad, which made me expect something of an aggressive encounter.

The old guy started talking about some piece of metal, with what my brother had apparently hit one of his boys. It seemed though that he was just using that as an excuse revenge some grudges he had for our dad. He had a knife in his hand, and it wasn't like a small carving knife, but a big, mean-looking meat-cutting knife. The boys were armed as well, with many kinds of blunt weapons.

"Why do you even exist?" The old guy attacked at us verbally. He started spouting some shit about agricultural law, that didn't even make any sense. Basically he insisted, that we were worthless human beings. Apprently dad had not done some thing he should have done, according to the law. What the fuck?

"If someone has broken the law, then you call the police", I intervened, and my argument was perfectly sensible. "You can't take the law on your own hands. It would result in an anarchy."

But it obviously did no help. This dream had already decided to escalate all the way. Somehow I got hold of the guys knife, and I fuckin thrusted it to the old guys side! I aimed for non-lethal spots (there's no self-defence in Finnish law - you kill a guy and you go to jail). I guess I should have gone for the kill, as the guy only got more enraged. I guess I'd get too if I had a knife in my side.

"I'm gonna kill you!" He raged. But instead of attacking me, he moved towards my dad. Somehow he got another knife and slashed at my dad with it. He only hit his arm, but that got over my threshold of horror, so I woke up.

February 16, 2012

Synopsis: dream of work, everyone left for the day - I should just go home. Second dream, me and sis go to an old abandoned apartment building, but its cult inhabitants are still there

Leave Work!
I walk into the office and realize no ones here! The CEO, my manager, everyone is gone and only half the lights were on. Well, I'm still scheduled to work so I sit at my desk. This is weird.

I head over to the back, production side, and scope it out. It's a ghost town to. One shipping guy, one painter, and the production manager. I guess that makes the production manager the highest ranking employee, so we all gather around him.

And I pop the question "No ones here, can we go home?"

He seems to be thinking about this, all work and no play.

"We can leave at 3 or 3:30?"

He seemed okay with that compromise, and then I woke up.

Cult's Hideout
A few friends gave me and my sister the idea that we should hang out at this abandoned apartment building. Some how this building felt ancient, it had history. Kids would hang out here for its eerie feeling, tell stories, and get inspiration for movies.

So I brought my sketchbook and other art stuff with me. Me and sis squat down in the fancy hallway in front of a door. I wonder whats inside, maybe antiques? I try to open the door but its locked. That's strange, no one lives here so why is the door locked?

I peek through the door's crack into the room. A chair, a table. Suddenly a flash of blue brushes past my peeping gaze. There is someone in there! They push against the door as if trying to listen to me.

I scream-whisper "holy crap there is someone in there! Weve got to gooooooo!" I shoo sis and we try to sneak away as quietly as possible. But then they stepped out of their rooms and walked towards us aggressively.

We dash into the elevator and desperately try to close the door, but were so scared were smashing the wrong buttons. "Press this one!" Finally the elevator door closes and we head down one level.

Im too scared to see who's waiting for us in the next floor. I don't know who those people are, but their demeanor was enough to make me want to scream.

The door opens but we don't want to step off. The elevator had a giant window facing outdoors. A man climbs down a fire-escape right next to the elevator. At first he startled me and I thought he was one of them.

But using the fire-escape seemed like a good idea, so me and sis follow him. There was a beautiful roof garden on this level with round plushy bushes and a hot spring. Lots of people were here, all speaking in whispers.

Like me, they had come for the buildings history. But unlike me, they actually knew what that history was. I overhear to older men talk about the cult and its tragic demise. And they continue to explain how this dangerous cult carried on in secret.

I don't remember what happened, but me and sis go back inside. I think because it was a roof garden we had no choice. Sis leads the way, but she is totally flipping out, running around in a panic.

"Slow down! Where are we! Were gonna get lost!"

Somehow magically sis leads us right back to where we started. And theres my backpack right where I left it. But our friends are no where to be seen.

We hear voices further down the hall, our friends, and trailing behind them, the cult members who like insane enough to eat your flesh. This is ridiculous. I lead sis to a large pane glass window. I shift through the window and look back at sis who doesn't know how to do that. So I grab her hand and shift her through the window. And we fly away.

There are 2 of me in this dream. The one me who was me was the one who has to die ((sorry if this is confusing)) lol..and the other me existed but I never got to see that me in my dream!
I'm on my last day of being alive, I go to town with my Dad and I buy some strawberry laces ((the sweets)). We now go into a shop and I see some flower transfers on the wall, they are for sale, they are so pretty and glittery, I am attracted to the pale blue one and run my finger across it as I admire it. My Dad now notices a floral handbag, I say "that's really nice" he says "yes...you can try it on for your mom then. I put it over my shoulder and think "why would I need to try a bag on for her??!" and I think this is a bit weird.
I am now in the town and I'm on my own. I now see my Uncle M and he comes over to me, he is in a wheelchair and wearing a black ribbed hat. I speak to him and tell him what's going to happen to me, he is crying and hugs me and says "it'll all be over soon". I really don't want to die, I'm so scared and can't really understand why I have to.
I now meet my hubby and he takes me to a place where my coffin is. The mattress inside is made out of black leather. I now have to say my last goodbye to my hubby and then I get in my coffin and lie down on the mattress. It all cracks under me like it's rotten and it's all wet, dirty and horrible.
I now lie down and shut my eyes waiting for myself to die, I'm scared shitless because I don't want to and I want to live my life not the other me, but I have no choice. I know there are other dead people in coffins around me and I'm thinking about this as I lie here.
I suddenly hear my Pigeon gasp, I jump up out of my coffin and go and check on her and she is gasping for air. I notice she's not in her bowl now ((eh!!!??)) But she has tried to get out and is caught between the table and the lid of the bowl. I take the lid off the top of her and shout to my eldest ((who has suddenly appeared from nowhere lol)) "she needs water, quick!!" my eldest just stands there and does nothing and then a bowl of water appears in my hand, I give my Pigeon a drink and she is now better.
The Pigeon now begins to talk to me and she copies what we say. It's not time for my Pigeon to die yet, she has to wait untill I die. ((dream skip)).
Myself and my Hubby are at a cemetery, we are looking at a grave that has been newly dug and I realise it's for me . I say to a woman who is with us "no..wait!!!, we want to be buried together" she says "you can't now but maybe when your both dead we can put you together" I reluctantly say "ok then". I am so jealouse that my Hubby can stay alive but I have to die. I begin to wonder what it will feel like when I'm dead but the other me is still alive and I'm very, very confused.
((The feeling I had in this dream was bloody awfull, I can't explain it but it wasn't nice atall !!!!))

I was at school in some random classroom. We were receiving our exams apparently. I apparently got an English exam back. Someone was telling me that I had done really poorly, and for some reason Mrs. B. had taken it and marked it differently so that I ended up with 85%. I had expected to do better and was bawling my eyes out. I then explained to the two people (whom I cannot remember) that my meds were making me really emotional, which is why I was so sad at that moment.

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I was supposedly at the back of my current school. There was a massive field, but at the end was a river. Across the river was the back of my old school. I was with one of my classes, and we were by the river. I looked at my old school, and suddenly a garbage can near the back door of it burst into flames. We were all watching it now. We thought that the garbage can would go out since it wasn't that close to the door, but then the door suddenly started burning too. Then the whole school was up in flames.

I was confused as to how that had happened in the first place. Then, suddenly, I was thinking about how my school couldn't possibly ignite since it was all the way across a field and a river. Then I saw a single wandering spark fly away from the massive fire, all the way over the river and the field, and land ever so conveniently land on our back door and somehow light the whole school within a split second. Fear struck my heart; we were trapped and had no escape, especially with the speed at which the fire grew. Then it ended.

Last night, I had a dream about my old neighbors dog dying. Then my Mom stressed that our dog would die soon. (That's all I can remember though)

One night I went to bed very late Friday night knowing I didn't have school in the a.m. So I'm in my room all alone with my moms boy-friend in the other room watching tv. My bed was side ways in the middle of the room up against the wall.

I have the night light across the room and turn toward the night light then fall fast asleep. As soon as I'm asleep I start to feel very hot, like the heat is blowing right on my shoulder. In my dream I still think that I haven't fell asleep yet because I already have. As i stare at the night light already scared of the dark a little, the night light was a motivation not to be scared. Feeling the heat on me I try to move around to change positions away from the heated spot, but I cannot move, I get very scared. All of a sudden I hear laughing coming from the night light, then two small white bubbles come from the light. In no time the bubbles pop very loud and I see two very terrifying white demon heads laughing, they had no body only floating heads. One demon was sad but still laughing and the other head was grinning very wide laughing. As they floated very slowly to my bed a squirmed trying to yell, but it didnt work. There heads seemed like it could not be still kind of like a bobble head looking at each other and then back to me. It felt like they were agreeing with each other on a plan. the were bald and the heads were as big as a white soccer ball. There ears were thin and very high over there heads like a closed umbrella, and the nose was very long and hairy, and the eyes were a shining light, and the had no tongue or teeth, only gums. I finally managed to get on my back but was some how forced down, and as soon as they got really close to me they stopped and looked up, i closed my eyes hoping to dream back while they were still laughing like the sound of a 100 people in a audience. I took one peek away from the two white headed demons and looked up and at the head of my bed something black and red was standing over me. It looked like the nose of an ox which was breathing that heavy heat on me, and a horn coming out of its chin hairs. Before I saw the rest of the face closed my eyes before I scared myself to death. I shouted in my head let me go!! Then I started to say my prayers, Jesus if your real please help me and forgive me for my sins!! then I got cold and the nightlight went out. The pressure from the bed lifted back to normal and I woke up with the night light actually out!

My moms boy-friend don't come in my room for anything at all, it was only me and him in the house. I screamed and ran in the room where he was, and started crying pointing back to my room, There laughing at me!! He got up and turned my light on, telling me its ok and prayed with me. He asked me why dont you have the night light on, I didn't respond, I never had that dream again and always said my prayers at night.

I remember being in my room, and it was dark. If course, it was night outside and the only light was coming from my tv, and my dad was watching tv in the living room. Out of nowhere a snake starting slithering toward me, and I screamed. I think it was a corn snake from the size and color. I ran out the room where my dog and dad were. He was asking me what happened and I was jumping away from the snake at every which way but it kept getting under me, dancing around at my feet. I'm not usually scared of snakes, but this one particularly terrified me. I have no Idea why. I yelled at my dad to kill it, but instead, he dug a pencil- or was it a small knife- through my dog. He died, and the snake disapeared. I fell to my knees in shock, and then began crying, sobbing, yelling at my dad. And then I woke up. My dogs still alive

DREAM 1:

Me and other people try to escape from a hospital/school castle (kinda like Hogwarts). This castle is haunted by a evil old lady named Marry (She yelled "Awaken from harmless innocence to the sublime truth"; or something like that).

We are in the sewers of the castle, the warm water reaching our knees. We all are separated in multiple groups and all have some kind of boat. After a while I fell of the boat, and when I returned I observed it was actually a sleigh. I observed that sometimes everyone has a gun and sometimes no one has a gun, but I didn't become lucid... Also my boat kept modifying.

At the end of the "map" we had to jump from a plastic box to a crack in a wall. The plastic box wasn't attached to the ground so it was very unstable. 2 people jumped ahead of me. Then it was my boat comrade turn, but I put myself in front on him in terror of hearing the evil Marry resonating voice and jumped. The box being unstable collapsed, so did I. Marry was really close. I took the plastic box near the wall and jumped. Before Marry arrived in the chamber, the dream ended.

FRAGMENT 2:

There is a party in that castle I was talking about. But the castle now is colorful and bright. Outside people protested and some political rivalry took place. At the party was me and some friends I don't know. I'm trying to be funny, but I don't succeed.
Actually this fragment took place before the nightmarish dream.