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August 9th, 2014

I went to bed earlier this time and hade better luck with dreams. I had a few though i forget what order they happened in. Im super tired this morning and dont feel like writing down all the details.

+ I was at our neighborhood with by brother outside at night. We were in my front yard not doing much, and i was messing around with a multitool. My yard looked almost the same as it does now, it was a pretty accurate display. While i was messing around with the multitool an car was trying to pull into out driveway. I got out of the way and it pulled in. It had treads on the front tires. Later we took a roadtrip to another house and a lot of people were there. We were busy listening to a conversation for a while. Then we were told to leave and before we good i woke up.

+ one dream i was playing a zombie game on xbox at my friend jakes house and i got down in the game and had to go across the street to see that friend in a white house to tell him to revive my character. The other house was small and had clutter everywhere. I talked to them for a while.

+another time i was at a racetrack and tried gaining entry to a race so i walked down a entry road to the track to ask the track manager but he wouldn't talk to me, i saw the cars start and take off and one car stalled. I cant remember what cars exactly were there.

This dream was from yesterday morning, August 8th.

I'm in a small apartment with the drummer from Rage Against the Machine. He's cooking omelets. I'm thinking about what the band's politics likely mean about his beliefs when I become lucid.

I had a theory the previous night that talking to DCs would draw me into the dream and increase stability, and anyway I wanted to attempt the basic task of the month. So I turn to the drummer to ask him to tell me a word in a foreign language, and its meaning. Before I can ask, it becomes clear that he's morphing into my dad.

I don't worry about this too much. "Can you tell me a word in a foreign language?" I ask.

"Maybe," he says.

"Maybe?"

"Spelled m-i-g-h-t."

I either interpret this as a success or decide to give up. I must decide to try flying, because I hop and realize I float a bit on the way down. I start hopping higher and higher. My dad looks impressed. Finally I get airborne and am flying around the small apartment. I make a tight loop. It's pretty fun.

I decide to go looking for other DCs and try to fly through the wall. My eyes are closed before I reach it and I feel this "bonk" feeling, like I slammed right into it. This drops me into something like the void. I try to use Xanous's gladis trick but I'm having trouble controlling my body.

What comes next is either a real or a false awakening. Everything looks black, but I see a small triangle of light that looks like the aperture at the bottom of my sleep mask. I try to lift it with my hand, but I don't think it changes. This probably means I'm still dreaming, but at any rate I decide to settle in for a DEILD.

The next I remember, I'm having a false awakening where I'm journalling the dream I described above. However, I get all the details wrong (i.e. it's not the drummer from Rage Against the Machine, but rather the guitarist) and I have to keep crossing them out. The dream evolves in typical non-lucid fashion from there.

Color legend: Non-dream Dream Lucid

It was night, I was walking on a street near some grocery stores and electronics as I wanted to spend some of the money I had when I began to realize most if not all stores were unavailable and that the lights were all off. The strange thing about it though was that 1 of the doors were open so I decided to enter it but quickly realize no one was inside. I left the building and continue walking on the sidewalk when suddenly I heard someone yelled zombie apocalypse and once I turn around a zombie was nibbling all over my hand and crutching my fingers. My reaction when I saw this instantly made me become lucid, I quickly said I should've never watch that movie as it brought me in this situation. That's when a FA happen which made me lost lucidity. Another dream happens where I wake up and was searching for my dream journal to write it down but could not find it. However I forgot about it when I realize my flight plane was coming up again so I could meet up with my parents. I was about to miss it so I hurry up but was stop by two guys who seem like they wanted to ask me a couple of questions. They ask me if I had an electronic I responded yes and show them this blue handheld that I didn't recognize too well. The two guys began talking about different type of handhelds and which were better. That's when I began quickly packing my stuff in a case, they notice that I was in a hurry and ask if I was leaving. I told them yes I had to get on a plane and that's when I realize I was forgetting my brother. I ran and quickly left the unknown hotel to where I found Father room out in the open of a road. I open the door and saw a woman dress like a soldier watching tv, I told her she had to get going and if she could help me find my brother. That's when I notice a machine gun in her hands so I approach her slowly trying to show that I was not a threat and needed her insistence on this. She agreed as we continue to leave the room where now the road change in to the living room. I saw my brother and told him we had to hurry as we're about to miss our only flight left for today. But before I could continue to set my intentions on running I woke up.



I wake up in another dream where I quickly realize I was poison as I heard some person in my head telling me all the people who got in contact at that area will die. My Father came in the room and I could hardly move, I try to yell his name but my voice was so weak. I tried yelling for a couple more times but he couldn't hear me as when I would yell it would come out as a whisper. My Father then left as the poison was feeling stronger, I began panicking and force myself to get up and had a very difficult time walking. I manage to get to the bathroom and saw my face. Everything was wobbling so I open the door in to the living room where I saw these two old women. I told them I needed help and to get me to a hospital however the two old women didn't do anything and one began laughing saying that's my life 24/7 so atleast you get to feel how it is now. This anger me so I began running with ease toward them and began choking the one that laugh about me dying telling her if I'm as good as dead then you're coming with me. But before I could finish her I fell down as the poison was too overwhelming , I began crawling on the ground till I didn't have enough energy to do that. I pass out and woke up. Lucidity Time 2 seconds

I'm going to bed now - shamefully neglected to journal my two dreams up to now. Anyway - I made recordings of the hypnosis intro and the recall and lucidity chapters and wake up all separately and guess, I'll go with listening to it for the remaining nights.

I made some sparse comments on tape - this is what is left:

Dream #1: Following the plot-line - sort of - and having characters of 'The Wire', an HBO series - drug dealers in Baltimore and police, politics and press, I'm politics... We're through now, watching it - and besides that somebody going "yo nigger" turned up in my TOTM basic "repeat day", I didn't dream of it, even while watching it at bedtime, half on my husband's pleadings - often kept me off doing LD stuff.

Dream #2: Same sort of thing, in a way - and a rare thing that I dream of posting - but seems from what I dictated that I debated something with somebody on my atheism thread - details? Sorry, not any more...

My dream recall last night was pretty fragmented, but I remember being lucid. I'll get the non-lucid fragments out of the way first:

I am visited by an American comedian I like, he gets bored quickly so I take him to this crappy takeaway place. I queue up to pay for the food, and the cashier makes things unnecessarily complicated. While waiting for the cashier to sort things out, I meet an old school friend in the queue, and we complain about living in the town we grew up in.

I am resting on a couch. A magpie flies around the room and rests on my head.

A plane crashes into the sea near China. A group of Asian kids (Japanese? Korean? Not sure about nationality) survive and are separated from their families, and have to start new lives in China. I watch a BBC documentary about how they are mistreated in Chinese schools.

Here is the lucid dream:

I am being marched down a dark underground corridor by one of the managers from work. She is okay in real life, but in this dream she seems evil, like a concentration camp guard. I don't know where this corridor leads, but once I turn lucid, she stops moving and seems to freeze. I turn and try to talk to her, but she seems utterly still, like a mannequin. It's like she has become catatonic. The only movement is her eyes that look at me and follow me as I try to get her to react.

At first I just do the normal things, like say her name loudly, clap my hands in front of her face, gently pat her on the cheek. I get no response. She's like a shop dummy.

Then I slap her ass. I thought that might get a response, but still nothing. I had to have been lucid at this point, because there's no way I would have done that if I wasn't 100% certain I was dreaming.

I leave her and head back the other way up the corridor, looking for something fun to do.

I must have either woken up or lapsed into a non-lucid after this, because I remember nothing else.

Date: 08 Aug

Pre bed: 1/2 cup soy milk, 350 mg arginine (combo)

Wbtb: 1/2 latte, felt discomfort due heat which made it harder to concentrate. I tried doing 1-2 ssild cycles to relax, but mostly gave up due discomfort.

WILD: First was a transitional stage of me in bed and my body rotating, as I was trying to figure out which hands I'm moving. Kind of blurry memory here.

This later switches to another scene in parents' old bedroom where I appear feeling rather floaty and unstablish. In front of me are wooden shelves, so I run my hands on the surfaces multiple times to anchor myself. At the same time a glass case catches my attention, where I can see my reflection - averagely normal with something weird lurking behind. As I turn around to see what it is I am faced by my own doppelgänger and she is somewhat aggressive. She throws herself on the ground initially in some sort of a unexplainable act. Then approaches menacingly but I put her on hold - at an arm's distance with my mind.

As I manage my own reactions she calms down and now I decide to look at her more closely and make some manipulations. What if I were taller and she is now much taller. I examine her with curiousity but still have a bit of an after feel of aggression so decide to make sure she is harmless. I give the overly tall DC a hug around the waist and watch as she changes features to a different DC.

Then, I see the door behind her and feel like doing some tking. I look at it in order to will it open but the dream slips away. Back to my body and still for a DEILD

DEILD: I appear on the balcony, the one that looks over to neighbors. Quite excited about being here as this brings memories of past non-lds. There is a guy that pushes me ahead (as to move further, him being quite active) as I examine the neighbors' balcony. The dream is rather unstable at this point but I'm glad to have a companion and cross over to the other balcony where there is some sort of mattress, thinking both of us can sit here for a bit and plan the dream.

Forgot the exact words now, but told him something like "let's talk about adventures" or so and was waiting for him to sit. He disappears in the kitchen (neighbors) but then is back again, wearing the same red t-shirt as I make a mental note (resembles somewhat Michael Cassidy).

My voice is barely coming out as I say the adventure sentence and I wonder if it would count if I ask him about the basic task telepathically. But how is he going to answer? Too complicated and I decide to go with normal speech, struggle to speak but finally ask him.

His reply is "Woof" which sounds as if he is barking.

Me: "Woof?", are you sure?

He: Uhum. (as in yes)

Me: Ok, then. So what does that mean?

He: Hoof.

I ask for confirmation and he gives me another uhum. Oh well. The dream soon falls apart. I'm not feeling quite in shape to deild so let it go at this point and after a brief ld review go to sleep.

Non-memorable dreams, something vivid that forgot and then.

LD: I am near this familiar building. Something clicks and I recognize this as place of older dreams. There was a false memory or thought about the place too. I get inside and decide to experiment with door summons to see where they lead. I open a door - there are two DCs coming out of something that looks like a sparsely furnished bathroom. I don't quite like it, so close the door and wait a bit till it changes to try again.

In the meantime, more DCs appear around me and one of them makes aggressive moves towards me. After an initial super strength outburst, which comes out like some sort of a force push, I decide to chill out and try to calm them down while taking a moment to examine my inner state. I'm still slightly apprehensive of them, so try to control my own reactions and feel more at ease. From the tense situation I work on my indifference, relaxing more and at some point I start walking around freely and making funny zen moves (but not the Xanous move alas!). Don't remember when but at some point the dream ends.


Lucid FA: I wake up at home, the room looking very realistic and bf is walking around. I decide to play a bit stupid and ask him if I'm dreaming couple of times as if I've lost my mind and can't tell that this is reality. He reacts almost normally but I am still unconvinced. There's something in his reaction that is a bit off. "Hey, am I dreaming?", I continue shouting as he vanishes behind the corner. A female DC with a dark red cardigan comes in and then there is no more doubt. I feel a bit euphoric about being able to catch this fa as it felt like quite the thing I would have missed.

Contrary to other times when I have entered the other room, it now turns to a different place altogether. At first I don't catch the clues, but after more examination of the classical wooden furniture, it clicks how this place can indeed be the interior of Howl's castle.

Without any intention from my side, I notice that there is a fireplace to the side and the fire is as real as it gets. It dawns on me after seeing it that it is calficer. I approach the dream fire with astonishment for it is one of the most beautiful things I've ever seen. It's not just a regular fire - there is so much light in it, it shines like a little star, while at the same time being surrounded by flames. I feel almost mesmerized by the sight of it and am so happy to have it in the dream.

Spontaneously, I place my hands around the fire and try to absorb some of its heat and energy. As my hands get closer to the little fire, there is slight tension as in heat related sensation but insignificant to dwell on. In the meantime, the fire gets smaller and smaller as if this process is really draining it. I don't want to do away with it altogether so stop whatever it is I'm doing. The thought crosses my mind that I have spent way too long playing around and risk not completing the task because of that.

I face the room and see that the girl is here again. Now she has a pony tail, blue top and and slightly disturbing facial hair. As I approach her, her face clears a bit and I ask her couple of times if she is Sophie, to which she replies yes.
Perfect, now all I need is a door.

There's a small door on the wall that I open, but it turns more into a small window, plus I need to turn the color dial wheel first. I face the other wall where there is a white door and look to see if there is a dial next to it - there isn't. I recall couple of techniques I thought of using in such case, but instinctively pick another one. Bf's DC is just nearby so I ask him to hand me a dial wheel to put next to the door.

He gives me a round knob-like white object that I place next to the door, cover with my hands and start spinning, until the second layer of it starts to reveal multiple colors. Initially it stops on blue, then it moves to orange. I feel like I want to pick a particular color but am not quite sure which one. I rotate it to yellow, remarking to myself this is taking way too much time. Curious whether the outside will be the same as what can be seen through the nearby window (garden), I think it's high time to stop messing with the wheel dial and open the door.

But it's too late - the dream abruptly ends and I find myself in bed, moving my hand and feels like I've lost the opportunity to go back and complete the task.

three very wee non lucid fragments from last night

1.) Rang through a sale on the till and a fifty pound note fell out.

2.) Standing in the garden watching a record number of House Sparrows.

3.) Watching the TV and the male narrator saying 'So of course it now looks like the asteroid will be hitting the earth soon.'

Hoping for a guid one the nite!

Sensei's Competition night #12

NON-DREAM DREAM LUCID

I find myself in a room, it is pretty dark but there's not much to see anyways. I can make out an old table with a wooden chair next to it. I don't know where I am and do a nose RC. I become lucid..
I look arround and try to stabilize by running my hands together, I take a few steps but the dream abruptly ends and I wake up.

The next scene is in a forest. The light shines through the leaves and everything is dimly lit. I am calm
and walk arround. It seems like I have a destination but I don't remember where I wanted to go. I remember I was just doing SSILD and do a nose RC. Again dreaming.
I instantly remember my master plan but get too excited and wake up.
(I thought I was past that phase)

I am on walking through some
streets where I live. Again not knowing where I was planning to go.
I decide to walk on the street and notice the lack of cars. I do a nose RC and become lucid..
I remember to ground myself and drop on the floor, I scrub over the ground with my hands, and demand
clarity. The world turns from
kinda sharp to super HD and I am baffled by how realistic everything looks (that was by the far the most realistic dream experience ever!).
II look arround and everything looks like it's supposed to look. I notice that not only my vision is really clear, but also I really feel my body in the dream and feel the wind blowing past me. (I think I woke up then, but I might also have lost lucidity or even lost my memory of what happened then. I think I remember reaching behind me to summon Cobb but that could be a false memory)

08-07-14 I am at work so just putting highlights down. This DILD was very very long, perhaps 30 minutes, and very vivid.

I am now able to control the actions of upto 3 DCs simply by intent (each as an individual). I have been using this for sexual exploration. Why would I need three sexy woman at one time in a dream? I don't know, just because it is a dream and a little more of a challenge.

After lot's of fooling around the amount of DCs increased and they all seemed to be going somewhere. I followed them into a building and they were gathering in a large room. I became highly suspcious that I was walkig in on some sort of astral area outside of my mind and that acting up would be foolish. I suspected most of these DCs were entities.

I had little intrest in what was going on after walking around and observing, so I explored the building until I came to a great sun room with a glass wall and ceiling. I decided to try to pass through the glass, but to focus on not having the wall distort and pull across me like a curtain. I levitated up onto a reclining postion, back down and feet first. I passed out through the wall and then reappeared inside to try it again. Both times worked very well and there was no sense of the wall making any kind of contact with me.

The only other really intresting thing was that later I was flying around the city and decided to land in a fish pond and try to pick up a large koi fish, just as an odd exercise. As soon as I got into the pond I could viidly smell a foul swampy fish odor and decided to do anything else. Normally I do not have a good sense of smell in LDs.

I was in a big enclosed public space like a mall and needed to use the restroom. I found the ladies' room, which was a relatively large one with around nine stalls in a single row. I found a stall that was clean and was about to go inside when another woman barged right ahead of me. The next stall I checked had an unflushed toilet, as well as the one after that, and the third one was clean but had no toilet seat. I decided to use it anyway. I stepped into the stall and then remembered, "Wait... aren't dirty public restrooms one of my dream signs? This one isn't particularly dirty but still, I'd better RC." I counted my fingers and saw nothing unusual, then focused on the sensation of gravity and it also felt completely normal.

I remembered the time that I had failed an RC under similar circumstances and decided I'd better make extra sure. So I focused on levitating, really putting a lot of effort into it, but my feet remained firmly stuck to the ground and even the sensation of gravity or my bodily awareness did not alter or feel any more dream-like. So that was how I knew I was awake... until some time later, when I actually woke up, and wondered how the RC could have failed so completely. The gravity RC is usually very reliable, and even on the rare occasions that I don't levitate promptly, I'll notice that gravity or my body don't "feel" right. On this occasion the illusion was perfect!

I want to record more detail for this particular dream because it was so much fun and I want to remember it . I was traveling from Los Angeles to somewhere in Europe by air. I was with my family and an old friend. There weren't many other passengers on board but we didn't seem to mind. After traveling for maybe 12 hours, we were almost there. We were flying over some mountains. The trees were lush with leaves or pine needles, the grass was green, and there was no snow on the ground. I looked out the window and noticed that we were super low to the ground. A wing hit a tree and the plane made a crash landing in a small valley. The plane caught on fire and the cabin began to fill with smoke. I felt my way to the nearest door, opened it, and began working to help as many people get out as I could. When I couldn't see anybody else I ran far away from the plane. Blast doors came down, completely encompassing the body of the plane. I heard a loud, "Boom", the blast doors contained the explosion. The doors opened back up and about 10 people ran out, coughing. I thought to myself, how the hell are they alive. The fire slowly died down and it was getting dark, so I decided it was time that we set up a temporary shelter near the plane. It was chaos, most people were just wandering around. I saw my old buddy and he was completely out of it, he looked like he had taken some serious prescription drugs. He pulled out a gun, pointed it in my face, called me a monster in heavily slurred speech, and shot at me. He missed so I charged him and took his gun away. I told him, "What the hell are you doing? You're out of your damn mind, we need these bullets for hunting not killing each other".

It was now dark, we had a fire set up, and there were no wounded miraculously. I was going through our inventory when I saw a digital camera. I thought, "awesome we can start fires with this". I turned around and this girl was standing behind me, taking pictures of me with her own camera. She showed me the picture and was sad that it was all black with barely an outline of me. I could barely see her because it was so dark, so I took a picture of her. I looked at the picture and she was completely naked. My buddy was nearby, acting crazy still. I went over to bring him a blanket, he still seemed so fucked up. He grabbed me by the shirt, pulled me close, and yelled in my face, "I Neeed some WEED". We had a huge supply of it in our inventory so I gave him some. He took some papers out of his pocket, deftly rolled a joint with one hand, put it in his mouth, lit it with his finger, took a deep inhalation, then laid back all relaxed as he exhaled. I couldn't go very far from the camp before it got too dark to see but I still tried to scout a basic perimeter of our immediate area. I saw a giant fox and I was going to shoot it but one of the survivors decided that the fox was now his/her pet. I said, "fine, but when we run on food your giant fox will be dinner".

The sun eventually rose and I could finally see what was going on around us. We split into a couple different groups. The first group was going to further loot the plane and try to set up a more permanent shelter nearby. The second group, which I was in, was going to further split into groups of two to explore the surrounding terrain for food and water. My partner was a really cute Asian girl (different from the naked one that took a picture of me). She had a bow and arrows with her luggage. After a lot of talking and walking around, we ran into the other girl and they started to fight over me. The girl that had taken a picture of me was hurt and she started to verbally rip me apart. I didn't mind. I said to them, "please don't fight, we really don't need dissension right now". The picture girl left and we continued exploring until we found a small lake that was connected to a stream. We reported back the great news, a stream for fresh water and a lake for potential fishing. I knew that there would likely be some line and hooks in the survival equipment from the plane. The lake was really pretty too.



Back at the camp some older gentleman had decided that he was in charge, but he wasn't discussing his decisions with the group and he was giving out way too much food. I told him that we needed to ration our supplies and focus on building our camp and finding more sources of food. He didn't agree. The giant fox came over to me and rubbed up against my leg like cats do, too cute. I woke up.

Some other dreams-

1:

My brother was going to a concert with his girlfriend but she didn't want me to go so I didn't. They got back and he was 30 years younger, he looked my age, and he was sad that I didn't go with him.

2:

I was at a party when I somehow chipped my tooth, I asked a girl if it looked bad. Her face said it was awful. I picked up a giant piece of tooth and was sad.

3:

I was hanging out with Jon Stewart. We were making each other laugh, was a lot of fun. He eventually left and my sister decided it was time to throw a huge party. I didn't feel like it but dozens of people showed up. ~_~ I recognized one of the guys there, he was an actor from the 80's.

4:

This was actually a series of dreams but it was kind of the same dream over and over. There was a nuclear bomb somewhere in the city that was about to go off and I had to run as far away from it as I could while guessing where it was. The bomb would eventually go off, my skin would melt, then the dream would reset. I couldn't win, no matter where I'd go the bomb was always nearby. For some reason it was kind of fun though. A very morbid, twisted dream game.

5:

I was driving a car, quite fast and quite poorly. I eventually got into an accident and all these kids started to burn alive. I was semi-lucid and I knew that it didn't matter so I ignored them and began running towards my destination, Chicago. I was on top of a large hill and I could see the city shining below. This homeless guy walked up to me and we started talking (he was John Witherspoon). I fully realized I was dreaming and thought to myself, damnit, right when I'm about to wake up. I woke up.

6:

This was a very long dream but I don't feel like typing it all out ^^. I was hanging out with some friends, we were driving somewhere. We stopped at a gas station and I started talking to these girls that were there. They liked me and thought I was charming. They asked to hang out with us, fine. When we got in the car they were really into one of my friends that usually doesn't do that well with the ladies. Then he went in the front seat with one of them (the one that I thought was really cute). The other girl started to kiss my ear and my neck, felt good. We made out for awhile, she was a really good kisser. We eventually came to our destination. I started making out with the other girl that I thought was really cute. She was such a bad kisser that I became lucid from it. I walked around and tried to think of something to do then woke up.

7:

I was getting frustrated that I hadn't had any good lucid dreams so I decided it was time to try to WILD. The dream started in complete blackness, I formed an image or rather a photograph of these cliffsides and a red bird. After a lot of concentrating I eventually jumped into the picture and everything became very vivid. I looked around and it looked like I was in some canyons in Utah. Looked just like this.



Woke up almost immediately. Oh well! Plenty more nights for fun lucid adventures ^^

1.
I was in a big airport which mainly had a color scheme of white. I was sitting down at a table, and had gotten on my laptop. I went to DreamViews and then went to IRC chat. Ophelia was on, and she had pinged me. We started talking about how I was a gamer(im really not) and how I was trying to raise 999$ for my gamer fund. Ophelia told me she was going to give me 10 dollars for this fund, but didn't tell me how I was going to get it.
I logged off of IRC and DreamViews and got off of my laptop entirely. Im not sure what happened to my laptop after this- it didn't show up again. I got out of my seat at the table I was sitting at and looked around. "How is Ophelia going to give me 10$?" Just then, a girl came from behind me and handed me 10 dollars. "This is from Ophelia", she said. This girl was beautiful, and she had light blonde hair and blue eyes. She was about my height and I could tell she was not from here. "Thanks", I said, "Who are you?". She told me her name and we started talking.
After 5 minutes of talking, and getting to see her personality, I fell in love. The feelings were mutual for her. I got to learn more about her and where she was from. She said she was from some country that I had never heard of before, yet she had no accent at all and looked american. She told me about how she had 3 twin sisters(didn't realize this was going to be a problem later on).
Im not sure how, but I remember asking her out. She accepted. We held hands and started walking around the airport, just talking. As we walked, I told her, "You look so beautiful today." She told me, "Thanks, but I only look good today because of my make up." "I'm sure you still look amazing without make up, even on your worst days." I said. I thought to myself, If she looks flawless with make up on, I know she's still pretty underneath it all. Out of the blue, a black guy walked past us and told me that I had a beautiful girl, I told him, "Thanks, I know man."
We continued walking slowly around the place. Soon, the airport around us turned into a mall. I noticed that we were now walking across a long open hallway, and some other dudes my age were following us. I looked behind us, and decided not to worry about them. However, these guys became a problem. They started hitting on my girl and I was about to beat the shit out of all of them, but Raven(Im going to call her that because its the closest to what I can remember, its not her actual name though) kept me cool and acted friendly towards the other guys.
There were 5 guys next to us, and 3 of them were douche-bags. The other 2 were a little younger than the rest, but they were chill. I told Raven I was going to deal with the cock-sucking trio, and she said she was going to go talk to the 2 chill guys while I did so. She left to go talk to them, and now I was alone with the trio.
"You got a pretty girlfriend man, I just might have to take her." said the white dude. "You even touch her, and Im going to beat all of your asses", I said. Then there was silence out of the 3 guys, no reply. I looked over to see what Raven doing, and she was giving a kiss to each one of the chill guys, but it was a friendly-greeting kiss, like the type french people do, so I wasn't worried about it. After Raven told the 2 chill guys, "bye", we continued on our walk. The other 3 dudes that were douche-bags, kind of just left on their own.
We walked to the other side of the hallway across from us and Raven saw a store she wanted to look in. It was some kind of girl clothing store of course. I waited outside, but I didn't stand at the entrance the entire time, I walked around. After about 10-15 minutes of walking around the mall, I bumped into my mom. I asked her if she had seen Raven, and she said she was still in the same store, but now all of her sisters had come inside too.
I wanted to see what her sisters looked like, so started making my way back to the store. When I finally made it, I looked inside and saw 4 girls that looked pretty much identical. The only way I could tell which one was Raven, was by the clothes she was wearing, and I'm assuming her personality as well. All of her 3 sisters looked alike. Each one had a few different facial features, and maybe a little more weight, but thats about it.
Raven told me to meet her at her house later. I had her number so it was all good. I left the mall and started walking home(lol i have no idea why I started walking, its a REALLY far walk, and plus I have a car so wtf). It was still sunny outside as I started my journey, and I knew now it would be a long walk. I started walking along the side of a long road, which was more black than most roads so it must have been newer. As I was walking, I noticed a car coming towards me. As it got closer to me it started slowing down. I could tell whoever was in it wanted to talk to me or something.
As the car stopped in front of me I went to the window of the passenger seat. The window rolled down and in the passenger seat, I saw the black guy that had told me that Raven was beautiful and that I had a good girl. He talked to me about her and told me about how he was going to get her(why does everyone want Raven?!?). I responded back to him negatively, something along the lines of, "No you're not". He got angry and called me some names, some of which I had never heard before. His mom was driving the car and he had some siblings in the back. His mom didn't care a single bit about what was going on. What a nice parent.
The black dude rolled up his window and his mom drove off. His family seemed rather zombie-like because they didn't say anything or do anything. They just sat there looking around. I continued walking to Raven's house and after a long time I finally made it. Her entire neighborhood looked like some town out of Italy. It had Italian architecture and everything. Somehow I knew where her house was and knocked on the door. Her mom answered and let me in. The house was about average size. I walked into the living room where Raven and all of her sisters were, and I also saw a friend of mine, Codi, a girl I knew. I stood in the living room and talked to Raven's family and stuff for a while.
This is were I forgot alot of things. The next thing I remember was being in the mall parkinglot again with my dad, but it was the same dream. My dad told me to go down into an alley and look for someone, I forgot who. I had to walk along the shoulder of a highway exit ramp to get to this alley. Oddly enough, there were no cars driving on the highway, it was all dead. As I walked down into the alley, I thought to myself, "Am I dreaming? Nah this is all too vivid." (wow, the 4th time this has happened, really gotta learn to look around when I ask myself that." I continued down in the alley and came across a really small concrete room, made out of complete concrete. The door was the only thing that wasn't concrete. I decided I would go inside of it to see if the person I was looking for was in there.
I tried opening the door, but it was locked. Fortunately, there was a big enough hole in the wall next to the door that I could fit into so I could climb inside. It was like a huge chunk of the wall had fallen off. I started crawling inside, but I barely fit into this hole. I looked inside and saw no one there, but yet I kept on crawling to get inside(lol). Once I finally made it in, I just stood there and looked around. "Wow this is a really small place." It was just an empty room. I started climbing back out, and almost got stuck in the very middle of the hole. I made it out, and noticed that there was a small kitten on the ground, trying to get into this concrete room.
I picked up the kitten and unlocked the door to the same room(wow why couldn't I have done that earlier). The door know was jammed a little but I eventually got it open. I put the kitten inside, but left the door open so it could come out whenever it wanted. After this I went back up to where my dad was. He brought me back into the mall again, and told me that grandma and grandpa wanted to take me to the mall and spend time with me(wow thats great!). He dropped me off along with my sister and we went inside. Once we saw our grandparents we went up to them. We ended up just walking around the mall, and it was getting close to night time now.
After a while of looking around, the mall started to close. Store lights and mall lights started shutting down. I remember walking past some huge hallway where the lights had just turned off, and it interested me for some reason. We walked back to where we had came in from and waited for my dad to come and pick me and my sister up. I sat down in a seat next to a wall and texted Raven. I asked her what she was doing, but she didn't reply(This dream was so vivid, that I thought to myself, "wow, this is the first girlfriend I've had in a while." and it actually has been a while lol). I sat there waiting for my parents still.
Out of no where, an asian dude from a previous dream showed up. He told me that I was rude on "the van ride"(once again, an earlier dream) and told me how I should act, but in a chill way. I started laughing really hard over his imitation of what I had said on the van ride. He then went on his way and as he did, I noticed my mom and dad sitting right next to me. We had been sitting down for 5 minutes, and I wondered why we were waiting on nothing. I asked my parents, "What are we waiting on? Everyone's here so we can leave." With that we all got up and walked out of the mall.
Sure enough, outside it was nighttime now. We walked into the parking lot and starting looking for my dad's truck. As I walked into the parking lot I heard a loud plane flying over us, most likely a commercial airliner. I looked up into the sky and saw the dark clouds above us. The sky was really dark but there was still a faint deep blue hue visible in it. At this point, my awareness came to me, and I thought to myself, "Is this a dream right now? Nah, its too vivid to be one."(5th time that has happened). I looked back down and started looking for my dad's truck. It wasn't here, his truck was gone. "Dad where is your truck?", I asked. He said something about how he didn't trust leaving it in the parking lot and so he got a rental truck for now.
The rental truck was ALOT smaller and older. I think it was a Ford. It was pretty old, and the paint job was faded and chipping off. It was also a little rusted around the body. I remember an old lady appearing with us, and we had picked her up to come with us. She also got in the truck with us as well. I fought with my sister about who was going to sit in the middle seat, and my mom told us to stop arguing and to just get in. I got inside the truck and my dad started driving. The dream then ended.

2. I was near some gas station next to a building. Alot of students had gotten inside of this van as well, and the van had a red orange paint job. It was almost full inside too, and the driver didn't want anyone getting out of the van until we got to where we were supposed to go. Just then, my friend Darius got out of the van, he told the driver to wait on him while he went to go get something.
The driver pulled out of his parking space, and started driving away. Darius ran after the van but it didn't matter because he couldn't get inside because the door was locked. I sat tight and just watched because I was squeezed in the middle between a few other people.
There was alot more to this dream, but not having recorded it earlier, I forgot most of it.

3. I was on the outside of some police station, talking to a police officer. He was teaching me something about safety or something and was demonstrating it to me. Later, I had went inside with a friend of mine, and we turned into these small little creatures. I do not know what type of creature or animal we were, just that we were small, naked, and hairless. It was weird.
Something had went wrong inside of the building and me and my friend decided to leave by jumping into these small portals, just fit for us. I ran and jumped inside of a brown portal. As I got in, I noticed it looked like a chocolate malt shake being mixed around. My friend told me it looked like someone had just dropped an entire load of diarrhea and was flushing the toilet. With that idea now in my head, I held my nose just in case what my friend said was true, even though it was just the inside of a portal.
My friend also had told me that the portal I had went into was around 1,000 years old. We were both in portals, but yet still able to talk to each other. I don't remember where the portal led to.

Non Dream
Dream
Lucid

Lucid #6 (DILD)

I'm with a blond girl in an apartment building. This dream is pretty vivid, I think. Dream? Oh, I'm dreaming! I decide to make out with the girl for a bit before I remember my dream goal and stop. I put my hand behind my back and call for some clothes. Whoops! Wrong thing. I'm handed a large blanket. I put it down and explain to the old man who gave it to me that I meant I wanted an animal costume. He says he has a lion costume someplace. I follow him around for a bit before I wake up.

Unfortunately, I only have some brief fragments from my dreams last night. I guess it is still good practice for recall though. None of these dreams were lucid. It might have had something to do with my girlfriend having a movie on tv while we fell asleep. I noticed I wasn’t able to hold my concentration well, even though I did fall asleep quickly. Would you all say that is a common symptom?

3 weeks(ND)

I remember being in a secret clubhouse-like structure, and putting my personal belongings into a safe. The safe used a key code and needed a fob-like object to open it. I remember accidentally putting my phone inside the safe with my other belongings and closing the door. When I realized what I had done, I tried to get it out. The code would work, but when I put the fob up against the door, it displayed a message saying that the safe was no longer working correctly. I don’t remember if the message said that a technician would be dispatched, or if a replacement part would arrive, but I do remember it stating that it would take 3 weeks to work. I freaked out at the prospect of not having my phone for 3 weeks, and walked outside to a party my parents were throwing at their house to complain about it to them. No one seems sympathetic about the ordeal, and the rest of the dream is forgotten. This is the second time that I’ve had a dream that occurs near my parent’s house, could this be a dream sign? Or is it a common occurrence in people’s dreams?

Secret Tree(ND)

I walked outside with my grandma to her front yard, where it was winter outside with snow on the ground. She said she had something for me, and we walked to a tree that had all the snow cleared from around it. When we approached the front of the tree, I noticed a small door carved into it, about half-way up, that had a lock built into the door itself. She used a key to open it up and gave me several items. This is where the dream turns from cryptic and cool… to just plain strange… gotta love dreams The only item I remember was a gift card for $30.00 which I took and promptly went to a sushi restaurant. I went inside and couldn’t decide what to order, but asked about a certain appetizer composed of many different items, kind of like a sampler. Only half of the items were actually sushi though, the others were strange things, like one object that resembled a hamburger patty. The chef moved the items around on the tray to show me what came with different options.





I do have a question for you all, do you think that the clearer moments of non-lucid dreams are from when we are more aware, and present the greatest opportunity for lucidity? Or are they only the moments that we recall when we wake up? If they are the former, that would explain why working on your recall helps to achieve lucidity, as you are working on awareness throughout the dream.

Dream - Lucid

I was in a grocery store with many other people. Two people had been let in that wanted to murder us, an older guy and a younger girl. One person had already gotten pretty much killed; his head was being held on only by this full body cast. I knew that once that was gone, his head would fall off. I "remembered" it as if it had happened before. I was being pursued by the girl, probably of about 18-20 or so. She was skinny and had her blonde hair pulled up into a ponytail. I was on the ground in one of the aisles, and she was trying to stab me with this sharp, yellow crystal. I kept avoiding it and was trying to fight her off. I think I may have gotten hit a couple of times, but I can't remember for sure. I was yelling for help quite a bit, hoping someone would hear me.

Eventually, I fought her off. I got the crystal from her hands, so now, she had no means to kill me with. We were both standing up now, facing one another. I remember looking at her face and she just had this evil smile. I also noticed she was wearing some sort of uniform; I remember dark red being one of the colors in it. We somehow got her and the guy out of there. I remember speaking with the guy whose head was beheaded and being kept alive.

Later, we locked the front glass doors. We were standing by them, and I saw the two murderers standing outside, trying to get in. I was talking to someone, telling them NOT to let those people in no matter what. They would try to coerce their way in. They'd try to play on their pity. But they were NOT good people and would kill us. I knew the girl would come back after me. I thought about her getting another crystal. I believe the guy fought with a crystal as well.

I remember at one point seeing the guy who got beheaded without his body cast. His head slid off his body, or almost did.

I then was in a garage somewhere. I saw Dallas in the doorway, and realized, out of the blue, that I was dreaming. I said
"Dallas! This is a dream!"
He had started to speak to me during my exclamation. I wasn't sure if he had heard me. He then said something about it being a dream, so I knew he had.
I went up to him, and felt the dream was going to end soon; it felt a bit unstable. I examined my hands, focusing on their detail, and it worked for a little bit. I was standing with him and started to remove my clothes, when everything around me gained a faint white aura.

I then woke up.

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I was at the skating rink I used to frequent in my youth. The rink was much smaller than I remember; they had re-done it so it now it was much more cramped, and you could barely skate on it if there were too many people. There were many people there, mostly kids. I looked at the rink from the side area and thought about how cramped it looked, and that it wouldn't be nearly as much fun now that it was like this. I'm pretty sure I had skates on. I remember seeing some of the employees that patrolled the rink, skating around on the crowded rink with the kids, guiding them over hurdles and such. There were just too many people. I wanted to skate freely, not cramped up with a zillion little kids. I also had a point where I wondered if I was too old to be there. I felt kind of weird being one of the oldest people there.

I was there at some point before the rink opened. I wondered if I could skate even though it was closed. There was no one there at least, so I'd have it all to myself.

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I was dreaming something this morning when my husband was about to leave for work. He was stroking my shoulder IWL, and I kept falling in and out of sleep. I finally woke up so he could tell me goodbye and that he'd see me later.

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I know I dreamed way more than this last night, and I told myself I'd remember, but alas.

Though I am happy for the lucidity I've been having lately, even if it's just brief. I have been lucid WAY more lately than I have in a very long time, dare I saw ever. Usually I'm lucid on average once per week when I'm focused on it. I've been lucid every other night just about. It's been a huge change of pace. I'm happy for it. Hoping it continues. I guess I just need to keep doing what I'm doing, meditate more regularly, and use more intention.