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This dream was pretty close to real life, aside from some minor discrepancies. Not much out of the ordinary here.
I went to a new house to babysit my little cousin for the day. My grandpa gave me the tour of the house, which was still being worked on. This relates to my aunt's new house in real life, but the house in the dream did not look the same (one of the discrepancies I mentioned). Throughout the day, it was mainly just me following and playing with my cousin, or watching those educational cartoons with her. At one point, I ended up spending the night there, though my memory as to why is pretty hazy. I also walked in on my girlfriend watching a strange TV program based on Bioshock Infinite??!
There WAS a moment where I thought 'am I dreaming?' and performed a reality check, BUT...I'm pretty sure I was too close to being awake for this to work, so it didn't count. Still, that's progress if it was my dream self thinking that and not my waking self.

Me and my sister walk up to this houses doorstep I've never seen before, it's night out and kind of dark purple and orange in the sky. I smack the door instead of knocking or ringing the bell and instantly my cousin answers and lets us in. We go to the table and sit down. I realize it's a party and we're late and she gives me a bag of chocolates and I look to see what they are, a kiss filled with almond, a kiss filled with peanut butter, and a kiss filled with peppermint-bark, and eat the peanut butter one and instantly become nauseous. Then I get up to walk it off and when I return my cousin has my chocolates, and I become irate, but realize they made me sick so I grow to not care. Then I walk out the front door to get fresh air and I wake up.

Me my mom and my sister have just arrived at my grandparents house. It's nice daylight outside, my grandma tells us that she's had us over because she wanted me to do something. When we get into the house, my two cousin are there, I see one of them dressed completely like me, I think to myself "what a copy cat" but proceed to sit down on the couch and wait for my grandma. Everyone is opening wrapped presents as if an extension from Christmas. After everyone is done I think to myself oh yeah I didn't open one and then I see it on the coffee table and pick it up to open. I notice how it's beautiful matte paper with floral wallpaper like designs. I open it and it's and empty folding picture frame with strange hole placements for people faces of pictures. I tell my grandma thank you and them put it down and proceed to go outside for work, then I see my cousin with many more objects identical to my owning and I become distracted at why is he so blatantly copying me, and now he's beatboxing, So when his dad tries to pride him he asks me if I can do it and I beatbox some things he's never heard and they got quiet, I feel a little pleased with myself And I begin to try to get as far away from him lest he receive anymore information of any kind that might prompt him to imitate.

1. Traveling with my cousins (to dragoncon?) We stopped at a hotel with wierd phones everywhere. My aunt called and asked which one of us pooped on her couch, and we said it must have been the dog. o-e

2. My family was beginning a journey, and we stopped at same aunt's house for supplies. I wanted to take their rootbeer, but they wouldn't let me.

Only a fragment:

Exiting a rollercoaster at a crowded theme park. A girl with an annoying voice was complaining about how she didn't understand the ride. Someone who looked a lot like one of my college professors offered to give a tour of the rollercoaster. I saw my sister and cousin, and waved to them to join. The tour guide said there was no room for them, so I got angry and we walked away. He looked sad. :P

I recently lost my cousin, due to reasons.

Anyways, the other night he was in my dreams. It was weird. He walked over to my Mum and gave her a hug. I turned to her and asked "isn't he dead?" I knew full well he was, it wasn't like I was dreaming that he was alive but more so that his spirit was here. He then looked over at me and smiled, embracing me in a tight hug, he whispered in my ear, "Hey little cousin, how are you?" It felt so real, before I could respond I woke up. I was so confused.

Last night I had another dream with him in it. I was in my bedroom when my phone lit up, his name flashing on the screen, I again said, "isn't he dead?" I answered the phone and started having a full conversation with him, just about everything! Like memories that we shared. I even asked him "how's life on the other side?" when he heard the question he just chuckled and said it was good. He then had to go so we ended the phone call and then I got a message from him saying "Stay Strong".

I knew full well why he was saying "Stay Strong" due to reasons. It's like he knows.

I had a dream where I was able to use one of the tips given to me from here. All I remember from the dream I had last night are flashes of memory but I remember the dream I had while napping today.

It started where I was hanging around this house that was made up of small buildings. I went in one building to have sex with this guy. I was laying down on a mattress on the floor and these wasps would fly around above me then land on me. I freaked out and smacked it off then noticed another. The guy got up to do something and I started concentrating on putting the blanket over my face before a wasp landed then crushed it without feeling like I was going to get harmed. After a bit, the guy laid back down then noticed my concentration with watching the wasps. Before I pulled the blanket up he grabbed it kept me from pulling it up, making me freak out. I explained why I had to do that when a wasp landed on my shoulder. I was freaking out, smacking it off. He laughed and after we had sex he left. I was reluctant to get up. I had an odd feeling. Thats when I noticed the wasp head was still on my shoulder. I had to pull it off and noticed it was hard to do that, like it was holding on. I noticed another and pulled it off too. Then I noticed a snail on my other shoulder. It was latched on, sucking my blood. I pulled it off but its head separated from its body and I had to pull it off too. I reluctantly got up then looked in a full mirror. I saw them all over my body, there were too many to count. I freaked out and started pulling them off one by one until I started to wake up. I stayed asleep however, and the dream reset.

My fiancées mom was visiting and she, some other person, and I were walking down the street over to the building where my dad worked and my fiancée was waiting for us, when I started to insult her. I kept saying one horrible thing after the other and she glared daggers at me. I knew she was getting very angry but I couldn't stop myself. She tried to hit me but I kept dodging. She got frustrated and ran up ahead then jumped in a car. I became amused and jumped out the way when she tried to run me over. She kept turning back around and coming at me again, but I kept jumping out of the way. I stayed amused the entire time, a smile on my face. It got to where she was coming at me too fast for me to jump away so quickly, when she came close enough, I kicked off from the hood of the car and did a flip over top and landed behind it. I did this a couple times before I ran to the house that we were heading too and escaped behind the fence. I was standing in the yard when I realized I shouldn't have been able to do this in real life, and that this area didn't exist in real life, and figured out I was dreaming. I tried to do some sideways flips around the yard as practice (I find it hard to do things that I wouldn't be able to do in real life by lucid means) and, of course, found it hard to do the flips. I kept telling myself that this was a dream and I can do whatever I want in my dreams, and it helped a little, but I decided that I had had enough practice for now and that it was time to get back to the dream. I went inside and upstairs to find my dad working. My finance was telling me how downstairs there was a metal workshop that I would like. I went down and into the room and was amazed by all the machines. The workshop manager saw me and I remembered that you weren't supposed to enter workshops without safety goggles and a hat so I went outside the door. The manager followed me and I apologized. He asked what a girl was doing in there and I told him how I loved building things with metal and how I had taken 5 years of Ag classes in high school. He was impressed and said he would set up an interview. I got excited and told my fiancée. He was happy and we went back upstairs.

We went into the chapel section and sat while people gathered around us, my family was sitting on the row behind us. My cousin was getting married to his boyfriend (he was gay in my dream even though he's married to a woman in real life) My fiancée threw a piece of paper under the row in front of us and I said loudly "How the f*** am I supposed to reach that??" I looked around and noticed people staring at me so I said "excuse my language" and people moved on. After the wedding I went back out to the main part and noticed my dad was gone. Someone told me that the business had shut down and I got upset because I had wanted to work here and was sad my dad was out of a job. I got a trash bag and started gathering things I found. I got a couple of crutches and found my brother looking out the window at my newly married cousin and his husband playing a DS. I asked what was wrong and he said that my cousin had taken his game and wouldn't give it back. The guy next to my brother had a contraption that allowed him to access game consoles, so he accessed my brothers and turned it off. My cousin left with it and I went after him with every intention of getting it back for my brother. I went outside to find the door my cousin used to get back inside, and along the way I picked up some long 2x4s that had broken off of the fence when my fiancées mom tried to ram her way inside. I picked up some more things that I can't remember until I found my cousin in his room in the living quarters. I peeked inside and saw him sleeping, the DS in his pocket. I was making a plan on how to get it back when his husband found me and woke my cousin up. He asked what I was doing and I told him. He laughed and said he would give me back the DS if I gave him something from my trash bag and held something of his. I held out my hand and he dropped a round, ripped in half, rubber thing in my hand. I noticed it was slimy then figured out it was his broken in half, used condom. I threw it and asked him why the crap would he make he hold that. He laughed and took out all 5 of the crutches from my bag and I asked if I could at least have one in case I needed it in the future. He let me have one and I put it back in. He looked at my 2x4s but didn't want them. He gave me the DS back and I was making my way to my brother when I woke up.

This nap lasted 2 hours. I fell asleep for another hour but didn't dream any that time.

Isn't it funny how after I had a lucid dream I had two nights without anything?

Welp, now I had another.

Oh, mind...

It started off with me in Africa with some cousins (We don't have any cousins in Africa, weirdness..). We were walking around a market and bought a watermelon then went on our way. I remember carrying two slices out of five. We came along a mud puddle and we jumped in it. For no reason.

*Memory blindness*

We then came to an intersection. To the left was a slight hill leading back to the marketplace, the front and back were a dirt road. On the left there was a small forest that ended a couple yards ahead. The sky was mostly cloudy, with some patches gray. It was raining.
We met with some guy who was chubby, short, white, and had glasses. Everyone started talking to him except for me, my brother, and my younger cousin. He looked to be about 6 by the way.

I started thinking about this trip. And how the airline ride went. Then I realized; there was no airline trip. I thought I just might have forgotten it, but then I did thought about doing a RC. Then my aunt said "Oh no, I can breathe, its a dream! We're not real!"
I did and RC for myself, and I could breathe! I started thinking about all this stuff I wanted to do, and the task of the month and all.

My mind, kind of got overwhelmed. I could feel it too, that anxiety of wanting to do things. The sky started flashing different colors. I started to remember the DV podcast, then I remembered the "Making out with the ground" trick.
Welp.
I layed down and started, uh, making out with the ground. I will admit, it took my mind off dreaming, I guess because you can't see anything, just dirt. Plus your preoccupied with thinking it'll work. The sky stopped flashing, and everyone looked like they didn't know a thing.

I figured I would go to France. No particular reason. I just haven't gone there before. I then tried to teleport but instead my mind brought up a map of the world. I punched France with my fist, and it took me too another map with a map of France. I popped Paris and it made me turn right. It all seemed like a really badly made video game, but it seemed to do the trick. I walked out, and I could see the Eiffel tower! I was a long ways away though, so I tried to teleport again.

But as we all know, for me, teleporting twice is a death sentence.

My eyes in real life quickly opened, then I realised what I'd done and tried to fall asleep again.

ly it didn't work.

1.

Length: ~1 hour
Type: Non-lucid


I was riding a boat with a whole ton of people. I can't remember whether they were in my family or not. But I knew that my Aunt Susan, my brother, and my cousin were there with me. So I sort of guessed we were in the same family. We were going to ride boats, and I started to say "I call the front seat". Because everyone knows its the best on a small boat. Surprisingly, no one argued. We got down and I got in a boat with... my cousin, my aunt, and my brother.

We rode out first and started doing some loops around a island just offshore waiting for the others. Then they came out. It was like 7 boats packed to the teeth with people. My aunt said "Wow, that many of us...". My aunt then got out and said "Well, you don't have to worry about me, I'm walkin'"
That did seem like her, always wanting to walk instead of being transported by other means, but it was strange, because I didn't even know you could walk this path.

Now that's strange in waking life because I had knowledge of a path I'd never taken in waking life, but I knew about it in a dream.
I feel like I'm learning new things about dreaming every night.

Anyways, she hopped out and I took the controls, then I blasted away and the others followed me.

Then, I woke up.

2.

Length: ~20 minutes
Type: Non-lucid

I opened a shop selling souvenir pictures from my trip to Alaska. I was at home flipping through channels on my favorite red couch (favorite couches never chance, even in dreams). Then my brother walked up to me and offered me some money for the shop. I hesitated, then sold him it.

After this, I can't recall what happened, but I do know that I eventually got it back and he was madder than hell at me. Which isn't that weird in waking life.

All that stuff gives me and excuse to not have done a reality check. No dream sign, realism (I was even thinking of setting up that "shop" in real life at Eugene's Saturday market!).

Anyways... go along now.

Legend: Dream, Semi-Lucid , Lucid

Sleeping:
I'm in a room , my cousins mother is there, it's about 3:00 in the dream, we're talking about something and trying to fall asleep at the same time. I don't remember much else.

7th construction:
I'm playing the character of Zero ( from code geass) and i'm checking progress of construction on something called the 7th. As i watch, i see a worker placing a self down somewhere and i ask jeremiah ( another character from the anime) if that self was supposed to be placed there. He then gets mad at me for doubting his ability to build. Next thing i know, i'm inside a room and i throw up two times, something had me sick xD.
Also while i'm in that room , i remember being in third person and viewing a lake of blood with jeremiah in his spinning mech outside coming to attack me.

Showers:
A dream with showers in it. I remember being in my house, i really need to take a shower , but there's lots of strangers in our showers. I decide to go down the hall and use a different bathroom but there's people in that too. Darn!.

The mysterious skulls:
In this dream, i remember being on a foreign planet digging up piles of skulls with a team of 3-5 people. We eventually find what we're looking for. It's a skull with magical powers, but it's only one of many different skulls out there that are unique like this, and each skull has a different power. I also remember in this dream, having my car parked in the middle of a road.

Back in history class, with no teacher in charge, the dream is just beginning.

The sun is out and shining, but there is hardly anyone around. I'm seated somewhere in the classroom and remember looking up at the board. This scene has got to be my dream sign! There was no teacher around, so I wasn't sure what to do. I do remember walking outside for a while but there is like almost nothing I can recall.

The dream began changing places. I was now standing next to the ocean, right next to a Minecraft biome. There was spruce trees but I found no snow around. At the time, I was asking for someone's help, a moderator's help. Their name was Netsui. I sent them a message but accidentely wrote out, "/hoe", somewhere in the sentence. I apologized after, even when I felt that Netsui was useless as a moderator(most of their staff really don't know what's going on in the server, they help keep taking great stuff out from the game itself too).

I later entered a scene where I found many friends and strangers. I also had vivid thoughts about some of their pasts. This area looked a lot like docks, but it also looked like an area where it was always trashy and no one bothered to clean up any of it. I was walking around a corner and found another server player. I walked up to him. As I was following him, I saw him break a chest placed under a tree and there was a lot of materials that popped out of the chest. There were redstone, lapis, and about 5 or 6 eyeballs. These eyeballs were usually used to scare people, so I decided to use them on one of the residents in town.

I walked up to a two story home next to the docks and slowly approached one male. I gave him one of the eyeballs and asked him if he could show this eyeball to the first person who knocks on the door. I also gave another eyeball to a kid walking in front of me. These eyeballs scared the hell out of me, though, they didn't scared anyone else.

After ding dong ditching some residents in town, there was a new place I wanted to explore. I wanted to go in to the building located in the back corner of this small little town. Upon entering, I found one of my cousins laying back in one of the apartments. She was pregnant at the time(no, it wasn't me). My mother, who was in the building at the time, agreed to have her stay here a few nights, to accustom the baby's needs. I also noticed a back window in this room. I don't remember anything after looking through it.

I walked up stairs to search the rest of the rooms. I entered the second floor, finding only detailed information about some of the people I met sometime in this dream. One of them was a woman. She had red hair, looked really old but used make up to hide it, and she looked a lot like one of the staff from the school I am currently attending. These thoughts that I had about her, I was placing her on a hated part in the mind. When I thought of her, I saw her working for the gaming industry, being successful in all that stuff. It was the only idea I had about her. It's probably jealousy but, my jealousy isn't towards her. It's someone whom I hold closer to the spear of love and hate.

I'm walking up my grandma and grandpas drive way. It's long enough to fit 11 or 12 cars on it probably more, and it goes uphill. My cousin appears behind me about 20 feet away, he has a semi-automatic rifle of sorts, and is chasing me up the drive way and shooting at me. He some how misses me each time even though the bullets are flying so close past me. I hear his feet steps getting closer behind me, so I decide I'd better turn around & fight him off. When I turn around he's right behind me and he aims is rifle right at me, but I quickly grab it and pull it from his grasp. I aim the rifle at him and shoot at his right arm, my bullets hit him through his right arm, but his arm just turn skinny and gimpy, no blood or pain or anything. Then he grabs a small hand gun from out of his pocket and swings his gimpy arm up, with each arm swing a bullet is shot towards me, so I decide to continue running to my grandmas house. He is still chasing me, I run into the open garage, then I sloppily open the door in the garage that leads into the house, my grandma is cooking something in the kitchen, I run up to her and tell her that my cousin is chasing me and trying to shoot me, then he to enters the house, only now he has morphed into when he was like 6 or 7 years old, he was a crybaby, so now he runs to his mom who is just standing in the hallway, I'm confused as to what she is doing here, because she has been divorced out of the family & has done horrible things to my family so why would she be aloud in this house?? I run up to her and tell her that he was trying to shoot me, then she asks him if it is true, then he bursts into tears trying to get sympathy or something, he tells her that I was the queen and that he wants to be the queen. I just walk towards the door that leads to the garage and tell my grandma that I'm gonna go to grandpas to get more ammo because I know my cousin will go after me again when people aren't around, she says alrighty and kisses my on my head and I make my way. When I get to my grandpas door he answers and hugs me, I tell I need ammo to fend someone off, he goes digging around and brings me this homemade looking ceramic jar, it has 6 or 7 bullet in it, and two weird looking rings, rings I feel are important to my grandpa, I wonder if he knows they are in the jar because surely he wants them, then I wonder if he is giving them to me for protection and luck, I don't know. I make my way down the driveway in a baby blue 57 chevy, then a black car pulls up slowly beside me, and it's my enemy but it isn't my cousin anymore he turned into somebody else, he tells me he gives up and will leave me be, then drives ahead of me and I drive behind much slower until the black car turns to the right in the road, I usually come and go from the right, but when I got to the end of the driveway I see the black car pulling away from a car that is just sitting in the side road dirt facing me just waiting, so Instead of going right as usual I take a left, as I do this my chevy turn into a mountain bike, and I know I can't get far on bike in a car chase so I look to my right and see this black road go into the brush that I'd never seen before, I turn onto this road and the car sees this and goes off roading on the land before this road so I decide to get off the bike and run away on foot, and I run on the road side through nature still going left. For now I seemed to have lost him, but now I suddenly am on a black Harley Davidson with my niece holding on to my waist, It's getting quite dark, the sun is almost completely down, while riding on the highway my niece points out this place to the left of the road that is full of lit up jumpers with kids playing. I pull in to let my niece play in the jumpers for a little while. I tell her we can't stay for to long because I feel we are still being pursued. I go into a jumper with her, It's amazing, usually jumpers are just square shaped and although these jumpers are pure white, they have stairs, holes, tunnels nooks and corners. While admiring the jumper I notice that all my pockets are empty, I panic and tell my nice that I've been picket pocketed, and then she just gives me a smug look and pulls my wallet and stuff from behind her back, and I snag my stuff obviously not amused. I tell her it's time to go so we walk to the motorcycle I see that my rifle was just left in a leather pocket on the side for anybody to just take it, and people where there checking it out, but I tell them to fuck off and me and my niece get on and drive off. I see that across the street is a gas station, I decide to pull into the gas station for no reason and I take my niece into the store and I tell her she can get something, she runs to the makeup section and she picks up a little container of dual color lip gloss and asks if she can get it so I tell it that is fine and we go the counter and I put the lip gloss on the counter and tell the woman I want to purchase this item, and she says we can only purchase the lip gloss if she puts some of it on everyone, I tell her I don't want wear any makeup and then she chases me and pins me down then smears a lot of the goop into my lips, now they're a horrid purple, and the woman puts some on my niece, and some on herself and some on all of her co-workers. I try desperately to get the lip gloss but it spreads all over the more I try, now it's covering my arms and it's all glittery. My niece isn't even moving like she doesn't mind. Then the dream scene changes suddenly and my niece is gone, and I don't know where I am, I walk and I see three girls hanging out and talking between what looks like a narrow alley entrance, the two building they are in between are blank and completely white like a cartoon, a very generic cartoon. Even the ground is completely white. I go down the alley and walk passed the three girls who are preppy and stuck up. I walk all the way to the end and it turns to the right and continues to a dead end with a door and two other doors across from each other on the side. I then realize this is a school of sorts, and those three girls are students. I go and lean against the wall between the end door and the door on the left, I accidentally lean on the side door and it makes a noise and an older man with a uni brow and dark hair and eyes opens it obviously annoyed and tells me not to lean on his door for it will distract his students during their testing. I slide a little closer to the end door and wait for the bell to ring so I can go into the class and learn whatever they are teaching. While I'm waiting a girl walks up and leans on the wall next to me. She has black hair and is shy, we give each other a shy smile and just stand there awkwardly and I'm nervous because I'm attracted to her. The bell rings but nobody comes out of the classroom, even though I heard them earlier through the doors. Me and the shy girl give each other a confused look, then just slowly and cautiously open the end door and peek in. We hear voices coming from behind us, so we look and its those three girls and they walk into the door that the guy who yelled at me was in and they slam the door shut. So me and the girl walk into the end class and shut the door behind us, in the classroom is no students desks, just a long white bench that goes along two walls, there is a older blonde woman at one corner, and boy with brown hair and a big nose sitting at the other end, me and the girl sit in the middle next to each other. The blonde woman seems to be the teacher, but she looks like a porn star or something. She is talking to the boy and when we listen into their conversation we hear him say that he likes to eat toilet paper that has been between a woman's vagina. The other three of us give each other a weirded out look, and then the teacher has toilet paper and wipes her self with it then tosses it for the boy to catch and it has a pink hue like she had her period and she says sorry but the boy says he eats toilet paper like that too, and begins to eat it in the most barbaric way, and it gets awkward in the room so me and the shy girl get up and leave the classroom and we never spoke to each other but we had the same energy wave so we didn't need to. I am disappointed that I didn't get to learn anything, It's like I craved new knowledge. Then the dream scene changes again and I'm on a clipper ship with a crew and none of them I know and they already know what to do, it is very dark, the sky is black I can't see a moon or any stars, the ocean its black and it scares me, the light I can see is from the dim lanterns and candles on my clipper ship, and the lights from the civilization on the nearing dock. We finally get there and my crew stays on the ship, when I get off I wonder why I even have a ship so I go to this man with White hair and ask him if he can help me sell my ship. He laughs at me and tells me nobody is going to buy my ship, confused I ask well why not? and he says that all the people are horrified of my ship, I again ask him well why? and then he says because your ship is forever followed by sharks, and I become afraid, and I think there is no way I'm getting back on that ship, so I abandon it and just wander the dock looking at all the lights and faces wondering what I'm to do.

Ok so this is my first dream journal entry, I was not lucid during this dream.
I Dreamed I was lying in a hospital bed next to my cousin Kimberly. She was sick and for some unknown reason her family hated her. I looked around the room and I saw a little girl crounched down in the corner of the room crying. I immediately walked to her and asked her why she was crying, but she didn't answer. Suddenly I was outside of the building I was previously in. The house looked like a log cabin and it looked like I was in a village when I looked around. Suddenly the house was set afire and I ran inside to help my cousin and the little girl. But when I got inside she wasn't there and neither was the little girl, but in her place on the bed was a very petite looking woman. Very sickly looking. I grabbed a peice of bed cloth from the floor and wrapped it around my arm so I could break a window. I ran over to the woman and picked her up (She was really tiny). I never had to break a window so I ran out the door I came in. When we were outside I carried her to a safe area. Then I started to search for I'm guessing my love and I called his name "Damon". He didn't answer so I ran over to a house I think was his but It too was burning down. So I cryed out to him once more and then I wake up.

I don't know who the little girl was in the dream but I do know who the Damon guy is. He is a character in a show I love to watch.

non-dream dream semi-lucid lucid false awakenin

I am all dolled up to sing and dance at the Oscars. But when I am dancing, I behave like a troll. My dance partners are so upset with me and during a break ask me why am I doing it. And I say it's hard to explain, but it's just stronger than me. They think I'm having a stroke or something, but the truth is I'm having a blast, just having fun.

I get a phone call and I understand someone died. I'm worried sick to know who died, but then I'm told it s a distant cousin called Tomé. He was found dead and all pointed out to suicide. I can't remember his face, but he was best friend with my dad who seems insulted by the fact I can't remember him, so he insults me back, with some remarks about my limited intelligence. That's when I remember which cousin is. I only met him once or twice but he was somethin. I say to my father that Tomé was the only intelligent person on this family and I loved him very dearly. All of a sudden memories start to flow and I cry compulsively.
I go outside and I am possibly in Germany. There are lushy green hills and a castle that looks like Nuremberg castle. The colours and details are amazing, but I'm consumed by the sadness of my cousin's death.
Then there's a bear on the lose and it is angry killing people.The bear enters the houses and follows people to the attics and basements. So we have to keep running cause no door seems to stop it. Then I meet some guy along the way and we end up together in a dead end at some terrace. While we're there we get to know better and we feel a strong attraction to each out, so we make out very passionately, despite the danger lurking.
Then we see the bear on the street again, it finds it's cub and seems to calm down. They return to the mountains.
I get lucid and remember my cousin again. I think there might still be a chance to stop his suicide, maybe it didn't yet happen in real life, so I send a telepathic message out there to him, asking not to do it, saying how much we love him. Then from the horizon, giant clouds of black spectres rise up, gather in the millions and start coming in my direction. They look like Dementors, they want to stop what I'm doing. And I conjure a kind of light shield (like a Patronum spell) to stop them. They are too strong, I feel the shield weakening, but then I trust absolutely in the power of love and they start fading away, I start to fade away, then I wake up.

I am dreaming some kind of movie about a girl (I'm her) and a widowed guy (who looks like Tom Hanks) in a small town. Some public event is going on and we hide in some storage house away from the crowd, where we get naked to make love. But then some kids go inside looking for something and expose us publicly. I'm embarrassed, mainly for being caught naked, but the guy is embarrassed because of what people might think for him being a widow, so he says to people that he regrets all of this, that he shouldn't have done it, that he insulted his wife's memory. But then once they're gone, he wants to make out again. I feel mad with his attitude, so I tell him to fuck off.

Then I get lucid and I decide this time I'll do something important. I've been wishing to meet my friend Isabel in the bardo. She died about 6 weeks ago. I try jumping through a portal twice but I'm kinda rusty so it fails twice. At the third time I end up in some kind of palace or opera house with a beautiful stairway. I call for her, don't see her anywhere, but I see some famous singer she likes, so I think maybe I am really at her personal "dream space" in the bardo, so I stick around, focused on meeting her.
I am attracted to a rose marble statue on the top floor and I have a strange sensual-mystical feeling about her, as if she is the core of this place. Although marble, she is also fleshy-organic. I direct my thoughts to this statue, my message to my friend and then the statue directs my eyes through a window and I see my friend on the street below. I run to meet her and she is strolling with some friend at some street market, buying vegetables. I say "hi" and then go straight to the point. "Isabel, I am here to tell you that we're in the bardo. You have to acknowledge that." She looks at me with a serious face and decides to ignore me. She continues passing by the fruit stands and I keep telling her "You died, Isabel! This isn't real! I'm here to help you recognize this!". She pushes me away, upset and I grab her hand and insist. Then she tells me "Okay, so if this is the bardo and you're awake, show me: transform this water fountain into something else." I look at the water fountain and have no idea what to do with it, but I concentrate in making it change into something. The eye of Sauron appears at its very centre under the water, and I don't know if that's me or something to scare me. In the mental fight to tranform the fountain, I make it melt and all the water flows overboard. The street becomes quickly inundated, the stands are dragged by the water torrent, as well as people and then I wake up.

10/18/12
7:00 AM
Wake Back To Bed

• Fell back to sleep with goal of dreaming not expecting to become lucid.
• Let images come to me and settled on flying down a winding shape that became a river with tree covered hills on both sides.
• As I fell asleep I imagined that I was a stream of fire flying down the winding river.

Now asleep and dreaming but not lucid. I was leading a long trail of fire but couldn't see the flames coolness in front of me. So in order to see the flames I would glance behind me and then continue flying over the snaking river. The last time I looked behind me the entire bend of the last turn in the river and all the way up one bank was completely engulfed in flame. I thought this looked totally awesome and took off around the next turn.

To my surprise I found that it was now night time and I was way up high overlooking the river and gripping tightly to the top of a steal structure with a couple pipes that were protruding beside me being the only objects higher up than I was. As I questioned what was going on and how to get down I realized my situation and took two looks at my hand. Yup. Funny looking indeed I was dreaming. I remained calm and decided that I would attempt flying again.

I lifted myself over the edge of the structure and flung myself out into the night. Disappointing as it may be, I fell through the dark and the wind rushed past me. Then I temporarily became less lucid. When I landed in a dark sort of carnival area, my brain tried telling me that I had used a zip line to get down but after seeing my cousin standing in front of me I quickly shrugged off the notion and did another reality check.

At that moment my cousin Michah began to transform. First he shrank to about 2 foot tall and became a bit distorted. Then he continued to shrink into a small cantaloupe sized fur-ball with big feet and a creepily human face. I thought that I'd keep it around and tried to put it on my shoulder. It didn't like that at all and squirmed out of my hands and jotted around my feet.

Just then another version of my cousin came out from between two poorly lit booths. He didn't look like my cousin but never the less I decided that I would try to get rid of the furball and take my dream elsewhere. I probably shouldn't have waisted the time and tried spinning or something. But regardless, I attempted to put the creature in the sudo-cousins hand but both were completely apathetic to me and each other. The creature became a little aggressive and nipped my hand like a playful pup and though I knew I was dreaming I skipped back from it and I woke up.