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I was in a school gym that looked like the gym from Centre Acres back in MA that I think was also a gang hideout and I quickly got spooked and left. I walked outside and met a talking badger who was REALLY cute and fluffy and we talked about something I can't remember for a while before I got a call. A screen appeared in front of me and began transcribing the call in real time - there were two police officers on the other end, asking me what I knew about the gang and its members. I didn't know anything, and eventually the officers began bickering amongst themselves in another language; I briefly heard my brother's voice translating it for me, but it was displaying in English on the screen. A video appeared and it looked like a desert military base or a plateau or something getting overrun with what looked like ants - just a huge sweeping black mass. I hung up.

The badger began to talk again, expressing fear about his living conditions and loneliness that nobody ever came around to talk to him. I petted his fur and leaned down and gave him a hug and a chaste kiss on the forehead, and awoke shortly after. I recall him saying something very creepy, though he sounded like he was about to cry - "You're about to journey down a path worse than hell. This place is broken."

[16.09.2020]

Doing something that scares me
I do something that scares me, maybe with a tube shaped object. But then I do it again for some reason, maybe it achieves something, maybe even adrenaline.



[17.09.2020]

Some dream I forgot
There's simply something blurry, maybe with tones of yellow?

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School actively prevents me from documenting my dreams when I wake up since I can only do that on a laptop. Annoying.

Awake|Dreaming|Lucid

I'm by the courtyard and there is a big metal box and two people by it. One of them has the spirit of Alex but I never saw his face. There are two mini tanks that are about to fight. One of them is like a normal tank and the other one is just the wheels of a tank. They drive past each other instead and start to target each others' base. The tank I watch has a big canon that is pointed backwards and a small canon that it's using to shoot the base down. Alex makes a joke about communism and that he is Putin. The objective has changed and now the goal is to shoot the bullets until they deform and get the shape of a cube. There is a fire heating the bullets up so they will change shape more easily. One of the bullets hits the big trash can outside my door and it catches fire. The tire is melting down and I try to blow it out. It works after a while. Someone gets burned on a bullet and I am responsible for it, but I don't know why. I move up the little stair in the courtyard and they are having a fire there. The fire is made out of coal and paper that never burns up. Simon is cutting out big pieces of paper with a ruler but he is having a hard time so I help him. I put the pieces from the paper on the fire and they don't burn up.

I'm in a field and being hunted by a dinosaur. I go to a friendly dinosaur and a big monkey that is hiding me behind a big rock. The monkey has the spirit of Daniel from Kristianstad. I go to the other side of the rock because the evil dinosaur is changing position. I get eaten pretty many times in the dream and I don't remember how I transitioned back each time I got eaten.

Notes: One of my worst nightmares when I was smaller was about being eaten by dinosaurs. I talked with Daniel yesterday.

I'm in a hotel with Casper, Diego and Håkanssons. There is a show on TV that everyone is wathing but I'm not interested and goes to sleep on a big pillow instead.

My dad saw into the future and got a hint how he was to become successful and now he just sits by a chair in the courtyard with two people on each side of him. They talk and exchange idéas on how they will be successful.

Notes: My dad is studying to be more successful.

I'm outside the gate and know it's a dream. I fly away but notice that the dream is not stable. I land and touch my face. As I touch my face the whole world turns a little bit browner and my vision gets weird. There are patterns of waves that interupts my sight. I don't feel my face at first but more of my senses is activated. The dream is stable and I start to fly again. I fly to Hemköp and there are all different kinds of people I fly over. The color has changed to gray and there are only men walking.

Notes: Many of my dreams was near my house today.

Dreamt of desperately trying to clean up the house before my mother came home. I believe I was dimly distraught and panicking as her room alone was a complete mess, clothes covering the whole floor and the mattress physically stripped and flipped over with all the sheets and stuff half-on. I was also trying to submit a character for a roleplaying Discord while cleaning, and recall being frustrated. The dream ended when I found a prayer card with an image of a dog with a heart between its hindlegs where its genitalia would be on it.
I vaguely remember an OC of mine, Carne, being involved - I think he sent me a text or called? I hope not because he's a total sleazebag

Awake|Dreaming|Lucid

I'm talking with Fadi and Johannes. There is an amusement park and a boat were two people can go in a water current. There is a girl that reminds me of Kristina. I really want to ride the boat with her but someone else does it instead. I am separated from my group. There are a lot of disabled persons in a room and some people are being grouped up with the disabled persons to help them through the amusement park. I am paired up with Nora from Rosenfeldt.

Notes: I talked with Johannes and Fadi yesterday.

There are people shooting at each other in an apartment building. I am hiding in a room next to a door. I think how bad I am at shooting games and that I probably will die. There is a man that enters the door and I raise my gun... I thought it was a gun but actually it's just a phone. I still point it at his head and take all these photos at him. He is shocked and back away each time I take a photo at him. My phone is out of pictures and I have to find another way to finish him of. We moved to a spiral staircase as I fired pictures at him. I grab him and throw him over the stair rail so he falls down. I am suddenly on a big pedestal and people are using fake guns to fire at each other. They do firing sounds with their mouths. There is a man that is occasionally showing himself from his cover about 20 meters from me and is shooting at me. There is also a man that is doing the same but from a position right beneath the pedestal. After a time I pretend that I am being shot at and lie down. When I lie down there is a man that screams that he exploited the new patch in order to defeat me.

Notes: Apartment buildings are often in my dreams. I remember another dream where it was almost the same as this one. I fake die in some of my dreams. I read about a new patch in a game and told my brother that his most hated enemy got debuffed in the new patch.

I'm in a typical classroom in the left bottom corner of the room. Everyone is watching their grades of different tests and I realize there is a test I have failed several times. It is some kind of civics test. Alexandra thinks it's weird how I can fail a test when all my other grades are good. I tell her something about how civics is not for me.

Notes: I had a homework in history and thought I wasn't that good at it. That is why I dreamt about this.

Albin shows me a picture of when we were children and I have long hair. He makes a joke about the long hair I had.

Notes: I watched the picture IRL he was showing me in the dream today.

I'm with my old school bully Kevin and we are fighting. I have a firm grip around him and we are both on the ground. When I think about it I don't think the position we were in works IRL. I am winning.

Notes: One of the only fights in my life was with Alexander, Kevin's bully friend.

I'm flying with a hoodie. There is a car that is following me. When I think about what I want to do in the dream it becomes instable.

Notes: I must learn to start stabilizing my dreams.

bed-time 12:15

wakings: ~02:00, ~04:00 [long BTS despite still being groggy, g/f very noisy, some 4-7-8 breathing and breath focus, quick tense/release, "don't think", exhale all tension on exhale] 07:30
out of bed: 08:00

early wakings:
+ (f, vague) chess position thoughts

final waking:

+ baby blue, tank-like garbage truck lunges out of the parking lot into the street, I hop out of the way, it has a "cow catcher" front, totally closed, no windows

+ pulling off the highway (to exit?) to the shoulder, the shoulder quickly becomes loose wet sand with ditches, we'll get stuck if we go farther, I call to the driver to stop

+ naked (and excited [clearly visible]) male wrestlers trying to hide the fact from the (coach? ref?) that one of them has climaxed during the bout. One of the wrestlers is smaller and weaker than the other and has thin arms

+(f) walking along some ledge in a cave

+ time to board an airplane, the counter agents are calling out the boarding order, I'm not in the first class but I'm towards the front of the line, so I'm wondering if it's my turn yet, we go forwards towards the plane, and [DJ-time recall:] through a large concessions area there there are a lot of gooey and tasty looking pastries, and I'm thinking that people will buy these and take them on the plane. Other tourists are talking about / thinking of buying fur (mink?) stoles (?)

+ [fairly vivid] clearing snow from the streets (in Seattle?). There's a crew with a lawn-mower sized snow/ice breaker/plow, and they're moving it along a long, straight (waterfront) area with cars parked on the right. An older man is running the snow breaker, he puts it over a chunk of snow and it has grinders inside that chew up the ice/snow (and spit it out?)

+ getting our tickets punched by the conductor, the location of the punch on a large red and white card indicates somehow the location of the seat? He says "oh so you're all together?" I'm standing and looking at the large laminated red/white seat map and wondering about the meaning of the punch location. One of the punches is made on the border


+ discussion with a young woman about the weather properties of "some burrough of New York?" and I keep making incorrect statements like "it is located along a large body of water, that's why the weather is moderate" that she contradicts and corrects; ) overhead, [DO] scene of a map of street arterials between regions, then the scene shows a foot-path moving into a building (fast food restaurant?) where people walk to stand in line to buy tickets, brief impression of a ticket buying transaction at the counter

Created Tuesday 15 September 2020

Finally, another LD loop. I even got a TOTM for the effort.

Spoiler for Quite long:

Scrap Group 1
Something about being in an urban area.

FA in bed. My bro was watching an anime in the living room. This started with a guy in a green trenchcoat freefalling from the sky. Cut to a battle scene. Wizards and their (entirely female) half-dragon allies were fighting a horde of demons. Oddly, the former side used conventional battlefield tactics, such as using field fortifications to fire from behind cover. The demons were too strong for the wizards, while the dragon girls could barely hold their own against the fiends. One of the dragons looked more like a naga. I suspected this was that Dragon Maid anime (not something I know much about).

Dream 1 - Senseless Head

Scene 1 - No-Touch Tinnitus Transition
The visuals were quite hazy. WILD transition in bed, so noted by a ringing noise I've heard in some of my earliest LDs, a noise I imagine is what tinnitus sounds like. It took a minute to fully stabilize myself into the dream.

I stepped out into the lounge. The couch was dark brown instead of white. Instead of the dining table and chairs was a black leather stool, and some random clutter. I could still hear all the others going about their morning routine in RL, if much more echoed than it should sound. Regardless, there wasn't anyone around.

Things got unstable. I reached to grasp the couch so I could remain in the dream. To my surprise, I couldn't feel it. In fact, besides my own movements, I couldn't feel anything. That's a first. Out of curiosity, I tried phasing through the couch. Against expectation, I bumped off it, despite still not feeling the couch itself. It was as if I was acting out some scene in VR.

I experimented as such for about a minute before the dream collapsed. Several brief re-entries before transitioning to below.

Scene 2 - Guide's Head, Monster's Bite
The visuals were still a bit blurred. LD re-entry in bed. When back at the lounge, I run around in circles for a few minutes to look for my guide, E. Didn't seem I had any luck. I'd canceled my search, when I noticed a shocking sight: E's disembodied head on the floor. Tentatively, I lifted it closer to me. The head sprang to life in an instant. Her eyes rotated unconsciously, before fixing themselves to me. E smiled, then somehow thrust herself forward to give me a kiss. Figured she was just creeping me out for fun once again. It was actually kind funny, but still a bit too disturbing for my taste. So, I chucked her head dismissively behind me. E hovered by my shoulder momentarily, before zooming out of view.

I looked around in the living room. Just then, an invisible assailant tackled me, and started gnawing on my arm. I suspected it was some kind of zombie. The surprise warped me back to bed, and cause me to lose awareness. The unseen creature was still accosting me. I imagined throwing holy water at it. But, this only looped the scene back. Soon, the monster was tearing out my right hand. Panic had overtaken me. My only option, I thought, was to sacrifice my limb. With what little will remained, I had my severed hand, now dangling off of my torn skin, turn into acid. In an instant, both my extremity, and the unseen foe, melted into vapor.

I woke up to terrible itchiness on my arm. Once I recomposed myself, I made another WILD attempt. It took about five minutes to get the LD going.

Dream 2 - Cake and Fish

Scene 1 - Orange Caramel Cake
The visuals were a bit blurred. WILD transition in bed. I go straight to the kitchen. There were a few housemates looming around, including my bro. They noted there was a cake in the fridge. Yet, for various reasons, they didn't want to taste any of it. So, they goaded me into taking as much as I can. I thought they'd never ask!

And there it was. Resting in the far end at the top shelf of the fridge was a two-layered homemade yellow cake, complete with orange caramel frosting. Seems about 3/5ths of it was already gone. I glanced around, waiting until no one was looking before I dug in with my bare hands (guess I didn't want to gross the others out, despite knowing full well this wasn't real, but oh well). The dessert tasted pretty much as how it looked, including the tang of orange zest, though a bit more subdued. Also, the cake itself was a bit more spongy than I'd prefer. Still, not bad.

The dream collapsed shortly after. Re-entry a minute later.

Scene 2 - September TOTM Basic Task i
The visuals started blurred, but clarified over time. Another LD re-entry in bed. I immediately darted out the room and towards the back door. Forgoing the risk of collapsing the dream by phasing through, I actually took my time to open the door. I rushed out to a rather cluttered backyard. A pleasant early dawn sky awaited me. But soon, I notice black stains of a void looming in from above. A sign the dream could end. Acting quick, I tried blasting off into the sky. Once again, as has happened recently, an invisible, rubbery barrier prevented me from ascending more than a few meters. But I pressed on.

A moment later, I was suddenly catapulted up into a now brighter blue sky. Ah, how I missed flying this way. However, I worried I might've gone into a blue void. Once again, the dream almost collapsed. I glanced around, when I noticed a little island far below, seemingly a desert island, if not for the small buildings dotting the center. Heedlessly, I dove down towards the shore, stabilizing the dream in the process. As I did, the overworld theme from the SNES version of Super Mario Bros 3 sounded in the background. This might've explained why my drop looked cheaply rendered in Mode-7 (ie appearing like a cardboard cutout) for a few seconds, but that clarified quickly.

Anyway, this presented the perfect opportunity to try one of the TOTMs. By this point, I was only a few hundred feet from landing on the sands. So, I tried tilting towards the water. Rather than move conventionally, I unintentionally stopped falling, then translated in 10 meter increments towards the water. I hummed the bonus theme from Aero the Acrobat as I did this. Speaking of water, a reef ranged through shallow parts. Amazingly, rays were looming over the reef.

I dropped myself with even greater anticipation. Before long, I splashed into the deeper end of the sea. My vision blacked out for a moment. When I came to, the first thing I saw was a bunch of rays scurrying away from me. I could clearly note two rows of white dots lining the backs of their otherwise grey skin. Would've enjoyed swimming alongside with them for more than 10 seconds, if my instinctive need for air didn't drive me to surface.

I resolved myself to dive in again. But, for reasons unknown, I could only keep the front half of my body submerged. Furthermore, the water suddenly got too murky to see anything. The dream faded. I woke up with a gasp.


Media References:

Super Mario All-Stars - Super Mario Bros 3 - Overworld

Aero the Acrobat - Bonus Stage

The scene was generally taking place at jmu or atlee, there was a theater play about to go on in the near future. My vision was flying through the jungle looking at a hill. It shifted and I was now walking inside the building, a guy from my high school was talking to another girl, there was a parade of 1 by 1 people from the theater walking around the building and an audience on the sides. I kept thinking liz would be a major part in the play and would be in the parade, I was expecting her. At some point she was there but I was acting like I was paying attention to something else.

The dream was also generally at jmu, going to food locations, going to class, going back to the complex or cramped dorm system.

I remember a bright blue face, gigantic and taking up my whole field of vision. It looked like it was made of sapphire and it glittered intensely. It looked perfectly androgynous and didn't speak or do anything besides look at me with its huge beryl eyes.

I just remember a singular text-box GUI like from a video game. It was bright red and black and read "BLOATED" right in my face.

Two separate snippets of memory.
In one, I was playing some kind of VR, heavily-modded version of Minecraft. I was wielding a diamond sword and a torch, and I recall a feeling of danger, as though I was playing on Hardcore or something.
In another, I just remember a group of teachers in a gym yelling at me, most memorably a huge, muscular guy in red shorts and a sheer white tee-shirt.

15th September 2020

Fragment:

Think I have no body, I'm following or the view is following a man going around a natural park or lake. He has an AA20 shotgun and he keeps firing it randomly, but mostly at the ground. I feel concerned about stray shots hitting someone. It seems there's nobody else around though.

By the end there's a gravelled car parking area. At some point after that, it's revealed the man was supposedly firing blanks (but they weren't).

Dream:

Part of a long dream. Something about a mall, but it's also a school? It's really busy and I am trying to get somewhere specific. I remember talking to someone but I go up several staircases and walk around an upper level, trying to avoid busy routes, but still encountering a lot of other pupils or something.

I get to an internal bus station of some sort? A transit hub, at any rate.

(recall gap)

Then I'm following a person around, in an office-like place. We're in a stairwell, we go down several levels, spirally, but the tiers and bends are all perfectly square and large, the steps themselves aren't too deep. I remember seeing doors every so often. There are engraved plaques, made of blue granite, engraved with counter-relief lettering that's got a golden finish.

We reach floor "-2", I notice this written on a plaque. I look out a big latticed window and see another building across the way, not far (a few feet), lit by sunlight. I think about how -2 must be code, or only locally relevant, since I knew and could see we were several stories up. The place has tall ceilings, I realise this more because of the large window. The stairs had a running carpet all the way along and it continued on into the hallways. The walls were covered in a medium-dark stained wooden panelling.

We go into a room here at this level. Very vague recall of the room. There's a desk? A book? The book is ancient. There is a magical aura to it, but this is almost unclear in the dream, I realise this only on waking up. The ancient book has tattered and yellowed pages with coloured-coded and symbol-coded separators. The books' nature means they are constantly shifting in appearance (almost like a "quantic" book of some sort?). I remember opening it and reading some part of it but no recall of how it looked, other than the fact that things shifted around.

Fragment:

False awakening in our bed. I find snot on my shoulder? Apparently it's H's. My recall of the room is very vague, but the darkness was warmer in tone than it should have been and there seemed to be an absence of any light sources.

Fragment:

Related, or in sequence to, the office dream. Big mansion place, outdoors. Large open gardens area, I remember some hedges but not much else. The mansion had an oblong rectangular shape; ovoid at the lateral ends?

First I'm visiting the mansion but then later in the dream I take ownership of it or something. Everything goes wonky after I own it, and I have to go around on foot in some mountain crag areas to find power sources and set traps.

Then at some point I move the entire mansion so that it sits level. I feel myself do this with my hands physically and remember seeing it from above, but no other senses suggested that I was of gigantic scale.

It's daytime out here and it's half bright but not, it's cloudy and overcast but there are godrays in the distance. There's a sort of moody feel, like a literal storm is approaching. The light and atmospherics look grey but golden and warm, in part because of the distant godrays. I see them near some mountains in the distance, past a vast body of water. The mansion was atop a cliffy area overlooking this body of water. A massive lake or small sea.

I remember several small fragments of being in the house. Interactions with dream characters but during my initial notes I don't really care to recall most of them. Some early ones about being interviewed and recruited as a doctor. There was someone else attending the same things as me, in alternate pace, it was an older snobby woman, also applying.

Scraps:

(in waking life) Went back to bed after answering the door. I had many dream scraps but almost all of them faded. I tried getting back to sleep and tried to focus on my intent to go back to the earlier dream, especially the bit about being hired as a doctor, as I thought this may help with becoming lucid. But my intent faded and I transitioned in and out of lesser states of awareness.

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Notes:

- There's a great deal of internal and deeper themes here for me, especially around school, malls and office-type spaces. Some of these dreams felt like they were focused on consolidating my knowledge of certain features within buildings. In recent months I have felt that in drawings, my attention to detail in architecture is not well internalised and after recall these dreams I felt my associations of different features in buildings were expanded.
- Despite the crowds in the mall/school hybrid area, there was no covid pretext to any of my concerns about avoiding people. It was a mostly back-to-basics thing about not wanting to be in crowds.

- The view of the mountains and vast water was very picturesque; although I'm not sure of it being related in this case, on waking it did remind me of a picture we have on a wall of the bedroom, depicting an Italian lake.

- The ancient book was one of the most interesting features of these dreams. It's something I feel compelled to recreate in some artistic form now.
- Again its appearance may have been related to the fact that I have not internalised the details of books very well, which shows whenever I try to draw one from memory.

#540 - DILD - 1:20AM

I was in some new area of work. I was off the clock apparently and for some reason I was sending a snapchat of the place. When I played back the snap I realized it wasn't quite the same snap I took. It kept changing each time. I try swiping back but these creepy dudes are in it looking at me crazy. I comment about that to my wife who is now with me. Then a creepy woman is with them doing the same thing. I say who is she?!? Then an attractive woman taking me by the hand at the beach. Ok wait a minute this is silly. I am dreaming right now! I shout oh my god I am dreaming right now! I'm way too excited and I'm jumping up and down. My son is there laughing about the whole thing. I see my wife lounging on a couch looking at her phone. I say babe I am dreaming! ok here's what happened. I was looking at my snapchat and it kept changing. Do you know why? Because I am dreaming right fucking now! She just only smiles. I remember she's just a dumb DC so I say ok bye. She then says bye like she is pissed off. I don't want to leave my DC wife like that so I hug her and say I love you so much. That's when I wake up.

Awake|Dreaming|Lucid

I just want to start with this. I had many dreams and all were long but I don't remember that much.

I'm at home and become semi lucid. I fly out the window and see two big airplanes about to crash into one another. They are about 20 meters long, one is red and the other one is blue. My pants are constantly being loose and it's hard to keep them on. I struggle with my pants for some moments but decide that it doesn't matter if I don't have any pants, it's a dream. I throw them away and isn't bothered by it for the rest of the dream. I use my telekinesis to make the airplanes change the course. I think it would be fun to see a big explosion so I fly with the big airplanes to the city and I'm looking for big buildings. The two airplanes I controlled have now turned into two big houses instead. I think it will still be a big explosion. I see four big houses and decide that I will target the two biggest of them. There is a church and another house. I lift the two houses I control up high and smash them into the two buildings on the ground. The church is not scratched at all and there is no explosion. The other house I crashed broke but there was not an explosion. I think to myself that the church was holy and therefore I could not destroy it. I fly to the ground and I want to pet a dog. I do the pet motion I would do if a dog were there. From thin air a dog is slowly coming alive. After a while I have a dog with me. I pet it for the rest of the dream.

Notes: I usually don't have this much control over big objects or being able to teleporting dogs to me. Cool dream.

I'm by church with Gustav and Klaus. I am semi lucid. I want to prove to Gustav that it's a dream so I tell him that I will take a picture of the moon on the moon. I fly to the sky, first pretty slowly but faster and faster I go. Suddenly I come to the sky and it appears the whole sky is just a hologram. The moon included. I take a picture of it and return down. When I show Gustav the picture it's not a picture of what I took. It's an orange picture of wheat or something like it. I couldn't prove it was a dream.

Notes: I wonder if the first dream with the church triggered this dream to be at our church. I have only tried to prove it's a dream to Gustav in my dreams. It has happened two or three times now.

I'm in a car with dad and he's driving. There are three turns and he fails at all of them. Accidents that could have gotten us killed. I am angry with dad because of this and he says I'm not wrong that we could have died. We arrive at some kind of tivoli/supermarket. Kalle J and Håkanssons are also there. I get some money by dad and I enter the glass house. The house has machines in it where you are supposed to put your money. I put two coins in one of the machines but don't bother to see if I got anything. I look to the left and see Kalle. I don't want to interact but he sees me and says hello. Håkanssons also come in and we greet.

Notes: I have had many dreams were people drive bad and almost crashes the car recently.

Monday, 9/14/20, Core 2

I resembled my waking life self, although I was in a strange place. I seemed to be underground. The dirt floor was damp with pools of water and there were various discarded items strewn about. I removed a bird from a wicker cage. I think it was a white cockatoo. I was thinking of it as my pet, despite never having had or even held a bird. I wandered around and the bird sometimes rode on my shoulder, sometimes on my hand, sometimes flew short distances away. At one point the bird landed on my hand and I tried to pet it on the chest with one finger. It decided it didn't want me to and started gently biting my finger with its beak. At first I thought it was cute and was playing, but then it began to bite my finger harder. I realized I knew nothing about handling birds. I stopped attempting to pet or play with it but now it latched on hard to my finger and it was pretty painful. I regretted not bringing the cage.

After some more traveling, we ended up at a pool party, perhaps in someone's backyard. Other people had brought their pets as well, and I had my camera to take pictures. DV member MoonageDaydream made a cameo! She was recording video of a small white terrier dog, then she switched to taking video of all the animals. She shrugged semi apologetically, and told me something like, "I have plenty of footage and I want to get the other pets too. I only was focusing on the one dog because my mom was worried there wouldn't be enough footage of him."

Spoiler for Additional Notes:

Upon reading back this dream, I finally put two and two together and realized that the wicker cage, the bird, and the underground place with water and debris meant I'd been in the old text adventure game, Colassal Cave!!! So it turns out "get bird" is not so simple in practice, okay? Definitely use the cage. Maybe I'll XYZZY on back there sometime